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In the end, only three things matter: how much you loved, how
gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant
for you.
- Buddha

F o r

m y

f i r s t

l o v e. . .

Some say when we're deceived by a lover it's


not
our
heart
that
aches
but
our
pride
cautiously disguised. The mind goes around unsent
messages,
broken
promises,
unseen
places
and
someone's ghost thoughts. It hurts over the past and
future, and yet it is only the heart that remains in
the present.
Remorse, guilt, betrayal, loss, anger, fear... It is all a
mirage. A mirror to what we refuse to see. A
conditioned idea of what love's supposed to be or feel
like. Yet true love is so pure it fills you up, even
after feeling pain and even more after letting go. It
washes away the rubbish of the mind. Love sets you
free. Unconditioned and untied to anything. Just pure
art. Love just is.

G R I E F
I wish you couldve felt half the love I felt for you,
and how ready I was to give up on myself to keep you
safe from harm. I wish you had felt the loss I felt
when you ripped it all apart, and the betrayal of my
broken heart.

P R I D E
Maybe you and I were just 2 strangers going north and
south trying to find middle ground. Maybe we had forced
love out of comfort and led a life that was not ours.
But
now
that I'm free from your strains I can find
new roots in safe ground. A lover wholl know my
rights from wrongs and would never dare to betray my
trust. A lover so pure and true I would never have to fear for.

R E A L I Z A T I O N

O F

L O V E

I wish it were all true. The thoughts my mind created


to keep me safe and reassured. But in the end it all
comes back again. Once again I fail to describe with words
what I felt whenever your smile hit my eye. And as much
as I fight and pretend, at night, when all the distractions have
been taken away from me, you crawl back into my heart.

L E T T I N G

G O

In the end I knew that all the cursing and praying for
you had come in vain. I am strong and so is my soul
for I loved you with all my heart expecting nothing in
return but a smile. Loving had felt pure by your side
and although the fantasy of the moment was erased, the
love we gave still lingers in me.
This is why today I choose to let go, let go of the
burden that longing put upon us. And at the same time
I choose to embrace the moments we had,
thank god
for the memories in which you light up my heart, and
gracefully accept lifes decision on breaking us apart.
I
believe
destiny
put
you in my life as a teacher,
and now that I learned hes taking you away for good.
So if someday we meet again I hope it will all have
been for a reason, and that we might be able to find
what we were seeking desperately in the other.
But James. . . if you find your heart you will find mine.

More words. . .
In a relationship sometimes we fall in love with a
persons mind unsure of what lies behind it; so when
things are no longer bright and shiny we have nothing
to hold on to, but a vague and utopic HOPE for CHANGE.
Ive fallen in love with hope, and the shadow it
casted. Ive fallen in love with idealisation, longing
and a promise for change. Ive been hurt by
incongruence and torn apart by indecision. And yet
even after all of my thoughts have been analysed and
murdered by objectiveness, Im still unable to put in
words your hugs, your kisses.. and your smile.

Thank you for your love.


I am forever yours,

Maria