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Gov. Chafee Speaks at Press Conference From Prison to Graduation By Michelle Harter My Monster By Lisa - Dry Dock Time To Plant The Seeds Robin Riley What Has Anchor Done For You? Special Dates to Remember
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Press Conference Held At Anchor Recovery Community Center on Addicon, Overdose, and Recovery

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Gov. Chafee speaking at the Press Conference held at Anchor Recovery Community Center on April 17, 2014 on Addicon, Overdose and Recovery. Photo taken by Holly Cekala

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From Prison to Graduaon Womens Rhodes to Recovery


by Michelle Harter, Cered Recovery Coach
In early Fall of 2013, I had the honor of being able to parcipate in the Recovery Program at the Womens Medium Security Prison in Cranston put together by Anchor Recovery Community Center and The Providence Center. Walking through the doors, lled with anxiety, I knew the reality of the situaon.there but for the grace of God go I. That could just as easily be me in blue or tan sing in the room..my fate sealed. I walked into the classroom to meet four women, Crystal, Odessa, Heather and Dana; four women who had been sentenced for various crimes but wanted to nd a place of recovery in their lives. We met every Wednesday for several months, talking about recovery, the steps of recovery and personal details about all of our lives; a bonding experience for sure. They were given no good me and they sll came, to learn about themselves and their part in their recovery from addicon. Dana was planning for her release by mapping out a program that would include long-term care, meengs and gathering a network of women to assist her upon her release.....knowing deep down that if you dont change the person you brought in there, chances are you will be back..or worse. We had grown close over these last few months. I would miss her if she was paroled, and she was.the rst aempt. When she le Cranston, she went to live at the long term womens facility Roads to Recovery operated by The Providence Center in Pascoag, Rhode Island..strangely around the corner from my house..no coincidence. I would pick her up for meengs, talk on a daily basis, have breakfast as she worked her recovery in long term and gathered her network. Aer three months, she graduated from the program and it was once again an honor to be at her graduaon. We loaded up my car with her many belongings and I drove her home to her mom and dads home where she was welcomed with open arms and love. She now volunteers at Anchor Warwick while connuing to go to meengs at Anchor Pawtucket and take care of her health which was compromised aer years of substance use. I am grateful for this enormously humbling experience.from prison to life, its amazing, and so is recovery.

My Monster -

Wrien by a Woman in Dry Dock - Lisa

I remember the day he rst came to me. Now that hes gone I can nally see. My life began to fade away, driing further everyday. My inner landscape, dark and grey from a loving mother to the monsters prey. This demon was destroying me and everything I used to be; empness, bringing me much pain and agony.He was there every night when Id close my eyes. Id paently wait for the sun to rise, hands wrapped ghtly around my neck, pressing down upon my chest. I feel my breath escaping me, pain so intense I can barely see. Soaked in sweat full of frightfor years it happened every night. Id pray to God my soul to take, I cant accept this as my fate full of empness, despair and sin, Id wake to him desecrang my skin. Swollen eyes, arms ed and bound, my heartbeat is the only sound. He cuts me deep unl I bleed, eyes roll back, the monster feeds. Aer he defeated me, he began to destroy my family. Everyone I loved, he knew just where to start, he reached right in and ripped out their heart. It cant end like this, I wont let him win, it came down to my life, or him. Sleepless nights, buckled over in pain would soon subside to so much gain. Months lled with shame, tears and regret, a me in my life I wont ever forget. Darkness turned to light, and new hope has come I fought o the monster, stayed and won. But Ill never underesmate him and turn my back, because the minute I do thats when hell aack. Hes quiet for now, but hes le me a scar, a constant reminder that hell never be far. Your mother is back and I need you to know, you were always my strength, you never let me go. It was the love of my family their belief and their faith, I love you so much, you helped seal my fate. But Ill never forget you, my darkest sin, my monsters nameHeroin.
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TIME TO PLANT THE SEEDS Robin Riley


Psychic Healer, Spiritual Counselor

Have you ever wondered why you have elds of thoughts owing in your mind, just as growing wheat ows in the wind? Why is it that negave doubts are planted so securely and embedded so deeply in our sub conscious mind? Have you noced it is so much easier to harvest negave thoughts and beliefs from our minds and acons than the posive ones? It is because there are so many negave thoughts and judgments and they mulply. Our job is to pull those weeds out by re-framing them as learning experiences rather than failures. Many people oen want to cling to the past, even if its lonely and makes us cry, because it feels more comfortable than doing the thing that scares us so much: leng go and embracing the change that enters our lives. As I write this its something I struggle with in my life. There are good days and very bad days. And that feeling of giving up on a past that I held so dearly feels like surrendering to failure. But Ive learned to deal with it by doing one very simple thing: (I plant seeds). What is planng a seed? Its the simple act of seng something into moon that will help you create the life you want to lead. Its taking a moment of sorrow and realizing that you can use it to fuel yourself. Even though planng a whole garden can seem daunng and full of anxiety in itself, all you have to do is start by planng one seed. And keep adding another one here and there. Take care of those seeds, and before you know it, a lile leafy green thing will greet you one day. Or, in real life, you will have a successful posive growth beginning. Nothing is more excing than seeing your seed turn into something that blooms. But you must understand when it comes to planng your life seeds. A whole garden isnt created over night, and neither is a dream life. But, by focusing on the posives, and seeing the lile seeds that start to peek out from the earth in the form of something new, we can start to see the progress we are making in our journey to start living the life weve always wanted. Just remember a seed cant stay a seed forever. When cared for with nourishing soil, rays of sunlight, and water, they change shape and start to become whatever it is they were meant to be. To really experience posive change, you, must let go of your past and embrace the transformaon thats about to take place. Have condence knowing you will take on a beer form, even if it takes me. Aer a seed undergoes a transformaon and takes on a new form, everyone appreciates it for whatever it has to oer, whether its a smile-inducing sunower or a crisp carrot. Each seed has something new, something more to contribute. And how did it get to this point; with me and a transformave change. So my message to you is to go out there and start planng seeds in your life, no maer how hard or pointless it may seem right now. With a lile me, paence and hard work, what now seems like an empty dirt plot will be lled with beauty and growth. Just like a beauful ower aracts bueries, your life will be a magnet to the right kind of people that will truly make it one worth living...

LOVE AND WHITE LIGHT ROBIN RILEY inspirationalguidance@yahoo.com

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family members and friends, easy access to opportunities that will assist them in enhancing their lives in recovery as contributing members in society.

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Special Dates to Remember


May 3, 2014 - 9:00am Earth Day in Pawtucket May 7, 2014 - 10:00am Inspiration Guidance Workshop May 12, 2014 - 6:00pm Anonymous People Movie, Crown Plaza Hotel May 13, 2014 - 10:00am Medication Assisted Recovery Panel, Anchor 1 May 15, 2014 - 10:00am Rhode Island Commission for Human Rights May 15, 2014 - Last day to register for Recovery Coach Academy May 19, 2014 - 5:00pm Drug Overdose Prevention, Newport Hospital May 19, 2014 - 7:00pm Anonymous People, Jane Pickens Theater $10 May 24, 2014 - Fundraiser for Billy Taylor House, Convention Ctr. $60-100

What has Anchor done for you?


Please let us know what Anchor has done for you by e-mail to: ajoseph@provctr.org, hcekala@provctr.org or jgillen@provctr.org and you may be featured in next months issue.

From the Editors Desk


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