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APRI PRESENTS

:
ANTHOLOGY OF M.E.M.
MODERN EVOLUTION OF MINDS
VOLUME II
THE BEST OF KILER DAVENPORT

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FROM THE AUTHOR
DEDICATION

THIS IS THE SECOND IN A SERIES OF WORKS
THAT I HAVE DONE OVER THE YEARS. I
DEDICATE THIS TO MY MOTHER WHO WAS
THERE FOR ME THROUGH ALL OF THE UPS AND
DOWNS IN MY LIFE. SHE WAS MY INSPIRATION
AND ALWAYS A SOURCE OF CONTINUING
SUPPORT AND ENCOURAGEMENT.

THESE ARE WORKS FROM DEEP WITHIN. THEY
ARE NOT IN ANY REAL ORDER AND NEITHER
AM I. MY LIFE HAS TAKEN MANY TURNS. VERY
FEW WILL GET A CHANCE TO GO WHERE I
HAVE GONE OR DO WHAT I HAVE DONE.

DEATH HAS BEEN MY CONSTANT COMPANION.
I AM LUCKY TO STILL BE AROUND AND
BLESSED TO HAVE GAINED WISDOM AND
INSIGHT.

I HOPE ALL OF YOU ENJOY THE JOURNEY.
Table of Contents
DEAD ALREADY.................................................................................................................................. 3
THINK ABOUT IT..................................................................................................................................3
SNIPPETS BY KILER #1....................................................................................................................... 4
SNIPPETS BY KILER #2....................................................................................................................... 4
KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM.............................................................................................................5
AMONG THE STARS............................................................................................................................ 5
WAY OF EXPRESSION......................................................................................................................... 5

SNIPPETS BY KILER #3....................................................................................................................... 6
SNIPPETS BY KILER #4....................................................................................................................... 6
CAN YOU LOVE ME.............................................................................................................................6
ZONE OF WONDER AND AMAZEMENT.......................................................................................... 7
THE I AM NOT ......................................................................................................................................7
ETERNAL WINDS OF TIME................................................................................................................ 8
CITIZENS OF THE WORLD................................................................................................................. 8
SNIPPETS BY KILER #5..................................................................................................................... 10
SNIPPETS BY KILER #6..................................................................................................................... 11
SNIPPETS BY KILER #7..................................................................................................................... 11
MAGIC MYSTERY MOMENT........................................................................................................... 12
OUTSIDE THE BOX............................................................................................................................12
JUST BE................................................................................................................................................ 13
SNIPPETS BY KILER #8..................................................................................................................... 14
SNIPPETS BY KILER #9..................................................................................................................... 15

THE I AM..............................................................................................................................................15
SNIPPETS BY KILER #10................................................................................................................... 18
SNIPPETS BY KILER #11................................................................................................................... 18
DEPENDENT RISING......................................................................................................................... 19
WHEN DEATH CALLS OUT.............................................................................................................. 20
BITTERSWEET....................................................................................................................................21
CORRUPTION NATION......................................................................................................................24
SUNDAY MORNING BOX..................................................................................................................24
SNIPPETS BY KILER #12................................................................................................................... 25
END OF THE LINE.............................................................................................................................. 25
OVER THE EDGE................................................................................................................................26
MOVING FORWARD.......................................................................................................................... 26
PLEASURES AND FREEDOM........................................................................................................... 27
SNIPPETS BY KILER #13................................................................................................................... 27
SNIPPETS BY KILER #14................................................................................................................... 28
EYES WIDE OPEN.............................................................................................................................. 28
HUMAN COMMUNICATIONS.......................................................................................................... 30
SNIPPETS BY KILER #16................................................................................................................... 34

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #17................................................................................................................... 35
PURE ENERGY....................................................................................................................................35
PLACE OF MYSTERY.........................................................................................................................35
WAITING FOR GOD............................................................................................................................36
GAME OVER .......................................................................................................................................37
SNIPPETS BY KILER #18................................................................................................................... 39
SNIPPETS BY KILER #19................................................................................................................... 39
SNIPPETS BY KILER #20................................................................................................................... 39
SNIPPETS BY KILER #21................................................................................................................... 40
SNIPPETS BY KILER #22................................................................................................................... 40
QUEST.................................................................................................................................................. 40
LIMITED POTENTIAL........................................................................................................................41

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DEAD ALREADY
The silence calls out to me
The depth of the grave beckons me to come and taste its everlasting sweetness
We mourn this death
We cry out to not let it consume us
We run from the thought of it
We are already dead my friends

We died long ago when we allowed ourselves to be ruled by thieves and cheats
We are without a country
We are lost sheep going to the slaughter one by one lined up like animals
We have created these masters of deceit
We have bowed to this machine, and now we are paying the price

We will never see life
We will never experience living free
We are dead already

THINK ABOUT IT
Would it be so
It does not see me or does it
You see me, I see you
They see us, we see them

It does not care or does it
If it had the capability to care
It needs me, us, you know
Doesn't it

How would we know if it goes away when we do?
I mean does the observed rely on the observer

Does one vanish when the other goes away
Do both cease to be gone

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Or never there in the first place

I mean you see this
But you don't see me
I may be long gone
Or never there in the first place

And you, you aren't there yet
And I speak as if you were there
Kind of like calling you into being
See there you are

Suddenly
Bang

Okay you are gone
Now that I think about it

SNIPPETS BY KILER #1
Most of you are living as slaves to the machine, and not being true to
yourselves. Your poor children will follow this example.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #2
Have any of you ever stopped to think how this prayer factory might work
if it was real. Are little men sitting around up there in Heaven going,
“Okay. Now let me see. We will give her that one, and him this one, and
them that one. Oh. Let me see. There is one over there.”

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KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM
Human knowledge and even wisdom is of little importance when you can
look at the big picture. Most cannot see the forest for the trees. Many ae
caught up in the material world blinded by the senses, trapped in time and
space. Confined by dogma, religion, myths and magic unable to escape into
nothingness that sweet place where all must go. The beginning to the end.
A silly mortal plea to live forever in itself insane. A never-ending argument
of fools this eternal quest. This though of immortality. Can't we just learn
to be? To reach out to grasp hands. To hold each other tightly, and
proclaim our need for interdependence, balance and unity. Let us not
argue the impossible. Let us not debate the eternal. Let us just learn to be
happy in the present moment.

AMONG THE STARS
They are many, those who have not yet gained the wisdom they needed to
navigate this place in time, this moment, this process. We must stand
firm in the belief that we share a common bond and mission. Together we
are strong. Our light must shine. Our wisdom abounds. Our
understanding that we are but a second here. Our true place is among the
stars that shine eternally bright, and soon we shall return to that place
from where we came.

WAY OF EXPRESSION
Everyone has their own way of expression, and each has reason to be this
way. The key to gleaning wisdom from all, even though we do not
understand the ways in which they act, is to just listen and ponder. Never
be afraid of the other unless of course they are violent or physically
abusive. You learn about the world much more by hanging around with

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folks who are much smarter than yourself, and who have experiences that
are amazing and crazy. You will never grow or expand your view of the
world if you play the same game and look for those just like yourself.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #3
We must look outside yourself. When we look in the reflection we only
see an illusion. There is no I in us. There us in them. We are one in the
same. We must learn to see both sides of the coin at the same time.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #4
Take your mind off the messenger, and listen to the message. Oh, what
a difference it makes. Try it some time.

CAN YOU LOVE ME
Can you love me for what I do or do not do? Can you love me in all my
dirty shit? Can you love me when we are so damn different? Can you love
my hurt, pain and suffering? Can you love me even when I am nothing like
you? Can you love me just the way I am? If not, it is not love at all. I love
you no matter how crazy you are, and no matter what you do or how crazy
you seem to be. I love you just where you are.

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ZONE OF WONDER AND AMAZEMENT
We are what we have been looking for. We are the inside of the inside. We
have not been given the ability to really see ourselves for what we really
are.

However, that could change soon. We must open the third eye, and silence
ourselves. Our senses will not allow us to go where it is we would like to
go. The senses keep you grounded and this is not completely a good thing.

There is a realm that exists and it is possible to go there, but you must
move away from conventional thinking and just enjoy the ride. You must
stop reacting to the external world as if it had something to do with you
directly. You must realize that billions have come before you, and trillions
will come after. Stop believing yourself to be so important and special.

You do not even show up on the radar. You must stop trying to pin down,
and define everything and just let it be as it is. Yes, you can move it this
way or that, and yes you have a say so in the way things go. But be easy
and calm, and discerning. Stop rushing for the finish line to show everyone
how smart you are. Just be in the zone of wonder and amazement.

THE I AM NOT
We are all sitting in our little comfort zones so quiet, so pretty, so calm, so
cool. We are not dodging the bullets. We are not running with dead babies
on our back to find a place of safety. We are not starving for a warm piece
of bread. We are not homeless for we have a roof over our head. The rebels
are not coming. We know not their name. We are in the United States of
America. We continue to play this foolish game. There is no way that we
could know the suffering in this world. There is no way that we could feel
the true pain that exists just within our reach in this digital world. If we
are in our little comfortable beds we feel so safe, so secure, so healthy, so
sure.

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Is it all about perception? Is this a hologram? Is this some farfetched idea
of the I AM? Where do we go? What do we do to understand this 'you are
me' and 'I am you'? How many more days will we stumble and fall until we
realize this matrix was designed for us all.

ETERNAL WINDS OF TIME
We live, we love, we cry, we suffer and we learn. We blame and except
responsibility. We point the finger at others with three pointing back at us.
We search for answers only to find more unanswerable questions and we
die. We try and make believe that we have answers when we know nothing
at all. We fumble around in the darkness of this void pretending that we are
somehow special when in fact were nothing but specks of dust blowing in
the eternal winds of time.

CITIZENS OF THE WORLD
I am citizen of the world. Using the technology at my disposal and the
resources at hand. We will set out on a journey that will last a lifetime. We
freely choose to pull up stakes and travel the United States in search of
those who are making a powerful and positive difference in the lives of
many. Those grassroots organizations like ours who do what they do
because they can because they must. It is built in them to push the limits,
tip the scales, rock the boat, shake up the status quo, to go where most will
not go, and do what most will not do. There is no good explanation for why
we do what we do.

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We have learned to overcome fear and disappointment. We have learned to
just keep on keeping on.

I am a student in this world, an observer. I know how to listen and learn. I
do what I do, because I am good at it. It is in my blood. This internet public
radio network is my life, my very breath. Many of you have asked, “What do
I get out of this? What’s the catch?” I guess you could say we are thrill
seekers, unconventional creative thinkers. We work best on a deadline and
in tight and sometimes dangerous situations.

It’s just who we are. It is what it is. As a matter of fact, if not for people like
us. There would be no life at all. We fight to keep the scales balanced, to
keep free speech free, to limit big government, to instill hope where there is
little, to educate, to inform, to uplift, to search for that elusive and
constantly moving truth, to protect those in harm’s way.

We are always here watching, listening, thinking, overseeing, developing.
We will not stop doing what we do. The powers that be would like for us to
go away. They would kill us if they could. They watch us. They monitor us.
They follow us. We do not fit any mold. We do not follow any trend. We do
not bow to any denomination or religion. Yet we stand strong and fight for
the rights of all these to exist and be free.

Please help us grow. We are the watchers. The ones in the shadows. We
have the skills, traits, weapons, and experience to slay the corporate
dragons. We are not afraid of the machine that seeks to control us all.

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We will not back down. We will not surrender. We believe that America is
asleep. Lulled into believing the lies of a mad, crazed, corporate giant. A

government that has forgotten the people that keep it afloat. Right is right
and wrong is wrong. Crime is crime no matter how you package it up or
what kind of pretty paper you wrap it in.

We ask all of you to stand with us. We work for you behind the scenes. We
know the enemy. We see the future. We are the watchers. We are
Alternative Public Radio International.

We are everywhere. We circle the globe. We are implanted in every institution
in the world.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #5
The US is drowning in a river of shit as most of you sit back completely
clueless as to what all of this means to the future of these children. As deep
as we have allowed this ship to sink I do not believe that we can recover and
this is very sad. We have done too little, too late and the roof is caving in on
our heads.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #6
TAKE YOUR MIND OFF THE MESSENGER AND LISTEN TO THE MESSAGE.
OH, WHAT A DIFFERENCE IT MAKES. TRY IT SOME TIME.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #7
WHEN YOU GIVE YOUR ALL, YOU HAVE GIVEN NOTHING
WHEN YOU FEEL LIKE GOING TO BED
YOU NEED TO GET UP
WHEN YOU THINK, YOU HAVE WON YOU HAVE JUST BEGUN
WHEN YOU THINK, YOU ARE SMART YOU NEED TO SIT DOWN AND
SHUT UP
WHEN YOUR MOUTH IS RUNNING YOUR
BRAIN IS ON HOLD
WHEN YOU ARE ON TOP OF THE WORLD
LOOK TO SEE WHOSE SHOULDER YOU ARE
STANDING ON
WHEN YOU SAY, MONEY IS THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL
IT IS JUST BECAUSE YOU DON’T HAVE ANY
WHEN YOU ARE QUICK TO JUDGE AND
FAST TO ANGER
IT MEANS YOU WILL BE THE FIRST TO FALL

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MAGIC MYSTERY MOMENT
I dreamed of a multiverse and there we put our pants on upside down.
Our fingers were on our back. Little kids hung from trees. Ice cream fell
from the sky. All the birds were one and the same. Time stood still yet a
trillion years passed by as I took a puff from the stick that held the snake
in my ear. My body had to turn inside out to get into this place and the
ground was way over the top of my head. Jell-O was hello and dogs were
mojo. I played the cello in the wello. I spoke a word that did not become
me nor did it come from me. What of this magic mystery moment?

OUTSIDE THE BOX
People need to realize that we are all very new at thinking for ourselves
and we are not doing a good job of it. Just a few seconds ago, it would
have been beyond strange for one to try and think outside of the box.
All this independence started in the 16th century and has come this far
as it is today. As you can see we are all mixed up and turning
everything upside down. The whole world is still in first grade as far as
being able to stand on the solid ground of independent thought. The
age of reason is not so easy when you have so many people free to
think and believe on their own. For the first time, we are just now
finding out what it is like to stand alone in this mass void.

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JUST BE
This god. This thing. This odyssey. This bewildering, long lasting dream.
Contemplation will not bring clarification. I ponder. I seek. I stand in
awe.

My young life was wanting. My midyears confusing. And now I am back
at the starting place. I know nothing. I am nothing. I seek nothing.

What is the we, the you, the I, them and us? Are we not all together in this
matrix? Are we somehow divided and special? Do we not seek the same
things, the same love, caring, understanding and security? What is it that
makes us think we are so different?

We pass gas. We excrete the waste. We salivate, sweat, vomit, fall, slander
and gravitate towards those dark moments. We are all susceptible to what
might be called evil. Yet isn't this just an illusion. A trick of the senses. An
evolutionary diversion.

What is evolution? What is creation, existence, consciousness, love, the
collective, the community, the all in all in us?

I seek to explore, implore, draw out, beg the question of this matrix. What
is it? How could it possibly be? Where could it possibly be?

We know not where we are. We know not of the place from whence we
came and we know not where we might go as we take that last and final
breath. So, let us rejoice in this moment of ecstasy. This orgasm of the

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senses. This realization of some delusion of reality. This ecstatic moment
we call existence, consciousness, reality, the I AM, the me, the self. Look
at me, me, me.

Dissolve yourself into this paradigm. This dark and empty void. These
particles dancing in this orgy of exultation and primordial soup. Seek to
become. Seek to know that you do not know. Be naked. Walk on this bare
ground with your bare feet. Extend your arms into this vast unknowable
void and just be. Just be. Just be.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #8
look ya’ll most of these filthy rich folks know how to keep getting richer
and there is really nothing wrong with that you could be them but you are
not you may even think like them if put in their shoes so always try and
see things from their point of view as hard as it hurts this will give you
wisdom and insight

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #9
IT’S NOT ALWAYS THE RIGHT WAY THAT MOVES US
IT’S JUST TRYING TO GET IT RIGHT THAT KEEPS ON THE
RIGHT PATH

THE I AM
Pure thought without intention
I cease to define

Beginning, ending, present - all one in the same
The I AM is the ALL
The ALL the I AM

Reaching for nothing
Striving for nothing

Nothing to go into

Nothing to go away from

The inside of the inside
Where darkness is light and light is void
Slowly melting away into the deep dark abyss

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I become one with all things
My body scattered into a million pieces
Dancing with the immortals

Laughing with the gods
Conjoined, interwoven, complete
Looking back, I can see the I all bound up

This road, that road
This place, that place
Them, us
Over there, over here

Why did I not come to this place sooner

It was within my grasp
I had to let go of free will
The idea of choice
These things limit the unlimited

This blinding and binding thing we call self
Is nothing but an illusion
A trick of the senses
A vain imagining

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We did not come from or out of
We will not go into this place or that
We are simply the I AM
Every one of us, one and the same

One must let go of the concept of time
Turn away from symbols, perceptions, concepts, ideas, emotions
One must become all those things at once

Devour the senses

Overcome this need to know, to invent, to conquer
To consume, develop, design and divulge

Take them all at your leisure
They are the simple tricks of this trade
We call life, existence, consciousness and reality

You have passed this way throughout eternity
And you will again

Go and be at peace
Do ask the gods to reveal themselves
Do not tempt the masters
They cannot and will not submit to discovery

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Go and just be
Remember it is what it is

The I AM

SNIPPETS BY KILER #10
SEE MOST OF YOU ARE AFRAID TO ROCK

THE ILLUSIVE BOAT

YOU ARE AFRAID TO SHAKE FOLKS OUT OF THE
WONDERLAND THEY LIVE IN

THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET THE

ATTENTION OF PEOPLE

SNIPPETS BY KILER #11
Existence breeds competition from the molecular to the universal. The
big ones will always be eating the little ones. The strong will devour
the weak. The wise will rule against the ignorant. The rich will
overshadow the poor.

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This is called doing unto others before they do unto you, and it is what
most people do best whether they admit it or not. It is very
unfortunate I think that we have evolved into such a dog eat dog
world.

DEPENDENT RISING
I see you there and through pre-supposition alone have everything and
pretty much already figured out. However, you see me and surmise that I
am not an I at all, but manifested from something called ‘dependent
rising’.

The two of us, what a pair. I come from such and such a place, and did so
and so with you know who and so on. You on the other hand do not come
from anywhere, have not done such and such, and seem just to exist.

You will not even admit being human, but I like you anyways. There I go
with that ‘I’ thing again. I, I, I; me, me, me. What can happen to make me
more like, well you know, you.

When you come around and teach me all that I thought I knew flies out
the window. It all makes perfect sense. We are everything and everything
is us. WOW. What a concept.

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WHEN DEATH CALLS OUT
WHO WILL BE THERE TO SAVE YOU WHEN DEATH CALLS OUT
YOUR NAME
WHO WILL GO INTO THAT PLACE WITH YOU

YEA, YOU WILL TRANSVERSE THAT LONG DARK TUNNEL
ALONE
AT THE OTHER END YOUR REWARD AWAITS YOU
OH YES, YOU MUST PAY

WE ALL MUST PAY

ENJOY WHILE YOU CAN
TAKE IT ALL IN
GET ALL YOU CAN GET, BECAUSE SOON,
VERY SOON THE PIT WILL CRY OUT

SHE ACHES FOR YOU AND ALL THOSE ROBBED, TORTURED,
MUTILATED AND MURDERED FOR POWER AND PRIVILEGE

TO THE LEAST OF THOSE YOU TURNED YOUR BACK
THOSE LOST, THOSE LONELY

WITH ONE COMMAND, YOU SENT OUR MEN AND WOMEN TO
CERTAIN DEATH

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KNOWING THEY WOULD PERISH
WOE UNTO YOU

IT WOULD BE BETTER THAT YOU PLACE A LARGE ROCK
AROUND YOUR NECK AND FALL INTO THE SEA

THE CLOCK IS TICKING
CAN YOU HEAR IT
TICK-TICK-TICK, LISTEN, HEAR IT

I BOW IN SILENCE
HEED MY WORDS

BITTERSWEET
That we should love one another and forgive one another and comfort
each other; these words are sweet upon my lips. But when I look out at
the world the sweetness becomes sour and the reality harsh. I know that
God is good and I know that he cares about each one of us. Why would
God create us or allow us to be and then control us completely? What
sense would that make? We are agents with free will. It is completely up
to us what we do with this opportunity we have been given.

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God is simple, sure, and eternal. Look at the simplicity of nature, the
balance, the harmony, the unity. What a blessing and a joy it is to be a
part of this wonderful experience. One cannot express with words this
moment.

Mankind’s ability to think, reason, and ponder has been both a blessing
and a curse. Sometimes for me it seems better if I would have been a
cat, cow, or bug.

Human beings seem to have lost their way if they ever had one at all.
Most refuse to be content and satisfied with the basics – food, clothing,
shelter, safety, and security. Furthermore, we all seem to be on a self-
destruct mission in one way or another. We eat too much, smoke too
much, drink too much, and much more. We are violent, hateful,
disobedient, seemingly never satisfied. Our divide and conquer nation
is destroying us and everything around us. I am too tired of it all.

As I look out into the world I feel lost and alone. Many millions feel this
way. Many take their own life because of it. It’s as if I woke up out of a
dream only to find myself in another dream. I know what is possible but
will it or can it ever be.

If you were honest you would see that human beings really don’t like
each other let alone love one another unconditionally. Most will not
admit that they are terrified of this world. Sickness, pain, sorrow, and
death await us; the thought of heaven or hell or just being tossed out

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into this void somewhere. Some of you seem so sure in your thinking, so
firm in your understanding. This is all foolishness.

The only thing I know for sure is that I know nothing and that God
knows everything that is why I must trust in God for everything. We get
ourselves in trouble when we leave God out of the equation. When we
pretend to know the answer, we divide ourselves into a million pieces.
We cut off any chance to heal our wounds.

We did not come from ourselves. We did not create ourselves. How can
we be so puffed up and sure of ourselves? This is foolishness. The
million words of the prophets would sustain as if we would only listen.
Most have taken matters into their own hands blinded by the self,
distracted, and drowning in the material world.

I have personally sat with those who were dying and watched their face
and their eyes as they passed. It was if they saw the face of God. It was as
if he was waiting for them on the other side. This made me less afraid to
die because I saw the light of eternity at that moment when they took the
last breath. I have also heard men cry out for God as they died. I have
heard men scream for forgiveness for all the dirty deeds they had done
upon this earth. Without God, we are nothing. Without God, we will
perish into nothing.

All that I know is from living we must all pass from life into death. We
can only hope that God will be there waiting for us and know that we did
all that we could to hold onto these truths while still alive and able to

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love, forgive, comfort, reach out, give and fellowship. All your foolishness
will be worth nothing now of death. Your money will not save you. Your
power will be worthless; your status null and void.

One never knows when that last moment will come but I can assure you
it will and my hope is that you will not go out screaming.

CORRUPTION NATION
Granted we are the most corrupt nation on the planet, but we are also
living in the matrix where anything goes if you have the money and
power to get your way. If you want your way you must gain the wisdom
to gain the money, and the power to win your argument and even then, it
can be almost impossible.

SUNDAY MORNING BOX
I cannot for the life of me put God in a little Sunday morning box. I
cannot even believe that we could know this God of the universe, and all
the possible universes. It is foolish to think that humans could have
figured any of these mysteries out in such a short span of time and space.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #12

We live inside the illusion of time and space where thoughts become
things and things bring forth thoughts, concepts, ideas, formulations and
computations. The unexplained is where we come from. The unknowable
is who we are.

END OF THE LINE
We are at the end of the line as far as recovering from the damages that
have been done and are being done now around the world. We will not
find ourselves in a better position and we will not leave the children with
any hope for recovery. We will leave them with a dying and suffering
people. This is clear to anyone who is alert and wake to this new world
order. All we can do now is buckle in and enjoy the ride to hell on earth.

The kids must be taught what they are facing and the dangers all around
them. They must be given training and education as to how it all got this
way and who is responsible. They must be told the hard-core truth. We
let all of this happen and we still are.

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OVER THE EDGE
My words cut through the bullshit and pull the enslaved from the bonds
that have tied them for so long. I will push you over the edge and then
some. If we stay where we are then we shall get what we are getting.
Everyone must try and break free of what they know and believe. You
know you are enslaved when you react the same way to the same
stimulus. You know you trapped when you take everything personally as
if it revolved around you and yours. The masters will pull your head off
and chunk it in the trash. They will hit you with an ugly stick. If you are
worthy, they just might keep you around for a while.

MOVING FORWARD
All of science, all of history, and all that is cannot be fully explained. Our
ability to observe, process and comprehend is limited to say the least.
We are but paint splattered onto a cloth of unknown etiology and left to
dry in this eternal sun.

To say that we know something is to say nothing. To say oh but we were
there is lame. For one to say we are becoming is right and of sound
accord. To say I am a small part of many and limited in my views and
perception is prudent. We must always ask "how did we come to know",
and where did they come to know and believe and then and only then
can we move forward.

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PLEASURES AND FREEDOM
Our passions flow in all directions and we seek pleasures and freedom to
pursue these things. We must always stop and think as to where these
feelings come from and how will they help us. Leadership is a must but it
must be strong leadership and the kind that seeks good for all the people
and just not a select few at the top of the heap. People today are lost in
this complex matrix. We have been given the wonderful opportunity to
be free people but we have lost our ability to think for ourselves. We have
turned off all the power over to the wolves and now will pay the price.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #13
THE CHOICES WE MAKE EVERYDAY DETERMINE OUR DESTINY,
AND OUR FUTURE. THE PEOPLE WE ASSOCIATE WITH
DETERMINE THE QUALITY OF OUR RELATIONSHIPS.

OUR SKILL AND ABILITY TO COMMUNICATE IS DEPENDENT ON
HOW WE THINK AND PROCESS INFORMATION IN OUR BRAINS.
OUR CHOICES ARE BASED ON OUR INTERPRETATION OF OUR
ENVIRONMENT.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #14
how is it that we have lost our love for one another? is it because this
so-called government has come in to fill the void of community.

EYES WIDE OPEN
What if Jesus returned today? What would he say about the condition
of most churches in our community? Are we unified? Are we
coordinated? Are we on track? Are we doing the work the Lord wants
us to do?

If you were asked to define the word ‘church’ what would your
definition be. A body, a group, a movement, an idea, a culture, a
mission or an objective. My definition is all the above and more. I can
better define what a church isn’t than what is. Church is not infighting,
gossip among members and visitors, title grabbing, the ‘look what I
did’ syndrome, slander, ‘holier than thou’ attitude. It is not ‘I founded
this and I founded that’. It is not perfect attendance or overwhelming
participation in programs and activities.

Church should be a smooth-running clock. A fine-tuned instrument. A
drum that never misses a beat. A finely coordinated symphony. It
should have infinite capacity for compassion, understanding, and
forgiveness.

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It should never run out of energy, because it is burning at its core.
Each vessel within the system should burn with desire to give
testimony to what God is doing and what he will continue to do in the
lives of all who put their trust in him.

We as a people must continually reassess our relationship with God.
We all fall way short of being that perfect instrument. We find God in
our pain, our suffering, and the roller coaster ride of the flesh. God has
not and will not turn his back on us. He will not forsake us in our time
of need. He will deliver us from evil.

He will save us from the snare of the evil one. God’s power is always
available. His mercy is overflowing. His capacity to love us in our flesh
is endless.

The major problem in church today is we are all trying to outdo each
other. We are like little kids trying to win the teacher’s respect. We are
like boy scouts working for a merit badge. We are in a competition
with each other instead of unity. Church has become a part of the
worldly machine. It has become capital driven. It is all about the
money ‘show me the money’. It is called organized religion.

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HUMAN COMMUNICATIONS

I would like to talk for a moment about human intelligence and human
communications. Do we have to be intelligent to communicate? The
answer is ‘NO’. Everyone and everything communicates something to
someone or something somehow at some time. Basic one cell animals
communicate, birds communicate, and horses communicate.

In other words, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
Something that happens here, and affects something over there.
Someone says something and someone else reacts to it. What does all
this mean? It means that the world is alive and constantly changing. How
we communicate is important as well as when, to whom, and why.

Most people do not understand the importance and power of
communication. They just make noise in hopes that someone will
understand them.

Most people do not understand the complex variables of communication.
Again, they just open their mouths and hope that whatever comes out will
somehow make a difference. To be a good communicator one must do
basic studies in the communication process.

You have the idea, thought or concept that resides in the brain of the one
transmitting the information. This would be called the transmitter. Then
you have the one receiving the thought, idea or concept. This person
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transmit the thought, idea or concept the transmitter must have some
idea or how they want the message to come across; and, remember that in
the process of trying to get the idea across to the receiver there may be
some environmental interference or noise as it is sometimes called.

This can come in the form of a nagging wife, a drunk husband, a barking
dog, a loud radio, etc. Once we have the idea clear in our head, and our
ready to transmit to the receiver we must make sure that the receiver is
ready to receive the message in the way that we sent it. The way the
receiver receives the message will depend on many factors.

Remember the meaning of the message sent by the transmitter is in or
will be in the receiver not the one transmitting the message. Received
messages shape and create the world good, bad or indifferent depending
on the current state or ability of the receiver. The message sent to the
receiver must first be encoded, and then decoded by the brain before it
can be given any meaning.

This can be a monumental task. Especially, if the brain receiving the
message is not in proper working order. All kinds of things can go wrong
between the intended message and the one receiving it. Most people don’t
even have a clue as to the importance of what I just said, and this is the
problem with humanity. You see even if you speak the same language of
the receiver he or she may not have a clue as to the intended message.

Now think about how complex it is for three, four or even five people to
communicate with each other. They can’t. At least not on any superior
level. It all ends up being mostly mumbo jumbo. Especially, when the

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players do not have any clear-cut goals and objectives for the encounter.

So much time is wasted talking. Talking is not and never will be
communication. At least in the strictest sense of the word.

You know people that just talk to hear themselves rattle. They want to
impress you rather than express to you. They just run on and on without
ever checking to see if you are interested in what they must say. They
world is full of these empty headed, mindless numbskulls. It takes all
kinds of people to make a world. Does it make you angry that I said that?

Is it because you are one of them? Is it because you are representing or
advocating for them? Maybe your wife or husband is that way.

The real reason I said that was to get you to feel firsthand what it is like
to transmit a message that is going to hit a dead-end road at the other
end. I hope you have learned something. If you want your message to be
received the way you intended it to make sure you tailor it to fit the

receiver’s level of understanding or you will get nowhere, and the real
meaning of the message will be lost in the storm of dysfunction.

It doesn’t take long to size people up after speaking with them for only a
few minutes if you know what you are doing. The FBI does this all the
time. They are experts at reading people’s neurolinguistics programming
cues. We all have different ways of showing who we are by the way we
live and move in our environment. The way we dress. The way we sit.
The way we talk. The words we use. The position of our bodies. The
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arrange things in our environment. It is all there for the trained eye to
see.

It is like reading an open book if you know what to look for, and how to
interpret it. Most people don’t take communication this serious, and that
is very unfortunate and dangerous.

Remember those who do the same old thing in the same old way, and get
the same old results. It can’t be any other way. You are what you
communicate. You communicate your experience or lack of it. The fruits
are only as good as the soil they are planted.

If you wanted to take this science to the extreme level you would not only
be able to read people, but communities, towns, cities, states, and even
governments. When you really think about it. It sound crazy, but it is
true.

As a matter of fact, it is already being done. It is called psycho-
demographic stratification and it happens to you all the time. Every time
you buy groceries, swipe a credit card, hit a keystroke on your computer
or fill out one of those free give-away-forms or sign up for anything. Yes,
you are being studied all the time. You cannot and will not escape it. So,
why not fight back by learning to communicate effectively.

The only way you can avoid being a victim is to fight fire with fire. Go
out and get basic books on human communication. Learn to listen
more. Take your environment serious. See it as a battleground and your

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mouth as an ultimate weapon. Concentrate on form and style. Take in
the total picture. Absorb everything within your sensory range and even
beyond. Take your time when communicating. Be aware of yourself and
the full range of experiences within your space. Don’t be so quick to ask
the question or give the answer. Don’t play all your cards at one time.
Never talk just to hear yourself rattle, and learn when to shut up and let
another person talk or communicate. I should say.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #15
Why do so many of you get mad when I say that religion is poison? Why
do you get so upset when I say that we as a people do not know anything
about God or any gods? Why are you bothered when I say there is no
Hell or Heaven? You are so damn indoctrinated and programmed it
stinks. Grow up folks and get a real life.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #16
We need to all get along so much better here to win this war. We all
need to stand our ground, and not let this new world order win this
game. That is what is to them. We must try and come together, and we
must learn to work together.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #17
There are so many things in my mind. So many ideas coming through
my head. It’s overwhelming to me at times. I cannot seem to get it
under control. I am a thinking machine.

PURE ENERGY
You are pure energy and empty space. Stop being brain enslaved. Return
to the place from where you care and dwell there. Break loose from this
illusive self and see this wonderful space and place where peace lives. Do
not be moved by others who still live and act in the lower worlds. Love
them but do not be moved by them for this is an easy trap to get caught
in.

PLACE OF MYSTERY
We live in a place of complete mystery and we know not who we are or
why. Many of you have been indoctrinated to follow the current culture
and trends. You have been fooled by your senses and programmed by this

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new world order who is beyond clever when it comes to mind control. It is
not hard to see that this is a planned attack on the people of the US and
abroad. Special interest groups are in control of this congress and the rule
of the central banks. The people have given the power over to these
mobsters.

Law enforcement are being trained to react to citizens as if they were all
dangerous criminals. The state has become the controlling agent of the
federal boys and will in most cases bow to them in time of crisis.

It is way too late to turn this situation around and we are just now getting
into the most dangerous part of all of this. The American people are so
damn clueless and unaware of the reality and magnitude of this that the
game is over and all that is left is to destroy the masses and clean up the
mess.

WAITING FOR GOD
Everyone is searching for the answers and many are waiting for God to
come and save them. Others are at peace with themselves and nature. It is
normal for humans to consider the sky and wonder what is out there. And
it is alright to look inside to see if the answers might be there. The hard-
cold fact is that we do not know any of these things.

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We speculate and we make up stories to fit the current ways of thinking
and doing but in these things, we still come up empty. We are so much the
same yet so divided. We are all born into this world and we die yet we still
cannot come together on the real pressing issues of the day.

Most people have a very limited capacity when it comes to dealing with
reality as it is. We are big on the blame game and we love to point fingers
at everyone but ourselves. We have all that we need to live and be safe,
sound and secure. Yet we are destroying ourselves and the future of our
children and their children.

You asked is there any hope for recovery and I say what does that mean.
What does it look like and feel like and who will be responsible for its
coming and when? Are we not able to come together and solve these
problems? Will we not realize that it is up to us and us alone to fix what is
broken or do we continue to look out there for the answers?

GAME OVER
What we have here is a case of the smart verses the not so smart; the
powerful and rich against the not so powerful and not so rich – the haves
and the have nothings. In most cases the rich and powerful always win
this game and it is a game.

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At a very precise point in the money game the rich learn how easy it is to
control the poor and how easy they are to con. The rich and powerful have
been playing this game long enough to know the rules. As a matter of fact,
they made up the rules and are making up more rules by the minute.

98% of you are completely under the spell and control of this machine.
You are a slave and a servant of the rich. If you do not bow to them of your
own free will they will force you to bow wit rules, laws, policies and
procedures. You sign their contracts, buy their products, live in their
houses, put money in their backs and send your kids to their schools. Most
of you are clueless to even know you are clueless and this is a problem.
You are like mice on a sinking ship, little chicks going down the belt to the
grinder; the blind leading the blind. Yes, the rich keep you amused and out
of the way. They know you inside out.

The U.S. is doomed to self-destruct and of course we are all completely
responsible for this. Can we turn it around? The answer is hell no. Will we
turn it around? The answer is a resounding hell to the no. This game is
rigged for the house to win and believe me they are winning.

Just keep your head up your ass and continue to do the same old things
you are doing now and soon, very soon the game will be over.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #18
Reprogramming your brain can be a daunting task. It requires much
practice and passion.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #19
Why do you think the sages are always smiling? Because they are
thinking to themselves, “OMG, look at all these idiots.”

SNIPPETS BY KILER #20
Everything that is outside of us at this very moment is exactly what
was inside of us just a moment ago, and so, it shall be forever and
ever.

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SNIPPETS BY KILER #21
Much wisdom is not found in words any more than the soul can be bound
up in this world.

SNIPPETS BY KILER #22
One must face their guilt head on, and invite it to come
on in. One must confront the monsters within. You
cannot escape yourself. You cannot undo what has been
done.

QUEST
My quest is not to be but to become
My goal is not to exist but to excel
My objective is not to win but to conquer
I will turn obstacles into opportunities
I do not fear the future or find pity in the past
I will not brag, boast, or puff up my accomplishments

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I will live in the moment and the best of every breath I take
The word “can’t” will turn into “how”
The word “if” will turn into “when”
When they say it is too far, too long, too deep,

too hard, too high I will overcome and I will persevere
When I have given my all
When I have done all that I can do
When they say we are finished
I will know the journey has just begun
My quest

LIMITED POTENTIAL
Your potential is only limited by your definition of reality.
Self-control comes when you give up the need to control others.
Live in the moment.
Quiet your mind.
The world can do without your analysis.

Open your heart and your mind to the universe.
It speaks to you with a still small voice.

You are becoming.
Everyone around you is becoming.

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Nothing is everything and everything is nothing.

You hold the keys to countless futures.
Let the past be forgiven.
Live in the fullness of the present.

Tone down, tune up, harmonize, balance, be quiet, synchronize, rest in the moment.
Don’t be fooled by the illusion of life.

Your life is but a whisper in a time forgotten.
A precious moment.
A priceless treasure.

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