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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS For everyone who believed in me, who knew that I could do it even when I didn’t believe it. My family, friends, co-workers and everyone who said “You can do it.” Thank you. For my husband’s patience and love, and for not hitting me over the head for all the hours I have spent working on my novels. For my gorgeous daughters who are the best children a mother could ask for. For all my fans, for their encouragement and belief, for their kind words and amazing hearts. You all make this possible for me. I want to make an extra shout out to the ladies at Triple M Bookclub. Those girls have been my crack, my backbone, my reason to keep writing. Without them, I think I would have drowned. I love their craziness, I love their passion, heck, I love them!! You know who you are, and you all know what you mean to me. x Books in this series Dark Poison (Book One) Dark Desire (Book Two) Dark Endings (Book Three)
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I’ve been at stage four now for about six months. I begged. A person continues to tell themselves they feel fine. Now depression. He gave me a reason to breathe. I’ve lived with depression before. I might as well die because it’s just too hard. The first is denial. they will pay for this. Drowning is not an option.PROLOGUE WILLOW Grief. that I’d crumble and fall back into my old ways. Right now. I’ll change my life. First I did everything possible to try and resolve the situation. blinding rage filled me day and night and I couldn’t move on. to save him. depression. at that point. I tried everything to make myself feel better. He became my . I’ll change who I am just to make this better. I’m dealing with it better than the previous three emotions. I’ll fix everything. to ease the pain inside. but no one did. bribed people for information and did everything in my power. I made calls. I can’t live. I pleaded. The fifth is acceptance. I can’t breathe. I can’t change this situation and I either have to accept it. He gave me a reason to push myself from my bed each day. He gave me a reason to live. I’m dealing with this stage quite well. nothing is happening. I offered to lay down my life to ensure someone helped me. The fourth is depression. or let myself drown. The second is anger. I went through all kinds of crazy when I arrived back in LA. Then I got angry. The third is bargaining. they say it comes in five stages. In fact. I was sure when I got back. I couldn’t stop blaming myself and everyone else for what happened. so it’s nothing foreign to me. Then came the bargaining. and for a while I did…until Cody. he made the sun begin shining again. How could I let this happen? How could they let this happen? I hate everyone. begged the gang members. He changed my life. Oddly. I can’t seem to move past it. I’m at stage four. they’re going to recover easily.
He couldn’t just pack up and run. When I did the test. I don’t know where Jagger is. With Ava and Jenny by my side. In fact. The images in my mind stop me from sleeping most nights. I haven’t seen or heard from the boys since. but I understood Angel wasn’t going to leave at a time like that. I told Ava to stay. made sure I took my vitamins and held me when I screamed and cried for Jagger. they were both by my side as I welcomed Cody into the world. and that alone is enough to break someone’s heart. I didn’t know for three months. run away and hide. When labor came around. I had no emotions. So we moved. I lay awake more often than not. Cody became my sunshine. I sat staring at the two pink lines for over three hours. because she wanted him to come with her but he refused. and his hair is dark and thick. It wasn’t until Ava noticed my weight gain that she dared to mention it. If they helped me find him. I don’t even know if he’s alive still. Ava and Angel had a huge fight before we left. I tried. I didn’t know I was pregnant when I first got back. let alone adding the idea that her lifeline is being beaten half to death each day. Not that I could blame her. He was choosing his gang over his girl. then he would kill them all. and that just wasn’t ok with her. that’s what I did. The usual ‘how did this happen?’ or ‘how will I break the news to him?’ didn’t pass through my mind. He has my lighter skin. I chased down everything I could to get Jagger back. fed me well. starting at the stars from my window and listening to the waves crashing against the shore.everything and I would fight to make sure nothing ever happened to him. I couldn’t think about anything except the tiny lines in front of me. Ava and Jenny both supported me through my pregnancy. but her mind was made up and her heart was broken. That . His eyes are that beautiful light blue. Their loyalty won out and I was on my own with no other choice but to do as Jagger asked. I had no one to break the news to. Cody is my son. We moved to the beach two months after returning to LA. They took me to my appointments. He’s gorgeous and a spitting image of Jagger. instead they supported their boss’ words. and he’s a beautiful. happy baby. The gang wouldn’t support me. we purchased a house by the beach a bunch of states away in Florida. but it was of no use to me. I was numb. and our combined money. So. I could feel nothing. which is ok since Cody is a restless baby.
He reaches out and clutches Ava’s necklace and she laughs. He’s gorgeous.” Ava nods. Where’s Jen?” Ava puts Cody on the floor and hands him a pacifier. The boy has anger issues. slowly but surely. plodding into the kitchen and pulling out a bag of grapes. I can’t smile…not when he’s living the way he is. He pops it into his mouth and drool runs down Ava’s chest. How can I? How can I ever smile again and feel ok about it? ~*~*~*~ “Hey my little munchkin. or so Ava tells me. He smiles at her.” Like he cares. swooping down to scoop Cody up into her arms. She pops one into her mouth and chews. just like that. dark curls. He has this big. I don’t smile anymore but my face lights up. “I don’t know. she got a call and boom she had to go out. stroking his soft. I can’t sleep. she’s out a lot lately.” I say. that’s Aunty Ava’s special necklace. which he drools all over and then tosses on the floor with an angry expression. He’s six months old now and the happiest baby under the sun. looking thoughtful. “No Cody baby. he’s like his father in that sense. “Who knows.” Ava croons. it rips down to the very core of me and eats away at it.” “Maybe she’s calling your mom?” .” I nearly smile. Cody boy. “Do you think she’s seeing someone?” I shrug. “Oh he’s a charmer alright.makes me sick. everything about him is pure perfection and beauty. “You’re the only man I’d let drool over me. “He’s a charmer. beautiful smile that puts sunshine back into all our lives. Yes.
I’ll go crazy. but she doesn’t want to listen to me. She got released just after Jagger was taken. I’m not ok with throwing him in care while he’s still so young. I raise my brows at her.” She nods. “Cody is still a baby. She wasn’t too thrilled to find out we were skipping a few states as soon as she got out. “It’s a good job. just to make her believe that we weren’t running from her. I’ve tried to tell her that too.” “How’s work going?” She smiles. “I agree. finally answering Ava. It’s a start. She’s visited a few times but it’s not something any of us are very comfortable with. “Totally. “It tastes better smooshed and decapitated. “It does. but it’s not something I want to do forever.” . I do. Oh the thoughts I’ve had about her.” “What about you? Are you going to go back soon?” I shrug.” I say. but I can’t just let go of my fears.” She nods in agreement. like that doesn’t even bother her. “What’d the grape do to you?” She laughs.I think about my mother quite a bit. Ava contemplates this. “Mom isn’t that important that she’d keep disappearing every day. you know?” I nod. “Seriously.” She nods. you’re twisted. I’ve forgiven her and we’ve managed to build a semi ok relationship. while sucking noisily on her grape.” I scrunch my nose up. I’ll go back when he gets a little older. popping another grape into her mouth. Do I feel bad about that? Sure.” “True. No. At least it keeps you busy. “I know what you mean. it’s something more. I couldn’t do it either. I think Jenny calls her every day. if I don’t work. She adores Cody…though part of me would never fully trust her with him.
It’s all white on the outside and the inside. and I stop breathing. my voice has betrayed me and gone into hiding. and would fit well for a family wanting a beach holiday. Hot tears well in my eyes. . “Kid. Angel. literally. Rusty and Bull. I haven’t cried for months. shocking myself with my outburst.Ace.We hear a car pull up and I turn. It’s peaceful. I’m still standing completely blindsided by the scene before me. Jenny is coming up the front steps and she’s being followed by four men. I know them nearly as well as I know myself . “Willow…” Ace has spoken. The front of the house is set out with a huge deck and white painted chairs and swing seats. “Oh…my…god!” I’m snapped out of my daze when I hear Ava’s voice. We step out the front door and onto the beach. Light cotton curtains cover the open windows. It’s a very tropical little place. The kitchen is large. Ace stares at me for long moments. calming breath. flapping constantly with the ocean breeze. I haven’t cried since the day I moved from LA and now here I am about to break that.” “Don’t call me that!” I scream. I’m numb for a moment. and we all have one each as well as a spare. surfboards and ocean sunsets on the walls. I know those men. Heck. we wanted to help out. with white tiled counter tops and shiny silver fittings. I turn to stare where she’s staring. I cover my face and take a deep. my legs tingle and my skin prickles. but I can’t grasp the fact that he’s standing in my lounge. staring at the front door. How could they come here after they left me on my own and refused to help me? They were my family. It’s four bedrooms. The floors are wooden and the furniture is all white or light brown. his eyes narrowing at my expression. I loved them like my own brothers and they left me alone. We are right on the sand. When they step inside. “W…what are you doing here?” It comes out as a harsh whisper. Our house is very open. We have paintings of flowers.
He roars with pain and grips my arms. I’m fucking gutted for leaving you the .” “So what’s changed?” I scream. “How could you?” I scream into his chest. I can’t breathe. I sit. I leap on top of him and I drive my fist into his jaw. wait!” Ace grips my arm and swings me around.” I whisper. I rush out the front door and down onto the sand. He changes everything. my voice like steel.” It’s one. simple word. I can’t think straight. I trusted you and you all left me alone. we thought it was for the best. It would have only ended badly. finally comes to the surface. slapping Ace’s hand away when he tries to get hold of it. heartbroken and alone…and now you want to help because of my son?” “I know how it sounds. I rush past them. We were following orders. How could they come back and think it’s all ok? Why do they want to help me now. At that point.” he whispers. you just sent me on my way. “What did you say?” “I said Cody. yanking me down so he can wrap his arms around me and hold onto me so tightly. “I know what we did.” Ace says. “Believe me Willow. shoving myself off him and rolling onto the sand beside him. I can’t move. tucking my knees to my chest and burying my face in my hands. it was just too dangerous for you to try and save him. just needing to get away.” “How dare you.I can’t deal with this. Anger…anger that I’ve held in for so long. My hand raises and connects with his face so hard he stumbles backwards and falls onto the sand. Now you think you can just come back? How dare you Ace!” “I know. “Cody. when they wanted no part of it when I needed them the most? I begin hurrying down the long stretch of beach. and yet it has me snapping my head up. “I loved you guys. “You didn’t want to help me. “Come on Willow. Not right now.
We all do. I appreciate what you’re doing now. We found out he’s fighting in Florida this month and it all just worked out how it was meant to. Ace winces. Ace. So we did that. “So I wasn’t enough to help?” I whisper in a small. He didn’t want you to go after him. I’m so hurt that I wasn’t enough and yet I’m so grateful that he’s willing to help. That boy needs his dad. but then Jenny rang me and…” “Jenny!” I shriek. I haven’t had a break down since . but Jagger made us swear. he knew whatever Mick had planned would be bad and he didn’t want you involved. I’m so angry and confused. I can’t forgive you for that. I stroll slowly down the long stretch of beach in front of me. come on. you risked putting yourself into life as a slave and I wasn’t going to be the one to help you do that. I’ll kill her!” “No. I honestly can’t tell you how bad I feel about that.” I cover my face again.” I turn and walk off. “All along you’re who she was speaking to?” He nods. That’s not good enough. you know I love you. standing. “You were my friends and you just abandoned me. She said you weren’t getting any better and that we needed to make a decision regarding Jagger. I also can’t believe Jagger is so close. you won’t. and I get that you couldn’t help me back then but that’s not what broke my heart. Listen to me Willow. I want to punch and hug Ace all at the same time. “Kid. and you need him. You cut contact and left me. childlike voice. Tears burn in my eyes. but I refuse to let them out.” “You were my friends.” I say. “I’ll kill her. and we’ve decided to get him back. I know Cody will be safe with Ava. and I might not have known about it if they hadn’t showed up. I’m so angry that it took Cody to make him see that we needed to save Jagger. she called a few weeks ago and told us about Cody. What broke my heart is that you all left me when you knew the pain I was going through. I thought I was protecting you.way we did. That world was so dangerous and if you went back.
but what I don’t know. “Why? Because if you don’t you’ll drown. My son is bouncing on Angel’s knee. They didn’t want to help me Jenny. “Hey little man. I strip him off and put him in. is why she didn’t bother to tell me. He splashes and gurgles. I’ve learnt how to deal with things. When the sun begins setting. I step into the bathroom and run a bath for Cody. they left me alone and didn’t help me when I needed it and now you want me to just let them in?” “You have to let someone in. but I don’t turn. I’m so angry. sliding it out and smiling at him. stroking his cheek. is that fun?” I say. but I didn’t know what else to do. I know I have to get back. I don’t look at her. gooing and gahing as he slobbers all over it. I walk over. Everyone has gone silent. I hear footsteps behind me. “Oh ew. He’s the only one who sees me smile. completely oblivious. I’m stronger than that. sending water flying all over me. Oh to be young and carefree again.the day I left Jagger on that island. You have a son. “I know you’re mad at me. “Yukky!” He laughs and splashes. “You lied to me. I turn and walk back towards the house. like I didn’t notice.” I say. but before that we’re best friends and she lied to me. I’ve hardened my heart. everyone is sitting at the dining table talking. you snuck around behind my back. With a pained sigh. We’re sisters. and he needs you but you’re not there.” I spin around and glare at her.” . and I won’t have one now. He grips my finger and slides it into his mouth. “Willow?” It’s Jenny. I won’t. When I get in. I know why she went to the boys.” she whispers. “WHY?” I scream. pull him off then turn and stride down the hall.
Everyone wants to fix something that can’t be fixed. “Let me go. please. A set of strong arms wrap around me and I jerk away. Nothing any of you do can make that ok again. fragile child. and I begin heaving. “Let me go!” “No. Always Ace. he has everything he wants but he’s getting older. and we’re going to get him back. He’s too strong. Willow. put him to bed. “Everything!” “I know. I can’t breathe. trembling. shaking my head from side to side. I get into my room and fall to the ground.” she quickly says. I can’t just make myself ok. I shove and push at the hard chest pressed against my cheek. scream. and I fight it. I will never be ok without him.” I snarl. Tears spill over and I begin wailing like a small. “I mean that emotionally you’re vacant. and I scream. I push but I don’t free myself. I don’t want to break down. I shake. I don’t want comfort.” I barely manage to whisper the words before stumbling out of the bathroom. I didn’t fight hard enough to make sure he didn’t come after me. but I won’t let you go. My body is being rocked.” “He was everything!” I scream. “He was my life line and now he’s gone. Life without him WILL NEVER BE OK!” I’m shaking so hard my teeth are rattling together. I let them take him.” . You love him. It’s my fault Jagger is there.” Ace. Do you think he won’t feel the emptiness you carry around?” “He was everything to me!” I scream. standing and getting in her face. I scream so loudly it hurts. but I do. “Take Cody.” “I don’t mean it in the way you think. cry and heave until I can’t breathe. “How DARE you tell me I’m not there for him.“How dare you?” I snarl. “Fight me.
at least as a friend. no matter what happens. don’t you ever say that.” “I think you’re wrong.” “No.” A small amount of hope peeks its head out.“It’s my fault. If we can’t get Jagger. “What are you doing?” I whisper.” I jerk my head back and stare up at him. Then he surprises me by crawling in next to me and wrapping his arms around me. I owe you both that and it’s what Jagger would want. I left you when you had no one else. I can’t live if he’s dead. I should’ve been there for you. but I know.” “He’s probably dead. So.” “Ace. “How do you know?” “I know.” “Does…does he know about Cody?” Ace shakes his head. Right now though. “I fucked up Willow. I know why you’re here but I don’t think there’s anything we can do. Do we have a chance? Can we fix what was broken? Will my son get his father back? “I can’t ask how right now. None of us were. it’s all my fault. oh god. the best I can do right now is promise you that we’re going to be here. “No. I should’ve been there when you had Jagger’s son and I wasn’t. I’m going to hold you because I know sometimes loneliness can be the . no matter what.” Ace lifts me in his arms and lays me down onto the bed. I can’t tell you how. Mick had plans for him since the day he was born. I should have never done that. we will be in yours and Cody’s lives. I should’ve sat with you when you grieved. Jagger was in this mess long before you.” “He’s not dead. pulling me close. I can’t…I just have nothing left.
and he’s right.darkest of feelings. you deserve one night without feeling that soul crushing emptiness that I know you’ve lived with since he went. I’ve been so lonely.” I sink into Ace. I’ve been so alone in my battle without Jagger. . That’s not to say Jenny and Ava haven’t been amazing because they have. The comfort of his arms around me brings some warmth back to my heart. but sometimes it’s just not enough. and above all else. and soon I’m falling asleep. That’s something I haven’t done properly for a long. long while. I feel my breathing beginning to even out.
letting my eyes adjust to the morning sunshine flowing through the window. Ace stayed with me all night. I’m out of bounds to all you boys.” Ace says. I know. “Stop it. who’s sitting and chatting happily away to himself. I smile over at him. I blink a few times. you’re gorgeous and you know it but…” He looks over at Cody. “I won’t bite. I’d never try anything on you. hard body behind mine groans and rolls. and realize he’s got no shirt on. “He’s a noisy bugger. sitting up beside me. I won’t get horny enough to try and jump you. I smile for real now. Heat swells in my cheeks. I sit up stiffly and peer over at Cody’s crib. . but because he’s in my bed like that! He snorts a laugh when he takes note of my expression.” I glare at him.” “Do you?” I smile weakly. shaking a rattle and gurgling to himself. and for the first time in a while.CHAPTER 1 WILLOW I wake to the sound of my son’s gurgling. it’s real. You’re not my type. I shift and the hot.” We both stare at Cody. I stare over at him. “Yeah. Don’t worry Ace. Don’t worry.” He pouts like he’s offended. “Yeah kid. just like he said he would. I know. not because I’m attracted to him. “Of course. He’s sitting up. Always the happy camper.
“Hey Ace?” Ace turns and smiles at me. won’t we?” Cody drools in response. for last night…” He nods. now come on.” Ace rolls his eyes at me. I slide out of bed and stretch. and then disappears out of the room. “Anytime kid. swallowing. Crying is good like that. A moment later Jenny walks in.” Ace breathes. we’ll go and drool on the other men. “I’ll shower and be out. Cody squeals and grips the chain around Ace’s neck and tugs. we’ve got a lot to discuss. aren’t ya?” Ace laughs. “Yeah. My body is aching from the pressure release last night.” Ace gets out of bed and stretches. “He likes necklaces. he is. “Yeah?” “Thanks. “Tough little sucker. Are you ok to take him out?” “Sure. her . I nod.” I nod. god. He walks over to the crib and lifts Cody out. Whatever. “Be nice to the other kids.“He’s just like him.” “I hope he will get the chance to be. won’t we little guy?” Cody smiles that toothless smile and Ace laughs. it’s scary.” “Jagger would be proud of him.” “We’ll have to get you a hardcore necklace then little buddy. It’s good for the soul and all that bullshit. and then he grips his shirt and slides it on. cutie. he always wanted to be a dad.” I walk over and kiss Cody. “Just like your dad you are. it worked.
I guess I just reached that breaking point.” I murmur. for saving me yet again. Willow.expression is carefully blank. Time to pull those big girl panties on and deal with this head on. holding each other for long moments before pulling back. her expression is pained. “I hope so too. I truly do. “Do you think we have a chance of finding Jagger?” “I hope so. I know what that is…it’s happiness.” She smiles weakly. I feel bad for getting so angry at her last night. My hair is back to its normal dark red and my skin is as pretty as it always was. “Time to face the music. I walk into my shower and stare in the mirror. I’m drowning without Jagger. and if I don’t at least try to help him then I will never forgive myself. I’m sorry…” I put my hand up. I know what I have to face today. “I know what you were doing Jen.” She nods.” When she’s gone. I honestly couldn’t think clearly and I took it out on her when she was only trying to help. We stand.” “Ace stayed with you?” “Yeah.” “Thank you. I’ll leave you to shower. I just don’t know how I’ll do it. See you soon. except the light in my eyes is gone. I guess. and you were right. “Hey…” I smile. “Me too.” She smiles. “Hey. I sigh and stare at the door. pulling me into a hug.” She smiles and steps forward. Not much has changed about me. I couldn’t bear it. but there’s just something missing now. “I don’t want to see you sinking Willow. I find it . You did a good thing. I’m sorry I got so angry at you. I’m grateful to him for that.
People say they can live without it.quite interesting how important happiness truly is. Once we have moved past that. Nothing has changed. Then I go back into the kitchen to help Ace.” he says.” I shrug and look up at him. all I care about is getting him home. I don’t want that world. smiling. “It’s done now.” “We’re going to do everything we can. before being pulled into Bull’s arms.” . I kept my figure after having Cody. I walk into the kitchen where Ace is pulling some ingredients out of the fridge to make breakfast. “I’m sorry Willow. I get out and pull a towel off the rack before walking out and digging through my closet. I was lucky in one sense. Aside from Ace. we abandoned you and we shouldn’t have. I let my eyes scan the four men at the table.” I nod and hug him again. I get into the shower and sigh as the warm water eases my aching muscles. His lips land on my forehead and stay there as though he’s breathing me in. I haven’t spoken to any of them. and then Rusty’s. Angel stands when he sees me. But what’s living without happiness? It’s an empty. so I make him a bottle and hand it to him. I take in their attractive faces and grim expressions. Cody is in his swing gurgling. “Can I help?” “Yeah sure. “Omelet. “What’re you making?” I ask. so long as they’re living. It’s probably the five mile run I go on every morning. vacant world with no joy. I wrap my arms around him. I pull a brush through my hair and then tie it up messily before walking out to join the others. When I’m done. They’re still the same as always. I pick a pair of cotton shorts and a black singlet top. When I step out. and surprises me by coming over and pulling me into his arms. I’ve missed him.
” I turn and walk out without another word. “Sorry…I need to go out for a while.” Ace says.” “Willow. Emotions begin swirling in the pit of my stomach. I drop the knife. I need to run. I look down to see it’s my mother. even though my eyes are filled with tears. “I’m going to take Cody for a run. I put Cody down for his morning nap. I’m happy they’re happy. I’ll be back soon and we can talk. “I’m happy for you guys. I force a smile. saving me from having to spill my heart. I haven’t spoken to her for a while and I know that I need to. I can’t control the overwhelming urge to cry. I am just about to walk out and join everyone when my phone rings.He hands me some peppers and I begin slicing them. I snatch it away. hard run and clear my head. I need to go for a long. I don’t know what to say. Jenny comes into the kitchen and wraps her arms around Ace’s middle. because for the first time. I pick up the phone anyway. and then wince. but I know I don’t want to be the one that rains on their parade. . ~*~*~*~ When I’m back from my run.” Jenny says softly. They’re together? Since when? Why didn’t they tell me? Jenny notices my expression and lets Ace go. I am happy for Jenny. “Willow. but it’s still awkward at times and it can be difficult to have a conversation with her and not get into an argument. My vision blurs and I can’t seem to get myself together. we’re sorry. and I feel ill. taking my hand. truly I am…I just…” “I know. “We were going to tell you…” I swallow. I’m happy for Ava who is curled up on Angel’s lap. They deserve happiness and there’s no way in hell I’m going to be the one to take that away from them again. Great. heck. I’m the one sitting alone with no one.” Ace says.
” I sigh. I’m having a hard time and I’m trying.” I lie.” “When are we going to move past this?” she whispers. “Mom…” “You refuse to let me in. I promise. but I know the real reason. I can’t deal with this right now. I don’t know what I have to do. “It’s not like that.” “I am having a hard time mom. I don’t know why I can’t come out and see you. sorry but now’s not a good time. I promise that you can come and visit. “Now why don’t I believe that?” “Mom please. “How are you.” she says excitedly. I’m trying really hard. “I’ll call you when things settle down.” “When can I come and visit?” She persists.” “Willow. Where have you been?” “Busy. I’ve been calling for a few days. “You say it’s because of him.“Hi mom. I’m better now and I’m trying but you just up and move away from me. mom?” “Well. but right now isn’t any good. “You can come out and see me mom.” “It’s never a good time!” she snaps. I honestly have so much going on right now. You don’t want to forgive me Willow. without even giving me a chance.” Her voice becomes sad. “I was hoping to come and visit?” “Mom.” “You know why I moved away!” I snap.” “I want to see my daughters and my grandson. breathe Willow. or .
When we get a contact. I’m grateful for that.” Angel begins. “You can’t do that!” “We have to Willow. as you all know.” “Ok Willow. but he reaches out and takes mine too.” “Is he still running the island?” I ask. “We’re going to blow up the entire island. “Ok. I promise. we need to somehow talk to Jagger. The show Mick is running is large. I’ll call you. I love you. Then we’ll end Mick.” She brightens.” I point out. He’s holding Jenny’s hand. but that isn’t really a concern at the moment. It’s time to get to business. Even if we make a bet.” I hang up and then head out to join everyone on the wrap around deck. Jagger has fights in Florida this month but the problem is finding a contact in the fighting world that’s going to get us near enough to the fight to be able to get in.” Ace adds. If he doesn’t know what we plan on doing. it could ruin this plan entirely. it’s not going to be easy. so I sit down beside him.maybe soon I’ll come and visit you. It’s very strict. “That would be nice. Mick isn’t going to just forget Jagger and move on. “You too mom. we have to end it and we have to get rid of Mick or it’ll just start back up . Angel nods his head. Ace scoots over and makes room for me on the swing chair. The men all look at each other and then Ace squeezes my hand and says. I don’t even know where to start.” I close my eyes and sigh. so obviously we’ve decided to help Jagger. we can’t get in.” “Yeah.” I gasp. “What we need to do is have a secure plan in place. but I’m hoping they do.” “I have to go. It’s not going to be easy. bye. “Yes. “How are we going to get him out without someone coming after us.
We want them all in one place when we go in. “It is.” “Ok. things like that.” “It’s dangerous. “You need to learn to fight and shoot.” Angel says to her.” “Then you’re just going to blow it up? That won’t work. He can slowly begin planting explosives and getting rid of women. That’s where we will need you. “I agree with Angel. who said that confusing sentence. so we get Huck on board. I don’t know how but we will. he’s got the information we need. and we knew you wouldn’t accept doing nothing. but I have to think of my son. where they eat. I assure you it’ll get worse baby. We will need locations of the halls. he goes back and forth.” “I will do what I have to. “Why?” “We already discussed your part in this.” . “Huck. We’ll do a final attack right before we blow it. It needs to end. It’s dangerous Willow.” I stare wide eyed at Rusty. but if we don’t end it.again. so you need to be trained. It’s far too protected.” Ava whispers. What else?” I ask.” I add in.” “But all those girls…” “We will find a way to get them off before hand.” “Huck? Why does he keep coming into this?” “He was with your dad a lot and they worked on the case. and we’ll get the last of the women.” “That’s why we need Jagger. and you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to. How are we going to get the co-ordinates again?” Angel looks at Ace and then says. “I saw that place and I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy.
” Angel says. “How will we get him to co-operate? He didn’t exactly like you. “Ok. “Danny.” “How do we come up with enough?” Jenny asks. just in case. “What? Why?” “Why? Because Danny’s a fighter. I never thought of it before because I thought he was dead. How do we get into the fights to speak with Jagger?” Jenny says.” Ace raises his brows. so what about when we get the information.” I nod. it’s why he fights.” I say.” I say simply. “Danny will do anything for money. It could work. He has enough to offer some to Danny. All heads turn to stare at me.” Angel rubs his chin.” .Angel nods. “What?” Angel says. he survived but he wouldn’t dare come back…” “We need to find him.” “I can do that. our next problem is finding him. when an idea springs to my mind. “Easy. “Ok.” We sit discussing our next move.” “Money.” I say. “I think that could work. Jagger left me his accounts. He has access to all the fighting rings. I know some of his friends. “Alright. Willow. “Did Jagger kill him?” “No. “One look at any of us and Mick will know.” Ace nods and looks to Angel for confirmation. but he could be the missing piece in this confusing puzzle. “You still need to learn as much as you can. I’m down with that.
“Disguise,” Ava says, as though it’s a no brainer. “It’d have to be a damn good disguise.” Bull mutters. Ava grins. “I’m the master of disguise. I can make Willow look completely different.” “How will she get in though?” Jenny asks. “With Danny,” I mutter. “I’ll have to look like I’m with him.” Angel nods, smiling slightly. “This could actually work. Ava, I want you to show me what you can do with Willow later. I want to see if she’s recognizable.” “Why are we sending Willow in?” Bull asks. “It’s dangerous.” Angel stares him right in the eye, “Because she’s the only one who has a chance of getting Jagger to listen.” Everyone nods and falls silent for a long moment. Ace squeezes my hand and I look over at him. “Are you ready for this?” he asks. “I’d lay my life down for him, Ace.” “Don’t forget you have a son now, if we think it’s getting too dangerous, we’ll pull you out.” I nod. “If it gets too dangerous, I’ll pull myself out. For my son’s sake, I have to know when to stop.” Everyone nods again and I stand. “I’m starving, so I’m going to get something for lunch. I’ll stop by the store and get more food for us all.” Before I can say another word, a wad of cash is shoved in my face. All the men have opens their wallets and handed me money. “We won’t stay without helpin’ out.” Angel laughs, when he sees my wide eyed expression. “Well…um…thanks.”
I tuck the cash into my pocket and then get a list of everything they might need or want. Then I collect Cody and head to the store. All I can think about is our plan, god, I hope this works.
CHAPTER 2 JAGGER
Blood spurts from my mouth as my component lands a punch to my lip. Mother fucker. That little prick is quick. He’s not big, but he’s speedy. I duck the next punch and drive a fist into his jaw. I hear the booming crack as he stumbles backwards and trips, his head lands on the ground and blood pours from his jaw. Mick stands over him and counts it down. I’m panting, sweat slides down my forehead but I don’t move my eyes from the man lying on the ground. One second of looking away and he could be up and on me. When he doesn’t move, Mick takes my hand and announces me as the winner. Again. I have my suspicions that Mick purposely picks weak components to ensure I win every time. Either way I don’t care. I haven’t cared since the day he got hold of me. The crowd roars and cheers my name, but I simply turn and exit the fighting ring. I slip out back and Sharleen rushes over. She hands me a wet towel and a bottle of water. I swig the water back and then spit it out onto the floor. “Good fight son, well done.” Mick says, coming into the room. I nod. He narrows his eyes. “Do you need to rest before your next fight?” Sharleen asks. I glare at her. “Do I look like I need to fuckin’ rest, Sharleen?” “Don’t speak to her like that boy, she’s doin’ what I’m tellin’ her to. If you fall, it’s on her.” I stand and get in Mick’s face. Once he might have been able to drop me on my ass but now…now I’m pumped full of steroids and twice the size I was before. I fucking hate him for that almost as
Mick steps forward smirking. I couldn’t give a fuck.” “We’ve got another fight.” “You leave. I’m done tonight. My fingers bend and crunch together. you’re under the chain here and you know it. You leave.” “Speak about her again. “we won’t. “and I go and get Willow and fuck her until she can’t move. Well.” I punch him and Sharleen screams. I’ll do what I fuckin’ want and if you’ve got a problem with it. fucked…then dead. “Punch me all you like.” “No. she’s dead. Then I stand and walk out.” Mick snarls. “I don’t give a fuck.” I warn.” I say. “Don’t tell me who I will and won’t speak to. let him. Jagger!” Mick roars. “and you won’t like it either. I’m sick of travelling. We’ve done three fights here and I have another two before we go elsewhere.” I turn and grip the shirt sitting on the silver bench. “Hit me again boy. He stumbles backwards gripping his jaw and panting with rage.” I raise my hand again but he grips it in his large one and squeezes. .” “Get back out there and finish this. “You shut your fuckin’ mouth. then I’ll leave and you can find someone else to play your fuckin’ sick games. Then I’ll let everyone else fuck her. I step out into the fresh night air and stroll briskly down the street. leaving him to scream and snarl curses at me. you won’t like it. I’d do it all over again though. for her. we’ll talk later. I’d do anything for her and that’s why I’m here. Florida. standing.” I spit. Good. split lips and pain. I’m sick of broken bones.much as I hate him for bringing me here.
chatting. “You look like you need it son. bald and fat. I’d do anything to make sure she’s safe and if it means giving my entire life. I told them if they came after me. I can’t see her. Last time I spoke to the boys was the day I left to go find her on that island.” “Shit hey? Wanna tell me about it. I told them to keep her away from me. there’s never a chance. Tore my fuckin’ heart out but I know her. The bar attendant pulls up a stool and stares over the bar at me.” I mutter. I will. There isn’t a chance. I don’t know if she’s ok. I step into a local bar just down the road from the fighting ring. I broke her and I know she’s suffering. and flirting. I’ve thought of killing him. It’s packed. I know she’s worried and I can only hope Willow has explained things to her. I meet his gaze and he shoves another beer my way. I can never love her again and that’s enough to break me. I haven’t spoken to Maggie in months. I can’t fix her. god. “Tough night?” “Tough life. While Mick is around. but it goes far deeper than just him. He’s old. She’s on my mind every second of every god damned long day.” “Cheers. his eyes scan my face. People swarm around me. Heck some of them are fucking. I can never get the image of her being dragged away from my mind. she fuckin’ breaks my heart. it’s a way to channel my anger and for that I’m grateful. dancing. so I find a seat at the bar and order a drink. I don’t know where she is. I’d kill them and they knew I meant it. Fighting is the only way to keep on track. Willow. It’s a massive group of people all willing to defend him. I look down at my beer and try to keep the thoughts from swarming my head. I hear it helps?” . I’d have to take out the lot and even I’m not that good.I think about her every day. Typical. I know she would have come after me if she thought there was a chance.
Well fuck.” I touch my split lip and wince.” “Fighter?” “Something like that. rubbing his chin. more stitches.I raise a brow. but thanks. . needs stitches that does. “Well son. “I doubt it would.” He nods. I hope it gets better for you.” So’d I.” “You look like you got a good busted lip there. “Later.
an oversized shirt and some serious sleepy eyes when he’s in my face. everyone who puts massive bets on goes through Mick. he gets all theirs too.” “Did you hear me?” “I’m fairly sure I did but being that I have barely been awake two minutes.” “You got it right. Mick then has Jagger follow those men out into the dark and…sort them out. we’ve got the information we need.” “I found a way to contact him.” “Excuse me? I don’t think I got that right. He not only gets his own money. It’s a good system really.” That wakes me up. I don’t think I processed it. I have just walked out the next morning in my cotton pants. Jagger is sent to make sure . “What?” He smirks.” “Ok. so.” “Spit it out. Angel. It’s the club law. Mick makes his money because he cashes their bets when Jagger wins.” Angel says.CHAPTER 3 WILLOW “So. I rub the sleep from my vision and blink at him. “Good morning. Angel. “Now I’ve got your attention.
Mick takes all the bets. “I know that. Solid. “If you don’t want to do this. Apparently I’m going to go in. face Mick again. “What if he shoots before she gets a chance to speak?” Ace snaps. “Ouch!” “Willow.” Angel protests. to which she responds by poking my head with a pin. Some he just…scares off. make a bet and hopefully when Jagger comes after me.” ~*~*~*~ “It’s dangerous.” I stare at the two of them as Jenny pulls a lock of my hair. manage to speak with him before he plugs me with a bullet. I will not make you. “We’re going to make a bet. if you know what I mean? In fights like that. It’s a gang war basically and people show up dead all the time. let me get this straight. but it’s Willow’s choice.” Angel sighs.” Angel says. ignoring our female attacks. I stare between the two of them as Jenny and Ava flit around me to try and give me a whole new look. police don’t get involved. I yelp and slap her hand away. “Jagger won’t just shoot in a public area. but it’s worth the risk. shaking his head.” . he’ll follow.” Ace says. “Yeah.those men don’t come back. then he sick’s Jagger onto them to kill them so he can cash the money?” “That’s it.” “It’s risky. except I don’t think Jagger kills most of them. It’s easy enough to get away with.” “And how does this involve seeing Jagger?” Angel smirks.” “Ok.
I’ll tell you exactly what to say. Angel and Ace walk in the door and I spin around to face them. The wig is real human hair and it looks amazing. “Fuck.” “It’s risky.” Angel breathes.“I have to do it Angel. no doubt to argue some more. “Ok. no way in hell.” I say in a reassuring voice. Holy sweet mother. When I look into it. Mick might recognize you.” I whisper. and my hair is platinum blonde. I’ve had Huck get me a contact to book you in. The two men excuse themselves and walk outside. You play it cool.” Ace pulls out a chair and Angel points towards it. Sit with me Willow. prod. “You look totally hot as a blonde. When they’re done. “Holy sweet mother of Jesus!” Angel barks. “You’re a hot blonde!” Ace smirks and Jenny slaps his arm. and I honestly wouldn’t recognize myself if I didn’t know it was me. His blue eyes meet mine and we stare at each other for long moments before he speaks.” Ava winks. thanks to contacts. pinch and cover me in loads of make-up. “I believe that’s a success. I sit down and Angel sits across from me. “Ok. Then .” Ace mumbles. My eyes are now blue. Mick takes bets tonight at seven pm. jumping back. that’s not me. They stop dead in their tracks. “are we doing this?” “Fuckin’ oath we are. I guess that’s a success.” “We’ll see how this disguise looks before we do any more worrying. I have to see him.” Ava grins. Jenny and Ava continue to poke. Tonight. I am decked out with make-up. we have a lot to go over. clapping her hands together. they both stand in front of me with wide grins. hand the money over and leave. I stand and reach out to the take the mirror Jenny hands me. “I wouldn’t recognize you on the street. I gasp. You go and see him.
If this goes wrong. I wish this were easy. “What if something happens to me?” Angel touches my hand. it’s eating away at me. “What about Cody?” I whisper. It’s dark. “That’s why we need a way to get Jagger’s attention before he does anything. So you’re going to have to have a sure fire way to get his attention. When you get down onto the sand.” That does make me feel a little better. The idea of living without Jagger breaks me. I wish I could just fix this but I can’t. He won’t let Jagger just shoot. it has to be subtle. keep your cool until you’re far away from the building. No one will see or hear anything. or I risk helping him and risk my own life. if you don’t then he will likely shoot you.” I close my eyes for a long moment. well played out.you walk out into the car park and Jagger will be following you. what if he just shoots?” “Mick doesn’t work like that. “We’re not gonna let you die Willow. but the fear for my son is huge guys.” . We’ll be waiting nearby. I can assure you. I could lose my son. but I can’t shake the unease about this whole situation. There are rocks at the far end and all it would take is someone to slip the wrong way. Jagger will no doubt make his move. quiet and no one would know any better. It’s set out well really.” “What if he doesn’t wait Angel.” “If I die…” Ace is beside me now. for starts we have a bullet proof vest to put on. You have to distract him somehow. I could lose my life. but the idea of losing my life and my son being alone breaks me even deeper. gripping my face. I am so torn. I am warning you Willow. and hopefully you’ll get Jagger’s attention before that gun even goes off. Jagger always aims for the heart. I either forget Jagger and move on. “I can’t live with myself if I don’t try to help him. This part of the beach is secluded and privately owned. trust me on that.
” Ace says gently. I know. I also think I have the perfect way to get his attention before he shoots…. “Thanks guys.” “We’ll pull you back if it gets too dangerous.” I whisper. and you all know it or you wouldn’t have asked. but we respect your decision.Angel nods. “Maybe so.” “I have to help him. I promise you Willow. a huge part of me knows that.” . and if you want to pull out you just say the word.” “I’m the only one that can do this. “I know Willow. either way it goes.
Instead of raising a gun to my head though.” I say in a strong British accent. Right now the stabbing pain in my heart and the swirling in my stomach says the reaction will be intense. I can see it in his eyes. secluded and deadly for people like Mick. it’s one thing I can do well. you must be Elise?” “Yes. the wind tickles my face as I walk towards the large brick home a few yards away. It’s the only house for miles. If I make it out the door long enough to get one. Mick. If I make one little mistake. His eyes. his body. maybe I should have let Jenny or Ava do this. Are you Mick?” . and I can hear the ocean whipping against the shore just a few yards away. he nods and a grin spreads across his face.CHAPTER 4 WILLOW It’s a cool night. With trembling hands. I reach the front door and knock. what if Mick recognizes me? What if he knows who I am right from the word go and just decides to end me? Maybe this was a bad idea. this is over. He’s still as scarily handsome as he was and still just as cold. Just as I’m about to turn away. He’s the exact same as he was back then. “Well. I drove my car to the entrance and walked the rest of the way. “I am. Thinking about seeing Jagger again has done my head in all day. the door opens and I’m faced with a man I haven’t seen since the island. I am swallowing over and over to try and stop my heart from pounding. yes. not just for me but for Jagger too. God. and I’m sure he has found me out. I imagine during the day this place is beautiful. He narrows his gaze a moment. don’t even think about trying to get me for a slave. his face. I don’t honestly know how I’ll react. The driveway is long and gravelly. No way buddy. Sick bastard.
” His eyes widen and he actually straightens. you want to give over your money. “You’re betting for the fight on Saturday night? Am I correct?” “Yes.” He raises a brow. then can we get this done with? I have plans. “Is this some sort of joke?” I straighten too. When he leans his heavy frame against the wooden door. . Breathe Willow.” “How much?” “Ten thousand dollars.” I dig through my bag and hand over a bundle of cash. I am going to risk my money. If the fight is lost. I am struggling to get more cash for something important. “Fine. Mick counts it and my nerves grow as he flips every note. that’s up to you. in hopes that it will triple. I am.” Lying piece of shit. I have seen this man’s fights and I know he’s the best.” Mick rubs his chin and I feel my knees tremble. he stands straight and smiles.” “Very well. “No. you can do this. the proceeds remain with the club. hand it over. “Fine by me. calculating it all in his head.“Yes. I take the cash. when the fights are won I deliver the proceeds to the winners. it’s that sick smile I remember so well. little lady. When he’s satisfied.” “Good. I panic that he’s going to say no and send me on my way with a bullet…or penis….in my back.
The footsteps behind me grow quicker and I know I have only seconds left. When I hear the door open again.” “I’ll be watching the fight. I wonder if a gun will sound out and take me down. so don’t you try to fuck me over. I did it. scratchy rasp but I know that voice.“Very well Elise. Go Willow. Every second I rush towards those horrible rocks. Angel said to get to the rocks. I hear it every night in my dreams.” His brows rise again. so I pick up the pace. you’re lookin’ so good in what’s left of those blue jeans…” I sing softly but loud enough that the person can hear me. you’ll hear from me. “That kinda thing makes a man go hmm hmm. When I hear the front door of the house close. If it’s Jagger. I can hear footsteps behind me. I did it and he didn’t recognize me. I can’t see him. god dammit. I have to do this now. he will know the song and he will know my voice. I reach down and toss them off so I can run faster. Jagger? Someone else? What if he doesn’t send Jagger after me? What if he sends someone else and this plan goes to shit real quickly? I rush into the darkness and when I feel my shoes hit the sand. a deep. I sag against a tree and suck in a pained breath. “Willow?” “Jagger…” I whisper. I quickly rush forward. I hear silence for the longest moment and my voice hitches when I try to sing again. good day. but I can her him approach. “Willow?” It’s a rasp. Relief floods me and I feel my legs threaten to give way. I stop when I hear a gun being cocked. go.” I turn on my heel and walk off into the darkness. . “Now why would I do that?” “Consider yourself warned.
Go to the boys. His head is lowered. If I see you back here…” His voice trails off for a long moment and it’s like he can’t bring himself to the say the next words. what has happened to you? “Jagger…” “Why?” he rasps. I hear him suck in a deep. He’s not speaking. “Leave. I step forward until I can hear his breathing. He’s not doing anything at all. but he’s not touching me. My body is molded against the hard plains of his. tell them to stay the fuck out of my life.I can’t see him and oh god. but his hand lashes out and stops me.” “Jagger…” He shoves me backwards and I fall on my ass. It’s like he doesn’t believe I’m real. That goes for you too.” he says in a voice so void of emotion it burns me. God Jagger. All this time all I have wanted was him and now he’s so close and I’m speechless. but eventually he does and they shock me to my core. or if I should just stand here and try to explain. ragged breath. Don’t try anything. He’s so close. I can hear Jagger panting. Is he angry? Emotional? I just don’t know. My cheek is pressed against his chest and I can hear his heart pounding. . I whimper. He grips it so tightly I yelp. Our bodies are squashed. Don’t involve yourself. “Don’t come back. and yet I have never felt such distance between us. I step forward and slam directly into his chest. Hot tears stream down my face when I breathe him in. I reach up and go to stroke his cheek. “why are you here?” “We…want to help and…” “No. I lift my head and I bump foreheads with him. not only from shock but from the forceful landing. I want to. He’s just standing there like a statue. I don’t know if I can reach out and touch him. Like someone in mourning.
I don’t want you. I reach out to steady myself with a nearby tree. He didn’t mean it.” I turn and I run. He didn’t mean it. Oh god. he didn’t mean it..” “FOUR!” “Please…” “THREE!” “PLEASE!” “Fuck Willow. He cocks the gun again. TWO. Leave Willow.” “Jagger. he doesn’t. do you hear me? LEAVE!” Tears stream down my face. I cry out and whimper as I get to my feet and stagger forward. “Walk away now.” I whisper. I MOVED ON!” I force myself to my feet. or I’ll end you. I’ll kill you.” “FIVE!” “Jagger. don’t make me do this.“If I see you back here. we can help you..” “Jagger…you don’t. “Don’t. and I feel my knees buckle.. I stumble over and my hands land in the grainy sand.” “I don’t want your help. “You don’t mean that. He doesn’t mean it. Did he? ~*~*~*~ JAGGER . We’re done. “I don’t want it. I don’t want you here. I want you to fucking leave..” he roars.
I listen to her whimpers fade into the darkness and I drop to my knees. fuck. When I get inside I stare down at the blood dripping from my knuckles.Fuck. End it. The way she touched me.” “What did you think would fuckin’ happen? I gave you my life. it’s because of you that I’m here. spinning to the nearest dark tree and I punch it until my knuckles are bruised and raw. It was her.” “Oh. I just told the love of my life that I didn’t want her.” “Who fuckin’ cares Sharleen? I bleed every fuckin’ day. I didn’t get her in time. How could I be such a fucking coward? She wanted to help me. Always the fuckin’ hero. It’s the only fucking way. “What happened?” “The woman that made the bet got away. I listened to her fall apart and I kept going. Her fuckin’ cries. She fucking broke me and I just broke her.” Her mouth drops open. She stops in front of me and shines a light over my panting form. fuck. they broke me. Mick’ll sort it out. It was her and I threatened to kill her. Jagger. It’s the only way. I’m a fucking monster. I knew she would and I broke her. that I’d kill her. “You’re bleeding.” “Whatever. I press the gun to my temple. roaring curses. Sharleen notices and her eyes widen. Her scent against my skin. I drop the gun and pummel my fists into the sand. I hear her footsteps on the sand as she approaches. I push the cold metal into my temple further and my hand shakes.” I stand and walk towards the house. I stand. “I never meant for you to get hurt. Her body against mine. Don’t pretend to care about me. “Jagger?” Fuckin’ Sharleen. you knew how dangerous my . Just end it. I fucking broke her. I’m sure it won’t matter.
yet again. Always my weakness. You had a chance and you picked him.” Great now she’s crying. I hope you rot…” “Jagger. FUCK! I spin around towards her and grip her shoulders. you fucked me up too. “I can’t believe that. Just let me be. I hope he fucks you until you can’t walk. I’ll never feel love again.father was and you went ahead and involved him anyway. please?” She nods and I let her go. My blood trickles down her top but she doesn’t move. but while you were fucking up. I never asked for that. but I didn’t mean what I said. I gave you everything I had. “Don’t you fuckin’ open your mouth and try to make this better. I…” “DON’T!” I roar. I never wanted bad things to happen. I get an idea to keep Willow away from me for good.” “I loved you Jagger. I’ll do whatever I need to make sure she stays out of this.” she whispers. “I know ok? I know you fucked up. I turn and disappear into the darkness. even if it means breaking her heart. Fuck. Because of you. please believe that. but in the darkness. . I loved you.” “I loved you too.
My eyes meet a lot of very confused. I’ll kill you. touching my cold. Jagger’s words play over and over in my head. When I step into the living room. I’ll kill you. . honey!” Ava’s voice trails down the hall after me. forcing each foot to go in front of the other. worried sets. That’s when the wall breaks. what happened?” Ace asks. shhh. I feel just as pitiful. might as well get it out while it’s playing like a bad song in my head. soaking wet and numb. I know how I look. “Willow. wet cheek. I shut the door quietly and walk over to the crib where my son is sleeping. If I go back. everyone gets up quickly and rushes over. He doesn’t want help. he said he’d kill me. I don’t love you. Like a zombie I walk down the hall. I don’t want you. “Oh honey. My heart is clenching and I can’t swallow the lump in my throat.” Jenny whispers. “I saw him. The pain in my heart is far beyond anything I’ve ever felt. “Willow. I’ll kill you. I have to tell them. I don’t answer.CHAPTER 5 WILLOW I walk through the door when I arrive home. I feel arms go around me. My tears begin flowing in a steady stream and before I know it they’re running out and horrible. Forcing my body to move when all I want to do is crumble to the floor and cry until there is nothing left. If you come back. thumb in his mouth and looking peaceful. pained noises are coming from my throat. and slowly I turn.” The shocked gasps that follow me down the hall and into my room.
then he’ll do it. he was so close. it’s going to be ok. “No. he is going to do whatever it takes to make sure you don’t involve yourself and if that means making you think he would hurt you. even if I wanted to. The pain in my heart is all the same though. he meant it. he didn’t. . Jenny rocks me while I continue to bellow like a wounded animal. “Baby girl. ok?” “Knock knock. if you get involved you’re risking your life. “Hey.” I stop crying and pull back.” “I felt him. and the girls just hold onto me as I breakdown over something entirely different this time. maybe he was trying to scare me off. you know he only said that to scare you off. staring at them through blurry lashes. he doesn’t know. my voice broken.” “I didn’t tell him about Cody. and how he paused for a long while. come on. He doesn’t want you to get involved. The tears start again. Cody doesn’t even stir. it tears me down. Jagger loves you. Don’t you see that?” I fall silent. but that doesn’t stop my breakdown from continuing.” The soft voice comes surprisingly from Bull. honey. I think back to the conversation. come on. I’m sure he is feeling the same right now. It just slowly rips me to pieces inside. “Honey.” Jenny strokes my hair.” I whisper. Maybe they’re right.” I whimper.I can’t speak. and I don’t know if I can continue on and find out if he was protecting me or if he truly meant it. I raise my eyes to see him standing at the door with a weak smile on his face. “Willow. I can’t. Bit by bit. They both hold me so tightly I can hardly breathe. “We will fix this. Soon more arms are around me and Ava has joined the group hug.
Jagger and Ace were there. both sitting and drinking. long time and I know when he cares. Bull has this dark red hair and pale eyes.“Mind if I talk to Willow?” The girls look to me for confirmation. I smile at Bull’s smile. tears form in my eyes. they didn’t even know me. but I can try. hard parents. I nod my head and Jenny rubs my shoulder before taking Ava’s hand and they leave the room. Jagger loves you. he’s everything. I’ve known Jagger a long. and when I thanked him you know what he said?” I shake my head. “He said boy. He looks almost Scottish. but they helped me. That’s a . “Did he ever tell you how we met?” I shake my head. He loves you and I know he is just trying to scare you off because he doesn’t want you involved. Bull walks over and stares down into the crib at Cody. You change. “I was eighteen. I know what happened out there tonight. but I know him. then you go right ahead. but he doesn’t have an accent. don’t thank me. I bet it’s in the line somewhere though. no siblings. They helped me.” I smile. Jagger took me outside. Four men jumped me and I had no hope. if you saw how he was when you got taken. you hear? You get one choice at life and if you want to pick on people three times the size of you and have your ass kicked. I got into some trouble with a bunch of men at a bar one night. He vowed he would do anything to make sure you lived a safe life. Tough life. The two boys jumped in and beat the shit out of them. you would understand. because it’s not often I see him smile.” I smile weakly and nod. “He’s really something. “No. Anyway.” Bull smiles and it’s a dazzling smile. I can’t make you believe anything else. I know what he said. I was a rebel back then. “Yeah. Bull sits down beside me and takes my hand.” “Listen Willow.
While Huck was a cop. Bull pats my hand. he gave me a chance when I had nothing else. because I no longer know how to make them. but he trusts Huck and Huck has . I got it from Huck. You have a choice now Willow and only you can make it. I know only I can make this choice. “Don’t give up. Tell him to meet us tomorrow night at the wharf. not yet. He gave me a chance Willow. and I’ll do whatever it takes to get him out of that place.” I swallow back my tears.” “Huck? Why does his name keep coming up?” “Look. Jagger and Huck go way back from when he was involved with your father. and then he stands and smiles down at me. Jagger manages to find the good in absolutely everyone. I don’t quite know what it was. If he doesn’t want you when all this is done. and you can’t blame anyone else for it. Bull grins. I want to help Jagger. crossing my legs. He believed in me. then there’s just nothing you can do about it. Then he took me in and I’ve been with him since. and then he tilts his head to the side and shows me a faint scar on his jaw. even if it means heartbreak for me. “I said please give me a choice. You make a choice and you stick with it. Jagger and he had a deal. It’s Jagger’s number.” “What did he say?” Bull throws his head back and laughs. You want me to give you a choice boy?” I smile.choice.” I know he’s right. I’m just a kid. and I know deep down in my heart I’ve already made it. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW “Ring this number. “So what did you say?” I ask. because I could hear Jagger saying something like that. “He hit me so hard my jaw split.
He’s got information and he can get access to some serious shit that we could never imagine.” I manage. not for me. The pain in my stomach is so intense I struggle to stop myself from doubling over.” “I don’t know Angel…” “Trust me on this. It answers on the first ring and the words I hear has my heart breaking in half. All I can hear is Jagger’s voice. now will you do it?” I swallow. I want to run from my pain. that I can’t do it. Angel asks me something. It’s not about me. I can’t tell them. He’s with Sharleen again? How could I be so stupid? He said he moved on and it’s clear that wasn’t a lie. It’s not about me now. it’s about my son. he wasn’t protecting me. I swallow over and over. I have been assuring myself that I’m doing this for Jagger. I can’t. I have to do this. “Sharleen. It doesn’t matter whether Jagger and I are together or not. I dial the number and hold the phone to my ear. All along. I have been telling myself this all night. Are you with me?” I meet his gaze and part of me wants to scream no. oh sweet Jesus. I’m dead. oh god. babe…. Sorry. I have to do this for Cody. I want to curl up into a ball and hide from the world but I can’t do that.Sharleen.fucked…fucked… “Willow?” I snap my head up and meet Angel’s eyes. I can do this. babe. “Fuck it.helped him out of a few situations. He needs .” I pull the phone from my ear and hang it up. why are you ringing on this number? I told you if Mick finds out we fucked last night. “What happened?” “Disconnected. but it doesn’t register. He’s of good use to us. babe…. my hand trembles. He really doesn’t love me anymore. Sharleen. we’re going to have to go in.
Jagger needs to know. Right now I have to focus on getting through the next few days without breaking down. If anything. It’s for him. I look Angel square in the eyes. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I let my eyes swing to the corner of the room where my son sits in his high chair sucking the life out of a section of orange. I honestly don’t know how I’ll do that. Think of Cody.” He nods and then leaves the room. So for now. I have to pull on my big girl panties . I owe both him and Cody that much. Everything I do is for him. Think of Cody. “I’m in Angel. .and suck it up.to know about Cody and if he chooses her so be it. you tell me what I have to do. he needs to know. but I owe him enough to get him out of that place.yet again .
CHAPTER 6 JAGGER She believed me. Can’t. one drunken night. Shameful. I’ll never feel a kiss so damn sweet it knocks me off my feet. I had to do it. I would never be the same without her. I knew only a few people had my new number and I knew that when that unknown caller came up that it would be her. I just hoped I didn’t cause her to hurt herself… I shake my head. but when I try to move on. I haven’t fucked since the day she left and I’m wound up so tightly. I tried. I’ll never have lips around my cock that’ll warm me the way hers did. I had to make her think I was with Sharleen. one day I’ll have to do the same. Did she know I didn’t mean those harsh words? Maybe she knows me better than I know myself. I told her to move on. I have no problem getting hard when thinking about her. thinking of her sweet face. I’ll never fuck and have it feel the way it felt with her. I knew it was her when the phone line went dead. If it wasn’t it would be one of the boys and they’d surely tell her what I said. and I couldn’t even get a fat. I had to make sure she didn’t keep chasing me. I hoped I hadn’t pushed too hard. I was pushing her to the limits. Fuckin’ hung loose like an old man. I don’t know what they’re planning but obviously my words weren’t enough to scare Willow away. that’s what it fuckin’ was. I flop down onto the bed and close my eyes. Can’t fuckin’ think like that. I had different plans. If I didn’t she could very well lose her life and there was no way in hell I was letting that happen. Nothing. nothing. I was hoping I could get her to see me with Sharleen but the phone call worked perfectly. Not on my watch. God I’ve missed her. I can’t…I just can’t move on. . I toss the phone into the nearby wall and pace my room. I was just adding to her hurt. I feel my cock growing and I snarl a curse.
She made everything ok. I pick up the pace. I jerk my jeans down and grip my cock. Fuckin’ hate this. kissing me. fuckin’ hate doing this. sighing. and that gorgeous little body with those beautiful breasts. that perky ass and those sensual lips. Pitiful. picturing those full lips smiling up at me as she puts her tongue around my cock. I stroke up and down. I remember the sweet feeling of driving into her wet flesh and that’s my undoing. Pitiful. That’s all I am. Of course I can’t fuckin’ get it up. Hate that I have to use my own hand because I can’t get it up for anyone else. I grunt and begin spurting come all over my stomach. I sit up and let my thoughts take me back to her. I stroke gently. . I’m in love with a woman I can’t have and I can’t get over that. I open my eyes and stare down at the white mess. I close my eyes and I can feel her beside me. touching me. but it’s everything. I close my eyes and shake my head. It fuckin’ burns. stroking me.Acid runs through my veins at that thought. feeling everything inside me tense as pleasure rises up my shaft ready to explode. grunting as pleasure jerks through my body. but I love that for a moment I’m with her and it feels ok. I fuckin’ can’t imagine anything worse than thinking of her with someone else. Everything. The best I’ve got is to wank myself stupid because I have nothing else. It’s a moment. I’m fucked up.
Ace snarls a curse and Angel orders me to leave but I don’t listen.” He roars a curse and jerks in the chair.CHAPTER 7 WILLOW “Willow. but I am not listening. “That’s for my wasted years. squirming. he looks almost pleadingly at me. I know who they’ve got down there and I want in.” I hit him again and his lip splits. I want in like yesterday… “Let me go Rusty. “That’s for all the blood you shed that wasn’t yours. .” I launch my foot backwards and hit his shin. I bolt down the stairs and into the basement of the old warehouse the boys are in. letting me go long enough to lurch forward and through the door. Danny is tied to a chair.” He snorts. He roars with pain and stumbles back. When his eyes fall on me. Angel and Ace are staring at me with gaping mouths. blood spurts from his nose. Instead I storm over and I punch Danny so hard in the face that his head jerk backwards. “Not gonna happen. “Willow! Help me!” I actually throw my head back and laugh. “And that’s for Jagger.” I hit him again. or I’ll hurt you. you can’t go down there!” Rusty is holding my arm.
we’ll hunt you down and kill you. I can be bad ass when I need to be. I won’t do it. eyes wide. and then goes back to Danny. “Are you done?” Ace whispers in my ear. my life and everything I lived for. Danny stares at me. “No.” “You’re a fighter Danny.” I yank the gun from Ace’s hand and press it to his temple. because I swear to god I will end you Danny. Danny’s eyes widen. He was everything to me.” “How much do we have to pay you?” I snap. “So.” Danny spits.” “No.” he rasps. “Just needed to get that out of my system. It’s too risky to let the public in. I hate you.” “How much?” .” I step backwards and run my fingers across the cool metal of the gun. I’ll put a bullet in you right now and end you. “No. thanks.Yeah. Now you tell me where Jagger’s next gig is and how we can get in. Seeing you swim with the fishes is fine by me. slut. Danny deserves everything that’s coming for him. “You can’t unless you’re a fighter or VIP.” Ace smirks. you can see we aren’t kidding.” Angel snorts. I don’t care about you. “You’ll pay me?” “I’ll pay you if you help me out. “You do as they ask. If you don’t.” “You can’t get in.” “Fuck you. please. “Do you think I’m kidding? I have lost my heart. I’ll help. I feel great.
as though it’s no more than petty cash. I’m decked out in disguise again and I can see a lot of men lingering around the doors to the fighting club. Are you ready?” I nod.” “Once is all I need. “Fucktard. If you value your life. I hope you do. you’ll wish to god I never got hold of you. you won’t lay a fucking hand on her. “Fine. if you swear you’ll let me go and give me the money.” ~*~*~*~ WILLOW “Stop darting around. “You look like a fucking junkie. “Who’s the lady?” . “I’ll give you half a mill. it is.” Danny snarls. “Because you’re a woman.” I look over at Angel. Danny stares at me for long moments. “His fight is tonight. “If you try anything on her.” I mutter.” Danny pulls my hand and drags me to the entrance. not many women come in.” Angel growls.” Danny snarls.” I smother a grin and Danny glares at him. “I swear to god.” “I get it.” I say simply. I’ll hunt you down and believe me.” “Yes.Ace snorts. Danny greets him by name. “I have to be.” “Everyone is looking at me!” I hiss. When we reach the bouncer. I’ll get you in but I can only get you in once. “Good.
” I say quickly.“She’s with me man. In the middle of the room is a massive fighting ring and surrounding it is a whole lot of men cheering and pumping up for the fight. When he stops in front of us. he hisses. did you?” Mick growls. “I thought…” That I was dead. I swallow. “You didn’t think I would stay away and let you rip me off. If you get hurt. “You made a bet for the fight?” “Yes. I know.” “Fine. Seeing Jagger fight…I don’t know how that’ll go for me.” I say in my accent. trust me.” Danny pulls me through the door and we step into a large room. “Mick’s coming. Danny pulls me towards the fighting ring and his hand remains wrapped firmly around my wrist as Mick announces . it’s not my problem. and his eyes narrow. “Thought what?” “Never mind. He spots Danny and me.” I shrug and Mick gives me one last scathing look before going back to his crate.” “You know we don’t like ladies in the club. I see Mick standing on a large crate at the front of the room. but you can answer to Mick.” “She’s cool. I did. yes.” “Fuck Mick. Danny turns his head and watches as Mick shoves through the crowd. “What the fuck Daniel?” “She’s with me.” Mick narrows his eyes.
driving a fist into the side of Jagger’s face. Tiger doubles over and Jagger takes the opportunity to upper cut his face. landing a solid punch to Tiger’s stomach. I stare at his face for long moments and take him in. Then Mick stands between them and counts it down. I watch Tiger drive a fist into Jagger’s face. He has a fading black eye.” Danny hisses. Let’s hear it for Tiger and Jagger!” My heart stops as the two men walk out of a small hallway. Jagger drives a left hook into Tiger’s jaw. sending him flying back into the rubber railings. Stay strong. Before I know it. sending him stumbling backwards. but it’s drowned out by the deafening screams and cheers of the people around me. Tiger spits blood out of his mouth and bounces back. The man fighting Jagger is tall. His body is big. just waiting to be let loose. a fresh scar runs down his temple and there’s another on his cheek. We have Tiger from out west. and I clamp them shut.” “Fuck off Danny. “Suck it up. Tiger’s head spins to the side and spit and blood fly through the air to land on people standing close enough to get hit.” He snorts. I let out a little yelp. It’s almost too big. I don’t care though. “Welcome back everyone. I feel my eyes well up. he’s new here and has a fair lot of bets going for him. His messy black hair is all over the place and he looks like a wild animal. my main man Jagger. He’s wearing a loose pair of cotton shorts and nothing else. my eyes won’t move from Jagger. I watch as the two men step into the ring and bump fists. Before I can see the reaction.the fight. Jagger bounces back. . He has bandages wrapped around his hands and his body is almost pulsing with anticipation. you all know the other fighter. Tonight we have a good fight happenin’. black and muscly. Asshole. He’s hopping from foot to foot. fists are flying. Of course. He’s huge. “Don’t draw attention to yourself. much bigger than before.
Tiger’s knees buckle and his back bends as he falls onto the floor. Maybe he’s staring at Danny. Mick takes Jagger’s hand and holds it up high. staring directly into my eyes. It’s Jagger. his head hung. He always gets ready alone. she always does. I know him as well as I know myself. . Tiger isn’t getting back up. He recognized me. Oh shit. he shoves me through the door. Does he know it’s me? How? I don’t understand. Jagger will go out back to get ready for the next fight. He leads me through the crowd to a small door. She rushes out and wraps her arms around Jagger. nothing more. That’s when Jagger’s eyes fall on me. I stumble into a dimly lit room. Blood pours from his nose and mouth.Jagger turns to his side and drops a power punch onto Tiger’s right cheek. the blonde will stay out with Mick. He wants his money. When I look again. “How did you know it was me?” He looks up and turns. nothing less and he’ll not stop until he gets it. “Why the fuck are you here?” He knows. I thought I could handle this. A man is sitting on the bench. so everyone cheers and roars over Jagger’s win. he hesitates a moment and then seems to shake his head a little. Suddenly I see Sharleen and my heart turns to stone. His eyes widen. his eyes are on mine. wondering if he’s seen someone else. He’s out cold. feeling my skin prickle. I can’t see much. He wraps an arm around her and presses his lips to hers and I want to die.” Danny peers over the crowd and when he sees Jagger disappear. not caring about my trembling lip. I look away. I thought it would be ok but there he is kissing her like I never existed. “You have five minutes. I know that man. there’s a few lockers and a silver bench in the middle of the room. Mick roars his victory and jumps into the ring to count it down. and I actually look around. How could he? How could he just forget me like that? Is that all I meant to him? Danny grips my arm and pulls me close. and everyone roars louder.
straighten my shoulders and walk forward. He unfolds the paper and stares. I see emotion. His eyes are glassy and confused. We’re done. I put up my wall. He lowers the gun and his fingers brush mine as he takes the photo from my hand. I wish I could just walk away Jagger. you want to fucking shoot me? Do it. I stop. .“Do you think I’d ever forget those eyes? I told you not to come back. Shivers run through me. I slam it against his chest. He wouldn’t hurt me. I don’t want you. When I’m standing with it pressed firmly to my forehead. I wish I could have just packed up and moved on. and before I know it a gun is being pointed at my head. so why did you? I told you what I’d do. Maybe if it was just me. you would be doing me a favor. It hasn’t been simple for months. I don’t love you.” “We are. His eyes widen and he flinches. would he? “Jagger…” “Get the fuck outta here. “Do it. It’s not simple anymore though. I see nothing in his expression for the longest moment. but I shove them away. I see it.” “What are you talking about?” I meet his eyes and with a hard heart. anger flashes in his gaze and it scares me. I have lived through hell.” “Willow. I wish you would get that through your head!” Ouch. god. yes. but he doesn’t lower the gun. I stare in shock. but when he looks up at me.” He stands suddenly. he just stares. I reach into my top and pull out a photo. He’s panting. “just leave. and I wish it were that simple. I could have.” “And I didn’t believe you.” he rasps.
. I move on and so does he. I’ve said all that needs to be said. right now I hate you. You want help? You meet us at the wharf tomorrow at noon. Do you really think I didn’t want to move on Jagger? Do you think I’ve wanted to live with the agony? Do you think I wanted to live without you? No. I’m not doing this for you. I can’t change how you feel about me. I’m doing it for him. You deserved to know.” I turn and walk out without another word. I can’t change your choice but I can change my son’s life.“His name is Cody. If not. I didn’t. he’s six months old and he’s your son.
. now she’s dead straight and glaring at me. likely with a black fucking eye and another split lip. How fucking shallow could I be? I hear a knock at my door and I look up. She doesn’t know that though and obviously thinks I want her. So I know it’ll work. The woman has a foul temper. I kissed her tonight because I knew Willow was there. I swallow and run a torn finger over the picture.” I’ve done drugs once or twice since I’ve been here and she thinks I do a lot more than I actually do. and she’s damn wrong. “Hey.CHAPTER 8 JAGGER I sit in bed later that night staring at that photo. I’ve kissed Sharleen in front of her and all along she was just trying to help me and let me know I had a son. Here goes nothing. “What?” Here goes. This isn’t going to end well. My son…she had a baby…my son. “Excuse me?” “I don’t mean to be an asshole about this but I was…high. Sharleen walks in wearing some skimpy fucking nightie. “Sharleen. I’ve fucked up. I fucked up. I have no doubt he’s mine. I’ve made her think I don’t care. I know what she thinks. The boy looks just like me. about tonight…” she begins. nothing more.” She was leaning a hip against the door in a sexy way. I shouldn’t have kissed you. This changes everything and she knows it.
” I glare at her in disgust. Ace shrugs. he’s staring at a tree out the window. She storms out muttering pig and bastard.“I’m sorry. “I’ll finish you Jagger. I was out of it.” I mutter. but Angel insisted that it would help Jagger make a choice. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW “Do you think he’ll show?” I ask. I thought…” “If you say you thought I was her. “Do you have no self-respect? Do you honestly want to be a slut. The girl I loved would never do what you’re doing now. You’re offering yourself up like some sort of toy.” “How many times do I gotta say we aren’t a couple? You’re fucking my father for Christ sakes. Sharleen?” She gapes.” she whispers. I didn’t want him to make a choice just for Cody. the bitch has pissed me off enough to last a fuckin’ lifetime. . staring at the television.” “So what? Doesn’t mean we can’t fuck too. “How dare you call me a slut!” “Well stop fuckin’ acting like one. I nearly didn’t bring him. “I don’t know. you’re a waste of my time. My son…this changes everything. I stare down at Cody in his seat.” We are at the wharf sitting in the car and waiting.” “Right back at ya babe. but I also know he deserves to see his son.” Her eyes widen. Have some respect. I stare back at the photo I slipped down by my side. even if it is just once. fumbling my hands together. I know what I have to do now. I have more respect for myself then to ever touch a woman who clearly doesn’t care about her body. It’s half past noon and so far Jagger hasn’t come. Well let her go. “Fuck you Jagger.
He begins panting and his fists clench. it’s almost like a harsh jerk. Jagger stares at me for a long moment when our eyes meet. I watch him lift his sun glasses and squint. Come on Willow.” Jagger breathes. so many unspoken words.” Angel and Ace get out of the car. He chose her. Oh god. I look away. get it together. When it stops and pulls up. and they all hug and slap backs. So many things pass between us. and my heart quickens. he looks so perfect. He’s dressed in black jeans.A black car pulls into the empty car park. He nods. Then Cody reaches out and grips Jagger’s necklace. I watch them greet Jagger. When I have him out. He steps forward and Cody turns to look at him. a black shirt and black sun glasses. I take a deep breath and then I get out of the car. I lean in and unclip Cody from the car seat. I can see the fresh bruises on his cheek and some stitches in his lip from last night’s fight. He smiles and drool runs down his chin. I open the car door and Jagger hesitates a moment. “Is he here?” I nod. “It’s now or never little man. Out steps Jagger.” I say simply.” He goo’s and smiles at me. “Give us a minute. swallowing back my tears. They talk for a moment. “You came. It’s silent for a long moment after that. I turn and face Jagger. and then I lift him out of the car. and then Jagger’s gaze swings to the car. I squint my eyes. His blue eyes crush my heart in ways that are so unimaginably painful. “Oh…fuck. I force a smile back. The hurt in my heart runs so fucking deep. so gorgeous. You have to . How can I ever move on? How can I just forget? I hang my head. and that’s it for me. His eyes widen and his body flinches. I have to remind myself that he’s no longer mine.
Cody needs it. I do. Cody has a hand wrapped around one of Jagger’s fingers and it breaks my heart. Tough men my ass. I can’t let him see how much he affects me. Fuck. “Bro. Cody. Two days with him. I can’t ever forgive him for that. but I refuse to meet his eyes. “Do you want to hold him?” I whisper. do I? So can we just go?” I reach for Cody and Jagger turns slightly. and I pass Cody over. Jagger nods. “Right. I have to do it. You want our help or not?” Ace asks. “Ok. When I look up. Cody touches Jagger’s face. Cody.be strong for your son. How long have you got?” “Two days. He is fucking Sharleen. Fuck. . Jagger looks up at me. I turn away. Fuck it Ace. where’s my back up here? Angel nods at me. but he’s swallowing. I can’t.” Two days. we need to discuss it in private. I have two days off. a tear stumbles down his cheek. Jagger pulls his eyes from my face and stares over at the two men. and his eyes meet mine again. Jagger makes a strangled sound as Cody continues to pull and stroke his face. “Can we just discuss what needs to happen?” I whisper. “I don’t get a choice. “Yeah.” “You want to take your car?” Angel asks. I meet Ace’s eyes and the damn man is tearing up too. Well fuck.” “Good. Willow can he come back with us?” I stare at Jagger. the choice is yours. Jagger is staring at me. “Can I hold him a minute longer?” I close my eyes and swallow. It just tears it right out. Fuck. I wonder if he knows that somehow he’s important. When Jagger takes him in his arms. I always disappear during that time.
“Hey beautiful. Rusty and Bull leap up. bad move. Jenny. “How’d it go?” They all ask. leave it here.” I whisper. I hear more hugging and mutters of happiness. I have to do this. He knows it’s affecting me. When Jagger slides in beside me. I’ll be able to move on with my life. and once again I avoid that gaze. He talks to Angel and Ace as we drive home. I hear the gasps.” We all get into the car. “You live here?” “Yes. are you ok?” I shake my head and bite my lip. Jagger hands Cody back to me. then turns and stares out the window. A gentle knock sounds out.” Jagger stares painfully at me. and I turn to see Ava step in the room. No one will see it. I slide out after him and then go around to unbuckle Cody.” I say simply. fuck Willow. I take him my arms and walk inside. Shit. he stares at the beach house and emotion flickers across his expression. I get into my room. I don’t want it followed. I have to. “Just don’t touch me. I clamp my eyes shut and swallow down my tears.” “Right. slam the door and put Cody on the bed.” “Please. When he’s safe. When I get in. I strap Cody in and sit beside him. I stiffen. Ava. I keep walking down the hall. he knows it and he’s still doing it anyway. .“Nah. I have to believe that. When Jagger walks through the door. not looking back at Jagger. When we pull up. let’s go then. “Don’t tense like that. I can’t. I should have rode shotgun. He nods and slides out of the car. She rushes over and wraps her arms around me. I feel like I’m going to be sick.
“we can’t talk. I’ll be back soon. I can’t.” “Just let me speak. I need to clear my head.” I shriek. “We’ll talk about the plan when you get back. Jagger stares at me when I walk out. I’m barely holding it together. Jagger is panting and heaving too. I lean over and grip my knees. he kept up with me and I didn’t even hear him. I know it’s hard. I hear Jagger call my name. I gave you a chance to speak and you threatened my life. “Please.” “Willow.” “I know that too. just leave me alone. but I don’t stop. we have to.” “NO!” I scream.” “You want to go for a run? I’ll take Cody. “No. but at least he’s ok. I round the rocks at the left end of the beach and then stop. but I refuse to look at him. I…I know enough.” “No.” I turn and walk out the door before he can say anymore. I have nothing to say to you.” “I know.” Ace gives me a sympathetic smile. I flat out sprint.” She sits with me while I change. and then she lifts Cody into her arms and we walk out into the hall. When we get into the living area. When I hit the sand. I spin around. pumping my legs until I can’t feel anything else but the burning pain in my muscles.“It’s going to be ok. everyone is sitting down. “I would.” “We can get through this. “I’m going for a run.” I nod. panting and heaving. can we talk?” “No.” . I run. not right now. fill him in. When I hear footsteps behind me.
Every day Willow.” He grates out in a harsh tone. but right now it’s calling me. punching and hitting him until I’m too weak and my punches become sluggish. Cody was the only thing that kept me going. “Willow!” I dive in. my voice has disappeared. Salt water burns my eyes as I swim harder and faster out to the deep blue. did you? It was all just a big fuck fest!” “That’s not true. pressed against a hard.” I cry. “I’ve barely kept my head above water.” “BULLSHIT! I was on the phone that day. then why are you fucking her again?” “I’m not. “How could you?” I whisper.“I HAD NO CHOICE!” he roars. I haven’t been in the water since I’ve lived here.” Tears are thundering down my cheeks. “Liar. He growls in pain as he stumbles backwards. don’t you dare lie to me. His lips close . instead he tangles his hand into my hair and pulls me forward.” “I knew it was you. I haven’t and wouldn’t lay a hand on Sharleen. “I’m sorry. My life has been empty. I knew it was you and I said that because I hoped you wouldn’t come back.” I lift my hand and I punch him. How dare you. slow motion. pathetic attempts at inflicting pain. warm chest. I was never going to just move on. A hand wraps around my leg.” He doesn’t answer. pulling me backwards and in a moment I’m in a hard set of arms. Did you really think I’d never come for you? We have a son. I was trying to protect you.” I turn and run towards the water. “I was trying to help. I thought about you every day. “Really. “you never cared about me. I lost everything when I lost you. I cry and thrash.
We stare at each other. just feel. I love you. he moves my leg to the side. groaning noise and pulls away. him. His stitches are scratchy against my lips but I don’t care. My body sinks into the sand as Jagger drives . Then he drops me down onto the sand and falls over me. Jagger walks backwards until we are in the shallows.” I grip his shoulders as he jerks his hips back and plunges desperately inside me over and over. what we need. He tastes of Jagger and salt water.over mine in a desperate. It’s a very private part of the beach. I died. it broke in half and it died. holds my shorts to the other side and slides inside me in one. Months I have imagined this kiss. We both know what we want. I cry out. I need to feel him. I grip his face as he jerks his hips backwards and then plunges back in. I love…oh god. salty water that I know didn’t come from the ocean. His tongue connects with mine and I groan. My mind is on one thing and one thing only. but I taste a drop of warm.” He tilts my pelvis upwards and drives his thrusts deeper. My heart fucking died without you Willow. and we don’t want foreplay. “Jagger. imagined tasting him again. Water is still flowing up and it fills my ears every few moments. hard thrust. He presses his forehead against mine as he shifts and tears down his jeans. “Every fucking second. but right now I don’t care. desperate pleasure. I groan and open my mouth to him. but it’s soon replaced with scorching. When he’s freed himself. before draining back out again. I lost my reason for living. I lost my moment. and neither of us needs to speak. Imagined how he would smell. Every fucking minute. a pinch of pain jolts through my body. not bothering to take them off. All I care about is him. His hands move down my body and he finds my shorts. but it’s bliss. Jagger’s eyes are closed. He makes a ragged. how he would feel. The waves wash up over our bodies and I can taste the salt all over him as I lick and suck his neck. wrapping my legs around his waist. I never stopped thinking about you. We both know what we want. passionate kiss. I whimper when he slides them to the side.
the feeling of his cock sliding in and out of my damp heat again is mind blowing. like they are no more than a lonely grain of sand. moaning and gripping his back as he gently picks up the pace.” .” I erupt and scream out his name as a mind shattering orgasm takes over.” Jagger grunts. The veins in his neck bulge and his jaw is tight. now. let them see how much I need you. He slides back into me. I close my eyes and a silent tear slides down my cheek.” His thrusts become desperate.” “Fuck it. “Hold on. “Fuck. our skin slaps together and waters sloshes around us. passionate and deep. Jagger. just staring at each other. Let them see. We stay like that for long moments. I groan and spread my legs wider as his thrusts become more desperate. Pleasure explodes through me as I rise higher and higher towards my release. I groan and my eyes flick towards his. His eyes are intense. “Jagger. I arch up to him. “Hold on baby. Jagger kisses it away and continues to move his hips. nearly there. I feel my eyes widen.harder and faster. Jagger’s head drops and his forehead rests against mine again.” “I can’t. I care about anything but you right now. more…please. Jagger roars his release and I can feel him pulsing deep and hard inside me. He’s hard again and oh. fuck.” I whimper. he’s lifted his head and is staring at me now. Our cries blend together and are carried off in the wind. How much I crave you. So much he wants to say. “Now. oh god…” “Hold on. How much I fucking love you. then pulls out and repeats the blissful process. I don’t care.” Love me? Oh god. When Jagger jerks his hips. “Someone could see. He grips my top and lifts it. so much he can’t. sliding my bra aside so he can close his mouth over my nipple.
crushing me to his chest and holding me so tightly that my breathing becomes labored but I don’t care. “Stop that.” “I can’t bear it. I left you to raise our son by yourself. He smiles and flicks it. It is everything I could have ever wanted our reunion to be. “I’m so sorry baby. come on. All I need is him.” I shake my head.” I nod.” “I have to baby. A moment later. As I begin shuddering around him once more. he grunts and his own release follows once more. I cry out and cling to him as he drives every last delicious shudder from my body. You should never be sorry for what you did. all by yourself. “No. Gee. Jenny and Ava made sure of it. “Come on.” We stand and we’re both soaked and covered in grainy sand. “I don’t get a choice. you were brave and strong and you saved me from a terrible outcome. biting my lip.He uses his free hand to tilt my hips upwards as he drives desperately in and out. and then he grips my hands and pulls me up. his groans fill my ears and tip me over the edge. I… “Nothing will happen.” “He’s perfect Willow. and we begin walking back to my house. we should get back. This time. he sits back and slides out of me.” I pull back and meet his gaze.” “If something happens to you Jagger. “I will come back to you and I will get us out of this mess. . “I know.” he interrupts. “I can’t bear you going back. I left you alone. I only have two days and I plan to make the most of it. so fucking perfect. He jerks his pants up and pulls my shorts back into place. Jagger.” “You did it alone. The waves continue to wash over us and the moment is perfect.” I whisper. I wonder if they’ll figure out what happened? I roll my eyes and take Jagger’s hand.” I smile and swallow at the same time. “I survived.” I whisper.” he soothes.
I’m sure it was meant to be. “We went for a swim. he has to go back but at least now I know I have a greater chance of getting him back. The girls wiggle their brows at me and I shoot them a scowl. taking the spoon from me. I smile. he does. Angel walks over and slaps Jagger on the back. but she knows I don’t mean it. “Hey little man.” When we arrive back at the house hand in hand. “I think so. .” I smile and stare over at Jagger who is laughing with Rusty.” Jagger says.” He nods.” Jagger looks up and meets my gaze. “Yeah.” “Is that what it’s called now days?” I grin at her just as Jagger walks into the kitchen. I give her my best glare. I just couldn’t deal with living in LA any longer. I let go of his hand and walk into the kitchen where Jenny and Ava are feeding Cody. “How are you feeling?” Ava asks.” “I get it. “So…you two look nice and…wet.” Jenny rubs my shoulder. I smile and look back down at Cody. “As good as can be expected I guess. I smile and take the spoon. considering.” “It was just damn lucky your fight was in Florida this month.” Ava smirks.“Why Florida?” Jagger asks. I guess with Jagger and I fighting the plan wouldn’t be very effective. and Cody grins at me. everyone seems to slump in relief. “I wanted away. and he winks at me. I shrug. “He looks pretty good Willow. I scoop a spoon full of the rice pudding and slide it into his mouth.
congrats man. I smile and for the first time in months I feel like I might just have a chance to put my family back together. wrapping his arms around Ava.” Jenny smiles. “Are you blind?” He chuckles and lifts Cody into his arms. “He looks just like you.” Angel adds. .Cody grins at him. and I see Jagger’s face soften. then to me. “You think?” I raise my brows.” “He’s a beauty. walking into the kitchen. Jagger looks up at her. not blind. leaning against the counter. “Yeah. “No. He’s a real cutie.” Ace says.
I flick my eyes open and realize it’s not day. murmuring his name and thrashing beneath his hold. Jagger tilts my hips to drive his tongue deeper into my heat and I explode. then up my stomach until he finds my hard nipples. He takes my hips in his hands and he slowly begins rotating them backwards and forwards. deep. Then I’m drowning in sensation as a tongue flickers over my clit.” He groans and then he begins talking. deep and low. He slowly slides up my body.” I whisper. His groans spur me on and I begin following the rhythm until he’s mumbling my name and whispering delicious curses.CHAPTER 9 WILLOW Hot lips slide up my thighs and a set of hard hands push my legs apart. When his hot. He shifts his hips to widen my legs and then he’s inside me. “Let me hear that dirty mouth I love so much. because he starts to groan and his hands fist into my hair as he deepens the kiss until we’re so tangled in each other I don’t know where he ends and I begin. He releases my mouth and thrusts into me with slow. the room is dark and the house is quiet. It’s an erotic taste and seems to do good things to him. We’re a mass of arms and legs. in fact. He sucks and bites each one until I’m panting and begging for release once more. He tastes like me…and him. it’s my undoing. measured strokes. causing me to arch my back and fist the sheets. “Talk to me. bodies and lips. . That tongue flicks across my clit again and I groan. God. if I could wake up like this every day. and oh god. I take his face in my hands and I kiss him. licking my belly button. Then he flips us over in one quick movement until I’m straddling him. full and oh so fucking perfect. hard body finally settles over mine.
angry and she hit on me after a fight.” “Jagger?” He chuckles. trying to clench down the jealousy in my heart.” . “I was drunk. I didn’t fuck her Willow. “Baby.” I explode and I hear his guttural groan as he does too.” “Nearly?” I whisper. “Once…nearly. I can feel him pulsing inside me and I realize how much I’ve missed this. Neither of us speaks for a long moment. fuck Willow. “Yes baby?” “Have you had any other women?” He’s silent again for a long moment. and oh god baby. it doesn’t matter. “I see nothing changes. when you’re gone?” He’s silent a long moment. but I decide to break the silence. I couldn’t…but… other things happened. I’ll never get enough. come with me.” “Like?” I whisper. Your little pussy is squeezing my cock. it’s less risky that way.“So fucking wet.” “Jagger?” “Hmmmm?” “Can I call you.” He chuckles. I’ll never get enough of that beautiful little cunt milking me…fuck…I’m going to come. so fucking tight. it feels so fucking good. Come with me. When I roll off and fall beside him. I want to fuck you until you can’t breathe. “Look. you make me dirty. I hardly remember it. “I’ll call you. we’re both panting. you’re still as dirty as you were before.
but at the same time part of me understands it.” I swallow and nod as a tear slides down my cheek. It was horrible and I didn’t let her touch me. I nestle into his chest and just breathe him in. He thought he was never going to see me again. I won’t do it again.” “She wanted to suck me off. because I felt bad that I couldn’t even…get aroused. I wouldn’t do that. but I didn’t want her touching me so I…gave her oral sex. “Willow. because there’s parts of me that have screamed for comfort at times. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW I wake before Jagger in the morning and much to my delight. I can’t say I’m happy about what happened with another woman. “God. I was lonely. I thought I’d never see you again. then he turns to me. Jagger rolls and flicks on the lamp. gasping sound. I look away. it did nothing for me. nor did I fuck her. “Baby.” I nod. I was crushed. “Never again?” I whisper. It wasn’t what you think. I thought you would move on and fall in love. Fucking ouch.” Ouch. and if I was drunk enough maybe I would have taken it too. he’s lying on his back with his . just breathing him in. taking his face in my hands and kissing him softly. I close my eyes and drift off to sleep once more. I understand. no. My heart clenches painfully and I make a strangled.“It matters to me!” I bark. He swipes it away with his thumb. please. Do you understand? I did it for her. I learned that the hard way. feeling tears well in my eyes. I was drunk all the time. I know how that feels and I know the loneliness it can bring. “Willow…” “Jagger.” I nod and wrap his arms around me.
“Wha…” Jagger shoots up causing me to slip and tumble to the side. I wonder… I lie down and gently rest my head on his stomach. and as far as I know. Interesting – I wonder if I can make him come like this? “Willow.hands behind his head. I see the swell of his penis head peek out from under the sheet as it rests heavily against his stomach. Nice. but he’s still just as beautiful. I wrap my hand gently around his length and then slide my mouth forward and close it over the head. half hard and beautiful. I suck and stroke until I feel him swell and then spurt hot and hard down my throat. I slide my mouth over the end of him once more and suck very gently and slowly. The sheet has ridden down and his bare chest is showing. gently working my mouth over the now swollen head of his penis. baby. I stroke my finger over the soft skin and the silver piercings. All this for me? I close my eyes a moment. as well as that delectable ‘V’ near his pelvis. I turn my head slightly and see that his eyes are still closed. staring up at him with a small grin on my face. He swells instantly in my mouth and I feel his breathing become deeper. He’s dreaming. sleeping soundly. I smile. He groans raggedly and mumbles more words that I can’t understand. I roll. Willow…” he mumbles and turns his head to the side. he’s still asleep. I suck a little harder. he shifts a little but doesn’t wake. Jagger is bigger now. then I re-open them and stare down at Jagger with need. He blinks a few times and looks down at his cock. which is still dribbling come all over my sheets. He has new scars on his chest. Jagger mumbles something I can’t understand and his back arches off the bed. I tug the sheet gently. “Did…you just suck me off in my sleep?” he whispers. taking me with him. I reach out and gently stroke the satin smooth skin stretched over taut muscle. His cock spurts come across the sheets and his eyes widen. I run my finger over the raised skin and a pang of pain hits my heart. and it slides further down his body. and Jagger groans lightly in his sleep. “I wanted to see if it worked…” .
“Oh no.” I say. “Hey little man. “It’s ok. “You missed some.” I pout prettily.” He breaks out into a sweet smile and I reach down and scoop him into my arms. Jagger hands the necklace back. leaning in to kiss him.“I thought I was dreaming. “Uh oh. not again. we’ve been here before and it wasn’t pleasant. hoover. Jagger looks helplessly at me. Cody’s lip trembles and he begins to cry. He puts his hand on my shoulders and shakes his head. he leans forward and strokes his thumb over my bottom lip. Jagger’s face drops. Then he slides it into my mouth and I can taste his release.” I hear stirring in the crib by the window and I look over to see Cody beginning to wake. until…” “You came?” He narrows his eyes at me and then grins. rustling his dark hair. who is now staring up at me sleepily. Cody takes hold of Jagger’s necklace before he can pull away. you slept well. I’m not tasting myself Willow baby.” I tease. Cody squeals happily and proceeds to pop the necklace into his mouth. I slide out of bed and pull on a pair of shorts and a singlet. he can have it so long as you don’t look away from him. daddy’s not aware of choking hazards. “Don’t pout at me. I listen with happiness as Jagger chuckles and then unclips the thick silver necklace and hands it to his son. and he quickly snatches the necklace out of Cody’s hands. looking completely flustered. Jagger does the same and then he pulls the sheets off the bed. I hand Cody to him and then cup .” “Aw. I grin at him and then peer over the side of the crib at Cody.” I grin and get up onto my knees. Jagger walks over and sweeps down to kiss his son.
” He slams the phone closed and turns to face me.” “We need to get Angel up so we can discuss this.” Jagger nods rather stiffly and then bounces Cody about as he walks out of the room.” Today? He said he had two days? My heart drops. his eyes are narrowed and his jaw is tight.” Ace is watching Jagger on the phone. and then lift back up to meet mine. not a peep. If he gets sus. . and both smile when I walk in. so I turn and watch too. He’s having a serious conversation. Mick is sus. fuck ya. “go and wake them for me. He steps through the screen and announces. “Yeah. I take the sheets to the laundry and then I walk out into the main living area. “How did you two sleep?” I smile weakly. “It’ll get easier when you’re around all the time.” “Change of plans. “I gotta go back this morning. Jagger’s eyes fall to my lips. I stand and walk over. Jenny. I can see that he’s sorry. “Well. I prepare a bottle for Cody and sit at the table while he has it. “Fuck Mick. this goes to shit.” Ace says. I got it. listening through the screen.” “Cody?” “Really good. I gotta go back. “You said two days bro. Did I miss something? With a sigh. “What?” Ace snaps. Jagger is on the phone and obviously doesn’t want whoever it is to hear his son or anyone else. I bite my lip to stop it trembling.” I close my eyes and drop my head. Jenny smiles and shifts over when I sit. I get it alright? I’m comin’ back today. Jagger is standing out the front and Cody is in his swing on the floor. Only Ace and Jenny are up this early. leaving me alone.his cheek. but it doesn’t take the pain away. I stare at the door.
” I whisper. I walk numbly back to the table and sit down. deadpan.” I snarl. Jagger sits beside me.” “What did you call her?” “I’m sorry Jagger. If it wasn’t for the fact that I know how stubborn you are. It’s the only option. “I know. we’re gonna fix this baby.” I cringe. they can help with Cody. we have resources. Jagger’s eyes pop wide open. taking my chin in his hand and tilting my head up.” “I thought I had two days. if it gets too dangerous I’m out. “We have to go back to LA?” “I have six fights there next month. and Maggie and Aunt Mary are there. but after my experience with that woman. “Ok Willow. “We can keep a much closer eye on you there.” Jagger nods and then sighs. rushing off down the hall. I would pull you out and not let you do this but I know you’re going to whether I like it or not.” Ace says.” “Over my dead fucking body. “LA.babe.” Jagger nods. You’ll need the help if we are going to pull this off. but Maggie is there and she can help. “Willow…” “Maggie I trust.” “I know my limits Jagger.” “So where’s your next fight? Where can we meet up with you next?” Jagger’s eyes fall on mine and don’t move.” “It works. I WILL not leave my son with her.” he says.” Jenny nods and stands quickly. End of discussion. “It won’t be for long. “I know. I won’t leave my son without a . “Yeah. Aunt Satan I don’t.
You need to get in contact with Huck and get as much information on that island as you can.” I whisper. He has it. this isn’t such a great plan. “No. I want you all back in LA so I can keep in contact. Gather anyone you know who is willing to help. The only problem will be taking out the five guards they have escorting them. It’s right near the shore line.” I say carefully. The reason for this is that the girls have one day a week that they get an hour off. We need to be subtle about it because as soon as those girls are off that island. “Jagger. We also need man power. So much could go wrong.” Jagger moves his gaze to me. you get me explosives that I can carry over and begin subtly planting or preparing.” God. “she loves Mick. Jagger eyes them and then begins speaking. “Is there any other way?” He shakes his head. a whole fucking lot of them. this is dangerous. “She thinks she loves Mick.mother.” “Sharleen?” Angel asks. she’ll come good. the button will be pressed and the whole thing will explode. he has access to that kind of thing too. don’t let him tell you otherwise.” “Sharleen could be a problem. “I have a plan for that. If I can get them all on a boat. With some help. then they’ll get off. “Sharleen goes off alive. We need explosives.” .” “What about the girls?” I ask. Jagger looks at his friend. “I gotta go back today. Ava and Jenny appear then. Angel and Ace.” Angel. We’ll do the attack on a Thursday. Angel and Ava look half asleep and kind of pissed off. not to get rid of everyone in one hit. Jagger looks over at me. I don’t like the woman but I won’t kill her. They all go to the far side of the island and talk amongst themselves. We go back once a fortnight to check on things over there.
“Tell me now. “Stop it Jagger. His eyes are wide and he’s panting. He threatened me and said that if I didn’t he would let the other . are we?” I whisper. “Willow!” “I said she was willing to let your father fuck me. She was willing to let you die…” Jagger’s eyes widen. “What did you say?” “I said she was willing to let me die…” “No. Uh oh. “She was willing to let your father fuck me. “I can’t let her die. spinning and sending a vase flying across the room.“We’re not going to help her. Jagger doesn’t break our stare. his chair skitters back so fast it smashes into a nearby coffee table. “Did you fuck my father.” Jagger’s voice is like ice and I freeze up.” he grates out. “What did he do?” “I don’t…” “What did he do?” Jagger roars. instead his eyes become more intense. I didn’t realize that Jagger didn’t know about what Mick had planned for me. He grips my face so hard I wince. or what he did. Willow?” “What? No!” I cry. the next part. Cody begins crying and Jenny quickly takes him from me and disappears down the hall. I’ve never seen him so mad. “He wanted me to sleep with him. what’s wrong with you?” Jagger’s eyes are wild.” Jagger stands.” “She was willing to let me die!” I scream.
men have me. I don’t understand why he’s so mad. he’s gripping the chair so hard his knuckles are white. He made me watch…he made me watch Sharleen suck him and then…made me watch the other men have sex with this woman like she was some sort of dog.” Everyone is staring at me. I know I haven’t told anyone about what Mick did on that island. “He made me kiss him…and…” Something smashes again and I look up to see Jagger’s phone launch across the room and smash into the wall. gripping Jagger’s arm. tugging his arm from Ace’s grip.” “Jagger. I wanted nothing I got on that island. He let me off for the night but he made me…get in bed with him and…” “AND WHAT?” I look down and tears stream down my cheeks. NOTHING!” “Then why didn’t you fight him?” he whispers. “He…” I swallow. his voice hoarse. “Because I was afraid he would let all those men have sex with me. “What else?” Jagger grinds out. quietly shocked. I would rather kiss Mick a thousand times over then to let multiple men have sex with me. I put my head down and rattle off everything else that happened. I lied and said I had my period. If you want to believe that I wanted it. He’s scaring me. From Sharleen’s confessions to .” Ace says gently. let it go. and I realize how bad it must sound now. “Did you want to fucking kiss him?” Jagger roars. He made me prove it so I used my fingernail to slice my flesh so it looked like I was bleeding. It was a choice. “What else?” Jagger barks. then it just goes to show how well you really know me. I stand and I slap him so hard his head swings to the side. “he took me to his room and he wanted to sleep with me. your dad or those men. “How DARE you. man.
he went crazy.” .” “We’re all here.sleeping in that horrid cell. I stare over at him. It has to hurt like hell.” Jagger nods. “Are you ok?” “I don’t want him to go back Jen. Not because of Mick.” Jagger turns back to me. “I hope so. and then walks out the front door. “What just went on?” Ace asks. but god. “Honey. Make sure of it. “Honey. When I’m done. “I don’t know. no matter what happens. I sigh and close my eyes. it’s going to be ok. I sit on the bed and she sits beside me and smiles weakly over at me. Willow. He swings his eyes towards Ace and grinds out. but because of how it must feel to know a woman he once loved turned out to be a liar and a cheat. confused.” “Yes boss. I’m afraid I won’t ever see him again. You have to believe that. understanding. “He got mad at me…” “It was more than that. Not to mention she never really cared for him the way she said.” I nod. Jagger looks up at me and his eyes meet mine for long moments. “Yes…I swear. and I’m really sorry for that. “Sharleen goes free. if I lose him again…” She takes my hand and gives it a reassuring squeeze. swallowing back my tears. slamming it. I don’t know how he’s going to react.” Jenny nods. no matter what.” “I know. is Jagger doing drugs?” I peer out the window to where he’s walked away and whisper. “Stay away from Mick. you know Ace and Angel will do everything they can.” I nod. I feel terrible. but then she answers to me.” Then I stand and walk into the room where Jenny is watching Cody.
” I giggle and kiss Cody. considering he’s leaving in a few. no way. “No. always running around after Jagger and the boys.” “Mom will be happy?” She laughs softly. “Are you coming back to LA?” She nods. “Of course. he can see him before he goes. He wouldn’t be if he wasn’t content. “I guess I should go find my bad boy.” I pull on a light coat and walk out. You can’t be expected to be perfect.” Jenny takes Cody. Willow. I climb over the slippery mounds until I am perched beside . just staring out at the ocean. “Thank you. I’d never leave you alone Willow. Jen.” “I feel like I’m always leaving him. You’ve been through a lot and Cody is a happy baby.” “Jen?” “Hmmmm?” “Do you think I’m a bad mother?” Her eyes widen and she gasps. now go get that hunk of meat and make him kiss you…a lot…before he goes. “Oh yeah. Then before that it was my own wallowing and…” “Honey. you’ve done the best you can with what you’ve got. I’ll look after Code’s.I turn to face her. she’ll be happy alright.” I smile.” I pull Jenny in for a hug and whisper.” “Are you sure?” “Yes. “Go.” “Always. I end up half way down the beach when I find Jagger sitting on some rocks. You need this time. “Be back soon little man.
him.” I close my eyes. I promise you.” He nods stiffly and I feel awful for him.” I narrow my eyes at him. We’re going to be ok.” He turns to me. “I’m sorry Willow baby…what I did back there…” “Are you taking drugs. I’ll stop. Jagger reaches across and takes my hand. “Don’t you think like that. his eyes are pained and oh god it’s killing me. his blue eyes scan my face. “Jagger. because I can’t let my son see that again. promise you’ll…” . “I know this is hard. you have to stop. He turns to me. Without you I drowned and the thought of going back…” I grip his jaw and turn him to face me. you’re my life. “I’m sorry baby.” “Don’t make promises you might not be able to keep. for you and me both. I squeeze his hand. Jagger?” He stiffens and his hand clenches around mine. just enjoying the crystal blue water crashing against the shoreline. I swear to god.” “If anything happens to me. “Jagger. You’re my sunshine. “I can’t have my son around that. you can’t think like that.” “I hope you do. you scared me in there and…” “And what?” he whispers. but we have to hang in there. “Not really but…” “But?” “Mick had me take steroids to bulk up. I stare out at the ocean for long moments too.” I whisper. “Baby girl.
putting my hand up. “Don’t do that. sexual dance.” “Good.” “I promise. He pulls back panting and runs a thumb over my swollen lips.” I’m not sure who I’m trying to convince. pulling him forward. He grips my chin and pulls my lips up to his. We’re going to be fine.” I say. “Coz’ I’d fuck them up. He moans and snakes his tongue out. I groan and take hold of his neck.” he says standing.” I smile.“Stop. tangling it with mine until our lips are moving in that perfect. When they mesh together. “Those lips are mine baby. There’s my man. . Me or him. promise me you’ll never let anyone touch them.
Magic. My chest clenches knowing he has to leave and knowing I can’t change that. He steps forward and grips my hips. “Baby. I don’t know when I’ll see him again. I’m fairly sure I’m a little burned down below. I know he has it in him to go again though. again?” “Once more Jagger. please.” We’ve already done it again this morning when we got back from the beach.CHAPTER 10 WILLOW I’m under the shower while Jagger makes more calls. I finish washing myself and get out of the shower just as Jagger walks in. then leans down to lick a droplet of water off my neck.” “Please. His eyes trail down over my body and he snakes his tongue out over his bottom lip. Jagger grips my hips and lifts me. “I don’t care. He drops to his knees and spreads my legs wide. He leans in and rubs a thumb over my heated flesh.” . we’ve had sex four times now and once…or twice…was in salt water. I whimper and press myself to him. I feel a flush creep up my cheeks. I wash my body. “You’re red. I grind against him. His clothes soak up the water on my body in seconds. but I’m also desperate. depositing me on the bench beside the sink. Ok. I’m sore yes. wincing a little at the pain between my legs. I don’t know when I’ll feel him moving inside me again.” I whimper. I hate that. Part of me fears it will be never. I really do. Oh my my my. but I shove that back down right away.
I cry out as a sharp sting of pain shoots through me and almost enhances my orgasm. doesn’t it?” He’s still moving his hips softly. “It hurts.“Baby…” “Jagger please?” He leans in and touches the tip of his tongue to my clit. confused. using my hands to steady myself. I watch as strand after strand of come spurt onto my skin and begin trickling down my chest. that’s so fucking erotic. “Baby…” he groans. I want the pleasure too much to care about the pain. He swipes a drop of come off my chest and . I cry out and bury my head into Jagger’s shoulder. I’m still shuddering when he plunges inside me and instantly I come again. He lets his cock go and jerks it a few times. I groan and arch my hips up off the bench. When he pulls out and grips his cock tightly. I feel awful. Oh god. I’m raw. sliding his tongue up and down my painful but wet flesh. then he pulls his jeans up and drops to his knees in front of me. When I stop shuddering though. but when I nod he stops. Jagger is up and yanking down his jeans before my eyes open. Jagger groans and jerk his hips further into my mouth. Knowing he needs it as much as I do. Jagger groans and his hand works the last of the come from his cock. I slip off the bench and drop to my knees. say yes baby. he’s hard. I taste myself on him and it’s quite erotic.” I whisper. sore and it feels as though sand paper is rubbing me the wrong way. He grips my hips and drives his tongue in deeper. taking him in my hands and running my tongue over his head. When I tip over the edge with a scream. I whimper and take him deeper. a mixture of pain and pleasure shoot through me. I peer up at him. red and throbbing. I groan. the pain becomes quite intense. letting him thrust into my mouth. please?” “Yes. “I want to come on you. He pulls out and stares at me. and then he is spurting hot and hard across my chest. not wanting to ruin this for him.
you’re the only girl who could ever make me feel that way so many times over. his eyes becoming lusty once more. “No. “Gonna miss you baby. I turn to get out only to slam into Jagger’s bare chest.” “Are you still sore?” I nod. pressing his lips to my temple. watching it slide down my body and then disappear down the drain.brings it to my mouth. turning it on. He wraps his arms around me and pushes me back against the wall. “I’ll miss you too.” “Be good for me. I suck his release off his finger and he groans.” I bury my face into his chest and let some silent tears slide down my cheeks.” he orders. “So fucking perfect with that mouth. do you need me to get something for you before I go?” I giggle into his skin. “Apparently. “Suck.” . sliding my cheek up and down his chest. shower again. “I’m sorry. won’t you?” “You know I will. I step in quickly and wash his release off.” He stands and opens the shower door. I open my mouth and let him slip his finger inside.” “Come on.” “I’ve never fucked so much in my life. Jagger. it’ll fade.” I smile and stare down at my chest.
I reach up and cup his cheek. His dark hair is pressed to his forehead.I smile and peer up at him.” “Stay safe for me.” “You do that. his blue eyes are intense and his lips are quirked up in a half smile. Willow baby. back off. This conversation is finished.” ~*~*~*~ JAGGER “Where were you Jagger?” Mick is pacing the room.” “If I find out you’re seeing her…” “Do you really think I’d do that to her? Make her your fucking sex slave? Or someone other dirty bastards? Over my dead.” “My life. Jagger Black. “Mick. I do enough for you Mick. fucking body. “I don’t have to answer the fucking phone every five minutes. please?” He strokes a thumb over my bottom lip and then kisses my forehead. what the fuck is it to you? I haven’t done anything I shouldn’t. Mick. I’m staying at my place on my days off. “I love you.” “Right back at ya.” “Why didn’t you answer your phone?” I spin on him. That pathetic attempt at a gang live in that complex.” “No you’re not. “I promise. I go off all the time when it’s my days off.” . I find your woman. stopping to glare at me every now and then.
“You’re a fucking bastard, anyone ever tell you that?” He smirks, “Every day.” I turn and walk out of the room, not bothering with a response. The jerk can go fuck himself. I can’t believe I was spawned by such a fucking pig. I walk down the long halls of the house we’ve rented. It’s huge, eight bedrooms and right over the other side of LA. Mick did that on purpose and I know it’s going to be hard to contact the boys and Willow. I have no doubt he’ll track my phone. Luckily for me, I thought ahead. One, I scoured my bedroom for cameras. I’m not stupid, he’s trying to catch me out. After smashing every ornament and scanning every square inch of every surface, I’m pretty sure there’s no cameras. I then got myself a small pre-paid phone. I gave the number to the boys and Willow, but told them never to ring unless it was an absolute emergency. I keep that phone in my safe, with all my cash. Mick can’t get into that. As for the cars that follow me every time I leave the house, I’d just have to find a way to lose them when I wanted to go see my lady and son. When I get into my room, I shut and lock the door, then pull out the phone from the safe. I punch in Willow’s number and send her a text. I can just image her pretty eyes lighting up when she sees it. I hope to god it gives her something to hang onto, if I lost her…no, I can’t fuckin’ think about that now. J: Hey baby, missin u. A minute later my phone buzzes. I grin, seein’ her name on the screen makes my damn day. W: Hey hot stuff, I miss u 2. Cody’s misbehaving. I wish I was there with my son. A stab of pain shoots through my heart. He’s missing out on me, the sooner I get this done the better. J: Sorry I can’t be there. What’s wrong? W: Just wind. He’ll be fine. He’ll only scream for a few hours…. :-S
J: Fuck. That’s not good hey? R u sleepin? W: Nah, not really. I miss u 2 much. J: Me too baby, I’ll come and see u as soon as I can. W: When’s ur next fight? J: Can’t tell u that baby, I know u 2 well. W: Bully. I want 2 c u Jagger. J: I know, but I’m not riskin’ ur life. Hey, I gotta go. Call u later ok? She doesn’t reply and an image of her sitting on her bed with tears running down her face crosses my mind. Fuck. I miss her so god dammed much it burns.
CHAPTER 11 WILLOW
The feeling I get when I walk into Jagger’s old place is overwhelming. Everything is basically as he left it, except I can see the boys have cleaned it before I arrived. I stand in the lounge for a long while, just staring at the furniture and thinking of him. I hold Cody tighter in my arms and slowly make my way down the hall. When I get to Jagger’s room, I hesitate. Do I want to open this door and go in there? I slowly push it open and feel my chest constrict as I step inside. A pair of Jagger’s jeans are thrown over the back of the couch. Two shirts are on the bed like he’s pulled things out quickly. His bed is made, but I don’t think it’s freshly made. I walk over and lay Cody and I down on the soft mattress and inhale, and I can smell him. I feel a tear slip down my cheek and drop onto the pillow. Oh I miss him so. “Honey?” I don’t lift my head when I hear Ava’s voice. She walks over and slides in behind me, wrapping her arms around me and holding onto me. “It’s going to be ok, he’ll be here with you before you know it.” I nod weakly. “I don’t want to disturb you, but…we have some visitors.” That sparks my attention, I roll, taking Cody with me. I place him between us and stare at her, “Who?”
” I manage. her eyes scan over Cody as though she’s looking to see if he’s really Jagger’s. I smile. I smile as she rushes over. snotty voice. May I?” She stretches her arms out and I smile. he needs to sleep.” I groan.“Aunt Satan and Maggie.” “Let me look at him. they stop talking. pulling back. “We can’t be long. handing him over. I’m so glad you’re ok. look at him. “Sweetheart. I wish I could kick her. “Oh Willow.” she says in a small. “Are you serious?” “Jagger made sure Maggie knew you were here.” “It’s good to see you. good to see you. Snake. .” “Come on.” We both stand and I pick Cody up.” “It’s a good excuse at least. his little eyes are drooping and I know he’s well overdue for his nap. Mag’s. I’ll stick with you. throwing her arms around me and pulling me close. Lies.” “Maggie I can deal with. Mary is by her side now. Aunt Satan I can’t.” she whispers. Maggie presses a hand to her chest when her eyes fall on Cody. They’re both standing and talking to Angel and Ace. I was so worried about you.” Ava says deadpan. “It sure is.” We walk out of the apartment and I see Maggie and Mary right away. “Willow. “You too. When they notice me.
. I hope we can come visit again soon?” “Of course. “Yes really.” She hands Cody back.” “Really?” I glare at her. I’d love that. He looks just like Jagger. “He’s so perfect.” she snaps at Maggie. “Yes.” She points her nose to the sky. Come over anytime. I want to know how my boy is doing?” “I wouldn’t know. kissing his little face once more. “No.” Maggie looks over at me and our eyes meet. “I find that very hard to believe. I’m guessing he has spoken to her but not Aunt Satan and I wonder why. that makes me feel momentarily amazing when Aunt Satan glares at me. we have to make the shops before they close.“Jagger’s son is very lovely. Maggie snuggles Cody. yes wicked witch. just give me a call. I haven’t. if you have time?” “Of course. “I’d love to have a coffee tomorrow. “I see you’ve been speaking with him then?” Hmmmm. fly away home.” I made sure I only said Maggie’s name. Maggie. “Maggie.” She gives me the eye. I’m assuming she knows but I’m weary anyway.” Jagger’s son? What am I then? His incubator? Hag. our son is lovely. which tells me she knows Jagger and I have seen each other.
“How are you. She embraces me when she notices me.” “Thanks mom. “Thank you. “I know right? What a hag. Jagger will be so proud. “Oh well. “God she’s a piece of work!” she giggles. When she steps into the house. I put Cody down for a nap and while he’s asleep my mother comes over. and I let her. I see that she looks well.” She pouts. so do you. good.” I smile weakly.” “Where’s my grandson?” “He’s asleep. My mother perches on a stool and smiles across at me. do you have time for coffee?” I stare over at Ava who nods and shrugs. sorry. Aunt Satan doesn’t look back at me. Willow.“You did a great job. Jenny told her we came back and she was thrilled. “You look well. That does make me happy. I turn to face Ava and she bursts out laughing.” “Where’s Jenny?” .” She hugs me again and then they both leave. I want her well.” We both grin and head back into the apartment. I nod at my mother and I walk into the kitchen to turn the coffee machine on. I’ve been trying to avoid her as much as possible but I knew eventually I’d have to face her. don’t come back either. feeling a slight amount of comfort in her arms. Willow?” “I’m well. just settling in. soon we’re both laughing. Her eyes are glowing and she looks radiant.
I know. “He’s a good guy mom.” “Because the man you chose was so much better. those men are no good. this is delicious. “Willow. you don’t know even half of the story. yes. I know. “Don’t you?” “No. of course not.” Ouch. She stares at me wide eyed.” “I just don’t want you to get hurt.” . you can’t choose for us who we date.” “He’s very rough. he’s…interesting. “And what situation is that?” I snap. he’s good to her. you’re not exactly in a good situation right now. I don’t want her to end up in the same situation as you.” she whispers into her hands.” “It’s hardly Jagger’s fault.” “Well…” “Don’t mom. Oh yes. I’m a horrible child.” Her eyes widen and I immediately regret my words. That was unfair. I’m sorry ok?” “You just want to punish me. I think. He’s a good man and so is Ace. Ava stares at me and shakes her head.” “I met that man she’s seeing the other day.” “Oh Ace?” “Yes.” I smother a smirk at the look on her face.“She went out. “Mom.
but she’s trying too. I sigh and slump against the bench.” She stands and looks at Ava and I once more before storming out. ok? I do and I will try to fix it.” “I’m having a hard time mom.” I whisper. He grins and kisses her softly. I’ll make it better. “Don’t!” “Willow.” “I hope you’re right.” “I know. but I’m trying which is more than you can say for yourself. “I’m trying Ava. I thought you of all people would understand.” Ava pats my hand.” Her face pales. “What’s that supposed to mean?” “I don’t mean it like that. then smiles over at me. isn’t it time to let go?” I stare over at her.“Then why are we always fighting? I’m trying to make a relationship with you and you won’t let me. you got a minute?” . “Right now things are hard. Ava walks over and opens it to reveal Angel. everything will get better soon. will you? I made a mistake Willow and I’ve paid for it every day since. “Hey Angel.” “I know.” She looks away sadly. Ava stands beside me and opens her mouth to speak but I cut her off. what’s up?” “Hey girls. staring out into the car park. I mean that sometimes things are hard and we do things we wouldn’t usually. but things aren’t great right now. “You’ll never forgive me. I don’t know what I can say or do to make it better. A moment later a knock sounds out at the door.
but…oh no. I vaguely remember his face. where’s Jen?” Why does he want to know where Jenny is? “Um.“Is everything ok?” “Sure.” I swallow and stare at Huck. it’ll shock you. Be warned. My head swims and Ava grips my arm. it’s why we haven’t seen much of him. out I think. He shakes his head. Ace is beside me in minutes. I knew it as soon as I walked through the door. “Did you know?” I whisper hoarsely to him.” “Jagger?” “Yes. but I’m sure he didn’t look like this before.” “He knew?” “Yes. “Only Jagger did. This can’t be happening. Cody begins to stir and numbly I lean down and pull him into my arms. This is too much. He stirs a little but quickly falls back to sleep. I skid to a halt when I see the man sitting beside Angel at the table. We follow Angel towards his apartment and he opens the door for us. It’s officer Huck. “Did you know about this?” I whisper. taking him and steadying me when I sway a little. Huck is Jenny’s father.” Ava and I exchange confused glances and I quickly go and put Cody into the pram. who stands and walks over to me. . God up close he’s so like her it burns. why?” He nods his head towards his apartment. This can’t be happening. she’s silent and staring. “Come and find out yourself. letting us in.
He met your ma one night up at a club. we graduated together. so I didn’t contact Jennifer. I used to go over and help her. One night. When she went away. His eyes and her eyes are that same light green. and then he turns back to me.” “And you did nothing?” I cry. His skin is creamy just like hers but it’s the shape of his face. “Only for the last few years. it just didn’t click. It was risky and a bad time. I was in deep then. Ace sits on a chair. Jenny wasn’t there and I was in a bad place. rocking Cody lightly and I can see he’s already gone back to sleep. that was before you were born. your momma was sick and…” “She had the right to know!” Huck nods. Huck sighs and stares out the window a moment. we were friends and he wasn’t there. It’s scary. “Wasn’t my place Willow.” “Did my father know?” . It was only a few years ago that she told me whose child it was. his expressions and his build that is nearly identical to her. “I met your dad through the academy. I had dangerous information. I’d become involved in the case that your father was working on with the gang. I heard she had a child but I assumed it was Kane’s so I did nothing.He nods.” He nods and indicates the couch. Anyway. and I want them now. “I’m sorry Willow. The only difference between Huck and Jenny is that his hair is medium brown and hers is more like mine and moms. We all became friends. Why don’t I remember this? I saw him when my father died but…it didn’t click. we had a few drinks and…it started and…well…I wanted to help her so I continued seeing her. he started working more and more and when you came along your mom was struggling. I’ve tried to stay out of this and…” “How did Jagger know and why do you owe him so much? I want answers Huck. I sit down and he sits beside me.
when Jagger and his gang originally got busted by your dad and the cops tried to take him down. “Yes.” I whisper. so I made a deal with him. “I was hoping you would help me out with that. Strangely enough.” I feel a little bad for my father at this point. even though she wasn’t his. but I want to know her.” “And Jenny?” He looks me right in the eyes.He shakes his head. All I want to know is if you’re going to help us?” Huck nods. Now your mother is out of the institution…” . but I’m glad he never knew it was someone he trusted so much. He had information on something I needed. “Ok. Jagger’s been good to me.” I say. it’s my middle name. and he’s helped me out a lot with my own personal battle.. He was kind to her.” “She’s going to be heartbroken. whatever. isn’t it?” “Fine.” “So you bribed him?” Huck nods.” “I know. “It’s how it works. “He knew she started seeing another man but he didn’t know who.. I remember how lonely it was without him. I also understand why my mother had an affair.” “He was always gone. shaking my head. “I basically raised Jenny. I don’t even want to get into that right now. he also knew Jennifer wasn’t his. Your mother was too afraid to use my last name because she was scared your father would hurt me if he found out. I owe him. If he gave me the information. I would help him and his gang out of any trouble they got into. How did he not know. I helped him. I am. her last name has always been Lawrence?” “Because that’s not my last name. “What about Jagger? How does he fit in all this?” “Well.
but his part in this is over. “You know she’s out?” He nods.“Wait. Two wrongs don’t make a right. bag full of groceries.” He nods. By now he’s looking at her and slowly standing. I follow her gaze and see Jenny standing at the door. staring at Huck. “Your father wasn’t a saint.” I shoot daggers at him. “No. Huck. I know she can see it. it’s quite daunting for me too. and this mistake is on you and you alone. putting my hands on my knees. This isn’t just on me. Willow. Then she turns and runs. rocking her while . By then I’m panting and I double over. Willow…” I look over to where Ava has said my name in an odd tone. sobbing madly. You have to understand.” I rush out after her and catch her only when we hit the beach down the road. you made the choice to be with my mother and sneak around. no. watch Cody please. “My father wasn’t a saint. Will I ever forgive him for what he did? No. She drops to the sand and covers her face with her hands. she contacted me and told me she was out.” I mutter.” “Should have thought of that before you started having an affair with my mother behind my father’s back. You can’t blame him for it because in the end you made the choice. I drop down beside her and pull her close. but she’s already backing out the door shaking her head.” I say. cutting him off. She told me more about Jenny and how to contact her. “I’ll go. looking down. but he gave his life for me in the end. “Yes.” “And you didn’t?” He looks sheepish. Yours isn’t. I see the exact moment it registers and the bags drop from her hands. Ace steps closer to her. Damn girl can run. You…no one else. “Um.
Did you see his face? He wants to be in your life. When she pulls back to look at me. He wants to see you. he looked like he was going to cry.” “He wasn’t around!” she cries. and they all made mistakes. It was a bad time.” “I know. “I’m sorry. Don’t hate him until you at least hear him out.” I nod. Jen. It’s normal to wonder if she’s good enough. your father or our mother.” “How did this happen?” I rattle the story off quickly and her eyes widen. but he is now. to get to know you. tears are streaming down her cheeks. “I know.she cries and trembles.him. If he’ll look at her and be proud. “Just found out then. “I don’t know who I hate more .” She nods and takes my hand.” “All along…oh god…all along. “Did you know?” I shake my head. he is going to love you because it’s impossible not to.” “What if I’m not what he expected?” I know how she feels.” She blinks at me. “Baby. “I…don’t know how to face him.” . swiping her tears away with my thumb. “I…we’ve talked about him so many times and all along he’s been that close. I’m so mad.” “Don’t hate any of them Jen.” “Did he know?” “Only for a few years.
look. “Ok. do it whenever you’re ready to do it.” I pick take Cody from Ace’s arms and hug Ava one more time before leaving. Ace walks over and squeezes my arm. I still want to know why though. his breathing is ragged. I feel so alone. seriously. especially not when so much was going down. standing and walking over.” “It wasn’t his place Willow. . I’m happy but I can’t stop the hot tears that stream down my cheeks. I’m going to take Cody back and rest. I swallow down my emotions. I see Jenny and Huck embracing and I’m happy for her. “Of course. When we step back into the apartment. and I can see that she’s pale and panting.” she says standing. because this is about my sister now. “Fine.” “I need to speak with Jagger and find out why he didn’t tell me.” They step outside and I feel my shoulders slump.” “Are you sure you’re ok?” Angel asks. “I…I never…” “Can we talk?” Jenny squeaks out.“Then don’t do it now.” “Ok. I’ll see you all in the morning and we’ll go over the next part of the plan. She’s so nervous and I don’t blame her. “She’ll be fine. As I’m walking back to my apartment. you did a good thing keeping your cool. I’m tired. tears thunder down her cheeks.” We walk back slowly. I guess so. Huck walks over and stops in front of her. I feel a crushing feeling in my chest and a touch of jealousy. I really don’t.” I nod. she has a chance.” “No. “I have to do this now. Huck stands and their eyes meet. She has a father that loves her.
baby. I’ve been going over everything all afternoon and I feel a little betrayed that Jagger knew all along and it didn’t tell me.” I hear him shuffle and he says.” “How’s Jenny taking it?” “As far as I know.” “What’re you doing?” “Just sitting in bed. Huck was involved too and if anyone found out she was his…” “I get that. “Cody misses you.” “Not my place.” I say into the phone later that night when Jagger calls.” “Miss you too baby. “Willow. “It’s been a long afternoon. it was dangerous for Jenny.” I sigh. “That’s good.CHAPTER 12 WILLOW “You didn’t tell me. pretty well. but you still could have told me.” “I miss you.” he says in a soft voice.” .
” . and you know what else?” “What?” “I’m naked.” I hear silence. and I feel a smile break out on my face. I haven’t smiled for a good few days and it feels nice. I can’t have you so…” “So?” I lower my voice so it comes out husky and thick.” His voice goes hard quickly and I feel bad for him. you want me to wank myself?” “Yes. in a husky tone.” “I want you.” He hisses through his teeth. “He will. “Oh?” he says.“Cody doesn’t know me.” “Yeah. I know that must hurt. “I want to hear you come. “Oh. “Fuck girl. “Where’s this goin’ baby? Coz’ the images are doing good things to me. I know. you know he will.” “Hey Jagger?” “Hmmmm?” “I’m not sore anymore.” “Then you have to return the favor. thinking of me.” I actually hear him swallow.
” “I’m stroking it. slowly. My body jerks and a bolt of pleasure shoots through me. “You want me to tell you all the things I’d like to do to you?” “Yes. and I’m wet. “Way ahead of you.” “I don’t know what made me hardest just now. baby. “First I’m gonna suck those pretty nipples until they’re pink and hard. It’s hard and swollen.” I slip one finger inside my heat and groan. “oh yes.” “More. baby. “Jagger.I grin.” I groan. hard for you.” I whisper.” “Fuck. rubbing myself harder. “You like that don’t you? When I say cock?” “Yes.” “What are you doing?” “Pullin’ it out. you touching yourself or you calling me baby…” I chuckle softly and then moan when I slide my finger over my sensitive nub. I’m wet.” I whimper. Oh god. It’s fuckin’ hard baby.” “What?” “My cock. sliding my hands down my stomach and settling it between my legs. Then I’m going to slide down that body and find that pretty little pussy and slip my fingers in. I won’t last long at this rate. using my thumb to make you . oh the image of his beautiful hands wrapped around that beautiful cock.
I’m so close. I’m going to feel you come around my tongue. arching and rubbing so hard it nearly hurts.” I hear him groan raggedly and it’s my undoing.” . “Fuck. You want me to come?” “Yes!” I whimper.” “Tell me. “I’m so fuckin’ hard. arching my hips.” “Oh god. When I slump down onto the bed. I’m close. coming…now. He makes a ragged sound. feeling my release rise higher. “Then I’m going to lick that sweet pussy. I’m going to make you scream my name. I realize I’m clutching the phone tightly.” I groan. “Fuck.” “I’m…oh god….” “Jagger. My cock is fuckin’ hard for you baby.shudder. “Then I’m going to stick my cock inside you and fuck you so god dammed slowly you’ll come over and over. more.rubbing. I cry out and shudder as bolt after bolt of pleasure shoots through my body. I’m close.” I cry out.” I groan.” I cry. “Jagger?” “Here baby.” “Oh…god…” “Tell me what you’re doin’ baby.” “You got a finger inside that snug little pussy?” “Yes.
” “I can’t baby. I have to go. I know but I can’t be there.” “I want you here!” I cry loudly. I can’t function. fuck.” “NO!” I scream. “Willow. Are you ok?” “I…” “Aw shit. “Willow baby?” I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out. I’m aching for him so much it hurts.” “Please. I blink it away. I’m so fuckin’ sorry. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. god. come on. Why now? “Baby? Talk to me. I roll to my side and I wail like a mad woman until . don’t go!” The phone line goes dead and I scream loudly.” I scream. “Willow.” “I know. “I can’t sleep. but I am aching for him. I can’t eat. I need you Jagger. come to me.” “Jagger please…” He’s silent and I’m pleading like a small child. It’ll get easier. feeling a sudden urge to cry. “Jagger.” I swallow. but still fuckin’ amazin’. Instead the wall breaks and tears fall down my cheeks.“That was…” “Not as good as you. don’t cry. We had a wonderful moment.” “It shouldn’t be like this. God dammit. Just one night.
“I know kid. “I’m sorry Angel. and stares down at me.” I hiccup.” I spit the words out. I want him here. I know. Instead he sends you. I hear my door open about ten minutes later and I open my blurry eyes to see Angel sitting by the bed. “He called me. told me what happened.” “I want him here. “I’ll get him back Willow.” “I hope so. I know how it feels kid.” Angel takes my hand. I swear it. “because I just can’t take much more of this. and feel bad right away. staring down at me. “He was beside himself with worry. Mick came and he had to go…” “He left me. it’s ok.there’s nothing left. I close my eyes again and I feel my lip tremble.” “I just want to be alone? Can I please be alone?” Angel stares at me for long moments.” “No.” I whisper. .
I am used to this but it still burns. Empty. “All done. just hung up as though her call meant nothing to me. I hung up on her. All I keep thinking about is Willow and how she begged me the other night not to go. “What’s the fucking problem. My shoulders ache and my head isn’t in the game tonight. cracking my knuckles. She prepares the needle and thread and then leans in. Split my lip three different ways.” she says a moment later. pressing a cloth to my lip. I’ll fucking end this. I grumble. It burns more than just my lip. Fuck. I tense. “Fine Jagger. Her eyes scan my face but I refuse to meet them. angry even. It feels blank. I move out of her way and stand.” I don’t answer her.” Sharleen says. I have to end this. Sharleen removes the cloth and groans. Once I loved it. She glares at me. “Want me to do it?” “Don’t you always?” I mutter. That bastard could hit. I hate when she’s this close to me. be an asshole. Winning doesn’t feel good anymore.CHAPTER 13 JAGGER “You need more stitches. I couldn’t get enough of her but now…she makes me sick. Jagger?” . and I return it with full force. When she pulls the needle through my lip. I won all the same.
Nothing is and I hate that. “It’s not one fucking fight. I breathe him in. our reputation. Here I go…again.” I can’t wait to make him pay. shaking his head. wrapping his arms around me and pressing me up against a nearby wall. “Your head ain’t in the game. He buries his nose into my hair and breathes me in. Get it back in. strapping my hands for the next fight. dropping the groceries and I leap on him. Your reputation. “It’s me. I scream but a hand goes over my mouth. settle down. his blue eyes piece mine. inhaling deeply. I wrap my legs around his waist and bury my head into his shoulder. I won’t tell you again son. it’s everything.” “It’s one fucking fight Mick. I’m winning aren’t I?” “You’ve copped more hits tonight than any other night. it’s coming. The sun is setting and I’m alone. I spin around and head back out to the screaming crowd.” Jagger.I spin to see Mick storming in. is sinking.” “I’m fine. she took him so I could go and fetch something for dinner. “What?” I mutter. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW I’m just coming back from the store.” He storms over. He holds me tight. . I spin around. Jenny has Cody at my apartment. something so beautiful just isn’t special to me anymore. just like I’m doing. oh yes. I stare at the sunset and sigh. His day is coming. Oh god. I’m just passing the cars when suddenly someone is gripping my arm and pulling me backwards. winning is hardly the point. I hate what I’ve become. get your head in the game or I’ll fucking make you pay.
you came. Why lord? Why? “You get your monthlies the one time I can see you?” “Isn’t seeing me enough?” I frown. but I can do plenty of things to make that up to you. “Might be. I’ve missed you. “I’ll love you. He narrows his eyes at me and grips my chin. “I guess kissing is out?” I pout. aunt flow is here. I snap my head back and take his face in my hands. “You can’t be serious?” Yep. He meets my gaze and leans in so he’s nearly touching my lips with his. and know eventually they’ll stop looking so pale and begin taking over his beautiful face.” He smiles and it looks like it pains him. no matter what. “It’s fine. He stares at me confused.” I smile and then frown. “Don’t you like me with all these scars?” His voice is bitter. “You picked the worst timing. stroking his lip.” I pull back and look at him.” He closes his eyes and mutters a curse.“Baby. He has a black eye and three lots of stitches in his lip.” I stare at the fading marks on his face.” I whisper. . it’ll heal. fuck. “Jagger.” “Jagger. My mouth drops open and he smiles weakly.
“You know it is. you weren’t. “I knew.” “Willow. you’ve had him twenty four seven since he was born. she beams.“Hey. “I’m sure he’s grown in a week. crossing my arms. You deserve this. “He’ll be fine with me. I’m gonna make it count but first…where’s my boy?” I smile and untangle myself from him.” “It won’t be long.” I swallow and nod. touching my arm.” I giggle. That’s why I’m taking Cody for the night. . “No. covering himself in mashed pumpkin. “I’m missin’ this.” I frown and watch Jagger walk over and scoop him up. turning my face to his. but I hate leaving him. You’ve been up the last week with him screaming.” Jagger frowns. it’s going to be fine.” he says. Jenny is feeding Cody at the table. I have things planned.” “Oh you do.” “I know. He’ll be ok. then turn to Jagger who’s chatting to Cody.” “He has. When she sees Jagger. let you two spend some time with him. do you?” He smirks. “You found her?” “You knew?” I cry. I smile and stand next to him. Jenny giggles and I smile. “I’ve had him before.” “I’ll go get a bag ready.” Jenny says.” “Besides.” she says. and then we walk inside. I wasn’t the only one getting horny. “I’ve got one night.
“Yeah. “You wouldn’t say that if you had him for the last week. Cody goo’s and grips his necklace. touching his cheek.” Jagger nods.” I finish for him. Jagger smiles as much as his sore lip will allow and strokes Cody’s cheek. you’re strong.” I laugh. You’re everything he needs and more. you sleep for your mommy when da…” “You can say it.” He nods and kisses Cody’s cheeks. Jagger snorts. nice word. “Be a good little man for mommy.” “Language. Then he giggles and shoves a fist into his mouth.” “No. “When daddy is away.” “Listen here boy. Jagger. “Don’t you start doubting yourself now.” I say.” I whisper. “Daddy. “He’s a good boy. I’m not sweet and nice Willow. Jagger looks over at me. “It’s such a sweet. brave and beautiful. “Real charmer.” Cody looks at Jagger. “He’s beautiful.Jagger falls onto the couch and I flop down beside him. stares him right in the eye. . Black!” He gives me a little grin just as Jenny re-appears.” he whispers. He looks hesitant to give Cody over. he’s fuckin’ perfect. his eyes are a little lost.” “What if…when I come back…” “Hey. isn’t he?” Jagger grins. she’s doin’ it tough little fella.
“I hope you do though. I suddenly feel a little awkward. “You’re going to shower. then to her.” “I know. you need this as much as I do. “Give us four?” “Done. Jagger looks to me. you’re going to cook for me? Should I be afraid?” .” I suggest. “A little. “Not funny yet?” “Not quite.” He makes an mmmmm sound and nibbles softly at my neck. Jagger stands and walks over. Jagger closes his eyes. “Don’t be. Enjoy.” “Why don’t I just take him for a few hours then?” Jenny suggests. “Call me Jen. if you need anything at all. His stitches are scratchy but I don’t care. It’s been a while since it’s just been just the two of us and I really don’t know what to do. So. When I turn to look back at Jagger.. having him this close makes everything ok. you know I never wanted to hurt you baby.” “I’m just a few apartments down with Ace. he’s staring at me. “No.” I pull back.” I wrap my arms around him and press my body to his. “Nervous?” I grin sheepishly.“We can keep him here.” She leaves and I stare at the door for a long while. “You’re not going to threaten me so I’ll cook for you?” He narrows his eyes and I giggle. I won’t bite.” He leans down and presses his cheek to mine and whispers in my ear.” Jagger hands Cody over and I stand. and I’m going to start dinner. I just hate givin’ him up.. he’ll be fine. kissing him.
I go the entire way to our room smiling. Period or not.” I tilt my head to the side and grin prettily at him. and for the first time in a while.A ghost of a smile plays around his lips and his eyes light up.” “Ew. “Go Willow. “Poor baby. . or I’ll fuck you.” I murmur against his skin. I lean in and kiss around the stitches in his lip. “Oh?” “Get to the shower. “You should be very scared. before I spank that cute little ass.” “Go!” he laughs. it’s real.” “I’d like that. then winces.” He slaps my ass when I turn and head down the hall.
“Baby. then I dress in some light shorts and a tank top. I walk over and stop behind him.CHAPTER 14 WILLOW I shower and shave everything. He spins around a moment later. he looks so god dammed beautiful standing there like that. so I just snuggle into him from behind. takes my hips and turns me so I’m pressed against the bench. I’m grateful my period is pretty much over. When I walk out into the kitchen. I see Jagger standing in the kitchen squinting at a piece of chicken. wrapping my arms around his waist. I’d love that but I have this all planned out and…” “Oh do you now?” He grins.” His eyes widen and grow lusty. “I do. you’re not doing good for my self control. His black shirt is stretched across that beautiful chest and his black jeans are just tight enough to let the imagination roll. He pats my hand and then continues staring at the chicken.” “I could always get on my knees and suck you while you cook. Then he lifts me and deposits me down onto it and nestles himself between my legs. I want to ask him if he wants help but somehow I know that won’t do his ego any favors.” “What’s the plan?” “That’s a secret.” . but pissed it’s not over enough to have a dandy time with Jagger. I smell food cooking and my stomach grumbles for the first time in days. “You smell amazing.
“Don’t fancy helpin’?” “Oh no. I raise my brows. My tomato chicken with mushrooms. Mr. He looks up at me. when…when…” . “Tomato chicken…” I whisper.” “Oh.” “Jagger. “It’s just for a few days.” “Lots of secrets tonight. “Jenny told me how to do it. “Oh?” “I’m goin’ back next week babe. I’ll take them then. then he tosses them into a pan and I realize what he’s making.” He grunts and continues cooking. I watch him slice it and some mushrooms.” “You are. It was the first thing I ever made him. Black?” “You know it.” “What’re you cooking?” He smiles at me.“Oh?” “Yeah oh. but I just want to plant him in my memory and stare at that beautiful face for as long as I possibly can. “Secret. this ones yours big man. but I’m not sure I’m getting it right. focusing his attention back on the chicken. Creepy I know. Ace told me Huck has gotten some explosives ready…” Jagger says.” He stops stirring and turns to me. Week tops. “So. now sit there and look pretty while I cook.” I smile.” he says. I just stare at him.
The creamy tomato sauce is beautiful and the pasta is perfect. I know what you saw over there and…” “It doesn’t matter. “I do but. I don’t blame you for asking. I peek up at Jagger who’s grinning at me with a plate still half full. I slide off the bench and set the table for him.” He gives me that gorgeous half smile and turns back to his cooking.” I warn gently.” He hesitantly takes a mouthful and his eyes widen. I gobble the food down and when I realize what I’ve done.“No. When the food is ready we both sit down. I’ve hardly eaten. “Oh Jagger. He stares at the dish and looks at me cautiously as I take a mouthful. “I’m fine. I don’t touch any of the women.” “Are you just sayin’ that?” “Try it for yourself and see. “Hungry baby?” I flush and look down. “Sorry.” “What?” “Jagger. I just…saw what went on over there. yum. “Willow. I smile at him and take another spoonful. I shouldn’t have even thought it. I’m starving. Oh yum. I don’t want to waste another second talking about that when I could be having you. tonight isn’t about what I saw over there.” . I haven’t eaten for a while and…” “You’re not eating?” he interrupts.” I look away. “I’m sorry.” He puts the wooden spoon down and grips my chin.
” “I am. Willow. “Do you trust me baby?” “Yes. “I want you Jagger. I look at him confused. it’s just hard to when I feel like shit all the time. you know I do.” I part my lips and I feel him slide a square of chocolate into my mouth. but stiffly nods.” I open my eyes and look up at him. “How?” He takes my hand and leads me down the hall and into the main bathroom. He rubs a little of the chocolate over my lips and then slips his finger into my mouth. It’s killing me.” “Why?” “Just do it. One arm wraps around my waist and he leans into my ear. I want to kiss him but I can’t. this time he spins me around and leans down. I groan as it melts on my tongue. gently sliding his tongue out to lick the chocolate from my lips. His erection is pressing into my backside and he’s hard as stone.” He narrows his eyes at me.” “Then you’ll have me. I stand and am just about to turn around when he presses himself up against my back. I lean my head back into his shoulder and sigh as he slides his finger gently over my face.“You should be eating. “Shut your eyes. god. I suck it gently and he makes a ragged sound behind me. I moan when he slips another chocolate into my mouth. .” I shut my eyes and I feel his fingers slide up and over my lips. When he’s finished he stands and clears the plates. I want to kiss him. I can’t even have sex with him.” I whimper. “Open your mouth.
Does he think we’ll have sex in the shower because I’m still not ok with that? I open my mouth to protest but he cuts it off with his finger to my lips. my way baby. not giving me a chance to protest. Jagger steps in a moment later butt naked. “No Jagger. and my eyes settle on his. there’s just some things I can’t let you see. He leans down and gently grazes his lips over my neck and I shudder. “Trust me. Oh my my my. taking in the delicious sensations of his fingers gently stroking my nipples. “Life’s not fair. he’s going the right way about it. sliding it over my head. if he wants to torture me. I keep darting my eyes down to make sure there’s no blood.” “I’ll turn. I quickly strip my clothes off and make sure I’m clear of all protection before slipping into the shower. and while I can’t see any this isn’t really something I want to do. gently kneading them. He reaches for my pants and I stop him. Ok. That body.” He spins me around so I’m facing the wall and then he reaches around and cups my breasts in his hands. and I gasp. “Ah ah. Turn around. I scan his face. He hisses when he sees I’m wearing no bra. I groan and rest my forehead against the wall. I reach out to grip his chest but he catches my hand. baby.” I pout.” “That’s not fair. “Can I touch you there?” he murmurs.” He steps forward and grips my tank top. No arguments. “I…I…” “I need you aroused. It’s awkward. You do what you have to do and get into the shower.” He turns.” .
When he’s pressed up behind me again. When he comes back. like that. He presses a light kiss to my neck. “The water won’t wash this off ok. if it wasn’t for that smile I’d probably be running right now. and my legs slightly parted. God I need that.” God. when he says that. I don’t know…last time…” “If you want me to stop. licking my neck as he does. He steps behind me and uses his foot to widen my stance. Then I realize what is going to happen here. I nod and he slides his hand down and finds my clit. I’ll make this as easy as I can. He finds my clit again and he begins gently stroking.” I am standing with my hands on the wall. but I trust him and I need him. I don’t know why. biting my lip.“But…” “Only your clit. feeling pleasure building inside me. I lurch forward but he catches me with a hand around my waist. . then turns and steps out of the shower a moment. God that smile. “Yeah. but could I deal with that? “Let me try?” I nod. I clench and groan. my body was alive for him right now and I wanted him so badly.” “Jagger. I groan and press myself back into him and find he’s hard and hot against my backside.” Fuck.” I nod. When his finger slides around to that area. I’ll stop. His eyes flash to mine and he gives me a reassuring smile. I’m afraid. “Put your hands on the wall baby.” he murmurs. I let my eyes move down over his erection and I lick my lips. he’s got a tube in his hand. I promise. gently stroking my skin. I tense. I shudder. “I won’t hurt you. it’s water resistant. I stare over at it and swallow. His hands slide over me. He gently strokes it with one hand while the other teases my nipple.
“Hey, it’ll be ok,” he soothes. When he slides a finger inside me, I jerk. He’s very gentle, very sweet. He strokes my clit, bringing my pleasure back to the edge once more. I moan when he begins moving his finger, and soon both his hands are working me over. I whimper as I am close to orgasm, god, I need him inside me. When he pulls his finger back and replaces it with his cock though, I tense again. “You say stop, I’ll stop.” He slides in a little and I whimper. He continues working my clit, rubbing and pinching until I’m gasping with need. He pushes in a little further and a feeling of fullness washes through me. Then, with one hard thrust he’s inside me. I cry out, pain shoots through my body. “Shhh, it’ll get better.” He rubs me gently, I’m wet and oh he feels so good. When I feel myself rising again, he begins to slowly move. The feeling is very different, not quite as pleasurable but very erotic all the same. He’s gentle with me, rocking his hips in a perfectly slow motion while he rubs my clit with his fingers. He wraps an arm around my waist and thrusts his hips a little deeper. “Fuck, this won’t last long baby. Come for me.” He rubs harder and I’m so close, god, I’m so close. He quickens his thrusting and I tip over the edge. I cry out as an orgasm tears through me, the different feeling is quite sensational. I hear Jagger groan a moment later and I feel him pulsing inside me in a very different way. I can feel every pulse of his cock as he releases. When he pulls back, I feel my legs turn to jelly. “You ok?” He’s supporting me with his arm still around my waist and my legs refuse to work. I’m comfortably numb and loving it. He scoops me up and carries me out of the shower, putting me down onto the bed. He wraps a towel around me and then sits, pulling me to his chest. He strokes a hand over my hair and nestles into me, just cuddling me for a long moment.
“You ok baby?” he asks again. “Yeah, I’m ok.” “Are you sore?” “A little,” I admit. “I’m sorry.” “I liked it.” He pulls back and looks down at me. “You did?” “Yeah, it was different.” He smiles and strokes my cheek, “Ready for the rest of your surprise.” I reach up and swipe a thick piece of dark hair from his eyes. “Anything you have for me, I’m ready for.” He stands and looks lovingly down at me, and then he tosses me some clothes. “Get dressed.” I raise my brows. “We’re going out?” “It’s a secret, come on.” I grin and pull on my clothes. Then I run a brush through my hair and throw it up. When Jagger’s dressed too, I follow him out the front door and into the complex. He leads me around the back and I’m confused for a moment, until we step into the tennis court. It’s been lit up with a bunch of party lights and in the middle is a beautiful, round, raised dance floor. It’s wooden and a perfect circle. It’s surrounded in flowers and pretty lights. It reminds me of something you would see at a prom for the king and queen to dance on. “We’re dancing?” I whisper. “We’re dancing baby, just me and you.”
I swallow and my heart clenches. It’s so beautiful, so romantic, and so perfect. Jagger takes my hand and leads me over to the dance floor, and we walk up the few steps. When we’re standing in the middle, I look around. It’s beautiful. The night is clear and warm, there’s soft music playing in the background and we’re alone. “How’d you do this?” I whisper. “Rusty and Bull helped me out.” I look up at him and stroke his face. “Jagger…” “Shhh,” he murmurs and puts out his hand. “Will you dance with me?” “I’d love to.” I hear a song come on and I melt, it’s a beautiful song. The perfect song for the night, for us. Jagger wraps me in his arms and I slide my hands up around his neck. Gently he begins to sway us, our bodies moving softly to the music. His eyes never leave mine, and he begins singing the song lightly to me. My heart melts in that moment, it truly melts. “From underneath the trees, we watch the sky, confusing stars, with satellites. I never dreamed, that you’d be mine, but here we are, we’re here tonight.” Tears stumble down my cheeks, it’s that perfectly beautiful moment that makes everything ok again. It’s the moment that makes all bad things good. It’s that moment that makes us who we are. It’s the moment that just changes everything. It makes me want to keep going, to keep fighting. It makes the distance easier. It just is, that moment. “You did all this for me?” I say in a soft voice. “I’d do anything for you Willow, anything.” He lets me go and I’m confused for a moment, then he drops to his knees. My eyes widen and more hot tears stumble down my cheeks. He reaches up and takes my hand, and then he pulls a tiny ring out of his shirt pocket.
Jenny squeals and jumps up and down. my soul and the reason I breathe. I have taken you to hell and back and I know there’s no reason that I deserve someone like you. and I take his face in my hands. You’ve made me want to be so many things I never thought I could be. I took you. but I’ll never. I smile at all of them. my life. I stand and rush over. desperation but mostly. “What’re you doing here?” I don’t know why. but I can give you my heart and promise you that I’m always going to fight. It makes everything perfect. I don’t deserve you. You’ve changed everything I am. It’s a beautiful square cut diamond. a thousand times. They’re our glue. he slides the ring onto my finger and it’s a perfect fit. I changed your life in good and bad ways. with a white gold band. What’s she doing in the . ruining our moment. my family. Jagger is looking at me with those beautiful blue eyes. “Jagger?” We all turn to see Mary step into the light. I’ll always believe in you and Willow. I can’t give you much right now. his face screams emotion. I’m asking you to say yes because without you. I am nothing. I drop to my knees too. It’s perfect. “Yes.“I haven’t been around. I’ll always love you. letting them all hug me. let me give you all of me. Ava is sobbing and the boys are clapping Jagger on the back. yes. Marry me. I don’t deserve you to say yes to me Willow. Then I hear a voice come from the darkness. both of us clinging to each other like it’s the last time. ever want anything in my life the way I want you. Without you. love. I promise you I’ll always come back. I have no soul. When we finally pull back. but I suddenly feel a cold chill creep through me. You’ve become the reason I wake up every day. but I’m asking you to. You’re my heart. then at all of us. I haven’t done everything I can to make this perfect for you.” I’m sobbing loudly and my tears are dripping down onto my shirt.” He slumps in relief and we crash into each other’s arms. I hear clapping and I turn to see everyone coming out from the darkness. She looks at him confused.
“She probably just heard talking and came over. trust me with this. She’s always been good to me.” “Jagger please?” “Don’t put me in this position Willow. “Can we talk a second?” He narrows his eyes. “I never asked you to choose Jagger. I’m asking you to be careful.” “What's she going to do? She’s an old lady. Something just doesn’t feel right to me. you’re asking me to consider that my family might be lying to me. He turns to look at me. don’t ask me to choose. I don’t trust her.” “Willow. “Jagger.darkness? What’s she doing here at this time of night? I don’t understand. just listen!” I cry. I lead him into the darkness. I call his name.” “Why is she here at this time of the night. confused. but nods. so when he starts telling her what’s happening. Jagger walks over and embraces her. I know you two don’t get along but I trust her. you’re over reacting.” . if you trust me with anything at all. hiding in the darkness?” He sighs.” “She’s like my mother Willow.” “What about me? She’d hurt me. please. I know you don’t get along but she wouldn’t hurt me. sobbing. They’re all I have aside from you.” I gape at him.” “Jagger. that woman raised me.” “Jagger. “No. I won’t ask again. I don’t trust her and I don’t think you should tell her your plans.” “Willow. Drop it Willow. and she wraps herself around him.” “What?” “I just…I can’t explain it but I don’t trust her.
. Something is not right at all. Something is not right.Then he storms off into the darkness and I rub my arms.
“I had no choice. “Then why are you here. Angel said she’s ok.” “I’m not here to make friends. I know why but I can’t seem to get her to believe that Mary isn’t a monster. cheated and oh yeah. She’s over reacting. “What do you want?” I mutter. she’d never hurt me. “Hey Jagger. sometimes you do what you have to.” She glares at me. it’s the only room that has a bar.” She flinches. but I’ve had no luck. I’ve had her in my life forever. “I know you hate me. “Can’t we even talk? Can’t we even try to get along?” “You lied.” . Jagger? Sometimes there isn’t a choice. We had another massive fight over Aunt Mary when she found out I told her about our plans to end Mick. taking a shot of whiskey.” Dammit.CHAPTER 15 JAGGER I haven’t spoken to Willow for three days.” “There’s always a choice. let my father take my girl. you have every right to but I don’t see why we can’t get along. I’ve tried ringing Willow a few times now. She sits beside me and orders a drink from our personal bar attendant. the woman is right about that. I watch her shoot back a shot and turn to me.” I turn to see Sharleen walk into the room I’m in. but she’s not happy about me spilling to Mary.
I’m in love with someone else. end of story. or my father.” “Fine. I’m just asking that we don’t snap and snarl at each other all the time.” “I’m sorry. The woman won’t get a hint. I drink it and she continues trying to talk to me.” “I don’t know if I believe that. my head is fuzzy and I’m easing up. I don’t trust you. I can’t be what you think you want me to be. I know how much you wanted kids. I can’t be nice to you. and there’s a fresh drink on the counter.” She sits asking me basic questions for another ten minutes. or anyone in this damn place. “What did you say?” “I…I saw a notice in an old paper here.” I spin so quickly she drops her glass and it shatters on the counter. When I get up to pee. “What do you want from me Sharleen? You fucked me over. “No. Soon.” “Well. I haven’t felt like this for a while. “It must be hard.” “I heard…I heard you have a son. Jagger.” “Jagger…” I spin on her. Sharleen. “I’m not asking to be your friend.” “I don’t know him. and I’ll do whatever I can to protect her. I guess whiskey was what I needed. She’s still there when I come back. I saw his birth notice.She rubs her head angrily. I can’t change it because I’m stuck fighting to keep them safe from my fucked up father.” I lie. of course not. I lick my lips a few . I find that she hasn’t moved. I heard through one of the boys that she had him.” Why don’t I trust that? “Did you tell anyone?” She shakes her head.
I haven’t seen him. but it sounds slurred. She buries her head into my shoulder and I see a bright flash go off before everything goes black. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW It’s been a week. Angel said the plan is going ahead and they’ve gone to the . I try to reach for my face but I can’t get my hand to work.times. I don’t feel right. “Let’s get you laid down. Goin’ to bed. I think I’ve had too much. Something’s very fucking wrong. I can even feel her taking my clothes off but I can’t stop her. Sharleen has my cock in her hand and I can’t get her off me. helping me down the hall. Something’s just not right about this. “Y-y-y-yeah. but by the time we’re there my vision is almost completely blurred. “You ok?” Sharleen asks. I’ve had far too much.” I stand and stumble backwards. all good. “Shhh baby. kissing my neck and fumbling with my jeans.” The fuck? I try to move but I’m numb. When she’s lying on top of me.” I slur. Holy shit. I can’t even buck my hips to send her flying. I can’t move them. I try to push her away but I can’t move my hands more than an inch. She leans down and makes a groaning noise and wraps my arms around her. but they feel a little numb.” She leads me to my room. it’s going to be ok. “Get off me.” I can hear Sharleen’s voice. “How much did you drink?” “Fucks me. Sharleen stands and grips my arm. I’m lifeless. My legs are heavy and my eyes are drooping.
I did say that but I don’t have Jagger. “Well I’ll be dammed.” I don’t know what he’s talking about. Chills creep up my spine when I recognize that voice. “What do you want?” I manage to squeak.” “That’s not true. “Isn’t it? Where has he been the last week Willow? Why hasn’t he come and seen his lady and his own child?” “Because of you!” I spit. He’s approaching me with a wide grin on his face. Oh god. I don’t trust that woman. You didn’t really think he was coming back to you. I do have a grandson. so I turn slowly and stare at him. If he wants to be mad at me because I’m cautious. I’m walking home from the store one afternoon with Cody in his stroller when I hear my name being called. “No. He’s been…shall we say…busy. I know why he hasn’t called. I feel bad about that but I stand by my feelings.” Oh no. his blue gaze drops to Cody. “Jagger’s fine.” I whisper. do I? Why. I want to run. I offended him.” How does he know about Cody? My blood runs cold. I feel sick. not because of me. did you? The only reason he was seeing you was because of guilt. my boy has been sneaking off to see his lady and baby. better than fine actually. “You said you wouldn’t bother me if you got Jagger.” “Yes.island. . Mick. “Where is he? If you hurt him I swear to god…” Mick laughs. When he stops in front of me. but at the same time I can’t act like I have any reason to hide. I feel sick. Not one single ounce. fine. Maybe that’s why he hasn’t called.
Leave Willow. but the bottom half is covered with a sheet. The woman is on top of the man and his arms are around her. Why stay when he doesn’t want you?” “He loves me!” I cry. leave Jagger and end it or I’ll make you pay. I know you’ve seen him lately so you and I both know that’s recent. Mick laughs. “Well. Go home. She’s got her face buried in his neck and her naked back is on view for the world to see.” “And because of the boy. “H-h-h-how do I know this isn’t old?” I whisper. “Look at the stitches in his lip. I know what you and your little gang are planning. “Thought you’d say that.” “I can’t just leave. I’m giving you a chance.” . That couple is Sharleen and Jagger.” Mick smirks. now.” “NO!” I cry. you won’t get near my island to blow it up. my voice weak.” “I…I…can’t just leave him.” I stare down at the picture he threw at me. In the picture I see a couple. I have a son. he has a funny way of showing it. You even try and that little boy of yours will find himself in some trouble. I live here and…” “Not any longer you don’t. stay away from my son and I’ll let your son have his mother. “Then you’ll do as I say. I actually feel my vision blur for a moment and my whole body becomes hot and cold all at the same time. I can clearly see he’s naked too.“Why are you here? Just leave me alone. Mick digs through his pockets and tosses a picture at me. His eyes are closed and his mouth is opened in pleasure. and my world stops.
I stare closer and sure enough, the exact same stitches are in Jagger’s lip. I drop the picture to the ground and my heart burns. I can’t hear anything, I can’t feel anything. Cody begins to cry but I’m numb. From head to toe, I’m numb. Mick is laughing, but all I can hear is my ears ringing loudly. When I can focus enough to hear Mick, I manage to get his last words. “Leave, take your son. I’m giving you a chance only because that boy is my grandson. Leave Willow, and don’t come back.” Then he’s gone and I’m on the sidewalk trembling and swaying. “Willow?” I hear a voice a moment later, and I recognize it as my mothers. “Willow? Hey, Willow.” She slaps my cheek a little, but I’m just staring into nothingness. All I can see is her body on his. I can see his arms around her. I can see the way his mouth is slightly open with pleasure. I can see it all and it won’t leave. “Willow?” I turn slowly, meeting my mother’s gaze. “Honey, are you ok?” I sway again and my mother calls out for help while gripping my arm. I feel a hard set of arms wrap around me a moment later, just before my world goes black.
CHAPTER 16 JAGGER
Why the fuck won’t she answer? I’ve been trying and she won’t answer. I don’t know what the hell is happening. I don’t even know if she’s ok. I decide to take the risk and ring Angel, I need answers. When he doesn’t answer his phone, I try Ace. He answers on the third ring and he speaks quietly, something is off. His voice sounds distant and he is speaking to me oddly. Then he asks a question that stumps me. “Why dude?” “What?” “Why’d you do it?” What the fuck is he on about? “I don’t know what you’re talkin’ about. Where’s Willow, why isn’t she answering my calls?” “She knows Jagger, she knows what you did.” “What are you fuckin’ talkin’ about Ace?” “How could you? She’s fuckin’ been by your side…she’s suffered.” “ACE!” I roar. “What’re you talkin’ about?” “Mick showed her a photo Jagger, she saw you in bed with Sharleen.” What? My mind spins. In bed with Sharleen? How? Maybe he has an old photo, that sick son of a bitch.
“It was probably old, I haven’t…” “It was recent, you had those damn stitches in your lip. I saw it with my own fuckin’ eyes.” “I didn’t…Ace…put her on now.” “I can’t.” “PUT HER ON!” Ace sighs and I hear shuffling, arguing and Willow’s quiet no, no, no. How could this happen? I close my eyes and it hits me hard and fast. That night I thought I was drunk…Sharleen took me to my room. That bright light I saw was a fucking camera. Them fucking bastards. I couldn’t have fucked anyone that night if I tried, but I didn’t know if I could convince Willow of that. Fuck, what have they done? “Jagger,” Willow’s voice comes across the phone broken and silent. “Don’t call me again. I don’t want to talk to you. We’re done. Leave me alone.” “Willow, baby, listen to me I…” “You what?” she cries. “You didn’t do it? You didn’t mean it? You were drunk? High? What Jagger? I saw it with my own eyes, nothing you can say will take that away. I saw it!” “Baby I know what it looks like but if you’ll just listen I…” “I’m done listening. I gave up everything for you. What was this to you Jagger? A way of protecting yourself? Or maybe you just enjoy playing with two women? We’re done. I’m leaving and taking my son with me. Don’t call me again.” “WILLOW WAIT!” She’s gone. Ace gets back on and I’m panting with rage. “Sorry dude, but this time we’re going to stick with her. She needs us.” “Ace,” I rasp. “Fuck it man, just listen to me. They drugged me. Do you hear me? You know me,
I’ll build it and plant it. she’s not going to risk it. He knows about the island. “I don’t know. Trust me. but someone spilled to him.you know I would never hurt her. I need her to know it wasn’t me.” “How? He’ll have the place monitored.” “How?” I whisper. let her believe it for now. He’s expecting us to try and blow it. “I’d never hurt her. long moment.” “Dude. They’re fuckin’ trying to get you lot to stop what you’re doing.” “Easy. fuckin’ listen to me. I honestly don’t. I’ll plant it. Let her hurt. it’s risky. “I don’t know what I believe right now Jagger. the plan still goes ahead. I was drugged. Her life is in danger Jagger.” I rasp. I didn’t think you would do that…” “I didn’t!” I snarl.” Ace is silent a long.” I say.” . with new determination.” “I need to fix this Ace. We’ll make sure she doesn’t run but if she knows it wasn’t you then she’s back in a dangerous situation. it’s more realistic that way. let me fix this. she can’t be involved. it’s too risky. please. We need to keep her clear of it. We can’t get explosives over. it’s too dangerous now. Mick threatened her and Cody. cutting him off. They’re trying to scare her off. Trust me.” “No.” “It’ll break her.” “Even if I believe you man. Don’t let her run Ace.” “I have to tell her I didn’t do it. “But we can put one big explosive down and end it all. but she needs out of it. “No. he’ll be waiting for it.” “No. she’s strong.” “Fine. We’ll get the plan moving and finish this so you can come back to her.
He’s alone. They’re stuck. he’s numb. I can’t move them from my mind. She’s there when . both have been sworn to make sure I don’t run while they’re gone.” “Yeah man. That doesn’t just fade. Part of me even tries to justify his actions. I’ll organize a boat to get the girls out on. right now I have to go.“I’m going to the island tomorrow. We blow next Thursday. Ava and Jenny are with me. I should have always known that Sharleen would be a problem. I have cried so much there’s nothing left. My heart burns. Cody is restless and cries every night. we’ll be in touch. It’s been three days and the boys have gone off to help Jagger.” “Dude. I can’t get the images out. I’ll have the bomb done in two days. because they owed him that but after that they’d support me until I knew what I wanted to do. Where would I run to? Right now I’ve got nothing to run with.” “Ace?” “Yeah?” “Don’t let her run. I should have known. I hoped we were doing the right thing.” “It has to be done. They told me they were going ahead with the plan anyway. I hate that I let myself slip and fall for Jagger’s charms. he’s unhappy. it hurts every damn day.” “Fine. You lot just need to get here. He loved her. I can’t get the pain to leave my heart. Every damn second. they’re eating away at me. that’s soon. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW It burns. I’ll tell you how to do that soon. I know he’s picking it up from me and I hate that I’m doing that to him. I won’t.” Fuck.
but did he? I don’t know what to believe anymore.” “An hour.” “Mary.” “Willow…” I spin and stare at her. I feel bad for lying. She fell for it. “I am damn sure it’s wise.” “I’m going to talk to her. I got the address off Maggie. “I have to do this. . Can you watch Cody for an hour? It won’t take long. “I’m not getting involved Ava. honey?” I shrug. gripping my keys and checking on Cody. but I have to know. I really don’t.” She nods and I walk past her. Ava walks into the lounge where I’m standing. The phone call a few weeks ago. She needs to know that. He told me he did that on purpose to scare me off. “How are you feeling today. but today I’m going to do something about it. Part of me wonders if all along he’s been seeing her. I drive a good hour and finally I pull up at a large white house on a large block. “fine.” I put my hand up. I try to justify it. “Same as yesterday. but I need to find out something. She’s helping him and has helped him with all his fights.” “Are you sure that’s wise?” Ava asks gently. seeing her at the fight with him. you know they don’t want you involved. Then I head out and punch Aunt Satan’s address into my navman.” “Willow. That woman is a snake and she’s up to no good. he probably won’t even wake up.” she sighs. staring out the window. I need to know how Mick found out about our plans and I know exactly where to start. but it makes me feel no better. She could have killed her own nephew.” “Ok.I’m not. saying I wanted to apologize. Cody’s sleeping. I have to confront her. She puts a hand on my shoulder.
It’s Mick and Sharleen. “He won’t. “I don’t know Mick. “He won’t get hurt. Mick is going to blow the island when the men are on there. I know those voices. and the house she lives in is massive. he has a fight.” Sharleen mutters.” Oh god. this isn’t your concern. It’s blurred but I can hear better. I feel sick. I need to start again somewhere else. It’s better to end it and them while I’m at it.” . it blows.” “They’re going to rat it out. and they don’t know. Oh my. “Mary.” “How can you be sure you’ve got enough explosives?” “I’ve planted them all over the island.” Mick says.” “How can you be sure the gang will be on there?” “Because they’re sneaking in as we speak. When I press that button. I’m about to knock when I hear voices inside. “That island is your life’s work. He’ll get off the island and then we’ll end it. If he doesn’t get off tonight. what if he refuses to leave?” Mary asks. have they come after her too? I step to the side very slowly and peer through a small window beside the door. I slowly lower my hand. I walk up the front pathway until I reach the door. It’s a quiet part of LA. “Jagger could get hurt. “It’s a risk I’ll take. I have eyes everywhere.I get out of the car and peer around. it’s risky. I know them all too well.” End it? “Are you sure this is what you want to do?” Mary says. I’m blowing it anyway.” “You said you wouldn’t hurt him!” Mary snaps. I have to do what I have to do and you’ll do best not to interfere.
She’s hurt. The entire time they’ve been working together. hey. “Ok. Trust me when I say she believed it. “Willow.” . so we got Willow out of the way but we still have Huck. as soon as he opens the door it’ll blow and kill him. I pull out my phone with trembling hands and dial Jenny.“What about Willow?” Mary mutters. Without that gang around. When will the island blow?” Mick looks down. “Willow thinks Jagger fucked Sharleen.” “She could get over that hurt. Mick snorts. How could I be so stupid? How could I have missed this? How could Jagger have missed this? God.” Sharleen points out. we’re so naive.” Oh god. “In exactly twenty two hours.” Mary mutters. oh my god. that photo we got when Jagger was out is very real. I don’t think she’s thinking about you right now.” “She’s onto me. “I made it real Sharleen. I’d finish her too but I’m not that cold. He’ll get in his car this afternoon for work and boom! No one will know any better. careful not to make a sound. “Fine. she’ll fade off.” I swallow and blink. she won’t go back to him.” Sharleen says. When I hit the sidewalk I run to my car and get in. “Don’t you worry about Huck. They took that photo of Jagger? They set all this up.” I turn and hurry off. even if he gets off the island before it blows. He’s got the co-ordinates and he’s helping that gang. “She’ll get over it. If she didn’t have my grandson. I’ve got a timer set. I planted a bomb in his car.
I’ll explain later. Huck looks confused. where is he?” “I don’t know. “Don’t open that door!” I scream. he turns to me and takes my hand. I speed through the streets and it takes me half an hour to get to Huck’s house.“Where’s your dad?” “What?” “Where is he Jenny? God. “Willow? What’s going on?” he asks. his eyes dart from me to the car and then back again. “Willow what’s wrong?” “I have to go.” She’s silent a moment and then she comes back to the phone. “He’s not answering.” He swallows and pulls out his phone. I leap out of the car and scream bloody murder. stepping away from the car. It’ll blow up if you open that door. “Who planted an explosive?” “Jagger’s father. NOW!” “I’ll call him. and then squeaks. dialing. Willow what’s wrong?” “I need to find him. holy fuck. “They planted an explosive. just hang on a second. As I pull up he’s just reaching down to get into his car with a coffee in hand. “Are you hurt?” . When he hangs up.” I hit the accelerator and pray to god Huck hasn’t gotten into that car. He drops the coffee and spins around.” “Fuck. Where does he live?” She gives me his address.” His face pales. I hear him speaking quickly and the word ‘bomb’ is used numerous times.
” “I don’t care.” Huck nods and hands his keys over. “I have a copy of the co-ordinates and I can lend a speed boat from work.” the officer mutters. Look I’ve got to run. sliding underneath it and peering around the tires but not touching it. “We’ll close this area off and then we’ll check the house too.” “Shit. Even so. When we’re in. we have to go. “Yeah. and then looks back to the officer. “It’s a bomb. . Three officers walk over and chat quickly to Huck. they all lean down and peer under the car and then nod at each other.” A team of police cars pull up a moment later and men get out of the cars in thick black uniforms to protect themselves. Mick is going to blow the island as soon as they’re on it. you want to tell me how you knew that was there?” Huck swings his eyes to me. we have time if we’re quick. closing his eyes.” “We go and we’ll die too. Mick said twenty two hours. it’s an emergency.” he curses.” The other officer nods. I had a bit of a threat via phone call last night.” I snatch my hand from his. isn’t it?” Huck whispers when an officer walks over. Then he follows me to my car. One calls out and waves the others over. “I don’t know.” He sighs. I was sus and I just knew something was off when I walked out the door.“No. he finally speaks. “We have to go and stop them.” “Lucky for you that you listened to your gut. I’m ok. I have to help my daughter out. “Not if we’re quick. “Yes Huck. it’ll take us at least fifteen hours to get there. then they gently scan the car. We have to help the boys Huck.
” “Willow…” I pull out my phone and dial Ava.” “I’m coming with you. Rusty and Bull. she answers quickly. are you sure you have to go?” . if I can’t save them. something has come up and I have to go with Huck. “Willow. All along they’ve been working together. I know that island.” She’s silent.” “No Willow. I know when it’ll blow. Ava. Mick is going to blow that entire island. Not only will Jagger die. You know that I can’t let you go. I’m coming. but so will Angel.” “What? Willow.” she whispers. I’ve seen it before. please?” “Willow.“Take me to the wharf.” “What?” “I need you to watch Cody for me tonight. it’s a set up. take care of my son.” “Huck. Ace. Jagger was insistent that you don’t come. I’m the only hope those boys have.” “Oh god. I heard Mick talking and…” “Mick?” “He was at Mary’s house.” “I have to. “Willow if you die…” “I won’t. are you ok?” “Ava. I need to ask you to do something for me. “Ava. I promise I’ll get off the island. no.
“Always. knives. “We’ve got a boat. I see a cop car pulled up beside a slick. I can’t live with that Ava.I pull the car over. For my son. I have to. The officer turns to his car and pulls out two bullet proof vests. Mick said twenty two hours. Guns. and then he grips a vest and secures it over my top. The officer waiting rushes over and shakes Huck's hand.” We don’t say anything as we drive down to the wharf. Then he hands me a long sleeved navy shirt. and I slip it over the top of the vest. If I don’t find Jagger. white boat.” “I know.” “I love you. I swallow. I’ll leave. I’ll time it. but she answers anyway. “I’ll have Cody here safe. I can’t.” she whispers. When we arrive. I’ve loaded it with weapons. I’ll force myself to leave. Let’s go. “I have to.” “Vests?” Huck asks. Not that you’ll need it but you can’t be too safe. I won’t be a hero. .” I hang up the phone and a moment later Huck does too. I see my son’s face and wonder if I’m doing the right thing.” “I love you. Come back Willow. too. I won’t be a hero Ava. If I die…no. Huck grips my shoulders and spins me towards him.” “I swear. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I can’t think like that. Take care of him…please?” She knows that I have more than one reason for asking that. “It’s got plenty of fuel. if I can’t find them I’ll leave. if I don’t they all die. don’t you leave him without his momma. you name it. Shit. water and food. machine guns. I’ll be back. We get out of the car and I swallow once more before pulling on my shield of bravery and walking towards the boat with Huck. Huck is talking frantically on the phone too.
I stare at the slick speed boat and Huck nods at me and indicates towards the boat with a hand. and then begins purring loudly. remember?” Kyle says. “You know I won’t dob you in buddy. I’ll give you the simple one.” “Be safe. I do and it jerks me backwards. Huck steadies me and tells me to do it again. which I slide in too. Try it now. He quickly shows me how to position my arms and then he tells me to pull the trigger. they were going to but…things got crazy. It grumbles a moment. Take care. call for backup if you need it Huck. It’s loaded. I do it over and over until the backfire isn’t so unexpected. “They never showed me. but just in case. . I appreciate it. He loads himself up and then turns to the officer. He gets in the front seat beside me and roars the engine to life. I put the safety on and slide the gun into my pants. He hands it to me and with trembling hands. I climb in on with shaky legs and sit on one of the small swivel seats. nods at me and then gets in his car and leaves. “I hope you don’t have to use it.” “Right. and then he comes back with a small black gun.” I whisper.” “Yeah.” “I had nothing to do with this. you just pull the damn trigger.” The officer reaches into the boat and shuffles about. and Huck hands me another. I take it.“Know how to shoot a gun?” I shake my head. Huck takes my shoulders and turns me towards the trees. Huck slides the boat further into the water until he’s up to his knees. then he leaps in.” Kyle slaps him on the back. “Ready?” “I have to be. we got it. “Thanks Kyle. still in mild shock.” I nod.
but the boat is moving so quickly it’s just not possible not to get a little wet. I imagine it’ll take them a few hours to get the girls. If they died and I knew I did nothing.He pulls a leaver and the boat surges forward. we could have stopped this from going ahead. The screen in front of us is stopping most of it. Only special satellite phones work on that island and they left too hastily to be able to get one. I close my eyes and think of my son. but that’s not possible. They said they were going to wait until Thursday to save the girls. Thursday is tomorrow. I am silently praying that we do. I have to help those boys. I have to. It’s too late for that now. We bounce over waves. it could be the end for all of us and that includes me. God. I hope I’ve made the right choice because I can’t turn back now. right now I can’t think about what might happen. If we don’t. I could only pray we made it in time. If they blow the island before plan. It was stupid on all our parts really. I wish to god I could have just called. Soon we’re flying so fast that water flicks over the side and hits me in the face. I swallow back my fear. . I’d never be able to live with myself. if we had have made sure they had a phone. just sitting in silence. it’ll trigger Mick’s bombs and they’ll all die. I hope we make it. before they blew it.
as far as I know they’re all still going to their weekly meeting tomorrow. The boys will be here soon. I move closer. It should get rid of the whole thing.” . I’ve got it connected to a trigger. “Is it all ready?” Ace asks.” “Good. and watch as they all jump off the boat and drag their legs through the water. I see a familiar figure jump off the side and wade through the water to help pull the small boat close enough. just in case. I’ve wired a massive explosive to one of the cars in the middle of the island. all set. I flick the torch on and quietly sneak through the trees towards the back of the island where I’ve told them to come in. We’re here. When they hit the sand. “Ace?” I say quietly. what about the girls?” “All good. “That’s a problem.” I shine the torch towards them. when I press it. When I get close enough.” “Mick?” I sigh. When I see a faint light in the distance. “Yeah.CHAPTER 17 JAGGER It’s dark and this side of the island is quiet. and I’m pretty sure everything is ready for them. “It’s us. I ready my gun. We’d want to be a fair way away before I press it. they all slap me on the back and hug me quickly. As it moves closer. Mick isn’t here yet. this island is in big trouble.
” Ace mutters. Either way. We have to do this.” “We should have fuckin’ told her.” I say.” “Where do you want the boat parked boss?” Rusty asks. hoping that’ll work. I stare at the boys. They did it this morning so they won’t have any reason to come over here.” Bull mutters. plonking down onto the sand. not good at all. “He didn’t come.” I nod. “He said he had business. He wants me in for another fight. We can take Mick down when we get back.” “I don’t like the sound of that man.“What?” Angel hisses. this part of the island only gets used twice a week to load up. This needs to be done and it needs to be done soon. we don’t get much choice. “Not good man. “Well. “Leave it there. I sigh and stare into the darkness. I don’t know why. “Trust me ok?” “So what now?” Ace asks. “Now we wait. “How is she?” Angel sighs.” ~*~*~*~ JAGGER . He called me out earlier tonight but I told him I couldn’t make it out until tomorrow. we shouldn’t have.” “No. “It wouldn’t have helped. I ask them the question I know they’re waiting for. who all look tired. we’re here now.” Ace snaps. He was pretty persistent.” “Hope you’re right man.
I raise the gun when they get into the small shelter and the women all sit down. I watch the two guards at the back spin around and start rushing towards the trees when they too fall flat on their faces. Fifteen minutes in. Bull does the same beside me. which makes for the perfect hit. God.” He nods. It’s a precise hit. we’ve come up with a strong plan to get the girls onto the ship. I grip the gaping hole and roar with pain. Angel hasn’t shot both of the guards. We’ve spread out through the trees with guns and one by one we’ll take the guards out. Angel gives me a sign that indicates he’ll take the two closest to him.By morning. I wave my arms to give the other men the go ahead. I feel sweat begin building on my forehead and my vision swims a little. and waiting for the girls to come. I’m standing with Bull and we’re watching the open assembly area. Beside him the other drops. I press the trigger and before my eyes. I shove Bull’s arm and he squints. it could be a problem. the guard on the right falls flat on his face. not thinking. if we injure the girls. I know Rusty will take the two at the back. Two of the guards have their backs to me. I have to . putting pressure on it. Our guns all have silencers. They’ve been beaten into never speaking or making any sort of sound unless they’re told. I’ll take right. I thought they were all down. They always do. Perfect shots boys. Bull is quick and he’s behind me in seconds. it’s the best we could do. Blood trickles down my shoulder and the pain sets in like fire. I feel a burning sensation in my shoulder and for a moment I’m stunned.” It’s like fire. Six guards and a group of women all walk towards the assembly area. “Fuck boss. so Bull and I will take the two closest to us. if they don’t come…they’ll come. I rush out of the trees. I see a group of people. “You take left. I raise the gun and close one eye. Then I realize I’ve run out of the trees too early. but they don’t scream. what’d you run out for?” “Fuck. staring into the distance. The girls all stare wide eyed.
if I don’t. “We have to Bull. “All done. wiping the blood from his hands. I guess I blacked out.kick on. My body begins trembling from pain.” “Boss I can’t…” Ace is beside me now. “We gotta move boss. I’m thankful that the boys thought to pack a first aid kit in those bags. I don’t remember the last few seconds. can you walk?” I close my eyes a minute. . this will fail and we’ll all end up dead. “Wrap it. “Get the bullet out. I shove to my feet. we’ve got minutes.” Ace says. and pulls out a bandage.” I growl. hissing in pain. we got it. He tips raw alcohol onto my shoulder and I roar with pain.” I hoarsely order. I walk with trembling legs towards Angel and Rusty. I have to get up. those girls are doing as they’re told. “Get it out. tearing into my shirt. who now have the girls in order. It’s about fuckin’ time. Bull wraps it quickly and when it’s over I realize I’m on the ground. Possibly one or two missing but we don’t have time for that right now. Ace shoves the shirt back into my mouth. “What?” Bull asks. focusing my attention on Angel and Rusty gathering the girls quietly. Thankfully for us. Bull digs through the pack on his back. I didn’t even feel myself fall. Bull shoves two pills into my mouth and washes them down with water. Ace drives the knife into my shoulder and Bull shoves a shirt into my mouth as I scream. and my vision sways.” Ace pulls out a pocket knife and I look away. I stop in front of the girls and count them. I have to keep going. The burning pain shoots down my arm and for a moment I’m sure I’ll black out. it hurt like a fuckin’ bastard.
frightened and sadly has come to know her masters here and possibly even think she loves them. and you’ll have the same thing happen. What.” The boys take the women and begin leading them towards the boat. not hurt you.” The other women don’t acknowledge me speaking. and see Huck running through the trees towards me. Rusty is after her in a split second and he reaches her quite quickly. we’re going to take you all home and get you some help.“Right. “Any more of you scream. their eyes widening and hope flashing across their faces. screams. I really don’t. “Bull. There is no life left in any of them.” I like my eyes scan the woman as Ace says those words. “onto the boats. They just continue moving. That’s when one decides she doesn’t want to go. The. completely broken. then she spins and darts off towards the trees. Fuck.” I say roughly. I can’t imagine what that does to someone. She’s scared. Fuck. “Alright. Rusty lifts the slumped girl over his shoulder and carries her towards us. I have to look away as they tackle the poor woman to the floor. No soul.” Bull pulls a bottle of chloroform out of his bag and rushes over. I don’t know if anyone will ever be able to put those girls back together again. God. We begin loading them onto the boat and settling them down beside each other. “We’ve got a boat. She punches. I turn and stare back at the island. Some seem to come to life. “JAGGER!” . you ladies want to get out of here alive. kicks and yells out loudly. I turn and squint. Others just stare at the ground. they really are just broken bodies. I’m about to climb onto the boat with the men when I hear someone call my name. She opens her mouth and she screams. hoping I’ve done enough.” I say in a rusty sounding voice. she’ll fuckin’ give us away. We’re here to help. knock her out. you do as these boys ask.
“What the fuck are you doing here.” “Tell me why not?” He looks me dead in the eye. and your father has bombs planted on this island. We have exactly twelve minutes left. . you can’t. When Huck reaches me. wincing in pain as my body is forced to move. “Because Willow is trapped up there. He was going to kill you all. and we’re all dead.I leap off the boat and rush towards him. bloody and terrified. he’s panting. Huck?” “You can’t blow this island.” My world begins to spin.
I peer around but I can’t see anyone. when all along Jagger probably could have dealt with it and been off the island before Mick’s explosives went off. It was a mistake. I think he’s dead. surrounded by guards. then another. Now my head is bowed and I’m crying. and the sound is cold and . Huck got dragged away. I feel silent tears slip down my cheeks. My lip is bleeding where a guard hit me three times. I didn’t want them to die. We’ve got six minutes left. Huck and I got onto the island together and were managing to sneak through when I saw that they had missed two girls. I tried to tell them that. The gun is loud and intense. I snap my head up and see the guards around me dropping like flies. I’ve failed and my son will now grow up without me. Desperation took over me about ten minutes ago. All I can think about in this moment. I’ve failed him. More guards rush out only to drop to the ground too. Being the hero that I am. It’s all I have left. I can hear the clear pop pop pop. My leg feels like it’s close to being broken and my head is pounding. big. but they all laughed at me. I should have just stayed and let these men do what they had to do without me. It’s a machine gun. I can’t believe I was a hero. and I started screaming and begging. I throw myself to the floor as bullets whizz past me to hit the guards closest to me. then another. All that got me was a few good kicks in the stomach – after they removed my bullet proof vest.CHAPTER 18 WILLOW I can’t believe we got caught. is Cody. I should never have left. hot tears stream down my face. I can only pray Jagger got free. I tried to be a hero. I can only pray. six minutes and we’re dead. I hear a gun shot. Now I sit tied and bound in a huge open airfield. I tried to help them. Five minutes to go. It’s all my fault.
Before I know it. He dodges through the trees and I know we have a minute left.” He pulls me to my feet. it’s high but it soars off into nothing but clear blue water.frightening.” . He leans down and lifts me into his arms. I know I’ve been shot. He’s covered in blood and he’s panting. if that. We reach a cliff.” I rasp. “Willow. raising his gun and shooting ferociously at the guards nearing. I have to untie you. oh god. “Run. I’m just making my legs move so I don’t fall. but Jagger doesn’t turn.” “I’d never leave you. No…. Jagger spins around. just water. The guards kicked me so many times in one leg it burns. “Jagger no. I hear gunshots behind us. His arm is bandaged up and he looks a little pale. we have to run. Oh no. someone is gripping me in their arms. Jagger curses. followed by an intense burn. He begins running again. We’re going to die here. “I went the wrong fucking way. run!” He begins pulling me towards the trees but I’m limping. They drop like flies.” Jagger. and then spins me around to face him. This is the last moment we’ll have. Jagger.” “We only have minutes. No rocks. ever. I scream and my legs collapse. don’t move.” He quickly cuts through my binds with a knife. “You should have run. roaring in pain as he does.” “I know. I close my eyes and think of my son. When something hits me in the back of the leg. Another guard? “Willow. I pick up my pace and Jagger runs so fast he’s pulling me most of the time. The burning pain in my leg is so intense I actually throw up on Jagger. Fuck my leg.
. I don’t know if it’s from pain or because he knows this is the last time we’ll see each other. “I love you baby. just as a loud boom fills the air and orange lights the sky.” Then he throws me off the cliff. forever and always.Gun shots begin sounding out again. He takes my face in his hands. Jagger turns to me and a hot tear streams down his face.
searching the water even though it burns my eyes. struggling to stay above the water. I have to find her. wrapping my arm around her and running my hands over her face. Her eyes are rolling slightly. I reach out. The cliff that we jumped off is slowly beginning to slide down as more explosions go off. I surface again and the smoke burns my lungs as I desperately try to breathe. The island is still trembling and exploding. horrible air.CHAPTER 19 JAGGER Pain jerks through my body as salt water fills my lungs. She’s not a good swimmer.” “A rock. I jumped after her. I hear a sliding sound. She’s bleeding badly from a wound in the head. I swim over. It’s just numb.” she whispers. and I turn. hitting only bits of rock and debris. dragging . “Willow!” I swim towards the sound. dodging bits of hot rock as they begin landing everywhere around me. I see Willow further out. I surface and breathe in a breath full of smoky. I saw her go under. my body is beyond pain now. I dive. Willow. I start swimming. I dive back under when a huge rock flings into the water. “You got hit. trying to get myself to the surface. I’m spluttering and coughing. She’s alive. I can’t feel anything. “Jagger?” A tiny voice in the distance calling my name. Holy shit.
“Willow!” I hear the sound of a speed boat and jerk my head up. In the distance all I can see is a mass of black smoke and occasionally a red mushroom shoot into the sky followed by a loud noise.Willow beside me. “Wake up. This time more rocks come launching into the water. I pull her in front of me. She’s got her eyes closed and oh god. don’t you die on me. desperate.” I kick harder. Mick really did have that planned well. there’s blood all over her face. We’ll be dead in seconds.” A rock smashes the side of the boat. “baby wake up. It slows just as the next explosion rocks the island. No one would survive that.” I rasp. forcing my legs to move even though they don’t want to. She’s kicking her legs as best she can. Ace spins the boat around and speeds out into the blue depths. baby. “Ace. “Willow. I feel Willow stop kicking just as I’m out of the way of flying rocks. gripping Willow and sliding her on board. I see it’s Ace and he leans over the side. wake up. Don’t die. “ACE MOVE!” I roar. I can see a white boat speeding towards us at a great rate. We have to move. I drop to my knees beside Willow. Panic seizes my chest and I slap her face a few times. I look back down at Willow. “Willow no. first aid kit?” .” Tears burn my eyes and I slap her again. kicking my legs madly to keep afloat. but she’s losing a lot of blood. “Hang in there baby. please don’t die. Don’t you fuckin’ die on me. I wave my hand. No one. Nothing.” She doesn’t move. Then he pulls me on too. shaking her tiny body. I’m gonna get us to safety. Soon the air is clearing and the smoke is clearing off.
God. We don’t have long. If she remains breathing. “No. It relieves me to see they’re all alive. then he turns to the other boat. and I stitch her head. you have to be prepared that we might not…” “NO!” I roar. she’ll die. she needs to stay warm. hours if we’re lucky. . I’ll get help. it’s twisted in odd ways and blood seeps from a bullet wound. “She won’t die. then I begin cleaning her up. unsterilized. She’s still out.” Angel nods and looks over at Ace. If we don’t stop the bleeding.” he rasps. It looks like her leg is nearly broken. Ace wraps Willow’s leg and Angel tends to her face.“Under the seat. I close my eyes a moment.” I move the plastic white seat along the side and pull out a kit. She’s still breathing. “Get me a blanket. I take a needle and thread. He thinks she’s going to die. We arrive at the larger boat the boys came in on further out at sea. I begin frantically cleaning Willow’s head but she’s lost so much blood. my hand trembles. Throw over as many first aid supplies as you have. “Go as hard as this fucking boat will take us Ace. I hate it because I know what he’s thinking. MOVE!” The boys on the other boat begin tossing things over. I wrap her in a blanket and crush her to my chest. and her breathing is becoming more jagged. “We need help. I won’t let her die.” He nods and I hate that sympathetic look on his face. now.” I say. please don’t let her die. “Jagger. An infection is the least of her problems right now. Angel leaps over onto our boat and grips Willow’s head. we have to move. applying pressure where I can.
can you hear me?” My mom? “Willow. “She’s moving her hands too. Maybe I didn’t get hit in the head with a flying rock.CHAPTER 20 WILLOW I hear voices.” It’s a familiar voice. Ava maybe. Maybe I didn’t land in the water so hard it broke my ribs. come on honey. As soon as the air touches them. “She opened them!” Ava – I think – cries. hey. “Call the doctor. “She’s stirring. they burn and I clamp them shut with a wince. Maybe I’m imagining this all and it was just a nightmare. lots of them. I can’t feel anything at all.” . open up. someone is pulling my eyelids open and shining a torch into them. Are we home? Am I safe? Is this a dream? Maybe I’m dead.” A moment later. Maybe it was all just a dream. “Willow. Jesus! I groan and shove at the hands. this is all very good signs. I’m trying to open my eyes.” I’m trying. She makes it sound like this is a massive thing. I focus all my attention on them and finally they move. Maybe we never left for that island. I’m not in any pain. I can hear them but I can’t open my eyes. I want to scream.
They’re likely burning. Ava grips my head and gently puts a straw in my mouth. “Hey sweetie.” “Mom. but I don’t care about that. My mom. Open up. my voice hoarse.” Relief floods through me.” A moment later someone is playing with my eyelids again and opening them to drop tiny cool drops into my eyes.” I say again. Where’s the rest? Oh god.” “He’s just gone home honey. but he’s ok. When I manage to make out shapes.” They’re all here. “Jagger. The doctor leans over me and begins asking me stupid questions like ‘what’s your name’ and ‘where do you live?’ I answer them all in a croaky voice. it doesn’t burn so much. I can see a girl leaning over me.” “Is he hurt?” “He got shot. he’ll be back in about half an hour. Jenny and Ava.That voice was unfamiliar. “Willow honey. “He’s ok honey. Is Jagger dead? I open my mouth to speak but only a croaked “Jagger” comes out. “I want to see him. don’t get in her face. they’re all ok. oh please no. “I’ll put some moisture in them. it’s Ava. I blink and blink. trying to clear my blurred vision.” . I want to see my son and my fiancé. Ava.” I force my eyes open again but they burn. Oh that feels nice. I suck and the cool water soothes my aching throat. The next time I try to open my eyes. how are you?” “Oh my baby is ok.
She hasn’t had much time for me lately. shocked to actually see her here. Ava stands beside her. “The island blew. She takes my hand and Jenny sits beside me too. “A week sweetie. Jagger got shot again.” I whisper. she’s awake. “Tell me!” “Jagger went to find Mick.” A week? God.” I whisper.” . The doctor said he quite possibly saved you because you’d lost so much blood. They were all caught out planning and there was a lot of evidence against them. “Call him. kinda badly. There was a massive shoot out. but he killed Mick. what happened? “What…happened?” My mother sits on the bed beside me and I stare up at her.” “Honey…” “Now!” Ava nods and pulls out her phone. as you know and you got hit with a rock. “Why did Ace bring me?” They all stare at each other. Huck called the cops and had Sharleen arrested and Mary too. dialing Jagger.” He killed Mick? Jagger killed his own father? “I want to see him. They got back and Ace brought you to the hospital…” “Wait. “Hey.“How long have I been here?” I croak. Jagger stitched you up on the boat ride home. stroking my hair.
then says goodbye. and they didn’t know if you’d live…” I squeeze Ava’s hand and then turn to Jenny. if he speaks I’ll probably break down too. “I’m ok. but I don’t take my eyes from Jagger. Ava stands and ushers the others to follow her.” “I know. and part of me knows why – he’s afraid he’ll break down if he speaks. and I’m sorry. He isn’t speaking. “You scared us honey.” She nods and swallows. He comes to an abrupt halt when he sees me lying on the bed. He looks like he wants to say so much. My mother takes my hand from Jenny’s and squeezes it. but I can’t. crawls into bed with me. but he also looks more venerable then I’ve ever seen him. He looks…broken. He stares at me with pained blue eyes and I just want to run to him. I tangle my fingers in . “Hey. I grip the blanket and I toss it aside. propped up and awake. He’s standing. He walks slowly over and then very gently. Instead. who’s looking down and crying.” “Don’t scare us like that again. Jagger skids around the corner and flies into the room. patting the bed beside me. I take him in.” I whisper. reaching for her hand. I see he has a few stitches on his face and one of his eyes is a little bruised. She takes my hand and smiles. He looks so venerable right now. When Ace called and told us you were at the hospital. “We’ll come back later. His shoulder is bandaged but aside from that he looks quite good. just staring at me with hot tears streaming down his face. “We were afraid Willow. like he has the weight of the world on his shoulders. letting my eyes scan every part of him. ok?” I nod at them.She nods a few times. he wraps his arms around me and puts his head gently on my chest. we thought you were dead. His eyes fill with tears and I see first-hand how scared he’s been. I don’t blame him.” Just as my mother has finishes speaking.
He lifts himself up a little and looks at me. He doesn’t deserve anyone’s pain.his hair and breathe him in. “I know honey. I hold him as close as I possibly can. I know he’s crying. Jagger hated his father but killing him couldn’t have been easy. His eyes are bloodshot and broken.” I swallow.” “I killed Mick. My legs become numb and I can’t feel my body but I don’t care.” I whisper. I feel Jagger shudder silently. A moment into it. “But you didn’t…” “I thought…I was sure…I thought you were dead.” I whisper. I know it hurts. “It’s ok. that would tear into even the best of hearts. “I’m ok. he finally moves. I stroke his cheek and feel the stubble scratch my palm. remembering how close we both got to losing each other. the nurse comes in.” “I nearly lost you. A man like Jagger doesn’t cry openly. I shake my head at her and she nods. his body is trembling. He tried to let my son grow up without his dad. I know how hard it must have been…” “He tried to kill my family and everything I loved.” I stroke a thumb down his cheek. She stops when she sees us. Hot tears prick my eyes.” His voice is scratchy and hoarse.” “Doesn’t mean it wasn’t hard. I know it was close but I’m ok. . “I can’t say anything to take that pain away from you. but he’s silent about it. Willow. He begged and…” His voice cuts off painfully. He needs me for whatever reason and I’m not going to pull away until he doesn’t need me anymore. I hold Jagger like that for over an hour.” “Fuckin’ shot him right in the head. After another half an hour. “We’re ok. It didn’t matter how cold one person was. smiling and leaves.
you shouldn’t be sorry. if I had listened we wouldn’t be in this mess. is a stitched wound.” “Are you going to get into trouble?” He shakes his head. this would have come around.” “I’m sorry. it’s a start. that’s all that matters. Mick was determined. Jagger.” “At least we saved them. “One way or another.” . his eyes are full of love and pain.” “And the girls?” He sighs. “They said you got shot when you went after Mick?” He lifts his shirt and right near the faded scar from the time I stabbed him.” He sits up. groaning in pain as he does. “They’re not good Willow.” “Well.” He looks up at me again. “No. “Are you ok?” He nods. I’m ok. stroking his cheek again.” I say. The island is gone and the cops have gone after anyone else involved. I stroke my fingers over it and he shudders.“It’s over now. They’ll get there…eventually. Mick was a bad man. but the force has put them in some serious mental health care. “Yeah.” “Sharleen?” “In jail with Au…Mary.” “No. Huck has it covered. “No. no one is going to question what happened to him. You were right and I didn’t listen. Mick’s gone.
revenge and all that. “Really baby. isn’t it?” He strokes my lips. Sharleen signed the papers. “Wouldn’t change it for the fuckin’ world. If I had listened…” He cuts me off with a soft kiss to my lips. hell yes!” .“Cody?” He smiles. I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you after Mick showed me that photo. “Been keepin’ me up all night. justice has been served.” I suck in a breath. “Marry me?” “I thought we’ve already been here and asked this?” I grin.” “Aren’t you still married?” “No. “It’s done. “We can get married?” “Next month?” “Really?” I squeak.” “I’m sorry. Willow baby.” I giggle softly. “Next month Willow.” “Jagger. He kisses the side of my mouth. what do you say?” “I say yes. “I know what you saw and I don’t blame you for how you reacted. “It’s fun. when he pulls back he takes my face in his hands.” “Where to from now?” He grins and looks me dead in the eye. I didn’t touch her Willow.” He shrugs. I was drugged out so hard I couldn’t move my own body. I want to marry you.
he’d love me back. “Jagger. “I thought maybe…” “What?” Jagger barks. holding Jagger’s hand. Her eyes are tired.” Jagger gasps and I squeeze his hand. No sympathy here. “Yes. I…loved him. We knock on the door and she answers only a moment later. “Jagger…” “We need to talk.” “You fucked my father.” We’re at the front of Mary’s house. “That we we’re lying?” “No. “Yes. We were together for a while after your mother…died. please…” “I want answers.” he says in a harsh tone. I loved him.~*~*~*~ WILLOW “Are you sure you want to do this?” I ask. but…” . I have to. firstly I want to know why?” She closes her eyes and actually has the nerve to look sad about what she’s done. She’s out on bail and Jagger was insistent that we spoke with her. when you knew what he did to us?” She whimpers and her eyes fill with tears. I loved him and I thought if I did what he said. love. Is she serious? She loved him? “Mick?” Jagger rasps. “It was a mistake. but they widen when she sees her nephew.
NOTHING!” Then he takes my hand and leads me down the front steps. pointing at me.” “It was because of her!” she snarls. We’re done. leaving her to cry out after him.“You could have had me killed. “you don’t. Karma is a bitch. Jagger grips her arm harshly. She has done nothing but love me. If you did.” he spits. He slaps her arm down and glares harshly at her. ain’t it? . reaching out for him. She is doing what you should have done.” she cries. you would have never set me up. I thought you loved me?” “I did. “Don’t you ever try and blame her. I’m done with you. “You are nothing to me. “I do!” “No. I hope you rot in jail like you deserve…” “Jagger!” she cries.
and Mrs. to have and to hold. I’m happy for her. His lips slide over mine and he kisses me with such perfection it melts me. He turns towards the crowd and holds up our hands. to have and to hold. ladies and gentlemen I would like to introduce you to the new Mr. whispering happy congratulations in my ear.” she whispers with a smile. through sickness and in health until death do you part?” Jagger smiles.” “Then I proudly pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride.” “And do you. Willow Barnes take Johnny Black to be your lawful wedded husband. holding me at arm’s length and staring at me with a smile on her face. and everyone cheers louder. Two weeks ago she told us she was going on a date with Huck.” Jagger grins and steps forward. “I’m so proud of you. showing those perfect dimples. “I do. he’s smiling and looking so carefree. When Jagger pulls back. through sickness and in health until death do you part?” I smile. they seem happy and while it took a while to wrap my head around. She’s doing well since she’s been out and Jenny and I have been making sure she goes to her counseling sessions each week. Everyone cheers and the sounds of their screams and claps fill my ears and a delightful feeling washes over me. wrapping his arm around the back of my neck and pulling me in. Johnny Black. So far. . just to keep her on track.EPILOGUE A month later WILLOW “Do you Johnny Black. take Willow Barnes to be your lawful wedded wife. “I do. feeling my eyes water. My mother grips my neck. We walk down the steps and Jenny and Ava embrace me right away.
and for a long moment I feel truly at home. His breath tickles my ear as he speaks. pulling and tugging for their turns. I made mistakes Willow that I can’t take back.” Hot tears stream down her face and she trembles slightly. then I move on to the boys.” Her eyes well with tears. I walk over. I forgive you.” . I turn and Jagger is smiling at me with pride.” Ace grins and I slap his arm playfully. “Oh Willow. “You make us proud. It’s a proud moment for me. “I never thought I’d see this day. “You look perfect.” I hug her close.” When we finally pull apart. taking him into my arms. We stand hugging and crying for long moments.“I’m proud of you too. baby. I look over to my son. “Mom. “I love you guys. mom. Huck grips me and I force my eyes from Jagger. He has that beautiful half smile going on and his eyes are twinkling. who Jenny is pulling from his pram. I smile and hug him. hugging me. feeling an odd feeling wash over me. “Fuckin’ hot bride kid. I pull back and stare right into her eyes. They all hug me. When I pull back.” I hug her again and whisper. “We’re finally a family. Willow. I want to move on and I want us to be close again. He looks so cute in his little black pants and black shirt. thank you for coming today. Jenny is crying and we both open our arms and pull her in.” Rusty smiles. I smile at them all. Forgiveness. but in this moment. “I forgive you. Jagger walks up behind me and wraps his arms around me.” “As if we’d miss it!” Bull grins.” Angel whispers. you’ve made me the proudest mother in the world and I couldn’t ask for a more beautiful daughter.
He moves lower then.I beam and tickle Cody’s cheek. “Finally. He takes a nipple into his mouth and groans when it hardens beneath his tongue. We all walk out the car and smile at everyone waiting and watching with happy expressions.” “Now. I’m taking my wife home.” He grins and gently slides a finger through my wet sex. “You know I do. He teases and taunts me until he reaches my throbbing sex. I’ve waited long enough. baby?” I whimper. the car is waiting. Then he lowers his head and takes . everything is perfect and I know it’ll only get better. “You two better get going. I grin at him and Jagger takes my hand. “Ah three days alone on a beach with no one around. loving the sound of the word wife coming off his tongue. We both wave and everyone claps and cheers once more.” I beam.” I turn and grin. Jenny walks over and takes Cody. I groan and thrust my hips upwards. He slides his thumb around my clit and looks up at me with lusty eyes. swirling a tongue around my belly button. aching nipples. wrapping her arms around him and smiling at us. feeling excitement rise. ~*~*~*~ WILLOW Jagger’s lips slide down my neck and over my shoulders until he finally reaches my naked breasts. automatically spreading my legs wider as he sucks and torments my hard. “Want me to play here. We kiss Cody a million times and Jenny finally assures us he’ll be fine and pushes us into the car. I take Jagger’s hand as we drive into the sunset. because it’s time I got her all to myself. I wonder what you’ll do?” Ace teases. I groan and grip the sheets.
He moves down over me and positions himself between my thighs.” “Fuck me. then he puts his legs either side of my lap and grips his cock. don’t play. please. hard thrust and I groan raggedly. “Best fuckin’ mouth. I snake my tongue out and slide it around the head. He slips one finger inside me and I explode. crying out and begging him for more. “Tell me how much. He slides back up my body. “I’ll come if you keep that up. my little hoover.” “Fuck me Jagger. He wraps my legs around him and then presses against my entrance. lie down. and spread your legs. grinning down at me. he groans and tangles his hand in my hair. I grate my nails down his back when he starts that perfect thrusting. My nails break his skin when he picks up the pace and he growls a mix of pleasure and pain. sliding his length in and out of my mouth.” I giggle around him and he groans at the vibrations. it’s beautiful. hitting the right spot each time. It’s right in my face and oh. bringing my mouth over him. He grips the side of my face and pulls me backwards. I buck and thrash.” I smile wistfully at him and slide down the bed.my clit into his mouth.” He growls. He sucks and draws on my clit until I’m screaming and calling his name in desperation. “Say that again. spreading my legs. He hisses through his teeth as he gently works his hips. He pulls my body up into a sitting position. trailing little kisses along the way.” He slides into me in one.” I mewl. coming hard around him. grinning at me. . “Want this baby?” “You know I do. His lips are on my neck. biting and nibbling.
” “Jagger. “so good. thrusting harder. He puts his hand in the way and keeps slamming until he’s wrung every last shudder from both of us. He rolls and slides off so he’s lying next to me.sending me over the edge. I love you fucking me.” he growls. thrashing and turning as pleasure jerks through me. so thick. I cry out as an orgasm shatters me and I feel blood coat my hands as I scratch at his back. “Say my name.” “Fuck. I’m going to come. until our breathing slows and we’re falling into a delicious sleep. happy and content.” “So good. oh god. oh…fuck me harder. thrusting harder and faster. I get out of the bed and rub .” He hisses and beings slamming into me harder and faster.” he rasps.” “Johnny. your cock is so fucking good.” he orders. I love when you make me come. “tell me. “Gonna come. fuck…” He explodes with a roar and his body slams into mine so hard my head hits the head board.” I whimper. ~*~*~*~ JAGGER I can hear her hurling in the bathroom when I wake the next morning. He pulls me into his arms and together way lay like that. Oh god Jagger.” he roars. “Again.” I whimper. I love how you feel inside me. “So big.” “More.” “The other one. “Johnny. Oh god. “Tell me how good it feels. it feels so fucking good.
She wasn’t sick last night. I give her one last glance then rush out. “You sure you’re ok?” “I’ll be ok. she looks like shit. “Get me a pregnancy test.” I say. Did she just say pregnancy test? I feel my eyes widen. “You ok?” “Jagger. “You pregnant baby?” “I think so. I need you to do something for me. When I get back. Wow. talking dirty to me while I fucked her hard and fast. Willow is on the bed with her knees tucked up to her chest. There are about ten different types. Poor kid. “Go to the chemist. She has a bit of color in her cheeks now. “All of them?” I shrug. she was far from sick. ask for a pregnancy test. I pull on my jeans and walk into the bathroom.” My heart skips a beat. ok?” She nods and slumps against the wall. “I’ll be ten minutes. It takes me half an hour to find a chemist and get the test. She writhed beneath me. She’s over the toilet.” She smiles.” Fuck. “What’s that?” She looks up at me and her face is pale. walking over and stroking her damp hair from her forehead.” “Right…right…ok…well…” She smiles weakly.” she whispers. I kneel in front of her and swipe her hair again. making her green eyes stand out even more. Pregnant.” . “I had no idea which worked. oh no.” she whispers. so I got them all.the sleep from my eyes. She certainly wasn’t sick. butt naked and hurling. “I didn’t know which one to get. “Hey baby. I don’t know which one is right so I grab one of each.
We both stare at it. She looks up at me. Willow and you changed me.” “So soon?” “I missed Cody being born. you make me who I am.” She beams at me and her cheeks swell with color. “Give me five. I wouldn’t change a damn thing.” I fuckin’ love when she calls me baby. You changed my life.” “I can’t believe we’re finally a family. with those beautiful green eyes that are smiling and those full pink lips that are parted with joy and says. “Do you want another baby?” she whispers. I won’t miss it again. Fuck she’s beautiful. fuck yeah. Willow baby. “So what now?” I ask.” .” I grin at her and kiss her soft. She comes back five minutes later with a stick in her hands. heaps of them. full lips. “We’re having a baby. She grips the stick and turns it over. Willow. You’re my moment. it’s upside down.” I cup her cheek and look her dead in the eyes. I want kids. “Best fuckin’ thing that’s ever happened to me.” She reaches into the bag and pulls out a box. “Yeah. and then she disappears into the bathroom. She sits it on the table beside me and then crawls onto my lap. baby.” “Jagger?” “Yeah baby?” “I love you. “Love you too. and her face lights up. Having this with you is just an added bonus.“They all work.
Finally.I grin and grip her face. “You fuckin’ beauty!” THE END . everything is perfect and I have only one thing to say about that. pulling her in and pressing my lips against hers.
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