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to college and earning a degree. Throughout my entire educational career I was always a top student and never accepted anything other than that. High school was the perfect example of it. I was enrolled in all honors and advanced placement courses while being a member of many of the honor societies as well. Graduation finally came around and after all my hard work and dedication I graduated top seven percent of my class, held acceptance in five colleges, and earned a scholarship. After graduation I still hadn’t decided where I was going to attend college for the next four years of my life, so out of desperation and knowing I would have the comforts of home I decided to stay in Miami and attend Florida International University (FIU). FIU was my safety school and I honestly did not want to attend. I began school right away. My first semester was the Summer B term which at first was fine. I guess since it was the summer my entire experience was different. Then, the Fall semester came around and that’s where things began to change. The fact that I never wanted to be there, made me find every single possible flaw with the place. I would go to class and leave early or I just wouldn’t show up. I didn’t care about being there and I didn’t care about school. This behavior was not normal for me. I was extremely unhappy and that unhappiness developed into a depression that I was in denial about. My solution to the problem was to ignore there was a problem at all. I was focused on distractions. In my mind, I thought if I did other things I would be able to forget what was going on, even though it was always in the back of my mind. I started going out and partying excessively to the point that I wasn’t even enjoying myself. It was like if I were empty inside. I would go out from Wednesday through Sunday night. All I
was doing was going to clubs, dancing, and drinking every night. I knew it wasn’t healthy but I didn’t care because it was better than acknowledging I had a problem. I acted like everything was fine, including school. With my unusual behavior, I knew everyone around me was beginning to notice there was something wrong. Finally, I hit rock bottom. After months of this behavior, I began to accept there was something wrong and all this was not me. When the new semester started, I was on academic warning and decided to take some classes at Miami Dade College (MDC) as a transient student rather than deal with the unhappiness at FIU. I filled out the forms and they were approved. I spent the Spring semester at MDC and did great in all my classes. I had stopped going out as much and had stopped my unhealthy behavior. After my semester at MDC, I realized it did not matter where I went to school as long as I was going and doing well so I registered for the Summer term at FIU once again. Unfortunately, being at FIU made me unhappy once again. This time around I didn’t take on the same behavior patterns as before but I was not attending class. Mid-summer I decided I was going to put an end to this and withdrew from FIU and decided to transfer to MDC. At first I was going to take a semester off but then realized I had wasted so much time over the past year that I decided to take the plunge and just register for classes and finish my Associate in Arts Degree (AA degree) in Psychology as soon as possible. I decided I would complete my AA degree and then apply for transfer admission to the University of Florida (UF). Over the past year at MDC, I proved to myself and my mother that I had changed. I made sure I was going to class and studying and do my best. My motivation to finish and transfer to UF came from all my experiences over the past
year. I knew I had made mistakes before and those mistakes were the ones to motivate me to accomplish my new goals. Now, after being at MDC for about a year, I am about to complete my AA degree and continue with my education the way I had always planned. Having gone through everything I did taught me many lessons about myself and life. I learned not to take anything for granted and always follow your heart. If something is not right, then find every means possible to make it right. Everything I experienced is still a big part of my life and always will be. Each day I think of everything that happened and look how far I’ve come and it has just shown me it is all a part of growing up.