Christmas 2009 is meant to be one that changes the way I view life.
I am currently undergoing a kind of treatment that some may regard as “holistic healing”. This treatment will continue in its more intensive form until the end of the year, with perhaps a few days off around Christmas time. The whole process will be slow and may take about nine months. The objective is to be totally cured from the cancer. And yet, I see no reason why this Christmas is not a cause for celebration. There is something important about the notion of these two simple words, “to be” (existence, life, relations to nature and the higher order of things) that I am learning from the experience of trying to deal with an illness. And, I like to share this with you. By way of a little background, for a person with prostrate cancer like me, the wisdom has been to closely monitor a number, and how this number behaves over time. This number refers to the PSA (prostate-specific antigen) in the blood, the best marker to indicate a problem with the prostate. Men usually do not feel anything when prostate cancer develops. There are no indications of pain or other problems and therefore prostate cancer remains unnoticed for a long time. In different countries the PSA level that would trigger concern varies from 4 to 7 or so. This level may be less important, however, than the speed with which the PSA increases over time. At 7, for instance, but stable, the advise would not to do anything that would arouse a sleeping tiger. In late 2007 just before undergoing radiation therapy in Melbourne, my PSA was as high as 92. The full-7-week therapy has brought it down to 0.21 by February 2008. I continued to be on hormonal treatment to suppress the production of hormones that feed the cancer. Throughout I was able to function normally only to watch with disgust that the size of my pants continued to grow from 34” to 36” and then 38”; bundles of six-packs, wrongly shaped!!! The doctor assured me that once the hormonal treatment stops my weight will come down. The big adjustment in life style has been in the diet: no more red meat, diary products, fats, and lately also no alcoholic beverages. And also, I am taking lots and
He thought I was too well to consider the radical treatment. A drug for another illness was tried on me as it has had some success with other patients. After six weeks I was told to stop taking this drug as the PSA continued to increase rapidly to above 50. This was administered in early November 2009. The conclusion was that a cancer cell had already escaped the prostate before the radiation in 2007 but remained moribund while the hormonal treatment was effective. Rather overwhelming. for which another drug was prescribed to counter that negative effect. The doctor thought that immediate action needed to be taken to stop the spreading and suggested the use of Strontium 89. A bone scan and full CT scan were done in Melbourne with inconclusive results. In the next blood test my PSA exploded to 225. I fully agreed with this judgment. to be injected into the body and absorbed by the bones. In my case. The spreading was rather rapid. Drawn to its logical consequence. In March 2009 the radiation oncologist sent me to a prostate cancer super-specialist in Melbourne. He laid bare the options that I have and suggested that I tried all other options before resorting to the more radical measures. A bone scan in September 2009 confirmed that the cancer has affected the bone. which include chemotherapy. The tiny spot that was visible on the 7th left rib even in the earlier scanning turned out to be a secondary cancer.different kinds of anti-oxidants. But now many more spots could clearly be seen. which will only make me feel miserable. first to about 10 and subsequently to above 20. but welcome. I am convinced that this is not inevitable. a radioactive material. By late 2008. The chances were 50 percent. The PSA kept rising. it was effective only for about one year. but my condition was monitored more closely. Remember that my prostate cancer was rather aggressive (9 on the Gleason score 3 to 10). The downside was the side-effect on the kidney. and that was made clear to me. but showed no effect.
. my PSA test showed a rise to above 3. Friends have been introducing me to and supplied me with new ones all the time. Usually it is after three to four years that the hormonal treatment begins to wear out as the cancer cells learn to overcome it. An additional hormonal treatment was prescribed. this can only mean that I will have to seriously consider the radical options as all other non-radical ones presented by the doctor have been exhausted.
and was beginning to lose his eyesight. The brochure describes it only vaguely. who has been invited to Melbourne by Mrs Margaret Wong. anorganic as well organic. Second. At the end of the session the imprint of the body on the copper table and the toxins that came out would tell you what your problems are.Someone showed me the way. who developed this treatment on the basis of her own research for about 30 years. he drew up a list of vitamins and herbal medicine to take and stay in contact with him through the email. cold and hot. DR Gretha Zahar must be a genius. several years ago. my wife. Little did I know what I went into when undertaking this “baluran” (skin rubbing) treatment. A living proof. I agreed to try it out. The treatment is not to put drugs into the body but to free the body from all toxins that have been accumulating over the years. all cancer patients who were already desperate. She explored the place for me and found that they are treating cancer patients as well. What he told me was important. I met an Australian patient. They tell you what they will do but not why it is done the way it is done. He could no longer walk. I was introduced to Dr Jagadish (Jag). I then told him that I was going to have a radio-isotope injection. Although I pressed him for his advise and was all too ready to go to India for therapy. DR Gretha Zahar. was nowhere to see. Janti. I felt lucky to have found this place before becoming a member of a league of such patients. Fortunately. She thought this would be good for me and would do no harm. It became immediately clear that he did not want to interfere in an ongoing process. the radiation chemist. lost his hearing. he touched my right pulse and said two things: (a) your bones have been affected. but very low profile in a way as to not wanting to show off. Back in Jakarta. and (b) you have a lot of gases in you stomach. but are now looking very fit. Jag has clinics in Brunei Darussalam and Mysore (India) and helps people cope with illnesses “the nature’s way. and the “rubbing” is not gentle at all. First. was introduced to a rather obscure clinic that is into total detoxification. who has the same illness as me but was already in a very serious condition when coming to the clinic five months age. Margaret’s husband. but you have to endure. do not ask questions and just do what you are told. Jag was the one who detected the prostate cancer in Peter. After two days I was still kept in the dark. although one might detect some arrogance in her to not wanting to bother to explain to her patients about what exactly she is doing. healthy and happy. I was told to come five days in a row. this treatment is a tough and hard process. All they care to show are the positive results. In the days that followed I met other regular patients that have come from as far as Los Angeles and Wolfsburg in Germany. I can imagine that it will take a series of long lectures to explain and then only those with some basic knowledge of radiation
. He now goes to places on his own and is healthy. Just a few days before the Strontium 89 injection was performed. Take it or leave it is her basic attitude.” After greeting him. Each session lasts between 3 to 4 hours and you are treated on a copper table with different kinds of chemicals. an Indian healer.
She has also opened a clinic in Kalimantan near the mine fields where there are a lot of toxins. By now she has two clinics in Malang. What have been the results thus far? In the first week. especially where there is a lot of illegal mining. In one of our conversations. To jump to my hypothesis. The etheric body is the interface between the physical body and the other subtle bodies of the Aura. Those were the most difficult days for me. The most unconventional. That I thought is the essence of what she does. one especially for disabled children. the “chakras” reside. illness and disease can manifest in the physical body. The place is now run by nuns. the physical body is affected and if this imbalance is not corrected. perhaps controversial. method she employs is the use of raw tobacco and smoke. Every cell in the physical body has an etheric counterpart. which she called “divine cigarette”. I decided to figure out myself what DR Zahar does. it may have to involve all the higher layers in the spiritual body. The etheric body also serves as a filtration system. The patient usually suffers most from this as well. When the flow of this energy is disrupted. Her view is that their function has been affected and could collapse any time. In its purest form. when presented with the results of a full blood test. The following is a brief explanation of the etheric body. it is working with these nanoparticles that allow her to treat both the physical body and the etheric (ethereal) body at the same time. Casual conversation with her in between treatments provides some sporadic clues. Nowhere is it mentioned in the brochure and none of the personnel in the clinic talks about it. Her dedication to helping people is highly admirable. That is not what I am currently looking for. It extends approximately one inch from the physical body and it is responsible for the transfer of life energy or vitality from the universal energy field to the physical body. It is perhaps something in store for later and just may be. The etheric body is in a sense the lowest layer in one’s spiritual body. This is one of the most difficult organs to deal with according to her. DR Zahar became very alarmed about the condition of my kidneys. And a few things have been written about her research. So she began to work on the kidneys for four days in a row.chemistry would likely understand what the whole thing is all about. to get at (“manipulate”. almost Saint-like. Treating the physical and etheric body simultaneously can be understood as holistic healing. It was. The etheric body is a body of etheric or subtle matter which furnishes the basic blue print for the physical body. she talked about “detoxification” and “purification” that happen at the same time. The purification aspect has not been made explicit in any way. She is for results. It began with an attack on the free radicals in the body that finally was refined (and perfected?) by focusing not on molecules but on nanoparticles. I
. And yet. at the least what the essence is. this is an integral part of this kind of “holistic healing”. work on?) the nanoparticles. but it is where the main energy centers. She has developed a group of supporters for her cause.
He spent two weeks holidaying in Japan in late November to early December with a few friends. our “Mr Worry”-son (her first grade teacher in New York called him so) had a glorious first year with his fashion house KRATON AUGUSTE SOESASTRO. I see this as an example of how the treatment affects the etheric body. She assured me that my prostate is now clear and clean. Within a few days it all went away and apparently the kidneys have been well detoxified. This shows how the treatment has affected the physical body. followed by three showings in Jakarta. causing me to vomit. beginning with a show on 20 February 2009 during the New York Fashion Week. who died in the Netherlands at the age of 84.
In June 2009 I lost my mother. The sickness.could not sit and have to lay flat on the copper plate all the time. What was amazing was how clear it showed that the center chakra (solar plexus) was covered by a dark belt. never stops. DR Zahar informed me that the complete healing of the stomach will be the slowest part of the process. His next show is on 21 January 2010 during the New York Fashion Week. A bone scan later will show whether the same can be said about the bones. I look forward to sharing such good news with you next Christmas.
. She accompanies me to every treatment and is happy to do so as long as she has her Blackberry in hand that allows her to check her emails – and of course. I had to stay overnight in the clinic. Janti is as busy as ever. her facebook – at any time she wants to. I light another candle in her memory. Albert. Spiritual healing will focus directly on opening the chakra. explaining why there was so much (toxic) gas in my stomach. the copper plate with my body imprint and the toxins was taken out to dry under the sunlight to be analysed. Agus. One day. our “No Worries”-son continues to enjoy his studies and work and having many friends. Her ashes are with my sister who will bring them to Indonesia in June 2010. The treatment helped to remove this and a lot of gas has disappeared from the stomach that has indeed become smaller.
Please join me in lighting a candle to life and all there is to it.
And of course. They are old. some blind or deaf or both. but hopefully they remain happy in our care. We love each of them. the dogs.
Have a Merry Christmas 2009 and a Happy New Year 2010
Hadi Soesastro and family
. There are still ten of them.