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Dialogues with God

from Doug Perry January 2007


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I didn't always, but in the last two years, I've learned to tune in very carefully to the voice of God. And I'm not talking about just any old god. I'm talking about hearing the Holy S irit of God that came down to man when !esus "hrist ascended and sat at the right hand of #ahweh, the great I A$. He says that His shee will hear and know His voice. %See A endi& A.' How did it ha en that I started hearing Him and how do I know it's God( )ell, that's a different book. %Although some is in A endi& *.' +his book is just here because God told me to start documenting some of my conversations with Him. +hen He told me to ut them all together so that eo le could read them and decide for themselves if they would like to hear God like this. $any eo le will definitely ,-+ want to hear God like this. It hurts. It's hard. It will cost you everything. /ut it IS ossible. And I wouldn't trade it for anything. If you don't think God talks to eo le anymore, then just consider this an e&ercise in creative writing or a oetic allegory or my own fanciful daydreaming. I don't really care what you think. I know the difference and I know He is real and I know He is directing my aths now that I know how to get out of His way. And I wouldn't trade it for anything. +hese aren't articularly insightful. +hey're not the best things the 0ord ever told me. +hey're not documentation of dreams and visions and dee revelations. +hey're not words of knowledge about the secret things in some other erson's heart. +hey're just written documentation of sni ets of the kind of daily, running conversation I have with the 0ord all the time. Sometimes daily to1do lists, sometimes encouragement, sometimes just a at on the head. I'm not resenting them because I think they are the best of all the things the 0ord has shown me, they're not. +here are lots of things that He's told me that are very rivate, some that aren't for now, some that I don't even understand yet. /ut these 2*ialogues3 are just so that maybe you'll hunger and thirst for a relationshi like this. He said that His shee would hear and know His voice. And you can, if you'll unclog your i eline and shut u and listen. +he first of the *ialogues is more oetic than normal and was written just as my furniture store was being crushed. It was a serious low oint and robably near the beginning of when I started writing the *ialogues. #ou will see that it is much different in style and tone than the others that followed. God is faithful. 4ven when you feel crushed and defeated, He will never let it go too far. +hroughout everything that I have endured, He has always been faithful. He's a great *ad. /ehind these dialogues is a S iritual +uneu section that might hel you get unclogged so you can hear better. He's a really great *ad and I know He wants to talk to you like this. #t$s not %ust me& # 'now lots of fol's that hear (im li'e this. And lots have been raised u by !esus through me to hear Him like this. If I can hel you hear Him better so that you don't have to lean on your own understanding anymore and H4 can direct all your aths, that's the best gift I could ever think of giving you. )DD# #O*)+ *O ,-. God doesn't worry too much about ca itali5ation of ronouns associated with Him. He definitely doesn't re6uire it as a sign of res ect for Himself when (e is talking. I asked and it's just not real im ortant to Him. I usually do it, but if I forget sometimes or I'm ty ing too fast, that doesn't seem to bother Him. He knows that I love Him with all my heart. He wants a broken and contrite heart, a circumcised s irit 7 not ca itali5ation and a heart of ice. I'm trying to resent these in as raw a way as ossible. I've only edited them where something was included about a erson or some bit of instruction or information that the 0ord didn't want made ublic. +he only other change I made is that I ut His words in bold so you can read it easier. I doubt it is necessary, because it should be retty obvious who is whom, but I don't want to make it harder than necessary. I would love to have commented on all the ama5ing miracles and divine a ointments and erfect timings that resulted from obeying the instructions He gave, but that too is beyond the sco e of this book. I'm not trying to rove it was Him or justify what I heard or anything. I'm just resenting the raw conversations. #ou do what you will with them. I don't have anything to rove and He is the only one I need to lease. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com 2 Dialogues with God

Dialogue with God / 70102002 / Par'3ille& !issouri


$y God and my 8ing, #ou alone are worthy of glory and raise, #ou alone are above all. #ou are my everything. I rest in your arms through all that comes, I'll rest in your arms. /ut I'm so tired, 0ord. I've been fighting so long. +hey're not listening, 0ord. +hey're not changing. I feel all alone and I'm so tired. )here did #ou go( )here is my hel ( #ou romised, Abba. 9lease( 4est& 5hild& #$m here. #$3e always 6een right here. # didn$t say it would 6e easy. 7ou$re the one that prayed to 6e li'e !e. 7ou said you$d do anything. 7ou said you$d gi3e up anything. Did you thin' # wasn$t listening8 7ou did mean it didn$t you8 -h, :ather. I meant it. #ou know I did. I didn't hold anything back 1 or at least I didn't mean to. I said #ou could have it all. I said I'd go. I said I'd endure. /ut I'm so tired, Abba. 4est& 5hild& #$m here. 7ou can$t fail. 9hat #$3e made you to 6e& you 9#++ 6e. 7ou couldn$t screw it up if you tried. )nd you 9#++ try : 6ut # 'now it$s not on purpose. #$3e already made allowance for that. #t$s not a6out you. #t ne3er was. Just rest in !,. #$ll ta'e care of e3erything. /ut it makes no sense. +hey think I'm nuts. +hey think I'm making this all u . +hey can't see that #ou would do this to somebody. +hey're just sure that if #ou called, then #ou would rovide. And, sometimes, when I'm weak, they start to make sense. 4est& 5hild& #$m here. !y ways are not 7our ways. )nd it$s a good thing& too. 7our ways %ust get you into more trou6le. ;ut # ha3e a plan. )nd it$s a good plan. )nd it will confound the wise and it will glorify !y (oly *ame. his isn$t a6out you. #t ne3er was. # appreciate that you$re willing& # lo3e you for it. !ore than you 'now. ;ut this is !7 show. #$ll write the script. I know, Abba. I know. I get how big #ou are. At least as much as #ou've shown me and my uny brain can handle. I get the com le&ity and interconnectedness of #our lans. I get the majesty of it. /ut right now, right this minute, I'm just hurting really bad, *addy. I'm sorry to make it about me, but ... www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com < Dialogues with God

4est& 5hild& #$m here. # 'now you. # 'now your needs. # 'now you need to see the plan. #$ll show you when you$re ready. )nd # 'now you need lo3e. # made sure you got %ust enough& didn$t #8 )nd # lo3ed on you real good& didn$t #8 -h, God. -h, :ather. I do a reciate the eo le you sent 1 and the words they s oke at the right moment. And without me asking. I know it's #ou. And, yes, #ou loved on me real good. So good that I can't sto crying 1 and I don't want to ever sto . And I'm sorry to ask for more, I really am, but I just need to see. I need to see through #our eyes. I need to see the big icture. I need to know my lace. I need to see ... 4est& 5hild. #$m here. ime after time #$3e let you see through !y eyes. # want to show you more& and # will. ;ut it$s going to hurt. 7ou need to 6e ready. #t$s really dar' out there& and it$s going to get a lot worse 6efore it gets 6etter. +ots of people you lo3e are going to die. -ome really ugly stuff is coming. )re you willing8 here$s a lot of 6adness coming. Abba, #ou know I'm willing. I've seen so much already, but I know there's so much more. /ut could we lease just ski to the end( "ould I lease just see more of the ha y ending( I'm kind of drowning in the bad stuff. It hurts really bad. )hy won't they listen(. 4est& 5hild. #$m here. # 'now what you can handle. # can$t stretch you without pain. # can$t 6uild muscles without 6rea'ing some down. 7ou as'ed me to put all the weight on. 7ou as'ed to 6e 6ig and strong. 7ou wanted to get it o3er with =uic'ly. here$s no other way& 6ut through the pain. rust me& # 'now a6out pain and suffering. #$ll gi3e you the endurance you need. #$m spotting. he weight will ne3er crush you. 9lease, :ather. I'm so tired. /ut I don't want to rest. I don't want to sto . I know how this works. I know something big is around the corner or it wouldn't hurt this bad. I'm willing. #ou know I am. I'll stand. #ou've got me through so many times like this before. /ut I need you to lift just a little more. I need you to get the bar off my chest. 4very muscle is screaming. 4very day it hurts more. It's really heavy and I don't think I have any strength left. 4est& 5hild. #$m here. # lo3e you. # really do. !ore than you can 'now. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com > Dialogues with God

;ut #$m the one that gets to decide if you$3e had enough. #$m the one that 'nows what you can handle. +et !e do my %o6. +et !e 6uild you up. # 'now you$re tired. 9e$re almost there. Just push a little more. Gi3e !e a couple more reps. hen we can rest a little while and you can see the fruit of your la6or. 7ou$ll see it. # promise. #t won$t 6e in 3ain. # promise. -h, God. I will. I don't know how, but #ou know. I trust #ou. I do. I'll ush. I can do a cou le more. 9lease just sla me around when I sound like a sissy. 9lease do what #ou do. /reak me. I meant it. I'm not backing down. )hatever it takes. *on't be gentle. *on't go easy on me. *on't let u . +hey're hurting and dying and we're losing this war, I want to be strong. I need to be strong to reach them. I'll go. I romise. /ut ... I'm so tired. ;eally tired. ;eally ... # 'now& -on. # 'now. #$m here. 4est. #$ll dry e3ery tear. #$ll sustain you. #$ll hold your hand. 9hen you can$t& #$ll do the hea3y lifting. Just rest. # 'now what #$m doing. )nd we are *O losing this war. #$m 6aiting the enemy. #$3e got them all right where # want them. +hanks, *ad. I know. I'm really sorry for this. #t$s O?& 5hild. # 'now you are. ;ut it$s O?. 7ou$re doing really good. #$m really proud of you. #t will all 6e worth it. # promise : and # can$t lie. # promise. #$ll ma'e it up to you. 7ou$ll see. I love #ou, Abba. # lo3e you too& 5hild.

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Dialogue with God / )ugust "& 2002 / 2.<> pm / +i6erty& !issouri


#es, 0ord( )hat is it( +isten carefully& -on. # ha3e a lot to say. oday is the 6eginning of a new thing. Just as the 6eginning of the month of )3 was important& so too& is the 6eginning of )ugust. +ots of decisions are made this month. +ots of people will choose whether to go into the Promised +and or chic'en out. -ome will try to go without me and get trounced. #f !y )r' doesn$t lead the way& there$s going to 6e trou6le. )t times& you got ahead of me or turned to the side. # co3ered for you& 6ut there were still conse=uences. *ow we$re getting it all 6ac' on trac'& 6ut it has come at a cost. # 'now you understand that. )hatever it takes 0ord. )hatever the cost to me. I deserve whatever comes. I just want to be in #our 9erfect )ill. 9lease restore me, 0ord. +isten. here is a half:moon on the 1th of )3. 9hich way are you going to go8 o the dar'ness or to the light8 ,3eryone will ha3e to decide.

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Dialogue with God / "002@002 / +i6erty& !issouri


Good morning, 0ord. I'm here. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. I love you, too, 0ord. )hat's the lan. Don$t go to wor' today and don$t call in. 7ou need to finish writing <the ;ed *ragon book=. 7ou could ha3e got it done yesterday& 6ut you goofed off and got distracted. Don$t eat or drin' until you finish writing and don$t go get the rest of the stuff out of the house. Focus on this. #$ll help. I'm sorry about yesterday, 0ord. I'm sorry I let other things distract me. 9lease forgive me. # do& -on. -tay on tas' today. his is really important. he Dragon wants to ta'e your mind off of this. (e$ll use anything or anyone to 'eep you from finishing this. ;ecause you allowed it without listening to !e #$m going to ha3e to dial up the pressure today. I understand, 0ord. It's fine. +hanks for that. Don$t answer the phone unless # specifically tell you to. Don$t go anywhere or plan on doing anything. Don$t ta'e a nap& don$t eat& don$t get distracted. # will help you write this. #t needs to get finished today. #es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. )hat am I missing( #t needs to 6e short and direct. his is not the time for a full eAposition of e3ery 3erse and e3ery nuance. 9e$ll fill it all in later. 4ight now it %ust needs to get out there and 6e said. )lso it needs to 6e clear that O*+7 those with a personal spirit of repentance for J,4B-)+,! are truly free. #f they$re not weeping and mourning for (,#4 part in it and repenting for (,#4 sins and the sins of (,#4 forefathers& then they$re %ust fighting against it or creating their own Dragon. #t$s not enough to feel sorry that it happened or to wish it was fiAed or to as' the +ord to forgi3e (O-, people that did it. 7ou )++ did it and you )++ need to repent for your part in it. #es, 0ord. I understand. "an I ... *o. "an I ... *o. FO5B-C

-o s. Sorry, 0ord. #ou're right. I love #ou, 0ord. 9lease hel . +here is lots of stuff swarming and it's really messing with me. # 'now& -on. #$ll help. 5lear out the sphere and unplug the pipeline. -h, yeah. +hat hel ed. +hanks, 0ord. +hey're trying really hard. ) lot hangs on this. (eyC FocusCC )ow. I'm drifting again. Sorry, 0ord. -8. I'm getting it. *o you want me to write on the !e5ebel thing( *o. Just the Dragon writing. "an I check my email( *o. Just the Dragon writing. #f you can stay on tas'& it won$t ta'e long. # don$t want this to ta'e all day. here are other things that need doing. +hanks, 0ord. I'll try really hard. I love #ou. 9lease hel and don't let anything kee me from hearing #ou today. # lo3e you& too& -on. #t will 6e fine. #$3e got it under control. Get to wor'. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com 7 Dialogues with God

Dialogue with God / "0022002 / 1.<" am to 1.>D am / +i6erty& !issouri


Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too. )hat's the lan, 0ord. I feel really heavy. +oday is already starting off with fear and trembling. 7es& -on. oday is important. oday is transition. # am doing a new thing. 9lease 0ord, lease say I'm not out of order. 9lease say that #ou and I are -8 and that I haven't failed you. I know I goofed off on $onday and didn't get the *ragon thing written, but I'm really sorry. -on& hear me. 4est. 7ou are O?. 7ou are in !y hand. # will pro3e it to you today. # will show you signs that you are where # want you. 4est. )hatever #ou want, 0ord. +hank you. 9lease give me #our eace. I'm very tired and I don't know what to do ne&t. 9lease give me wisdom. I'm kind of scared. +here are so many things coming against me and I have no idea how it's all going to ever get settled. I want to serve and focus on #ou, but today they are all coming at me. +he money, the law, the state, the bank, the house, the family, the work, the brothers, I've got lying s irits in the mouths of the ro hets, I've got red dragons to deal with, I've got a bad tire on the van and so many other things all at once. I know #ou said #ou wouldn't give me more than I can handle, but it sure seems like I'm at the limit. # 'now -on. his is a 6ig day. # 'now it$s hea3y. ;ut it$s not demonic& it$s %ust !e sitting on you. Don$t 6e afraid. # will co3er you li'e a 6lan'et and there will 6e lots of tears today& 6ut don$t 6e afraid and don$t let the enemy turn it into despair or loneliness. #es, 0ord. 9lease hel . I'm so weak. I have no ho e without #our hand. # am here. #t$s time to 6e fruitful and multiply. # ga3e you Genesis " this morning for a reason. # made each according to his 'ind and # made you for a purpose and for this time. )nd # ha3e loo'ed and seen that it is good. 4est. oday we plant the seed and # will water it and 6ring the increase. #t will grow up fast. 7ou$ll see. +hank #ou, 0ord. I love #ou. 9lease forgive my eo le. 9lease heal my land. )e are wretched, naked, blind and oor. 9lease o en blind eyes. 9lease, Abba. I'm sorry. 9ut it on me. )hatever it takes, just heal my eo le. -end the e:newsletter& -on. #$ll help write it. Offer the Dragon writing to those who ha3e ears to hear. )s' the intercessors to pray. ell the story. Huh( +ell my story( 0ike the whole thing about what I've been through and going through( 7es. ell them. +et them share your 6urden. -how them what it costs to see' !e all the way and del3e into the deep things. ell them how to help. 0ord, that doesn't seem very humble. )hat ha ened to 2like a shee led to the slaughter3(

*o one is ma'ing accusations. ;efore the 6rethren you tell them what you$re going through and you gi3e the glory to !e for 6ringing you thus far. # will mo3e on their hearts as each needs. 9lease 0ord, I need a confirmation. I don't want to s eak forth the whole story if I'm not >??@ sure it's #ou. 9lease( -end this to -uEanne. 7ou already called ,li%ah. 5all again on your phone. # will confirm it. 9lease, 0ord. I love #ou. 9lease give me strength. # )! sufficient. 4est. #$m here. #t$s all good. +hanks, 0ord. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com D Dialogues with God

Dialogue with God / "00<0002 / 1.00am to 1."0am / +i6erty& !issouri


#es, 0ord. I'm here. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. I love #ou, too, 0ord. Good morning. +hanks for getting me u early. +hanks for rayer time with #our saints. )hat's the lan today( First& # want you to rest. Go 6ac' to 6ed. #$ll get you up when it$s time. 9e need to get that tire replaced at the Goodyear and you need to get a couple cans of Deft and the hardware to finish up the sign and for the 6oard tomorrow at Feronica$s Foice. #$d li'e that done 6efore @.<0pm. )lso& you need to go ma'e copies of the 6oo's and the )pology and the 4ed Dragon writing. )nd mail the 6oA to 5hris. Don$t BP- it. #es, 0ord. +wo cans( Am I going to A.A. tomorrow( How many co ies of the books( *o I need binders( *o I still need to buy those sticky hooks( 7es& two cans. 7es& you$re going to F.F. tomorrow. 4ain G "0& )pology G "0& Dragon G 20& )pologies G @00. 7es& you$ll need 6inders for the 6oo's. #$ll tell you where. 7es& you are going to need hardware for the sign anyway& so go 6uy the hoo's. *o I need to go fi& !udy's shower handle( *ot yet. #$ll tell you when. Am I sending money to /rother <BBBBBB= in 8enya( *ope. *ot yet. /ut 0ord, he's got starving or hans. Some money showed u . Shouldn't I hel (. *ope. *ot yet. #t$s not as 6ad as you thin'. #$m doing something there. # 'now they$re suffering 6ut HIIIIIIJ has to loo' to !e first& not to any !an. #es, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord. +ord& do you want me to let my wife ha3e those two chec's from ;ruce8 ,o e. She's on her own. +hat was $y rovision for the ministry. Have /ruce resend them. 7es& +ord. #$3e got a lot more peace than normal& don$t #8 Bsually #$m 6awling when we do this. )re we O?8 #es, you're hearing $e better and I'm hel ing make things easier. )e're going to do this a lot from now on and I can't have you always making uddles everywhere you go. C1' han's& +ord. 7ou$re funny. # lo3e 7ou. I love you, too, Son. )nything else8 )e'll adjust as the day moves along. Go get some slee . O?. han's.

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Dialogue with God / ""02002 / D.22am to D.@>am / +i6erty& !issouri


Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for what #ouDve already done today. +hanks for revelation and wisdom. +hanks for healing. +hanks for being resent. +hanks for allowing the S irit to ray through us. Good morning& -on. )ll is well. 7ouKre doing 3ery well today. ?eep pressing in and listening to my 3oice. # will lead and guide you through the day. 9e ha3e a lot to do& 6ut it may not seem li'e a lot at the time. )hatDs first, 0ord( 7ou can snac' while youKre on the computer. Drin' the water 6ottles # pro3ided. omorrow youKre fasting. #Kll gi3e a lot of grace on what you eat today. +hanks, 0ord. #our will. )hatever you want is fine with me. First& answer +eslieKs email. Pray for her clarity and focus. Pray a shield around her and 6rea' the fear. ,Aplain the 4ed Dragon to her personally and concisely. -heKs ha3ing a hard time 'eeping focus long enough to hear me. #es, 0ord. # want you to pray in tongues a lot today. # want to stretch you and teach you new things. Bse the new one sparingly& 6ut #Kll gi3e you more. #t is a complete language pac'age& e3en though you only got one word to start. #tKs important. ?eep pressing in. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Get in touch with !erri. -ee a6out mo3ing some stuff o3er there to store temporarily. 7ou will 6e staying with them& at least for a little while. # canKt ha3e you here anymore. 7ouKll 6e in motion. DonKt get too comfy / and pac' light. -tore e3erything else at !erriKs. #Km gi3ing them a choice& 6ut thatKs the plan. #es, 0ord. I could really use some brake work on the van. # 'now. #K3e got it. 5ontact -te3e. #Kll pro3ide the funds when the time is right. "all him today( *o. *ot today. ;ut soon. #Kll tell you when. Should I send the last dialogue to /rother <BBBBBB= in 8enya( *o. *ot yet. DonKt respond yet. )hat else, 0ord( !a'e some more 6uttons. Finish off the ones you ha3e printed. 7ouKre going to need to order more parts soon. 9eKre going to distri6ute some of those today. # want you to tal' to +ee at (yFee a6out selling them there. )nd call +inda ?. #es, 0ord. "all 0inda about the buttons( 7es& a6out the 6uttons and whate3er else # put on your heart or hers. Get the design for the neAt t:shirt finished for 5hris and wor' on his sign. #es, 0ord. +hanks for smoothing that over with "hris. 9lease heal any hurts there. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord. 7ouKre welcome. #t will 6e fine. # lo3e you& too.

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"an we talk about the Adamic language( *ot here. *ot right now. #es, 0ord. )hat else can I do for #ou( Pray for J.P. and John (. Pray for ,dwin and )ustin. Pray for ;o6 . Pray for 5arlton. "arlton, who( I donDt know any "arlton. Just pray / and mean it. Pray the hard prayer. Bse the new tongue. #K3e got it. Pray that 5lare would get e3erything she needs 6efore she goes 6ac' to )ustralia. Pray for Jay. Bse the new tongue for that& too. #es, 0ord. +hanks for #our love for all #our children. +hanks that #ou are watching out for us. +hanks for all the eo le that #ou tell to ray for me when I need it. # lo3e you all. # will not lea3e you nor forsa'e you. # will hold you in the palm of my hand and 'eep you safe. ,3en when the fire is raging& the flames will not consume you. 7ou are mine. +hanks, 0ord. #ou are an awesome God and there is no other besides #ou. 9lease donDt ever let me give #our glory to another 7 or to me. 9lease kee me humble and broken. 7es& -on. # will. # always answer that prayer. #es, 0ord. hatKs all for now. ?eep listening. here are some surprises / and some great ministry that will happen later tonight. # ha3e something special coming for all of you. +hanks, 0ord. #our will. 9lease donDt let me im ose any e& ectations on #ou and what #ou are doing. #ou are faithful and true and #our romises are yeah and amen. +hanks, 0ord. # lo3e you& -on. I love you, too, *ad. O?& thatKs it. ,mail +eslie. -8. +hanks. each them to pray that prayer.

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Dialogue with God / ""0<002 / D.@>am to 1.20am / +i6erty& !issouri


Good morning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. )hat's u ( -on& # want you to focus today. here is a lot that needs doing. # want you to really try hard to listen to my 3oice. #$m going to gi3e you a list of things and # want you to get e3erything done. #t$s going to 6e tight. 9e$re training here. Just li'e the waffles this morning& if you start praying late or finish late& they will 6urn and the 'ids will fuss. here are conse=uences when the timing is off. ry hard today. he day is coming when seconds here or there will ma'e a huge difference. #t$s not %ust o6eying& it$s o6eying at the right moment and in the right way : and not adding anything to it so that it runs o3er time. hat$s a 6ig one with you that we$3e 6een wor'ing on for a long time now. #es, 0ord. I get it. It sure is. 9lease do whatever #ou have to do to me so that I can fully and com letely follow #our schedule. 7ou need to go through all of the stuff you ha3e and #$ll sort it. -ome to store and some to pac'. 7ou$re going to need to finish the sign for 5hris as well. #$ll help with that. 7ou$re going to ha3e to 6e o3er at the house at @.00pm to pac' up the sauna. )nd you$re going to drop stuff off at !erri and Joseph$s house. #$ll tell you when. )lso& you$re going to go 6y (yFee and tal' to +ee. #$ll tell you when. ?eep praying through the day and practicing the new tongue # ga3e you. 7ou$re %ust scratching the surface. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for #our direction. +hanks for #our gifts. Hel me stay on task and be a good steward of all that #ou've given me 1 including time. 7ou need to get gas. )nd you need to call -te3e today a6out the 6ra'es. Just replace the pads. *o matter what else loo's li'e it might 6e a pro6lem& %ust replace the pads. Pull a 6ig disc 6ac'up of all the files on the other computer& including the 6uttons. ;ac'up the email files on the ,. dri3e. #es, 0ord. *o I have money for gas( And for ads( 7es& it$s there. L20 in gas and #$ll ta'e care of the pads. +hanks for what #ou did last night. +hanks for the sur rise. +hat definitely was. Hel me to e6ui "lare fully for the work that #ou have for her. +hanks for today and what #ou are going to do through her. +hanks for the hone call to ,ick this morning. +hanks for #our resence. I wish we could have stayed on the line all day, just silently feeling #ou. +hanks for that. # want you to finish the JeEe6el 6oo'. #$ll show you how. )lso& you need to start documenting all a6out all the different demons that #$3e shown you. #t$s getting to 6e too many for the a3erage person to remem6er. #$ll help. Just start ma'ing a list of what you$3e learned a6out each one& what they do& what they loo' li'e& where they hide& where they port up& etc. #$ll help. #es, 0ord. +oday, 0ord( -ome today& 6ut it will ta'e awhile. )s # lead. 7ou won$t 6e a6le to finish the JeEe6el today& 6ut dig into it and we$ll see how far we can get. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Am I going to ,orthtown to take the sign( *ot today. Go tomorrow. 5hris will 6e there and you can go 6y the sal3age meat place. Oh& and you$re not fasting tomorrow& %ust today. -8, thanks, 0ord. #ou know I'll fast if #ou want me to.

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7eah& # 'now& 6ut it$s O?. his is a period of rest and restoration. here will 6e long fasts down the road& 6ut this is a time of refreshing. #es, it really has been. +hanks so much, 0ord. I love #ou. +hanks for #our saints and the blessing that they have been to me. 4ven in the midst of warfare and deliverance, I've just had a whole lot of fun and really enjoyed having eo le around to walk with all day. +hanks for that. # 'now what you need. here will 6e more of that coming. +ots of intimate time with indi3iduals in their homes. +ots of chances for me to 6less them through you as they care for you and offer their hospitality. Don$t forget that that is the point. #$m wanting to 6less them& so #$m sending you in to gi3e them a chance. #f they recei3e you& #$ll pour out onto them. #f they recei3e you a little& they$ll get a little. #f they fling open their arms and put e3erything on the ta6le li'e 5lare and -uEanne did& #$ll pour out 6eyond anything they could thin' or imagine. +hanks, 0ord. 9lease soften the hearts of the saints to receive God's anointed. All of them. 0et the ro hets and a ostles find comfort and rest among the saints. 0et the /ody be restored. +hanks, 0ord. hat$s a6out it. #$ll ad%ust as we go along. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord. # lo3e 7ou& too& -on. Don$t go ma'ing this a6out 7OB. his is all a6out !,. #es, 0ord. I'm sorry, 0ord. I love #ou, 0ord. # lo3e you& too. Get to wor'. #es, 0ord. +hanks.

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Dialogue with God / ""07002 / "0.00am to "0.2Dam / Phillip$s house& +i6erty& !issouri
Good $orning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. +hanks for the work #ou're already doing this morning. I love #ou. 9lease be fully in charge today. I don't want anything that's not >??@ #ou. 9lease hel me to stay on task and kee my eyes on #ou all day. # lo3e you& too& -on. #$ll help. loneliness and sorrow today. oday is important. ?eep watch o3er your heart. he enemy will try with

#es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. 9lease hel , 0ord. #ou are my shield. #ou are my strong tower. 7ep& that$s me. #ou're so funny. I love #ou, 0ord. # lo3e you& too& -on. ;e strong. oday # need you to get the sign to 4i3er 5ity $s and the dis' for the neAt shirt. (a3e him total up what money remains and spend it all on getting as many of that shirt as you can. On light colors& 6ut not too many white ones. #$ll help. +#- ,*CC -tay focused. -o s. Sorry, 0ord. I drifted. 7ou need to get o3er to -uEanne$s and get the last of your stuff. 7ou$ll need to get the stuff in the 3an emptied now and sort through it all at !erri$s later. 7ou need to get to !etro *orth today and settle with them a6out the massage chairs. +ea3e the 'eys with -uEanne. +et her 'now you ha3e to ta'e the mattresses and put them 6ac' in the trailer. +ea3e the 'eys and the loc' in the top drawer 6y the sin'. Get anything else of yours out of the trailer. ,ither pitch it or lea3e it in the garage at the house. hrow all the 6ills and statements and stuff in the des' and the file ca6inet in the trash. ;ring the food from -uEanne$s o3er to !erri$s. #$ll tell you what to do with it. -8, am I calling anybody down South( 7es& call -arah Fotopulos. 5all ?e3in. 0ord, I don't have a number for Sarah. -end her an email and let her 'now you$re coming and as' for a phone num6er. hen call her when you get one. -8. +hanks. +ea3e on 9ednesday. #$ll direct. *o hurry. here are stops along the way. #$ll direct your path.

+hanks, 0ord. I just emailed Sarah. )as that -8( 7eah& it$s fine. Good %o6. Are we done( 7eah& that$ll do. Print it out and try to stay on tas'. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too. (ang on& it$s going to 6e a craEy rideC .:M

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Dialogue / ""0"0002 / 6rea'fast time / OEar'& !issouri )t Fotopulos$ 'itchen ta6le.


Good $orning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. I love #ou, 0ord. # lo3e you& too& -on. Gonna 6e a good day& today. 7ou did really well last night. #$m 3ery proud of you. ... (,7C I'm sorry, 0-;*....the dogs distracted me. I'm sorry. -tay focused on !e. #$m going to dial some things up today. rust !e. -pea' what # tell you to spea'. #es, 0-;*. Give me strength. )hat's the lan for today( 5all your Dad. #$ll lead from there. *o& it$s not time to call the +ighthouse yet. 9e are going to some pastors$ today to pray. #es. 0-;*. As you lead. 4mail( 7eah& #$ll get you online again. *o& not calling Bncle ed yet. Soon( 7eah& soon. #$ll tell you when. 7es& call ,li%ah today : when # lead. +hanks for what #ou did last night. +hanks for what #ou're doing in 8evin. +hanks for communion time and what #ou told him to do. +hat was really retty. 7eah& # had a great time& too. 7ou$re welcome. # lo3e you. -h, I love #ou, too, 0-;*. ime to go. Get mo3ing.

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Dialogue with God / ""0">002 / 2.@<am to 7.2>am (oneysuc'le #nn& ;ranson& !issouri
Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for the slee . Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. I love you, too, 0ord. 9lease hel me today. 9lease rule and reign and be sovereign in every way. 9lease direct my aths and ut #our words in my mouth. It's all about #ou, not about me. -on& # want you to crystalliEe all that # ha3e gi3en you in the last >D hours a6out the 5hurch at ;ranson. #t has much wider applications& 6ut #$3e gi3en you words and dreams and 3isions and written things on your heart and now it$s time to write it on ta6lets so that the people will hear and 'now. #es, 0ord. 9lease hel , 0ord. #ou tell me what to say. )s # ha3e shown you& there is a goal here& there is a finish line of sorts. hey will 'now that they are ready to handle the people that are coming and #$ll 6e ready to turn on the faucet wide open when they can eliminate all the static. 9hen a word or a gift or a directional arrow can mo3e all the way through them without losing integrity. Bse the para6le eAamples that # ga3e you& of the Ntelephone gameN and of a corporate retail sale and of a medical school. hey cannot 6e an effecti3e hospital until they are in harmony& each playing their instrument in their own way& 6ut each in tune and in harmony with the others and all playing the same piece of music. 9hen we change 'eys& they )++ ha3e to change seamlessly. 9hen the pillar of fire pic's up and mo3es& they all ha3e to see it and stand and wal' together at the same time. -how them the 'ic' line. <0ike the ;ockettes.= #es, 0ord. I understand. - en the doors for me to s eak it. #t starts with the word ?e3in ga3e on -unday. #t has to flow out and 6e pure and 6e spread throughout the spirals. )nd it has to retain its integrity. Don$t focus %ust on 6rain things either& or it will put too much emphasis on the soulish. #t$s the same with the spiritual things that are distri6uted to the people. hey ha3e to 6e efficient dispensators of that which was entrusted to them. hat$s how they will grow& how they will flow together and how they will 6ecome wine& not %ust indi3idual grapes connected 6y a 3ine. 9hen they are ready for har3est& # mash them together. hey do *O remain independent any longer. he wine has O*, fla3or throughout& not different fla3ors in different parts of the 6ottle. hey will 'now you 6y your lo3e / for each other& for !y 9ord& for !y -pirit and for ruth. #es, 0ord. hey will 'now they are ready when it can flow throughout the 6ody without interruption or twisting or misinterpretation. 9hen they are wal'ing shoulder to shoulder without %ostling each other. here will 6e some that plug it up or mangle it. #n order for this to wor'& they ha3e to "M ha3e a hunger to o6ey& 2M 6e JeEe6el:free& <M 6e all the way full of the -pirit& >M 6e a6le to hear !y 3oice really well and @M ha3e !B5( fear of the +ord for what will happen if they transmit a mangled message. )nd& 2M they ha3e to get completely 4ed Dragon:free& and 7M then they ha3e to 'now how to enter into my rest. #es, 0ord. I understand. 9lease don't let me mangle #our words either. 9lease let this be ure and sto it if it's not. his is !7 mo3e& -on. his is !7 wor'. hey su6mitted to !e and # will do it. #t will 6e a =uic' wor'& 6ut not many will 6e a6le to go all the way in the first wa3e. ;e prepared to identify those who can$t yet or won$t : and ma'e allowance for them. DO *O ;4#*G D#F#-#O* : 6ut some will 6e doctors& some will 6e nurses& some will carry stretchers and some will 6e assigned in the !ess (all or the !otor Pool or 6e !.P.$s guarding the gates. )ll are needed. ;ut the ones that listen the 6est are the only ones that can 6e surgeons. ;ut understand that at )*7 !O!,* # might 6ust through on )*7O*, and e=uip them to 6e the 6est doctor there or # might ta'e a doctor and ma'e them the 6est !P. DO *O put someone in a 6oA and ne3er let them out. ,Apect me to use the 6ase and foolish things. 5ontinue to grow them and try to www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com "2 Dialogues with God

raise up doctors. )nd teach the doctors to 6e hum6le and willing to do any %o6 in the place. his is *O a6out raising up superstarsC his is a6out raising up 3essels that will 6e transparent and # can e=uip and use anywhere at any time. his is a6out 6eing a swarm of 6ees. ,ach with a stinger& all doing the wor' assigned to them& all critical& all focused on the har3est and all a6le to swarm 3iciously at a common enemy. 7ou may 6e a6le to ta'e out a man or a 6ear or a dog& 6ut who can defend against a swarm of 6ees8 #es, 0ord. I understand. 9lease write it all on my heart and hel me to e& lain it to 8evin and the others. Hel me to take it to all the laces you intend for it to go. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. his is !7 show. 4est. )hat's the lan today, 0ord( *ic' will call. -pend time with him. Do as # lead. Get ready to mo3e out of the hotel room. 5all the Pheasant$s. 7ou$ll 6e with them for a few days. Prayer at the !ac'$s tonight. #$m not going to gi3e you too much more detail today. hings are fluid. 7ou did really well yesterday e3en though it seems li'e not much happened. +hanks 0ord. "ould you lease ut some dead eo le in my ath( I'd like some more rayers. How are we ever going to raise the dead if we're never around dead eo le. ractice with the big

7ou$re so cute. #n time& -on. #$ll open doors. #t$s all good. )nswer your emails this morning and go get 6rea'fast. *ot the 6uffet& unless they offer it for free. omorrow you$re fasting. #es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. I love #ou so much. #ou alone are worthy of glory and honor and raise. #ou alone are the source of every good thing. #ou are my rovider and my guide and my rest. +hanks, 0ord. # lo3e you& -on. #$m proud of you. # told you that we would get here and here we are. *e3er forget. #es, 0ord. #ou are true in every way. +hanks so much. +hank #ou, 0ord. #ou're the best *ad ever. 9e could do this all day& 6ut you need to get to wor'. -end this to ?e3in. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / ""0"@002 / "2."Dpm to "2.2Dpm Pheasant$s house& Forsyth& !issouri
Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for what #ou've already done this morning. +hanks for having "hris call. 9lease restore his minutes on his hone and mine and rovide. +hanks for ministry in this home, 0ord. 9lease let #our words sink in and all of mine fall away. 0et #our eace rest on this lace. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. 7ou$re welcome. 7ou did %ust fine. ?eep listening and # will continue to increase your land. I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks so much. I'm having a great time. +hanks for #our eace. I couldn't do anything without #ou. 9lease don't ever take #our S irit from me. 4est& -on. oday will go faster than you thin'. !inistry tonight at *ic'$s house. Prayer for Forsyth later on. Gonna get a hair cut. "ool. +hanks 0ord. #ou show me where and how. 0ord, do #ou think I should worry about the money( *o. hat would 6e 6ad. Just trust me. #$3e got it.

0ord, why did you have me write that( I never worry about the money anymore. For the people reading this. # 'now you$re all good. +hanks, 0ord. #ou're so funny. E1' Anything else( Pray for 5hris and the 6attle he$s fighting. ell -uEanne& 6ut %ust 6road stro'es. -8. 9rite some more on the demon list. 7ou$re going to need it soon. )nd ta'e a shower this afternoon 6efore you lea3e. Do the laundry. *id I get all the laundry out of the van( *ope. 9ash the green sweater and the 6lac' pants& too. -8, thanks, 0ord. I sure love #ou a lot. #ou're the best *ad ever. # lo3e you& too& -on. #$3e got you in the palm of my hand. 7ou are safe. 4est in me and #$ll open e3ery door. #$m really proud of you. +hanks, 0ord. It's all #ou. I didn't do anything and I know it. /ut thanks. Go get the laundry and do that now. hen get to writing. #es, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / ""020002 / 1.2"am to 1.<1am !ac'$s house& ;ranson& !issouri
Good morning, 0ord. I love you. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too. +hanks for the day. It's really retty. +hanks for what #ou did yesterday and how #ou showed u at the Sunday morning meeting in /ranson. It was really great. 7eah& # thought it was great& too. 5ould ha3e had a little less tal'ing and more praying& 6ut it was really good. #$m going to finish what # started here& you don$t need to worry a6out lea3ing. #t$s not a6out you anyway. #es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. I know #ou have it under control. 9lease bless them abundantly and send me back whenever #ou like. Hel me to get better at moving on without tears. *o& -on. #$m ne3er going to do that. # made you this way and #$m %ust *,F,4 going to ma'e it stop hurting when you lea3e part of the ;ody 6ehind. #es, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord. +hank #ou, :ather. /less #our holy name. #our will be done. -on& #$m opening doors& your time here is almost done. ell ?e3in that he can send the ;onfire story a6out the +ampstands to all his people or use it to show them what$s coming. -end him this dialogue. 5all the papers and see a6out ad rates for non:profits. Go 6y the 6an'. !a'e more copies of the 6oo's when you ha3e cash. Bse the BP- store coupon. +isten to me 3ery carefully a6out the computer issue. !a'e some more 6uttons to lea3e here. ,mail Pat and Paul the address in +i6erty. #es, 0ord. )hen am I leaving( 9ednesday. 7ou$ll 6e here for han'sgi3ing with them on uesday night. 0ord, where am I going( #$m not ready to tell you yet. 9hen # do& you need to 'eep it =uiet and go cloa'ed. # don$t want them to see you coming. #es, 0ord. #ou direct, 0ord. )hat else today( Get the +ighthouse 6rochure off of Giles des'. 4ead it. #es, 0ord. *o you want me at the intercessory rayer meeting tonight at F m( 7es. -8, thanks, 0ord. +hat would be great. "an they ray for me( 7eah& that$s part of the plan& too. ;ut stay fleAi6le 6ecause things are in motion. (a3e to tie up all the loose ends 6efore you lea3e. Great. +hanks, 0ord. Anything else( hat$s all for now. Get to wor'. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love you so much. #ou've been so good to me. +hanks for the rovision #ou oured out. 9lease hel me hear you really good and be a good steward. # lo3e you& too& -on. #$m here. 4est. #t$s not a6out you anyway. #es, 0ord. +hank #ou, 0ord. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com "1 Dialogues with God

Dialogue with God / ""02@002 / ".0>pm to ".01pm (u66ell$s house in 9inns6oro& eAas
#es, 0ord( # lo3e you& -on. I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks for that. It occurs to me that you always start with that and I sure a # lo3e it when e3ery6ody starts with that& too. ell them& would you8 #es, 0ord. I will. )hat's u ( Don$t eApect too much today. #t$s rest mostly. -ome teaching and lots of watching. here$s something hidden here and it$s going to 6e hard to find without a lot of focus and attention. al' less and listen more. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Get the 6ag of originals out of the 3an so you$ll ha3e the cup model handy. Go through that with them when # tell you to. #es, 0ord. I'm really oo ed. # 'now. 7ou can ta'e a nap. #t$s all good. I love you, 0ord. # lo3e you& too& -on. 4est. #es, 0ord. +hanks. reciate it.

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Dialogue with God / "20"002 / D.22am ;est 9estern& )ddison& eAas


Good morning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. I love #ou, too, 0ord. )hat's the lan today( 5hec' out at "".00am. !a'e some calls to find 6inder parts. #$ll direct you after "".00am. 5all ,llie a6out the time for the prayer meeting tonight and gi3e her directions. Don$t hurry today& it$s going to 6e a long night. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for a good night slee . I really didn't want to stay here. +hanks for making me. I ho e that whatever was missed can be made u for. I understand that the blood is on my head for talking too long at lunch and missing the ne&t a ointment. +hanks for not making me slee in the van in the cold. ?eep praying for my 6est& -on. -ometimes there will 6e suffering& sometimes there will 6e comfort. -tay willing for either. # will put you in situations that re=uire suffering& 6ut # will always get you through. ;e willing to accept the times of comfort and e3en luAury as well. #t$s a great laptop& isn$t it8 .:M It sure is. +hanks for making me buy it. +hanks for having me stay here. I would have been fine in a lace half the cost, but I know that there were divine a ointments to get here. +hanks. 9lease hel me to receive. +hanks for !ames' rayer yesterday about that. 9lease answer it and raise u more folks to watch over me. I love #ou, 0ord. #ou're altogether lovely and altogether too good to me for what I deserve. # lo3e you& too& -on. *o& it$s not time to send out an e:newsletter yet. -oon. +ay low. -8, thanks. 9lease be with Amalia at -;G <-ral ;oberts Gniversity=. 9lease kee that fire in her burning. I would ;4A00# like to see something bust out there. !e& too& -on. #t will. #$3e got it. I'm still tired, 0ord. /ut I can't slee anymore, can I( 7eah& you can go 6ac' to 6ed. here$s nothing urgent. #t$s all good. #$ll help you rest. +hanks, 0ord. Am I finished( 7ep. +o3e you. Decem6er is going to 6e amaEing. 0ove #ou, too. +hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "20D002 / "0.>@ am to "".0Dam )icardi$s house& Pensacola& Florida
Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too. )hat's u , 0ord( Am I off schedule( *ope. 9e$re right on trac'. # 'now it seems weird& 6ut today is going to mo3e slowly for awhile. -8, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. How come I worked for an hour and a half on a tri u date and then the com uter crashed just before I finished( Don$t worry a6out that. #t was %ust for me. -8. )hatever. I know #ou've got it. +hanks for not letting me throw the com uter or something. +hanks for your eace that asses understanding. 9lease continue to s ontaneously disru t my life and my efforts at any moment. )hatever #ou want is fine with me. # lo3e you& too. .:M So what's the lan today, 0ord( # want you to lea3e right at "".<0. Go to Foley and ha3e lunch at +am6ert$s. 9atch for appointments. a'e a cup model in your poc'et. hen stop at the Pensacola 5hristian 5ollege after that and go where # lead. ;e 6ac' 6efore >pm to meet !itt. #mportant stuff tonight. ;ig part of why you$re here. Pray for !itt$s safe tra3el as well. Gh, 0ord, don't you retty much have big angels around his car and this all lanned out( I never get why I need to ray for stuff that I know #ou're going to do anyway. -top thin'ing so much. Just do what # tell you. O:M #es, 0ord. #ou're the boss. Pretty sure. O:M +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for this leg of the tri . +hanks for letting me see ;ick in $ississi i. +hanks for +om $orris <the hitchhiker= and all the other folks along the way. +hanks for *avid and /ob and $itt and the folks here. 9lease watch over $itt's car and kee he and his wife safe on this tri . 9lease don't let anything throw off #our schedule and #our ur oses. "rush anything the enemy is trying to do, in the ,ame of !esus. here you go. hat wasn$t so hard was it8 O:M E1 0ove #ou, 0ord.

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Don$t worry a6out the alignment& go 6y in the morning. he place ;o6 told you. +hanks, 0ord. Anything else( 7eah. 4est. -8, I'll try. 9lease hel . +hanks, 0ord. 7ou 6etcha. O?& that$s it. +o3e you. 0ove #ou, too, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "20""002 / D.><am to D.@2am ;est 9estern& *ash3ille& ennessee
Good morning, 0ord. +hanks for breakfast. I love #ou. Good morning. # lo3e you& too& -on. 9lease, 0ord, what's the lan today( Am I in the right lace( 7es& you$re %ust fine. han's for as'ing. 7ou$re doing a great %o6. 4emem6er that when pieces of 7OB surface& it$s %ust so # can 'ill them& not to ma'e you feel 6ad. # didn$t send my -on into the world to condemn the world& 6ut that the world through (im might 6e sa3ed. #t$s %ust to show the distance 6etween where you are and where you should 6e& so that you can as' for more of me and less of you. #t$s not to ma'e you feel 6ad. hat can$t really 6e helped& # 'now& 6ut don$t li3e there. #es, 0ord. I get it. +hanks. +hanks for #our Son. +hanks for #our sacrifice. +hanks for #our atience and love. 4s ecially #our love. 7ou$re welcome& -on. -top dwelling on Pensacola. #$3e got it. 7ou did fine. /ut, 0ord, how come it's still messing with me( )hy can't I get it out of my head( Is there something still unresolved or something on me( I don't want to lay footsies with it anymore, but it won't go away. How do I close the door( It usually doesn't bother me like this. 7ou ha3e to as' me to do it. /ut I have been and it's still messing with me. I don't get it. # lo3e you. # lo3e them. ;rea' the ties. -pea' it out. -lice it off. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. It's done. 7ep. *ow stand in faith. #es, 0ord. #$3e got it. #$ll ta'e care of it. *ot li'e you eApect. *ot li'e Da3e& 6ut #$ll fiA it. -top worrying a6out writing an email to the fol's there. 7ou$re se3ered until further notice. *o contact until they contact you. -o don$t worry a6out it. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. +hat hel s. )hat's the lan today( Gonna go slow and rest. 7ou ha3e two hours till chec'out. a'e a nap. :or real( I just got eight hours. 7ep. 7ou 'now you$re tired. Get off the computer and nap. hen go to the ;aptist 6uilding& then to Fander6ilt. #$ll lead from there. Don$t call the Friths until # tell you. #es, 0ord. 9lease hel me slee , 0ord. # will. # lo3e you& -on. 7ou$re doing a great %o6. ?eep listening and learning. +hanks, 0ord. It's all #ou. I know I couldn't do this. 9lease finish the work #ou started in ;achael <my wife=. ,ot too soon, but whenever you're ready. # will& -on. -he$ll 6e glorious. Just rest. #$3e got it. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. 4est.

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Dialogue with God / "20"D002 / 7.>1am to D.0<am royer$s house& !t. (ope& Ohio P(olmes 5ounty& )mish countryM
Good $orning, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. Good morning. #$m real proud of you. 0ord, I didn't do anything. It was all #ou. # 'now& -on& 6ut you listened and o6eyed and it was really pretty. +hanks, 0ord. It )AS really retty. I so love it when #ou come and straighten things out. It could have gone really badly last night, but #ou just swoo ed in and gently moved hearts the right direction. I sure a reciate it. 9lease wreck Holmes "ounty. 9lease fill the Amish so full of !esus that nothing else can fit. hat$s the plan& -on. 4est. #$3e got them all right where # want them. *othing can stand against my Fire. +hanks, 0ord. +hanks for letting me watch. )hat's the lan today( !ore of the same. each them how to get so full nothing else can fit. Don$t 6e in a hurry& #$ll direct all of your paths. 4est in me. #es, 0ord. )hatever #ou say. +hanks for "hris. 9lease bless him abundantly and get anything out of the way that kee s him from hearing #ou really good all the time. +hanks, 0ord. I'm having a lot of fun with him. 7ou$re welcome& -on. #sn$t he a great 'id8 #$m really proud of him. (e$s real special& so ta'e good care of him. #es, 0ord. I will, 0ord. Anything I need to do right now( *ope. 7ou$re fasting until further notice. Just go where # say. ?eep praying for Jonas. he enemy 'nows you$re here now. ,Apect them to regroup and attac' from a new direction. 9atch for snea'y& su6tle attac's. hey$re also going to go for the soft targets& so armor up 9ilma and +eon and the girls really good. #es, 0ord. I will, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Anything else( Don$t worry a6out anything. #$3e got it all under control. 7ou$re right where # want you. 4est. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too. 9or' on the Demon 6oo' until 5hris wa'es up. #es, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "2021002 / D.><am to 1.<2am O3erstreet$s house& +i6erty& !issouri
Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too. I'm here, 0ord. )hat's the lan today( 4est& -on. #$3e got it. oday is a day of details and tying up loose strings. ry ?e3in again when # tell you too. ?eep praying for -uEanne and -usie. 5hec' in with 5hris ,. after noon& unless he calls you first. 7ou$re not going to 6e a6le to get the t:shirts 6efore you lea3e. hat was %ust you. +ea3e that alone. Sorry about that 0ord. 9lease forgive me. I'm sorry for the wasted time and gas and stuff. #t$s O?& it was part of the plan. # forgi3e you. I love #ou, 0ord. )hat else( # lo3e you& too. ;e ready for =uic' directional changes. Don$t put me in a 6oA. his is listening and o6edience practice for all of you. ;ut whate3er path # send you down& #$ll meet e3ery need and you$ll 6e ready. #es, 0ord. I know, 0ord. +hank #ou. *o I need to call *avid at -;G( *ope. *ot yet. -end him the two email trip updates when you find his email address. )malia sent it to you in an email : if you can$t find the scrap of paper you wrote it on. O:M -h, yeah. +hanks, 0ord. 9lease increase my faith. 9lease hel me to trust my brothers and sisters more and know when they are hearing you really well. 9lease hel me to stay out from under any of the red dragons. 9lease, 0ord( +hey really scare me because I know it means I'll wander from #our erfect will. 4est& -on. #$ll put you through what # choose for you. ...... #es, 0ord. +hanks for letting "hris 4. call just now. +hanks for showing me the thing that was still holding him back. +hanks for freeing Him. 9lease tie u all the loose ends there. It was real retty, 0ord. All the way down to having "hris and I say goodbye the very I,S+A,+ before my hone ran out of minutes. I love how #ou do that. 0ast night the hone died the second after I was done talking to Su5anne. I know most eo le might not be im ressed, but it's that little stuff, all day long that hel s build my faith. -H. So thanks for answering the rayer I just rayed above. )ow. +hat was fast. +hanks. #ou're the best. 7ou$re welcome& -on. here are F)4& F)4 more things li'e that than you are capa6le of noticing. #$3e pac'ed your days with so many little treasures li'e that that it will ta'e years of you and # watching the replays to see them allC 9e$ll %ust sit and laugh and you can mar3el at how well the Father ta'es care of you& e3en when you don$t notice. #f you Por any6ody reading thisM as's me to start showing them all the little QcoincidencesR that #$3e arranged in their li3es& # will. # lo3e doing it and # want them to see how in3ol3ed # truly am in their li3es. -h, #4S, 0ord. Show them A00 to me. I know I see lots of them all day long. So many I couldn't even write them all down. /ut show them all to me. As many as I can handle without my head e& loding. Show me A00 the s irals and a lications of all that you're doing around me on every level. 4est& -onC # will& 6ut it would occupy too much of your system resources to handle it all. 9e$ll get there. # lo3e your heart. -h, Abba. 9lease just use me as a walking, talking e&am le of #ou. )hatever #ou want to do with me is fine. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com 22 Dialogues with God

)hatever I have to give u is fine. I trust #ou. Have #our way. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. 4est. 7es& you can get a hair cut today. +hanks, 0ord. Are we done( 7ep. ;ut # lo3e you. I love #ou, too. 9lease be fully in charge today and rule and reign in every way and order all of my ste s and control the words of my mouth and the intentions of my heart. 9lease have #our way in all things and roll over me if I try to have my own way. O?. (appy to do it. +o3e you. I love #ou, too, 0ord. +hanks. 7ou 6etcha.

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Dialogue with God / "02007 / >.@2pm / O3erstreet$s house& +i6erty& !O


-h God. I hurt so bad. -h, God, I'm so lost. 9lease hel . 9lease hold me.. )hat is this( #$m here -on& # lo3e you. I love #ou, too, 0ord. 9lease hel . 9lease e& lain it. I need #ou, not any man. #$m here -on& #$m here. #t$s all !e. rust me. # 'now what #$m doing. !y ways are not your ways. #t$s all part of the plan. 4est. I don't know how to rest, 0ord. It hurts so bad.. 9lease hel me. 4verything feels wrong, everything is twisted. # 'now& -on. # 'now. Just power through. 5ow6oy up. -h, God. 9lease Abba, lease, I don't now what to do. I'm not hearing good and it's freaking me out. 7ou$re %ust fine& the pro6lem is with too much input. 4emem6er when you first got tongues and you were translating e3erything and answering =uestions in it8 #t was so strong for three days until it settled in. his is li'e that. 7ou didn$t notice right away& 6ut the anointing shot up and so did your input . # 'now it$s scram6ling some things. Just 'now it$s all part of the plan and # 'now what #$m doing. #t will settle down soon. #t$s li'e feed6ac' on a hot microphone. Just endure the screech for a little while and it will go away when the le3els settle 6ac' down. I don't know what to do, 0ord. ,othing seems to be hel ing and I feel far from #ou. +hings are changing really fast and I can't get a handle on it. 7ou$re not supposed to& -on. hat$s the point. hat$s always 6een the point. 7ou don$t need to figure it out& %ust o6ey. I'm sorry, 0ord. #es, 0ord. 9lease hel me. +his hurts really bad. I'm way over my head here. #$m helping& -on. Get some rest. Get some time alone. Don$t try to reach out& %ust you and me is enough. I'm sorry, 0ord. #es, 0ord. #ou and me. 9lease, :ather, lease take me home. I hate this lace. /ut not my will, but your's. #n time& -on. 4est. I don't know how to rest, 0ord. ,ot when there is so much ain. 4verything is changing. I don't know what I can stand on. It's not about the eo le, I'll give them all u . I did give them all u . It's not about my ride or my ministry or whatever. I just feel like there is nothing reliable at all. hat$s what it was li'e when # was here. hat$s the way it$s always 6een. *othing here is relia6le& only the Father. 7ou were %ust lulled into a sense that it was sta6le& 6ut it ne3er was. !arriages& %o6s& cars& economies& weather& go3ernments / none of it is really sta6le when # don$t want it to 6e. 7ou ha3e to learn to trust in !, and !, only. )nd you ha3e to want O*+7 what # want. #f we go with what 7OB want& this is ne3er going to wor' out right. 7ou had to learn this. )nd # ha3e to write it on your heart so that you$ll ne3er forget. #es, 0ord. #es, 0ord. )hatever it takes, 0ord. *on't let me back down.. 9lease, Abba. *on't let me chicken out. Give me whatever it takes to endure. I'll stand, I will, I romise. 9lease hel me. +ay low for awhile. +et the dust settle. #$ll ta'e care of e3erything. #es, 0ord. I'm so tired, 0ord. I really need a hug. #$m here& -on. #$ll hold you& %ust rest in !y arms. +hanks, Abba.

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Dialogue with God / "0@007 / "2.@2pm ;est 9estern& ;a'er 5ity& Oregon
Good morning, 0ord. I love you. # lo3e you& too& -on. #$m right in the middle of all of this& don$t worry. +hanks for hel ing me with the drive 0ord. I know that you have to have been doing something for me to drive H> hours straight with just a cou le of hours of slee . +hanks for rotecting the van and watching out for me on the road. How many times have you saved my life since I first left 8ansas "ity two months ago( 7ou$re welcome& -on. #$ll always gi3e you e3erything that you need to accomplish !7 purposes. #$3e sa3ed your life "> times in the last two months. )ow. +hanks 0ord. I know about some of them, es ecially when that cement truck sto ed short in front of me. And I know that deer on the shoulder of the highway in the ;ocky $ountains yesterday was really thinking about jum ing in front of me. +hanks for all the ones I don't know about as well. I know #ou are taking really good care of me and watching out so well for me. +hanks for the rovision for this tri and working out the details so we could get access to the funds just in time. I never know where it's going to come from, but I never have to worry. 9hen money doesn$t come& start to wonder if you$re wor'ing my plan or planning your own wor'. #es, 0ord. Hel me to always stay in #our erfect will. 9lease ignore any rayers that I ray, even the intentions of my heart, that don't align with your best, most erfect will. I know that #ou will adjust sometimes to lease us and still find a way for it to bring #ou glory, but I don't want that. I want #our very, very best and I know that means that it needs to be A00 #ou and ,-,4 of me. I know it's my birthright as a joint heir and that #ou will hear my etitions, and that no man can take it from me, but I lay it down willingly. 9lease have all of #our way and ,-,4 of my way. 4eady to listen now and stop tal'ing8 -o s. #es, 0ord. Sorry, 0ord. ?eep dri3ing. his meeting with John is important. 7ou$ll see. hen head for home. *ot going any farther -outh on this trip. *ow is not the time for 5alifornia. #es, 0ord. Gonna gi3e you more info on the way. #$m sorry a6out you ha3ing to miss your daughters$ 6irthday party& 6ut it$s not time yet. # do want it all restored& 6ut it$s not time. he girls will 6e fine. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. )hatever #ou want is fine. ime to go. !ore later. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "01007 / 7."1am (ic's$ house& (ampton& #owa


Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou. Good morning& -on& # lo3e you& too. #$m right on top of this. ,3erything is fine. # 'now it loo's strange& 6ut # 'now what #$m doing. 0ord, I'm erfectly willing but the ersecution has increased and I don't seem to be doing anything to slow it down. In fact, I'm just retty sure #-G are having me say things that make eo le more mad at me. How is this bringing unity and eace( "hris says he heard #ou tell him that I have a ;ed *ragon with my face on it. I'm sure I don't, but he's going to need to hear from #ou about why we're hearing differently. I don't know what the deal is. #t$s fine. #$ll ta'e care of 5hris. 7ou$re going to ha3e to learn to let !, do the tal'ing sometimes. ,3ery6ody has to gi3e each other the 6enefit of the dou6t and see' !e really hard and #$ll sort it out. 7ou don$t ha3e a red dragon. 7ou laid it all down in ;ranson& e3erything you want or desire or thin' is 6est. he intentions of a persons heart are not the same as ha3ing a red dragon with your own face on it. !ost of it is su6conscious anyway. rust me& # 'now what #$m doing. I do trust #ou, 0ord. I do. I'll endure whatever. I know that a lot of the ersecution in the ast has come because I said things that I could have held in. I know that #ou're trying to make me tough and to show the /ody that real ersecution will come if you let !esus out of your mouth all the time. 9lease don't sto . Have #our way in all things. *on't let me ever get in your way. I trust my shield, 0ord. I trust that you have it under control and that if it makes it out of my mouth, it was art of #our lan. I know that #ou are sovereign in all things. 7ep. # )!. (ang in there& -on. #t$s all under control. # won$t put you through more than you can handle. -ometimes the refining fire hurts and sometimes when fire comes out of your mouth to refine others it ta'es on really uneApected forms. Just rest. #$3e got it. +hanks 0ord. Am I finished fasting, cause #ou know I'll go on until whenever if that's what #ou want. *ope. *ot yet. -oon. -8, thanks, 0ord. Anything else( *o. #t$s all good. Just hang loose and try not to let stuff 6other you. #$3e got it under control. #$ll ta'e care of 5hris and -uEanne and 5lare and 4ic' all the others. +hanks, 0ord.

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Dialogue with God / "0"0007 / D.""am to 1.2"am (ic's$ house& (ampton& #owa
Good morning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. I love #ou, too, 0ord. It was a weird night. *o I need to write down that song for my wife I got in the dream( *o& it$s not for now. #$ll gi3e you more later on that. -tart paying attention& though& #$m going to start gi3ing you songs li'e that. )ow. +hanks, 0ord. Should I kee a recorder around at night( 7eah& that$d 6e good. )hat's the lan today, 0ord( 9e$re going to do some city:reaching today. )ppointments are all arranged. Just listen good and #$ll wor' it all out. Go in humility / and get a hair cut. +hanks, 0ord. I will. Show me where. 4oger$s. -8. +hanks, 0ord. hat$s it. Get dressed. -8. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. #t$s all good. #$m fully on the hrone. 4est.

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Dialogue with God / "0"2007 / 6rea'fast 5omfort #nn& )l6u=uer=ue& *!


Good morning, 0ord. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you. -h, I love #ou, too, 0ord. 9lease rule and reign today in every way. 9lease get me where you want me and control the words of my mouth and the intentions of my heart. 9lease, 0ord( +here's no other way to do this without that. 7es& -on. # will. 7ou$re on the right trac'. (ead -outh. *o you want us to go ray in the ghost town( 7es& that would 6e fine. 9ait for a call from 5arl& 6ut head -outh anyway. 0ord, what's that mean( )ait, but head there anyway( Don$t thin' so much. Just do what you need to do and #$ll wor' out the details. #es, 0ord. I love you, 0ord. # lo3e you& too. Don$t worry a6out what to say to 5arl. #$ll gi3e you the words. 7ou$re going in ahead of Paul to plow the ground. +i'e Daniel *ash. -8, ha y to do it, 0ord. 4ven if I don't see 9aul. Is that it(

7eah& that$s all for now. Get mo3ing. )nd 6rush your teeth. #es, 0ord. +hanks, *ad. E1'

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Dialogue with God / "0"D007 / 1."2am to 1.@2am Suality #nn& Glendale& )riEona PPhoeniAM
Good morning, 0ord. I love #ou. Good morning& -on. # lo3e you& too. )hat's u ( 7ou did really well yesterday. #$m really proud of you. +hanks, 0ord. It was all #ou. I know that I didn't do anything e&ce t get out of #our way. # 'now& -on. ;ut you did a really good %o6 of getting out of my way. #t was really pretty& wasn$t it8 hat was all F,47 important yesterday. (e is 3ery important to the 'ingdom and to what # ha3e for you to do. (e was still chained and you freed him. #t was really pretty. -h, 0ord. I didn't free Him, #ou did. 7es& # 'now& 6ut you were there and you were the tool # used and # want you to 'now that #$m 3ery proud of you and that # appreciate what you did yesterday. +hanks, 0ord. I never 6uite get that, but thanks. Don$t thin' so much. #$m trying to show you that& e3en if someone does something in o6edience to God and they$re %ust transparent and it$s pure Jesus coming out of them& 6e gracious to the person and than' them and ac'nowledge their part in 6eing there and 6eing o6edient. # 'now it$s a fine line 6etween 6uilding their pride and ma'ing it a6out them and %ust appreciating their o6edience& 6ut try to find that place. #t 6uilds their faith and ac'nowledges their -onship when you gi3e them a little pat on the head for doing the right thing. #eah, but didn't you make them do it anyway( )asn't it all art of the lan and they really didn't have as many choices as they think they have( )asn't it going to get done one way or another anyway( -ee& that$s what #$m tal'ing a6out. -top thin'ing so much. # don$t really need your understanding to help me out here. Just ac'nowledge me in all of your ways and # will direct your paths. #es, 0ord. Sorry, 0ord. Have your way. 9lease teach me how to ro erly affirm and encourage eo le for their art in your master lan. #ou are sovereign and you know best. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. # made you this way for a reason and it$s O? that you ha3e to analyEe e3erything& that$s part of what you$re for. ;ut sometimes you ha3e to %ust rest. here are some mysteries you will *,F,4 6e a6le to get your head around until you$re disconnected completely from this world. )nd #$m not going to do that until the %o6 # ha3e for you is completed. #es, 0ord. Have your way, but the sooner you take me Home, the better. I hate this lace. # 'now& -on. ;ut it$s not time yet. #$ll tell you when it$s time. +hanks, 0ord. 9lease bless *e5i and "arl and all the other folks we've met on this tri . 9lease bless 9aul and ;ita that they would have a refreshing and growing time with "arl and Sheila. 9lease bless /ob and Andrew and $ichael and ;ick and *arren and $ike. Have your way with them, 0ord. )hatever it takes to get them walking in the fullness of all that you have for them, do it. 4ven if it hurts. /less #our holy name, 0ord. 9lease be with the folks at home, with Su5anne and "lare and 4ddie and 0arry and all the others. 9lease be with !anice and *ena and 8risti and !immie and *ave and !on and all the folks from the furniture store days. 9lease reveal yourself to them in new ways and give them a bigger and bigger cu of !esus.

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# will& -on. hey are all in my hand. +hanks, 0ord. And 0ord, lease, when you're ready, could you lease finish the work that you started in my wife( I know your romises to me about this and I'm willing to wait, but if there is something that I need to ray to loose #ou in some way to finish the work, lease have me ray it. 9lease don't let me do anything or say anything or desire anything that gets in your way. :inish the work that #ou started in her. I know that she is a mighty warrior and that she will be a mighty hel mate. 9lease, Abba, I'd really like that when it's #our time. +hanks for your romises. I'll wait. She's worth it. #ou're worth it. I know that I'm just walking the same ath that #ou are walking, waiting for a ure, s otless /ride to return to #ou. And I'm willing, 0ord. I said that I would share in #our suffering and I will 7 at least the ortion allotted to me that I can handle. And I'm glad to do it, but it hurts a lot. /ut I'm not asking you to take the ain away, just to hel me walk under the burden and fulfill your ur oses. # lo3e you& -on. #t will all 6e worth it / for you and for me. 7ou$ll see. #t will 6e glorious. #es, 0ord. +hanks, 0ord. Have #our way, 0ord. )re you done tal'ing now8 #es, 0ord. I'm sorry, 0ord. his meeting today is important. hey$re all important& 6ut today is li'e a lynch pin. #t$s a 'ey. )ll the component pieces are coming together. hey won$t line up =uite li'e you$re eApecting& 6ut all the pieces are coming together. 7ou$re restoring the connecti3ity of the ;ody and tying together all the loose pieces. #t$s %ust the 6eginning of what is to come& it$s %ust your little piece of it& 6ut you$re a forerunner wal'ing it ahead of them. # sent 5hris to help trac' and organiEe all the contacts so that you wouldn$t lose a single one. 7es& you need to get in touch with 5harles in +at3ia. he fire is a6out to spread across the ocean. )nd you need to get with !oses in ?enya as well. 7ou need to eAplain the +ampstands to him as clearly as possi6le. 9hen # tell you to& rewrite the city church 6oo' with all that you 'now now. Suote *ee as an appendiA& 6ut not as the main 6ul' of the 6oo'. 7ou ha3e enough now to stand on your own. #es, 0ord. I will. )lso& send the Dialogues 6oo' to +isa and to -usie and to -arah for their input. )nd to (lena. ?eep wor'ing on the demons 6oo' and incorporate all you 'now a6out the shields and the progression we wal'ed through. -8. )ow, you want me to tell them about the shields, too( 9hat is there to lose8 7ou already sound completely nuts. O:M #eah, I guess so. +hanks, 0ord. #ou're so funny. +hanks for what you've made me to be. +hanks for this wild adventure. I was reading back through some of the *ialogues and on *ecember >st you told me *ecember would be ama5ing and it sure was. +hat was 9ensacola and Alabama and ,ashville and 8no&ville and $anchester and Holmes "ounty and 9atterson, ,ew !ersey and then a race back to 8ansas "ity, then "hristmas all together, then back to /ranson and then that bombshell revelation on ,ew #ear's 4ve that almost crushed me and then ending the year fellowshi ing with some beautiful folks at a biker church in Arkansas. It really was ama5ing. Asbury and /erea and G+ and icking u "hris :rith and just one miraculous rovision and a ointment after another. 4ven the stuff with family was all #ou. #ou're an ama5ing God. #ou are always true to #our word and yet we're never 6uite able to get our heads around what #ou are really u to. +hanks for that. +hanks for the adventure. +hanks for the u55les and scavenger hunts and brain teasers. +hanks for the sur rise resents and hidden treasures and une& ected blessings. #ou know what I need and I'm never going to lose interest in #ou. +hanks, 0ord. # lo3e you& too& -on. *o I need to make co ies today( I'm almost out of the laminated cu cards. 7eah. #$ll show you where.

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Is there anymore to do on the *ialogue book( *ot for now. Just add this one and sa3e it and send it off. ;ut # did already tell you to add your QPersonal ,Aperience with the (oly -piritR writing to it / don$t forget. -h, yeah. -8. +hanks, 0ord. hat$s it. a'e care of that this morning 6efore 5hris wa'es up. -8, 0ord. +hanks. I love #ou so much. +hanks for ado ting me. I can't imagine what my life would be without #ou. # lo3e you& too& -on. 7ou$re mine and #$m ne3er going to let you go. *ow get to wor' and stop crying. #es, *ad.

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*eed ) -piritual une:up8


0ots more available on www.:ellowshi ofthe$artyrs.com In the last cou le of years I have visited do5ens and do5ens of different congregations. Sometimes I will fellowshi with four or five different congregations on one Sunday. As the 0ord has led, I've had the great rivilege to get familiar with more astors of more denominations than most anybody I know. I've seen the good, the bad and the ugly in all the different styles and traditions and doctrines. +he most common thing that I've seen is that almost universally there is a tendency toward utting on rograms and ignoring the individual. +he bigger the congregation, the greater the tendency. %;ead the 2Gndeniable A&ioms3 online.' In reality how that manifests always includes a statement about family and concern for the individual but then it's offset and negated by the reality of a structure seemingly engineered to disregard individual needs. However unconscious this may be, the reality is clearly that millions of "hristians are ,-+ walking in the fullness of "hrist or worse, walking around with massive o ressions that continue untreated. +here are +-,S of eo le leaving the institutional churches. $illions of them er year. )hy( /ecause they don't feel like their individual needs are getting addressed. +hey may sit through a good sermon that has some life a lication, but they don't see or feel the radical transformation that should come as a art of the normal "hristian life. -r worse, they have a crisis or a need and nobody in the IchurchI res onds a ro riately. )e are ,-+ honoring God. )e are singing and dancing and retending everything is fine while eo le are bleeding to death in the ews %not to mention in the streets'. 0isten to me, God does ,-+ want you to raise and worshi Him while you're ignoring the erson sitting ne&t to you who is having a crisis. It *-4S ,-+ bring Him honor for you to raise your hands and tell Him how great He is while you :AI0 to act like Him and heal those nearest to you. Heal them 7 or at least +;4A+ them 7 and +H4, you can go raising and worshi ing and telling Him how great He is. He just *-4S ,-+ want to hear you singing while you're ignoring eo le that are crying inside. #our rayers are going to bounce off of the brass over your head until you act like !esus. !ust knock it off 7 or else. He's not going to ignore their cries much longer. +he church should be like the +A show I$JAJSJHI. If they're having a arty and someone shouts I"ho ers.I then the music sto s and everybody rushes into action to do triage. +hat means ra idly identifying and categori5ing the wounded based on needs 1 the bleeding, sucking chest wounds go first, then the broken legs, then the scratches. A:+4; everybody is treated and in ;ecovery 7 +H4, you can go back to your arty. /ut what kind of hos ital would you be if you let them bleed to death in the com ound because you refuse to sto singing and dancing because you had a schedule to kee (. #ou lanned for this arty to take an hour and a half and, by golly, you're going to stay on time no matter what. 4ven when !esus was right in the middle of a great sermon and had them all in the alm of His hand, if a araly5ed guy dro ed down out of the roof, !esus S+-994* +A08I,G and healed him. +H4, He could go on with his sermon 1 A,* everybody was ;4A00# im ressed because of the miracle that had just ha ened in front of them. I'm not sure which would be the bigger miracle in some churches, that a aralytic rose and walked away or that the astor sto ed in the middle of a sermon. +he eo le of God need to be trained u in how to ra idly identify the hysical, emotional and s iritual warfare o ressing and killing their brethren and they need to be em owered to go and treat them on the s ot. +he music needs to sto until 4A4;#/-*# in your cam is bandaged u . I"hurchI will not be he 5hurch until it sto s being a show and starts being a hos ital, first and foremost. +he reason it's not that now is because we abdicated to aid leadershi to do all the work for us and they can't ossibly kee u . In fairness, many of them got to liking it and now don't trust the /ody to hel them 1 so it's a vicious cycle. /ut it's got to sto . +he /ody has to learn to care for the /ody, whether or not there is a aid staffer. )e need the Gifts of *iscernment of S irits and 8nowledge o erating in force and we need to get back to fulfilling the Great "ommission 1 first by cleaning u our own messes, then by G-I,G. )e can't wait for them to "-$4 7 cause when we do, they're not staying, and it's because they're not getting healed %because we're not acting like !esus'. If any of this stuff has convicted you and you reali5e you layed a art in sustaining a system that hasn't been working or you ever ignored someone that was bleeding because you had your own agenda, now would be a good time to find a 6uiet lace, hit your knees and say you're sorry. "rying hel s God know you're serious. #ou might also want to admit it ublicly to the eo le affected. 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:irst it's aimed at eo le that already have !esus, but the rocess is the same regardless. A erson who is lost could turn their life over and ush through lots of the ste s right away and be that much more effective sooner. It's just a matter of hunger level and God's sense of your re aredness. +he goal is immediate radical transformation, not gradual incremental change culminating in erfection after death. )e believe that it's ossible that God can heal and deliver and restore and sanctify instantly and we're going to aim for that. If He chooses to take longer, that's fine, but we're going to AS8 for ma&imum change in minimum time 1 even if it hurts. )hich it will. +y ically, we would take a hard look at each of the three factorsC /ody, Soul and S irit. Asking the Holy S irit to hel us discern any areas where there is resistance to the will of "hrist, we would IscanI through each layer looking for whatever the 0ord would choose to reveal. It might be a hysical illness that has a s iritual cause, it might be a soulish anger or bitterness or unforgiveness that is blocking Him and bringing down hysical curses, or it might be a s iritual roblem of diminished ca acity for Him because of limitations or IfiltersI that have been laced on God. It might be a demonic o ression that has really old roots in abuse or addiction or some unresolved, ast sin that o ened a doorway and allowed legal ground for the enemy. All of these are resolvable within the sco e of the ower granted to us through "hrist. Some can be settled nearly instantly and done away with once and for all. $any eo le have e& erienced through this rocess an immediately lightness at the removal of some old yokes of o ression. Some e& erience immediate hysical changes as healing to their illnesses or removal of addictions comes at the same time. )e want to allow God room to act in A,# way He sees fit. )e don't want to ut Him in a bo& anymore. )e want to believe that He is big enough to con6uer anything and that He wants us free. He is big enough, right( And He does want us fully free, right( All the way free( -f everything( )hen you do a tune1u on a vehicle, you want to find anything that is kee ing it from running at eak efficiency. A misalignment, a missing art, low fluids, bad filters, even burnt out bulbs 1 anything that needs to be changed or adjusted so that it can be renewed back to the way it was designed. It's all in ;omans >K. In thanks for His mercy we offer our bodies as living sacrifices 1 holy, leasing and acce table 1 that is our s iritual act of worshi . So first, we have to be willing to offer our /ody 1 the vehicle, and all that it holds 1 as a sacrifice. )e need to be willing and we need to commit to hold ,-+HI,G back. +hat verse does ,-+ say we offer half of our body as a living sacrifice 7 or even L?@. +he whole thing needs to go on the altar. A00 means A00. /efore we can do anything else, we need it to be a holy, leasing and acce table sacrifice. And since our sinfulness screams against our holiness, and our own nature confirms it, it's clear that only by the atoning /lood of !esus is there any chance that we can be a leasing and acce table sacrifice. So before any tune1u is going to do any good, we need to scrub the whole thing down with the /lood of !esus. #ou have to have acknowledged your needfulness for the /lood and asked Him to wash you clean of every sin. Said less religiously, you have to tell !esus you're sorry for all the bad stuff you let in and you have to really mean it 1 and you have to believe that His sacrifice on the cross was sufficient to wi e you clean. +his IS ,-+ an acknowledgment that !esus e&isted or that He was the Son of God 1 even the demons believe that. +his is not a statement you re eat after someone else so that you can join a church. +his is a full1on commitment to humble yourself before Him and to give yourself over to Him so that He can be in charge from now on. +hat you would like to bow down and let Him be who He is 1 $aster, 8ing, "ommander, ;uler, 0ord 1 in your life from now on. :ear of the 0ord is the beginning of wisdom. )ay too many churches are making it way too easy 1 and the result is sick, owerless, shackled, unwise eo le in the ews. -8, ,-) you're an acce table sacrifice. So what's ne&t( Get u on the altar and shut u . #ou don't need to figure out your ersonal ur ose. #ou don't need M? days to figure out what #-G can do for God. #ou're the sacrifice. Get cleaned off, climb u on the altar and lay there naked. /y doing this, by really doing this, really laying there naked 7 fully e& osed and willing to acce t anything that comes 7 you are most definitely ,-+ conforming to the IworldI. )hen He's good and ready, He'll move on to the ne&t ste . )hich is that He will take a big sword and begin to hack chunks of your head off and ut His head on. It's ainful at times and folks around you may not understand what's ha ening during that strange in1between time while you're trying to figure it all out and get the ieces of your head and His head to get on the same fre6uency. /ut eventually, unless you anic and jum off the altar, He will hack off all the bits that stand in His way and then you'll have the mind of "hrist. 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by the renewing of your mind. ;41newed, that is, back the way it was su osed to be when it was new. /ack the way He designed it. /ack in His image. ;ebooted and set back to the defaults the way it was before you mangled it u and the Iworld'sI viruses corru ted it. ;ead $att. >NE>1M, $ark >?E>O. He wants faith like a child. +hen and -,0# then will you know what is the leasing, erfect will of God. And then you can go do it. It's not just so you can bask in the knowledge of what He wants, it's so you can -/4#. G- 1 reach, heal, save, deliver, free the ca tives. *o the stuff that's on HIS heart 1 and now that your mind is renewed and you know what is His will, it should be a lot easier. #ou robably won't need a committee or demogra hic studies or anything. If you didn't hold anything back, by this oint, you're robably hearing Him really well and you don't really need any $an %or grou of them' to tell you what God wants for you. And I can tell you this, it's going to cost you everything. /ut you won't miss any of it. /esides, none of it was yours anyway. /ut you better count the cost, because this is a hard walk. !ob, family, money, comforts, control 1 all could be taken away or destroyed. If you ray to be like !esus and He answers it, you'll be hated and ridiculed by the world. Guaranteed. Sound like something you want to try( If you're lukewarm, it might just be better for you to stay where you are than to taste the goodness of God and then turn your back on it. 9ersecution is going to come with every ste that gets you closer to walking in the fullness of "hrist. /ut if you don't care what it costs and you're still willing, we can roceed. !esus affirmed re eatedly that these two commandments are the greatest. +hat if you understand and im lement these, you have retty well gras ed the 8ingdom of God. Here it is 6uoted in three different Gos elsE %9lease go read them in conte&t' $at KKEHF1M? Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second [is] like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. n these two commandments hang all the law and the !ro!hets. $ar >KEH?1H> And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength" this [is] the first commandment. And the second [is] like, [namely] this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these. 0uke >?EKF1KN And he answering said, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy strength, and with all thy mind# and thy neighbour as thyself. And he $Jesus% said unto him, Thou hast answered right" this do, and thou shalt live. So, it boils down to this 1 the most im ortant commandment, the most central task before us as individuals and as the "hurch, is to love God with every com onent of our being 1 $ind, Soul and Heart and to do it with all of our Strength. How are you doing with that( +hat's what we're going to find out. If you haven't got that one down, the second commandment 1 loving your neighbor as yourself 1 is going to be a ale imitation of what it should be. #ou will love them to the degree you love God. If you're clearly not loving your neighbor as you should, it's a retty good indication that you're not loving the 0ord your God with all your mind and soul and heart and strength. If you're loving your neighbor with >?@ of your strength, then you're robably loving God with >?@. It's like a math e6uation, just lug in the ercentage. Submission to God & 6uantity, P manifestation of 0ove for ,eighbor & 6uantity, If they will know us by our love and we're not evidencing much love for each other %es ecially inside the "hurch' and for those in need, then we must not be very submitted to God. )hat other conclusion can you come to( :ear of the 0ord is the beginning of wisdom. I know it stings a little, but try to embrace it. %+ry 9salms >M>EO1Q' 9aul says this in > +hessalonians OEKHE &And the very God of !eace sanctify you wholly# and [' !ray God] your whole s!irit and soul and body be !reserved blameless unto the coming of our Lord Jesus (hrist.& )e are made of these three. /ody, Soul and S irit. and they are to all be in submission to "hrist. All means A00. 0et's try one of those verses againE $ar >KEH?1H> And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with ALL thy heart, and with ALL thy soul, and with ALL thy mind, and with ALL thy strength" this [is] the first commandment. And the second [is] like, [namely] this, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. There is none other commandment greater than these.

;efore we go any further& now would 6e a good time for the warning la6el.
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WARNING!
D)*G,4C D)*G,4C
9roceed at your own caution.
)e will ,-+ be res onsible for A,#+HI,G that ha ens from here forward. #ou have been warned. 9e want you to 6e );-O+B ,+7 clear that this is FO4 -B4,& *O DOB; );OB # going to hurt ) +O .
#ou can drive K? miles an hour and you robably won't get hurt too bad in an accident. If you drive K?? miles an hour and you make a mistake, it's going to get really ugly.

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If you have A,# desire in you to slow down, *- I+ ,-). *- ,-+ G- +HIS )A#.. *- ,-+ take our advice on this stuff.. It will totally transform your life and things you love will be ri ed from you. ,othing 7 ,-+HI,G 7 that you have will be your own any more. So He can rebuild you His way, God will I$$4*IA+40# start yanking chunks out of you. 9robably stuff you really liked. +he fire will get A4;# hot.
#f you e3en so much as 47 to do this in your own power& you$re gonna 6e toastC

O*+7 Jesus in you can get you through this.


+ast chance. Get out nowC )++ the dar'ness 9#++ come for youC

9e$3e seen it o3er and o3er. 9e )4, *O 'idding aroundC


#f you miss a step you could end up on crac' or 6eating your wife or drin'ing li'e a fish or in %ail. 9e$3e seen it happen to good& Jesus:lo3ing people who weren$t all the way sold out. God will get you through& 6ut it will hurt e3en more if you 6ail out. 7ou ;, ,4 mean itC 9e$re serious.
9e lo3e you 3ery much. 9e want to see you refined and purified and 4,)++7 dangerous to the enemy& 6ut we want you to 6e FB++7 4,)D7 6efore you pull into the Fast +aneC

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-till here8 GreatC *ow go 6ac' and reread the warning again. 9e$re to wor' out our sal3ation with fear and trem6ling. (e$s serious. O?8 ;ac' again8 Good. +et$s proceed.

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)here do you think you have an o tion to love Him IsomeI( ;emember this old song( Have you really looked at it( How many times have you sung it and not really meant it( I know I did for years.

# -urrender )ll
by !udson ). Aan *eAenter, >NLQE
)++ to !esus, I surrenderC )++ to Him I freely giveC I will ,F,4 love and trust Him, In His resence D)#+7 live. I surrender )++ , I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++. )++ to !esus I surrenderC Humbly at His feet I bow, )orldly leasures )++ forsakenC +ake me, !esus, take me now. I surrender )++ , I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++. )++ to !esus, I surrenderC $ake me, Savior, 9(O++7 +hineC 0et me feel the Holy S irit, +ruly know that +hou art mine. I surrender )++ , I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++. )++ to !esus, I surrenderC 0ord, I give myself to +heeC F#++ me with +hy love and owerC 0et +hy blessing fall on me. I surrender )++ , I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++. )++ to !esus I surrenderC *O9 I feel the sacred flame. - the joy of FB++ salvation. Glory, glory, to His ,ame. I surrender )++ , I surrender )++, )++ to +hee, my blessed Savior, I surrender )++.

A whole lot of us have been singing that but really meaning, II surrender S-$4.I -r maybe, II surrender more than that guy over there.I +here are certainly lots of leaders in the churches that aren't meaning it. Aery few eo le really mean A00. And yet that is the s ecific and direct command of God and affirmed three times by !esus Himself as the most critical commandment of all. $ore than any doctrinal statement or theological construct or inter retation, we must do +HA+. :irst and foremost in the "hristian walk $GS+ /4 a love for God that holds back nothing. Anything less means that you have missed the mark. "an there be any other inter retation( )here does the /ible say, 2Invite !esus into your heart and then do whatever you want.3( )here does it say that you can give Him S-$4 and He won't mind. It says that God is a jealous God %4&. KOEO, 4&. HME>M, *eut. MEKMC *eut. OELC *eut. QE>OC !osh. KME>LC ,ahum >EKC and elsewhere.'. In fact, it says the Holy S irit in us envies intensely when we give ourselves over to the world %!ames MEM1O'. +his is hard stuff, and not what you may be used to hearing, but I don't see how you can find any other inter retation. )e're to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. How much fear and trembling do you have if you go down the aisle at youth cam in Nth grade and acce t !esus into your heart and you're all done( +he I,arrow 9athI has just G-+ to be more narrow than that. In fact, I believe the AAS+ majority of church goers are not going to heaven at all. I believe we've been lied to for years about what it is that God really e& ects of us. +he ,ew +estament would be A4;# short indeed if the ath to heaven was as sim le as, I;e eat this rayer after me ...I )hat's the oint of all the rest of it, if that's all it takes( If you're still with me, the rest of this is going to be about hel ing you identify A,# areas of /ody, Soul or S irit that may yet be unsubmitted to God 7 and doing whatever is necessary to bring them into full obedience with "hrist. /ite down on something, this might hurt a little. +he enemy is going to try everything ossible to kee you from walking this out. +he darkness *-4S ,-+ want to lose a single inch of ground. So let's ray this firstE Lord, don't let the enemy keep me from this. Don't let the enemy distract me or confuse me. Gi e me !isdom, Godly !isdom and as much of it as "ou think I can handle. #peak to me clearly and I'll follo!. $lease %ind up anythin& in me or around me that !ould try to mess !ith me durin& this time. In the Name of 'esus. Amen.

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+his is a very sim le gra hic, not at all meant to be thorough or all1inclusive. 0et the Holy S irit show you all the areas in your life that need addressing. I'm sure He wants to. :or now, we're just going to hit a few so you can see how this works. If you're not hearing very well from God on what might be unsubmitted, just ask someone close to you 7 I'm sure they'll tell you the arts that don't look like !esus. S ouses are good for that. If we had lots of eo le in the churches with the gift of discernment of s irits, you could go to one of them and ask them what's messing with you and they could just tell you and hel get it off. If you know somebody like that, by all means, get them in on this. /ut don't take A,#/-*#'S word for anything. "heck everything with God. 4ven if you can't normally hear God very well, I'm just SG;4 He wants to talk to you about +HIS stuff. So you should be e& ecting that, as it relates to areas of your life that are unsubmitted, you're going to hear Him really well. I sus ect He's been waiting so long for you to ask Him what the roblem is that as soon as you ask you're going to get 0-+S of feedback. It may not be an audible thing, but somebody or some situation or a cloud or a little kid or a song on the radio or S-$4+HI,G is going to be used to get through to you and show you the roblem. !ust 4B94"+ an answer and listen for it. And when He tells you what the roblem is 7 ;494,+. +urn from it and don't go back.

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)e are all jars of clay, vessels to hold His glory, cu s of one sort or another. )e are humble earthen vessels that are flawed and cracked in many ways and yet He ours His glory into us. )e become the tem le of His S irit and He lives in us. Isn't that cool.. Anyway, it's im ortant first to understand that the )ord commands us re eatedly to Ibe filled with the S iritI and in the tense it uses it means Ito be being filledI 1 a constant in1filling, a constant effort to kee our cu s to ed off. %+he gra hics here are from the full article 2:ill $y "u , 0ord.3 on the website 7 :ellowshi -f+he$artyrs.com'

here are 6asically these options. #ou have ,- !4SGS. #ou have some !4SGS and lots of SI,. #ou have more !4SGS and a little SI,. #ou're all shook u by the )orld and 2life3 and can't figure out what's what. #ou're washed clean, but there's too much #-G. !4SGS has killed off lots of #-G so He can increase and #-G can decrease. #ou've been a good steward, so He gave you a bigger cu and lots more !4SGS. And it's not a one1time thing. He's our *aily /read, so you can move from one to the other fairly fluidly, even in the midst of one day. It's not a one1time thing just cause you went down the aisle and got Ifilled with the S iritI one day. If you're not constantly S+A#I,G :G00 then you're going to drain off 1 or get lukewarm and stale. -ver and over we're commanded to be full and to stay full 7 or to 2be being filled3. T And there's no oint at which you shouldn't be striving for a bigger cu . )e need Him in increasing measure every day to kee from being ineffective and un roductive %II 9eter >EN'. #ou get a bigger cu by ouring yourself out on those in need, then getting refilled again. T %Acts KEM And they were all filled with the )oly Ghost, and began to s!eak with other tongues, as the *!irit gave them utterance. 4 hesians HE>L And to know the love of (hrist, which !asseth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. "olossians >EL +or this cause we also, since the day we heard [it], do not cease to !ray for you, and to desire that ye might be filled with the knowledge of his will in all wisdom and s!iritual understanding# 4 hesians OEN And be not drunk with wine, wherein is e,cess# but be filled with the *!irit# 9hili ians >E>> -eing filled with the fruits of righteousness, which are by Jesus (hrist, unto the glory and !raise of God. +or more on this, read the book, ./ain 0own 1 2, Lord34 available free on the website.' www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >2 Dialogues with God

+he Greek word used re eatedly for 2filled3 is 2 leroo3 %Strong's RM>HF'. Here is Strong's definition of itE "M to make full, to fill u , i.e. to fill to the full aM to cause to abound, to furnish or su ly liberally "M I abound, I am liberally su lied 2M to render full, i.e. to com lete aM to fill to the to E so that nothing shall be wanting to full measure, fill to the brim 6M to consummateE a number "M to make com lete in every articular, to render erfect 2M to carry through to the end, to accom lish, carry out, %some undertaking' cM to carry into effect, bring to realisation, realise "M of matters of dutyE to erform, e&ecute 2M of sayings, romises, ro hecies, to bring to ass, ratify, accom lish <M to fulfil, i.e. to cause God's will %as made known in the law' to be obeyed as it should be, and God's romises %given through the ro hets' to receive fulfilment %+hayer's 0e&icon also has a lot to say. *o a search for 2filled3 on www./lue0etter/ible.com and see.' +he oint is, !esus wants us :G00 and He knows that only H4 can do it. )e're all going to be full of S-$4+HI,G. If our bodies are the tem le of God and He lives in us, do you really want Him sharing s ace with that icky stuff( Shouldn't you be urified and cleansed of all unrighteousness so that He can reign su reme( It says 2the rayers of a righteous man availeth much3 1 so I guess the rayers of a kind1of righteous man availeth ractically nothing. )hy is H4 going to listen to #-G when you ask for something, when #-G won't listen to HI$ about getting the red stuff out %and the stinky yellow stuff'( 9roverbs KOEKQ saysE 2Like a muddied s!ring or a !olluted well is a righteous man who gives way to the wicked. 3 +hat sounds to me like a cu that should be clean, but isn't. Areas of direct disobedience or unresolved ain result in a draining off of that with which we are filled. Sometimes we have a really hard time kee ing our cu full because we have a big crack in our cu caused by an unforgiveness or a bitterness or a fundamental character flaw, and so we drain out almost as soon as we get filled. Sometimes we can't ever get all the way full because of the goo we refuse to clean out that's taking u too much s ace in our cu . ;eally entrenched red stuff kee s us from being able to be filled to ca acity. Sometimes there are hysical o ressions and sicknesses that have resulted from s iritual roblems. +hese, too, need addressing through the ower of !esus. $ore on all that later. So, as it relates to the /ody, let's start with thisE Is God telling you to do something with :--* other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with *;I,8 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with )-;8 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with $-,4# other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with S4B other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with +I$4 other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Is God telling you to do something with your +-,GG4 other than what you're doing( If yes, why won't you obey( Get the idea( -dds are retty good that if the Holy S irit is convicting you of something and you're not obeying, it's because you've given the enemy room in your heart or because your own soulish nature just wants to rebel. 4ither way, it's not really giving A00 and you need to do something about it. Sto thinking that He's just going to overlook it and cut you some slack. He ;4A00# doesn't like being in there with that stuff and He's a really big God. $ore fear of the 0ord would be good. #ou might want to ray for that. "rying is good, too. If the Holy S irit is ,-+ convicting you of any of that stuff, then either you are not listening and you've got a giant ride roblem blocking your hearing -; the Holy S irit has already beaten you into submission on all those levels. I've met both kinds. !ust in case, now would be a good time to ray sincerely and ask the 0ord to show you A,#+HI,G that dis leases Him or any area of rebellion as it relates to your /ody. O'& O?CC 7ou caught me& so what do # do a6out it8 )ell, the first thing is to tell God you're really sorry. +hat would be good. He's been waiting a long time to hear that. And if you've been saying it before but then going back like a dog to his own vomit, then He's robably not going to take your a ology very seriously until you start sticking by your commitments to Him.

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If you've tried to turn away from stuff and haven't been able to, it's robably because you're doing too much of the fighting in your own ower 1 because you've tried to force obedience with the #-G in your cu . +hat just uts more and more ressure on you and more and more guilt when you fall. !esus lives inside of you and H4 is not addicted to cigarettes or donuts or orn or work or anything. He has faced down every failing of $an and beaten it. If you will get out of the way and let HI$ fight your battles, it will be much easier. $uch. )e'll cover that more later since it a lies to all three of these com onents. #ou need to be clear that SI, means missing the mark. )hether it's murder or disbelief, it's sin and it kee s you from walking in the :G00,4SS of "hrist. #ou will not reach your ma&imum otential in Him if you remain unsubmitted in some areas 7 A,# areas. !esus said, if you 0-A4 Him, you will -/4# Him. If you're not obeying Him >??@, then you must not love Him >??@. And L?@ isn't going to cut it. He wants A00 7 and A00 means A00.

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+et$s try this same process again. Is God telling you to do something with A,G4; other than what you are doing( If yes, why won't you obey( )hat about Guilt, 0ust, "ontrol, :ear, $oney, 9ride, !ealousy, 0ying, *isbelief, Self1 ity, 9ower, /itterness, Gnforgiveness, Gluttony, Idolatry, ;ebellion or others( Got any of those( Sim lified substantially, the soul is the mind 1 our emotions, our mental state, our rationali5ations and reactions internally to the world around us. It is what makes us distinctly us. +his, too, needs to be brought fully into submission with God. In a sense, you could see it like thisE

+he yellow stuff is our soulish nature and it's not that much better than the red stuff. In fact, the /lood of !esus washes away all of our sins in an instant when we ask for forgiveness, but if we don't fill the ga with !esus %and kee it full', the badness will just jum back into the vacuum. It's our yellow stuff that invited all the red stuff. +he /lood of !esus is sufficient to heal us, but it's not the same rocess as with the red stuff. +he )ord says we're to crucify ieces of us so that "hrist in us can live. )e're to carry our cross daily. )ell, that's about denying ourselves leasures that might be red stuff, but it's also about watching chunks of Self die so "hrist can increase and #-G can decrease. And I can tell you from 0-+S of e& erience with this 1 getting the red stuff out is A 0-+ easier than getting all the yellow stuff out that dis leases Him. -ne is about behavior and the other is about our nature. Habits are far easier to change than character. /eating the yellow stuff into submission is the crucifying ourselves art. ,o hysical trial you will ever go through 1 not climbing $ount 4verest in winter, not sawing your own arm off with a ocket knife, not doing a marathon on your knees 1 will 4A4; be as hard as getting your tongue and your mind www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >> Dialogues with God

beaten into submission. +HA+ is the great battle in our lives and the difficulty is evidenced by how really rare it is to find someone that has accom lished any substantial measure of success in that. In fact, I'm convinced the only way to do it effectively is to let !esus do it. )e can fake it for awhile in our own ower, but all we've done is su ress it. -nly !esus can terminate it once and for all. In fact, it's not ossible to walk in holiness at all without the Holy S irit doing it. #ou can't use the yellow stuff to beat down the yellow stuff. +hat just won't work. !esus is our righteousness and He alone is worthy and holy and ca able of making us like Him. )e can't get to be like !esus in our own ower. )e have to be clothed in "hrist, we have to run into Him who is our strong tower. )e have to be dead so that "hrist in us can live. And not just a little dead either 1 A00 of those com onent ieces have to die. $aybe this will hel you figure out which is which.

He doesn't want to urge you of A00 the yellow stuff, that would eliminate you com letely and He kind of likes arts of you. -nce I asked Him what arts of me He wanted to kee and He said, 2/asically everything from before about si& years old.3 !ust the faith like a child arts. +hat thing in *avid that made him fearlessly go out to face Goliath because he just 8,4) His *ad was bigger and tougher than +HA+ guy's *ad. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >@ Dialogues with God

+here's a lot more to be said, but you'll need to ray through this yourself and ask God to show you very clearly all the areas in which you are artially or com letely unsubmitted. I know it's a rayer He wants you to ray, so I 8,-) He will answer it and show you stuff. +hen it's u to you to lay it down. I find that this kind of rayer hel s a lot and gets nearly instant results 1 if you have the guts to ray itE $'f you forgot, go back and read the 2arning first3% *ear 0ord, I'm really sorry for all the sin that I should have never let in. I'm sorry for all the old stuff that I've let take root and boss me around. 9lease urge me of all unrighteousness right now through the ower of #our /lood. I stand in faith, knowing that #our /lood is sufficient to cleanse me of all unrighteousness. 9lease show me A,# area of my life that dis leases #ou 7 anything that stands in the way between us and kee s me from being able to walk in the fullness of all that you have for me. )hatever it is, I don't care how much I like it, I don't care how long it's been there, I don't care how much it hurts, it's got to go ;IGH+ ,-) in the ,ame of !esus. So 0ord, ri it, tear it, burn it, shred it, crucify it 7 whatever it takes. If I won't lay it down, ri it from my gras . I don't care how much it hurts, I trust #ou. *o whatever it takes, but do it ;IGH+ ,-). I won't flinch and I won't try to ho out of #our refining fire when it comes. *ial the heat u . I'm going to stand. Give me the strength to stand. 9lease hold my hand. I'm going to really need #ou. +hanks, 0ord. #ou're the best *ad ever and I trust #ou. 9lease burn it all off and don't sto no matter how much I whine. In the ,ame of !esus, Amen. Hear me 7 your growth in "hrist is directly ro ortional to your willingness to seek out and embrace His refining fire. )hen He is ounding on you and life seems horrible, if you will go to Him and find out what He's trying to teach you, embrace it, learn from it and thank Him for it 1 then maybe you can move on. If you whine and com lain and kee asking Him to turn down the flames because it's too hot, it shows a lack of trust that He knows what He's doing and it just slows down the whole rocess. How long is it going to take to cook a turkey in an oven set at O? degrees( How long if it's set at MO?( +hat's the difference between "hristians in "hina and India and those in America. )e have our ovens set at O? degrees and they have their's on full blast. 9ersecution dials u the heat really fast 7 and results in e& losive growth in "hrist %and a sifting of those who mean it and those who don't'. So don't be such a sissy. !um in the fire and learn to like it. Is He God or isn't He( )ill He rotect you or won't He( Are His romises good or aren't they( /uck u , ya big weenie. Go kill some yellow stuff.

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-8, so we got the red stuff out %for today' and we begged Him to kill the yellow stuff. So you robably have a void in the to of your cu now. )hat are you going to do( If you leave it like that the enemy, who ranges to and fro like a hungry lion, will try to jum in there right away and mess with you again. #ou've got to get your cu full of !esus and kee it that way. And not just full to >??@, full to overflowing 7 u and over, mounded u on to . So do you know how( )ell, you can read your /ible. #ou can listen to worshi music. #ou can ray. #ou can just s end time at the feet of !esus before the throne of God. )hatever is the best way you have found to drink in !esus. /ut be careful that you're not *-I,G to get filled. +hat just means that you're trying to get more blue stuff by engaging the yellow stuff. +hat's a long u hill battle and can border on legalism. )hat it ends u doing is inviting in the red stuff again in the form of guilt, condemnation, self1righteousness, ride or some other nasty thing. $aybe there's a better way. )hat does the )ord of God say about this( !ohn FEHN saysE &)e who believes in 5e, as the *cri!ture said, 6+rom his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.6 & !ohn ME>? saysE Jesus answered and said unto her, 'f thou knewest the gift of God, and who it is that saith to thee, Give me to drink# thou wouldest have asked of him, and he would have given thee living water. ;ev. FE>F saysE +or the Lamb which is in the midst of the throne shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters" and God shall wi!e away all tears from their eyes. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >2 Dialogues with God

Here's a cou le of -ld +estament reference so you know God doesn't changeE !eremiah >FE>HE L /0, the ho!e of 'srael, all that forsake thee shall be ashamed, [and] they that de!art from me shall be written in the earth, because they have forsaken the L /0, the fountain of living waters. !eremiah KE>HE +or my !eo!le have committed two evils# they have forsaken me the fountain of living waters, [and] hewed them out cisterns, broken cisterns, that can hold no water. In that last one we see that they committed two evils, they didn't drink of the living waters and they had containers with cracks in them. %A cistern is just a really big cu .' In fact, they made their own cisterns to store u water because they didn't trust in God's unending su ly from the fountain. And the result was they had neither 7 A,* they made God mad. It sure seems to me like those fountains of living water are the Holy S irit. It says !esus is the 2:ountain in the House of *avid3 %Sech >HE>' +he Holy S irit is that blue stuff that fills us and dis laces all the other stuff. It would be great if He would just shove everything out of the way, but for some reason we're involved and we have to artici ate in the rocess 7 or at least be willing and ask Him to do it. +his being true %I ho e you agree', then we don't need to *- anything to fill our cu . )e just have to believe that !esus wants our cu full, that He romised that s rings of living water would flow u from I,SI*4 of us and then just turn on the ta . )e just need to ask Him to fill us in whatever way H4 wants to fill us and teach us how to kee it that way. ;ememberC trust the 0ord your God with A00 your heart, lean ,-+ on your -), understanding, but in A00 your ways acknowledge HI$ and H4 will direct your aths. %9rov. HEO1Q' I think our job as a church is to find those who are oor in s irit 7 those whose cu s are running low 7 and share with them. 9our ourselves out into them so that they can be filled. ,ot with our yellow stuff. God forbid. /ut from the abundance of the riches that have been given to us that we would share 7 of or wealth, of our hysical energyTstrengthTtime A,* of the fountain of living water that is inside of us. Haven't you ever been around somebody that, just being in the same room with them or getting a hug, made your s irit feel full( I bet they had a cu that was overflowing 7 or they deliberately and selflessly oured themselves out on you. +hey may not have known that's what they were doing or been able to e& lain it that way, they just knew that they had !oy and 9eace and that you needed some, so they shared. +he 0ord gave me a vision once of how the church should o erate and it looks a yramid of cham agne glasses at a wedding where they our in the to one and as it overflows, the glass below gets filled and overflows and so it continues all the way down. +hose who have the biggest cu of !esus should be constantly ouring themselves out onto others and teaching them how to kee it going. Shouldn't church be a filling station( How often do you go and leave feeling just as em ty as when you got there( Some churches are really great filling stations and you can leave :G00 of !esus 7 but you can't make it ast $onday afternoon without running out again. +hat's because we think we have to go to a building to get our cu s full. +he )ord of God doesn't say anything like that. +he )ord of God says rivers of living water will flow u from I,SI*4 of GS. )e have an endless su ly. And )4 are su osed to be the filling station for those that don't know how to ta into it. It's not about the building or the astor or nice music that gets us in the mood 7 every "hristian has access to the river of God. Isn't that "--0.. So, stick a straw in and suck. /etter yet, just dive in. /elow we're going to talk more about all the things you can be filled with, why you need to hel fill others and how to get full and make sure you stay full. I know this may sound weird, but it's all in the /ible. ,o 6uestion about it. )e're su osed to erceive things in the s irit, not with our natural mind. +his is ,-+ the 2real3 world 7 this is not our home. )e are s iritual beings and we need to get a lot more familiar with what's ha ening in the s irit. +hat's where the war is and that's where our ho e comes from. I "orinthians KE>M 1 -ut the natural man receiveth not the things of the *!irit of God" for they are foolishness unto him" neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned. ;omans NEQ 1 +or to be carnally minded [is] death# but to be s!iritually minded is life and !eace.

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So, we got the red stuff out, we're getting more yellow stuff out, we learned how to get more blue stuff, now what( )ell, now it's time to get your filters unclogged so you can hear God really well and H4 can direct A00 your aths. +his works better as a 6uestion and answer thing. ;eady( First& what eAactly are we tal'ing a6out8 Does God really spea' to people today8 #es. In a whole bunch of ways from a gentle nudge, to instruction through the )ord, to using other eo le and circumstances to s eak to you, to sending dreams and visions %or angels' 7 andTor even conversing directly with you. 7ou can hear God and con3erse with (im8C 7ouKre 'idding& right8 ,ot kidding. #ou can absolutely talk to God and HeDll talk back. +here are millions of eo le all over the world that rely on God for constant daily instruction on all sorts of things. /ut, thereDs a difference between hearing God audibly %with your natural ears, outside of your own head' and hearing the inner 2still, small voice3. ItDs retty rare for God to s eak to eo le audibly %like thunder', but there are lenty of folks out there that say theyDve heard Him 7 and the evidence is that once they did, it changed them forever. $any of the house churches in "hina are under such ersecution that they canDt set a regular time for meeting or even tell each other when the meeting will be 7 they all just ray inde endently and God Himself sets the time and lace and tells each to be there. I've e& erienced that kind of coordination myself and hear Him s eak to me all the time. +his is totally for real and the birthright of every believer. 9ait ... people hear the God of the Bni3erse tell them stuff8 +i'e what tie to wear and whether to turn left or right8 9hat %o6 to ta'e8 9hat to ha3e for dinner8 *ot %ust 6ig stuff8 Sure. +he /ible says, 2In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your aths.3 %9rov. HEO1Q' )hat do you think 2A00 your ways3 means( And how is He going to direct you if you canDt hear Him( ;ut my pastor said God doesnKt tal' to people li'e thatC Hmmm. )ell, God used to talk to eo le all the time in the /ible. )onder when He sto ed( *id He say He was going to sto ( IsnDt He the same yesterday, today and forever( If anything, once the Holy S irit came in Acts K, there were 0-+S more eo le talking to God directly. ,ever mind the $I00I-,S of eo le all over the world who you have to conclude are thoroughly and certifiably nuts 7 including many of the most effective leaders of the church. In order to sustain that argument you have all kinds of logic roblems. "onsider thisC #F God used to talk to eo le but doesnDt now, (,* we must not need to hear from Him anymore. "an that be( /y all measures weDre worse off than ever. If there is a war between Good and 4vil, weDre losing retty badly right now and really des erately need to be getting commands directly from Head6uarters, not from flawed man1made sources and tradition1soaked inter retations of Scri ture. #F there is a battle between Good and 4vil, (,* who would benefit most if the eo le on the 2Good3 side were told they couldnDt A"+GA00# talk to their "ommander in "hief( ,ow, you know the 4vil side is absolutely clear to 4A4;#-,4 that if you try to talk to +H4I; leadershi you )I00 get an answer ;4A0 fast. 4ven "hristians are afraid to mess with -uija boards and call on the names of demons because somewhere inside they believe something A4;# real will show u almost instantly. /ut at the same time, the forces of darkness want us to buy that -G; God is mute. *oesnDt that sound like something the snake would say in the Garden( *es ite hundreds of e&am les in the /ible that He is available and accessible all the time, we have too often bought the lie that God is unwilling or unable to actually talk to His children. ItDs a lie from the it and weDve bought into it for too long. #F we receive the Holy S irit when we are saved, (,* >TH of the Godhead is living I,SI*4 of us all the time. %I !ohn ME>H1>F' /ut He doesnDt have anything to say(. HeDs not interested in our daily activities( GodDs not big enough to know what we should have for lunch( He knows the hairs on our head and monitors our every coming and going, but has no o inion about it or desire to give us advice( )hat kind of :ather is that(. #F weDre dead and itDs "hrist in us that lives, (,* shouldnDt H4 be running the show( %;omans FEM1Q' +he most common argument I hear is that when the /ible was done being written then 2that which was erfect has come and that which was in art was done away3 %I "orin. >HE>?' so we don't need to talk to God anymore. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >D Dialogues with God

+he argument is that I "orinthians >K talks about tongues and ro hecy and then cha ter >H tells about the way it SH-G0* be when the erfect is come so you should do away with all that. /ut they don't seem to notice that then cha ter >M starts with 9aul urging them to seek the gift of ro hecy. Said another way, I think 2when that which is erfect is come3 refers to !esus returning, ,-+ the /ible being com leted. #F the /ible is what's being referred to there, (,* why hasn't knowledge ceased( #F it's the 2 erfect3 thing mentioned there, (,* nothing could stand against it. #F the /ible is erfect, (,* could somebody tell me which version is flawless( And #F none of them are because we don't have the original manuscri ts anymore, (,* something *I* stand against it. #F the erfect is come, (,* why do we have HF,??? denominations and we seem to be losing the battle with the darkness( +here are just big giant logic roblems with that argument 7 not to mention the ersonal e& erience of millions of reasonable, !esus1lovers all over the world. ;ut my pastor says e3en (, doesnKt hear God con3ersationally li'e thatC -k, well, you see, $atthew >NE>N says that, 2what you bind on earth will be bound in heaven and what you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven.3 It goes on to say that if two of you on earth agree about anything you ask for, it will be done for you by the :ather in heaven. %v. >L' So, could it be that we have whole grou s of "hristians that have agreed that God doesnDt talk to eo le( And if they were convinced of that, donDt those verses say that God will honor it( So maybe the roblem is that if youDre convinced God )-,D+ talk to you that way, He robably wonDt. And who would you blame( +he astor( 9robably not 7 in fairness, we gotta lay it at the feet of the Snake and the generations of tradition that have been built u to kee us from being truly 2S irit1led3. +here could also be other roblems that would kee a erson from hearing God. -ne ossibility is that youDre on the wrong team 1 even if you think you're not. #ou know it's ossible to make u your own I!esusI and you'll get a res onse from that one about as good as if you were raying to a stick of wood. Another is that you have unre ented sin that stands between you and God 7 and God has convicted you of it so many times that He's just given u trying to talk to you about it. -h, and by the way, youDre going to have to get over that thing about the astor being more 2holy3 than you. +his is a one1on1one relationshi with !esus youDre su osed to have. #ou canDt do it by ro&y through the guy that gets aid to hear God %es ecially if he admits heDs ,-+ hearing God.'. )e are A00 the "hurch. )e are 4A"H tem les that hold GodDs S irit. Any one of us that are ado ted sons of God have the ability to etition the +hrone directly and seek His face. God loves each 7 in fact, HeDs es ecially fond of those that come to Him with faith like little children. Sometimes astors have a hard time with that. %I don't think there are 2:aith like a "hild3 classes in seminary.' his is %ust craEyC (ow could this 6e true and # ne3er 'new it 6efore8 9ouldnKt some6ody ha3e told me8 )ell, I think you underestimate the damage the enemy has done and how long heDs been lotting this. +he vast majority of the church in the )est doesnDt live the 2normal3 "hristian life. +hat is, /iblically s eaking, weDre to be full of ower and might, weDre to be free of the bondage of sin, weDre to ,-+ conform to the world, weDre to be dead to ourselves, weDre to be -,4 /ody and loving and serving each other with all our heart. +hatDs just a few. "an you see how far away from that we actually are as a 2church3( )eDre not even "0-S4. +here $GS+ be something missing. Somebody left something out. It has to be this 7 God Himself is su osed to be directing you and youDre su osed to be listening and -/4#I,G. ,ow ... who would benefit most from us leaving that little iece out( #e , the guy in the black hat. ,ow, what do you think a close encounter conversationally with the God of the Gniverse might do to a erson( +rust me, it would change everything. It would show them the ower of the relationshi they have as ado ted sons, they would lose all fear, they would sacrifice anything to kee hearing Him, they would obey and walk in HIS ways, they would know %really 8,-)' that God Himself lives I, them and they would want more of Him, they would do the things on HIS heart 7 like feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, saving the lost. +hey would be in awe of His holiness and seek to lease Him out of reverence and honor, not out of legalism or church re6uirements. So, #F this is a war between Good and 4vil, (,* wouldnDt our most immediate and urgent need be to get eo le to where they can hear clear, timely, reliable commands from Head6uarters( If you have a guy in /asic +raining that refuses to listen to the *rill Sergeant and does his own thing, wouldnDt you want to leave him at home( HeDs just going to get himself killed when the enemy starts shooting and leadershi says U*G"8.D and he canDt or wonDt hear them. HeDs no good to anybody. $aybe he could be a su ly clerk 7 but he really shouldnDt be on the front lines. He should stay home and send his money to the folks on the front lines that hear God really well and obey A00 the time, no matter what the cost. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com >1 Dialogues with God

;ut we ha3e the ;i6le. GodKs 9ord is what we are to use to direct our pathsC -8, sure. ,ot got anything bad to say about the )ord. 4verything God tells us to do will line u with His own )ord. /ut no matter how well you know the /ible, it canDt accommodate for every ossible situation and what you should do. +hereDs lots of stuff not covered in there 7 like which of these two jobs God wants me to take. And thereDs stuff in there that men have been arguing about for centuries without ever getting agreement. 0ots of wasted time trying to figure out how many angels can dance on the head of a in. %/y the way, which side benefits most when GodDs eo le fight over stu id stuff( #ou getting the hang of this yet(' +hink of it like this. #ouDre in the Army and they give you a $anual. All kinds of stuff is covered in there 7 what to wear, how to salute, how the wea ons work, how to survive in a battle, what to eat in the forest, how the chain of command works, even what the enemy is like and how to resist them 7 thereDs even stuff in there about what the enemy )I00 *- one day, whether they like it or not. ItDs a ;4A00# good $anual 7 in fact, itDs ins ired by God. It covers an ama5ing array of stuff and could robably handle most any situation. So would the *rill Sargent ask you to read it, maybe even memori5e it 7 and then send you into battle with nothing /G+ that( Are you going to be able to know what to do when the bullets start flying( )hat about grou strategy and de loyment of forces and antici ating enemy movements( Is the $anual going to accommodate for every ossible scenario on a ra idly changing battlefield( Are you sure youDre inter reting it right( Is there time in the fo&hole to be arguing with other soldiers that are reading it differently( )hat if some idiot ublished like +)4,+# different translations and ara hrases of the $anual(. +hen what(. Are you ;4A00# sure you have the right version( IsnDt there a chain of command( IsnDt there somebody in charge calling the shots thatDs su osed to tell you what to do ne&t( ArenDt you su osed to be listening and -/4#I,G( )ant to go into battle without the $anual( ,o. )ant to rely on it alone when you have other resources available( ,o. )ant to take an order from somebody that goes against the $anual( ,o. )hen the bullets start flying, do you want to hear ersonally and directly from Head6uarters so that you can know that hel is coming and know what to do( #ou betcha. )e need a radio to head6uarters that works really good, with no static on the line and no enemy transmission sneaking in. If you insist that you don't want to hear God, I still love you, but I'm not going to the front lines with you. )hen the bullets start flying and the God you can't hear says, 2*G"8.3 7 you're going to be the first casualty. And then we're going to have to sto everything and call your family and carry you out and dig a hole ... # donKt 'now. his is 'ind of scary. 9hat if # hear wrong8 9hat if itKs the enemy messing with me8 !ay6e this is all in your mind. )ow. +hatDs a whole mess of stuff. 0etDs try this one at a time. 5aybe it7s all in your mind. )ell, itDs not just me. +hereDs hundreds of millions like me that hear God. In fact, most of the growth in the "hurch worldwide is because of those eo le. +he 2mainline3 denominations are shrinking. ItDs the S irit1led revolutionaries that are e& loding into new territories and ushing back the darkness. +he growth in this arm of the "hurch went from about S4;- in >L?? to about O?? $I00I-, eo le in K???. God is ouring out His S irit and eo le are listening to His voice. -8, letDs try it from the o osite direction. It all sunk in for me one day when it struck me that satan never creates anything 7 he just makes weak co ies of whatever God is doing. HeDs a liar and a deceiver and a fake. So ... while it may seem far1fetched, most folks %even "hristians' will admit that evil is a real force in the world and the su ernatural is real. %+he /ible verifies re eatedly that witches and mediums and sorcery are real, by the way ... and that youDre headed for hell if mess with them. 7 *eut >NE>?1>K, "ol. OEK?' +he enemy has sychics and mediums and astral1 rojection and -uija boards and demons and 5ombies and s ells and curses. So whereDs -G; stuff(. If this is a war, why does only one side get cool wea ons( )as my church leaving out im ortant stuff that I needed for warfare( /ecause in the first century they had ama5ing wea ons and defenses available to them. +hey had the Holy S irit telling them stuff they wouldnDt have known %Acts OE>1>>', they had eo le hearing from God %Acts >HEK', they had eo le writing stuff as God dictated %;ev.', they were caught u in the S irit to heaven %K "orin. >KEK1M', they had dreams and visions %Acts >?EL1KH', they saw angels %Acts >K', they saw !esus Himself %Acts LE>1KK', they cast out demons %Acts >QE>Q1>N', they were bitten by deadly snakes and didnDt die %Acts KNE>1>?', they s oke in other languages of men and of angels %Acts K, I "orin. >K V more', they healed eo le %Acts OE>O', they rayed and miracles ha ened %Acts OE>K, Acts >K' 7 even tele ortation %or as I refer 2theo ortation3 1 Acts NEHL' and they raised the dead %Acts LEHK1MK'. +hey even had eo le who were against them dro dead %Acts OE>1>>' or go blind %Acts >HEQ1>K' 7 on command. And thatDs just -,4 reference for each. +here are lots more. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com @0 Dialogues with God

,ow, the argument is that all that ended when the /ible was done being written 7 but it didnDt end for the other team, so how come just all -G; cool stuff got taken away( )ouldnDt it have really benefited the enemy a 0-+ to s read that story that we were owerless around for a cou le thousand years( *o you see( +his is no kind of way to fight a war. +here $GS+ be stuff weDve been leaving out. +he enemy has us twisted u into a thousand ieces %HF,???W denominations to be s ecific' and we canDt S+A,* because weDre not -,4 /ody. /ecause of all the arguing over stu id stuff 7 which we would ,4A4; have done if we had all been hearing the voice of God ersonally and reliably and walking in the Gifts. This is kind of scary. ,o kidding. ItDs the biggest thing ever in your life. +hat the God of the Gniverse wants to be intimately involved in everything you do and say and eat and wear and think. +hatDs massively scary. And yet, we can never have eace and joy and victory until we have relationshi with !esus and are led by His Holy S irit. #ou see, under our own ower, we just screw everything u . +here has never been any strategy of $an that has led to anything good in the long run. -h, it might work for a little while, but you get enough sinful eo le involved in it, add money, mi& in a little satan 7 and itDs toast. -r worse, you get "ommunism or :ascism or something, and millions of eo le die. +here are just two o tions 7 if itDs of $an it will fail and if itDs of God nothing can stand against it. %Acts OEHN1 HL' Since the institutional 2church3 in America is failing, somebody other than God must be in charge. See a logic roblem there( Anyway, yes, itDs scary. /ut what a ayoff.. +o walk in holiness because God Himself is fighting off the tem tations and snares of the enemy, to hear Him all the time and get direction on anything and everything, to know that He is com letely and totally in charge at all times in every situation. How are you going to find eace )I+H-G+ hearing from God( How is what you have ,-) working for you( And hearing His voice is not even a GI:+ of the S irit. ItDs just an automatic for every believer. )e havenDt even talked about ro hecy and discernment of s irits and knowledge and wisdom and tongues and healing and all the other gifts God gives His children. +rust me, the ayoff is ama5ing, but itDs going to cost you everything 7 but everything you +HI,8 you have isn't yours anyway, so who cares. 2hat if ' hear wrong8 2hat if the enemy is messing with me8 )ell sure, that can ha en. HeDs certainly going to try to confuse and frustrate you. )e are s ecifically instructed, 2do not believe every s irit, but test the s irits to see whether they are from God %> !ohn ME>'. +hat $GS+ mean that other s irits are otentially messing with us, and since there is no indication that +HIS ended when the /ible was com leted, then there must still be demons utting thoughts into our heads. And if there are still demons utting thoughts into our heads, then we must still have a need to test and see if they are from God. And if theyDre ,-+ from God, then we resist them and they flee. /ut it must also mean that one of the ossibilities is that the s irit weDre hearing IS from God. %Again, roving the oint that God still s eaks to us des ite I "orin. >HE>?.' #ou see > !ohn M goes on in verses K and H to lay out how you can know what it is that is talking to you and from where it comes, 2+his is how you can recogni5e the S irit of GodE 4very s irit that acknowledges that !esus "hrist has come in the flesh is from God, but every s irit that does not acknowledge !esus is not from God. +his is the s irit of the antichrist, which you have heard is coming and even now is already in the world.3 )hen we get a thought in our head we have to figure out who it is. +here are only three choicesE #ou, God or the enemy. Sometimes other eo le tell us stuff, but theyDre still laying to one of the three. )eDre to bring every thought into obedience with "hrist %and the )ord'. +hat means our own thoughts that are out of line A,* the ones inserted by the enemy. I find that, sadly, the enemy and I sound a lot alike. +he red stuff and the yellow stuff aren't really that different after all. I a ly this filter to everything, 2If I follow through with this thought that just came into my head, who is glorified most 7 God, satan or me(3 If it's anything other than God, even if it's me, I rebuke in the ,ame of !esus. And if it )AS me, I ask the 0ord to hunt down whatever in me wanted to suggest something that wouldn't glorify Him 7 and kill it. "ould you screw it u ( Sure. 9articularly if the voices are A4;# sneaky. )hich they will be because demons are smarter than us and know the human condition very well after all these years of torturing and twisting us. )ithout God fighting for you, you havenDt got a chance. #ou have to be constantly on guard, constantly armored1u and e& ecting anything from any direction. /ut His arm is long and His shields are mighty. He will always get you through if you are sincerely seeking Him and trying to walk in holiness.

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O?. #$m getting that it$s possi6le& 6ut #$m going to ha3e to hear (im for myself. #$m willing to try. 9hat do we do8 Great. #eah, don't take my word for it, seek Him yourself. )ell the first thing is to ask the 0ord to show you anything that stands in the way between you and Him. It's like thisC

+he oint of the church coming together should be so that we can crucify ieces of ourselves so that "hrist in us can live. Said another way, it's to hel each other identify the things that stand between us and !esus 7 and luck them out. )e should all be working together to hel unclog our i elines. /ut that's not what's ha ening at all. +he most common thing we ut in the way is our belief that God won't talk to us. +hat's got to go. If you don't think He's a 0iving God and active and able to s eak and desiring relationshi with you, then you're going to have to lay that down. -ne of the other ossibilities is that you're worshi ing the );-,G !esus. 9aul said that would ha en, that someone would come reaching another !esus and eo le would acce t it. It's very sim leC if you make u your own !esus, don't e& ect an answer when you ray. 9ros erity1!esus, 4mergency1-nly1!esus, ,ot1Xuite1As1 Good1As1+he1Airgin1$ary1!esus, and a 5illion others are all $A*4 G9. If you make your own god from scratch, e& ect about as much res onse as if you were raying to a stick. +hose are ,-+ /ible !esus 1 who doesn't like to be toyed with and ut in a bo&. -ther things in the way are a reliance on someone else for your holiness or connection to God %9astor, wife, mother, etc.'. +hat's got to sto . +his is a -,41on1-,4 relationshi with !esus. ,obody is going to do it for you. -ther i eline blockages include addiction, ride, selfishness, bitterness, anger, la5iness, fear and so many others that kee us from e& eriencing the fullness that is I, "hrist. Ask the 0ord to show you what is in the way and He is faithful to A0)A#S do that if you'll listen. Ask some other folks to ray with you if ossible and just ray in agreement that the 0ord will make Himself very clear to you about what to do ne&t. !ust ray and believe. He'll come and hel unclog you. /elieve that He wants to talk to you and start conversing with Him. :ind someone to be accountable with that knows God really well and make sure you don't act on anything that sounds fishy without verifying it with the )ord of God. ,ow, not with doctrine of $an, mind you 7 with the )ord of God.

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-ne of the best ways that I have found and one of the things you see in the 2*ialogues3 is that I learned that satan can't read your thoughts, so if you ask lots of follow u 6uestions and then wait and get out of the way 7 if you don't get answers or get s6uirrelly answers, it wasn't God. It's not enough to obey generally, if you love Him, you'll obey Him s ecifically and e&actly. I say that obedience isn't just jum ing when He says jum . #ou jum when He tells you, how He tells you, how high He tells you and you stay in the air until He says to come down. +hat's radical obedience. *on't just obey generally 7 seek to obey e&actly. And for that you need more s ecifics. It's like this, just assume that the urge to do something or the thought in your head is from God and then ask lots of 6uestions. It says that the ste s of a righteous man are ordered before him. It says that He directs our aths. !ust assume that He is a lot more involved then you might have sus ected and treat the voice in your head as if it's Him %not you or the enemy'. I'm not saying not to test the s irits. 9lease don't hear that. I'm saying that this is -,4 way to test them that is a little u side down, but I know it works for me %and lots of others.'. :or e&am le, this e&change ha ens I,SI*4 your head %,-+ out loud where the enemy will hear'E

S ontaneous thought o s inE # need to call my !om. #our res onseE )ssume it$s the (oly -pirit prompting you and get details. ;e polite. -h. +hanks, 0ord. I will. *o you want me to call her right now( ... ause ... %wait and listen' *o. -8. +hanks for that, 0ord. )hen do you want me to call my $om( ... ause ... %wait and listen' 2.00pm today -8. +hanks for that 0ord. *o you want me to call her on her cell hone or at home( ... ause ... %wait and listen' 5all her at your 6rother$s house. HGH(. )hat is she doing there( +hat's hours away. I'm sure she's home. ... ause ... %wait and listen' *ope. 5all her at 2.00pm at your 6rother$s house. )ow. -8, 0ord. I'll do it. +hanks, 0ord. I love #ou. # lo3e you& too. +hen you ste out on faith, call your brother at KE?? m, find out that $om is there and you give God all the glory 7 and your faith grows and grows. -; she's not there and you use it as a way to troubleshoot your hearing method and ,-+ as a way to dis rove that God s eaks to eo le. #ou don't get discouraged, you acce t it as a training lesson and move on and ask Him to e& lain to you what went wrong. $aybe you colored or added to it, maybe you were out of order in some way, maybe you've got a ;ed *ragon, maybe you didn't ask what day to call, etc. He )I00 do sur rising stuff like this so that you know it's Him. He absolutely will. )hen folks im lement this one little thing, it often S+G,S them. God is A4;# creative and He will find a way to do little %or big' things that rove to you that He is there and He is directing your aths. !ust wait and listen and don't add to it yourself. #ou see, the enemy can im lant a thought, and they might even be able to antici ate a res onse or two from you 7 like chess moves. /ut they can't really read your thoughts and follow along with a se6uence of follow u 6uestions. 9articularly if you throw off the timing by raising and and worshi ing in between or setting the whole thing to one side until the enemy least e& ects it. If you acknowledge the voice as e&ternal and ask follow1u 6uestions and don't get any answers, or get really useless answers, than it wasn't God. If the voice suggests you do something that doesn't bring glory to God, then it was either you or the enemy. /oth of you want a do5en donuts at midnight. /ut if !esus isn't glorified by you eating a do5en donuts at midnight, then rebuke it and refuse to obey it 7 whether it was #-G or the enemy. -ften when I'm fasting I will hear a voice that says I'm finished. Gsually it will be different that when the 0ord told me earlier that I was to be finished fasting %like F m instead of midnight'. +he enemy wants me to disobey God and to not be fasting in time for whatever trial is coming. If I ask a 6uestion right away when I first hear that thought %20ord, is that really you(3', I will get an answer that sounds like God answering my thoughts %2#e . It's me. #ou're done fasting. It's -8.3'. /ut ... if I set it off to the side, do something else for awhile and then a few minutes later, out of the blue, ask the 0ord %in my head' if I'm done fasting, I'll hear a more reliable answer 7 www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com @< Dialogues with God

usually that it wasn't Him. *on't let the enemy dictate the timing or rush you into action. +he 0ord will always allow you enough to time to confirm it's Him or to be sure it's His voice. ;emember that the enemy can im lant a thought A,* can im lant a follow1u or two. /ut if you throw off the timing, ask a really odd follow1u , raise and worshi a little before asking anything at all, it will throw the enemy off and it's likely that the im lanted follow1u will talk over you or not answer your 6uestion at all. +hen it gets easier to understand the difference between the voices that are coming at you. +he 0ord is highly motivated to teach you how this works. !ust listen to Him. 9eo le think that if you're hearing voices you're cra5y. )hat they don't understand is that the enemy will ut an 2I3 in front and convince you that it's you. So, I guarantee you that we're A00 hearing voices, we just think it's us. :or e&am le, 2I'm scared that I might have cancer.3 )as that you or the enemy( It sure wasn't God, He didn't give us a s irit of fear. And if it's a s irit of fear, it's not GS either 7 so it's e&ternal and it's designed to kill, steal and destroy your life or your 6uality of life %or your witness as "hristians'. +hat erson just heard a voice in their head that wasn't them, but because the enemy works covertly and uts an 2I'm3 in front, we acce t it as our own. +here's a lot of stuff that I've learned and there's not nearly room for all of it, but I will add this one other thing. /e A4;# careful about dates and times. If the 0ord says, 2soon3 or 2tomorrow3 that could mean just about anything. If He says 2)ednesday the KFth of !une, K??F3 now that's something. /ut don't bet the farm on 2tomorrow3 meaning -G; tomorrow. A day is as a thousand years to those who are outside of time, so be very cautious about those kinds of redictions. Ask for s ecifics and if you can't get any out of Him, then He robably doesn't want you to have that information. He will always give you enough information to obey His directive, but not necessarily as much as you'd like. 8ee in mind, too, that He doesn't necessarily honor the Gregorian calendar %2this year3' and that the Hebrew method of calculating days means they end at sundown %2today3'. He kee s His o tions o en. He can be true and you still be wrong. It's the inter retation or the 6uestion or the hearer that is flawed, never His voice. ;ecently a brother and I were driving across country and the van was having trouble. +he 0ord had instructed us to go to a articular town and it was still a cou le of hours away. *o we fi& the van( ,o e, we drive it until the transmission is totally fried. +hen we s end two nights in the desert. "an we call for hel ( ,o. +he 0ord says, 2)ill you walk(3 #es, 0ord. )e trust Him for everything and ask no hel from any man 7 not even sticking our thumbs out. And when we've walked as far as we can %four or five miles dragging suitcases down the highway', He sends someone to ick us u and drive us toward the destination, but too far 4ast. +hen we walk some more until we're oo ed, then someone else icks us u and dro s us directly on the doorste of the lace we were going. God had said that morning that we would be at our destination before the end of that day and we were, before sundown even. He is always faithful and true. #ou may not get there the way you e& ected, but He will always get you there. *on't sto just because it doesn't look the way you thought it would %or should'. Along the way, we grew in our faith, we met some great folks, we got to bless some eo le and ray for them and we did get where He wanted us at just the right moment. And we got some e&ercise. I ray that this journey you're on will be just as much of an adventure for you. #f you want to hear (im 6etter& pray something li'e this. Lord, '6m sorry ' ever !ut you in a bo,. '6m sorry ' limited 9ou in any way. '6m sorry that ' haven6t been hearing you as well as ' should and ' acknowledge that ' clogged u! my !i!eline with stuff. :lease, Lord, whatever it takes, scrub it all out of there with the -lood of Jesus. ' ;ust want 9ou, Jesus. 9ou direct my !aths and organi<e my days. 9ou tell me what 9ou want and '6ll do it. )el! me hear 9ou better. )el! make me dangerous to the enemy. 'ncrease the Jesus in me, even if it hurts. ' love you, Lord. 9ou be in charge now. Amen. #f you really& 4,)++7 want to go fast and you trust God all the way& then pray something li'e this. P;ut go read the 9arning againCCM 0ear Lord Jesus, ' trust 9ou. ' know 9ou6ll get me through. ' want to be fully e=ui!!ed, fully armored, fully broken and fully willing to do your !erfect will. 2hatever in me that is resisting 9ou > kill it with !re;udice. Lord, there is a monster inside of me and it6s me. )unt it down and kill it and hang its head on the wall of my heart so '6ll never forget what ' was. :ut all the weight on. Load me u!. 2hatever it takes, ' trust 9ou. '6m ready now, Lord. 0ial the refining fire u! /?ALL9 high and let6s get this over with. 0o it right now3 ' know this !rayer is inside 9our will, so ' know 9ou are going to answer it. Just !lease don6t ever leave me. 'n the mighty name of my Lord Jesus (hrist, Amen. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com @> Dialogues with God

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'ohn ()*+,@ The man who enters by the gate is the she!herd of his shee!. A The watchman o!ens the gate for him, and the shee! listen to his voice. )e calls his own shee! by name and leads them out. B 2hen he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his shee! follow him because they know his voice. C -ut they will never follow a stranger# in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recogni<e a stranger6s voice.& 'ohn ()*+. 5y shee! listen to my voice# ' know them, and they follow me. /e%re!s 0 D *o, as the )oly *!irit says" &Today, if you hear his voice, E do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion, during the time of testing in the desert, where your fathers tested and tried me and for forty years saw what ' did. FG That is why ' was angry with that generation, and ' said, 6Their hearts are always going astray, and they have not known my ways.6 FF *o ' declared on oath in my anger, 6They shall never enter my rest.6 & F@ *ee to it, brothers, that none of you has a sinful, unbelieving heart that turns away from the living God. FA -ut encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin6s deceitfulness. FB 2e have come to share in (hrist if we hold firmly till the end the confidence we had at first. FC As has ;ust been said" &Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion.& FH 2ho were they who heard and rebelled8 2ere they not all those 5oses led out of ?gy!t8 FD And with whom was he angry for forty years8 2as it not with those who sinned, whose bodies fell in the desert8 FE And to whom did God swear that they would never enter his rest if not to those who disobeyed8 FI *o we see that they were not able to enter, because of their unbelief. Deuteronomy (1*(2 According to all that thou desiredst of the L /0 thy God in )oreb in the day of the assembly, saying, Let me not hear again the voice of the L /0 my God, neither let me see this great fire any more, that ' die not. ( 3in&s (4*((,(0 FF And he said, Go forth, and stand u!on the mount before the L /0. And, behold, the L /0 !assed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in !ieces the rocks before the L /0# but the L /0 was not in the wind" and after the wind an earth=uake# but the L /0 was not in the earth=uake" F@ And after the earth=uake a fire# but the L /0 was not in the fire" and after the fire a still small voice. FA And it was so, when ?li;ah heard it, that he wra!!ed his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, 2hat doest thou here, ?li;ah8 Isaiah 0)*+),+( @G And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity, and the water of affliction, yet shall not thy teachers be removed into a corner any more, but thine eyes shall see thy teachers" @F And thine ears shall hear a word behind thee, saying, This is the way, walk ye in it, when ye turn to the right hand, and when ye turn to the left. Acts ++*.,1 D And ' fell unto the ground, and heard a voice saying unto me, *aul, *aul, why !ersecutest thou me8 E And ' answered, 2ho art thou, Lord8 And he said unto me, ' am Jesus of 1a<areth, whom thou !ersecutest. Re elation 0*+) )ere ' am3 ' stand at the door and knock. 'f anyone hears my voice and o!ens the door, ' will come in and eat with him, and he with me.

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0et's talk more about this cu thing. +here are two ways that I know of to get your cu com letely filled u with God. +here is the daily walking in obedience and seeking and rayerful living that just ushes out the Sin a little at a time and creates habits of effectiveness and faithfulness. -ne day you look u and you've achieved sanctification %holiness, no red stuff'. -r there is the e& erience that the first "hristians had at 9entecost 1 the /a tism of the Holy S irit. It's kind of like if you have a swimming ool in your backyard you want to fill, you can stick a garden hose in it and let the water run until it's full 1 or you can call the forestry service and have one of those giant helico ters that dum water on forest fires just flood the whole block and fill your ool in one burst. :ar be it from me to tell someone that however much God they got in them they did it the wrong way. I have dear, dear friends that did it both ways and both are as full of God as anyone I know. I have had 9entecostals describe the first method as Iold schoolI and unnecessary since the A5usa ;evival and the IawakeningI in >L??. 4ven delegitimi5e it as a method to build that relationshi with God. %$ostly they say we don't have time for that.' /ut that makes no sense to me at all. It may not be the fastest, but it sure seems more lasting and less likely to be taken for granted. +o build a habit of daily struggle and faithfulness rather than to rely on one IburstI seems erfectly reasonable. If you're not into church linguistics, one of the terms you'll hear used a lot is IS irit1filledI. )hat most folks want you to think it means is that their cu is totally full of God. )hat they ;4A00# most likely mean is that at some oint in their life they had a dramatic e& erience in which the Holy S irit came on them and something ha ened. $ost robably what they really, ;4A00# mean is just that they s eak in tongues. I've had folks ask me if I was S irit1filled and I %and they' know darn well that what they really want to know is if I s eak in tongues 1 ,-+ if I'm walking in holiness and am com letely filled with nothing /G+ the Holy S irit. It seems that for many eo le, we've ut the em hasis on the Gifts, not the relationshi . #ou see, what I think has ha ened with a 0-+ of eo le is that they were in churches that ut a lot of em hasis on the s iritual gifts that can come when your cu is filled %es ecially tongues' and so they seek that e& erience of being filled with the Holy S irit just :-; that. +hat is, they're not laying everything down and seeking sanctification and willing to do whatever it takes to live victoriously and con6uer sin consistently and fearing an awesome God 1 they just want to s eak in tongues like everybody else at their church. So they seek God and they ask to be filled and they either don't %because God sees right through wrong motives' or else they do get a burst, but not enough to really ush out all the sin. +heir cu 's level rises enough for that gift but they can't maintain it because they're not committed to kee ing the sin out consistently. +hey didn't get training on cu management, they just had an urgency for a manifestation of some sort. Since what God gives are GI:+S, He will let a erson kee them even later the level in their cu dro s to dangerously low. +hat's how we end u with some revivalists and others who can heal eo le and yet are com lete selfish stinkers. +here are lenty of eo le that I've met that describe themselves as IS irit1filledI 1 and I'd rather s end time in a bathtub with a wolverine than hang out with them. )hatever they once had is 0-,G gone. -ur lives are :0GI* and dynamic, in constant motion and flu&. 0ike the dilation of the iris of your eye, we are tuned to the world around us and it affects us in all kinds of good and bad ways. +hat's why "u $anagement is so im ortant. )e should never worshi the creation instead of the "reator. )e should never seek after e& eriences or feelings or manifestations. +hat's just ,-+ going to get your cu filled u all the way because it's comes from a selfish or rideful motive that is inherently sinful. #ou just can't ray for the Sin to be oured out and be sanctified so that you'll be cool or because you covet what someone else has or because you want to show them u . See the roblem( Sin is motivating the removal of sin. A house divided can't stand. *oesn't work. God sees right through that. He may give you manifestations, but it's just going to wreck you if you kee walking down that ath. )e should seek -,0# that !esus fill us com letely and do His work through us, that we should decrease so that He can increase. )e should seek -/4*I4,"4 1 ure and com lete. +he other stuff is just side1effects of that. Signs and wonders will :-00-) 7 they will trail behind, not lead the way. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com @7 Dialogues with God

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I had been raying and aching for several months to see the Holy S irit come in ower and do something. I had read Acts over and over and we were having a /ible Study time on Sunday nights at my furniture sho with the folks I res ected the most. )hat I was really ho ing for was that book of Acts, 9entecost, tongues of fire stuff 7 but had no idea what I was doing. +)I"4 in my life %before ,ovember of K??M' had I ever even been in a room with someone s eaking in tongues 1 and one of those was at a concert with like KO?? other eo le. +hey didnDt teach me anything about this in the /a tist church e&ce t to be ske tical and sus ect itDs made u 1 or worse, that itDs from the enemy. %4ven now, IDm still hy er1sensitive to it and itDs a ro riate use. )hich is a good thing.' ;ound about ,ovember of K??M, Andrew %Strom' and I met and had lunch and he liked a lot of what I had been saying about the roblems in the church. He asked me if I had been ba ti5ed in the Holy S irit and I said, 2Huh(3 )e talked about it for awhile and he encouraged me to read u and ray on it. A cou le days later I went down to his Sunday evening meeting he was having and he asked if I would like to s eak 1 which, of course, I did. It had a good im act, although it was kind of like reaching to the choir since his crowd is already sort of outside of the standard 2church3 streams. +he following +uesday %>>TKHT?M', Andrew was having a rayer meeting at the home of one of the folks in his grou and suggested I come and they would ray for me to receive 2the /lessing3 1 that is, to be filled with the Holy S irit. +hey were all his family and a few other folks he trusted a lot. %IDve learned not to let just A,#/-*# lay hands on me without being armored u really good.' I was fully rimed by the time it rolled around. )e had a meal and talked for awhile and then we rayed a little and then they were going to ray on me. +hey wanted me to sit in a chair in the middle of the room and I said, 2Heck, no. IDm kneeling. ,o way IDm going to sit there all comfy before God.3 So, about four or five of them are raying on me in tongues retty loud. It was hard to concentrate, but I just decided that they were nice folks, so I didnDt care how they wanted to ray as long as they were sincere and they hel ed me get what I came for. Since I was a kid, I never rayed for anything but wisdom. ItDs just a math roblem to me. Solomon was the smartest guy ever, thatDs what Solomon rayed for, that must make it the wisest thing to ask for. ItDs always at the to of the list of Gifts in I "orinthians and elsewhere. )hy ray for tongues( ItDs at the bottom of the list.( !ust my business instinct I guess. Go for the good stuff. Anyway, so they rayed on me for about H?1M? minutes %I think' as I begged for the Holy S irit and romised to do right if He would bless me. I romised God that if He would em ower me, I was willing to give u anything and endure anything. I just wanted to be the most dangerous erson on the lanet to the cause of evil. I wanted to sniff it out and ri out itDs heart with my teeth. I wanted to be GodDs it bull. I wanted wisdom, I wanted a high vantage oint, to see through the eyes of !esus. +o know what eo le needed to hear to convict them, to burn away all the im urities and see just the ure kernel of the essence of what we should be doing to lease Him. I begged Him to shine a light on anything in my heart that was in the way and I would scrub it out. +ogether, He and I just went through one thing after another. I have lenty of sins 1 maybe not big ones as the world judges them 7 but there was lenty of darkness in my heart for which to re ent. I had to dro some angers at old bosses or girl friends or others. At one oint, He said, 2#ouDre retty good with the or hans, but youDre lacking with the widows since you havenDt gone to see your grandmother in the hos ital.3 So I romised on the s ot that I would go see her before the week was u and make it all right. +hat seemed to satisfy him. I ke t getting a warm fu55y feeling like this was my time and He was going to answer my rayers, but then it stalled out. About then, I think Andrew and them were getting tired %they have to lean over, because I refused the chair.' and he asks me if there is anything in the way or if there is a history of $asonry in my family. I said, 2,o,3 and we just all agreed to ray that the 0ord would shine a light on what was the roblem. ,early as soon as we started raying again, the Holy S irit reminded me that there wasnDt any $asonry, but I had been in a fraternity in college that re6uired that you take an oath of secrecy on God. 4ven though when I was an initiate I hadnDt said the oath at the time, later on I was the ritualist and administered it to others. I instantly re ented of it and renounced it and ste ed away from that. +hat was the last thing in the way.

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!ust then, Andrew suggested that maybe I should stand u . )hen I did, the vision started. I rayed for wisdom and to see through the eyes of !esus. +o me thatDs just a higher vantage oint 1 where you can see more of the /ig 9icture. /oth the love and the anger, the judgement and the mercy. I had rayed to take on any task, no matter the cost. So what He showed me was as much wisdom and res onsibility as I could handle without assing out. I distinctly remember a sense from Him that I didnDt really know how big a thing I had asked for, but He was going to show me as much as I could handle anyway. He was glad that I asked, but almost grinning because He knew what it would do to me. :atherly love like when your nine year old son wants to build his own :ormula -ne race car or something. So for about ten minutes or so %maybe more', God ran this through my head. It was as if I was in outer s ace looking down on the globe. -n the right side is a reel of faces going by. All children, all different colors. +he vast majority are crying or hurting or sick or dying. It was like fast forwarding a *A*, they whi by real fast and then it sto s long enough to see a few, then they whi along again. -n the left side of the globe is the outline of America and a nasty, inky blackness covering it with tendrils s reading out all over the world. I knew that this was the sin of the church 1 selfishness, a ostasy, greed, ride, denominationalism, waste, fraud, ros erity gos el, etc. that was s reading out from America and reaching all over the world. +he reel of ictures of kids was running full s eed. +he 0ord said, 2#ou wanted to see through my eyes, IDm going to show you A00 of it.3 He knows that I have a heart for kids %as He does' and thatDs the way He sees us anyway, so thatDs how He showed it to me 1 as innocents hurt, killed, maimed, abused, im overished, starving because of the nasty blackness coming out of America. It was clear to me that these werenDt little kids, these were GodDs children of all ages. And He made it clear I was seeing A00 of them. I mean A00 of them. I honestly believe that all si& billion lus s un by. $aybe more, maybe it was all of them 4A4;. I canDt even com rehend it. /ut He made it clear that they were dying because of GS and what )4 have done maliciously, or selfishly neglected to do to ush back the darkness. I had a horrible ain in my chest and ached and groaned instantly. AndrewDs middle girl, 8irsten %who was about >>', was raying hard on my right and without really knowing IDd done it, I grabbed ahold of her and hugged her to me and just stroked her head and cried big huge sobs. -ut loud I ke t begging God to stay His judgement and a ologi5ing for what weDd done to the children. I just felt so much ain in my chest and I was groaning and crying and just ke t watching and saying out loud, 2-h, the children. )hat weDve done to the children. 9lease hel us save them, 0ord. IDm S- sorry.3 %-r some derivative or combination thereof.' And I ;4A00#, ;4A00# needed 8irsten at that moment as a real live kid I could et and hug and cry over. %She and I are bonded in a way I canDt really e& lain. She just let me et her head and dri on her and ke t right on raying for me. )hat a good s ort.' +his went on for a long time %to me' and then finally faded with Him saying, 2#-GD;4 res onsible for them. #ou said you would, so now itDs on #-G.3 I asked the 0ord, 2)hat do you mean(.3 He said, 2#ou wanted to be the most dangerous erson on the lanet, you wanted to see through the eyes of !esus, I showed you everybody, now youDre res onsible.3 I said, 20ord, youDre telling lots of other eo le theyDre res onsible, too, right( ItDs not just me(3 He said, 2It doesnDt matter, you said you were willing, so now G-.3 I got it then %and still do' that somehow I ersonally have a res onsibility to reach them all with the Gos el and turn this thing around. %Still trying to figure out how thatDs fair 11 or ossible.' After it was over, I was still in a lot of ain in my chest. )e sat back in the circle and I was groaning and wincing in ain. +hey asked me what I had seen and I tried to tell them, but it was hard to breathe and every time IDd close my eyes IDd get a glim se of it again and it would hurt. 0ike an ice ick in my chest. +he folks there wanted to reassure me that it was -8 that I hadnDt s oken in tongues right away 7 which I found myself HIGH0# irritated about since thatDs not why I was there. I said, 2Hey. I got what I came for and then some. I will never be the same. I asked for wisdom and to see the big icture and thatDs what I got.3 +here was a kind of 6uiet ressure that the tongues art was ;4A00# im ortant, but they could see clearly that something big had ha ened and I was still sitting there wincing and groaning and twitching in ain every so often. $ostly I was too distracted rocessing it to have been bothered, but it was an im ortant lesson about the subconscious ressure that can be ut on the e& erience without even reali5ing it. +hey all seemed to ,44* tongues to ha en at that moment, but then every single one of them went around and told about how when they started s eaking in tongues it was some time after their /a tism with the Holy S irit, some of them a 0-+ later. I didnDt comment much at the time, but I thought it interesting that they all felt it SH-G0* ha en a certain way, but none of +H4$ had it ha en to them that way. I didnDt articularly want tongues, so it didnDt much matter. At last Andrew made the most sense when he e& lained it mathematically %without meaning to'. He e& lained that tongues is a way to let the S irit hel relieve you of a burden so heavy that words wonDt work anymore and that I would robably need it sooner or later if the ressure was high. +HA+ made sense, because I knew what I was carrying. So at that oint, I started to see that it was coming and I was going to need it. www.FellowshipOf he!artyrs.com @1 Dialogues with God

Anyway, we said goodbye and I got in my van to drive home, still wincing from the ain and moaning and groaning with the weight of what IDd seen. :or several days, every time I closed my eyes I would see it again and wince and ache and moan. :or a cou le of days after, I had this ama5ing love for everybody. I would go about my day just wanting to hug on eo le and inch their cheeks because I just 8,4) how much !esus loved them. I knew they were one of the children that had whi ed by in my vision. I went into )al1$art and everyone was S--- beautiful. +hings started to change instantly. I couldnDt lay video games anymore. I couldnDt watch +A. I couldnDt curse. I couldnDt survive without at least a cou le of hours of raying a day. +he /ible was o ened u for me and I saw things and connections that IDve never heard A,#/-*# say before. I couldnDt go anywhere without my /ible and I s ent every e&tra minute in it. Sin re ulsed me. IDve surely s oken out of turn or ridefully or not considered someoneDs feelings or mis rioriti5ed my time or been irritated 1 but was instantly aware of it and re entant. I had a hard time getting any work done because I wanted to talk about God all the time 1 to anybody 1 and when I did, they were convicted. I got hysically ained if a dirty s am email o ed u before I could delete it. I couldnDt even think about anything intimate with anyone other than my wife. "anDt even consider it or icture it. Gone is the fighting at home over stu id stuff, lots more love all the time even though itDs a hard walk and thereDs still disagreement. -ne night He woke me u at Kam and said to ray for my wife. "omfy in bed with her on my arm, warm blankets, eyes closed 1 I rayed until QEH?am without a break or do5ing off or anything. !ust like on auto1 ilot, but not aslee . )hich is nuts cause IDll fall aslee ty ing sometimes and bash my head on the keyboard. $uch less, comfy in bed with my eyes closed. 9lus IDm fasting now. ,ever know when or for how long, but I shouldnDt be able to fast even a half a day with the hy oglycemia I had. ,ow I get u in the morning and go to the fridge and ask the 0ord if I get to eat today. Sometimes He says yes and sometimes no. If I can hysically G4+ the food in my mouth, IDm not fasting. ItDs not even a decision anymore. In the last two months He has had me fasting several times for KM hours or less, once for almost three days and once for almost four days. !ust water. ,o cravings, no ain, no headaches or di55iness or weakness. Gsually ends with some big event for which I need to be fully concentrated or clean. +hen I can get food in my mouth again. I actually look forward to fasting because I know IDm being obedient and I know itDs going to end with something that will glorify Him. 9lus itDs evidence of a su ernatural rotection over me, because I should not medically be able to fast at all. JK!date" *ince this was written the fasting changed to mostly without even water, FLD days at a time, on average A or B days a week without water for over two years now. That7s ;ust God3 Lost over DG !ounds in the first si, months. *tabili<ed now and feel great3M +he following three weeks %after >>TKH' held a constant conversational closeness with the Holy S irit and some A$ASI,G rayer time where He laid out more of what is coming and made romises to me of wea ons I would have in order to fight the battles ahead %including the gift of healing and discernmentTdeliverance of evil s irits and other stuff'. In that time I got to artici ate in two good friends getting full of the S irit 1 one dear friend at another of AndrewDs meetings %who started singing in tongues right on the s ot.' and one by myself at the furniture store with her. Also gave some really hard s ecific ro hetic words individually to some eo le that changed them. Also in that time, God sent this missionary family from "anada to 0iberty, $issouri to donate their time at my for1 rofit furniture store and hel grow me and intercede for me. *uring the last >K weeks, I have been through four or five major hiloso hical directional frameworks, tested and rejected bunches of theories and ideas, started two or three new websites, tem ered my anger at the church and now refocusing and finally finding the ure central kernel of what God wants. !ust now finding a voice that He can live with and God can use without creating more trouble for myself by distracting from Him. +he 0AS+ thing I want to do is say something that will create an obstacle or kee someone from seeing the -ne +rue God. Anyway, so thatDs where I am at the moment. )ho knows what ne&t month will look like.

BPD) ,. P<02002M +hat was as of >TKOTK??O. +he 2A ology to the )orld3 was written in :ebruary, K??O. +he business started to fli u side down in $arch and A ril resulting in a migration of eo le leaving the business that were "hristians, but couldnDt live on faith 6uite +HA+ much. )e started having rayer meetings in the store, as the 0ord directed. +hen the 0ord led us to start acce ting donations of food and toys and clothes and furniture and other things at the furniture store and caring for the oor 1 which has mushroomed into something ama5ing. +he "hurch of 0iberty website went u in !une, K??O. +hings got ;4A00# freaky in -ctober, K??O. ,ow theyDre just com letely off the charts.
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9eo le come to a furniture store to get healing and deliverance and groceries and rayer 1 or just a hug. $ore eo le kee showing u to hel . ,ow we have authors and oets and musicians and artists telling us God gave them something and He told them to give it to $4 so we could get it to the world. $iracles ha en every day around here. ItDs just not uncommon at all for a customer to come in and find two or three eo le on their faces crying. 9raise God. I could have never imagined a wilder adventure. 9ray to be dangerous to satan. 9ray to get everything out of the way between you and God. 9ray that He would bust out of the bo& you ut Him in and reveal Himself in whatever way He thinks best. Sto telling Him what He can and canDt do. 0et Him talk to you and HeDll direct your aths in 4A4;# way. And I GGA;A,+44 you that HeDll make sure that you sto conforming to the world. !O4, BPD) ,-. P"02007M In !uly of K??Q, God dramatically closed the furniture store and said to walk away. As of -ctober K??Q God said to hit the road, so I've been traveling all over the country raying and meeting folks and breaking things in the s irit. Sometimes alone, sometimes with a brother traveling along. Sometimes icking u hitch hikers. God is lighting u eo le all over and I get to watch. He's restoring the /ody and bring connectivity and harmony back. $aybe you don't see it yet, but I do. It's coming. +he ,ew Song is being layed. 9raise God and it's just in time.

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