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Siri Bercakap Dengan Skrin / Dialogue/monologue
Trans
Mini comic: Stella Nova
Just a thought: Queer?
Artist talk: Sharon CHin / Language/Bahasa

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SIRI Bercakap dengan SKRIN

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Trans

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Mini comic: Stella Nova

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Mini comic: Stella Nova

In our culture (monoculture), we were taught to kill all alien invaders

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Mini comic: Stella Nova

when i was young i noticed i was different than my siblings but
because there wasn’t enough information about my nature or mutation,
i was disowned by my tribe and i’ve to go on my own way...

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Mini comic: Stella Nova

now i realized i’m just like the alien we were taught to kill...but
in reality they’re just looking for a new planet to settle down
and live peacefully like any of us.
...to be continued
#shikasketchbook #shikacorona #shiekoreto #melukisituterapeutik

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Queer?

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Queer?

23 Feb 2016

Long time ago, i heard the label queer as far as i can remember has some negative
connotations like when a hetero cisgender person slutshaming some other male
person for being too feminine (clothes and behaviour). Now its reclaimed for
sure. When i was in college i heard the punk band Queer but they’re far from
being Queer, just another hetero-cisgender male group. And of course when
analysing a situation like in this country we also must see the society, country’s
system that shaped its citizen. After mid 80s just as fatwa came out banning
SRS/GRS (Sexual Reassignment Surgery or the new term Gender-Reafirmation
Surgery) and the politicians purposely wanted to Arabize the country further,
channeling all the money to religious institutions, groups, media, and so naturally
shape our society and its mind. We still can see lots of Queer characters on TV
(Mr.Os, Jaafar Onn, Dee Dee) solely for laughing purposes and thus people
everywhere shaming ‘assigned male person at birth’ for being too feminine in
clothing and behaviour and the situation in Malaysia is getting more and more
rigid since 90s onwards until now. We have syariah law that prohibits every
‘assigned male and muslim at birth’ person in the country from wearing women’s
or feminine clothing. Most affected by this law are ‘assigned Muslim at birth’
Transwomen who’s doing sex work on the street and in some cases in Melaka,
the religious officer went into a salon and apprehend her while she’s doing her
job, and another was stopped at a roadblock, and the police called the religious
officer to come and apprehend her while she’s driving her family around town
in that car. There are a big gap between the local Bahasa speaking transwomen
group & NGO and also other NGO’s who’s mostly English speaking. Malay
transwomen group have different priorities in doing activism than the other
LGBTIQ NGO group.

The last time i was told off from my friend that “why i mix around with the
crossdressers, we’re not crossdressers”. And often in Transwomen community
events like we have a fair share of bad experience coming from ‘the gay boys’
who’s sabotaging our events (calling religious police) and acting obnoxiously
Diva as if it was highly respected. Eventhough Transwomen have many of
effiminate queer gay friends but in our local community events there are many
instance of bad experiences, thus Queer label have kinda negative connotations or
a mixed-up translation to local transwomen or Bahasa speaking community.

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Queer?

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Local government owned media often blanket transwomen and gay man
together in the same group by producing movies that all this people in the end
will either repented or just die horribly, which makes these 2 group similarly
have the same villain but as in our system / society where race, religion,
gender,class, language are often divided, there are not many events that we’re
often meet and discuss about our challenges and obstacles. Each group have
different priorities.
When i was in Japan, i met a couple of group friends of mine who’s taking me
around some Queer events and in Japan LGBTIQ = Queer. I learn form him
that being a Gay person or Lesbian their challenge in society is or could be
more challenging i suppose because of the rigid Gender roles in the society thus
the term Queer is heavily used and more people coming out as Gender X which
have no gender at all. I guess its just the natural phenomena rise from being in
that society and system.
Recently the word Queer becoming more and more mainstream, i thought that
hmm,...so i guess ‘Queer’ is a space for any of us to be whatever we want. A
free space to be fluid, if coming from cisgender gay and lesbian person or even
heterosexual its good space for them to be free expressing themselves whatever
they want to be, let loose from their rigid gender roles. But for Transwomen
and Transmen the term Queer is a good space when you are transitioning, but
after fully transitioned are we Queer? For Transwomen and Transmen who’s
experience misgendering since young and gender dysphoria & suicide, what
is it for us? what is the politic of Queer? for sure its a topic haven’t fully
discussed yet in the local transwomen or the transmen community...
#justathought #hmmm

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Artist talk: Sharon Chin

I attended my friend’s artist talk, Sharon is one of the local artist that
has been around for ages, our paths crossed each other many times
in some local art events and art bazaar (Artforgrabs) plenty of times.
She shared her experience about her latest work ‘Weed’ that was
exhibited at the Asia Pacific Trennials in Perth. I remember before she
went there she bought some of my stuff, patches, bags, badges. As
usual i am touched by her gesture supporting another struggling artist
or for me, or a full time freelancer who nonstop looking out for jobs
that requires drawing and illustrations (which this year coming to a

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halt because of the bad economy). I have so many questions like the
process of applying for artist residency, some lubang to apply (which
she shared with me quite a few), how to write proposal hehe, and most
importantly i learn from her talk is how she dismissed some offers
by magazines/corporations and instead offering them with a similar
artist who’s struggling and also her idea ‘power of suggestion’ to other
people about other fellow artist or simply talk about the artist work to
others. Totally inspired. Personally i’m not here nor there, not in artist
circle, not really in NGO,just volunteering here and there, and quit
advertising long ago, not also in d.i.y. punk scene maybe just one toe
inside the circle since i’m working closely with friends who’s doing
the printing, silkscreening. So its a bit complicated since i’m more and
more drifting out of these few circles.

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During the talk also we’re discussing about the language used like
some prefer fully in Bahasa and some in Manglish or English and
mixed. My thought about it was, aha! i’ve been thinking about it
since my observation within from the trans community or living in
our society. It goes back to our country system. Since the British
era, how the country was formed and its system and we’re part of
the evolution of that system living inside it, how we are divided and
fragmented further not by race, religion, class but also language.
Each race have their own social construct and traditions / identity
and language is part of it and we rather be in that comfort zone and
also ‘enabling environment’. This word became clear recently from
a few community workshop and i question myself everyday why i’m
eager to learn English and my other Malay friends not so. It goes back
to my childhood where i try to be like my higher educated cousins
who’s in their environment/household is more competitive to each
other and i try to mimic them to becoming like them, reading as many
English storybooks that they read. And i was in a mix school, where

most of my Chinese & Indian classmates all very enthusiastically
learning English. On my mom side on the other hand are from poor
middle to lower class who’s not using English language in their daily
lives and consume more Bahasa media newspapers and TV channels.
In Malay community also there are gesture like if someone is using
English they will be look down upon for even trying to use English
like sarcastically being told off wah ‘speaking now’ or ‘Please lah dont
use English if your grammar all lintang pukang’and i found out even
the person saying that their English is the same as terrible and it seems
like i might as well pull someone with me down while i’m drowning,
sort of thing. So yeah its the social construct and also the enabling
environment of the person that make the person more open to learn
learn and use other language.

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Artist talk: Sharon Chin

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When i came to KL for the first time to study (1995) My spoken English
was as terrible in Manglish standard. In college i have lots of Chinese
friends but mostly use Manglish as well, then i got a job in advertising and
use it daily for 5 years with my white foreigner boss as well i guess that
process made me using it easier like learning riding a bicycle. After 5 years
its easier to speak without even thinking about it (but my grammar is as
terrible actually, like in this writing). And also sadly in this country yes,
we are divided further (Race, religion, class, language, interests, etc) and
within a community we’re fragmented further by experience, geography,
etc. within my community, some of my friends who’s seldom use English
in their daily lives, i share my thoughts with them to learn it and use it even
if your peers trying to mock you, because nowadays it is the language of
opportunity even if you’re sex worker/escort, you can communicate and talk
about culture and sharing experience with clients/customers.
Personally i love mangas and anime = Japanese culture (their main imports
^_^) so i quit working my full time in advertising and took Japanese class
and with the little interests i manage to use it and make Japanese friends
and learn more about their culture and while i got the opportunity to live
there for a short time i analysed further what makes a culture and its identity
including Philippines as well. So yeah, to go back that’s Malaysia. Truly
Asia, divided by race, religion, class, interests but also language. ‘Social
construct’ and ‘enabling environment’ is important to study and get to know
our backstory and identity of our fragmented reality.
#justathought #hmmm

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