Santos, Ma. Farina Kim L.
III – AB ISD Reflection Paper Last July 2, 2010, our class in Gender Analysis and Development under Miss Pacita Fortin went to Marytown to have a first glimpse of the community and experience a first-hand tour of the place. So at 1:30 in the afternoon, our class made its way to the community, we walked towards the place and I feel depressed all-over. Seriously, I was down at that moment. I never really liked social works and such things. While walking, weird things come into my mind, things like after crossing the footbridge, I should find a tricycle and ride to ministop, or making an excuse like my head aches or my tummy hurts, any excuse would do just to get out of this situation. But responsibility and a little kindness took over me. I did not put into action the things that crossed my mind, I did not make any excuses, I did not quit. I was just there, silently walking until I found myself in front of the community. Basically dragged in the community because of responsibility and commitment, I found myself staring blankly at the little pathway that is right before me. I stopped a little and tilt my head sideways, eyeing the dark alley that I would soon cross. After a moment, my feet started moving, making its way into Marytown. Amazed and somewhat baffled, I tried to check every wall and houses, every hole and people, every little thing that would interest my eyes. I was in deep frustration. I know there are people living like them but I never knew that their situation is like that, I mean, it was worst than what I have imagined. After a long walk and so many detours, we settled in the day care to have a little orientation of the things that we should do in contrast with our subject and the community. I took a seat and fell silent. I was annoyed, frustrated, disappointed, and awkward. I never knew why I felt this way but I’m sure of one thing, I never really liked Social Works and Service Learning Projects. While waiting for the little orientation to start, my mind travels in some sort of a what-if-situation kind of travel. I thought about this, about that, what if like this, what if like that. I was in a trance, I do not like my situation, can I just go home please? The orientation starts, the INSA representative starts it off with a big smile, how can she do that? I tried smiling. Failed. Starting off right away, she said that we should introduce July 7, 2010
I struggled and walk. The soil. I felt a little gush of excitement as I walk because I like attractions and horror houses and I felt like I’m walking through one. the hoses on the road. The first visit in the community is over. but at least I do get out alive. We started to walk again. the orientation starts. or at least I would try my very best to not look so annoyed and down whenever I’m in the community. uttered my nickname and last name and blurted out a little greeting. The atmosphere was icky because it just rained and the place is wet. I could not see anything due to my not-so-clear eyesight. singled out my thoughts and I believed that I should do this. it was all drenched. and off we went. “Oh yeah. eventually you would know each other. the cement. I looked up. I like adventure right? And I got one. looked down. After the little getting-to-know-you kind of thing. Oh hello bad vibes. my shoes were soiled and I was perspiring like a mad dog but I kept on walking. perspire and tripped. now I am more depressed than ever. I also don’t like introducing myself to other people. interviews and gender gap audit with a positive attitude.
. It was very dark.ourselves one by one so that others would know us and that heads of the community would be familiar to us. I was trying to analyze their situation. I felt better than before. wishing it would entice my mind to voluntarily submit to this Service Learning Project. for me it is very uncomfortable and unnecessary. Maybe it would take time for me to get positive vibes out of this Service Learning Project but I would do my best to have one. Two community heads talk about the profile of Marytown and I found myself pulled in the lecture. Out in the sun. she just seems very interested and I hope I am too. I smiled. I don’t know why but I think it was the feeling that I’m on an adventure or something. (oh maybe that’s why I’m happy now) and we waited patiently for the other groups to arrived. How can she lecture with a happy face and a nice smile? I don’t know. By the way. This time the path that we took was more depressing than ever. Then. my professor stood in front and discussed something about critical analysis. I was like “Really? Should we really do that?” Good. I felt a little dry. I knew I sound awkward but I did try my best to not look annoyed. We were then told that we would round-tour the community and I was like. the land. I stood up and held the microphone. I have to prepare for this”. It was adventure. I was holding Faye’s hand all throughout the walk but I still found myself tripping and bumping into walls. I was happy. so why bother? But I have to do it right? And so I did.
In relation to the subject Gender Analysis and Development. we would try to utilize all tools of analysis to properly give a corresponding result and audit about the issues in the community. All in all. I can summarize my experience in a phrase. we should also try to address men’s discrimination issues and such and not only focus on women’s discrimination issues. I think that it is more appropriate that we should try to dissect and analyze community issues in a different perspective. In this subject. I should try to appreciate more the project and participate more in the discussion. We should also try to address certain issues that would be befitting to the minority. we opt to look at both ways like women superiority and men inferiority in some families and address these issues in all ways possible. “It was awfully amazing. In reverse. and that is through a gender lens view. we should not only look upon men as superior and women as inferior.
.” To rate the first visit. In short.” I can conclude that “I need to help other people and I should forget my reckless and BV attitude” and lastly I recommend that “I should try fixing my moody behavior and let go of all ill feelings and disappointments. and that is the women and the children and not only to stay focused on the issues of men superiority. I am giving it 9 out of 10 stars because it was smooth and planned well and I am rating my response as 4 out of 10 stars because I was in a bad mood.