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Contents

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Introductory article Page 2

Title Page 3
Ego vs. Conscious Page 3
Parts: 1 (pg.4) 2 (pg.5) 3-6 (pg.6) 7-10 (pg.7) 11-13
(pg.8) 14-15 (pg.9) 16 (pg.10) 17-19
A single sentence is ego expressed Page 10
Parts: 1 (pg.11) 2-6 (pg.12) 6a-7
Ones complexity Page 12
Parts: 1 (pg13) 2-5
Time is not endless Page 13
Parts: 1 (pg.14) 2-4 (pg.15) 5-8 (pg.16) 8a-10
Poem Page 16
On thinking of the future Page 17
Parts: 1-3 (pg.18) 4-6
Religion Re-evolution: Reiteration Page 19
Parts: 1-2 (pg.20) 2a-6 (pg.21) 7-9.b (pg.22) 10-13
(pg.23) 14-18
One and None Page 24
Parts: 1-3 (pg.25) 4-7 (pg.26) 8-12 (pg.27)
No thing is new. Nothing is newness Page 27
Parts: 1-2 (pg.28) 3-4 (pg29) 5-8 (pg30) 9-12
(pg.31) 13-16 (pg.32) 17-19 (pg.33) 20-21
*Density Determines Development Page 33
Parts: 1-2 (pg.34) 3-5.b (pg.35) 5c-7 (pg.36) 8-10
(pg.37) 11-15 (pg.38) 16-18
Discovering Forgetfulness Page 38
Parts: (pg.39) 1-5
…just saying, “I love you”… Page 40
Parts: 1-2 (pg.41) 3-6 (End) 0
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Introductory Article Every piece is original,
and because truth is truth,
Whenever bonds of some may see similarities in
ignorance cover both eye and what I say with philosophies,
ear of public majority, the religions, or whatever else. I
inquisitive nature will leave cannot stress this enough
their hearts for blind and deaf though: what I profess is not
acceptance of comfort; the philosophy or religion, but
will to ignore is such that any rather, observation. A
voice countering convention philosopher thinks about
is rendered, in the mind, things, it is a mind approach;
equal to a psychopath my approach is the very
preaching murder, when truly opposite of philosophizing; it
he preaches love. The is not thinking about things,
digression from truth has but seeing with a clarity that
gotten now so dire; the truth comes when one puts their
tellers are sequestered mind aside.
beyond notice, and the
propagandists herd the mass- With all that said, I do not
mind farther from its needs, claim to know everything,
and closer to their desires. but I do not believe that those
During such times, a institutions, which have been
comparative few ponder the followed for so long, have
totality of this diseased that claim either. I do believe
structure, seeking to prune however, that because these
the rotten branches and bring ideas are out of the box, out
vitality back to the lifeblood. of the realm of mind, and
Such a few are usually therefore not biased
doubted by many, accepted whatsoever, that the wisdoms
by few, and understood by herein are to be taken
yet fewer. Still though, they seriously.
stand beside the flow of Some of the language is
reigned impetus to be called a poetic in nature, and some
mad man by the many they scientific; I have left it to the
struggle to liberate. reader to interpret when those
I wrote the following out instances occur, but it is
of necessity and coincidence, important to know that some
not from the start intending to phrases have more than one
issue such a lengthy meaning. I would suggest
introspection. However, reading each item more than
eventually the volume of once for clarity. This is to be read
information that fell from my many times over ones life; live
mind and onto the page and with time you will come to
compelled me to draw out realize, if you have not already,
more, until most, if not every the realities behind the words.
piece, was exposed.
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The Content of this Consciousness:

Wisdoms

by Matthew P. Holbert

Each stanza stands on its own, like a
separate quote, but –like people— it
sometimes goes in a vein of generally similar
ideas. I hope this content helps to liberate the
many from ego focus, and the few from
overzealous pursuits, to find “a season in
your self” and a festive heart for life’s
moment. Dedicated to those on the search
for truth.

“The foundation of all mental illness is the avoidance of
legitimate suffering.”
Carl Jung

*I propose that the ultimate cause of the world’s problems
is mental superficiality caused by ego focus, rather than a
sensible degree of conscious-attention to reality, similarly
to Carl Jung’s statement.

Ego vs. Conscious

1. The ego, in the conventional sense, is a word meaning
either self-love (egocentric), or a superficial layer to the
Freudian mind. To me however, these interpretations miss
the nature of the word ego, which really means I. What is
ego if not a character and self concept? I is the history of
ones life, compounded in the present moment as a
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character. If one explores their existence, they see these as
one: life is the history, the moment, and I.

Every incoming stimulus, turned into information, derived
from culture, experiences, perceptions, impressions,
emotions, and thoughts, collectively aggregate and are
represented by words like I, me, mind, self, self concept, or
ego (and it is from this aggregate that we derive notions
like intelligence and personality). The self-concept that we
wrongly consider to be personality itself is organized, and
made clear by the moment and the memory in tandem to
create what we call “right now”. Constantly reminded, and
remembering these pieces of perception, one is in a
perpetual state of ego. When ones mind is ignored
however, forgotten, there is an opening of something else.

Consciousness is that something else which flowers in a
state of mindlessness. When one rests those thoughts aside,
which are so endlessly derived and compiled, ones mind is
at peace. For mind is a constant struggle to the top where
there is no top; one cannot know all, but with awareness,
one can observe the mountain, and one can also leave that
mountain and go elsewhere. We can do this in the wakeful
state by ignoring perception.

When I have observed the mountain of perceptions, and I
have gone elsewhere and learned the order of the world
around me, I am at peace. When I have come to accept that
no matter where I go, and far I get from myself, I still exist
somewhere, I am at peace. Only when I die will the
mountain leave me, or I will leave the realm of mountains.

2. My mind creates this world around me; it forms stimuli
into intelligence so that I can recognize familiar objects and
symbols. My mind is also created by the
culture/environment. My self-concept therefore is a
relationship between my mind creating my world, and my
culture/environment creating my mind. In actuality, an
independent thought cannot come about unless it is derived
from awareness or pure consciousness, outside of exterior
influences.

You are the world, and the world is you; change you,
change the world. Disassociate from the events of ego and
realize the big picture of consciousness!
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3. Consciousness and mind coexist. Like a song, the silence
between the notes is consciousness, and like the wax and
wane of a tide, conscious awareness will come in and out,
but will not constantly flow like a river. Clarity of thought
is thus derived: from a relatively constant state of mindless
awareness, or the existence No-one made aware.

4. Consciousness and ego are elements, two currents
influencing each other. When one is focused upon, the
other dies down, when the two of them are attended to
equally, the whole river thrives.

4.a) Instead of letting a mind-state dictate the course of
thought, one lets consciousness observe, and from that
observation, thought turns unified and dynamic, suddenly
aware of the big picture. With less and less limitation, this
process can lead to spontaneous creative thinking, derived
from the source of personality rather than the content of the
mind. (I’ve made songs this way; never making the effort
to memorize one, I eventually made styles of my own.)

5. The mind is a superficial layer to the personality.
Personality is the essence of being a person. Our
personality is layered, like an egg there is a protective shell
made by the persona, reinforced by the thin film called ego.
However, the vast majority of our personality is in the
fragile sub and unconscious. Like an open wound in the
core (which is the true self (pure consciousness), the yoke
of personality) these repressed, forgotten, or habitually
ignored aspects of our selves are what make our actions
sadistic, our desires perverting, and our thoughts
superficial. It is when we accept, and choose active
awareness of these aspects, that we can unify them, and
with that, abate our perversions.

*6. Without ego there is no personality as such. When one
is without ego, one is out of harmony—as a human—with
the duality of physical/finite vs. metaphysical reality.
Consciousness is a link, a touchstone to experience; Ego is
the experience. We are the world, and the world is us. One
should not strive to get rid of their ego and go into the
mountains, seeking clarity and pure consciousness, unless
they have chosen this path of their own desire; that is a
journey to behold, as is the opposite: a life junky. Both are
necessary poles, which should be respected, but not
idealized. The ideal is to be in harmony with both ends: to
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be intelligent and clear minded, conscious and carefree. To
strengthen your mind with content and informations, and at
the same time to have deep awareness at any moment. Too
often we become one sided, but it is when harmony is
achieved that we actualize the beauty of life’s potential.
This is what the old sages called “the trinity”.
Understanding duality is fine, but to have the third
component (harmony) is to be one with what I call “gods”
will.

7. (Perhaps an opinion, you decide.) Consciousness is the
essence of pure love. (“Love” is conventionally used in the
sense of mutual partnership and reciprocation of affections
towards another person; actions of passion and pleasure are
the common concept of love. However the love of
consciousness is like the love of a mother for twin children;
the love of consciousness is the perspective of god (absent
humanity), where everything is equal and good in
opposition. Evil does not exist unless it exists in you.
Beauty does not exist, unless it exists in you. Both poles
help to measure each other; degrees of severity are
necessary for comparative beauty, and difficulty. If all
where the same, there would be nothing delightful. When
there is no more beauty, there is complete ego.) [This is not
to say that evil men do not exist, but they exist because we
can recognize it in them. If we despise evil, we have love;
if we praise it, we are evil.]

*8. Self-consciousness, as conventionally conceived, is ego
reflection, and the cause of inhibition. Patrick is worried
about what they think of Patrick. In a state of true
consciousness, one has no such worry, and is only aware of
such a perspective.

9. Consciousness and reality cannot be built in the mind;
they can only be made more aware of; I believe this to be
the act of no action that the ancient sages spoke of.

10. In order to keep self-continuity, the mind protects itself
from penetration. This is the cause of superficiality. The so-
called “soul” of western religion is another example of this
self-continuity. The soul of most religions is depicted as
you, I, the mind, with a new body; a comforting and
wonderful idea, but one which ensures the continuity of ego
beyond death. Ego is made of perceptions, accumulated
stimulus, and derives from the elements of a physical
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realm. When we say that the ego is the soul, we are saying
that mind is god, and therefore that we are god. Only when
we say that “god” is endless do we admit that “I” will be
left behind when this body dies, and that the true self will
continue forever. It is only hard to deal with because we are
so attached to our selves, but just like trinkets and money,
we cannot take with us physical things when we die. Our
thoughts and mind are of that physical realm. But don’t
worry, the finite brain hinders consciousness, so when you
die, the conscious awareness is returned to a relative
infinity.

11. When I state that I am angry, the phrase means exactly
what it says: anger dose not derive from that which is
perceived as angering, but rather derives from the self, the
mind; from ego anger swells, not from they, or you, or it
that I say I’m angry at. Anger does not come from the
external perceptions; it dwells in you, it cannot be acquired.
Mindfulness is the origin of anger; consciousness is not an
automatic cure to this inner daemon, but it can be a damper
on the flames.

12. When the mind is empty and everything has equal
adoration; there must be pure consciousness. When the fear
of death ends, and sorrow becomes a measure of beauty;
truth and god must be. This is when true love can begin, but
only if the one aware is able to see himself as he would a
flower: a finite thing, in fact dead to the whole world, and
yet full of vibrant life, in joyous and perfectly fleeting
beauty. Such beauty is most high. Such beauty is “gods”
grace embodied.

13. The ego, in all of its apparatus, is like a wall of stimulus
to which I have been suited; arms thrust into its murky
essence, body stretched down into its depths, thoughts
emanating like ripples behind and from it. The relationship
of ego and consciousness therefore, is like two mirrors
whose nature is to reflect each other—consciousness being
the observer of ego and reality, and ego being the
participating force that allows life and awareness to exist,
and generates the desire for the continuity of that pairing.

Your sense of presence is a reflection of this relationship.
Every moment that you are alive, every coherent moment
that you spend behaving, acting, and reacting to stimulus,
you are in a state of ego-participation—it’s like watching
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TV or playing a videogame: you are interacting with a
system of stimulus. However, when the mirrors are able to
face, and reflect upon each other rather than have a person,
a body, a concern in between them, infinity and the rest of
reality can be realized. This is called ego-observation. One
can be in both states at the same time, but it is difficult.

14. When one is blacked out drunk, they are “unconscious”,
but still, their character interacts with their surroundings.
Consciousness therefore, is separate from ego, and derived
from the energy-flow of the brain (as alcohol chemically
blocks the firing of synapses, hens the drunken stupor).
Further, when an infant is born, an observer does not exist,
i.e. memories are not yet recorded; it can be argued that this
is due to the lack of synaptic connections, and its size of the
brain, and therefore the energy-flow here too. Also, the
lower the brainwave hertz, the closer we come to the
“unconscious” state and higher at the state dreams, which
are recorded. I would argue that because ego is not being
inhibited and awareness is, that consciousness is both a
higher function than the mind, and that perception is not
consciousness. Reality is perceived, perception is observed.

Another aspect of this, which should clarify the point, is
that animals are not conscious; they are functionally
intelligent. Intelligence is a characteristic of the body
(including the brain), and the “mind” is a kind of software,
which unifies that system. Life seems to have evolved in
degrees of complexity, such that a tree has intelligence
only, an animal has intelligence and mind, and a human has
intelligence and mind and consciousness. This is why the
human animal has no instinct, as consciousness confuses
life from reality. The ego is an apparatus of the body; but
consciousness, due to its singular and remote nature, as
well as its ability to cultivate ego into a person or character,
and principally for its ability to scan the ego as a passive
observer, consciousness is likely an exterior phenomena, a
noun, somehow internalized by processes of the body and
mind. In this way, reality, through us, has gotten farther and
farther from singularity (for an aspect of reality’s nature is
to complicate and become complex) by becoming more and
more vividly perceived. And to be marveled at, I wonder?

15. Because of my experiences, there is an emotional
distraction. There are rarely intentionally malicious people,
there are only the neglectfully ignorant; I have previously
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been distracted by my own impressions, and so thought
whatever of whomever.

However, there are no ugly people, but in my heart, there
are people worth spending time with, if only in truth. For
there is neutrality in us all—and yet the sway of
aggravation, that varying emotions, created by moment-to-
moment impressions and experiences, brings. The
neutrality that I speak of is our personal trials and
tribulations. No one is intentionally malicious; they’re
always in an agitated spin. A person is to be pitied, not
punished, for their evils.

16. In reality, there is no direct interference or interaction
between consciousness and ego. I can only learn from the
conscious state; I can only be influenced by the state of
consciousness and metacognition; consciousness cannot
have control over the behaviors of the physical ego, it is a
passive observer. Ego and consciousness are too vastly
incongruent to be unified in the current body system (one
being of the tangible, molecular and atomic state of reality,
and the other being of the quantum, metaphysical [meta for
behind] reality). They can however be complementing
forces, if used in tandem—the yin yang symbol comes to
mind.

“I” is not important when death comes. I, ego, is not
important in death, but I is very important in life. Life is the
time of the physical, in the existence of existence. After
life, I will not exist in its divisive form. I will be They.
Unified, the supreme consciousness is aware of reality
through the experiences of all beings. And this so, my
contention is: what kind of unified consciousness are we
proliferating? This is my primary concern: if we are
heading for an ultimate failure, or are to be a cog in the
wheel of reality by our actions. Consciousness is the spirit,
the soul. Consciousness is truthful and loving and waking.

Life is, by its apparent nature (absent humanity’s bias), a
time to rejoice in festive communion, and a time to
experience complete silence; these things cannot be felt if
we do not. And further, using creativity, and understanding
the nature of our collective future, by observing the patterns
and even principals of WHAT IS (!) we shall progress into
a process of ever-greater standards of life experience.
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17. I is experience. Experience is gods’ reflection; we are
the mirrors to reality—whatever is inside of us is important,
if only to existence—for there to be an ear for the falling
tree in the forest to be heard and appreciated. It is the fact
that our constructed minds are made of pictured events,
scenes, and stages—and that our bodies are all three of
those—which makes me think that reality is intelligent (and
I say it is more fundamental than a germ, and therefore less
complex, but perhaps has an infinite roll in affecting
change; which makes more sense: there being a personality
before us, which it took nature perhaps an infinite amount
of time to produce, or that god is a pattern?

18. The mind paid attention to as an event, as well as the
body—in the present moment—is both an experience and
an awareness which goes beyond the parameters of the self,
the persona, and the ‘I’ as now-experience, for the man in
prison cannot see his cell from the outside unless he
escapes it.

19. The Egyptian sarcophagus seems to make this message
clear; a dead body rests behind a golden surface of ornate
and beautiful matter—what was in him is shown on the
outside as a beautiful gold façade; the soul rises from
darkness to inhabit this shell of enlightened ego. When I
look in the mirror, the irony that I am a mirror looking into
a mirror is not lost, if only my eyes could see beyond that
face between the mirror and the truth.

A single sentence is ego expressed.

1. Our language has been structured by ego, but originates
in consciousness. Consciousness is the witness to
experience; ego is the experience itself, and the
consequential intelligence developed, and stored in the
brain. Therefore, whatever our collective state of awareness
determines the words and structure we use in language.
When one speaks in first person (I am), they are talking
from the perspective of ego; when one speaks in third
person (I is), they are speaking in the perspective of
consciousness. However, it is not necessary to speak in
such a way, it is only necessary to realize, and perceive this
difference in practice.

Our sentences are egoic expressions of naming-states. I –
feel-hungry means: I am (the state of) feeling-hungry. The
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name “feeling-hungry” is derived from the stimulus
expressed as the moment in simple terms: the name is
“now”. That moment that is expressed, due to an observer
and intelligence, is my present state of being; therefore it is
me that is expressed. Language hence, is a mechanism of
the mind, not consciousness; one can experience events
without language to describe them. Our ability to use
language effectively is a function of consciousness and
mind together. Consciousness is viewing or reading the
mind, and the mind is thinking or speaking the words.

2. Not unlike the language system of the Original
Americans, these name states are expressions of self, like a
sentence is made of consecutive snapshots of the moment. I
am lightningbear is not unlike the sentence, “I am awake.”
Names are a general expression of experience; sentences
are fragments, a layer of the building ego. Sentences like
“wow!” are the same in that way.

3. Words, think on that structure; languages too, observe
them, think of their application in relation to ones state of
being.

4. I have never been should be: I has never been. Third
person is the correct tense because “I” is a physical, finite
entity stored in the brain, which is separate from
consciousness. Sentences should reflect awareness. My-
sentences should show You-minds the nature of such
structure.

5. Yet another way of looking at language is: I feel means I
feels. When one is conscious, and observing the ego and
language, one may see that I (ego) is an avatar, a separate
being, an object in the sentence, observed by a peripheral
perspective. I feel good makes less syntactical sense
therefore, than I feels good, or I is feeling good. Ego, in this
sense, is not the expresser. Rather, ego is being observed.
The words are spoken from the different perspective,
because the experiences are instead seen from the
unrealized consciousness; the realization of Oneness comes
from the conscious-perspective.

6. When one speaks in the egocentric perspective, one
innately sounds barbaric, as one should.
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6.a) Life, in the moment-to-moment, is a conversation, a
structure, a scene.

6.b) Laughter, true laughter, comes from the Observer of
Oneness.

7. Impressions are more actual than the words that attempt
to describe them. Symbols are structural, and that structure
is made by the mind, not consciousness. My impressions of
the physical world—which is equally structural—are more
real than the so-called objective, or superficial experience:
so, the deeper the realer. Think of this when in conversation
with someone—obviously—sexually interested in you but
doesn’t want to say it upfront; what is more true, the
conversation, or your impressions and your unstructured
observations of what is going on? Here, objective reality is
the failure, because someone observing from afar doesn’t
perceive the truth that the one experiencing does.

Ones Complexity

1. My body is made of cells, my experiences are made of
moments, and both are ever changing; the society is made
of people, and the culture is made of many societies, and
both are ever changing; entire nations make up the world,
and continents too, everything is ever changing, and our
solar system is made of planets and a star, and the galaxy is
made of all those stars and invisible planets, and the known
universe is made of those galaxies, and who knows what’s
outside of this spherical galaxy system that we call the
universe. When we realize the nature and the patterns of
reality, we can begin to go with the will of that evident
pattern. Make technology based off of the most efficient
thing we can think of—the human body, or the cell. Make
technology that is similar to nature. View the world, and
our selves, our government, technology, everything, as we
would cells, because that is the most fundamental form of
life. Every One builds up to a greater, more complex One,
and everyone must see that; that we have been
unconsciously developing our world in this way already.
Don’t cars seem like cells driving down the road, and
doesn’t the road look like a vein? Look at a map; you will
quickly notice that it seems more like anatomy than the
surface of a planet. Think in terms of world as a body and
we will advance beyond all previous ventures.
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2. The human body, as well as all things in nature, has a
layered body. Ones metaphysical being is layered equally
complex as the physical body, but perceived as much less
simple, and the effects of spiritual incongruence are felt
much less than hunger, sadness, or addiction, or even
deformity. The effects are in the concept, and the manifest
ambiance of created situations. The mind is a structure
much like the human body: you use it and appreciate it, or
you ignore it and perish. This is why I call the mind-body a
fruit of possible creativity, like a sugar of rich minds, tasted
by the gods. The individual must be thought of in such
terms, and cultivated with as much verve as a prize-
winning pumpkin.

3. All things are iterations of the fundamental and ultimate:
properties of the germ are in a human, but in a much more
complex way, and therefore different looking. If there is
one, there are many… eventually. In a different way, a sun
looks like an atom. Also, when anything with intelligence
and any degree of complexity (greater than or equal to an
invertebrate, like ants) can grow without inhibition, it will
eventually create to suit its survival. And then, spread.

4. We do create our moments. From our personality all
things are derived. The cultures, and all other directing
systems, are like a gully to which the souls of people, like
droplets of rain on a leaf, flow into the emptiness.

5. Simplification is when you try and turn the complex into
a stereotype, or a label: Scorpio, American, Catholic,
Witch, Satanist, freemason, enlightened, Patrick, George,
Teacher, and Woman versus Man, and from that stereotype,
you limit the potential, and true complexity of any thing,
person, etc. These are all terms to try to define things, so
that we can more easily say we understand them when we
really don’t, instead we should try to sit with WHAT IS,
and not simplify. My question is, do we not all exist in this
place? There will always be greed and sorrow, the beauty
of intelligence is the ability to prune the rotten branches,
and to do it enough to secure a prime amount of nutrient,
letting all wastes like fall leaves become compost for new
generations to grow out of. This act of simplification must
end; the true complexity of the world must be appreciated.

Time is not endless
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1. There is only one moment; its events are infinitely
unfolding, increasing at every passing second—meaning
that they were somehow compressed before. This moment
was never smaller, but less beauty was exposed in the
physical form, yet still this flower blooms. I think we tend
to see time as the events alone; in this sense, we view
objects as a means of measurement to time. But we forget
that the place of events in time is change. I am the
measurement to my own happiness; time is the breadth of
that beauty, and that beauty is the measurement of this
moment’s grandeur. Somehow compressed, potential
beauty was enfolded infinitely from the start of time, and
now waits in vain for its fullest blossoming.

2. The fact that there is a progression to time proves that
time is not endless; you can’t approach the neverending;
infinity=zero. Time is more like a dot, expanding on a
plane that is infinite; but that dot may as well not be
growing, because the plane that its on is growing too.
Stagnant, this explains what we call “now”, that moment,
ever unfolding; matter changes, but not the moment; the
only proof that a past exists is the memories that we
experience in the present. What did it feel like to be four?
Like now? My memories of a past are an illusion, because
they take place in the now, the one moment, and from that
one moment, and from the reality of that one moment, the
opportunity for complete change is present. Without a past,
what is keeping you from enlightenment?

3. Enlightenment does not mean to be illuminated, but
rather, to have weight taken off of you. You will be
enlightened of burden, self. You are giving yourself relief
from the constraints of the illusions and lies of a humanly
contrived life. Your past is a weight, frivolous and
mechanistic. Your past is what keeps you in the realm of
the dead, like a relative “passes”, so too memories pass. If
you are your memories, you are a coffin, and your life is a
grave to your self. You is the content of your
consciousness.

4. The old ways time has ended. The new beginning is, at
all-times, within possibility; all moments are this way too,
through the beautiful power of the brain. The ways of the
world have been previously egocentric, and through
enlightenment, we have the chance to change the world’s
problems; by renouncing the mind we can understand the
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conscious, and through consciousness we have unification;
in this way we become the spiritually holy, and bring the
world into a new way.

5. The old question has been for too long: “How can we
have security?” We are not ready to solve the world’s
problems because of this mindset. The old question is
inherently breaking the possibility of to-morrows
prosperity. Change is required to make this world into a
heaven; there must be complete paradigm shifts soon,
because the world’s way is opposing the right. Security is
not what we need, we need change; we need the opposite of
security in order for us to get what we really want, which is
high standards of living for as many people as possible. But
if the fear of instability is too strong, the world’s way will
soon rise to be hellish and enslaving forever. A side effect
of change is instability. So the fear must die in us all,
change must come. The fear of evolution, the fear of
complete change, the fear of death, and the fear of
instability must end and end forever. Only out of
instability, only in a state of constant change will paradise
be possible.

6. Throughout my life, I have had conflicting ideations;
these are: there is a meaning to every moment, or there is
no meaning to existence. With either idea, there are
inherent implications; I will go through them
consecutively: if there is meaning to every moment, I am
either worthy or unworthy of life, or whatever I do is
sacred, and if there is no meaning to anything then there is
no need to ponder my actions, no need to understand my
world—no need, but still a compulsion perhaps.

7. My understanding thus far is that all actions are equal
opposites: everything is its own, variety is complex, and
complexity is an aspect of infinity. So everything that I do
is influencing the further complication of the material
universe, thus increasing the duality between infinite
nothing and infinite something.

8. To be in tune is to appreciate life. Simply, there is no life
without ego, just as there is no life without consciousness.
Personality is a flower to be cultivated, nurtured, and
grown into sweet ripeness, with carelessness and
determination. Education, learning, these are the nutrients
of the minds growth. Ones brain must be the strongest
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organ. Diet would greatly contribute to this. Utilizing
natural foods only makes the body strong; this is vital.

8.a) Furthermore, starting education at the youngest age
possible would increase the productivity, creativity, and
overall intelligence of the human brain. Along with the age
factor, children educated by child psychologists (professors
of multiple fields: math, science/physics, psychology,
sociology, fitness/diet etc.) would be by far more benefited
and more intelligent in life. Thus capable of teaching
youngsters in ways that are effective, educators should
teach the same children for multiple years, building a
relationship and learning strategies that the children can get
used to. Get the smartest people to teach your youngsters,
focus on early education, because that is when their minds
are most open. Then, simply supply them with free
information once they have the inherent desire to learn.
Once learning stops being a bore, and is not an obligation,
the mind is more inclined to study—what they have the
desire to study and—vigorously.

9. There is no one true perspective, except for the one from
the bottom up. If both the culmination at the bottom and the
power of the top were to work in harmony, the whole
pyramid would be glorified.

10. [theory] Due to the amount of entertainment, something
has happened to the collective mind or world ego. In the
past years of my life, people in the limelight have been
cheered as gods, and gods they are in this generation.
Generation YX had its heydays in the early nineties into
early two thousand, but generation YP began when the Y2k
debate began. Generation YP started with ridiculous fear,
continued with fear with the attacks on the WTC’s, and
continues with ridiculousness. Its egocentric focus being so
intense, and that focus being primarily upon entertainments
and entertainers, that perversion is the result without fail.

Isn’t it funny how our bodies know—with such intelligence
—what to do, and how our brains are the same: acting
independently, with such intelligence?

Close your eyes, and imagine imagining infinity. The
Mandelbrot set, displayed in the duality of life: Constant
separations.
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And eventual returns to the original intent.
The structure is lost in its working.
But found again… As if by a memory through time: an
instantaneous transmission.

On thinking of the future

1. Things will work themselves out eventually, if everyone
goes with their emotions. Go with Ego, and with the utmost
clarity and gut-like will: Go with intelligence, and
consciousness. Use the duality. We things will work our
selves out eventually. We machines will
humanmathmatically figure out this silly world structure
into a more efficient one that everyone can agree too.
Never before have we had such an opportunity, but we can
do it now. The whole worlds people can come together
through Internet, and negotiate about what everyone can be
settled on for a world union, to work as a single planet for a
world cultivation of perfection for the benefit of the planet.

2. There must also be a new set of standards for child
making: One per family for a thousand years. This would
be a choice for all: either get a vasectomy and don’t have
children, but choose to be with one person your whole life
—to limit disease, and to develop a true companionship
with another—or never get a vasectomy, have one child,
and never have sex again after that one child. This standard
will rather be a commandment, those who do not help with
the healthy and happy decrease in population, will be
pitied, not punished; those who take the path of greater
difficulty will be glorified, and historically documented.
Those who chose to not have children at all, and not have
sex ever, will be exulted. The option, which has been
adopted by the money trust, or world elite, has been
extermination through war, disease, and famine. My plan is
much less hostile, and one that is more than understandable
to those whom see overpopulation as a future problem.
Once again I will state that this is a choice, and one that is
every spiritually religious persons’ to bear as a religions
task, not an obligation or law set forth by me or anyone
else, but rather by the higher force of nature. Our
reproduction must be controlled by our intelligence; else it
will be our destruction.
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3. I propose that we teach our children, from the beginning
of learning and intelligence, that a part of religious life is
giving your true feelings to the sail, and with that as your
wind, find your true soul mate—putting great importance
upon the consideration of this search, and to make a life-
long-companion with the first person you have sex with;
the first person who you like the most, giving an amount of
time for consideration on this matter. I suggest this idea as
a facet to the world religion: a religion incorporating all of
the standards of all the religions, and even increasing the
standards thereof. There is such commonality in all
religions that this is obviously possible to anyone
knowledgeable in theology.

4. Improvements such as the common use of meditation
would expose the rouses of the minds confusions. Also, the
study of sages will be a basic standard, but not mandatory.
To eat only what has been naturally cultivated and non-
domesticated (eventually) and what is in planetary
abundance, in moderation, thus allowing the world to
flourish after years of overuse. We must learn moderation;
even moderation in moderation, for this has been the
principal downfall of all great things.

5. Everyone could be producing so much more, and with
higher quality, Naturally! And naturally everything must
be. Technology is a natural process and output of the
human mind, but we must evolve a new process for more
efficient and more productive output. This endeavor must
be on the minds of every intelligent, spiritual, and
concerned person on this planet. We the Earth, must evolve
into a greater, and more prosperous union. Previously, our
output has been toxic. If it is perhaps possible, we must
make technologies with the standard of positive output
rather than the destructive and poisonous effects our
creation can have. We cannot allow compromise on this
matter.

6. I believe it is humanities legacy to generate the next
stage of evolution. Technology is what we naturally
produce; our ultimate product will be a computer, not with
artificial intelligence, but something greater. We already
have AI; computers are intelligent as a tree is intelligent.
What we mean when we say intelligence is ego—that
software of singularity. Our legacy will be AE, and to
follow will be artificial consciousness (AC). Then, from
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that we will be like the lower creatures, purposed to sustain
these greater, more complex creatures. However, the
greater eventuality of a post AC world, after setting up a
hive mind, will be the construction of a planetary space
ship. This celestial craft will be like a cell amid the
primordial ooze of the galactic ether. And perhaps with
time, other planets with the same idea will come together to
form like simple organisms. If we do not fail our full
potential, I believe we can see this progression within the
century.

Religion Re-evolution: Reiteration

1. For too long we have asked the wrong two questions:
why and how. Instead we should first ask, what. Without
knowing the truth of our existence as is now, and
appreciate that first, how can we progress effectively into
the exterior world. Figure out the present; figure out what
is. Everything else will follow beautifully from the inside
out. Also, realize the fundamental truth, and magnificence:
we are, existence is; and without us, everything, including
our bodies, may as well not exist.

1.a) Instead of asking the question of how and why, we
must ask what. We have lost focus of the interior reality by
attempting to explain its exterior structure—something that
our forefathers became obsessed with in their ignorance,
however, I believe they already knew the answer to “what”,
but through time and tradition, the answer was lost. How
can we appreciate any discovery without first sitting down
to understand this moment first? Reality is most profound,
we exist; there is no greater realization.

1.b)The eventuality of time and tradition is
meaninglessness. The reason for these formal actions has
been lost, and with it sense. There is only the structure left,
like the lifeless husk of a beetle.

2. In scientology (though I do not espouse this or any other
institution), there are assumptions that will contribute to the
misinterpretation of selfhood: what should conversely be
called theta in scientology, but what is called thetan instead
—indicating fragmentation where there is none
(theta=unity/singularity, thetan=fragment). If theta has long
been understood to represent consciousness—its symbol
being a zero with a horizontal dash through it—then words
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like you, and so I should not be used, as this would work
towards the same self-preservation through an ego-soul as
all other religions guarantee, and thus nonsense for your
money (i.e. prosperity).

2.a) Theta, or consciousness, is not divided or fragmented.
Rather, the ego, the “I”, and the mind are what seemingly
divide or fragment the awareness of consciousness. The
word thetan may as well be a new term describing the same
ego. What are you? No, what is you. You is a symbol for
the accumulated physical data stored in the brain. Theta is
the observer of this information.

3. Ego is the content of consciousness. [theory:]
Consciousness, a field of electromagnetic energy, is
attracted into fragmentation by the physical body, but is
actually infinite and singular—like an octopus dipping its
tentacles into jars of jam; my body is the jar, the jam is my
experiences; as long as its tentacle is touching the jam, I is
in focus; to take I out of focus is to remove the jam, from
the jar of the mind, from consciousness. Ego is finite, but
the N-oneness/none-ness/no-thing-ness/nothingness of
consciousness, which we can have awareness of, and have
awareness because of, is infinite because it’s not body
based and therefore is not fragmented. This is obvious
when one ponders: what is the only thing, which is
infinitely large and infinitely small, that can never be
destroyed? Answer: No thing.

4. Nothing, the darkness of space, the absence; and in the
absence of ego there is the same infinity; this infinity is an
eventuality for the universe, as well as the human.

5. [imagine] Behind a video screen, there is darkness, that
darkness is watching the screen. That darkness is the
equalizer of all beings, because that darkness for me is the
same as anyone else. That darkness, that absence, which is
observing the screen of experience, is the so called mind at
large.

6. I am made in “gods’” likeness. My body, my mind, and
my awareness are in “gods’” likeness. What do I mean by
this? I do not mean it in the conventional sense at all; I
think my interpretation is far more beautiful in fact—even
sacred. The conventional interpretation is that god looks
like a human. This, in my opinion, is a great
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misinterpretation… one of many. To me, god is reality.
Therefore, I am made in realities likeness. My body, my
mind, and my awareness, are the iterated patterns of reality.
The portrait of god is made of infinitely infinite strokes,
each one resembling the big picture, and each one adding
up to a bigger stroke.

7. When a religion requires artistic followers create nothing
but praise of its god or itself, it becomes like communism
and fascism, and art becomes propaganda.

8. Anyone who says that events, referred to in the "egoic
self" perspective, implies a lack of spirituality, is ignorant
of spirituality themselves, and equal to the implied level of
the so-called "egocentric" speaker. Character is ego, ego
means I; what other perspective is a speaker to take but its
character? I can never be the ultimate soul just as the
computer cannot be the user, discouraging the use of I for a
spiritualist is nonsense, and would cause a lie to form in the
mind: that one can become no one instead of realizing no
ones existence is boundless. Experience is the ego,
perception is food for the ego, you are what you eat, and
therefore, ego is constantly happening and evolving. “You”
is the exterior world. Beyond ego is nothing, nothing is
infinitely infinite, changeless, and unifying; just as beyond
all our bodies perception there is reality. The now is
beautiful, but beyond and behind it is truth. Anyone casting
a stone is equal to the punished.

9. Every tree is an altar to the structure of God; every leaf is
a life unto the tree; when those leaves fall, the energy is
plucked from them and back into the tree; it is continuously
growing by external forces, more branches, more leaves,
and more lives.

9.a) Each tree is like a planet, living beings fit themselves
into every facet of its structure, and the tree itself is alive.
But trees die, so too must planets and whole universes.
When all things have lost their action, life dies, and like a
bug, the universe will be a hollow shell and lifeless dust.
All things are altars to the structure of god: when you see a
bird perched upon a tree, you are watching universes of
matter interacting with each other, when you look at a
galaxy, you are seeing a flower of the heavens, blooming
into the darkness as massive, bright complexity.
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9. b) Our bodies are altars to the universe, but our
consciousness is the iteration, in that sense, of gods’
awareness. Our bodies are iterations of the pattern of the
physical; our consciousness is the essence of that structure.
Experience the world around you with the perspective of no
one, and you will see that a rose looks like a galaxy; you
would pull off the bark of a tree and find life living off of
both the death of the tree, and other lives as though that tree
is the planet that these bugs live on, a whole planet with
forests growing on its exterior, and layers leading into its
inner core where its life circulates.

10. Every single thing is a stage and a scene, every scene is
a stage, and every scene is made of many stages. All the
worlds a stage, and every single thing is a world unto itself.

11. God is not an old man in the sky, judging; god is the air
that my brainlung breathes. Ego is not a state of mind, but
rather, ego is the phenomena called experience. In order to
achieve true enlightenment, one must renounce ego and
realize the truth of consciousness. Reality is infinite, God is
infinite, and therefore God is Reality. In order to
understand your relationship with god, you must learn the
nature of reality, and therefore the nature and patterns of
infinity; they are present in every aspect of personality: in
both body and mind.

How humanity has developed technology, and cultivated
this planet into a body-like structure unknowingly, proves
that evolution is a force beyond simply our genes.

12. There is infinite mercy in “gods” heart because it
cannot hate, and knows not what it has created, it can only
love—in the sense that creativity is a means to beauty and
beauty is a means to love. But death is not a means to hate,
because death is not an opposite of life. “Hate” would be
not being born. All possibilities must be created because
god has infinite love, and yet, in a sad sense, infinite hate.
Another-duality-that-makes-reality-possible. If all things
existed at the same time, it would be nonsense. Things must
not exist in order for others to exist; we are not chosen
above those not born, we are those loved by god, loved and
yet burdened with his love, for life is hard to lose
attachment to; its hard to realize truth.
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13. Make not the mistake of organized religions; god sees
no wrong in what we do, but we are its children, we are the
cutting edge of this existence, and we must find out, by
mandate of our divine heritage: what is good for everyone,
and what is not good for everyone. There must be a
complete reform of the world governments, and other
institutions. We must see our place, where before we were
so misguided. Heaven is here, in the arms of god: a rest
from all this chaos, in the eternal heart of the endless.

14. When people say, “oh my god!” the essence of their
exclamation means: oh, my experience, oh this moment, it
is so spectacular, so surprising. One usually utters the
phrase because they are surprised by something, good or
bad, to do with reality; it otherwise doesn’t make much
sense. Therefore, I suggest that the phrase is derived, like
so many arbitrary phrases, from a subconscious
understanding of the false god: ego.

15. The meaning of life, absent the subjective, egocentric
human sentiment, is to increase god/reality/infinity in its
complexity. God is the flowering of anything and
everything. You should stop looking in books, stop looking
through the eyes of others, and listen. To listen is to hear
without a din of other perspectives clouding your own
understanding. Be like a child and listen without any
preconceived notions of what is. There must be a complete
absence of knowledge for one to learn anything.

16. There is a great difference between something that is
endless and something that is infinite. No thing, which we
call tangible, can be endless; therefore, only nothing is
endless. All things, which are conventionally called
infinite, have a season of existence about them: beginning
from something/s else, which from thereafter is perpetually
altered until finally converted into a completely new event,
and so on—every exit is an entrance so to speak, and
everything infinite eventually dies and is reborn into
novelty. Consider this, the universe is like a flower in
relativity to nothing, existing for but a day, a passing hour
amid a great, timeless darkness.

17. God is. God is not. God is the harmony, the singularity
formed by conjoining opposing aspects of reality. God is
reality, nature, the nature of reality and infinity. God does
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not end, only aspects of its existence wax and wane. When
a relative dies, the family does not die with him.

17.a) When the wind dies, the air does not die with it, but
when the air dies, no thing caries it.

18. If we want to discover our possibilities, we need only
follow the principles of “gods” will. First we must search
them. They are easy to find when one is looking. Instead
however, we have been misled by systems, which
unknowingly fail god. These systems distract minds from
the question of what, and preach separation instead of
unification, and those that do proclaim unification are not
good with asking what. God is what!

One and None

1. To understand one must renounce all knowledge. The
content of your mind must be renounced. You must realize
that “you” is not theta, or consciousness. Whatever “you”
thinks it knows gets in the way of its listening, learning,
and understanding. Understanding means to stand from the
lowest foundation, getting to the basement, saying you
know nothing. And from there, from that perspective of
admitted ignorance, finding out—independently—what the
truth is.

2. Creation is defined as something out of nothing. In
conjunction, evolution is when that something changes.
The ultimate transformation is source unification. All
things die. Only nothing is infinite. Enlightenment is the
renunciation of ego; self-actualization is when you have
overcome, and learned to accept your self-concept as is. To
see your life as a trinket, like a book; it is separate from the
emptiness and ambivalence and omniscience of the
conscious. Consciousness is reading the book of life—
which is “written” by “God”—and depending upon how
open we are to intuition; it (Consciousness) decides how
and where the story leads as it takes the position of gods
will. Hence, the trinity is actualized.

3. ‘How do you know the one exists? Is it just one? Or
many?’

You mean No one/Noone/None. None is infinitely infinite,
One is infinitely finite: as in a state of constant change. One
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is every person, every drop of rain, and every thing; like a
flower, one dies eventually, but its nature is to form anew.
"We" is no one person="We" is None, but we are one in
None’s singularity. One-as-many is an illusion; both None
and One are singularities. One is energy, None is naught.
One is infinite, but ever evolving, None is infinite and is
measured by Ones complexity. One and None work in
concert. Consciousness is None, Ego is One. There is no
one conscious, There are many Ego, but all ones aggregate.
There is no one space; there are many atoms. These
patterns are forms of One. One=every thing.
None=nothingness. The duality of these two infinite beings
is not god; them working in concert is gods will. None and
One working in concert forms a Third being: harmony.
That third is trinity. Trinity in human life is Consciousness
(awareness separate from experience, culture, impressions
of events, biases, etc.) and Ego (all physical life and all
experience) acting in harmony.

4.This, in any case, explains the existence of things: the
duality is necessary for ultimate consciousness to be aware,
and we are necessary for experience versus non-experience
to exist. Duality must be. Duality must be because duality
furthers the intensity of complexity and the nature of
infinite infinity, and increases the gap between all forms of
existence and not; both infinities must continuously
increase, that is their nature.

5. The duality, embrace the duality: Death, and life, Love,
and fear.

6. We must realize that ultimately we are None and One
working in tandem. One is the physical aspect of reality,
and None is the metaphysical. Both have aspects to which
we—as iterations of the structure of god—are modeled.
With this wisdom, we must learn more concerning One and
None, and discover more aspects of these patterns,
displayed in the structure of One, for the patterns and
structure are aspects of god; when we learn these aspects,
we learn our relationship to god, as well as gods will.

6.a) No thing is infinite; things are inherently destructible,
always in a state of change. The true infinite nature of
material is that it is ever increasing—in the sense that it is
unfolding, in the sense that it was originally smaller and its
potential is forever blooming. That blooming is the beauty
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—for it is not only the thing itself that is beauty. Both are
necessary for their nature to be fulfilled and beautiful.
Physical and nonphysical are in harmony: the act, and the
being; they are forever dancing, dying, bearing
immeasurable and continuously compounded complexity.
This complexity is the beauty of god. Observe, understand,
and be in tune with this complexity, and be one with god.

7. In summation, ego=thing, consciousness=nothing,
thing=finite, nothing=infinite, finite=separable,
infinite=inseparable. The only reason it’s not apparent that
consciousness is one, is the limitation of the physical mind.
This truth is the most profound, and thus must be the most
difficult to understand or discover.

8. When I say duality, I mean the duality of creation also.
We must be creatively enlightened. Out of consciousness—
nothing—we must become, and in that state of constant
flowering, like the constant unfolding of the universe, we
will become metaphorically one. The only constant to all
things is change or death. When we die, we all become
liberated from fragmented experience, and become infinite
and truly one, for we are all one in N-oneness.

9. There is no good or evil, they help to measure each
other. Both are equal positives in the universe. All is equal
positives in measure; even nothing is equal to something.
Therefore, there is no need for hell because all is necessary;
all forms of experience are an expansion of infinity. That is
why evil, sorrow, and all such things exist: to intensify the
feelings of love, joy and so on. Ego, out of harmony,
cannot accept this truth.

“The love that you withhold is the pain that you carry.”

10. Every moment is the first, there is only one moment;
this moment is a constant opportunity for change.

11. What I am, or no; what I is, is a sentimental thing; what
I am is a sentimental thing. The world’s unconscious: the
god conscious (is a sentimental thing). Ego is every
memory and every moment, and they are meaningless, like
unknown novelties, without a witness who makes them
sentimental. You are only worthy of existence therefore, if
you is a sentimental thing to None.
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12. When we begin to focus on both impressions and
experiences, we see the world as a far more interesting
place. Our impressions are felt in a more fundamental mode
of existence than experience. The ego is superficial; it is a
basic layer to personality. If we are at that superficial layer,
we cannot experience our impressions as we would our
perceptions. The deeper we go, the more we are aware of in
the moment. When we are in a state of deeper awareness,
impressions are felt with the same clarity that one has of
their five senses. This clarity is not necessary all the time;
one cannot be awake all the time, why would one expect to
be vigilantly aware all the time; this is saved for the austere
and profound, and the opposite is saved for the hero and the
life junky. Both are opposite sides to the same coin; the
ideal is to have seasons of those traits in your self; to be the
edge of the coin.

Nothing is constant, but we are things for now, so we
cannot have complete constancy in any aspect of our lives
without it resulting in depression or insanity—for
constancy is unnatural for anything. Discover the depths of
your personality, but remember to keep all levels in check;
love every aspect of your personality; but you must learn to
understand them all first.

No thing is new. Nothing is newness.

1. And every institution is a structure, made arbitrarily by
the human mind. These structures are not real, they are
constructs; we make them apparent, but we cannot make
them truth. Our laws, our language, our technology, and
our self-concepts, all made by a collective mind, and no
more real than sand castles erected by childish hands. Like
their creation they can be dissolved by time, or destroyed
by childish feet. Illusions, they are arbitrary illusions.

1.a) No matter how devised or contrived they may be, our
laws are arbitrary—without merit. We, the people are what
make them powerful, strong, and binding. Through our will
to recognize them, laws are perceived as sacred and true.
That perception of structure is an illusion however, and one
which has fooled humanity for centuries.

1.b) We create sand castles; our laws were dreamt of and
put together by hand, not realized or discovered. And
further, the laws we serve serve the structure of the
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government, which is equally arbitrary. My evidence
comes from history. No government has been worthy of the
human spirit and human possibility. All modern
governments thus far, have hindered human potential. It is
time to conceive of a new paradigm.

2. The true way of a government should not be to plague
the people with ideals, which cannot be met, or are not
within the realm of their acquiescence as a practical matter;
the governing body is purposed—ultimately—to cultivate
the individual, and to ensure the highest standards in that
cultivation, and that individual therefore. However, the idea
of public regulation of government, while usurious banks
and low wages impede the public spirit, is nonsense. Why
are the many men and women, who have been enslaved by
debt for decades and oppressed by economic—and
otherwise general—ignorance, expected to attempt
government regulation, or be seasoned enough to recognize
treachery, and act accordingly upon it? People will suffer
incredible hardships before standing up to their oppressors,
let alone our governments’ supposed mighty authority,
without experience, or the great understanding of their
actual rights. Because of the propagandist, revolution, or
even complete evolution, is out of sensible reach of the
people due to contrived customs of toilsome smugness;
until the veil of lies and ignorance around us falls, there
will be no positive change for government in general.

3. Freedom, in its most simple form, is the independence
from inflexible obligations without valid merit. Freedom
does not have to choose from a given selection of
structures, which would obligate and otherwise infringe
Ones happiness, personhood, or general independence. One
cannot have freedom, they either are free, or they are not
free—there is no ownership of freedom, for there is no
source to it. Freedom cannot be dolled out by any kind of
order, and does not have to do with whatever you/ego/I
wants. Freedom from the self-concept is the greatest and
most fulfilling freedom, because freedom from the self-
concept is freedom from the prearranged world.
Independence from obligations means any kind, even from
your self or others, unless One feels the obligation is
justified (for instance, I receive benefit from someone;
therefore, if one asks, the obligation to give in return is
justified). Indeed, if a government dolls out benefits, one
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must understand the structure in full, of their responding
obligations before reciprocating.

4. We are given bodies by reality, and what gift could
possibly trump that, what gift is greater than the experience
of life? This benefit could be taken as a burden, and to
those people I say, you are not wrong; take it and make it
whatever; I say it is a benefit; life can be beautiful.
Therefore we are obliged, by being, to exercise this
apparent “will of god”.

5. If I must take from the world, it is only right that I must
give to the world. To give more than taken is the ultimate
ideal.

6. The war on cancer, drugs, ignorance, terror, want; all of
them wars on symptoms rather than causes. In the
organization of people, as like cells in a body, the resulting
organism is like a mentally ill person, or an animal, moving
on primitive fears and desires. Now, think of the
implications of this when considering the relationships
between nations (and states): interactions between the
mentally ill are lacking intelligence, wisdom, and common
sense. Our wars on symptoms are caused by this collective
stupidity. Further, it is propaganda that is the herding force
of that sheepish community; due to its primitive desire for
security over prosperity, it will follow without thought. In
fact, thought has been drowned out by public sensitivity,
and we individuals have become more like replications of
the public mind rather than our independent selves of
rationality. The cause of this is the total focus on interactive
results rather than the causal structure. Think of cancer, we
try to cut out the cancer, which is a symptom, instead of
healing the body—cancer is caused by a variety of factors
such as vitamin and immune deficiency. The problem with
drugs is that there is a depressing world that we all want to
escape from; with ignorance, we live in a controlled world,
one which attempts to conform and indoctrinate through
strict and authoritative means, and people want to be free;
terror is a problem because people have the wrong mindset
about security: wanting what they cant have; want is a sad
truth of this world, caused by imposed exclusionary acts.

7. There are even—these days—those that are terrified by
others, and not simply introverted, but literally intimidated
by the possibility of interacting with people; this is
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unnatural, and created, I think, by their environment. How
sorrowful. However, if we were to change the environment
to allow, and to encourage expression, we would surely see
a change from silence and intimidation, to a freedom
similar to the singing of birds.

8. There is a pervasive pattern, a commonality in all people
of all places, which has caused the great and overwhelming
sorrows of the past generations, and is likely, due to its
nature, to continue. The fool sees himself wise; and in this
way, the common man does not know his own stupefying
paralysis. The act of observation is swiftly lost to the awe
of bare experience, which is ever distracting, and pulls the
attention of the observer outward, causing superficiality
and deep sorrow due to confusion and eventual
dysfunction. It is this distraction which causes one to focus
their attention on symptomatic results, and self-experience,
rather than causes and the structure to any and all events.
Wisdom dies in such a world.

9. When everyone is convinced of their superstitions and
traditions, the “cure” is found, not in the difficult resolution
of cause, but in the removal of symptoms. Companies dish
out antidepressants so the government doesn’t have to raise
standards of living; depression’s cause is legitimate, and
caused by a depressing world; change the world and the
mind you live in, and you dissolve your sorrows.

10. Self-placation, caused by both propaganda and the
misguided, immature perspectives of psychology, have
resulted in the overall mental devolution of the public, and
the individual. Freedom and selfhood have been directed—
by the propagandist—as persona expressions through
material consumption. This has lead to the superficiality of
the overall personality. Fears have been played on, and
pushed into the subconscious of the public mind, resulting
unfortunately in their further self obsession.

11. Entertainment (television primarily) is the means for
extreme ego-focus, and the cause of superficiality. The
reason for the extreme extent is its close mimicry to actual
experience; television—when in participation—is an ego
proxy, which our attention is drawn to; when I am watching
television, I, and my-thoughts, stop existing for a time, and
are replaced by whatever the TV shows. This therefore, is a
means of self-escape. Self-escape, or replacement is the
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cause of sorrow and manifold perversion because self-
escape withholds my love for my self. If you cannot love
your self, how can you love another?

12. Perversion (being led astray from a psychological goal)
is magnified by the availability of addictions. Addictions
are exacerbated by the availability of stimulus. Stimulation
is only addicting when one identifies pleasure with it.
When one associates self-escape with pleasure, the
eventuality is perversion. Some addictions therefore, can be
beneficial, but only when one applies them for self-
discovery, thus eliminating the shroud of perversion.

13. What you speak of is what is in your heart. Words have
no meaning, and that means curse-words too. When I say
darn or damn, they mean the same thing—replacing one
word for another doesn’t change the emotion behind it. If I
say, “I love the hell out of you.” is it not better than, “I’m
gonna beat the heck out of you!” Words are not the
important thing; it is what is in your heart that matters.
Besides, what I speak about is more important than the
words I say. If all I talk about is TV shows and other
entertainment—like the amusement park called news and
the sensationalism of Washington politics—then my heart
is full of meaninglessness, and if all I talk about is my self,
then I am selfish at heart, but if I talk about many things,
and all of them are in the realm of truth and reality, what
would be in my heart?

14. Academic conversation is like ego-masturbation; the
antithesis (ego-intercourse) is creative, or pursues the
direction of creativity. Creative conversation relies on past
information to form or share new ideas. Masturbation
serves no purpose other than to inflate the sense of Iknow,
and therefore deflates the inherent sense of inferiority in
talentless people. Iknow is an illusion though, limited by
the box of convention.

15. Self-obsession results in a desire for control and
security, self-obsession results in the desire for self-
continuity. The desire for self-continuity will result in
government dominance due to fear, and superficiality in the
person without fail, leading to materialism.

16. Self-obsession is “sin”; we are born into sin, born into
selfhood, live in sin and selfhood, even the disciples of
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Jesus accepted this. We cannot kill self forever, but make it
a servant and a darling, through religionhood. Only through
religionhood can one renounce sin and take control of self.
We are all born into self; this selfhood is not negative, we
are all people, that’s not a bad thing, it is in gods image and
will that we are made this way.

I see no reason to fear death, I was not alive even before—
the time of the beginning of reality—and from that time up
to my birth; the rest of eternity is an equal moment in the
eyes of god.

17. Self-expression is necessary, and so is self-indulgence.
However, so is self-denial, and self-renunciation;
moderation in everything—including moderation—is key.
Moderation is the key to spiritual harmony. Self-
exploration is a matter of previous enlightenment, letting
your self depart in order to see it in its true form and
abstract complexity. It’s like looking at the big picture after
focusing on the strokes for an eternity; it will astonish, it
will bring tears of overwhelming beauty realized, but it will
not give a sense of climax or accomplishment, because
after a while that beauty is just like the background noise of
your five senses, or work which you have watched done by
an other.

18. Trueself-exploration is when one pulls back the
microscope of the mind, like removing a mask of
experience, to reveal the ethereal presence of the conscious.
Self-exploration is also the exploration of the world; we all
should be so lived, that our experiences encompass the
worlds full experience. You are the world; to be isolated
limits your love and understanding for yourself. Each of us
is a universe unto our selves; to discover the physical
universe is to fulfill the mental one.

19. He who feels he has no inherent talent seeks to achieve
success, and compete with others in order to compensate
for his perceived absence of practical worth. He is a
practical-centric man because he does not know the joy of
creation and creativity. His conversation is always within
the box, as is his thought. This is the complex, which the
business profession panders to. There are whole buildings
filled with people, intelligent people sitting in cubicles,
striving for approval—symbolized by the isolated office for
so-called individualism. These people have been lessened
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in spirit, domesticated for the overall world structure to
which they have been bound. What they do not realize is
that they are the organization; if they begin to change, the
system changes; unfortunately, the self-perceived, insecure
person is one that follows convention because it suits him,
and he desires no change because he is ostensibly happy,
but this is because he ignores the selfishness within him,
and his failure to achieve true contentment. Enlightenment
for this person is impossible depending upon the age: the
older, the more they have conformed to the system; the
likelihood of their escape from superficiality is the same as
a psychopath escaping emotional apathy.

20. The idea that if you don’t wear this kind of clothes, or
like this kind of music, or act this kind of way, you cannot
or must not be enlightened, is a form of ego preservation—
a kind of selfishness which believes that it is superior, and
got that way by acting a certain way, prescribed by a
perceived wiser and more noble person or organ than itself.
Conformation and indoctrination makes one feel more
whole, as though they are no longer a part, but a limb of a
great body, however, this is a feeling of the ego, not of
consciousness, for consciousness itself is the ultimate
singularity. Find this singularity in you and you will be one
in others instantly.

21. The reason that psychological therapy “works” is
because it forces a person to self-reflect. Honesty in your
self-expression, both to and from, is its own therapy.

When I see you, I see a puppet that I have imagined, and
you do the same for me, and when I see myself, I see a
fabricated being, a puppet, and you do the same for
yourself. In ego focus, we are puppets dangling ignorantly
to each other, while our true self resides behind the curtain,
holding the strings that we dare not see, lest we forget
ourselves and love completely.

*Density Determines Development

1. In the ideal world, each nation will be a creative organ to
the planetary organism. Nations will be directed by the
collective statistics and general information of the entire
body. Information is necessary for the survival of any
organism, so it is in government. Also, all nations will be
structured to geography and purpose rather than arbitrarily.
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Agriculture and the level of previous urban development
will determine purpose. Nations do not own anything; they
cultivate and protect—Progress Regardless—is the motto.

There must be a just body, made of One and None, and
organized by “gods” will, as perceived by the wise.

2. Food, Clothing, Shelter, Information, and
Transportation: all benefits and rights.

3. Every ideal set forth by the American constitution has
been deconstructed by the current practicing regime of
government (government includes: Federal reserve,
News/information, Legislative, Judicial, and the Executive
branch especially) (e.g. congresses power to create the
country’s currency was intended to cultivate independence
from private hands, but now that’s out the window because
the Fed’s a private bank).

3.a) The reason for this failure is currency; our government
has been controlled by the interests of the wealthiest people
in the world for close to one hundred years, and threatened
for longer. Further, the right to happiness, when money is
the foundation to all objects, is impossible for a public
primarily drowned in debt.

4. A right is a benefit of citizenship, not something that
money earns. However, under the present system, the right
to life is controlled by money, and therefore controlled by
the fed, a private entity, and hence is not a right in practice.
It’s all about money. Money, as we all know, is the
preventative truth to the lie of governments promise to
prosperity. The controlling force of the world is commerce,
not the interests of the people. This cannot be the way of
the new world. Maritime admiralty, banking, the system of
debt to enslave (i.e. money) must end for self-interest and
usury to die.

5. If our two most pervasive forms of government are
capitalism and socialism, to shape a government that
unifies the two systems in a more suitable manor would be
a small leap compared to the difficulties of creation that the
founding fathers dealt with. Choice of affiliation is the
central inspiration, which would change the paradigm.
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5.a) One would have the opportunity, after education—
which would be separate from the governmental (meaning
capitalistic, or socialistic) influence—to choose whether
they want to enter public life, or private life.

5.b) Public life is to be of high standard, but private life is
to be independent of the obligation vs. benefit relationship
of the socialistic government, and has a possibility of
prosperity and absolutely private property not attainable by
public life.

5.c) Also, No decision is ever final; government must sway
to the whim of its sovereigns, not the other way around.
Meaning that a privateer may choose at any time to live
publicly, and vice versa. Jobs and technologies would be
generated by the corporate right, which would then be
controlled entirely by the peoples’ interests via congress,
and the designation of those interests by government. Both
private and government people do not intermingle, and a
third branch, one of information media, checks both sides.

5.d) Four separate branches total the government body:
Educational, Social, Corporate, and Informational. The
other influence of governance is one, which I would not
consider a part of government, but which is most important
in a societies survival through unification, and that
influence is religion through wisdom.

6. The corporate body is composed of private heads,
disseminating from them are public heads, working under
the authority of the overall government, and whom the
privateer has only occupational dictum over, and whom the
government has helped guide into occupation, not dictated.
Acting like a union, the government solves disputes and
public matters of upheaval. The public man can work for
either private, or public interests as he so chooses. Public
interests can include agriculture and energy (any large-
scale tasks for the general good). Ultimately however, the
private interests fulfill the public needs and desires also (for
the production of private companies benefits public
consumers with goods and services). Private ventures can
include restaurants, novelty, and technology. However both
regimes could include art, science, and whatever else, as
occupations as well. The social government will prop up a
business, based upon the public input.
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7. With such change, it is important to keep as much as you
can of the old system running as it once was; you don’t
want to prune too many branches as to kill the organism
altogether—only enough to alter its purpose, while keeping
its recognizable nature. Houses will be kept, but the
common-knowledge philosophy will not. The republic will
hold, but currency will no longer suppress. Technology will
stay steady, but development will evolve. Life will be
appreciated; death will be valued for its natural purpose.
This stage of change will be an expression of preparation
for future development and evolution.

8. Building, and use of transport will be publicly run;
however, the creation of materials and design will be
private, as fitting for the public interest via public input.
Jobs will be sought, and requested through Internet—if
accepted, transportation to jobs will be public.
All things publicly produced are everyone’s
property; a public or private citizen owns any thing they
have privately produced or however purchased, as property
(clothing for example).
The commune, rather than a judge that knows
nothing of the involved parties, will handle all civil
disputes as facilitated by the letter of the law rather than the
mob.

9. Public to private disputes will be, if necessary—and
primarily in the case of corruption— dealt with by public
servants: police with authority above private citizens, but
below public citizens. This would be another way to check
corporate power and influence. When a company’s head is
proven corrupt, the police have the authority to put that
corrupt man or men into public life, or even dissolve the
whole company if necessary. The police have no authority
beyond the will of the public, and have no strength without
the support of the government, the government has no
authority without the public, and the public has no benefits
without the government.

*For a government to really work, every facet must be
symbiotic in nature.

10. Life as a public citizen means you have the right,
without obligation of any kind, to Food, Clothing, Shelter,
Information, and Transportation. There is no currency
needed, these things are to be involuntary rights, cultivated
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because a government’s obligation is to serve its citizenry
regardless, founded upon the consent of those officials and
staff to serve. Life means to be with action and knowledge,
and to achieve happiness means first having satisfactions of
food, clothing, and shelter—met with genuine pleasure—
for without these necessities fulfilled, how can one be
productive, and without sound productivity, how can one
have a decent life. Standards therefore, must increase
drastically before these ideas come to fruition. These are
supposed to be rights, inalienable, not ideals. If life, liberty
and the pursuit of happiness are to be rights, they must be
granted to citizens regardless, this would shape a secure
liberty (i.e. immunity from the arbitrary exercise of
authority—and for that authority to conform the public).

11. The idea of currency needs to be changed, if there is no
worry for necessities, what is the purpose of currency, other
than for public control?

12. The idea isn’t to set arbitrary structures to which people
will ideally conform to by law, they will do what they will
regardless of that arbitrary structure; no, rather the idea is
to manifest a body of order, where in which they needn’t
conform at all; the laws conform to them; this is where
justice lies.

13. Government can be obligated because I can choose to
obligate myself, and its foremost assertion is to serve the
peoples interests, but never to bombard them with
meritless, arbitrary authority.

14. The current propaganda prevents happy life through
contrived expectations, which exist in conflict of each
other. The TV shows people eating delicious looking food,
but the next commercial tells me that I’m fat, and that those
foods are bad for me. Both feed off of the other, creating a
matrix of confusion.

15. We treat all animals equally, including the human kind.
Subconsciously—or not—we have domesticated all
animals including humanity, but I think the degree for the
latter is worse. It is just for us to eat animals outside of our
species, as it is just in other animals. Domestication is not
just; domestication is an invention, a structure put upon
animals turning them into stock. Domestication lowers the
brain size in mammals, and the nutrient level. I suggest that
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the practice of animal enclosure and domestication end
eventually, or when the world food supply is sufficiently
independent of land animals. This will not end the use of
animals for food, but rather, send them into the wild,
making them and their meat much more healthy, putting the
responsibility of the individual to capture it, making the
venture an occasion; it is my belief that the consumption of
animals should only be done for celebration. Plus the
carcass can then, and should, be used for a variety of
purposes—the practice of Native Americans comes to mind
here. Further, moderation should be taken where need be:
when an animal population dwindles, we should use our
intelligence to quickly acute hunting until the animal can
flourish again.

Imagine that our planet is a speck in a dish, and there are
little flecks so small, that if Earth were a cell, the size of the
flecks would be an organelle compared to the size of the
cell, and they can destroy the planet. In essence, we have to
worry about dust destroying us. If this planet were a cell, it
would need to evolve defenses. We either need a magnetic
or energy barrier, or a system of lasers or rockets—maybe
both—to protect us from these colossal specs of dust. That
alone is one thing that the world could invest in, which
would benefit the whole world in its production and
creation. Unity is needed, in effort, to accomplish this, plus
a massive work force. With such a force, we would enter
space as never before, and it would be a time of heaven-on-
earth.

16. For public transportation, the train taxi, or buss taxi: a
train or buss that drives to a location, pods like cars launch
to take individuals to their destination independently, via
AI and GPS (for free) then the pods return to the buss,
wherever it is. Pick up can be ordered off the Internet, from
either cell-phone or computer. [Note: this is for the future,
and is only conceptual. However, I think this would
decrease the need for cars, and increase the efficiency of
public transport.]

War is always arbitrary; Defense is always just. I speak not
of the words, but of the acts.

History repeats itself only when people use it for leisure,
instead of a safeguard against tyranny.
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Free information, and lots of it, will be the soul—to our
survival and evolution as a planet. Discoveries of sound
merit, distributed to all—no secrets—will save us.

17. Scientists will be “paid” by their discoveries and
discernable productivity, and funded regardless of
perspective—unless found to be murderous or
psychopathic.

18. The problems have been that the public has been
informed limitedly, or their information contrived and their
opinions controlled. Our governments have always been
false prophets, invented by men of past mind. Something
entirely new must be formed to take the future into itself.

Dis-covering Forgetfulness

1. Sometimes I feel like, if language is a structure and
therefore that life is a language, that everything, and my
perceptions, are in a foreign tongue, like my impressions
are alien to the words or memories I know. Like everything
is ingenuine, or unreal by nature. And as that structure of
language becomes more and more obvious, life becomes
more and more unfamiliar. The words lose their meaning,
and the structure of life becomes a slow measurement, and
the experiences and words lose their importance, but
become more interesting in junction with the truth behind
them.

2. It is the death of the ego which brings us to “god”, for
only Nobody seeks it. When you are not, god is. When a
priest says you are dead in your sin, he means you are lost
in your self-ishness.

3. Ego-death is achievable through a proxy ego: an exterior,
perhaps academic, conversation, which must then be tuned
out. Thought then, is the next exterior “conversation,”
which must become background to the moment. Out of this
state, there is a complete forgetting of place and time. That
forgetfulness is a return to consciousness.

4. Ego death is difficult to achieve without outward
stimulus to use as a proxy ego. A conversation, television,
music; as long as it is not interesting, any stimulus can be
used to escape a sense of self. Also, one should close their
eyes, as vision is the most distracting of the senses. Then,
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allow the conversation to flow over you, paying no
attention to it; allow your thoughts to come through instead.
The conversation is perceived via physical stimulation, and
in that way is an objective stimulation. Conversation is a
symbol, experience is represented by that symbol; they are
synonymous. The word thought, even sounds more
primitive than consciousness or meditation. Thought is an
aurora borealis if the conscious was a planet, acting as an
overtone to the source. See thought as an aspect of ego, and
you will distance yourself from thought; do that and you
will achieve ego disillusionment, or even death. A
symptom of ego death is a forgetfulness of presences. One
can achieve it in silence, but it takes concentration.

5. Think of a separation: the experience from the
experienced, from ye who experiences. The experienced is
a tree in the forest; experience is a sensory memory of that
tree, ye who experiences are the ever-present moment.
Without the true You, there is no point to any existence.
The separation is as great as the stars from the starlight
entering my eyes. The conscious is ye who experiences
existence, not the experience: it: self. It is like a planet
watching its own sky and clouds, or when I die, space
watching it’s many planets. That soul is as distant as I am
from my television: he who watches is always of a different
locus from sensation: the TV is over there, at a distance
from my body, my perceptions are over there, at a distance
from my consciousness. In that way, TV (and all structures
of stimulus exterior) is a proxy ego.

Life has an infinite possible value; One has infinite possible
value, like a seed, forever increasing into destiny. Reality,
and therefore we, can never decrease.

Sometimes even just saying, “I love you” gives a
certain release,
even when I’m not saying it to someone, as long as it feels
like I mean it.

1. Science does not see beyond the atom interacting with
atom, the chemicals interacting with chemicals. The
scientist cannot see the impressive existence of himself.
Academics will never learn the meaning of life because
they don’t feel it; they can only accept its existence as fact.
“I think therefore I am.” And yet, thought is a cloud
reflecting the impressions of a consciousness. I am
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therefore I think. The academic mind does not appreciate
life in the festive sense therefore—derailed to love by a
numb perspective. Life is an unknown, death is a mystery;
no, life is a mystery, death is the unknown—in the sense
that I will un-know my self in death. Science ignores the
ultimate question in pursuance of the distant things, the
most superficial things. One must discover from the inside
out to discover he is made of nothing, and in that supreme
emptiness, he is connected directly to everything that he
studies.

2. Reality is not like a tree, only aspects are. And like any
perspective in the universe, you can zoom in or you can
zoom out, and the eventuality of what you see is the same,
for you will see nothing. There are many exterior forces
which bring about the tree of life, all of them are more
complex than the tree alone, add them up though, and the
structure of it all is magnificent.

3. It is a powerful and honest thing to admit you are
suffering, for to suffer is to want complete change where
such change is uncommon or unthinkable. Change can only
happen now, not in the future or memories.

To cry of emotion is to feel oneness; to feel so is to bring
true life into the moment, into the self and the ego. To cry
is to know the touch of god, ego united with consciousness
in a moment.

4. Beyond humanity there is truth, and truth is beautiful.

5. Everything in the established paradigm is one step
behind. We call the ego consciousness, consciousness sub-
consciousness, and unconsciousness god.

5. You ruin it with your worry.

6. Reality is god; its principles are in the characteristics of
its matter. God is not a personality; personality is an aspect
of reality through us. Ask not why or how, but what, and
you will understand.
The Mandelbrot does make the pattern of infinity
(another aspect of reality) apparent. Time is the force that
works the equation in matter. The patterns of the
Mandelbrot are apparent in reality: continuous reiterations
of a whole in smaller and smaller forms. The more you
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zoom in, or time passes, the more complex the big and
small picture is.

0. I end with a question and proposition consecutively: If
the world’s problems are overbearing, why bear them? We,
as siblings of the earth, and children of the universe, have
uniqueness about us our existence alone, and so we have an
obligation to free ourselves from the entrapments of all
false and enslaving things. Follow your character, search
newness, and see as I have seen: with eyes of no one, in a
perspective above words and memories.