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CHINTHAMANI JOURNAL OF DR SUVARNA NALAPAT TRUST for Education,Research AUGUST 2013 ISSUE (Message of Chinthamani for Independence Day, Rakshabandhan, Srikrishna Jayanthi and Sri Narayana Guru Jayanthi )
“I am not a politician; nor am I in power or in position; Yet , I know that I am a responsible citizen of India and of the world and my share of duty I do through my speeches, writings, and doings –professional,personal and social.. Words, deeds and thoughts I dedicate for the next

generation, and a better world order for tomorrow”.

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Contents: 1.Message on Independence Day, Rakshabandhan,Srikrishnajayanthi,Sri NarayanaJayanthi 2. Microscope Part 1 ( Collected thoughts from my old diaries on different issues and literature, seen through my Microscope, my viewpoint) 1 Introduction 2 Cleopatra and Unni Archa 3 Rama’s dream 4 Kalayum kaamavum (arts and eroticism) 5 4Autobiography of a genius 6 Seen and unseen 7 6.The truth in poetic word 8 Ichasakthi (willpower) 9 Earnings 10 Lettter of Guru Nityachaithanyayathi and my path 11 Madness of Naranath Bhranthan 12 Saanthiroopena 13 Christ and the donkey 14 Bertrand Russell and ArchBishop of Canterbury

Message on Independence Day, Rakshabandhan,Srikrishnajayanthi,Sri NarayanaJayanthi
We are entering a new Independence day . Have we achieved what we dreamt for ? If not why ? What was right and what was wrong and who was responsible for the wrong decisions ? Such questions are thrown at every Government in power. To draw a scientific analogy when scientists ask “ which is movement and which is inertia and what object is at rest ?” The truth is that all movement is relative and there is no absolute rest or inertia and inertia and movement are dpending on the objects of our reference. We are at rest relative to earth, earth is moving in relation to sun and sun moving in relation to stars and so on. In the same way getting a definition of right and wrong also is relative.Every mind is conditioned and every decision is subjective and decisions taken by people in power reflect their lack of education in universal moral values. Lack of self control and lack of ethics in one’s life and lack of virtue by people and its political leaders reflect in what direction we are moving .

3 Every one want quick results and take short cuts . One cannot get virtue and education through short cuts.One cannot achieve prosperity for entire society through shortcuts. One has to learn the methods of acquiring it, practice it in day to day life and prove oneself capable of leading a nation.The nation has to identify such individuals and use their talents for welfare of all. Currently education is for achieving success in life which is misunderstood as ambitious,aggressive, competitive mentality with lot of rivalry which breeds hatred in its turn. The first casualty in this powergame politics is the innocence of the child, the values of the nation. We corrupt the inherent innocence of a child’s mind because we have not understood the value of virtue. History tells us that such destruction of innocence and values was not done by the uneducated people but by the so called Educated ones. That is why Vallathol Mahakavi sang : “Uyarnna vidyaabhyaasam, uduppil thunnicherkkum Uyarnna vidhyaabhyaasam ethra thaazhtheelaa name!!” (Higher education that is sewn on to our dress as a title/degree has made us lower not higher ).Remember, all perpetrators of the holocaust in Germany were educated, sophisticated,highly disciplined, efficient people. We have cultivated power through education because we have looked upon education essentially as a means for economic development. The whole purpose of education is to produce a computer scientist, a doctor or engineer – never a good citizen of the world. This is the reason why we have lost our harmony, our co-operation and our values. Each one compete for success and aggression and ambitious plans have become breeding grounds of corruption and violence. No amount of army and police can control the lack of virtue breeding in our society due to such shortterm selfish motives .

As an example I am posting here a papercutting from Mathrubhoomi daily, which shows the irresponsibility of our so called intellectuals in callinf Gandhi a fanatic. Gandhi was a totally honest,truthful individual, who strived for harmony of entire nation and inculcation of simple life and high ideals so that everyone grow spiritually to love all neighbours, including the entire nature .If only, all the leaders and all the people had imbibed an iota of such simple life and reduced their greed for

4 power and money, we could have attained what we desired for by this time.

It is personal responsibility of each citizen to think of such questions and live with value.Without controlling the state of mind which is responsible for actions, no one can control the violence and corruption in society. When I spoke of valuebased education in Medical science and Integration of Medicine, science and arts through Music Therapy what I visualized was inculcation of interest in at least a few minds about such thoughts. I

am not a politician; nor am I in power or in position; Yet , I know that I am a responsible citizen of India and of the world and my share of duty I do through my speeches, writings, and doings –professional,personal and social. Words, deeds and

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thoughts I dedicate for the next generation, and a better world order for tomorrow.

Rakshabandhan:- Popularly called Rakhi is a knot of love, respect and protection , a sign of perpetual friendship from one individual to another. Usually , women tie this on their brother’s wrists.This represents and is equivalent to the protective thread worn by all males on the same day as sacred thread (Poonu nool) on their chest. Raksha Bandhan and Aavani Avittam come on the same day. The custom prevailed all over India in remote past , and in Southern India , instead of a thread on hand, brothers used to ornament their sisters with a Thaali . Usually the honour went to a step brother or cousin rather than own brother. (Among Dakshinathya , this tie of friendship later bloomed into marriages too ). A Naagavalayam ( bangle in the shape of a serpent) was tied as a Kaappu (the word means protection) on the brother’s wrist by sisters.

This custom has a link with the Gayathri recital and chandas which existed even during the Harappan and IVC times in India as Asko Parpola, the Finnish scholar has proved. The worship of the time and space and the timeless spaceless Brahman is related with Gayathri. She is worshipped as Gayathri in morning, Savithri in noon and Saraswathi in evening.In dawn of civilization she is Gayathri. In the dawn of an year she is Gayathri. Aavani Avittam (Dhanishta asterism) is the beginning of era in the oldest Indian Astronomical text , Paithamaha Sidhantha, which is not touched by any western or other influences according to G Thibout and other western scholars. Since this custom of worshipping Dhanishtaadi with Gayathri and a Rakshakavacha is prevalent in India, probably only in India, the dawn of civilization of the world was India. And still the practice continues. All Varnas , all classes and genders celebrate the day with either sacred thread, kaappu or rakshabandhan and pray for protection of all the world. At present, the rite is practiced, but the ideology behind it , as Loka samastha sukhino Bhavanthu is forgotten by many. The meaning of each rite , if rightfully done with proper understanding will bring its fruit in the end. Therefore , let us pray together for a happy prosperous nonviolent and better world on this Rakshabandhan day ,on this Aavani Dhanishtaadi.

Sri Narayana Guru, the modern sage who spread the message of Advaitha was born in Kerala .His social reformations were not restricted to just one community but was meant for the entire world. The motto of “Ontre Daivamum oruvane Daivamum” of Tamil sidha saint Thirumoolar was accepted and modified by him as “Oru jaathi oru matham oru daivam manushyanu”. Our world is passing through a stage where separatisms increase and dharma is neglected for personal gains. At this period, let us remember these words and build up a world order which is devoid of any separatisms. Sri Narayana’s advaitha is not different from that of Sankaracharya, the ideology and principles are the same, but expressed in two different ways, styles showing the originality and individuality of these two great sons of Kerala.

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Whether it be the Independence of a Democratic Nation, Rakshabandhan of an entire nation and world in the folds of love and friendship renewed every year , or social reforms of Advaithins,Sidhas and sages in every era, all are based on the ancient dictum “ Dharmam Thala kaakkum”(Dharma will protect our heads). Swalpam apyasya dharmasya Thraayathe mahatho bhayaan ( even if done only a little bit,dharma will remove all fears and protect you), said the Gita. The poornna avathar of Mahavishnu at the end of Dwaparayuga, and beginning of Kaliyuga , almost at the same time when Harappan civilization thrived in India was born in the month of Sravana. Krishnashtami falls on this month. Yathaa yathaahi dharmasya Glaanir bhavathi bhaaratha Abhyuthaanam adharmasya Thadaathmaanam srujaamyaham

There is no other dharma than protection of the dharma. The tangible and intangible heritage of the world, the nature with its great biodiversity, the clean waters we drink and pure air we breath are to be protected and preserved for coming generations of people , and living beings all over the world. The message of the August Issue of Chinthaamani is only this.

 2 Microscope Part 1
 Introduction :I am a child born with a microscope in one eye and a telescope in the other, observing the subtlest and the megauniverses simultaneously within and without with wonder, love and admiration, learning from them all the time a harmonious melody of Advaitha . I see an endless milky ocean , a milky way of wisdom ..When one wave is conquered another wave of knowledge singing the same melody in a different Raaga ..Immersed in the ocean of this wisdom , I have an inner Naada within, like that of a Conch shell. I have learned to float on this ocean of Bliss , in a perfect Yoganidra , watching the starspeckled skies above and orderly thoughts within in perfect silence. The Naada beyond silence.. The energy and light of wave vibrations beyond starry heavens.. I open all the doors of wisdom one by one , close each whispering “Nethi,Nethi” and in that Leela (play) dreamlike , yet absolutely true Darsanas (Visions) appear in my Microscopic Telescopic fields of vision. With a childlike wonder I cherish such Darsanas as my Swaanubhoothi (experience) .What I know and see become what God/Nature has given

7 me as a gift (Varam) and in that blessing I am always kept happy (Prasaada) fearless (Abhaya) and peaceful  Microscope - an instrument which magnifies subtlest structures to the observing eye .The constant companion of a Pathologist . it gives a vision/Darsana .

Telescope. The instrument which opens eye to the endless multiverses , vast and big, yet invisible to naked human eye. The ultimate friend of an Astrophysicist.It also gives a darsana/Vision of a different kind.

Once an Arabian mystic Abdul Kain met Abu Aliseena, the philosopher. When they were about to part , the philosopher said : “Whatever He (God) see I know.” The mystic replied:” Whatever He know , I see”. Both knew each other well by a single meeting. If a person asks another , Do you love me , for a mystic and a philosopher, its meaning is “Do you know the same truth , I visualize day and night ? “ It has nothing to do with desire of two bodies uniting in a worldly marriage . Art without Erotic Kaama is the mystic art and Philosophically pure art .In pure art, as in pure science, only Sathyakaama ( kaama or desire for Absolute truth without a blemish) exists . Goethe said that he is not a genius, if receiving ideas from the world/from others is not a sign of original creative genius. He knew that his creations are receivings from Nature, from many objects in nature. From many ideas before him . Similarly Emerson said that each book is a quotation, just as each building is a quotation from trees of forests, from mines and from stones/quarrys and other materials of nature from which it came up. Similarly each individual is a living quotation of his/her ancestors who lived millions of years back. We are quotations of our ancestor’s genetic material. But each has an originality of its own.A uniqueness of its own. A true poet of wisdom is always happy and blessed with a balanced mind. Such poets are called Rishikavi. My granduncle was a Rishi kavi. I am a quotation from him as well as several

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I am a quotation from Varahamihira and from Susrutha. From numerous Vedic Rishiparampara. The genes of all my ancestors and their ideas are within me dormant and they can come out as little sprouts of genius at any time, quite suddenly and unexpectedly. In such moments Kavi , as witness of Nature records the history of what he/she observed in a special fossilized moment of timespace within . The history of art is history of such literary artistic moments of experiences of Rishikavis as witnesses .Thus each Kavi is a Lipika ( scribe) or recorder of history of a people , of a timespace. A poet who is a genius knows that what he/she observed in the sojourn is the real autobiography and no other biography is required. What we think, what we experience, and write /communicate becomes our autobiography. . Dr Suvarna Nalapat

1. Cleopatra and Unni Archa

We had Naagam Thottam ( genesis story of the Naga/serpent/Phaneeswara races of South India) ,Hero ballads and our Pulluva bards sang them with a single stringed Pulluva Veena (a type of old violin) and Kutam (Pulluva Ghata/ mud pot) and with Uduk (Damroo) of Paana tribes. Paana sings Pun while Pulluva sings Naaga songs.Paana sang Heroic ballads moving from one village to another and in his ballads come Unni Archa, a heroic lady , probably a Avarna Feminist of ancient Kerala, in modern terms. Nut in those ancient days , when there was no avarna,savarna gradation she was just a Heroine. Not categorized into any one group.She was a Mathruka for women . When males became increasingly uncivilized in their behavior to women, mothers reminded their daughters about such a heroic ancestress , the first Feminist One woman army against rapists/probable rapists.She was Mathruka (Mother in Sanskrit

9 language and Model in English translation, this word Mathruka has many levels of meanings in India)for Kerala womenfolk.

A Rebbaab is an Ekthara, used in Egypt by their bards. The Egyptian bards with Rebbaab (An Egyptian Paanan) had several songs about Cleopatra. She was the beautiful Naaga Queen of Egypt, their pride and honour. Until the period of Shakespeares plays she continued to enjoy that position in Egyptian stories. Shakespeare’s Cleopatra is a greedy queen who seduced Roman soldiers to meet her end. The Seductive Siren of the East, the serpent of the Nile were the names given to her by the western Savarna poets .Not by her people. Did Egyptian queen Cleopatra attacked Rome to expand her empire ? No. Then how could she be called greedy of empires? Romans had gone to Egypt with a huge army to expand their empire and they were the greedy men. The Roman soldiers did havoc in that country destroying old monuments, libraries and people . When a country is attacked by a very powerful enemy, the ruler is supposed to protect the country with whatever means at hand. Egypt whe compared to Rome of that time could not face the enemy with military power. That venture would have destroyed the entire nation. The only way was to speak in terms of peace. But when the Roman leaders found that the queen is exceptionally beautiful, they wanted in return her body . The queen had no other option than sacrificing her own self for the sake of the country.The bard of Egypt saw Cleopatra as such a heroic protector who sacrificed even herself for a cause. Both in India and Egypt there is a matrilinear way of selection of rulers. In Egypt the stepbrother (cousin) of a princess is her husband . This tradition is present in Kerala also. In Dasarathajaathaka (which is a south Indian Ramayanam) we find Sita as cousin sister of Rama. In this version of Ramayana , Ramanad (The janmabhoomi of Rama) is Thamraparni which includes entire South India and Lanka . A branch of

10 this Thamraparni ruled at a time in Egypt and in those ancient times Egypt also was called Thamri , not Egypt. By the age of 14 , princess Cleopatra could read, write and converse in several languages. (A multilingual , like an ancient scholar of Valabhi University)Her first loves were Philosophy, Mathematics and Poetry.When Mark Antony first visited Egypt with Gabiniyus , Pompey’s commander in Chief, he noticed Cleopatra as a small girl sitting with her father, the emperor. Antony remarked: A beautiful flower. At that age Cleopatra could not have seduced Antony. It was Antony who fell for her beauty, though she was an innocent infant girl. The fault was in the observing male eye of Antony, not in her beauty. At age 18 Cleopatra ascended the throne of Egypt with Ptolemy 12 , her stepbrother, as was the custom. At age 22 , she had no other way than sacrificing her self as the only weapon to defend her country from destruction from Roman soldiers. The very faint hope within her, that , probably Caesor’s son born from her might be rightfully accepted by Roman Empire as heirs of Egypt and thereby the country may be saved from further attacks is considered as her greed . A motherland , where peace prevails, where libraries, places of worships and monuments will not be destroyed, where people will be happy was in her dreams. Just to fulfil that dream, she surrendered her beautiful very young and fresh life and body in front of Caesar, an old man who was greedy of both empires and of women.It was a Bali, a sacrifice, for the Egyptian Bard. But , her dream was only a dream. Caesar had his way, but he forgot to keep his promises and she and her son in him was never accepted rightfully by him or by his empire. Therefore , she had to succumb a second time, this time to Mark Antony . When Antony called Cleopatra to Tarsas what was her age ? Just 29. Antony was very aged at that time. A seasoned old soldier .She spent ten years with Antony . When army of Octavian surrounded Egypt and Antony was in his deathbed, Cleopatra knew her fate well. She did not want to repeat the drama , a third time. Therefore she thought of sending her children to Thamraparni (her original home) secretly through searoute (via Phoenicians/Phaneesa ) she committed suicide at age 39. It was just like the Sathi, committed by Chittor Rani Padmini when Allavuddin Khilji attacked. Both Caesar and Antony had exploited Cleopatra’s body and her love for her Nation. Cleopatra loved Antony because he was more cultured and compassionate and romantic, quite unlike the uncouth exploitative erotic Caesar . The histories written by emperors does not see the other side of the story. The history written by male poets like Shakespeare and Bernard Shaw also does not watch the other side of the story. Probably,Shaw was more compassionate to the Eastern queen than Shakespeare in his treatment of her . What Roman warriers did with their sword and power, the male poets did with their pens. Insulting a woman and a race , for that matter. Such erotic stories are made by male chauvinistic writers even in modern times. Unless we open our microscopic and telescopic eyes carefully, they will hijack all our mothers (Mathrukas) and make them third rate women greedy of power and sex. Poor old Cleopatra! She was a one woman army . Unni Archa was a bit more luckier than her. Though not a princess, or queen, she was not misused or insulted by any warrier /soldier/emperor .If at all she was insulted , that was several centuries after her death , by some self proclaimed “Bards of Avens” , who cannot view woman from any angle other than erotic. Imagination (Bhaavana) is a gift of God for

11 an artist. Any artist has freedom to use imagination .This makes poetry, stories.. But not history . History is not imaginary. It needs more logic and analysis of facts.

2 Rama’s dream:

I am not speaking on the famous Rama’s sorrow (Ramante dukham) but on the not so famous Rama’s dream. This Rama is not Rama of Ayodhya; not the “petrol”Rama; but Rama who discovers things from his dreams- the Saindhava script Rama. The Microscope is enquiring : Has any scientist agreed such discoveries as scientific ? Not whether his discoveries are true or Not. Karl Jung introduced Archetypes in psychology .He proved that scientific truths can be discovered sometimes in dreams. J .W Dune , during the Bover wars, dreamed that he was standing on a volcano .The very next day, a volcano exploded , in “Ayyar the great “ style , in Martinik. Kekule dreamt of two intertwining serpents .He discovered the 6 carbon ring of Benzene from that dream.Atom of Neil Borr was result of a dream. The magic squares and mathematical formula of Srinivasa Ramanujam was after his dream of Namakkal Paradevatha (Goddess). Jung included such dream discoveries of scientific truths in Symchronicity . He explained Libniz,Schopanover and Kepler’s astronomical synchronicity within its framework. Timespace being one, in a state of timelessness, spacelessness , dream, dreamless sleep and awakened states ( Jagrad,swapna,sushupthi) become one in Indian thought. This Advaitha state is at present being cognized by astrophysics,psychology and Neurophysiology .Volf Gang Pauli and Penrose have agreed that such discoveries do occur. In a four-dimensional Chathurbhuja of energy (oorjja/chith) timespace (kaaladesa) and Nimitha ( cause ) synchronicity and thrikalajnana ( knowing all the 3 time in timelessness) in dreamless sleep is possible . Penrose’ science does endorse such experiences. Before throwing stones at Rama , the man who reads Saindhava scripts in dreams, please do remember that miracles can happen.  3. Kalayum kaamavum ( Arts and Eroticism)

Recently I saw a writing , in a periodical, that kala and kaamam always go together. It is not very clear , what do they mean exactly by the term Kaama.If their meaning pertains only to the biological attraction of opposite sexes towards the body , logically speaking, their argument cannot be true. The biological attraction to opposite sex, and the desire for union, is a “Universal” phenomena , occurring in animals and even in the lowest forms of life. But Art is not so universal . It is not even seen in all human beings.It is present only in certain exceptional individuals. Therefore, Kala or Art is not a universally seen phenomenon. All artists are biological beings, and therefore biological urges may be present in them as rest of the human race and all living beings. If an artist has kaama ( desire for body of other sex) it is just because his/her biological urge is there, not because he/she is an artist. The generalization that without Kaama , kala is not possible or wherever kala is there, kaama also is present , thus become very superfluous. In a different way, it is just like accepting the foolish “determinism” of Classical science . If art is present in all beings who have excess kaama, majority of human beings on earth should have been artists!! All animals and birds would have been artists!!

12 Even in Kaama, there is kaama without art, and kaama with artistic colours. In today’s world media reports of rapes , even of children and of old women, which is Raakshasa and Aasura are increasing. Those kaama are artless, cruel and dangerous to society. When an artist love, the love does not even need a touch of body or sight of body. It is an internal process , a platonic love of something very precious to our soul . Only such Kaama makes exceptional art possible. That is a type of Nishkaaamakarma, Love without the need for body. Between the two poles of kaama described ( that of a rapist and the artist) there are several gradations possible and we observe them in day to day life. Hear them too in every day life. The two poles testify that in pure art kaama is not necessary; And in pure Kaama there is no art. Simply because some artists have the general Lokaswabhava ( nature of biological world of existence) in them, pointing a finger at every artist and generalizing that art and kama go always together is not logical. Just by taking the example of a Changampuzha and P ,Kunjiraman nair “ Here both art and kaama are present ;Therefore art and kaama should go together” cannot be established. It is just like pointing at one or two trees and saying that this is the forest. Venus came out of the foams of ocean. Mahalakshmi came from Samudraphena (Vena=Venus) and about her the Rishi sang :”Kamala kaamakala”. She is the kaamakala, being desired by all onlookers alike. But she is Nishkaama . Therefore she gives herself to that Purusha who does not have desire in her. She found only Mahavishnu as such a Nishkaama Purusha. The supreme artist of the Kaamakala, Lakshmi is swayam nishkaama .This Nishkaamakala is Kaamakala of artists. This traditional explanation is to be understood before logically, philosophically and psychologically analyzing art and eroticism (kaama). If art is that which desires the body of opposite sex, fame,name,money, power etc then , in that type of art we will not find Aesthetics (kaamakala) of Soundaryalakshmi , but business greed of lobby experts and third rate artists only. Tyagaraja’s music can never be equated to music of singers who sell their music for the above said things. They are users of art ; Not original artists.This is true of Literary people also.  4 Autobiography of a genius :

Goethe said , if accepting ideas from others is not the sign of genius , there is nothing left for him since his creations are accepted from thousands of objects and people in nature. Without realizing that they are transferring such ideas, both wise and the ignorant gave him those ideas.He proclaimed all his creations as collected ideas from nature , and that collection is given his (Goethe’s) name as the author. Almost in the same vein Emerson remarked that each book is only a quotation, just as each individual is a quotation from all his ancestral races. Just as each house is a quotation from the forests and mines from which it received things for its creation. Therefore Emerson thought that a genius needs the shortest autobiography . My grand uncle Nalapat Narayana Menon believed this and he has copied the words of Emerson in his diary. Once Abul Caine , the Arabian mystic and Abu Aliseena the philosopher met each other. When they were about to part, the philosopher said: Whatever HE see, I know”.The mystic added:” Whatever HE knows,I see”.

13 If a person asks another “Do you love me?” , for both the mystic and philosopher , it means: “Do you know the same truth that I visualize?” It has nothing to do with two physical bodies which wants to unite .The pure art or Mystic art is devoid of any mundane desire.It is just a divine desire to visualize, understand Truth,absolute. The true sign of a poet (Kavi is Rishi in India) is the equanimity , bliss and wisdom. Vyasa,Valmiki and Kalidasa walk and live in ecstacy of constant light of wisdom. They are frank and truthful, honest and simple .Kavi is the witness of Nature, just as Brahman. Each individual, each object is busy recording their own signature /history . Kavi see that story/history and faithfully records it .So he is the Lipika (bard/scribe) of Nature. His/her autobiography is the story of Nature which he /she has written in those pages .No other autobiography is needed for a genius poet. Except Sathyakaama (desire for truth) no other kaama(desire) in pure art or in pure science.  5 Seen and unseen

“ Only that which is seen is truth. That which is unseen is untruth.God is unseen.Therefore God does not exist”. This is the argument of the Naasthika (nonbelievers). That which is seen or visualized is Prathyaksha in sanskrit language. In Tamil it is Kaatchi. But what is this Prathyaksha or Kaatchi ? There are four types of Prathyaksha or visualization. Vaayirkaatchi,Manakaatchi,Thanvedanaikatchi and Yogakatchi in Tamil language. That which is seen with the doorways (Vaathil) of the sense organs is the first . (Indriyaprathyaksha). The sight of the external eye is belonging to this category. We have internal perceptions and conceptual knowledge about the objects we see with our sense organs.These perceptions and cognition are the second (manakaatchi/ Psychological ) We have our own experiences in life.We have seen pleasures and pains and the darsana or visualization of the world from such experiences is the third, the thanvedanaikaatchi. (knowledge from experiences) .The Buddha got Nirvana only after he experience sorrows of others. “Du:khame, neeyengu thrikkaalkal cherppathaNgokkeyum sreekovil thanneyallo Ninmunniletthiya nenchil vitarunnu nirvaanatthaamaramottu thane”(Nalapat Narayana menon) ( Addressing the sorrows of life the poet says , wherever your feet touch , there exists temples.In the heart which comes to you , the lotus of Nirvana blooms quite naturally without any effort). The fourth is the Yogaprathyaksha. It is the eye of Advaitha, which visualize the one and the same oorja, beyond all timespace and in everything. For those who see with only the physical eye, God is imperceptible .Therefore , for them God is untruth. For the other three type of people, the mental perceptions and analysis (logic), experiences of pain and pleasure, and the Yogic darsana give different visions of God and they debate only on the nature of God, not on the existence of God. These three groups in different languages testify the presence of a power in life akin to God .

14 In the different aspects of knowledge, Indriyaprathyaksha ( with physical organs) is only one part. Smrithi (memory) and Apoha ( abhaava or hidden ) are the other parts of knowledge. The free doership of the timespace continnum has hidden the truth absolute from human beings. It obstructs our memory .Those objects and events which we cannot see with our physical eyes, and which we cannot remember do still exist .Only thing is that we are unable to see, remember,experience it with our limited abilities. They are still “Truth” whether we know it or not. This apohanabhaava of Iswara (God) is important. We do not see God, not because of nonexistence of God, but because of our limited memory and limited visual power of cognition. There are only two religions on earth. One is the religion that thinks Truth (God) does exist. This is called Aasthikamatham. The other is that which believes God does not exist (Naasthikamatham).The so called discussions on nature of God between religions is therefore just a method of analysis for furthering knowledge. Knowing this, a wise person will never quarrel with others. Arguments and discussions are different. A wise person knows there is no place for conversions into “another” religion , because God is the same everywhere and one cannot go from one to another and find God there.If one cannot see God in oneself, one can never see God in another.  6 .The truth in poetic word

I cried reading a poem of Mahakavi Vallathol, while I was in lower primary school. The poem was titled “Kozhi” , a common household bird. The poet had criticized those who kill and eat this poor bird. But, when I grew up, I came to know that Vallathol loved to eat it!!! That was an amazing truth which my heart could not contain at first. Vallathol has become an Asathyavak with that one poem in my little heart. I don’t know whether I cried for the Kozhi or for thebroken image I had about the poet in my mind .Several literary critics have opined that Kozhi is a poem which is exemplary increating mental imagery in reader’s minds with poetic words. Bhaavana is the expertise of the poet in creating mental imagery in reader’s minds. Some poets create imagery from Indriyaprathyaksha, others from Manakkaatchi and thanvedanaikatchi and Yogakatchi. These gradations do exist in poetry .

Any person who has once seen a kozhi , will immeadiately remember its form, its gait and nature the moment one reads Vallathol poem Kozhi. Beyond that , no insight or wisdom is interwoven in the

15 creation of Kozhi by Vallathol. Only when the varnnyavishaya ( described subject) is not something observable by all , like a kozhi, one can see the Bhaavanaavyaapaara of a poet who can create imagery (even without seeing that particular object ) in reader’s minds. For example , even without seeing the scene at Kailasa we canvisualise the imagery of the mother Parvathi scolding Siva (Sishyanum Makanum) in Vallathol poem . That is a type of Manakkaatchi . When we go to Chakravala of Nalapat Narayana Menon , we find the poet exposing the entire lotus flowers of cosmic worlds within the Yogic mind in a single sand particle given by a child to its father. That is Yogakatchi .In Kannuneerthulli, by the same poet , we find the Thanvedanaikkatchi ( pain of experience) giving wisdom. Even the external objects and events are shifted to another plane and we are allowed to see them in a new light. Poetry has structure and texture. If both are good, it is the best poetry. Poetry in which the oneness of all creation is exposed are great poems. Asaan poetry is great in that sense. A poet becomes a poet by the great ideologies, the simplicity of their expression so that readers get a glimpse of what is hitherto unseen by their minds. This is called the nature of the poet or the genius by the western critics. The style and structure are made perfect by the poet by regular exercise and experience in years and in them one cannot search for the light of genius. In my imagery a poet is Sathyavaak, from beginning to end. It is sathyasamkalpa forever. Always, sathya (truth) means always Beautiful (sundaram) and auspicious (Sivam). My poetry is love for that truth. My science too is my love for truth. Therefore, in my eyes, poetry and science are not different.They merge in a harmonious Advaitha in my philosophy. It is like a Dosa which is turned upside down, that I carry on with science and arts. A logically,scientifically inclined mind of a philosopher sings ecstatically at each discovery in the sojourn of life. That song of aesthetic beauty (soundaryalahari) makes a scientist humane and compassionate. It is a natural phenomenon for me. Sankara had said that Creativity is the internal nature of a naturally perfect thing and its expression of ecstacy I find in his Soundaryalahari.Some scholars say that Sankara was only a logician and he would not have created soundaryalahari. There is no logic in that. Because , he himself has said that creativity is natural expression of a perfect mind and a Rishikavi has to be naturally aesthetic too. I love all other poems of Vallathol Mahakavi,and am a fan of hi; but not Kozhi, because it is not sathyavaak . 7 Willpower ( Ichaasakthi) 19.5.1971.The date on which my father wrote a letter to me. That was 12 days after my 25th birthday. The last sentence reads like this :” In this world matters will never come round as we wish, unless we act and put pressures”. My father always believed that I do not possessa “push “ to live in this mundane world. It is a luck for a woman to have a loving father, husband and son to protect her in three stages of life. Sometimes that protection is interpreted as lack of freedom by several women. In certain aspects it is true. A wall of protection for a garden is to avoid stray animals grazing in it. A strong defence force in a

16 nation’s frontier is to protect it from intruders and invaders who disrupt the privacy. A protective wall makes some restrictions and in a sense this may be called a lack of freedom. But how important is the protection for us !! The same women who crave for freedom from such protective forces, are raising voices when women’s privacy is invaded by intruders and antisocial elements. Until and unless entire society become good and nice , women do need some protective forces around her. The boundaries of protection from our loving relatives and friends intended for this cannot be easily broken if we understand the society wolfs outside, ready to tarnish our name and body alike. Woman needs a respectable job so that she can be economically liberated. She needs self respect. She needs a goal in life.All these requires good education. Unlesss and until she is properly educated and can stand on her own with economically secure jobs, it is better not to push her into marriage allaiances.And for this each parent has to be educated too . Freedom of women is not something different from freedom of all human beings , in my thought processes. Yet, sometimes from my own experiences , I feel that women are better in both professional and domestic duties than men.That is why I liked the poem of Elizebeth Ralph Mertz in Ratcliffe quarterly . She asks :” When Aristotle was writing great books, when Milton was looking for his rhymes did soft youthful hands of children embrace their knees and remind them that it is time for dinner ? When Dante was travelling in memoirs of hell, Shakespeare creating sonnets, did children complaint that the bread is salty and milk needs more sugar in it ? When Socrates was teaching Philosophy and Plato creating Faedo , did they take brooms to clean up the courtyard where children had just finished their play ? If Edmund Burkke was under pressure of domestic duty of looking after the children, could he have got time to think and speak on revolutions ? Had Darwin , in search of the first vibration of life in origin of species, experienced the pressure of kitchen work and baby sitting at home ? When Homes and Brandis were sitting on the Judge’s seat with black coat, did they think about the one meter high dirty linen at home to be cleaned ? If the answers to these questions are “No”, then , women are better in their professional and domestic work alike and are superior to any man. “ Namaskaram to Elizabeth Ralph Mertz for such a poem. Without seeing any duty as a lack of one’s freedom , doing it with a supreme willpower ,wisdom and proficiency (Ichasakthi,gnanasakthi,kriyasakthi) woman is the mother of the universe. I find a self confidence and duty consciousness and a pride in being a woman with multifaceted abilities in this poet. It is not ego but selfconfidence that I read in her words.  8. Earnings:

What does a man try to earn ? Wealth,house,vehicles,property, a successor to enjoy them.Even education has become a short cut to aquire such things. To prove that they are successful in life, human beings shamelessly and cheaply exhibit such luxuries. If one has a story to tell , and a style to express it, anyone can write autobiographies which are mere exhibitionisms. The question is, apart from the person acquiring fame out of the story, does the reader get any benefit ? I love autobiographies of people like Einstein which are success stories that carry a message to coming generations. Autobiographies of Yogins who acquired wisdom are also readable.

17 Einstein said that kindness,beauty and truth are the ideas which influenced his life. Philosophy of Schopanover helped Einstein to outcome hardships in life. The greatest and most beautiful experience one can have is the self experience of true art and science. Those who have never experienced this and those who are not wonderstruck by such profound experiences are considered as partially or wholly blind or with damaged vision. Einstein calls the self experience one gets in the sacred journey to the field of truth and beauty , as “Religion”. Sankaracharya also called this Swaanubhoothi as the highest spiritual Bliss of Advaitha. Almost in the same sense Bernard Shaw opined that a man can live even without God, not without a religion (Swaanubhoothi) . Nalapat Narayana Menon used to quote these words of Bernard Shaw. Every individual whose mind and intellect are concentrated on the eternity of life and beauty of this wonderful cosmos, will naturally make one’s life a sacrifice for search of Truth. By that Yajna , one is liberated from the smaller “I” to a greater “I” . Just like the sages of the East, Einstein also believed that the measuring rod of one’s greatness is this liberation from smaller I . The desire to know, the creative intellectual work done for that makes a researcher , different from others. Observe,learn,cognize, enjoy in it – these are the most beautiful gifts of Nature for any human being . That was Einstein’s opinion .This type of crystallization of “Religion” or swaanubhoothi is that which leads to desire to serve humanity. The love for God, the desire for a safe future for the entire world,the need for a guide to show the best and the most suitable way to truth leads human mind to its goal. The small worlds of sensory world experiences and the I related to that , is lost. We are liberated from its bondage in our journey to the cosmic worlds of stars and beyond. Such desire for Aloukika truth is what Einstein calls the Cosmic Religious feeling.Einstein said that though the feeling is there in David’s songs and in words of the prophet, in its perfect sense and form he could experience it in the Buddhist texts. All arts and sciences have only the goal of awakening such cosmic feeling and recording it in different forms and languages for coming generations to be awakened. This alone gives real meaning to a scientist’s and artist’s life. We may not find such priceless experiences in autobiographies of people who gloat over wealth,power,fame and luxuries acquired for oneself and family members . In a cave man’s drawing and scripts one may be able to find such swanubhoothi of the first ancestors. But do not search for it in autobiographies of rich and powerful luxurious , vulgarly exhibitive autobiographies. You may not find it there. Youngsters should come out of educational institutions as balanced wise individuals, not as specialists, moneymaking machines or tools of power politics. For this Einstein suggested a Educational programme which contains local history , geography and values of ancient tribal cultures. He wrote: ”Numerous are the academic chairs. But rare are noble and wise teachers. Numerous and large are the lecture halls but far from numerous the young people who genuinely thirst for truth and justice “. Life on earth is transient as if in a rented house. This is not for acquiring cars,houses,luxuries,ornaments and wealth . This is for acquiring wisdom of generations of human ancestors. The real jewels and

18 diamonds are in the thoughts, in the sciences and arts of our ancestors. Our real earnings are those jewels of thoughts and what we accumulate inour treasurehouse of wisdom is for entire humanity, not for one family alone. A honeybee collect honey from different species of flowers. Like that , thinkers collect the nectar of wisdom from several branches of knowledge and in their thought processes it is integrated as aharmonious whole . Just as rivers become ocean and cannot be separated , the honey cannot be separated into that from a particular flower. The integrated wisdom honey is in the beehive of a thinker’s thoughts. Generations of people enjoy it . Benefit from it . Share that Cosmic religious feeling of Swanubhoothi for all .  9. The letter of Yathi and my Path

When I write this, white flowers bloom and redden again on the Rangoon creeper in my courtyard of C2 quarters , Calicut Medical College campus. Fallen Pavizhamalli flowers spread white silk everywhere. The jasmine tendrils climbing up the terrace is in full bloom. May Flower trees look on silently , with bent heads. Parrots lazily flutter in the branches of the guava tree bearing ripe fruits. The colourful world seen through my Microscope here is beautiful! Soocheemukhi;Bulbul;Olenjaali; swarna pakshi (Golden Oriole) coming once in a way from Uzbeckisthan as a migratoryvisitor without a visa. Spotted and black koils. Chemboth… Sounds,forms,names,colours…..Witness to this world of names and forms (Naamaroopaathmaka prapancha) , the orange coloured rising Sun. Here, I hear , Mahaamouna (great silence) of Prakrithi (Nature). In the green canopy of trees grown skyhigh .. In the wide , broad chest of the blue sky..(Krishnaa….) In each bindu (point) of my body made of five elements (Panchabhoothaathmaka ) That Mahaamounam (great silence) is condensed , and filled. Now I do not have a name “Suvarna” I do not have a form either. I am not a housewife,doctor,pathologist,administrator of Blood bank, author , orator.. I am nobody, no body.. I float in the great ocean of silence on a small peepal leaf.. I fill the prakrithi as a silent word ..

19 This I is the real I for me. In these moments I feel the true I. This power of the silent I make me capable of my duties. All other identities are only shadows of this one great I . Today I received a letter from Guru Nitya. Letter sent on 30.4.91. He has read my article “Ente vazhi”( My path) from Noothanadhaara. He says the last paragraph of that article made me more happy. What is that paragraph ? “ I believe that every human life is an effort to expand the analytical and integrative mental sctivities. Cultivate a poetic heart within a scientist. Have consciousness about the universe and nature surrounding us. Select good books and read them. Understand difference between science of political consciousness and the gimmicks in name of politics. Analyse oneself emotionally. As a free citizen of free India , do the work entrusted in us by the Nation, dutifully. Try to grow up as an individual. Thus , by perfecting one’s self, serve the Nation perfectly in our field of activity. Probably , mother India expects this from her children in today’s situation. And this must be the best path we can follow.” Yathi is a scholar. A music lover and painter. A psychologist and a yogin with several followers abroad and in India. I am happy that he liked these lines from my pen. Because , that is my Way of life, in this Janma. My Path and my Patheyam.  10. Madness of Naranath Braanthan

Wisdom within, enlightening the whole being makes a person different from others.Majority of people , who have no experience of wisdom , testify that such a person is Mad. Why should Naranath branthan push down stones of different sizes from a hilltop ? That is the same madness of Galileo , to study and experiment with trajectories. I have read in “Bible and Life” a small anecdote. A scientist was sitting on a hilltop and watching stars throughout night. The faithful dog used to follow him. The dog found his master’s activity quite mad. So, he started catching rats and digging up bones and in the midst of this treasure-hunting expeditions turned his thoughtful head at the master and barked: What a waste of life. My master. Are you mad to look at those things in heaven which are not eatable and will serve no purpose to you. Ordinary people, who are in search of riches,power,luxuries,diamonds are like the dog in serach of rats and bones. Though they are faithful servants of the master, the Guru, they have a feeling that the master is mad .The Guru personalities are always minorities, who think that worldly desires are of low nature and they are intoxicated with the research and search of that which is other worldly. Each think the other is mad. It is a theory of relativity. People in Moscow thinking that people in Newzealand are walking upside downon heels and vice versa, due to the shape of earth! Is desire for this worldly things or the otherworldly things best ? The answer to the question which is best is always subjective depending on the individual who answers that question. For me,I prefer the madness of a Gnaani to the madness of a rich person inpursuit of diamonds and luxuries. Naranath Braanthan and Paakkanaar and other children of Vararuchi considered gold and wealth as killers of human beings (Alekkolli in Malayalam) and pursued their own sciences and arts with a madness which is seen only in scientists and

20 mystics. I would rather be a follower of such people rather than the follower of gold and diamond gatherers. I have reached old age. Those who were with me in the first half of my life have reached their abode. I too have travelled a lot in my own path . My pathway crosses the deep forest of words. This is a sairandhreevana (Silent forest) where no one disturbs the Thapas of my thoughts. Words , sealed in Mouna (silence) have made light towers and above them I float like a free wind. With the breath of silent music of the movementless trees , I wander..I fly…fly..high as a dream traveler .. Here, word is Agni.Fire. Pure fire . This pure fire of word attracted me as a firefly. I will dance around this fire and light of wisdom , till my wings are burned , and will do my “Sathi” in its Mahaamouna (great silence). Here word is water. I whirl and whirl in its depths and is taken to the innermost recess of that ocean.Just as a pearl in a conch I imbibe the silence of this deep waters. Here word is earth. I am a infant daughter attracted by her smell,name and form , and catch hold of my mother’s Sari pallav and never ever leave her bondage for a second. Here , word is the Aakaasa, the sky. In this endless expanse of blue, I am a stardust . Here the word is the Praana of the Jagath. I am that wind, that praana, searching for my own roots, encircling the silent forests of my own words, as Pravahaaila in cosmic spacetime.. Here word is Vag Devatha, my mother. I am a dust in her lotus feet Here, word is Nadabrahman. I am a sruthi in it..A raagam, a Thaalam… When my heart is filled with Rasa, as a clud in the month of Sraavana, I perfect the music within me as the absolute silence, as the Pranaama , and merge in her. My chethana become a Raajahamsa , that has crossed the ocean deaths and births. From such moments, I come back to this shore of earth again.. But a transformed person. Life has become simple,beautiful and blessed. This wonderful blissful Aanandalahari … This Soundaryalahari which is dense silence of a shell that has conceived a valuable pearl within , in the depths of wisdom ocean..Sudhaasindhu. This may be the madness of a Naranath Braanthan. Among many other madnesses , I find this more blessed. As ri Ramakrishna Paramahansa said , this is a better madness than many other types of madnesses seen in the world. A better madness! I say about my madness of researching jnana,sathya and saying “Nethi,Nethi” putting it down a hilltop and watch it make a trajectory of life and enjoy !!!!  11 Saanthiroopena:

21 Among the Gurus who taught me to keep my microscope’s lens and angle in the correct position there are Ammaman (Nalapat Narayana menon) my grandmother and parents, husband and son and several known and unknown Gurus and teachers of yore ,scientists and artists of the east and the west. Among them is my Valiyamma, Balamani Amma. My mother’s elder sister. She had always been a mother to me. Not in the relative life, but in the absolute realm of life of my poetry and literature. I have a doubt that the name given to her as the mother of literature , though given in respect, has a sort of limitation on her poetic genius. Ofcourse, a Mother is the first and the greatest teacher for any human child. But, some feminist writers try to bind her to a label “ The one who never broke the boundary of servitude imposed by male chauvinism”.It is this sort of comments which makes me laugh at those who made it. When this woman poet looks back at a point in her life, in a beautiful dawn of creativity which opened its doors for her, she didn’t see her husband or children or family. She wrote : Chelezhum thaddeepthiyil en uyirnurungukal Pole kaanunnen chuttumiccharaacharangale” ( I saw in its beautiful glow, all living and nonliving beings around as if my own life’s shreds and pieces) Such an expanded bloomed hear cannot be bound to any wall or boundary. Her anthiyuzhicchil ( the rite of showing a lighted lamp in front of children during twilight) spreada a smoke which is compared to the wisdom that destroys all microbes of earthly desires. Her viewpoint from her home window never complains that she is in bondage but is always with a positive outlook and with confidence. Her willpower in the declaration (Atukkalappukamootal swadharmasookshmaamsam kaanaan patuthwamee nethrangalkku kuraykkayilla) that the smoke from kitchen will never reduce the ability of my eyes to visualize the subtlest parts of my Dharma ; Her treasures of knowledge which is attractive as a thought of love, great as a philosophical thought, and loves expanses of creativity; without seeing such greatness in her poetry the critics merely repeat what was said in the formative periods of her career by one of the critics. How she has evolved from a mother of her own children to the mother of entire world is the real freedom she has achieved from the male oriented social order. Bhaashayaal, varggangalaal,saamraajyangalaal,preshtaBhaavilokathin varampituvaan thirakkalil Ennamenniye chappum chavarum vaarikkootti Thannutethennaay mudra kuthuvaan petum paatil ( Man is trying to put his name signature on every thing that he collects, and in that busy schedule he tries to make boundaries of a future world with language, class, empires etc and such items which are countless are mere waste products.) This foolishness is seen by her eyes very early in life. Man with his ego tries to conquer others. Man in his desire for fame, try to find fault with others. In the fear of failure is the burning of despires, and among all these man is actually begging for a little drop of kindness and compassion and his thoughts in a rare moment of self analysis achieves new wings and finds his own shadow in his enemy and tries to embrace him.In that hands which are extended to embrace all ,

22 irrespective of enemy and friend, man and animal, is the key for the welfare of the entire world. This is the message her poetry gives. If one understands this there will be no wars or quarrels in this world . When we open newspapers we find all sorts of poisonous stories of bloodsheds and enmity. Quarrels and egocentric speeches about one’s own language, class, religion , gender and so many other things. Balamani Amma finds even in such stories the basic desire of man to be recognized, to get a drop of kindness from fellow beings . Society needs a self analysis for a self purification ! Velithaantaappasu (The cow that never breaks the master’s boundary line) never fits in with her. Can a Velithaantaappasu have thrikalajnana ( wisdom of the timelessness in which all time merge) that grasps the peace and brightness of the multitudes of Brahmanda ( multiverses) which are oscillating like small balls made of threads in the waves of one’s thoughts. The boundaries of the cosmos are most difficult to cross.This cow is crossing even that. Am I a small point (Bindu) in this cosmos ? Or , is this cosmos which is eternal , a rainbow exposed in my cloudy Athman’s fields? Which of this is truth ? The poet exclaims: En mahaaviswame , samsayamaaneniKkunmayaay nilppathu neeyo njaano ? ( My great Universe, I doubt. Am I the Truth ? Or You ?”) My valiyamma was a soul who knew that the thorny crown on the forehead though painful , is taking away the pains of the entire universe into oneself and only in such a Thiruhridayam (sacred heart) the wisdom that measure the immeasureable can bloom and that such wisdom makes one blessed, blissful and humble.In fact it is the wisdom (Vidya) which gives Vinayam (Humble simple nature) and bliss eternal and for this compassion to entire world is mandatory.A selfish individual who does not break the boundaries of the ego, desires of one’s body and mind can never achieve that.Valiyamma did not have ant artificial haloes around her self. Hers was a natural halo of love and wisdom. She was not a limited personality of a mother who loves only her own children .She was not silly to think that only her language Malayalam is great and all other languages are below that.She never thought that one religion is above the other and that by converting to another she can achieve bliss . Thus, in her own right, in a rare way she had crossed all boundaries imposed by all religions, all the castes, creeds and power politics to which modern media push the modern literary people. The question to such people who call her a Velithaataappasu is: Can you call yourself a person who has crossed boundaries by changing your name, your caste or religion or a particular political group ? You just enter another boundary.That is all what happens with such gimmicks. Even remaining at one’s own position one can cross all boundaries without loosing one’s identity.This was the lesson Balamani Amma showed. She needs no titles, no adjectives.And she will not wrinkle her face at those who give her such nicknames and titles. Because she had grown to a status of seeing God even in the feet that touch your head (Thalayil chavittunna kaalil eesanekkanta balavad vinayathin soumyamurthy).To that soumyamoorthi, who taught me the lessons of life and literature : Yaa Devi sarvabhootheshu Shaanthiroopena samsthitha

23 Namasthasyai namasthasyai namasthasyai namo nama:  12 Christ and the donkey :

I don’t have any particular political membership or affinity to any political party either.Before 1969, I had deep relationship to Indian National congress with its symbol of two oxen and a plough , the sign of an agrarian economy .At present my political affinity is purely issue-based. Whatever a political party does with a longterm aim of improving my nation , I welcome. Other programmes I reject.This freedom of my life I have maintained throughout my career. Once , a friend insisted that I join some sort of an organization so that I am given a prominent position and thereby my voice is heard. Many a institution/organization also wanted this. But I avoided such institutional/ organizational label. My friend had told me a story for the necessity of joining an organization.I am sharing it here. There was a donkey which became the vehicle of Christ. Wherever Christ went, the donkey also went and people put garlands both on the donkey and Christ. They gave good food and strew flowers on paths through which the happy donkey could walk in comfort. The donkey thought that I am a great personality and people are worshipping me. One day, the donkey entered a field and started to eat the ripe corn there. People came and beat it and injured it. The lesson my friend learned from this story was: Join a samgha and only then you are strong. Donkey is worshipped and is strong only when he joins a strong Christ (whom my friend equated with an organization). This was a real shock for me. A little bit humourous too. How can one identify Christ with an organization? And, is the ultimate aim of a human being to get garlands, good food and flowers? Is Christ an organization and the donkey the people in that organization ? Pothujanam kazhutha ( people are donkeys) we have heard. But a person giving a story to substantiate this was really funny. If the members of an organization are all donkeys, the institution is only a very big donkey (Immini valley kazhutha in language of Vaikkam Mohammad Basheer) , and never aChrist. Anyway, since my aim was not to become a donkey, a bigger donkey , or to get good food,flowers,fame and garlands everywhere I visit . I didn’t want to be a donkey.But I would definitely try to be a Christ , in the real sense. To try to be a Christ is worth a trial. To be a donkey, no effort is required. Krishna is the name sage Gargya gave to Krishna. Krish means earth where all Krishi (agriculture) happens. Na means ecstacy as if a bell in a temple makes incessant vibratory sounds. Krishna made those vibratory notes and gave ecstacy to all beings by taking away their pains. Christ also took away the pains of humanity to himself. Budha saw pains of the people around and searched for total alleviation of pain of society. All great souls have done that. My efforts at alleviating pains of body,mind ,intellect through literature,Music and arts is an effort for such humanitarian purpose. For this, I need no institution , but institutions may find my help useful to them. Christ came to me before age 8, through the book Paavangal, a translation of Victor Hugo’s Les Miserables. The compassion of Christ is visualized in the Methran of D and in Zhang val Zhang . By age 11 Budha also entered my heartspace. Krishna had been there always..From time immemorial..

24 Krishna is my Aanandabrahman ..The bliss spoken of in Upanishads as Kam Kham Brahman. . The remnant of several previous janmas as seeds of wisdom within , as a milky ocean within and without..as the fragrance of my memories..These are familiar to me naturally. Modern institutions and organizations are trying to make these great personalities mere donkeys . I have no familiarity with such institutionalized things. Both political and religious institutions use wise people of yesteryears look like donkeys in their service. In the magnified Viswaroopa image that grow from earth to skies in my Telescope cum microscope, Budha,Christ and Krishna are not different. They are One and are totally free from the need of donkeys and greater donkeys . In all good and compassionate hearts they dwell as Bliss, beauty, truth,love and as eternal Amrithajyothi . What is the use of Institutional membership for a Krishna,Buddha and Christ ?  13 Bertrand Russell and Arch Bishop of Canterbury

Is there a God ? several years back I read a discussion between Bertrand Russel and Archbishop of Canterburry F .C. Coppleston . Russell is a intellectual to the core. Yet, in the beginning of the argument itself , he started to talk as if he is not a free mind , but one who clings to one’s views even if they are wrong. A person who shows free intellectual expertise in all articles , just because of a feeling that Coppleton is his enemy was closing all doors and windows of one’s mind to Copppleston’s arguments. That was a surprise for me, because I have read and appreciated Russel before and was hearing the name of Coppleston for the first time in my life. The search and research into a first cause of cosmos as a lawgiver of universe begins only in a mind that observe the laws for a long time and search for its cause. But Russell says that one should not search for a cause for universe and such questions should never be asked. His words :” It is illegitimate even to ask the question of the cause of the world”. But science and history are doing such search and asking such questions continuously. How can an intellectual like Russell say that such questions are illegitimate and should never be asked ? If questioning itself is illegitimate , answers obtained , whether it be in field of astrophysics, anthropological and genetic origins also should be illegitimate and science itself will be illegitimate. This attitude is the attitude of early Catholic and semitic churches , not of the intellectualism of modern age . That is what surprised me, when I saw that streak in Russel .In a mind closed to all enquiries and questioning, only superstitions will grow .Whether it be there is a God, or there is no God, a mind that does not enquire into a cause of Universe will definitely land up in superstitions. One has to observe, question, get self experience for several years of life on this earth, compare them with experience of others who lived in the past and in present, make progress in analytical and integrative wisdom path, and open the keys of numerous branches of knowledge to get a correct answer. For this a clean concentrated mind and a sharp intellect will be tools.For every human being this is the path of true science and of true logical analysis and intellectualism. “ Religious experience is as much a real experience as falling in love or appreciating poetry or art “ . Coppleton quotes this words of Julian Huxley in his conversation with Russel. What a beautiful comparison. Like falling in love, like enjoying music or poetry , real and natural to a human mind is the spiritual experience. I agree with this 100 percent but with a little change. I change the word religious to

25 spiritual. What is called Pramarthikasathyam in Vedantha is called by Coppleton as absolute truth. Only the language changed, not the meaning. According to Russell, such an absolute truth does not exist since Dharma is changing in every era, according to the times. He says, at one time human beings were cannibals and at that time cannibalism was dharma. This question of Russel shows that he has misunderstood Dharma and absolute truth for the rules and regulations of day to day life of society. The rules and regulations imposed by society are the rites majority of society members approve and hence are only smrithi ( memories) . How can be Justinian’s code or Indian penal code or civil laws of any nation be mistaken for the absolute truth (paramarthasatha) of spiritual experience? As Balamani Amma rightly said, such rules and regulations are only the outer cover of the Anantha Naag which he shreds and grows another , but remaining absolute truth himself. The misunderstanding of a country’s rules/regulations/penal code for day to day administration for the absolute truth still continues in modern day intellectuals. About good and bad what does Russel say ? He says he can distinguish them with his mental emotions, just as he distinguish yellow and red with external eye. Then Coppleton asked a remarkable question: what does Russell think of the doings of Belson which Hitler considered as goodness and Russell considers as badness. Both Hitler and Russell has minds and emotions and has different views on it. Then Russell said Hitler’s eyes were jaundiced and so his view was wrong. But , Coppleton asks: suppose I asked this question to Hitler what will be his answer? His answer would be Russel’s eyes are jaundiced and he is wrong. That means, an individuals decisions based on individual mental emotions could be relative, never absolute. Thus Russell’s answer that he use his own mental emotions alone for distinguishing good and bad made it a relative assessment and proved that his intellectual analysis had been relative . Russell compares the cruelty of Belson to colourblindness . Colourblindness is caused by a genetic abnormality, or a lack of an aminoacid and it is a disease for which one cannot criticize anyone.It is an innocent drawback one aquires genetically and has no choice to control or correct. Can this be compared to the purposeful cruel atrocities committed by Belson ? That was purposeful homicide and can never be compared to colourblind individual’s infirmity which is not his/her fault. In a society distinguishing colours and distinguishing good and bad for society are entirely different processes. A colourblind person can distinguish good and bad, though he/she cannot distinguish colours. The similie Russell uses where a a person who distinguish colour is branded as ignorant in a

colourblind society , with majority having colourblindness is borrowed from Plato. It is because of this colourblindness of society Christ was crucified, Socrates was poisoned and Galileo was imprisoned. But, the world has not evaluated the crucified, poisoned and imprisoned minority as colourblind , and has found the good in them ( though minority) and bad in the society . Those few were the truth seekers who enquired about the absolute truth within, in the universe, the cause of everything. Therefore, enquiry and questioning was never considered illegal by any human society with intellect. May be

26 human beings had been cannibals at one time as Russell argues. Now we are not so . Evolution is not downward movement but upward progress. In evolutionary path , we have to consider the nonviolence and peaceful co-existence, compassion as definitely above violence,wars and hatred. This evolution and the truths revealed therein make the absolute dharma of society to be followed for the sake of world peace. The action of Belson was painful to entire world including Russel. The world witnessed that cruel act with painful tearful eyes and protested against such inhumane activity. But did Hitler or Belson feel that pain when they did it ? Did their followers recognize the bad effects of such actions on future generations ? No. They were rejoicing in their action. Therefore , individual minds can vary in their ability to distinguish goodness and badness and if left alone to do as they please, they will create problems to society. Law and penal codes are for controlling such minds. Parents tell us what is good and bad and which will bring happiness to us .According to Russell, a persons ethics is only a reflection of what is taught in infancy.But who taught Belson and Hitler to run concentration camps , in their childhood ? No parent is responsible for all atrocities committed by an adult human mind. The power to distinguish what is good and bad is inherent in human mind. That natural power when it is beyond personal selfish motives , and power games revealed in one’s consciousness is considered as presence of God within by Coppleston. By this standard ,Coppleston see God’s presence in Russell’s mind though Russell deny the presence of God . The natural consciousness of Good within , expanded by the training and education , one is lucky to gain in life bloom into a compassion and love for humanity . The presence of such consciousness even in those who deny God (Naasthika) is thus revealed by Coppleston. In this respect, the Archbishop showed more intellectualism than the intellectual Russell.

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