Is it Heartache or Heartbreak?

BPOV “You're the one who broke my heart, you're the reason my world fell apart, you're the one who made me cry, yet I'm still in love with you and I don't know why.”-By Unknown They left me. All of them. He didn’t give me any reasonable excuses except for, “I don’t want you.” Things like that. I was sick and tired of crying. I was useless. Maybe that’s why they left me. I was looking up heartbreak quotes on Google to see if anyone else felt the way I did. Pathetic right? The whole world was crumbling around me and the only thing tying me here was him. And since he’s gone and so is his family, I’m losing the small sense of reality I have left. People around me were watching me fall apart. Not knowing what to do. I didn’t care. I honestly didn’t care. I was living wasn’t I? I was breathing right? They were lucky that I didn’t kill myself yet. Just living without him is like having a long tortured death. Every second of the day, his words linger on in my head. It’s like spears being thrown at my heart.

My heart was still beating, but faltering away every time I thought about him. APOV I told him not to. I told him. But he didn’t bother to listen. Rose, Emmett, Jasper and I all lost a sister. A sister that was loved and beloved. I miss her. We all do. Just because of a mistake, we have to pack up and abandon her? She would’ve taken the James incident 100,000 times over again if it meant she could stay with Edward. If she could stay with us all, it didn’t matter how much pain she’d be in. I knew it and so did he. He said she was stubborn. Well, the only stubborn one was him. He tells us to leave her. He abandoned her and now he decides to mope around? What is wrong with him? He won’t eat, he won’t move and he won’t talk. He doesn’t even play the piano for crying out loud! If he was going to mope around then why did we leave her in the first place? Edward growled at that thought. “Well, it’s the truth.” I said. He gave me a cold, hard glare. I didn’t mind. I didn’t even care. He deserved it and he knows it. BPOV

I wonder what there doing now. I wonder where they are. But that’s the sad thing…I can only wonder. If he didn’t leave me, I would be here with them. We would be the perfect picture, a big happy family. If only I was good enough… RPOV I was sick of this. Yes, I was mean to her. But come on! Give me a break! It’s not easy knowing the one who doesn’t want you wants a worthless human. Well, used to be worthless. Vain got the better of me. I can’t help that. But I loved to see her blush and trip and fall. It was hilarious. If I couldn’t be a human, then I guess watching one was close enough. Emmett was depressed. He loved her. He loved her like a sister. Then, Edward just goes and throws her away like a piece of trash, not caring what we had to say about it. We were out hunting right at the border line of Seattle. Edward wouldn’t hear me here. This was where I could really think and plan. BPOV

Yes! That’s it! If only I could look better. Try and be more graceful and be more beautiful, that would help! I could be the girl that Edward wanted. Then when they come back (we all know they will) I’ll be perfect! He’ll know what he’s been missing and he’ll come back to me! Then not only I would have him back, but now he wouldn’t be embarrassed to stand beside me anymore. All the more reason to stay with me. Perfect! I had it all planned out. All I had to do now was make it happen. RPOV Yes, Bella knew I didn’t like her. But I couldn’t just sit here and do nothing. We were in Seattle, but this was the closest he’d let us come to Forks. We had stinkin’ restrictions and rules! What are we, 5 year olds? I had to go and find her. See her. I had to help her cope and do what little I could. I would visit her every chance I got. I would explain it all, why I was so mean to her. Knowing Bella, she would forgive me. Alice started to freeze. Of course she would see what I was going to do. “You can come too, if you want.” I said. “Maybe just the first time. I can’t keep disappearing all the time. He knows me too well.

He’ll never suspect anything with you. He knows you hate her. But I have to go the first time, so I can explain why I won’t be around as much as you.” She said. I nodded in reply. That sounded reasonable. The guys stayed home with Edward, so it was just Alice and me. It would be easier that way to keep it a secret. “You can’t tell the guys or Esme or Carlisle or ANYONE!” I said. She nodded. “I know. I can already see that he’ll never find out.” Alice said. I sighed with relief. That was easier knowing. “What do we say to Edward?” I asked. Alice didn’t respond. She grew very still. “No. No! Bella wants to be the girl that Edward has always wanted, or she thinks he wanted. She’s going into plastic surgery in 2 weeks to become a plastic Barbie doll. What is with her?” Alice asked. Before I could answer, or act, Alice froze again. “Rose, I think we have a bigger problem to deal with.” She said. What was she talking about? BPOV I returned from the surgeon’s office with marker all over me. Before I hopped in the shower I went to my room. I needed this. I searched

through my drawers and found what I was looking for. I smiled. I rolled up a piece of paper and sucked the powdery drug through it. I sighed with relief when I started to feel the affects take place in me. Finally, peace. RPOV Bella was doing drugs? Edward really screwed her up. Did he think twice and actually think about what this might have done to her? I looked at Alice and she knew I wanted to go visit her now. We couldn’t wait. Bella needed our help. We couldn’t make her wait. We ran back in the house and Edward was looking suspiciously at us. “Alice go and pack my stuff for me.” I said. Edward looked at me with accusation in his eyes. “Your going to go and visit her aren’t you?” He screamed. I rolled my eyes. “Yeah I want to go and visit the insignificant human who messed you up and put our family in danger.” I said with sarcasm dripping from my voice. Edward hissed. “Relax Edward. Me and Alice are going to Paris for four days on a shopping trip.” I said. Edward

calmed down automatically and went back to being a statue. Alice was done in less than 5 minutes and she already had our plane tickets and passports ready. “C’mon Rose, let’s go.” She said. “Rose! Where are you going?” Emmett asked. “On a shopping trip with Alice to Paris. I’ll only be gone for fours days.” I said sweetly. Emmett was about to protest but he kept his mouth closed. Smart boy. Me and Alice took her car to the airport. We needed to get there before Bella does her plan. She’ll look like a plastic Barbie doll once they’re done with her. BPOV Once I was done with my shower and I was nice and high, I decided to go to sleep. I could escape reality, even if it was for a few hours, I was thankful. APOV We made it to Bella’s house in no time. We found Bella sleeping. “Edward!” She mumbled. Me and Rose froze. “Edward please…please no! Don’t go! I love you!” She yelped.

“You don’t want me?” She whimpered. Then she started to scream. Her screams were loud, violent and tortured. I couldn’t take it anymore. I woke her up. BPOV I was awoken from my terrible nightmare. But I realized I had to be dreaming. Alice and Rosalie wouldn’t be here with me if it wasn’t. “Shh Bella, it was just a nightmare.” Alice said. I couldn’t believe how much I missed her. Heck, I even missed Rosalie. Her voice was so realistic. Stop Bella! They’ll never be here! They left you! You weren’t good enough. “Bella, wake up now. Bella, wake up now. This is just a dream. Wake up.” I whispered to myself. That usually made me wake up, but I didn’t this time. “Bella, you’re not dreaming.” Alice said softly. I wasn’t? Then why were they here with me? “Why are you here?” I asked. Alice didn’t answer, neither did Rosalie. Instead of answering, Alice went to look in my drawers. She took out the bag with the drugs in it. Oh, they knew.

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