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Complete Lying there, taking my last breaths, the past flooded back to me. Strange how clear it was, my journey toward this moment. My dream had finally come true. My life finally finding the purpose it’s been searching for. I had always felt different, even when small and insignificant. Honey blond as a child, my hair grew darker, finally settling on a light brown. My eyes had always been a piercing blue. The only change was my growing lack of innocence. My skin was always ivory, never able to keep a tan. My smile looked welcoming, despite the pain and hurt hid behind it. My parents had separated early in my life. I do not have any memory of them actually together. Divorcing when I was eight, my body began to change. I was always thing and playful, but I began plumping out and energy never stayed with me long. My mom had met someone after the divorce, and she began a new life. I was still trapped in the old life, never wanting to be in the new one. Depression had come to me, and I tried to remain isolated. I searched, trying to find something to grab onto. I finally found comfort in books. Not just any books, but the Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice. As I read page after page, I found comfort among the characters. They seemed real, full of life. Containing history and purpose. I came to realize, I didn’t just love reading about them, I wanted to be them. Everything about them was enthralling. Their features, their lives, their purpose, their very existence. Dreams filled my head, night after night. I belonged there with them. I knew they were only characters, but I knew there had to be real ones. I was waiting for them. My dreams progressed, and I began having reoccurring deja’ vu. Every night I would dream about something that happened the next day. Simple things, nothing of significance. I wondered where this new ability had come from. A few years passed, and things progressed. I began to write my own stories and poems. Mostly about vampires. Usually about a lonely girl who searched for the gift. I laid in my bed every night, asking in my mind, for them to find me and save me from the hell I live in. Morning after morning, I awoke, still human, still lonely. My parents grew concerned of my enchantment with the books, and took them from me. I cried as if someone had ripped my heart out. How could they take away the only thing that gave me meaning? My feeling for my parents has never recovered from that experience. I continued to write, trying to keep my dreams alive. Trying to will myself into their existence. I would lie on the ground at night and ask them to come and save me. I waited each night, until my eyes could barely stay open. I went to bed every night, disappointment surrounding me. At school, I was able to keep up appearances. I did well in school, and I had a close group of friends. None of them knew my secret, nor would they ever. It was mine, and I didn’t want anyone else to have it. At school, I acted as a normal teenager, but once home in my bedroom, my true self emerged. Toward the end of my sixteenth year, I even began dating. He had been my friend, but it had progressed. We were close, but I never shared my secret with him. We were together for a couple years. During that time, I had given him my innocence. Even though I still felt different, my nights of asking for the dark gift had ceased. I was worried that I would be no longer wanted, now that I was spoiled. The relationship finally ended, as we grew apart. During our relationship, my déjà vu had disappeared and I felt part of me had gone. After the relationship, I continued to live life as best I could, trying not to think about the life I would never have. One night, as I readied myself for another dreamless sleep, my body began to tingle. I pushed the sensation aside and settled for sleep. That night I had a dream, a very vivid dream. The dream that I had so long ago hoped to have. I was walking in the moonlight near some water. The breeze was gently blowing, but it was warm and comforting. I stopped along the water’s edge and looked out into the darkness. As my eyes began to focus, I began seeing a form. It radiated, but the glow came from the inside, not the moonlight. A moment of concern hit me, but I was more intrigued. What was this thing coming gently toward me? I thought about running, I though about yelling, I even thought of going toward it. The thoughts disappeared as it moved closer and closer to me. A face began to emerge from the form. The eyes were a piercing, shining gold. The complexion was pale and flawless. Long hair swept around the face, hard to tell
the color by the moonlight. It was not black, of that I was sure. Many things had swum through my head as I watched this figure come toward me. So many questions. It stopped about ten feet from me, and stared. No emotion showed on this face of stone. I managed to clear my head for one second. “Where have you been?” It was all I could ask. I awoke with a start. The dream had seemed so real. I closed my eyes, trying to picture what I had just seen. I only saw the eyes, those golden eyes. Was I right? Had a slight hint of curiosity hid behind them? I closed my eyes again, the eyes flashed in my mind again. I was sure that the eyes look curious. The face had been motionless, but the eyes. There was something in them. My heart began to flutter. Days passed, those eyes still fresh in my memory. I went to sleep each night, anticipating seeing those eyes again. Each morning I awoke, disappointed with the reality of no new dreams. Nothing to reassure me that I had actually witnessed that image. Was I finally going insane? After so many dreams, visions that I had had. Had I finally decided to imagine something so I didn’t feel so alone? This was silly. I was not insane. I kept reassuring myself. I had seen this vision, of course, it had been a dream, but it was real enough. Had it been a dream, or had I finally made contact? Through all my years of trying to find something, was it finally within my grasp? I could not allow myself to be sure. The rational part of me kept reminding me it was just a dream. People made their wishes come true in dreams all the time. This was nothing new. Nevertheless, why now? I pondered this question. I tried not to focus on this dream; I tried to continue my life. At night, when I laid down to sleep, I closed my eyes and saw those golden eyes. This was just a memory, no new dreams. A year passed, I continued to act as normal as I could. I dated on and off, finding nothing to interesting to hold my attention. I worked and went to school, socializing with friends on a somewhat regular basis. I had managed to almost convince myself that it had only been a dream. Something short that comforted me, if only for a small time. It couldn’t have been real. I had received no further evidence. It had only been a play on my dreams. A crude and absurd vision. Something that had shaken my reality. I was determined to forget it, to move on and live the life that I had. I graduated high school, and continued to work. I began attending a local community college; it had seemed everything was the way it was suppose to be. During the summer of my first year, I made plans with some friends. We went to Florida, visiting friends that we had went to high school with. It was good, and I had a blast. Before the summer was over, I decided to go to the mountains. I found the mountains calm and serene. I loved going there. I was always able to clear my head and enjoy the surroundings. One night, my ex had called me. It confused me. He had moved on, and I didn’t understand what his purpose had been in contacting me. Our conversation had progressed, and it ended in an argument. It was about nothing, but I had hung up feeling distressed. I needed to clear my head, so I went for a walk. It was night; the stars were twinkling in the sky. The moon was full and round. I walked through the woods, as I had so many times before. I loved being there. The sound of the river pulled me closer. I love water. I loved being near it, to feel it, to see its changing current. I found the large rock, where I usually sat to enjoy this scene. The water was amazing. The moon shone on the surface, rippling as the current pushed past it. I was calm, the fight almost completely out of my head. I sat there for at least an hour, taking in all the surroundings. It was so pleasant here. I always hated to leave when I visited. The weather was warm and I enjoyed the ability to not be uncomfortable. I was sure it was late, so I stood to leave. As I did so, I walked toward the water’s edge. The moon waved at me from the reflection in the water. A slight smile came to my lips. I began to walk back toward the cabin, when I noticed something on the other side of the river. I couldn’t quite make it out; it wasn’t close enough to distinguish any clear shape. A part of me thought to leave, fearing that this may be a wild animal I had not encountered here before. I readied myself to leave, looking out across the river again. A flash of memory came to me. The water, the moon, this seemed as if it was the same scene from my long ago, almost forgotten dream. I tried to remain rational. Of course, I was imagining this. It had only been a dream. It was the shape again; it appeared to be coming closer. My mind began racing with possibilities of what this could be. The shape became clearer. A face began to emerge, and I stared in disbelief. The eyes began to glow, golden. I wanted to run, to look away, but I couldn’t. I wanted to know. The face became clearer. The same face I had so long ago seen. As it approached, I remained motionless. Unable to blink, unable to think. It stopped ahead of me, and our eyes met completely. Those same golden eyes. I was sure of the curiosity behind them now. Of course, I hadn’t imagined it. The feeling was there. I
was afraid to speak, afraid to make this vision leave me again. I was sure this was no dream. I prepared myself to speak. “Where have you been?” The same question I had asked in my dream. The eyes stared at me. I wondered if it would speak to me. The body didn’t move, but the mouth opened. I stared in anticipation. “I have been waiting for you.” The statement was so matter of fact. As if I need not have asked the question. My rationality tried to push at me, but I held it back. I would not let it take this from me. I readied myself to speak again, but was unable to do so. It wanted to say more. “Do you remember my?” The question was so different. Had I known this thing before? Then I thought, of course, the dream. “I do.” I said it such certainty. It seems as if the eyes softened a little. “Your answer pleases me.” The image drew closer to me, only now five feet from me. I could see it clearer. It was a female, she was beautiful. Almost too beautiful. I had to blink. I opened my eyes quickly, hoping that the image hadn’t disappeared. She was still there, looking at me with curiosity again. “Do you know me?” I asked childishly. “Of course.” She said so surely. “I have been watching you, waiting for you to find me.” She was so confident. Questions began racing through my head. “I have not left you. Even when dreams did not come, I was there. I am very patient. I knew you would come.” She had said with such compassion. Her face was still solid, only her eyes, those golden eyes, showed emotion. I could not look away. She knew me, and I knew her. Understanding seemed to circle around us. She was what I had been waiting for, searching for. I stood there, unsure of what action should come next. Would we stand there and talk more? Does she want me to follow her? Would she want to come back to the cabin with me? As if she was reading my thoughts, she moved closer. Only a few feet from me now. Her figure became much clearer, and I finally realized the rest of the beauty. Her figure was full, yet thin. Her arms pale white to match her face. She was in a dark colored dress, which moved gently in the breeze. She looked more like a ghost than something real. The eyes were what made me truly believe this was real. I shifted my stance. “I would like you to follow me. I have things to tell you.” Her voice was certain, but kind. The intelligence in her voice made me trust her, along with those golden eyes. She turned and began walking along the edge of the river. I had no idea where we would go, but I was certain that I wanted to go nowhere else but there. Her pace was slow, leading. I wondered if the pace was for my benefit. A slight turn of the head and a look told me that I had guessed right. Deeper we went into the woods. I had no clue where we were. The river was behind us now, and I dared no look back. My curiosity burned deep in my body. I wanted the answers that she would give me. What happened after that, I did not care. I would finally be able to understand completely. In the distance, I began to see another glowing. Something orange, flickering. I quickly realized it was a fire. How had that gotten there? We moved toward the glowing, the crackling of the fire became clear. We finally reached the clearing, where the fire was. Large stones laid around, not in a circle, but the contained some uniform. The fire was in the center. The warmth making me realize that a chill had come across me. I inched closer to the fire, sitting on the rock closest to it. The warmth licked at my face. I wore only jeans, a t-shirt, and flip-flops. The chill cut through me, and I shivered. Suddenly I realized I had lost sight of her. Had she left? Her face emerged from the shadow at the other side of the fire. No, she had not left me. She seemed to acknowledge my concern and moved slightly closer. Careful not to get too near the fire, barely in the light of it. There was a voice in my head. “May I talk to you like this? I’m not use to physical communication.” I shook my head in agreement. Her eyes softened, she was pleased. “I have waited long for you. Humans like you do not come often. When I found you, I knew you were special. Even at such an early age, you knew it too. So intelligent for someone so young. Are you pleased that I found you?” Shock hit me. Could I be nothing but pleased? She understood my expression, or could she read my thoughts? “I cannot read your thoughts; I am able to understand expressions very well.” I had tried so long to hide my true feelings behind my face. Had I failed to do this, despite my efforts? She was patient. She let me think on this before she spoke in my head again. “I realize you have many questions. I will answer them. You need not be concerned with that. I feel that I should begin by telling you about myself. That may answer some of those questions.” I shook my head. The fire made her eyes glow more golden. I could see that her dress was a deep purple, so complimentary to her pale skin. Her hair was a woodsy brown, like the color of cherry wood. She was so beautiful. “I am five hundred years old. Created in the day when kings and queens were common. My human age was nineteen. I was too old for my age. More mature than most, of course times were different.
Hardships were common; it made people grow up quickly. My human family decided to go to this new world, thinking life would be different. They booked passage on a ship, and we sailed a month later. Life on board the ship was tough, and many died. I, too, was meant to die, but I didn’t know this at that moment. I had caught the eye of someone who had made plans for me.” I settled myself on the rock, pulling my knees toward me. I wanted to hear everything. I wanted to know. Her voice filled my head once again. “It was night time; we still had almost a month left until we reached shore. Deaths kept happening every day, no one though anything of it. I was standing to the side, when I felt a chill run through me. It was not uncomfortable, just shocking. I had not seen him until I turned to leave. He stood there, beautiful and pale. Long blond hair and grand clothes. He was magnificent. I had gasped when he surprised me. He had smiled, and I was enchanted.” “He grabbed my hand, it was ice cold. A shiver passed through me. He smiled at me and led me forward. He told me that I was beyond my years, that he had searched for me. I was so curious. He told me that the must tell me his story; it had been so many years. I could only stare and listen. He told me that he had been alone so long, that he was pleased to find me. He was four hundred and twenty five. Twenty-five of those being human years. I was quite shocked by this, but I could not distrust him. He seemed so full of truth and understanding.” “He told me of his travels and his search for others like him. He had been savagely attacked and awoken to what he was. He had found many like him, but he didn’t like them. They were savage and uncaring of the innocent. He told me of his life, and asked me a question I will never forget. He wanted to know if I would choose to be with him. I was afraid, but more curious. I had many questions, and he was so patient. In the end, I made my decision. He gave me his gift, and we became companions.” “The hunger was unbearable at first. He showed me what to do, and more deaths happened on the ship. I had visited my parents that first night, giving them a silent farewell as they slept. I would never see them again. He and I remained hidden during the day, taking refuge in the storage cabins. He showed me how to survive off the rats when we were not around humans. It wasn’t pleasant, but it was enough. I was pleased that I didn’t have to take a life if I didn’t want to. He understood my humanity.” “We finally reach the new world, and stepped out to our new life together. It was not hard to be with him. He was kind and patient. I enjoyed his company very much. Unknown to us, our kind existed in this new world too. They were much more savage than the others were. He disliked this, and we distanced ourselves from them. We lived in a cave. The cold did not bother us, and it kept us hidden from the sun. We feasted entirely on animals. Our lives were peaceful, and he told me all he knew.” “It happened one day that we stumbled upon some savages. He tried to communicate with them, telling them of the way we lived. They did not want to hear him. We had gone back to our cave; I had brought back a deer with me. He decided to go search for a buffalo, his favorite. I remained behind. While feeding, I had a feeling hit me. It felt as if someone was piercing my heart. I quickly got up and began searching for him. I followed his scent to a clearing beside a stream. His body lay there in pieces. Bears had already come to claim his parts. I shrieked with grief. My companion was dead. I quickly finished off the bears that dared to touch his remains. I picked up the pieces left, and dug a hole to put them in. I placed large rocks on top, making sure that nothing else would disturb him. I turned my attention to the savages who had done this. They were not hard to find, the blood was still fresh on their hands.” “I didn’t think, I just reacted. There were four of them. My rage was enough, and left with only one bite mark. They were dead and in pieces. Bears came to claim them, and I did nothing but watch. They deserved a fate worse than this, but I could do no more. I was alone. The pain slowly subsided, and I searched for a new life. I soon found one on a ranch. The animals did not like me at first, but I was able to persuade them. It seemed I had a gift to calm animals, maybe even communicate with them.” “The ranchers were curious about my only wanting to work at night, but they also liked it. I could watch over the animals while they slept. Any predators that came around, I quickly finished off. It was a good life. I was still lonely, but I knew that I would find someone, someday. Life continued, and the ranch prospered. Some of the men were moving south, taking some animals with them. They asked me to join them, and I agreed. I slept in the covered wagon during the day, and watched over the animals at night. It was an even trade for everyone. I found that I only needed to feed once every week. As long as I fed well, then my hunger was controlled. The ranchers were nice, but I could tell that they were a little smitten with me. So when we arrived at our location, I bid them farewell. They were disappointed, but they had never thought I would stay forever.” “So I traveled around the south, until I finally settled on a little town in the mountains. A gold rush had hit, and I was taking advantage. I acquired a lot during this time. I worked alone, in a special spot I
found. I cashed in some of my findings and had a house built. I bought beautiful dresses and other things. Things were very comfortable. I tried to stay away from the public most of the time. Only going into town when I needed something. I even went to a play occasionally. It was a pleasant life.” “Hundreds of years past. I kept to myself, only venturing out to the nearby town once a year. If I needed something before then, I would travel a greater distance. It was not hard, and it could be done so quickly. I had pondered from time to time about others like me. I knew they were out there, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to meet them.” “One night, I decided to go to the opera. I loved music, and I had purchased a private box. The box next to me was usually filled with half drunken humans, not able to fully appreciate the opera. It usually annoyed me. This night, however, the box only contained two males. Two non-human males. We exchanged a glance, but stayed and enjoyed the show. After the show ended, I quickly made my way to the exit. I began traveling home. It wasn’t long before I knew that I was being followed. I did not want to fight. I turned to face the darkness, ready for a confrontation.” “They slowly came out of the shadows, both carrying smiles on their faces. I was caught off guard, maybe a fight would not happen. They came toward me, and I just stood there. ‘Greetings, my good lady. It seems that we are not the only one’s that have a love of the theatre. I was quite surprised by your presence here. I am intrigued to know where you have been.’ I stood there puzzled. I wasn’t sure exactly what they wanted to know.” ‘“I come to the theatre often; it is I who am curious as to your presence here. Are you new?’ They looked at one another. ‘Shall we travel to my hotel, so that we may get acquainted?’ I was wary of them. I was curious, but I could not trust them.” “’Forgive me for not introducing ourselves. I am John and this is my friend George. We have recently moved here.’ I was calmed a little, but I could not relax completely. ‘I am Tianna. I have been here for quite some time.’ That was all I was willing to say at that moment. They looked at each other and walked closer. Their features became clearer. John had long brown hair and deep brown eyes, with just a touch of red to them. His features were perfect and he dressed in his best. George had short auburn hair. He too had deep brown eyes with a hint of red. I was aware of why their eyes were that color. They fed off humans, not animals. This caught me off guard, and I stepped back.” “They looked at one another, but continued forward. ‘You need not be afraid of us. We will not harm you. We are only curious about finding you. We’ve met only a few others like us.’ They seemed sincere. ‘What is it that you would like to know?’ It was simple question. ‘How is it that you stay here amongst all these people without causing a problem?’ I’m sure they were talking about my feeding habits. I smiled at them. ‘I do not live in town, but that means nothing. I do not feed off humans. I only feed off animals.’ They look at each other, full of surprise.” “’I have heard of such things, but I never thought that it would be enough.’ ‘It is. I am quite satisfied. I would ask that you refrain from feeding in town. I enjoy being able to visit the theatre.’ They approached me, only standing a few feet from me. ‘Shall we travel to our hotel? We have much to discuss.’ I agreed, remaining very wary. The hotel was grand, very upper class. We made our way to the room, and sat in the parlor. I sat on a chair, while they sat on a sofa across from me. We looked at each other for awhile, but there were things to be said.” “’ Where is it that you live?’ I sat back. ‘I live a few miles from here. In the woods away from others. I enjoy it, and the wildlife is plentiful.’ They contemplated my words. ‘And you say this life is satisfying. Feeding off animals sustains your hunger? I find that fascinating.’ ‘It’s quite simple. I have taken no human life since I came to the new world. It has been hundreds of years. It is not hard to get use to.’ They smiled at me. ‘You are very advanced, and I would enjoy learning more of this new way. I thought that only savages would be able to live off animals. I thought wrong. Would you consider our companionship?’ I contemplated this. They seemed so eager to learn.” “’How old are you?’ It was a simple question. ‘I am just over 100, and George is going on 70. May I ask your age?’ He was quite nice about it. ‘I am 359.’ They shook their heads. I had wisdom they were searching for. We talked for many hours. I really enjoyed them. In the end, we decided to stay together, and they moved into my home. I taught them how to live off animals. They both did well. I was quite happy.” “It happened many years later, that I had had a vision. The vision was of a girl, lonely and in search of something. I felt a complete sense of urgency to help her. She was amazing, and deserved the gift I had to offer. I did not know when I would see her, but I knew she would find me when she was ready. Here you are. Ryanne, the beautiful curious human. One of many years beyond her mortality. I am pleased to finally meet you.”
I couldn’t grasp this. She had had a vision. A vision of me, years before I was even born. Had my life always been lost from the beginning? She looked at me as though she knew my exact thoughts. “It is your choice to decide. I am here only because that is what must happen. I will not force anything upon you. This is for you, not me.” “Well, can we come out? We have been waiting patiently.” Two men stepped from the shadows. They were beautiful. Both had eyes of brown with a golden tint to them. Their features perfect. It was John and George. They smiled at me. I smiled back. John came toward me, and held out a blanket for me. I took it from him, and he stepped back. I wrapped it around me, and began to warm up. “Ryanne, of course you must know my companions. They are still with me.” “It is nice to finally put a face with the story. I was beginning to believe that you would never come. Tianna has be quite patient. I am not so patient.” “Now that all have met, maybe we should go to the house. We wouldn’t want Ryanne to get sick.” I shook my head and followed them. We walked a little ways, until we came toward a house. A beautiful, large house. Lights were shining through the windows. It looked so inviting. They opened the door, and I stepped through. All fear had left me. I felt that I was supposed to be here. I felt at home. For once, I finally felt like I belonged. I walked to a chair and sat down. They followed behind me, and sat across from me. “Are you hungry? I have wine and some fruit.” I shook my head. George headed toward a door and disappeared behind it. He quickly returned with a glass of wine and an apple. I took them and sat back. I bit into the apple, and juices exploded in my mouth. I had not realized how hungry I was. I drank the wine and enjoyed the taste. It was much better than anything I had had before. They sat and watched as I took another bite of apple. “I’m sorry there isn’t more to offer, but food isn’t a necessity around here. I keep some in the house, just in case you decided to find me. I was hoping.” Her features were even more beautiful in the lights. She was flawless. Her posture was perfect, as was the others. “You had a vision of me? Why didn’t you find me?” I had hoped that the question had not seemed rude. “I knew you would come when you were ready. I have only time. You are here now, and I am pleased.” They all looked at each other, smiles beaming from their faces. I hadn’t expected to feel so welcomed and loved. I had expected curiosity, but mostly annoyance. I had not expected to be accepted. Now that I was in the moment, all my fears had disappeared. No anger was on their faces, they welcomed me. I welcomed the acceptance. I had hoped, but I was not sure. Tianna’s eyes showed concern. “Are we not what you sought?” “Of course you are. I just never thought I would be so welcomed. I am quite overwhelmed.” She shook her head. “Maybe you should think more on this before we talk more.” “NO! No, it’s more than I ever hoped to find. I don’t want to leave. I want to learn, to understand. Please.” I was pleading. Fear had rushed through me. I didn’t want to leave. I was where I belonged. She looked at me with understanding. “We have plenty of time. We need not rush this. Your dream will come true. You have my word.” I shook my head. “I want to be here. I want to learn, to understand everything.” She understood. George came toward me. “Ryanne, we have centuries together. Is there nothing you would do before you receive our gift? You have time, we will wait.” His eyes showed compassion. I though on it. Was there anything that would make me postpone this? My dream was within my grasp, and I shouldn’t put it off. Tianna came to stand in front of me. Her beauty was almost blinding. “I have waited for you, but you must decide. Would you like a few more years? You may live here and go to the university. I will pay for it. What I have is yours. You will never want for anything. When you are ready, I will fulfill my promise.” I took all this in. did I want to continue school? What purpose would it serve? I could do it. I would live here and learn all before the change. I would be completely prepared. Wasn’t I already prepared? Confusion swam through my head. I always thought that once the gift was offered, there would be nothing stopping me. Now that I had been given the choice, my mind had paused. “Tianna, I’ve wanted this for so long. This is my dream. I was not expecting a choice. I would like to finish school, but I want this more. How can I make up my mind? Your offer is so generous.” She understood my thoughts. John came toward me and held his hand out. I took it, and felt the coldness against my skin. He led me through a hall and upstairs. We walked down another hall to the very end. He opened the door, and waited for me to go inside. I stepped slowly forward, not able to understand. I walked into the room. It was magnificent. A large, mahogany, four-poster bed sat in the center of the large room. The bedding was lavender and very beautiful. A large desk lay in the far right corner of the room. A large dresser sat on the far left wall. It had a huge mirror over it. A comfortable looking chair sat in the near right corner. A large plasma TV hung on the wall in front of it. In the left, near corner, a large bookcase sat.
There were many books on it, but it still had room. Everything was so beautiful. I looked at them, puzzled. John said, “This is your room, if you choose to stay with us. It will have everything you need.” I shook my head with understanding. It was hard to grasp. My room? I was very overwhelmed. Tianna spoke, “If you choose to stay, we will go shopping. Anything you would like. Money means nothing to me. Your happiness means everything.” She smiled. I began to cry, I couldn’t help it. I was the happiest I had ever been. Not because of the large house and room, not even the offer to buy me anything. It was the fact that someone finally wanted me. They wanted to make me happy. I hadn’t ever felt like that. They looked at each other with concern. I had to tell them what I felt. “All of you are so generous. I am the happiest I have ever been. I cannot express to you what I feel. Just know that these are tears of happiness, nothing more. You needn’t be concerned.” They shook their heads in understanding. The sun was rising far off in the distance of the large window. Tianna spoke, “Sleep here. We will talk more.” I shook my head. They left and I looked toward the dresser. Curiosity grabbed hold, and opened the drawer. It contained nightgowns. They were my size. I slipped off my clothes and put on one of the soft gowns. I climbed into the large bed, and readied myself for sleep. I dreamt that night. A very vivid and realistic dream. I was walking down the street, pale white and beautiful. Tianna, John, and George beside me. The moon was full, and we were all dressed up. I was in a white gown. It was beautiful. We walked through the woods, a clearing ahead. A glowing appeared, and the fragrance of flowers was intoxicating. We moved closer, and walked into the clearing. Large candelabras circled the clearing, covered in tons of roses and lilacs. A few people were there, watching us come forward. Walking straight ahead, a face caught my eye. He was so handsome. His hair was short brown. His face was beautiful. He wore a nice suit. His eyes, his eyes were violet. Violet? He stared at me, and love shown through them. He was human. Why was he here among all of us vampires? Didn’t he realize? Even though he wasn’t in danger, he still didn’t belong. I tried to wake myself. I didn’t want to dream anymore, but I couldn’t. He smiled at me, and took my hand. How cold I must have been to him. He turned toward me and said, “You look beautiful. I never dreamed how beautiful. I am so lucky I found you. I love you.” My eyes opened. It was dark in the room. Had I slept all day? I stepped lightly out of bed. I turned the lights on. I opened a door on my left, curious. It was a bathroom. I took care of my human needs and dressed back into my clothes. The dressers had nothing other than gowns in it. I needed to get my clothes from my cabin. I opened my door, and made my way down stairs. I heard talking. “John’s where shall we go tonight? I want Ryanne to enjoy herself, and eat something wonderful. Have you heard anything good about the new restaurant in town? It is dark, no one would suspect us.” “The humans seem to enjoy it. It has been so long since I have eaten real food. I can’t imagine all the new flavors our there now. She should enjoy it immensely. I think I hear her now.” I walked through the doorway. They smiled at me. “Tianna, I would like to speak to you.” She came toward me and followed me through the doorway. I told her my dream, and she smiled. “You have seen your future. Are you concerned?” I shook my head. “I don’t understand. Why was he there? He was human. What does this mean?” She looked at me, thinking on the answer. “It seems that no matter your decision, you are destined for love. I envy you. Have you considered our offer?” I stood there. The dream flashed back to me. I was a vampire in the dream, I was sure. And yet, I had fallen in love with a human. Was that fair? I pushed the thought from my mind. I knew what I wanted. I wanted the gift. I didn’t want to wait. The dream had probably been my last dream of a human. I was ready. I would not wait. “I know what I want. I want to be a companion to you, to John, and to George. I do not need to prolong it.” She looked at me with understanding. She smiled. She took my hand and led be back through the doorway. Gentlemen, we have something to celebrate. Ryanne had decided to join us. Let us go and give her, her last human night. Before she receives her gift. “Ryanne, I took the liberty in getting a dress for you.” She pointed toward a chair. The dress hung over it. It was beautiful. It was a royal blue and silk. I smiled and ran to it. I grabbed it and excused myself. I ran upstairs and to the bathroom. I quickly dressed, and did what I could with my hair. I found a pair of silver shoes beside my bed. I put them on, and made my way downstairs. I walked through the doorway, everyone smiled. “My dear, you are stunning. Becoming like us will only add to your beauty.” I smiled at John. He was so nice. John took Tianna’s hand and George took mine. We walked through the woods, in the opposite direction of the clearing. A road appeared, and a limo was waiting. It was long and white. I smiled and we got in. the distance wasn’t far. We pulled to a stop, and got out. The restaurant was buzzing with well-to-do people. I felt out of place. I didn’t belong among these people. George squeezed my hand and smiled. He led me forward, following quickly behind Tianna and John.
We got a secluded table near the back. The restaurant was dimly lit, but the smells were fantastic. My mouth began salivating. John ordered a bottle of expensive merlot, and we began talking. They all watched as I took in my surroundings. “Well, what do you think? We dine amongst them sometimes, just to feel the life around us.” I smiled at them. “That’s quite a temptation, isn’t it? I do enjoy the atmosphere.” John shook his head. “I enjoy living amongst them occasionally. So many differences between them, and yet the same blood flows through them.” I shook my head and took a sip of wine. It was quite good. We all ordered food, but I was the only one to eat. The others moved food around on their plates, and talked. Tianna kept smiling at me. I could tell that she was anticipating the act soon to follow. I was nervous, but still so excited. I tried to push it from my mind, enjoying the last of my human acts. The food tasted amazing. I wondered if blood would be as satisfying. The others seemed satisfied. I was sure it would all be fine. The dinner ended, and we traveled back to the house in the limo. The talks had remained up beat and general. No one talked about what was going to happen. They all seemed so human, despite their flawless features and golden eyes. I wondered if they were doing it for my benefit. Taking my mind off any nervousness I might feel. I was able to talk with them, and continued to be in a good mood. The walk through the woods was different. They dark pushed toward me, and I wanted to be in the warmly lit house. The dark had unsettled me. Tianna had seemed to notice the change in my eyes. She stroked my hair and almost purred at me. I was immediately comforted. Realization rushed to me as we stepped inside the house. I excused myself and headed toward the bathroom. Closing the door behind me, my emotions took over. I sank against the door, and put my face in my hands. Why was I so nervous? I was about to receive the gift I had been searching for. I shook my head. I just feared the unknown. Wasn’t that natural? Everyone feels this way right before they start something new. I got up and took care of my last human acts. I took a shower, letting the hot water push the fear away from me. I walked into my room and put on a nightgown. Silky and blue, it clung to me. I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed. I was ready. I made my way downstairs, and walked through the doorway. All their eyes were looking at me. I smiled at them, and they smiled back. Tianna came toward me and took my hand. She led me forward and sat me in a char. “Ryanne, I am so very pleased by you. I understand your feelings, but I promise it will be okay. It will only last a while, and when it is over, you will open your eyes to a completely new world. I cannot even begin to describe the beauty waiting for you. Are you ready?” I looked at them, all with anticipation in their eyes. I sighed and shook my head. I was ready to accept my decided fate. This is what I was born to do. I was sure of that. I had never been as sure about anything else as this. I would finally be complete. I smiled at them. “I am ready to be whole. I have waited so long. I am ready to have your gift.” They all shook their heads with approval. John took my hand and led me back upstairs. The others followed close behind. We went in my room, and John motioned for me to lie down. I shook my head and crawled into bed. I slid under the covers, such a human thing to do. They all smiled at each other. I was sure they had thought the same thing. Tianna came to sit beside me. “It will only hurt a short while, then nothing will hurt you anymore. It will be as it was meant to be. You will open your eyes, and the world will welcome you completely. Shall I?” The question was so compassionate. I shook my head and breathed deeply. Tianna lend over me and placed her lips on my neck. An ice-cold kiss. Heat began to flame from the kiss. Such a strong, powerful heat. I closed my eyes and endured the pain. I reminded myself that it would not be long. As I sank deeper and deeper into the darkness, a single tear escaped my eye. As I lay there, taking my last breaths, the past flooded back to me. Strange how clear it was, my journey toward this moment. My dream finally coming true. My life had finally found the purpose it’s been searching for. The darkness completely took over. Opening my eyes, the light took on a whole new meaning. The colors were rainbows and shimmering. Strange smells came toward me. Things I had never dreamed of smelling. I slowly looked around. They were there, smiling. Their faces still beautiful, but not perfect. No, the perfection had gone. Tianna came toward me. “Welcome my child. Many days have passed. I knew it would not be long. Open your eyes and experience your new world.” Her smile was inviting. I sat up; intending for the action to be slow, but it took a fraction of a second. I was shocked. Of course, it was quick, I wasn’t held down by my human strength anymore. I wasn’t human anymore. I was special. I crawled from my bed, it too only taking a second. This would take some getting use to. I consciously thought about walking slowly, and I was pleased that it had worked. I walked slowly toward them. They all held their arms out, waiting to embrace their new sister. I hugged them, noticing that the coldness had disappeared. We felt the same. John grabbed my hand, and led me toward the large mirror in
my room. The reflection of a stranger stared at me. The movements were equal, but the image was different. A beautiful creature stared back at me. Smooth, pale skin, rose lips, and shiny brown hair. The eyes were so bright and shone almost clear color. She was beautiful. It was hard to realize that this creature was a reflection of me. She was so perfect. Her movements were so fluid and held no awkwardness. She was immortal, not human. She was special, and I was she. They smiled at me. “It will take only a moment to get use to. It is wonderful to realize that you are the creature you see. Beautiful and amazing. Reborn to perfection. This gift suits you well. Shall we go to the parlor?” As we walked toward the parlor, I suddenly felt the dryness in my mouth. It was uncomfortable. It felt as if I hadn’t drunk anything in weeks. I tried to push the feeling aside as I sat down. Tianna came toward me. “I understand you be quite thirsty. I have acquired some blood for you. It’s best if you drink human blood first. It will build your strength quickly.” I began to worry about what exactly she meant. Was she bringing me a human? I could not, would not hurt someone. I began to protest, but saw her holding a glass. The liquid was thick and crimson. The smell was wonderful. She handed me the glass. “Drink my child. Enjoy.” I put the crystal glass to my lips, and took a sip. The taste was wonderful. It was like Thanksgiving dinner and your favorite dessert all in one. I drank it quickly. The glass was soon empty. “More.” I had meant to say it with respect, but my voice had sounded greedy. It was quite good. She quickly returned with another glass. I drank it down quickly, and the dryness had been lessened. It was still dry, but bearable. I smiled and looked around. I could see the textures of the furniture, the grain of the wood, even all the dust particles. Everything was so clear. I looked at my reflection across from me, nothing had changed. Nothing except my eyes. My eyes were now red and sparkling. It would take getting use to. John spoke calmly. “They will change. When you begin to feed on animals, the color will become golden. I must say, the color does suit you. The crimson color is quite beautiful with your features.” He smiled at me, and I realized how crooked his smile was. Perfection had left. He was just as special as me, nothing more. The human eyes didn’t blind me anymore. It had all become so clear now. I looked at each of them. They all smiled at me, but I saw something in George’s eyes. It looked like sadness. I stared at him with question in my eyes. He realized I had seen something. His posture changed and he looked away. I was curious, but I was easily distracted. “Ryanne, we need to go shopping. When would you like to go?” I stood up. “I’m ready now. I need some new clothes.” She shook her head with agreement. “I need to go to the cabin and get my stuff. I don’t need anyone concerning him or herself with my absence. John spoke, “I took the liberty. I felt the same as you did. Your stuff is in your room.” I turned and walked to my room. I found my bag on the floor. It smelled funny. It was a nice smell. Something sweet. It was my perfume. I could smell all the different scents. The floral, the spice, even the alcohol. I opened my bag and grabbed a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. Nothing fancy. I put my flip-flops on and walked back downstairs. They all looked at me. I felt awkward. I smiled. “I wasn’t planning on anything amazing happening to me. I just packed comfortable.” It seemed like forever ago. That life was already beginning to fade from me. They shook their heads with understanding. I wondered how long it would be before I would completely forget. Would the memories I had seem like a dream? As this thought occurred to me, and image flashed into my mind. The human. The male I had seen in that distant dream. A memory rushed toward me. As I had been laying there, the change taking over my body, I had dreamed of him. Over and over again. Those violet eyes. The eyes so full of love. No one had ever looked at me like that. The vision overwhelmed me. I had to sit down. They rushed toward me with concern in their eyes. I forced a smile. “I remember something from my change. I was the boy again. It was so vivid. I didn’t remember until just now.” Tianna shook her head and back away. John and George had changed their expression, less concerned. I straightened my position and sat back. “We will go shopping tomorrow. Tonight we teach you to feed.” They all smiled. I felt nervous, but excited. The dryness in my mouth returned. We readied ourselves and stepped outside. The darkness was amazing. My vision cleared, and I could see perfectly. The wind blew the leaves, and my eyes focused on the movement. It was strange how clear it looked, as if the sun was shining. The sounds were clear as well. I heard every cricket chirp, owl hoot, and even cars passing by on the road in the distance. I followed them as our search began. John turned toward me. “You must learn to hear it. Be still and let your senses find it. A deer is close by. Tell me what you hear.” I closed my eyes and let the surroundings circle around me. I heard the outside sounds. Somewhere in the distance, I heard a faint drumming. It was like music, almost hypnotic. “Follow it.” I took off toward it, the dryness in my mouth getting worse. I smelled something wonderful, very appetizing. It was like a steak and baked potato. I saw something ahead of me. It was a large buck, twelve points. Instincts took over, and I had not trouble grabbing hold of him. The drumming was faster, the smell sweeter. I could
almost see the pulse in its throat. It was too much. I quickly bit down. The blood rushed over my tongue, and I could do nothing but enjoy it. The taste was good, not as good as human blood, but it was satisfying. I lapped at the liquid, and heard the drumming slow. When the drumming stopped, I pulled myself away. I was satisfied. I dropped the animal from my lap and stepped back. I felt warm and tingly. I look around. They were starring at me, pride in their eyes. “Well done. You are a natural. You should have no problems at all.” I shook my head. It had not been difficult at all. It was natural. The sun was beginning to come up; we quickly made our way back to the house. The sunlight would not hurt us, but it made us look so completely different. Almost translucent, except for the blood in our veins. I would miss the sun, but I loved the night so much more. I always have. Entering the house, a sense of accomplishment surrounded me. I had made my first kill, it had been easy. The thirst was not painful, I could endure it. This life seemed so normal to me. I went to my room to lie on my bed. It had been an amazing experience. The whole thing was unreal and yet I felt complete. This is what my life had been missing. This is what I was meant to be, to do. I had a purpose. I belonged for the first time. They had expected it to be harder for me. It wasn’t. I was supposed to be here, in this moment. My body still tingled from the blood. Would it always feel like this? I thought that I would feel less, maybe nothing at all. I still felt like me, stronger, but the same. I sat up and grabbed the journal from my desk. It took a mere second. I wrote how I felt, my first experiences in my new world. The one I had been born to live. I wrote five pages without even realizing it. Even my handwriting was more fluent, almost script. Much better than the chicken scratch I was use to. Another jolt of excitement went through me. The feelings were so more intense, would I ever get use to it? I laid the journal to the side and lay back down. I laid there for a while and decided to close my eyes, letting my senses come through. I could hear the animals outside. I could hear the others talking, still going on about how great I had done. The pride radiated through their voices. It made me smile. I even heard the river. It was amazing. A vision pushed toward my mind and I allowed it to come. The eyes flashed into view. Those violet, beautiful eyes. The love was still there. The emotion was so raw and unsuppressed. They wanted to hide nothing from me. Behind the love, I could see something. Understanding? He knew what I was, and yet the love was still so strong. Could someone love me despite my existence? A human? I had fought so long to be anything but human, and now I had found something that my human existence never gave me. Pure, simple, love. Full love. The love that history is based on, and it was for me. Unimportant me. I felt that I didn’t deserve it, that he deserved better. If this were my future, then I would change it. I would not ruin a life that deserved to live. I knew my fate, I chose this. I would put no one else through any pain. I had made my decision. No matter the feeling behind those eyes, it was not fair to him. I would not allow this to happen. If I saw him, in reality, I would stay away. Allow him to live the life he deserved. He had hope, I had none. I chose this life because of that. I had nothing to offer, nothing that would make me deserve him. My mind was made up. I opened my eyes and realized it was dark again. Had it taken that long? It seemed like only minutes. I heard a knock. I sat up and said, “Come in.” George came through the door. He looked concerned. I smiled at him and the concern was pushed aside. He came and sat on the edge of my bed. “Ryanne, I want to tell you my story.” I shook my head and readied myself for his wisdom. “I was twenty, and madly in love. We had been together throughout our lives. We were in our second year of college, engaged, ready to be wed when we graduated. We both came from upper class. We were right for each other. Her name was Mary. It was simple, but it suited her. She was very beautiful, and selfless. I could not want anyone more suited for me. I had been at the library. I went to the dorm to meet her. I waited a while. She never showed. I went back to my dorm, and was met by some of our professors. They all had concern in their faces. I didn’t understand why they were there. They walked with me inside my room. They asked me to sit down. I began to get angry. My history professor came toward me and began to speak. He told me that Mary had been coming to meet me. She had only been a block from the dorms. She had walked out into the road to cross it. The care came out of nowhere. They told me it was quick. She had only said my name before it was over. I couldn’t move, I couldn’t think, I couldn’t even cry. I was in shock. They told me how sorry they all were. That she was such a pretty girl. I pushed pass them and darted out of my room.” “How could she be gone? She was my future. I was so distraught. I couldn’t wind the reality of it in my mind. She couldn’t be gone. I found myself in a bar. They knew me, I had been there before. I got a shot of whiskey, then another. I was trying to drown myself, unable to cope with what had happened. I drank way too much, I didn’t care. I walked away from the bar, hoping that a car would hit me too. Hoping
to be soon behind my love. Instead, he found me. I had finally been able to cry. The tears streaming out, unable to stop. I saw him in the distance, sitting on a bench. He looked up at me, and smiled. I was confused. He motioned for me to come to him. I thought that maybe this would be it. Maybe he would kill me. Shoot me, stab me, it didn’t matter. I just wanted to be with her. I walked toward him. He stood up, his size was massive. He began to walk away, and I followed. It seemed he wanted me to follow. He walked inside an abandoned house. I followed, only temporarily pausing to think about the danger. I didn’t care, so I went in.” “He stood waiting for me. He was facing me, a smile on his lips. He was pale, so pale, with bright red eyes. Fear crept up in me, and I tried to turn away. He grabbed me, it was quick. He told me that everything would be over soon. That I would feel no more pain. I didn’t understand what was happening. Then everything went black, and the pain stopped. What I awoke, he was there. He smiled at me again and welcomed me. He told me that things would be different. Those human matters wouldn’t affect me anymore. I was so confused. He took me out in the streets and down an alley. Two women stood there, clearly prostitutes. They smiled at us, and walked toward us. It was quick. He grabbed one on the arm and wrapped the other up against him. He bit her and drained her. My mouth became very dry, almost unbearable. He dropped her to the ground and turned toward me. The other girl was crying, scared. He told me it was my turn, and threw the girl at me. I grabbed her, not sure what to do. Then the thirst was too much. I bit her and drained her. The feeling was intense. It made my whole body vibrate. I could hear her heart stop. I watched her fall to the ground. He smiled, pleased at me.” “We traveled for years together, feeding mainly off prostitutes. Then he decided to leave me. It was so hard at first. I felt alone again. One night, as I walked the streets searching for food, I stumbled upon someone. He was in an alley, draining a girl. I was shocked. I didn’t know others existed. He looked up at me, and I thought a fight was inevitable. However, he just smiled at me. John and I became acquainted quickly and we are still great companions. I felt that telling you my story would help you understand me better. I hope I have succeeded.” I sat there, unable to know exactly how to act. George had loved and lost, and began a new life. He did not seem upset or unsatisfied. Maybe he was glad that death had not taken him after all. He shook his head in agreement and stood up. He walked to the door and took one final glance at me. I felt a greater compassion for him. I was glad to know him. He was a good soul. I rose from my bed, and walked down the stairs. They all looked glad to see me. I gave George a sincere grin, he nodded. Tianna came toward me. “My dear, are you ready to shop?” I remembered our plans. “Of course. Let’s go.” They all looked at one another, and then we were out the door. The speed was incredible. It was as if we weren’t moving at all, but we arrived on the busy street in no time. John and George took off, more like men that I thought. Tianna pulled me toward a nice store. The sales women seemed to know Tianna. They flocked toward us. “Give her what she wants. We want everything. From the inside out.” I tried on underwear, lingerie, slips, dresses, nice casual outfits, everything. We left with well over $10,000 worth of things. Walking outside, I realized the limo waiting for us. Of course, we could have carried everything, but this was more acceptable. The limo driver put the items in the trunk, while we sat inside. John and George had rejoined us. Tianna turned toward me. “I have one more surprise for you. I hope you don’t mind.” I looked at her confused. We traveled to a parking garage. We drove around the levels, until we reached the top. There were many beautiful cars up there, all shining and expensive. The limo stopped and we got out. I was still confused. Tianna walked toward an ice blue car. It was a Mini Cooper. The windows were tinted dark. I was confused. Tianna said, “This is yours. I felt that you needed something. Independence is just as important as companionship. I hope that this is satisfactory.” I shook my head, unable to find words. It was perfect, so like me. Something I would have chosen for myself. I smiled and jumped toward her. My arms flew around her, and I hugged her. We slammed against each other, like cars hitting head on. I had forgotten my strength. I quickly stepped back, amusement all over everyone’s faces. “It’s perfect. Thank you so much.” “Feel free to use it whenever needed.” She gave me the keys. I shook my head and put them in my pocket. I had plenty of time to look at it. The sun was beginning to rise. We made our way back to the limo and went home. The distance was short. It took no time to put my things up. The dresser and closet were full. I would now be able to dress my part. I sat down and wrote in my journal again. It wasn’t as long this time, only three pages front and back. I walked downstairs, they all sat around talking. John turned toward me and smiled. Something was in his eyes. I started to be concerned. Tianna came toward me. “Ryanne, I have something to discuss with you. John, George, and I are going on a trip.” I sat down. “It will only be a short trip. A week at most. We
have found another being like us. She wants to talk with us. We want to meet and discuss things. I’m sure you will be okay. It will seem like no time at all. I promise.” I shook my head. I didn’t understand, but I trusted them. “When will you leave?” John spoke, “We leave tonight. It will be short. When we come back, our family may be bigger.” I could only shake my head. I would miss them, but I was sure it would not be long. They left when the sun went down, and I was left alone. I stayed around the house the first day. I wrote, watched TV. Everything was so human. I quickly turned it off. I went to the river and sat on my rock. The sounds were so amazing. It wasn’t long before I heard a heart beat and followed. I fed from the deer, making it short yet satisfying my hunger. The sun was rising, so I went home. I lay in my bed most of the day, just pondering over all that had happened. It still seemed unreal to me at times. I was so grateful to have my dreams fulfilled. It was dark before I realized, and I decided to take my new car out. It wasn’t hard to find, and I quickly made my way down the road in my perfect little car. I decided to catch a movie. It had been so long since I visited a movie theater. I parked my car a block away and walked there. The wind was blowing, but it didn’t bother me. I bought my ticket and went quickly to the back of the theater. The movie was okay. It was a love story, and ended with them both dying. I laughed at myself. Of course, I would pick a movie like that. I walked out of the theater, and made my way to my car. People passed, and I paid little attention. Out of the darkness, I began to hear a heart beat. It was strong and steady. I tried to shake it from my mind, but it remained. The heartbeat began racing, and I became curious. I decided to follow it. The beat getting faster and faster. I almost ran. I found it in an alley. I could see two individuals. One slightly ahead of the other one. I paused. I only heard one heart beat. My mind and body froze. The heartbeat was a male. I couldn’t make out any features, but he was afraid or maybe mad. I looked forward. I watched as he turned to face his pursuer. “What is your problem man? Get the hell away from me.” He began running away from the pursuer, from me as well. The being caught him, and I could see the evil smile. I gasped. That caught his attention. His eyes were blood red. I didn’t think, I just acted. I ran toward him in a fraction of a second and grabbed him. He quickly escaped and faced me. We went round and round. He spoke, “I have no quarrel with you, let me be.” I shook my head. “You should leave.” He snarled at me. He was almost double my size, but I was mad now. I somehow managed to grab him as he flung toward me. It was over quickly. His head was detached from the body. I stood there, looking over the crumpled remains. Blood pouring from the head, pooling next to the body. I snarled. It had been so easy. Then I heard the heart beat again, still racing. Only now, it was because of me. He looked at me. His features were masculine, and quite nice. His eyes were closed. Probably trying to cope with what he saw. Trying to convince himself it was strange, realistic dream. I turned toward him. “You need to go.” I had regained my composure, and my voice was soft. He stood, his eyes still closed. He turned to leave, and I watched. He made it almost to the end of the alley, but he stopped. I was growing impatient. He turned to look at me. Through the blackness, I could see his eyes. His violet eyes. I gasped. He was the one, the one I had been dreaming about. I quickly turned and walked the other way. My car was not far. I got in and made my way to the parking garage. I needed to get home. The walk home was quick and almost an unconscious effort. Closing the door behind me, I sank into a chair. My mind began racing. I had not actually thought I would ever see him. He was even more beautiful than in my dream. Those eyes were so enchanting. It almost pained me to turn from them. I was sure that he even smiled at me before I turned. Impossible. He should be in shock, afraid, not smiling. His heartbeat was so rich and strong. The smell of his blood was pushed aside when I saw the other creature. It quickly rushed back to me. It was so warm and delicious, like smelling an apple pie fresh from the oven. I tried to shake it from me, but I couldn’t. It was the most appetizing thing I’ve ever smelled. I made my way outside, to quench my thirst. It took no time at all to drain the deer dry. It was warm and filling, but not the same. Definitely not the same. I sighed and went home. I went to my room and lay on my bed. Closing my eyes, I only saw his eyes. I forced my eyes open, making sure not to close them again. I stayed around the house for the next couple of days, trying not to think about that night. I didn’t even write in my journal. I knew I would write about him. I watched mindless TV again. Read books over and over again. Anything to keep my mind busy. Finally, my companions came home. We had a warm reunion, with hugs and talk of their visit. They informed me that the new girl would not be coming. She had decided to go the other way. I could see the disappointment on George’s face. Tianna kept assuring him that there would be others. He need not be concerned with this girl. He shook his head in agreement. Of course, Tianna knew best. We went to hunt, finding a few black bears. Their taste was a lot stronger than the
deer’s’. I liked it. I vowed to try to hunt bear from now on. It was much more of a challenge, not much, but it was fun. I tried to keep my head clear, trying not to leave any feelings in my eyes. I didn’t need them being concerned with me. Tianna told us that an opera was in town, and we made plans to go. A small concern went through my mind, but I quickly pushed it aside. What were the odds? Very little, if any. I assured myself, and became excited about the show. We dressed in our finest attire and made our way to the opera. Arriving there, everyone looked so beautiful. No one paid much attention to us as we walked to our box. Everyone was buzzing with energy. Watching the opera, I got chills. The music was so beautiful. I couldn’t turn my eyes from the stage. When it was over, my emotions were overwhelming. As we made our way to the limo, I excused myself. I wanted to go to my car and drive awhile. They understood and gave me a warm goodbye. I made my way through the streets, soaking up the night as I walked. It was a pleasant night. A good night for a walk, and a drive. I found my way easily to the parking garage. I quickly went up to my car. Reaching the top level, I made my way to the car. Suddenly I heard a heart beat. A familiar heartbeat and the smell just as wonderful. He stood at my car, and I was worried. What was he doing here? He leaned up against a car next to mine. I paused. I contemplated whether to turn around or not. I wasn’t sure he had seen me, until he smiled. I sighed. I knew what I should do, but I was so curious. I held my breath as I approached him. His eyes were wary, but he kept his smile. I could see he was thinking of something, and then he spoke. “Took you long enough. Do you have any idea how many nights I’ve been here?” It was not a question, it was a statement. His words were so confident, yet I could see the concern in his eyes. “How did you find me?” He smiled bigger. “Well, it’s not hard to find a car like this, especially with the license tag “NEWBORN”. What’s that about?” I walked closely toward him, and he stepped back one careful step. I looked at the tag. I hadn’t even noticed what it said. How amusing. I would ask Tianna about it when I got home. I shook my head. “I also follow you that night.” His statement was very forward. I smiled at him. I couldn’t help it, he was so confident. “Why did you follow me?” He shrugged his shoulders. “I was interested.” I shook my head in understanding. Of course he was. Stupid boy. He should have run home and convinced himself it was all a dream. Evidently, he wanted it to be real. Amazing. “You shouldn’t have followed me. You need to leave.” I began walking to my door, but he stepped in front of me. How easily I could just knock him out of the way. The smell was stronger, and his violet eyes stared at me with curiosity. “Am I going to have a problem out of you? Maybe I should not have interfered that night.” He stepped back, hurt in his eyes. “I just don’t understand why you followed me. Is there something you want?” He shook his head. “I wanted to thank you. I owe you that much. You were gone before I could even park my car.” I shook my head. “You are welcome. Now you need to leave.” I turned away from him. He touched my arm. The sensation was something I’ve never felt before. I turned back toward him and looked into his eyes. “I don’t want to leave. I need to know. Am I correct in what I think?” I stared at him. Of course, he knew. He wasn’t stupid. He should be. He shouldn’t want to think about such things. “I assume you are correct about certain things. Is that all?” He back off, and smiled. I sighed and shook my head. “So you’re a vampire.” It was such a bold statement. It excited me and concerned me at the same time. He was so confident. “Is that what you want to hear? I am a vampire. Now you really need to go, for your own good.” Instead of backing away, he leaned closer. “Your eyes are amazing. Now like that thing in the alley.” He would not be letting this go. I decided to leave. I turned and he touched me again. “Wait. Please.” The plead had caught me off guard. He had seemed so confident, but now emotion was in his eyes. I turned back toward him. “What?” He sighed, relief in his eyes. “I want to know something. Why did you save me? Aren’t you the same?” “No, we are not the same. Although that creature is considered a vampire too, we are very different. He hunts innocent people. I survive off wildlife. I choose to not hurt innocents. Anything else?” “That still doesn’t explain why you interfered.” “Would you rather I’d not?” “Of course not. I am here because of you. I owe you my life.” I cringed at those words. If he only knew how hard it was for me not to kill him. How absolutely dry every inch of my mouth was. I would have to kill two bears to quench this thirst. “You owe me nothing. I would have done it for anyone.” He flinched. Had I hurt his feelings again? “But it wasn’t anyone, it was me. I am eternally grateful.” I sighed and laughed a little. “You don’t have eternity, I do.” “Hey, don’t leave. Okay? I want to talk more.” “I haven’t got anything else to say. The sun will be rising soon, and you’ve managed to ruin my plans for the evening.” He flinched again. It was better if I wasn’t nice. He shouldn’t like me. It was best this way. “I’m
sorry. I just had to see you. To talk to you. To thank you.” “Well, now you have. I need to go.” “Wait, will I see you again?” “I don’t think so. I need to find another car garage.” He smiled. “I’ll still find you.” His confidence had returned. “No, you won’t. That would be very unwise. I might have to make an exception if you continue this.” I turned to walk away. “Why do you hate me?” I stopped. Hate him? He couldn’t understand that I was doing what was best for him. “Maybe you should have let that thing kill me. I don’t think I can go back to the way I was. I want to know more about you. I want to know you.” I could hear the feeling in his words. I sighed. I knew what I should do, but I felt such a pull toward him. I tried to shake it off. “You don’t want to know me. You deserve better.” I walked off. “Hey wait. What’s your name? Can I at least ask that?” I yelled back, “Ryanne!” With that, I quickly left the garage and made my way home. As I reached the house, the sun was beginning to come up. I walked inside and went straight to my room. Passing by the others without even looking. I wrote in my journal. I had covered ten pages front and back, before a knock had come on my door. It was Tianna. I sighed and told her to come in. She looked concerned. “Would you like to talk about it?” I shook my head no, but I did want to. I wanted to so badly. I gave into my feelings and looked at her. “I met him.” She sat on the edge of my bed. She understood whom I meant. “What happened?” I sighed. I told her the whole story. About me saving him and the talk, we just had. She sat there, listening to everything. When I finished, I laid down. “What can I do? He deserves better than me. I can do nothing.” She shook her head. “If that’s what you feel. I have something more to add. I feel that you deserve him. Love is something that no one can deny. Do you really think that he won’t try to find you?” “He won’t be able to. I won’t return to my car. I’ll never see him again.” “Do you really feel it’s that simple? We may be created against nature, but fate is secure. You dreamed of him for a reason. Your paths were meant to cross. You should not fight it, but I will understand either way.” “What can I do? He’s human. He has his whole life ahead of him. I was meant for this, not him.” “Do you know what he wants? Did you ask him?” “I could never ask. I need to stay away from him.” She shook her head. “Your pull is strong, I understand. Do you not think that he feels it as well?” I hadn’t even considered it. He was human. How could he feel as I felt? “He knows what you are, and yet he wants to be near you. Doesn’t that tell you anything?” “Yes. He has a death wish.” I pushed the thought from my head. It was too dangerous for him to be near me. “It is your choice, but just know that we will accept your decision. Either way.” I shook my head. She glided out of the room, and I was alone. That night I searched for bears. Quenching the thirst I had, but not completely. Nights passed and I pushed the thoughts from my head. I carried on with my companions, acting as if nothing had changed. Everyday when the sun rose, I would lie in my bed and see his eyes. The eyes from my dream. Filled with love and understanding. A week had passed and I decided had succeeded in pushing many thoughts from my mind. One night I decided to go to the river. It had started to get colder, I’m sure, but I couldn’t feel it. It still felt the same to me. Sitting on my rock, I let the moon surround me. The water looked so inviting. I decided to take a swim. The water rushed over me. I couldn’t feel the temperature, but it felt nice. I’m not sure how long I was there, at least an hour. The sound of the water was wonderful. I suddenly heard something else. A faint heart beat. It became clearer and stronger. Then I smelled that smell, the one that made my mouth become so dry. I looked toward the shore. He stood there, gazing at me. How had he found me? I became angry and concerned. His eyes glowed in the moonlight. I shook my head. “Well, can you turn around?” He stood there for a second. “Oh yeah. Of course.” He turned. I walked cautiously to the shore. Quickly I put my clothes back on. I sighed and sat down on my rock. “Alright.” He turned toward me. His violet eyes glowing even more. I could see his smile. “What are you doing here? I thought I told you not to follow me.” He chuckled. “Yeah, about that. I just couldn’t help myself. Moreover, I didn’t really know you were here. I was just taking a walk. I just lucked up finding you here.” He had a mischievous grin now. I shook my head. He walked closer toward me. I growled. He stopped. “I don’t think you need to get much closer.” He shook his head in understanding. “So, it’s a little cold for swimming.” I smiled. “I didn’t notice. I don’t get cold anymore.” He stared at me. “That must be wonderful. I hate when it’s cold.” I shook my head. “Is there something you wanted, before I leave?” He walked toward me again, his eyes pleading. “Please don’t leave. I want to know you. Could you tell me about you? Please.” He was so sincere. I shrugged my shoulders. I was so tired of fighting it. I wanted to know him. “What do you want to know?” He sighed with relief. “Tell me about your life.” I leaned back, propping myself back on my arms. I told my story. The whole story. From childhood until now, leaving out
only my dreams of him. He soaked up all the information. Never interrupting. I finished and sighed. What would he think now? Now that he knew me, would he walk away? My fears were subsided when he walked closer to me. He took a seat beside me on the rock. It was so uncomfortable being so close to him, but it seemed so right. “Thank you for tell me. I understand you more now. I am grateful for that. Although I feel like I’ve known you my whole life. Like no matter what else is going on, I’m suppose to be here with you. Is that crazy?” I shook my head. “I feel the same.” His whole face lit up with a smile. He was so beautiful. I’d never seen such perfection in a human. I couldn’t help looking at him. “So what happens now? Do you still want me to go?” It was like a child waiting to be scolded. “In your best interest, I saw yes. I, however, do not want you to go.” He shook his head. We sat there and talked about everything. Music, movies, anything to keep us talking. I didn’t want it to end. The sun began to rise, so I stood up quickly. “I need to go.” “Wait, want to see. I mean you’re not going to burst into flames or anything right?” I shook my head. I thought about this, could I stand here and let him see me like that? He grabbed my hand. The feeling was so intense. Shock pulsating through me. I sighed and sat back down. “I can only stay a short time, and then I must go. My energy will be drained.” He shook his head with understanding. I watched as the light began to touch us. Before long, it was covering us. He still held my hand. The difference in our skin was overwhelming. He was tan, I was translucent. The blood pulsing through my visible veins. I turned my head away. It was unbearable to watch this. His hand came and stroked my face. It was too much. I stood up quickly. I couldn’t speak, my energy was almost gone. I let go of his hand and turned to walk away. “Wait.” He stood and came toward me. I should have run, but I couldn’t make my legs move. He stroked my face again. His face came closer to mine. His lips brushed against mine. Pulsating shocks went through me. I couldn’t move, and then it went black. I awoke, lying in my bed. I looked around, confused. Tianna stood there. Tired to ask a question, but I couldn’t get the words out. Tianna came to me and sat down. “You should not have been out so long in the sun. It is unwise.” I shook my head. “How, how did I get here?” “He carried you home.” I was shocked. “He what? Where is he?” “Devon is downstairs with John and George.” Devon? His name was Devon. I hadn’t even asked him. Of course, I could hear his heart beat now. It was a little fast, but not pounding. “I shouldn’t have let this happen. He should go.” “Yes, I told him that as well. Nevertheless, he is concerned about you. I thought it best if he stayed.” I stood from the bed, Tianna had stepped back. “I don’t know what I’m doing. He shouldn’t be here, but I want him here so badly.” She shook her head. “As I said before, it was meant to be. It cannot be fought. What will you do?” I shook my head. I only knew of one thing at that moment. “I love him.” She understood. “Then, my child. I think you have your answer.” I shook my head. There was nothing more to fight against. We made our way downstairs. The smell was so intoxicating. I pushed the thought from my mind. I made my way through the doorway. Devon sat in a chair. He looked quite comfortable. He was talking with John. “She will be alright? I know it was selfish of me to ask it of her. I just wanted to know everything about her.” John shook his head. “I’m fine. What are you doing here?” He looked toward me and grinned. The eyes reflected what I had seen in my dreams. He felt the same as I did. “I wanted to make sure you were okay. I couldn’t just leave.” It would pain me to be away from him. I walked toward him and he stood up. I grabbed his hand, another shock. Would it always feel like this? He brought my hand to his lips and kissed it. I melted. “What am I going to do with you?” I smiled at him. “Now that you have me,” he added. I shook my head. He was mine and I was his. It was so real. My mouth was very dry. “Will you stay? I need to feed.” He shook his head and sat back down. “There is a bathroom in my room at the end of the hall upstairs, if you need it. We won’t be long.” I walked out the door, the others followed close behind me. We found a group of deer and feasted. The blood flowed through me. My strength returned. We made our way home and walked inside. Devon wasn’t in the chair. I heard his heart beat upstairs. I left them and followed the drumming. As I approached, the smell enveloped me. I opened the door and saw him. He was sitting on my bed, my journal I his hands. I stopped. I felt anger, but I was more afraid. “It seems you left something out in your story. Were you ever going to tell me?” He looked at me, question in his eyes. I walked toward him. “I don’t know.” It was all I could say. He shook his head. He stood up, throwing the journal to the floor. He started to walk past me. “Wait.” “On what? Is there something else I don’t know?” His voice was accusing. I shook my head. He walked toward the door. I turned toward him. “I…I love you.” He paused. He sighed and looked at me. “I love you. That’s why it hurts.” I sat on the bed. I didn’t mean to hurt him. I wanted to save him from my vision. I wanted to give him a choice. I put my head in my hands. If I could have cried, the tears
would have been pouring. I suddenly felt his hands on mine. “You shouldn’t keep things from me. I will love you no less. I accept who and what you are. You must always be honest with me.” I looked into his eyes. I jumped up and grabbed him in my arms. It had been so quick, that a few seconds had passed before his arms circled me. I had surprised him. His heart was racing. Our eyes met and I was complete again. He brought his lips to mine. The kiss was more intense than the one before. He kissed my cheeks, my jaw, my neck, and traveled back up to my lips. The feelings were so intense. He laid me on the bed, and we were kissing more passionately. My mind was struggling for control. His hands traveled down my body. The trail burning as his hands passed by. His hands went up my body, resting on my breast. I froze, the dryness ready to be quenched in my throat. I pushed him up, he was hovering over me. “I…I can’t. I want to, but it’s not possible.” He looked disappointed, but rolled over beside me. I turned away from him. He put his arm over me and held me. I sighed. If he only knew how badly I wanted him, in every sense. His breath on my ear was making me tingle. He closed any gap that was between us. Our bodies pressed together. The shock pulsating through me. I laid there until I heard his deep breathing; his heart had slowed to a steady, rhythmic beat. He was asleep. I inched away from him and walked downstairs. I dared not look back at him. Tianna, John, and George were sitting and talking. They all looked at me as I walked in. I could do nothing but sigh. Nothing needed to be said. George stood up and hugged me. The hold was strong, like hugging a rock. He dropped his arms and sat back down. I went to the chair and sat. They all waited for me to speak. What could I say? Would they understand? John spoke, “Ryanne, we accept you. We also accept any decisions you’ve made or will make. Do not be concerned with us. Do what is best for you.” I understood. “I love him. Despite all I’ve done to avoid it, the result is the same. It would hurt me to be away from him.” Tianna spoke, “He is welcomed. What is a part of you is a part of us. We will not try to destroy this.” George spoke, “We only hope you realize the outcome. Things will not be able to stay this way forever. He will have to be changed sometime.” I shook my head with regretful understanding. It was the only way, but how long could I wait? Did he even want this? These were questions that I would have to ask him. We talked about other things. I finally went to see him. As I approached my room, I could hear his heart beating faster, just a little bit. He must be awake. I opened the door, and he was lying on the bed, his arms propped behind his head. A large grin on his face. I smiled back and made my way toward him. “Where have you been?” “I was letting you sleep.” “You should have waked me. I don’t want to miss any time with you.” “You have to sleep sometime.” I sat on the edge of the bed. He leaned up and kissed me. It was a soft, gentle kiss. I pulled away from him and sighed. “What am I going to do with you?” He smiled. “I can think of a few things.” A flush came to his cheeks. He was so unbelievably sexy. “You make it very difficult for me.” He quit smiling. “Would you like me to leave? I don’t want to cause you pain.” “That pain is bearable. It would cause me greater pain if you left.” “Then I’m yours, forever.” I sighed at his statement. Did he understand what he was saying? He saw the concern in my eyes. “I understand the outcome of this. You have no reason to be concerned.” I didn’t want to talk about that now. I just wanted to enjoy his presence. He got up. “Excuse me. I’ll be right back.” I nodded. Of course, he was human. He walked to the bathroom, closing the door behind him. I sat and wondered if he would come to reality, and want to leave when he was done. How could this work? I could not ask him to give his life for me. I would not do that. I made my choice; he would have to make his. He walked from the bathroom, and smiled at me. I melted. “I need to go. I have to change my clothes, and I left my car parked on the side of the road.” I shook my head. “Don’t worry. I will be back.” He kissed me softly and walked out the door. I frowned. I heard his heart beat getting further and further away, until I could no longer hear it. The sun was still out, so I couldn’t follow him. I would have to endure the time away from him. I got up and got dressed. A nice pair of pants and a button-up top. As I walked downstairs, I could see the others had changed as well. We talked about simple things, waiting for the sun to set. Then we went to hunt. I found a wolf; the taste was almost as pleasant as the bear’s. I found another one, and filled myself. The blood was pulsing through me. I wondered when I would see him again. We made our way back toward home, and I could hear a faint heart beat. It grew stronger as the house came into view. Devon stood on the porch, smiling. I rushed toward him, and we embraced. I controlled my strength. I wanted to squeeze him and keep him in my arms. I fought the need and stepped back. He continued to smile. We walked inside. Sitting down, he looked at each of us, lingering on my gaze. “So, how does this work? Who gets to do it?” I sat confused. “What? What are you talking about?” He sighed. “Well, I think it’s easy to figure out. I have to be like you.” I shook my head. “We have time. This is not a decision to take lightly. You can take as long as needed. I have forever.” He frowned. “You
don’t want me to be like you?” I looked away. “It doesn’t matter what I want. The choice must be made by you, but do not make it based on me. We can wait until you are really ready.” I smiled at him. He did not smile back. “I want to be with you forever. The decision had made itself. There is no other option.” I sighed. I had to leave in that moment. I couldn’t bear it. I walked out the door. An hour passed before I returned home. Everyone was still sitting as they had been. He was still there, his heart thrumming steady. He looked at me, but he did not smile. I sighed and made my way to my room. He followed soon after, closing the door behind him. I turned toward him, ready for any argument he had. He walked toward me and put his hands on my face. He kissed me, keeping his eyes focused on mine. His heart fluttered. My body tingled. He pulled away, keeping his gaze on me. “I will wait, but not long.” The statement was matter of fact. I shook my head. We sat on my bed and talked about more things. Learning all that we could from each other. Stopping every now and then to kiss passionately. As our talking was ending, the sun began to rise. His eyes became serious, almost sad. I stared at him. “I have to leave. I need to take care of a few things. I will be gone a couple days. I will miss you terribly, but I’ll leave my heart with you.” I sighed. I couldn’t find any words. I just sat there as he said goodbye. We kissed passionately again. It felt like a goodbye kiss. I became sad. He stood and we embraced one final time. He quickly left. I lay on my bed when I could hear his heart beat no longer. How could I survive without him? I closed my eyes and focused on his face. Love was surely in his eyes. I had to be strong. I tried to stay busy, only allowing myself to think about him when I closed my eyes. I missed him. Almost a week passed, and I started to get concerned. The others tried to help me not be concerned, but it was useless. I would not be complete until he returned. We went hunting one night; it had been over a week. I had feasted on wolves again. I quite liked them. Making our way back to the house, I readied myself for another night of keeping busy. Passing through the clearing, I began to hear a faint heart beat. I became excited. I ran the rest of the way home. He was not on the porch, but I heard the drumming inside the house. The smell hugged at my throat. I walked inside. The smell trailed to my room. I noticed another scent as well. Roses. Very fragrant, and concentrated in my room. I opened my door; my look of surprise could not express how I truly felt. Devon was there, down on one knee. Roses covered my bed. I didn’t notice anything. I just knew that I was complete again. Then I looked at him. Why was he on his knee? I suddenly realized something glittering in his hand. I gasped. He smiled. “Ryanne, I love you with every beat of my human heart. However, I love you more with my whole existence. I want you to be my wife, and share forever with me. Would you marry me?” I stood there, unable to concentrate. My dream flooded back to me. “Of course. You complete me; my existence means nothing without you.” He smiled and grabbed my hand. He slipped the beautiful diamond on my finger. If I could cry, then I knew I would be. I was so truly happy. “Then I am yours, for all eternity.” He stood up and we embraced. We made our way to the bed, kissing passionately. Lying down, our bodies were entwined. The kissing grew more intense. He unbuttoned my shirt. Caressing my body, fire burning inside me. I held back. I knew I could not fully let go. He kissed the length of my body. Before long, he was inside me and we were one. The feeling was intense. I pushed my dry mouth aside, concentrating, as our lovemaking was complete. Lying in my arms, he slept. A peaceful, happy sleep. The smile never leaving his lips. I didn’t want to move. I wanted to be in this moment forever. The dryness had been bearable, barely. The longing and passion had not. I gave into him, and I regretted nothing. I laid there until he awoke. He looked into my eyes, smiling. “Wow. That was more than I ever imagined.” I shook my head. He took my left hand and circled the ring around my finger. “You have no idea how happy you’ve made me.” I smiled at him. “I can guess.” Feeling his naked body beside me, my mouth dry. “I’m surprised you didn’t bite me.” I frowned. “I had to hold back. I must be careful with you.” “If that was held back, then I can’t wait for the other version.” He winked. I smiled. “So, you ready for round two?” I shook my head. “Not now. We have forever. I’m just content laying here with you.” He frowned, but snuggled closer to me. We lay there for a while, until I knew me must get up. I got up, not worrying about my nakedness and got dressed. He went to the bathroom and took a shower. He came out dressed, and we headed downstairs. We were both smiling. Walking through the doorway, Tianna was the first to see the ring. She hugged me and said, “Congratulations.” The others soon followed. John said, “So, when’s the big day?” I shrugged. “The sooner the better. I want to start forever soon.” I looked at him. The hidden statement was shouting at me. He wanted to be one of us. He wanted to spend eternity with me. How long would I fight before I gave him what he wanted? I looked at him; he dropped his smile and sat down. I sat beside him and grabbed his hand. I
squeezed it a little. Tianna spoke, “We may be able to prepare everything within two weeks. If that is satisfactory.” She looked at me. She spoke again, “You may stay here is you like. You are a part of Ryanne now. You are welcomed.” He smiled. “I want to be no where else. I’ve taken care of everything. I am ready to spend forever with her. She is all I need.” He glanced at me. I smiled. His love was so complete. Tianna and I spent the next couple of weeks planning the event. I only left him when I had to feed. He was patient with me. He didn’t bring up his changing again. One day, I left him sleeping in the bed and went downstairs to talk to Tianna. She sat there, ready to talk. “Tianna, I must ask you to do it for me. I don’t think I have the ability.” She shook her head. “If that is what you wish, then I will do it. How does he feel about it?” I shrugged my shoulders. “I haven’t talked to him about it. I don’t like to think about it. I know it must happen, but I feel uneasy about it.” “You must talk to him. It is better if you do.” I stood up and returned to my room. Devon was awake, staring at me. “Where have you been?” I sat on the bed. “We need to talk.” He sat up. “I’ve asked Tianna to change you. I don’t feel that I can do it.” He frowned. “I always thought you would do it. To make me fully a part of you. I would like you do it.” I sighed. “I’m not sure that I won’t kill you. Your blood smells so intoxicating to me. I’m afraid I won’t be able to stop.” He shook his head. “I believe you can do it. You love me. You must be the one.” I couldn’t argue with him. It was like his dying wish. “Fine. I will do it.” I turned and walked out the door. The sun had set, and I made my way to the river. I had been sitting there for a while when I heard his heart beat. I sighed. He came and sat beside me. “I don’t want you to be sad. This is what I want. I love you, and I want to spend eternity with you. I can’t think of a better way to die.” I looked at him. “This is not a joke. Your life will be fully changed.” He smiled. “It was changed the first time I met you. You should not fight this. This is what must be done. I am happy about this. I want you to be happy.” He hugged me. We sat in the dark, just hold each other. We soon made our way home and joined the others. We talked of many things. Sometimes about the wedding, it was only two nights away. John had gotten ordained online. He would perform the ceremony. George and Tianna would walk me down the aisle. Moreover, Devon would be waiting for me. He and I went upstairs and lay down. Question was in his eyes. “Well, are you going to ask me?” “Huh? Oh, it’s nothing.” “Come on, you’ve had that look on your face for a few days now.” “I’ve just been wondering something.” “Well, what is it?” “You dreamt about me when you were still human, right?” I shook my head. I knew where this was going. “Well, why did you choose to be changed, knowing that you would meet me?” “I didn’t really know I would meet you. I thought that I could prevent finding you. I thought I could control it.” “So you didn’t want to find me?” I shook my head. “That wasn’t it. I felt that you deserved better. I made my choice, but I would not damn you.” He laid there. “And now?” “Now I know that this was meant to be. I couldn’t fight it, and I don’t want to.” He smiled at me. Pulling me toward him, we embraced. Hours passed as we laid there. I closed my eyes eventually. The vision was foggy at first, but then I heard a shriek. I was lying in the clearing, Devon’s body in my arms. Dead. No heart beat, no smell. Nothing. Tianna, John, and George came running toward me. I growled at them. I shriek again. My eyes opened. He hovered over me, concern in his eyes. “What? What is it?” I pulled away from him and fled downstairs. Tianna sat there, concern in her eyes. “What did you see?” I paused. “He was in my arms, dead. Dead.” She shook her head. The others looked at me. Devon was standing in the doorway now. “Did you see how?” Tianna was still questioning me. “No, there was nothing. He was just dead.” I was so distraught. “Maybe it is just your fears manifesting. Maybe it is the future. It can be changed.” I shook my head. “The only way it can change is if he leaves, now. That is the only way he can be saved.” I looked at him, fear was in his eyes. “I will not leave. If you are concerned about killing me, then let Tianna do it. That will ease your fear.” I shook my head. “I don’t think I did it. I don’t know what happened, but I don’t think it was me.” He came toward me and laid his hand on my shoulder. I pulled away. Tianna spoke, “Ryanne, I must ask you to go back into your vision. We must know exactly what you saw.” “I don’t think I can. It was so horrible.” “You must try.” I closed my eyes and concentrated on my vision. The clearing came into view. I laid in the clearing, in my wedding dress. He lay across my lap. His lips blue, his skin as pale as mine. “Do you see any markings?” I searched. Nothing on his neck, nothing on his hands. “Look closely.” I picked up his arm. Tiny marks lay in the bend of his elbow. I shrieked again. “Marks, on the inside of his arm. Bite marks.” Tianna stared at me. “I was in my wedding dress.” She shook her head. “So, let’s do it before the wedding. That way we’ll make sure it doesn’t happen like that. Tianna, would you?” She looked at me, then at him. “This is Ryanne’s decision.” I shook my
head. “It can’t be done. You can never be changed. I will not have you be killed.” He shook his head in disagreement. “I trust Tianna. I trust you. It will be alright.” “Fine, you want to die? I will not be here to watch.” I leapt up and ran out the door. I roamed for hours in the woods. No one had come to find me. I wondered if he was dead yet. Would I never hear his heart beat again? Never be intoxicated by his smell? I sighed. I slowly made my way back home. I couldn’t hear anything when I saw the house. I began to worry. Opening the door, John and George sat there. I looked at their faces and I knew where Tianna was. As I made my way upstairs, I heard a faint drumming. It was struggling. Opening the door, Tianna was bent over Devon. She pulled away and looked at me. I sighed and sat on the bed beside him. He lay there, peaceful. Tianna put her hand on my shoulder. “The worst is done. He will awaken in a few days.” I bent over him and laid my head on his chest. I listened, as his heart got fainter and fainter. It took a whole day for it to quit beating. I never left his side. The others encouraged me to feed, but I would not leave him. Three days passed and I grew worried. Tianna reassured me. It had taken a week for me. I must be patient. On the forth night, my hunger was almost unbearable. I had decided to give in and hunt. I changed into some comfortable clothes. As I headed out the door, I looked at him. His finger twitched. It was so quick, but I fled to him. His hand moved, and then his other hand. “Tianna!” She was soon beside me. His legs moved. He gasped an unneeded forced breath. His eyes opened. They were clear with a touch of violet. I smiled at him. He smiled back. I sighed with relief. Before I knew it, we were embraced. The act had been so quick. He pulled away quickly. He seemed shocked by the action. “Everything will be fine.” I encouraged him. John stood there, a cup of blood in his hands. I took it from him. “Here. Drink this.” He looked at me and grabbed the cup. He drank it quickly. I could see the strength returning to him. He looked up from the empty cup, his eyes filled with concern. “Are you mad at me?” I shook my head. “No. You did what you thought best. I told you it was your choice.” He hugged me again. “I love you.” “And I love you.” The others left and he got up and got dressed. “Will it always feel like this?” “No, you’ll get use to it.” He understood. I took him to hunt. He was great. The deer hardly felt anything at all. Walking back to the house, he grabbed my hand. “You will be my wife soon, and forever will begin.” I smiled at him. The ceremony was nice. It was quiet and beautiful. Candles everywhere. Flowers everywhere. We spoke vows from our hearts, sealing them with a kiss. We were husband and wife. That first night together, was amazing. Not holding back, we experienced everything. The feelings so much deeper than human feelings. Every touch was like fire. It was hard to rest peacefully after that. We both enjoyed the act of being one so much. The others didn’t see us for a whole three days. When we finally emerged from our honeymoon suite, the others grinned at us. Their faces smug. I would’ve blushed, but there was nothing to blush about. I was happy. He was happy. We were happy. Our lives would be like this, forever. We were complete. Years passed, and the happiness remained. George had finally found a female companion. Tianna and John had made their union official. We were one big happy family. Enjoying the pleasures of life, and reveling in the thought of forever. What more could a girl ask for? I was complete. The End
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