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Nothing can be more depleting than worrying about finances. Transform your relationship with money to revive flagging spirits—and bank accounts.

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BY ELIZABETH MARGLIN

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an anything make you feel more out of control than watching your

nest egg get snatched up in the ravenous jaws of a recession? Amid the gloom, many people feel pressed to reexamine their attitude toward money, along with their financial priorities. Even the fashionistas among us are being forced

to don the hair shirt of frugality as layoffs become rampant, bankruptcy commonplace, and fat 401(k)s a quaint memory. But as dire as all this may feel, taking a closer look at how you spend isn’t necessarily a bad thing. “The gift of the recession may be that we can learn to live a richer life with less,” says April Lane Benson, PhD, a psychologist and author of To Buy or Not to Buy (Trumpeter Books, 2008), “and rediscover the nonfinancial assets that make our hearts sing: communion, nature, community, service.” The first step toward learning to live with less, though, involves understanding why we want more. A rash of recent books examines the emotional or psychological component of money and emphasizes working with our core financial beliefs. “Most of us had a money initiation of some sort when we were between five and seven,” says Spencer Sherman, MBA and author of The Cure for Money Madness (Broadway Books, 2009). “Because the subject was so emotional for the adults, what got transmitted gave us a warped perspective regarding money that continues to guide our behavior.” Delving into the ghosts of allowances past—what Sherman calls your money history—gets at something far beyond merely sticking to a budget. As someone who’s always been a bit of a Pollyanna about money, preferring to look the other way when it comes to finances and hope for the best, I’m a prime candidate for some self-analysis. When a friend raved about a telecourse she had taken called conscious bookkeeping (consciousbookkeeping.com)—taught by former mind-body therapist Bari Tessler—I jumped at the chance. The bookkeeping part sounded too much like number crunching for my taste, but conscious suggested more of an exploration of wallet and psyche, a mix that intrigued me. I called Tessler and signed up for the nine-session course, curious to delve into my wounded inner comptroller, which was, unbeknownst to me, clutching my purse strings in the fetal position. Tessler’s approach to developing a conscious relationship to money involves a three- part path: financial therapy, values-based bookkeeping, and what she refers to as life visioning. Financial therapy focuses on the scripts about money that we learned at a very young age from our parents and grandparents. “Understanding what your

Spent?

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LEFT: LISA GAGNE; RIGHT: SKIP ODONNELL

Try to figure out what’s triggering you when the urge to shop strikes.
Try to figure out what’s
triggering you when the
urge to shop strikes.

money story is, whether it be the patterns you adopted or the ones you rebelled against, is the first step to recogni- tion,” she says. “To know where a belief comes from is to also know when that belief no longer serves you.”

this? What if I wait? How will I pay for it? Where will I put it? These questions create a needed mindful pause if your shopping tends to be impulsive, as most overshopping is. Look at the internal force that impelled you to shop. Was it entitlement, tension, boredom, insecurity, or jealousy?

EMOTIONAL SPENDING

I n my case, I grew up resisting saving—which I associ- ated with a tightwad ethic. Money equaled love (on my mother’s side), and saving meant withholding that love (my father’s legacy). Later, I linked saving money

with an inability to live in the present. If all we have is the here and now, what’s the use of saving for the future? When

I did earn a chunk of change in my twenties, I bought a

piece of art rather than invest it in a CD or money market.

A mixture of naïveté and idealism formed my delusion that

financial proficiency and spiritual authenticity were mutually exclusive. Having a child—and turning 40—changed all that. Sud- denly not having a will, any retirement savings, or a nest egg set aside to cover my son’s potential braces, never mind college, seemed stupid, irresponsible, and short-sighted—

the opposite of spiritual. I needed to get my financial house

in order, but without feeling deprived. That meant finding

CATCHING YOUR BREATH

K nowing our money triggers is crucial, but it’s

only half the battle. We also have to tackle

our current behavior—how we go about our

day-to-day transactions. The practical—the

bookkeeping aspect—translates understanding into action. Each deposit and withdrawal, charge and check, purchase and return, offers an opportunity to be present and make changes. Applying the discipline of bookkeeping to your personal life involves a basic concept: determining how much you earn each month, what you spend, and where it goes. Now that may sound obvious, but the results can be revelatory, as well as a little freaky. I had never sat down with those stark numbers before. Doing so reminded me

of the courage needed to finally get on a scale when you know you have gained weight but aren’t really sure you

want to know how much. When I did the final calculations, absolute clarity struck, and a stunning

silence reverberated. Each month I spent at least $150 more than I earned,

and as a result, I had no savings ac- count, no 401(k), and no college fund for my son. Even though I had no debt yet (I was running through an extra cushion I had earned from some side work), I clearly was headed in that direc- tion. This epiphany of numbers made one thing crystal clear: Something had to give, and it might not be pretty. Though I felt like I had the wind knocked out of me, I was eager to stay the course. So I made a budget that seemed simultaneously awfully close to deprivation (bye-bye waxing) and strangely liberating. In learning to see spending and saving money as a reflection of values, I could feel the stirrings of a sea change.

A mixture of naïveté and idealism formed my

delusion that financial proficiency and spiritual

authenticity were mutually exclusive.

a balance between immediate and deferred gratification;

abundance and simplicity. “We fill money with emotions and use it to play out our dramas,” says Susan McCarthy, author of The Value of Money, (Tarcher/Penguin, 2008). “But really money is neutral—just a vehicle to make inquiries.” Take compulsive shopping for example. For Benson, compulsive shopping––the high of the buy—can be broken by pausing, even mid-checkout line, to ask yourself six key questions: Why am I here? How do I feel? Do I need

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Many of the money experts I talked to say simply that money

is a mirror. Tessler quotes feminist icon Gloria Steinem to drive

the point home, “We can tell our values by looking at our check- book stubs.” If you died, and the only way anyone could know about you was by tracking your checks, what would they think? That you were a clotheshorse? A massage junkie? A gourmand?

A philanthropist? What we do with our money speaks volumes

about our priorities. I was ready for my checkbook to show less bling and more bang, less frivolity and more frugality.

MATCHING FUNDS TO PURPOSE

T hat readiness came from having a better grasp of the big picture. To start
T hat readiness came from having a better grasp of the
big picture. To start tracking spending, a key part of
any financial makeover, Tessler led us through creat-
ing a budget. But to make the number crunching
more playful, Tessler encouraged each of us to personalize our
chart of accounts, which she refers to as a “map of intention.”
We were asked to rename the conventional
categories, such as rent, utilities, gas,
so they more accurately reflected
what they mean to us. Thus, rent may
become “sanctuary for the goddess; gas,
“fuel for accessing the world”; and
utilities, a “light and energy matrix.”
Even taxes could acquire a more
positive spin; one person in the
course called them “contribution
to helping my community run
well.” In this light, bookkeeping
becomes a surprisingly creative
act, a way of naming—and own-
ing—our passions, intentions, and
most cherished values. “We will
only willingly learn the practical
stuff if there’s something fun and
meaningful that we get out of it,”
says Tessler.
I loved categorizing my accounts
in a language I could relate to and
seeing what I was—and wasn’t—
giving energy to each month. Dur-
ing the second month of the course,
a friend of mine was singing in a
concert. The tickets cost $20, and
even though I was indulging myself
in other ways (clothes are my bête
noire), I wasn’t big on spending on
entertainment. But when I thought
of that spending in terms of support-
ing my connection to my friend, I
gladly bought my ticket.
LEFT: LISA GAGNE; RIGHT: SKIP ODONNELL

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Tips to Stay the Course

Observe a secular Sabbath. Just handling money

can be a drain, which is why Brent Kessel, author of It’s Not About the Money (HarperOne, 2008), advises hav- ing one transaction-free day a week, where you don’t purchase anything. “Notice at the end of the day if you were any less satisfied—most people tend to feel hap- pier,” Kessel says. Be a giver. Nothing works more effectively to trans- form an attitude of grasping and desperation than to give money away. When we put even a small amount of money aside for charity, volunteering, or simply having

a dinner party (not a potluck), we can “shift our outlook

from scarcity to sufficiency,” says Spencer Sherman, au- thor of The Cure for Money Madness (Broadway Books,

2009). “Giving changes our financial chemistry, our sense of who we are in the world.” Accept no substitutes. Buying stuff is often really

a thinly veiled metaphor for treating yourself to some

tender, loving care. Why not ask yourself what you really need—relaxation, excitement, sensual or aes- thetic pleasure, the thrill of discovery? Then, sug- gests April Lane Benson, author of To Buy or Not to Buy (Trumpeter Books, 2008), come up with appropri- ate alternatives, such as going to a museum, taking a

dance class, or enrolling in a course that interests you.

A recent study backs this up: A survey of more than

12,000 Americans showed that people received more pleasure and satisfaction from investing in life experi- ences than in material purchases. Get naked. Surprisingly, one of intimacy’s last frontiers isn’t sexual but financial. It’s rare that a couple will come completely clean with each other about all their money habits. Making time and space for money as a couple is key, says Bari Tessler. It’s a three-part journey: sharing stories, getting clear on the numbers, and setting inten- tions and goals. Figure out together what’s nonnegotia- ble and where you can compromise, and don’t let hiding or blaming enter into the conversation. Go against the grain. One way to break free of your ingrained money habits is to force yourself to do the op- posite for a week, says Sherman. If you are a spender, save and vice versa. Note the feelings that come up as you reverse roles, and take pleasure in the novelty. Use the exercise to learn about your motivation and expand your comfort zone. Imagine the worst. Manage your fear, says Kessel, by going directly into your worst-case money scenario, such as losing your job. Are you a bag lady, a grocery checker, divorced? Now imagine that you bring all your innate resourcefulness to the situation, and notice how that makes you feel about yourself. “Reminding yourself of your resiliency alleviates the paralysis that comes from the fear of going belly up,” says Kessel.

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Tracking money mindfully calls for a daily and weekly commitment. Tessler recommends saving all your receipts and then every few days, or at least once a week, entering those expenses into your accounts. She advises thinking of bookkeeping as a sacred ritual or practice, “a way of grounding, taking inventory, check- ing in, and getting current.” By taking responsibility for our spending, rather than pleading ignorance, we learn the grown-up art of discrimination. As financial

WHO MOVED MY DREAMS?

S o now you save all your receipts and track them in your budget. What more can you possibly do? Working hand in glove with the budget— your map of intention—Tessler gets you to take

your plan a step further by challenging you to ask the

big questions: What’s my purpose? What are my dreams? Where am I going? If anything, a recession like the one we’re in can be

a golden opportunity to hunker down and reevalu-

ate our priorities and see them in a new light. “Boom times makes people numb to others’ suffering and their own real joy,” says Kessel. “But now we are opened up, vulnerable, and can really feel our own fear. There’s a sense that we are all in this together, more connected than we imagined, and we have to acknowledge our true interdependence.” In my own grand vision, my son Jordan plays a star- ring role. When he gets older, there’s so much I want to teach him about money, lessons that I am only now starting to grasp. About how money is both more and less important than we think. How it helps or hinders our ability to realize our dreams. How it connects us to others and demonstrates that what goes around more often than not comes around. Even though I am far from financially savvy—let alone secure—I can no longer play dumb. I know there are things I can’t have and don’t really need, things I must wait for, and things worth saving up for. After this course, and spurred on by my watershed birthday,

I took a few steps that at least signal maturity. I started, humble allocations notwithstanding, a 401(k). I also created an account for Jordie, which I call his “dharma fund.” I skipped waxing my legs this winter and have made my painful peace with hirsuteness. And finally,

have made my painful peace with hirsuteness. And fi nally, advisor Brent Kessel, author of It’s

advisor Brent Kessel, author of It’s Not About the Mon- ey (HarperOne, 2008), points out, “the wanting mind thrives on not being accountable.” Doing our accounts helps us cultivate a sense of enoughness and allows us to observe our wanting, and its consequences, with a cool head.

There’s a sense that we are all in this together, more connected than we imagined, and we have to acknowledge our true interdependence.

because I now save all those annoying receipts, I was able to exchange a belt that had broken a few months after I bought it. I needed that replacement, believe me—all this belt- tightening can take it out of a girl. I even needed to down- size it, but of course I’m not complaining about that.

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