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what's in this fucking book
'some days are good and then some days' pg. 4-22 'come home to me' pg. 5 'drunk note number one' pg. 7 'here is my heart, you can have it there's nothing left of me' pg. 9 'scenes i imagine in a movie…' pg. 11-12 'drunk note number two ' pg. 1419 'imaginary conversations with myself' pg. 21
'everyone's so lonely, i dig it.' -sebadoh, 'not too amused'
some days are good and then some days you spell it simon and garfunkle
come home to me and kiss me and then let's fall asleep watching unsolved mysteries together and getting scared in the dark then make me breakfast in the morning in the cold fog and we'll walk through broadway market talking about the england team in the 1980s cleansweep me through fog like the england team in the 1980s and i will play such beautiful football for you like brazil, play for me i will take you to hackney downs and we will talk about your brother in the fog, you will be cold because you are so thin and always cold we will go to the anarchist vegan café near hackney downs and we will not say much but i will love you more this day than any other day i have known you many days and yet this day i love the most of all the days i have known you; you are eating pumpkin ravioli and i eat you i will eat you all the rest of the days that i know you, i will drink you i will lick you all the rest of our lives together because you are
some days are good
and then some days you stare unblinkingly at benedict cumberbatch for ten minutes straight
drunk note number one The faces hugging What the fuck are these faces Hugging So subjective saying please lets have drinks sometimes Meaningless You are not meaningless though I am drunk and this is happening "I love your blouse" fuck you love me me me me me me me me me me I want you to look up at me and take me out back and give me a right seeing to Think sex is extremely funny and sad simultaneously "what are you writing" Tempted to reply "about how I want you to fuck me" but decide against it This is why I shouldn't go out drinking Pretty sure I'm going to end up calling people from the bottom of a closet "come join the real world Paige" Too drunk for that There are candles in this bar We live in London why the fuck Are there candles In a bar In east london "whats wrong Paige" Someone come over and hug me or something Jesus Hug me please Feel my heart against your ribs Fun fact about life: it's alive
some days are good and then some days you eat Subway in Peckham at 9am
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some days are good and then some days you listen to the baha men
Scenes I imagine could happen in a movie while ‘can’t take my eyes off of you’ by frankie valli and the four seasons plays in the background:
1) Intense sexual degradation/dominance sequence in which a man in a very nice suit takes off his belt and gags a woman, then very forcefully fucks her from behind to much enjoyment i) Ends with cum on face 2) Lover walking away from physical fight on hill, rips in stocking petals of blood on knees, shakily lighting up a cigarette and walking clumsily on heels in the rain 3) Extreme close-up of cigarette smoke blown out of a mouth, zoom out to a face inside an apartment, in the dark, in their underwear, luxuriating i) 70s lighting and shag carpets included 4) Out of focus argument between two people in an apartment, swimming through tousles of hair and large hand gesticulations, pivoting between still out of focus over-the-shoulder shots and offkilter angles before resting on the speculative house cat at the corner of the room
5) Very skittering, intense fucking in a broom closet; i) chain link fence; ii) bed of a truck; iii) alleyway near tube station (1) montage-style 6) Backlit couple dancing on hardwood floors, a) she; without shoes, bestockinged, b) he; holding her hand up to his. c) Faces smashed together, they dance completely in silhouette, but as the camera dollies up to their faces we see that neither feels anything but the numbness of their nothing dance moves, slumped faces together hoping to transmit emotions through osmosis. (1) The camera stays on a neutral gaze, downwards, before spiralling to the darkened floor and a cut to black.
some days are good and then some days you pick up a stranger's French Bulldog without asking
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some days are good and then some days you listen to 'careless whisper' six times in a row
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some days are good because after listening to 'careless whisper' six times in a row, the sax man at Brixton station plays the intro as you're leaving.