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Episode Two: The First Cut Is the Deepest You need boundaries between you and the rest

of the world. Other people are far too messy. It‟s all about lines. Drawing lines in the sand, and praying like hell, no one crosses them. Closing: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don‟t keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That‟s how we‟re made. So you can waste your life drawing lines… or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines… that are way too dangerous to cross. Here‟s what I know: If you‟re willing to take the chance, the view from the other side… is spectacular.

And, once in a while, if you‟re smart, the life you save… could be your own. Episode Four: No Man’s Land Opening: Intimacy is a four-syllable word for, “Here are my heart and soul. Please grind them into hamburger and enjoy.” Its both desired, and feared, difficult to live with… and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to life‟s three R‟s: Relatives, Romance, and Roommate s. There are some things you can‟t escape, and other things, you just don‟t want to know… Closing: I wish there were a rule book for intimacy. Some kind of a guide that could tell you when you‟ve crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it comin g. And I don‟t know how you fit it on a map… You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules… Maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself. Episode Five: Shake Your Groove Thing Opening: Remember when you were a kid, and your biggest worry was, like, if you‟d get a bike for your birthday, or if you‟d get to eat cookies for breakfast? Being an adult? Totally overrated. I mean, seriously, don‟t be fooled by all the hot shoes, and the great sex, and the no parents anywhere telling you what to do. Adulthood is responsibility. Responsibility, it really does suck. Really, really sucks. Adults have to be places and do things and earn a living and pay the rent. Kind of makes bikes and cookies look really really good, doesn‟t it? The scariest part about responsibility? When you screw up, and let it slip right through your fingers… Closing:

Responsibility… it really does suck. Unfortunately, once you get past the age of braces and training bras, responsibility doesn‟t go away. It can‟t be avoided. Either someone makes us face it, or we suffer the consequences. And still, adulthood has its perks. I mean, the shoes, the sex, the no parents anywhere telling you what to do… that‟s pretty damn good. Episode Six: If Tomorrow Never Comes Opening: A couple hundred years ago, Benjamin Franklin shared with the world the secret of his success. “Never leave that ‟till tomorrow,” he said, “which you can do today.” This is the man who discovered electricity. You‟d think more of us would listen to what he had to say. I don‟t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I‟d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection… Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision. Because, what if you‟re wrong? What if you‟re making a mistake you can‟t undo? Whatever it is we‟re afraid of, one thing holds true… that, by the time the pain of not doing a thing, gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we‟r e carrying around a giant tumor. Closing: The early bird catches the worm. A stitch in time saves nine. He who hesitates is lost. We can‟t pretend we haven‟t been told. We‟ve all heard the proverbs, heard the philosophers, heard our grandparents warning us about wasted time, heard the damn poets urging us to seize the day. Still, sometimes, we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today‟s possibility under tomorrow‟s rug, until we can‟t anymore, until we finally understand for ourselves, what Benjamin Franklin meant: That knowing, is better than wondering. That waking, is better than sleeping. And that even the biggest failure, even the worst, most intractable mistake, beats the hell out of never trying. Episode Seven: The Self-Destruct Button I mean, if life‟s so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What‟s up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? Closing: Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we‟re wired that way. Because without it, I don‟t know… maybe we just wouldn‟t feel real. What‟s that saying? “Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer?” “Because it feels so good when I stop.” Episode Eight: Save Me May 15, 2005 Opening:

You know how when you were a little kid, and you believed in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, Prince Charming, who‟d carry you away to a castle on a hill. You‟d lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close, you could taste them. But eventually, you grow up. One day you open your eyes, and the fairy tale disappears. Most people, turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is… it‟s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. Because almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they‟ll open their eyes, and it will all come true. Closing: At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don‟t really expect it. It‟s like, one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle… well, it may not be a castle. And, it‟s not so important that it‟s happy ever after. Just that it‟s happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while… people may even take your breath away. Episode Nine: Who’s Zoomin’ Who? One thing is certain. Whatever it is we‟re trying to hide, we‟re never ready fo r that moment when the truth gets naked. That‟s the problem with secrets. Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don‟t have room for anything else. Until you‟re so full of secrets, you feel like you‟re going to burst. Closing: The thing people forget, is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they‟re out in the open, like it, or not. And once your secrets are out in the open, you don‟t have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is, even when you think you‟re in control… you‟re not. Episode One: Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head Episode Two: Enough Is Enough (No More Tears) October 2, 2005 Opening: I have an aunt who, whenever she poured anything for you, would say: “say when”. My aunt would say, “Say when,” and of course, we never did. We don‟t say “when” because there‟s something about the possibility of more. More tequila. More love. More anything. More is better. Closing: There‟s something to be said about a glass half full. About knowing when to say “when.” I think it‟s a floating line. A barometer of need and desire. It‟s entirely up to the individual… and depends on

The world of pretend is a cage. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Hope it goes away on its own. that we can‟t recognize the truth. No matter how hard you fight it. Episode Four: Deny. right in front of our faces… Closing: Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass. Other times. Deny. not a cocoon. How we manage our pain is up to us. after a while. if there‟s an upside to free falling. Sometimes. Hope the wound that caused it heals. And when the dam bursts. Of not being up to the task. The normal pains we live with every day. Episode Three: Make Me Lose Control Closing: No one likes to lose control. We anesthetize… ride it out. pain can be managed. there‟s no such thing as enough. We deny so much. guns blazing. You just have to ride it out. Most of the time. Hits way below the belt and doesn‟t let up. And all we want… is more. Except. we have to put aside our denial and face the world head-on.what‟s being poured. embrace it. the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. It‟s a sign of weakness. it‟s the chance you give your friends to catch you. The small twinge. . But sometimes. a bit of soreness. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. There are no solutions. We are scared. It‟s a freaking ocean. Makes the rest of the world fade away. there are times when it just gets away from you. It‟s not just a river in Egypt. Then there‟s the kind of pain we can‟t ignore. And still. We can only lie to ourselves for so long. So how do you keep from drowning in it? Episode Five: Bring the Pain October 23. Denial. No easy answers. the pain gets you when you least expect it. and believe what we want to believe. We are tired. And it works. Sooner or later. all you can do is swim. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. We lie to ourselves so much that. all we want is a taste. And it‟s scary as hell. Closing: Pain. ignore it… And for some of us. Pain. the lies start to seem like the truth. The glass is bottomless. 2005 Opening: Pain comes in all forms. Denying it doesn‟t change the truth. Deny We only see what we want to see. the random pain. you fall.

she falls for the one guy she knows she can‟t have. True love. And fate has nothing to do with it. . For starters. Because in the dark. And not too often.Pain. It‟s the first thing we really learn in life. not knowing is the worst feeling in the world. and go to sleep in a mausoleum… she deserved whatever she got. Episode Six: Into You Like a Train October 30. At the ripe old age of 13. once we grow up. maybe it all would have been okay. And then their time passed. Snyder that Juliet was an idiot. but just for a while. We have to know how to take care of each other. Eventually. Because the truth is. how to ask for what we really need… Closing: At the end of the day. Some things. sometimes it‟s better to stay in the dark. Episode Seven: Something to Talk About November 6. drink a bottle of poison. Some things. Closing: there are so many things we have to know. Episode Eight: Let It Be I told Mrs. Funny thing is. like life. and those who don‟t My point is this: whoever said “What you don‟t know can‟t hurt you”? Was a complete and total moron. you keep to yourself. you can‟t outrun it. 2005 Opening: Communication. They‟re what you do. Everyone thinks it‟s so romantic. Mrs. that love. Closing: Maybe Romeo and Juliet were fated to be together. we even have to figure out how to take care of ourselves. there may be fear… but there‟s also hope. people can be categorized in one of two ways: Those who love surprises. and really start talking. How sad. And some things we say because we can‟t be silent any longer. but every now and then… some things simply speak for themselves. Romeo and Juliet. Some things are more than what you say. If they could have known that beforehand. we just don‟t want to hear. Then she blames fate for her own bad decision. 2005 Opening: In general. Because for most people I know. the harder it becomes to know what to say. We have to know we have what it takes. is about making choices. Snyder explained to me that when fate comes into play. choice sometimes goes out the window. there are some things you just can‟t help but talk about. I was very clear. learn our words. Some things you say because there‟s no other choice. You just have to fight through. And life always makes more. If Juliet was stupid enough to fall for the enemy. But as human beings. Or.

. despite all your best choices. Episode Nine: Thanks for the Memories November 20. Maybe being grateful means recognizing what you have for what it is. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. At the end of the day. Mrs. I believe that for the most part. He thought we were never alone. we‟d be together forever. I‟d take fate into my own hands. the fact that we have the courage to still be standing… is reason enough to celebrate. Snyder that when I was grown up. 2005 you take as much of the good as you can get. „Cause good things aren‟t always what they seem. Maybe we‟re thankful for the familiar things we know. Snyder said I‟d be lucky if I ever had that kind of passion with someone. Even now. Too much of anything.I told Mrs. And that sometimes. We‟re supposed to be happy. Closing: Maybe we‟re not supposed to be happy. It‟s about putting down the poison and the dagger and making your own happy ending. “No man is an island. No matter what words you use. family. Appreciating small victories. Appreciation. Happy. another well-known English guy had an opinion about being alone. it all means the same thing. And who‟s to say that the someone can‟t have four legs? Someone to play with. Grateful for friends. too soon? Too much information? Too much fun? Too much love? Too much to ask? And when is it all just too much to bear? Episode 11: Owner of a Lonely Heart Four hundred years ago. entire unto himself. happy to just be alive… whether we like it or not. and he just meant that all anyone needs is someone to step in… and let us know we‟re not alone. it was fancier when he said it. Episode Ten: Much Too Much November 27. is not always a good thing. I wouldn‟t let some guy drag me down. fate wins anyway. or run around with… or just hang out. John Donne. love is about choices. and all your best intentions. And that if I did. even love. Closing: How do you know how much is too much? Too much. Giving thanks. because it doesn‟t come around nearly as often as it should. Maybe gratitude… has nothing to do with joy. 2005 Opening: Gratitude. Of course.” Boil down that island talk. And maybe we‟re thankful for the things we‟ll never know. most of the time.

Big or small. Constantly. You take what the fates hand you. Then there‟s the school of thought that says the family you‟re born into is simply a starting point. Closing: No matter how hard we try to ignore it or deny it. And. love them or not. For clarity. is not tolerated.” Whatever. not a new year. So… we lie. eventually the lies fall away… whether we like it. What‟s important is that we never stop believing we can have a new beginning. or not… you cope. or not. A chance to put the problems of last year to bed. Letting go of old habits. is a new year. Episode 13: Begin the Begin January 15. Put your past behind you. Just set your watch to January. Ideally. Episode 14: Tell Me Sweet Little Lies Lying is bad. not a birthday. old memories. The fact is. They feed you and clothe you and take care of you. Bringing on the great tradition of New Year‟s resolutions. It‟s an event. lying is a necessity. Something that changes us.” “I chopped down the cherry tree. until you‟re ready to go out into the world… and find your tribe. In general. But. We lie to ourselves because the truth… the truth freaking hurts. For security. understand them.Episode 12: Grandma Got Run Over by a Reindeer There‟s an old proverb that says you can‟t choose your family. Or so we‟re told. A new way of living and looking at the world. the greater the temptation to cross it? . and start over. Thanks to the calendar.” “The truth shall set you free. Closing: Who gets to determine when the old ends. It‟s hard to resist the chance at a new beginning. 2006 Opening: Fresh starts. they happen every year. “Honesty is the best policy. Episode 15: Break on Through Crossing the line unauthorized. But it‟s also important to remember that amid all the crap are a few things really worth holding on to. you pretty much do so at your own risk. here‟s the truth about the truth: It hurts. it gives us hope. So why is it… that the bigger the line. Our reward for surviving the holiday season. from birth. and the new begins? It‟s not a day on a calendar. For safety. If you choose to cross the line. like them or not. lines are there for a reason.

you feel it coming. if you do manage to make it back across that line. We get bigger. become an adult… your mother. and part II‟s openin g monologue is nearly identical to part I) Opening: In hospitals. it‟s almost impossible to go back. 2006 Opening: After careful consideration and many sleepless nights. 2006 (Part II of the two-part bomb story line. Because if you know… what do you do about it? Forget about the fact that you‟re scared out of your mind. We see a line. patients get in their eyes. says something… like that. . we move out. we move away from our families and form our own. Episode 17: As We Know It February 12. once and for al l. Not my dream. we want to cross it. you feel it coming. Some kind of sixth sense. 2006 Opening: It‟s a look. only problem is… once you‟ve crossed. No closing monologue in part I. The smell of death. Episode 16: It’s the End of the World February 5. Some say there‟s a scent. Or worse. A sort of personal dare. something like that. When the great beyond is heading for you. we get taller. But the basic insecurities. we get older. (George falls out of bed) See? I told you. here‟s what I‟ve decided: There‟ s no such thing as a grown-up. we‟re still a bunch of kids. for the most part. We move on. What‟s the one thing you‟ve always dreamed of doing before you die ? (Shower dream sequence) Okay… Hello? Clearly not my dream. You know when you‟re going to die. Some doctors say it‟s a look patients get in their eyes. And just when we think that life and circumstance have forced us to truly. it‟s creepy. Maybe it‟s the thrill of trading the familiar. But. trying desperately to fit in. and all those old wounds just grow up with us. When the great beyond is headed for you.Closing: We can‟t help ourselves. If you knew this was your last day on Earth. they say you know. Some think there‟s just some kind of sixth sense. the basic fears. how would you want to spend it? Closing: If you knew this was your last day on Earth… how would you want to spend it? Episode 18: Yesterday February 19. Whatever it is. for the unfamiliar. But. running around the playground. There‟s a scent. the smell of death. you find safety in numbers.

” It‟s easy to suggest a quick solution. It follows us home. against all experience. any way you slice it… karma sucks… Like I was saying… payback‟s a bitch. slap a Band-Aid on it. or we can wait for it to sneak up on us from behind. so. We look for comfort where we can find it. our karma… will leave us to face ourselves. or just how deep the wound really is. ignore the future co mplications that might arise. We whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark. we can‟t escape our karma. and go for the quick fix… . And the truth is. we break the rules we make for ourselves. But no matter how hard we try. What I‟m saying is… we reap what we sow. something inside us decides to do a crazy thing. And. I mean. It just… evens the score. we put ourselves out there… But still. when you don‟t know much about the problem. We can look our karma in the eye. is to know exactly what the disease is to begin with. we never give up hope. Episode 20: Band-Aid Covers the Bullet Hole March 12. It‟s karma. it‟s not unexpected.Closing: I‟ve heard that it‟s possible to grow up. when you don‟t understand the underl ying cause. What comes around. goes around. 2006 Opening: (George‟s Monologue) Okay. Decisions we pretty much know we‟re going to regret the moment… the minute… especially the morning after. Bad decisions. I guess we can‟t really complain about karma. “Just stitch me up. it goes without saying… we do it anyway. we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. And even when we‟re about to do something we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass… Well. a thing we know will probably turn around and bite us in the ass. patients are always telling us how they would do our jobs. Yet… we do it anyway. Episode 19: What Have I Done to Deserve This? February 26. The first step toward a real cure. One way or another. I‟ve just never met anyone who‟s actually done it. as surgeons. Closing: One way or another. that‟s not what people want to hear. And we hope… against all logic. Without parents to defy. maybe not “regret” regret. It‟s not unfair. sometimes… even the best of us make rash decisions. 2006 Opening: As doctors. We throw tantrums when things don‟t go our way. because at least… you know. We‟re supposed to forget the past that landed us here. But. Like children. and send me home. our karma will always find us.

If it‟s not believing in magic statues. we all have little superstitious things tha t we do. Closing: Life is not a spectator sport. But the fact is. Any game. from what‟s really going on. With some wounds. as friends. Episode 21: Superstition March 19. the mind games. There are those of us who love to play games. . it‟s avoiding sidewalk cracks. argue with the refs. Closing: Superstition lies in the space between what we can control… and what we can‟t. And. Don‟t dis the juju… from wherever it comes. Play. whether we want it to be. pick it up. we all try to do the best we can. there are those of us who love to play… a little too muc h. If you‟re lucky. as human beings. the game is in progress. 2006 Opening: My college campus has a magic statue. you have to rip off the Band-Aid. take a break… and tend to your wounds. is offend the gods. and knocks you off your feet. but does saying it 33 times really help? Is anyone really listening? And.Closing: As doctors. It‟s a long-standing tradition for students to rub its nose for good luck. Episode 22: The Name of the Game April 2. Play as if there‟s no tomorrow. Knock on wood. and all day long you‟ll have good luck. And. Studying might have been a better idea. we use them to pass the time. But the world is full of unexpected twists and turns. And just when you‟ve gotten the lay of the land. let them breathe. why do we bother doing those strange things at all? We rely on superstitions because we‟re smart enough to know we don‟t have all the answers. But. To distract us. that life works in mysterious ways. Play loose and free. the pain. lose or draw. No one wants to pass up a chance for good luck. But play. if no one‟s listening. Games are about the glory. or always putting our left shoe on first. She flunked out her sophomore year. the ground underneath you shifts. or not. To make life more interesting. Find a penny. My freshman roommate really believed in the statue‟s power. Step on a crack. go ahead. and give them time… to heal. break your mother‟s back… The last thing we want to do. Win. there are the more solitary games. Play fast. The games we each play all by ourselves. and insisted on visiting it to rub its nose before every exam. and the play-by-play. you end up with nothing more than a flesh wound. So. some wounds are deeper than they first appear. something a Band -Aid will cover. and require more than just a quick fix. 2006 Opening: A good basketball game can have us all on the edge of our seats. And then. The social games. Play hard. change the rules… cheat a little.

that‟s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear. friends. We all know the big ones: Gluttony. Maybe it can be a lot more dangerous than we think. means abandoning the walls you‟ve spent a lifetime building. more than others. After all. Some of us. Too often. we give as good as we get. the toughest sacrifices are the ones we don‟t see coming. And then t here are the days. That moment when you can legally call yourself a surgeon. And letting someone in. if you will sacrifice everything else for it. a normal life. There are days that make the sacrifices seem worthwhile. nothing comes without a price. Right? Episode 23: Blues for Sister Someone April 30. Closing: A wise man once said. when it comes to destructive behavior… it did make the top seven. you better decide how much you‟re willing to lose. Sleep. Episode 25: 17 Seconds May 14. And sometimes. it seems. That we can control it. . Of course. as grown-ups. we all do damage. so it‟s not whether you win or lose… it‟s how you play the game. Ultimately. When that happens.Okay. And then. Episode 24: Damage Case May 7. We carry the damage with us from childhood. pride. Then. or to measure the potential loss. 2006 Opening: We all go through life like bulls in a china shop. My point is. We sacrifice it all for that one amazing moment. means letting go of what you know is right. “You can have anything in life. Sometimes the damage catches us by surprise. going after what feels good. before you go into battle. A chip here. Maybe it‟s because we think anger‟s not that dangerous. the damage is something we can‟t even see… Closing: We‟re all damaged. there are the sacrifices that you can‟t even figure out why you‟re making. Or that‟s been done to us. where everything feels like a sacrifice. Sometimes we think we can fix the damage. When we don‟t have time to come up with a strategy. a crack there. maybe we don‟t give anger enough credit. But the sin you don‟t hear much about is anger. Doing damage to ourselves. The problem is trying to figure out how to control the damage we have done.” What he meant is. So. 2006 Opening: In life we are taught that there are seven deadly sins. And then… we set about the business of fixing… whatever we can. to pick a side. lust. To other people. and not the other way around. 2006 Opening: The key to being a successful intern is what we give up. when the battle chooses us.

Slowing down. The mother of all sins. (Cristina) Love. when we get excited. (Richard) There‟s a scientific term for this. All any of us wants is more time… Time to stand up… Time to grow up… Time to let go… Episode Two: I Am a Tree September 28. however.R. and saving lives. Hovering. Unable to move in one direction or the other. and probably one or two others. 2006 Opening: At any given moment. Time heals all wounds. (Cristina) We need a beating heart. (George) Family. (Derek) But we only need one thing… (Burke) To actually be alive. the clock ceases to matter. 2006 Opening: In the O. Try lust. Time waits for no man. You give in to a sin like envy or pride.. time loses all meaning. then you only hurt yourself. (Alex) Fight… (Addison) Or flight. what makes anger different from the six other deadly sins? It‟s pretty simple. Closing: Time flies. For even the strongest of us. you can take an awful lot of other people with you.Closing: So. 15 hours. (Meredith) We can‟t control it. but when it does.. 15 minutes.. (George) We either run… (Burke) Or… (Izzie) We attack. (Izzie) Sex. When we get a chill. (Bailey) It‟s instinct. But anger… Anger is the worst. In the midst of sutures. the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed of 450 miles per hour. time takes pleasure in kicking our asses. and you‟ll only hurt yourself. Episode 26/27: Deterioration of the Fight or Flight Response/Losing My Religion May 15. . (Addison) When our heart is threatened… (Alex) We respond in one of two ways.R. (Izzie) Or can we? Episode One: Time Has Come Today September 21. goosebumps. Until it freezes… leaving us stuck in a moment. or coveting. We don‟t have control over most of them. the best surgeons make time fly… Outside the O. it seems to play tricks.R. Inside the O. Not only can anger drag yo u over the edge. 2006 Opening: (Voice overs by members of cast) (Meredith) Human beings need a lot of things to feel alive. really.

and improbable surgeries. They help define who they are. Closing: The fantasy is simple. after the heat of the moment has passed. it‟s me. Maybe. . Episode Four: What I Am October 12. I know you‟re angry. And then again… Episode Three: Sometimes a Fantasy October 5. orthopedic surgeons. We can cool off. neurosurgeons… Distinctions that do more than define their areas of expertise. 2006 Opening: Surgeons usually fantasize about wild. most interns get a sense of who they are as doctors. The reality is that pain is there to tell us something. Which I think is part of what makes it so hard for us to control ours.adrenaline. where the beautiful and talented and incredibly stubborn Dr. But the thing that makes us human… is what we can control. is this week‟s closing monologue. after the rush. sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control… That we later wish we had. And promised to marry me.) Dad. Someone collapses in a restaurant. Closing: The body is a slave to its impulses. If you ask them. not only do most surgeons have no idea who they are. I know we‟ve had our differences. and I‟m sorry we‟ve been out of touch. they‟ll tell you. I hope you‟ll forgive me. Closing: (Phone message Denny left the night he died for his parents. and no pain is better… But the reality is different. 2006 Opening: At some point during surgical residency. We can try to let go of what was. but sometimes. Of course. And maybe that‟s okay. The body naturally follows its impulses. mom. and the kinds of surgeons they‟re going to become. Pleasure is good. But every now and then. and clean up the messes we‟ve made. And twice as much pleasure is better… That pain is bad. I was trying to make everything better. replace a valve with a hollowed-out stick of carrot. they‟re going to be general surgeons. Believe it or not. After the storm. we‟re sure if we try hard enough. she‟s just given me a brand new heart. some fantasies are only supposed to live in our dreams. they‟re afraid to find out. And there‟s only so much pleasure we can take without getting a stomach ache. Because outside the operating room. some other kind of fantasy slips in… Most of our fantasies dissolve when we wake. we slice them open with a butter knife. Isobel Stevens. I‟m calling from Seattle Grace hospital. we can live the dream. banished to the back of our minds.

Because if we‟re not. Closing: There are time when even the best of us. we have no business picking up that scalpel in the first place. a new heart. It brings its friends: Doubt and Insecurity. I know who I am now. I know what I want. As doctors. First. Which is why sometimes… we have to learn the hard way. Episode Five: Oh. Episode Six: Let the Angels Commit November 2.Turns out. but the fact is… most of us do harm all the time. even when we‟re trying to help. I love you. To choose our commitments very carefully. or a lesion or an unwelcome lump. the Guilt October 19. From here on out. you need to go step-by-step. What you do with that guilt. Mistakes are painful… but they‟re the only way to find out who you really are. they can look perfectly fine on the outside. Guilt never goes anywhere on its own. We‟re left with a choice… Either let the guilt throw you back into the behavior that got you into trouble in the first place. sometimes you have to do the wrong thing… sometimes you have to make a big mistake. Episode Seven: Where the Boys Are November 9. we‟re trained to look for disease. After all. And there‟s no oath for how to deal with that. and I want you guys to get on the next plane out here and meet my girl. We may surprise ourselves by the commitments we‟re willing to make. and do your best… to move on. Bye. have trouble with commitment. Sometimes the problem‟s easily detected. True commitment takes effort. nothing‟s ever going to be the same. do more damage than good. But. And. probing the surface. 2006 Opening: First do no harm. do no harm. I‟ve got the love of my life. Sometimes. or may not. and sacrifice. we do more harm than good. We have to be willing to pick up that scalpel and make a cut that may. Commitments are complicated. Easier said than done. I promise. it takes major commitment. Everything‟s gonna be different now. We can take all the oaths in the world. to figure out how to make things right. really make it… as a surgeon. 2006 Opening: To make it. looking for any sign of trouble. or… learn from the guilt. is up to you. A mole. It‟s all about being committed. 2006 Opening: As surgeons. Most of the time. And then the guilt rears its ugly head. Closing: First. . we pledge to live by this oath. we can‟t tell what‟s wrong with somebody by just looking at the. while their insides tell us a whole other story. we may be surprised by the commitments we‟re willing to let slip out of our grasp. Most of the time. harm happens… and then guilt happens.

But not all secrets can be kept… Closing: (Cristina) In some ways. The trick with any kind of wound or disease. Episode 11: Six Days: Part I January 11. And every bit as dangerous. the path to recovery is less clear. Most wounds run deeper than we can i magine. there are some wounds. But. surgery is often the key to recovery. You can‟t see them with the naked eye. all we really want. sexual histories. sometimes close can be too close. so profound. When we betray each other… when we betray each other. those are the ones worth keeping. SO this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other… it‟s usually a load of bull. There‟s a part of the world that we are literally blind to. And once you‟ve found it… try like hell to heal that sucker. is to dig down and find the real source of the injury. When our bodies betray us.… that there‟s no way to repair what was lost. And then. 2007 None . confidential information that is as essential to a surgeon as a 10-blade. Their medical histories. Sometimes. there are the wounds that take us by surprise. to rebuild the trust that was lost. is to be close to somebody. our blind spots keep our lives bright and shiny. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to. 2006 Opening: (Cristina) As doctors. We keep secrets. Closing: When it comes to our blind spots. sometimes our blind spots shield us from things that really shouldn‟t be ignored. We do whatever it takes. We have to. And sure. 2006 Closing: At the end of the day. Episode Eight: Staring at the Sun November 16.Closing: Not all wounds are superficial. The people that are still with you at the end of the day. Maybe they‟re protecting us… Episode Nine: From a Whisper to a Scream November 23. betrayal is inevitable. sometimes that invasion of personal space… it can be exactly what you need. The problem is. 2006 Opening: Many people don‟t know that the human eye has a blind spot in its field of vision. maybe our brains aren‟t compensating. some betrayals. And once we‟ve chosen those people… we tend to stick close by… no matter how much we hurt them. Episode Ten: Don’t Stand So Close to Me November 30. that are so deep. we know everybody‟s secrets. And when that happens… there‟s nothing left to do… but wait. And then. when it comes down to it.

Sometimes. inevitably. We call it misdiagnosis. The expected is just the beginning. 2007 Opening: Disappearances happen in science. You gotta wonder why we cling to our expectations. When the worst-case scenario comes true.Episode 12: Six Days: Part II January 18. every now and then. But . is all we‟ve got left. Closing: As doctors. we are filled with expectation. But. Diseases can suddenly fade away. we live in a world of worst-case scenarios. is there hope? But. 2007 Opening: As surgeons. Tumors go missing. Expectations of the trails we will blaze. the best doesn‟t happen. clinging to hope. 2007 Opening: No one believes their life will turn out just “kind of” okay. And from the day we decide to be surgeons. will the pain ever go away? Will I feel better? Am I cured? What our patients really want to know… is. And every now and then. We cut ourselves off from hoping for the best. . When the patient‟s body has betrayed them. Any explanation but the truth. But what our patients really want to know is. Where we will go. And then… we get there. And we feel a little bit robbed when our expectations aren‟t met. and all the science we have to offer has failed them. It‟s unexplained. 2007 None Episode 13: Great Expectations January 25. our expectations sell us short. something extraordinary occurs. Because the expected is just what keeps us steady… standing… still. the people we will help. Episode 15: Walk on Water February 8. because too many times. And against our better judgment… we start to have hope. but it happens. the difference we will make. something amazing happens. Great expectations of who we will be. the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. say we never saw it in the first place. we‟re trained to give our patients just the facts. The unexpected… is what changes our lives. it‟s rare. We open someone up to discover the cancer is gone. sometimes. Closing: We all think we‟re going to be great. And suddenly… best-case scenarios seem possible. Episode 14: Wishin’ and Hopin’ February 1. We all think we‟re going to be great. there are times when you find yourself in the worst case scenario.

But… I‟ve disappeared. you‟re caught with your pants down. against all odds… against all logic. Most of our old wounds heal. That‟s what we like to think. We can‟t control them… But they do happen. Like secret road maps of their personal histories. Closing: . But they do. Just not always when we need them to happen… Closing: At the end of a day like this. Things can go wrong. Some wounds. do we miss it? Episode 16: Drowning on Dry Land February 15. where to clamp. and sometimes. leaving nothing behind but a scar. 2007 Opening: People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places. people fade away. There‟s more I have to say… so much more. Miracles do happen in medicine. But that‟s not the way it is. 2007 Opening: Surgeons always have a plan. is it? Some things we just have to learn over and over and over… again. or old wounds. we touch. Where to cut. Being worshipers of the altar of science. Closing: What‟s worse? New wounds. 2007 Opening: There are medical miracles. even with the best plans. They remin d us where we‟ve been. But some of them. Episode 18: Scars and Souvenirs March 15. complications can arise. We reach across the gap. Things happen. we carry with us everywhere… and though the cut is long gone. and what we‟ve overcome. 2007 Opening: Like I said… disappearances happen… pains go phantom… blood stops running… an d people. If something that we didn‟t know we had disappears. And suddenly. and so many aren‟t… We take our miracles where we find them. Episode 19: My Favorite Mistake March 22. where to stitch. we don‟t like to believe miracles exist. which should have healed years ago. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. which are so horribly painful. We can‟t explain them. and never did? Maybe our old wounds teach us something. a day when so many prayers are answered. the pain still lingers. diagrams of all of their old wounds. They happen every day. But. don‟t. Episode 17: Some Kind of Miracle February 22.That life is full of vanishing acts.

2007 Opening: As interns. is the one thing you can‟t have. than others. or forget to mention certain drugs. eventually always com es back to haunt us. Endure 100-hour weeks. can be the kiss of death. we‟ll do it. 2007 Opening: The dream is this: That we‟ll finally be happy when we reach our goals. Of course. reconciling this huge thing we want – to be surgeons. do we step forward. Sometimes. the thing you want most. some of us are better at it. Our history is what shapes us. you name it. Our history resurfaces.R. whether it‟s in the O. Stand for hours on end in operating rooms. we immediately start dreaming of something else. To become surgeons. what guides us. is. 2007 Opening: A patient‟s history is as important as their symptoms. in surgery. Some of us just have to move on to plan B. please. patients will try to re-write their own histories. Desire leaves us heartbroken. But as tough as wanting something can be… the people who suffer the most. Find the guy. after time.. to something new? It‟s hard not to be haunted by our past. Now. is the history we‟re making today. Episode 21: Desire April 26. with everything else we want. Episode 22: The Other Side of This Life: Part I & II May 3. We can ignore it all we want… but our history. They‟ll claim they don‟t smoke. are those who don‟t know what they want. It wears us out. So we have to remember. Closing: Some people believe that without history. we all have to choose. Episode 20: Time After Time April 19. our lives amount to nothing. The tough part though. Time. they don‟t take into account the unexpected. Do we fall back on what we know? Or.The thing about plans is. At some point. Suffer through killer exams. which. Closing: . if a headache is a tumor… Sometimes. Closing: Too often. So when we‟re thrown a curve ball. It‟s what helps us decide if heartburn is a heart attack. and make the best of it. Then we get there… and if we‟re human. Desire can wreck your life. or in life… we have to improvise. we know what we want. Because if this is the dream… then we‟d like to wake up. the most important history. finish our internship… that‟s the dream. after time. And we‟ll do anything to get there. And sometimes… what we want… is exactly what we need.

And the responsibility… it makes you… you take care of otherpeople‟s families. Episode 25: Didn’t We Almost Have It All? May 17. at some point cross the line to obsessive. oh. A chance for us to demonstrate how much we know… and how much more we have to learn. It would be too easy if it was just drugs and booze and cigarettes. letting it go hurts even worse. But how do you know when you‟re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us. the more they stay the same. But here‟s the truth: Sometimes. procedures are updated. feeling hopeful. You need to be able to look at a family… and tell them your team did everything they could to save someone‟s child… their husband… their wife. too often. Closing: The thing about addiction is. Still. every symptom. Compulsive. the more things change. 2007 Opening: (Richard) Being chief is about responsibility. Sometimes. they say you don‟t kick the habit until you hit rock bottom. And if we‟re lucky… we realize. But the strongest of us.At some point. we hold on to the dream. and starts to hurt. levels of expertise increase. Because eventually. It‟s the high we‟re chasing. Episode 24: Testing 1-2-3 May 10. is lying. Episode Two: Love/Addiction October 4. Closing: Change… We don‟t like it. It hurts to grow. Every single surgical patient in the hospital is your patient. the most determined of us. We convince ourselves it‟s better that we never dream at all. things that start out as just a normal part of your life. Nothing remains the same for long. Or. The high that makes everything else… fade away. we find ourselves faced with a fresh dream we never considered. we get addicted for a reason. it never ends well. It‟s shocking. Episode One: A Change Is Gonna Come September 27. we fear it. sometimes. And sometimes. every operation is a test. taking care of other people‟s families. in the face of everything. Innovation is everything. how many ki nds of addiction exist. change is good. at all. 2007 Opening: In the hospital. Out of control. or we get left behind. in the face of life… the true dream… is being able to dream. But we can‟t stop it from coming. The scalpel stops with you. Anybody who tells you it doesn‟t. I think the hardest part of kicking a habit is wanting to kick it. 2007 Opening: In the practice of medicine. I mean. right? Often. sometimes. We either adapt to change… or we get left behind. we see addiction every day. Every patient. And you sacrifice your own. change is inevitable. . whatever it is that was getting us high… stops feeling good. change is… everything. You get caught up. We either adapt to change. whether you‟re the one who cut them open or not. We awake to find ourselves… against all odds…. New surgical techniques are created. 2007 Opening: A surgeon‟s education never ends. We tell ourselves the reality is better. maybe we accept that the dream has become a nightmare.

old scores are never settled. apart from death and taxes. we want to be right. frailty. Or. finally to rest. and most of the time. But do they really? Closing: The truth is painful. And the most we can hope for. Closing: It isn‟t just surgeons. We give them medicine. Maybe it‟s pride. and very often… the truth hurts. death. And sometimes… we tell them… because we owe them at least that much. we give them advice. When someone hurts us. You‟re going to get hurt. cold sci entists. or maybe it‟s just about being tough. Especially when it hits close to home. At least. but it‟s not very practical. Old wounds never heal. We like to pretend we‟re fearless. hardcore. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. our efforts usually fail. 2007 Opening: Doctors give patients a number of things. people say they want the truth. that‟s what they want you to think. no matter how good your intentions. That‟s what they say. It‟s good advice. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to really hear it for ourselves. Deep down. Rough around the edges. but a true surgeon never admits they need help unless absolutely necessary. is that one day we‟ll be lucky enough to forget.Episode Three: Let the Truth Sting October 11. we think we can cut away that which haunts us. only one thing is certain. put an old story to rest. the hardest thing you can give the patience is the truth. Episode Five: Haunt You Every Day October 25. there‟s really only one thing you can say… (Torres: “I forgive you. No matter how hard you try. Closing: . the truth is. Without forgiveness. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can‟t help ourselves. Surgeons don‟t need to ask for help because they‟re tougher than that. Episode Four: The Heart of the Matter October 18. Or someone. deep down. you are going to make mistakes. 2007 Opening: There‟s this thing about being a surgeon. The truth is hard. Surgeons are cowboys. I don‟t know anyone who isn‟t haunted by something. Weakness. we want to hurt them back. The truth is awkward. We like to pretend we‟re hard. Finally. When someone wrongs us. You‟re going to hurt people. we give them our undivided attention. 2007 Opening: There‟s a reason surgeons learn to wield scalpels. I mean. Episode Six: Kung Fu Fighting November 1. 2007 Opening: In life. But the truth is we become surgeons because somewhere. And whether we try to slice the pain away with a scalpel or shove it in the back of a closet. nobody wants to hear it. So the only way we can clear out the cobwebs is to turn a new page.”) Closing: Forgive and forget. But by far. And if you ever want to recover.

grow older. We go into medicine because we want to save lives. for the high. The lives we ruined. or failed to save. and upside down. But what we remember at the end of most days. Closing: Chemistry.Deep down. Episode Eight: Forever Young November 15. The ills we couldn‟t cure. the whole world seems upside down. Closing: Some days. The end of the day. We go into medicine because we want to do good. we were med students. We get taller. As long as you choose your moments wisely. we are still forever stumbling. you‟re old enough to vote. for the high. people expect you to be responsible. 2007 Opening: We go into medicine because we want to save lives. turned inside out and upside down. We learned it all. Suddenly. Episode Seven: Physical Attraction… Chemical Reaction November 8. . more often than not. We go into medicine for the rush. the reality is nothing like we hope. But for the most part. Episode Ten: Crash Into Me: Part 2 December 6. for the ride. everyone wants to believe they can be hardcore. is ass-backwards. Episode Nine: Crash Into Me: Part 1 November 22. 2007 Opening: There comes a point in your life when you‟re officially an adult. It‟s okay to let down your guard. or you don‟t. 2007 Opening: At the end of the day. Biochemistry. which meant we spent a lot of time studying chemistry. You don‟t have to be tough every minute of every day. or you don‟t. But when you‟re talking about human chemistry. we get older. for the ride. the world rights itself again. A grown-up. It‟s about acceptance. So the experience of practicing medicine rarely resembles the goal. But being hardc ore isn‟t just about being tough. The reality is. and when you least expect it. We go into medicine for the rush. We have families. or failed to cure. improbably. Suddenly. Serious. drink. What we lie awake at night replaying is the pain we caused. 2007 Opening: Before we were doctors. Organic chemistry. What we lay awake at night replaying is the pain we caused. we get married… divorced. No matter how much we grow taller. Forever… young. The lives we ruined… or failed to save. are the losses. are the losses. but do we ever really grow up? Closing: In some ways we grow up. Either you‟ve got it. But what we remember at the end of most days. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to not be hardcore for once. And then somehow. The experience too often. the experience of practicing medicine bears little resemblance to the dream. We go into medicine because we want to do good. and engage in other adult activities. there are moments when there are moments when it‟s the best thing you could possibly do. at the end of the day. Either you‟ve got it. Forever wondering. only one thing matters. In fact. we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen.

It takes gestation. they‟re born. Thoughtful. And even though there‟s a beast inside all of us. and the stars. 2008 Opening: Great surgeons aren‟t made. sacrifice. we‟re all still rooting around in the primordial ooze. We are each other‟s keepers. Something worth loving. After all. And against all odds. the answer at the back of the book. is medicine. The story goes on to say that God created man in his own image. the fact that we show up for each other. that surgeon you become? Totally worth it. We are the guardians of our own humanity. 2008 Opening: (Baily voice-over) In the beginning. he turns to something bigger than himself. At least. But it‟s also a beginning. Biting. of something incredible. we speak. we dream. we evolve. We may feel caged. What sets us apart from the animals is that we can think. We have opposable thumbs. the moon. 2008 Opening: . Closing: Giving birth may be all intense and magical. a pack to run with. Because the thought of our being all alone down here is just too much for us to bear. Conscientious. But at the end of the day. Something that will change your life… forever. but there‟s not much proof of that. feel. is still a mystery. and love. Something true. warmth. Something worth missing. Our animal instinct is what makes us seek comfort. as humans. that‟s what they say. we walk erect. the only thing that makes any kind of sense. we may feel trapped. or religion to make sense of it all. We want to know the reason. God created the heaven and the Earth. Closing: There‟s a little animal in all of us. the secret. And then God created man. no matter what we believe. we can find ways to feel free. or fate. in spite of our differences. but the act itself? It‟s not exactly pleasant. dream. Something unpredictable. is reason enough to keep believing. to love. and stuff. we know more about the human body now than at any other point in our history. A lot of sacrifice. but still. Episode 12: Where the Wild Things Are April 24. for a surgeon. God made the sun. scratching out an existance in the cold dark world like the rest of the tree toads and sloths. Episode 13: Piece of My Heart May 1. And all man makes is trouble. We‟re no better than animals. even just a little. But after all the blood and guts and gooey stuff is washed away. Humane. And he looked at his creation and he saw that it was good. which is most of the time. and it‟s been downhill ever since. Civilized. incubation. Episode 14: The Becoming May 8. But when things fall apart. Closing: (Baily voice-over) As doctors. 2008 Opening: We like to think that we are rational beings. against all instinct. it becomes clear.Episode 11: Lay Your Hands on Me January 10. why people live and die. And when man finds himself in trouble. Something new. we think. why they hurt or get hurt. But the miracle of life itself. He created the birds of the air and the beasts of the field. But deep down. clawing. But. And maybe that‟s something to celebrate.

The problem is. And every day. 2008 Opening: My mother used to say that for a surgeon. I was a good doctor.” should have his ass kicked – so hard. she can run a code without freaking out. Maybe even a great day. in my head. There was a moment when I thought. because something keeps getting in my way. And I did. Chained.” “I can‟t do this alone. And I did it. only so much better. Captives. Closing: Don‟t wonder why people go crazy. Every day we lose life. The shoe fits Cinderella.1 Episode One: Dream a Little Dream of Me September 25. It‟s the nightmares that always seem to become reality. a day without death is a rare gift. Meredith Grey’s Season 5 Monologues – 5. I was the me in my head. You lose your ability to judge what‟s normal… in yourself. Wonder why they don‟t.” But. It‟s the other stories. maybe even a great surgeon. The stuff of dreams. You spend every day around people in massive crisis. And then they lived happily every after. we‟re hoping for a stay of execution. Fairy tales. Every day we face death. She is brilliant. Meredith is speaking to her therapist: And I‟m afraid I‟ll never become this person in my head. . Sleeping Beauty is awakened with a kiss. Even when it was hard. I blocked out the fear. 2008 Opening: We all remember the bedtime stories of our childhoods. How the hell are you supposed to know? You don‟t even know how you‟re doing.” Episode 15: Losing My Mind May 15. She‟s a really good surgeon. She‟s me. Capable. I closed my eyes and imagined myself doing it. The ones that begin with dark and stormy nights and end in the unspeakable.There‟s this person. You haven‟t slept in years. or anyone else. The person that invented the phrase “Happily ever after. Closing: It was a good day. She can do chest tubes and craniotomies. In the face of all we can lose in a day… in an instant… wonder what the hell it is that makes us hold it together. fairy tales don‟t come true. Meredith is speaking to her therapist: “It was a really good day. like prisoners. Episode 16: Freedom May 22. Once upon a time. “I can‟t do this. And yet people are constantly asking you to tell them how t hey‟re doing. We‟re attached to death. The frog turns into a prince. 2008 Opening: The problem with being a resident is you feel crazy all the time.

surgery was born. 2008 Opening: “I am a rock. Episode Three: Brave New World October 16. And eventually. Repair the damage. And at the end of the day. Being first pick can be terrifying. Reality. But when life breaks down. But in our lives. where we advance. you‟ve got to get off the bench and decide… what team are you batting for? Closing: The thing about choosing teams in real life. That all we need to do our job is an OR. no hard and fast rules. when we break down. Organs burst. We usually know what we‟re doing. made the world safe again… along comes another landmine. Episode Five: Life During Wartime October 30. Closing: We like to think we‟re fearless. but surgeons have always been a confident bunch. we still act like we do.” Thus. we watch from the sidelines. a scalpel and a willing body. Episode Four: There’s No ‘I’ in Team October 23. We like to think we‟re independent. that‟s worth talking about. And to a surgeon.” That‟s the mantra of pretty much every surgeon I‟ve ever met. and one friend. The breaking point is our startin g line at work. They‟re our terrain. Surgery. A little calamity. isn‟t that what you‟d rather hear about? If you‟ve got one drink. there‟s nothing worse. we cut things open. . eager to explore unknown lands and soak up new experiences. 2008 Opening: In 6500 B. 2008 Opening: As surgeons. like life. and terrifying. Some people go to horror movies. And being chosen last… isn‟t the worst thing in the world. dive into dark water. Reality is much stormier. Just when you think you won the battle. We walk boldly into undiscovered country. And when we don‟t. Maybe the terror is part of the attraction. is a team sport. It takes a certain brand of crazy to come up with an idea like drilling into somebody‟s skull. It‟s so much more interesting than living happily ever after. Episode Two: Here Comes the Flood October 9. try to remove all the landmines. And we‟ll do everything we can to avoid it. Closing: Bones break.. we are trained to fix what‟s broken. Happily ever after.Closing: Once upon a time. the breaking point is a sign of weakness. 2008 Opening: For a surgeon. Much scarier. and there‟s nothing better. clinging to our isolation. I am an island. ease the pain. plant a flag. Because we know as soon as we let go of the bench. it‟s nothing like it used to be in gym class. We just have to feel our way through. It‟s invigorating. But the fact is. and start ordering people around. retre at. and forty -five minutes… smooth rides make for boring stories. But the truth is. we‟re always terrified. Much murkier. “I have an idea. Fairy tales don‟t come true. some guy looked at his sick friend and said.C. Flesh tears. every patient is a battlefield. So. The stories we tell are the stuff of dreams. someone comes along and change the game completely. Loners. We can sew the flesh. not even the best of us can do it alone. Mavericks. Why don‟t I drill a hole in your skull? It‟ll make you feel better. there‟s no science.

And though you may be older and wiser. When lives are on the line and you‟re poking at brains like they‟re Silly Putty. 2008 Opening: When you‟re little. face our fears. night time isn‟t so scary. Closing: Sleep. till it‟s over. and turn to each other for help. The one you have yet to fight. Some wars result in complete and total victory. Some bonds defy distance. 2008 Opening: If you‟re a normal person. because we realize we aren‟t all alone in the dark. It‟s what we all dream about. – kind of a badass. Surgeons cheat death. even after it seems like the ties should be broken. we prolong it. 2008 Opening: It‟s intense. Episode Eight: In the Midnight Hour November 20. Closing: . Closing: We‟re born. You just… close your eyes. we deny it. But. if you‟re a surgeon. We want it. We put things to rest. and logic. whether you like them or not. night time is scary. Self doubt… loneliness… regret. Episode Nine: All by Myself December 4. Episode Seven: These Ties That Bind November 13. Some end in an uneasy truce. what can you count on anymore? Because you sure can‟t count on anything in life. And some wars… end in hope. but we don‟t know how to get it. Some wars end with a peace offering. sleep seems out of our grasp. we die. we live. Closing: The ties that bind us are sometimes impossible to explain. So if death is not the end. and time.R. the monsters are different. unpredictable thing there is. Life is the most fragile. Sometimes not necessarily in that order. even that comfort is taken away from you.Closing: Some wars are never over. Standing at the head of the surgical table. what happens in the O. Whether you like it or not. you become family. 2008 Opening: My mother called it the greatest and most terrifying moment in her life. But for so many of us. being tied together like that. It‟s intimate. only to have them rise up again. you still find yourself scared of the dark. Episode Six: Rise Up November 6. knowing that the patient‟s life depends on you and you alone. But all these wars are nothing compared to the most frightening war of all.R. We stand and defiantly give death the finger. there‟s only one thing about life we can be sure of… it ain‟t over. When you get older. You form a bond with the surgeons right next to you. indescribable bond. one of the few things you can count on in life is death. An unbreakable. But once we face our demons. unstable. In fact. because there are monsters hiding right under the bed. It‟s the easiest thing to do. because the first person that gets to fly solo in the O. They connect us. Because some ties are simply… meant to be.

that‟s all we need to know. And maybe for now.2 Episode 13: Beat Your Heart Out February 5. without hesitation… they‟re the ones that haunt us forever. Which is the biggest trouble of all. So we struggle over every stitch. We need support. So instead. And everything that happens in between. one of those wishes comes true. We wish because we need help. Moments of heaven on Earth. We make mistakes. with absolute certainty… is that there are moments that take us to another place. on eyelashes. and for a moment. Otherwise. and we know we may be asking too much. Strangers. and we‟re scared. or one that skips a beat. Hell. from a panic disorder. Episode Ten: Wish You Were Here January 8. A racing heart could indicate anything. we‟re in it by ourselves. People get hurt. But the one thing we can say for sure. But when a surgeon makes a bad judgment call. without a hell. Some of us throw in more. it could indicate romance. We wish for big things. . 2009 Opening: (Denny Duquette) I believe in heaven. And every now and then. and without it. Closing: We don‟t wish for the easy stuff. We call it wrong. and we leave it alone. we agonize over every suture. 2009 Opening: Any first year med student knows that an increased heart rate is a sign of trouble. Closing: We‟re human. we choose love.We enter the world alone. We need help. Things that are ambitious. and we forget… just how connected we all are. to something much… much more se rious. No one really knows where we‟re going… or what‟s waiting for us when we get there. it‟s not as simple. A heart that flutters. They bleed. Because without a heaven. 2009 Opening: My mother used to say this about residency: It takes a year to learn how to cut. cut off from each other. over the candles on our birthday. lucky stars. out of reach. We still wish though. Limbo. the ones that come to us quickly and easily. Episode 11: Sympathy for the Devil January 15. fountains. They have to exist. So what then? Is it as good as we‟d hoped? Do we bask in the warm glow of our happiness… or do we just notice we‟ve got a long list of other wishes waiting to be wished. we choose life. Because the snap judgments. because sometimes… they come true. but I believe they exist. we feel just a little bit less alone. Meredith Grey’s Season 5 Monologues – 5. sound judgment is the trickiest one to master. we‟re all just toddlers running around with ten blades. Episode 12: Stairway to Heaven January 22. I‟ve never seen either. We mis-estimate. could be a sign of a secret affliction… or. we‟re all just headed for limbo. I also believe in hell. Of all of the tools on a surgical tray. 2009 Opening: We all get at least one good wish a year. we owe it to ourselves to find a little company. Closing: (Denny Duquette) Heaven. It takes a lifetime to learn not to.

Romance can make the heart pound. Closing: Every surgeon has a shadow. they‟re already in the “after”. 2009 Opening: Every surgeon I know has a shadow.) Episode 15: An Honest Mistake February 19. just like panic can. they see us as monsters. we move forward. impatient. Episode 17: Stand by Me March 19. Closing: None (Crossover episode with Private Practice – Ex-Life. But what they don‟t realize is that the fact that they‟re talking about it to us. It starts with them being fine. We hide the fact that we‟re all too human. They‟re arrogant. depends on us. we‟re just people. 2009 Opening: Every patient‟s story starts the same way. their doctors. and face what you fear – head on. master harder techniques. Otherwise. someday. It‟s no wonder doctors spend so much time trying to keep the heart stable. hoping that if we save more lives. A dark cloud of fear and doubt that follows even the best of us into the O. 2009 Opening: There‟s this thing that happens when people find out you‟re a doctor. means there‟s no going back. They cling to this moment. We screw up. to stop running from the darkness. we‟ll come just a little bit closer to the gods our patients need us to be. And panic can make it stop cold in your chest. and begin to see you as something bigger than you are. But the fact is. But. where the story continued. normal. It starts in the “before”. on how well we diagnose and treat.Closing: It seems we have no control whatsoever – over our own hearts. To keep it slow. Closing: Patients see us as gods. as though talking about it may somehow bring it back. we force ourselves to keep trying. Conditions can change without warning. Episode 14: Before and After February 12. it‟ll get tired and give up the chase. We don‟t rest on our laurels or celebrate the lives we saved in the past. To stop the heart from pounding out of your chest from the dread of something terrible… or the anticipation of something else entirely. ‟cause who could stand them? But surgeons are like a . 2009 Opening: Surgeons aren‟t known for being warm and cuddly. flawed. as often as not. as gods. Or. to keep learning… in the hope that maybe. we‟re just like everyone else – unsure. run faster and farther.R. Still. And while every patient‟s story starts the same way. regular. steady. They have to see us that way. Because there‟s always some other patient that needs our help. we remain stoic. We lose our way. how the story ends. this “before”. We pretend the shadow isn‟t there. and the only way to get rid of a shadow… is to turn off the lights. They stop seeing you as a person. By the time they see us. Even the best of us have our off days. We know the story hinges on us. like they say… you can‟t outrun your shadow. So we act strong. this memory of being fine. and we all want to be the hero. So. mean. You‟d think they wouldn‟t have friends. Episode 16: I Will Follow You Into the Dark March 12.

actually give in. not tomorrow‟s war. We‟re butchers. After the playground days are over. Closing: (Alex Karev) Doesn‟t matter how tough we are. But as human beings. Because the stupid kid we bit… totally deserved it. to right a wrong. there‟s hope for them. I know some doctors who just don‟t bother making friends at all. Trauma always leaves a scar. Maybe because life and mortality are in our faces all the time. and we rarely forgive ourselves for them. is borrowed time. we move on. Trauma messes everybody up. It either means “You‟re dying and I can‟t help”.” and we would say it. But when we are really sorry. “Life threatening” is what gets us out of bed in the morning. when we use it right. but we wouldn‟t mean it. you have to mean it. anyway. it changes our lives. Surgeons: Nasty. and we‟d accidentally bite a kid on the playground? Our teachers would go. For this reason. you forget why you were even fighting in the first place. As a weapon. We don‟t back away from the table till the last breath‟s long gone. to push each loss. Episode 18: Elevator Love Letter March 26. we can‟t undo our mistakes. we suffer trauma. we can always try to do better. Maybe because in staring down death every day. But it‟s a hazard of the trade. knife -happy butchers. Of course. aggressive. to be better. Messed up. we don‟t back down. Not at work. you can‟t just say it. We‟re not easily intimidated. “Terminal” is a challenge. Episode 19: Sweet Surrender April 23. “I‟m sorry” doesn‟t always cut it. or it means. “Say you‟re sorry. Episode 20: No Good at Saying Sorry (One More Chance) April 30. we move on. we make it our job to move that line. it‟s what pushes us. O f course. And each person we let ourselves care about… is just one more loss. we‟re forced to know that life. but persistent. Patients die on our watch. and we certainly don‟t surrender. as an excuse. We don‟t have time to worry about how all the blood and death and crap really makes us feel. Just the kind of people you want on your side when you‟re really screwed. But even when our hopes give way to reality and we finally have to surrender to the truth. making amends isn‟t so simple. But. even when it feels irreversible. We cause trauma. “sorry” is not a happy word. “This is really gonna hurt. We don‟t flinch. unstoppable. 2009 Opening: (Alex Karev) Surgeons are all messed up. somewhere down the line. 2009 Opening: Remember when we were little. Maybe because we use it so many different ways. Not for surgeons. as far away as we can. it just means we‟ve lost today‟s battle. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. . when you become a doctor. before we can step up. 2009 Opening: Defeat isn‟t an option. But the rest of us. Closing: To do our jobs we have to believe defeat is not an option. We cut people up. That no matter how sick our patients get.bad cold – nasty. Closing: Practicing medicine doesn‟t lend itself well to the making of friends. every minute. but maybe that‟s the point: All the pain and the fear and the crap. Here‟s the thing about surrender: Once you do it.” Closing: As doctors. It follows us home. as we get older. Maybe we have to get a little messed up.

it‟s here. The roommates you were forced to take in. When we get it right. Working toward it. Those are the days that end up being the biggest. trying to predict the future. It might all be gone tomorrow. and our wildest hopes. 2009 Opening: (Izzie) You never know the biggest day of your life is going to be the biggest. Perfect. when we're dying or have suffered a catastrophic loss. Not until its happening. The day you realize there‟s not enough time… because you want to live forever. planning for the future. 2009 Opening: When something begins. becomes your home. The day you commit to something or someone… The day you get your heart broken. This is it. The ones that start out normal. The day you meet your soul mate. And today was the wedding. We become angry with everyone.) Episode 22: Here’s to the Future May 14. The perfect days. Good Mourning [6. “I‟m sorry” is perfect. not after residency. your life is happening now.1] Meredith: [voiceover] According to Elisabeth Kübler-Ross. It‟s the regular days. Then we bargain. The house you were going to sell. become your family. 2009 Opening: Doctors spend a lot of time focused on the future. angry with ourselves. they‟re never as big as you make them out to be in your head. when our actions say what words never can… when we get it right. you start to realize. you generally have no idea how its going to end. We go into denial because the loss is so unthinkable we can’t imagine it’s true. But one thing is certain: When it finally reveals itself. „Cause this is it. right now. Work towards it. As if figuring it out will somehow cushion the blow. becomes the love of your life. We beg. We plead. The days you think are going to be big ones. and she‟s been talking to him. Closing: We spend our whole lives worrying about the future. You don‟t recognize the biggest day of your life. And the one-night stand you were determined to forget. But the future is always changing. Those are the biggest days. not after med school. Not until you‟re right in the middle of it. look around. we all move through five distinct stages of grief. Planning it. Drink it in. Closing: Did you say it? I love you? I don‟t ever want to live without you. angry with survivors. You changed my life… did you say it? Make a plan. the future is never the way we imagined it.when we mean it. It was beautiful. (Reveal Denny standing by Izzie‟s bed. Episode 23: Now or Never May 14. Blink. . But every now and then. “I‟m sorry” is redemption. Closing: (Izzie) You never know the biggest day of your life is the biggest day. and you‟ll miss it. Episode 21: What a Difference a Day Makes May 7. Set a goal. But at some point. The future is the home of of our deepest fears.

The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime. Meredith: There are five stages of grief. It won’t hurt this much. the very worst part of grief is that you can’t control it. we have a hundred lessons that teach us how to fight off death. We let go. They look different on all of us. You know it but there’s that voice in your head asking. Cristina: And always. You’re ready to close. In life. Lexie: Depression. and not one lesson on how to go on living. Owen: So the best we can do. painful regret. Callie: And let it go when we can. When the bargaining has failed and the anger is too hard to maintain. is try for honesty. somehow. we fall into depression. on definitions.2] Meredith: [voiceover] The dictionary defines grief as keen mental suffering or distress over affliction or loss. Derek: By remembering that one day. you won’t feel this way. It’s loss. we’re taught to learn from and rely on books. sharp sorrow. Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes. has to hurt so bad. impossibly. It’s change. Surgeons play out worst-case scenarios in their heads. the best anyone can do. we offer our souls in exchange for just one more day. you got the bleeder. grief can look like a lot of things that bear little resemblance to sharp sorrow. every time.3] Meredith: [voiceover] Paranoia gives you an edge in the OR. strict definitions rarely apply. Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone. until finally we have to accept that we’ve done everything we can. Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you’re past it. I Always Feel Like Somebody's Watchin' Me [6. it takes your breath away. As surgeons. that’s how you survive. on definitives. Meredith: The really crappy thing. Chief: Acceptance. We let go and move into acceptance. Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes. When it hurts so much you can’t breathe. as scientists. It’s life. Derek: Anger. it starts all over again. But in life. in its own way. but there are always five. Bailey: Bargaining. What if you didn’t? What if the patient dies and you could . Meredith: [voiceover] In medical school.We offer everything we have. Izzie: That’s how you stay alive. [edit]Goodbye [6. Mark: It isn’t just death we have to grieve. despair. Lexie: [voiceover] Grief may be a thing we all have in common. Alex: Denial. but it looks different on everyone.

it only makes things worse. trying to get to what’s actually wrong. doctors have to constantly change their perspective. We pledge allegiance to the flag. to our colleagues. Becomes two. So we just keep running up the tap till we owe everything to everybody and suddenly…what the. It's pointless in the end. Pretty soon the intruder duplicates. the dread and anxiety of not knowing what's coming.have prevented it? So you check your work one more time before you close. to tell the truth and nothing but. because all the worrying and the making of plans for things that could or could not happen. We start by getting the patient’s point of view. Then those two become four. Because the only cure for paranoia is to be here. get burden by commitments. when it takes over? Do you do what you're supposed to and take your medicine? Or do you learn to live with the thing and hope someday it goes away? Or do you just give up entirely and let it kill you? [edit]I Saw What I Saw [6. hoping we’ll see something others might have missed. Then. it starts off with a single infection. But sooner or later. and suddenly we’re drowning in obligations.4] Meredith: [voiceover] We begin life with few obligations. We swear to return our library books. We take one little oath. once the invaders have landed. to medicine itself. We’re asked for second opinions. it’s under attack.6] Meredith: [voiceover] In order to get a good diagnosis. before your body knows it. We run like hell from our promises. Just whatever you do. to do no harm. We rule things out. One lone nasty intruder. And those four become eight. Meredith: [voiceover] The thing about being a surgeon. though they often don’t have a clue what’s going on. once they’ve taken over your body. The question for a doctor is. to love. It’s an invasion. We uncover new information. . to cherish till death do us part. So we do what any sane person would do. And sometimes you find the obligation you dread the most isn’t worth running from at all. Paranoia is a surgeon’s best friend. how the hell do you get rid of them? Meredith: [voiceover] What do you do when the infection hits you.5] Meredith : [voiceover] When you get sick. But as we get older we take vows. [edit]Invasion [6. [edit]Tainted Obligation [6. Meredith: [voiceover] We're all susceptible to it. make promises. For the patient. just as you are. everybody wants a piece of you. To our patients. hoping they’ll be forgotten. stop worrying. So walk your dog or take a nap. So we look at the patient from every possible angle. they always catch up.

in a stranger’s act of kindness. For that moment. Gone before we knew it was there. it can mean picking that you’re picking a fight with everyone who got there before you. For me it was different. It has to be in order for us to stay alert. the rush. When you stand in the OR. anticipate complications. Meredith: [voiceover] When we're headed toward an outcome that's too horrible to face. your patient open on the table. maybe it was because I grew up in a house with four sisters. that's when we go looking for a second opinion. Your fingers go numb. [edit]Give Peace A Chance [6. Derek: [voiceover] Ask most surgeons why they became surgeons and they usually tell you the same thing. all the worry that it brings disappears. time passing without thought. . And sometimes. Responsible for whether or not that child survives.7] Derek: [voiceover] Ask most surgeons why they became surgeons and they usually tell you the same thing. For the doctor.8] Meredith: [voiceover] It’s impossible to describe the panic that comes over you when you’re a surgeon and your pager goes off in the middle of the night. you’re responsible. we’re always investing in our patients. it can shed new light on the problem. The operating room is a quiet place. Fleeting. the answer we get just confirms our worst fears. Your heart starts to race. After all the opinions have been heard and every point of view has been considered.the truth. you finally find what you're after . [edit]Invest in Love [6. It exists in moments. you’re not just invested. all the worlds noise. We can experience it at any time. No. But when your patient’s a child. the thrill of the cut. someone’s dad. Your mind freezes. There’s someone’s mom. It was for the high. has a future.a fresh perspective can mean the difference between living and dying. a task that requires complete focus or simply the comfort of an old routine. the thrill that comes from cutting someone open and saving their life. The trick is to know when they’re happening so that we can embrace them. And now it’s on you because that someone’s life is in your hands. make you see it in a whole new way. The high. And finally let them go. But sometimes. Peaceful. But the truth isn't where it ends. You’re invested. the rush. someone’s kid. live in them. A calm settles over you. Everyday we all experience these moments of peace. For me it was the quiet. And that’s enough to terrify anyone. you feel completely at peace. Peace isn’t a permanent state. Surgeons. definitely because I grew up in a house with four sisters because it was the quiet that drew me to surgery. that's just where you begin again with a whole new set of questions.

the payoff might just surprise you. [edit]Holidaze [6. [edit]New History [6. if you invest wisely. Cut them open. try something else. and cut big. Meredith: [voiceover] In surgery. those who forget the past are doomed to repeat it. you wait. But if you’re like most people I know.13] Derek: [voiceover] We ask a lot of our patients. . But you have to be willing to take a chance. But as hard as we try to move forward. the tearing of flesh. that’s when you stop. My point is sometimes the best gifts come in really surprising packages. State Of Love And Trust [6. You risk exposure for the sake of healing. and then you give some more. We all have the opportunity to give. maybe the gift is to try and make a simple apology. your incisions small. You have to understand. Every time. Number two rule of surgery is when rule number one stops working. Meredith: [voiceover] Everyday we get to give the gift of life. but in the end it’s worth it.12] Meredith: [voiceover] Number one rule of surgery is limit exposure. and then I tried to use it to stitch up my fingers. But if you take that chance. it can be terrifying. and when it's over. maybe it’s to hold a secret for a friend. Because sometimes you can't limit exposure. Meredith: [voiceover] Sometimes the past is something you just can't let go of. It put me on the path to becoming a surgeon. the past always comes back to bite us in the ass.Meredith: [voiceover] They say the bigger your investment. That you haven't in fact. and your wounds covered.9] Meredith: [voiceover] Doctors live in a world of constant progress and forward motion. it can be painful. when the giving starts to feel more like a burden. once the incision has been closed. And sometimes the past is something we'll do anything to forget. And sometimes we learn something new about the past that changes everything we know about the present. so when the joy is gone. you give till it hurts. We put them to sleep. It feels cruel and against common sense.10] Meredith: [voiceover] The best gift I ever got was for Christmas when I was ten – my very first suture kit. Keep your hands clean. an incision. I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked [6. maybe it’s to understand another person’s point of view. Poke around in their brain and guts with sharp instruments. The joy supposedly is in the giving. Irony is. you might lose it all. Maybe the gifts are not as dramatic as what happens in the operating room. sometimes the injury is so bad you have to cut. the bigger your return. You wait and hope that your patient will heal. just made everything worse. the healing process begins with a cut. I used it until my fingers bled. And as history shows us again and again. but it works. We have to damage the healthy flesh in order to expose the unhealthy. We ask for their blind trust. and you'll be left behind. as tempting as it is to never look back. Stand still for a second.

not undo it. carbonized stainless steel. we adapt. They survive with their sanity intact. everyone has a clean slate. What they don’t know is that living on that high can eat them alive. and we make the most of them. Derek: [voiceover] Hi. you leave the classroom and step into the O. Scared the hell out of myself. Which is why I felt it was important to personally come in here and apologize. a team of others. which was pretty much a sharp stick. . It can be a painful process. Until one day. But I feel like we got off on the wrong foot this morning. There's constant pressure to adapt to changes. But I hurt people. I don't expect to win your trust overnight.R. So we change. This is a vast improvement over the first scalpel. [edit]Valentine's Day Massacre [6. I am neither pro nor anti merger. and there's no time for looking back.trust is hard for surgeons. But without it. From this point on. I didn’t. It comes before food. which is why I'm both humbled and honored to be your new Chief of Surgery. because we're trained from day one that we can't trust anyone but ourselves. We have to constantly come up with new ways to fix ourselves. and you're all anxious to get home. I am 45 days sober today.14] Meredith: [voiceover] The surgical scalpel is made of sterilized. the only thing. I'm looking to the future to all the promise this hospital has to offer. that means surgeons have to keep reinventing themselves too. Medicine is constantly reinventing itself. I broke it. The only instincts you can count on are your own. I plan to honor Richard Webber and his legacy. I am not focused on the past. It becomes the most important thing. I am Richard and I am a grateful and recovering alcoholic. sometimes they happen by accident. They become better doctors and stronger people. before sleep.15] Chief: [voiceover] I’ve seen a lot of surgery residents come and go in my time and they’re all addicted to surgery. We just need to be sure that this one is an improvement over the last. we create new versions of ourselves. You're surrounded by others. Some make it through they come out on the other side. [edit]The Time Warp [6. The only skills you can count on are your own. I didn’t kill anybody and I give thanks for that every day. But I want each of you to know you have mine. you'll find yourself moving backwards instead of forwards. I know it's been a long day. Sometimes the changes are forced on us. A team that you have to rely on whether you trust them or not. Meredith: [voiceover] We have to keep reinventing ourselves almost every minute because the world can change in an instant.

We don’t sit still. the plan we also know that some of the greatest medical discoveries have happened by accident. .16] Meredith: [voiceover] Surgeons are detail-oriented. sexual orientation. My colleagues will be my sisters and brothers. social standing or any other fact to intervene between my duty and my patient. All of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be and its nice. ethnic origin. Meredith: [voiceover] No matter how many plans we make or steps we follow. preparing for them. disease or disability. I will respect the secrets that are confided in me. I will not use my medical knowledge to violate human rights and civil liberties. We like statistics and checklists and operating procedures. of course. Mold: Penicilin. the people we never expected to show up. we get a new game. even after my patient has died. freely and upon my honor. residents. I will give to my teachers the respect and gratitude that is their due. gender. [edit]Push [6. or it takes some getting used to. relax and wait for happy accident. impotence be damned. Whatever the game is. Poisonous tree bark: a cure for Malaria. even under threat. a little blue pill for high blood pressure. And once we win. Sometimes we just have to sit back. We’d prefer to know. and hoping that whatever accidents come your way will be happy ones. interns nurses in the auditorium.Chief: [voiceover] : [While he's speaking to attendings. the honor and the noble traditions of the medical profession.17] Meredith: [voiceover] Surgeons aren’t complacent people. The health of my patients will be my number one consideration. Still. It’s hard for us to accept that it’s not always the hard work or attention to detail that will get us the answers we are looking for. Our patients live because we enjoy following the steps but as much as we love to always rely on the numbers. going over your plans. political affiliation. maybe you’ll find yourself apprec iating it somewhere down the line. I will maintain the utmost respect for human life.] I solemnly pledge to consecrate my life to the service of humanity. It’s the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting parts of our day. I will practice my profession with conscience and dignity. We don’t put our feet up. we never know how our day is going to end up. I make these promises solemnly. a turn of events we never would have chose for ourselves. creed. I will not permit considerations of age. what curveballs will be thrown our way. nationality. (Based on the Physician's Oath of 1968) [edit]Perfect Little Accident [6. I will maintain by all the means in my power. race. So you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow. we like to win.

That’s what keeps us climbing.to be happy. Sometimes reality can get in the way of our ability to act the happy part though. it's been there all along. If you’re a climber there’s always another mountain. and see glasses as half full. It’s worth anything. That every relationship that we have is really just another version of that first relationship. drop the act. [edit]Shiny Happy People [6. Nobody takes pictures of that. and be your true scared unhappy self. Some people are naturals. ecstatic. Maybe it's this expectation though of wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. The breathtaking moment at the edge of the world. Nobody wants to remember. attending. . Not in our dreams or our hopes but in the known. and put on a happy face. to make lemonade. be cheerful. It doesn’t matter how much we achieve. As children we are told to smile. As adults we are told to look on the bright side.trying to be the happy people we wish we were. We push ourselves because we have to. but the only way to find out what kind of parent you'd be is to finally stop talking about it and just do it. That’s the crazy part. are the direct result of our relationship to our parents. triumphant. [edit]Sympathy for the Parents [6.22] It's a common belief that positive thinking leads to a happier healthier life. Some have other gifts. You can waste your whole life wondering. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to states of bliss. They were born to do it. friends can disappoint. We just wanna remember the view from the top. the comfortable.We push ourselves. The relentless climb. But the good news is biology dictates you don't have to do it alone. And it’s worth the pain. all our thought processes & behavior patterns. the pain and anguish of taking it to the next level. not because we like it. the familiar.19] Meredith: [voiceover] Psychologists believe that every aspect of our lives. Meredith: [voiceover] They take pictures of mountain climbers at the top of a mountain. Meredith: [voiceover] It's the most important job in the world. They don’t take pictures along the way cos who wants to remember the rest of it. Your health can fail. Until it eventually hits us. Ask most people what they want out of life and the answer is simple . residents. Instead we just keep smiling . You probably should need a license to do it. boyfriends can cheat. It's in these moments. They’re smiling. the more confused we get to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. It's just us trying over & over again to get it right. but then most of us wouldn't even pass the written exam. when you just want to get real.

And then there are the choices that matter. The human life is made up of choices. Live or die. Live or die. To live. To fight or to give in. Fight or give in. In or out. Live or die. In or out. I’ll say it again to make sure you hear me. Or die.Death And All His Friends [6. To be a hero or to be a coward.24] The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. And it’s not always in our hands. Up or down. Up or down. And it’s not always in our hands Yes or no. Love or hate. Hero or coward. . That’s the important choice. That’s the most important choice.