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I carried her up the stairs, she was vaugley aware of this, and lay her on the bed. She looked too cute whenshe was half asleep. I smiled as I pulled her shoes off and sat them on the floor. She looked really, really good in these shoes. I walked to the window on the far side of the room, and hoped out of it. Once I landed on the ground I ran quickly to the house, I needed to change. As I entered the house, Edward was coming down the stairs. "Sleep with her tonight, just don't disappoint me." he told me, his tone friendly yet stern, and fatherly, at the same time. I smiled to myself as I continued up the stairs, towards Nessie's room. Once I reached the top, I saw Esme standing at Nessie and Rachel's bedroom door. I laughed as I stepped around her, and knocked on the door. I got a suprised look from Esme. Rachel opened the door, she was in wrapped in nothing put a towel, and peeked through a small crack. "I have to get something." I said, turnning towards Esme with a smirk, "And I think you want to talk to her." I said as I walked through the door, Ciaran was sitting on the sofa. I gave him a look, and walked up to him. "Shes like a little sister, so don't hurt her." I said in a strained tone, my fists clutched. I knew Edward would take care of it, I noted that meantally. After starring at Ciaran for a moment, I turned towards Renesmee's closet. "Oh, hell.." I muttered to myself, hoping I would find her pajamas without a strugle. I knew the hidden dangers in entering a womans closet, and I was scared. Scared as hell. I pushed the door open, and took a breath. It wasn't as bad as I thought. I took a step inside and turned to my right, where I saw a dresser with a set of clothing on top of it. I sighed in relief, hoping Renesmee was the type of girl to set her clothing out for later. She was. I looked at it, and saw that it was a pair of cotton shorts with one of those strappy shirts, a tank top maybe? And then.. Then.. Then her underwear and a bra. I didn't really like that idea. I sighed again, picking the pile of clothing up and rushing to my room where I showered and changed into a pair of sweats.
When I got back to the room atop the 'party' house, Renesmee hadn't moved an inch. I smiled, contemplating how'd I'd change her with dignity. I walked over to get and carefuly pulled her into my arms, shaking her lightly. "Nessie, wake up real quick." I whispered, she mumbled "Nooo.. I'm... Sleepy.." she said, I smiled again. "You have to change. You know, bra, undies?" I whispered, still smiling, waiting for her reply. She flailed her arm,
"Silly Jak..ob.. I don' wanna' change." she answered, falling asleep in my arms. I shook her lightly again, "Either you change yourself, or I'll have to change you." I told her, thinking that'd get her to worry about it. She kept her eyes closed, "What? You.. Don't wanta'.. see.. my boobies?" she asked as if she didn't know what she was saying. I sighed, sitting her down on my lap, and unzipping her dress. "I feel like a rapist." I mumbled to myself as I pulled her dress of. I threw the bra on her, my eyes were closed. I fumbled with those god-damn clips on the back of it, but I did it without opening my eyes once. I felt like I was violating her, and I didn't like that. In my mind I was wondering if I should have just gotten Bella to come and do it, but I thought of that too late. I kept my eyes closed the whole time I changed her, and needless to say that took forever. I finally pulled her arms through her little shirt, and noticed her shorts were on backwards. I groaned aloud as I changed them back around, she didn't wake up again through the whole process.
After changing (violating) Renesmee, I pulled her into my arms and fliped the sheets on the bed back before tucking her into them. I walked to the other side of the bed, and made sure my feet were clean. I laughed at myself as I did so, feeling like an idiot. I didn't wear shoes, or a shirt, just my sweats. After my foot inspection, I crawled into the bed under the sheets. As if on cue Renesmee scooted over and curled up by my chest, laying her face on my shoulder and whispering in my ear, "You're too cute." I was shocked. "You were awake the whole time." I stated, she giggled in my ear. I sat there embaressed, and in shock. She started running her finger up and down my chest, making me shiver. "Are you cold?" She asked me sarcastically, her voice slightly senseual. I smiled, "Freezeing." I answered in the same tone she had asked. Renesmee then got this devious smile on her face, and put her arms around me and kissed me on the cheek. You're too cute, I wanted to tell her, but I didn't. I put my arms around her, and pulled her close to my chest. "Save the date, this is the first time we've slept in the same bed." I teased her, she smiled. "Easy to remember, 05-05-09." she said with a grin, I smirked at her. I lay there awake, watching her trace patterns across my chest, intently thinking something out of this world. I watched her for an hour, never speeking, she was too beautiful. "I thought you were tired?" I asked her, she'd fallen asleep on me twice when we were dancing downstairs. She smiled up at me, "I was tired when I wasn't in bed with you." she answered, pulling her lips up towards mine, but she couldn't reach. I smiled and pulled my head down a bit, letting our lips touch. It was as if she was begging me for more, I wanted to laugh. She bit my lip lightly, and I smiled in our kiss. She bit it a little again, laying her hand flat on my stomach. I caved and opened my mouth. I felt her hands on my leg, and I instantly felt like pulling away. I didn't want this to go too far. I'd promised her father I wouldn't. I pulled her hands
off me and put them in her lap, and took a breather. "What?" she asked me, breathing heavily. I stifled a sigh, and brushed the bead of sweat off of her forehead. "I can't, Nessie, I can't go too far with you." I told her, my breatheing normal, she just stared into my eyes. "Why? Why not?" she whispered in my ear, her voice still rough and heavy. I pulled her hand off my leg and held it in mine, "Because I want to do it right, Nessie. I promised your dad I wouldn't, he trusts me." I told her, trying to stay strong and hold my ground. I could feel myself crumbling at her will, but I had to live with her family. I know they'd rip my head off in a heart beat, and thats something I'd rather not have done. I did thoroughly enjoy my being here. "Please Jacob? Please?" she asked me, I moaned aloud as she brushed her hand across my waist-band, a mistake. "Please, Renesmee, don't do this to me." I complained, she pouted her lip out. I starred at her for a moment, and realized why we never slept in the same room together. She'd tried to seduce me time and time again, but not like this, never like this. She sat half-way up on her elbow, looking into my eyes, leaning into me before she kissed my lips. She did as she did before, in biting my lip, but this time I didn't hesitate. She locked her fingers in my hair, continueing to kiss me, her body was pushed up close against mine.
I felt her hand slide down my back, and I then slowly pulled away. "Renesmee, I can't." I admitted, she just looked at me. "Why not?" she asked me, and I frowned, she was trying to kill me, I swear. "I promised your dad, I just can't." I admitted, getting out of the bed. She pouted as I walked across the room towards the window. I couldn't stay in this room any longer before I did what I promised I wouldn't. I jumped out of the window and ran in a head long sprint towards the main house. I wanted Renemsee. I wanted her bad. When I walked into the house Edward was leaning up against the wall, his hands were covering his face. I heard Bella and Rosalie whispering in the other room. "No, Edward's going insane with Jacob and Nessie's thoughts. I'm about to sheild their minds to save him from his pain." Bella was telling Rosalie, I kept walking forward. Edward smelt me and looked up at me, his face pained and shocked at my presence. "You're? You were? What?" he mumbled, I hadn't seen Edward trip over words before. "I made a promise to you, as her father, that I'm not willing to break. I left before I broke." I told him as I turned back towards the stairs, I felt his hand on my shoulder. "You did?" he asked, I was going to question his sanity. He was a mind-reader and all, so why did he have to ask? "Yeah, I did. As much as I didn't want to leave that room, I did. For you." I said, pushing his hand off my shoulder and turning around once more. "Thank you." He whispered so low human ears wouldn't have heard it. I didn't reply. I just ran at full speed up the stairs, not
wanting to be bothered by the world. By anything.
When I walked into my room I quietly closed the door so I didn't wake my brothers up and I went to my bed. Tonight would be hell, if I had to stay in this room. I looked at the clock, it was about seven ten. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. "Dude.. You okay?" Quil whispered to me, I shook my head. "No, bro. I'm not okay. I think I need to get out of here." I whispered back, contemplateing my newest idea. "Where ya' gonna go?" he ask, sitting up in the bed. I smiled slightly, "I'm gonna' go visit my dad." I said to him, walking towards the window. I heard him roll over, mumbling how I've gone mad. I smiled to myself as I hoped out of the fourth story window and landed on the ground. I ran into the woods to phase, a habit. I saw Renesmee starring down at me from the window, her eyes wide. I wanted to go over to her, comfort her, but I knew I would end up staying. I blinked once and she was gone. I hadn't a clue where to, though. I sighed heavily, and turned towards the brush before launching myself forward, full speed ahead. I let my tounge hang out as I ran, feeling the wind through my fur. It really was an incredible feeling, when I ran, at least. I was thankful that I hadn't had to worry about the 'pack mind' because damn, did I need my own head!
The sun was up when I saw the Forks city limits sign, I sighed in relief as I skidded to a hault in the woods by Charlie's house. I phased back, and put my pants on. I really missed this place, more then I would ever lead on to believe. I walked up to the back door and looked inside, Charlie was awake. The light in the kitchen was on, I smiled to myself as I walked around to the front door and knocked on it. I'd go to La Push in a little bit.
I was thoroughly shocked to see a brown-haired woman answer the door. More shocked then my face showed. I raised an eyebrow, "Is Charlie awake?" I questioned. She gave me a warm smile, and walked off after telling me 'One minute.' leaving me there to wonder who she was. I heard some mumbling in the other room about how Charlie didn't know anyone that'd come visit him, but he eventualy got up. Typical Charlie Swan. When he came around the corner and looked up at me, he jumped. I grinned at him widely, "Jacob!" he was shouting. He ran up and hugged me. I laughed and put a hand on his back, "Charlie." I replied, already forgetting my point in being here. Charlie pulled back, and smiled. "What are you doing here?" he asked, and I sighed, "I don't really want to talk about it.." I muttered, running my hand through my slightly ruffled hair. Charlie nodded, "I understand. Well, come in come in!" he said smiling, ushering me to enter. I smiled and stepped through the doorway, walking towards the kitchen. Charlie shut the door and followed me in, where we sat at the old table. "So, Jake, I guess you met Victoria?" he asked me cheerfuly, I cringed
at her name. I nodded, trying to clam myself from the rememberance the name broguht, "Yeah, shes nice." I replied, faking a smile. He grinned at me widely, I tried to smile back but I knew he saw through me. He didn't push it. We just caught up for the hour Victoria, sigh, was getting ready upstairs. He'd wondered how Bella and Nessie were, and them mumbled about everyone else. I tried to continue being optomistic, but it wasn't something I was imrpoving at. I learned all about Victoria, too, and how they'd met. Honestly, I was bored. Therefore I made the excuse that I needed to go see my dad and be back in Bellingham by two, and it was already ten thirty. We bid our farewells to one and other, then I walked to La Push, meandering slowly.
As I walked along the sidewalk that went beside Forks High School I remembered the 'jail break' Bella and I had made, and I smiled. I then remember when I'd told her to die later that day. "Not one of my prouder moments.." I muttered to myself aloud. I kept walking, then found myself longing to be at the beach; I started jogging. It fit, though, since I had no shoes, no shirt and sweats on. I loved my, as Renesmee describes it, 'Hobowear.' I sighed as I ran, wishing Renesmee was here with me. "I always run away from my problems.." I said aloud, realizeing I was talking to myself, again. "You don't run from them, they follow you." Renesmee said, I spun around too fast and fell on my ass. She smiled and put her hand down, "Sorry." she said, pulling me up. I couldn't speak. I just stared at her, suprised and shocked to see her here. How long had she been following me? Why didn't I smell her? And then I realized I wasn't paying attention. "Come on, lets go." She told me, pulling me towards La Push. I went willingly. I struggled to move my feet, to think at all. What did she follow me for? I didn't know, and I assumed she didn't say much to her father, didn't think much either. I looked at her, and she'd changed. I guessed that she'd saw me phase, and went to change, to follow me. She pulled me along for ten minutes, and then we were at the beach. We sat down in the sand, her hair was wipping in the wind. She put her hand on mine, "I'm sorry, Jake. I'm really sorry." She admitted, but she wasn't finished. "Its just hard. So hard. I really, really want you." She said sheepishly, hiding her face in her hair. "I know the feeling.." I mumbled under my breath. She laughed aloud, and I looked up at her. "I'm sorry I left. I just.. I just had to go." I told her, not really thinking my words over. She'd deserved to know why I left, but not even I knew why I had left. It was a lost cause, to be honest. She seemed reluctant to hug me, but I knew she wanted to. I pulled her into my lap and wrapped my arms around her waist, laying my head on her shoulder. "You're to hot for your own good." I said, she laughed, "I could say the same about you." She replied whilst laughing. I then thought of something, "Guess what?" I asked her, sparking her intrest. "Hmm?" she mumbled into my neck, I smiled. "Charlie's met someone." I told her, my voice sounded rather amused. She picked her head up, "Whats her name?" She asked me, I barely stiffled a sigh. "Victoria." I said, mentally cringeing at the name. Renesmee winced aloud, and I nodded, "I know.. I know.." I calmed her, she put her head back down on my chest. "What are we going to do
today?" She asked me, I smiled, "Wanna go cliff diving?" I said to her, she laughed. "Yeah, don't let me drown though." she joked, and I groaned. "I'll make sure of it." I told her, kissing her hair. Yes, we were going to spend today together.
I smiled at her as she tried to step over the root, she was scared. "Look, I told you I'll help you." I urged her, she wouldn't budge. She looked up at me, a bead of sweat placed between her eyebrows. I sighed, reacched over the root and picked her up and over it. I pulled her into my arms, cradleing her as I did six years ago. "I would've done that eventualy." I told her, she sighed. Her arms were tight over her chest, her face was plain and emotionless. I kissed her on her forehead, and continued running up the cliff side. Looking down at Renesmee in my arms as I ran reminded me of Bella in my arms, when the newborns were coming. And then.. then Victoria found her. I shook my head, trying to dis-lodge the memory. "What?" Nessie asked me, seeming herself. I shook my head once more, "De ja vu." I announced, captivating her attention once more. "How so?" she asked me, her arms loosening from her chest. "Well," I began, "Charlie's lady-friend's name is Victoria. I carried your mother up a mountin side like this," I said motioning to her in my arms, "And then Victoria found her. It doesn't fit." I said, she put her hand on my cheek, not to show me anything, but to comfort me. "Its okay. She isn't our visitor." Renesmee told me, and I realized that yes, we had a visitor due today. I smiled down at her, thinking of everything I would rather do today then cliff dive, but wouldn't be doing. I sighed aloud, Renesmee raised an eyebrow. I smiled at her and quickened my pace, it was eleven and I still wanted to head to La Push, too.
"Please?" Renesmee urged me to turn around, but I didn't want to see what she was wearing. If she was wearing anything at all, "Stop teaseing me." I told her, she laughed at me. "Pleaseee?" she whined, I could just see her puppy-dog eyes that worked so well on me. I didn't turn. She then walked in front of me, flaunting her undergarments. I pulled her into my lap, "Damn put some cloths on!" I teased her, trying to keep my eyes on her face; I was failing miserably. She tossed her arms around my neck, interlocking her
fingers behind my head, and pulling her lips up to mine. I guessed that my wishes to do something other then cliff diving were going my way after all. I felt her hands slide down my back, pulling us closer together, but this time it was different. We weren't going towards the 'lets have sex now' thing like we did durring the night, this was a 'I want you, you want me, but we can't' kind of thing. It was nice. After some time we both needed some air, when we pulled appart my breathing was just as sharp and breathless as hers. That wasn't normal for me. "I love you." I told Nessie, she smiled, "I love you too. Now, how about you show me how to cliff jump?" she said smiling at me, "Multiple personality disorder...?" I mumbled to myself, barely making the words connect. She rolled her eyes, damn did she hear me? "No, I just want to distract myself from what I would rather do." Yes, she did hear me. I sighed, "Dido." I agreed with her, standing up with her. I wondered if our relationship was a rollercoaster or if I was insane, but I didn't care, as long as I had Nessie.
I took her along the ridge until she found somewhere she wanted to jump off of. "Will you please put your clothes on?" I asked her, again, as she picked a place to jump. She turned towards me, as she did before, and got so close our chests touched. I was unevitably nervous. "Why? Does it make you nervous?" she questioned me in a seductive voice. I swallowed hard, "No. I just don't want someone to get the wrong idea." I lied smoothly. She pushed her chest onto mine, standing on her tip-toes, "I don't mind if they do." she whispered, then kissed me on the lips before turning towards the cliff, and jumping off. "Oh, shit.." I mumbled to myself, watching her fall. I jumped when she hit the water, if she'd needed saving then I'd be in the best position to do it then.
I forgot the feeling of flying through the air. It was entralling, and always made me vigilant. I wantched Renesmee hit the water, and it felt as though a knife went straight through my heart. It made me want to decend in the air quicker, the fear hit hard. The nearer I came to the water, the better I felt. I still hadn't seen Nessie surface, though, with was worrysome. I hit the water with an incredible speed, and when underwater I opened my eyes. Renesmee was floating in the water, flailing her arms. She looked over and smiled at me, and I smiled to her as well, as I swam over to her. On my way there she surfaced, and I did the same. "Its soo cold." she whispered, rubbing her arms. Her lips were blue and she was shaking. "Shit.." I muttered to myself, I didn't feel how cold it was. I grabbed her hand and pulled her onto my back as I swam towards the shore. She couldn't walk naked. I swam to the shore, behind some brush. "I'll be right back. Stay hidden." I told her as I ran up the beach and towards the cliff, she didn't move. I scaled the cliff wall, hoping nobody would see me, in a matter of seconds. Once I reached the top I started thinking of the best way to go back down. I would go to the side of the cliff that wasn't exposed to water, and
jump from there. I grabbed Renesmee's sweater, shorts and shirt, then pivitoed on one foot and lurched off the cliffside. The landing didn't hurt like I thought it would have, in fact it didn't hurt. I must've scared the shit out of Nessie when my shoulder hit the ground though. I rolled for a dozen feet or so before I hoped up and walked back over to the brush like there wasn't anything wrong. Thats because there wasn't.
"Holy shit! You scared the fucking hell out of me! Are you okay! God damn-it Jacob Black!" Renesmee yelled, I stood there and took it like a man. She wasn't done yet. "Do you have any fucking idea how bad you scared me! That was crazy as hell!" she continued, I gave her a moment to compose herself. Once she did, "You're vocabulary wasn't this colorful before. The last time I heard someone talk like that was.. was when I saved Leah's ass, and got attacked by that damn newborn.." I told her as I pulled her shirt over her shaking body. She just smiled at me, it was a wicked smile, though. She didn't make a move to put her pants on, which made me sigh. I pulled her up over my shoulder, her torso behind me, and put her pants over her legs. She laughed at me, still shivering. "Put your jacket on." I told her, she did so willingly. "I.. 'm.. free...ze..in..g." She uttered the words out incredibly slow, I frowned. I pulled her close to my body, which was already dry, and started walking towards my dads house. "Whe..re.. are we go..ing?" Nessie asked me after a moment, her words were flowing a bit better. I began walking faster, but her legs weren't doing me any good. I pulled her up into my arms, and started jogging. "Were going to my house." I told her. She didn't ask me anything else.
When we actually got to the driveway, Renesmee was still cold. I felt so bad that I had caused this, I didn't think about the tempature. She knew that, too. "I'm sorry, I didn't know it would be cold." I told her for the fourteenth time, she was keeping track. "Fouteen." she reminded me, I smiled then bent down and kissed her for one.. two.. three.. four.. five.. six seconds before I heard my dad yell to us. "Get a room you two!" he yelled, I lifted my head and smirked at him, then bent my head back down to kiss Nessie again. "Okay, thats enough." he said, laughing. We were almost to the house by now, he was in his chair. "Come here and give me a hug, you two." He said to us, his voice was amused. I set Ness on her feet and she gave him a hug. "Hi Billy!" she said cheerfuly, still shivering. "Hey Renesmee, how're you? Oh my, you're cold! What has my son done to you?" my father replied to her, giving me a slight glare. I sighed, "Good to see you too." He didn't drop the glare, he was staring at me still. "I don't care if I haven't said hi, warm this girl up now." He said firmly. I nodded, pulled Renesmee up into my arms and charged into the house, into my room, and shut the door. "Cold?" I asked her, she kept looking at me with this firey glint in her eyes. I sighed, "Shower time." I told her, she smiled wickedly, I sighed. "Don't do this
to me." I told her, opening the bathroom door. I turned to look at her, and jumped. She didn't usually sneak up on me, but this time she did. "Hello there.." I mumbled as I walked into the bathroom, she followed me in there, too. I pulled a towel out of the cabinet and turned to hand it to Renesmee, my head landed in her stomach. "Shit! I'm sorry! Are you okay!?" I asked her, my words going together. I stood up straight and focused my eyes, then closed them. She was naked. I pushed the towel towards her, and walked out of the bathroom haistly. "Take a shower with me." she asked, barely covering herself with the towel. I sighed, "Its my fathers house. He's home. Don't do this babe." I said, sitting on the edge of my bed. I sighed. She would get me in the bathroom, and get me in the shower, and she knew it. She walked into the small room and leaned on my shoulder, she wasn't being herself. "Come on." she whispered in my ear, pulling me into the bathroom with her. "You've corupted my good boy image." I told her as she pulled me into the shower with her. She put her arms around my neck, and stood on her tip-toes. "I'm the queen of corruption, baby."