Start looking around your relationship and realize that nothing absolutely nothi ng looks the way it did when you started. All of the little things about them th at used to make you smile to yourself when on your way home from a date have bee n somehow transformed into grating tics that they cant get rid of. Start to notic e things that, once seen, can no longer be ignored. Latch onto their more negati ve habits and pick at them, as you might a scab in a particularly irritating loc ation on your body. Become overwhelmed with the desire to tell them to just stop being themselves. Realize that that would be ridiculous, and instead swallow you r constant frustration like an oversized antibiotic. Feel oppressed by their pre sence. Stop being interested in sex. Be repulsed by their touch, even when its offered only in kindness and comfort. Find yourself increasingly tense when you know tha t sex is expected, and nothing short of resentful at the implication that you sh ould be having sex with them. Know that letting your sex life together wither an d die like this isnt constructive for anyone and it certainly isnt making them fee l good about themselves but feel completely unable to force yourself to fake it. Watch them go through the motions of trying to make things good ahead, like the y were before (and be painfully aware of all the connotations that now come with the word before), but remain completely indifferent to their affection. Feel naus eas when you see them on top of you. Realize that almost your entire time together is now spent in some variation of a fight. There are the quiet, seething, passive-aggresive fights; the screaming words we dont actually mean but which feel good to say fights; the bringing up pr oblems that wed long-since resolved to be spiteful fights; and everything in-betw een. No indiscretion or slight is too small or too petty not to launch into a ti rade, to go back-and-forth until youre apologizing and someone is swallowing thei r pride to take the blame for this particular scuffle. Be unable to admit that t he problem may just be inherent in the two of you together, and not just a serie s of thousands of tiny injustices foisted upon you by the hands of fate. Conside r everything just a fight, instead of a symptom of a much more profound problem. B lame each other for everything. Know that the moment is going to come, likely sooner than later, where youre goin g to have to end this. Dread the conversation the way one does a test that they havent studied for but which is incredibly important to their overall grade. Run over what youre going to say enough times that every word in the sentence has los t its meaning. Be so tired, so physically tired of fighting that you want to beg in nearly every sentence with I cant do this anymore, but be unable to do so when y ou go to actually tell them how youre feeling. Understand how much its going to hu rt them, how it wasnt always this way, and though the fleeting visions of the lov e you used to share arent enough to make you stay, feel a sharp pain in your stom ach when you remember them. Know that the person you once loved with every fiber of you is no longer going to be a part of your life, and feel the emotion of it all like quicksand. Finally have that one fight that you know is going to do it. Get so angry and, m ore than that, so exasperated, that you can no longer walk away from this one an d lick your wounds. Come to a kind of calm silence in which the clear inability to exist together is far more prominent than any joy you get from spending toget her. Start to speak the words youve been saving up like bullets inside you for mo nths now, for which you want to soften the blow, but know that nothing is going to make I dont want to be with you anymore less hard to swallow. Tell them that you dont want to fight, but that you dont want to make up, either. Stay for their pro tests, and perhaps their pleading, but be ready at the end to say no. Though break ing it off on the tail end of a fight, and not in some calm moment in which you both could have collected your thoughts, may not have been the most mature route it had to end. Repeat things about how hard its gotten, about how mean you are w ith each other, and about how you just cant do this anymore. Hope it sounds as sinc
ere and pained as it actually is.
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