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I am writing this because this is the first time it has made sense. I have been alive for 31 years. Of the 31 years most of my life I have been a dreamer. My mother used to tell me nothing comes to a dreamer but sleep. She was soo wrong. I dreamed my way through life at first like an old car in a new city. Then I realized it wasn’t an old car in a new city that it was a new car in an old city. With age clarity is achieved. They say hindsight is 20/20. I guess THEY got it right for once. I speak in a way that is looked to most people as "complexed". I think of my self as a simple man... go figure? What I do believe is that this world is complexed yet its design if simple. Once you understand the design you understand why and why not. To me the most valuable possession I have is my soul. If I did not have a soul to me I would be a mechanical man. Ultimately My soul has grown to a point where I recognize it as dominant. Especially around people who have weak souls. Weak souls are all around us being dominated by healthier soul or vou little souls. Quick story.... I met a guy I called him Tostito cause it rhymed with his real name so we'll call him Tostito. Tostito is one of the kindest gentlest people god has ever made. The problem with Tostito is that he is an Addict. He is addicted to Crack. The first time I saw Tostito high. He looked like he was possessed. My first thought was of the late Tupac Shakur who said "Have you ever seen a crackhead that’s ethereal fire. I put my soul on it." Tostito looked beyond F-ed up. His eyes are what changed the most. I think drugs that do this to people are creating weak souls. But drugs arent the only source. There are others. Tostito your still in my prayers buddy! But, back to me I feel like my connectedness with my soul is paramount to my happiness. So I choose to maximize my souls potential at all costs. I want my soul to thrive. Because to me the soul doesn’t SLEEP!
The reason why I love being me is because I know all the answers. I know that even If I do not know the answers that the answers know me. The answers know me because I know GOD, and it was in gods divine plan for me to know what I know now and to not know now. Therefore, if I do not know, I know, and what I know, I also know. This can be confusing to those who believe in the flesh. This can be confusing to those who do not believe in god. But since, I do not believe in the flesh, and I believe in god it is clear. I know I can't jump off of a sky scraper and live to tell about it. I am confident in this answer. I know that God loves me either way and I am confident in this answer. I know that God would not allow me to be on a sky scraper if he thought I would jump off it for any reason. I know people aren’t just jumping off of a sky scraper just for kicks and giggles. Therefore I know what I, and I know what I dont know. You may be a weirdo and be thinking you may just have common sense not to jump off of a 30 story building. But I just say I am blessed to know the difference. Perception is yours and yours only! Use
with caution! And of course handle with care. I know that if I succeed in life I will give god all the glory. I know that god doesn’t make failures. I know that If I was a failure, God was never there from the start. Since God has been there from the start. I know I am not a failure. And knowing that I am not a failure makes me believe in such. Believing in such, makes me act in a way contour to my belief. In acting in such a way I am predisposed to doing what is better for my beliefs. Which is in turn is better for me. Which is in turn, just happens to always be the right answer. ( now, that...was a mouth full)
I couldn't tell you the answer before hand because I didn’t know I knew the answer. Only I know I knew the answer and if I told myself the answer before the answer produced itself I would have over thought and changed the answer. Which still would have eventually been the right answer after I have undone the part of the answer where I took control of the answer. Now the answer is the official answer. The next question comes and instead of fighting myself for the official answer I wait till the official answer is cultivated from within and brought forth. Even then this answer is my answer but it is not my answer. Like when one questions Sex before marriage. The official answer is that it is wrong because you are connected with god until you connect through god to someone else. If you are married then it is good. If you are not married then in this case you have cheated on god. This is the right answer... read the whole King James version of the bible like i have. you will see this more than once. Natures answer is- If you have to use the bathroom and the rules of Christianity were such as... (although they are not. ) If you took a dump you were not fit for the kingdom of god. Would you still take a dump after thanksgiving with all the trimmings? I know its not as extreme but the necessity is still there. The simplicity of this example is the main component. I know this example is a little out there but I had to get your attention somehow... well didnt I? You body makes hormones these hormones keep you alive mostly and cure you when you are sick tell you how much danger you are in and gives you the super human ability to utilize you body in a way that is conducive in preserving health and vitality of your body. Sex is one of those things. Ask any dr they will tell you sex is probably the single most health
conscious thing you can participate in. For the physical and chemical reasons. But sex has been on the reward system soo long that it is the reward system. So sex before marriage for me I can say Yes sir because first of all I’m not a virgin. secondly I wouldn’t date a virgin. My sexual needs are so sharpened that if I had a virgin I would cheat on her on the first day I know this.... not because I’m a jerk or a player. Its because my mind will say one thing and my body will do what ever it wants to do with out my consent. You want to test this theory. Ill give you 100 million dollars if you can use only your mind and make your heart stop beating and your lungs to quit moving all together. You can not do it because you don’t control that part of your brain. And secondly you will die. So what I am saying is Your body is going whether you go with or not. you can certainly shoot yourself in the head and your lungs will stop and your heart will stop also but you definitely will not be 100 million dollars richer cause you’ll never be able to collect. The body of a dummy (meaning intellectually challenged indivual )is smarter that the fastest computer with the most memory in the world. Because its human and the computer is not. Your body is a marvel to science a computer is a marvel to geeks. And you want me to Control a marvel with my limited experience in my particular marvel. Please. Thats like asking shaquille oneal to drive a 1971 volts waggon hard top beetle. It may be possible but who really wants to see such a thing? 3 billions of years of evolution and you want me to keep it in check? I say No Sir. I think exploration of the human physiology is the beginning of who we are. Once we understand ourselves we need not understand anything else because everything to this universe is at our fingertips. The human dna strand is something amazing to me if you will for a second There is a molecule in it that assigns which part of the dna goes where. now that goes for all aspects of our body’s. that means if this molecule wants you to be tall or short or have a beard when your ten years old it can make those decisions. It can repair dna It can deconstruct dna strands. it gets chemical orders from the brain of the cell and constructs you one dna strand at a time. cool huh. If it is sent a bad piece or a piece that doesn’t fit it can make an on the spot decision not to use the piece and order another. That is Awesome to me. that is something a computer will never be able to do in this lifetime. I say that to say this. Your body is your library it is your
text book it is you social experiment it is your love it is you desire-mobile it is you gateway to god it is your connection to the universe. If you slow it down or perpetuate a condition. You will loose functionability of your body. When I said functionability I know what you thought... You thought I was talking about walking around and mobility and thinking power huh. Well that’s not completely what I meant. I think on a grandiose scale. So Gather this. In the first story of the bible god talks of Adam before Eve. He was a man just like you and me. As a side thought Adam only had one rule and it had nothing to do with sex.... weird huh. But Adams job was to till the earth and to name everything. This is where funcionability comes in to play. He had the best connection with god aside for Enoch and Jesus arguably. Because he was the first. He could see god and god could see him. He could hear god and god could hear him two things that stand out in itself. He had the understanding to farm and eat off of the land. He had the brain power to name and remember all of the animals of this present world. ( which to me means he was a genius for both left and right brain because he had to first name the animal then remember the name) He had to understand agriculture without a weatherman and still produce produce. Now to get back to being ADAM you have to in my opinion let go of the things that are true to you and use those hands to hold god. This means that you have to live inside your body not as the world would have you to live. You have to live by your own rules *under gods influences. You have to live and think and breath like Adam did. Then maybe you will know all the answers also because not knowing is not an option. You are in direct contact with (God) You can ask what ever you want. If it is what god desires you to have because you need it you can have it. If god determines you can only have it to learn from it. You can have it. But The truth is you don’t even have to ask because all you need has already been given to you. You just don’t know you have it in you. Once You activate this part of your brain and your body. Your soul grows. Its not just 21 grams like science has speculated its weight. its bigger than your body. And when you walk down the street you will notice a major difference because. You walk with an infectious confidence that is rare. My name is Jonah I have been walking in this confidence for 31 years of my life and my soul hasn’t stopped growing. If I told you All my soul has seen and done you wouldn’t believe me. So I wont waist my time or yours. Lets just say that it is well worth the experience. I bet my soul on it. Lets say you are the type to want to see results of this theory before you try it out. I say OK.
Look at nature. pick a Tree. Ask your self why are the aspects of a tree getting better as human aspects deteriorate like for instance Mint leaves. Why mint leaves? Who knows? I like things that are minty. If a mint tree looses its vitality as a mint tree it may as well not be a mint tree. Because it is no longer minty. If over time the first mint tree ever was above and beyond minty. Now billions of years later you have to use 3 mint trees to achieve the same minty freshness of the original mint tree. Then something fantastic happened in the world of a baron mint tree. It rained for 30 days and 30 nights. (or maybe for you one day and one night, with god nothing is impossible! ) Washing away the insects and parasites that was ripping the mint tree of its vitality. In 3 short years. (or hrs or days or minutes. God is God! ) The New mint tree is 1/2 the strength of the original mint tree. not bad hun. In 3 more short years the mint tree was 75% as potent as the original. and has grew a defense to parasites and insects as well as bigger mint leaves and a wider trunk and more sturdy branches. To make the mint tree a powerhouse of a product by today’s standards. I look at my soul as that mint tree. This tree has always been the same tree. If I choose to let the insects eat its vegetation away because its socially expectable because these Hollywood trees are all skinny. With lean and flowing torsos. LOL (had to laugh sorry) and you can let television be like a parasite to your soul slowly draining you of your creativity. Draining you of your protective essences just to put you in a situation where you are vulnerable for future attacks. (sound familiar) You can hide your self from the very thing that will save your life which is the rain of god both purifying and purging. You can behave in a way that allows you to be easily uprooted. You can starve yourself and not drink from the root because you think you know it all or you are scared of your excellence. Either way you can be a hamper to your own existence because its the civil thing to do. My suggestion is trust the water that has already been given to you. Drink it like you will never drink again. Bask in the sun like it wont come back tomorrow. Shade those who hebetate your bark. encourage your roots to lengthen and and dig. Spread your branches out to the cool wind. And dance like you had two left trunks. ok I made the last part up but you get what I’m trying to say. The mint will produce. It will get stronger and stronger and stronger the more you encourage it to. Once it is renewed to its original form or as close to it as possible in this lifetime. You Made it Yeah you Made It. congratulations. The easy part is finished. Now comes the hard part. The hard part is the maintenance and up keep of the vitality of the mint or infectious confidence. Once the mint is at a certain standard. (you know mint condition) You will want to maintain this level of continuity. See things come your way that you don’t expect. When this happens you can only really do one thing. Stand there... your a tree for goodness sake... Geeezzz naw just kidding. I don’t get to have any fun do I... well ok... the truth is you do have to stand there. But, your not alone, you have done well with what god has given you. You now have to hold your ground against... you guessed it Mother Earth. She will send everything in her powers your way not because she doesn’t like you silly. Its because She has too much power and she doesn’t know how to contain herself. She is both pleasant and brutal. She can sent tornados typhoons hurricanes heat waves drought you name it she’s got it in her repertoire. Its her little way of playing weakest link. If you cant survive you are not fit to live. This is how she operates. Its one of those things you have to get used to.
Another maintenance thing is the harvesting of the ripe leaves and the removal of dead leaves. Pruning you can think. People thought for years that circumcision was a way of pruning... I guess Jesus had they’re number. And last but not least Follow the rule. Don’t eat from the apple tree! (what ever that means to you) I don’t believe in religion. I believe in the bible and God and Jesus. Other than than that it causes too much thinking that I could be using to name things like Adam.
Lastly I want to talk candidly about something dear to me. I call it soul explosion just cause it sounds cool and manly. ha ha. But it is a fact of life for me. Lets take the scenic route... shall we ... Lets. Where I grew up on the north side of Omaha Nebraska if you ejaculated in on or around a woman we called it "busting a nut" I know its ghetto but hear me out. I could have said busting a ejaculate vain but it looses its flair. An in all fairness if a woman climaxed to orgasmic proportions it is still called "Busting a nut" This terminology is funny and futuristic to me because of the growth hormones I've fed it. I feel like people often bust nuts for the wrong reasons. Some people get off on killing people just to establish themselves in a certain neighborhood as dominant. I call this busting a hate nut. Some people get off on treating people like slaves because they are in a position of authority in they’re status or career. I call this busting a master/slave nut. Some people find they’re husbands in bed with other women and divorce them and take they’re money and they’re manhood. I call this busting a jealous nut. Some people are judges by nature thinking they have the right to take time away from you because they wear a robe and some politicians or police have gainful interests. I call this busting a gavel nut. For some reason Some people get extreme pleasure from the weirdest things and if they explain it you. You often hear this phrase "its better than sex" And to them I bet it is. I would say I busted a soul nut. You can call it a soul explosion or just a plain old busted a soul nut. I don’t care it feels great and it is limitless... do it. In the Baptist church they might call it the holy spirit and speaking in tongues. Its the equivalent to me. For a long time in church I would feel it coming and I would squint my eyes so it goes away and it usually did. Mostly because I didn’t know what it was and secondly I didn’t know how to control it. My first thought was that I was going to run around and look like a fool to everyone sitting in my immediate area. or I would say something strange uncontrollably weird and under the unction of the holy ghost. ( which totally scared me at the time because it was a gift from god and I felt blessed and it was a gift I didn’t need or I would misuse) So about the 5th time ever having this feeling over a span of about 15 years. I know what it feels like but I never quite understood the meaning or the significance of it. Then one day last year (actually Dec 31 2007 @ a church in California) sitting in the pew I busted my first soul nut. It was like nothing i've experience in my life. It was like something inside of the church told my soul "it was ok". "You can go your body will be cleaned and kept under supervision untill you return". (where this thought came from I had no Idea ) It was late at night and we were bringing in the new year at church. And the idea of leaving my body entered my mind as I felt the tingling surge run up my body like I was plugged into a lightning bolt. I left my body. (yep my first obe) The choir was singing and I went from sitting in my seat to hovering above my body attached to something like a cosmic umbilical cord. Went to hovering above me to above the church. Then from above the church to above the city the from above the city to the country then from the country to the globe and
into the dark matter of space right above the atmosphere of earth I stood there and looked back at the church and the umbilical cord looking thing was still attached to me some how. I looked up and saw nothing but stars. I could still hear the choir singing and the band playing cause were in sitting by the band. The music seemed to be coming out of my ears. I said a prayer. I said lord I love you and I know you love me. I came all this way to give you praise from somewhere I probably will never get to give you praise from again. Then I said to him this song this music they are singing it to you for your glory and yours only. I just thought I'd bring it closer for you to hear. (I was really scared because I didn’t know what to say all I really know is I was in space and I don’t know if god liked it or not)I said in the name of Jesus this is my prayer amen. Then the strangest thing happened when I re-entered my body I heard a pop like if you make a popping sound with your lips like that. (From the time of me getting the cue to leave and me actually hearing the popping sound was about 90 seconds roughly. I say roughly because I don't know I was more excited about what was going on than how long it took. But it was remarkably fast for where I went and what I did.) I had busted a soul nut. I didn’t tell anyone because It was weird to me. and really hard to explain. To me its like when you sleep and just before you wake up you remember your dream but when you open your eyes your dream is gone. When the voice(maybe it was my own voice or a variation of my voice but it was a familiar soothing voice. ) told me it was ok to go.... It was like the cleaning was starting and I didn’t necessarily have to be there. This cleaning I’m talking about is the cleaning of the house of my soul. My body which to me also happens when you sleep. And on a couple of occasion I have caught them trying to hide from me when They thought I could not see them. That’s how I know. I have a story about that one too. But I think the info here is enough to lead you on your way. What I am writing is the 100% truth. I wouldn’t waist my time to write it if It weren’t. I am not writing this to get a Pulitzer or to be on the best sellers list. This is for me and who ever reads this. This is a gem my gem my answers to the things I don’t know. This is my mint tree. This is the reason I can't afford to be wrong. This is why I am different than almost anyone I meet. This is why people say how did you get so smart and don’t have a college degree? Because I let that part go and gave them hands to god a long time ago. God is the creator and my father. I’m just proud to be stunting like my daddy lol. And no I don’t have a magnificent memory like Adam or the creativity to name 50000 (I don’t know the exact number so I used 50000 you can pick your own number.) animals. And no I don’t even know how to grow a carrot. But you know what. If I had to I bet I already know the answer. Knowledge comes from the inside out. You can learn the book. But if you don't utilize the information you are wasting your time. You can go to church but if you don't get a spoken word digested down in your soul. You are wasting your time. You can pray 40 times a day but if you don't add the principal of "works" your faith is still dead! Therefore it's a waist of time! You will not survive mint leaf if you don't innundate yourself. You can dream but if you don't control your dream your dream will control you! So lucidity is the key word to the dream world. Lucidity is subjective to what you eat and drink to what you think and what you know.
For instance if you drink a gallon of water before you go to bed. You will wake up out of your sleep or you will urinate on yourself or you will sleepwalk to the toilet, use the bathroom and make it back to your bed and still sleep. Either way eventually you will get to the point where you are in control and you are sleep at the same time. When you gain fluidity in this you will master your dreams. Mastery is needed because the soul does not sleep! The phrase. "behind every door is a
monster and behind every monster there is another door" this phrase isn't to scare you. It is a phrase that will help you to fight while you are asleep. Because believe me there are things that want to fight you. Once you conquer your fears with the monsters. They will go away and then there are nothing but doors. Then the occasional monster will mess with you but by then all you have to do is look at him and he will leave because he probably heard of your handy work. (I say he loosely it could be a shemonster too) This is where your education will begin. Here where there is no monsters and only doors. Each door will teach you something. The question is which door to open first. Most importantly is why this door instead of that door. I have to warn you though. Some doors have content behind the door that you aren't ready to see. Once I opened a door and saw myself as a child being mistreated. It stirred so many emotions I was devastated for the next week. Only because I was not ready to go back to that time. I opened a door that Ive not reopened since and probably will not ever open again. The best part is that if I accidentally reopen the door at least Ill be able to handle it. Which is what I learned from opening that particular door. Your body does an excellent job of hidings from your soul. When you find the things that are hidden. You can not. I repeat you can not deface or destroy the door or its contents. It is a part of you! To put it simply if you destroy the door the body would not need to hide if from you now would it. If the body is hiding things then its not sending monsters.
It took me about 20 years to master this but I was going in butt-naked with no teacher. I just gave you 20 years by telling you this much. The monsters like to lure you with things you like. Then they just mess with your mind making you think they will hurt you. This is why I think people have nightmares. People have nightmares in my opinion because they believe the monsters. And let the monsters seduce them or chase them or freighted them or control them. But me I just come in there like superman. With a look like I’m trying to act scared so they can get closer to me so I can do them all in at the same time. The first 20 years were weird because I didn’t care about the doors I just wanted to fight the monsters. I liked winning. I wanted them to loose all the time. So they did. And I felt great about it. I would pretend the monsters were people I know or disliked. You know make it interesting. I even woke up with a smile on my face sometimes because I know I killed 20000 monsters in the 8 hrs I was asleep. You can say I was cleaning my body the place my soul rests. But there again... sometimes there is no monster behind the door just another door. This is when you have killed all the monsters. and they will take a while to get to your current location and your objective is not to seek and destroy it is to obtain information. It is to take the information from where it currently is and bring it to the forefront of your mind so you can clearly inspect it upon waking up. Makes you wonder sometimes am I dreaming or is my dream dreaming me? Once in a while you sleep in close quarters with someone and they’re dreams and your dreams sync. It sounds weird because it is weird. It has happened to me 2 times that I can vividly remember. The first time I was asleep with my girlfriend and we had fallen asleep after making love. What is unique to me is as I slept In my sleep I was reenacting the love scene that I had just accomplished with my girlfriend. We both were naked in the bed and for some reason I woke up and we were making love i mean physically making love we both climaxed and fell back to sleep without saying a word to each other. When morning came we both looked at each other like how did that happen? I told her about my dream and she laughed and said I did the same thing when I went
to sleep. I know this may seem odd or normal to some of you but to me. I Am a light sleeper for one and 2 I love sex. My body had a sexual experience without me even knowing about it until I was well into the process. That is not normal for me. 3rdly This is the only time this has ever happened to me. And there has been more than 1000 chances for that to happen. ( a guy can't catch a break these days I tell ya )
The second time was when I went to Jail for 62 days for some Bull. I was in a cell with someone who lets just say had some serious issues going on in his skull. I had a dream some woman tried to pin me down and rape me..... And you know the saying you cant rape the willing. Well I was willing at first then something told me to look at face because something doesn't settle well with me about this lady. (i have used this trick before... and it works for me. If I am dreaming and something feels weird about a person in my dream I look them in the face or eyes. Usually you can tell if they want to cause you harm or not.) Well I looked her in the face and she had a body that was 100% good but she didn’t have a face just a skull with green lights coming out of the eye holes. When She realized I had saw her she tried to choke me and some other monsters jumped in and tried to help her choke me. I jumped out of my sleep and my cell mate jumped out of his sleep at the same time. He said Man I don’t never dream but I just had a nightmare. He said I dreamed I killed my wife and my kids. I told him what I dreamed and I told him what to do. I said pray and ask Jesus to watch over you as you sleep. I said make sure you say the name Jesus. because monsters are hard-headed until you say his name. We both went back to sleep. In the morning he thanked me and we talked about it a little more and I realized that His monster was attacking the both of us. True Story. And yes they will try to have sex with you. It doesn’t hurt you It just slows you down until the more powerful monsters get over your way. But the more powerful monsters are slow and big, but none the less slower the bigger they are for some reason. The quicker ones gang up on you and try to trick you into staying where you are. Sneaky little monsters. What’s odd to me is (another true story) The things that happen to you while you are awake. I met a lady who told me her name was Vanessa the first day I met her then on the second day I found out she lied to me. But Well call her Vanessa. I was in Vanessa's house and for some reason I felt like the ground was always moving like a train passing bye or something like that. The ground would shake the walls would shake the TV would fuzz in and out the refrigerator would stop buzzing and then start back again. I noticed it the first day I was in her house. I didn’t say anything about it for about 2 months. then to save money on rent I moved into her 2 bedroom house with her and her son. The weirdness got weirder when I moved in. I would lay on the sofa and It felt like something was breathing on me. I moved from the sofa to the bed in the bed room and I still felt like 2 nostrils was breathing on me. The odd part is the day I figured out that it was a monster. Vanessa her son and I were sitting in the living room eating dinner. And to me It felt like a huge Bison ( I say Bison because of the way everything moved and the two nostrils) was running back and forth like it was trapped in the house. And it would run from room to room just running. Not bothering anyone just running from the living room to the kitchen to the bedrooms to the bathroom back to the living room. back to the kitchen and so on. This particular evening while watching some movie eating chicken. the Bison began roaming and breathing and roaming and breathing. It was so strange and repetitive that instead of us eating and watching tv we were watching the Bison all 3 of us nobody saying a word. Just all three of our heads would go left then right then left then right then left then right. I looked at Vanessa and her son. And That’s when I realized that It wasn’t just me. And they have been living in that house for about a year before I moved in. The next morning I woke up to nostrils breathing on me. I said thats it. So in a nice
and calm manner i walked through every room in the house and told the monster that it was OK to leave and that we love Jesus and that we just want peace. GUESS WHAT. The monster left. We lived in that house for about 8 more months and the monster never came back. What’s yet and still amazing to me is me asking Vanessa does anything feel different about this house. She kept saying No! It feels like the same old house. I never told her I asked the monster to leave. for one she would have denied anything that I was talking about. And 2 It was just so weird I just wanted to forget about it. But It shows the difference between people. Some people acknowledge monsters. I acknowledge them when Im sleep and when Im awake. The question is How do you learn from these experiences? I now know that the world is more complexed then we think it is. You might read a book and realize curtain aspects seem to be fundamental. But when you experience monsters while your awake. Those books don’t mean a thing. You may think you know the limits of your existence but yet again you have no idea. I was a BD (behavior disorder) student all my life. Ive through and through adversity. But I always told myself that this isn’t the end. I was a BD student but my teachers always knew I was smarter than I appeared. I would tell them the truth so much that it scared them. Like when I told them how I passed tests. I would read the entire book the or chapter the night before tests. I would dream about the tests and the answers. And I would usually get a 92% to 100% on my tests. But the draw back is that in a couple days I wouldn’t remember the answers and if I had to take a retest I would get a lousy grade. I told my teacher that that was what I was doing and she laughed and said it was impossible. I just laughed at her cause she inadvertently called me a genius. I never took homework home I never did homework I just did the tests. And passed all the tests. Of course they accused me of cheating the majority of the time. mainly because I was a BD student. And they thought to themselves how can a BD student get normal grades of an A student but be so disconnected to class. To me It was the system I hated. It was public school teachers rich kids jocks cheerleaders. I liked none of it because if you had money you got good grades. Secondly I liked my BD classmates. They were all slow and challenged with real learning disabilities and I would help them. Even though I didn’t even bring a book bag let alone a book to class. I knew that they got treated bad by students and faculty so I wanted to befriend them. Cause I felt just as outcasted. Except I was outcasted for not being rich. eventually I began to like being a BD student. because ALL of the class work was easy. even until I graduated and yes I graduated as a BD student. What I bet my high school probably would hate to hear is that I got a 4.0 through college when I went to get my EMT certificate. That was my little way of showing that I was smarter than I looked. Oh yeah the entrance exam to the community college I went to I got a 98% and I could have skipped any prerequisites or core classed I wanted to. But since I like helping people and saving lives I chose to do the EMT thing. which is hands on I like hands on.
Sometimes things speak to you sometimes you can just read them. Other times you have to journey to another planet to get to the next door. but believe me its all worth it. because I have been told some things I still don’t understand but I refuse to forget the message because they eventually become helpful. Like for instance I was walking past a chalkboard in-between shooting monsters in the head with a sawed off that never ran out of ammo. The chalkboard read verbatim "the weight of the water of the world is in the deep" I got this lil tid bit of information about 6 years ago and I still remember it. It wasn’t until last year when I read excerpts of the gospel according to St Thomas who said he got a message from god saying "In Thomas v. 77 where Jesus said, I am the light that shines over all things. I am everywhere. From me all came
forth, and to me all return. Split a piece of wood, and I am there. Lift a stone, and you will find me there, " not word for word but it is nearly the exact same statement. In short they both told me that no matter where you look god is there period. the message I got said the weight (heaviness) of the water(a commodity unlike any other in the universe) of the world (everything that exits) is in the deep (is anywhere and everywhere at the same time). Which is gods way of saying to me. You will never loose sight of me... no matter how hard your try or don’t try! The funny thing about St Thomas is that his gospel is in the bible. Can you smell the mint yet? I know my ideas may seem to you like someone needs to put down the happy juice. But to me this is real life. I think if you don’t get at the monsters while you are asleep they will get at you while you are awake.
I had an awful experience of that happening when I had an argument with a fellow over a parking spot and instead of him just backing up I saw flashes of myself bashing his head against the hood of his car every time a word would come out of his mouth I would bash his head. he had me blocked in I was stuck there and I had to listen to him until he got in his car and left... finally. but for a split second I did entertain the idea of smashing his head on the hood of the car. I think he saw this in my eyes and got the point to leave because he left without incident moments later. This is still a lucid dream but instead of you being asleep you are awake. And the monster tried to attack you. but you had to deal with him in the opposite way in the conscience world. because there are "rules" called laws that will get you locked up for assault and battery or just battery. So save that for the monsters when you go to sleep. That’s when you can kick butt. When they attack you during the day. You have to play by different rules. or rules period because when you are asleep there are no rules.
I’ve heard people call it Dream Yoga. I laugh because When I dream I’m Bond or someone like that stealing info and beating up the bad guys. I’m not sitting with the lilacs and sucking on a mushroom. I’m getting busy rocking and rolling. I’m doing Dream Karate or Dream bare knuckle fighting. Awake you have to do what you have to do just to squeeze an inch out of life. while your asleep your soul can clean and dance. When you realize this point you will be 100% better in everything you do. I used to do the sleeping with the pencil and pad next to the bed. But I would still forget before I could get my hand on the pencil. that’s when I did the alarm clock thing. That’s when you wake yourself up 2 hrs earlier every morning this is when I first realized that the monsters were there. Then the next day I opened a bunch of Bic lighters and put them in my bed and slept with them. with one in hand I fell asleep. Don’t be afraid of the lighter they are child proof so you wont accidentally set yourself on fire for this exercise.
Amazing enough While I was asleep I found a need for them because it was dark and I need a light and I said to my self Ill use one of these lighters and I used one. I saw that I was knee deep in monster hell. Then, I said to myself thank god I brought this sawed-off shotgun with unlimited ammo. The first one touched me on my shoulder then I blew his hand off. I went on a terror spree like the chainsaw
massacre. Turning the scene into a monster meat extravaganza. I woke up laughing in the middle of the night cause of the water I had to pee. But all the way to the restroom I was laughing because I couldn’t wait to get at some more monsters. Sick huh, but it sure is a lot of fun. Beats just laying there with my eyes shut looking at my eye lids any day (or night) ! It all started with my desire to infiltrate me. I acting upon it. I prepared myself for it. Then 20yrs later I’m able to bust soul nuts. What’s amazing to me is I have more dreams that I remember than dreams I somewhat remember or partially remember. I can tell you about a dream I had 15yrs ago and you can ask me in 10 years the story will be the same. That’s how powerful your dreams can be.
To all the people who don’t understand me. No they don’t teach this in church or in theology class or in any dream class or at any institution of higher learning or in any volume of books or on he net. You cant Google this. Trust me I’ve checked. Secondly no im not mentally challenged or a savant or have bipolar or suffering from some awful chemical reaction to the lead based paint or something. It is how I became to be me product of my environment and all. I grew up in a broken home my father was an abusive marine. Poverty is a cold piece. But even with all this you cant dictate change. You cant dictate development of the soul. This is something that has to be experienced. Wish fulfillment it may be. Freud aint here so I cant ask him at the moment. This is how you sound when you and your soul are connected. This is the world that awaits you when you close your eyes and let go. This is your world. I’m not saying that all that has happened to me will happen to you. All I am saying is give yourself a chance and see what the other side is like.
I'm not talking about witch craft or works of the fallen angels. Or being able to be an angel for a day. Or anything foolish like that. I want you to experience what it feels like to let go and let god. Cliché I know but you cant knock it till you tried it. This is me I have been like this for over 25yrs so get used to it. And no I don’t suffer from dementia or any other disorder of the frontal lobes. I am perfectly healthy. I just desire different things than what you desire. I mostly desire to become one with god. Secondly I desire knowledge and wisdom Last but not least I desire love. I’m not perfect by any means. Im not a preachers son. I’m not the dream weaver or the "double walker" (I got a visit from double walker in a dream though... this dream and his message changed my life. Double Walker was an Native American. )
The combination and order of these things are very powerful. Which makes me unique. I enjoy being me. I dont mind being me. I wouldn’t want to be anyone else in the world. The truth is that if people were more like me they would have no need for trivial things like war. Like a capitalist society. you know stupid things. There would be just Doors aka opportunities to further development and the monsters will be extinct. I call them monster you can call them demons spirits or what ever. To me its just another monster or another form of a monster. And Last but not least I am not a Psychic or Medium or Clairvoyant. Or anything else I am tuned in to me and gods frequency. I don’t talk to dead pets or anything
like that. I just believe in something more than what my body is capable of. My body to me is trying to go one way and my soul is trying to go another way. This is a constant battle I have within me. Like with the Sex or the partying. Or the overworking. or the goals of financial security these are all the things people say they NEED to survive. People say they need to drive a curtain automobile or they need to live in a curtain area or in a curtain style of condo. Your soul only needs one thing. That is God. There are things that the souls wants for good reason like cosmic energy. Cosmic energy is something people who are in tune with they’re souls look for. Sun energy is a good source of cosmic energy. but there are other sources. Like Water and Food. If you dont understand cosmic energy and what detritus is than I suggest you read up. Because this is like the gasoline to the energy of your soul. Souls with no energy are like cars running on fumes. Souls with energy and a clean capacity are like the launch pad at nasa. Church is a good source of cosmic positive energy. I go to church for this reason and one other reason. Because someone told me GOD frequents churches. So If god is there then that’s where I want to be. The RELIGEON of the church is a whole different subject with priest molesting kids and the Templars now suing the church. They have been doing dirty business for a long time now. But what can you do? Like I said My name is Jonah I have been connected to Jonah in the bible my whole life. I meet people they say what’s your name I say Jonah they say Oh like Jonah and the whale. I just look at them. Then they realize to themselves that they’re epiphany was far from. But this connection has led me to some monumentous events in my life. Like the more than 10 times I was almost shot in the face from point blank range to being just across the room to just from the corner. God has blessed me and I intend to count my blessings as long as possible. To me the only people who see miracles are the ones who weren’t afraid of adversity and stood there long enough to witness gods mastery. I have seen with my own two eyes things greater than any fiction. I have also seen some things with my own two eyes that would shake the bones of a penentery lifer. The Happy medium is found when you trust your instincts. And never quit trying to achieve greatness. Greatness is attainable to those who aim for it in such a way that it amazes even SELF. …To be continued
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