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I will be talking about a wide range of topics in this book
and you may find yourself coming across terminology or topics that
you are unfamiliar with. Now, while it is one of my goals for this
book to be as readable as possible, there will definitely be some
things that you are going to want to look up for yourself. I will
probably ask you to do this by saying something like Dont take
my word for it, do some research on your own! Some people may
fault me for not explaining everything in detail or perhaps not
putting things in very simple terms, but it is more important for me
to communicate what Im trying to communicate as accurately as
possible than it is for me to describe things with less descriptive,
precise terminology so that some people might grasp it better. That
being said, if you find at moments it gets wordy, mathy, or techy,
please do yourself a favor and do at least a little research to better
understand what Im trying to say if you are finding it difficult in
that particular part of the book. If at some point you are thinking to
yourself, there is no evidence for this! or this cant be true! or
this guy doesnt know what hes talking about and you HAVENT
done the research? That is no fault of mine and the only person you
can blame for that is yourself. I understand that its not reasonable
to expect everyone to do the amount of research and reflection Ive
done to come up with similar conclusions, but that is one of the
reasons Im writing a book so you dont have to sift through so
much information to find similar things. I will be giving you sources
for ideas as much as possible. This book is NOT for the passive
reader. This book will be asking your active participation and focus
perfect right now as Ill ever be in any given moment because all I
have is the vital now, and yet that does not stop me from
passionately pursuing progress and making myself and people
around me better.
I am certainly going to do my best to be well prepared,
widely, and well studied and accurate to the best of my ability with
my statements. I do urge you, if you find some fault in the way I
have written this book or the subject matter itself, do not allow that
rob you of its beautiful underlying message. I believe we are in
desperate need of transformation in our world right now and this
is me trying to do my part and play my role. So you over critical,
cynical,fact lusting, skeptical readers? Do yourself a favor and let
your guard down, relax your mind and just be open to new ideas
and perspectives. Be willing to accept that we dont know
everything down here on earth (even with science) and that there
may be some things that you just havent realized. Like I said
before, I dont write this book to put my ego on a pedestal. I think I
have something valuable to say so Im going to say it.
when I say this word so that we are on the same page going
forward; and after I explain this, please apply the same principle to
the rest of the terminology that already has social and religious
stigmas attached to it. When I say the word God, I am referring to
something that has been referred to in many ways for a long time
something that we have been struggling to find and understand
and somehow make a part of our lives. I am talking about the
center, the nucleus, the creator of the universe, the energy that
sustains and holds together everything, consciousness, pure love,
mystery, unfathomable power and this has absolutely nothing to
do with any religion or book or preconceived notion. God to me is a
mystery as he is to all people and by using the term God I do not
wish to rob him of his depth by implying that I understand him; it is
quite the contrary in fact. I believe Eckhart Tolle said it best in
regard to this phenomenon of pretending to understand something
by using labels:
"Words, no matter whether they are vocalized and made
into sounds or remain unspoken as thoughts, can cast an
almost hypnotic spell upon you. You easily lose yourself in
them, become hypnotized into implicitly believing that when
you have attached a word to something, you know what it is.
The fact is: You don't know what it is. You have only covered
up the mystery with a label. Everything, a bird, a tree, even a
simple stone, and certainly a human being, is ultimately
unknowable. This is because it has unfathomable depth."1
When I say God I mean just that unfathomable depth. Any
one who presumes to tell you they have figured out God is, is most
likely very arrogant, very blind, or very sick. I will tell you what I
believe I have discovered about God and what/who God is, but Im
only telling you what Ive learned and IF I have learned anything
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it is only the tip of the tip of the tip of the iceberg to such a finite
degree that mind couldnt even imagine the size of the iceberg
underneath.
Imagine youre in a world pre-technology. If there were 6
people standing around a large mountain, and there were large
rivers between the six sections of they were standing on, they may
take it upon themselves to name the mountain. The mountain
becomes the central figure of their day-to-day lives; it becomes part
of their culture for a long time. After some time someone develops
a boat! They travel to the other lands and they find that the
mountain is still there it is huge and seems to affect everyone on
earth. They begin to discuss this mountain and to the dismay of the
earthlings in the new land, the strangers speak of this mountain by
a different name, and talk about how it is shaped and the rivers that
run down this mountain, and the vegetation and so on. Much of it is
the same, but much of it is different, so they begin to argue fiercely.
After some unkind words they depart. As human kind progresses
and technology increases they never let go of the name they
attached the mountain long, long ago and the brave people who
explored it and told them about its wonders (prophets). The people
war and kill and hate each other for these disagreements and just
cannot seem to come to terms with each other because they
attached these ideas so deeply to who they are. All along, no one
ever realized that they were all looking at the same mountain,
seeing different sides, and just calling it different names.
It may seem silly with an example like that, but is not that
exactly what happens with all of these religious wars? The constant
disagreements, arguments, and strife? We all strive so much to be
right to satisfy our crying hungry egos, but I encourage you to let go
of the stigmas you have attached to these words and concepts such
as God. When I say God, Im including the mystery, which means
positive role as you read this book and take these concepts and
ideas into your day-to-day life. I want you to see new things that I
havent seen. So add the commas, think creatively, and hold the
periods. It was Rudolph Flesch who said, Creative thinking may
mean simply the realization that there's no particular virtue in doing
things the way they always have been done.
Also, putting periods after truths stop us from exploring
more if we believe those periods. Look at any great inventor they
were bombarded with arrogant, prideful pessimism at the time
they dared to dream the Wright brothers, Nikola Tesla (a
personal favorite), Martin Luther King Jr., Joan of Arc, even Jesus
Christ. All of these amazing people were despised, even hated by
the system because the system was so attached to their preexisting
thought paradigms that there was no room to learn or accept
anything else. It is an odd thing that our egos would go so far to
protect its pride as to attempt to smother even the greatest of
human beings. When we look back at these types of men and
women, in many cases they are considered heroes and the
founders of great movements! They introduced paradigm shifts in
our world that were so potent that they still have not been
undone and yet, they were told no. They were told what youre
trying to do wont work; its impossible. Its never been done
before. Just give up. And where would we be without them? We
seem to understand these things just fine when we read in on a
page, but rarely do we let sink into our hearts and become part of
who we are and how we live. We still find ourselves doubting
ourselves, fighting our dreams, telling ourselves oh thats not
realistic, or I need to be responsible. We still dont speak up
confidently when we have something real to say. We still question
our identities. How far we have fallen we were once titans we
were divinity, co-creating a beautiful reality with an utterly
AWESOME creator now weve been reduced to a complacent,
uninspired workforce and reality TV shows.
I hope reading this book marks the start of a new life for
you that is no longer defined by your fears or failures, but is
overflowing with love, vitality, and inspiration. No one can fill your
shoes. If we want to change the world, we change ourselves. Our
journey starts here.
myself what is out there for a long time with an undying passion
to find some glimmer of truth in a culture built on materialism,
sociology, and superficiality. I didnt really expect to find
anything honestly; I just couldnt live knowing that I didnt give it
everything I had to find it. And there in an unlikely place, I saw
it. I found it. I experienced something truly real and saw what I
believe our great spiritual leaders like Jesus, Buddha, and Lao
Tzu were trying to show us. I also saw that this is just the
beginning. The way we experience reality is not even the tip of
the shadow of an iceberg compared to what is possible. We live
like this is our life sentence. We have this tendency to take things
as they come like children. Children (younger children) arent
usually thinking of creative way to progress as a human being.
When they open the cupboard and the cereal is gone, they dont
start formulating ways to make the cereal at home and wonder
what the ingredients are and wonder if they can do it better; they
just yell out Mom were out of cereal!! And though we learn to
overcome certain behaviors as children as we move into
adulthood, there are still many, many, many times when we
open the empty cupboard and yell upstairs to mom for more
cereal.
May I present the idea that we are never supposed to
stop progressing? There is never a time when we will get to the
end of anything. The universe by its nature has infinite potential
and we are a piece of the universe and therefore also share this
infinite nature. Again, if youre a long time church goer or
monotheistic and you are offset by the fact that I say universe
instead of God, or if youre more of a new ager and the word
God has negative connotations that you cannot seem to detach
from at the moment, just feel free to insert your word of choice.
The word we use is immaterial; I cant stress that enough. It
would serve you well to disassociate the stigmas that are attached
to your perception of these words, and that make take time and
effort.
no birds, no noise really except for the slight cold breeze hitting
the nylon on my coat and occasionally whistling through the air.
It was freezing outside, but I couldnt feel the cold in the
slightest. My whole mind was occupied with my thoughts. How
could it come to this? Am I a coward? Does God see whats
going on right now? Who am I? What am I? No thought stayed
in one place for long, much like the pieces of dust in a tornado
they swirled frantically and uncontrolled. My heart was racing,
and my vision was going in and out I felt so weak. I dropped to
my knees and a tear ran down my faceone single tear. Any
more would be excessive I thought to myself; I chose this, and I
know what Im doing. 100 extra strength Tylenol at 500 mg a
pill and 100 generic brand ibuprofen at 200 mg a pill I knew it
would work because I did my research, and there was just no
turning back now. I wasnt scared to die. But I was terrified that
the love and inspiration that I gave in my life would turn to ash
in the light of my weakness overtaking me in this moment.
How did it come to this? Breathing deeply and slowly, I
felt myself disconnecting with the reality that I had come to
despise so much. There was a certain peace about looking out
over that lake knowing it would be the last thing I ever saw and
yet I still thought to myself
How could I let it come to this
This was me at 15 years old, utterly defeated by my
depression. I saw no way out; I saw no good things in life any
more. Anything good just seemed like a faint hope or idealistic
fantasy that just couldnt really happen. I tried and tried trick
myself into thinking that things were good, but my thoughts were
mostly dark and self-destructive. I truly believed deep, deep
inside of me that one really loved me. How could I think this? Of
course that wasnt true, but how could I have tricked myself into
this way of thinking to the point that I was ready to die, without
hope and alone? What I saw in this world was so distorted by the
lens I was wearing that could not see good things when they were
right in front of me. They could even be sitting in my lap, or I
could be holding them in my hands and I would deny their
existence. Somehow between then and now I have grown to be
head over heels in love with life and people in every way. I wake
every day excited to live and to see what this day will bring, when
before I woke up every day hoping I didnt survive the day and
went to sleep every night hoping I didnt wake up. It is quite a
dramatic story, which Ill save for a different book. How did this
transformation happen? What are the mechanics of it? And what
about those critical daunting questions that we all seems to ask
ourselves at some point in our lives Who am I? What am I?
Now, that wasnt the last time that I made an attempt on my life,
but something changed after I woke in that hospital bed and I
had survived. I thought to myself If Im going to live then it has
to be worth something otherwise why did I survive? In some
odd roundabout way, attempting suicide gave my life purpose
when I survived it. There were still so many thought processes
and negative destructive programs running in my mind that I
wasnt even aware of that I had to deal with yet. But I hunted
them down ruthlessly after that day. It took a great deal of effort,
a great deal of courage, a great deal of pain, and most
importantly, a great deal of help. I would not be where I am
today without the few people along the way who believed in me
right when I needed it the most. They were and in some ways still
are the air under my wings.
The things that Im going to talk about in this book may
seemingly be unrelated to the little story I just told you but if just
relax your mind and wait until the full picture is painted you will
see how intimately connected they are. I have been on a
desperate search for truth in my life that has lead me to many
places, to meet many people, and experience many things in a
very short time. If you are reading this book it is not an accident.
Most likely you either feel something changing here on earth or
you just have this insatiable desire for something real. Living in a
world (much, much more in the western world) that is
dominated by materialism, money, and fleeting, superficial,
instant gratification no doubt has left a bitter taste in your
mouth. Is this it? Is this all there is? It cant be and I know
many of you have come to the same conclusion that I have in that
respect, that this cant be what life is about. There has to be so
much more than this. What are we missing? Many people turn to
either one of two avenues (usually) to find lifes purpose if they
are set on discovering this elusive truth. They turn to science or
spirituality or religion3. What seems to be the problem with
science is that it is completely arbitrary, close-minded (in many
cases not all), and offers no significant reason for us being alive.
Science just looks at the facts and draws what seem to be
logical conclusions based on experiment and theory. Religion is
tricky because it is all man made, and in many cases void of logic
completely, where they ask you to relinquish your ability to think
and reason and replace it with faith. They think that our minds
are too small to possibly grasp the mysteries beyond our 3
dimensional existence down here so you must have faith, and not
necessarily try to understand it with our heads, but rather to
believe with our hearts.
So we always seem to be stuck in this conundrum of
choosing between our logic and faith, between our head and our
heart. This either/or way of thinking is quite prevalent in our
current global thought paradigm (especially in western culture).
We say that something is either true, or not true. This is black or
white. This is hot or cold. Both science and religion seem to
thrive on absolutism because it allows them to maintain the
integrity of their belief system, without pesky gray areas mucking
Ok now that you have done that, without looking back the picture
can you tell me how many times two dots of the same color touch
each other? Most likely you wont be able to do this without
looking back at the picture unless you have incredible powers of
observation. It only happens 3 times, twice with red and once
with green. If I had told you to look at this picture and pay
attention only to the places where 2 dots of the same color touch
each other, and then I had asked you that question it would have
been easy to answer the question. The flipside of this occurrence
is when you are so focused on one thing that you miss everything
else. Finding the balance of when to focus your gaze (mentally
AND physically) and when you relax your gaze is crucial.
In neuroscience and psychology they refer to the
phenomenon you probably just experienced as inattentional
blindness. Inattentional blindness can be defined as the failure
to notice an unexpected stimulus that is in one's field of vision
when other attention-demanding tasks are being performed.
This is something that magicians (entertainment magicians, not
wizards and witches) have down to an art and a science. They are
masters of distraction and priming your eyes to only see what
they want you to see. They can do the same tricks over and over
again right in front of you, if youre not told what to look for, you
may never find out how he doing it. Its incredible for
entertainment! Not so cool when it comes to our personal lives.
Eckhart Tolle said, "If you can recognize illusion as illusion, it
dissolves. The recognition of illusion is also its ending. Its
survival depends on your mistaking it for reality"6 Recognizing
the illusions in our lives is excellent way to "clear the mind" so to
speak. It all comes down to the first step of just becoming aware.
Our brains tend to behave like magicians much of the
time playing the same tricks on us our whole lives and we never
some where chemistry is definitely not helping the situation. That does
not mean that there is nothing we can do about it. I realize this is a touchy
subject for some who have known people with extreme cases of some sort
past that you didnt even remember caused you so much pain as
you get closer to the center. And everything that you have
struggled to ignore that your parents never tell you they love
you, that you lied about something really important to a best
friend, that you cheated on your significant other, that youre
utterly lonely and often have to fight tears as you lay your head
down at night to sleep, that you dont know who you are or who
you want to be, that you hate your job and it makes you
miserable, that you cant be honest with your family or friends
about who you are, that you most times feel neglected, ignored,
and under appreciated, that you often feel worthless, without
purpose, and you let your passions die whatever those things
are for you will all have to come out, and youll have to face them.
This process is going to tell you a lot about how you
have programmed your computer (your brain). You will see how
some programs are over working the computer or behaving like
viruses. You will see how your emotional programs may be self
destructive and self centered instead of loving, empathetic, and
compassionate. If you choose to find yourself no doubt you will
encounter these types of things. And it is often the pain and
difficulty of confronting ourselves, with all of our fears, faults,
and pride, that will stop us from stepping out of the computer,
sitting down at the keyboard and living a life that is truly
miraculous, transcending every iota of the mundane.
The following is a poem I wrote regarding this very
subject and think it would be fitting to put it in right here:
Dragon in the Tunnel
Something about this place, the look, the color, the smell, its just mundane.
Its normal and simple almost to the point of being maddening. I pace. I
think. I circle. I repeat.
There has to be more
So comfortable and complacent, this air is like poison but I breathe it in and
out again and again and again. Mind racing, peace fading, desire growing
but for what?
My heart beats to the sound of my feet hitting the ground as I circle this
tunnel, thinking, sweating, praying, pleading.
The past echoes in my ears, a faint song of defeat, of apprehension, of
mistrust, of toxic dreams. I choke on the sounds of the thoughts in my head,
circling, pacing, maddening.
Who am I?
Legs weak and unsteady I circle still waiting. I wait, but Im waiting in
circles for nothing. I breathe, I breathe heavy, mind racing, will breaking
these circles are maddening I have to get out.
With the sun at my back I stare into the tunnel and I feel the darkness
calling my name. I flinch, unsure of my resolve, I back peddle into the circle
and choke on the poisonous past in the air. I fall to my knees I cant
anymore.
With the sun at my back I walk into the tunnel the darkness consumes me
both inside and out. It grips onto my legs and my chest and my heart,
violently tightening its grip with each step I take. I walk, but by faith, by
passion, by fury I cant see anything, my real eyes are not open.
I breathe in deep all the smoke in the tunnel and it burns my lungs, but its
like breathing for the first time. Who am I?
I cant see the sun but I feel its warmth. I wont look back... I cant turn back.
The smoke gets thicker and I breathe deeply and slowly, embracing the
darkness and the fear in my veins. There in the darkness I see a dim a
glowing light and I quicken my steps hoping for the end. The smoke gets
thicker and thicker and I fall to my knees and crawl to escape the burn in
my lungs What am I?
Suddenly I feel an overwhelming heat on my face and a blinding light
obliterates the darkness but only for a moment. I look up and see this
majestic, fearsome beast. He is breathing slowly, heavily, with thick smoke
coming out of his nostrils. I choke and my lungs cry to me for mercy, but
there is just no turning back now. The beast looks down at me and the power
of his gaze melts my defenses. His overwhelming presence overtaking me
my eyes welling with tears. I stand to my feet with the last bit of strength in
my empty, suffering body. With tears in my eyes and all of the power my
lungs have left I scream at him, WHO AM I!!!
He lowers his head and looks in my eyes I stare back into his eyes like
flames ready to die, ready to suffer, ready to be. I lower my head ready for
What am I??
So what is our spirit? If we control our body, and we
control our minds (to whatever degree you would like), then
what are we?? It is odd to think that you are behind your eyes
looking out through them like binoculars, but that is exactly what
you are doing right now. What is this thing we are? How do we
define what a spirit is or understand it? This question is huge
because if we begin to disassociate our sense of identity from our
bodies and our minds (which we should), then it leaves our
identity a mystery to an extent does it not? What am I? Identity
is an interesting word actually. It has Latin roots. Eckhart Tolle
explained it well when he said, "One of the most basic mind
structures through which the ego comes into existence is
identification. The word "identification" is derived from the
Latin "idem", meaning "same" and "facere", which means "to
make". So when I identify with something, I "make it the same."
The same as what? The same as I. I endow it with a sense of self,
and so it becomes a part of my identity."10
There seem to be 3 major dimensions to our identity,
which are our physical, mental and spiritual. The spiritual
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dimension being our actual person our actual self (this self is
connected to every other being and thing in the universe to some
degree use of the word "self" is merely to distinguish what you
have programmed into your personal portion of this universal
consciousness). We can choose our physical identity by what we
eat, and develop our bodies through training, exercise, and
conditioning. We can choose our mental identity by how we
choose to interpret things going on around us, what we read and
intake, our emotions (which can be programmed), and other
things. We can also choose our spiritual identity, which becomes
the fundamental nature of who we really are. Your spiritual
identity is much more difficult and time consuming to program,
although it is also affected by the mental and physical. They are
all meant to be working with each other (physical, mental, and
spiritual) to accomplish whatever goals you may have. Spiritual
development and identity are more difficult to achieve because in
most cases people are unaware of what their spirits actually
are the content the substance. What I have found is that the
spirit feeds on only two types of energy, and those energies are
love and fear; understanding the love/fear dichotomy is the key
to unlocking spiritual development. We seem to understand
what the mind and body are made of (to a degree) but have little
to no knowledge collectively of what the spirit is and how it
functions. That is something I will try to explain the best way I
know how, but no doubt is something that we all should be
actively discovering. One person never has all of the answers and
Im not exempt.
In regard the Tolle quote on identity there is a
process that one will go through and choices one will have to
make in regards to becoming the person that they want to be.
Unfortunately, this, like many other things we do, is done
unconsciously, meaning that we are not playing a conscious,
active role in becoming who we ACTUALLY want to be. It seems
to be happening to us arbitrarily, and one day we look back at
our life and wonder how we got to be the way we are right now.
The truth is that we have been making choices all along that were
turning us into something, but in most cases we have no
idea what that thing is until we become it, and even then the
unawareness is sometimes set so deep that we deny who we are,
and still believe ourselves to be someone that was lost long ago.
When Tolle says to make the same as I he is hitting the nail
right on the head. This is a reason why people often seek to
possess things. They allow things to become a part of there
identity and they are unwittingly trying to become great through
identification with things. The brain is a powerful deceiver as far
as identity is concerned. We often mistake our power hungry
brains for our actual selves. This self that the brain creates is
what we most often refer to as the ego, which is a shadow self
based on the impulses and arbitrary (sometimes conscious)
computations of the brain. The brain needs to be subdued. Its as
if its searching for its own sense of identity, but it is just a
computer. It lacks empathy, and the ability to truly love. We all
search for this identity, but it is held deep within us, and if we
dont understand who or what we really are, we will always
search for it in other places, and always fail. This desire cannot
be satisfied by anything finite.
be aware of that while youre at work. What makes you not like
your job? Dont just say to yourself because its boring or
because I dont like the people I work with or because its
stressful. The idea is to discover the root within yourself. Why is
it boring? What would you rather be doing and why? Why dont
you get along with those people? Why can you not see past their
faults and love them? Why is it stressful? Are you unable to take
life one day at a time? Do you worry yourself sick and tired with
deadlines and expectations that come and go whether you worry
about them or not? Take that quiet time within yourself, and
extend it to your life outside of you.
I think I can
Nearly every action we will ever preform in life as
humans is based on what we believe the outcome will be. It is
certainly becoming an increasingly rare occasion where someone
will do something not knowing what will happen. Think about
it. If you didnt believe you would remember one word in this
book would you read it? If somehow someone convinced you that
you that once you closed the back cover that you would forget
everything you just read, would you still read it? Well if you truly
believed it then you probably wouldnt. The interesting thing
about this is that, if someone convinced you of that right now,
and you read it anyways, you would probably still remember
plenty from the book (although perhaps not as much). Our whole
life, all of our decisions are based on what we choose to believe is
true, and what we choose to believe is possible. Every day, all
day, you are putting your faith on display. The way I define faith
is simply an action inspired by a belief. You lower your body
down into a chair because you believe that it will stay standing
when your weight hits it. You turn the keys to your car in the
morning to go to work because you believe that will make the car
start. On a deeper level, you may seek to make more money,
because you believe it will make you happy. You believe you have
to have a girlfriend or boyfriend or significant other because
without them you will be lonely. Think about everything you do
and say throughout the day there is a belief of some sort behind
it and well call the action that follows faith.
This is not a bad thing. The idea is not empty yourself of
beliefs; it is choose what those beliefs are. Remember we are
trying to move to a more intentional life. We want to become
aware of what our spirits are (who we are) and how they
function. Again, this will take work, and many times lots of
reprogramming. In the last section you read I talked a lot about
becoming aware of yourself in different ways. If you are not
aware of something, why would you try to change it? Obviously if
you were unaware you would do nothing, which is why it is SO
important to make the decision to be very aware of what is going
on inside of you. You have to slow down a lot of times to realize
what is happening inside of you. In the western world we live a
life dominated by the clock and most of us seriously lack
patience. I know this very, very well. Anyone who knew me
growing up knew lacked a lot of patience. I was to things
happening very quickly and making things happen quickly. I was
a little fireball. Although I still am Im just intentional about
what I do with my flame. I have patience now; at least I would
like to think that I have a lot more patience now I will tell you
that it takes a lot of patience to write this much! The funny thing
is Ive always thought about writing books, but I always knew I
couldnt do it because I knew I didnt have the patience. I was
more of that mindset before that we just are the way we are.
Now I am fully aware of the power of a conscious mind, but of
course Im still learning.
Once we begin to slow down, we begin to see and notice
things about ourselves, which is one of the reasons I suggested
that particular method of meditation that I did. After you become
thought comes up, you remember it and recognize it. It is like the
analogy I gave previously about looking at the tree in your yard.
The yard is like your brain, and the tree like the thoughts or ideas
in your brain (something also to consider is that if you have a
given amount of energy to work with, and a tree gets very large, it
will be leaching nutrients and
energy from other
trees/thoughts in the yard. It
will be more difficult to plant
other ideas with one negative
thought or idea taking up so
much space and energy.)
So if you look at the
diagram of our lie tree here,
you can see what Im talking
about. Initially there is this
choice you have to make of
whether or not lie, which is a
seed that is planted in your
head. When this thought arises,
the first thing you should do is
look at where this thought is
pulling its energy from. In other
words you should try to
determine whether the thought
is born of love or fear. If it is
pulling its energy from fear,
then as the thought continues to
develop it will create more and
more fear based reasons to
make the decision. Its not
always going to be this obvious
by the way. Most people can
recognize lying as a fear based
decision. But in this example you can see that at first its just a
choice and if you recognize the root right away you can make this
decision to starve out the seed right there. If you entertain the
thought and allow the fear to feed it, then it will grow and create
branches. In this example we have the initial reasons to lie being
reputation, loss of approval, and ashamed. Each one of those
reasons will grow into another mini tree by itself with its own
reasons branching off of it if you allow it to go unchecked and
allow the thought, idea, or emotion to feed off of your fear. When
there are enough thoughts grouped together, you have an
emotion. What are emotions? An emotion is a series of
perceptions (thoughts/beliefs) grouped together into
something we can feel. Every emotion we feel has a series of
thoughts attached to it. So if we can identify they thoughts we
can start to be able to replace negative/unwanted beliefs with
other beliefs. It will make more and more sense how to do that as
we move forward.
Emotions are much, MUCH more powerful than words.
Someone can give you a huge list of statistics and give reasons
why you should sponsor a child, and yet you still may not do it.
But if they were to put a starving child in front you with a bulging
stomach, crying because they are starving, would you tell the
child no? You are much more likely to make a decision with
emotions associated to it rather than just hard logic. People who
are not in touch with their emotions as much dont necessarily
operate like this all of the time, but it is still very prominent, just
not as easy to recognize (especially in men). This is one huge
difference between how men and women operate. Integration
(emotion) is a feminine concept, while differentiation (logic,
thoughts) is a masculine concept. Neither is superior, both are
necessary. As far this goes for our tree, when there are enough
thoughts attached to another thought or idea you will begin to
have a emotions about those thoughts, and emotions have much
more power of influence than just thoughts. If you understand
what Im trying to say right now, then you will realize that the
longer the thought to lie goes unchecked, the more likely it is
you will begin to develop emotions about the decision that will
make it more and more difficult to uproot this tree, or, to not
make the decision. Each emotion or thought becomes a branch
with leaves (other thoughts) that will feed its strength and
solidify the form more and more. One interesting thing about
this, is that even if this tree grows huge in just a few minutes or
hours of deciding whether or not you want to make the decision,
if you dont make the decision, the tree seems to die instantly and
that energy is used to reaffirm the love based tree that may have
been growing next to it. When you act, you manifest, or plant
the tree inside of you. The reason this works like this, is because
fear is a dark energy, and love is a light energy, and all you need
to do to destroy the darkness, is turn on the light.
Once you can recognize that emotions are just integrated
beliefs, then you can start to see how even your emotions can be
programmed and are a choice. Most emotions that we have on a
regular basis are massive trees and it is very difficult to trace the
branches back to root to understand why we really feel the way
we feel about certain things. But again, this the beauty of this
meditative practice. Once you can teach yourself to become
aware of whats going through your head and what youre
thinking and feeling at every level, you will have the ability to
choose whether or not you want to feed that thought or feeling.
The really interesting thing about this is that all of your negative
thought patterns and emotions are fed by fear, and if you can
eradicate your fears, all the trees feeding from that energy
source will die. This is the hardest, and best way to do this. Doing
it without understanding all of the reasons of why the tree got
started and grew so large takes an incredible amount of courage
and faith. If you believe you can do this and you know you are
ready, I recommend it, but it is the hardest thing you will have
ever done in your life, I can almost promise you that. If you do it
and you are not ready, you will probably do a significant amount
of damage to your being and take many, many steps back
making it more difficult to get back to where you started the next
time. This is difference between enduring pain, and suffering
trauma, which well talk about later. There is nothing wrong with
gradual. Truly, one step at a time is not too difficult.
If you truly want to do this, you will. Many of us are
distracted by what we believe we need. But understand this, you
do not need anything, ever. Hear me out on this. The only reason
a necessity exists is because of a deeper want. There is no such
thing as an essential need, or, there is no such thing as a need
that exists outside of a want. Most peoples first response is,
Well you need to eat! Well that is only true if you want to live,
or want to not be hungry. If you had no desire to alleviate the
pain of starvation or even to live, why would you need to eat?
You can apply this to literally every single need you think you
have. This may change your perspective on your life quite a bit.
When you understand that every single action you preform and
word you speak in some way has something to do with a want
you have, it puts the ball back your court and takes away your
power to blame and complain. So what do you want? Look at
what you think you need and you will see a lot of what you have
been desiring. And those desires are often manipulated and
shifted by how you have programmed your mind. This all comes
full circle. What you have chosen to allow yourself to think and
believe will dictate your desires and thus dictate your actions.
Do you see? Can you see how easy it is to miss this? Why
every single moment and small decision we make is so
important? Every time we make a decision we are deciding who
we are going to be tomorrow. This is one reason why sometimes
people change so dramatically over the years and then look back
and wonder what happened. How did they let their passions die?
How did they become so calloused? How did they become so
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what you are seeing, you will take it in a way that I have not
intended for it to be communicated. If it rings of anything but
love, inspiration, passion, progression, and humility, then either
your lens is still scratched, I have not seen and understood
myself, or I have not communicated effectively. I will certainly
take responsibility for my part, and do the absolute best I can in
every way. I want there to be a clear line of communication
between me and you with no disconnect. This does not mean that
we will not differ in opinion on many subjects. The idea is not to
think the same; the idea is to love the same unconditionally,
with passion and purpose.
New Lenses
As you begin to undergo this transformation within
yourself and your consciousness continues to expand, you will
start noticing things around you that you didnt notice before.
When you see yourself differently, you see the world outside of
you differently. One thing that will be very prominent as you
start making this shift is how people around you arent making
this shift. They will stick out like a sore thumb. Do not allow this
to make you upset. Remember that we all at different stages in
our journey and that you are no different in worth from them.
Remember where you came from. The only way to look at
everyone is through the eyes of love. When you start to become
aware of your spirit you will realize how connected we all are and
that we are all just part of the same body the same system. Why
would you cause harm to your own body? With this perspective
you realize that everyone elses dreams, hopes, fears, and desires
are just as important to acknowledge as your own. This is the
heart of love. Love is an indelible connection to all life that exists.
We have the ability to choose to acknowledge this or not.
Whether or not we are aware of it, the connection is there and
our fates are intertwined. Once you become aware of it, then you
can start making the choice to strengthen the connection and
work with each other instead of feeding our selves.
Another thing that may be heavy on your mind as you
begin to make this transformation, is that for every bit of
awareness that you gain you are going to be noticing things that
you are doing and have done that you are not particularly proud
of. You are going to think of the things that you have done wrong
to people over the years with your jaded sense of self. You are
going to think of all of the things you did unconsciously out of
reaction or habit that hurt yourself or people you care about. You
are going to think of the relationships that are in bad shape right
now and could use a new, better you. This is good! This is a huge
sign of progress! If youre thinking that way then kudos! But
remember always, this is a journey with something to learn each
step of the way. This is not one of those things where youre
going to find the end of it. There are certainly plateaus and
achievements to be proud of and to strive for, but if you stop
progressing you will most likely start regressing. Its like
working out. If you stop then you dont just maintain all of the
results youve attained up to that point; your muscles will start to
atrophy if they are not used. This is because with every single
tiny thing that you do you are teaching your body what to do and
what it needs. If you sit on the couch all the time and watch TV
then your body is being told that those muscles you may have
now sees with new eyes. I only wish to grow and learn with you
and use what I have learned to help in any way that I can.
Ok we had a little sidetrack, but lets get back to that
pattern. You can apply this type of learning to any subject matter
you wish whether it be relationships, math, a job, meditation,
etc. Its a beautiful way to do it because youre always revisiting
the reason you initially started and this can be very beneficial for
a few reasons. You can use it as motivation, you wont forget why
started and get off track, you can learn better, more efficient
ways to accomplish goals, and it can allow you reassess your
intentions, perspective, and motivations often. If you let yourself
re-think your goals often, what may happen is that you realize
that youre not really going after something you truly want.
Sometimes we dont realize the deeper desire within us. A lot of
peoples motivation in America starts with point B. They want to
make money. It happens quite easily that people never even
realize what they were after in the first place. We associate
money with power and freedom in America. But truly, you have
unlimited power and freedom within yourself, endowed by the
creator of the universe, and that CANNOT be taken away from
you.
Something else you will notice about the diagram are the
structures that are being built. The line is tall and skinny,
whereas the circles are much broader and layered. Which do you
think is more stable? Well obviously the circles are more stable.
Storms and pressure often come in our lives and test what we
believe to be important and the structure that we have built. If
you get to a point where you feel like youre just not making
progress anymore (in whatever goal you are pursuing), take the
time to examine your foundations and the way you are learning.
Dont be afraid to go back to the beginning and re-learn things.
You will find in most cases that you missed something very
fundamental early on that is preventing you from making
involved, but many times our brains just then send or project a
signal back to our bodies to react in a certain way. Our spirits are
the part of us that are aware that all of this is going on. If we
simply react without truly making a conscious decision then you
have taken the 3rd dimension of your being completely out the
equation. The funny thing is, without the nucleus, the atom
ceases to exist. You can see the implication.
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genius level, but they all tend to lose their abilities and mental capacity as
they grow older. I believe that there reasons that can be overcome. When I
think of IQ percentages I think that I have unlocked more potential than
95% of the people in the world, but I do NOT believe I have something that
95% of people dont. I think its merely a matter of taking the time to learn
to release the unlimited potential we all contain. Also, the IQ test is very
one dimensional and only accounts for a couple types of intelligence. Not
everyones intelligence has to manifest in the same way. Humor is a type of
intelligence just as much as memory is.
where real learning occurs, and a state of well being; many times
when we see someone gazing off in the distance and you have a
hard time getting their attention we would say they are in the
alpha state (that should give you a clue as to where we are on the
scale). Beta waves are associated with wakefulness and alertness,
but it is also associated with stress and worry. In our adult
waking lives most of us spend the majority of time in the beta
state. Just because this state of consciousness can be associated
with stress and worry doesnt mean that it has to. Remember that
nothing is inherently bad; it has only to do with how we choose
to use it. When we are in more relaxed state it is easier for the
energy to flow within us because we are not interfering with it by
imposing our own thought frequencies and emotional
frequencies upon the situation. We are simply letting things
come as they come and letting our spirits communicate freely
you could say.
There are huge benefits to the higher vibrational states
too. Just because people tend to get worried or stressed doesnt
mean that its a bad thing. Owning a company can be very
stressful because there is a lot of responsibility and if someone
cannot handle the responsibility it will show. Being in a higher
vibrational state can be equated to owning a large company. You
may have a lot of power that comes along with it, but if you dont
know how to handle it, then it becomes bad for everyone
including yourself. Think about the times when your brain might
be really excited. Your pupils dilate, you start sweating, and
everything seems to slow down, but why is this? If you look at the
diagram you can see whats going on a little bit. When youre
making decisions out of love, you tend to have a healthier energy
flow than you would if you were making decisions out of fear. In
a love state of mind you are more relaxed and your mind is
working efficiently and smoothly allowing for accurate
processing of information. In a fear state your mind is like a
maze and in a love state your mind is like river flowing free.
It is
like an athlete
preforming in
an event; you
may hear their
coach yelling
form the
sideline
Relax!
Remember its
just like we
practiced!
Your ability to function with efficiency and perceive information
accurately is dramatically altered in a fear state of mind both
physiologically and mentally. If information is coming at you
(illustrated by the blue line in the diagram) and you are
operating on a fear frequency then you arent getting very much
of the information that is actually happening because your brain
is fragmenting itself or blinking in a sense. The information
that you are getting seems much more dramatic and potent in
your fear mentality as well because each dot of information we
perceive holds more weight, which makes it much easier to blow
things out perspective. When you are operating in a love
consciousness the vibrations are much higher and free flowing
and you are experiencing a lot more of what is actually going
because your cells are not in protection or fear mode. There is
an open exchange of information. In regards to this phenomenon
on a cellular level Dr. Bruce Lipton explains that Redistributing
energy reserves to fuel the protection response inevitably
results in a curtailment of growth, further expanding on this
process within the body he says,
In addition to diverting energy to support the
tissues and organs needed for the protection response,
there is an additional reason why growth is inhibited.
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half what would happen? Thats right nothing! Yet a board can
be easily broken. You cannot break something that is relaxed and
malleable, but something stiff and unwilling to compromise its
structure can be broken when enough force is applied. When
drunk drivers get into car accidents, statistically they are very,
very rarely killed and also rarely even seriously injured. This is
because their entire body is so relaxed and they do not fear the
pain. Remember to follow the trends carefully; trend number 1 is
that it is my fear of pain that hurts me. It is the fear of the
impending pain that causes you more pain. It also usually causes
the pain to turn from pain that could possibly just strengthen you
and teach you something into pain that is traumatizing that you
then have spend a lot of time recovering from and creates
patterns within ourselves that threaten to rob our ability to make
choices.
Just as your physical response to fear can paralyze you
physically, your mental response to fear can paralyze you
mentally. Do you enjoy public speaking? Most people hate it. As
a matter of fact, most psychologists have documented that most
people fear public speaking more than death! That is really
extreme. But think about a situation where you have had to do
some public speaking or maybe you know someone who has had
to do it. A lot times if the person is not experienced they will have
shaking, sweaty hands, they will avoid eye contact, their knees
will knock and sometimes they completely forget everything they
were going to say. This is paralysis of the mind by fear. The fear
can become so potent that you actually cannot recall information
that you know very well. This is what happens to some very
smart people who claim to be bad test takers (a sign that they
may attribute their knowledge to part of their identity). When the
pressure is on and they are afraid to get a bad grade, the fear can
paralyze them and stop them from recalling information that
they know very well.
your heart are seeds and they will take root if you allow them to
and slowly start changing you into a person that you never
wanted to be. Its not really popular anymore to listen to your
heart in our logic driven society. Its just something that parents
seem to tell small children now, of course until they are old
enough to be an adult. Our hearts contain wisdom that our
brains cannot understand. I dont think we should be ignoring
them.
By now you should be gaining a sense that you have
more control over your life and yourself than you may have
previously thought you did. We have been long taught that so
many things are set in place and we have coined phrases like
thats just the way it is to solidify this way of thinking within us.
Its just ridiculous though! Everything is changing constantly!
Even science is really starting to understand how much our
minds and consciousness effect the physical world around us.
Quantum physics is the pioneer and beacon of light in this type
of thinking right how, but even Ph.D. Cell Biologist Bruce Lipton
says,
When we cross that line and truly understand the New
Biology, we will no longer fractiously debate the role of
nurture and nature, because we will realize that the
fully conscious mind trumps both nature and nurture.
And I believe we will also experience as profound a
paradigmatic change to humanity as when a roundworld reality was introduced to a flat world
civilization."16
How can we be so comfortable telling ourselves thats
just the way it is when it is clearly not true? If you choose to
think like that, then you are taking the power out of your own
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why we can control our brains; just like the electrical signals that
fire in our brains is a higher form of energy than the energy
that composes our bodies and so our brains control our bodies.
Its a hierarchy. Each part is playing a vital role that cannot be
replaced by the other parts.
So if we are controlling what is happening in our brains
or learning to, what are we trying to accomplish? I keep talking
about this awareness. We are directing our minds and bodies and
continually using them to become aware of different types of
things. The body responds to different set of frequencies than the
mind, and similarly the spirit responds to a different set of
frequencies than both the mind and body. We are navigating
these flesh vehicles throughout time and space acquiring
information and experiencing reality and the universe. Is not
everything that we come into contact with a form of energy
though? Is it not also some kind of information that your brain
attempts to interpret? In book called The Hearts Code by
Ph.D. Paul Pearsall he says, Information and energy are the
same thing. Everything that exists has energy, energy is full of
information, and stored info-energy is what makes up cellular
memories. In the book Dr. Pearsall goes into detail about the
hearts capacity for memory and how memory is stored in cells
and specifically heart cells. Its just information its all just
energy. He also says, What we call mind, consciousness, or our
intentions are really just manifestations of information
containing energy. Is this not true? When we speak, are our
words not just a manifestation of information-energy in our
minds that are transmuted into audible tones that can then be
interpreted by other people? We speak so much that maybe we
havent thought about how odd it is that we can literally implant
our thoughts into other peoples minds by creating tones that
vibrate their eardrums in a way that allow them to know what is
happening in our minds. Those sound vibrations carry
information that someone can interpret if they have the key. Isnt
that amazing? But we dont take a lot of time to stop and smell
those roses as the expression goes so we have allowed life to lose
its luster, but it was Ralph Waldo Emerson who said, One
moment of mans life is so stupendous as to take the luster out of
all fiction., and I agree. Every moment can be wondrous.
It seems that we are all running around receiving,
interpreting, and projecting information, but also as we integrate
the information we are receiving we are creating new
information every second that is specific to our interpretation.
We are all constantly co-creating our realities. All of this
information-energy is flying around for us to experience
constantly so what are we doing with it? Some people listen to
music, some people make music. Some people create paintings;
some people only look at paintings. Some people build cars, and
some people drive them. In this regard there are two types of
people in the world. There are the people who are like children
who have everything done for them and consume endlessly and
take life how it comes; and there are the people are creating the
reality that the child experiences. I say that we should all be both.
If we are all pursuing happiness and peace in this life, then look
no further than children. If they are not a constant reminder of
how easy it is to be carefree and happy, then I dont know what
is. Remember way back at the beginning when we discussed
either/or thinking? This is one of those times to recognize that
being like a child, and being like an adult can both be done at the
same time; this is not either or. The problem is that there are too
many children in the world, making the adults more and more
powerful (I mean children in the sense that they want everything
done for them without the desire to stand on their own). This is
one of things we see happening with governments as people
continue to demand more and more of their governments as they
unwittingly relinquish their power and freedom to people who do
not know or understand them. We are losing touch with people
and making our connections shallow and transitional. We need
to be conscious of the connections we are making AND not
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spend a lot of time talking about this. I just want you to keep this
idea of being consistent in the back of your head. Remember to
be patient with yourself; forming habits takes time and effort.
you say out loud, but the words that fly around in your head as
well. One of the biggest inhibitors to us trying to new things and
overcoming ourselves is that little voice in your head that says
hey seriously, you cant do that. We repeat these words in our
head and sometimes out loud so much that they pop up all the
time and reaffirm any doubts that we may be having at the
moment. Thus we see the power of words as well. Words can
carry tremendous weight if we allow them to.
One of the most incredible accomplishments (not good)
that the world has ever seen in utilizing words and repetition was
in Nazi Germany. There was an idea, a feeling that Hitler wished
to impart into the people of Germany so he had to come up with
a plan. He came up with propaganda. There were posters, and
rallies, and newspaper articles over and over and over and over
again. He effectively brainwashed an entire country (not every
single person of course) into supporting the slaughter of over 6
million innocent men, women, and children in a freakishly
inhumane way by utilizing the power of repetition through
propaganda. That is scary. If repetition has that kind of power,
think of what you are doing to yourself when you self sabotage
repetitively or tell yourself that you cant do something
repetitively.
These exact same techniques are used all the time by
companies advertising their products and services and by
governments trying to sway the minds of the people they seek to
control. They understand the power of repetition and they pay A
LOT of money for it. If an idea enters your mind (if a seed enters
the ground) is will usually grow by itself unless it is deliberately
stopped. So when you are watching TV you are being
programmed through repetition against your will if you do not
consciously object. For instance, how many men do you know
that wear make up? Ok now how many women do you know that
wear make up? All of them? Maybe you know one or two who
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ladies sitting down and eating together. One lady looks over at
the other ladys purse and first she perceives it as beautiful or
nice, then she spurts out, I love your purse! What is the next
obvious question ladies? Im sure you know this one, Where did
you get it? The same goes for shoes, tools, artwork, cars, etc. If
there is anything that we admire or consider to be extraordinary
or pleasing for some reason we want to know where it comes
from. Conversely, if something is very displeasing, we want to
know where it comes from so that we can stay away from it. It is
very deep desire within people to know about origin. But what is
the deepest form of that desire? Of course it is to know where we
as humans come from. This question will NEVER subside until
we find out. Those piercing questions of Who am I? and What
am I? deal on a deep, personal level with our question of origin
and goes hand in hand with search for identity. If you remember
our break down of the Latin roots of the word identity, when we
identify with something we are attempting to make the same as
ourselves. We are attempting to attach something to ourselves.
The problem is, we are infinite, and we dont know it. And by
continually attaching finite things to ourselves in an attempt to
silence/answer this question of identity, we will only be
continually disappointed and left wanting more.
This question is at the root of nearly every single thing
that every single person does, thinks, and wants, every day,
everywhere. I know that sounds dramatic, but to put in more
universal terminology, this is what we would refer to as our
worldview. Out of our worldview comes ours beliefs, which
breed thoughts, which breed emotions, which breed desires,
which breed actions, which breed habits, which ultimately form
who we are on a mental/emotional dimension, which then gets
transposed into our spirituality. Our worldview is just what
we choose to believe based on our perceptions of the
things that we are made aware of in the world. If that is
true, then again, awareness is the root. We are doing more and
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already expect it to give. That doesnt sound all that great, but I
would say in most cases that we do that without realizing that
were doing at all. So if we become that were doing that then we
have an opportunity to do something different, new, and perhaps
better. In regards to this idea of science and spirituality, maybe if
you have always been partial to one way of thinking it would do
well for you to explore the other side. It sure cant anything! I
think that science and religion are two sides of the same coin and
that they are both valuable, and yet they seem to be odds with
each other in the broader society. It doesnt have to be this way.
The main difference between science and religion or
mythology and science, is that religion seems to say the universe
is magical and beyond our understanding while science boldly
claims the universe is matter and energy that can be understood
fully through scientific study. Who is right? Cant both be right?
What was magic 100 years ago is science today. The plain truth is
that we are nowhere close to even kind of understanding what is
going on in the world and the universe. To me, religions and
science are describing the same things using different
terminology. One perspective simply stands in awe and accepts
that we cannot understand the endless mysteries of the universe,
while the other searches tirelessly to rationalize and categorize
the same mysteries.
So where does the universe come from? How did
something come from nothing? Well I guess thats why the term
God exists. There are some concepts that we just might not be
ready to wrap our minds around yet as humans, and yet there is
so much to be discovered that we should hardly be getting bored
or complacent. It doesnt matter whether we journey to the edges
of the universe, or whether journey into the depths of our own
souls, there is infinity to be discovered in both cases.
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the most intelligent or most highly evolved beings in the universe. One of
the biggest problems I have with that theory is that our bodies and the
earth are more intelligent than we are. We spend a lot of time and energy
trying to understand what our bodies and our earth do without effort.
There is an obvious intelligence and order to the way the world and our
bodies operate so that is a pretty clear indication to me that the force that
is controlling these innate subconscious/unconscious functions is
intelligent.
Elemental Composition
When you think of the elements what comes to mind?
Most people will probably say Air, Fire, Water and Earth. There
is a lot of speculation as to what the 5th element is and it also
depends on whether or not you are studying from a purely
scientific perspective, or a metaphysical perspective (it also
makes a difference where in the world your knowledge is coming
from). What is the significance of the elements? Well there is
quite a bit. I could write an entire book just on that, but for the
purpose of this book we are going to get into one area in
particular. The elements are literally what we are made up of. We
breathe Air, our bodies need heat to survive (Fire), we drink
water, and eat earth. Each individual element has very unique,
specific properties and functions. What I have discovered in my
journey as I have grown to understand myself and what is going
on in the world around me is that an understanding of the
elements and what they mean physically and non physically is a
huge help in deciphering how we work and how the world works.
Im going to begin to explain what the elements have taught me;
again it is important to note that whenever I write about a
Fire:
I, as fire, am passion. Having conquered air my nature is pure. I provide warmth to all
who are near. I am the light in the darkness. I light the way for myself and others, and
therefore, the way I choose is the way of love and truth. I am careful of who and what
receives my focus because my actions are permanent, strong, and unyielding. I
remember the sensitivity from whence I came, for without it, I am pure destruction. I fear
only emotion, and being extinguished. When I conquer my fear, I will feel as others
feel and for the first time I will know peace. I will know a resilience unmatched by any
other I will become water.
Water:
I, as water, am feeling. I know not single-mindedness or selfishness for all things which
I enter, I become. I know not the self. I have no sense of self for my self is
contained within the whole. I become all things. And though I know not what I am. I
cannot be conquered for I am more resilient than all things under the sun. I feel and
form to all things. I understand all things except myself. There is no mountain, that
with time, I could not wash away, and yet no life that I could not sustain. I fear only to
be still, to be nothing, to be lifeless void of form. When I conquer my fear, I will see
my innate, endless power. I will see my true form in my formlessness. I will see who I
am and life will spring from me in abundance I will become earth.
Earth:
I, as earth, am patience. I do all things in perfection in accordance with
time. I know not haste. I have no fear of failure for all things are surely
accomplished one patient step at a time. I have a perfect love of creation
and creating. I appreciate the elements because they create me. I cannot
be moved. I cannot waste. I cannot be undone. I fear only sudden change
to have no roots. When I conquer my fear, I will know and accomplish
anything. I will know the freedom of movement. I will combine the 4
elements to become aether to become the substance of pure creative
power, and perfectly balance both masculine and feminine energies I will
become a GOD.
Air
About:
So Im going to
start with air. We are
going to go from finest to
least fine, least dense to
most dense, or from least
manifested, to most
manifested. So basically
we are going to start
with air and end with
earth. Air is very fine,
very sensitive, and
neutral. Each element is
going to carry a certain
type of energy and within this set of elements air is neutral. Air is
represented by the Octahedron and well get into the reasons for
the geometrical correlations in the next volume. The main traits of
air are sensitivity and connectivity (love). Air is a master of
communication, love, and sensitivity. With out the substance
contained within air, none of the other elements really exist. Air
acts as fuel to much of the planet. It carries life in it that we use the
most on a day-to-day basis. Of the elements, air is the first thing
that you would die from not having it then heat, then
dehydration, then starvation, (fire, water, earth). Oxygen helps to
execute all of the tasks that your body performs. The main job of
your red blood cells is to transport oxygen (air) to the various parts
of your body. The more energy you require to do a certain task, the
more energy you use, and thus you begin to hyperventilate if you
doing something that requires a lot of energy. One odd thing
though that most people may not realize is that your eyes are using
so much of your energy most of the time. According to what I
learned in school they use about 67% of your working memory
when they are open and 25% of your bodys total energy. So there
is something rather significant to be said here for the practice of
meditation, because if youre not using that energy on your eyes (if
you have your eyes closed) you can use that energy for other
things, which is one of the reasons that mediation can produce such
astounding effects. When you couple the closed eyes, with deep
breathing (your energy intake in this instance) you can really up
the energy levels in your body to whatever end you intend,
whether it be healing, relaxation, etc.
The dual of the octahedron is the hexahedron (cube),
meaning that if you put points in the center of each of face and
drew lines between them you would make the other shape.
Weaknesses:
Let me just say before I talk about the weaknesses of any
elements, these are not inherent traits; these are the result of
someone not being as strong in controlling a certain type of energy
contained within them. If you dont develop any type of strength,
then it will show when it is tested. So dont think the weaknesses
as part of what the element is about, they just come from a lack of
ability to control it.
Strengths:
Air is excellent at remaining neutral, level headed, and
objective in various situations, because people who are air-like are
very sensitive to all things contributing to an atmosphere or a
situation. Strong air people are master of creating and interpreting
an environment. They can create subtle effects as far as creating an
environment, or very dramatic effects depending the goal of the
person. An example could be, you could have air that is a little
smoky, or dry which will effect your abilities to do certain things in
that place; or you could have effects as dramatic as mustard gas, or
other toxic substances and if you could not clear the area you will
be dramatically affected. Either way, one the huge strengths of air
is its pervasiveness. You cant really get away from it, and you cant
live long without it, so if something is in the air, you will most likely
breathe it into you. As a person emulating air, you would have a
certain responsibility to understand the subtleties of the types of
environment you create with your words, actions, and your very
presence.
Like I said before, it takes a lot of energy for air to
physically manipulate the other elements (it doesnt take nearly as
much for air to manipulate fire). But if you can imagine a tornado,
they have awesome power. One of the things about a tornado is
that you cant do anything to hurt it really. You cant stop it or trap
it or grab it or anything. So when you think about things like every
action has an equal and opposite reaction you may see a disparity
here in your immediate perception of the situation because it
doesnt seem like the air suffers much in a tornado, while
everything around it gets devastated. There is something to be said
for the power of more feminine energies (air being more feminine
than fire and earth in this case) because of their subtleties and
complexity of application. They are much more complex and
difficult to use compared to masculine energies, which are
powerful, but lack sensitivity.
Fire
About:
The main traits of fire are passion,
intensity, and influence. Fire is a
very intense form of energy. Air is
energy as well but so much more
subtle. Fire is the most direct,
concentrated form energy (within
the elements we are discussing).
Fire has a very strong sense of self and lacks sensitivity in many
cases. The dual of the tetrahedron is itself. If you think about it that
makes perfect sense, because fire endlessly recreates itself. This is
something that you will notice in fire people. They will have a
tendency to think about themselves first and be very, very
independent. They will tend to be impatient. They will do
everything quickly without thinking through all the ways their
actions will ripple effect. They will have a very powerful focus, but
a lack of ability to maintain it for long periods of time (unless the
thing involves some type of infinite challenge. Fire people will often
have obsessions with things video games because of a strong desire
to conquer everything around them and constantly be challenged.)
Their actions may often appear to be compulsive and uncontrolled;
that may be because they are always looking for something to
consume or something to keep their minds occupied. Fire people
have a tendency to get bored with things the second they are no
longer challenging or new, which causes issues in relationships as
well.
Weaknesses:
The biggest weakness of fire is also one of its biggest strengths and
that is its sense of self. It has a strong sense of self, but if it is
misunderstood (lacking an understanding of water) it will have a
consistent tendency to isolate. Fire people will be the type to not
ask for help and not accept it when it is offered. They will often
struggle with pride, and not trusting people. They are a very strong
energy and fire produces light, so naturally people are going to be
attracted to fire. If a fire person lacks sensitivity they will have a
tendency to hurt or burn people around them without realizing
that they are doing it. Underdeveloped fire will often lack the
patience to do anything long enough to see something manifest into
something worthwhile. Fire has a tendency to only think in straight
lines so they will often miss things when thinking and making
decisions, but will have the ability to make decisions quickly. Fire
people often have an obsession with the destination and lack the
ability to appreciate the journey. They may always be the first one
to the top of a mountain, but they will not be able to tell you
anything about the beauty along the way.
Strengths:
Fire has a powerful sense of self! This is beneficial because
they are least likely to doubt themselves, and therefore very good
at accomplishing tasks that are very difficult because they often do
not fear pain or accept defeat. They have an astounding ability to
take on challenges and accomplish them in a fraction of the time
that the other elements would have to take. There is nothing that
doesnt melt and burn, similarly, there is no obstacle that can stand
in fires way if its desire is great enough. Fire is the embodiment of
passion, and therefore fire people will tend to be very passionate.
Fire does take a lot of fuel to maintain so a wise fire person will
know when to be a small flame and when to be a raging inferno. A
truly wise fire person will know when to be just an ember. Fire is
unique in its profound ability to attract attention and thus
influence people. A fire person can be an incredible instrument of
inspiration. Fire is also incredibly contagious. If a fire person can
start a fire in someone else, they do not have to stay there to keep
the fire going. Fire, in a way, is self-sustaining. So if a fire person
has the wisdom and patience (earth qualities) to teach people how
to maintain and cultivate and feed their fires then they can have
limitless influence. Fire is the easiest element to misuse and the
easiest to cause damage with. If you can recognize that you have a
lot of fire energy within you, you have a particular responsibility to
be mindful of the way you are affecting and influencing other
people around you. There is much to learn.
Water
About:
Water is an
enigma among the
elements. The power of
water is truly something
that can only be
appreciated in reverent
silence. Anyone who has
been been to the ocean
knows this. Water has
many unique qualities
that are much different
from the other
elements. The main traits of water are empathy, feeling, and
selflessness. Water or H2O has the very unique quality of being
stable within itself (chemically speaking) but also intensely
polarized on both ends. Meaning that it is literally attracted to
everything. This gives water its amazing qualities like the ability
to dissolve things, to adhere to almost anything, to have surface
tension, to have the 3rd highest specific heat (how much energy it
takes to heat up a substance) of any substance and so on. The
strength of water lies not in the individual drops but in its ability
to integrate many small things into one flowing, powerful unit.
Water represents the power of mass integration. In There are no
secrets by Wolfe Lowenthal he says it like this, Only softness
can develop the unity- it has the power of mass integration, like
the individual droplets of water in a tidal wave. In truth, we
are all those individual droplets on earth; while we are separated
we are nothing but droplets destined to evaporate, but together
we have the power of the ocean. This is one of the reasons why
water is polarized with both charges; it desires to unify
everything into one thing. It realizes the power of unity and
connectedness. It is much like the individual cells in our bodies
that make up the much more powerful whole. Each cell by itself
cannot come close to accomplishing what it can accomplish when
operating within the unit of the body. The earth is our body, and
we are the cells.
Waters selflessness allows it to be anything at any
time. It can take any shape. It was Bruce Lee who said,
Empty your mind, be formless. Shapeless, like water.
If you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup. You put
water into a bottle and it becomes the bottle. You put it
in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow
or it can crash. Be water, my friend.
And so along with all of waters other amazing qualities it
has the capacity to understand and form to anything. This is seen
in water peoples ability to empathize. They have an incredible
capacity to feel others and things outside of themselves. But
along with that they are plagued with a lack of sense of self,
which inevitably draws them to fire people who have a very
strong sense of self and lack of empathy.
Weaknesses:
Waters biggest weakness is its lack of sense of self.
Underdeveloped and misunderstood water energy will have a
tendency to doubt itself a lot, because it does not understand
itself. Water lacks its own form. And yet it does not realize that
once you commit yourself to a form (whether physical, or a
thought) it becomes a prison of sorts so you had better like it!
Water struggles a lot with trying to find an identity, perhaps
more so than the other elements.
Strengths:
Water is incredibly powerful and the most resilient thing
on this earth. It can miss the fact that all of its power is held
within its formlessness. You cannot damage water. Throw rocks
into the water all day and you will never once see it break or
bleed because it yields its form to anything that is around it. The
saying goes Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be
broken! Water is unique in that it can act like a solid when it
crashes, but if you try to hit it back you will do nothing to it.
Water shows what is possible when many small seemingly
insignificant droplets of water come together; they become
infinitely powerful. They are incredibly resilient because if
something were to attempt to harm them each droplet absorbs
the punishment equally and they are incredibly powerful because
they have the ability to act as one. They can wash away the
mountains, and swallow the biggest fires like they are nothing. It
is only when water does not embrace its formlessness that it
stifles its own power.
Earth
About:
The main traits of earth
are patience, timing,
and that it is grounded
or has a sense of
permanency. Earth is the
densest element. Along
with that denseness and
permanency it is easiest
to break because of its resistance to change. Earth is profoundly
impacted by all of the other elements and reacts to them as such.
Although on the outside you may not be able to tell immediately
that anything is happening. It has the sense of being immovable
and rooted. There are positives and negatives to both of those
qualities. Earth is the most manifested element and also the
slowest moving of the elements meaning that we use all of our
senses to perceive it easily. Earthy people will most likely have
fixations not necessarily with the earth itself, but with stability
and understanding the mechanics of everything around them,
especially before they make decisions. Earth has a very strong
low frequency that is often difficult to alter or affect.
Weaknesses:
Earths biggest drawback is its resistance to change and/or
movement. People with a lot of earth energy will often desire
stability above all else. They will often be upset when faced with
sudden changes in their lives and have a hard time seeing the
benefits of change and movement. Earth being the most isolated,
easily broken apart element, will have a tendency to isolate and
have a very hard time seeing things from other peoples
Interactions
Air:
Fire does not typically become attracted to air for long, because it
will see its sensitivity and non-assertiveness as a weakness. And
because fire is not usually very patient it doesnt like to deal with
those things for very long. Fire can very easily become selfabsorbed without even realizing it. Fire and water are VERY
strongly attracted to each other. This is the most powerful
attraction among the elements. Water has the resilience to deal
with the extreme nature of fire, and fire can really be very
extreme because of that. Water people tend to be very loyal and
therefore will go through quite a bit with a fire person before
calling it quits. Fire many times needs someone like that in their
life to show them what it really means to be empathetic and
make sacrifices for them. Water can absorb massive amounts of
heat and remain relatively unchanged. Water is a very strong
negative, feminine force, and fire is a very strong positive,
masculine force. While they do compliment each other well, if
fire or water remains content to not work on understanding the
other elements, they will only help other remain weak by
compensating for the others underdeveloped traits. The idea is
that they should be teaching other and helping each other. So
when fire and water interact, water should be learning about
passion and the meaning of the self and confidence, while fire
should be learning about empathy and what it means to be
selfless connecting and forming to all things.
Fire and earth have kind of a father/son type
relationship to each other. Fire is the untamed raw energy, and
earth the slow moving, patient, sturdy energy. Earth can also
take a beating from fire, but not quite like water can. Fire and
earth have an amazing capacity to help each other, because fire is
motivated, but earth so patient and consistent. If you were trying
to get something done, fire is going to bring the inspiration and
passion to the project, while earth will bring consistency, focus
and stability. Fire and earth are both masculine elements and
therefore have and incredible capacity to accomplish things when
mindful when you do it. Do not let your emotions control you,
rather use them as an indication of what is going on inside of you
and the people around you. Do not be afraid of yourself.
All of this is just supposed to be a way to visualize and
help with understanding how we are, and how we interact with
other people. Once we get that, we will in fact realize that all of
the elements DO exist within us simultaneously. With every
decision you make and thought you think you are deciding which
one will become stronger. I told you I used to be a lot more water
like. That changed when I was 13 years old in one moment. I
remember it like it happened 5 minutes ago. I was talking to my
mother and she was yelling at me for something. My mother and
I did not have a good relationship growing up AT ALL. It was
tearing me apart inside and I didnt know what to do about it
because it seemed to me that she didnt care. As we were talking,
I told her about something that had happened about a week
before thatI was crying hysterically as I relayed the story,
Last week when we went out to eat I saw a dad with
two kids sitting across from us. He was smiling and
laughing; the kids were smiling and laughing. He was
asking them about their days at school and they were
telling him about art projects and other things that
were really didnt seem to matter, but the dad seemed so
interested! I remember watching them for a long time
and I just I just wish that could be us? Ya know? I
wish we could be happy like that.
After I finished, her reply was Whatever. And she
walked up the stairs. I dont really remember a time I ever cried
harder in my life than that day in my childhood, but I do
remember making a very distinct decision. I remember making
the decision that could no longer care about her because it was
killing me inside. I remember telling myself that I wasnt going to
Frequencies
Everything in the known universe has a frequency, a
pulse, an energy signature. NASA even knows that stars and
planets have their own unique energy signature, which can
actually be heard! That is something worth looking up on the
Internet. Every thing that exists on earth has an energy
signature, a frequency, or group of frequencies that is unique to
that thing. This relates directly to what we were just talking
about with the elements. Each element would have its own
connection with our source and the source of all those attributes
and energeis we seek namely God (if you happen to be reading
from the middle, please refer back to the disclaimers at the
beginning to be clear about what I mean when I say God).
So in regard to frequencies, think of it like this. Our
spirits are made of light. For the sake of illustration lets say the
God in this case is the sun. The light refracts and creates the
colors that we are used to seeing in our day-to-day lives. We have
a predisposition towards a certain color from the day we are
born. Each color has its own characteristics and compliments
certain colors while clashing with other colors. Our goal is to
continually expand the range of frequencies we can emit, so that
no matter what colors we are around, we can harmonize with
them. Imagine that you emanate a bright red color and you walk
into a place were there are a lot of people glowing with earthy
tones like burnt umbers, and deep crimsons, and earthy greens.
Imagine in that situation that you could immediately change
your color to compliment your surroundings and harmonize with
those people instead of clashing, without compromising who you
are as a person. That would be pretty cool right? And then over
time you would be able to perhaps slowly introduce newer
brighter colors into the color scheme that you find yourself
surrounded by in a way that the people around you remain
receptive to your suggestions and frequencies.
Thats an example using all colors, but it just helps to be
able to visualize whats going on. In more practical terms,
imagine that you are a young passionate visionary and you find
yourself in a situation where you are surrounded by people who
are older, a bit stoic and seemingly set in their ways. If you go
into that situation guns blazing talking about how everything
needs to change and being very passionate (fiery) about it, there
is a good chance that they will not be receptive. But if you can
calm yourself down, and learn their language, or learn how to
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not be affected by. That means that the more we learn to master
and understand this type of energy, our influence will extend far
beyond ourselves and be much more lasting and powerful. You
could even think of gravity. Gravity is a subtle energy that unites
all of the life on this planet and turns it into one cohesive unit. It
is so powerful that not only are we constantly aware of it, but also
it is almost impossible to overcome even though we are aware of
it. This type of influence is very dramatic and big, but of course
its easier to see the more subtle implications through the more
dramatic examples. Think of this example: say that you are at job
and the person at the top of the company has a strong desire to
make money no matter what they have to do. That desire trickles
down from the top and creates more and more pressure at the
bottom. The subtle energy of the CEO is a affecting everyone in
the system. If you are a server at a restaurant and you make a
mistake, you may have your boss get very upset at you. It seems
like your boss is more upset than they should be about the simple
mistake, but if you follow the reaction up the chain you will see
how everything is connected. The boss gets upset because they
have a performance review coming up that he is nervous about
because the person doing the review is very strict. The person
doing the review is strict because they have to report to the vice
president and is heavily pressured by the vice president to be
extremely thorough and unyielding. He is pressuring the person
doing the review so much because he is in charge of making sure
the company is producing certain numbers every year and
passing health code exams so as not to incur any fines. And the
vice president is so concerned with that, because if the numbers
drop or they dont pass health code exams, he will get fired,
because the president of the company wants to make money. I
am not saying that all restaurants work like this, but a good
many of them do. And here you can see how the desire of the
person with the most influence in the system is directly affecting
every other person in the system whether or not he ever has
contact with them.
own version of reality apart from the whole. This is why in the story of the
Garden of Eden, when Adam and Eve ate the fruit, the first thing that
happened when they ate the fruit is that they became self aware, and thus
realized they were naked. This is the alternate reality. A reality based on
the self. Lucifers version of reality is simply an inverted version of Gods
reality that is outlined in many spiritual texts. So to put it into some
perspective from Gods point of view (especially if you were spiritually
abused by religions growing up) imagine that the universe is a body
much like your own. We are each a cell in the body performing a vital
function for the whole. Imagine that a cell in your body decided that it
didnt want to be a part of the whole anymore that it wanted to
experience its own reality apart from the body. So instead of doing what it
was doing, it starts to just do for itself and feed itself and reproduce itself
ignoring the function it was previously assigned to. We know this quite
well in this day and age. When this happens to our physical bodies its
called cancer. And usually people dont feel all that bad about cutting it out
of the body; they are just going to do what is right for the whole. So I
wouldnt think of God as some kind of evil judge raining down fireballs
from heaven at everything you do. He just loves his body, and will do
what is best for the whole as should we.
manipulated
and
controlled by
our spirits), is
a bit lower
frequency
responding
the measurable forces of electricity and magnetism. Then we
have the lowest frequency version of our existence being our
bodies, which are being controlled by our minds. The body has
very little ability to directly affect the spirit in most cases, and yet
the spirit ultimately is in control of the physical body, through
the communication of the mind. The way that these energies get
things done is very different from one another, and energies
closer to each other in frequency have more of an effect on one
another. The closer two things are in frequency, the heavier
and more noticeable the effects of their interactions are going to
be. An example would be our senses. Touch and sound are close
in frequency, and musically speaking the lower the bass is, the
more likely you are to feel it as if it were an actual physical thing
touching you. And the same thing goes for smell and taste. You
can usually get a good feel for how something tastes by how it
smells. The benefit of using higher frequencies to manipulate
lower frequencies is the lack of resistance. In most cases (there
are exceptions for injuries, certain medical conditions, and
certain mental problems) the mind does not have the ability to
resist the will of the spirit, just like the body cannot resist the will
of the mind. If you tell your body to raise its hand, its not going
to tell you no or resist you if its fully capable of doing so. All the
body is doing is what its told; the same thing goes for the mind,
but the interactions and functions are just much more complex
and moving/changing more quickly. Its actually really cool when
you think about it. Our minds and bodies are our personal
allotment of consciousness that we have been given
responsibility over. It is much like our own universe. We have
approximately 100 trillion cells in our bodies, which are like our
people, responding to every thing we tell them to do. We provide
them with everything they need to survive. We teach them what
reality is and also create it for them. And we are the god of all of
this happening it sounds much like what most people would
consider God to be right? We are a universal body. We are also
an earthly body. Every reality we create for ourselves will
intimately affect the functioning and state of the rest of the body.
So what are you telling your body? What are you telling your
mind? The mind is gathering information through filters (beliefs)
that you choose. What kind of reality are you creating for
yourself and others?
book, but for others it will not be enough or will not work as well.
This is that glorious place where you have the opportunity to
discover a new way, and perhaps a better way for yourself and
others like you. I only have few more things to say about a couple
principles that I have found to be universally important and
consider to be vital to be aware of if youre serious about making
progress.
I have mentioned several times the principle of doing
things gradually: in truth, one step at a time is not too difficult.
There is great power in understanding this principle and it truly
spans across all areas of life, whether it be physical or spiritual
(just as a disclaimer, there are benefits to speed and shock by
way of speed in certain situations, but without a sturdy, powerful
core the speed will only hurt yourself and others so for this
volume we really want to focus on developing our core and Ill
touch on the speed game in volume 2). So were going to use this
principle when approaching this idea of controlling the whole
self. The easiest, most effective way (from my perspective) to
achieve this total control of the self is to start with the easies
stuff, and then move on to the harder stuff, or put in contextual
words here to gradually move from the physical part of our
existence to the spiritual part of our existence.
Before I say this, I just want let you know that this is the
EASIEST way to go about making progress, but not always the
most effective. The thing is, if we try to do things that are too
hard at first, we will often get discouraged by our lack of
progress; it makes quitting so much easier when we are
discouraged. If we can make small measureable steps then we
will be much more likely to continue moving forward because we
are encouraged by our own progress. This is not to doubt your
resolve; it is simply me making note of something that I have
noticed VERY consistently with people trying to make life
changes. I think the smartest thing to do if you set out to achieve
your life. That self-control will allow you take the time to
meditate and write down your experiences. That self control will
eventually allow you to respond calmly to people who are
harassing you and give you an opportunity to see the big picture.
It is really nice that you are starting to take care of your body if
you do this, but even more important than that, you are
developing a character trait that will allow to be successful in so
many other ways. This has to do with the development of your
core; and while youre developing your core, self-control will be
key. Remember from earlier in the book, Your foundation
and core will determine how much progress you can
make in any venture. The focus of this whole process is the
getting to the core.
Diet and exercise are a big step. Some other physical
things to take control of are habits that may be negative or
unwanted. A huge one is smoking. I have heard from many
people that quitting smoking is one of the hardest things to do
period. I do respect that and understand, but that is not an
excuse to not try and not succeed. You can accomplish anything
if you put your mind to it so dont doubt yourself. Addictions may
very well be the most destructive fear based things that exist. If
something has control of you on such a deep level that it seems to
rob you of your ability to choose, it is NEVER good. Yes Im
saying the n word. I dont say never very much, but being
addicted to anything even if they are good things, can have
detrimental consequences. That just has to do with the nature of
addiction. One can be addicted to literally anything. A very
common misconception about addiction (especially when it
comes to drugs) is that things or substances themselves are
addictive. This is NOT TRUE. It is absolutely 100% not true that
substances, things, or activities have arbitrary addictive power.
This is the same thing as our example back in the beginning of
the book about the people driving and the one person throwing
up his middle finger. The stimulus DOES NOT have arbitrary
still on this journey with me are willing to ask the hard questions
and challenge yourselves to become better people, and make a
better world, where love is the only law necessary. Does that
sound crazy? Is it crazy to think that we could live in a world
where the only law that is necessary is to love each other? Maybe
I am that person screaming of a round world in a time when the
flat-world thought paradigm dominates. But just because we
have been told a certain thing doesnt rob us of our ability to
dream and think freely and with outrageous creativity!
All of these ideas can be very helpful and extremely
effective when trying to understand and subdue the mind. You
are going to want to teach your mind to flexible and pliable like
the mind of a child. This means that you are going to have to go
deep into your own psyche, emotions, and beliefs to rip out some
of those thought weeds and emotional weeds to get your brain
garden in a good position to grow and flourish. Go deep into
yourself and take out some of those ideas of what you think you
about how things are, and replace those things with principles.
Replace those things with love, patience, kindness, goodness,
empathy, sensitivity, passion, respect, etc. This is something that
became really real to me when I was in Bible school. I saw a
group of people who were more attached to the belief system
they followed than the God they claimed to love. And in pursuit
of defending their thoughts and beliefs I would watch them
viciously debate about doctrinal issues, denominations, and
methodology. I watched horrendous church splits, family
arguments, and broken relationships over these things. All of this
strife and heartache was over things that are simply a matter of
opinion that cannot be proved. All the while, they are neglecting
the god they claimed to serve not showing humility and
patience when dealing with opposition, but getting defensive
because they knew they were right. Is that so? All of that
bickering and arguing about who God is and what he wants his
church to look like, and how to evangelize properly, and yet not
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what convention will tell you is possible. A lot of you may read
that last sentence and think to be just another warming line in
some kind of self help book that you can post on the internet and
go hmmmmmmmm with your friends about, but if you really
understand it and take it to heart then you will actually be the
one performing wonders not talking about them. Think of the
people that you most admirewhat is the difference between you
and them? What is the difference between a mediocre athlete
and an extraordinary one? Im telling you its a decision. The only
difference between those who are mediocre and those who shock
and inspire the world is whether or not they believe they can do
it. What are you willing to sacrifice to see your goals
accomplished in your lifetime? What are you willing to go
through? How close are you willing to get to the edge of yourself?
How many times are you willing to break? Do you have it within
you to transcend yourself and your environment? You do. You
most certainly do if you only choose it. If you seek to unlock the
unlimited power within yourself, you are setting yourself on
journey with unknown struggles and challenges ahead of you.
You may have to give up things that you never thought you could
part with, but sometimes the sacrifices are the only way to move
forward.
spin around in circles 33 times and then try to take a few steps
backwards, or even forwards! The funny thing is that many of
you will not even be able to spin 33 times without falling over.
This is what happens when our physical balance is disrupted.
The simplest tasks seem to become nearly impossible. If the
physical world is a manifestation of higher dimensions or the
spiritual world, just imagine what kind of effects there are from
spiritual, mental, or emotional imbalances! They are profound
and many. We have been living with them for so long we have
accepted most of them as part of normal life, not even realizing
that we have the power within us to engineer our own realities.
You can see very easily the disabling effect of physical imbalance
when you spin in circles and how it impairs your ability to do
almost everything. So if we have mental imbalances imagine how
much that impairs our ability to utilize the true power of our
brains. Likewise if we have spiritual imbalances imagine how our
spiritual abilities have been crippled.
So what is this business about becoming an atom? Im
going to try to exhaust all examples I can think of with this
chemistry analogy (a lot more in volume 2) because I believe it is
such a vivid, accurate indication of how many things work. As
were bringing things to close for now I want to leave you with
these thoughts going through your head. We are all composed of
energy. It is much more helpful and accurate to think of yourself
as being composed of energy rather than matter. We are made
of the same energy that atoms are made of so for this example I
want you to think of yourself as a big atom. But truly, most of us
at this stage in human consciousness are more like electrons and
protons rather than atoms. Even though we seem to be
incomplete there is strong evidence within our history and
bodies that we have the capacity to be and in fact once were
atoms (or at least more complete), but have atrophied to being
incomplete and imbalanced completely forgetting why we are
here and what we are capable of. Its like we are cavemen with
treated me, and I was desperately lonely, but too scared to let
anyone close enough to help me. It was miserable. That darkness
followed me for a long, long time. It took more than I knew I had
within me to conquer it, but it all started with a decision. I
wanted more out of life than it seemed to be willing to give me.
This book is a story that is still being written every day.
This book is the journey I went on in my mind and my heart as I
transformed from the helpless, defeated, mentally and
emotionally tormented child, to the phoenix rising from the
flames. This is a story of overcoming and passion. It is the tale of
desires that could not be held down. The tale of perseverance
that shows that truly anything is possible. And as I continue to
write this story I will continue to push the boundaries of life and
defy what is deemed to be impossible. And this story is not only
mine, but yours too. Its better to do it together.
You may not have a story exactly like mine, but it really
doesnt matter. What unites us is not having the same story, but
the same desire. And if you want more, if you are not satisfied
with the day to day grind, if you want more out of your
relationships, if you want a renewed sense of vitality and
creativity, if you want to know the infinite depth of love and all of
its mysteries, then we are one and the same. If you have it within
you I ask you to make a promise to yourself that you are not
going to willingly take steps backwards anymore. That time is
over. We are moving forward and becoming more. We are
achieving more. We are transcending ourselves and all forms of
convention to move outside of the realm of impossible. We are
writing a newer, brighter story and it starts now.