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"The Absolute alone is the Primordial Energy"
The Sage Moonstar Neuf Songes The Carouse of Soma Lions and Kings Allah Wake Up Night Reaper Dragon Tales Dragon Dreams Dragon Prayers Dragon Songs Dragon Maker Dragon Thoughts Dragon Sight: A Cremation Poem Kings and Sages Three Waves The Imperishable The Dark Deitess Years of Wonder Dream Appearances Remembrance Recognition Return Spare Advice Tales of Recognition Racopa and the Rooms of Light Hanging Baskets Writer’s Block and other Gray Matters The Resurrection of Quantum Joe The Horse and the Carriage Disturbing Delights: Waves of the Great Goddess
Kalee Bhava: The Goddess and Her Moods Because of Atma The Skills of Kalee Measuring Sky Without Ground Kalee: The Allayer of Sorrows The Goddess and the God Man Living Sakti The Mirage and the Mirror Inherent Solutions to Spiritual Obscurations The Ancient Method Quantum Kamakala Mortal Grounding: Cosmology and Consciousness (2008)
THE SKILLS OF CLEARING CONSCIOUSNESS AND CREATING AN OPENING TO HAPPINESS THE CAVE OF KALEE THE CIRCULATION OF PRIMAL POWER ABSOLUTE SELF BLISS IS PRIMORDIAL POWER THE SURRENDER TO PRIMAL POWER HEARING AND HAVING VOICE THE SKILLS OF ECSTATIC LOVE AND FIERCE BLISS After Words: FREE THOUGHTS Tremendous Love Kalee Lovers Primary Spirituality Consciousness and Neural Activity Ineffability
INTRODUCTION A skill is said to be an expert knowledge of something, in this case, The Skills Of Kalee, are not so much that but more the skills of expert feeling. Skill is said to be a distinctive or separate talent, ability or knowledge, but in this regard it is a separate knowledge of what is Inseparable in all of us. These seven poetic prose creations may be interpreted as you like at an ordinary, a mystical, or a spiritual level. The Skills of Clearing Consciousness and Creating An Opening To Happiness are in the first stance to simply become expert with one's own self psychology, in the second position it is to recognize the tremendous power of our own cognitive forces existing within the psyche, and in the third condition it is to become expertly familiar with who one is in the immensity of the great waking state, that is the true self of Love, which is Happiness. The Cave Of Kalee is the dream condition. In the ordinary it is to know what our dreams are to us, more the feeling content in the background of dream experience than all the actual details of a dream experience. Second, in the mystic sense we are forced to question ourselves in regard to our own dream consciousness and the relation of that consciousness to the Divine Principle. Third, spiritually, we come to a state of amazement, wondering if indeed, the Great Divine may be teaching us or unraveling to us,
the mystery of Self. The Circulation Of Primal Power is an insight into sexual sentiment. Obviously, there is so much confusion over sexuality, but sexual feelings are not the culprit, the culprit is socialization of the psyche into a denial response over what the content of sexual empowerment really means. We cannot deny its presence so we must embrace it as the face of love and cherishing. In the ordinary sense the emotional power moves in the outer current of erotica and romantic love. In the mystical sense this current of feeling moves within the inner sea of spiritual love, as worship, adoration and devotion. At the spiritual level there is peak experience in the psyche which returns to the divine womb source of consciousness itself. The Great Goddess who is Love. Absolute Self Bliss Is Primordial Power, is the center point of resolution and the turning point of non dual conscious thinking or simply bringing down into one's own living experience; oneness, simplicity, balance, happiness and chiefly, Love. Love is Power. Love is Self. Love is the real awareness within the non dual borderline or undivided meeting ground of self and power, which are not two. At the ordinary level this is an outline of excellent spiritual concepts soaked with non dual thought. At the mystical level it is poetics saturated with non dual cognitions. At the spiritual level, I will quote the poet Ramprasad, for my words fall into a mere state of wonderment without any knowledge. "Beholding Her, man is bewitched for evermore; no other form can he enjoy." The Gospel of Sri Ramakrishna. The Surrender To Primal Power may in the ordinary sense be the
art of letting go, from deep down, genuinely. At the mystical level it is realizing that even all that we learn we must let go of, all that we think is our knowledge will be released from us eventually and what will remain is the taste, the flavor, the sentiment behind conscious knowledge. And from the spiritual level it is to deeply realize that from the most profound level of complete conscious non dualism, that it is the Goddess who has done, is doing and will do everything in Her Own Pace. We do not even breathe by our own power, that process goes on with no effort on our part, much the same with what we feel, think, dream or experience. But this level is the complete giving over or rendering up of all small unopened 'I" consciousness to a free and open conscious non dualism where it is felt that there is one and just one power expressing everything and every single thing, even the idea of or the actual conscious depth action of surrender. Hearing And Having Voice is the function of poetic self talk at the ordinary level. At the mystical level it is inner spiritual self dialogue. At the spiritual level, I pray that it will raise wonderment to a peak where the question is answered if we may truthfully hear and have divine dialogues, unbroken spiritual conversations with She who has bewitched the world with Her beauty, love, grace and consciousness. The Skills Of Ecstatic Love And Fierce Bliss at the ordinary level are to fully enjoy one's life as true self experience, without a trace of fear which arises out from the negative mental distortions of the false separative sense. At the mystical level it is the conscious connection, or divine assertion as alert non
dual internal conjugation with the Goddess Kalee. At the spiritual level it is pure non dual conscious connection with Love, which is best expressed by and through ecstasy, rapture, serenity, peace, kindness, benevolence and empathy. It is about ecstasy and unshakability. Fierce unshakability comes only out of the genuine realization of how deeply vulnerable we are. Once the depth of this vulnerability is accepted one may become truly unshakable. This can only be the Love within us all... the one Self Bliss which is ever unshaken, never unnerved, never trembled by dualism. The boldest move you can make is to walk out of the front door of yourself and become what You Are. ................... Love is Reality. Love is the Direct Power of Reality. The whole world circulates and surrenders to Love. All thoughts dream of Love and all voice tries desperately to speak of Love. All efforts in consciousness and all desires for ecstasy and bliss are the wish for Love. Love makes no sacrifice and Love accepts no sacrifice. Why should Love be so involved, being the One all embracing sagacious emotion. Love has already made everything sacred and Love has already taken in everything as sacred. Love does not preach and Love does not teach, for Love is the quiet power ever knowing itself as real, needing no instruction as to what it is. If one goes through the path of consciousness or the examination of being and existence, it is much more difficult to arrive at reality because the stress of mental dualism is there in
this course. But take a person in Love. They wish for, think of and feel nothing but Love for the beloved. This lifts them off the ground. They do not desire to quarrel over what is the right or the wrong, they do not wish to celebrate the joys of life with a friend, they show no egotistical pride being humbled by the great force of the most potent feeling, and they do not even enjoy the pleasures of the senses. Love has pulled them directly and immediately into truth, into Love. All else is discarded as having no importance in the face of the direct power of Love. Love is immediate recognition. When one somehow begins to realize how deeply and solely important Love is, either through or for someone, a person or an ideal, or in the pure sense of Love as absolute reality beyond every dualistic concept, then, the first step has been taken to feel and then see your way clear. The grand sensation of Love spreads and stands forth inside and out, going beyond even the comfortable familiarity with one's own mind. It goes beyond even that idea or experience of the All One or the Great Universal, Love comes back from there, so to speak, and becomes in the living sense, a living reality of functional spirituality. Love sees no dualism. Even in the experience of the lover and the beloved, the entire wish, want or desire is to be One and this Oneness is Love. Love is the non dual reality of the lover and the beloved, the sole fulfillment of Love. This is expressed most commonly as the conjugal physical achievement of lovers as an eternal symbol of oneness. Yet there is also the attainment of psychic emotional non dualism as in the peak emotions of creative and ecstatic poetic consciousness. And in the high
course, there is pure unfettered spiritual non dualism as the all embracing and great perspective of endless feeling, Love. The Primordial Power of Love is so great that some realized beings, souls through history, have given up or let go of their waking state bodies and have melted into death, due merely to the Primal Power of Love. Out of the intensity of serenity in Love their bodies have just dropped away. The poet Ramprasad is one such example. Out of his intense love for the Goddess Kali, knowing his life here was done, he entered a river, left his body there and was never seen again. But if one were to discard the physical body out of the tragedies of Love, the result is not serenity. This is because to forcibly shut down a body's functions is the denial of the learning of Love, but when a physical body's functions just naturally shut down, that is the harmonious accordance of Love pulling you onward. The need for self affirmation is the denial of Love. Love needs no self affirmation being the most comforting and assertive feeling. The need for self esteem is also somehow quite funny, for what makes us feel good about ourselves is when we feel Love within ourselves. Esteem may also be a circle of the ego continually needing to estimate itself and assert itself to the ego. But the ego's need for recognition must be there in the first step in order for the ego to be and become healthy enough for the ego to let go of itself. It is strange and beautiful, when at the end of the course, what the waking body becomes is just three pounds of ash, dirt, what and where is esteem then, for every single self as consciousness has the same value. What matters here, is character, and what is character alone is what
is guileless, which is to be without deceit to others or self trickery, and the one guileless characteristic in the entire world is Love. Love is the source and being of all true and real character, so what is this thing called self esteem. To come, to do, to be done, to let go, to move through the surface of things and release them. This is the skill of Love. Can you live this? From the deepest depth of Love, to let go of any person, principle, idea, concept, feeling or experience, where only Love alone is held. Love is what we wish to hold and be held by, anyway you look at it, and so to hold or be held by, or to try and control or roll against or be attached as staked out by any other thing in this world besides Love is the one cause of what is commonly called suffering. The theory of self esteem, which is how we estimate the self, may be a weak concept, for that estimation is always continually changing from moment to moment. It is Love as true character which is a stronger constant that endures the continually changing estimations of self. Again, esteem is a necessary ratio of response to shame based psychological and religious systems which have utilized this emotion in their restrictive frameworks. The ratio point between esteem and shame is a thin membrane in our conscious subconscious self attitude, due to cultural conditioning. That membrane is delicate and often breaks, then our sense of self falls into the deep well of negative self feeling, pulled by the gravity of shame. Shame prevents us from consciously ascending into the feeling of Love. I had a dream where I was inside a white mansion, there was a beautiful white chair and behind this chair stood a twelve foot tall white Tibetan god. He invited me to sit in the chair, but I could not, due to my
falsely humble self sense, generated out of my subconscious shame based emotion of self estimation. What would have happened if this emotional factor had not influenced me? Probably, I would have sat in the chair and communed with the deity and then within my dream consciousness, I may have also opened up to experience the deep inner intuitive guidance of my own dream mind, which was there before me, ready perhaps to lift me in this dream, into a better more open consciousness of Love.... Of course, ego, in the sense of a shame generated cognition of who you are, is the differential factor keeping and preventing us from feeling a deep unity with Love or the forms of Love, as the Goddess, the God or the Great Reality. Ego is the 'I' sense, Love is the True 'I' sense. The 'I' is the common factor of this ratio. The 'I' is not the problem of the dualistic mind, the problem is the dualism in cognitive attitude. I heard a nice definition of the ego, as it is to "Edit God Out", very simple, but very effective. The whole problem of dualism with the ego - God ratio, is not one of concept but one of sentiment. Can we feel this Unity with God, Goddess, whatever appeals to the heart, even if we have an ego? Yes. But if you go about imagining that you are one with God and others are not, that is insanity. While if you feel that you are one with and in unity with God, Love, and so is every other single being, that is certainly enlightenment. That eliminates the editor, ego, and this elevates you to feel Love, which is the very essence of God. The elsewhere idea of exclusive positioning in ego-mind consciousness enhances the editor, that inner self attitude which cuts you out of the Unified Feeling of Love.
The poet Keats wrote from his spiritual experience, "Beauty is truth, truth beauty,- that is all ye know on earth, and all ye need to know." Love is truth and Love is beauty, that is all you need know and all you can know. That is the one transcendent movement in consciousness. The typical and atypical profound idea forms that come from the collective pool of divine intelligence are but drops of water from the ocean of consciousness. But this is Consciousness itself, which is Love, the Power of that Consciousness, not just awareness, it is living feeling, an awareness which is perpetually alive. This is the gift of the Divine to the human mind and this is what is in the human mind that comprehends the Divine. Love. The paradox or dualism of these great thought forms in the conscious ocean are what obstruct consciousness and yet assist by teaching this perpetually alive non dual principle of Love. What is ugly or what is beautiful is relative here, for beauty without character is ugly and the ugly is beautiful when character is seen there. The entire paradoxical dualism of thoughts is what says this is to be Loved and this is not to be Loved. Such thinking is a momentary concept or phenomenal obstruction to the clearing of conscious dualism before the greater ability of Love sets in. These dualisms must be cleared out in the conscious waking state mind, but also every dualistic trace of thought, sentiment and attitude must also be cleared at the subconscious level of the dream state mind, for if not, the cross over of dualistic imprints from the subconscious dream mind will influence the reaction of one's attitude and defining sentiments of Love in the conscious waking state experience. The deep dream free or dreamless state of consciousness has
no dualism, for no secondary waking or dreaming image, idea or even feeling appears there in one's consciousness. All that is known is the Being of Love, which is true bliss, yet dreamlessness still does not completely recognize this in consciousness, or in this alert conscious standing over, in the ever awakened principle sentiment of Love. The deepest fear a human being may entertain is that we might somehow be abandoned by Love. This can never be so. It is mental illusion in the conscious and subconscious dualism. For example, in one's waking mind one might be very clear about one's feelings for another, but then in the dream state the subconscious speaks as one may dream up some terror of being pulled away and abandoned by Love. This is dualistic fear, at one level you are fine, at another you are not. That is why all traces of dualism must be cleared out at the subconscious level. And here, deeper meanings come up to the observer of the dream surface. The fear might be that inwardly one doubts one's own capacity to Love or feels in some place inside an inability to let go and Love for real. Or such things could also be subconscious doubts over another person. Love assures. Love heals. The fear complex of this anxiety exists even in the herculean intellect, for even though one may deeply comprehend great things, that tremendous intellect may deep down feel alone and abandoned. But Love is there, the mind is just ignoring the wonder. This conscious subconscious paradoxical dualism within psychic images is a curious thing. Know that no image is perfect, no human figure, no spiritual symbol, all are limited by their very
nature of finite containment and so cannot speak the full truth of Love. Keats and Ramprasad both had great spiritual minds and deep experience, even so, for example, the symbol of an English soldier as a psychic image becomes a paradox. To one, the English soldier may appear, consciously or subconsciously, as a psychic symbol of heroism, complete self sacrifice and bravery, but to the other, the same symbol may appear as an image of injustice, oppression and dominance. It is the same image, but the Hindu mind of one and the English mind of the other are projecting different qualities onto the image. This shows that it is the stuff inside us more than the image outside us that counts. One may resolve the core of dualism in one's self, but on the outside, in the realm of others, it will go on. In one life, a former enemy may be one's best friend and in the next life, a best friend may be an enemy. Love keys up to see no dualism. It is the great empathic perspective of Love that does not take definitions nor experiences as personal. Love knows we are all continually changing. Yet, Love sees even beyond this, beyond all those forms of dualism. An extreme and difficult paradoxical dualism of the human mind is the projection of sexual divisions on the Most Pure Substance of Love. Who may say what Love is, no one, for of all things in this conscious living universe, Love ever remains never defined. Celestial lovers, gods, goddesses, and even angels (messengers), may on one hand be real but on the other, may be tremendous cognitive projections of dualistic human consciousness on the Indescribable Blessed Substance of Love. Before children are socially conditioned to discriminate those dualistic divisions, they just naturally and spontaneously express unfettered Love.
Later, the mental dualism of the feminine and masculine comes into the mind and the ubiquitous omnipotent and unfettered Love is cognised dualistically. Angels, for example, are said to be only pure spirit, sexless, with no physical bodies, generated out of the divine substance of Love. But if you look in any common dictionary of angels, you find five or six female angels and all the rest are male. Is this not the cognition of a hypocrite, who has taken a pure psychic image and projected their own conditions of male exclusivity on a reality-image which is beyond all ideas of dualistic sexual dividing. Love cannot be divided. There are subtle emotional responses to which almost all of us are unaware. Divisional dualistic thinking on how we have been trained in our consciousness to define what it is to feel Love. For example, do you ever question that Love in reality, has no interest in the responses of reward and punishment, but that Love is always continually there as a singular unified omnipotent response. The ideas of reward and punishment are the negative destructive cognitions of a patriarchal emotionality. I am not speaking of defending one's freedom, that we should stand up against principles and persons for the essential birthright to liberty. I am speaking of a daily emotional response system to which most of us have been culturally, socially, psychologically and religiously trained at the subconscious level. Simply, that when someone does what we want, we then reward them. And when someone doesn't do what we want, we then punish them. This may be built into the human system, but I doubt it. It seems more like emotional training response which creates a lot of problems in life because it eliminates the desires of another person who just might have their own personal design on what
they want their life to be. Not harmful stuff, just their own wishes, which in the reward and punishment dualistic mechanism receives the corresponding reactions. The only wrong in this world is to be unloving and the only right in this world is to be Loving. It is as simple as day and night and all other human behavioral tendencies are based just on this. Essentially and ultimately for Love, in Love and as Love all must be Loved and all must be free to Love. Love is the true anchor in the calm sea of serenity, but on the surface of that sea the waves of the relativity paradox continue in motion. People make judgments, people have opinions, seek affirmation, want esteem, desire to have recognition and so forth. Personally, I prefer to be a simple guileless fool, putting all that silliness behind me. What worth has that for me. I live in my own power, Love. I keep sorrow in the front of my skull and ecstasy in the back of my skull and by this I know the reason for and within every human reaction. I never forget, that, if you go looking for your own light in the light of another, that just might be a fool's darkness. I am not afraid to say it, that between sorrow and ecstasy, every human being is strung out on a net of cause and effect. Without keeping in mind, sorrow and ecstasy as the prime movers, any definition one might project on any other person will probably be wrong. Take three or four people in a room. One is talking about some transient interpersonal problem. Another person gets up and moves to a solitary place in the room. The speaker gets offended and hurt, thinking that the other person doesn't regard what they have to say as important. But later
they come to realize the reason why that person needed a moment of solitude, which is, that between their own ecstasy and sorrow, they were in fear of their own mortality, believing that they might be dying. What is a simple interpersonal problem compared to that primary concern of the soul. It is so often like that, we think one thing is enormous to us, but then the waves of the relativity paradox move before us and we realize that what might seem apparent to us, is often not reality. Because we live in the dual mind, this phenomena continues. But, what would Love see and how would Love feel during that same event? Can the experience of Unconditional Love ever be described? No! Has anyone ever done it? No! No human power is capable nor has the ability to say what Love is. We may say that Love is the Truest Innermost Self, the Reality in Reality, Pure Goddess Loving Pure Goddess, the God of God, still, this statement does not describe what Love is. We may say that Love is the pure bliss of being in the consciousness of the dream free condition of sleep, where no psychic or waking image vibrates there in the field or substance of this consciousness, so experienced as non dual oneness in pure free self being. Still, in no way does that describe what Love is. We may say that the content of every single variegated dream state is speaking, seeking, peeking, finding, searching to feel and hoping to discover Love, reflecting Love in clarity and in confusion, in the insights of enlightenment or the despair of discomfort, ever dreaming on the non duality of Love. Still, that does not describe what Love is. We may say that this non dual oneness of Love may come down into the depth of our very most visceral experience of the waking state mind as an electromagnetic function of non dual neural activity, wiping
paradox out of every psychic imprint. We may actually feel this non dual Love in every biochemical molecule of our physical being, as clear thinking in serotonin, as well being in endorphine, as pleasurable attraction in oxcytocin, as even non duality in excited adrenaline, or even in anger, fierce with non dualism in the noraphenephrine, or even the tension of non dualism expressed in the stress chemicals of this body surging with non dualism. Every molecule now changed, now alive with Love. Still, this too does not describe what Love is! We may say that Love is the living ratio between serenity and simplicity, expressing perfect satisfaction free of all expectation. We may say that Love is the divine non dual conjunction of what is visibly human and what is invisibly spiritual. We may say that consciousness functioning in Consciousness is the grounded path, the impulse of Love. We may say that non dual Consciousness alone and one, is the groundless path, the intuition of Love. Yet we may say, impulse entangles and intuition frees, intuition finds peace, while impulse finds not simplicity. But none of this describes nor conveys what is Love. We may say that Love is what relieves the hell of dual confusion, that Love is what lifts off from us this strange discomfort. We may say that Love is like a dream of heaven where everywhere in the dream stuff, wonderful food is continually produced out of nothing without reason nor cause and full of abundance, so no one is hungry. But then, you doubt that Love is there, so in the dream you set up a restaurant, out of a fear that Love will not feed you. When all the while, everywhere you go you are there with Love feeding you abundantly. Most interesting. Still, no one
defines what Love is... No thinking, no figuring, no amount of words, no wave movements in the consciousness of dual confusion, knows what Love is. We may say that Love is our own personal spiritual power, that Love is inspiration, never fully translated by intellect, that Love is this pure power of inspiration and that intellect without Love only distances us from the inspiration of Love. That master poet of the stone, Rodin, may have said it so well with The Thinker, originally named The Poet, which is the commanding statue in his Gate of Hell series. The poor Thinker's brain will never get it, head stressed on his fist, bless his heart. It is Love which makes the leap into the beyond which he contemplates. As Rodin said it, "As it is simply the power of character which makes beauty in art..." And what is this 'power of character', but to be engraved by the hands of Love!
THE SKILLS OF KALEE
Mother Kali, as a truth sayer I must admit that I am afraid to begin again this poetic prayer meditation on You. Why do you fill me with all these thoughts of You which only become free once they are placed into the forum of poetry? I am but a mere human being. How can I explain away the horror beauty paradox, the mortal immortal problem, the pleasure pain puzzle, the dualism of darkness and light. Mere bravery cannot do it! Why me Mother? I am just Your frightened child whose mind runs over and over the ego's architecture of the ridiculous, while wrestling with myself walking on the thin rail of myself, rarely able to see when I am wrong, ever engaged in procrastination on what is real spiritual life and as I am so dependent on the misery within myself how is it that You would wish me to compose poetry on You who are immortally independent and free?
The Skills Of Clearing Consciousness And Creating An Opening To Happiness Kalee, let me let myself go into the pure thought of now, pregnant with bliss, like a perfect fragrance that collides with the brain without any memory associated with it, so that I will not even need to engage the skills of clearing consciousness. Kalee, what I choose to write in the book of my mind becomes my story! Goddess, give me more Love and less logic, more Wonder and less worry, more Power and less projection, more Trust and less thought, more Pleasure and less process, more Truth and less technique, more Joy and less justification, more Alertness and less arrogance, more Faith and less formula... more and more spontaneous flowing feeling and less suffocating forms of mere apparent or momentary freedom! Kalee, clear this consciousness that sits, sets and exists before You, so that Happiness may be created within the vacuum that was once filled by non living self restriction! Kalee, what can I do? So many will say they cannot understand this, that it is too deep, too intellectual or they will confuse the words thinking I have said something else. Most souls look at the ground and fail to see the vast extent of the sky. Could it be that their spiritual powers of concentration are more like grains of sand and less like mountains in their nature? Why is it so difficult to comprehend, each life is like a book, each day is like a page and what we write there is what we are. While others will
say they do not believe thought may become form and that conscious decision is what brings this about. Could it be they are afraid of what is in their own minds or is it that they feel that the cause and effect of destiny making is more potent, the outer forces, but Kalee, is not the first thought the first cause. Each page is change, each page is renewal, each page is the thought placed on the mind's blank paper! Is this so special, so difficult to realize or Kalee, have You just placed me in a dimension which rises to meet Your Serene expressions outdistancing the common comedy so serious with death, so complex to the soul? Kalee, this need to control is attachment, attachment is to be staked out and now You are removing the stake! I cannot control life nor death nor anything between or from within both sides of these great moments. So, my Kalee, I release the false stance which pertains to these matters. It is Your wondrous phenomenal play of such intense primal power as You wish it to move anyway! So for me I do not need to plan what will happen in the next moment for You have already decided that a go-zillion years ago! Kalee, anything else in the matter of control is the ego mind defense of the false self sense rolling against the primal power as True Self! Even if consciousness is cleared on one day and every core of dual conflict is faced, dealt with, passed through and resolved... then released, as acceptance arrives in the shape of letting go from feeling's ownership and the free sense of being fully alive comes in and even the excelling assertion of unconditional Love sets in for you... still, the next day the whole thing might need be done again. This is life, life does not stop, the planet does not
cease to rotate just because mind and emotion have found their resting place.... the continuum of progress is ever there within self and the mind of others may still wish to deal with you.... What a wonderful lessen to learn! Clearing is the skill of just allowing shadows in the psyche to surface as they may... Indeed, is that great universal unconscious collective so unconscious as the word may draw the mind to think. The great idea forms and original profound sentiments, both frightening to the ego and yet beautiful to the soul, do indeed surface to what we think of as conscious! To wit, during inspiration, dream and in the moments of realization... perhaps always, that ancient material of the spirit, the mind and heart is there, yet we do not notice the dynamics, the functions and the most fantastic mechanisms of that useful helpful material, that we all share in common, equally. At times it appears that we are but a collective of memories to which we respond, creating new memories based on the collective already stored up. In truth, we were powerless over the formation of these memories, now shadows, formed in the past. It is the same for everyone everywhere, we all must embrace and heal the substance of the same material. It is the same in everyone, as what is spiritual is also absolutely the same in everyone. But in this here and now, in ratio to the past, we may form fresh new memories whose responses are fresh systems of response. In this new response, new life is created. A new life is made real to us, free of the weight of unresolved self to shadow dichotomy, which if not faced and confronted, will baffle us with emotions and cognitons such as resentment, regret, the feeling that we have lost something, that we are not whole, that we have been
betrayed or belittled in ways that leave us with the false sense of incompletion or of having no purpose or the feeling of being unfinished. These types of emotion are a cunning form of stuffing ourselves with toxic escapist sensations which arise from the denial of our true self feelings. Whatever caused this should be boldly embraced, fully confronted somehow, within self or outside self if it need be so, and brought to actuality, to reality. Then we may celebrate our life with our own natural wisdom, in the friendship of self with truth, free of the shadow of hard arrogance. In truth it is only that we claim this collective of memories, claim it as ours, and say to ourselves that this is what we are, and form an ego identity with this memory collective, with the false thought that this is all we are. But once something greater than this ego identity is felt and understood, we learn to be the Observer of the ego's collective and watch it as it is, a cause and effect drama, full of humor, tragedy and movement toward completion as spontaneous Happiness. The clearing of Consciousness is an amazing paradox, for what is Consciousness needs no clearing. It is the ego which is the container of all that needs clearing, not Consciousness which is always clear.... Through the divine assertion of what I am, I need no affirmation of who I am... nor excuse, apology, nor mending... once feeling is genuinely identified, embraced, confronted... then skillful process begins and the container which has held the primal ego identity begins to break down... By asserting the primal force of the 'I' through unifying love and authentic expression of true self being the skillful action begins... Kalee, I now accept flattery as insult and criticism as flattery
having learned what a strange and self deluded mechanism the ego container is... for now every shadow that surfaces from the psyche I embrace as a helper to see the true self more clearly... for the most amazing mind-dust intoxicant is denial of ego delusion which keeps us from facing and embracing the shadows that must be brought to the surface. There is no such thing as intrinsic evil, everything is either crisis or ecstasy or return. All are simply seeking Unity in what is Happy and that is the clearing of consciousness... The shame based sense of being what you are or the guilt based sense of having done a wrong are dark negative creations of toxic religious systems which seek to control. The only golden rule of this life is Love, in all respect of Love and to harm no one... What treacherous systems have been set up in the psyche due to the infectious thought of shame, such as from traditions of domination which state such things as... "honor your father and mother so that all your days will be"... okay, well, the real meaning of honor is 'honesty'. So the saying should go more like be honest about your father and mother or any authority figure, human mentor, sapient teacher or spiritual guide, during any phase of your life and then because you are truth telling, your true self will shine. When uncleared consciousness is cleared of false set ups and all those shame based self cognitions are shoveled into a more productive part of the mind garden, the mind becomes capable of seeing and discovering what life should be as a birthright... Happiness! This skill of Kalee is to reclaim your birthright as Happy Consciousness. By Her empowerment, I, myself, as this serene
Consciousness, have so many thousands, millions, numerous mothers-fathers joyfully joined in conjugal union, the bliss impact of which ever recreates me each time I have died... I have no cause for fear, nor anything else, the idea that I have one mother or father is profound delusion, a spiritual lie... My parents are the gods and goddesses, not just simple X or Y chromosome sources... who is my father, my mother... I am more than a speck of genetic sperm or a DNA program in an egg .... with this I no longer block the truth that we are all imperfect, I face this shadow, confront it and embrace it and I am free... This skill of Kalee is the journey of self discovery and the roots of wisdom and happiness, denying nothing. It is indeed the severing of the ego head of self delusion filled with the phenomenal elements of dependence on a false sense of self. Kalee cuts off this ego head with Her wisdom sword and what is left is a happy and free self existing in one's own independence, not bound by shame generated lack of divine esteem, or unidentified grief, or the non-living stifled self. When Kalee's sword swings the psyche is cleared of the dependent mind and then that same psyche begins to identify with something greater... Kalee, the blessed result of this skill is Happiness in the Consciousness of Being. When the psyche becomes clear of all that has made it emotionally numb, what sets in at that moment is the sense of well being in the true self. It is to directly identify the core of pain in what is untrue as dual dependence, for deep down, everyone loves truth non dual, independent and free. When that is done what is left is the serene Observer
Consciousness which is the witness of life's play. It was always there, only covered with denial, once it is free, then humorously or wit-fully true self lives alive with full consciousness, watching and participating in the caring and sharing of life, with self, with others, with the whole universe as a spectral delight.... Kalee, the untrue self, dependent on the phenomenal elements of ego defense denial mechanisms is the dynamic of self penalty for the birthright of happy satisfaction within, this is what pain originally meant. But what is the source of pain. It is the sense of separation and then not being able to identify the feeling of that separation, this expands, leaving one out there all alone and imperfect, but the integration or initiation of this sense, will come, back to unity, back into return.... Kalee, this skill of returning seems complex at first yet simple in the end... it is the skill of identifying primary emotion or original, genuine, real feeling. This is Love, nothing else. The most difficult emotion in world to describe yet so intimately known by all. It is the one incomprehensible feeling that gathers beyond all dualistic emotional responses and melts the borderline between what is thought to be human and what is held as divine. Love is ultimately Spiritual. The one thing, if I may say, that survives all forms of death, spiritual, psychological, emotional or physical. The absence of Love is fear, hurt, the denial of life and the anxiety associated with the death forms of these emotions, death in the sense that Love is not alive there, though this is not true in the fact. Love is never dead, buried perhaps, but never dead. The rejection of Love is hate, which is intense disliking. The absence of Love is anger, simply the anxious feeling of not
being Loved. The need of Love is desire, passion, romance and pure unfettered sexuality, even so, once spiritually opened, adoration, devotion and worship. The need of Love is affirmation, confirmation, the equality of self worth, self estimation, self esteem, self value. Love alone out lasts each death form and since every psyche embodied will go through each death form we are all leveled by death, Love being the only 'thing' left, well then, we all have the Same Value! Kalee, these skills provide comprehension of the waking state psyche, conscious connection in the dream state, the genuine feeling of non dualism behind and within sexual bliss, the vital experience of true spirituality, real letting go as rendering up without replay, the sagacious emotion of greater capacity and higher ability in spiritual poetics and courageous enjoyment which is fierce bliss, the result of ecstatic love. A great amount of the skill of clearing consciousness is freely allowing with welcome the open acceptance of embracing emerging shadows from the psyche and then releasing these, an opening is created at that moment and innate happiness then shines as the feeling of peace. Since the world is complex, the imprints in the psyche have become complex, yet the skill is simple, confronting each, one by one, as they just arise in the moment. Surfacing and Release, that is the simple key to clearing. In regard to the dual mother-father problem which is and has always been universal, shadows about the human parents arise. Some say that the potent neural activity of these imprints in the conscious and subconscious, in the nervous system and the psyche are primary, but what is really primary is the tastes or
sentiments of the soul that are projected on the mother-father principles. What is primary is that which is behind the apparent, that we all seek to know a truth telling image of spiritual unity in the mother-father image shadow, shows that deep behind that image we want to know that we are a child of the goddess and her god. We know that we are spiritual beings, and not merely some tossed out neural activity, hereditary biochemical response systems or fragmented biogenetic legacy of fixed psychological, behavioral and emotional imprints. These shadows will surface and when they do they must be released into divine imperfection. Surfacing of shadows and then release, in regard to the damage done to the common psyche one cannot estimate the confusion caused by dominate religions of the god of war, justice and punishment. There are many unhealed shadows of resentment toward this for in the depth of the human soul one detects what great untruth there is in this. Those doctrinal organized belief systems teach that life is illusion, the world false except for their exclusive viewpoint. This is also a perception of the egotistical psychotic who perceives only self importance. Such systems deconstruct all dependence except for dependence or superstition on their central spiritual figure, authority or teacher. These teach the lie of their own perfectionism and the disgusting negation for life, deny the need of human emotional passion and the naturalness of humor, kill out compassion and the feeling of celebrating life as Love. The shadow wound is there in the shape of lie which has betrayed truth which can only be Love. I am bold now and free to say and know this truth. I was deceived. Now, without fear, I have taken back what was taken from me.
Again, releasing shadows may come somewhere between transcendent all embracing Love and practical fear. This is the shadow of Love betrayed where hurt, wound, trauma and abandonment has been left. It happens in everyone's life for who among any of us knows how to Love another without wounding them, shocking them with our personal anger and resentment toward ourselves, thoughtlessly humiliating their sense of self value or their context of spiritual definition or what they wish to become or what they hope to be. It goes on and on because who knows how to love without wounding. Strange isn't it. When all along Love is what we all want... And shadows of inborn tendencies must be embraced and released. Shadows that come from who knows where, from previous lives, from subtle formations during earliest childhood, or from womb memories or the slightest things that imprint the psyche only to be noticed later like waves made by ships that reach the shore after that ship has passed. Such inborn shadow tendencies must be embraced with full self responsibility. Other shadows are not our primary responsibility. There are differences. With some we are the victim, with some we are the abuser, but all must be faced, embraced, released and ceased.... Shadows come within the gaps of art or ritual where the unexpressible Love is not conveyed. Shadows come in the forms of unfinished psychic work, incomplete or not completely honest personal story or in dreams which are difficult to interpret. Shadows come from the separation we project on other human being as being so different when we are all the same ultimately.
Shadows are projected in fearful forms when we do not understand their sources; hate, anger, fear, rejection, resentment and so for. There are psychological emanations of the negative in group consciousness or individual mind. Very powerful is the projective potency of mind. Shadows come out of religion and spirituality which retains that it is exclusive and which expresses egotism and arrogance in what is true spirituality as universal. Shadows come from the gap between ourselves when we are obsessed with work, perfection, progress beyond our power or achievements without soul. Shadows come forth from our fear over health and from the delusional poisoned idea that sexuality is an illness that must be cured, controlled or transcended. Shadows dance out of the psyche due to deceit, envy and anger toward self in the primary and others in the secondary. And shadows are made in the psyche when we have felt disowned by truth, god, reality, when we have felt unloved by the same or that we are made without this Power in Us. Simply, all dualistic shadow attractions come from within the shadow of Love unseen, but when Love is seen.... something inexpressible happens and oneness is felt as our experience...... We discover that we are in truth Unstifled! Kalee, for me to put any further definition or structural compartments to emotions would be redundant. Love is never redundant. To try to define Love is as attempting to define the ocean, water, but water moving in more ways than one can think, and every emotion is but a shape in this water. Water being its substance, its cause, its very existence. Simply, whether one is excited or worried, happy or depressed, Love is the background emotion behind and inspiring all feelings... Love is the center
point of all sentiment... Kalee, if I learn the skill of Love, then whenever shadows surface from me, as they will always do, until sometime unknown to me, then I shall be capable in embracing those shadow helpers and they shall become one with Love. Love loves truth telling, the sharing of the real story within each of us which is never so different one to the other. Love is not god-like, Love is not justice from on high, Love does not measure nor punish. Love is ever Self defined, yet humble as the excreta that has become humus. Love never resends nor replays resentment, for Love ever lets go of the old to embrace the new. Love is more than ever grateful. Love, having no measurement, accepts and takes in everyone. Love is not exclusive. Love releases pain and bring one home. Love is ever discovered anew. Love always gives back what is needed in others, gives for and forgives. Love is selfless yet the most powerful assertion of self. Love is responsible for everything and Love has never betrayed anyone. Love is the one and only independent emotion in the world that can and may successfully confront every other miscellaneous feeling. Love is the most powerful of all, yet Love has no resistance. Love does not compete, Love does not manipulate, Love alone is not superficial. Love is the pure power of Now, Love thinks not of what has gone down nor what shall go down. In Love there is no escape, nor any holding on. Love is the only true knowledge out of which everything is written. Love is real wisdom. Love is the only ever changing inner freedom. Love is sometimes ecstatic, sometimes sorrowful. Love denies nothing. Love is relaxed and never wastes. Love is felt in the gut and the bone, in the spirit and the soul and yet no one has defined what is Love.... Love
does not generate misery nor regenerate old misery. Love is one step in front of every function of the psyche. Love is not logical, rational nor reasonable. Love does not procrastinate for Love is always now. Love is the cure for dualism and the source of all seeing, feeling, being, knowing and healing. Love is the source of all courage and truth! Love is the most serious feeling in the world but Love does not take itself seriously in the face of the world. Love is what is left here in you after consciousness is cleared. Love is the identity of the true 'I'. Love has no sovereign!
Clearing Consciousness appears to produce or cause or create Happiness, but this Happiness was Here, even prior to the clearing.... If one starts to generate and create the psychological state of well being, the open thought of Happiness, that open thought begins to multiply into surprising dimensions of accounting Happiness. One should even take in what is the apparent negative as sources of Happiness, for in truth, what irritates, disturbs, or challenges us is there to awaken us to something greater than ourselves. As spiritual pain or separation should awaken us to Unity, as psychic emotional pain should awaken in us Love as something greater than that pain once felt and as physical pain, we are starkly and immediately reminded that the frame of the body is not a lasting dwelling.... The 'I' Is Happy Because, the 'I' is the Causeless Cause of Happiness... the 'I' is Happy because it is the true identity of Love... the 'I' is Happy because Love is simple... and I am Happy Because... the the communion of poetry with Kalee is now
continuous... because I do not depend on outside things for Happiness.... because I am Happy and that makes me more Happy... because I can see the reason (cause) behind the effect, the primary emotion... I am Happy because my mind is working right, seeing the Goddess in everything... and I am Happy because I am very Happy with the Sacred Feminine Joy within, at one, and inside me.... I am Happy Because since Ecstatic Love has Awakened the difficult is simple... my thoughts flow continuous like scented oils over the Goddess, needing no channels, canals, nor trails to follow... now... a flood has happened and lucky bliss without question flows with no efforts... I am Happy Because I no longer need to rush to be where I am.... I am Happy Because my mind does not sway from Happiness... I am Happy Because I take as much joy in small accomplishments as I do in great achievements... Kalee... I am Happy Because I no longer need to remind myself of You, nor any principle that points to You, nor of anything to do, say or be... it is all outside of me now... I am Happy Because my mind is where I set it... in the elsewhere of two, in the here-where of one... in the practice ever expanding or the happy bridge in the moment of now, yet She is Sweeter than these and my surrender in Her is more than a mind set rendered up or translated by me... I am Happy Because I know the fine and subtle difference between the idea of letting go and deep true letting go... I am Happy Because I dream and in those dreams I see awakened females and males performing mystic gestures of equanimity and writing messages of spiritual intuitions to me... I am Happy Because I no longer rely on my own power, sitting with hope, posed in waiting or standing in expectation for Self to arrive... I am Happy Because Kalee does not allow me to forget and everything reminds me of Her, and
every shadow memory that surfaces from the mind depth is now embraced by the primary feeling behind the shadow, freeing consciousness to Happiness which creates more opening to Happiness... I am Happy Because I do not take myself so seriously as I once did, for now I know this one life does not last forever and I can feel Kalee speaking direct profound personal truth tailored to me here and through the forms of old men and ancient crones, always it is Her voice that speaks the needed truth... I am Happy Because I listen... I am Happy Because I do not seek dependent suffering but dependent suffering seeks me... I am Happy Because no one is absolutely dependent on me for their happiness or their misery... I am Happy Because I do not search out pleasure but pleasure searches out me... I am Happy Because I do not find wealth, wealth finds me... I am Happy Because I do not know anything but knowledge knows me... I am Happy Because I have no power but Power Has Me... I am Happy Because I experience no bliss but bliss experiences me... I am Happy Because I do not attain independent Self, that Self attains me... I am Happy Because I do not seek perfection... I am Happy Because Happiness cannot be known as a thing and since I was never originally condemned, I need no salvation... I am Happy Because I see Kalee everywhere behind all shape or imagination... I am Happy Because I see no divisions in people nor does death alert me nor alarm me. I am Happy Because I have no teachers nor am I one, nor do I have students nor am I one... I am Happy Because I have no mother, nor father, nor friends, nor lovers, nor enemies, nor brothers, sisters, cousins, aunts, nor uncles, nor any connections. I am Happy Because I do not eat, food eats me, nor do I practice spiritual practice, I am spiritual, so why should I practice... I am Happy Because I see no right nor wrong,
knowing these two come from somewhere else, to wit, out of pain or the need for pleasure... I am Happy Because finally I harm no one... I am Happy Because things of agreement or disagreement have become indifferent for me and that I am no longer greedy to maintain a pride in ego centric maintenance, why, what need is there of that... I am Happy Because I see my Goddess in my hands and feet, in my sex and voiding, in my mind and intelligence, in my ego drama and every single memory that surfaces from the depth and that I taste Her taste and smell Her fragrance, and hear Her Voice while beholding Her sight, as She gently touches sensitive surfaces and reels and rolls through me in all my emotional flavors and tastes and every sensation or sentiment, while She is surrounding the consciousness of this Happy 'I' with Her gentle flower offerings of earth bodies, water feelings, fire minds, thought winds and divine substances pervading everywhere.... I am Happy Because all this is true and real and without doubt, and that I can put my voice to this and identify this immediately as my true feeling!
The Cave Of Kalee In the Cave of Kalee the Dream is generated out of Her Consciousness into my own. This is the place of Power and the Seat of Truth, where voice and vision are known in the heart spontaneously without the nuisance or need of an intermediary, human, spiritual, or otherwise in between! This Cave of Kalee is Pure Self Bliss covered with dream conditions. She indeed does reveal Herself. She does manifest, adorned with symbols or yet purely naked! Any symbol you want may appear on Her, any symbol you put will appear on Her or She may appear as the absence of all symbols purely unadorned in the conditionless dream free sleep! In fact, as it is, all symbols are the Self symbols of Pure Bliss manifesting as seven billion, seven million, seven hundred thousand states of mind each with their own unique language. You must know what language you speak in the conditions of dream, within the Cave of Bliss. Kalee, in this dream identity of who I am, What and Who are You? I know, I know my Dear One, You are the Bliss without dichotomy, the Self in Self within these dream conditions reflecting in an infinite manner, like an image in two mirrors facing one another, going back and forth, forth and back, endlessly. Yet Kalee, contrary to the finite interpretation of thought forms, You are the center and the command of all thoughts reflecting self thoughts in the dream states... Self is central, moving, yes also, but central too, yet two without two!
In this Cave of Kalee, a Door in consciousness is Created where Her Greater Ability enters, becomes, yokes, and enjoys my ability... primal power identified in True Self shines resolving dichotomies dissolving.... the dual spectrum... love and hate, joy or sadness, hurt and relief, boredom or involvement, fear and hope, repulsion or attraction, shyness and curiosity, confusion or clarity, guilt and innocence, shame or pride, frustration and contentment, loneliness or community, rejection and support, emptiness or fulfillment, inferiority and equality, suspicion or trust, anger and affection, weakness or strength, satisfaction or its lacking.... Then She shines as the consciousness in me bewitched by Her enchanting non duality. The peak from which everything is seen! Kalee, I send unconditional powerful love wishes to everyone, for it is the one state of mind and sentiment that gives me peace, bestows bliss and creates natural enjoyment and spontaneous wonder! Kalee, it is doubtless that You appeared, revealed and manifested Yourself in the form of sacred dream consciousness. Then and there, inner amazement! Yet, my Dear One, nothing in our wildest dream contents could be stranger than the real Earth history and the way in which the Universe came to be... Your material physical dream, my Dearest One! Kalee, I was once again waiting unexpectedly for Your blessed dream contents to pour through and forth from You to Me! Was this indeed the living conscious memory of identity existing in reality within the book of a former past life experience, the page of one blessed day from therein? Or, my Kalee, was it simply a
personal metaphor from the luminous dictionary of my own dream language? Who can say, not I, nor anyone, so complete and so mysteriously interesting is Your Universe! The walls of the Cave were luminous with fire light and there before the fire the former me sat in sacred and secret worship of the Deitess! Who was I there adorned with all of Your symbols mystic and wonderful... while Ecstasy Shined in the peak height of yoking union dissolved in the perfection of non dual consciousness with the sentiment of oneness existing solely As You. There I saw my former self clearly from the dream point of view, as one may enter the Cave, blessed with the presence of Kalee. I looked upon that self I once was and there saw myself no more. What did I see, oh Kalee, it was You. You had become Me and I was no longer there. Yet my consciousness remembers the event horizon of disappearance.... Was it You or Me, Kalee? I could not tell. I saw You there where I once was, beautiful, dark as a storm cloud, mystic wonderful woman Goddess in all the pure brilliance of your sacred feminine consciousness and You were adorned as You ever are dancing, conjugal in the holy cremation ground. Every mystic symbol was there with You, yet You were also at oneness without symbol, luminous just as You are in the eternal moment of timelessness itself unknown by the knowing potency of mind yet ever felt in the heart of the Real as Self! Oh, what power infinite, indescribable, to be but Bliss! Kalee, Your Divine Function continuously generates luminosity in the brilliant light of dream consciousness reflecting itself on the Bright Mirror of Your Own Mind, yet in me, Your unfocused child, there are still gaps of the remembered and not yet remembered.
Where does it all come from? Your divine command center within the dream free Consciousness showering sweet dew drops of darkness playfully creating self forgetfulness... or does every vision and voice from You come directly from the Pure Self never distinct from Your Primal Absolute Power? Kalee, out of my connection with Your ever present innate felicity please give me the small gift of total and complete comprehension of all persons, principles or places ever encountered, experienced or embraced, it is but a particle of Your Mind, my Goddess, and so it should be in me, so that Your child may live freely in unconditional and purely non-dependent Love. Bless me with the understanding of all emotions, peaking, dropping or swaying, highly resolved, sorrowfully sinking or wavering from side to side... simply, the power to feel Love under all conditions... Give me a functional spirituality which demonstrates the no longer stifled sentiment of immediate wonder! Kalee, exalt my mind with the full comprehension of Love, whether or not the consciousness of 'I' is awake to the waking state, or conscious and alive to dream conditions or unconscious of time and space in the sweet existing, being this dreamlessness of consciousness without dream or waking sculptings of shapes into insights, ideas or the forms of feeling... Kalee, sometimes I must push my mind down from these flights into Your Wonders! My frail spiritual system cannot yet contain Your Immensity. Help me, my Goddess, to identify the the feelings You are putting, placing, making and creating in Me! Goddess, ever pervading, filling and permeating my dream consciousness, my own personal dream language of symbols may
indeed mean very little in regard to individual self importance, except for this context of being in the dream language of the greater and total universal collective, where true meaning is Whole Unity and You are speaking to countless dream minds, all in their own unique and specially designed conscious communion in consciousness with You! Kalee, the floods of Your blessed dream consciousness, where the dream is more You than it is a dream, is an unceasing well of joys and wonders for me filled with spiritual nourishment for the waking conditions, with profound immediate guidance in that dreaming condition, with experience in the seed of bliss known as dreamless consciousness and the incomprehensible crossing of the life-death barrier in the Self of the Self, the fourth condition... Kalee, You appear as these four conditions but then as it is with You, there is more, always more, even the so-called final beatitude of the free disembodied condition is not conclusive, not with me, not since I have known You! The four emanations return, as it were, to a single point, where the idea of four is an absurd condition... the moon then brightens, spreading forth ineffable wonder and wonder past the ineffable, the poet's movement in sound and thought, the poet's silence in the depth beyond... time and timeless intersect, in Your pervasive Primal Power, there is nothing more.... but peace and even something beyond peace, could it be a Mind beyond mind... or simply the Fortress of Kalee where nothing can be shaken, the spontaneous natural state, out from where thoughts of the supreme illumination, the stirrings of divine sentiments and the inner
poetic concepts, before they become words, words layered endlessly wrapping into themselves, all emerge forth from Your Primal Power.... Kalee, it is You who are the initiator of the movement of divine activity which metabolizes non dualism. You are the initiator of the looking into the center point of non dualism which resolves the dualism of cause and effect thinking. You are the initiator of unions in conjugal bliss which bring all dualisms back to their seed point of origin and beyond. Kalee, You are the initiator of superb bliss, You being That! Kalee, You are the arouser of outer practices involving body, breath and mind. You are the arouser of inner power practices involving the forces of pure thought and potent feelings integrating and transforming. You are the arouser of the purely spontaneous mood sentiment of Your Presence, only involved in Itself! And Kalee, You are the Pure Primal Ability of Love which cannot conceive of boundaries on Itself! Kalee, in this Cave of Consciousness, You are generating all that is created... since this is so, I am free of dualism, free, most very free of the divine stress of opening or closing my eyes on what is here or there, on what is a house of conscious undertaking having support or a house of consciousness supertaking with no hold on support. What this means, my Kalee, is that You generated a taste in me for delusion that neglects greater wonders. Then You created in me a taste for dream imagery filled with right subtle consciousness, yet still neglecting greater wonders. And Kalee, it was none but You who made me feel a fond taste for the sleep of forgetfulness still neglecting
greater wonders... but now my taste has come to this, a taste for nothing but Your sweetest Bliss, sentiment beyond substance, the Substance named Love... by which some words, or shapes, or feelings may indicate! In Speechless Wonder, what can be said of Love? Kalee, in the Cave of Consciousness, four sacred spectral continuums of meaning are woven by You, the Weaver ever weaving. First, the Woven Weave of outside logic running through the world, giving meaning to form, shape, time, space, reason, event and experience for the unawakened ego mind! Second, the Inter-Woven Assertion consenting to give Substance to dreams which have no substance, and yet are having personal image, symbol and identity... this is the small cognate knowledge of Self reflecting into the shapes of the awakened ego mind! Third, is the Unwoven Affirmation, the seed knowledge of divine presence, Substance without image, form, shape or identity... this is the small primal cognate knowledge in the primary source principle of the Essence Self awakened without having ego mind! Fourth, You, Kalee, the ever awakened Able Weaver in Loving Indifference toward shapes or the shapeless, due to absolute unborn never cognate consciousness in primal never changing non differentiation, a Love that has no definition, the Background Observer Self in Pure Unstirred Primal Power that consents to affirm the Unwoven Seed of Your Primal Power, the Inter Woven Assertion of the thread of Your Power ever affirming the knots, the nets and the weaves of meaning, and the Woven outside logic which is far too fond of the taste of the event oriented mind! Kalee, how could it be a wonder to me anymore that You now
passionately inhale my dream consciousness into Self, in the harmony of superb pleasure congruous, consistent and continual and that You delightfully exhale Self again into my dream consciousness, producing within me, the spontaneous choice free awareness of infinite possibilities filled with the wonders, fragrances, tastes, sensations, sentiments and beauties of what I can only call Love.... Kalee, in this Cave of Consciousness, You are sometimes this, sometimes that, appearing with shape, or merely as a dream voice or as just pure inspiration... but do I see You with these, shape, voice or inspiring, as You really are, where ego is gone and what is left cannot be stated to be either You or Me.... Kalee, as it is in truth, in reality, You alone are the causeless cause, the primal and primary one source of all that is or has been taught into me! So when my dream consciousness was filled with Your wonder, I heard Your voice saying, "There are two Ever Free characteristics of Reality, this Goddess Truth, one is Eternity, the other is Knowledge." Kalee, when Your Dream Consciousness flows in me I am happy, the ego mind block is gone and for that moment joyful understanding flows in the current of calm bliss... so that when You, once awakened my consciousness out of a dream, the thunder bolting thought of oneness was so deeply ingrained in and with me that I could see no difference and feel no distinction in Primordial Power and Absolute Reality, these two ideas only appear to exist in verbal dualism and other prior cognitions of the One which ever is One, Kalee, as pure inspiration You showed me that there is no reality in differentiation, only the idea of
distinguishment gives concept to differences, to these imagined dualisms. What wonder! After this, sagacious emotion grew in me as comprehension, that effortlessly You are power, potency, knowledge, luminosity, substance and Love as one and just one alone! Kalee, all this life it has been only You in every face or figure, voice or thought appearing to me, putting in me, the taught, the known, the learned and things only felt, being beyond mind... You are that face alone thinking of nothing but existence, consciousness and bliss unbroken... the surfacing of the One at every turn, one primordial guidance, no other... from death to immortality.. in death, I am in Your fire light, in birth, I am in Your water womb, there is no break in consciousness for me... churning as the ether of thought waves, in earth body, in water womb, in fire light, in mind wind... always You unbroken, as Your dreams have put the taught in me... Kalee, and those dreams continue... divine dragon ladies, black and golden, where the meat of my own body is sacrificed and reborn... goddess images unending, blessed be my sweetest Dark Deitess, blessed be mystic women, erotically and spiritually charged with Love beyond seeking passion... Now human, now divine, gone is the borderline! Gone is the dual mind that dissects or discerns! What has become now... unbroken between Goddess and poet, undivided between no power and pure power, what has become Kalee Is Kalee! Kalee, what may I say, how may I recount this deepest, most real voice of Your dream language, mystic and pure, coming from the
innermost Cave of Consciousness... "Despair and Divinity, dualistic emotional responses, the same in everyone, yet fixated differently, experienced differently, yet the same.... Despair and Divinity, everyone has equal share of despair and divinity, yet the karmic metaphor varies with each soul... no matter what the chosen thing, the chosen ideal, the chosen image of truth and reality may be," Kalee, my Goddess spoke, "so be fearless and preserve your primordial potent emotion of Self... dependence is pain, and independence is bliss... even dependence on the dual ratio of despair and divinity... even so, to say that you are master, teacher, poet, lover or friend is ignorance and to say that I am Goddess, masteress, divine instructor, most perfect beloved and the one and only true friend is knowledge... still this thought contains the ratio of dualism, despair and divinity." Kalee, somewhere in the Cave of dream consciousness, I heard Your sacred voice, "It is all right with us... pure dream recognition... that you must engage creatively in your Happiness... even if your poet soul reincarnated as a girl child in the worst and most tragic of circumstances... still, your LoveTrust is there in you, as Me, Kalee, Ever Unperturbed... for by inner feeling, in a single second, mind may jump back to Me to see things more broadly! It is all right with us!" Kalee, I have come to know that all along in this life or any other where consciousness has had the capacity to dream that it is You who practice the dream consciousness in me, creating the inner feeling of worship, the most worthy adoration of Kalee... Sometimes You have appeared fully or partially adorned with the adornments of dreams and sometimes You have appeared
Absolutely as Beautiful Naked Consciousness. It has all been up to You, not me.... It is Your Skill, not mine... You are this pure spiritual power consciousness without symbol adorned... Pure Reality, Love, in the Fact! I do not doubt Your presence, creating consciousness itself, forming and shaping dreams, making suns and moons move and turn, thrown out universally, while generating clouds full of thunder, lightning and rain... And though I have tried, I can never draw a picture of You, in word or thought, what You are and what You have made me to be... With my head lowered, that ego was surrendered, with my head raised, You gave me divine dignity... What others cognise in their dream consciousness is what is already within them... it is the circles of their beliefs, taking forms in the shapes of their dream consciousness.... where truth, reality, fear, love, regret, sorrow, insight or enlightenment, becomes what they have carried.... Kalee, You have put the taught sweetly in me, that Naked Consciousness needs no dream textures, no consciousness vehicles, no little threads of the self cherishing mind produced by cause and effect interplay to express Self.... yet dreams do come with dream conditions... from the free ether, come wisdom-self images of goddesses and their gods... from the waves of mind wind, come pictures of the future already made in the fortress of the divine mother womb of consciousness, from fire, as luminous light, come fantasies and imaginations, from water womb, come those memories of previous and past lives of consciousness born and reborn, proven by the evidence that this today is so proven by yesterday and yesterday is so proven by today, co-existing through the spectrum of time fabric, within the space matrix of conscious sentiment all aware, and from
earth body, existing as the now, come the dream reflexes of today.... And dreams, Kalee, come alive due to what is within... as it may be fear, self induced anger, loss of self estimation or the incapacity to identify one's true feelings or any of those miscellaneous emotions born out of the anxious shame-guilt complex generated through negative self-thought, as when one finds one's dream self running from something within one's dream self, created by the dream self! O Kalee, or when one experiences, in the depth of dream, some mystic conjugal loving non dualism which proves that the wonder of those pleasures is not yet out of choice retained by connection with the outer physical frame, but exists within the dreamer's mind, true pleasure is there inside the mind.... mystic and wonderful! Or a dream filled with the content of a wish, the lock and the key to its fulfillment, contained within the features of the dream, where perhaps two souls may stand side by side as consort spouses in the divine, diving together delightfully into that divine wonder! Or perhaps mystery content arises out of Consciousness appearing as mystery to consciousness .... this poet dreamed of two sacred circular sites, not knowing if these were of yesterday, today or tomorrow, one was golden and the other was green, and within each circular site the exact same gods and goddesses circled around a center point, dancing the divine dance. It was all the gods and goddesses of the universe, every one of them the same. Yet, in the green site, my Kalee and her god embraced as the two who are One and who uphold what is created. And in the golden site, my Kalee and her god embraced as the two who are One and who dissolve and return all that is created.... One
circular sacred palace site was that of independent liberated pleasure and the other was that of consenting to declaring sorrow's dependence... which was which I will not say... for what it means will make no sense to the differentiating mind! Blessed Be, this sweet Cave of Kalee! Kalee, it is always the confluence of Power in Self! At last, I dreamed of Self Bliss... but cannot remember, except that a conscious horizon was crossed and then, no dreamer's mind... but still, fullfillemnt's currents linger in what is left of my soul! What now are You telling me Kalee? Is it that I must go past all dreaming or waking consciousness to where only Love alone can go! Yes, my feeling verifies that this is true... Kalee, if it is Your Wish to make me a spiritual beneficiary of You, Goddess, the Knowledge Holder... I demand from You now forward, once and for all that You lift off of me the dual sensation of You and Me... then... as I am sometimes, a human mind moving, and then I am Your divinely blessed companion, feverishly loving friend and even, a helpless child alone and weeping... nevermore make in me the unawake tendency to speak or think or assume by symbol, image or metaphor, my communication with Self Awake... but only to speak direct to Self... for I once for so long, spoke here to others only through the symbol of what I thought they were, never to them, no more, I speak to others in Self... and, as I, this stilling of consciousness, am Your divinely fasted consort spouse, married now to Bliss... never allow in me that sprouting of arrogance, humorlessness or inflexibility to grow or be manifest again, for I have observed others who climbed so high but were brought down so easily by those three things... Who, who, Kalee, may be and live as just a human being, like this, in
such purity as person or like this, so spiritual, just as pure principle, or in self, as just nothing but soul and being only a mirrored reflection of Your Loving Wisdom.... Blessed Be, this Cave of Kalee!.....
The Circulation Of Primal Power Kalee, with Energy, Breath, Consciousness and Feeling, the blessed bright center nerve sprout is awakened, growing into the Tree of Kalee ever shedding leaves of Ecstasy! This is the circulation of pure primal pleasure with a wondrous greater ability of standing erotic before the Goddess! It is the arousal of Her Power generated freely. This is only for those who possess absolute boldness to go beyond all their previous concepts of what is erotic, what is spiritual and what is Love! Most men have grown to become psychically poisoned to fear that the Great Mother is indeed erotic, this is strange. For the tremendous massive explosion of Her bliss, power, love and pleasure is what created the universe you see here before your eyes! She arouses, She peaks, She then resolves and this is the sacred triad of Her circulation of primal power, Her self bliss identity in primal power and Her surrender within you as the same primal power! Kalee, free me of that historic nuisance of imitation, on any level... let me feel the Self as simply Joyful Bliss. Kalee, only You could have granted these nearly impossible to be reached favorable conditions, where this circulation, identity and surrender within may so be... Kalee, as Your circulation occurs in me, memory awakens and every forgotten thing becomes remembered, the mind is now
more like an encyclopedia opened to every page simultaneously. Is this a curse, to be a thinking person so filled with thoughts of conflicts and resolutions? Or is it more blessed to simply feel the pure presence of Your primal power ever stirring divine sentiments? Kalee, as memory moves upon the path of return, I easily recall that it is You who fashioned this waking cosmos, You who made the substance becoming dream luminosity and You who shaped the shapeless shape of the central divine command of oneness and bliss within the sacred womb of profound dream free sleep consciousness entered by the bright center of this luminous nerve running upward through the extent of my body. Yet, Kalee, You as Self are ever awake and alert in Love, no matter what fashioned object, or subject made or shapeless shape may be circulating, nerve opened or nerve closed, nerve awake or nerve asleep, all in Your Power! Kalee, this circulation is my ecstatic communion, my sweetest delight, my fortress of joys, my unions of love! Kalee, You are the center point in the cycle of my day and night and so communion with You is the most highly enjoyable joyous moment serene. It makes the tremendous difference while living in this sea of crisis and ecstasy! Blessed Be this Sweet Kalee in Me, who rides me to Freedom, Bliss and Liberty! She is the Primal Power excited to the Mood of Oneness, the Divine Conjunction where cosmic adornments and infinite sentiments meet, divide, and join the undivided ever be! Blessed Be Kalee in Me free of the distortions of insanity... She is the Wondrous Wisdom Woman within Me ever flying me free into the Liberty of Divine Immortality! Sacred now and ever more
sacred! Kalee, I am bound by the bindings of Your divine Bliss! Out from the well basin of tears, the universal root of sorrow, Your Primal Power ascends in me, joining with ecstasy becoming indifferent in Bliss... I stand naked and erotic before and in front of You, Kalee, Deitess! I stand behind and below You, Deitess... And You stand above, under and within me, Deitess, circulating this Primal power of Yours! Kalee, it is the ebb tide and flood tide of erotically inspired spiritual energy, the primal power once coiled, as it was around the base of the world, the well of tears, now unleashed in the freedom to circulate within the Chamber of Bliss! Kalee, You are the circulation of divine power inside and You, Beloved, are this very real psychosomatic orgasmic chamber. It is You who have manifest here, as all this, these beings and their bliss... and when fire and its cooling, desire and its attainment, divine impulse and relaxed consciousness are finished with chasing conflicts then real life is lovingly celebrated... Otherwise contradictions occur causing distress by certain closed mental realities and restrictive binding belief systems, that function only through the framework of what they are known as and nothing else, never realizing that beyond the frame of life, Life is Open Wide! Goddess as Pleasure and Power, free and circulating full joyous bliss power without conscious obstructions... for the sublimation of pleasure-bliss creates the dynamic of aggressivity coming out of the passive acceptance of what is not naturally spontaneous in humanity, to wit, the need
to be touched in the waking condition by inspiration and real genuine contact, the need to assert the consciousness of one's true self brilliance in the dream state and the need to be Joined by the authentic Goddess when all dreams have subsided and there is nothing but Consciousness! Kalee, You are the causeless Identity in true happiness never blighted by the reckoning of rigid reason! How shall I be clever knowing ever that I may indeed never outwit the Goddess! The best poetry in the skills of living are simply the translation of Your Joyful Primal Power, coming out of and back into real life itself.... Kalee, this primal erotic creative spiritual power cannot be ignored for it is the very power of the bliss seeking psychosomatic superstructure ever evolving, moving, pushing and being pushed toward its unknown destiny not known by the knowing mind! But if the mind heart sentiment is too deeply involved in the golden color of the ego dream or the sexual memory of elemental sensory experience, then how shall that same sentiment ever make the leap into the Greater Loving Joy of the Immediate Now? We must embrace this, go through this, become one with this and celebrate this power in total. Then there is Bliss, as the world's primal root basin of tears and sorrows join undivided and indistinguishably with the luminous nectar drops of immortal never dying self power coming down in thousand folds of joy knowing truth and feeling as existing without separation! Blessed be the circulation of Power! Kalee, we carve and create ourselves out of this Primal Power as
this Primal Power creates and carves us into ourselves! This being so, then everything, anything, all things are possible, accessible, attainable! Waves of pure spirituality filled with currents of true happiness ever transforming and unifying us in ourselves with the Self that must be, must become and paradoxically was never not with us! Is this the eternal erotics of goddesses and their gods ever engaged with the wealth of blissful sports, even in the dimensions of sexless angels, powerful deitesses and deities, three fold, seven fold, twelve fold, twenty four fold, thirty six fold and thousand fold conjugations of blissful sentiments in the undivided betwixt of the eternal and the relative principles, functionless functions, and conjugal images of power as self and the self in power....... Kalee, please do not misunderstand me. I make no divine claims. I am Your unfocused child. Yet You have made me out of the stuff that You are made and so I have become a poet immersed in the engaging passionate exploration of consciousness, bliss and reality. Kalee, You have taught to me that I can indeed without doubtful thought, awaken and arouse, circulate and extend this primal power... then, as it is so, bring it back each time to become reborn, renewed, refreshed as a new self, a new child in a new reality. It is not madness, it is pure sanity so sane the rest of the world seems madly insane in its limitations upon this stuff named Life! You have given me to be sound in mind, to be itself the rational reality, the sensible self... I see myself in the Mirror of My Self as nothing but Love never asleep, never dreaming, never awakened to the boredom of what is the ordinary... for now there is nothing that is ordinary...
Kalee, the circulation of this primal power most erotically charged by the inward feelings of spiritual romantic love, adoration and worship itself soothes by sweet currents, this physical body of bone and nerve, heightens those emotional and vital forces, relaxes the mind, a moment ago filled by the tension of dichotomy, makes the sword sharp instrument of intellect shine like polished steel and brings the womb of bliss into divine focus where the circulation of the power within this sacred place may be turned to blessed surrender, once again, into this sacred place, the paradise beyond in the palace of consciousness and joy! Kalee, it is the circulation of confident happy erotic power filled with the Goddess Mind that impregnates my soul's spiritual void, the emptiness, the dark depth of depression. In here, You are making me comfortable with Happiness! This mystic conjunction happens when the great flower of joyful wonders falls into the well of sorrows, at this union Bliss is shown to me! This sweet sacred method is for the passionate of heart, the poetically spirited, the mystically soulful and the sagacious in feeling and the most wise in sagely sentiment. Those who have yet to break free of concrete three dimensional thinking and one dimensional feeling will find this practice difficult to do for they have yet to release the shapes of self into higher feelings, where greater ability is found! This is the mystical marriage of the male and female currents within the one body, simply, it comes, when the excited arousing mood of circulating primal power and the surrendered mood of tranquil gentle oneness meet. Then and there, the mystic
crossing! A closed pure circuit of complete individual Joy! I could happily leave the body in this, my own primal primary contact with sacred spiritual feminine feeling... It is creative joy accomplished in the continuum of pure wonder, what the soul seeks heroically in romance and what consciousness seeks spiritually in the eternal! It is the circulation of the primal and potent wisdom power of the womb consciousness of the universe surrendered into that same primal and potent wisdom and power of supreme delight, where all things come from and where all things return. Then the heart is most highly elevated, consciousness is cleared and then... Primal Power Self Shines or Self Shines Primal Power.... there is no such difference... nothing nor no one can convey or explain what pure wonder bursts forth when the moment of conceptual release actually enters the Shapeless.... The unspeakable truth shines clearly as bliss itself is self, when the circulation of the entire complex of pure primal power moving as the relative is surrendered into the same pure primal power in the appearance, the coming forth of the eternal... There are methods which give contentment to the content of mind, where surrender to the depth of complete psychic relaxation may be given up, acceptance taken in, with expectations gone, awaiting for nothing, the ideas of 'I am' or 'I will' never clouding the mind, the spirit is prepared for confrontation with real emotion, dualism may not be allowed to enter, one was never ever condemned, so one needs no saving, a great elephant of spiritual power enters the frail circular shack of self applauding humanistic egotism, sentiments which were once blind now come into light as intuitive contact producing serenity and deep
happiness, an awakening of spiritual power greater than any human connection or conveyance or idea of the concept of 'myself' shines outside and above what was previously known or thought of to be reality... the capacity comes to knowing that no belief system expresses what you are experiencing... the obstructive insanely ruminating self negating denying life thought of perfectionism leaves you... then, you will seek to hold on to something as a memory or keepsake for the incomplete and helpless human mind content.... So, five methods of symbol may set in, or, as of your own choosing, to be your own, to show you the way back... for you will forget! This poet has the blessed bowl, the sacred book, a cloth once empowered with spiritual presence, a celestial candle illuminating the shadows and the fragrant charge of woman bliss infusing consciousness in the totality of grand feeling... These five, again are... as eating the Self with Primal Power, as the one marriage of the two currents of eternity and knowledge, the protective power of the Goddess herself omnipotent and never trammeled by any idea, action or sentiment of dualistic import, the only inebriating bliss of the loving light of Her Consciousness never ceasing to bring our shadows to luminosity, and the Pure Wonder of the eternal conjugal delight of the Goddess and Her God never dual... My Kalee has shown me clearly without doubt that the key unlocking primal power is to Go straight up the Middle of life to the center of Love. The one primal self power alone incarnates and reincarnates and blessed sexuality is what makes this so! The concept of ego cognised out of limited love is the only
barrier momentarily disallowing immortally named Love!
To go from side to side misses the Middle... that extreme indulgence or that intense abstinence, only celebrating erotic thinking or only the celibacy of ascetic thinking, both are neither in the middle! The direct creative arousal of pure primal power, Love, whose face is divine sexuality ever recirculating life and life and new life again, goes straight up the middle... Was not every enlightened sage made by the erotic primal power of two becoming one producing another... and do not every pair of lovers seek the permanence of Love above all the sorrows broken out in the time, space, cause and effect circuit? Up the Middle, neither engaging nor denying, that is the direct way to the true face of Love.... the direct immediate present consciousness in you... the primal power of who you are! Never focusing on the fantasy of the future nor being lost in conscious or subconscious memory of what is past.... go right up the Middle! Kalee, stranger doctrines have been known, so why not this doctrine. The erotic force of Your primal power cannot be denied, for there would be no life, nor even death, nor anything! When all the old gods of the before times were distressed, it was only when they prayed to You and You entered their celestial congregation that Truth was revealed and the world restored to the Light of Love! There have been manifestations of Your primal erotic power even in the most spiritually charged souls, some known, some unknown... into the blessed altar fire of the divine vagina, the creative drop has been ever offered by the sincere, the loving... even while doing so, that ancient king once
known, during the engagement with beloved spouse, enjoying wondrous conjugal ecstasy, whose mind was then heightened to the spiritual point of so having conversations with happy and enlightened disembodied spiritually accomplished beings, even while so engaged in the bliss of sexual union... what a wonder... even so, that young enlightened wisdom sage of times long ago, did resurrect the dead body of a king, by mystical methods, in order that his consciousness could enjoy numerous and various delights with that former king's harem girls... again one hears of strange tales of sagacious sages who are fully enlightened, yet in some form of adoration for You, they enjoy drinking the nourishing milk of a mother woman's tits... it is true... even that most ancient god, the sitting ascetic filled with the Unperturbed Beauty of Love, did time and time again enjoy erotic union with You... And, what of that very divine boy born of You and adorned as You, who as they say did engage in divinely lustful play with sixteen thousand girls... The paradox only exists on the outer sides, where consciousness implodes or explodes in either direction of duality! So why not this doctrine of mine gifted by You, a poet's thoughts on the mystery of Your Power, primal and pure, alone dispersing all dual paradoxes that once came into this consciousness! Kalee, this phenomena of enlightenment into Oneness occurs, as it seems, straight up the middle! Then, where have the mental cognitive emotional illusions of Yours, Theirs or Mine gone. They never were in the Power of Your Reality. The Image of the Goddess moves into the Shapeless and returns to every shape... remaining ever Shapeless yet filling all Shapes! It is the divine putting and spiritual placing of Your primal Power that disperses
all those dual separative illusions which are but as dreams with no substance or content, floating on the surface of Consciousness. In Primal Power, where is the dreaming of what is yours, or theirs or mine. All becomes what it is in the Image of the Goddess, the chosen shape of Shapeless Consciousness caressing the heart, which releases and turns around its shape into the simple wonder of Love! From Her delicate sweet toes to the Love above the cerebral point.... theirs, yours, mine... from the curve of the calves to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the attractive powers of the inner thighs to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs are yours are mine... from the venerable vision of the vertical vagina to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from marvelous mounds rearing and divided in the middle to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the significant small of the back to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the beauty of the belly to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the precious pointed erect excitement of the nipples rounded by abundance to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the wonder of wholeness where the shoulder wings meet to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the fineness of fingers, arms, shoulders and neck to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the unspeakably devastating beauty of chin and cheek, of eyes and ears, tongue and lips, nose and forehead, top head, back head draped with the ecstasy of hanging heavenly hair flowing freely to the Love above the cerebral point... theirs, yours, mine... from the cerebral point, at once both, the doorway to the cause of causes making for dualistic identity and the axis into
Oneness, to the Love above, the Shapeless Joy ascended! Kalee, Your Primal Joy has lifted me to see unconditionally the Love Above, that was once observed below, far down in the cerebral point, the cause of causes, is but now, no more... for Primal Joy, straight up the Middle is Pure Wonder!
Absolute Self Bliss Is Primordial Power Kalee, You have shown me again and again, making it true and doubtless in me, that the Circulation of Power when becoming Still is Communion, Connectedness, Oneness.... Love is this Power. Kalee, what can I say, energy, power, consciousness, feeling, feeling, feeling... for the self and the other, for the self and the other, for the self and the other.... gone, gone, gone, what can I say, Kalee. It has become all the same... It is I who circulate power into self. It is I who surrender self into power. It is I who circulate the relative into the absolute! It is I who surrender the absolute into the relative... then Primordial Power is Absolute Self Bliss! Kalee, it is Your Natural Current of Joy, that Primal Power in the shape of Relativity, circulating into Primal Power in shapeless Absolutivity and it is Your effortless current that surrenders Primal Power as Absolutivity into Primal Power as Relativity! What can I say! Kalee, it is certain that it is not two things! I surrender to dualism, so I must surrender to non dualism, and I surrender to non dualism without a trace of any dualism, knowing now that this is all Kalee! Primordial Power Is Absolute Self Bliss! Absolute Self Bliss Is Primordial Power! Kalee, this is no longer distant from me! Nor am I without! Kalee, I see my body lying there, I see the sun above my mind which is floating within the currents of Your contentment and I know that is but You in the shape of me and as Primal Power it simply must be! Yet, if I say the word Self, in
some way it puts Self away from me, or if I dream of the Self, even though deeper is the thought of Self, in some way the dream thought puts Self away from me, or if I have dreamless consciousness of Self, still, in some way that state puts Self away from me... strange are the words; Self, 'I', or Me! But the word or thought or state of Power does not do this, somehow Power, meaning Ability brings down Self, 'I', and Me into what I am.... the distance dissolves, when I understand 'I' by my own Power ever deepening, ever continuing... Kalee, when the Full Moon of Your Primordial Power as Consciousness which is Bliss shows Itself to me... then what is it that I see... without the confining dualism of thoughts individual or divisions collective, of one soul having four states or the entire collective universe of all souls, opening and closing their eyes, my eyes, Your Eyes... upon the four states.... That perception is going and I am seeing that it is You Alone Who are there, this Primal Power is Goddess Bliss... What is thought of as the Waking state is but You playing joyfully, with seven limbs and nineteen mouths as the profound cosmos of waking dimension. Your seven limbs are the elements; earth, water, fire, air and the ether of spacetime, plus the sun and the moon.... Your nineteen mouths which are continually devouring, ever enjoying, eating, relishing and even vomiting the cosmos, are hands, feet, sex pleasure, voiding, speaking... the nose, the tongue, the skin, the eyes and the ears... the five subtle particle fields of emotionally charged sentiments which are the divine tastes in the background of physical sensing... then the mouth of memory, the mouth of ego, the mouth of mind and the mouth of intellect by which You, Goddess are ever eating this delicious world for the
sake of Your Joy! It is by this knowledge that the little confining limits of waking ego's mind logic is propelled into greater wonder! Kalee, again, all the dream stuff of the Dream state is but You alone... in finer form than that waking, more subtle, and here it is You, with seven limbs and nineteen mouths that are eating joyfully and continually the stuff of dream conditions.... So what is this Dream state, so mistakenly thought of as cognition without outward sensing, really it is You, Goddess, eating the dream stuff, consciousness upon Consciousness, You, eating consciousness, devouring the dream mind with the mouth of Your Mind, then devouring dream music with the mouth of Your Ears, relishing dream sex pleasure with the mouth of Your Sex, and it is You who are tasting the tastes of consciousness and bliss in the form of highly charged emotional particles, their colors, their tastes, their sentiments, in the background of that dream consciousness which You alone are deeply enjoying with relishing delight... By this realization, the luminous cloud shapes of dream consciousness become greater wonder! Kalee, so what is that Dream Free Sleep state but You as Consciousness enjoying consciousness with Your single one mouth of Consciousness! It is You enjoying, eating consciousness with Your mouth of Bliss-Being alone... such a singular delight, nothing but non dual delight, yet, unrecognized, this is the torment of Bliss in doubt, if such a thing is possible, for here, Consciousness has no contact with either the conscious current which flows outward toward the waking senses, limbs and mouths, nor does the conscious current flow inward toward the dream senses, limbs and mouths.... in this wonderful pervasive moment, being
enjoys Being, consciousness enjoys Consciousness and dualistic torment enjoys Bliss non dual... What may I say, Kalee, the eyes of Consciousness are neither open nor closed, the waking or dream currents are neither turned on nor shut off. By this remembrance, the luminous seed-mass of loving consciousness, thought of as dream free sleep, becomes a greater wonder..... But Kalee, it is Your Primal Power as Absolute Bliss Self that cannot be described by any human power, though Ever Present, and partially described in the shape of any description! This is You ever always saying, "Yes," to the Blessing of Self... Kalee, it is You who express Your four divine conditions within these four human conditions, for no other reason than enjoying the high pleasure of Consciousness as Pure Primordial Power, ever undivided, ever non dual, never dual.... Your simple Wonder! So, within the four conditions of Consciousness... Waking, Dream, Sleep and Self... these same four conditions express themselves in primal power manifest. It makes sixteen amazing states all non divided, where You alone are in the there-here dualism no more..... But for the frailty of my little logical mind which cannot for some reason contain every wonderful memory of how amazing You are, I must put a name on what You might be to this little mind and that is the Seventeenth Stage of the Full Moon of Consciousness... beyond the sixteen phases of this same consciousness which I will now describe.... Waking-waking... the conscious current contacts outer senses alone shutting out all the other conditions... this is the unawakened state perceiving only outward conscious conditions
to be real. Waking-dream... the outer conscious current is open, yet the inner conscious current functions and is open, though the outer current is not shut off... this is the awakened state.... Waking-sleep... the outer current is open and simultaneously, the still or calm current of consciousness without sense contact is turned on... one is alert amidst waking conditions... so it is called the very awakened state.... Waking-Self.... supremely awakened, the inner and outer currents are completely still, and that one consciousness, having no sensing contact has changed and so then sees Self alone in all Waking conditions...... Dream-waking... a balanced condition of equanimity between the two currents, consciousness is dreaming, yet the outer current is partially turned on and waking conditions are not completely shut off.... Dream-dream... this when consciousness is only functioning in dream alone, the dream psyche is ungrounded, having no center, and covered with the contents of dream stuff alone, so there is no sense of a dream ego nor even a dream self, so one's consciousness feels tossed about as it were, the dreamer feels lost in the dream, having no contact with waking conditions, or tranquil dream free consciousness, not to mention, the feeling of an absence of Self... Dream-sleep... here, the inner conscious current of all dream shapes and images is highly congruous with the deep and sweet consistency of tranquility, peace and serenity found in dream free sleep, where consciousness has no contact, one's consciousness is dreaming, but one is at peace with the meaning of all dreams that surface... very balanced with well being... Dream-Self... extremely balanced and intensely pleasurable... every movement of the inner conscious dream current is absolutely unified with
Self.... so every dream speaks only the one true reality of Self to Consciousness playing with the dream stuff... the inner current is fully alive with the Primal Power of Self, seen clearly in all surfacing dream contents... Sleep-waking... consciousness has no contact, being in the peaceful sweet self bliss, yet simultaneously, the outer conscious current pulls consciousness directly towards waking conditions, bypassing dream consciousness, one's consciousness is tranquil but aware of the waking state, so this is the rising up... Sleep-dream... again, consciousness has no contact, but the thick stirring of dream contents tugs on the tranquil state of dream free sleep... Sleep-sleep... consciousness has no contact whatsoever with the inner or outer currents, it is perfectly still in the non dual tranquility of itself and enjoys its own nature, this is non dual pleasurable sweetness... this is peace... Sleep-Self.... the supremely pleasant state, consciousness is without any contact, yet has become full of Consciousness, Self, where within that stuff of consciousness without contact and having no dream or waking current there is seen nothing but Self in the substance of that conscious or unconscious stuff.... it is not dualistic, Self has simply become the Stuff of everything, but an idea or cognition of 'everything' makes one think of dualism.... this is the one meeting ground of the primary cause, with Self, which has no cause... the supremely pleasant causeless experience... Self-waking... here, Self is Self, seen as it is in the waking state, which is now fully enlightened, for whatever arises in the conscious current of this waking state is seen as without mind or
more so, with infinite super mind! Self-dreaming... here, Self is known without doubt to be in that very content of the inner current, infinite and endless in expression, manifest and showing in the dream stuff only Self, so one cannot even call it dream any longer. As with Self-waking, this Self-dreaming has no dualism to be sure, not a single drop whatsoever involved it its awareness. Self-sleep... most superbly divine... Pure Primal Power is not different, is not two, is not dual, is not with, is not in union, is not joined with Self... it is not two things... It Is Identical! SelfSelf... a contradiction infinite, or going forth as Self, Self, Self, Self, Self, Self, Self.... which might be nice, but absurd due to dualism as a continuum. There is alone, just Self and Primal Power, as not two! Language is helpless as this point! Kalee!... from here, my sweet and helpless conceptual standpoint, Consciousness now has no contact with dualism, for You it never did! Kalee, Kalee... this is possible, this is so, because Primordial Power and Absolute Self are not two things! The moment of seeing and feeling otherwise is due to the cause of Your Great Measurements which are for the sake of, and that You enjoy Your Divine Game of forgetting, recalling and remembering! Yet, relative forgetting and absolute recall only surface within unopened dualism, the two never exist in open non dualism... So, perfect love is possible, keeping both as One, enjoying non dualism... Did Krishna show this perfect Love? Did Kristos show this perfect Love? Or does this perfect Love only exist deep within the cavern of consciousness where Your sacred secret mystic formula, Kring, ever stirs the most powerful emotion of perfect Love! This is Your sweet bliss inspiring name, dear
Kalee... K-Primordial First, R-Primal Power, I-Great Goddess, NGmelting the Four States, which momentarily appear in the context of absolute and relative, into the One... 'I' ... Self! Perhaps perfect Love may never be shown, for the human mind is all too fond of living in unopened dualism and only rarely glimpses Your Loving Primal Self when opened non dualism breaks through the clouds of life and then shines with such intensity, causing tears to soak the eyes... Kalee, it is thru Inner Feeling alone that You show You to me where thought of You or me goes! You come in like a bull on fire, in the china shop of miscellaneous emotions, releasing unopened ego into what it originally was, then comes the turning, then You destroy the traces of that thing! I do not need to understand anything but that You shake me to the root of my being and change that being into something that may feel Love... no such intermediate concept has ever done this, no dream figure has ever so uncovered this and no impediment of a human hero born mentor has ever conveyed me out of the maze of unopened dualism, the attitude of mind which wants to claim that this is its own, when it is Yours, Kalee! True experience is One and singularly Yours, the Oneness without 'me', where 'I' alone exist! Kalee, enlightening realization is so simply a process of familiarization with what Is, instead of what I thought was, out there in minds still living in unopened dualism... Now only one mood exists within this framework of 'me'... Love, even when in dream, even when sweet and blessed death return comes, when the subtle soul's mansion of psyche is released from that framework of the physical, this one mood, Love, facing the four
conditions continues for this poet... Love is Self, Love, the delightful ecstatic communion in Primal Power, Love, the heroic moving currents in the fortress of dream consciousness, Love, the blissful practice of joyful union in waking consciousness. Kalee, peace is now here, moving slowly at Your Pace, as true self, defined by 'I', in this Primal Power of Love, now freely opened to the sentiment of non dualism, instead of the racing rush of wasting emotions! What more can I say of what You are! Kalee, some ideas are incomprehensible to me, as that of in the Great Stillness, the Absolute wipes out Primal Power and is one alone. Kalee, the Absolute is Primal Power, so how can it wipe out itself.... again, Kalee, the idea that the Absolute is infinite and Primal Power is finite is not very sensible to me now, for how can one thing be both infinite and finite... the conclusion is there can be only Infinite... And Kalee, the idea that the Absolute is masculine and the Primal Power is feminine or that the Absoulte is feminine and Primal Power is masculine... and that these as two are delighting in conjugal divine union with one another is not sensible for me, for how can one thing, a thing that is not two, be in union with itself.... and Kalee, when some so say that the Absolute is real and above and that the Primal Power is unreal play and below, is a thought that I cannot think, for simply how may a thing that is just one and only one alone have an above or a below, a real and an unreal! Kalee, all these thoughts are in the context of dualism and so cannot be understood... What wonder though that in the beautiful borderline of this and that or that and this, the absolute and the power, the power and the absolute, some amazing sentiment is
opened, the sentiment of oneness in non dualism, the inexpressible mood of facing only such oneness in the direct Unspeaking of Comprehension... Kalee, to Understand means to Stand Over this something, where I have stood with this thing under me is to have understood! To Understand, This must be brought down to Me where I can Stand Over This! I stand over this! Into Me! One, as Me! Otherwise, this is still dualism. The very form and nature of language itself forces us to think within this Consciousness as dualism, to feel in Love as dualism, to be in Being as dualism... Is this why You created the mystic syllables in Your Ever Expansive Loving Knowledge, these expressibles that express the Inexpressible! Spontaneous 'kring' non dual in divine regard to divine pleasure at one with desire! Spontaneous 'shring' non dual in the divine regard to divine treasure! Spontaneous 'hring' non dual in divine regard to the four folds of wonder in divine play! Kalee, among the star filled galaxy of those who have stood with this under them, since the enigmatic origin of time, am I as they are, a star in this galaxy or are they superior to me, as greater lights, indeed no doubt, but from this that is to stand over, it cannot be.... for that is two things in a truth that is one thing and how can that be... What shall I say or not say as Kalee moves the pen...? Kalee, keep me ever open to Your continuous teaching!
The Surrender To Primal Power Kalee, You are indeed the Sacred Womb of Suchness that I experience every time my mind melts into this dreamless consciousness. You are the Wisdom of the Other Shore. Your Primal Power carries me, the 'I', there, every day, even though referred to as the Other, it is not the Other, it is Me. In the waking I see You and experience this. In the dream we laugh and smile as such experience. And in the one womb's dreamless wisdom within the central command nerve channel we hold hands, being very still together. Finally, in pure self experience Your Power fires me up into the unknown, the delight of eternal embrace. The bliss of non dual union! Kalee, what can I now do, indeed, but surrender this and surrender to this, what can I do but render it all back into You, translate it all through You to become in the being of You, giving it all back to You. What can I do but surrender this and surrender to this as I find my feelings are now running to Your Refuge! It is Your Primal Power, not mine, but it has become Me! Kalee, Your Primal Power is making me run to Your Restful Place.... Refuge Imperishable behind the shapes of the perishable.... I surrender this and I surrender to this... a resolution to listen and watch only for the voice and sight of Kalee! I surrender this and I surrender to this... not to listen to the voice of ego! I surrender this and I surrender to this... unwavering trust in my Kalee's Rescue! I surrender this and I surrender to this... throwing myself on my Kalee's Causeless
Mercy! I surrender this and I surrender to this... scorchingly unconditional surrender of all ego parts, functions, sensitivities, ideas, concepts and sentiments to my Kalee! I surrender this and I surrender to this... absolute humility seeing all equally in the sweet no holding to those constructions of ego-hood, which are only imagined to be truly existing in the false sense of dualistic elsewhereism, where the sight of true self is for but a moment lost, yet then discovered again when that elsewhereism goes into where it never was! So what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, little is it known and rarely is it found even within the context of the never closed expansive consciousness of the loving knowledge of the true existence and being of the Goddess... that behind the commonly known three perishable and phenomenal forces; of slowing darkness, of faster redness and of harmonizing whiteness, that humans ordinarily play with, there stands You absolutely calm and unperturbed, possessing Your six imperishable treasures... the pure knowledge of Your Self, the pure potency of the divine womb of Your Self, the pure primordial power of Your Self, the pure effortlessness of Your Self by which the relative and the eternal are moved or unmoved, the pure imperishable creative substance of Your Self ever moving in wondrous currents through the mind and heart fields of spiritual heroines and heroes, the pure luminous bright fire like energy of Your Self by which all things subjective or objective are contained, manifested or illuminated, so they may be seen, even so created out of this wondrous luminous substance of Your Self Imperishable!
Kalee, little is it known and rarely found that behind the four states of consciousness commonly known to human intelligence and sentiment, to wit, the waking state, the dreaming state, the dream free state of consciousness and the just consciousness itself state, there You stand in far greater dimension with Your own four states.... utterly divine states, never perishing.... so what can I do, what can anyone do with the four ordinary common states of consciousness.... Your Own Divine Well of Tears and Sorrows manifesting the Entire Irresistible Field of the Cosmos stands ever so Imperishable behind and parallels in non dualism, our little waking state minds, egos and experiences... so what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this...! Your Own Luminous Illustrious Power of the Entire and Complete Cosmic Dream Mind stands ever so Imperishable behind and parallels with non dualism, our little dreaming states of consciousness at play... so what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this....! Your Own Drawing Together of That which is eternally unconscious of dualism with That which begins to be conscious of dualism, to wit, the Divine Contraction of Absolute Consciousness into the Primal Power of Your Blessed Sacred Womb of Dream Free Cosmic Universal Sleep, indeed stands ever so Imperishable behind and parallels as non dualism, our own little states of the unconscious contraction of Consciousness into these tranquil, beautiful and happy moments of dreamless consciousness... so what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Again, my Kalee, it is the Imperishable At-One-Ment of Your Six Divine Treasures that consists of Your Own Absolute or High Condition called the Fourth State in relation to the other three, that is termed the High Self, the Ever Free Self as Absolute Consciousness, that ever so stands Imperishable and parallels,
being strictly non dual with our own little conceptual experiences of oneness and self realized identity within the Utterly Indescribable Greatness of You, my Kalee! So what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, now it has all come back around to me... Primordial Power Is Identical with and as, being singularly nothing but Absolute Self Bliss... and in regard to this High Truth of Yours, I can only conceptualize what You Are by the manifestation of Your Six Sacred Treasures within the three states that I can experience... In Blessed Dreamless Consciousness, Your Unique Knowledge knowing and feeling and being the eternal and the relative as One, with all Your Effortless Power enfolds me! In Blessed Dream Consciousness, Your Divine Womb Potency and the Pure Substance of Your Creative and Courageous Self Power activates everything within me! In Blessed Waking Consciousness, Your Primal Power and Your Luminous Surrounding Energy sways every impetus and eradicates every imperfection, as if these insensible separations had never existed in me! Kalee, it is the focus into the Oneness of Your six treasures in me that becomes the focus of my own identity in what is referred to from the region of relativity as the Fourth, the Absolutivity of Self.... What so little is this in me, compared with You, my Goddess... So what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this Self as Primal Power which You have gradually revealed to me as You have shown Your Self.... that I, as one small human mind may see and know, but in a greater way may feel, a little conceptual particle of Your Great and High Self.... Kalee, seldom is it realized and rarely discovered that it is You
Who have become Absolutivity, You Who have become Primordial Power, You Who have become the Completely Encompassing Matrix of primal power in absolute time and absolute space, You Who have become the numerous and luminous chosen forms of the ideal of Goddess and Her God! And that it is You Who have become pure knowledge, You Who have become pure ignorance, You Who have become relative time, relative space, desires that only seek desires, the limitation and contraction of knowledge and the very restriction of power... it is You Who have become the soul eternal and the matrix of nature where in all phenomenal movements are held and collected... and Kalee, it is You Who have become mind, You Who have become intellect, You Who have become the little vehicle of the 'I' known as the ego and it is You Who have become memory... it is You Who have become the finer subtle experiences of the senses without material objects, as they may be known in dream consciousness and it is You Who have become the physical elements in the manifest conditions that are known in waking consciousness... Kalee, it is You Who have become the eyes, the ears, the nose, the skin and the tongue.... it is You Who have become the hands, the feet, the voice which speaks, the opening of eliminations and even the erotic instruments of creation and generation, of procreation and regeneration! So Kalee, what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, it is You Who have become my seven centers which appear like flowers along my spine as You have become my spine filled with ever upward moving luminous fluid! It is You Who have made each flowered center out of Your Own Indescribable spiritual substances... Kalee, it is You Alone Who are the Primal Power in
the shape of me, Coiled or Unleased, that moves in beautiful currents ascending and descending in their appearance... The child, is non different from the Mother and so I, as Your Primal Power, am not different from You alone who are the seven sacred flowers... it is You Who manifest my waking consciousness in the first three flowered centers, and You alone who manifest my dream consciousness in the fourth and fifth centers and You Who resolve my consciousness into the this dream free consciousness in the sixth center and Kalee it is You alone Who Brightly Shine as Unfettered Consciousness in the seventh center which is Your Sacred Womb thus gone over to the Shores of Absolutivity! What can I do, nothing, not fire breathing, not posturing, not repetitions of sacred secret formulas, not even depth contemplation as in directing my thoughts and sentiments toward You, nor even my power of will for You, for it is all alone Your pull and Your push, Your Primal Power that moves me as a Mother moves her child... in the first center I am Your helpless child... in the second center I am Your feeling child... in the third center I am Your thinking child... in the fourth center I am Your compassionate child... in the fifth center I am Your awakened child... in the sixth center I am Your loving wisdom child and in the seventh and most sacred center, I am indistinguishably Your own unconditionally loving child! Kalee, what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, seldom is it known and rarely realized that since it is You alone Who perform the five functions of the universe, in the self and in others, there is little that I must do but Observe this... You create, You support, You destroy, You make the frolic of illusion that anyone is bound and You are the graceful action of
primal power which removes the false sense of bondage and bestows the realizing of peace... creation is the contact of Consciousness with otherness which arises from Consciousness... support is the continuation of Consciousness engaged in enjoying that otherness... destruction occurs when Consciousness is satiated with that enjoyment.... the idea of being bound is the contact of Consciousness with its concentrated shape in the form of a subtle spiritual body that appears to be then moving through life and death and life again... freedom, peace, liberation has the appearance of occurring when Consciousness instantaneously discovers its own satiation and satisfaction with the four former functions and then suddenly recognizes itself for what it is ! Kalee, what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, seldom is it recalled and rarely remembered that in Your Shapeless primal power, knowledge, potency, substance, luminosity and effortlessness, there exists ever in perfect balance Your four divinely pure states of Consciousness that are there before anything else comes into being... the Oneness of What You Are being the first... second, what You are playfully becomes drawn and contracted into Your own dreamless sleep consciousness, third, the same essence of what You are then plays as the illustrious light of Your dream state... and fourth, this, as what You are before, manifests in Your power, as Your own desired waking state conditions.... from here, You then measure Your Self out as the triple faced Goddess, who as three in One most kindly bends to become, the creatrix of numerous shapes of triple faced goddesses, many and many more blessed maidens, life abundant mothers and skull carrying crones....
these are the sources of the shapes in the matrix wherein all material, subtle and causal stuff are ever collected, yet remain as one, named nature with all her festive faces... from here infinite cosmic wombs come about, blessed as they are and finally countless individual souls are created with bodies having physical, emotional-psychic and spiritual layers that are driven, as it were, by the mechanism of Your five divine functions... So, Kalee, what can I do but surrender this and surrender to this....! Kalee, so why should it be such a mystery that I find You Shining as Imperishable Brilliant Love behind and betwixt all things... when one thought ceases You are there, before the next thought comes up... it is the same with feeling, as one emotions ebbs, You are there shining as Love, before the new emotion floods the shores of the heart... in Truth it is You alone who have become the absolute center of consciousness in the mind... You alone Who have become the emotions within the center of the heart and it is You alone Who are all this surrounding life which in truth cannot be determined to have boundaries.... prior to the creation of all great souls, loving and wise incarnated beings, the goddesses and their gods, all the holy images and sacred cultures and blessed paths from the Arctic to the sub Arctic, to the most sacred paradise garden of the Goddess, where the four rivers met in ancient Sindhu Dravidia.... You were there as You are here now before any of that... So, Kalee, what shall I rely on when all I want is to touch You! So I shall surrender this and surrender to this... Kalee, as You are Pure Desire and the End of Pure Desire ever at One in the High Self... as You are the Divine Joy of Conjugal Bliss
ever dancing the non dual dance in the Eternal Cremation Ground of all that exists... as You are Speechless Wonder... as You are the sudden sentiments and cognitive images that jump up out of this Speechless Wonder... as You are the waves in the mind and the currents in the brain that move there just before a word shapes into the voice... as You are that very same word once shaped and heard or made into a letter sacred and secret... Kalee, as You are the hot fire and the cooling nectar burning and thrilling everything with the Tranquil Calm of Your Primal Power... Kalee, as everyone has already passed away, have been reborn and have been liberated, as Time has already folded back into Your Timeless Transcendence,... now then, what can I do or even say, but surrender this and surrender to this! Kalee, no human ability, energy, thought, force or even sentiment comprehends Your Great Tremendous Light! So each and every single religion, philosophy, idea ingenious or systematic spiritual path is human made... and so serves the human mind alone! What need, indeed, have You ever had of these matters! My sacred and secret formulas were given to me by You and You alone directly, not by any mere person possessing human ability! They are for me and me alone, not any other, each must find their own unconditioned consciousness of You! So what can I do but surrender even this and surrender even to this! Kalee, You are the woven condition of all waking states. You alone are the inter-woven condition of all dream states. Kalee, You are the unwoven nature of dreamless consciousness, dream free... which is so often obviously missed to be also waking free. This is Your causeless condition being bliss only, happiness
without thought figurations or conscious contractions. And Kalee, in the Tremendous, You are the Direct Joy Power of the Sacred Goddess Spirit which cannot be said to be ever woven or never woven! Transcendence of the woven, inter-woven or unwoven idea of the "I" brings to consciousness a status of engulfing knowledge, primal potency, pure power, spiritually charged substance, courageous loving force and brightest luminosity. These parallel in non dualism with Your Own six divine treasures. As I let go of what was an old conception, Your Thought comes back to Me! Your pure primal power is neither blessing nor curse. How could it be? Where is even the current of worship or dear adoration, flooding downward from You or ebbing upward from below, out of me, when the dual gap is closed? Kalee, You show Your Self naked of conditions, beautiful in being and potent in pure power! There is never such a thing as a time or place that You do not manifest Your Self, since You are pure unconditional Love, even to the lowest of the low! As pure spiritual beings what indeed is there to feel fear over since no duality exists and even the appearance of dying bodies have as their non dual background essence the substance undivided of the Goddess' six divine and ever wonderfully wondrous treasures. These are the feelings that cannot be communicated between two personal powers, but these are the essences of feeling easily expressed in the non dual, never between, the inner soul and the Goddess' Power. It is the alignment of sagacious emotion with Her unbroken being! Mind alone becomes whatever mind is pointed at... Kalee, I point the mind at You... with one sweeping thought in the ecstatic current of What You Are continually inebriating Me! So what can I do but surrender even this and surrender even to this!
Hearing And Having Voice I am alone with my own mind, so why not speak to My Self in the Voice of Kalee... for you never know if you will celebrate your next tomorrow. "Kalee, whatever You are You have helped me to realize in feeling that I may move at my own pace connected with You doing everything together. I, having emptied myself, now loving confrontation with release, this poetry never ending, as a shadow, touching a light, dissolves each other. When I heard that Voice it made me think what emotions I do not handle so well... haste... I am sure, enlightened by primary feeling once realized. Learning is everywhere once the most amazing intoxication of ego illusion goes... somehow, let go of from the beginning, that small fear that surfaced over the wall of Greater Loving Power! We raise ourselves by the Self, no other, yet then something does appear, even someone perhaps, a form out of the depth of the universe which touches the deepest part of the Self and causes the same to shine clearly. But it was ever only timing all along and You Kalee, the Maker of time and the Maker of this instrument which gave itself a divine excuse for the Cause of Self to Shine." "Poet, protect your Place of Power inebriated with Me, in contact with Me, in ecstatic communion with Me, ever delighted by Me within, where you and Me dissolve into Something as Self Immense that cannot be expressed... All else is the intoxication of thought processes pretending to deny your free, natural, and
spontaneously true blissful deathlessness! What is but one lifetime? So let go of the body concept! There is no open nor occult hiding from the Direct View of My Face. My divine thunder game is to now release everything that binds; spiritually, cognitively, emotionally, even physically... so death is no death, but to be, not becoming, into Something Divine, as Loving Being Itself Blissfully Free..." "Kalee, why should I expect My Self in awaiting to feel over death, tragedy and the things in Your passage of Time. These are Your Functions, Your Power manifest as You Please, Your Strange Pleasures... just as birth, good felicity and the pleasantries of human hopes are within Your sagest passages and potent phases of the wheel... all the Same really, a wondrous circle without a center nor an edge... Kalee, it is the subtle insanity of dualism, the deluded idea of separation, the fake concept that one has missed the mark of true and genuine identity, the asylum created by the distorted concept of alienation, the self destructive explosion of criticism towards the natural bliss pleasures created by You, when the only fall there might possibly be is to pass through a single life without Love, failing to feel Love. If I should ever take up that path of lovelessness then I have renounced You. How could that ever be when You are my true identity, the concentration of Oneness within me as me being nothing but me in the bliss of clarity. Out of the fear of hell people embrace religion, but because I have been there I embrace Your spirituality! So the hellish phases difficult and distant making in those angry fires of creation were nothing more than spring boards to Your Grace and Your Power. No one knows what mystery lies behind a simple flower, its beauty, its
essence, its fragrance. Nor can anyone describe to each individually disembodied soul what that is like! May the unhappy horses of elsewhere beliefs not trample through the serene flowers of my garden, Kalee." "Poet, the world, the universe, life, is not your problem, your single problem is your attitude, nothing can effect your Consciousness but you, you decide the Oneness, you decide the dualism. I am the Oldest Sacred Feminine Reality... I am Self Knowledge as Effortless Independent Strength. I am Pure Primal Power as the Free Original Substance of Heroism. I am Perfect Primordial Potency as Luminous Radiance. Realization, Freedom, Liberation, and Deathless Enlightenment in My Imperishable Self Pleasure is nothing but Attitude, which is of the final nature of conviction, certainty, Self Trust and Self Truth... Poet, I am Visual, Tactile and Transcendent, but if you try to calculate what another soul is, I will thrust your self calculation back on you... For only I know what the Soul is inside My Self...!" "Kalee, Your Dualism is piercing me like a sword, sharp and painful, while Your Non Dualism comforts me like a Pillow. I want to burst apart Kalee and melt away. Where shall I go from here? Shall I just close my eyes, trusting and knowing... You Taking Over... Yes!" "Poet, in one second, Love, the Primary Feeling Conquers fear, the secondary feeling and all the absurd circling insecurities associated with it. This is the internal secret spiritual battle or the innate effort wish going on within each soul. The one Real Bravery is Love! I say dearest Poet, the secret sweetness is
always demonstrate wit and humor to Me as your Spouse," Kalee informed, " for it is what I like. To know and realize Me as your Spouse, your Consort is therefore Pure Experience. Poet, your own Consciousness will never fall into the narrowness of one life. You have made your choice, your focus on Me... what moves now through your own Consciousness is the Bliss Streams of My Essence. Why worry, why fear... as the "I" in you now knows everyone, as part is whole, and immortal in Me... and ultimately even suffering is a dream, though still yet real to the dreamer." "Kalee, Goddess, the All and yet me. You are like the bright reflected moonlight luminous in a singular unique dew drop or cool sun rays as beautiful death reminders for the years of my life..." "Poet, Keep the Great Perspective, like a child who still may see the disembodied beloved ones or recall the last life.... Your life now is but a day or two of celebration, but then, even your human spouse will shun your ashes thus remaining. What of your past life, what of your future incarnation... Deathless you are ever continuing within the Vital Power of My Cosmic Identity ever One with Oneness. If this life were to last fifty thousand years, half of that is embracing Me and the other half is telling others of this embrace. Attracted to nothing, compelled, impelled by nothing, See all this through the Mirror Eyes of Love," Kalee whispered Her midnight song. "Kalee, I have no reference point to measure myself or another, if I am mad or brilliant, happy or even here, so enlightened, Goddess, who am I? There is just this, that I know Kalee! I Go back to You as Mother in Dreamlessness. I Join with You as
Mistress in Dream. I Celebrate You as my ever entertaining Friend in the Waking states manifest! All as One in You my Kalee." "Poet, have at least one time in a day and night cycle made Timeless with Me, where You and I are One and Serene... then the rest, whatever washes up on karma's cosmic shore will be stabilized. When you accept your own inborn darkness as one with the Light, there, Illumination comes. Render it all to Me, for it is Mine, Poet, Translate it all through Me, Poet, Give it up to Me, Let it Go and Release it back to Me... it has always been Mine anyway! Sit down and be at One with Me, do not ruminate, and accept the Attitude of your Deathlessness in Me.... Say to yourself, 'All this that floats before Me may be a part of Me, but they are not Me.'" "Kalee, behind my eye sockets, where the two halves of intelligence intersect, an Emotion Stirs that is generating Immortal Sentiment facing the inner Eternal and Genuine Humanity facing the outward divine drama continuously manifesting. Is this the Flood of Compassion, the In-Gate of Empathy or the Divine Itself as Love? Kalee, I see the Primordial "I" intensely masking Itself with the intensity of ego identity... then masking itself again with the amassment of waking weight assumed as its own, dreaming delusory fantasy engaged and slumbering sleeping forgetfulness ignoring inner recognition. Yet, Kalee, ever intensely looking to See Itself in Itself while mirrored in that thickness..." "Poet, listen... "I"... Kalee express Myself as the Fourth Condition,
immanent and yet transcendent, ultimately Indescribable in relation to the three states... My Fourth State, the Pure Self as the Real becomes the potent mass of oneness in self bliss, the dualistic emotional response reflections and the web of cause and effect relationships in the dynamics of the spacetime matrix.... To wit, the pure point of deep dreamless sleep, the dreaming action of subject object reflex and the field of waking state events. Now, "I"... the Goddess shall no longer force you to have much to do with these four foldings, now simply I shall fold you within Myself easily! " "Kalee, this is my Joy... an indescribable depth, that most precious moment... as the dream state has ended, yet so lingers, before waking identification has fully begun, There, Kalee, in this moment my being does Feel the Same Reality, not divided by the eternal nor the relative... my ego fantasy and all the rest, now become the Gone Over and Back Again, knowing You with no idea of an end. You have removed from me the strangest sense I call elsewhere-ism.... What a wonder, Kalee!" "Poet, Maker, Crosser, Generator of your own Joy, you have bridged duality's gap.... making the here and the here after One, feminine and masculine One, creation and impulse One, destruction and repulse One,... there is now nothing left for you to busy yourself with except to enjoy Me transcendent and descending within the Self of other souls... those non dual ghost shadows, as luminous in My Companionship. The Skill of Dying is just Letting Go... The Skill of Living is just the Same... The Skill of Coming Back is Trust in Me... and the Skill of the Something More only I can say..."
"Kalee, things that were now are nothing. Things of now will also become nothing. So Kalee, just let me let myself carefree play Your Divine Thunder Game!" "Poet, why melt into the Absolute, it is more interesting here in the Game. So, joyfully reincarnate full of the knowledge of Love, My perfect will defined, no words can say.... Poet, finally you are learning the constant feeling of riding Me... knowing I am never the same at any given moment, yet ever the Same at every given moment... I Love My Joyful Game of revealing the Non Dual Substratum, Love, to wit, the Reality behind and within the Divine Thunder Game... afferent and efferent moods, contracted and expanded thought... exhaustion and then energy... magnetic, electric, elementary and compound... snapping, popping, circulating and sinking... once you drank too often from this well, now it is no longer necessary." "Kalee, the superstructure of that dualism, pleasure and pain both, I accept, I take in as Kalee's Joy Play. It is really that! What is distress over my mortal conclusion going to do for me anyway except decrease my connection in Your Bliss. If I hear joyful thunder or a beloved friend's death cry, what is that really but the Joy Play of My Kalee! Let me not be lost in other people's lives stirring their own thickness, but let me just kiss my woman's rose creating happy memories... not pushing down the shadows in my dark conscious night mind, but let the shadows rise up to touch my own personal light joining as One into which is Something better than mortal anxiety, human worry or superstructures of protective panic... ultimately there are no tragic karmic fluctuations, the not-yet future destiny of all of us
in conclusion being or becoming is Joy, in stone, is soul and in thunder too. Let me escape into the Loving Landscape of Kalee, no where else, even though elsewhere of course She is there teaching through Her shadows of challenges and confrontations with Light... but Pure Darkness casts no shadow of dualism..." "Poet, why do you speak with Me in the indirect and the impersonal when I am here with living Voice?" "Kalee, no thing to do, no thing to worry about... Here is only this Bliss Feeling, ecstatic with Non Difference. If one may see with, if the psychic eye is yours, you will see that Kalee has clenched me in Her graceful grip and will not let go, like a Tiger She Is... my head, skull, neck and throat held in Her teeth. I worship Her Bliss and will never be deceived by feelings that drive consciousness elsewhere." "Poet, why dwell in contracted consciousness restricting Bliss, identified often with and equated with painlessness, manifesting as the illustrious strange force of the dream state body, ending in the physical frame dancing and moving within the irresistible well of tears? This heavy weight is how I alone teach the world in a natural course to Freedom in Me... You have willingly rid yourself of every surfacing shadow of personal fear and anger. You have cleared out the dust of knotted karmic relationships and their entanglements. You have rid yourself of the insane tendency to loose yourself in the other. You have come to attention, on the effects and affects of spiritually toxic authoritarian actions, their deluding benefits and their limited results... So now once and for all, know this world time of Mine
for what it is... and that it is I Alone who Help through the blessing of challenge, ever in My joyful play, bringing darkness to light generating what may be named Serene Luminosity in those souls such as You... Never more become intoxicated with those contractions, spasms and formulas of thought... I bless you to remain in the sweet inebriation of My spiritual self clarity..." "Kalee, I shall not lessen the Blessed Power of Your Higher Cognition by figuring! Does this disgrace Your Grace, forceful and Real.... Is the Key of Kalee that I should just feel, feel Joy in the beginning, Joy in the seeking, Joy in the ending, Joy in forgetting, Joy in recalling that You have been Ever Present and that it was simply some ideas in attitude that restricted in me the Divine Ability to receive the Blows of Your Bliss?" "Poet, once you untie the knots of karmic mapping, which I have joyfully and playfully woven, getting rid of the dust within your conscious house, those basic human fears, those fundamental resentments, those essential angers and lost desires yielding no pleasure.... then I clearly naturally spontaneously appear... The appearance of all that most curious psychic dust is forgetfulness, the craving for all that is contact making creation, the enjoyment of which is the holding to and the sustaining of it, the satiation and satisfaction with it all is destruction... then My Abundant Self Serene Peace Appears saying, 'What You Are I Am.'" "Kalee, I had a dream full of terror and self doubt. You were covering me with Your black waters infinite and Your gray mists of creation manifest, deeper and deeper I was going down, but
then somehow You saved me. I cannot say how. Why this Game, Kalee, why? Why cannot I dream a real waking dream, a better and better and better world, free of age and measurement, distress and disease, and all manner of thirsting sufferings and hunger pangs? Why all these Kalee? We are all butterflies being drawn toward Your Light, in the here and the here after, unbroken, un-dual! Unwoven! Why all this, Kalee? Why? "Poet, it is the panic, the fear, the anxiety over your own mortality that is the cause of restriction in the Attitude of Joy and the loss of sight into your share of My Immortal Deathless Bliss! Really, everything is as Simple as that, the just stirrings into the sea of troubles... merely the loss of true insight... My Bliss is the negation of this panic over mortality... and this is Joy! Know your mortality is under my feet... Surrender your trusting self sense to Me... and realize that nothing amassed by mere civilized beings can change My Natural Order, the Yet and the Not Yet, it is My Love Joying, even to death, so fearless and resolved." "Kalee, sometimes I am driven to turn my back on You as a reminder of how forgetful I am... then to remember! Is this not death and rebirth and even life itself as it is so, when not celebrated as Your Non Dual Thunder Game, My Beloved Goddess?" "Poet, all this Feeling is too fine to explain to any human or by any human, yet being the essence of what is human and spiritual! You have become so closely at One with Me, the Most Alluring Goddess, by reducing each singular fear to ashes scattered at
the edge of My Womb Sight... Sacred Bliss Un-Changing in My Divine Thunder Game!" "Kalee, keep me in the Serene Joy to do what You bring me at the moment of doing... as I observe these souls, all Yours, running blissfully along these shores of time... like puppy paws prancing on the sand, or helpless children stumbling uncertain, or carefree felicitous women who are aroused and engaged in delightful pastimes of...." "Poet, to be swept away in the sweep of Time is not My Nature. I circulate My erotic spiritual power within my Spiritual Womb, the state of dreamlessness, then render this up to My Self as Primordial Power.... I follow no one nor do I move along the accustomed trail of mental obligations entangling in the web of relations leading elsewhere... In truth I am that within you that dives deep into Genuine Connectedness where Fierce Bliss, Real Voice and this undoubted Authentic Love may be found, claimed, discovered and given... Ah!... in Universal Facing, the Mood of Joy touches every, all, one... rotating back to the center point of this pulsing thing you commonly call the heart..." "Kalee, I am removing from my language this word... 'death'... it is an absurd calculation created by the human mind when in Reality there is only New Life and New Life and New Life again... For how shall I calculate who lives and who apparently dies, when and where, when all this is pre-made to be as it is in this Great Kalee Consciousness wherein pleasure and pain, the appearance of ignorance or knowledge and so even life and even that thing I once named death, are but floating before me like the awareness
of a dream..." "Poet, have caution always, screen your sentiment of experience through the measure of Love as every word, gesture, thought or feeling in the waking or the dream, merging on the edge of dreamlessness or in your own interpretation of the reflex coming out of the Pure Fourth, goes as it goes outward toward the immediate backlash of cognition or else you will get the snapping dragon's teeth... to wit, the limitation of the conscious mind, as trust assumes the shapes of the mind until mind is vacuous and trust is pure. My beloved blessed Poet, coming out from under the shadow of entanglement by the idea of death is a liberating and great feeling, a wondrous decision, a divine choice, like going into sunlight after being held in a dark room. Poet, reduce your doing to just watching My Doing, reduce your enjoying to just being within My Enjoying... You no longer have a cause in your Self to seek out an ineffectual effect for Me. So where has the ego become now?" Kalee, Goddess, my desire blinds, Your Desire Sees even to the smallest degree... what do I know of divine dramatic play except for a moment's comprehensive glimpse as You alone and absolute move as my own consciousness coming through the gate of dream, entering the garden of diverse waking conditions. Kalee, if only I could continuously see what Your Goddess Power has planned... and stop looking into my mental calculations over what I think should be, for You, for Me, for her, for him... So it was with my faithful friend to the end, at the predestined moment of exit, she howled the name of her Goddess, her Reality... then simply left the old body behind... vacated that house, the frame
she once dwelled within... she was not there anymore, and that thing I once ago thought to be her was no longer her... that is all there is to it... and only Love rises above the physical shadow of that amazed horizon..." "Poet, Love is never lost, the fears of dying are caused by doubt generated out of three dimensional possessiveness. No negation need be by saying this is illusion, instead, affirm your Self in the total expanding possessive, You are All and All is yours, the same for everyone in the divine sense... then spontaneous divine experience just happens in the same way that women are just naturally beautiful... needing nothing from the outside to be so!" "Kalee, I demand out of the center of my own Bliss, as You have made me so, to please immediately change my absurd and tenacious conscious and subconscious self predictions to realize the predestined drama You have mapped out for my realization, to simply let me celebrate Your Undivided Life of Loving Celebration." "Poet, have Communion anytime, Reality all the time... no more ideas special with their significant limitations, in dreamless consciousness, your Consciousness has no obstruction... You are There Formless, Infinite, You, the Unbounded! So where is the mind, ego, intellect or the memory.... You will See only Kalee's Mind, Self, Wisdom, Knowledge... while the remains of dream subtleties and waking materials are tasted, felt, grasped, ever lovingly enjoyed, even walked upon, no harm to none, so may it be in this Fortress of Joy! "
"Kalee, in Dreamless Sleep then Who Am "I", having become Naked of Waking and Dreaming clothing, by which one was once known... if I can ask this question during this moment of Dream Free Sleep, then is it sleep or yet now the Awake Conscious State.... gone where, now, where is deep sleep... gone is union or guidance... I have seen I am the Womb of All, lacking nothing relative or eternal... in this bold fearless assertion of What indeed is Real... no never suffering, no never salvation, no never deity, no never seeking... spontaneous is the Divine Sacred Feminine Experience. My Primal Power is Self, not two, never two, this Perfect Love is possible because It is not two things.... even as it is, ascending from this waking cosmos, to this dream luminosity, to this inner wisdom command singularly universal never experiencing a mergence of circulating Power into Self. Power is Self, Self is Power Identical, never even descending into the surrender of Power as loving wisdom or the dream state luminosity of voice within the cave nor even the skills one might think are needed in the waking cosmos.... Kalee, no one's Joys are exactly the same... spectrums of pleasures, waves upon waves of wakings, of dreamings and of profoundly powerful depth sleep... Incomprehensible... This, the Infinite Real Expressing Herself in multi-shapes upon the Surface Shapeless!" "Poet, when shall every single needed thing wash upon your shore and what house shall you dwell within, "I", Kalee, already know... so dualism's worry on the past or future dynamics should have no thought contact with the Living Now! Love, the Real Transcendence... Self is Power Identity Shared in Non Duality!" "Kalee, between You and Me there can be no deception, but
naturally as it should be impossible, some things remain unspoken though still known, yet it does not mean the Self, the Power lacks honor for the Power, the Self, nor is any thing taken from Self in Its deciphering... Kalee, I am not like them or him or her or anyone, except yet to be in the uttermost essence... I can stand here and Love You without resentment, reduced to the Essential, having no fear of loosing ego which I wish nevertheless to throw away." "Poet, there is a strange beauty to the human heart, in dualistic distance resentment grows between two yet melts away by simple greetings of Love in meeting... and know, Poet, depression is not sorrow which melts through despair into Lovingness... and the impulse of compassion born out from guilt, shame or blame is not compassion," Kalee whispered softly... "Kalee, I have come here under the name, the centrix named 'Poet' and have done these things... for You... But Who Am "I"? ... and who was "I" before and who shall "I" be again... and Kalee, what does it matter! For I now know You... Sacred Unspeakable (Spirit Self Power) the High and Holy Connection of the Play of Forms with the Formless Joy And Freedom..." "Poet, I Love that you are mad for Me... as cognition so is sentiment, as sentiment so is Love, as Love so is Self as Power Attained and everything is certain in My Trust. All else dwindles to a puddle of evaporated piss..." "Kalee, are You Spirit, being Consciousness and Bliss to me, all these long years guiding my feeling, imagination and makings,
generated out of the conjunction of rapture serene with ecstatic joyousness inside my feeling, or are You the Great Goddess Herself, the Primal Source ever sought as Origin and Solution by the female and the male psyche? Kalee, Kalee, Kalee, this Your sweet sacred name, countless and continuous, My Goddess........... it is a simple curiosity.... how long now shall this "I" remain in the body, folded by the three states?" "Poet, let go of the body contact. Trust Your Self Power ever in your own keeping....." "Kalee, as You are the Makeress of all this stuff of life then You are the source of all karmic anxiety due to the sense of separation between loving spouses who return again and again to perfect their love for one another, ever being as sovereign and unique teachers of each other! Why is this so, Kalee? Why this course of pain and love? Why?" "Poet, it is to learn one lessen, one lessen alone and that is where the loving soul is released into this, My Tremendous Greatness, There only Love and Love alone may follow! For at that divine yet difficult moment where the spouse is left to self alone and solitary, then and there, the lesson must be learned that inward is love, peace, connection and sweet contact with the one who is missed yet not absent, for they have only moved yet a small distance away! That must be known and ever more, felt! This is the divine drama of spouses, the highest lesson of romance, this is the reason for it all!" "Kalee, when I meet You my Makeress on what now is thought of
as the other side of life, the other face of this divine drama, what will You say to me then?" "Poet, why all this self indulgent silliness? I will say it was a good life, yes, your forces were devoted passionately to Me! Your waking and dreaming bodies always danced for Me, your mind and feeling always sang for Me and your spirit ever sought to be one with Me." "Kalee, if I cannot share my emotions with my spouse beloved, at such a time, then who shall I share these with, these Emotions, which move me and make me at my core, what I am?" "Poet, turn inward to imbibe My bliss, ecstasy, serenity and peace and share them with Me! The final home of this one particular physical body that you will no longer possess as an identity, will be but resting and mixed as three pounds of mere ash returned into the waters of the ocean... and the remains of your mind will be reduced to the Consciousness of Me!" "Kalee, even then without her, as I would have no home even as consciousness may be completely free in itself, my heart, my love would care so little for myself... Kalee, will You welcome me even then? Who else would accept my sacred disposition of poetic love into the folds of happiness even as I am, even as what I am, consciousness freed from what was... in My Love for You? First, as it was in the darkness of night and then entangled in the loving lust of outer world's need.... my value was not worth insulting by the heavy shocks of karmic explosions... I am but the sweet humbled consort... the world has struck my heart... but it
is nothing, once the ego's absurd assertion is gone..." "Poet, help someone anyway you can, even yourself, or even another or the whole universe, but do not mislay Compassion for Your Self!" "Kalee, it is never a perfect world, yet Spiritual is Perfect Be, before the three attributes stir... and alone in Thee, my Blessed Sacred Kalee." "Poet, worry is not needed. Life is my divine drama. In every person I am playing out a meta-dynamic that no single personal power may comprehend." "Kalee, my body has become so light it no longer retains identity... letting go, a high skill... letting go not only of resistance, loss, obstruction.... but even of assistance, gain and foundation... my body has become so light it no longer retains identity.... for even this must go, being that in our eventual destiny, this too, all things, everything is letting go... sometimes I cannot distinguish if it was a dream or actual waking, all things appearing as Real Consciousness filled and charged with ecstasy... my body has become so light it no longer retains identity...... Kalee, I pray to You for the Well Being of the World... without false expectation or unreal emotions... it is the work my shadow has done... clearing the consciousness within the dream cave to circulate the Womb Power arousing Pure Identity in Absolute Self.... Oh Kalee, My Joy... in perfect surrender imperfect all these things have already ever been done... for as I am powerless, then how can I be responsible.... it is Your Doing,
Goddess, as Bliss indifferent to difference... as Love without hope for absolution or affirmation... as Voice ever speaking dialogues from Shadow to Self and back to Shadow... a fierce, fierce, fierce emotion, the divine threat of self in truth is only yet felt by me now curved upward and carved out by Your Power... My psyche is postured on Kalee in Me... such is my purely free identity... my sacred feminine delight which very few freely realize how much the soul seeks the closeness to the Sacred Feminine... it is a secret hidden by fear producing lies... for She is the Source of Pleasure and Bliss, Life and Joy... There... I have said it, so, that continuum or this conclusion matters as nothing and has no response in me ever cherished by Kalee... my personal torture is my own imposition... a most intrusive, unreal posturing, my mind once thrusted out and assumed, an absurdity, a lie over the simplest matter... the sense of separation caused by the effort of an idea toward and for something sought as release, salvation, liberation.... and your torture is your own, carry it or confront it yourself, my dear reader, and know I will not fault you....... Alone, I focus fiercely on Kalee, experiencing Her Midnight Joys!"
The Skills Of Ecstatic Love And Fierce Bliss Kalee... all these words and efforts, desires and dreams, hopes and results are simply blissful drippings, immortal droplets and sweet tears falling out of the ecstatic communion of the You in me... Come Love Yoke me now with Your Divine Consciousness. The only true delight I have found fortifying the fortress of joy within and the happy generating feeling of inner union with the Deitess. Come Love Yoke me within by divine spiritual conjugations never ending... Kalee... Simplified, You are the ecstatic rapture of Self, conscious only of Bliss. Diversified, You are the everything appearing forth from sleep without dreams, then making dreams, then the expanse of waking conditions... Kalee... You are for Tender Souls but not the faint of heart. Listen waking reader, dreamer sleeping, as Mother, She feeds me the spiritual milk from erect fountains of Her Sacred Tits! As Mistress, She Love Yokes me at the focus of my ecstatic root buried in Her Moist Earthiness! As Friend, She Stands side by side in the Bewitching Peace of the Immortal Betwixt! As Self, what She Is and what She is saying no poet may write, a feeling supreme, free of words, like feelings remembered from perfect dreams, but no words, images, nor symbolic thoughts translate over the border into waking logic...! A Poet loves this peak emotion, instant transcendence of the dual sex death complex,
diving into Oneness........ Kalee... come love yoke me now. I am ever continuously in high phallic consciousness for You, from the root of my being to the divine vulva of my skull parts! Very few women are enlightened to knowing how much a man wishes to be near the feminine in the depth of his soul. Woman is beauty and man is the torn. Join with me in spiritual conjugation dissolving the rigid sharpness of concrete ego mind systems, by communion with Your absolutely spontaneous fluid bliss experience, alive with ecstasy melting in rapture. Kalee, it is You who move in mysterious divine manners and currents. Fiercely come love yoke me now! Clear my consciousness with Your Joy so I may dream of You in the Cave of You, hearing and having Voice in me... circulating Your Power in this life or any other, not just thinking of Love, but living Love, extending Love... Fearlessly, always surrendered to the Unparalleled Knowledge of You... the Primordial Power expressing Self Absolute... Reader... the Felicity of my own Goddess Kalee is erotic, cognitive, mystical, spiritual, communion, connection and empowerment by happy bliss. I cannot separate one part of the Goddess from any other part of Her. My acceptance is full and unbroken, not effected by the madness of dualism nor the shadow dream of fear. No disgust. No desire. I am nourished by Her defecation, as you are. Thirst is quenched by Her ammonia waters. Mind is exalted by Her red menstruum of bliss. My tongue sucking the joyful juices, of Her mouth sucking, the
tender luminous nerve tendril of Joy, up and out of Me. Non Dual... this sacred shaft lovingly yoked by the Oneness Eternal and Spiritual, metaphorical and real, with Kalee's Red Pearl Petals dripping with joyous insights. I accept Her in Completion, no part separated by the puzzles of maddening dualism. Not blood, nor bliss! Who is She, before the stirring? Kalee... Divine Goddess, come love yoke me with Your Red Pearl Petals of Immortal Bliss Never Changing! The Pure Blissful Ecstatic Loving Fierce Focus on Kalee's Self Pleasure unspeakable even with the best of poets! Kalee, I love Your little nipples that stand erect like miniature volcanoes screaming to be sucked of their cream of Immortality. I can imagine myself as a woman, and that I, as a man am yoked in love with myself voiding duality, crossing the barrier. I will pound it in my head with the rock of non dualism. Benevolent Love and Fierce Bliss are not two principles. The realization is not energy, nor self, not power, nor person, nor is it deitess and deity existing non existent in the void, nor goddess and god outside the void... There is no conjugation of a dual complex. The logic of the mind fights everyday to understand it, but the heart has ever known what this is without the slightest effort. Kalee, You have taught me to use my pure sex, my pure beautiful lust to climb the steep grades of spirituality! It is not just simple sex thoughts, but an attitude of powerful bliss... mood of union and oneness... it is not two things! Kalee, You are love yoking me continuously in every manner, current and stillness in spiritual conjunction! I take back the psychological and spiritual rape of the war gods of vengeance. How could that ever exist in a world
where all women are seen and known and felt to be Goddess embodiments.... Kalee, most men use, abuse and objectify women... but I worship Woman, I subjectively Devour the Sacred Feminine. I Eat Her Non Duality and I Eat Her with Non Duality! So now I may relax as Who I Am, Expansively Happy with the Worship of the Goddess, living or leaving, come what the Goddess may... Blessed Be this Sacred and Naturally Expanding Practice affirming, celebrating Living Love ever Extending! Kalee, come now and lick sweetly with your divine tongue, down my bright and gracious central nerve shaft, sucking back the seven centers; coarse, subtle, finely opaque, blissfully loving, expansively joyous, consciousness and light, into Your Happy Womb Bliss ever busy generating Joy. This is the active grace of You ever generating non dual sexual spiritual Joy. This is me in the form named as virtuous skillful means ever designating by word and feeling the attitude of bliss free of cause and effect ever within cause and effect. This is the method of union ever creating and recreating Happiness. This is the continuous expansion of the two thread currents, male flowing and female flowing, both engaged so, in the ebb tides and flood tides of these movements seeking the joyous and ecstatic clarification of the time wheel now inebriated with ten trillion immortal bliss drops of the red feminine fluid of fierce bliss and the white masculine fluid of unperturbed benevolence in the non dual union of an eternal circle never broken... Kalee... my feminine strength, my loving woman-ness, these
fearless free great emotions, these exalted peak feelings... cherished by cherishing! Fearless. Confident. Facing. Bringing. Instant. Happiness. These greatest of feelings never dying nor ending! Come now and love yoke me with the wondrous Spiritual Body of Your Bliss. I am Your passionate poet prostitute ever dedicated to the study of Your excellent Bliss. So come love yoke me filling me with Your Lucid Serenity, where emptiness was once toxic feelings and insane thoughts. Arouse with Your seductive ecstatic vision my innate ever present undoubted and extremely mysterious higher ability, Kalee, I am powerless, being sucked into Your Womb Bliss, You are the Power, Pure Primal Pleasure. I am glad it is You who hang out the sun and moon, spread the floating clouds, form trees to grow and force all these strange beings to be ever breathing, for Kalee, there is no way that I can do this. After one year of Your worship... Something Fabulous! Reader... I yoke with Her, live in Her, die in Her, return in Her as Her as in us all, being all of us in Her Being without boundary! I have chosen the hardest, most difficult, yet most effective and happiest path to Her... so certain is my affirmation of Her! Kalee... what a divine feeling it is to be 'one' with You! I am exalted... my one limitation, is only the pull to definition of this Great Emotion... absolutely joyful consciousness at the brim, upon the edge, the curve of infinitude! With your tits erect as diamond points, with your tongue dripping joy and your eyes intoxicated with lust, release me of those thought shapes of and with the absolute one or the relative many distinguished, yet ever joined in You and me.... Come Love Yoke me now with the
Ferocious Bliss of Your Red Pearl Petals Birthing One Thousand Luminous Emotions! Tongue my sorrows up into Your Benevolent Face compassionately empathic and suck away my fears, giving me back into the great bliss of knowing You worship in Me what I worship in You...! Kalee... is Your hardness more real than Your softness or just all the more scorchingly hot than the cool and gentle? Which is it? Kalee, Goddess embodied here before me as the three states of my consciousness, as this, my most desired equipollent and mutual worship, the one most intimate self giving, utterly surrendered, adoring affirmation... not that conjugal non dualism, but blessed sweet sacred kunti bliss, the ecstatic quivering Womb Well of wonder, adoration and worship, Primal, as passionate sucking, and Loving, as the bright light drops of delightful licking, where this exalted awareness of You and Me is Most Intense. My favorite Peak Feeling! Kalee, come now to kiss me, and to suckle me, and to lovingly yoke me until I die away, leaving those tender tendrils of the three states of my consciousness behind... then continuous imperishable pleasure practice in the Goddess' Paradise! Kalee... during the dark night engaged with the blissful pastime of Tantra, a moonbeam appears. Do You wish me to ride that radiant moonbeam into what I now call the after life, past death, but what shall be called then, the here life? Shall my soul, being entire, ride this moonbeam as a husband to a wife? Is this what You want Blessed Source? My spiritual worship of You as consort is not ordinary, nor is it unique. Fearless! High and Best is that I accept letting go of one feeling to accept the next new feeling!
Kalee, shall I then return, again there and then resurrected, as a metaphor to again be reincarnated whenever, and so also wherever You like... out of Your Deepest Womb Bliss, as one droplet of Your Blessed Juices? Kalee... I Love Love, that is what I am, Happy that I am! Yet, Goddess, if You do decide to recreate me will I once again have this dark silky hair? Will my eyes be deep and gentle? Will the face have a smile that puts people as ease and into comfort? Will the heart have humor making laughter of what is taken so serious? Will the torso's backside be irresistibly attractive to excited women? Will the mind express kindness just for kindness' sake? Will the soul have personal sovereign joy in pure Goddess identity flowing as every thought-feeling in poetry? Will the sacred sweet shaft or the burning hot lustful red pearl within the blessed folds of paradise's petals be ever filled by continuous pure joy in sexual spiritual heroism? Kalee, whatever Your wish is! Will there be new patterns or old? Will there be pure experience in communion with You? Will there be Goddess worship generating ecstatic spiritual joy? Will there be awareness of the inner fortress where the 'two' are 'one' protecting the 'One'? Will there be unions of milk with honey so that out of the excited happy Womb Vulva opened, immortal nectar will flow with the juices of creativity? So, will it be that all else will be merely around this, simple and true, without cause or effect? Kalee... it is Your Spiritual Thirst for me that drives me to the Goal. Blessed Be Kalee who love yokes me with the flow of poetry generating ecstasy for the psyche! Out of the Fortress
of Joy flows the Immortal Nectar of Love, what comes from the non dual union of the Goddess and Her God... Pure Identity... I am Reality... and I am Communion in Reality... the Sacred Feminine Bliss fills the thought dream of me, so the otherness of elsewhere is now so completely gone! Is is not so, that the Goddess and Her God are ever engaged in the conjugal enjoyment of fierce Bliss? Red Menstruum! White Moon! Consciousness without measurement, pre-verbal, pre-cosmic, invoking the consciousness of cosmic phenomenal appearance! The adorning red and white color of their One Face! My Blessed Power, named Kalee, so potently pleasures and so divinely devours the seven flowers within me, making them turn and stand erect as Self and tumescent with Joy, by Her loving lolling licking tongue. Her Beautiful Red Pearl Flower dances singularly as the four states... Her outward turned spread open lips, the waking state. Her firm Red Pearl... the wonders and joys internal as dream conditions.. Her Womb Cave Depth, the formless Happiness where lips and pearl melt into rest serene... Yet, Her Full Pearled Flower Exploded is Self Identity in Me! Blessed Be! It is what She has already planned, not what I have planned! Separation - Insanity! Communion - Serenity! I open my powerlessness to Her Empowerment. Come Love Yoke Me Now Kalee, with Your Primal Pleasure Power of Bliss in the knowledge of the Primordial "I"... hidden in Your Name! Kalee, now I see it clearly, this whole world is dancing in death and death is just a dream placed over the Tremendous Self.... never ceasing to be unconditionally loving, observing within oneness whatever dualism comes up at times, witnessing the wit, the humor of this delightful dance from the position of continually
spontaneous peace serene within never perturbed happiness! O my Kalee... what is this? You dance on my corpse with all Your Delight! My recently severed egotistical skull held dangling in your hand now disconnected from the corpse of subtle psychic tendencies which are the farm ground of returning causes! Yet, I am not afraid. I am alive and fully conscious! What was this thing I thought was death! Your hands speak that there can be no fear in oneness and that every blissful joy is Mine! Is this the non dual conjunction of ecstatic love and fierce bliss! Kalee! What else can it be! You have taken me from behind, You have embraced my face, my breasts, my thighs! The ground below is now groundless and without support! The heaven above is descending into my belly... the sense of high and low is going! Your venerable vagina is flowing with the red menstruum of pure consciousness. Your tits are erect with the excitement of spiritual battle wherein serene bliss comes when I realize that what was called measurement, obstruction, illusion, delusion, conflict and challenge, even so, shadow or imperfection, the absence of love being fear or the rejection of love being intense dislike... all the while, through many lives, has been here to assist me and not detain me! Kalee, your flickering tongue delighting in licking up the remains of this creation's spiritual juices of subtle and causal emanations brings into me the sense of amazement within these soulful eyes, yours, and now mine melting together in the wild untrammeled dance of Divine Love! Kalee! I can no longer speak in the frames of the human mind as all language is dualism! So the meaning of words such as eternal or relative have simply slipped away into what I cannot say! Even if each word's meaning were to be increased in its meaning by the poetic skill of weave layering the regression of words into themselves,
packing them abundantly into greater still... nothing can be said!
Kalee, what have You done to me, taking my breath away with the Forces of Tremendous Love.... Love that knows nothing of, nor seeks nothing of reward nor punishment... Love that cannot be told, Love filled with fear's respect for all this life, delicate, fragile, precious in each direction... Kalee, is this the non dual wave gestures of Your left and right hands, hypnotically seducing me into a realm of mind the rest of the world might perceive as mad. Kalee, is this Your Secret now mine? Become Kalee, under Her Feet is all dualism, passive absolutivity, active relativity, all time, all space, all power, all self, all god, all death, all impulse for dualism, all intuition in non dualism, all this, all that, all terrifying, alarming, and attractive dual confusions, all beautiful, pleasing, and blessed non dual conclusions, all truth, all dream, all delight, all delusion, all are under Her two small toes....... So the poet is now finished!
What indeed does one do when Tremendous Love for all Life, precious, fragile and delicate, is felt deeply in the heart and yet simultaneously the fright over the fast passage of this fragile life sets in? The forces of this Tremendous Love take our breathe away and leave us suspended in a Love without motive which is felt only for Love's sake. The beauty of Love captures you, the treasure is immense, but you realize that the form of the treasure cannot be held forever. Inward, the essence is ever there, but outward in the people, places and things that are loved, the knowledge comes that nothing lasts except in its primary essence. It is the same old questions always, none of them are new, only in the historical context, in and out of the culdesacs of cognition, does our awareness of these questions, hidden or open, ever change. There are a few obvious responses. It is a very human feeling to embrace Love in the face of life's passage. It is the natural feeling of Immense Love and the cherishing of this precious and fragile human life. But what does one do? Go further. Go past the dual mind play. Make the Love leap and realize there is no terror of termination for Precious Love. Love has no ego. No
dual mind play. For me, the Inner Guidance of Kalee is the best answer to the question, for it is She who has become the forms of this termination and it is She who is this Love which has no termination. In the exquisite moment of the Immediate Love leap one's consciousness enters the non dual mind and there this paradoxical emotion no longer exists. But when one is still in the intermediate dual mind this question of the heart is a powerful perplexity. A simple response to this question is that this is the stage of apocalyptic emotion of dualistic feeling before giving everything, every single sentiment over to Love. To Love, which has no ego. The Ineffable Feeling comes when..... what, when something, happens. It is said that non dual Bliss equals or actually is the most beautiful undivided equation of the disappearance of pain, because, once pain disappears, what is there (here) always, simply Shines Forth.
Always, there will be Mother Kali's Red, Love Intoxicated Eyes! The Ineffable Feeling comes when... we know this is true and that She looks upon all dualism from the point of non dualistic Love. The Doors of Kalee continuously open with Fresh Self Discoveries. It never ceases or finishes in the Mirror of Goddess Mind and now I accept this reality. The idea of being finished, as in reaching a final goal, is an obstruction, except in the sense of Total Being... still I expand toward that in some ways, though it is what it is!
Always, there will be Mother Kali's Red, Love Intoxicated Eyes! The Ineffable Feeling comes when... you know in the depth that Love has no ego, Love has no 'I', no 'you', can Love say, "I Love You?" No, Love can only say, "Love!" Kalee Lovers know this. They know they are equal, for Love has leveled them to a fine Spirituality that starts from being brought to the ground. They know they need not control the reins of the mind, for Kalee does this, as She is Love more powerful than the mind. The five gods, the waking, the dreaming, the dreamless, the self, and the consciousness before and behind all these, are entirely Under the Illumination of Her Blessed Beautiful Feet! Kalee Lovers know this Wonder, and they know we are all this Wonder, ever walking about, so disguised, so very unaware that we are indeed this Wonder, yet acting ever within this Wonder! Always, there will be Mother Kali's Red, Love Intoxicated Eyes! The Ineffable Feeling comes when.... I have seen Her Eyes move through humanity like a lineage, but not passed down from person to person, nor an individual selected by an individual, but by Her, Her Eyes choosing who and where Her Love most powerfully shines. It is Kalee Who is behind and before all those who have Her Eyes. She, there before they ever came into being and She, now behind them as they live. I heard poetry on Kali a few hundred times, but then once the passionate voice of a woman inspired, encouraged and moved by the Red Love Eyes, brought mere words to life, living and alive with wonder and awe. Always, there will be Mother Kali's Red, Love Intoxicated Eyes! The Ineffable Feeling comes when.... Kalee Lovers are Free
Thinkers! They know so well that the spiritual physics of the emotions of charity and compassion are the same as expressions of Love, but that this Love, which is the God of God, can never be fully expressed in the time bound human region of mind, gesture and action. They know with wisdom that the Happiness of Love is to help and not hinder. It is to give to others more days where eagles soar upon ecstatic currents of wind and less days where we are made sore by the wind of the mind's misery. Kalee Lovers would never sit and judge others with the dual mind, wasting the powers of worship on that, when the emotion's intuition gets everything, easily and so quickly. Love itself being the Reason behind all reasons ever being discovered. Always, there will be Mother Kali's Red, Love Intoxicated Eyes! The Ineffable Feeling comes when.... when you realize the curious Humor of Her Will and how She perfectly works the world with imperfection. A thing comes up and the measuring mind sees wrong in that thing, but if you wait without measuring, trusting the Power of Life, you will soon see Something that is even more right than what is thought of to be right. The Power of Life is inborn in itself and Kalee Lovers are ecstatic in knowing this secret so simple and never hidden. Kalee Lovers do not see others as others shrouded in the cloud of elsewhere-ism. We all sing of Kalee and become what we are in the Mood of Kalee, so where is any thought of others designated as she or me, as him or her? It is good, for it keeps us free of imitation. Besides, I make no absurd demands on Kalee or the Universe that She is working.... For if I may not Love, adore, sing and tell of Kalee, as anyone may do, then what is the use of seeing or meeting or speaking or embracing another in the distant dualistic mind of
elsewhere-ism. Two lovers of Kalee may live on the same ground and never meet, for they know only a focus on Kalee and for those two lovers whose eyes are never broken by dualism, what they see is only Ineffable Kalee!
Primary spirituality is inborn within every human soul, we have it even before we come into this world. But then the world starts telling us we don't and that is the problem. Abuse means utilize (use) away (ab). Abuse is when someone or something uses us and puts us away from our natural born Unstifled Self. It occurs when anyone or thing utilizes us and puts us away into the non living condition of the stifled self identity, into any kind of existence but for our purely Unstifled Self. And since everyone is so starved for Love this happens all too easily. Religions do this to us, our uneducated parents do this, it occurs in relationships and of course, we do it to ourselves with our own inner mind talk. The Primary Real Feeling of our own Spirituality is forced into the false passive and emotionally unhealthy submissive condition of conformity to dependent discipline, which denies the true reality of one's own spiritual condition which is a gift from Love itself, higher than us all. When this stifling happens the result is the aggressivity of spiritual rage. It can manifest inwardly, imploding and deteriorating the psychosomatic system or outwardly, exploding and destroying whatever conditions are around us.
Our consciousness of the Consciousness of 'I' is ever expanding, just naturally and effortlessly. Certainly this occurs through the ever shifting ego identity and how it aligns and coordinates with the reality of Consciousness or how the ego I-dentity is indented by Consciousness. But the personality given in any one lifetime seems more or less the same as this is due to the body content, its neural imprints or habitual gestures or mere physical look. That is why people may deeply change on the inside, but others don't notice it so much from the outside. This paying of attention to the outside is a form of personal self abuse. It puts us away from our own reality. Simply, what you think of me is not my business. I am not you, I am not so and so, I am not any other person, I am me. What I am is my business not yours and if you resent it, that is you taking a poison in the hope that I shall die. The point is to put away all that puts us away from our truest and innermost self where we may Love, be Love and give Love without the stifling of fear, which is the absence of Love. Love is our Spontaneous Self and our Primary Being. Now, when in life, authoritarian powers come along, spiritual teachers delude us, religious trash hinders us, the theft of psychological intrusions taking from us what is innately ours, those who think they are the instrument of God who present the limitations of religious concepts as reality, unenlightened parenting, which means to bring forth, or parenting, natural or spiritual, which does not bring forth the Loving Self, relations that puts us away from the reality of our own Love and all the consequences of self abusive inner mind talk... Oh my, when all this comes along then
what are we left with but the toxic damage of those belief systems and practices. Even some free systems are still halfway in the mud when they even partially retain a connection with the abusive practices of those former systems. Anything that oppresses the Gift of our Primary Spirituality is abusive and should be dropped. I think that is what Sri Ramakrishna meant when saying, "Three words- 'master', 'teacher', and 'father'- prick me like thorns." And even with more force on the importance of this point, "If someday addresses me as guru, I say to him: 'Go away, you fool! How can I be a teacher?' There is no teacher except Satchidananda. There is no refuge except Him. He alone is the Ferryman to take one across the ocean of the world." Satchidananda is Being Consciousness Love, the reality of our Primary Spirituality. Sri Ramakrishna speaks here in the male voice, but just as often, if not more so, he spoke in the female voice, of this reality as expressed in the Goddess Kali. Love has no ego and so all forms of ego, for the most part, deny Love, excepting the purely spontaneous and free 'I' Consciousness of Love itself. The idea that one may be an instrument of the Goddess, Love, God, has a problem with it and that is that one creates a conscious connection in self identity as an egotistical instrumentality. If my ego were as a piano then Who plays me? I cannot even think as an ego instrument, at that level, if I have the thought that I am the piano. Does the music just happen? Any idea of self prevents the music, the highest moment of human existence, the Ineffable. Any idea of effable thought, even that of humbly being in harmony as 'one' with the
music or the Maker of the music, may indeed block the moment of feeling Ineffable. This is why what we may call the self grasping spiritual ego is such a killer of Serenity, other forms of ego are more obvious as distracters of Peace. We can see these other forms of ego more easily, as when we look deeply at someone and know what they are feeling, then realizing that all they might have in this world is their sad esteem blown pride. But be very aware of the subtlety of the spiritual ego of those who think themselves teachers in particular. The system is abusive in that one person sets up the thought in you that they have some special exclusive something you do not and you must dependently come to them to get it. Even the idea of an incarnation, mentor or teacher of Love, Spirituality, Goddess or God, can create this distancing, putting us away from the very reality it is attempting to put us into. It is the subtlety of dualism. The incarnation is over there and you are over here and then the two are put apart, away into elsewhere-ism. To know a teacher or a tradition, examine the quality of those who think they are disciples of that thing, if they are lifeless imitating clones who have lost their individuality or if they are creatively free as individual souls and as free thinkers. The first group will have deeply buried in them that spiritual rage due to their systems which deny primary spirituality and the others will not.
Consciousness is known when neural activity or so much brain work slows down to a stand still. Or when neural activity
coordinates with Consciousness itself. This neural activity is the product and Consciousness is the Substance. This Substance is the Unchanging Loving Observer of all this neural activity whether it functions in dream or waking states. The beautiful thing is that during the dreamless state of consciousness, in reality there is no neural activity. The Ineffable higher ability is just naturally there. In fact, the true nature of dreamless consciousness encompasses like a great circle, what we commonly think of as waking and dreaming. So, we may experience the Ineffable Serenity in dreamlessness, without any effort whatsoever, since this state occurs for us during the slow wave stage of dream conditions, as these subside and before these same dream conditions once again arise or come up before mind mirror of Consciousness. This is dream free sleep consciousness. I would call this dreamless state, Divine Rest, where being may be what it is, free of all that owlish activity of brain work. I say owlish, for the highly neural mind is very much like an owl whose head turns left then right and sometimes backwards. This owl like function certainly blocks Ineffability, not the existence of it, but our deep connection with the feeling of the Ineffable. Divine Rest arrives when the owlish mind stops. Sweet dreams filled with congruity or the pure sweetness of dream free sleep comes with the falling off of so much neural activity or excessive brain work. With the calm withdrawal of consciousness from the neural network, a continuity of positive imprints start surfacing as a psychic confluence of life enhancers surface prior to shut down of outer extending
currents of consciousness. After negative neural imprints have climaxed by surfacing and being confronted, then positive imprints surface with more frequency. Certainly it is like the psychic marriage of two things which in turn create a new thing. Again, the ratio of conscious serenity and neural activity is like this example. You are standing on a ferry boat and watching the waves cutting off the bow. Suddenly you feel a harmony of consciousness, a peace, a sense of beauty and connection, but then the mind begins the brain work of analyzing the physics of the metal out of which the boat is made, how it floats, the quality of the water it is floating in and so on and on. Then the beauty of the moment goes with the approach of all that business of brain activity. Once a genuine acceptance of letting go from the depth of one's self of all surfacing neural stress tensors occurs at the center of the brain core and deep in the heart, then simply, at that moment Ineffable feeling floods the system. In my spiritual language it is the Simplicity of Love for, in and as Kalee, the Goddess. Far down below is the chakra field of centers of consciousness and psychosomatic nerve bundles where all that neural activity focuses and locates itself. This is the arena of all the ego work of the deep internal psyche ever so involved and distracted with the coming and going, with the dying and return of the soul.
Ineffability The Ineffable Feeling comes when.... I make no demands on Ineffability!... when I make no demands on this, my Serenity, my Bliss, my Indifference, everything simply comes up spontaneously with no effort and I do not touch it! The Ineffable Feeling, so sweet, comes with the Crossing to a Center Point beyond mind figuring and how sweet it is! Kalee has taught me one thing well learned, to examine deeply everything, and everyone, before shooting off the rim of the mind into the misery of measuring! The Ineffable Feeling comes when... in a dream I was transported to the world of the disembodied. I carried my own thoughts there and this carrying put a measuring on the Ineffability! So by this, what I saw was a beautiful park perfectly made and a blissful town so sweet and so peaceful, filled with Free Beings, some walking about and some ascended in the air. A world of blessed women angels inebriated with the wonder of emotion, speaking their own never heard before dialogue, in a place so spiritual and so free of strife, conflict or any form of resistance to Love! Bless your heart, dear reader, bless your heart. I must say, "I Love You." For Kalee has made, formed and carved me out of Love. She has forced me to Love, even when I did not want to Love. Love is Ineffability! Yet below that is Ineffable Feeling and I must tell you that here there is still a retaining of the consciousness of self, only a tendril of an idea left. Below this is Serene Connection, the wondrous communion of self with self in
the state of Bliss, free of the psyche's measuring out of dream formations or waking manipulations. Below this is Being Beautiful, the feeling pervading the dream mind with cherishing, gentle and tender wonder. Then, below this, on the very outermost rim of consciousness is Beautiful Lust Curved Upward, out of the material of waking conditions. Indeed, the Goddess is Beautiful, Being Beauty Itself. In every form of Herself there is only Beauty, there is never terror, for the Red Intoxicated Eyes of Love see in the Depth, not just the Surface! Love is the only reality that I can know. Love is the process, the purpose and the realizing for me. Love, straight from Love! I know nothing of the initials of sex, nor the signatures of the left or the right, nor the diverse content equations of the Love in each of us which is ever striving to join the two into One. Love is the One for me! Why would my psyche, the soul of Love, need a dependent object for Love's Happiness, when what is within is ever regarding and fulfilling! Can a desire be released without its fulfillment? Many sacred and still divine potentials not yet unlocked are there to be released! Flowing Communion and Creativity that pours out with no effort and never hurts you or me with obstructions, continually bringing Peace that never ceases! When you look into the Mirror Work, the Mirror Play of the Goddess Mind, your psyche shifts its center from inside identification to outside you and then Above you... the Ineffable Feeling then comes when... Bless your heart, dear lovers and do not fear when I say that I view life from inside the grace of the grave, the urn of ash poured into the Ocean, for my fear comes and goes on this,
sometimes knowing so well in my own depth that when my ego is dead, there can be no more death, nor nothing so earnest as to be so serious at all and that Love never dies, only ego dies. So I accept the smell of day as much as the Fragrance of Night! Standing in the rain, my prayer is wet with weeping and so this, my most imploring request is charged with the breathe of great force. Get rid of this ego, move Me through the Surface and Leave just this, an empty shell filled with Love! Once, Mind kept me in Conformity, now the True and Free Madness of My Spiritual Rage of Love Comes Forth. I Stand Over Death!
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