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‫ﻋﺒﺪﺍﻟﺮﺣﻤﻦ ﻣﻨﻴﻒ‬

‫ﺍﻟﻌ ﺘ ﺒــــﺔ‬

‫ﻻ ﺃﻃﻠ ﺐ ﻣ ﻨﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻋﻄﻔﻜﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﺫﺍ ﻛ ﻨ ﺘﻢ ﻣﺤﺴ ﻨﲔ ﻓ ﺎ ﻣ ﻨﺤﻮﺍ ﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺗﻜﻢ ﻟﻠﻤ ﺘﺴﻮﻟﲔ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘﺴﻮًﻻ ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﻣﺴﻜ ﻴ ﻨ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﻻ ﺃﻋ ﺘ ﺒﺮ ﻟﺼ ًﺎ ﺍﻭ ﻗ ﺎﻃﻊ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓ ﺎﻥ ﻟﻲ ﻣﺸﻜﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣﺸﻜﻠ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ‬
‫ﻳﻌ ﺘﺼﺮ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺟﺪﻳﺪﺍ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻠﺤ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﻋ ﻴﺸﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺒﻠﻎ ﺣﺪًﺍ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ‬
‫ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻟﻬﺰ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺩﺍﻡ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ـ ﻓﻲ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻻﻧﻘ ﺎﺫﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄﻛﺪَﺍ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﺫﻟﻚ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻳﺤ ﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳ ﺚ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﻣﻌﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﳌ ًﺎ ﺟﺪﻳﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻠﻘ ﺎ ﻩ ﻣ ﻦ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧﻜﻢ ﺍﳌ ﻴ ﺘﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ ﻣﻊ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﻜﻠﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﺃ ﺣﻼﻡ؟ ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻘﺔ؟ ﺣﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ؟ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ .‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺒ ًﺎ ﺣﻘ ﻴﻘ ﻴ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺗﺬّﻛﺮﺕ ﺃﺭﺗﻌ ﺶ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣﺰﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﺪﻭﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﻻ ﺣﺼﺮ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺾ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﲡ ﺘ ﺎ ﺣ ﻨﻲ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻠ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﺃﺭﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﻟﺼﺪﻳﻖ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻬﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺑﲔ ﺍﻻﺷﻔ ﺎﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺑ ﺘ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ‬
‫ﺃ ﺧﺮﻕ))ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ(( ﺃ ﺟ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ﻟﺰﺝ ﻣﺪ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻄ ﺒﻄ ﺐ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻱ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﺣﺮﺹ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺗ ﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋ ﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﻣﻊ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ ﲤﻠﻜ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﻀ ﺐ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻲ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻇّﻠ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺗﺨ ﺘﺮﻗ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻋ ﺎﺭﻳ ًﺎ ﺫﻟ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺩﻫﺸ ﺖ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺑﺤ ﺚ ﻋ ﻨﻪ ﻷﺑﻮﺡ ﻟﻪ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺎﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻫﺪﻭﺀ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ‬
‫ﺃﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺑ ﺎ ﻷﻧﺴﺤ ﺎﻕ‪ .‬ﺻﻤ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ ﻃﻌ ﻴ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻣﻬﺰﻭ ﻣ ًﺎ ﺍﺳ ﺘﺪﺭﻙ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺧﺬ ﻳﺤ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻻﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎﻡ‬
‫ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﺨ ﺘﻠﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷ ﻴﺊ ﻗﺪ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻬﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺣﻜ ﻴﻤﺔ ﻭﺑ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﻓﻤﻪ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﲤﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺣﻮﺍﺩﺙ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻗﻞ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳ ﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻫ ﺎﻡ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ!‬
‫ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻋ ﺎﻭﺩﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﻀ ﺐ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺑﻪ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻭﻫﻤ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻪ ﺍ ﳊﻘ ﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻭﺍﻗﻌ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﻭ ﺟﻮﺩﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧﺤ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﺛ ﻨﲔ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﺘﻠﻲﺀ ﲢﺪﻳ ًﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺿ ﻴﻒ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺳ ﺄﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺻ ﺎﺏ ﻟﻬ ﺎﺛﻲ ﻋﻄ ﺐ ﻣﻔ ﺎ ﺟﻰﺀ‪ .‬ﺧﺮﺝ ﺻﻮﺗﻲ ﻣﺴﻜ ﻴ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻧﻌ ﻴ ﺶ ﺍ ﻷﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ!‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﺮﻳﻘ ًﺎ ﻣﻠﻮﻧ ًﺎ‬
‫ﺗ ﻨﻔﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺼﻌﻮﺑﺔ ﳌ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺗﻄﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻭﻗﻌﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻋ ﺘﻜﺮ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﺭﺃﻯ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻚ ﻭﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺘﺤ ﺎﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻔﻘﺔ ﺗ ﺘﺮﺍﻓﻘ ﺎﻥ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺗﻔﻜﺮ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺖ ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﺣ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﲢ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌ ﻴ ﺶ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻫ ﺎﻡ!‬
‫ﻭﺑﺪﺃ ﻳ ﺘﻜﻠﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋ ﺎﻭﺩ ﺫﻛﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻋ ﺘ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ﻗﺼﺔ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻋ ﺘ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ﻩ ﻗﺪﺭًﺍ ﺳ ﺎ ﺧﺮًﺍ؟ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻀ ﻴ ﺎﻉ ﻓﻲ ﻏ ﻴ ﺎﻫ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪،‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺣﲔ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮﻫ ﺎ ﲡﻌﻠ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﺠ ﻨﻮﻥ ﻭﺍ ﻷﻭﻗ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﳝﺮ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻃ ﻴﻔﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ‬ ‫ﻓ ﺎﳌﺸ ﺎﻋﺮ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺴﻄ ﻴﺮ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﺑﻐ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻃﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻘﺮ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻃﻔﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺁ ﺧﺬ ﺭﺃﻳﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺷﻔ ﺎﻫﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺧﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺃ ﺣﺴ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣﻮﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﺭﺃﻓﺔ ﺑﻘﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﺃﻱ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺩﺍﻡ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺩﺍﻡ ﺿ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻜﻢ ﺳ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﺴ ﺄﻟﻮﻥ ‪ :‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺍﺫﻥ ﺃﻗﺺ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻜﻢ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﺼﻞ؟‬
‫ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻜﻢ؟‬
‫ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﻗﻄﻊ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻜﻢ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺳﺪ ﺃﻓﻮﻫﻜﻢ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺎﺛﻮﻟ ﻴﻜ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣ ﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻸﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ًﺎ ﻟﻠﺨﻼﺹ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛﻠﻔ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺳﲔ ﺑ ﺘﻠﻘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻋﻠﻢ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺍﳌﻌ ﺎﺻﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﻓ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻘﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻮﺛ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻠﻘﻲ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﺍﳌﺮﻳﺾ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺟﺪ‬
‫ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ًﺎ ﻻﺫﺍﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﲤﻬ ﻴﺪﺍ ﻟﻠﺸﻔ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺁﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻃ ﺒ ﺎﺀ ﻧﻔﺴ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺗ ﺘﻠﻘﻮﻥ ﺍﻻ ﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻑ؟‬
‫ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻻ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺄﻗﻮﻝ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻭﻟﻮ‪ ....‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﺫﺍ ﺷ ﺌ ﺘﻢ ﺃﻗﺮﺃﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺷ ﺌ ﺘﻢ ﻛﻔﻮﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻗﺮﺃﰎ ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﺗﻀ ﻴﻔﻮﺍ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺻﻔﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﻟﻠﺼﻔ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ!‬

‫ﺍ ﳉ ﺒـــــﻞ‬

‫ﺣﺪﺙ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ‪ ..‬ﺃﻭﺍ ﺧﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺭﻳ ﺢ ﻫﻮ ﺟ ﺎﺀ ﻧﻠ ﺒﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻄﻠ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣﻄ ﺎﺭ ﻏﺰﻳﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺿﻔ ﺎﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﻐﻤﻮﺽ‪ ،‬ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﺪﺃ ﻳﻐﺰﻭ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺧ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺸﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻳﺸ ﺘﺪ ﺭﻛﻀ ﺖ ﻷﺻﻞ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺷﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺒّﻠﻠ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‬
‫ﻼ ﻻ ﺃ ﻣﺴ ﺢ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻲ ﻭﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻠﺬ ﺓ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻣ ﻦ‬ ‫ﺃﺭﻛﺺ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻗﻒ ﲢ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺧﺮﺝ ﻣ ﻨﺪﻳ ً‬
‫ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺑﺮﻭﺩﺗﻪ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻣ ﺒ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ ﻟ ﺘﺪﻏﺪﻍ ﻛﻞ ﺧﻠ ﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻘﺮ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻈ ﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺮﻭﺩ ﺓ ﺗ ﺘﺴﺮﺏ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﺠ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻣ ﺎ )ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀﺔ‬
‫ﻭﻏﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ( ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻥ ﻣ ﻨﻈﺮﻱ ﻳ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﻷﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻷﻋ ﺘﺬﺭ )ﻭﻳﺨ ﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻥ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻄﻔﻮ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ( ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﺑﻌ ﻴﻮﻧ ﻨ ﺎ ﺗﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﺗﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ﻨ ﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ .‬ﻧﺰﻻﺀ‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻟﻰ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍ ﳉﻮ ﺣ ﺎﺭًﺍ ﺛﻘ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﺭ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﺑﻜﺮﻭﺵ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻣﺮﺗ ﺎ ﺣﺔ ﻭﻇﻬﻮﺭ ﻣﺤﺮﻭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳ ﺒ ﻨﻮﻥ ﺑ ﻴﻮﺗ ًﺎ ﺛﻢ ﻳﻬﺪ ﻣﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺐ‬
 ‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣ ﺘﻠﻰﺀ ﺿﺠﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘ ﺎﺏ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻋﺪﻭًﺍ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﲢﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺣﺮﻭﻓﻪ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻏ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺳﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﺑﻼ‬
‫ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺒﺮﻭﺩ ﺓ ﻣ ﻴ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﻮ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺑﻀﻊ ﺩﻗ ﺎﺋﻖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻋﻮﺍﻟﻢ ﻣ ﻨﻐﻠﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﻣﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷ ﺟﺴ ﺎﺝ ﻭﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮ ﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺃﻳﺔ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﻭ ﻣﻀﻄﺠﻌﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺑﻄ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺚ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺎ‬
‫ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮ ﻣﻞ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﺎﺩﺕ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ ﺗﺰ ﺣﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﺭﺗﻌﺸ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻘﻠ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‬
‫ﻣ ﺒ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗ ﻨ ﺎ‬
‫ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺼﺪﻗﻮﺍ ﺃﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀ ﺎ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻟﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻪ ﺍ ﳊﻘ ﻴﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﺍ ﳊﻘ ﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﻠﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‬
‫ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺮ ﺟ ﺎ ﺟ ﺎﻥ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ .‬ﺷﻔ ﺎ ﻩ ﺭﻗ ﻴﻘﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻰ ﻣﺮﺗﺨ ﻴﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺛ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻪ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻟّﻮ ﺣ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﺸﻤ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺒﺪﺍ‬
‫ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀ ًﺎ ﻭ ﻣﺠ ﺒﻮًﻻ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻔﺠ ﻴﻌﺔ ﻭ ﻣﻠﻌﻮﻧ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻪ ﺗﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﺟﺴﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺳﻮﻟ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻲ‬
‫ﻣﺸ ﺎﻋﺮ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺃﻗ ﻨﻌ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃ ﻣﻠﻚ ﺣﻖ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟﺴﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﺃﺳ ﺘ ﺒﺪ ﺑﻲ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﺑ ﺄﻥ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻲ ﻟﻮ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ ﳉﺴﺪ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻮﺛﻪ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﻣ ﺎﻳﻬ ًﺎ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩﺍ ﻣ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺩﻫﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﻨﻮﻧﺔ ﻭﻋ ﺎﺑ ﺜﺔ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮ ﺓ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﺷﻘ ﻴﺔ ﻭﻧﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻭ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﺼ ﺐ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻋﻮﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﻻ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﺮ ﺣ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻗﻔﺰ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﺩﺕ ﺃﺕ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻗﺺ‪ .‬ﺃﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻋ ﺒﺮﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ؟ ﺛﻘﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﺍﳌ ﺘ ﺄ ﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ! ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎ ﳉ ﻨﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺮﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ‬
‫ﺗ ﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻀﺠﺮ ﺃﻛﺬﻭﺑﺔ ﺃ ﺧ ﺘﻠﻘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮﺩﻳﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺮﻓﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ‪)) :‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗ ﻨ ﺎﺯﻝ ﻋ ﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ(( ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﻳﺰﻟﺰﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻳ ﺘﻔﺠﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ ﻛﻄﻮﻓ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻃ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ؟‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺭﺁﻫ ﺎ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻧ ﺎ؟ ﺛﻘﻮﺍ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻭﻗﻒ ﻧﻈﺮ ﺣﻮﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻪ ﻋﺠﻮﻟﺔ ﻭﻻ ﲢﻤﻞ ﺗﺴ ﺎﺅﻻ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ‪ .‬ﻧﻔﺾ ﻋ ﻦ ﺑﻄ ﻨﻪ ﺣ ﺒ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺮ ﻣﻞ ﺑﺴ ﺄﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺳﺤ ﺐ ﻛﺮﺳ ﻴ ًﺎ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻘﻤ ﺎﺵ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﺗﻜﻲ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﻃ ﺎﻝ ﻭﻗﻮﻓﻪ ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣ ﻴ ﺘﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻻ ﺗﻔﻜﺮﻳ ﻦ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﻬﻮﺽ؟‬
‫ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻟ ﺘ ﺖ ﺑﺮﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻫﺰﺗﻪ ﺑ ﺘﺴﻠ ﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭﻗﻔ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﺘﻜﻠﻤ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺎﺭﺍ ﺑ ﺒﻂﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ )ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﻟﻢ ﺣﺼﻞ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ(‬
‫ﻲ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻏﺮﻗ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﻧﻈﺮﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻘﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻳ ﻨﻘ ﺒﺾ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻣ ﺒ ﺘﻌﺪ ﺓ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺘ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺍ ﺧ ﺘﻔ ﻴ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺣ ﺎﻡ ﺗﻠﻔ ﺖ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻋﻠ ﺐ ﻣﻌﺪﻧ ﻴﺔ ﻣﺤﻜﻤﺔ ﺍﻻﻏﻼﻕ‪ :‬ﻋ ﻴﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻣﻐﻤﻀﺔ‪ .‬ﺫﻗﻮﻥ ﻣﺮﺗﺨ ﻴﺔ ﻭ ﻣﻼ ﻣﺴﺔ ﻟﻠﺼﺪﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺷﻔ ﺎ ﻩ ﻣ ﺘﻬﺪﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻﻤ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺎ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﺷ ﺒ ﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻳ ﺘﺴﻠﻘ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻔ ﺢ ﺑ ﺎﲡ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻮ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌ ﺎﻡ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ )ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺩﻓﻌ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻭﻳﺔ( ﻇ ﻨ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﻟﺰﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻠﻒ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻌ ﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻠﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻄﺮ ﺓ‪.‬ﲤﻠﻜ ﻨﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻻﺿﻄﺮﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ﻣﻘ ﺎﺑﻠﻲ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻓﻘﺪ‬
‫ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﲟﻮﺍ ﺟﻬ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻬﺮ ﻩ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﻟﺪﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮﺍﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴ ﺘﲔ ﻣ ﺘﻘ ﺎﺑﻠ ﺘﲔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺟﺮﺅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻫ ﺎﻫﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ ﲢ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺒﻠﻮًﻻ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻛﻠ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻣﺠ ﻨﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺧﻀ ﺖ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ ﺟﻌﻠ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻓﻜﺮ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺍﻓﻄ ﻦ ﻟﻠﻤﻄﺮ!‬
‫ﲡﺮﺃﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﻮﻥ ﺗﺸﻜﻞ ﺣ ﺎ ﺟﺰﺍ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺑﲔ‬
‫ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﲡ ﺎﻫﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻯ ﺭ ﺣ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻨ ﺘﻌﺸ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﳑ ﺎ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺪﻧﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻬ ﺶ ﻣ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ )ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻛ ﻨﺰ ﻳﻔﺠﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻗﻮﻯ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﻣ ﻨﻈﻮﺭ ﺓ(‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻔﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﺍﺀﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻻﺃ ﺟﺮﺅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺍﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ﺎ ً ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺳ ﺒ ﻴﻞ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻓﻬﻤﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺼﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻀ ﺒﻂ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﺧ ﺎﺻ ﺎ ً‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻥ ﻋ ﺎﳌﻬ ﺎ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﻋ ﺎﻟﻢ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻓﺤﺴ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭ ﻣﺨ ﺘﻠﻒ ﻋ ﻨﻪ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎ ً‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﺒﺪﻭ ﻣﺮﺗ ﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﻠ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺼﺤﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺿ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﺒﺪﻭ ﻗﻠﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻣﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻳﺠﻌﻠﻚ ﺗﻘ ﺘ ﻨﻊ‬
‫ﺑﻪ ﻭﲢ ﺒﻪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣﻼ ﻣﺤﻬ ﺎ ﺭﻗ ﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧ ﺎﻋﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﺴﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻐﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﻧﻮﻋ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺗﺸﻌﺮ ﺑ ﺄﻧﻮﺛ ﺘﻪ ﺗﻔ ﻴﺾ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﺭﺝ ﺑﻘﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺴﺪ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺤﻮﻝ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻔ ﺎﻓ ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﺗﻜﻠﻤ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺗﻜﻠﻤ ﺖ ﺑ ﻨﺪﺍﺀ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻫﻤﺴﺔ ﻧ ﺎﺋﺤﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻮﻟﻰ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﻋ ﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﻌ ﺘﻢ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻋ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻻﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﺗ ﺘﻘ ﺎﻃﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺮﻭﻕ ‪ :‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻧ ﺖ؟ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺭ ﺣﻠﺔ ﺧﻄﺮ ﺓ ﺗﺪﻓﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺎﺡ ؟‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﻴ ﺎﺽ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻚ ﻳﻔ ﺘ ﺶ ﻋ ﻦ ﻣﺮﻓ ﺄ ‪ :‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻌ ﺐ ﺍﳌﻠﻘﻰ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﻛ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻌ ﻴﺪ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻢ ﻭﻫﻞ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺮﻓ ﺄ؟ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻳﺪًﺍ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺩﺍﻓ ﺌﺔ ﺗﺴ ﻨﺪﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ ﻳ ﺘﺪ ﻣﺮ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻭﻳﻔ ﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻔﺾ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺩﻳﻚ ﻣ ﺒﻠﻮﻝ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﻳﺤﺼﺪ ﺧﻔﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ ﺛﻢ ﻳﻌﺠ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺘﻠﺔ ﻧ ﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻭﻳﺪ ﺣﺮ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻳ ﺄﺗﻲ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻟ ﻴﺬﻳ ﺐ ﻟﺬ ﺓ ﺍ ﳊﻠﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﺗﺴ ﺎﻗﻄ ﺖ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﻋﺠﻮﻟﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻠﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻸ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻌ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ‪ :‬ﺍﻏﻔﺮﻱ‬ ‫ﻫﺰﺯﻥ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻣﻘﺪﺳﺔ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻻﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻗ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻨﻚ‪ .‬ﻫﺰﺕ ﻳﺪ ﻭﻟﺪ ﻣﺸ ﺎﻛ ﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺑ ﺖ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﻭ ﺟﻪ‬
‫ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ :‬ﻟﻮ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻻﻗ ﺘﻠﻊ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻮﺿﻊ ﻓ ﺄﺭًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻇﻬﺮﻱ‪،‬‬
‫ﲢ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﻴ ﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻓﻌ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻘﻮ ﺓ ﻷﺳ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻷﺭﻛﺾ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﺩﻳﺔ ﺍ ﳋ ﻨ ﺎﺯﻳﺮ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻠ ﻨ ﺒ ﺘﻪ ﺍ ﳋﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻋ ﺎﺩﺕ ﻟ ﺘﺴ ﺘﻘﺮ ‪ :‬ﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻗ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﺭﺗﻔﻌﻲ ﺳﺪﺍ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺑﲔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﻗ ﺘﻠﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﺘﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﺗ ﻨﻔﺮﺩ ﻣ ﺜﻞ‬
‫ﻣﺮﻭﺍﺡ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﲟﺴ ﺎ ﺣﺔ ﺭﺍ ﺣﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺗ ﺒﺪﻭ ﻋﻤﻼﻗﺔ ﻛﺠ ﺒ ﺎﻝ ﻋ ﺎﻟ ﻴﺔ‪،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﺳﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﻗ ﺎﺋﻤﺔ‬
‫ﻛﻐ ﺎﺑﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﺪﻳ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺠﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻀ ﻴﻘﺔ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﺸﻊ ﻗﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﻀ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺗﺸﻌ ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻣ ﺎﻳ ﻨﺰﻝ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﺍﳌﻠﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎ ﻷﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﺔ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻧ ﺎﺷ ﻴﺪ‬
‫ﺗ ﺄﺗﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﺪ ﺃﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺗﺴ ﺎﻓﺮﺍﻥ‪ ..‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻜ ﺎﺩ ﺗﻌﻮﺩﺍﻥ ﻟ ﺘﺴ ﺘﻘﺮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺃﻭﻟﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬ ‫ﻭﻇﻠﻠ ﺖ ﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﻼ ﻳﺮﻛﺾ ﺑﺮﻋﻮﻧﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﻃﻔ ً‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑ ﺘﺤﺪ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻕ ‪ :‬ﺳ ﺄﻗ ﺘﻞ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍﻫ ﻴﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳊﻘﺪ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺄﻗ ﺘﻞ ﺍ ﳋ ﻴ ﺒﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺄ ﻣﻼﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻠﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺴﺮﻗ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﺩﻓ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻗﺮﺏ ﻣﺰﺑﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﺑ ﺘﺼﻤ ﻴﻢ ‪ :‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﺮﻕ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺮﻕ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻬﻔﺔ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﲟ ﺜﻠﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣﺮﺕ ﺗﺴ ﺎﺅﻻﺕ ﻋﺮﺑ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ :‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋ ﻴ ﺶ؟ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﳝﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﻟﻼﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻌ ﻴ ﺶ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤ ﺲ؟ ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮّﻟﻠﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﻭﺍﻻﻏ ﻨ ﻴ ﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺠﻮﺳ ﻴﺔ؟‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺪ ﻣ ﺎﺀ ﻭﺍ ﻷﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﺗ ﻨﻔﺠﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻣﺬﻫﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻗ ﺎﺩﺭًﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﲡ ﺎ ﺓ ﺃﻳﺔ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻳﺔ ﻓﻜﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑ ﺘﺴﻠ ﻴﻢ ‪ :‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓ ﻴﻤ ﺎ ﻣﻀﻰ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻧﻪ ﻋ ﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴﻤﻮﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﺿﺤﻚ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺗﺴ ﺎﺀﻝ ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻼﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺑ ﻨﺪﻭﻝ ﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﻻ ﻳﻬﺪﺃ؟ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺤﺮﻙ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ؟ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻠﻬﻒ ﻻ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ؟‬
‫ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮﻫ ﺎ؟ ﺃ ﺟ ﺒ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍّﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﻊ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﺍﻟﻐ ﺎ ﻣﺾ‪.‬‬
‫ﺁ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻀﺤﻜﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑﻐ ﺎﻝ ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﺢ ﺃﻓﻮﺍﻫﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺳﻘﻄ ﺖ!‬
‫ﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻭﺍﻃﻠﻘ ﺘﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﻮﻡ‬ ‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻘﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻳ ﺘﻤﻮﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺯﻭﺭﻕ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪ :‬ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍ ﳊﻤ ﺎﻗﺔ‪ .‬ﺳﺤ ﺒ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﺿﻄﺮﺏ‪،‬ﺛﻢ ﺑﻌﺪ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ ﻳ ﺘﻤّﺰﻕ ﻭﻳ ﻨﻮﺡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻀﺮﻭﺭ ﺓ ﻓﻌﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺷﻌﻮﺭًﺍ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺍﻧ ﺘ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ‪ :‬ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺍﺻ ﺎﺑ ﺘ ﻨﻲ‬ ‫ﲢﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺑﺮﻭﺩ ﺓ ﻗ ﺎﺗﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻣﺪﻓﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻕ ﻛ ﺜ ﺒ ﺎﻥ ﺟﻠ ﻴﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻲ ﻣﺴّﻤﺮ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍ ﳊﺮﻛﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺘ ﺎ ﲡﺮ ﺣ ﺎﻧ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﲡﻌﻼﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ‬ ‫ﻭﺑ ﺎﺳ ﺘﺴﻼﻡ ﺃﺑﻠﻪ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻛﺬﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﺗﺮﲤ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺍ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺳ ًﺎ ﺑﻮﻗﻊ ﺧﻄ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺳﺤ ﺐ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﺭ ﻣ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺩﺭﻱ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻔ ﺖ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺴﻠﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺠﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﲔ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﺘﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻀﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﲤﻲ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻈﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻰ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺁ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺭﻋ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﻓ ﺘ ﻨ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺑﻬﻤ ﺲ ‪ :‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻐــﺮﻳـــ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ‬
‫ﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﻫ ﺎﺗﲔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ ﺳ ﺄ ﺟﻌﻞ ﻟﻚ ﺃﺭ ﺟﻮ ﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﺭ ﺟﻮ ﺣﺔ ﺗﻘﻀﻲ ﻣ ﺎ‬ ‫ﻣــ ﺄﻭﻯ ﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺄﻭﺍﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﺗ ﺒﻘﻰ ﻟﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻦ ﺗ ﻨﺪﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪..‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﲔ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻫﺮﺏ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻲ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ؟‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣﻠﻢ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ﺘﺤ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻣﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﺬﻭﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻧ ﺎﻋﻤ ًﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺟ ﺎﺭ ﺣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻘ ﺎﺀ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻧﻘﻄﻊ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻣﻀﻰ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ ؟ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ ؟ ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺟﺮ ﺟﺮﺕ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻌ ﻴﺪ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒ ﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻣ ﺎﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﻌﺼﺮ ﺩ ﻣﻮﻋﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﲢﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟﺪﺍﻭﻝ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗ ﺘﻔّﻠ ﺖ ﺑﻌ ﻨ ﺎﺩ ﺻ ﺒ ﻴ ﺎﻧﻲ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻮﺡ‪ .‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻓﺮﺩﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃ ﺟ ﻨﺤﺔ ﻃ ﻴﻮﺭ ﻗﻮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺗﺮﺍ ﺧ ﺖ ﻭﺗﻬّﺪﻟ ﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﻭﺍ ﳊﺼﻰ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍ ﳊﺼﻰ‬
‫ﻳﻠﻤﻊ ﻛﻘﻄﻊ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﺍﳌﻠﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺭﺗﺪ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﻣ ﺎﺯﺍﻝ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﺷ ﺎﻫﻘ ًﺎ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴ ًﺎ ﺃﺑﺪﻳ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺣﻤ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻏ ﺘﺴﻠ ﺘ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎ ﻷﺳﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ ﻨﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺗﺮﻛﻀ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﻓﺮﺡ ﻣ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺤﻘﺪ ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺻﻮﺕ ‪ :‬ﻳ ﺎ ﺣﺰﻥ ﺍ ﻷﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﺸﺆﻭ ﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺻﺮﻋﻚ ﻛﺬﺑ ﺎﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃ ﺣﺰﻥ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍ ﳊ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻌﺼﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴﻤﻮﻧﻪ ﺍ ﳉﱭ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻗ ﺘﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ ﳊ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﻳﻔﺮﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺩﺍ ﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻭﻕ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻧﺪﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﻓﻌﻞ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻧﺪﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﻓﻌﻞ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﲢﻮﻝ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻃ ﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﺃﻃ ﻴﺮ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﺃﻃ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺃﺭ ﺟﻊ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﲟﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻘ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻐﻞ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﺑﺠ ﻨﻮﻥ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ :‬ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻧﻮﻟﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﳕﻮﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻟﺪ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭﻟﺪ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺲ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗﻔ ﺘﺮﺵ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻗﺪ ﻩ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﺗﻄﻔ ﺌﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺐ ﺃﺗﺴ ﺎﺀﻝ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻭﺗﻈﻞ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺗﻀﺤﻜ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
‫ﻣ ﺎﻫﺬﺍ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﺕ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ؟ ﻭﻫﻞ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻛ ﺘ ﺎﺏ؟‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﺃﺻﺪﻕ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺗﻈﻞ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺗﺨ ﺘﺮﻗ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺻﻌﺪ ﻭﺃﻫ ﺒﻂ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﻧﻔﺠﺮ ﻭﺃﺗﻼﺷﻰ‪.‬‬

‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻭﺃ ﻣ ﺘﻸ ﺍ ﳉﻮ ﺑ ﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗﻌ ّﺒﺮ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻳﺔ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧ ﺘﻔﻀ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃ ﻣﺸﻲ‬
‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﺩ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺩﺭﺕ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺮﺍﺕ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺠﻤﻌﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻗﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺑﺮﻳﺔ ﺗ ﻨﺴﻜ ﺐ ﺑ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ ﺣ ﺎﺩ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺭﻓﻌ ﺖ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﻷﺗﻠﻘﻰ ﺣ ﺒ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺑﻜﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﻟﻐﻄ ًﺎ ﻳ ﻨﻤﻮ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻧ ﺘ ﺒﻬ ﺖ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺑﻐﻤﻮﺽ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪,‬‬
‫ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﺮّﺩﺩ ﺃﻧﺪﻓﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻛ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻌ ﻴﺪ ﻭ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺃﻭ ﺃﺭﺑﻊ ﻣﻮﺍﺋﺪ‬
‫ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺛ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺠﻠﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺋﺪ ﺓ ﺍﳌﺤ ﺎﺫﻳﺔ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺃ ﺣﺪﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺤﺠ ﺐ ﻗﺴﻤ ًﺎ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺴﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﻛﺠ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻠ ﺞ ‪ :‬ﺳ ﺎﻃﻌ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻮﺭﺩًﺍ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭﻓﻌ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻌ ﻨﻲ ﳌ ﺎ ﺩ ﺧﻠ ﺖ ؟ ﻏ ّﻴﺮﺕ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﲟﻮﺍ ﺟﻬ ﺘﻲ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ؟ ﺍ ﺟ ﺘ ﺎ ﺣ ﻨﻲ ﺩﺑ ﻴ ﺐ ﺃﺻﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻲ ﺣ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻼﺷﻲ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺮﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﳌ ﺲ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ّﻣﺮﺕ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﻳﺪﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﺳ ﻴﻄﺮﺕ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺃ ﺧ ﺘﻠﻄ ﺖ ﺃﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﻣﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﻗﺪﳝﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺪ ﺧ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺄﻗﺪﺍﺡ ﻓ ﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﻭ ﻣ ﺘﺮﻭﻛﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﻗ ﺎﺩﺭًﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻛ ﺄﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧ ﻴ ﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺿﻌﻪ ﺍ ﳉﺮﺳﻮﻥ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻧ ﺘ ﻴﺠﺔ ﺑﻼﻫﺔ ﻭﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺁﻟ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻥ ﻻ ﺃﻇﻞ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗ ﺄﻟﻢ‪ .‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﳝﻮﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﺍﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ ﻻ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻳﺠﻠ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮﺍﻥ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻧ ﺎ ﻳﻠﻌ ﺒ ﺎﻥ ﺣﻮﻟﻬﻤ ﺎ‪ ..‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺝ ﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺣﻮﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺑ ﺘ ﺜ ﺎﻗﻞ‬
‫ﻄﻰ؟‬‫ﻭﺳ ﺄﻡ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ‪ :‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺮﲤﻲ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ؟ ﺃﻻ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ؟ ﺃﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻤ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺑﺤﻘﺪ ﻣﺠ ﻨﻮﻥ ﺃﺿﻔ ﺖ‪ :‬ﺃﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ﻳﻘﻮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻌ ﺎﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷ ﺘﻤﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣﺴﻚ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ..‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺗ ﺒﻘﻰ ﻣﺼﻠﻮﺑ ًﺎ ﻛ ﺎ ﳉ ﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﻻﻳﻐ ﺎﻓﺮ ﻩ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﻏ ﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺪّﻭﺍﺭ ﺍﺻﻄﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﺑﺮ ﺟﻞ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻸﺕ ﺧﺠ ً‬
‫ﺸﺪﻧﻲ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻼﻫﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻑ ﻣ ﻦ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤ ﺘﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺼﻮﺭﺕ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺧ ﻴﻮﻃ ًﺎ ﺣﺮﻳﺮﻳﺔ ﺗ ّ‬
‫ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﻓﻌ ﺖ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﻷﻋ ﺘﺬﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻀﺤﻚ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺍﳌﻐﻔﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻘﺔ؟ ﺭﲟ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺛﲔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺋﺔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺎﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳ ﻨﲔ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻻ ﻧﻔ ﺘﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﺗﺨ ﺎﺻﻤ ﻨ ﺎ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺭﺿ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﺑﻌﺪﺩ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺨ ﺎﺻﻤ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻏﻔﺮﺕ ﳌ ﻴﺮﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻏﻔﺮﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃ ﺣﺪﺛﻜﻢ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺷﻘﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﺴ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺟﺴﻤﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺳ ﺎ ﺣﺮًﺍ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺭﺃﻫ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻣﻌﻲ ﺣﺴﺪﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺷ ﺘﻤﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺮ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺄ ﺑﺸﻲﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﺎﳌ ًﺎ ﻏﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻐﺮﺍﺑ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﲢ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺎﺿﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﺗ ﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﺍّﻻ ﻋ ﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻻ ﻣ ﺘ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻷﻧﻲ ﺃﻫﻤﻞ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗ ﻨ ﺒ ﺄﺕ ﺃﻧﻲ ﺳ ﺄ ﻣﻮﺕ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺑﻌﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﻣﺮﺿ ﺖ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺧﺸ ﻴ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻲ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ّ‬
‫ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻭﻇّﻠ ﺖ ﺗ ﺒﻜﻲ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﻚ ﺍﻥ ﻣﻮﺗﻲ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻭﺷ ﻴﻜ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﳌ ﺎ ﺷﻔ ﻴ ﺖ ﻭﺗ ﺒﲔ ﺍﻥ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻨ ﺖ‬
 ‫ﺍﺷﻜﻮ ﻣ ﻨﻪ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﻋ ﺎﺭﺽ ﻳﺼ ﻴ ﺐ ﻣﻌﻈﻢ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻇﻠ ﺖ ﺗﻠﻮ ﻣ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺗﻮ ﺟ ﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺸ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺍﻟﻰ ﺑﺮﻭﺯ ﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻗ ﺒﺔ ﻭﺃّﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻧﻲ " ﻣﺼ ﺎﺏ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐﺪﺩ ﻭﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴ ﺐ ﻻ ﻳﺪﺭﻙ ﺫﻟﻚ" ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﻟﻠﺮﺍ ﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺿﺠﺮًﺍ ﺍﻭ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺠ ﺎ ﺟ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃ ﺧﻄﻲﺀ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻓﺮ ﺣ ﺖ ﻟﻬﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺤ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻣ ﺎﺭﺳ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺎﺿﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺔ ﺭﻳ ﺎﺿﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﺟﻮ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﻘﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ "ﺳ ﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻪ ﺗ ﺄﺛ ﻴﺮ ﻣﻔ ﻴﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻ ّ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﻧﻖ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴ ّﺒ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻃ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺗ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ"‬
‫ﺻﺮﺕ‬ ‫ﻀﺮﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺃﻧﻮﺍﻋ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻏﺬﻳﺔ ))ﺍﳌﻔ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻀﺮﻭﺭﻳﺔ((‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻣﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻄ ﺎﺭ ﺃ ّ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﺘﻒ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺣ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸ ﺘﺮﻱ ﻟﻲ ﺑﻄ ﻴﺨﺔ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ‪ :‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺸ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ‪ :‬ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺑ ﻨﻘﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺒﻄ ﻴﺨﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗﻄ ﺎﺭ ﻵ ﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺑ ﻨﻘﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻐﺮﺑﻮﺍ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻄ ﻴﺨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻧﻔﻠﻘ ﺖ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺑ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ ﻭﺳ ّﺒ ﺒ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺍ ﺣﺮﺍ ﺟ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺿﺤﻜ ًﺎ ﻣﻜ ﺘﻮ ﻣ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﺍﻥ "ﺍﻟ ﻨﻘ ﺎﻫﺔ ﺿﺮﻭﺭﻳﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺧ ﺎﺭ ﺟ ًﺎ ﻟ ﺘﻮﻱ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﺽ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﻋ ﻨ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻧّﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻼﺝ" ﻭﺍﺳ ﺘﻐﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴ ﺐ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺸﺮ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻣﻊ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﻭﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ‪ :‬ﺑﺴ ﻴﻄﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺻﺮﻳﺤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻜﺮ ﻩ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻳ ﻨﺔﻭﺗﻜﺮ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﻠﺴﻔﺔ )ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺗﺪﺭﺱ ﺍﻟﻔﻠﺴﻔﺔ(‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺪ ﺧ ﻦ ﺑﺸﺮﺍﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻋﻘ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﺠ ﺎﺋﺮ ﺍﳌﻠﻮﺛﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺮﻭﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻤ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻧﺤ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳊﻤ ﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺗﻬﻮﻯ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﺏ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﺮ ﺛﻢ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ ﻧﻘﻀﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺘ ًﺎ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳉﻤ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺍ ﻷﺛﺪﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺼﻠ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻻﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻧﺴﻰ ﺭﺍﺋﺤ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ‬
‫ﻫ ﺎﺗﲔ ﺍﳌﺮﺃﺗﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻋﺮﻓ ﺖ ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﻠﻌﻮﻥ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ ﺃﻗﻒ‬
‫ﻲ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺣﺪًﺍ ﺭﺁﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗﻬﺪﻟ ﺖ‬ ‫ﲢ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﺃﺭﻗ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺴﺤﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺪﻓﻖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﻀﻼﺗﻲ ﻭﲢﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺑ ﻨﺪﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻥ ﺟ ﻨﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧﻮﻉ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺴ ﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻖ ؟ ﻧﻌﻢ‪ .‬ﺃﲢﺪﺍﻛﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺃﻧﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﰎ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺍ ﺧﻄ ﺌﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﺗ ﻨﻘﻞ ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻛﻔﺮﺍﺷﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﻣﺤﺮﻭ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣﺴﻚ ﺍﻟﻔﺨﺬ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺜﻘﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻫﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻭﺃﻋﺰ ﻩ‬
‫ﻟ ﺘﻤ ﺘﻠﻠﻰﺀ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻲ ﺑ ﻨﺸﻮ ﺓ ﺍﻻ ﻣ ﺘﻼﻙ ﻭﺍﻟﻈﻔﺮ ‪ ,‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻳﺪﺍﻱ ﺗ ﺘﺴﻠﻼﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﻓﻌﻰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭ‪ ،،‬ﻭﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ‬
‫ﲢﻮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬﺪﻳ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﺮﻛﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺗﻬﻄ ﺒﻄ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﺭﺩﺍﻑ ﻭﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻪ ﻓﺤ ﻴ ﺢ‬
‫ﺍ ﳊ ﻴﺔ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﺷ ﺒﻊ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻊ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺨﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻜﻢ ﺣﻜ ﻴﻢ ﺃﻋﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻪ ﳊ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺧ ﻴﻮﻁ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻨﻜ ﺒﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ‪ :‬ﺃﻥ ﺣ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺗﻌﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺑ ﺄﺻﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻪ ﺍ ﳊﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﳊﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﻦ ﻋﻄﻒ ﺍ ﻷﻡ‪ .‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﻣ ﺎﺗ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣﻲ ﳌ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍ ﳊﻜ ﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻔ ﺘ ﺢ ﻓﻤﻪ ﻛﻀﻔﺪﻋﺔ ﻟ ﻴﻐﺮﻕ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﺑﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀﺔ ﻳﻔ ﺘﻘﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﺳ ﺎﺳﻲ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺟﻮﻫﺮ‬
‫ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻼﻗﺔ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨﺴ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﻔ ﺘﻘﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ ﳊ ﻨ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻘﺪ ﺃ ﻣﻲ ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳ ﺘﺠ ﺎﻭﺯ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺩﺳﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻫ ﻴﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻧ ﻴ ﺎ ﻻﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻭﺍﻟﻰ ﻣ ﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻋ ﻴ ﺶ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺎﺽ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺯ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺣ ﺎﻻﺕ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺃ ﺣﻼﻡ‪.‬‬

‫ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻷﻱ ﲢﻠ ﻴﻞ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺴﺮﻑ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﺣ ﺎﻟ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤ ﻴ ﺚ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﺍ ﻷﻛ ﻴﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ‬

‫ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻓ ﻴﻪ ﻻ ﻳﺠﺪ ﻣ ﺄﻭﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﲤﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﻠﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲤﻮﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺅﻭﺳﻜﻢ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺧﺮﺝ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻗﺪ ﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺫﻫ ﺐ ﻟﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ "ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺗﻌﻄﲔ‬
‫ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻚ ﻷﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﻗﻮﻟﻲ ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻟﻲ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻷﺳ ﺘﺮﻳ ﺢ "‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻟﻜ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮﻛﻢ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ ﺳﻮﻳ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﺳﻤﻌﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺪﺙ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺗﺨ ﺎﺻﻤ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺴ ﺘﻌﻤﻞ ﺍ ﻷﻳﺪﻱ ﺃﻭ ﺍ ﻷﺩﻭﺍﺕ ﺍ ﳉ ﺎﺭ ﺣﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﺨ ﺎﺻﻤ ﺖ ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻋﺪﺩًﺍ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﺍﺯﻱ ﻋﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺼ ﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺭ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺛﻼﺙ ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﳒﻠ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺳﻂ ﻗ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ‬
‫ﻣ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺤﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻳﺪﻓﻊ ﺛﻤ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺍ ﺧ ﺘ ﺎﺭﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﳌﺮﺍﻗﺼ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ‬
‫ﺍﺗﻔﻘ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺳﻤﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓ ﺎﻟ ﺲ ﻓ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﻧﻠﻬ ﺚ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻣ ﻨﻔﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴﻌﻲ ﻭﺃﺻﻞ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃ ﺟ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻓ ﺄﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬
 ‫ﺑ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ ﻭ ﻣﻬ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏ ﺎﺩﺭﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻘﻢ ﻣ ّﻨﻲ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺰﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ‬ ‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﻮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻗ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ّ .‬‬
‫ﻛﻔﺮﺱ ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬
‫"ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﺘ ﺎﻋ ﺐ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ " ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮﺕ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺴﻌﻮﺭ ﺓ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺰﻧﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺿﻐﻄ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻛ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﲤ ﺘﻊ ﻭ ﻷ ﺧ ﺘ ﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻢ ﺍﳌﺸ ﺒﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻬ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﻗﺮﺻ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﺪﻻﻝ ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ‪ " :‬ﻣ ﺎﺯﺍﻝ ﻟﺪﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ‪ ،‬ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ"‪.‬‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺗﺮﻛ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺮﺍ ﺣﺔ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﺭﲤ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮ ﻣﻞ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻢ‪ ،‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺿﻔ ﺎﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺣ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻼ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻏ ﺒ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻕ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀﺔ ﻭ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻼ ﺟﺪﻭﻯ ﻭﺍﻟﻐﻤﻮﺽ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪ‪.‬ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒّﺪﺩ ﻭﺍ ﺟﻬ ﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﺗﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻔ ّﺘ ﺖ ﺛﻢ ﺗ ﺘﺪ ّﻣﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻣﻠﻌﻮﻧ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻄ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻷﻧﻘﺬﺗ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮ‪ .‬ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺷﻔ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻄ ﺒﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋ ﻨﻘﻬ ﺎ ﲢ ﺖ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﺍ ﳋﻠﻔﻲ ﻟﻠﻤﻄﻌﻢ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻛﺾ ﻧﺤﻮ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻣﻌ ﺘﻜﺮ ﺓ ـ ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺘ ﺄ ﺧﺮ ﺓ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗ ﺘﺪﻓﻖ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻜﺴﻞ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺭﻕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺃ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺘﻌﺰﻳﺔ ﺭ ﺧ ﻴﺼﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻖ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﻬﺮﺏ‪ .‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﺍ ﳊﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻘ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺸﻤ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻳﻐﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﻴ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻠﺔ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻤﻌ ﺖ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻓﻮﻫ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﳉﺤ ﻴﻢ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻮﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻻ ﺃﻛ ﺎﺩ‬
‫ﺍﺳﻤﻌﻪ ‪ " :‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﺭﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺮﺗﻜﺰ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻌﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻳﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺏ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻄﺮ ﺓ؟" ﻭﺗﺼﻮﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ‪ ...‬ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺗﻪ‪ ...‬ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺗﻪ ﺃﻥ‪ ...‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻪ ﻟﻢ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﺔ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺗ ﻨﺪﻟﻖ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﻔ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺗﺨ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﺬﻓﻮﻫ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ؟‬
‫ﻧﺤ ﻦ ﻧﺰﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺳﺠ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ ﻭﺍﳌﻄﻌﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻓ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺧﺮﺝ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﻐ ﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺮﺑﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺪ ﺣﺮﺝ‬
‫ﻛﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴﻤﻮﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺣﺼﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺪﻑﺀ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﺸﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺭﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍﺀ‬
‫ﻭﻳ ﻨﻌﺸﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻳﺼ ﻴ ﺐ ﻋﺮﻭﻕ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺳﻌ ﺎﺭ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺰﻻﺀ ﻳﺨﺮ ﺟﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻗ ﺎﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀ ﻴﻘﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻟﻠﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺼﻞ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻑ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻳﺪﻳﻬﻢ ﺑﻘﺴﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﻘ ﺒﻠﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻢ ﺑﺸﻬﻮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﲢﺮﻛ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺪ ﻣ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻗﺬﻓﻮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺳﺮﺍﻭﻳﻠﻬﻢ ﺃﻭ ﺭﻛﻀﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻗﻄﻂ ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳﺠ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻻﺕ‪ ،‬ﲢ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﻳ ﺘﻮﺍﺭﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﻤﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﻳ ﺎ ﺃﻭ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﺍﳌﺰﻫﻮ ﺓ ﺑﺼﻮﺭ ﺑﺤ ﻴﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﻠﻮﺛﺔ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﻭ ﺣﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺭ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻭﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻳﻀﺤﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ ﻟﺪ ﻣﺮﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺭﻓﻊ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻨ ﺖ ﺣﺼﻠ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‬
‫ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻭﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺃﻧ ﺘﺰﻋﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺃ ﺣﻀ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻧﺴﻰ‬
‫ﻲ ﻓﻼ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ ﺍﳌﺨﻀ ﺒ ﺘﲔ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺪﺍﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﻬ ﻴﻖ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺴﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ‪ .‬ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻤﺾ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﺍﻟﻐ ﺎ ﻣﺾ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﺳﻤﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺃ ﺣﻀ ﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻧﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ ﺘ ﻴﻘﻆ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻭﻧ ﺎﺩ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﻨﻄﻔﻰﺀ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﻭﺗ ﺘﻼﺷﻰ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺷﻬﻮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲤ ﻨ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺫﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ‪ :..‬ﻭﺍﺳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫ ﺎﺭﺑﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ ﻳﻐ ﺎﺩﺭﻫ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺳﻘﻂ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻳ ﺘﻤﻠﻜ ﻨﻲ ﺣ ﻨﲔ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺻﻒ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺑﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺪﻧ ﻴ ﺎ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﺤ ﺎﺻﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻮﺷﻚ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻳ ﻨ ﺒ ﺶ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣﺰﺍﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻛﺮﻳ ﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‬ ‫ﻭﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﻣﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻄﺮًﺍ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﻔ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻮﺍﺻ ً‬
‫ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣﺰﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻠﻌﻮﻧﺔ ﻻ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺟﻮﻗﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻬﺮ ﺟﲔ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﺰﻉ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻛﻔ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻒ ﺷ ﺎ ﻣﺨﺔ ﻣﺰﺩﺭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﺘﺮﺻﺪ ﻟ ﺘﻔﺠﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻠﻌﲔ ﺟﻤﻊ ﺍﻟﺴﺠ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺟﻤﻌﻬﻢ ﺃّﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﻘﻬﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﻘﻬﻰ‬
‫ﺞ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﻮﺍ ﻭ ﺟ ﺒ ﺎﻫﻬﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﻳ ﺘﻄﻠﻌﻮﻥ ﺑﺤﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔﻮﺍ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍ ﻷﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺑ ﺎﻧ ﺘﻈ ﺎﺭ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺍﻟﻬﺮﻭﺏ‬ ‫ﺿ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻰ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺨﺮ ﺟﻮﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺤ ﺎﻓﻆ ﺟﻠﺪﻳﺔ )ﺳﻮﺩﺍﺀ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﻥ(‬
‫ﺟﺮﺍﺋﺪ ﻣﻀ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﻭﺍ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳊﺮﻭﻑ ﲟﻠﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﲔ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ‬
 ‫ﻳ ﺘﻌ ﺒﻮﻥ ﻳﻠﻌ ﺒﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﻕ‪ .‬ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﺼﻒ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﺭ ﺗﺪﻭﺭ ﻛﺆﻭﺱ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﻛ ﺒﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺗﺸ ﺎﻏﻠ ﻦ ﺑ ﺄ ﻣﻮﺭ‬
‫ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ‪ :‬ﻣﻼ ﺣﻘﺔ ﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻫ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻑ ﻭﺗ ﺒﺪﻳﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﻴ ﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍ ﳉﻠﻮﺱ ﺑﺼﻤ ﺖ ﻭﺍﳌﺮﺍﻗ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺸ ﻴﻄﺔ ﻟﻜﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ!‬
‫ﻭ ﻣﻌ ﺒﻮﺩﺗﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ‪ :‬ﺑ ﻨﻄ ﺎﻝ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﺿ ﻴﻖ ﻭﻛ ﻨﺰ ﺓ ﺭ ﻣ ﺎﺩﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﺷ ﺎًﻻ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔ ﻴﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﻟﻘ ﺖ ﻣﻌ ﺒﻮﺩﺗﻲ ﻣﺠﻠﺔ ﻣﺼﻮﺭ ﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﺶ‪ ..‬ﻫﻞ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﺶ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ ؟ ﺃﺗﻮﻫﻢ ؟‬
‫ﺃ ﺣﻠﻢ ؟ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ؟‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﻳ ﺘﺴ ﺎﻗﻂ ﻋﺰﻳﺮًﺍ ﻣﺸ ﺒﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻛ ﺘ ﺎﺏ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻃﻮﻳﻪ‪،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻓ ﻴﻪ ﺳﻄﺮًﺍ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ؟ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ﻣ ﺘﻜﻮﺭ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺐ ﺃﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗﻘ ﺎﺭﺑ ﺎ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍ ﻷﻟ ﺘﺼ ﺎﻕ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻛﻌ ﺎﺷﻘﲔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮﺍ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺤ ﻴﺔ ﺃﻟﻘ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺃﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻻﻓﻄ ﺎﺭ ﺳ ّﺒ ﺒ ﺖ ﻟﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺍﺯﻋ ﺎ ﺟ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﺧ ﺎﺹ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻜّﺮﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻟﻌ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺸﻄﺮﱋ ﻷﻏ ﺘ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﻀﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺭﻗﻊ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺙ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣﺤﺠﻮﺯ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺳﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﻢ ﻳﺼﺮﻉ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ ﺣﻮﻟﻬﻢ ﻛﻘﻂ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﺍﺭﻗ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻼﻋ ﺒﲔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻮﻻ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‬
‫ﻣﺴ ﺘﺴﻠﻤ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺰ ﻣ ﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻸﺕ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺑﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺳﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺪﻭﺭ ﻛﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻭﻟ ﺌﻚ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻨﲔ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺛﻘﲔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺪﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻟﻌ ﺒﺔ ﻣ ﺎﻛﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺳﻊ ﺍﻟﻔﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻈ ﺎﻫﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻬﺰﳝﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻘﻠﺔ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺘﺼﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﻠﺠ ﺖ ﺿﺤﻜ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺛﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺪﻳﺮ ﻷﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻣﺬﻫﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺍﻧﻲ ﺃ ﺧ ﺘ ﻨﻖ ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻗﻲ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺗﻠﻮﻯ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ ‪ " :‬ﻳ ﺎ ﺃﻡ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﺍ ﳋﺼ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎﻟﻬ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻳﺸﻌﻞ ﺍ ﳊﺠﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﺫﻫ ﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﻙ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺤﻖ"‪ .‬ﻭﺑﺨﻮﻑ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻦ ﺳﺤ ﺒ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﻋ ﺐ‪.‬‬

‫ﺗ ﻨﻔﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺠﻤﻮﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﻷﻥ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻌ ﻨ ﺎﻕ ﻣﺠ ﻨﻮﻥ ﻳﺰﺩ ﺣﻢ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﺪﻓﻌﻪ ﻭﻳﻮﻗﻔﻪ ﺛﻢ ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﳊﻈﺔ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﺪﻑﺀ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻢ ﻳﻐﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻏﻤﻀ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺷﻤﻤ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺋﺤ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﲤﻸﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻛﺨ ﻴﻤﺔ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﺀ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻄﻰ‬ ‫ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﺟ ﺎﺀﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻯ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃ ﻳﺰﺩﺍﺩ ﺍﺗﺴ ﺎﻋ ًﺎ ﻭﺑ ﻴ ﺎﺿ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻏ ّ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺸﻲﺀ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﻑﺀ ﻳ ﺘﺴ ﺎﻗﻂ ﻟ ﻴﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﺣ ﺎﺩًﺍ ﻭ ﻣﺴ ﻴﻄﺮًﺍ ﻛ ﺎ ﻷﻟﻢ ﻭﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺟ ﺎﺀﺕ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﻋ ﺒﺮﺕ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ‬ ‫ﺴ ﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﺳﺤ ﺒ ﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ ّ‬ ‫ﻼ ﻷﻋ ﺘﺬﺭ‪ ،‬ﻷﻓﺴ ﺢ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣ ّ‬ ‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺣﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻛﺮﺳﻲ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﺳ ﺘﺪﺍﺭﺕ ﺑﻌ ﺒﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﻭ ﻣﺸ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﻛﺠﻔ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﲔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻫ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻀ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ‪ .‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺑﺆﺱ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﺮﺱ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻲ ﻭﺃ ﺧ ﺘ ﻨﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻴ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻇّﻠ ﺖ ﻭﻓ ّﻴﺔ ﻟﻲ ﺑﻀﻌﺔ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻬﺰ ﻣ ﻨﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ‬
‫ﻈﻠ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮﻛﻢ ﻇ ﺎﻓﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺛﻌﻠ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳّﻜﻞ ﻭﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻌ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺃﺫ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﺩ ﻳﺮﺍﻫ ﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ‪ ،‬ﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺨﺮﺝ ﻣ ﻦ ﺣﺰﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺣ ﺎﺻﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺳ ﺘﺴﻠﻤ ﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻟ ﺘﻘ ﺘﻠ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻫﺮﺑ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ‬
‫ﺑﻌ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻫﻮ ﺓ ﺳ ﺎ ﺣﻘﺔ ﲤ ﺘﺼ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗ ﺎﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻠﻊ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺟﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﺗﻐﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﺁ ﻩ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﻋﺬﺍﺏ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ ﻷﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ ﻷﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍﺭﲤ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘﺸﺠ ﻨﺔ ﻭ ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻤﻮﺍ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭﻱ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻟﻢ ﲢﻤﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﻫﻮ ﺃ ﺟﱭ ﻣ ﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺃﺭﻧ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣﻘﻮﺱ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ ﻭ ﻣﻠﻌﻮﻧ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺧ ﺎﻑ ﻣ ﻦ ﻇﻼﻝ ﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺢ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﲡﻠﺪﻭﻧﻲ ﻣ ﺌ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﳉﻠﺪﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺗﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﺭ ﺣﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻤﺔ ﺃﺑﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑﺼﻘﻮﺍ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺴﺔ ﻗﺪﻡ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﺑ ﻨﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺷﺠ ﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺁ ﻩ ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﺗﻌﺬﺑ ﺖ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﳑ ﺎ ﺃﻃ ﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﻣﺮﻭﺭ‬ ‫ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻗﻠ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﻣ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺳﻘﻂ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻌّﺬﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻄﻲ‬ ‫ﻧﻘﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﲡﻔ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠﻔ ﺘ ﺖ ﺑﺬﻋﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ ﺟ ﺎﻓ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺷﻌ ﻴﺮﺍﺕ ﺣﻤﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﺛﺮ ﻧﺰﻳﻒ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ ﻻﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻳﻐ ّ‬
‫ﻭ ﺟ ﻨ ﺘ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﲢﻤﻞ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻭ ﻋﻼ ﻣﺔ ﺗﻌ ّﺒﺮ ﻋ ﻦ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺻﻼﺑﺔ ﻭﺍﺛﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﻭﺍ ﻣﺮ ﻣﺨ ﺘﺼﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺸ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻪ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ﻗﻄﺔ‪ .‬ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻮﺍﻧﻲ ﻛﻮﻥ ﺃ ﺧﻀﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﺷ ﺢ ﺟ ﺒ ﻨ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻧﺤّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭ ﻣﺤ ﺎﺻﺮ ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﻳﻘﻮﻯ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺧﻮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺼﻌﻖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻟﻬ ﺚ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﻨﻔ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺻﻮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺍﳌﺴﻤﻮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻣ ﺎ ﺟ ﺖ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﺮﺗﻄﻢ ﺑﺠﺪﺍﺭ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺩﻭﻱ ﻫ ﺎﺋﻞ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻊ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻏ ﺎﺑ ﺖ ‪" :‬ﺁ ﻩ ﻟﻮ‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﻄ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﺩ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ"‬
 ‫ﺗﺼﻮﺭﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﻈ ﺎﻫﺮ ﲟ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻼﻋ ﺒﲔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃّﺭ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺒﻌﺪ ﻓ ﺘﻤﻠﻜ ﻨﻲ ﺟﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻣﺬﻫﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﺗ ﺎﺑﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻂ‪ ،‬ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻤﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻮﻟﺪﺍﻥ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ‬
‫ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻘﻞ ﺗﺪﻭﺱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺧﻄﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺧﻄﻮﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺰ ﺣﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﻛﺾ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﻘﻤﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍﺀ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃ ﺧ ﺘ ﻨﻖ"‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣﻊ ﻛﻞ ﻧﻘﻠﺔ ﻗﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ‪" :‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻜﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺓ ﺍﺭﻳﺪ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺎﺭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ ﺗ ﻨﻔﺮ ﻛ ﺄﻥ ﺿﻐﻂ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻡ ﻳﺠﺰ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻲ ﻭﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃ ﺧ ﺎﻃ ﺒﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻣ ﺒﺤﻮﺡ ‪ :‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻧﺴﻰ ﻟﻜﻤ ﺎ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﺳ ﺎﺀ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻝ ﻭﻫﻲ‬ ‫ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﳌﺴ ﺖ ﻣﺪﻯ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺮﻛﺾ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻟﻐﻔﺮﺕ ﻟﻲ ﺣﺰﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺑ ﺘﻌ ﺎ ٍ‬
‫ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ‪:‬‬
‫‪-‬ﺍ ﺣﻤﻞ ﻣﻌﻚ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻮﺭﺍ ﺓ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗ ﺒﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﺠ ﺎﻭﺭ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫" ﺃﻛﺮ ﻩ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻪ ﺃﺑﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺗ ﺘﺼﻮﺭﻳ ﻦ ﺭ ﺟﻼ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻇﻬﺮ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻳﺤ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ﺎ"؟‬
‫ﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻋ ﺒﺮﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‪ .‬ﻇﻠﻠ ﺖ ﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﻫﺰﺕ ﺭﺍﺳﻬ ﺎ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﻋﺸﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻧﻌﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﻨﺴﻰ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﻨﺴﻰ؟‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﻞ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺍﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ .‬ﺃﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ ﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺭﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﻋﻠ ﺖ‬
‫ﻗﻬﻘﻤ ﺎﺗﻜﻢ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﺷ ﺘﻢ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺍﺑﻠ ﻴ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺍﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻜﻢ ‪ :‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﳋ ﻨ ﺎﺯﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎ ّﻣ ﻦ ﺗﻔ ﺘﻘﺮﻭﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﻠﻮﺏ‪ .‬ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‬
‫ﻋﻠ ﻴﻜﻢ ﺃ ﻣﻬ ﺎﺗﻜﻢ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﺸﻔﻰ ﺍﻟﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻞ ﺍﳌ ﻨ ﺘﺸﺮ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺻﺪﻭﺭﻛﻢ ﻭﻭ ﺟﻮﻫﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎ ﺃﺭﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻨﻖ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺷ ﻨﻘﻜﻢ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺑﻄﺔ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺭ ﺣ ﻴﻤ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻤﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺭ ﺣﻢ؟ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻭﺭ ﺍﳌﺠﻮﻓﺔ ؟ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻭﺭ ﺍﳌﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻘ ﻴ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ؟ ﻻ ﺗﺨ ﺎﻓﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺗﺼﺮﻑ‬
‫ﻛﻮ ﺣ ﺶ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺁ ﻩ ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻗﺪﺭ ﺓ ﺛﻮﺭ ﺍﻭ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻛﻠ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺗﻠ ﺒﺪﻳ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻲ‬
‫ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻗﻄﺔ ﻣﻘﻄﻮﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻳﻞ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺎ ﺟﻌﺔ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺛﻮﺭًﺍ ﻫﺮ ﻣ ًﺎ ﻣﻬﺰﻭ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺭﲤ ﻴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﲢ ﺘﻤﻠ ﻨﻲ ـ ﺗﺮﻛ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﻳ ﺒ ﺘﻠﻊ‬
‫ﻗﺪﺳ ﻴ ﺘﻲ ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ ﺍﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺿﻊ ﺍﺻ ﺒﻌﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺍﺿﻐﻂ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻮﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺤﻮﻝ‬‫ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺗﺨﻠﻊ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﻥ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺗﻘﻒ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﺮﺁ ﺓ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﺨ ﺘ ﺎﺭ ﻣﻼﺑ ﺲ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ؟ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻫﻞ ﻳﻘﻮﻯ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ّ‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮ ﻩ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ؟ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻙ ﺛ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﲤﺮ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺰ ﺣﻒ ﲢ ﺖ ﻋﻄﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﳝﺮﻍ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ‬
‫ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻗﺪ ﻣ ﻴﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺃﻳﻬ ﺎ ‪"-‬ﺃﺳ ﺘﻐﻔﺮﺍﷲ"‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻭﻛﻠ ﺖ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﲔ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺍﻻﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻓ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻭﻟﻰ ﺑﻚ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪..‬‬
‫ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺄ ﻣﺮ ﻫﻮﻻﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻔﻮﻥ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍﺩﻳ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﺄ ﻣﺮﻫﻢ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺼﻤ ﺖ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻄﻠﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻒ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺧﺸﻮﻉ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺠﻠﻰ ﻗﺪﺭﺗﻚ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ‪ " :‬ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﻏﺬﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ"‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻭ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻠﺸﻌ ﻴﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﳌ ﻨ ﺘﺸﺮ ﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﺼﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺿﻲ ‪ " :‬ﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺷﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﻮ ﺟﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﺮﻛﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻠّﻮﻥ‬
‫ﻼ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‬ ‫ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﲟﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ"‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻚ ﺃﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﻄ ﻨﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒ ًﺎ ﺷﺠ ﺎﻋ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻘ ﺒﻞ ﻟﻘﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺑ ﺎﺳ ً‬
‫ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻓﻘﻂ؟‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻏﺮﻓ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﺒﻜﻲ ؟ ﺗّﻔﻜﺮ ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗ ﺒﺪﻭ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ؟‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﻴ ﺄﺱ ‪" :‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ ﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻮ ﺟﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﻷﺑﺪ؟"‬

‫ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻠﻔﺤﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﺂﺑﺔ ﺗﺨ ﻨﻘ ﻨﻲ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﲤﻄ ﺖ ﻛﺂﺑﺔ ﺳﻮﺩﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﳌ ﺎ ﺗﺼّﻮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﳝﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻥ ﻳﺤﺰﻥ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎ‪) ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺍ ﻣﻮﺭُﺍ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻋ ﺒﺮﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺭﻭﻳﺔ( ﺟ ﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ‬
‫ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﺼﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺭﲡﻒ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻘﺬﻓ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻗﺮﺃﺗﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻲ ‪ :‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ؟ ﻧﻌﻢ‬ ‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗ ﺒﺮ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺑﺸﻤﻮﺥ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﺗ ﻨﺴﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺘﻪ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺁﺳﺮ ﺓ ﻭ ﻣﺪ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ‪ .‬ﺗّﻜﻮ ﻣ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺃﺳ ﺘ ﻨﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺳﻲ ﻟﻜﻲ‬
 ‫ﻻ ﺃﲤﺰﻕ‪ .‬ﺳﻘﻂ ﻛﺮﺳﻲ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺮﻛﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻠﻬ ﺎﺀ ﲤﻮ ﺟ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻟﺴﻘﻮﻃﻪ ﺩﻭﻱ ﻳﺨﺾ ﺍﻟﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻠﻤﻠﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺜ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺟﻌﻠ ﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺘﻔﺠﺮًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻭ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﺭﺗ ﺒ ﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﻫّﺰﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻛ ّﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺼّﻤﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻐ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ‬
‫ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﺟﻤﻌﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣ ﺎ ﻷﺿﻤﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﻋ ﺒﺮ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ ﻭﺗﻔّﻜﺮ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺧﺮ ﺟ ﺖ ﺳﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺣﻘ ﻴ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﲢﻮﻟ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺟﻤﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻷﻭﻗﺪﺕ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‬ ‫ﺷّﻤ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒﻎ ﺑ ﺘﻠﺬﺫ‪ .‬ﺁ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻟﺸﻤ ﺲ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺮﻗ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓ ﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺍﺫﻭﺏ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺍﻗ ﺘﺮﺏ ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻛ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺸﻌﻞ ﺍﻟﺴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍ ﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﺬﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺟ ﻴ ﺒﻲ ﻛ ّﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺟ ﺜﺔ ﺣﻤ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ؟‬
‫ﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸﻌﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻻ ﲡﺪ ﻛ ﺒﺮﻳ ﺘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋﻤﻰ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺟ ﺒ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃﻳّﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ‬ ‫ﺗﻄﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻼ ﺟ ﺒ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﺔ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺷﺮﻳﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﻞ ﺳ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﲢ ﺎﺳ ﺒﻮﻥ ﺭ ﺟ ً‬
‫ﻭﻻ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ؟ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺍﻻﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻓ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍﺭﲤ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻜﻢ ﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻬﺰ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻋﺮﺵ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﻧﻬﻀ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﲢ ﺎﺻﺮﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗﻼ ﺣﻘ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺑﺮﻋﻮﻧﺔ ﻳ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ ﺗﺼّﻠ ﺒ ﺖ‬
‫ﻋﻀﻼﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻻ ﺃّﻧﻈﺮ ﺍّﻻ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ‪ ..‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺣ ﺎﺽ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﻓ ﻴﻪ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻧﻲ ﻗﺬﻓ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍ ﺣﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺯﺩﺭﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺧﺮ ﺟ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨﻪ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻗﺴﻮﺗﻪ ﻭﻛ ﺜ ﺎﻓ ﺘﻪ ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﻣﺰﺩﻫﺮًﺍ ﻋ ﺎﺑ ﺜ ًﺎ ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺫﺍﺫ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﺳ ﺘ ﻨﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺑﻜ ﻴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻷﻭﻝ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺟﺪ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺳ ﻨﻮﺍﺕ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺃﺑﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺃﻗﺴﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺃﺑﺸﻌﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﻜﻰ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻛﻄﻔﻞ ﻳ ﺒﻜﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺪﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ؟ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﺎﺭ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﺴ ّﻨﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﺭﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﺰﻫﻮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺗﺴﺨﺮﻭﻥ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺑﻜﻰ ؟ ﻻ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻘﻢ ﻣ ﻨﻜﻢ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻳﻮﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎ ) ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﺃﻱ ﻭﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻏﺮﻳ ﺐ ﻟﻠﻐ ﺎﻳﺔ( ﻣّﺮ ﺛﻼﺛﺔ ﻓﻼ ﺣﲔ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻷ ﺣﺪﻫﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻀﻊ‬
‫ﻏﻠ ﻴﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻪ‪:‬‬
‫ﻱ ﺗ ﺒﻎ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺒﻎ ﺟ ﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻧ ﺒ ﻴﺬًﺍ ﺟ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﺑﺪﻝ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒﻎ‪.‬‬ ‫‪ -‬ﻟﺪ ّ‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﺤ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻬﻢ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ﺘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﻼﻡ ﻟﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻬﻢ‪.‬ﺿﺤﻜﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺶ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭ ﺧﺬ ﺯ ﺟ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻧﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒﻎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒﻎ ﺃﻭ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﺰﻭﺍ ﺭﺅﻭﺳﻬﻢ ﺑﺼﻤ ﺖ ﻭ ﻣﺸ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﲔ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻬﻢ‬
‫ﺑﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﻋ ﺎﻟ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺳ ﺒ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮ ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺑ ﺎﺳ ﺘﻐﺮﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺷ ﺎﺭﻛ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺿﺤﻚ ﺃﻭًﻻ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻐﺮﻕ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻚ ﺍﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ‪:‬‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﻕ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﳑ ﺎ ﻳ ﻨ ﺒﻐﻲ‪ ،‬ﻃﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻄ ﻴﻪ ﻧ ﺒ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻣﻘ ﺎﺑﻞ ﺣﺬﺍﺋﻪ‪،‬‬ ‫‪ -‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺭ ﺟ ً‬
‫ﺭﻓﻀ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺭ ﺟ ﺎ ﻧ ﺒ ﻴﺬًﺍ ﻣﻘ ﺎﺑﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﻫﻢ ﻣ ﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﻠﻬﻔﺔ ﺳ ﺄﻟﻪ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟﻠﲔ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﻣ ﻨﻪ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗ ﺎ ﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻻﻧ ﺘﺤ ﺎﺭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﺟﻞ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺷﺮﺑ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﻏ ﻨ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﺿﺤﻜ ﻨ ﺎ‬
‫ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟﻞ ﻳ ﺒﻜﻲ ﻭﻳﺸ ﺘﻢ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻜﺮ ﺑﺸﻲﺀ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻬﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻨ ﺎ !‬
‫ﻲ ﺑ ﺄﺳ ﺘﻐﺮﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺼﺔ ﺗﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ!‬
‫ﻭّﳌ ﺎ ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺃﻇ ﻨﻬﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺴﻤﻌﻮﻫ ﺎ‪.‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬﻢ ‪:‬‬
‫" ﺍﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺭ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻣ ﺎﺗ ﺖ ﻗﻠﻮﺑﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ "‬
‫ﺭﻛﺾ ﻭﺭﺍﺋﻲ ﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﳌﺴ ﺎﻓﺔ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺧﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻌ ﺎﻝ ﻳ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻨﺪﻧ ﺎ ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎﺗﺮﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ ﻭﺍ ﳊ ﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻭﺻﻞ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ َﺎ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣﺰﺡ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ!‬
 ‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﻳﺮﺍﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻫﻤ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻪ ﻳﻌﺬﺑﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﺳ ﺘﺨﺮ ﺟ ﺖ ﺳ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻭﻟﻌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻞ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻳﻔﻬﻢ ﺃّﻭﻝ ﺍﳌﺮ‪ ،‬ﻇ ّ‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻗﺪ ﻣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻭﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺼﻤ ﺖ ﻭﻫّﺰ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﺪ ﻟﻠﺮ ﺣ ﻴﻞ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻌﻮﺩ ﺃﻧ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫّﺰ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﺑ ﺄﺳﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻓﻊ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ ﺑ ﺘﺤ ﻴﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺃﺳﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﲡﻪ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ‪ :‬ﺍّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌ ﺎﻟﻮﺍ ﻭﺍﺳﻤﻌﻮﺍ ﺍﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻓ ﺎﺕ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻦ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻣﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﺍ ﳊﺰﺍﻧﻰ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﻤﻌﻮﺍ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻓ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺨﻄ ﺌﲔ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﳝﻮﺗﻮﻥ ﻛﻞ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺘﻢ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻧﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻳﺴ ﻨﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪ ﻭﻳﻌ ﺒ ﺚ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻴﺪ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﺍ ﻵﻻﻟﻢ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﻌ ﺎﻧﻲ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﳊﺰﺍﻧﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﻓﻠﻤ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺧﻠﻖ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ!‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﻭﺻﻠ ﺖ ﻭﺻﻠ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳋﻠﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺃﺿﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﺗ ﺒﺪﻭ ﺑ ﺎﻫ ﺘﻪ ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺒﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴﺤ ﺐ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻕ ﻣﻐ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺍﻫ ﻴﺔ!‬
‫ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﺳﻌﺔ ﳕ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﺮ ﺓ ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺟﺪ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍّﻻ ﺑﺼﻌﻮﺑﺔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺑ ﺎﺀ ﻗﺪ ﺍﺗﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣ ّﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﺭﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ‬
‫ﺃﺗ ﺖ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﻣ ﺒﻜﺮ ﺓ؟ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ؟ ﻭﻫﻞ ﻳﺤ ﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺁﻭﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻓﺮﺍﺷﻬ ﺎ ﺟ ﺎﺋﻌﺔ ؟ ﻭﻫﻮ‪ ..‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﻫﻮ ؟‬

‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﺑ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻭﺃﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺷﺮﺑﻮﺍ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻔ ﺘ ﺎ ﺓ ﺍﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺮﺍﻗﺼ ﻨﻲ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﻥ ﺩﻭﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻲ ﻃﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻳﻄﻔ ﺢ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ .‬ﻗﺪ ﺃﺭﻗﺺ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻮ ﺃﻥ ﺭﺍﻗﺼ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺪًﻻ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ ﻟﻘﻀ ﻴ ﺖ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻫ ﺎﻧ ﺌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻳ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻘ ﺎﺭ ﻭﻟﻢ ﲡ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻧﻄﻘ ﺖ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻘﻮﻝ ﺍﳌ ﺄﺛﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻓﻜﺆﻭﺱ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧ ﻴ ﺎﻙ ﻣﻸﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﺸﺠ ﺎﻋﺔ‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ٌﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻧ ﺎﺩﺭ ‍ﺓ!‬
‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺻ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻈﻬﺮ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻪ ﻭﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻻﺩ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻓﻠﻢ ﺗﻈﻬﺮ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧ ﺘﺤﺮﺕ؟‬
‫ﻭﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻘ ﻨﺪﻳﻼﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﺍﻥ ﻳﺮﺑﺾ ﻓ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻋ ﺒ ﺚ ﺍﻻﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﺗﻪ ﻭ ﺟ ﺒﺮﻭﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﻮﺩ ﻩ ﻭﻧﻔ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﻫﻤ ﺎ؟ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺑ ﻨﺰﻕ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍﻧﻔﺠﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻇﻠﻤﺔ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﻋ ﻴ ﺶ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻋ ﺒﺪﻙ‪ .‬ﺍﻧ ﺎ ﻣﺠﻮﺳﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺠﻮﺱ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻬﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻏﺮﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﻣ ﺘﺸ ﺎﺋﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﺬّﻛﺮﺕ ﻗﺼﺺ ﺍﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﺍﻧ ﺘﺤﺮﻭﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﺷﺮﺑﻮﺍ ﺍﻟﺴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻋﻠﻘﻮﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻬﻢ ﺑﺤ ﺒ ﺎﻝ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺰﻳ ﺘﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺗﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﳝﺔ ﲢﻜﻲ ﻋ ﻨﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﲢﻜﻲ ﻋ ﻨﻬﻢ ﺑ ﺄﺳﻰ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻧ ﺘﺤﺮ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃ ﺟﺮﺅ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔﻜ ﻴﺮ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﳉﺴ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮًﺍ؟ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ؟ ﻛ ﻴﻒ‬
‫ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ﺍﳌﺴ ّﻨﻮﻥ؟ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﻴﻀ ﺎﺀ ﺗ ﺘﻮﻏﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺅﻭﺳﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻐﺼﻮﻥ ﺗﺮﺑﺾ ﺑﻬ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺓ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻔﻢ ﻭﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ‬
‫ﻛ ﺒ ﺎﺭًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻬﻢ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺍﻧ ﺘﺤﺮﻭﺍ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻛ ﺘ ﺎﺏ؟ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺘﻪ؟ ﺗﻮﻫﻤ ﺘﻪ؟ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺣﻘﻜﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺴ ﺘﺠﻮﺑﻮﻧﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻟﻪ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺣﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠ ﻴﻜﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺼّﺪﻗﻮﺍ !‬
‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻠﻌﻖ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﺑ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺳﻤ ﻴﻪ؟ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ؟ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ ؟ ﻟ ﻨ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺯﺍﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺪﺑ ﻴ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺰﺍ ﺣﻒ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺧﻄ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﻻ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺪ ﺍ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﻤ ﺎﻟﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻟﺴ ﺎﻧﻲ ﺍﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺴﻪ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬‫ﺍﻧﺸﻮﺩ ﺓ ﻻ ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻠ ﻴﻘﺔ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
‫ﺣﻜ ﻴﻤﻜﻢ ﺍ ﻷﻋﻮﺭ ﻳﺼﺮﺥ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ‪ :‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺤ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟﻪ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟﻞ ﺍ ﳊ ﻨ ﺎﻥ!‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍ ﳊﻜ ﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﺻﺮﺥ ﺑﺠﺴ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺗﺮﻋ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻳ ﺒﻮﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺛ ﻴ ﺎﺑﻪ‪ :‬ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌ ﻨﺴﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺸﻮﻕ ﺍ ﳉ ﺎﺭﺡ ﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻛﺬﺏ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛﺬﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﲟﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺣ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﳌ ﻨﻔﻰ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻠﻲ ﺍﺷ ﺘ ﺎﻕ ﻟﻌ ﻨ ﺎﻕ ﺭ ﺣ ﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴﺪ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺩﺍﻓ ﺌﺔ ﺗﻘ ﺒﺾ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﲔ‬
‫ﺃﺫﻭﺏ ﻓ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﺗﻼﺷﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻫﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭﻱ ﻧﻈ ﻴﻔﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺍﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ ﺍﳌﻐﺴﻮﻟﺔ ﲟﻄﺮ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﺬﺑ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﳌﻀ ﺎ ﺟﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺍﺩﺍ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﳌ ﺲ ﻳﺪﻳﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ َﺃﻗ ّﺒﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﻊ‬
‫ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣﻀ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻏﻔﻮ‪.‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻗﻄﻌﻮﺍ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻭﺍﻋﻄﻮ ﻩ ﻟﻠﻜﻼﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃﻳّﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﺪﻳﺪﻭﺍ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺰ ﻣ ﺖ‪،‬‬
‫ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻌﻮﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲢﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ؟ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ؟ ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﻫﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ؟‬
‫ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻻ ﺃﺷ ﺘﻬ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻭﺻ ﻴﺔ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺴ ﺘ ﻨﺪﻭﻥ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﲡﻌﻠﻮﻫ ﺎ ﻣﻘﺼﻠﺔ ﻟ ﺘ ﻨ ﺘﺰﻉ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﺑﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺴ ﺎﻃﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻪ ﺃ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺭﺩﺗﻪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏﻔﻮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨﺔ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﺛﻢ ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ!‬
 ‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮ ﻣ ﺘﻄ ﺎﻳﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﺘﻤﺔ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻒ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﺎﻥ ﻏﻠ ﻴﻈ ﺘ ﺎﻥ ﺷﻬ ﻴ ﺘ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻗ ﺒﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜ ﻴﺮﺗﲔ ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻓ ﻴﻤ ﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻘ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ " ،‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﺳ ﺘﻬﺮﺑﲔ ﻣ ّﻨﻲ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ!" ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮﻧ ﺎ‬
‫ﻲ‪ .‬ﻻ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺘ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺍﻛ ﺘﺸﻒ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪".‬ﺃﺭﻓﻌﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻚ ﻳ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺗ ﺘﺤﺮﻛﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﻟﺸﻔ ﺘﲔ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﺍﺭﻳﺪﻙ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻟﺸﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺮﺍ ﺣﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻘﻄﺔ ﺍﳌ ﺎﻛﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﺑﲔ ﺛ ﻴ ﺎﺑﻚ ﻻ ﺗﻜﻒ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻋ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﺮ ﻣﺸﺔ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺒ ﺘﻌﺪ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺴﻤ ﺢ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗﺪﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺭﺃﺕ‬
‫ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﺃﺑﻌﺪﺕ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻣ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺗﻌﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻇﻬﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﺗﻜﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺤ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‬
‫ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺒﻎ ﺗﺨ ﺘ ﺎﺭ ﻣﻘﻌﺪًﺍ ﺑﺬﺍﺗﻪ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﺭﻯ "ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗﺼّﺪﻕ ﺃﻥ ﻗﻄ ﺘﻚ ﺳ ﺘﻔﻠ ﺖ ﻣ ﻨﻲ"‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺷﻜﺮًﺍ ﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻹﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻠﺸﻬﻮ ﺓ ﻟﻠﺠ ﺒﻞ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺷﻜﺮًﺍ ﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺎ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻧ ﺘﺰﻉ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣ ّﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻘ ﻴ ﺖ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺱ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻮ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﻭﻗ ﺎﺕ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺱ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻳﺤ ﺲ ﺍﻧﻪ‬
‫ﻣﺤ ﺎﺻﺮ ﺑ ﺎﳌ ﻴ ﺎ ﻩ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺭ ﺟﻠ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺸﺪ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﲡﺮ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺃﺳﻔﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷﻋﻤ ﺎﻕ ﺍ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺱ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐﺮﻕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﻒ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﺎﻡ ﻣﻠﻲﺀ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻮ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻓﺈﺫﺍ ﺳﻘﻂ ﺍﳌﻄﺮ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﻮﺭ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐﺮﻕ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﻄﻐ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻴ ﺄﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺤ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻟ ﺚ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﳌﻠﻌﻮﻧﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻛ ﺘ ﺒ ﺖ ﺷﻬ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳ ﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺸﻤ ﺲ‬
‫ﻣﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺪﻑﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺳ ﺎﻛ ﻨﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼﻼﺑﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺜﻘﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺗﻮﻟﺪ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻟﺪ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﻛ ﺜﺮ ﺧﻀﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻀﺤﻚ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻘّﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﺩﻓﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﺑﻜ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻳﺴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻗ ﺒﻌﺔ ﻗ ﺶ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬﻢ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗ ﺄ ﺧﺮﻭﺍ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺧﻄﻮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺃ ﺟﻔﻠ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﻋ ﻦ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻌ ﺘﺬﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧ ﺘﻘﻠ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳉﻬﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻫ ﺎ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻤﲔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳉﻬﺔ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﻄ ﺘ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺻﺪﺭﻫ ﺎ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻭﻫﻲ ﻣ ﺎﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗ ﺒﺤ ﺚ ﺑﻘﻠﻖ ﻋ ﻦ ﻧﻘﻄﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻮﺍﺯﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻺﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ؟‬
‫ﻭﻫﻞ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﻱ ﺃﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺳﻮﻥ ﻓ ﺘﺤﻮﺍ ﺩﻓ ﺎﺗﺮﻫﻢ‪ ..‬ﺿ ﺎﻗ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧﻬﻢ ﻭﺍﺭﲡﻔ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻗﻬﻢ ﺍﳌﻈﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﳌﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﻘﺪ ﻭﺍﻟﺸﻬﻮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻳﻘﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻄ ﻴﺮ ﻳﻘ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺦ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻭﺻ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺪ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻧﻬ ﺖ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺯﻭ ﺟﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻄ ﺒﻖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﻨﺤ ﻦ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻧﻄ ﺒﻖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﻭﺻ ﻴﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺍﳌﻤ ﻴ ﺘﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻌ ﺘﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻛﻢ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎ ﲤﻮﺝ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﺻ ﺒﻌﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺘﻪ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻷ ﺧ ﻨﻖ ﺍ ﻷﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻳﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻷﺻ ﺒﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‬
‫ﺳ ﺄ ﻣﺪ ﻩ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺄ ﺧ ﺘﺮﻕ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻷﻗﻮﻝ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺳﻘﻮﻁ ﺍ ﳊﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻭﺍﺩ ﺳﺤ ﻴﻖ ﻣﻠﻰﺀ ﺑ ﺎﳌ ﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻛ ﻦ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻹﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻏ ﺘ ﻴ ﺎﻝ ﻓﺮﺍﺷﺔ ﺻﻔﺮﺍﺀ ﻭﺳﻮﺩﺍﺀ ؟‬
‫ﻓﺮﺍﺷﺔ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﺎﻝ ﻭ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ؟ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﻣﻞﺀ ﺍﻭﻗ ﺎﺗﻬﻢ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻏ ﺘ ﻴ ﺎﻝ ﻣﺨﻠﻮﻗ ﺎﺕ ﺍﷲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻓﺮﺍﺷﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻃ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻣﻠﻮﻧ ﻨ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺸﻮﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻏﺼ ﻨ ًﺎ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺯﻳﺰﻓﻮﻥ ﺻ ﺎ ﺧ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻬ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﻘ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻣﻮ ﺟﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻣﺴ ﻨ ﻨﺔ ﺍ ﻷﻃﺮﺍﻑ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻛﻔﻮﺍ ﺍﺫﺍﻛﻢ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻢ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﳊﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ‪ :‬ﺍﺑﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﳌﺮﺍﻫﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻜﻔﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍ ﳊﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑ ﺌﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺗﺴﻤﻌﻮﻧﻪ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻼﻫﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻲ ﺍﳌﻠﻲﺀ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻀﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺘ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﻬ ﻴﺔ‬ ‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﺍﻗﻞ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺛﲔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﻭﻏ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ‪ ,‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﺇّﻻ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﻄﻮﻗﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺣ ﺎﺷ ﻴﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﺰﻭﺝ ﺑﻘﻤ ﻴﺼﻪ ﺍﳌّﻠﻮﻥ ﻭﺻﻤ ﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺧ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺻﺤ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺑ ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺍ ﺧ ﺘﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺍﺭﺗ ﺐ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﻊ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﻊ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺓﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﺷﻼًﻻ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﻤﻰ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺼ ﺎﺭ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻤ ﺘﻪ؟ ﺍﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺎ ﻭﻗﻊ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﺗﻜّﻮﻡ ﻓﻮﻕ‬ ‫ﻫﻞ ﺃ ﺣ ﻨ ﺖ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺘﺤ ﻴﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻭ ﺗﻮ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻏﻮﺹ ﻓ ﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻠﻜ ﺖ ﺍ ﳉﺴ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻟﻬﺮﺑ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻟﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ ﻛﻌ ﺒﺪ ﻓ ﺎﺳﺤ ًﺎ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﻟﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﳌﻠﻜﻮﺕ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻥ ﻟﻌ ﺎﺑﻲ ﺳ ﺎﻝ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻳﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺪ ﻣﲔ‪ .‬ﺍﺭﺗﺨ ﺖ ﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ‪ ..‬ﺍﻋﺬﺭﻭﻧﻲ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻛﻄﻠﻘﺔ ﻣﻔ ﺎ ﺟ ﺌﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺫﻗ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺭﺃﺕ‪ .‬ﺧﺠﻠ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﺭﻓﻌ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﻣﺴ ﺢ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﺩﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻟﻮ ﺃﲢّﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺧﻔﻘﺔ ﺭﻳ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻷﻫﺮﺏ ﻭﺃﺗﻼﺷﻰ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻋﻤﻮﺩًﺍ ﺣﺠﺮﻳ ًﺎ‬
 ‫ﺃ ﺧﺮﺱ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺑﻌ ﻨﻔﻮﺍﻥ ﺛﻮﺭ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﻧﺴﺤ ﺎﻕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻏﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﺩ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺨ ﺘ ﻨﻘﲔ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺒﺆﺱ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩ ﺓ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﺩﻫﻮﺭًﺍ‪ ،‬ﲤﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺘﻼﺷﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﺛﻢ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺗ ﻨﻔﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﻳ ﺢ ﻗﻮﻳﺔ ﺗﺼﻔﻊ ﺟﺪﺭﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺍ ﺧﻞ‪.‬‬

‫ﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻧ ﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﻳﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻮﻡ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻧ ًﺎ ﻟﻪ ﺃﻟﻒ ﻣﺨﻠ ﺐ ﻣﻐﺮﻭﺳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻤﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﺑﻀﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺮﻗ ﺒﺔ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻋ ﻨﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻳﺴ ﺘﺤ ﻴﻞ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻭﻳﻀﻐﻂ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻠﻢ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺎﺩ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺬﻋﺮ‪ ..‬ﻭﻋﺪﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﺴّﻤﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺪﻭﺩ ﺓ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻧﻐﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣﺨ ﺘ ﻨﻘ ًﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺒﺆﺱ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ ﺟ ﻴ ﺌ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻤ ﺲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﺔ‪) ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻘ ﺎﻫﺔ ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﲢ ﺐ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ( ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻧ ﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺟ ﺜﻤ ﺖ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‬
‫ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻧ ﺎﺕ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳ ﻨ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺨ ﺎﻟ ﺐ ﻣ ﻦ ﻓﻮﻻﺫ‪،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻫﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺍﺳﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ .‬ﻇ ﻨ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃّﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺳ ﺄ ﻣﻮﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ﺧﻔ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻜ ﺎﺀ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻃﻮﻳ ً‬
‫ﻭﺗﺼّﻮﺭﺕ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﲢﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻟﻌ ﺎﺏ ﻟﺰﺝ ﻭﺍﻏﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠ ﺜﻮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺳﻲ ﺍ ﻷﺑ ﻴﺾ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺩًﺍ ﺭ ﺟﻠ ﻴﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻃﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ﺘ ﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺐ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺰ ﻣﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺭﺍ ﻩ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻲ ﻛ ﻨﺰًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺣ ﻨﲔ ﻻ‬
‫ﻳﺤﻠﻢ ﺑﻪ ﻃ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﳊﻈﺔ ﺍﻻﻧ ﺘﻘ ﺎﻝ ﺍ ﻷﻗﺼﻰ ﺟﻤ ﺎًﻻ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺢ ﻭﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻌﻤ ﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﺁ ﻩ ﻟﺸﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
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‫ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﺼﻮﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜﻮﻧﻮﺍ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮﻭﻥ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﺸﻐﻮﻟﲔ ﺑ ﺄﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﺗﻔﻮﺡ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺎﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﻔّﻜﺮﻭﻥ ﺑ ﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ‬ ‫ﺗ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠ ﺌ ﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺮﺍ ﺟﻊ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺫﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟ ﺘﻘﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﺧ ﺘﺮﻋﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻣ ﺘﺴﻮﻝ ﺿﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻘ ﺎﻃﻌﺔ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻧﺼ ﺘﻮﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺑﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺨﻔﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻫ ﺎ ﻛﻤﻮ ﺟ ﺎﺕ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻴ ﺎﻗﻮﺕ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﲔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﻠﻢ‬
‫ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺸﺮ‪ .‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ ﻣﻔ ﺘﻮﻧ ًﺎ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻻﻧﺼﻌ ﺎﻕ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺻ ﻨﻊ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻄﲔ ﺍ ﻷﺻﻢ ﻫ ﺎﺗﲔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ‬
‫ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻐﻤﺾ )ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻣ ﺎ( ﻫ ﺎﺗﲔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴ ﻨﲔ ﻭﻳﺠﻌﻠﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺗﺮﺍﺑ ًﺎ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻟﺸﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﻋ ﺒ ﺚ‬
‫ﻭﻗﺴﻮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﺸﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺨﻠﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺃﳌ ًﺎ ﻳﺼﻞ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺩﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﻳﻞ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ ﺍ ﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻃﻮﻓﻮﺍ ﺑﻮ ﺟﻞ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻝ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺣﻮﻝ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﺍﳌﺸﺮﺋ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗ ﻨﻄﻔﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ‪-.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﺿﺤﻜ ﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻳﺤّﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻘ ﺎﻃﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺄﻟﻮﻫ ﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﲡ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫"ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻏﻔﺮ ﻟﻚ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﺪﻝ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﺴﺮﺕ ﺍﺿﻼﻋﻚ‪ ،‬ﳉﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺷﻌﺮﻙ ﻛﻮ ﻣﺔ‬
‫ﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻃ ﺒ ﻴ ﺐ ﻳﺨ ﺎﻑ ﻣ ﻦ‬ ‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﻑ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺚ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺢ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺴﻠﻠﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻓﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻭﻫﻮ ﳝﺴﻚ ﺑ ﺒ ﻴﺪﻙ ﻳ ﺘ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺪﻭﻯ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻳ ﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻔ ﺘﲔ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺑ ﻴ ﺘﲔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻠﻜ ﺘﻚ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﳉﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺃﻧﻬ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﻨ ﺒﻊ ﻣ ﻦ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‬
‫ﻲ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺩ ّﻣﺮ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺭﺻ ﺎﺻ ًﺎ ﻣﺼﻬﻮﺭًﺍ ﻳﺬﻳ ﺒﻚ ﻭﻳﺤﻮﻟﻚ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﺨ ﺎﺭ "ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﳑ ﻴ ﺖ" ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻄﻐﻰ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺃﺑﻌﺪ ﳑ ﺎ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ‪ .‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﺗﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﲡ ﺎﻭﺯﺕ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﻗﻠ ﻴﻞ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﺼﻌﺪ ﻭﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺗﻠﻮﺡ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺷﺮﺍﻉ ﻣﻘﻄﻮﻉ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻞ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺒﻘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺍﻧﺤﺪﺭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺒ ﺘﻌﺪ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻳﺤ ﺲ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻀﺠﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻳﺤ ﺲ ﺑﺮﻏ ﺒ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻤﻮﺝ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻼ ﺣﻖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺢ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺧ ﻨﺔ‪" .‬ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪ ﻳ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻚ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﻳﻔّﻜﺮ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ! ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺍﺗ ﺎﺑﻊ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗ ﻨ ﺒ ﺜﻖ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮ ﺓ _ ﺍﻟﺮﻏ ﺒﺔ !‬
‫ﻄﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋﻮﻳﻞ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﻜ ﺒﺮ ﻭﺗ ﺘ ّ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺑﻐﻤﻮﺽ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻋﺾ ﺷﻔ ﺘﻲ ﻓ ﺄﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺭﺃﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻓﺮﻙ ﺫﻗ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ‬
‫ﻲ ﻛ ّﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻠﻮ ﻣ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﻃﻔ ﺄﺕ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺑﺮﻋﻮﻧﺔ‬ ‫ﺍﳌﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳ ﺎﻝ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺎﺏ )ﺍﳌﻌﺬﺭ ﺓ ﻟﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺬﺍﺭ ﺓ( ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻤﻌ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻧﻈﺮ ﺓ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ )ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﻌ ﻴ ﻨﻲ( ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﺼ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬﻢ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﺮ ﺟﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺎ ﻳﺠﻠﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌﻬﻤ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﺑﻔﺨﺮ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗ ﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲢﻠﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻧﻈﺮﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻑ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ‪ ،‬ﺍﻗ ﺘﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣ ﻨﻪ ﻣﺮﻏﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻛ ّﺒ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﻷﻭﺭﺍﻕ ﲢ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻚ ﺑﺆﺳﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺍﳌﺪ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺠ ﻨﻮﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋﺮﻓ ﺖ ﺍﺫﻥ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺻﻌﺪ ﺑ ﺎﲡ ﺎ ﻩ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺭّﺩﺩ ﺃﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺭّﺩﺩﺗﻪ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻛ ﺖ ﺣﺮﻭﻓﻪ ﺗ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺏ ﻓﻲ ﺃﺫﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺩ ﻣﻲ‪ .‬ﺭﺩﺩﺗﻪ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﺛﻢ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺍﻛ ﺘﺸﻒ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺼﻌﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺻﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺢ‪ .‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺻﻮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄ ﻴﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ)ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﺟ ﻨﺪﻳ ًﺎ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻳّﺮّﺩﺩ ﻩ( ﺳﻤﻌ ﺘﻪ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺿﻮﺡ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍ ﳉﺪﻭﻝ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺗﻮﻫﻢ؟ ﺃ ﺣﻠﻢ؟ ﻻ ﻳﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﺨﺠﻞ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﺭﻭﻥ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻘﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺳﻤ ﺢ ﻟﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻏﻀ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ ؟ ﺍ ﺟ ﻴ ﺒﻮﺍ ﺍﻥ ﻛ ﻨ ﺘﻢ ﺭ ﺟ ﺎًﻻ ﺷﺠﻌ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌ ﺒ ﺘﺬﻟﺔ ﺍﻳ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﺠﺪ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺣﻜﻤ ﺎﺅﻛﻢ ﻣﺮﺍﺩﻓ ﺎﺕ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﺮّﺩﺩﻫ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻌ ﺒﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻜ ﺎﺭﻯ‪ ،‬ﻳﺴ ﺘﺨﺮ ﺟﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻮﻗ ﺎﺭ ﻭ ﻣﺸﻘﺔ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﻛ ﺘ ﺒﻬﻢ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﺯﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻣ ﺎﻳﻘﻮﻟﻮﻧﻪ ﻻﻳﻌ ﺎﺩﻝ ﺟ ﺜﺔ ﻓ ﻴﻞ ﻣ ﻴ ﺖ!‬
‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺭ ﻣ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺼﻰ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻏ ﺎﻓ ﻴ ًﺎ ﲢ ﺖ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺣﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒﻊ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﻧ ﺎﺋﻤ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻱ‬
‫ﻣﻐﻠﻘ ﺘﲔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ ﺍﺷﺪ ﻭﺿﻮ ﺣ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﳊﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﺃﺷ ﺒﻪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺑ ﺎﳌ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‬
‫ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺮ ﻣﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺼ ﺎ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻟ ﺜﺔ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻭﺿﻮ ﺣ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ!‬
‫ﻲ ﻣ ﺒ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺮﺍﻧﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻧﻌﻜ ﺎﺱ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﻲ‬ ‫ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺠ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻲ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻋﺪﺩًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉﺪﻭﻝ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﻳﺮ ﺟﻢ ﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﻗﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﻟﻪ ﺳ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺬﻫ ﺎ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺮﻛﻬ ﺎ ﺑﲔ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﺷﻌﻞ ﻋﻮﺩًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﺎﺏ ﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭﺗﻪ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ".‬ﺃﻫﺬ ﻩ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﻭﺳ ﺎﺋﻠﻚ ﻳ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺮﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺨﻮﺿﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺟ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺬﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺘﻬﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺖ ﻻ ﺗ ﺘﻌﺪﻯ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴ ًﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘ ﺘﻞ ﻧﻔﺴﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ!"‪.‬‬
‫ﻟ ﻦ ﺃ ﺧﻮﺽ ﺣﺮﺑ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﻓ ﻴﻪ ﺃﻛ ﺒﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﳊﺮﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﺍﻗﺴﻰ‬
‫ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷﺪ ﻋﺬﺍﺑ ًﺎ‪ " .‬ﺍﺫﻫ ﺐ ﻳ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭّﺩﺩ ﺍﺳﻢ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﲤ ﺜﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﻓ ﺘﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺷﺪ ﺭﻭﻋﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻚ ﻋﺬﺍﺑﻚ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻭﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻟﺴ ﺖ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻧ َﺎ ﻳ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫ﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌﺸﻮﺑﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌ ﺘ ﺎﺏ ﻭﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺤﺪﻱ ؟ ﺍﺗﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻚ ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﻫﻞ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮﻳ ﻦ ﻓ ﺘ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺼﻮﺭﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺎ‬ ‫ﺷﻲﺀ " ﻭﺍﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﳕ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻋﺮﻓ ﺘﻚ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻗ ﺎﺕ؟ ﺗﺨﻄ ﺌﲔ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺗ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﻏ ﺒ ﺎﺕ ﻓ ﺎﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺗ ﺎﺑﻮﺕ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﻳ ﺘﺴﻊ ﻟﻜﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ!"‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﻀ ﻴﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺯﻋ ﺞ ﺃ ﺣﺪًﺍ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺭ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄ ﺧﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻓ ﺎﺭﻏﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳋﺪﻡ ﻳﺠﻤﻌﻮﻥ ﺍﳌﻔ ﺎﺭﺵ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻗ ﻠ ﺖ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻗﺪ ﺣ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧ ﻴ ﺎﻙ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﺃ ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺭﺗ ﺎ ﺣﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳ ﺘﺤّﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺍﻗﺺ ﻣ ﺎﻫﺮ ﻳﺠﺬﺏ ﺍ ﻷﻧﻈ ﺎﺭ ﻛﻞ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻀﻊ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺡ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺇﻟﻰ ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻪ ﻛﻮﺏ ﺍﻟﺼﻮﺩﺍ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﺀ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻌﺔ!‪ .‬ﻭﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻢ ﻛ ﺘﻌﺰﻳﺔ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻐﺪﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻀ ﺎﺋﻊ!‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻟ ﺒﺴ ﻦ ﺃ ﺣﺴ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﻴ ﺎﺏ ﻭﺃ ﺟﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺷ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﺟ ﺎﺅﻭﺍ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻭﻇّﻠﻮﺍ‬
‫ﺟﻤ ﺎﻋ ﺎﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﻟﻔﻮﺍ ﺍ ﳉﻮ ﺛﻢ ﺿ ﺎﻋﻮﺍ ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‪ .‬ﺍﺭ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻟ ﺒﺴﻮﺍ ﺑﺪﻻﺕ ﺩﺍﻛ ﻨﺔ ﻭﻇﻬﺮﻭﺍ ﺃﺻﻐﺮ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﺭﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻈﻬﺮﻭﺍ ﺇﻻ ﻓﻲ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄ ﺧﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎ ﺍﻻﻋ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺛ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺎ ﻳﻔ ﻴﻀ ﺎﻥ ﺣﺰﻧ ًﺎ ﺭ ﻣ ﺎﺩﻳ ًﺎ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺮﻗﺺ‪ .‬ﺭﻓﻀ ﺖ ﺟﻤ ﻴﻊ ﻋﺮﻭﺽ ﺍﻟﺮﻗﺺ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺭﻓﻀﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺳﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺺ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﺒ ﺘﻌﺪ‪ ،‬ﻳﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺃﻗﺼﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻠ ﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗﻄﻔﻮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﻯ ﻳﺪ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺴﺮﻯ ﺗ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻠﻘﻂ ﺭﻃ ﺐ ﻭﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻳﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧﺼﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﺒﺪ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺪﻡ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻌ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﻛﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻧﻪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻗﻠﻘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺮﺍﻗ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﻗﺼﲔ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﻳﺴ ‍ﺔ‬
‫ﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴﻌ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ‪ ,‬ﻋﻠﻰ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻳﻮ ﺟﺪ ﺷﻲﺀ‬ ‫ﺗﺨﻄ ﺌﻮﻥ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﻮﻥ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻇ ﻨ ﻨ ﺘﻢ ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﺯﻋﻢ ﺍﻧﻪ ﺍﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺤ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟﻪ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻨﻪ ﺿ ﺎﻉ ﻓﻲ ﻣ ﺘ ﺎﻫﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﺚ ﻋ ﻦ‬
‫ﻭ ﺟﻮﺩ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻻ ﻭ ﺟﻮﺩ ﻟ ‍ﻪ!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻋ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻇﻠﻠ ﻨ ﺎ ﺧﻼﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻔﺮﺡ ﺣﻘ ﻴﻘﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﺮﺡ ﻻ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﻟﻼﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺇّﻻ ﻧ ﺎﺩﺭًﺍ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‬
‫ﻧﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﻣﻀ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌﻠ ﻦ ﺑﲔ ﺍﺭﺗﻔ ﺎﻉ ﺍ ﳉﻔ ﻦ ﻭﺳﻘﻮﻃﻪ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻀ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ ﺑﻜﺮًﺍ ﳌ ﺎ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻌ ﺘ ﺒﺮ ﺍﲢ ﺎﺩًﺍ ﺃﺯﻟ ﻴ ًﺎ ﺑﲔ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﻷﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺑﲔ ﺃﺻ ﺎﺑﻌﻬ ﺎ ﺍﺑ ﺘﻬ ﺎﻝ ﻟﻘﻮ ﺓ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻚ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﳊﺼ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺍﺷ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺣﻘ ﻴﻘﻲ ﻭ ﺧﺼ ﺐ ﻟﻠﺤ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻗﺪﺡ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﺘﻐ ّﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﻌﻘﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻲ ﻛ ﺘ ﺎﺭﻳ ﺦ ﺣﻘ ﻴﻘﻲ ﻭﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﳌ ﺎ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴّﻤﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺔ ﺑﲔ ﺃﺛ ﻨﲔ‪ .‬ﲤ ﻨ ﻴ ﺖ ﻟﻮ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺡ ـ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ ﺑ ﺘﻮﺳﻞ ﻣ ﺘﺤﻀﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮ ﺟ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﺤﻜﻮ ﻣﲔ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﺋ ﺒﲔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪" :‬‬
 ‫ﻳﺪﻙ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﺮ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺱ‪ ،‬ﻳﺪﻙ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻠ ﺘﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺡ ﺗﻠ ﺘﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋ ﻨﻘﻲ ﻛﺨ ﻴﻂ ﺍ ﳊﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﺷﻔ ﺘﻚ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻌ ﺎﻧﻒ ﺣ ﺎﻓﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺡ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻋ ﻨ ﺎﻕ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻬ ﺎﺕ ﻷﻭﻻﺩﻫ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﻫ ﺒﲔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺮﺏ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻚ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﺑ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻝ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‬
‫ﻫﻲ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻭﻧﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺑﺆﺱ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ ﺍﺫﺍ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍ ﻷﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺴ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻣ ﻴ ﺘﻪ ﺗﻘﻒ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳊﻠﻖ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﺷﻮﺍﻙ ﺳﻤﻜﺔ ﻋ ﺘ ﻴﻘﺔ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻻ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺷ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺮﻕ‪ .‬ﻛﻢ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ﻨ ﺎ؟ ﻛﻢ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻓ ﺘﺮﻗ ﺖ ؟ ﻻ ﺍﻋﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻛﺾ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺃﺳﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ ﻛ ﺄﻛ ﺜﺮ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﻓﺮﺡ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﻧ ﻴ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻧ ﺎﻡ ﲢ ﺖ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ ﺍﻭ ﺑﺠ ﺎﻧ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒﻊ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻏ ّﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓﺮ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺘﺮﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ‬
‫ﺑﺤ ﻨﲔ ﻻ ﻳﻮﺻﻒ ﻟﻠ ﺒﻜ ﺎ ‍ﺀ!‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣﺤ ﺘﻤﻞ؟ ﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺎﺅﻭﻥ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﺭﻏ ﺐ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﳑ ﺎ ﺣﺼﻠ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﺩﻓ ﻨ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻧﺪ ﻣ ﺖ‬
‫ﻭﻓﺮ ﺣ ﺖ ﻭﻫ ﺎ ﺟﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺭ ﺟﻌ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺩﺍﻓ ﺌ ﺘﲔ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﻛﻘﻄﻌﺔ ﺍﳌﺨﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﺭﺿ ﻴ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﺎﺗ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻨ ﺘﻌﺸ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﳑ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺮﺏ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﺿﺤﻜ ﺖ ﺍﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﺭﻓﻊ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺄﺱ ﻟ ﻨﺸﺮﺏ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺸﺮﺏ ﺇّﻻ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣﺸﻌ ًﺎ ﻣﻬ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻋ ﻨﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻫﺪﺃﺕ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏ ﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﻊ ﺷ ﺎﺑﲔ ﻭﺛﻼﺙ ﻓ ﺘ ﻴ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﺧﺮﻳ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴ ًﺎ ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼﻤ ﺖ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻮﺗﺮ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺑﻀﺠﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﺣﻮﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻘﺴﻮ ﺓ ﻭﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﻔ ﺎ ﺟﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﻳﺪﻕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻟﻮﻟﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﺷ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻬﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻏ ﺎﺩﺭﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﲤ ﻨ ﻴ ﺖ ﻟﻮ ﺃﺩﻭﺱ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺩﺍﺳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺄﻗﺪﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺗﻬ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﻟﻠ ﻨﻬﻮﺽ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﺳ ّﺒ ﺒ ﺎ ﻟﻲ ﺗﻌ ﺎﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺪﺍﺩًﺍ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻭ ﺣﺪ ﻩ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻌ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺸﻘ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﺈﻧﻬ ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻇﻬﺮﺍ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻀﻤ ﺎ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻄﺔ ﻻ ﲤﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﻛﺾ ﻭﻻ ﺗ ﺘﻌ ﺐ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺖ ﺑ ﻴﺪﻱ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻋﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻊ ﺑﻔ ﺘﻮﺭ ﻭﺍﺭﺗﺨ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻲ!‬‫‪ -‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺗ ‍‬
‫‪ -‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍﺗﻌﻮﺩﻳ ﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣ ﻨ ﺎﻛﺪﺗﻲ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻳﺮﻭﻗﻚ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻔﺰﺍﺯﻱ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ؟‬
‫ﺿﺤﻜ ﺖ ﺑﻄﻔﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺨ ﺘ ﺒﺮﻧﻲ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﻳ ﺄﺗﻮﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻳﻘﻀﻮﺍ ﻭﻗ ﺘ ًﺎ ﳑ ﺘﻌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺣﻤﻠ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍ ﺣﺰﺍﻧ ًﺎ ﺃﺿ ﺎﻓ ﻴﺔ ﻭ ﺟ ﺌ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﻮﺯﻋﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻧ ﺎﺱ ﻻ ﻳﺮﻭﻕ ﻟﻬﻢ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺤﺰﻧﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻳﺮﻭﺍ ﺑﺸﺮَﺍ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﲔ!‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﺸ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺃﺑ ﺘﻬ ﺞ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺸﻮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻘ ﺘﻲ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻌ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﻋ ﻦ ﻓﺮ ﺣﻲ ﺑﺪﺕ ﺳ ﺎﺫ ﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻛ ﺎﺩﺕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻄﻔ ﺌﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻗﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ! ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺈﺷﻔ ﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ‬
‫ﻫﺮ ﻣ ًﺎ ﻣﺮﻫﻘ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﺑﺨ ﺒ ﺚ ﲟﺆ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺿﺤ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﻣﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﺼ ﺎﻓ ﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻬﻢ ﻳﻌﺰﻓﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻠﻤﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻋﺰﻓﻮﻫ ﺎ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻊ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﻣ ﺜﻞ‬
‫ﺟﺪﻭﻝ ﺻ ﺎ ﺧ ﺐ ﳝ ﺘﻠﻰﺀ ﻓﺮ ﺣ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻵﻥ ـ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺣﺮﻛ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺒّﺮﺍﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻳﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﺟﺬﻋﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻭﺑ ﻴﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻹﺛ ﻨ ﺘﲔ ﲢ ﺘﻀ ﻦ ﻛ ﺄﺱ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺐ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺣﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﺴﻘﻂ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺡ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺪﻟﻖ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺛﻮﺏ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺷﻬﻘ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ‬ ‫ﺻ ّ‬
‫ﺿﺤﻜ ﺖ ﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺮﺍ ﺟﻊ ﻛﻘﻄﺔ ﻣﺬﻋﻮﺭ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﳑﻜ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻋﻤﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻫّﺰﺕ ﻛ ﺘﻔ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻫ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻓﻌ ﺖ‬
‫ﺲ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗﻔ ﺘﺮﺱ‬ ‫ﺍﻟ ﺜﻮﺏ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻥ ﺳ ﺎﻗ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻗ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺸﻔ ﺎﻓ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃ ﻣﺪ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻃﻮﻳﻼ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺗﻌﺬﺑﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﻳﺤﻖ ﻷﻱ ﺍﺳﻘﻒ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻷﻱ ﺭﺍﻋﻲ ﻛ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻭﻳﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﻨﻌﺰﻝ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔ ﺘ ﺢ ﻛ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻪ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺱ‪،‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺻ ﺎﻳ ﺎ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣﻠﻮﺛ ًﺎ ﻭﺷ ﺒﻘ ًﺎ ﻭﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﺭﺏ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻋﻮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ‬ ‫ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔ ﺘﺤﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺧﻮﻑ ﻭﻳﻄ ﺒﻖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﻋ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣ ﺒ ﺎ ﺣﺔ ﺻ ﺎ ﺧ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﻠﺬ ﺓ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﺷ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻧﻬﺪﺍﻝ ﺷﻔ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﻓﺮ ﺣﺔ ﻭﻫﻲ‬
‫ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻲ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳ ﺎﻗ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺖ ﻣﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﺼ ﺎﻓ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘ ﻴﻮﻥ ﻳﺸﺮﺑﻮﻥ ﺃﻧﺨ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺷﺪﻭﺍ ﺃﻭﺗ ﺎﺭ ﺍ ﻵﻻﺕ ـ ﻭﺑﺪﺃﻭﺍ ﺟﻮﻟ ﺘﻬﻢ‬
‫ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻻﺕ ﻟ ﻴﻌﺰﻓﻮﺍ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻓﺮﺻ ﺘﻲ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻧﺴﺤ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻹﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻋﺰﻳﺔ ﺑﺨﺸﻮﻧﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻌﺰﻓﻮﺍ ﳊ ﻦ "ﻛﻞ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻚ ﻳ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒ ﻴ ﺒﻲ!"‬
‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣ ﺘﻮ ﺣﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺛ ﻴ ﺎﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻭﺷ ﺒﻘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺸﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺪﻱ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻀﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺩﻋ ﻨ ﺎ ﻧﺴﻤﻊ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻠﺤ ﻦ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ ـ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻛﻞ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻹﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ !‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﲢ ﺖ ﺟﻠﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑﺪﺑ ﻴ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﺻ ﺎ ﺧ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻋ ﻨ ﻴﻔ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺇﻻ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻏ ّﻴﺮ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺘﻪ‬
 ‫ﺩﻻﻟﺔ ﺍﻻ ﺣ ﺘﺠ ﺎﺝ ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻐﺠﺮﻱ ﻳﻘ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻪ ﻭﻏﻤﺰﺗﻪ ‪:‬‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻢ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﻧﻘﻮﺩًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻳﺪ ﻩ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻪ ﻫ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ًﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻋﺰﻑ ﻟ ﻨ ﺎ ﳊ ﻦ " ٌﺃﻏ ّﻴﺮ ﺍ ﻷﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺀ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺃﻭﺭﺍﻗﻬ ﺎ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﺒﺪﺃ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺳﺮﻗ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫِﺮ ﻭﺭﻛﻀ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻥ ﺣﺪﻳ ﺜﻪ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‬ ‫ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺗ ﺄّﻛﺪ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻠﺤ ﻦ ـ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻳﺪ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺮﻓﻌﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻬﺪﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﲢ ﻴﺔ ﻭﺩﺍﻉ!‬
‫ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﻮﺍﻓﺬ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺍﻗﺮﺃ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻃ ﻴﻒ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺗﺴ ﺎﺀﻟ ﺖ ﺑﺈﺻﺮﺍﺭ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻕ ‪ :‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﻳﺔ ﻏﺮﻓﺔ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ؟‬
‫ﻭﺃ ﺟ ﺒ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑ ﺘ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ ﻣﺴﻠﻮﺏ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﻌﺔ ﺛﻢ ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺇّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ـ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﺑﻖ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻟ ﺚ‪ ،‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺗ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ!‬
‫ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭﻫ ﺎ ‪ :‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻧ ﺎﺋﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﺍ ﻷﳝ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻻ‬
‫ﺍﻧﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛﻪ ﻳﻘ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﻳﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻮﺍﺱ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﻴﺠﻌﻞ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﻀ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻈﻼﻡ ﺃﺏ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﻳﻌﻄﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﳊﺰﺍﻧﻰ‪ ،‬ﳝﺪ ﺭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮﺅﻭﺱ ﳝﺴ ﺢ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻌ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﺰﻧﻬ ﺎ‬

‫ﻭﻳﺤﻔﻆ ﺍ ﻷﺳﺮﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻷﺳﺮﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗﻌ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﺛ ﻨﲔ‪.‬‬

‫ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺟﺴﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﺎﺭ ﻭﻧﻬ ﺎﻳ ﺎﺗﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻬﻢ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻮ ﺓ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻮ ﺣﺸﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻤّﺪﺩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻇﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻫ ﺖ ﲡﻌﻞ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺧ ﺎﻃ ﺌ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﺢ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑﻲ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻣّﺮ ﻃ ﻴﻔﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻬ ﺎ؟ ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ ﻭﺗﺼﻮﺭﺗﻪ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺺ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻪ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻀ ﺎ ﺟﻌﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇّﻻ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺑﺪﺍ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻣﻐﺪﻭﺭًﺍ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺭ ﺣﻠ ﺖ؟ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺑﻠ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻭﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻗﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ؟‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺃﺷﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺆﳌ ﻨﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻈﻠﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﺗ ﻴﻪ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﻮﻟﺪ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﻜ ﺒﺮ‬
‫ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟ ﺘﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﻭﻟﻌ ًﺎ ﻣﻬﻮﻭﺳ ًﺎ ﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻭﻻ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ؟ ﺗﻜﻔ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻮ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟ ﺒ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻛﻮﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻓﺮ ﺣ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮﻳﺔ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻧ ﺘﺼ ﺎﺭﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺯﻏﺮﺩ‬
‫ﻄﻢ ﺃﺳﻮﺍﺭ ﺳﺠ ﻨﻪ ﻭﻳﻔﻠ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﻧﺤ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ ﻭﺗﺮﻛ ﺖ‬ ‫ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﺤ ﺒﻮﺳ ًﺎ ﻵﻻﻑ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﲔ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻄ ﺎﻉ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤ ّ‬
‫ﺴ ﺖ ﺟ ﺒﻬ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻟ ﺘﻤ ﻨ ﻴ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ‬ ‫ﻟﺸﻌﺮﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺴ ﻴﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﻟ ﺒﻜ ﻴ ﺖ ﻭﺍﻏﺮﻗ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺪﻧ ﻴ ﺎ ﺑﺪ ﻣﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﻐ ﺒﻄﺔ‪..‬ﻟﻮ ﻣ ّ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﻷﺭﻳﺪ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺧﻄﻮﻁ ﺍﻟﺴﻜﻚ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻬﻞ ﺗﻔﻬﻤﻮﻥ ﻣ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨ ﻴ ﺘﻪ؟ ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﻧﻔ ﺘﻘﺪ ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺸ ﺘﺮﻛﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣﺸ ﺘﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻟﺪﻳﻜﻢ ﲡ ﺎﻫﻲ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻬﻤﻮ ‍ﺍ ! ﻻ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻠﺔ‬
‫ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳ ﺄﻧ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﺭﺑﻄﺔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻨﻖ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﺤ ﺎﻓﻆ ﺍ ﳉﻠﺪﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺩﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺍﻻﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺮﺳﻮ ﻣﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺗﻘ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺍﺋ ﺢ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻄﺮﻳﺔ ﻭﺍﳌﺠ ﺎ ﻣﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻔ ﺘﻘﺪﻭﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ؟ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻜﻢ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻳﻜﻔ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ ﺍﻟﺰﺍﻫﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﻋﺮﺑﺪ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻭﺭﺩﺗﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﻯ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺤﺮًﺍ ﻳﻌ ﺎﻧﻖ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻑ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﻧﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﻲ ﺧ ﺎﻓ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻷﺷﺠ ﺎﺭ ﻏ ﺎﺑ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍﺷ ﺘ ﺒﻜ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ‬ ‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﺗﺼﻞ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﲢﻤﻠﻪ ﺭﻳ ﺢ ﺧﻔ ﻴﻔﺔ ﻟ ﺘﺤّﺮﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﻡ ﺷﻬﻮ ﺓ ﺍﻻﲢ ﺎﺩ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒ ﻴﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻐ ﻨ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺿﻮﺀ ﺃﺭﺍ ﻩ ﻳ ﻨﻄﻔﻰﺀ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺾ!‬
‫ﻭﺍ ﺟﻬﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻲ‪،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻬ ‍‬
‫ﺗﻌﻤﺪﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺭّﺩﺩﺕ ﺍﺳﻢ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﲢّﺪﺛ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﻟﻮ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺩ ﺧﻞ‪ ،‬ﻷﺭﻯ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻧﻬﺾ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺹ ﻳ ﺘﺤﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﺃّﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻤ ﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻓﺬ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻌﻄﻒ‬
‫ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻟ ﻴﺪ ﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋ ﻴﺴﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺮﻧ ﺎ ﻣ ﺞ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺭّﺗ ﺒﻪ‬
‫ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻛﻠ ﺖ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺛﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻈﻬﺮ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﺪﺍ ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻟ ﺒﻌﺾ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺰﻻﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺔ ﻟﺰﻳ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﻗﺪ ﺳﺮﻗﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺷﻌﻮﺭًﺍ ﻫ ﺎﺩﺋ ًﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺳ ﺘﺴﻼﻡ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑﺤ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺍ ﺣﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ُﺑﻌﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﻳﺨﻠﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺷﺠ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻧ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺪﻓﻌ ﻨﻲ ﻷﻥ‬
‫ﺃﺿﺮﺏ ﺣﺠ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺃﺗﺴﻠﻖ ﺷﺠﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻨﻮﺑﺮ‪ ،‬ﻷﻥ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺑ ﺒﻼﻫﺔ ﺻ ﺒ ﻴ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﺗ ﻨﻔ ﻴﺬ ﻭﺻ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻭﻫﻲ ﲢ ﺜ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺎﺿﻪ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﺭﻳ ﺎﺿﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﻔﺰ ﺍﻟﻌﺮﻳﺾ ‍!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ ﺳ ﺎﻓﺮﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﺘﻰ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻋ ﺎ ﻣﻞ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺃ ﺟ ﺎﺑ ﻨﻲ ﺑﺼﻼﺑﺔ ﻣﺤ ﺎﻳﺪ ﺓ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳ ﺄﻝ ﻋ ﻦ‬
‫ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺣﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﻋﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻳ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺪﻱ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎ ﻣﺴﺔ ﺻ ﺒ ﺎ ﺣ ‍ًﺎ!‬
‫ﺣﺰﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻣ ﺎﺿ ﻴ ًﺎ‬
‫)ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺐ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﺫﻛﺮﺕ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻟﻜﻢ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ(‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺗﻄﻠﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻵ ﺧﺬ ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘ ﺘﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻮﻟﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﻷﻗﺪﺍﻡ ﻣ ﺎﺩﺍ ﻣ ﺖ ﺍ ﳉﻮﻟﺔ ﺍﻻﺭﺳ ﺘﻘﺮﺍﻃ ﻴﺔ ﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﻨ ﺎ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ؟‬
‫ﻗﻔﺰﺕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺡ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺳﺮﻳﻌﺔ ﻣﻬ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟﺔ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻌﻘﻠﻪ ﺍﳌﻤﻠﻮﺀ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺑ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺘﺤﻔﻆ‪ .‬ﻓّﻜﺮ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺠ ﻴ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺯﺍﺀ ﻫ ﻴﺠ ﺎﻥ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺬﺭﻉ ﺑﺤﺠﺔ ﻋﺪﻡ ﻭ ﺟﻮﺩ ﺍ ﻷﻛﻞ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻭﻫﻲ‬
‫ﺗﻘ ﺒﻠﻪ ﻛﻮﺳ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺃ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻟ ﺘﻀﻐﻂ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺍ ﺣﻀﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻄﻌﻢ ﻏﺪﺀﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣ ﺲ ﻋﺪﺩًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺰﻻﺀ ﻳ ﺄ ﺧﺬﻭﻥ ﻏﺪﺍﺀﻫﻢ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮﺕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺍﻥ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ ﺗﻌﻮﺩﺕ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌﻘﻌﺪ‬ ‫ﻫّﺰ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ﻣﻮﺍﻓﻘ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﻗﺪ ﲡ ﺎﻭﺯﻧ ﺎ ﻗﻤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻞ‪ .‬ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﻳﻄﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺎﺑﺤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺧﻀﺮ ﺓ ﺩﺍﻛ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺟّﺪﺩ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺃﺑﺪﻭ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻧ ًﺎ ﻻ‬
‫ﻥ!‬
‫ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﻟﻪ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺰ ‍‬

‫ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠـﺔ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‬

‫ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘ ﺒﻪ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﺣﲔ ﻭﻗﻒ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﳌ ﻨﺼﺔ ﺍ ﳋﺸ ﺒ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺃﻗﺼﻰ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻄﻌ ﺎﻡ‪ .‬ﺻّﻔﻖ ﺑ ﻴﺪﻳﻪ ﻣﺮﺗﲔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺘﻮّﻗﻒ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﻴﻊ‬
‫ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻛﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻄّﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻪ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﺑﺸﻌﺮ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﺑ ﻴﺾ ﻛ ﺘﻤ ﺜ ﺎﻝ ﺷﻤﻌﻲ ﻟﻪ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﻭﺍﺳﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻓﺮﻙ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺎﺭﻛ ًﺎ‬
‫ﻟﻠﺼﻤ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺤﺪﺙ ﺗ ﺄﺛ ﻴﺮ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ﺗﻌّﻮﺩ ﻩ ﻟﻔﺮﻁ ﻣ ﺎ ﺭّﺩﺩ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻻﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪:‬‬
‫ﺣ ﺐ ﺑﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭ ﺟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺬﻛﺮﻭﺍ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻗﻀ ﻴ ﺘﻤﻮﻫ ﺎ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺗﻌﻮﺩﻭﺍ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﺃﺭ ﺟﻮ ﺍﻥ‬ ‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﺎﺳﻢ ﺍﻻﺩﺍﺭ ﺓ ﺃﺭ ّ‬
‫ﺗﺬﻛﺮﻭﺍ ﻷﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺋﻜﻢ ﻓ ﻴ ﺄﺗﻮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳ ﻴﺪﺍﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺎﺩﺗﻲ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺇﻗ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻜﻢ ‪ :‬ﻭﺇﺩﺍﺭ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﺇﺫ ﻳّﻌﺰ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺮ ﺣﻠﻮﺍ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌﻠ ﻦ ﻋ ﻦ‬
‫ﻣﻔ ﺎ ﺟ ﺄﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪،‬ﻟﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﺘﻜﻮﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﺫﻛﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﻧﻘ ﻴﻢ ﺣﻔﻠﺔ ﺗ ﻨّﻜﺮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﳝﻜ ﻨﻜﻢ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸ ﺘﺮﻭﺍ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﺃﻭ ﺃﻳﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﲢ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻘﺼﻒ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺗ ﺒﺪﺃ ﺍ ﳊﻔﻠﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﺮ!‬
‫ﺷﻜﺮًﺍ ﻭﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﻘ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻱ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺗﺮﺗﺪﻱ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ؟ ﻭﻫﻞ ﺳ ﺄﲤّﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﻌﺮﻓ ﺘﻬ ﺎ؟ ﻭﻫﻞ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ﺃﺭﻗﺺ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ؟ ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺟ ﺌ ﺖ ﻭﻟﻢ‬ ‫ﺃ ّ‬
‫ﺗ ﺄﺕ؟‬
‫ﺯﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻱ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻳ ﻨ ﺎﺳ ﺐ ﻓﺮ ﺣﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺋ ﺲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳ ﻴﻬﺮﺏ ﻏﺪًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ؟ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻏﺰﺍﻝ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﺍﻥ ﺷ ﺎﻛ ﻴ ﺘ ﺎﻥ ﻭﻭ ﺟﻪ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺐ ﻓﺰﻉ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﻤﻠ ﺖ ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﻧﻌ ﺎ ﻣﺔ؟ "ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺎﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻚ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻏﺮﻕ ﻓ ﻴﻬﻤ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﻓﺈّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺳ ﻴ ﺎﺝ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﺷﻮﺍﻙ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺃﻃ ﻴﻖ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﻳ ﺎ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻟ ﺜﻢ ﺷﻌﺮﻙ‪ .‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻧﺴﺪﻝ ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻲ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺤﺮﻗ ﻨﻲ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺃ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻙ ﺍﻟﺮﻃ ﺒﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻤﺔ ﻳﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﲡﺪﻳ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﺗﻔ ّﺘ ﺖ ﻭﺃﺫﻭﺏ‪ .‬ﻻ ﲢﺰﻧﻲ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﻼﺷ ﻴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏ ﺒ ﺎﺭ‬
‫ﺭﻗ ﻴﻖ ﻻ ﺗﺮﺍ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻌﲔ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺄﻛﻮﻥ ﺳﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺩﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻻ ﺧ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻷّﻧﻲ ﺃﺭﻓﺮﻑ ﺣﻮﻟﻚ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﻷﺑﺪ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻥ ﺃﻓﻀﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳ ﻨ ﺎﺳ ﺐ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺿ ﺎ ﺣﻚ ﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﺟﻌﻠﻚ ﺗﻔﺮ ﺣﲔ ﻭﻟﻮ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺯ ﻣ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻏﺪًﺍ‬ ‫"ﺇ ّ‬
‫ﻧﻔ ﺘﺮﻕ ﻳ ﺎ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻚ ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻧﻲ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﻌﺪﻳ ﻨ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻀﺤﻜﻲ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟ ﺒﺴ ﺖ‬
‫ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺳ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﻻ ﺗﻈﻬﺮ ﺇّﻻ ﺃﺳ ﻨ ﺎﻧﻪ ﺍﻟﻀ ﺎ ﺣﻜﺔ؟ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻀﺤﻜﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﺿﺤﻜﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻠﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺳ ﺘﻜﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﺤﻜﺔ ﻣﺼ ﺒ ﺎ ﺣ ًﺎ ﻳﻀﻲﺀ ﻃﺮﻗ ﺎﺗﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻀﻲﺀ ﺍﻟﺴﻮﺍﺩ ﺍ ﳊﺰﻳ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺑﺾ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻋﻤ ﺎﻗﻲ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑ ﺌﺮ ﻻ ﻗ ﺎﻉ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻗﻮﻟﻲ ﻟﻲ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻳ ﺎ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻩ ﻣ ﻨﻚ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﻓﺮﺡ ﻣﺴﺮﻭﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬﻰ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﻴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻗ ﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﻮﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﺃﻧﺪﻡ"‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺃﺳ ﺄﻝ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺃﻱ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺳ ﺘﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﲡ ﻨ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺿ ﻴﻊ ﻭﺃﺳﻘﻂ ﻓﻲ ﺑﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨﻮﻥ ؟ " ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻩ ﻣ ﻨﻚ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺒ ﺘﻌﺪﻱ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻟ ﻦ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻗ ﺘﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻫﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺳ ﺘﻌﺮﻓﲔ‬
‫ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﲔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﲤ ﺘﺼﲔ ﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﻋﺼ ﺎﺏ ﺛﻢ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺭ ﺧﻮ ﺓ ﻫﺸﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻘﻮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﳌﺸﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ‬
‫ﻋ ﺎﻝ ‪ :‬ﺇﺭ ﺣﻤ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻳ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﺳّﻤﻲ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻃﻠ ﺒﻪ ﺫّﻻ‪ ،‬ﺭ ﺟ ﺎُﺀ‪ ،‬ﻋﻮﻧ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗﻬّﻢ ﺍﻟﺼﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻩ‬
‫ﻭﺳ ﺘﻔﻌﻠﲔ!"‪.‬‬
‫ﻦ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑﺪّﻗﺔ ﺃﻱ‬ ‫ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻟ ﻦ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻋﺸﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻭﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﺳ ﻴﻜ ّ‬
‫ﻞ ﻣﺨﺪﻭﻋ ًﺎ ﺣ ﺎﺋﺮًﺍ ﻭ ﻣﻌﺬﺑ ًﺎ ؟ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻮ ﺍﻛ ﺘﺸﻔ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ؟‬ ‫ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺳ ﺘﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻇ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﻳﻄﻠ ﺐ ﺻﺪﻗﺔ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﻳ ﺘّﻜﺮﻡ ﻣﻮﻻﻱ ﻭﻳﻌﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻗﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃﻃﻠ ﺒﻬ ﺎ؟ ﺯﻭ ﺟ ﺘﻪ؟ ﺃﻱ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻪ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﻳﻮﺍﻓﻖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﻗﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ؟ ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻪ ﻳ ﺒﺪﻭ ﻛﺮﳝ ًﺎ‪ ..‬ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗ ﻨﻌﻪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺼﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮﺏ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻭﻇﻞ‬
‫ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺺ ﺍﻟﺸﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻏ ﺎﺩﺭﺕ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻪ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺻ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻘﺼﻒ‬
‫ﻭﺃﺭﻗ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺸ ﺘﺮﻳ ﺎﻥ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ ﻻ ﺗﻌﻄﻲ ﺳﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻣﻄﻮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺘﺸ ﺎﺑﻬﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺗ ﺘﻤﻄﻰ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮ ﻩ ﺑ ﺎﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺒﺬﺍﺀﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﻐﻤﻮﺿﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ! ﻟﻮ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﻭﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺖ ﻋ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﻫﻞ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺳ ﺘ ﻨ ﺘ ﺞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺎ ؟ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺨ ﺘّﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻮﺍﺭﻯ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨﺴﻰ‬
‫ﺻﻔ ﺎﺗﻪ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻛﻞ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﳝﻞ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ ﻭﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻠﻬ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﳝﻞ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻬ ﺎﺩﺋﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﺻ ﺎﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﻟﻘﺮﻭﺩ‬
‫ﺿ ﺎ ﺣﻜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻄ ﻴﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺤ ﺲ ﻭﺍ ﳊﻤ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﺻ ﻨﻌ ﺘﻢ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﻷﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﺃﻟﻢ ﺗﻔّﻜﺮﻭﺍ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺒﺆﺱ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺎﺋ ﻦ ﻭﺭﺍﺀ‬
‫ﺍﻻﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎﺕ ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺼ ﻨﻌﻮﺍ ﺃ ﺟﻤﻞ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻷﺭﻭﻉ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ؟ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺍ ﳋﺼ ﺐ ﻭﺍﻟﻌ ﻨﻔﻮﺍﻥ ! ﺃﻻ ﺗﺪﺭﻛﻮﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻘ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬
‫ﺳ ﺘﻠ ﺒﺴﻪ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺳ ﻴﻜﻮﻥ ﺷ ﺎﻫﺪًﺍ ﻟﻘ ﺒﺮ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﺗﻲ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﻩ ﻛﻞ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ؟ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﻳﻌﺮﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‬
‫ﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻜﻢ ﺇّﻳ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﺑﺬﺍﺀ ﺓ ﳑ ﺎ ﺗ ﺘﺼّﻮﺭﻭﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺗﻘﺮﺃﻭﻥ ﻟ ﻦ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﺍ ﻣﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺍ ﻷﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
‫ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺄﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻟﻐﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﻓ ﺎﺋﺪ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗﻮﻝ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺍ ﻵﻥ!‬
‫ﻼ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻟّﻢ ﺑ ﺘﻔ ﺎﺻ ﻴﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻜﻲ‬ ‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺎ ﻳ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎﻗﺸ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺤّﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﻣ ﻨﻈﺮﻫﻤ ﺎ ﺃﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳ ﺚ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻮﻳ ً‬
‫ﺃﻧ ﺘﺰﻋﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻘﻮ ﺓ ﻭﺃﺭﺍﻗﺼﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺇَﻟﻪ ﺇﻏﺮﻳﻘﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺣﺬﺍﺅﻫ ﺎ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﻭﻓ ﻴﻪ ﺣﻠﻘ ﺎﺕ ﺻﻔﺮﺍﺀ ﻣﻌﺪﻧ ﻴﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻜﻞ ﺩﻭﺍﺋﺮ‬
‫ﻣ ﺘﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻓﺴ ﺘ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﺮﺑ ﻴﻊ ‪ :‬ﺃ ﺧﻀﺮ ﻫ ﺎﺩﺋ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺮﻭﻕ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺑﲔ ﺍ ﻷﺳﻮﺩ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒ ﻨﻔﺴﺠﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‬
‫ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﻩ ؟ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ‪ :‬ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺤ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺭﺍﺋﺤ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺧﻔﻘﺔ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺿ ﺎﺋﻌﺔ ﺑﲔ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻔﻬ ﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺐ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺃﺷﺠﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﺆﺍ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻱ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺗﻀﻌﲔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ؟‬
‫ﺴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﲡ ﻴ ﺐ ﺗ ﺎﺑﻌ ﺖ ﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﺳ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻲ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺒ ﺘﺴﻢ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬ ‫ﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻧ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻚ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻭﻟﻮ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻗﺮ ‍ﺩ‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻪ ﻳ ﺘﺤّﺪﻯ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻋﺮﻓ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻓ ﺘ ﺢ ﻟﻚ ﺯ ﺟ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﺷﻤ ﺒ ﺎﻧ ﻴ ‍ﺎ‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺧﺴﺮﺕ؟‬
‫ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺘﻪ ﺑ ﺘﺤّﺪ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣﺮﺽ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻳﺨﺴﺮ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺤﺪﻳﺔ‪:‬‬
‫ﻞ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻚ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺮﺍﻗﺼﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴ ‍‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻈﻔﺮ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﻏ ﺎﺩﺭﺕ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺷﻚ ‍!‬
‫ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻟﺔ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎﺋﻂ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻘﺼﻒ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻳﺴ ﺎﺭﻱ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻧﻲ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺧﺮﺕ؟ ﺃﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻗﺸﻪ ﺣﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻘ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ‬ ‫ﺷﻲﺀ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺛ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻫ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻡ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪ .‬ﻣّﺮ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣﻲ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻭﻥ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺕ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗ ﺄ ّ‬
‫ﺧﺮﺍ؟‬‫ﺳ ﺘﺨ ﺘ ﺎﺭ ﻩ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻗّﺮﺭﺍ ﺃّﻻ ﻳﺸ ﺘﺮﻛ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﳊﻔﻠﺔ ؟ ﻭﺇّﻻ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗ ﺄ ّ‬
‫ﺣﲔ ﺃﻃﻠ ﺖ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴﻮﻧ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﻻ ﻳﺮﺍﻫ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﺮﺍﻫ ﺎ ﺇّﻻ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﺩ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺮﻕ‬
‫ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﻨﻔﺮﺝ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺣﲔ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﺿ ﺎﺀﺕ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻀﻲﺀ ﻓﻘﻂ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺑﺨﻔﻘ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻟﻪ‬
‫ﻲ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﳌ ﺎ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻣﻮﺍﺯﻳﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
 ‫ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺩ ﻣﻲ ﻳﻬ ﺘﺰ ﻓﻲ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻳﺨﻔﻖ‪ ،‬ﻳﻌﺮﺑﺪ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻮﻑ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻼﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻤ ﻨﻰ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺓ؟‬
‫ﺗﻮّﻗﻒ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺑ ﺎﺋﻊ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﻭﺍﺷ ﺘﺮﻯ ﻋﻠ ﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﺇّﻧﻪ ﻳ ﺘ ﻨّﻜﺮ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺧﺮﺝ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﻠ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﲟﺮﺡ ﻃﻔﻮﻟﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﺳ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻳﺨ ﺎﻃ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻘﻒ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ ﻟﻮ ﺣﺔ ﺍ ﻷﺯﻳ ﺎﺀ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﺷ ﺘﺮﻱ ﻟﻚ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ؟‬
‫ﻭﺗ ﺎﺑﻊ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮ ﺇ ﺟ ﺎﺑ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗﻀﻢ ﺭﺃﺱ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﻭﺑﺼﻖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻀﻊ ﻳﻀﻊ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﺠ ﺎﺭ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻪ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﻠﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﻥ!‬
‫ﻭﻭﺿﻊ ﻳﺪ ﻩ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺨﺮ ﺟ ﺎ ‍‬

‫ﻳﺪ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺭ ﻣ ﺎﻧﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘﻒ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﲢ ﺖ ﺭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻳ ﺘﻠّﻤ ﺲ ﳊﻤﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺷﺪ ﺳﻌ ﺎﺩﺗﻪ!‬
‫ﺞ ﲢ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻳﻪ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﺭﺽ‬ ‫ﻥ ﺳﻌ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﻻ ﻳﺤ ﺘﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺇﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ! ﺃّﻻ ﳝﻮﺕ ﻣ ﻦ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻻﻓ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻠﺠﻮﺝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻀ ّ‬ ‫ﺇ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻝ ﺍﳌ ﺘﺤﺮﻛﺔ؟ ﺁ ﻩ ﻟ ﻴ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﻗﻮ ﺓ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺽ ﺣﻜ ﻴﻤﺔ ﺑ ﺎﳌﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﺍﻟﻀﺮﻭﺭﻱ ﺗ ﻨﺼ ﺐ ﺍﳌﺸ ﺎﻧﻖ‪ ..‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸ ﻨﻖ‪،‬‬
‫ﺴ ﺖ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺀﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﳊﻤﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻘﻠ ﺖ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺩﻭﻱ ﺍﻟﺮﻋﺪ ‪)) :‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎ‬ ‫ﻟﻮ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﺭﺍ ﺣﺔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻣ ّ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﻘﻒ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇﺭﻓﻊ ﻛﺮﺳ ﻴﻚ ﺍﳌﺸﺆﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻴ ﻨ ﺘﻪ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ!((‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻓﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻋ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺕ ﻣ ﺎ ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﺀ ﻭﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍ ﳊﻔﻠﺔ ؟ ﺛﻘﻮﺍ ﻟﻮ ﺃّﻧﻲ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻟﻮﻗﻮﻑ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ‬
‫ﻗ ﺲ ﻛ ﺎﺛﻮﻟ ﻴﻜﻲ ﺟ ﺎﺩ ﻭﺃﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ ﻟﻪ ﺑﺼﺪﻕ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻄﻌ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺟﻤﻠﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺳ ﻴ ﻨﻈﺮ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺎﺭﻏ ﺘﲔ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺬﻫﻮﻟ ﺘﲔ ﻭﻳﺮﺗﻌ ﺶ! ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻌﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺼﻒ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺭﲤ ﻴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻧ ﺘ ﺒﻪ‬
‫ﺇّﻻ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺷﺮ ﺓ ﺑﺴ ﺒﻊ ﺩﻗ ﺎﺋﻖ!‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﻧﺰﻟ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺃﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺍ ﻵﻻﺕ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﺗﻌﺮﺑﺪ ﺑﺪﻭﻱ ﻣﺨ ﻨﻮﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻄ ﺒﻮﻝ ﻋ ﺎﺭﻳﺔ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄﻟﻘﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﻨﺤ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺰﻫﻮ‬
‫ﻭﻛ ّﺄﻥ ﳌﻌ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻳﻐ ّﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ‪ ..‬ﺁ ﻩ ﻛﻢ ﻳ ﺘﻌّﺬﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻞ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺸﻮﻫﻮﺍ ! ﺃﻗ ﻨﻌﺔ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻭﺩ ﺍﻟﻀ ﺎ ﺣﻜﺔ ﺳ ﻴﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻭﺩ‬
‫ﺗﻘ ﺘﺤﻢ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﻋﺔ ﲤﻸﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟ ﺘﺠﻌﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺟ ﺒﻼﻳﺔ ﺣﺼ ﻴ ﻨﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ! ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺟﺪ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻐﺰﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺣﻠﻤ ﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻟﻈﻬﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺷ ﺘﺮﻳ ﺖ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻋ ًﺎ ﻫ ﺎﺯﺋ ًﺎ ‪ :‬ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺑ ﻨﺼﻒ ﺷ ﺎﺭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻭ ﺟﻪ ﻣﻘﺴﻮﻡ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻮﺳﻂ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻋﺮﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻷﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ ﻭﺍ ﻷﺳﻔﻞ‬
‫ﺑﻠﻮﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺫﳒ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﻭﺳﻂ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﻥ ﺍ ﻷﺻﻔﺮ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﲔ ﺧﺪﻭﺵ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﻀﻌﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻬ ﻨﻮﺩ ﺍ ﳊﻤﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺴ ﺘﻐﺮﺑﻮﺍ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺃﺿﻔ ﺖ ﻟﻠﻘ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﺃﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﻣ ﻦ ﻋ ﻨﺪﻱ ‪ :‬ﺛﻘ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻢ ﺍ ﻷﺳﻔﻞ ﻭﺭﺑﻄ ﺖ ﻣﺠﻤﻮﻋﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋ ﻴﻮﻁ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻜﻞ‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺒﺔ‬ ‫ﳊ ﻴﺔ ﻣﺴ ﺘﺮﺳﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﻴﻮﻁ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﻏﻠ ﻴﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺟﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺃﻟﻮﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻓﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺫﻟﻚ ؟ ﻣ ﺎﻟﺬﻱ ﺃﻭ ﺣﻰ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺠﺔ؟ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ!‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﻬ ﺎﺩﻯ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻓ ﺎﺭﺱ ﻣﻬﺰﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮ ﻩ ﺑ ﺘﺤّﺪ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﻗﺮﺏ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻔﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ‬ ‫ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺨ ّﻴ ﺐ ﻇ ّﻨﻲ ﺃﺑﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻋﺮﻓ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻋ ﻨﻘﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺸﺮﺋ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﺶ ﻋ ﻨ ّ‬
‫ﺟ ﺎﻧ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻗﺪ ﲢّﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻗ ﺲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﻳﺮﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻠ ﺖ ﻣ ﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﻋﺮﻓ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺍﺳ ﺘﺪﺍﺭ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ّﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺁّﻧﻲ ﺃ ﺣﺪﻕ ﻓ ﻴﻪ‪ّ .‬ﳌ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘﺪﺍﺭ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ :‬ﻗﻄﻌ ﺖ ﻧﺼﻒ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺎﻓﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﺳﻘﻂ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﻔ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺃّﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﻭﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ؟ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ؟ ﺑﺤ ﺜ ﺖ ﻃﻮﻳ ً‬
‫ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻋﻪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻜﻞ ﻣ ﺘﺴّﻮﻝ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻟﻪ ﺃﺳ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻪ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺣﻮﻟﻪ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻒ ﻣﻌ ﺒﻮﺩﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ‪" .‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ؟"‬
‫ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻠﻼﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺸﻌﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺒﺆﺱ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﳑ ﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻔ ﺘ ﺶ ﻋ ﻦ ﺇﺑﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺶ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﻘﻒ‪ ،‬ﺑﺤ ﺜ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺃﻧ ﺘ ﺒﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﺪﻭﻱ!‬
‫ﺍ ﺧ ﺘﻠﻂ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻻﻟ ﺘﺼ ﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻲ‪ .‬ﺍ ﳋﻄﻮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟ ﻴﺔ ﻳ ﺘﺤّﻮﻝ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﻴﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻠﺔ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻃﺮﺍﻑ‪ .‬ﺣ ﺎﻟﺔ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺘﺪﺍ ﺧﻞ‪ ،‬ﺭﺻ ﺎﺹ ﻣﺼﻬﻮﺭ ﻻ ﻳﻠ ﺒ ﺚ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﺳ ﺒ ﻴﻜﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﻳﻘﺴﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺳﻮﻯ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﺍ ﻷﺭﻋ ﻦ ﻟﻠﻤﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺛﻢ ﺗﻌﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻻﻟ ﺘﺼ ﺎﻕ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺩﺍﺳﻮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﲡﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﺩﻓﻌﻮﻧﻲ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺗﻘﺪ ﻣ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﻷﺳﻘﻂ ﳌ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﲡ ﻨ ﺐ ﻫﺬﺍ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻼﻕ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ ﻗ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻃﻔﻞ!‬
‫ﻄﻲ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻗﺪ ﻣ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺣﲔ ﺩ ﺧﻠ ﺖ ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ ‪ ,‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺑﺤ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺪّﻟ ﻨﻲ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺑ ﺜﻮﺏ ﺃﺳﻮﺩ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ ﻳﻐ ّ‬
‫ﺳ ﺎﻋﺪﺍﻫ ﺎ ﻣﻜﺸﻮﻓ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻠﻤﻌ ﺎﻥ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑﺮﻭﻕ ﻣ ﺘﻮﻫﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﺷﻌﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳ ﺘﺴ ﺎﻗﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻬ ﺎ ﺃﺷ ﺒﻪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺑﻌ ﺎﺻﻔﺔ ﺛﻠﺠ ﻴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻪ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻪ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺇﻟﻪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﻫﻮ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻘ ﻨ ﺎﻉ ﻹ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‬
‫ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺳ ﻦ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﺠ ﺎﻋ ﻴﺪ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﺮﻳﺸﺔ ﻣ ﺘﻮﺳﻄﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺴ ﻴﺮ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻋ ﻨ ﺎﺀ‪،‬‬
 ‫ﻭ ﺧﺼﻼﺕ ﺷﻌﺮ ﺗﺸّﻜﻞ ﺑﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﲔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣﺴﻤﺮًﺍ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻈﺮ‪ .‬ﺟﻔﻠ ﺖ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺧ ﺎﺋﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺮ ﺟﻊ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮﻻ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺪ ﻩ‬ ‫ﻭﻗﻔ ﺎ ﻃﻮﻳ ً‬
‫ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺕ ﺗﻄﻮﻗﻬ ﺎ ﻭﲤ ﻨﻌﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺗﺴّﻠﻠ ﺖ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﺮﻗﺺ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﲡﻮﺑ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺒﺤ ﺚ‬
‫ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗ ﺒﺤ ﺚ ﻋ ﻨﻪ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﺪﻓﻌ ﺖ ﺃﺭﺍﻗﺺ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﺪﻭﺭ ﺣﻮﻟﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﺴﻠﻠ ﺖ ﺧﻄﻮ ﺓ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﻨﻘﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﺩﺕ ﺗﻘﻊ ﻟﻔﺮﻁ ﻣ ﺎﺩﻓﻌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﲡ ﺎ ﻩ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺍﻗ ﺘﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﺑ ﺄﺻ ﺒﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺑﺨ ﻴﻮﻁ ﳊ ﻴ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺇّﻧﻲ‬
‫ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺍﳌﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻄﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻫ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺟﺴﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺍﺭﺗﻌ ﺶ ﺣﲔ ﻋﺮﻓ ﺘ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﺧﻄﻮ ﺓ ﺣ ﺘﻰ‬
‫ﻻ ﻣ ﺲ ﻇﻬﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺫﻭﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻭﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺗﺸﺪﻧﻲ ﺟﻌﻠ ﺖ ﻋﻈ ﺎ ﻣﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺼﻠ ﺐ ﻭﺗ ﺘﻤ ﺎﺳﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺄﺳ ﺎﻗﻔ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻗﺴﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺑﺸّﻤ ﺎﺳ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺑ ﺄﻧﻔ ﺎﺱ ﻣ ﺘﻘﻄﻌﺔ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻊ ﺭ ﺣﻠ ﺘﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻧﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣﻬ ً‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘﺮﻳﺤﻮﺍ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ ﺳ ﺄﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻜﻢ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻐﻀ ﺒﻮﺍ ﺇﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﲡﺪﻭﺍ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﺗّﺬﻛﺮ ﺑﺤ ﻨﲔ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻊ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺃﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﻌﻈ ﺎﻡ ﺍﳌﻌﺮﻭﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﺰﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃّﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻠ ﺒﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃّﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻬ ﺎﺋﺠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎﺻﻮﺍﻋﻖ ﲢﺮﻕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺮﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺎ ﺃّﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻴﻀ ﺎﻧ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻌﻤ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﲢﺮﻛﻲ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺮﻗﻲ‬
‫ﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍ ﳉﺴﺪ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻓﺮﺡ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻳ ﺒ ﺎﻟﻲ ﺑﺸﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ!‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻏﺮﻗﻲ ﻛﻞ ﺧﻠ ﻴﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻷ ّ‬
‫ﺳﺤ ﺒ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺧﻠﺼﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﻴ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎﻋﻖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳﺮﻯ ﻓﻲ ﺟﺴﺪﻱ ﻛﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﳌ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ‬
‫ﻲ ﻭﺃﻏﺮﻗ ﺘ ﻨﻲ!‬‫ﺍﻟﺬﻫﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺪﺍﻫ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺘ ﺎ ﺭﻗ ﻴﻘ ﺘﲔ ﻛ ﻨﺪﺍﺀ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺰﻟﻘ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺃّﻳﺔ ﺣ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺴ ﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻻ ﺣ ﺘﻈ ﺎﺭ ؟ ﺃﻱ ﺭﻋ ﺐ ﺃﺷّﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﳊﻈﺔ ﺍﳌﻮﺕ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻄﻲﺀ؟ ﻛﺪﺕ‬
‫ﺃﻫﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﺻﺮﺥ‪ ،‬ﺃّﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﻬﻔﺔ ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ؟‬
‫ﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ )ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤﻮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺣﻘﻜﻢ ﺫﻟﻚ ( ﺣﺮ ﻣ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺍﻫﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣﻠﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﻳﻬﻤ ﻨﻲ ﻣ ﺎﺩ ﻣ ﺖ ﺳﻠﻜ ﺖ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﺍ ﳉﻠﺠﻠﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺳ ﺎﻗﻔﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺴ ﺎ ﻣﺤﻮﺍ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻷّﻧﻲ ﻣﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﻣﺠﻮﺳﻲ ﻳﺤ ﺘﺮﻕ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ ﻛﻞ ﺛ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﻣﻮﺕ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮﺗ ًﺎ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻛّﻔﻮﺍ ﺃﺫﺍﻛﻢ ﻋ ّﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺇّﻻ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳﺠﺪﺭ ﺑﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺬّﻛﺮ‪ .‬ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴ ﺘﺮ ﺟﻊ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺧﻮﻓﻪ ﻭﺑﺴ ﺎﻟ ﺘﻪ ﻭﻟﺬﺗﻪ ﻭﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺸ ﺎﻋﺮ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧﺮﻯ ؟‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺴ ﺘﺮ ﺟﻌﻬ ﺎ ﺑﺸﻤﻮ ﺧﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻗﻮﻯ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺼﺨﺮ ﻭﺍ ﻷ ﺣﺪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻮﺍﺱ؟ ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺴ ﺘﺮ ﺟﻌﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻠ ﻴﻮﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺋ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﻨﺰﻟﻘﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﺍ ﺣﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺪ !ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ‪ ..‬ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ‬
‫ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻌﻮﻥ ؟ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟﻮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﻔﺮ ﺣﺔ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﻣﻌ ﺘﻮ ﻩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺗﺼﺪﻗﻮﻥ ﺃﻥ ﻋﺪﺩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻗﻠ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺰﺩ ﻋ ﻦ ﻋﺸﺮ ؟‬
‫ﻭﻫﻞ ﺗ ﺘﺼﻮﺭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻛ ﺎﺋ ﻨﲔ ﺑﺸﺮﻳﲔ ﻳ ﺘﺤﻮﻻﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻃﻔﻠﲔ ﻭﻫﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺮّﺩﺩﺍﻥ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺐ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻣﻌ ﺘﻮﻫﺔ؟‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺭﺩﺩﺕ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌ ّﺒﺮ ﻋ ﻦ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔ ﺎ ﺟﻌﺔ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ؟ ﻫ ّﻴ ﺎ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻔﻀﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺩﻳﻮﻙ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ‍ًﺎ )ﺍﻟﻠﻐﺔ ﺫﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻣ ﺘﺨ ﺎﺫﻟﺔ ﻭﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﻋ ﻨﻘﻮﺩًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻨ ﺐ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺠﺮﻭﺩ ( ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻧ ﺢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻔ ﺘﻲ ﺑ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑﻠﻬ ﺎﺀ ﻭﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﻟﻐﺔ ﺍﳌﻬ ﺎﻧﲔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺍ ﻷﺻﻮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺋﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻛ ﻦ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ‪" :‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ" ﻷﺭّﺩﺩ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻘﻂ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣّﻮﻝ ﻛﻞ ﺣﺮﻑ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﺸ ﻴﺪ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﻤﻞ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻪ ﻃ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﻠﻢ ﺑﻪ‬
‫ﻲ ﺃﺷﻌﺔ ﺩﺍ ﻣ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺴ ﻴﻞ ﺑﺂﻻﻑ‬ ‫ﺤ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻠﻔﻈﻪ ﺷ ﺎﻋﺮ )ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺩﺍﻓ ﺌﺔ ﺍ ﻵﻥ( ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺣﺮﻭﻑ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺨ ّ‬ ‫ﺑ ّ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋ ﻴ ﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﳌﺪ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌﺸﺤﻮﻧﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻋﺮﺑ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻞ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺘﺤ ﻴ ‍‬
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‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻚ ﻳ ﺎﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺍّﻧﻲ ﺃﻃ ﻴﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃﲢّﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏ ﻴﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺳ ﺒ ﺢ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻜ ﺎﻥ ﻓﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﺃﺯﺭﻕ ﻻ ﻣﻊ‪ .‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻘﺪﺍﺳﺔ ﺍ ﻷﻧ ﺒ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﻳ ﺎﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺩ ﻣﻮﻋﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴﻘﻂ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺷّﺪﺕ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺑ ﺘﺼﺮﻉ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻗﺮﺑ ﺖ ﺧﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻲ ؟‬
‫ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌﻬ ﺘﻮﻙ ﺍﻟﻘﻠ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻐ ﺎﺭﻕ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺣﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﻤ ﻴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻟﻐﺔ ﺍ ﳉ ﻨ ﺎﺩﺏ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻓﻘﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﺓ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﻴﺮﺍﻥ‪،‬‬
‫ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺘ ‍ﺔ!‬
‫ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ ﻭﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻗ ﺒﺮ ﻣﺠﻬﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﺍﺗﺮﻛﻮﺍ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﺳﻒ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﺑﺸﺠ ﺎﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺷ ّﻴﻌ ﺖ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﺩﻓ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻘ ﺒﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌﺠﻮﺳﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺰﺍﻝ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ‪ ،‬ﻳﺤ ﺘﺮﻕ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺄﺑﻰ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃ ﻣﻠﻜﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺘﺔ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻧﺴ ﺎﻙ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﺍ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺩﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻣﺠﻮﺳ ﻴ ًﺎ ‪ :‬ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺷ ﺘﻌﻠ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻲ ﻳﻮ ﻣ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻦ ﺗ ﻨﻄﻔﻰﺀ‪.‬‬
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‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺩﺳﺔ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺛﻼﺙ ﺳ ﻴ ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ﺑ ﺎﺹ ﺗﻘﻒ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺍﳌﺪ ﺧﻞ ﺍﻟﺮﺋ ﻴﺴﻲ ﻟﻠﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺭ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻘﻮ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺒﻬﻤﺔ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀ ﺎﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺮﺗ ﺐ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﺭّﺗ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻳﻀ ًﺎ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻤﺮﺍﺭ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﺄ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺑُﻮﻟﻪ ﻛ ﺎﻓﺮ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﻠ ﻦ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﺠ ﺎ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‬ ‫ﺭﻛ ﺒ ﺖ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒﺔ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻠﻮﻳﺤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﻴﺪ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍ ﻣ ﺘﺪﺕ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺒ ﺎﻙ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻧﺪﺍﺀ ﺣﺰﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﻟﻄ ﺎﺋﺮ‬
‫ﻗّﺮﺭ ﺍﻥ ﳝﻮﺕ ﺳﺮﻳﻌ ًﺎ‪.‬‬

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‫ﺑ ﺎﻗﻪ ﺯﻫﻮﺭ ﺣﻤﺮﺍﺀ ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺻ ﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﻪ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻋ ﺘﺬﺍﺭ ﻋ ﻦ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌﻪ ﻣ ﺎ ‪ ,‬ﺍﺭﺗﻜ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺳﻔﺮﻱ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺭﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﲔ ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﻫﺮﻭﺑﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ ﺑﲔ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻀ ﻨ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻗﻞ ﺩﻓ ﺌ ﺎ ﳑ ﺎ ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺕ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﺑﻌﺪﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ‪ ,‬ﺍﻋﺪﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ ‪ ,‬ﻭﺍ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺖ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺪﻳﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘﻔﲔ ‪ ,‬ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻟ ﺘﻔﻠ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺪﻱ‬ ‫ﺍﺭﲡﻔ ﺖ ﺷﻔ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺴﻔﻠﻰ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﺩ ﺓ ‪ ,‬ﺗﻄﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺣﻮﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﻨﻔ ﺘ ﺶ ﻋ ﻦ ﻃﺮﻳﻖ ﻟﻠﺪﻓ ﺎﻉ‪ .‬ﲢﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻗﻠ ﻴ ً‬
‫ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺑﻬﺠﻮ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻐ ﻴﺮﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ‪ ,‬ﻫﻞ ﺍﻧ ﺖ ﻣﺮﻳﺾ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺐ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻳ ﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﻧ ﻨﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﻪ ﺑ ﻴ ﺄﺱ ‪ ,‬ﻭﺍﻻ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻜ ﺘﺴﺤ ﻨﻲ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻭﻛ ﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌﻪ ﺍﻛ ﺒﺮ‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﺧ ﻄ ﻴ ﺌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ؟‬
‫ﻫﺰﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ﻭﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟﺸﺤﻮﺏ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻚ ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﺩﻟ ﻴﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻌ ﺐ ‪ ,‬ﻳ ﺒﺪﻭ ﺍﻧﻚ ﻣﺮﻳﺾ ‪ ,‬ﺍﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻣﺮﻳﻀ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﻭﺑ ﺄﺳﻠﻮﺏ ﺍﳌﻤﺮﺿ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻨ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺗﻲ ﻳﻘﻤﻌ ﻦ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﺿﻤ ﻦ ﺷﻌﻮﺭ ﺍﻟﻮﺍ ﺟ ﺐ ﻭﺍﻻ ﻣﻬ ﺎﺕ‪ ,‬ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﺭﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺟ ﺒ ﻴ ﻨﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳ ﺄﻟﻬ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻓﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺍﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﺳﻔﺮﻱ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻓﻌﻞ ؟ ﺍ ﳊ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺫﻫ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ ‪ ,‬ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴ ﻨﻤ ﺎ ﻣﺮﺗﲔ ‪ ,‬ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻧ ﺘﻈﺮﺕ ﳊﻈ ﺎﺕ ﺛﻢ ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺑ ﻨ ﺒﺮ ﻩ ﻣﺴ ﺘﺴﻠﻤﻪ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﻈﻤ ﺖ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺪﺗﲔ ‪ ,‬ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﻩ ﻟﻚ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻤﻞ ﻋ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺗﻬ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﻩ ﻟﻪ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻦ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻪ‪ ,‬ﺍﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﲔ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺍﻋ ﻨﻲ؟‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻪ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ‪ ,‬ﻻﺗﺮﻳﺪﻧﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺭﻯ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺳ ﺄﻟﻚ ‪ ,‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻓﻌﻠ ﺖ ﺍﻧ ﺖ ‪ ,‬ﲢ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ﲢ ﺎﺻﺮﻧﻲ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻﺗﻐﻀ ﺒﻲ ‪ ,‬ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻟﻌﺪﺍﻟﻪ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﻌ ﺘﻤﺪﻳ ﻦ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺼﺮﻑ ‪ ,‬ﻓﻤ ﺎ ﺩ ﻣ ﺖ ﻧﻈﻤ ﺖ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻟﻲ ‪ ,‬ﻓ ﺎﻟﻌﺪﻝ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﻟﻪ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺍﻗﺮﺃ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻻﺛ ﻨﲔ ‪ ,‬ﻭﺳ ﺘﺮﻯ ﺑ ﻨﻔﺴﻚ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﻪ ‪ ,‬ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻱ ﺷﻲ ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤﺮ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺩﺍﻡ ﺍﻻ ﻣﺮ ﻛﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺍ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ ‪ ,‬ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻟﻠﺠ ﺒﻞ ﻭﺍﻻ ﺧﺮﻯ ﻟﻠ ﺒﺤﺮ‪.‬‬
‫‪-‬ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ ﲢ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ!‬
 ‫‪ -‬ﺍﻓ ﺘﻘﺪﺗﻚ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺒﻄ ﻴﺨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺣﻤﻠ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﲢﻄﻤ ﺖ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺑ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ ﲤ ﺎ ﻣ ًﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺳ ّﺒ ﺒ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺣﺮ ﺟ ًﺎ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻃ ﺒﻌ ًﺎ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ .‬ﺗﺼّﻮﺭﻱ ﲢﻄﻤ ﺖ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺑ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻨﺪﻕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑ ﻨﻘﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ..‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻗ ﺘﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﳌﺸﻮﺍﺭ‬
‫ﻀﻠ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﺤﺮ!‬‫ﻓ ّ‬
‫ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻏﺮﻓ ﺘﻲ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﻳﺴﻘﻂ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻋﻠﻰ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﻞ ﺍﻏﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻥ ﻓﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ ﺑﺪﺕ ﻟﻲ‬
‫ﻣ ﻨﻔﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﲤ ّﻨ ﻴ ﺖ ﻟﻮ ﺍﻥ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺗ ﺘﻼﺷﻠﻰ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼﺪﺭ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳉﺪﺍﺭ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﻀﻮﺀ ﺍﳌ ﻨﺴ ﺐ ﺑﺨﻀﺮ ﺓ ﻻ ﻣﻌﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻟﺼﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺙ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺷﻬﺪﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺒﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻄﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺷﻬﺪﺗ ﻨﻲ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﻒ ﺭﺃﺱ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻀﻮﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃ ﺍﳌﺠﻠﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﻀﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻧﻜ ّﺒ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺗﺰ ﺣﻒ‪ ،‬ﲡﻮﺱ ﻇﻬﺮﻫ ﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﺻﺪﺭﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺗﺮﻓﺾ‪ ،‬ﺗﻬﺮﺏ ﺑﺠﺴﻤﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﺛ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ّ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺃﻫﻮﻱ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻓ ﺘﻌﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﺳ ﺘﺴﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺣﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻛﺤﻤ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌ ﺒﻖ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺑﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﻣ ﺎ‪ّ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗﻌ ﺒﻖ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻠﻬ ﺎﺙ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﺰﻓﺮﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺼﺮ ﺧ ﺎﺕ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺧ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻧﺮﲤﻲ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻳﺪﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻌ ﺒﺔ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺟﺴﺮ ﻟ ﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻬ ﺎﺭﺑﺔ!‬
‫ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺷﺮﻳﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﺳ ﺘﻄ ﺎﻟ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺍ ﳉﺴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﳌﺪﻓ ﺄ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺍﳌﻘ ﺎﺑﻠﺔ ﻟﻠﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﻛ ّﺄﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻣﺪﺛﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻞ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺎﻧ ﺐ ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮ ﻳﻮﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻤ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺠ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ﻭﻗﺪ ﻭﺿﻌ ﺖ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻗﻤ ﺎﺷﺔ ﻃﻮﻳﻠﺔ ﺗﻮﺻﻞ ﻣ ﺎﺑﲔ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻼﺕ ﺗﻘﻔﺰ ﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﻟ ﺘﻮ ﺣﻲ ﺇّﻟﻲ ﺑﺠﺴﺪ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﳌﻀ ﺎ ﺟﻌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺮﺃﺕ ﻟﻲ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤﺮ ﺃﻭًﻻ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻋ ﻦ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻋ ﺎﺩﻳﺔ ﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺖ ﺣ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻭﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﻣ ﺎﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻮﺻﻒ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﺭ ﺟﻲ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳﺤ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺫﺭﺍﻋﻬ ﺎ‪:‬‬
‫ﻗﺼ ﻴﺪﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗﺮﺃﻫ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻋ ﺎﺭ!‬
‫ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣ ّﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﳌ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ّﺘ ﺒﻌﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻓ ﺘﺤ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﲢّﺮﻛ ﺖ ﺧﻄﻮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻫﺮﺑ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﺘﻜﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﺒﺔ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺣ ﺎﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﻓﻚ ﺃﺯﺭﺍﺭ ﻗﻤ ﻴﺼﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﻏﻠﻘ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﺼﻘ ﺖ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎ ﳉﺪﺍﺭ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻊ ﺣﺮﻛ ﺎﺗﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﺭﻭﺳﺔ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺑ ﺎﻗﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳ ﺚ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪﻧﻲ ﺍﻥ ﻻ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌﻮﺩ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺍ ﻵﻥ؟‬
‫ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻉ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻚ ﺍﺫﻥ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺷﻌﺮ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊﺮﺍﺭ ﺓ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﻼﺑ ﺲ ﺗﻀ ﺎﻳﻘ ﻨﻲ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻫﻞ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﺷﺮﻑ ﺑ ﺄﻻ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﺧ ﺘ ﺒﺮﻳ ﻨﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺷﺮﻑ!ﺩ‪-‬ﻻ ‪ :‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌﻄ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻌ ﺎﻟﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺄّﻛﺪﻱ ﺑ ﻨﻔﺴﻚ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻻ ﳒﻠ ﺲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺃﻧ ﺎﺱ ﻋﻘﻼﺀ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌ ﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻃ ﻴﻖ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻈ ﺎﺭ!!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻫﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻓ ﻨﻲ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑﺨﻔﺔ ﻗﻂ ﺭﻛﻀ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﻭﺃﻏﻠﻘ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﻮ ﺟ ﺌ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟﺮﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻓ ﺲ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﺗﺴ ﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‬
‫ﺑ ﺨ ﺒ ﺚ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﻗﻠ ﻴﻞ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣﺮﻳﻀ ًﺎ!‬
‫ﻭﻏ ّﻴﺮﺕ ﻧ ﺒﺮ ﺓ ﺻﻮﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺒﺪﺕ ﻫ ﺎﺩﺋﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻜﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﻞ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﻩ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻌﺮﻓﲔ ﺟ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﻋ ﺎﻟﻢ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ ﻟﻪ ﻏﻀ ﺒ ﺖ ! ﻫﻞ ﻳﻌ ﺎ ﻣﻠﻚ ﺑ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ؟‪.‬‬
‫ﻏﻀ ﺒ ﺖ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺑﺪﺕ‪ .‬ﺗﻘّﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﺑﺨﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﻗﻮﻳﺔ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﻭ ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺻّﻤﻤ ﺖ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻘ ﺎﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺕ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﺍﺛ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺑﻮ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺼﻠ ﺐ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﺗﺼّﻮﺭﺕ ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺳ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻧﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻗﻠ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺟﺮ ﺣ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﲤّﺪﺩﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻜﺮﺳﻲ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻭﺍﻓﻖ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﺮﺋﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺼ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺍﺛ ﺎﺭ ﺓ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺄﺭﺩ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻋﻤﻠ ﻴﺔ!‬
 ‫ﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﺗﺪ ﺧﻢ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻬ ﺘﻢ ﳌ ﺎ ﻗﻠ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣﺴﻜ ﺖ ﲟﺠﻠﺔ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺬﻓ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﺑﻬ ﺎ‪.‬ﻭﺿﻌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻬﺪﻭﺀ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘ ﺒﺪﻝ ﻫ ﻴ ﺌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﲢﺮﻛ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ ﻷﺷﻌﺮﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻧﻬﺾ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺗ ﺘﺤﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﺑﺼ ﺒﺮ ﻧ ﺎﻓﺪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺕ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﻧ ﺎﻡ!‬

‫ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻫ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺮﻗ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻣﻼ ﻣﺤﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣﻼ ﻣ ﺢ‬
‫ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﺘﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺄّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻌﺪ ﻻﺗﺨ ﺎﺫ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﲡﻤﻊ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠ ﺘﻘﻂ ﺣﻘ ﻴ ﺒﺔ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻘ ﺒﻞ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ‬
‫ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺤ ﻨ ﺖ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺒﻠ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺒﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﻌﺔ ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻛ ﻨﻲ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺗ ﻨ ﺲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻀﻊ ﻣ ﺎﺀ ﻟﻠﺰﻫﻮﺭ!‬
‫ﻼ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﻣﺤ ﺎﻳﺪ ﺓ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺧﻄ ﺖ ﺑ ﺘﺼﻤ ﻴﻢ ﻧﺤﻮ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻣ ﺎﻳﺰﺍﻝ ﻣﻘﻔ ً‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻋﻄ ﻨﻲ ﺍﳌﻔ ﺘ ﺎﺡ!‬
‫ﺃﻋﻄ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌﻔ ﺘ ﺎﺡ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﺩﺍﺭﺗﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﻔﻞ‪ .‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﻓ ﺘﺤ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺏ ﻭ ﺧﺮ ﺟ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻐﻠﻘﻪ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺗﺼﻞ ﺑﻲ ﻏﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧ ﻴﺔ!ﺩﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴ ًﺎ ﳌ ﺎ ﺳﻤﻌ ﺖ ﺧﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺝ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ّﳌ ﺎ ﺍﺑ ﺘﻌﺪﺕ‪ .‬ﻧﺪ ﻣ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻧﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻧﺰﻝ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻛﺪﺕ ﺃﻓ ﺘ ﺢ ﺑ ﺎﺏ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺃ ﺧ ﺘﻔ ﺖ ﻣﺸ ﺎﻋﺮﻱ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ ﺑ ﺎ ﻷ ﺣﺮﻯ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺑ ﺖ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﺼﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﻠ ﻴﻪ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻟ ﺚ ﺍﺗﺼﻠ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻧﻲ ﻣ ﻦ‬ ‫ﻟﻢ ﺃّﺗﺼﻞ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺗ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺘﻠﻔﻮﻥ ﺑ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻋ ﺘﺬﺭﺕ ﺃﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻷّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣﻮﻋﺪ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻘ ﺘﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺍﺫﻥ! ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻘﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌّﻠﻤ ﻨﻲ ﺩﺭﺳ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴﻜ ﻦ! ﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍ ﻵﻑ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﺭﺗ ﺒﻄ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ﺧﻼﻝ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻸّﻧﻲ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺿﺠﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺰ ﻣ ﻴﻞ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺳﻠﻚ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻻ ﺗ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﻣ ﺘ ﺎﻋ ﺐ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﻱ ﻧﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺃّﻭﻝ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ‪ :‬ﻷﺗﺮﻛﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺫّﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻧﻬﻲ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘﻲ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﺪﺕ ﻣﺸ ﺎﻋﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻌﺪ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﻳ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻧﻲ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﺭﺏ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺃﻓ ﺘﻌﻞ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻣﻌﺮﻛﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄ ّ‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻲ ﺃﺩﺍﻓﻊ ﻋ ﻦ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻭﺃﺑّﺮﺭ ﺗﺼﺮﻓ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ ‪ :‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ؟ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗ ّﺒﺮﺭ ﻟ ﻨﻔﺴﻚ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﻭﲤ ﻨﻊ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻛﻞ‬
‫ﺷﻲﺀ؟ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻚ ؟ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺷﻘﺮﺍﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻢ ﺷﻬﻮﺍﻧﻲ ﻭ ﺟﺴﻢ ﻣ ﺜ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧ ﺘﻤ ﺎ ﺑﺤ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑﻌﺾ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺭﻭﺍﺑﻂ ﻛ ﺎﺛﻮﻟﻜ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺧ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻧ ﺘ ﺎﺋ ﺞ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺍﺭﺗﻀ ﻴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ!‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻏﻠﻘ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺳﻤ ﺎﻋﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻠﻔﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺻ ﺎ ﺧ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﺪ ﺧ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺗﻀﻊ ﺳ ﺎﻗ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻮﻕ ﻛﺮﺳﻲ ﳌ ﺎ‬
‫ﺩ ﺧﻠ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻧ ﺎﺩﻱ ﺍﻟﻜﻠ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺗ ﻨﻲ ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺭﻛﻀ ﺖ ﻧﺤﻮﻱ ﺑﺮﻋﻮﻧﺔ ﻟﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻬ ﺘﻢ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺟﻠﺴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ ﺑﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻏ ﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺩﻱ ﺍﺗﻔﻘ ﻨ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻠﻘ ﺎﺀ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎ ﻣﺴﺔ !‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻋﻤﻠ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﲢ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻌﻘ ﻴﺪﺍﺕ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺗﻀﺤﻚ‪ ،‬ﺗﺪ ﺧ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺗﺸﺮﺏ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺗ ﻨﺰﻉ ﺍﻟﻠﺬ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺃﺱ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺃﻭﻗ ﺎﺕ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﺗﺼّﻮﺭ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻳﺔ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ‪ -‬ﻻ ﺗﻐ ﻨﻲ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺘ ﺒﺪﻭ ﺃ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ ‪ :‬ﺗﺪﻧﺪﻥ‬
‫ﺑ ﺄﻏ ﻨ ﻴ ﺎﺕ ﺑﺬﻳ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺠﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﳊﻤ ﺎﻡ ﻋ ﺎﺭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻥ ﲢ ﺲ ﺑ ﺄﺩﻧﻰ ﻣﺸ ﺎﻋﺮ ﺍ ﳋﻮﻑ ﺃﻭ ﺍ ﳋﺠﻞ‪ ،‬ﺗﻐ ﺘﺴﻞ ﻭﺑ ﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺍ ﳊﻤ ﺎﻡ ﻣﻔ ﺘﻮﺡ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺎﺭﻛﺔ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﲤﻠﻰ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺴﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺴ ﺘﺪﻳﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﻲ ﲤﺴ ﺢ ﲢ ﺖ ﺍﺑﻄ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑﲔ ﺳ ﺎﻗ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪،‬ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻳﺤﺮ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺒ ﺘﺴﻢ ﺑﻄﻔﻮﻟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻘﻔﺰ‪ ،‬ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺛ ﻴ ﺎﺑﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﻳ ﺜﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺠﻒ ﺛﻮﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮ ﺟﻊ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﺮﺍﺵ ﺑﻠﺬ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﺗﻄﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﺪﻑﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺤﺮﻛ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﳋﺼ ﺒﺔ ﺍﻟﻼ ﻣﻌﺔ ﺗﻬ ﻴﺠ ﻨﻲ‪ .‬ﺃﺳ ﺘﺪﻳﺮ ﻫ ﺎﺭﺑ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﲤﻲ ﻓﻮﻗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﻨﺰﻟﻖ ﲢ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﺫﺍ‬
‫ﻋ ﺒﻘ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺑ ﺘﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﺮﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍﳌﺨ ﺘﻠﻄﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺴﺠ ﺎﺋﺮ ﻭﺍﻟﻜﻮﻧ ﻴ ﺎﻙ‪ ،‬ﳕ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺑ ﺎﻻ ﺣﺮﻯ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻡ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃّﻓﻜﺮ‬
‫)ﺍﻧ ﺎ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔﻜ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺰﻥ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ؟(‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﻭﻫﻲ ﻧ ﺎﺋﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻨ ﺘﻈﻤﺔ ﻣﻄﻤ ﺌ ﻨﺔ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ﺘﺴﻠﻢ ﻫ ﺎﻧﻰﺀ‬
‫ﻋﺮﻭﻕ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻈﻬﺮ ﻭﺗﺨ ﺘﻔﻲ ﺑ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ ﻟﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺻﺪﺭﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻲ ﺷ ﺎ ﻣ ﺦ ﻗﻮﻱ ﻛ ّﺄﻧﻪ ﺯ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃﺑﺪﻱ ﻻ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﻓﺈﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘ ﻴﻘﻀ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﺿﺮﺑ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺧّﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﻋﻀ ﺖ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻲ ﺃ ﺧﻮﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪.‬‬

‫ﻫﻜﺬﺍﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻏﻀ ﺒ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻇﻠﻠ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷﻳ ﺎﻡ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻥ‬
 ‫ﻣﻬ ﺘﺮﻯﺀ ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺐ ﻻ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﻓﻊ ﻳﺪﻱ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﳕ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻛﻠ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻧﺰﻗﺔ ﻗﻠ ﺖ‬
‫ﻟ ﺒ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻔﺰﻫ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻧﺤ ﻦ ﺣﻘﺮﺍﺀ ﻳ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﻟﺴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻃﻼﺑ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻧ ﺎﺕ ﺗﻮﺿﻊ ﻓﻲ ﺯﺭﺍﺋ ﺐ ﻟ ﺘﺤﺴﲔ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﺗﺴ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻠﲔ ﺍﻟﺬﻛﻮﺭ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻻﻧ ﺎﺙ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﻣﻠﻠ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻧﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺫﻫ ﺐ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻳ ﺎﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻌﻮﺩ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎ ﺓ ﻃ ﺒ ﻴﻌ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻗﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻥ ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻛﻞ ﺍﺳ ﺒﻮﻉ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺗﲔ!ﺩﻭﺍﻧ ﺘﻈﺮﺕ ﻷﺭﻯ ﻭﻗﻊ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻤ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻘﻠ ﺐ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺍﻫ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻡ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﲔ ﺍﻥ ﻭﺍ ﺟ ﺒ ﺎﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳ ﻴﺔ ﺗﻘ ﺘﻀﻲ ﺗﺨﺼ ﻴﺺ ﻛﻞ ﻭﻗ ﺘﻲ ﻟﻠﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﺍﳌ ﻨ ﺎﺳ ﺐ!‬
‫ﺩﻭﺑﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﺷﺮﺳﺔ ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﻨﻌﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻗﺼﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻳ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﻨﻈﻢ ﺃﻭﻗ ﺎﺗ ﻨ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺗﺰﻭﺭﻧﻲ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗٌﺮ ﻏﺮﻓ ﺘﻲ ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻋّﺪ ﺓ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺩﻱ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﻘﻬﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻬﺰ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲢﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﺳ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﺘﺤﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻃﻠ ﺒ ﺖ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺗﻠﻚ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻧ ﺘ ﺒﻪ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻃ ﺎﻟ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺿ ّﻴﻊ ﻭﻗ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﻥ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ ﺘﻚ ﻻ ﺗﺴﻤ ﺢ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻭﺍﻟﺴﻬﺮ!‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﺗ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﺘ ﺎﺑﻊ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻣﻌﻠﻤﺔ ﺗﻠﻘﻲ ﺩﺭﺳ ًﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻏﺪًﺍ ﺗﻜ ﺒﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ ﺘﻚ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺗ ﺘﺰﻭﺝ ﻭﺗ ﻨﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻃﻔ ﺎًﻻ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﻴﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻻ ﺗﻀ ﻴﻊ ﻭﻗ ﺘﻚ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ .‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻓﻌﻠ ﺖ‬
‫ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺗﺨﺴﺮ ﺍﻟﺪﺭﺍﺳﺔ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻭﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ!‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺟ ﻴﺪًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺃﻏﻀ ﺐ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺿﻐﻂ ﻏﻠ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﻓﻌﻠ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﺗ ﺘﻐ ّﻴﺮ‪ .‬ﻓﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻮﻉ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳ ّﺘﺼﻒ ﺑﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛ ﺒﺮﻳ ﺎﺀ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻨ ﺎﺩ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻬﻮﺭ‪ ،‬ﻻﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺇّﻻ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻛ ﺘﻔ ﻴ ﺖ ﺑ ﺄﻥ ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﻓﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﻋ ﺎ ﻣﺔ ﺑﲔ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻗ ّﺒﻠﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺯﺍﻭﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺛ ﻨ ﺎﺀ ﻋﻮﺩﺗ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻭﺻﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻘﺴﻢ ﺍﻟﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﺗﺴ ﺘﺠ ﻴ ﺐ ﻟﻀﻐﻂ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴﺪﻱ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺸﺪ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺿﺤﻜ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻔ ﺘ ﻨ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻟﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﺳ ﺘﻌ ﺎﺩﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿﻲ‪ ،‬ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬﻰ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻧ ﺘﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ ﺘﻚ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻟﺪﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻃﻮﻳﻞ ﻟﻠﻤ ﺘﻌﺔ!ﺩ‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﻳ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻧﻜ ﺘﻔﻲ ﲟ ﺎ ﻳﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﺸ ﺎﻕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﺎﺭ ‪ :‬ﻗ ﺒﻠﺔ ﺳﺮﻳﻌﺔ‪ ،‬ﳌﺴ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﻳﻜﻔ ﻴﻚ ﺫﻟﻚ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﻳ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﻏ ﻴﺮﻱ ﻳﺤ ﺐ ﺫﻟﻚ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﳝﻜ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻳ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﻧ ﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﻣ ﻦ ﺩﺭﺍﺳ ﺘﻚ!‬
‫ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗ ﺘﺤﻢ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ .‬ﺻﻤﺪﺕ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﲢّﻮﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻃﻔﻠﺔ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺃّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺗ ﺘﺼﺮﻑ‬
‫ﻟ ﺘ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﺘﻬ ﺐ ﺣﻮﺍﺳﻲ‪ .‬ﺗﺮﻛ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺃﺑﺮﺩ ﺗﺪﺭﻳﺠ ﻴ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺟ ﺎﺀ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺻﺪﺍﻗﺔ ﺑ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺜ ﻴﺮ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺣﺰﻧ ًﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻣ ﺎﺽ ﻻﻳﻌﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﳌ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺍﻧﻘﻀ ﺖ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﺍﺳ ﺒﻮﻋﲔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭﻫ ﺎ ﺧﻼﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺇّﻻ ﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺷﺮﺏ ﻛ ﺄﺳ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ ﺗﻌّﻮﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺼ ﻨﻌﻪ ﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻘﺮﻳﺔ ﻛﻞ ﺳ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻋﺸﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ‪ ،‬ﻋﺸﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﻻ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ ﺧﻼﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﺘﻐ ﻴﺮﻳ ﻦ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺳ ﺄﻝ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺼﻞ ؟ ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺖ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻟﻢ‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘﻄﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺟﻮﺍﺏ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ﺘﻐﺮﺑﺔ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ .‬ﻭﻛ ﺄّﻧﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺗ ﺒ ﺎﻟﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻬﺪ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻧﻲ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻣﺨﻄ ﺌﺔ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪ ،‬ﺭﲟ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧ ﺎ ﺣ ﻴ ﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﺤﺼﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ!‬
‫ﻲ ﺷﻲﺀ؟‬‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺣﺼﻞ ﻣ ّﻨﻲ ﺷﻲﺀ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻓ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻧﻌﺪ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻧﺤ ﻦ ﺍﻻﺛ ﻨﲔ ﻗﺪ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ !‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﻭﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻚ ﺑﺼﺮﺍ ﺣﺔ ﺃّﻧﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻲ‪ ،‬ﻗﻮﻟﻲ!‬ ‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻓ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻚ ﺗﻼ ﺣﻆ ﺍﻥ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻗ ﺒﻞ!‬
‫ﺩ ﺧﻠ ﺖ ﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷ ﺧ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻬ ﺎﺕ ) ﻣ ﺎﺗ ﺖ ﺃ ﻣﻲ ﳌ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻋﻤﺮﻱ ﺳ ﺖ ﺳ ﻨﻮﺍﺕ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﲤ ﺖ( ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﻣﻄﻤ ﺌ ﻦ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺮﺿﻰ‪ ،‬ﺣﺮﻛ ﺎﺕ ﺑﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻭﺍﺛﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻭﺍﺩﻋ ًﺎ‬
‫ﻭﺭﻗ ﻴﻘ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﺕ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺒﺔ ﻭﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺤ ﺘﻘ ﻨ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻔ ﺖ ﺑﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﲡﻬ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴﺮﻳﺮ ﲢ ﺎﻭﻝ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺴّﻮﻱ ﺍﻟﻐﻄ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌّﻠﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﲤ ﺘﻠﻚ ﺷﺮﻋ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﺎ ﻟﻠﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺳ ﺎﺩ ﺍﻟﺼﻤ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﻳﻘﻄﻌﻪ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺿﺮﺑ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﻷﻡ ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﻌ ﻴﺪ ﺗﺮﺗ ﻴ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻮﺳ ﺎﺋﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻤ ﺖ‬
‫ﺑﺈﺷﻔ ﺎﻕ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺖ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻟﺬﻳﺬ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻫﻞ ﺃﻋﺠ ﺒﻚ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺍ ﺣﻀﺮ ﻟﻚ ﻛ ﺄﺳ ٌﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺯ ﺟ ﺎ ﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﺯ ﺟ ﺎ ﺟﺔ ﻵ ﺧﺬﻫ ﺎ ﻣﻌﻲ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻔﻈ ﺖ ﻟﻚ ﺑﻮﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳﻚ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺑﻜ ﺄﺱ ﺁ ﺧﺮ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻲ‪ ،‬ﺃﻭ ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻱ ﻓﻼ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻮﺗﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴ ﺎﺋ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻫ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻳﺪﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﺼ ﺒ ﻴ ﺘﲔ ﺍﻟﻠ ﺘﲔ ﺗ ﺘﺤﺮﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺑﺤﺪ ﺓ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺷﺮﺏ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻮﺩﺍﻋﺔ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻬ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺗﻲ ﻳﺮﺩﻥ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺤﻤﻠ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻳﺨﻔﻔ ﻦ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮﻳ ﻦ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺷ ﺄﺷﺮﺏ ﻣﻌﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻗﻞ ﻟﻲ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻜﻤ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﺿﺤﻜ ﺖ ﺑ ﺒﻼﻫﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺍﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‪ .‬ﻫﺰﺯﺕ ﺭﺃﺳﻲ ﻭﺃﺷﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ .‬ﻇﻠ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﻤ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺘﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺣﺮﻛﺔ‬
‫ﻳﺪﻳﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﺮﻓﻊ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻮﻟﻲ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺼﻞ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻜﻤ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﺎ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ!‬
‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ ﺗ ﺄّﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻋ ﺎﳌﻲ ﻳ ﻨﻬ ﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻋ ﺎﳌﻲ ﻛﻠﻪ ﻳ ﻨﻬ ﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﺳ ﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺍﺫﺍ ﺑﺪﺭ ﺷﻲﺀ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﻳﺴ ّﺒ ﺐ ﻛﺪﺭًﺍ ﺗ ﺘﺤﻤﻞ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﻨﻬﺾ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺗﻌ ﺎﻧﻘ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﺆّﻛﺪ ﻷ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﺒﺮﺩ ﺍﻭ ﺗ ﺘﻜﺪﺭ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‬
‫ﻓ ﻨﺤ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺜﻼﺛﺔ ﻧﻼ ﺣﻆ ﺍﻡ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﻳ ﺘﻤﺰﻕ‪ .‬ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻋﺪﳝﺔ ﺍﻻﻛ ﺘﺮﺍﺙ‪ .‬ﻭﺑﻌﺾ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈ ﺎﺕ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ‪ .‬ﻷّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻻ‬
‫ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﻟﻲ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺩﻓﻌﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﺋﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﻗ ﺐ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ‬
‫ﺿ ﺎﺋﻊ ﻣ ﺘﻌ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻠﺤﻈﺔ!‬
‫ﻥ ﺍﻻ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺱ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﻳﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺭﻳﺤ ًﺎ ﺩﺍ ﺧﻠ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﺼﻔﻊ ﺍﻟﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺗﻐ ّﻴﺮ ﻣﺴ ﻴﺮﺗﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔﻪ ﺛﻢ ﺗﺪﻓﻌﻪ ﺑﻘﻮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﺍﻻ ﺣﺴ ﺎﺱ‬ ‫ﺇ ّ‬
‫ﲟﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺤﺴﻪ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﳌ ﻨﻌﻪ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﳌ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺎ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧﻌ ﺘﺮﻑ ﻳ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻣﻚ ﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺖ ﻏﺮﻳ ﺒﺔ‪ .‬ﻭﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻲ ﺑ ﺘﺤّﺪ ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﻻ ﺗﺨ ﺎﻑ ﻣ ﻦ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺃﻭ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻲﺀ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﻡ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺣﻤﻠ ﺖ ﻛ ﺄﺳﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﻴﺪ ﻣﺮﲡﻔﺔ ﻭﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟﻲ ﺑ ﺘﺮﻗ ﺐ ﺃ ﺧﺮﺱ‪ .‬ﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻲ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃﺿﻔ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﳉﻮ ﺗﻮﺗﺮًﺍ‬
‫ﺍﺿ ﺎﻓ ﻴ ًﺎ‪ ..‬ﻭﺇّﻻ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺍ ﺧ ﺘﺮﺕ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ؟ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺪﺍﻳﺔ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎﺩ ﺓ ؟‬
‫ﺣﻤﻠ ﺖ ﻛ ﺄﺳﻲ‪ ،‬ﺭﻓﻌ ﺘﻪ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻣﺴ ﺘﻮﻯ ﻧﻈﺮﻱ ﻭﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻓﻲ ﺻﺤﺔ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ ﻣ ﺎﺿ ﻴﺔ!‬
‫ﻲ‪.‬‬‫ﻧﻬﻀ ﺖ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻣﻬ ﺘ ﺎ ﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃ ﺣﺴﺴ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ .‬ﻗ ﺒﻠ ﺖ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﺯﺩﺭﺍﺀ ﺷ ﺒ ﻴﻪ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻄﻔﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺕ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ ﻳ ﺘﻘﻠﺺ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻀﻼﺕ ﺭﻗ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻔ ﺦ‪ ،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﺍﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎ ﺍﺭﺍﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻌ ّﺒﺮ ﻋ ﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﻛ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﻛﻠﻤﺔ !‬
‫ﻇﻠﻠ ﺖ ﻣﻊ ﺍ ﻷﻡ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﺻ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﲔ‪ .‬ﺷﺮﺑ ﻨ ﺎ ﻛ ﺄﺳ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﺑﺤﺰﻥ ﻏ ﺎ ﻣﺾ ﻭﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﻴ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ﻟﻲ ﺍ ﻷﻡ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟﻐﻀ ﺐ ﻳﻔﺴﺪ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺁﺳﻔﺔ ﻷّﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺃ ﺟ ﺒﺮﺗﻜﻤ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﻜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺟﻮ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺿ ﺎﻓ ﺖ ﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﺣ ﻨﻮﻧﺔ‬
‫ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻋ ﺘﺬﺍﺭ‪:‬‬
‫ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻻ ﺗ ﺘﻐ ّﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌ ﺎﻝ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﻬﺪﺃ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗ ﺒﻜﻲ ﻭﺗ ﻨﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ ﺑ ﺄﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺀ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﻗ ﺒﻞ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻪ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻇﻠﻠ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺀ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺻﺤ ﻴ ﺢ ﺍﻥ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻛﻤ ﺎ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻇﻠ ﺖ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍ ﳉﺴﻮﺭ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﺸ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟﻬﺸﺔ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲢﻤﻞ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻢ ﻟ ﺒﻌﺾ‪ ،‬ﺑﲔ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻭﺁ ﺧﺮ‪ ،‬ﺟ ﺎﺀﺕ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻏﺮﻓ ﺘﻲ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺑ ﻴ ﺘﻬﻢ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺷﺮﺑ ﻨ ﺎ ﻋﺪﺩًﺍ ﻻ ﻳﺤﺼﻰ ﻣ ﻦ ﻛﺆﻭﺱ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ‪ ،‬ﻭﳕ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﺃﻗﻞ ﺭﻏ ﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﻧ ﺘﺤﺪﺙ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷﺷ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﻧﻔﻌﻞ ﻣ ﻦ ﻗ ﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺑﻞ ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﺣﺮﻳﺼﺔ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻥ ﻻ ﻧﻜﻮﻥ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﺪﻋﻮ‬
‫ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻭ ﺍﺛ ﻨ ﺘﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﻘ ﺘﺮﺡ ﺍﻥ ﻧﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺑ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪،‬ﺑﺪﻝ ﺍﻥ ﻧﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺍﻟﻰ ﻏﺮﻓ ﺘﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃ ﺧﺬﺕ ﺗﺼﺮﺡ ﺑ ﺄﻓﻜ ﺎﺭ ﻣﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪،‬‬
‫ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻬﻢ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻋ ﻨ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺣﺪﻳ ﺜﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻌ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﺣ ﺘﻤ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺗّﻜﺮﺭ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺧﻼﻝ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﺣﺪﻳ ﺜﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻦ ﻣ ﻴﻼﻥ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﺨﻒ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺫﻛﺮﺗﻪ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ ﺃ ﻣﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺷﺮﺑ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺄﺱ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺭﻓﻌ ﺘﻪ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﻭﻏﻤﺰﺕ ﺑﻌ ﻴ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣ ﺘﺤﺪﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﳌ ﺎ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺖ ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻣ ﻴﻼﻥ؟‬

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‫ﻭﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ...‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﻞ ﺃﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺖ؟‬

‫ﲢﻮﻟ ﺖ‬
‫ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻫﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺩ ّﻣﺮﺗ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﺧﻀ ﺖ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ‪ ،‬ﻋﻜﺮﺗﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻏ ﻴﺮ ﳑﻜ ﻦ‪ .‬ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﺩﻋﺔ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺘﺠ ﻴ ﺒﺔ‪ّ ،‬‬
‫ﻼ ﻭﻋﺠﻮﺯًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫ﻼ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺑ ﻨﻈﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻃﻔ ً‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﺭﺑﻌﺔ ﺃﺑ ﺎ ﻣﺈﻟﻠﻰ ﻗﻄﺔ ﻣ ﺘﻮ ﺣﺸﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺍ ﻷﻧ ﺜﻰ ﺍﳌﺸﺮﺋ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺗﺮﺍﻧﻲ ﺭ ﺟ ً‬
‫ﻼ ﺍﺑﻠﻪ ﻭﻋﺠﻮﺯًﺍ ﻣ ﺘﻼﺷ ﻴ ًﺎ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺪ ﺃﺳ ﺘﺤﻖ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﻘﺔ !‬ ‫ﻃﻔ ً‬
‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‪ ..‬ﻓﻠﻢ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺨﺬ ﻗﺮﺍﺭًﺍ ﺳﺮﻳﻌ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺑﻘ ﻴ ﺖ ﻭﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺒﻖ‪ .‬ﻣﻮ ﺟﻮﺩ ﺓ ﻭﻏ ﻴﺮ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻮﺩ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻧ ﺘﻘ ﺎﺑﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺗﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣﺨ ﺘﻠﻒ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺗ ﺘﺤّﺪﺙ ﻋ ﻦ ﻣﺸ ﺎﺭﻳﻊ ﺍﳌﺴ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻞ‪ .‬ﻭﺍﻧﻘﻄﻌ ﺖ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳ ﺚ ﻋ ﻦ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻌﺮ‪ ..‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻄ ﺒﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﻠﻮ ﺣ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺭﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ‪ ..‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺗﻔّﻜﺮ ﻣﻌﻲ ﺑﺼﻮﺕ ﻋ ﺎﻝ!‬

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‫ﻭﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ!‬
‫ﻷﻋﺠ ﺐ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻮ ﺟﻮﺩًﺍ ﺩﺍﺋﻤ ًﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﺤﺰﻥ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻣ ﺘ ﺄ ﺧﺮ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺣﺮﻳﺼ ًﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﻻ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻭﺍﺛﻘ ًﺎ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻭﺭ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟ ّ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺛ ﻴ ًﺎ ﺃﻓﻜ ﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﻃﻤﻮ ﺣ ﺎﺗﻲ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺎﺫﺑﺔ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻫﻲ ﻓ ﺎﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﺗﻼﺷﻰ‪ ،‬ﺑﺨﻀﺮﺗﻪ ﻭﳒﻮ ﻣﻪ‪،‬‬
‫ﺑﺮﻗﺼﻪ ﻭ ﺧﻤﻮﺭ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟﺸ ﺒﻖ ﺍﳌﻠﻬﻮﻑ‪ .‬ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﳌ ﺎﺿﻲ )ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺍ ﺍﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻋﺠ ﻴ ﺐ( ﻭﻫﻲ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ‬
‫ﺃﻧ ﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺘﺰﻧﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗ ﺘﻜﻠﻢ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﺇّﻻ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﺩ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺤ ﻴﺔ ﺑ ﺘﺤﻔﻆ ﺍﻥ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻷ ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻔّﻜﺮ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎ ﻷﻗ ﺘﺮﺍﺏ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻬ ﺎ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺤ ﻦ ﻧﻘﻒ ﻣ ﺘﺠ ﺎﻭﺭﻳ ﻦ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺹ ﺍﳌﺰﺩ ﺣﻢ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻘﺪ ﻧﺴ ﻴ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺩﺍ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﺍﻥ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺘ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﺍﺑ ﺘﺪﺃﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻦ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ‬
‫ﻣﻠﺠ ﺄﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺣﺼﻞ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﻨﺴﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻞ ﺍﺑﻔ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﻧ ﺒﻘﻰ ﺃﺻﺪﻗ ﺎﺀ ﻓ ﻴﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﲢ ﺘﺮﻡ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻋ ﺎﳌﻲ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺍﻧ ﺎ‪ ..‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻚ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺻﺪﻳﻖ‪..‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﺳ ﺘﺪﺭﻛ ﺖ ﺑﺴﺮﻋﺔ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺻﺪﻳﻖ ﻟﻲ ﻭﻹﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃّﻻ ﻧﻠ ﺘﻘﻲ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻧ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣﺴ ﺘﺤ ﻴﻞ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻟﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺘ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺼ ﻴﻒ ﺍﻟﻘ ﺎﺩﻡ ﺳﻮﻑ ﻧ ﺘﺰﻭﺝ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﲟ ﺎ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﻨ ﺎ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﳌﻜ ﺎﻥ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﻳ ﺎﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟﻮ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜﻮﻧﻲ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ﻟﻜ ﻨ ﺖ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
 ‫ﻼ ﺍﻧﻌﻄ ﺎﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺎﺑ ﺘﻌﺪﺕ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍ ﺣﻤﺮ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣﺮﺻ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻥ ﺗ ﺒﻘﻰ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ‬ ‫ﻭﺿﻐﻄ ﺖ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﺭﻫ ﺎ ﻧﺴ ﺘﻐ ً‬
‫ﻣﺴ ﺎﻓﺔ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﺍﻋ ﺎﻭﺩ ﺇﻟﻰ ﳌﺴﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻫﻮ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫ﻄﻢ ﻏﺮﻭﺭﻱ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ ﻏﺮﻭﺭ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻡ ﺛﻘ ﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﺍ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻯ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺗﻘّﺪﻡ ﻫﻮ ﺑﺨﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﻣ ﺘﺰﻧﺔ ﻫ ﺎﺩﺋﺔ‪،‬‬ ‫ﲢ ّ‬
‫ﻭﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎﻟﺰﻭﺍﺝ ! ﻭﺃﻳ ﻦ؟ ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﳌﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻳﻬﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻟﻲ ﻣﺠ ﺎًﻻ ﻭﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻛﻠﻤﺔ ﻟﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ!‬
‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻮﻗﻒ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺹ‪ ،‬ﻧﺰﻟ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻝ ﻵ ﺧﺮ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﺭﺍﻙ؟ ﺃﺭﻳﺪﻙ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗﻘﻀﲔ ﻣﻌﻪ ﺍﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﻛﻠﻪ!‬
‫ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﺗﺮﺗﺴﻢ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺷﻔ ﺘ ﻴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺄّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﺘ ﻨﻜﺮ ﻭﺗﻠ ﺘﺬ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻭﲢﻠﻢ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻌﻤﺮ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺳ ﺘﻘﻀ ﻴﻪ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﲡ ﺐ‪ .‬ﻣّﺪﺕ ﻳﺪﻫ ﺎ ﻟﻲ ﺑ ﺘﺤﻔﻆ ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮﻧﻲ ﺍ ﻵﻥ!‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎﻙ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﻳ ﻨ ﺘﻈﺮ‪ .‬ﻧﻈﺮ ﺍﻟ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ ﻭﺍﺑ ﺘﺴﻢ‪ .‬ﺧﺠﻠ ﺖ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﳌ ﺎ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻪ‪ .‬ﺗﻘّﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﻧﺤﻮ ﻩ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻋ ﺘﺬﺭ ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺑﻀﻊ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ّﻨﻲ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺗﻪ ﻳ ﺒ ﺎﺩﺭﻧﻲ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﺤّﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﲢﺪﺍﻧﻲ ﺃﻭﻝ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ـ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺍﻟﻌﺠ ﻴ ﺒﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺘ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ ﺧﺴﺮﺕ ﺍﻟﺮﻫ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺮﺍﻫ ﻦ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺃ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﻧ ﺎ ﻣﺴ ﺘﻌﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺿﻐﻂ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻳﺪﻱ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﺤ ّﻴ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺑﺤﺮﺍﺭ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻭﻗﻔ ﺖ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﺑﻐﺮﻭﺭ‪ ،‬ﺷ ﺎﻋﺮ ﺓ ﺑﻜ ﺒﺮﻳ ﺎﺀ ﺍ ﻷﻧ ﺜﻰ ﺍﳌﺸ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺓ‬
‫ﻭﺍﳌﺴ ﺘﺤ ﻴﻠﺔ!‬
‫ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺣﺼﻞ؟‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﺗﻜّﻠﻢ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﺘﻜﻠﻤﻮﺍ ﺑ ﺜﻘﺔ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ‪ .‬ﻭﻗ ﺎﻟﻮﺍ‪ :‬ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﺗﻌﻮﻡ ﻓﻲ ﺑﺤﺮ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ‬
‫ﺍ ﻵ ﺧﺮﻳ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟﻀﻼﻻﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻬ ﺘﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻓ ﻴﻪ ﺧ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺸﻔﻊ ﻟﻪ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺻﺮﻱ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﻣ ﻨ ﺎ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﻧ ﻨﻘﺬ ﻧﻔﺴ ًﺎ ﻓ ﺎ ﺟﺮ ﺓ ؟ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻭﻥ ﻣ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﻧ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻋ ﺘﺮﺍﻓ ﺎﺕ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺍﺗﺴﺨ ﺖ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﻄﻬﺮ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺟﻬ ﻨﻢ؟‬

‫ﻟ ﻴﻘﻞ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ .‬ﺍﻧﻬﻢ ﳝﻠﻜﻮﻥ ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍ ﳊﻖ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻟﻮﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺎﺅﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﺭﻏﻢ ﺍﻧﻜﻢ ﺗﺴ ﺒﺤﻮﻥ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻲ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻳﻐﻔﺮﻭﻥ ﻓﺈّﻧﻬﻢ ﻣ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻛﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻋ ﺘﻘﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺍ ﺣﺪًﺍ ﻣ ﻨﻜﻢ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﻣ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻛ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﻔﺮﻕ‬
‫ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﺃّﻧ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ‪ ،‬ﺑﺸﻜﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﳉﻬﺔ ﻣ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺘﻢ ﻻ ﺗﻌ ﺘﺮﻓﻮﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﲤ ﺎﺩﻳ ﺖ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧ ﺘ ﺎﺑ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﻟﻌ ﻨﺔ ﻷﻥ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺩﺍﻓﻌﻲ )ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‬
‫ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷّﻭﻝ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ( ﺇﻟﻰ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺧ ﺒ ﻴ ﺜ ًﺎ ﻣﻠ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗﻼ ﺣﻘ ﻨﻲ ﺑﻄ ﻴﻔﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻠ ﻴﻞ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﻬ ﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺫﻫ ﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋﻮﺍﻃﻔﻲ ّﳌ ﺎ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﻣﻀﻄﺮﺑﺔ ﻭ ﻣﻠﻌﻮﻧﺔ‪ .‬ﺍﺷ ﺘﺮﻳ ﺖ ﺷﻤﻌﺔ ﻛ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺃﺷﻌﻠ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺗﻘّﺪ ﻣ ﺖ ﺑﺨﻄﻮﺍﺕ ﻫﺮ‪ ،‬ﻭﺿﻌ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻋ ﻨﺪ‬
‫ﺍﳌﺬﺑ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺍﲡﻬ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺗﻠﻚ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﻮﺍﻃ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ ﻗّﺮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎ ﺟﺰ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺷﻌﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺄﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻟ ﺜﻘ ﻴﻠﺔ ﲤﻼﺀ ﺍﳌﻜ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍ ﻩ ﺑﻮﺿﻮﺡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺪﺍ ﻟﻲ ﺑﺪﻳ ﻨ ًﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺘﻌﻞ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭ ﻩ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻌ ﺎﻝ ﻧ ﺎﺭ ﺍ ﳊ ﺎﻗﺪﻳ ﻦ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺑ ﻴ ﺎﺩﺭ ﺍﻟﻔﻘﺮﺍﺀ‪ .‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻪ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻏﻔﺮ ﻟﻲ ﻳ ﺎ ﺃﺑ ﺎﻧ ﺎ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺭ ﺟﻞ ﺧ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌﺬﺑﻪ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻭﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻜّﻔﺮ ﻭﻳ ﺘﻮﺏ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ‪ ،‬ﺍﺑ ﻦ ﺍﻻﻟﻪ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﻴﻐﻔﺮ ﻟﻚ ﺧﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎﻙ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ‪..‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺘﻢ ﺿﺤﻜﺔ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺧﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎﻱ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺃﻥ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ ﻟ ﻦ ﻳﻐﻔﺮﻫ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻲ ﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﻗ ﺎﺳ ﻴﺔ ‪:‬‬‫ﺭﺩ ﻋ ﻠ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻋ ﺘﺮﻑ ﻳ ﺎ ﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺳ ﻴﻐﻔﺮ ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ !‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺒ ﺒ ﺖ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻣ ﺘﺰﻭ ﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺯﺍﻝ ﺃ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﻗﻮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﻭﻗﺪ ﺍﺿﻄﺮﺏ ﺻﻮﺗﻪ ﻓ ﺄﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﻣﻀﺤﻜ ًﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﲢ ﺒﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺍﻥ ﻭﻟﺪﺕ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃ ﻣ ﺘﺰﻭ ﺟﺔ ﻫﻲ؟‬
 ‫‪ -‬ﻧﻌﻢ‪ ..‬ﻧﻌﻢ ﻳ ﺎ ﺃﺑ ﺎﻧ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻭﺑﻠﻬﺠﺔ ﻋﺼ ﺒ ﻴﺔ ﻗ ﺎﻝ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﳌ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻳ ﺎ ﻭﻟﺪﻱ ؟ ﺃﻟﻢ ﺗﺴﻤﻊ ﻣ ﺎﻗ ﺎﻟﻪ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳ ﻨﻬﻰ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻬ ﺎﺀ ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻢ ﺍﺷ ﺘﻬﻬ ﺎ ﻳ ﺎ ﺃﺑ ﺎﻧ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻢ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺄﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﻣﻠﻮﺙ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺍ ﳊ ﺐ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺐ ﺑﻄﻬ ﺎﺭ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻃ ﺎﻫﺮًﺍ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻳ ﺎﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ .‬ﺍﻥ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻧﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻚ ﺑ ﺎ ﳊ ﺐ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﻳﻔﻬﻢ ﻣﻌ ﻨﻰ ﻋﺬﺍﺏ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﻟﺮ ﺟﻞ ﻻ ﻳﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻙ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻳﺔ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺣ ﺐ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻫﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﺠﺮﺩ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻜﺮ ﺑ ﺎ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍ ﺧﺮﻯ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻣ ﺘﺰﻭ ﺟﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻭﻗﻌ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ‬
‫ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﻨﻘﺬ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺭﺩﺩﺕ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃ ﻣّﺪ ﻧﻬ ﺎﻳﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﻷﺛ ﻴﺮ ﻩ‪:‬‬
‫ﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ‪ ،‬ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﻟﻌﻈ ﻴﻢ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍﺳﺔ ؟‬ ‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻟ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺣ ﺐ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺑ ﻨﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﻟ ﻴﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻻ ﺣ ﺘﺮﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺍﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﺗ ﺒﻘﻰ ﻏ ﺎﺭﻗ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﺗ ﻨ ﺎﻝ ﺟﺰﺍﺀ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌ ﺘﻚ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺮﺏ ﻭ ﻣ ﻦ ﺿﻤ ﻴﺮﻙ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻣﺨﻄﻰﺀ ﻳ ﺎ ﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﻻ ﺗﺪﺭﻙ ﺧﻄ ﻴ ﺌ ﺘﻚ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻗﻮﻝ ﻟﻚ ﺍﻧﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺍ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺣ ﺒﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﻥ ﻓﺈﻥ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻚ ﻭﻗﻌ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺍﳌﻤ ﻴ ﺘﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻋ ﻨﺪﻱ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻠﻚ‪.‬‬
‫ﺻﺮ ﺧ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺿﻐﻂ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﻟ ﻴﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ‪ ،‬ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﺘ ﺄﻛ ﻴﺪ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻞ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ‪ ..‬ﻛﻒ ﻋ ﻦ ﺣ ﺐ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟ ﺌ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺣ ﺒﻲ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻋﻂ ﻗﻠ ﺒﻚ ﻟ ﻴﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ ﻭﺳﻮﻑ ﻳﺨﻠﺼﻚ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺗ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺣ ﺒﻲ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﻨﻘﺬ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻚ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﺎ ﳊ ﺐ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺑ ﺄﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻟﻜ ّﻨﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ‪.‬‬
‫= ﺍﺫﻥ ﺃﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻣﻐﻠﻘﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻭ ﺟﻬﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﻟ ﻦ ﻳ ﻨﻘﺬ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻚ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﲡّﺪﻑ ﻳ ﺎ ﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﻳﻠ ﻴﻖ ﲟ ﺜﻠﻚ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﻜﻠﻢ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ ؟ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﲤ ﻨ ﺢ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﻟﻜﻲ ﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻌﺬﺑﻮﺍ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺐ ﻳ ﺎ ﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﻠ ﺒﻚ ﻣﻠﻲﺀ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻏ ﺎﺿ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ّﻨﻲ ﺟ ﺌ ﺖ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻙ ﻟﻲ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺑ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺗ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺍﺫﻥ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺑ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﺡ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﻭﺡ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﻫﻮ ﻳﻌ ﺎﻧﻖ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻄﻬﺮ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻪ ﻭﺗ ﺘﺨﻠﺺ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻚ ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﻟﻢ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺣ ﺐ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻣﺨﻄﻰﺀ ﻭﻳﺠ ﺐ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﻮﺏ‪.‬‬
 ‫‪ -‬ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻣﺨﻄ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻭﻟ ﻦ ﺃﺗﻮﺏ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﻫ ﺐ ﻳ ﺎﻭﻟﺪﻱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﻌﺬﺏ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻚ ﻭﺗﻐﺮﻕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﲡﺪ ﺃﺑﻮﺍﺏ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﻣﻘﻔﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻦ ﻳ ﻨﻘﺬﻙ ﺃ ﺣﺪ‪.‬‬

‫‪ -‬ﺃﺳﻤﻊ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺱ‪ ..‬ﺇ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺒ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺣ ّﺒﻲ ﻟﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍﻭ ﻛﻔﺮﺕ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﻭﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻛ ﺎﻓﺮ ﻭ ﺧ ﺎﻃﻰﺀ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﺺ ﻋﺬﺍﺑ ًﺎ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﻣﻮﺕ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺃﺻﻠ ﺐ ﻛﻞ ﺳ ﺎﻋﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﺗﻌّﺬﺏ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗ ﺄﻟﻢ‪ .‬ﻗﻞ ﻟﻲ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ‬
‫ﺃﻓﻌﻞ؟ ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻔﻌﻠﻪ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﻣ ﻦ ﺃ ﺟﻠﻲ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﺫﻫ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺎﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﻻ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻞ ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺮﻭﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﻣ ﻴﺰ ﺓ ﻳﻔ ﺎ ﺧﺮﻭﻥ ﺑﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺳ ﺄﺫﻫ ﺐ ﺃﻳّﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻷﺏ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟ ﻦ ﺃﻏﻔﺮ ﻟﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧ ﺘﻢ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﺍﻟﻘﺪﺍﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ ﻳﺴﻮﻉ ﺍﳌﺴ ﻴ ﺢ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻓﻮﻥ‬
‫ﺳﻮﻯ ﺑﻄﻮﻧﻜﻢ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻐﺮﻗﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﺎﻳ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺭﺅﻭﺳﻜﻢ‪.‬‬
‫ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﻣﺴ ﻴﺤ ًﺎ ﻟﺼﻠ ﺒ ﺖ ﻛﻞ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻷﻏﺮﻗ ﺘﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻑ ﻳ ﺄﺗﻲ ﻳﻮﻡ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ‪ ،‬ﺳ ﺄﻓﻌﻠﻪ ﺑﻜﻞ ﺗ ﺄﻛ ﻴ ‍ﺪ!‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺳ ﺎ ﺧﺮًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎﻗﻠ ﺘﻪ ﻟﻸﺏ ﺍﳌﻘّﺪﺱ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﺭﻭ ﺣﻲ ﻻﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ) ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﻻ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ‬
‫ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺃﺑﺪًﺍ( ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻟﻲ ﻋﻼﻗ ﺎﺕ ﻣﻊ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠ ﻴ ﺲ ﻟﻠﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﻋﻼﻗﺔ ﺑﺬﻟﻚ‪ .‬ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻭ ﺣﺪﻫ ﻦ ﺍﺭﺗﻀﲔ ﻫﺬ ﻩ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻌﻼﻗ ﺎﺕ‪ ..‬ﻭﺍﺭﺗﻀ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﻟﻠﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺪ ﺧﻞ ﺑﲔ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﺬﻳ ﻦ ﻳﺤ ﺒﻮﻥ ﺑﻌﻀﻬﻢ ﻭﻳ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻮﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺑﻌﺾ‍!‬
‫ﺗﻄﻠﻌ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﺬﺑ ﺢ ﳌ ﺎ ﺧﺮ ﺟ ﺖ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺭﺍﺀ ﻣ ﺎﺗﺰﺍﻝ ﲢﻤﻞ ﺍﻟﻄﻔﻞ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﻭﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺑ ﺒﺆﺱ‪ .‬ﺃّﻧ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﻮﻉ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗ ﺘﻠﻮﻯ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻬﻮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺘﻤﻮﺝ ﻣﻊ ﺭﺍﺋﺤﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺨﻮﺭ ﻭﺻﻮﺭ ﺍ ﻵﺑ ﺎﺀ ﺍﳌﻘﺪﺳﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻟﺮ ﺟ ﺎﻝ ﺍﳌﺴ ّﻨﻮﻥ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺠ ﺎﺋﺰ‪ ،‬ﻭﺑﻌﺾ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻔ ﺘ ﻴ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﺍ ﻷ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺣ ﻴﺪﻳ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻮ ﺟﺪﻳ ﻦ !‬

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‫ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻭﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﻫﻤ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻠﺬﺍﻥ ﺟﻌﻬﻼﻧﻲ ﺃﺗﺼﺮﻑ ﻫﻜﺬﺍ ﲡ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﻭﲡ ﺎ ﻩ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ‪.‬‬

‫ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺭ ﺟﻌ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃﺗﺼﺮﻑ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ‪:‬‬
‫ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺣﻘ ﻴﻘﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺒﺔ ﻟﻲ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻴﻼﻥ ﺍﻟﻌ ﻴﻮﻥ ﺍﳌﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻐﻔﺮﺍﻥ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒﻬﺠﺔ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﺪﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺳ ﺎﻋ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺒ ﺎﺡ ﺍ ﻷﻭﻟﻰ‪ ،‬ﺗ ﺒﺪﺃ ﺍ ﻷﻏ ﻨ ﻴﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻻ ﺗ ﻨ ﺘﻬﻲ ‪:‬‬
‫ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺫﺍﺕ ﻣﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻳﺴ ﺘﻤﻊ ﻭﻳﻬﺰ ﺭﺃﺳﻪ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﺬﻛﺮﻳ ﻦ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺟﻤ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻔﻼﻥ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺟﻤ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻔﻼﻥ؟‬
‫ﻥ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺟﻤ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﻟﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻔﻼ ‍‬
‫‪-‬ﻭﻏ ﻴﺮ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﺎﻝ ﻭﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﺧﻀﺮﺍﻭﺍﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﻧﻒ ﺻﻐ ﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻳﻮﻧ ﺎﻧﻲ‪ ،‬ﺟ ﺒﻬﺔ ﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺖ ﻋﺮﻳﻀﺔ ﻭﻟ ﻴﺴ ﺖ ﺿ ﻴﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﻨﻌﻮ ﻣﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﻗﺼ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻳﻼﺕ ﺍ ﻷﺫﺭﻉ ﺍﻭﺍﻟﺴ ﻴﻘ ﺎﻥ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻮﺭ ﻣﺔ !‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﺸ ﺘﻢ ﺃ ﺣﺪًﺍ ﺃﻡ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺸ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻓﻲ ﻣﺴ ﺎﺑﻘﺔ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤ ﺎﺕ ﺍﳌ ﺘﻘ ﺎﻃﻌﺔ ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺃﺳﺨﺮ ﻳ ﺎ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻻ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺃﺻﻔﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻚ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺷﻜﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻡ؟ ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ؟ ﻭ ﻣﻼﺑﺴﻬ ﺎ ﻫﻞ ﺗ ﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﻣﻠ ﺒﺴﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻚ ﻟﻢ ﺗﺮ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺃ ﺟﻤﻞ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ‍ﺎ!‬
‫ﻝ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﺍ ﻣﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺧ ﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﺎ ‍‬
‫‪ -‬ﺧ ﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴ ﺲ ﺃ ﺟﻤﻞ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻭ ﺟﻪ ﺍﻟﻜﺮ ﺓ ﺍ ﻷﺭﺿ ﻴﺔ ﻛﻠﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﻗﺼﺔ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﺭﻗﺔ ﺍ ﳉﻤ ﺎﻝ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺖ ﻳ ﺎ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻻ ﺑّﺪ ﻭﺃﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻭﺃﻋﺠ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﺗﻜﻔ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﺭ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﻯ ﺃ ﺟﻤﻞ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺴ ﺖ ﺃﻥ ﻛﻠﻤ ﺎﺗﻲ ﻟﻢ ﺗﻜ ﻦ ﻋ ﺎﺑ ﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗ ﺎﻟ ﺖ‪:‬‬ ‫ﻋ ﺎﺩﺕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺗﺴ ﺄﻟ ﻨﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﻗﺪ ﺃ ﺣ ّ‬
 ‫ﻦ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭﻟﻮ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺖ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺼﻔﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻲ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮﻫ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻤ ‍ًﺎ‬ ‫‪ -‬ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﺃﻏﻠ ﺐ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺍﻟﻠﻮﺍﺗﻲ ﻛ ّ‬
‫‪ -‬ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ ﺳﻤﲔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﺮﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻄﻮﻝ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﺎﻧﻮﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐ ﺎﻟ ﺐ ﻳﺠﻠﺴﻮﻥ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﻄ ﺎﻭﻟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺜ ﺎﻟ ﺜﺔ‪ ،‬ﻗﺮﻳ ﺒ ًﺎ ﻣ ﻦ ﺍﻟﺸﺮﻓﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗ ﺘﺬّﻛﺮﻳ ﻨﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﻗﻞ ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻃ ﺒ ﻴﻌﻲ ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﺛ ﻴ ﺎﺑ ًﺎ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺑ ﺎﻗﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺗﻠ ﺒ ﺲ ﻣ ﺎﻳﻮﻫ ًﺎ ﺃﺻﻔﺮ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﻻ ﺗ ﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﺃﻟﻮﺍﻥ ﺍﻟﻔﺴ ﺎﺗﲔ ؟ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣﺬﻳﺔ؟ ﺍ ﳊﻘ ﺎﺋ ﺐ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺁ ﺧﺮ‪.‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺗﺮﻳﺪﻧﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻓﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻷّﻧﻬ ﺎ ﺷﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺮﻭﻋﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﺃﻥ ﻳ ﻨﺴ ﺎﻫ ﺎ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﺍﻟ ﺘﻔ ﺘ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﻹﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺗﺴ ﺄﻟﻪ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻣﻐﺮﻳﺔ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻳ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒ ﻴ ﺒﻲ ؟ ﻫﻞ ﺗ ﺘﺬﻛﺮ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻫﻠﻮﺳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺣﻼﻡ‪ .‬ﻛ ﻴﻒ ﺃﺗﺬّﻛﺮ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃَﺭ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻙ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻋﺸﺮ ﺓ ﺃﻳ ﺎﻡ؟ ﻭﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺟﻤ ﻴﻠﺔ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺪﺭ ﺟﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻳ ﺘﺤّﺪﺙ‬
‫ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻟﺮﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺣ ﺘﻤ ًﺎ!‬
‫ﻭﻓﺠ ﺄ ﺓ ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﺑ ﺎﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻐ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﻋ ﻦ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺮﺃ ﺓ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃﺑﺤ ﺚ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ‍ﺎ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﺳ ﺘﻌﻤﻠ ﺖ ﺍﻟﻜﻠﻤﺔ ﺍ ﳋﻄ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﺃ ﺧﻄﻰﺀ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺑ ﺒﺴ ﺎﻃﺔ‪ ..‬ﺍﺳ ﺘﻬﻮﺗ ﻨﻲ !‬
‫‪ -‬ﺃ ﺣ ﺒ ﺒ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺇﺫﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺍ ﻵﻥ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺪ ّﻣﺮ ﺣ ﻴ ﺎﺗﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ‪ ..‬ﺑﺤﻖ ﺍﻟﺴﻤ ﺎﺀ ﺍﺗﺮﻙ ﺍﻟﺴﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﲢ ﺘﻘﺮ ﺍﻟﻌﻮﺍﻃﻒ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺗﻌ ﺘﺮﻑ ﺑﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺧ ﺎﺻﺔ ﺍﺫﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋﻮﺍﻃﻒ ﺇﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻏ ﻴﺮﻙ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻟﻮ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻋﻮﺍﻃﻔﻚ ﺃﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺟ ﻨﻮﻧﻚ ﺑﺮﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄّﻳﺔ ﺳﺨﺮﻳﺔ‪ ،‬ﺃﻱ ﺣﺪﻳ ﺚ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ..‬ﻳﺰﻋﺠﻚ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺗﺪﻋ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻗﻮﻝ‬
‫ﻛﻞ ﺷﻲ ‍ﺀ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﺮﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ؟‬
‫‪ -‬ﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ..‬ﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃ ﺧﻄ ﺄﺕ ﻭﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺖ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ!‬
‫‪ -‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﻋﺮﻓ ﺖ ﺍﺳﻤﻬ ﺎ؟ ﻫﻞ ﲢّﺪﺛ ﺖ ﻣﻌﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﻭﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻜﻤ ﺎ ؟‬
‫ﺳ ﺄﻟ ﺘ ﻨﻲ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ ﺑﻌﻮﺍﻃﻒ ﻭ ﺣ ﻨ ﺎﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺃﳌﺴﻬﻤ ﺎ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ ﻃﻮﺍﻝ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟﺸﻬﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺍﻧﻘﻀ ﺖ ﻣﺬ ﻛ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﻠ ﺖ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺍﻧﻬﻲ ﺍ ﳊﺪﻳ ﺚ ﻋ ﻦ ﺍﳌﻮﺿﻮﻉ‪:‬‬
‫‪ -‬ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳊﻘ ﻴﻘﺔ ﺍﺭﺩﺕ ﺃﻥ ﺃ ﻣ ﺘﺤ ﻦ ﺫﺍﻛﺮﺗﻜﻤ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺍﺑﺪًﺍ‪ .‬ﻻ ﺣ ﺐ ﻭﻻ ﺑﺤ ﺚ‪ ،‬ﻛﻞ ﻣ ﺎﻓﻲ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﺮ‪ ،‬ﺃﺭﺩﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺃ ﺧ ﺘ ﺒﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺃﻱ‬
‫ﺣّﺪ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘّﺬﻛﺮ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫﻞ ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ ﻧﻔﺴﻪ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﺘﺮﻙ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺬﺍﻛﺮ ﺓ ﺗﻔ ﺲ ﺍ ﻷﺛ ‍ﺮ!‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﺗﺼّﺪﻕ ﺭﺍﺩ ﻣ ﻴﻼ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺇﻳﻔ ﺎﻥ ﻓﻘﺪ ﺍﻧﺸﻐﻞ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻖ‪ ،‬ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻝ ﺑﻜﺮﺳ ﻴﻪ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮﺭﺍﺀ ﻭﺃ ﺧﺬ ﻳ ﺘﺤّﺪﺙ ﻣﻌﻪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭ ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ ﻟﻢ ﺃﲢّﺪﺙ ﻋ ﻦ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻣﻊ ﺃ ﺣ ‍ﺪ!‬
‫ﻗ ﺒﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺍﻟﻮﻗ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﻓّﻜﺮ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﺑﻠ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺑﺤ ﺜ ﺖ ﻋ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺣﻠﻤ ﺖ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﻭﻧﺤ ﻦ ﻧﺴ ﻴﺮ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻧﺤ ﻦ‬
‫ﻧﺴ ﺒ ﺢ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﺣﻠﻤ ﺖ ﻭﻧﺤ ﻦ ﻧ ﺘ ﻴﻪ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺤ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻋﻠﻰ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺣﻠﻤ ﺖ ﺍﻳﻀ ًﺎ ﺃّﻧ ﻨ ﺎ ﻣﻌ ًﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺃ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﻣﻈﻠﻤﺔ‪ ،‬ﻭﲢ ﺖ‬
‫ﺍﳌﻄﺮ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺣﻠﻤ ﺖ ﺃّﻧ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻗ ﺒﻮ ﺩﺍﻓﻰﺀ ﻳﻘﺪﻡ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺒ ﻴﺬ ﻭﺍ ﻷﺳﻤ ﺎﻙ ﺍﻟﺼﻐ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺗﻀﻊ ﺭﺃﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻋﻠﻰ ﻛ ﺘﻔﻲ‬
‫ﻭﺗﻀﺤﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺭﺃﻳ ﺘﻬ ﺎ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﺗ ﺒﻜﻲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺗﻌ ﺎﻧﻘ ﻨﻲ ﻭﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﻋﻈ ﺎ ﻣﻲ ﺗ ﺘﻬﺮﺱ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻻ ﺃ ﺣ ﺘﻤﻞ ﺃﻥ ﲤﺮ ﻟ ﻴﻠﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﺩﻭﻥ‬
‫ﺃﻥ ﺃﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪.‬‬
‫ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺬﻫ ﺎﺏ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻴﺴﺔ ﻓﻜ ﺎﻥ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﺳﺨﺮﻳﺔ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔّﻜﺮ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺇﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ!‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ ﻳﻮﻟﺪ ﻣ ﺌ ﺎﺕ ﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭﳝﻮﺕ ﻣ ﺌ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜ ﺜ ﻴﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺮﻛﻀﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﻀﺤﻜﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺠﻠﺴﻮﻥ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﻘ ﺎﻫﻲ ﻭﺍﳌﻄ ﺎﻋﻢ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺭﺍﺕ‪ ،‬ﻳ ﺘﻜﻠﻤﻮﻥ ﺑﺤﺰﻥ‪ ،‬ﺑﻔﺮﺡ‪ ،‬ﻳﺬﻫ ﺒﻮﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ‬
‫ﺟﻤ ﻴﻊ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻳﻔّﻜﺮﻭﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺤﻠﻤﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻳﺤ ﺒﻮﻥ ﻭﻳ ﺘﺰﻭ ﺟﻮﻥ‪ ..‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺎﻻﺕ ﺍﻻﻧ ﺘﺤ ﺎﺭ ﻭﺍ ﳉ ﻨﻮﻥ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ‪.‬‬

‫ﻲ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺩﺍ ﻣ ﺖ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﺃﺑﻌﺪ ﻣ ﺎﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻋ ﻦ ﺃﻥ ﻳﻠﻤﺴﻬ ﺎ‬

‫ﻣ ﻨﺬ ﺃﻥ ﻭﻃ ﺄﺕ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﻭﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺷ ﺒ ﺢ ﻳﺴ ﻴﻄﺮ ﻋﻠ ّ‬
 ‫ﺍﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﻳ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺑ ﺎﻃﻤ ﺌ ﻨ ﺎﻥ‪،‬ﻓ ﺎﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺳ ﺘﺮ ﻟﻜﻞ ﺷﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﻭﺳﺤ ﺎﺑﺔ ﺗﻐﻄﻲ ﺍﳌﺨﻄ ﺌﲔ ﻭﺍﳌﻬ ﺎﻧﲔ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﻳﺪﻓﻌﻬﻢ ﺿﺠﺮﻫ ﺎ ﻷﻥ ﻳ ﻨﺴﻮﺍ ﺃﻧﻔﺴﻬﻢ ﻓﻲ ﻗﺪﺡ ﺍﻭ ﻗ ﺒﻠﺔ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﳌﺴﺔ ﻳﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﻓّﻜﺮﺕ ﻓ ﻴﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺣ ﺎﻭﻟ ﺘﻪ‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻟﻠﻌ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪.‬‬
‫ﻛ ﺒﺮﺕ ﺁ ﻣ ﺎﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﺿﻊ ﻗﺪ ﻣﻲ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺭﺻ ﻴﻒ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ‪ .‬ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺍﻟﺰﻫﻮﺭ ﺍ ﳊﻤﺮﺍﺀ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﲢﻤﻠﻬ ﺎ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﺃﻭﻝ ﺑﺸﺮﻯ‪ .‬ﻭﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ‬
‫ﺃﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻬ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻐﺮﻓﺔ ﻋﺬﺑﺔ ﻓﻲ ﺣﻠﻤﻲ ﺍ ﳉﺪﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍﳌﻌ ﺎﺭﻙ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺋﺴﺔ ﺍﻟﺼ ﺎ ﻣ ﺘﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻭﻗﻌ ﺖ ﺑﲔ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ ﻭﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺃﻭًﻻ‪ ،‬ﺛﻢ ﻣﻊ‬
‫ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻓﻘﺪ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺃﺳ ﺒ ﺎﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺗ ﺘﻤﻄﻰ ﻓﻲ ﺩ ﻣ ﺎﺋﻲ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﺣ ﻴﻮﺍﻧ ﺎﺕ ﺳﺠ ﻴ ﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃ ﺣﺰﻥ ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻋ ﻨﺪ ﻣ ﺎ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺑ ﺎﻭﻻ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣ ﻴﺮﺍ‬
‫ﻼ ﻓﻲ ﻫﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺤﻄﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﺋﻬﺔ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﻫﻲ ﺗﺬﻫ ﺐ ﻭﺗﻌﻮﺩ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻣ ﺜﻞ ﻣﺴ ﺎﻓﺮ ﻻ ﻳ ﺘﻮﻗﻒ ﻃﻮﻳ ً‬
‫ﺃﻳ ﻦ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ؟‬
‫ﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺑﺤﻠﻖ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮ ﻩ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺑّﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺍﺭﺍﻫ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻟ ﻦ ﻳﻄﻮﻝ ﺑﺤ ﺜﻲ‪ ..‬ﻭﻫ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺇﺫﺍ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻘ ﻴ ﻨ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻓﻠ ﻦ ﻧﺸﻌﺮ ﺑ ﺎ ﳋﻮﻑ‪ ،‬ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻥ‬ ‫ﻋﻠ ّ‬
‫ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﲢﻤﻲ ﺳﻜ ﺎﻧﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺗﺪﺍﻓﻊ ﻋ ﻨﻬﻢ ﺑﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﻓﺬ ﺓ‪ .‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﻴ ﺚ ﻳﻜﻮﻥ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪًﺍ ﺍﻭ ﻣﻌﺰﻭًﻻ‪ ،‬ﻓﻼ‬
‫ﻳﺴ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ‪ ،‬ﺳﻮﻯ ﺍﻥ ﻳﻐﻠﻒ ﺧﻮﻓﻪ ﺑﻬﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺼﻤ ﺖ ﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺋ ﺲ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﻟ ﻨﻈﺮﺍﺕ ﺍﻻﺳ ﻴ ﺎﻧﺔ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﺋ ﺒﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﻭﺝ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﳌﻠ ﻴ ﺌﺔ ﺑ ﺎﻟ ﻨﺪﺍﺀ ﻓﻲ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﺰﻭ ﺟﺔ!‬
‫ﲔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺎﳌﻘﻬﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﻟﻲ ﻣﻘﻬ ﺎﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﻭﻻ ﺑّﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺄﺗﻲ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ‬ ‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺃ ﺟﻠ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﻘ ﺎﻫﻲ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺃﻟﺰﻡ ﻧﻔﺴﻲ ﺑ ﺎ ﳉﻠﻮﺱ ﻓﻲ ﻣﻘﻬﻰ ﻣﻌ ّ‬
‫ﻟﻢ ﲡﻠ ﺲ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﻘﻬﻰ ﻓﺴﻮﻑ ﺗﺬﻫ ﺐ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﻤ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﻟﻮ ﺟ ﺌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻭﻗ ﺘﲔ ﻣﺨ ﺘﻠﻔﲔ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺎ ﻷﻓﻀﻞ ﺍﻥ ﺃﺑﻘﻰ ﻓ ﺘﺮ ﺓ ﻣ ﻦ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺰ ﻣ ﻦ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜﻲ ﺃﺭﻗ ﺐ ﺍ ﳋ ﺎﺭ ﺟﲔ ﻭﺍﻟﺪﺍ ﺧﻠﲔ‪ ،‬ﻟﻌّﻠﻬ ﺎ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﺑ ﻴ ﻨﻬﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﲢ ﺐ ﺍ ﻷﻓﻼﻡ‪ ،‬ﻫﺬﺍ ﻣ ﺎ ﺃﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﻩ‪ .‬ﻟﺴ ﺖ ﻣﺨﻄ ﺌ ًﺎ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺳ ﻴ ﻨﻤ ﺎ ﻭﺫﻫ ﺒ ﺖ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻏ ﻴﺮﻫ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻻ ﺗ ﺘ ﻨﺰ ﻩ ﻣﻊ ﺍ ﻷﻃﻔ ﺎﻝ ﻓﻲ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺔ ؟ ﺃﻻ ﺗ ﻨﻈﺮ ﺍﻟﻰ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻤ ﺎﺛ ﻴﻞ ﻓﻲ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ؟‬
‫ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺭ ﺣﻠ ﺘﻲ ﺍ ﳉﺪﻳﺪ ﺓ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ‪ .‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺗﺴ ﺘﻬﻮﻳ ﻨﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻨﺴ ﺎﺀ ﺇّﻻ ﲟﻘﺪﺍﺭ ﻣ ﺎ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻪ ﺍﻟﻮﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﻦ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺒﻪ‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻗ ﺘﺮﺏ ﻣ ﻦ ﺧﻼﻟﻪ ﻟﻠ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃﺗﻄّﻠﻊ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍﻟﻮ ﺟﻮ ﻩ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗ ﺄﻛﺪﺕ ﻭﺍﺻﻠ ﺖ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﻲ ﺩﻭﻥ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺗﺮﻙ ﻭﺭﺍﺋﻲ‬
‫ﻣ ﺎ ﻳﺸﻲ ﺑﺮﻏ ﺒ ﺘﻲ !‬
‫ﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺎﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﺃ ﻣﺮ ﻋﻠ ﻴﻪ ﺍ ﻵﻥ‪ ،‬ﻣّﺮﺕ ﻓﻮﻗﻊ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺁﻻﻑ ﺍﳌﺮﺍﺕ‪ .‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﺃﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻹﻟﻪ ) ﺃﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﺃﺭّﺩﺩ ﺍﺳﻢ ﺍﻹﻟﻪ‬
‫ﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ‪..‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﺩﻭﻥ ﻭﻋﻲ( ﻭﻫﺬﺍ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻤ ﺜ ﺎﻝ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻭﺿﻊ ﻣﺠﺪﺩًﺍ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎ ﺣﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﻻ ﺑّﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺗﻜﻮﻥ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻗﺪ ﺭﺃﺗﻪ‪ ..‬ﻟﻜ ﻦ‬
‫ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﻛ ﺎﻥ ﺫﻟﻚ ﺃﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻹﻟﻪ ؟ ﻭﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴ ﻨﻤ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻱ ﺩﺍﺭ؟ ﻫﻞ ﻳﺼﺪﻕ ﺃ ﺣﺪ ﺍﻥ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺕ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﻭﺍ ﳊﺪﺍﺋﻖ‪ ،‬ﻭﺍﳌﻘ ﺎﻫﻲ‪،‬‬
‫ﻭﻛﻞ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣ ﺎﻛ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗ ﺘﺴﻊ ﻵﻻﻑ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ‪ ،‬ﻻ ﺃﺻّﺪﻕ ﳊﻈﺔ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﺍﻥ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺄﺗﻬ ﺎ! ﺃﻧ ﺘ ﺖ ﺇﺫﻥ‪ .‬ﺗﻮﻗﻔ ﺖ‪ .‬ﺟﻠﺴ ﺖ‪،‬‬
‫ﻟﻜ ﻦ ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﺃّﻳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻹﻟﻪ ؟ ﺃﺭﻳﺪ ﺃﻥ ﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﻣ ﺘﻰ ﺟ ﺎﺀﺕ‪ .‬ﻫﻞ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﻭ ﺣ ﻴﺪ ﺓ؟ ﻣﻊ ﺻﺪﻳﻘﺔ؟ ﻣﻊ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ؟‬
‫ﻄﻬ ﺎ ؟ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﺷﺮ؟ ﺍﻟﺴ ﺎﺑﻊ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺸﺮﻭﻥ؟ ﺍﻟ ﺘ ﺎﺳﻊ ؟ ﻣ ﻦ‬ ‫ﻭﺍﻟ ﺒ ﺎﺻ ﺎﺕ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﺮﺍ ﻣ ﺎﺕ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﻭ ﺟﺪﺕ؟ ﻭﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺃﻱ ﺧﻂ ﻫﻮ ﺧ ّ‬
‫ﻳﺪّﻟ ﻨﻲ ؟‬
‫ﻓﻲ ﺍ ﳉ ﺒﻞ ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃ ﺣ ﺲ ﺃﻧﻔ ﺎﺳﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﻌﻄﺮ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻧﻈﺮﺍﺗﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺨ ﺘﺮﻕ ﺍﻟﺰ ﺟ ﺎﺝ‪ ،‬ﻣﺸ ﻴ ﺘﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﻫ ﻨ ﺎ ﻓ ﺄﺭﻳﺪ ﺍﻥ ﺃﻛ ﺘﺸﻒ ﻃﺮﻳﻘﺔ‬
‫ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺑﻬ ﺎ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟ ﻴﻬ ﺎ!‬
‫ﻛ ﻨ ﺖ ﺃﺗﺼﻔ ﺢ ﺍ ﳉﺮﺩﻳﺔ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻭﺃﻋﺮﻑ ﺍﻥ ﺍ ﳉﺮﻳﺪ ﺓ ﻧﻔﺴﻬ ﺎ ﲤّﺮ ﲢ ﺖ ﻋ ﻴ ﻨﻲ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ .‬ﺭﺃﻳ ﺖ ﺃﻋﺪﺍﺩًﺍ ﻣ ﻦ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍ ﳉﺮﻳﺪ ﺓ‬
‫ﻣﻊ ﺯﻭ ﺟﻬ ﺎ‪ .‬ﻭﺇﺫﺍ ﻛ ﺎﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻘﺮﺃﻫ ﺎ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﻓﻤ ﺎﺫﺍ ﺗﻘﺮﺃ ؟ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻴ ﺎﺳﺔ ؟ ﺃ ﺧ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻌ ﺎﻟﻢ؟ ﺃ ﺧ ﺒ ﺎﺭ ﺍﻟﻔ ﻦ ﻭﺍﻟﻄﻼﻕ ﻭﺍﻻﻧ ﺘﺤ ﺎﺭﺍﺕ ؟‬
‫ﻣ ﻦ ﻳﺮﺷﺪﻧﻲ ﻟﻄﺮﻳﻘﺔ ﺃﺳ ﺘﻄ ﻴﻊ ﺃﻥ ﺃﺻﻞ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ؟‬
‫ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﺗﺼﻮﺭﺍ‪ ،‬ﻓﻲ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﻧﺸ ﺎﻫﺪ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻥ‪ .‬ﻧﻘﺮﺃ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍ ﳉﺮﻳﺪ ﺓ‪ ،‬ﻭﻛ ﺜ ﻴﺮًﺍ ﻣ ﺎﻧﺸ ﺎﻫﺪ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﻔﻠ ﻴﻢ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ‬
‫ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺍﺭﻉ ﺍﻟﺮﺋ ﻴﺴ ﻴﺔ ﻓﻼ ﺑّﺪ ﺍﻥ ﲤّﺮ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ‪ ،‬ﺍﺫﺍ ﻟﻢ ﻳﻜ ﻦ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮﻡ‪ ،‬ﻓﻤﺮ ﺓ ﻛﻞ ﻳﻮ ﻣﲔ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻧ ﺎ ﺃﻓﻌﻞ ﻧﻔ ﺲ ﺍﻟﺸﻲﺀ‪ ،‬ﺃﻗﻞ‬
‫ﻣ ﻨﻬ ﺎ‪ ،‬ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ‪ ،‬ﻟﻜ ﻨ ﻨ ﺎ ﳕﺮ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺷ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﻓﺸ ﻴ ﺌ ًﺎ ﺑﺪﺃﺕ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺗﺼ ﺒ ﺢ ﻟﻲ ﻋﺪﻭًﺍ‪ .‬ﺗ ﺒّﺪﺩﺕ ﺍ ﻷ ﺣﻼﻥ‪ ،‬ﺃ ّﻣ ﺎ ﺍ ﳋ ﻴﻤﺔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺒ ﻴﺮ ﺓ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺼّﻮﺭﺕ ﺍﻥ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺗﻘ ﻴﻤﻬ ﺎ‬
‫ﻓﻮﻗﻬ ﺎ ﻟﻜﻲ ﺗﻈﻞ ﺍﻟ ﻨ ﺎﺱ‪ ،‬ﻓ ﺄﺻ ﺒﺤ ﺖ ﻋﺮﺍﺀ ﺷ ﺎ ﺣ ﺒ ًﺎ‪ .‬ﺍﻟﺸﻮﺭﺍﻉ ﺍﳌﺰﺩ ﺣﻤﺔ ﻓﻲ ﻛﻞ ﻭﻗ ﺖ ﻓ ﺎﺭﻏﺔ‪ .‬ﺩﻭﺭ ﺍﻟﺴ ﻨﻤ ﺎ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ‬
‫ﺗﺴ ﺘﻘ ﺒﻞ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﻭﺗﻮﺩﻋﻬﻢ ﻣﺮﺍﺕ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟ ﻴﻮﻡ ﺍﻟﻮﺍ ﺣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻟﻢ ﺗﻌﺪ ﺃﻛ ﺜﺮ ﻣ ﻦ ﺻ ﺎﻻﺕ ﺑ ﺎﺭﺩ ﺓ ﺗ ﺘﻼﻋ ﺐ ﻓ ﻴﻬ ﺎ ﺍﻟﺮﻳ ﺎﺡ ﻭﺍ ﻷﺷ ﺒ ﺎﺡ‪.‬‬
‫ﻭﺍﳌﻘ ﺎﻫﻲ ﻭﺍ ﳉﺮﺍﺋﺪ ﻭﺍﻟ ﺘﻠﻔﺰﻳﻮﻥ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﻱ ﺷﻲﺀ ﺁ ﺧﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﻓﻘﺪ ﻣﻌ ﻨ ﺎ ﻩ !‬
‫ﻫﻞ ﺍﻧ ﺘﻬ ﺖ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺍ ﻷﺑﺪ؟ ﺃﻻ ﳝﻜ ﻦ ﻟﻠﻤﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺍﻥ ﺗ ﺘﺤﻮﻝ ﺇﻟﻰ ﻛ ﺎﺋ ﻦ ﺭ ﺣ ﻴﻢ ﻣﺮ ﺓ ﻭﺍ ﺣﺪ ﺓ ﻭﺗﺪﻓﻊ ﻟ ﻴﻠ ﻴ ﺎﻥ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺷ ﺎﺭﻉ‪،‬‬
‫ﺇﻟﻰ ﺣﺪﻳﻘﺔ‪ ،‬ﺇﻟﻰ ﻣﻘﻬﻰ؟‬
‫ﺃﻳ ّﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ ﺃﻧ ﺖ ﺗﻠﺪﻳ ﻦ ﺍﻟ ﺒﺸﺮ ﺛﻢ ﺗﻘ ﺘﻠ ﻴ ﻨﻬﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﺨﻠﻘﲔ ﺍ ﳊ ﺐ ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗّﻜﻮﻥ ﻭﻛ ﺒﺮ ﻭﺃﺻ ﺒ ﺢ ﺟﺤ ﻴﻤ ًﺎ ﺗﺨ ﻨﻘ ﻴ ﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﲤﺰﻗ ﻴ ﻨﻪ‬
‫ﺩﻭﻥ ﺭ ﺣﻤﺔ‪ .‬ﺃﻧ ﺖ‪ ،‬ﺃﻳ ّﺘﻬ ﺎ ﺍﳌﺪﻳ ﻨﺔ‪ ،‬ﺗﻌﺰﻓﲔ ﺍﳌﻮﺳ ﻴﻘﻰ‪ ،‬ﺗﻄ ﺒﻌﲔ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘ ﺐ‪ ،‬ﺣ ﺘﻰ ﺇﺫﺍ ﺗﺸ ﺒﻊ ﺍﻻﻧﺴ ﺎﻥ ﺑﺤﻀ ﺎﺭﺗﻚ‪ ،‬ﻭﺃﺭﺍﺩ ﺃﻥ‬
 ‫ﻳﻔﻌﻞ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﺗﻘﻮﻝ ﺍﻟﻜ ﺘ ﺐ ﺃﻭ ﻣ ﺜﻠﻤ ﺎ ﻳﺮﻯ ﻋﻠﻰ ﺍﻟﺸ ﺎﺷﺔ ﺳﺨﺮﺕ! ﻫﺰﺃﺕ ﺑﻬﺬ ﻩ ﺍﳌﺨﻠﻮﻗ ﺎﺕ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﺗﺸ ﺘﻬﻲ ﺍﻥ ﺗﺮّﺩﺩ ﻭﺭﺍﺀﻙ‬
‫ﺑﻌﺾ ﺍ ﻷ ﻣﻮﺭ ﺍﻟ ﺘﻲ ﻋﻠﻤ ﺘﻬ ﺎ!‬

‫ﻟﻢ ﺗ ﺘﻢ ﺑﻌﺪ‪.‬‬