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Part 1

Born with an incurable decease

On 18 October 1958 I was born as the eldest


of five, with an incurable decease and this was
a great suffering for the heart and the soul of
my mom. Common people will know it as
Bleeder, but is also known as Hemophiliac.
Very typical for this decease is the
spontaneous character of bleedings because of
the low percentage of stilling of the Blood. My
blood has a stilling percentage, of one percent;
normal is 100%. So from the time of my birth I
had to take care and to watch over it not to cut
myself or to bump against objects!

As the eldest of five children I am the only one until


today who has a living relationship with Jesus Christ
as His Savior and Lord. My father was a Jehovah
Witness and has not found to Jesus Christ until this
day. My mother had a religious background of
Catholicism but and I was sprinkled as a baby to be a
protestant Christian. And as far I can remember only
ones a year the Bible was opened up, and that was,
how could it be else, at the Christmas days. We
actually went never ever to any church!

In the first few years of my young baby


live, I regularly have been very close near
death. At the age of 8 (I still lived) my father
and mother brought me in something like a
home shelter for disabled children; although
I was not really disabled at all, but because
of the PROBLEMS, which brought my
sickness with it, they saw no better way as
bringing me away from home. This is, as you
can understand one of the darkest ours of my
live. I had to live there for a period of 5
years; from 8 till the age of 13.
Children’s Garden -In the Left Top corner - That’s me!
It was there were I heard once a short story out of the Word of God of the Fisherman in the ship in
the Storm. It grasped my young heart so greatly that I have never ever forgotten it! It was only once
that I was in that strange meeting and the Director of that house for disabled children, never ever
allowed me again to go that Pentecostal church, because it was far away from that house. It was
actually a day in my live that I wanted to run away from that house.

In this time of 5 years my heart grew more and more into rebellion because I saw my parents
hardly ever and they didn’t allow me to go that church, I had to go to a death Catholic service.

It was in that time of five years, that I received some dreams from God and it made me very
conscious about it that there is a God. And even as a young child my heart was longing for God and
when they had again put me in the closet, sitting in the dark – my tears flowed an ran over my face
and my heart screamed it out for pain and my soul was yearning for God. Five years of hell and pain
went over and in the age of 13 my parents took me back home again! All the official instances were
against it, but my parents pulled it through.

End of part 1 –

Part 2
Finely coming back home!

On the age of 13, I finely come home; and for the


first time of my live I got a Bedroom for my own. It
was a huge difference with sleeping in a great hall
with 14 beds, and having a little bed closet of my
own. I finely had some privacy, because I had not
had very much privacy in those 5 years. As the
years passed by My God consciousness sunk
somewhat away. Shortly after that I finely had
come back home we went to a place very far away
to visit some doctors who were specialists in
treading my disease. But it was only one year later
on the age of 14 that I again had to go to a school
for disabled teenagers; it was a tragedy for my
heart and soul and again one of the darkest black pages in my live! My
whole live started to be a pattern of rebellion and aggression and they
could not hold me very long there. But it still were two years were in I had
to see things and to go through things, I am ashamed of to even tell them.
At the age of 16 I finely went, for the first time of my live to a normal school, a technical school
specialized also in Graphic and Design. These were a few years in which I had great pleasure and
fun to be at school and to learn, and I was GOOD, in that what I did. It was even light for me to learn
the skills I wanted to learn.

But there came a young woman in my live and I thought that I loved her but I learned over the years
that it was only her body I really longed for. This brought me at the third year, of the four I had to
learn, in great sorrows of heart and soul. She came to me asking for alimentation for a baby she had
born, which supposed to be of me. The change was very small because of the diverse partners she
had in that time that I went with her, but not impossible.
By the end of the fourth year I had come in such a deep depressive darkness that I wanted to commit
suicide. At a certain evening, above in my room I made up my mind to drown myself and to jump in
the Canal, which was only 3.5 Miles away from the place were I lived. I had come to an end and I
saw no way out anymore! I stood up from my bed and than “suddenly” my God conscious was there
again after such a long time! I opened up the Window, looked to the stars in the dark night with tears
in my eyes and with a cry in my heart: “Please HELP ME GOD.” I wanted to scream it out aloud out
of the window into the dark summer night, but I couldn’t! So I was yearning in my heart HELP! I fell
down upon my bed, which stood below the window, and I wept bitter tears of pain and hurt, with the
cry in my heart where are you God? When you are there help me please? Still weeping, I fell into a
deep sleep!

As I woke up the next morning, I couldn’t believe my heart, because what I felt in my heart was a
deep peace and a great joy and a happiness I hadn’t had for many years, no I never had had this kind
of peace and joy into my heart, in my whole live I have never had that. I could see the sun rise again
and I even had great joy to be alive! God had answered the cry of my heart! I could not even imagine
that the day before I was planning to kill myself. But I still was not a Christian and I kept on living
my live as that I thought that was good. But one thing I was cured of and that was woman. I didn’t
want to have any woman anymore.
Raymond and me.

At the age of 23 – still no woman in my live – this same


girlfriend contacted me again because she wanted to know
how my live was and if I still was single. She phoned and
every time as she phoned I knew it was her and I didn’t pick
up the phone, but my mother did and I had instructed her to
tell her that she should leave me alone. O how I enormously,
well I just still was hooked to that woman. I was so deeply
bound to hear that after a couple of weeks of telephonic
pressure I gave in and made an appointment with her, to
meet somewhere and to drink a coffee with her.

Yes, it was at that moment that I met my son; (Raymond, the


young boy on the picture) and although it could have been of
so many other man, within me there was a voice who knew
that it was my son. So the first time we met again, we met in
the city in a coffee shop. But now it comes! She asked me
after two or three times that we met, to come to a kind of a church meeting, (Pentecostal – Bethel-
fellowship meeting) that was in 1981.

The first time I went there I had no idea what would come on my way, so I searched for that place,
heard a lot of noise and I thought. “Well it can not be here.” But it was there at that noisy place were
she wanted me to meet her. So the next week came and we would meet than each other over there.
And the next time I was there were she wanted to meet me, in that little church, which was not even
bigger as a small room, with lets say 20 people who gathered there. I took my place some were in the
front row, because she was also sitting in the front row, sitting besides her, listening to the strange
Music having only eyes for her. I can not remember to have heard anything of the preaching of the
Word, but the third or the fourth time I went again to this place to meet her, something very strange
happened!

Part 3

Hit by the power of God


Well as I was in that little gathering, it happened from one moment on
the other, as if a shower would break loose by clear sky without any
clouds. The girlfriend, the mother of my son, she was also there.
Suddenly, a VOICE spoke audibly to me "you are here for Me!" The
next moment, something like a flash and a lightning came into my heart
and opened up my heart from the outside. I knew about God, but I never
have sought God earnestly to know Him. And still He revealed Himself
to me. What a Grace and mercy! He just pulled me by the hair and
pulled me to Him so that His Name would be glorified. That flash and
that lightning, nobody else as the Holy Spirit, came into my heart and
soul and convinced me of all my sin and that happened all in just one
moment. Suddenly I found myself weeping and crying on the floor,
falling down upon my knees and confessing my sins with weeping, bitter
tears and screaming it out.

They didn’t know what was happening, for only I heard that voice and
only upon me was Gods power. I must have looked out of my mind and
hysterical for those who attended this meeting. But the only thing I could
do after that Gods power was so strongly upon me, was confessing my
sins on the way I did it, very loud. Than I started to be silent and just as I
wanted to climb back upon my chair - after 10 maybe 20 Minutes of
weeping and repenting (having remorse) there came the second flash of
Gods power and of the Spirit of God, but this time He convinced me of
ALL the FORGIVENESS and the greatness of His GRACE.

And again I found myself lying on the ground, but this time my heart
was weeping of thankfulness. Undeserved grace came to me, to my heart
and to my soul and I experienced that all my sins were forgiven and
washed away, my guilt was gone.
John Baptized
The next moment I surrendered and gave myself COMPLETELY in to Gods hands, telling
Him that I wanted to be of Him and of Him alone. My live chanced so radically from one day to the
other, that it is even hard to describe it. I was changed instantly like a leaf at a tree; God had
changed my live in one single day. Maybe you can imagine what happened? The first thing is that I
wanted to marry my girlfriend, for well she had our son and therefore she was my woman. But she
had another relationship and she had to break up with that man, which she did! I had it almost work
to marry her, until the day before the official wedding. It was not Gods plan for my live, so He
created circumstances in my live which would normally have stopped me, but I didn’t! I pushed it
through! Even my Pastor, received from God revelation knowledge – God spoke to him in a dream –
that this marriage was not Gods will and not His plan for my live. So I make it short! I did not marry
her, she married that other guy! Shortly after that on March 22 at the age of 24 I was been baptized
in water!

The second thing I did after being baptized was that I preached the Gospel of Jesus to everyone I
knew: if they want to hear it or not, I preached Jesus Christ. This had of course an enormous effect,
but they did not repent. The effect was that all avoided me like a plague and this in a very short time.
And there was nobody from those I knew – who were not Christians – who did not curse and name
me a child of the devil. Even my family; my father, mother, brothers, sisters have done that, no one
excluded.

This was a goodbye shot

They saw that I had changed radically; I did not curse


anymore, did not touch alcohol, yes I even stopped riding on my
motorbike and didn’t look at woman at all and this so intensively
that some thought that I was gay. But they knew that this was not
so, because all my school-friends knew about that particular
girlfriend and me. It had all to do with my Jesus. And than
seeing all this they called me a child of the devil? Well they did
that quite a while until they saw the steadfastness in my faith
and trust in God and His Son Jesus Christ and than slowly it
turned around in a small admiring of my, commitment, my
determination, my persistence and faithfulness.

Than after a period of 6 Months God started to speak to me


through dreams and visions. Some I will share here but on the
Page “Conceiving and birthing of a Prophet” I will speak more
detailed about these things, because they belong to the process
of the making of a Prophet. I will share with you, here in this
short biography, some of the dreams and the revelations I received in my live. The first one I name:
changing and transformation power.

End of part 3
Part 4
Changing and transformation power
The transformed baby! In this revelation I am walking in a long corridor, a hall and I see on a very
far away distance that somebody is holding a baby. I look carefully and I see that it is only a twisted
lump of flesh, from where I conclude that it is God who has given me to know that it is a baby
because it is so deformed that you would never ever be able to recognize it as such. They throw the
baby at the site of the hall, the corridor, and leave it alone in his doom. I start directly to be moved
from within and I am overwhelmed with feelings of love and care and of the desire to protect it with a
covering and to embrace it with the warmth of my heart. I walk to that baby, who is lying on the
ground; and take it in my arms. In the same moment I lift it up to God, holding it high in my hands,
and in my own hands it is starting to be transformed to a normal healthy baby full of live and it
smiles at me! And as you can think tears were running down my face. I will not explain the depth of
the meaning of this revelation, but I think that as you go along in this Biography you will be able to
see the depth of the spiritual meaning.

A personal encountering with Jesus and the call


One year from the time of my baptism – I am now in the age of 25 – 1983 – God met me personally
through His Son Jesus Christ.

I went to bed to get my sleep for the night as usually as suddenly I woke up- lying on my right site –
after a few hours of sleep. I open up my eyes and I look directly in the lovely face of my Jesus, my
Lord and God. He looked at me and whispered softly but with strength to me the following words: “I
will make a Prophet of you.” Together with some other things he showed me things, which confirmed
a few weeks later that it was as real as it could have been that Jesus will make a Prophet of me. A few
years later:

First prophecies are spoken out over my live


At the age of 28 – 1986 – I received the following prophecy spoken out over my live from an apostle
from God, Tom Mom, who became for quite a period my spiritual father. His name was Tom Mom.

“My son you shall learn and teach many men, you shall stand upon the square and speak, you shall
be a minstrel, my son I have shown you were, I have shown it to you two months ago, you know it my
son, you know it! My son I see your dedication and I will give myself completely to you. From place
to place you shall go and you shall never stay somewhere for a very long time.”

At first I didn’t knew what God had shown me 2 months ago but the Spirit of God helped me and
than I remembered me a very special dream and in this dream there was also visible that part of the
prophecy my spiritual father spoke out over me! At the end of this same year my spiritual father had
to go back to the USA and a very good brother of me Auke Hadders, an Evangelist – gave me the
following words of wisdom:

The long lonesome way


“I had to go a very lonesome way, and it would be very dark on my way, I may not look upon the
circumstances but always should I keep my eyes focused upon Jesus, this would enable me to come
through everything, (It would be a long lonesome way of almost 25 years)

Marriage and some instructions


It was in this same year that I married my dear woman Alwine. Seen through
the eyes of the Prophetic, we had a Prophetic Marriage, God spoke to me
personally and He spoke to my wife Alwine that we had to marry! With no
romantic feelings for each other we struggled with Gods perfect will for our
lives. After that we finely said yes to God it took no longer as 5 months
before we were married. At the 17e of October 1986 we gave our yes word
before the whole congregation of Christians we attended at that time. In this
same year I received from God personally the following revelation:

“It shall be in a time that you see no way to come in ministry any more that I shall open up a
door.” In that same week I had a vision of that door! I saw a huge great door in front of me, gigantic
in height and width. I stood in front of this door knowing that this door would be opened up. One
remarkable fact was that there was no hand at the door and that the door was green; Which I could
not understand at that time what the meaning of this all was, but today I know and understand the
meaning of it.

On the 5 of December 1987 I am been served through a Prophet from Africa, Phillip Crozet, who
didn’t knew anything of me and my call, but he confirmed before the eyes and the ears of many that
there is a call upon my live to become one of Gods Prophets and he also gave me some instruction
and some future time words. I strongly needed this conformation as I had pleaded my God for this
conformation because the Spirit of God started to work things through me which belong to more as
just a simple word of prophecy. One of the words was that the WHOLE family would flow in his
prophetic anointing. My eldest son Nathan was only a couple of months old. But two other sons
would come also, Joél and Johannes.

A few years later In 1991 – I received again prophecies spoken out over my live and over the live of
my woman Alwine; Prophecies who speak about two warriors who represent the Kingdom of God,
who go along site and who are a Mighty woman and a mighty man of God. At this time we already
had Marriage problems! I was not able to love my sons as I should have loved them and I was at that
time already a bad example for my sons! I slipped over the years even more and more in
sexual problems: Internet, pornographic pictures and masturbation. We were NOT ABLE to pray
together and I started to become even more and more desperate! I grew from a loving father to a
father the children hated! I started with being the prince for my woman to becoming a terror and
who was not able anymore to handle and treat her with the respect she deserved. At the end of the
year2007 I was divorced through the institution WORLD; but at the time of Divorce God had already
done miracles in my live.
End of part 4
Part 5
Breaking troughs & Again an encountering
At the end of the year 2004 and the beginning of 2005 I lived separated from my wife and my
children. Everything was lost! It didn’t work out as we both had hoped that it should be with the
children and our Marriage. The condition of my soul had become worse and even more and more
worse and my soul transformed over the years very slowly in a great chaotic condition.

Than as the separation came, I finely started to scream for help, for I had come to the end of myself.
And this was almost 23 years after that Jesus said to me: “I will make a Prophet of you.” And I
thought that everything was gone and that I just could forget it! Than I went freely from my wife and
children for such a father and husband they didn’t deserved that! I didn’t fight against the appeal
from my woman to be divorced. She was right! I knew that and I went in a house for refugees seeking
my Jesus, screaming to Him for help.

Shortly after that the Father broke into my live with the
strength of a hurricane and started to reform and to
transform me. All my feelings said, at that time, that it was to
late, for my wife had already for a long time quitted the
relationship with me and I found myself in a house for
refugees, to lick my wounds there, waiting upon the day of
divorce. Everything, yes really everything what could have
gone wrong went wrong; no woman anymore, I had to leave
my house and I had no sons anymore.

I had nothing else as a 3m2 room with a bed a little table, a


chair and a closet for the ferry few clothes I had. I didn’t
knew anymore what was left or right and I was in danger to
fall away and even to loose my faith in my God! I felt like as
if for me there was no GRACE available any more, such a
looser! I wasn’t a good husband but also a looser of a father.
The only thing I could see was GUILT! But at that moment I
couldn’t now that it is this what God seeks with us! Not
directly or guilt, no the knowledge that we know that only He
is able to do it. It could not have become anything worse! It
could only turn out to become better. And here I speak about the most painful and hurtful moments
of my live. But in this depth I met my God again and became laid upon me His MANTEL OF
GRACE!

The Prophetic Words who seem to be lost and forgotten I had to take them and to prophecy them
over my live; Andso through a lot of pain and wailing all the Prophetic Words which were spoken out
over my live started to come to pass, a birthing was taken place.
The Father the Son and the Holy Spirit came to me and they asked me to be their “Writer,” the
writer of the Will and the decrees of the Father and the Son. Shortly after that the anointing
came over me to be able to hear and to write as several years before was been prophesied over my
live. Ireceived instruction upon instruction and I wrote in a time period of one year 5 Books in two
different languishes and I had started with the English languish at the end of the year 2007.

In this first year God gave me a relationship to Him as my


Father and after that the relationship was firmly established
he gave me instructions. Today I talk with Him about
everything what moves my heart and soul. Among a lot of other
things the Father started to give me back a vision which I had
for more than 2 years, before everything started to die in my
family; a vision which I had written down but I was at that time
not able to comprehend the measure of the fullness of the
revelation the Father had given to me. Than my God said to me
that my notes which I had made some years before, belong
together with the vision and the revelation He had given to me
and that the time had come to go into them and to work some
things out. I didn’t know where to start but I was obedient to
the Assignment He gave me and so came with His help and the
anointing He gave me, the first Book into existence.

“Pressing into His Presence through Fire, Zeal and Passion”

I was not able to over see the measurement of the greatness of


that what my Father had given to me and what He allowed
me to be and to represent. It was all preparation for the birth of an Apostolic Prophetic World
Ministry. But I could not see that, nor would I have been able to comprehend it. But the Prophetic
baby had to be born. I even had to resign my job, but I didn’t – so God created circumstances! The
Spirit of God even wanted that I stopped with help ministry in the gathering I still am in at this
moment July 2009. I had to stop with all these things and to sit down to listen and to start to write.

Many did not understand it. Even my own Pastor, but I was not allowed to tell anything and anyone
about what God was doing, for the Spirit of God told me that if I would do that they would come to
kill the Prophetic baby which had to be born. So I told nobody and I resigned from all kind of things I
was enveloped in and even the cell meetings, the Spirit of God pulled me of from there. I had to be
alone away from any influence of the church, for as the Spirit of God told me that the child who had
to be born would not fit into the church structure for it would be a Kingly structure it would start to
represent. At that time I did not understand very much of that what the Spirit of God was speaking to
me, but I was obedient and I came on my PATMOS to bring to birth "Prophetic Live Giving
Channel Ministry’s"

End of Part 5
Part 6
My Sons are coming back!
At the same time my three sons, started to see and to
recognize that their father wasn’t the old father anymore and
they came back to my heart. They all three knew about me and
the writing of the Books, and I told them not to tell anything to
their mother – who didn’t wanted to believe that I was radically
changed and transformed.

In 2007 I brought one of my children back at home out of a


house for out rooted Teenagers. This was on itself a great
spiritual adventure and a war I had to fight. It was my youngest
son Johannes, who had rebelled the most against the dieing of my family, the way I behaved and the
time of separation, he actually was the first one who started to come back to my heart.
(Johannes & Nathan)

Joél -

Almost at the same time -


Nathan came also back to
my heart.

Joél was totally lost and


lived most of the time with
another woman. He hated me
so much that in 2006 he put
in flame and fire the birthday present I was able to let come too him at
the house of Alwine, my ex woman.

Than it came so that my woman wanted to move out in 2007 and I


decided to try to get the house I lived in before I went in the time of separation, so that I could again
live together with my three sons. God made it possible and today I am living with my sons in that
house. Although that all tree are baptized and have given their lives to Jesus, they live very deep in
the structures of the world, but I love them and they love me! And this is a great miracle!

At the year 2008 my house had become to be a place for teenagers where they find a place were they
come at home and were they ALL say daddy to me! Great things have happened in this year. A Strong
manly Prophetic baby child has born in March! Twenty-five years after that Jesus said I will MAKE
a Prophet from you I have become a young Prophet, because this is how I feel – young! God has
given me an open door so wide and so gigantic to enter in that we TOGETHER WILL SERVE THE
NATIONS of this earth and many thousands are been taught and trained through the first Book my
Father gave me to write already this year.
The First Book is been so widely spread already – and this for FREE – that many Nations of this
world have received this Book with instructions and guidelines how to enter into the transforming
presence of my Father God. As there is no Copy right on it everywhere where I send the Book, they
can freely Copy it in what ever number they need. My Father had given me also a platform in
the USA to be His voice to the Nations. And where is she who should have been at my site? At that
time of my life she has not yet come back but has gone more and more away from me and my sons.
God even started to speak to me about the fact that she HAS NO RIGHT on my heart anymore and
that I had to take it back.

It was in that same year so around February that my Father early in the morning woke me up and
spoke to me the following things:

I want to make your heart wide; will you allow me to do


that? I knew instantly as I heard my Father asking this
question, which the Spirit of God had been testifying within
me from the start of this year, that this year would be a year
of tears and this question belongs to it. I know my Father
God has only the very best intensions with my live so I said
yes daddy I do allow you to do that. But than He said again:
No listen very well: I want to make your heart WIDE, VERY
VERY, VERY WIDE! Than I knew that I had to pay a price
for it, the many tears which the Spirit if God had spoken
about. I answered: Father you can do and allow everything
what is necessary that this will happen. He answered:
OPEN UP YOUR HOUSE FOR THE TEENAGERS AS
YOUR HEART IS OPEN. I said that from that moment on
my house would be open as my heart would be open to
receive the teenagers.

Only a few days later, they started to come one after the
other. In the first week three an not even two months later I
set at a table with more as 13 Teenagers saying daddy to
me. All of them no Christians, but I was able to love them all
with the love my Father had worked in my heart and so
under many tears, my heart became wider and wider. Today I am able to love and to adopt teenagers
from all over the world. But the price is HIGH, for the greater the LOVE the more the TEARS, the
more the PAIN and HURT. In a very short time I became a strong loving Father having the heart like
my Father. I was not able to pay the price, but I prayed always: HELP ME TO PAY THE PRICE,
FOR I WANT TO PAY THE PRICE FOR IT.

In October 2008 the Spirit of God started to move with me to become the Minstrel as He had
prophesied over my live. The Spirit of God moved and started to urge me to start to practice Singing
on a professional way. I firstly was shocked and said I can not do that, but The Spirit of God
convinced me and under His guidance I started for the very first time of my live to sing. The first song
came to birth “Marry did you know, from clay Aiken.” The Spirit of God guided me to a Training
Platform to train and to skill my voice, which is a Karaoke Platform on the Internet and since that
time my more Songs have been interpreted. I started to receive great compliments from many who
thought that I had already been in it for many years. As I had to tell them that I had just started to
sing they just could not believe it. This convinced me to press on through and after the first 6 Months
and a short pause I had to decide to give even more or to stop with singing. Well it was not so very
difficult to make the right decision. I prepared on my website something so that all my sons and
daughters could listen to all my songs and even could become a fan. That was in May 2009.

What also happened in Mai


2009. God started to speak to me
about many things I had to speak
and to present these things on my
Internet website and on my Tube Channel. The next thing, which I will write about are the things
concerning my future plans to remarry. O I can tell you God is bringing me again in new depths
which bring forth a lot of live.

Part 7
Short revue of 50 years of live

We have come now one year further and behind me lies


a time of 50 years and a resume of more than 25 years
after that Jesus came to me and told me: “I will make a
Prophet from you.” Today I am not only a father for my
own sons, but I am a father for many sons and daughters
spread all over the World, divided over many different
Nations. And with a few words I want to thank all my
Spiritual sons and daughters, who opened up their hearts
to my heart:
Alley Annabelle Hope and Anastasia from the USA,
thanks for all the time and the most intensive moments we
had and which we have together. Thanks Fedesco for
being my first spiritual adopted son in Africa, God will bless you greatly, Thanks Teteth for being my
Prophet daughter and for your open heart to receive ALL what my Father has given to me to give to
you. Thanks Pastor B. hell and his wife for receiving this Ministry at the Philippines – know for sure
that in future time I will come and than my heart will be as happy to see you and the whole Family.
Oh little Fayie, I love you and I have not forgotten you! Too many are the names of all my Spiritual
daughters and sons to name them all, but believe me I love you all with the love as a father loves his
children. Ashlene from Africa, stay strong in faith my daughter, Pastora Roma my daughter from the
Philippines, I hope that my Father grants me to come quickly to help to build and to strengthen the
Family of Christians there.

O my son Paul Yankee from the USA, how God has changed and transformed you already now
through my humble teachings you eat by day and night and which you spread in both Nations Africa
as well in the USA! Your mom testified about it, but I have not heard anything of you anymore, were
are you now and how is your live?

I am so thankful for so many! Even those who rejected me and the Words God gave me to speak;
thanks for God used you to form and to mold me! Many have not understood the way God my Father
is going with me and I had to stand up against some of you – please forgive me, but the will and the
Instructions of my Father are 10.000 times more important as all the times that I heard “be silence,
do not speak.”

I love you all and I hope that together with all of you we will lay the Nations down to the feet of
Jesus. Thank you Father God; thank you Jesus and thank you Holy Spirit for staying with me through
all the DARK YEARS! Thank you Father for disciplining me and training me, I want to stay in your
training and schooling process who ever you choose for this to bring in my live! Thank you for
making a Warrior of me – I am so thankful for the GREATNESS and the measure of GRACE YOU
GIVE ME! I KNOW IT IS ALL BY GRACE AND TO YOU MY FATHER ALL THE GLORY AND THE
ENTIRE HONOR! You have done with me what no man would have thought would be able! You have
changed and transformed my heart and soul. And I can not be thankfully enough! Knowing YOU is
ALL I want! I love you my Father, thanks for using this little man to write history! Together we will
bring LIVE where is death and together we will be VICTORIOUS ALL THE LINE!

I want to thank even a very dear person in my live, the one of whom I have learned more as that she
knows now! God has used my ex woman to bring me there were God wanted to have me – at His feet,
in His presence! Thanks Alwine, you will always have a place in my heart. Thanks for being with me
for more than 20 years. It hurts to see that you did not want to come back to my heart again, now I
have taken my heart back and will give it to another. Thanks for all the years you were at my site.

Nathan take good care of Jennie, she is already your woman. I will always be there for you my son
and God will come through in your live as He did in my live. Because God is faithful!

Joél it is not to see, but you will become that warrior and that strong man of God, which the Father
has intended for you. My Father told me once that the whole family will flow under the same
anointing as my Father grants me. I have three young Prophets in my house but it is not yet visible.
But time will come. I will always be there for you my son and the time will come that you will read
these lines after many years and than you will see that God gave you a good father, which I wasn’t
for a very long time, but now I am!

Johannes, as I have understood my Father well than will you be the one who will have to go into my
footsteps more as the other three sons. Maybe this is the reason why you are so stubborn and
rebellious, but even in that state of heart we love each other and I will never ever stop loving you! I
am so happy that I brought you back home. You will go through very hard times, but God will also
come through in your live.

I thank you all three for opening up your hearts again, thanks for the honor to be your father, an
example how to walk with God the almighty one. Thanks to all my dear teenagers who made my live
so RICH in struggle in pain and hurt and tears because of the LOVE I have for you all. God used you
all to WIDEN my heart and to be able to love many, many more teenagers. Thanks Jennie, Sina,
Julian, Rene, Ronnie, Caro, Mele, Chrissy, Jessica, Domme, Patricia and even Bianca and Marcel
and so many other Teenagers who came in my family and received my heart and gave me the honor
to be a kind of daddy for you all. I hope that all of you will learn how to walk with God as I do today!
For that is LIVE and LIVE abundantly!
Part 8
My heart tested and proofed & Times of deceitfulness
2009 - This year was a year of great testing’s of my heart. As I started to seek and to be open for
another woman in my live I met first Chrissy. And my God she was so young. But I thought she just
wanted to have something like a Cool daddy. No... she wanted me and I thought I could handle that
situation. But than she send me her pictures and I instantly fell in love with young lady. This could
not be because she could be my daughter. She was all what Alwine looked alike only much younger,
much more pretty and so beautiful... She had also brown eyes, red hair and this all over.

I screamed to God .. what this would be? He said something like: "You will learn and get to know
new depths of your heart. Satan will try to destroy you but you will not be destroyed. You have to go
through these times of testing’s"

It was a terrible year as I fall in love several times and I got to learn truly new DECEITFULL depths
of my own heart. After Chrissie there came Sandra 33 that was much better as Chrissie who was just
18. But I was hold myself back and wanted only to be friends with Sandra who lived in the usa. At the
same time I met Shannon on a dating Site and she ravaged my heart in storm. But she cost me a lot of
money and at the end I had to see that she DECEIVED me and that my heart was just not able to
handle it and that my heart deceived me also. As I thought the time of testing was over, because now I
knew that I could not trust my heart and that I needed revelation to be able to find her who would fit
to me; than she came: Kelly! A born again Christian with the desire to do and to find Gods will and
she was an Angel of light in the hands of Satan himself. She came with deceitful revelations, dreams
and visions and I was been DECEIVED on a way you can hardly believe. Even the Kids here thought
that she was HONEST and upright but she was nothing else as a devil in the disguise from an angel.
But my Father had given me His word: That Satan would not be able to destroy me.

Almost destroyed
But it was very close... I wasted not only my time... so that I stopped writing what I had to write but
also did I spend and send her too much money. She was almost on the plane and had than an
accident shortly before she phones us and we heard her voice for the very first time. But it was all
FAKE ... she took almost three months to rob me from my financial means. And at the end of 2009 I
was not able anymore to pay the electric bill.. But God came through just in time and one day before
they wanted to cut of the electricity I received a payment from children’s care and I was able to pay
the Electric Bill.. Oh there were several woman and there are still woman in my live who try to get a
hold on me. But I believe that I have learned something’s, especially from my own heart. Until now –
the date that I have written this down) there is still a Janet, 32 and a Sandra 33 and another Sandra
29 and they all say they love me and want to have me..

I send no money anymore and I am more carefully I ever was. I keep on seeking but I guard my
heart not to fall in love in the wrong woman. I am on two dating sites now and one is specially for
Christians and I have some nice contacts... but to find a woman who fits to a growing world Ministry
is as good as impossible?! But I have the impression that this is the way I have to go. I do not like it,
because I rather want to hear from God this is she... but He doesn’t! So I keep on walking this road,
and I am ensured that Satan will not be able to bring me into things which will stop the growth and
the development of this God given Apostolic & Prophetic Ministry! My sons have forgiven me and I
work hard at the Books I have to write. Next time I will write about the books and what we have
accomplished until now!

Much more has happened as there came a God given time to travel to North Carolina and to serve
there. And it was so Woow!! The Adventure go’s on.

Prophet Minstrel
Johannes John & Cool Daddy

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