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The Mad Hattress as Loose Lucy & Brayne as the Student
Imagine yourself enclosed in the most comfortable room you could ever be in. Add colours, scents, candles, pieces, pictures, and the most incredible sounds you’ve ever heard. Imagine sitting on the most comfortable mat you have ever laid on, placed upon the floor of this room. Imagine down, fluff, magical stuff all around you. Imagine yourself relaxed while you are here. Imagine you are with someone you didn’t know, but knew you could trust. Imagine a warm and beautiful day with the most outstanding skyscape you have ever seen just outside this room. Imagine yourself sitting with this person that already knew who you were and not knowing who it was, but being with them in this room you have never found yourself in before, but more comfortable than any room you have ever been in. That’s the room they are in… Loose Lucy keeps a smile on her face. You can always see her teeth, but she never looks anxious. Her eyes gleam with light but they are never wide. She is covered in every colour of the rainbow, but she manages to be quite. It’s almost like she sparkles. Lucy and the Student sit facing a wall atop the mat. The Student is okay, but slightly anxious. Lucy does not worry. With a sigh, she begins. Lucy: Twelve hours from meow, you feel exactly like you do meow. Student: Are you a state trooper? Lucy: I am your friend. Are they your friends? There is a silence. Lucy: [laughs] Twelve hours from meow, you will feel ever better than you do right meow. I know you probably feel sort of nervous, but you shouldn’t. I’m here so that you don’t have to be nervous. I know you have never done this before, so I’m here to keep you calm enough to enjoy it. Okay? You trust me? Because if I’m gonna help you, you gotta trust me. I’m gonna tell you the things you deserve to know about yourself and the world around you, but you gotta listen. If you have any questions, you can ask them. But please, don’t argue with me. If you argue with me, I’m gonna argue back, and you won’t like it. There’s no reason to be afraid—as long as you cooperate. Ya dig? Student: I’m here.... Why wouldn’t I? Lucy: [laughs] Good. You’d be surprised. Some people don’t. But if you will, it’s All Good. [Lucy pauses to turn to the Student and continues in a typical stoner voice] Heeeeeeeeeeey, man… [nudges Student] Student continues to stare blankly at the wall. Lucy: [continues in stoner voice]: Heeeeeeeeey, man… Haven’t you heard? Life. Is. ALL. GOOD! Student breaks from the wall, looks to the mat, and cracks a smile that slowly turns into laughter. The Student has become as comfortable as when we started. Lucy: I know you probably feel pretty weird right now. Honestly, we all feel really weird right now. It’s just that Time in our lives or that Time in existence where we start to get uncomfortable. We seek to
escape the cruelties and casualties we face every day because it gets hard to look at it after a while. It’s not uncommon to need someone to force you to see Beauty when we are forced to see pure Terror on a daily basis. It’s very easy to prefer our world of escape as the world we live in, which is part of the reason people disagree with us trying to escape. They don’t like the world in which we dream of living. Maybe someday, that world can exist… But for meow, we’re gonna have to escape to the one we’ve created. But you have to promise me—and I don’t think it will be hard for you to keep this promise because most people don’t have a hard time keeping this promise—but you have to promise me you won’t live there. Promise me you only go when you have a reason, and when you are okay enough with this world when you do. Remember what you learn there, and bring that here; but please, remember, just bring it to this world. You know? Don’t go there and think it’s gone forever, or until you go back. Please realize you can be the same way here. Promise me you will not abuse this privilege. Student: [looks Lucy in the eyes] I promise. Lucy: [holds out her pinky] Promise? Student: [takes pinky with pinky] Promise. Lucy: Thank you. It’s really unfortunate that people take advantage of this place. They don’t listen to me and they think they can do whatever the fuck they want here. All the same rules apply to you when you are there. You can still die, so you should not feel invincible. You should, if anything, realize how very disposable you are and, if anything, realize how very lucky you are to have what you have here while being there. The problem is that it’s so much fun to see what it is like to control Everything, but you can’t control Everything unless everyone does it with you. Some people think they are in control while they are there, but I am in control. You get to be in control when you are here without me... How do you feel? Student: [looking down at rotating hands] I feel okay… I mean, strange, but it’s okay. I’m excited. I’m really excited… [looks at Lucy] I trust you. And I promise to keep our pinkies forever. Lucy: [admires Student with the same glowing smile it started with] Good. All Good. Now, before we go, I want to explain something to you… I think this isn’t shared with enough people, so I hope someday you will share it with someone that decides they want to come along. Twelve hours from meow, you’re going to feel the same way you do meow, or even better. Some people feel sad, but I’m going to make sure you don’t. I know you are going to have fun. I know you will have so much fun. You will see and here and feel things you have never seen in your wildest dreams. This world is so enchanting. But while you have fun, you have to remember what it is. This day—these twelve hours—it’s going to be a whole lifetime. It’s not going to last a lifetime, even though you might feel like it will. How do you feel? Student: [sighs and returns eyes to hands] I don’t if it’s you or your voice or all those other sounds but I feel great. I feel like I’m floating. [Looks back in Lucy’s eye] I wanna go. Lucy: [laughs] I’m very happy to hear that, I am… And this is the last thing I’m going to tell you. Okay? Then we can go. The Student nods confidently.
Lucy: What you must remember is that this is a lifetime. You will soon forget all the things you know about this world, and you are going to struggle to interpret it. Some people are frightened or confused by this feeling. What you must remember is that this is just a lifetime, and this is just— Student: [from a trance] I’m a baby… Lucy: [stares in amazement] Yes… You are just a baby… As time passes, you will get older. You will think hours have passed when it is really only minutes (much like a child). You will be fascinated by Everything around you, and you will want to explore every inch. You will feel the insatiable need for knowledge as you did when you were in school. As the minutes that feel like hours turn into hours, they might actually start to feel like minutes… You will feel like your time is running out. You are— Student: [still from the trance] Getting older… Lucy: [speech softens] Yes… You will be getting older. And all the things you didn’t know at the beginning of the day, you will feel you understand better. Even though these things you will learn are things you knew yesterday, you will begin to feel like you know them better than you did then. This is only going to be a few hours into your day. Sometimes, you might begin to feel sad the day is coming to an end when you are halfway through it. You almost regret not doing more when you knew less, but you are happy with what you learned. And you still have the next half of the day. You will enjoy a few more hours that feel more like hours that the previous hours… But these hours can teach you more than you could learn in a week if you take the time to think. You know, I’m an extrovert but there’s still a little introvert in me. [Gently nudging student] Just like there’s a little extrovert in you. The Student keeps eyes down and laughs. Lucy: What you have to remember is that every lifetime you will ever know is going to have the same result. The result of Life is always Death. No, you will not die. But the day will end… You just have to hope you got Everything. It sounds like a lot, but when you do it the right way, it comes very easy. People get really distracted by things and they miss Everything… Though it is really hard to miss Everything. Don’t be afraid. Don’t be sad. Because you know it’s coming. As long as you enjoy the day, it’s not hard to watch the sun set. The Student looks back up to the wall with a smile. Lucy perks up. Lucy: So… With that being said… Are you ready to go outside? Student: [Looks Lucy into the soul] I’m ready. Imagine you are standing in a field of the greenest, softest grass your bare feet have ever felt. Imagine the sun is not scorching on you, but it is keeping you warm. Imagine the clouds making a gorgeous accent to a great, open blue sky. Imagine the most perfect feeling of Nature feeling perfect. Lucy: So… How do you feel? Student: [stares at the sky] Fucking wonderful. Lucy: What’s happening?
There is a pause. Lucy becomes more anxious than the Student. The Student does not break contact with the sky. The Student inhales deeply, and exhales:
“The clouds taste… Metallic...”
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