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Taylor Campbell Camille Pack English 2010 March 26, 2014 The Heroin Diaries The Heroin Diaries by Nikki

Sixx is an insane, heartbreaking, abusive tale that shatters the glass between super-stardom and reality. It is a painful account of a man’s sickness that was acquired through fame and fortune. The story of Nikki Sixx, the bassist and lyricist of the band Motley Crüe, is all but serene. His upbringing, multiple drug addictions, and occasional overdoses can make any person appreciate even the most trivial things in their lives. The Heroin Diaries brings insight into one year in Nikki Sixx’s life, 1987. The book is a collection of diary entries by Sixx throughout 1987 with commentary by both him and his partners in crime. The book portrays a nightmarish insight into addiction with how it is designed, the unbelievable day-by-day antics of Nikki Sixx, and his impact on the world and people around him. After diving into the head of Nikki Sixx, you will know true evil in the form of addiction. The tone of the entire book is established from the cover. Blood splatters and ink spots blanket the cover and seep into the pages of the book. The font of the title

Nikki attempts to take you on a journey through his nightmare and the design of the book is one of his tools.” Psychosis is described as “When everybody turns into tiny dolls and they have needles in their mouths and they hate you and you don’t care because you have THE KNIFE! AHAHAHAHA!!!” These cracked definitions bring you a vivid portrayal of the insanity that is Nikki Sixx. as long as it is next Tuesday. wiser Sixx today. . Random sketches and old photographs help Nikki Sixx’s demons fly off the page. As the book’s layout sucks you into the terrifying dream. He defines addiction as “When you can give up something. black ink spots and borders.looks as if it were insanely scratched into a wall with fingernails that were eventually ripped off and blood filling the empty space. The pages of the book are dark and unorganized to give a sense of being inside a nightmare. Sixx’s narrative traps you inside. He starts out the transcript with an alternative dictionary of medical terms from an addict. It narrows the spectrum of addiction to his familiarity and helps establish trust in his experience with the reader. The layout of the book is designed to suck you inside Nikki Sixx’s head with the typewriter font. and the consistent view of blood splatters. A portrait of Nikki Sixx from 1987 is transformed from a crazed addict to an older.

his only friend. money was never an issue. At this point Nikki has been addicted to heroin and cocaine for a while. Being high. Being an international superstar. He would spend roughly three thousand dollars a day on heroin and cocaine without blinking an eye. He explains one time when he was in the studio with his . With both the diary entries and personal commentary. Because of this. a drug called heroin. he decides to write in a diary to remember what he did the day before. To know exactly what is going through his head while on a substance as precarious as heroin is a humbling experience. The depression in his writing stands out and you can feel nothing but empathy for this empty person strung out on the floor. The commentaries to the journal entries give more depth and understanding to insanity and antics of Nikki at that time.The narrative is a first hand account of Nikki Sixx’s life throughout the year of 1987. Sixx describes his diary as scraps of paper he wrote on so he would not forget what he did the day before. He is alone on a holiday where you it is custom to be with family. The horrifying tale starts off on Christmas Eve. 1986. His band. The scene is set with Nikki Sixx on the floor of his closet with a needle in his arm and a scrap of paper with a pen. and strung out is a common occurrence for Nikki and it has greatly affected his memory. drunk. are starting to record a new album and going on tour in the upcoming year. Motley Crüe. It is organized with the diary portion in black typewriter font and both his and others’ thoughts in red. Nikki could not go a day without heroin. It makes the nightmare more real. or most other mind-altering substances either. Nikki was living the rock star life to the fullest. he paints the full picture of what it is like to absolutely “need” heroin.

Slash recording their new record. and old girlfriends all offer insight into Nikki’s antics at the time. Entering a stall with a beer bottle cap. the band members of Motley Crüe understood the debilitating person Nikki was and the sickness that consumed him. Slash would urinate in all the beds of famous celebrity mansions in Van Nuys and would experience major night terrors where he would shriek at deafening volumes whenever he was strung out. It is fascinating to . himself. he pulled out his small balloon full of heroin and placed a portion of it in the bottle cap. and other band members along with family. He would often participate in all the poison that Nikki provided and on some occasions would “outshine” Nikki. He then used the toilet water to boil the substance and proceeded to inject it into his arm. This offers the outside perspective of Nikki’s addiction. The casts of characters that chime in on the commentary throughout the book are amazing. Slash’s comments are the most interesting. Lemmy. Slash. The fact that he would use dirty toilet water to “shoot up” is incredible and really shows how desperate his addiction makes him. friends. People like Vince Neil. Nikki couldn’t waste another second without taking a hit and knowing the backlash he would receive if he were to pull out a needle during rehearsal. he rushed to the bathroom. an addict and he is like Nikki’s sidekick. At the time.

it feels as if you have gone through hell and back. Nikki was pronounced dead. Miraculously. As I finished the book and read of Nikki’s new lease on life and optimistic outlook. Towards the end of 1987. hospital visits are as frequent as a trip to the gas station to fill up the car. he goes out and spends roughly one thousand dollars on heroin and decides to share it with Slash and a couple “groupies” they met at a show. Nikki overdosed and collapsed. Slash. but quickly you realize this dream has become a nightmare. was of no use and the only savior Nikki had was his girlfriend who rushed in at the 11th hour and called the ambulance. I later realized that it is a constant fight and reading Nikki’s . Moments later. nothing really has changed for Nikki. Addiction still rules his life and as any heroin addict knows. At first the glamour and glitz of Hollywood entrance you. Subsequently. being strung out himself. This had a profound affect on me as I couldn’t believe that his disease wasn’t gone.get perspectives from two addicts going through the same thing at the same time. Slash has even credited The Heroin Diaries as inspiration for writing his own book. I was shocked to read in the “Afterword” portion of the book that Nikki has relapsed many times after coming back from the dead. he was brought back to life through CPR. Reaching the climatic end of the diary. Addiction is a disease that can lead to death and nothing portrays that more than Nikki’s story. Nikki is one of the lucky ones. (World) On a typical night for Nikki. The book culminates in a series of events that would make anyone cringe. Heroin addicts often take more than what is “safely” recommended and consequently overdose. Not everyone comes back from the dead.

diary. Nikki rose from the dead. it can give hope to anyone struggling with addiction that even at his darkest moment. or what I call his nightmare. .

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