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Each day that passes, millions of cells die within my body and millions of new cells are formed. Today, my cellular arrangement is not the same it was yesterday. On the other hand, I have cells that existed when I was born; my nervous system is thought to be mostly composed of cells that were formed before I was born. But even these cells endure changes. They synthesize and degrade proteins, absorb and expel molecules, etc. The molecular/atomic composition of my body changes continually. Like a r iver never has the same water, the body and the brain are not static, they are constantly changing. There is, however, a continuity in the changes my body endures as they typically occur slowly, progressively. "To rise again - to be the same person that you were - you must have your memory perfectly fresh and present; for it is memory that makes your identity. If your memory be lost, how will you be the same man?" Voltaire My soul is information: my way of thinking, my memories, my cognitive capacities, and my mind. Despite some recent advances in neurology, we still don't know how our brain thinks. We know, however, that the connections between the neurons are crucial for our brain's functions. Therefore, soul is the precise connections of all the neurons in the brain, together with their memories at a given instant. Of course that, in theory, a person can be copied, cloned. Like the hard disk of a computer, it is possible in theory to copy my soul because ultimately the soul is made of information. Then to define myself at a given instant I must also add that my soul must be within my material body. As an atheist, I defend called materialism, as opposed to those who defend dualism or the separation of soul and body. In addition, there must be a continuity of the material support of my soul. Thus in the above example I cannot be transferred from location A to B without losing my soul. The reason is that in the moment when my molecules are disorganized, my soul dies; I die because the exact connections between my neurons are lost in a momentum. I am nothing for an instant and therefore I can no longer exist. The person that appears might have a soul and body equal to mine but he is not me. If the life that makes of me a sentient being stops flowing, then my soul is lost. I mentioned earlier the constant changes in personality and ideology one endures during one's life, the constant changes in the neurons that happen at each instant. I am much different from the person I was ten years ago. I was a different person, I was a unique set of neurons at a material body ten years ago that suffered a unique transformation to give rise to the unique soul I have now and at each moment of my future life. M y soul changes continually, perhaps I am a soul trapped in my body and in constant mutation, but then we'll be falling into the fallacy of defining myself as solely a material entity. Even with incurring in the error of defining myself as a mass, this is essential to define myself, my individuality and singularity.
. I am made of every book I have ever read and every drawing I have ever drawn. hate. I am made of every second my brother annoys me about his next new obsession. I am made of every friend I ve lost and every friend I ve gained. I am made of every lie and every truth that I have ever told. I am made of every day that I went to school and every day that I didn t. I am made of every one of my experiences. I am made of the people that pull me up and talk me down. Every phone call I make and every one that I don t. and every goal I ve ever set. Like not knowing when to push or pull the door. or anger. I am made of responsibility and perseveran ce. People I ve just met and people I ve known forever. figuring out that you ve run out of cereal. or thinking that there is another step where there really isn t. Big or small I am made of opinions and facts whether its mine or not. I am made of the countless hours I waste doing nothing at all. I am made from every feeling I ve ever felt: love. I am made of denial and rejection. for my parents and for myself. even if at times I feel I don t deserve it. I am made of the material things I care too much about. and I am also made of acceptance. I am made of my low points and my high points. and every person I have ever spoken to. my father s unemployment. I am made of trial and failure. Every morning when I feel like I just can t get up but I do anyway. every memory is what forms me. Every movie I have ever seen. I am made of questions and misunderstandings. I am made of the unconditional love my family gives me. I am made of every argument with my father. sadness. my fathers and my own..2|Page Who I Am ????? I am made of my experiences. I am made of the events that change me. that never seems to end. I am made of every nonsensical dream I ve ever had. I am made of the distractions that I so easily give in to. Big or sm all I am made of every lie and truth that has ever been told to me. and I am also made of irresponsibility. No matter how big or small or how long ago they were: my grandma s death. . I am made of expectations: my mothers. And every morning when I just don t try.
She used take my chair and table beside herself and hold my neck with her left hand and write with her right hand. Even i n the class tests some teachers used to come to my exam room to take a note of my painting. rather I was consoling everybody that it is just a matter of few hours that we all have to be in this place and after that we will be back to our parents. 1986 . This was how I always thought and feared less. Even when I grew up and was in standard III all my teachers asked me whether I was still that much naughty or not? But I was well known for my drawings and paintings. and was the only child of my parents. a popular place in south Kolkata. My mother was a house maker.what is my outlook of it? For the most periods of my childhood my friends popularly called me Polo . Metiabruz at that time was more congested than Piccadilly Circus! and so was my family with three uncles and six aunts and my beloved grandparents. on the 6th of August. In Dunlop my father was known for his abilities and talents to the notice of the authority. I to ok admission in Bidtya Bharati Girls High S chool. Dunlop India limited closed in 1998 shattering the lives and dreams of thousands of its employees. my first name. I started as an average Bengali kid privileged to have access to good primary and secondary education. I was famous for my mischief in my nursery days.3|Page CHILDHOOD AND EARLY EDUCATION In life three things have always occupied my mind.. I still recall those appreciations. my future -. Today also I exactly remember the beautiful and patient face of Chandana Aunty. Although I had a very paternal relationship with both my parents but I was a little closer to my father with respect to his principles and ideologies. We were lucky that my father was committed enough towards his family which didn t let him take a step like suicide very similar to many of his fellow colleagues. My surname is Paul. Unlike others my mother was firmly determined to get my admission done in a English medium school in Kolkata.. It was the same school from which I cleared my higher secondary. But I was not crying at all. I was born in Kolkata. I often drew the attention of all due to my jovial and vibrant nature. THE BIG SHOCK My father worked in Dunlop India Limited as a personal relationship officer. I was very dear to all my family members. I was born in a joint family in Metiabruz. my nursery teacher. In my childhood days I was a very naughty girl and was without any fear. Probably it s was the foremost reason for us to shift from the congested lanes of M etiabruz to Behala. Who am I in life? What does life means to me? And the future. My father worked in Dunlop India Limited as a personal relationship officer. West Bengal. Thoughts about them are quite overwhelming that I think I just have to express them somehow. In the fi rst day of my school I saw all of my friends crying very much at the departure of their parents. I have more than a million reasons to . She is the driving force for each and every member of our family as she is very particular about her commitments towards us. I was born in Kolkata.short for Poulami.
and with those which he brought upon himself by his marriage. may be judged from the fact that I went through the whole . My father who. one who never did anything negligently. I have no remembrance of the time when I began to learn good English like he would say. He opened a physiotherapy centre at Behala tram depot with one assistant and by god s grace it proved to be a perfect investment at that point of time. employed for a similar purpose. holding. or in any financial difficulty. it must also be said. opinions. where we all had to work to help the house. In most of the circumstances he showed the extraordinary energy which was required to lead the life he led. both in politi cs and in trade. after a course of vocables . planned his life in relation to what he wants his family members to become. It was the most horrifying moment of my life and the most stable person in our family at that point of time was none other but my father. and perseverance rarely. There were many investments in LIC s and mediclaims. I crammed a lot of examples from the books.4|Page be a bit more inclined towards my father. Though he was not in a mental state to seek for any other job but he never gave up. in his own practice. is that of committing to memory what my father termed vocables . I have been told that it was when I was three years old. Neither did he allow me to leave my school nor did we take any favour from any of our relatives to survive the situation. never undertook any task. especially me. That was when his contemporaries would see him as an isolated mind . which were more lovable to all persons of influence. I learnt no more than the concords of the nouns and verbs. under my father's guide. on which he did not conscientiously bestow all the labour n ecessary for performing it adequately. a number of poem and story books. with the disadvantages under which he strived from the first. a considerable part of almost every day was employed in the instruction of me. And to this is to be added. literary or other. if ever. with these burdens on him. his only child. in endeavouring to give. My earliest recollection on the subject. care. had he done no more than to support himself and his family during so many years of trading. was likely to try to pass on the same rule in his offspring as he brings me up. We as a family were accustomed to the stewardship and luxury. according to his own conception. until my eighth year. as he did. that during the whole period. It would have been no small thing. When my father lost his job we fell in a situation when we had no other o ption but to open our hands before all. as much of his convictions as he thought the circumstances would in any way permit: being. so vigorously acted up to the principle of losing no time. What he was himself willing to undergo for the sake of my instruction. being lists of common English words. but much that I could by no possibility have done. my father demanded of me. In all his teaching. but. At that time I had read. and I faintly remember going through brighter grammar part one to five. I learnt very little of Arithmetic at this period. not only the utm ost that I could do. and suddenly had to move to a small apartment. It took some time but he finally turned his passion of physiotherapy into a profession within three months of losing his job. which he wrote out for me on cards and some on the corner of his desk. My father was not only a man whom nothing would have induced to do anything against his convictions. proceeded at once to some little lengthy constructions. which became a huge burden at that point of time. but one who invariably put everything he has into his trading activities. He worked day and night with all his dedication and honesty. in the case of me he exerted an amount of labour. a good order of intellectual education. He wrote. without ever being in debt. But he. with their uses in English. Tears rolled down from our eyes when we saw him compromising with none of his responsibilities.
My intense love for mathematics and statistics inspired me to take up these subjects in my graduation. during my adult age were really fond of ourselves. Part of it has been mere stroke of luck. These collections especially that of Sidney Sheldon were my favourites and continued to delight me through all times. nothing lasts for ever. In the mathematical part. and I would get the message. Anindita. I managed a position among the best ten in the class. the sands of time. but I have a number of story books some of which came from occasional gifts from relation or acquaintance: among those I had. sonic the hedge hogg etc. Anwesha. some realization downed on me -. he would call me out and we used to sit under the mango tree on the field behind our house! He used to call out the short form of my name babli . My friends and I. although at a time I deliberately developed more penchants under the influence of my teachers as well. some collections of Sidney Sheldon like the naked face. the avengers. I had few novels that were recommended for pupils to get for lessons in English Literature. one of my g reatest challenge in school was the theory part of science. . I am a huge fan some comic series like the legion of the super heroes. however. the later years of my primary education I started to realize that my parents carried a lot of expectations regarding my studies and specially my marks in the science subjects. An individual is the maker of his bed and he sleeps on it accordingly. my best friend s elder sister. Moumita. Although few of these books were against my father s interest as he intended to exclude books of amusement. At that time.during this part of my childhood. In due course I started to believe that I was a utter failure in mugging theories and eventually focused my whole dedication in understanding the subject of mathematics. MY VERY FIRST JOB I had no clue what the company was looking for when I first went for the interview. It takes the shape of what you care to make it look like. As much as I could have made good blending into the science fold. he possessed of such books next to none. Then he would say continuous reading makes the man in a man . though he allowed them very sparingly. yet Binita Di.5|Page process of preparing my vocabulary lessons in the same table he used for his personal accounting jobs. GROWING UP From about the age of nine. My early adult life was built on realities. like a bee. by no less mean tried to always prove to us that luck is facilitated by strong effort and willingness. Sumedha were some of my close friends. the stars shine down etc. a bed. especially each time he feels I needed to keep myself busy. So each moment my father felt like whiling away his time or when he wanted to explore the man in himself the more. owly. the entire collection of Satyajit Ray and the series of Kaka Babu. I was being groomed for science because my father wa nted it. CLOSE TO ADOLESCENCE Life is like a piece of furniture. but he borrowed several for me. the other side of midnight.
I was in the laptop department of HP.Tech s. The organisation was positioned really well on campus and there was only one position that they were hiring for. I was glad that I had the option to pursue my first job at Wipro BPO. No other reason is attached to this than the fact that they enjoy my philosophy of relationship. I had a high degree of influence on most of my friends. People were highly sceptical and wary about the transition I had undergone. As a technical associate I had to address to every hardware and software issues of the customer. I actually got . I didn t hail from the B. One can only enjoy the period of togetherness according to the extent of how much good relationship was maintained. and quirks. My team leader demanded performance at all levels. I thought I didn t have an edge over the other candidates since. in an endeavour to strike the right chord. I. My boss made me understand the significance of gauging the pulse of the customer. An increment came in six months later. I also learnt that it's not just the technology that you sell or the product/service that helps you make a successful sales pitch. The interviewer removed his watch and asked me to sell it back to him. 7800 approximately. But I wanted the job desperately! The interview was for a technical associate. I WILL HANG YOU BY THE HOOK OF THE FAN IF YOU DON T WIN THIS DEAL. it was considered a big deal to nail it. But then I was proved wrong. My starting salary was Rs. And I guess I handled the interview pretty well. IN PRAXIS My experience in Praxis for the last two months gives me a realization: life is all about valuing relationship and time. had other apprehensions. I learnt the most important lesson. the deal cannot be cracked. We also had to sale certain products of HP to the customers. So. He has contributed immensely during the formative days of my career. his/her temperaments. There were five rounds in all. I worked with Wipro BPO for five months before moving on. My mother always tells me that having good people around one are of great essence. however. The lessons I learnt during my training days were: 1) focus on fundamentals.6|Page This was at Wipro Bpo kolkata and I was barely 23. And these lessons still ring true. And they wondered wh y would an statistics graduate after three years of rigorous studies move to a BPO job. And I had a degree from the Asutosh college in Statistics. I realised that customer relationship management (CRM) is of prime importance too and if you aren't equipped with good CRM skills. academically. M y boss said on the second phase of my job. customer is king . 2) understand the culture and etiquettes of US people 3) always do your homework.straightforwardness.
The air inside the Praxis premises. I have seen some dark clouds amidst bright skies during my day times. As this is the first time that I am staying in hostel away from my parents so at first it took some time to settle in Praxis.No double standard . unlike the way I was. .7|Page much of them from my mother. In sp ite of all I could have had of life experiences. Praxis has taught me the most essential attribute of working in a team which undoubtedly is the call of today s job scenario. all I know is that life is about people. now compels me to deliver the best in adapting myself with the modern day ethics. This realization proved to be true inside the Praxis premises. All of the faculty members whom I claim to be some of the patriarchs of management education are striving for our success as a management graduate. just as I have experienced sparkling brightness at the turn of a number of dark burrows. especially from my s econdary school days up till present and I am happy to note that life has been fairly good. I look back at my journey so far. Now it s 2 months in Praxis and as time is passing by I can rediscover the fact that every objective in life cannot be completed alone. For me.
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