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Chapter One: My life in the beginning Well I guess the beginning of my life should start from when I was conceived and the struggles that were present before I was even born. I was born on July 6th of 1974 to my parents, my father Robert Griffin Priest at the young age of only 30 and my mom Peggy Lucille Tidwell of a young age of 28. My life story is one that some people would either read about in books or see on a lifetime movie on a national tv station. I was born to what you could call any normal parents when they were younger, of course age and other worldly things affected their lives and mine and my sister's drastically. My name is Angela Lavelle Priest born only minutes after my dad's birthday was over. See my father was born on July 5th of 1944, and was told all his life by my grandma Mae that she bought him from the black market. This was not a big deal in the early 40's because single women just didn't have children out of
wedlock in those day's. My mom on the other hand was born on September 7th of 1946 to an alcoholic father and a mother whom abandoned her and her two younger sister's before my mom even turned 9 years old. Both of my parents had difficult childhoods and went through alot just to make it in the 50's and 60's. My dad never finished school so he could barely read or write. My mom went to school but she never finished either when she was suppose to because she had to help raise her younger sister's which included her middle sister my Aunt Bertha and their youngest sister my Aunt Joyce. Everyday after school all of them had to go into the fields and pick cotton as their daily chores. I know some people may call this stereotypical because we were born in the south but believe me it wasn't something that just slaves were made to do in the southern states. My mom's and dad's generation did their share of back breaking labor to help support their families, or rather contribute to the households. My mom at the young age of 14 married her first husband to get away from her abusive father and now new step mother, so she could make a life for herself. She married a guy by the name of Danny. Their marriage didn't last a total of six months because he complained that my mom didn't even know how to
make biscuits to his liking. Sounds pretty ridiculous I know but in those days things this simple was not that simple and they separated. It took them 3 years to finally get a divorce. Shortly after my mom's divorce from Danny she ran into my dad and they were married rather quickly after that. My dad at the time was not working because he was taking care of my grandma so when he and my mom met he got the first job that would take him which was a job at sears. My dad was and has always been a very hard worker so when he and my mom married they moved into their first place off of Levi Road in Memphis Tennessee where my dad would walk to work everyday. The years started out pretty good as I stated before and in December of 1965 my mother had a baby boy that was named after my day, Robert Griffin Priest the second. It was bad though because my brother was born with spinal cancer and dies a short time after he was born only, four months and four days after he was born he died. My mom says she remembers it well because it was around easter when he passed. The loss of my brother has and will always haunt my dad but two years after my brother's death my mom and dad tried and became pregnant with my sister which was born on March 13th of 1967. They named her Robin Renee. They were
There were times he would even take me with him on his sexual excapades with not just one but several different women. What was so upsetting for me was that my dad was never discreet with his cheating on my mom. My dad started drinking on a more regular basis and started cheating on my mom on more than one occassion. this 4 .happy and continued on with their life as any other normal family would. This is when problems began to develop more on a regular basis with my parents. He was an over the road driver starting out which put somewhat of a strain on my mom and dad's marriage because he was never home anymore. When seven years later they found out that they were pregnant with my mom's now third child. Once I was born my dad worked the docks for a little over a year and got his truck driving license which made it accessible for him to drive a diesel truck. my mom and dad decided that my mom should stay home and tend to me and my sister on a regular basis. which turned out to be me. He went so low as to once put me in the same bed with him and a woman he was having sex with. This is when my dad his job at Yellow Freight on the docks loading and unloading trucks. my dad had several other jobs and my mom even started working once my sister was born.
So every time I was alone with my mom I would tell her of the things I seen and heard while dad was suppose to be doing other things. I always thought I was too young to remember. It was once this tactic didn't work that my mom decided to call it quits on a marriage of seventeen long years. This was just the tip of the iceburg. he began to become abusive to my mother and stayed drunk now more on a regular basis. and once I was asked all I said was I wanted to stay where ever my sister stayed.is one instance that still brings me nightmares of my childhood. My sister at the time being seven years older than me of course said my dad. especially when you were as young as myself. My mom even tried to talk him into going to marriage counseling but my dad would always say he didn't need no counselor telling him what was wrong with their marriage. but when everything started to fall apart with my mom and dad he stayed drunk as much as possible. I was not allowed into the courtroom during the divorce proceedings but me and my sister both were pulled aside and asked by the court who we wanted to live with. If he wasn't drinking then he was at work or saying he was going bowling which at one time he did do. 5 . Court proceeders was not for children in the 70's.
David was not much better than my dad had been so my mom and David didn't last over 2 years of their 6 . I was way to young to even been asked the question in the first place and my sister at the time was looking at it all in the wrong perspective. because my mom had to establish herself a new life without my dad in it to care for her. I was small but I saw and heard everything that was going on in my home and wished everyday that I had went with my mom even though I knew I would have done without the things my dad was so capable of giving me but that would have been alot better than what I had to endure. my sister tried to shield me the best way she knew how. A couple of years later my mom remarried to a man by the name of David Hamm and she then in August 20th of 1982 had my younger brother.Little did either of us know that this one question would mark our fate with a man that should have never raised or rather try to raise two daughters on his own. My dad had several different girlfriends that he often brought into our home and was none to discreet about it. So after their divorce my mom went her way and we went to my dad which was something at the time my sister thought was the right thing for both of us. Neither of us knew what the next following years would bring us.
My mom raised my brother with all the love and guidance she could and he turned out better than he ever could have. So my mom now had a newborn son and was now single again. Chapter Two: The Day My Sister Left Me All Alone To Fend For Myself and The Following Years I Did What I Had To Do To Make It Living With My Dad My sister helped raise me until she got pregnant at the early age of 17. Him and his wife Dee are two very hard workers and take pride and care in their life. She had to start her life all over again because now she had my younger brother to take care of. Once she found out she was pregnant with her first child Stephanie Mae. Gabriel 7 . he is a strong man with now a family of his own with a 4 year old daughter and a newborn baby boy. Remember this was still the early 80's and a single mom was just not as well accepted as it is today in our society. I admire my mom very much. My mom did get her life together and raised my brother with her instincts and knack of hard work to get what you deserved. her and her boyfriend at the time by the name Steven W. she is a very hard working woman and has a heart of gold.marriage.
Yes my dad before had never whipped me like he did my sister. I loved my dad but I feared him so much I never liked him and still to this day can say that I don't like my dad what so ever. To my relief and I think to my dad's also he had me so mentally scared of him he never had to whip me but a total of maybe 3 times my entire time I remained with him. I was only 10 by this time and I felt as if my sister was leaving me behind to deal with a now even worse dad than we had several years earlier. but I didn't know what it would end up like once my sister was once gone and out of the house. I know that sounds pretty bad but people think that someone that is physically abused is worse than mental. I now understand why she decided to leave but it still didn't help me feel any better. He is my dad yes but that doesn't give him the right to frighten his children into doing what he feels is right. I knew that the following years would test me to the point that might scar me inside if not even outside for my entire remainder of my life. I could be sound asleep in my 8 . let me advise those of you that don't know this mental abuse lasts a whole lot longer than the physical does.decided to get married only 3 months after my sister found out she was pregnant. This devastated me. I can give you a great mental picture of how afraid of my dad I actually was.
She had 3 younger kids of her own that came with that marriage that was so surprising to me that it shattered my world all over again. I was uprooted from my own room which had been mine ever since I was little and I was placed out of my own bed and had to start sharing a bed with her youngest which was my now step sister 9 . But that is enough of the sad story of my fears of my dad he did provide for me. I was now about 13 when Nancy and her 3 kids moved into my home that my dad had made for me and him and eventually everything that was once mine she tried and accomplished taking from me and let her kids use or take possession of. My dad did finally remarry to a woman by the name of Nancy.bedroom just down the hall from the living room and when it came to my dad all he had to do was raise his voice and call my name in the mornings and I would sit up so quickly out of a sound sleep that you would think that I was simply just waiting there in my room for his wrath to come upon me. I feared my dad that is way different than respecting him. That is not the way a child should be when it comes to their parent or parents. Love and encouragement was the things my dad lacked in giving me. anything I wanted as a matter of fact but it was all material things.
Nancy was a very greedy woman though and I didn't start to realize this until I was given something that my sister's new husband had made for me. See I am half Cherokee and Choctaw Indian from my mom's side. I finally had someone to talk to. So my temper once it gets to that boiling point is very hard to control and she had just stepped over and I mean 10 . I was now 15 and was already getting pretty sick of all of my things being taken from me so her kids could use them or whatever she wanted to do with them.Angela Nicole. It was this day that I even shocked myself. She looked very shocked by my display of defiance against her she grabbed me by my arm with her long nails digging into my skin and told me that she would whip me if I didn't do as she said. to do things with and to have fun with. I told her I had been gracious in the past by just standing aside and letting her kids take over my things as if they were theirs but this was something I was not going to take anymore. I stood up to her and told her no that she wasn't letting her oldest son use what had just been given to me. It didn't bother me at the beginning but it was new and I had been alone for so long that the kids being their made life with my dad a little easier for me. also from my dad's I have Cajun and French mixed within me also. That was when my temper got the best of me.
I had already called her and asked if I could come to live with her and she never hesitated she told me that I would also and had always been welcome to come and be with her. she was now remarried to a wonderful man by the name of Bobby Joe Wilson and they lived in Brighton Tennessee. It was just that until I turned 15 that I was able to do it without my dad giving me any grief or even my mom as a matter of fact. My dad got home and I ran to him crying because I was so mad that my life had turned out so horrible since his marriage to Nancy and I told him what she did 11 . I had been thinking about it ever since the incident occurred earlier that day with Nancy. That evening my dad came home and I already knew what I was ready to do. He then told me that we would discuss it once he got home. He also told her that she better not touch me. so I handed Nancy the phone and he told her the same thing. which totally pissed on her parade. She was so mad she called my dad and told him her side of the story. I told her that I hoped she tried to lay a finger on me because if she did I would knock her off of her ass and not think twice about it. I was going to go and live with my mom. I got on the phone and told him mine.way over the enemy line and into dark water's she really didn't want to be in.
Once outside he could already tell by my actions what was coming and he says in a low voice that you want to go and live with your mom don't you and I started to cry. Yeah I know my dad was a hard person in many ways but knowing what I had been giving up those few years to Nancy and her kids was enough for anyone to take. He was implying that he wanted me getting into a fist fight with her or anything like that but he made it very clear that if she had grabbed him like that then he would have felt the same way I did and would have probably knocked her for a loop. My dad was also finally getting sick of her selfish ways too so when he walked into the house and Nancy opened her mouth he told her to shut the hell up and listen as carefully as she could.to me and even showed him my arm where marks still were visible of her digging her fingernails into me trying to make me compliant to her demands. After this conversation with me and Nancy in the same room I asked my dad to step outside because I really needed to talk to him. I never lived with my mom after they got 12 . not exactly it was everything in general. I told him that it wasn't him. He told her that I had every right to knock her on her ass for even touching me and that if he ever saw any marks on me from her again then he would let me take out my frustration any way I saw fit.
So he shook his head yes and gave me his blessings and told me that no matter what I would always be his little girl. see she was two years behind me in school and was a petite girl. I started to get more relaxed once my step dad's youngest daughter Wendy came to live with us. It was really strange for a while because I went from my former school Horn Lake High to enroll into Munford High School. I left my life long friends and a high school I had just started to become accustomed to. I now had someone that I could have lots of fun with. Chapter Three: Starting A New Life With My Mom and A New Way Of Life So I moved in the middle of my 9th grade year. I would put her makeup on every day before school and 13 . I didn't know anyone there which made the first year at my mom's and new step dad's sort of weird. I as slightly overweight so I would use her almost like my life size barbie doll. Myself totally different.divorced and I wanted to see what would my life be like if I did live with her for the remainder of my growing up years.
I started my 10th grade year like the year before not knowing anyone at my new school. I know this sounds sort of weird but it helped me feel better even though it wasn't me that looked beautiful and tiny I had Wendy that was all to eager to let me make her up and everything that made her look way older than she was. My brother Jeff was I think going into 2nd grade by this time and Wendy was going into her 8th grade year. but to my surprise I made friends in this school rather quickly. So once my 9th grade year ended my mom and step dad found land on the outskirts of Covington to buy that had over 2 acres of land and a double wide trailer on it.always help her pick out her outfits that I thought would look great on her. which meant that this was her last year of middle school. Then I met Kimberly Anderson and Wanda Rowland. These were my close knit friends until I graduated. So they bought it before school started and all of us moved in the summer before my 10th grade year of high school. We all were welcomed by the head 14 . I became friends with a girl by the name of Shannon Pierce and her boyfriend named Scott. because Scott which was Shannon's boyfriend whom at the time was a senior introduced all of us girls into the idea of becoming the football managers for the Covington Chargers team.
I didn't just enjoy Covington High just because of me being a football manager for 3 years but I also did very well academically there. So the summer before my 15 . and I made many friends went to dances and all sorts of things that were quite different than even my hometown. I was not a small girl and neither was Kim our first year but we were the only football team that had almost all girls as managers. Being a football manager I believe helped me out in that area. So thinking back at those days brings back many fond memories to me. but in Covington I was more popular than I even thought I was. In our 11th grade year we even went to the nationals because our football team was awesome. I had lots of friends in my hometown but I wasn't what you could say in the popular crowd. We had some the best players that Covington had to grace that field in several years. away and home game our players had. Since we were managers we got to go to every scrimmage. Being over weight in my high school years did hinder me when it came to boyfriends but I did have two between my 10th grade year and my 11th grade years. At the end of my 11th grade year I started realizing that I had to lose weight if not for my health then to also make me more appealing to the guys.coach of the team Coach Zurheln which everyone called Coach Z for short.
It was sort of weird how I did get my real first date that ended up taking me to my prom. I had taken my senior pictures the beginning of the summer after my 11th grade year and by the middle of my 12th grade year they didn't even look like me anymore. He was very interested in me and we began to date shortly after we meet. It was a guy and his friend that came to our house before summer hit that was there to install a central air conditioner for us that caught my attention. Many didn't have anything to say about that and that is why I didn't date anyone from my school after my drastic weight loss. He lived in Memphis Tennessee which made it kind of hard to see him but he came to get me as much as he could until I graduated and decided to move back into my dad's and 16 .12th grade year I lost a total of over 150lbs. I did get asked out by some of them but I made it a point to let them know that even though my outter appearance may have changed I was still the same person on the inside and that if they didn't like me or wasn't interested in me before why the sudden change. I started getting attention from several of the same guys that looked at me only as friend material only a few years and months earlier. I went from a size 22 to a size 7 by the middle of my 12 grade year.
Heck what 19 year old truly know exactly what they want to be for the rest of their life. But little did I know how much my life was about to change and in a major way. So the night of my graduation I had packed all of my things and moved back to Horn Lake Mississippi to start my new life. I did this because I wanted to go to college and Northwest Jr College was the school I had decided to attend. I was going to school regularly and 17 .my horrid step mom's house again. Chapter Four: My First Real Relationship Also Not Knowing That I Was Going To Have To Fight For My Life On A Regular Basis I was settling in at my dad's pretty well this time I was older of course and not as naive as I once was. I was going to classes daily but was still not quite sure what I wanted to be yet. not many let me tell you because I was not sure I even wanted to be in college yet. I was young and me and the guy that took me to my prom didn't last very long because me and him had very little in common so I waited a few months and entered into what I thought would be my new life by starting my core classes at Northwest. though I thought.
There were a couple of guys sitting at the bar while me and Angela were playing pool.enjoying being a new person. I spoke up load enough for him and her both to hear and said 18 . Being in a size 7 was something that was very new too me so I was not use to getting stares or asked out on dates. they on occasion looked in our direction but I didn't think much of it because Angela was a pretty girl I thought they were checking her out. We had been there for a while and were playing pool for what seemed to be a few hours. so when me and my step sister Angela went to the local pool hall I never knew what was headed my way. I didn't think anything of it I just assumed they were coming over to talk with Angela. They sat there for about 10 to 15 minutes until I looked up and seen both of them coming towards us. The other guy went directly to my younger step sister and started talking. I had no thought that the good looking long black haired brown eyed one was coming over to talk to me. See Angela was still a minor and I wasn't old enough to drink alcohol yet so this was the only place that we were allowed to go into that didn't care your age if you were going to play games. Then a guy with a black leather jacket long black hair and big brown eyes walks in and goes to one of the guys at the bar who had been watching us for a while.
James McCoy as a matter of fact. which made the bad boy image in my head 19 . I made it very clear I was more interested in the dark haired one more than his brother and he said oh well you got this one right out from under my nose because I've been scooping her out since I got here. and what is your name. And your last name by any chance he said and I looked like a deer in head lights and said oh Priest. He gave me the most charming smile I had ever seen in my entire 19 years of life. He reminded me of a rebel because of the black leather jacket and helmet he carried in with him I immediately knew he rode a motorcycle. The one standing in front of me extended his hand and introduced himself. He smiled a little bit and said so you must be older huh and I said oh yeah by about 3 to 4 years older than her and that's when the tall dark haired guy asked me so how old are you and I replied 19 just turned 19 in July why and he smiled at the other guy and told him sorry brother but it seems that I did pick the right one this time and him and his brother laughed as if they were betting on who would get me or what. I smiled and told him that my name was Angela too but everyone called me Angie for short.she is way to young for you sorry but you can talk to her but she doesn't leave my side. Hello he said my name is James.
It was getting late and it was getting close to Angela's curfew and I knew that I had to get her home on time or I would never be able to take her out with me again. I didn't really have a curfew but my dad did say that he wanted me home before midnight so I told James and his brother that we would have to be getting home soon. That was when James pulled me into the corner of the pool hall and grabbed me and kissed me so hard and demanding that I thought I would faint. He made sure to be as close to me as he could get without actually holding me within his arms each chance he got to get near me. So after the introductions were over we all started playing pool at the same table. I never knew that this guy was the devil in disguise. He took no time at all to become very close to my personal space.look very tempting. he whispered to me that I could get my step sister home and that he would come to get me at my house by midnight and take me somewhere that we could be alone. well not really disguise but he was making me feel all right in all the good places that no one else ever had or did. My heart leapt into my chest because I had only 20 . This was so new to me I was over whelmed with fascination and awe that this good looking devil was actually trying to seduce me which didn't take very much coaxing on his behalf.
So I told him what do you want and his response was that he wanted to take me to where we could be all alone with no impending danger of my dad. He followed behind me so he would know where I lived and would come back in about an hour or so to see me again. The roar of the motorcycle seemed to stop right at the top of where my cove began and he walked his bike up to my house.dreams of a good looking guy like this wanting me to go off with him. the bad boy I so much wanted to get to know on a more personal and familiar level. I was so excited I didn't even know what to expect but he came over to me and took me into his arms and began to kiss me so much I thought I would drown. I put it on and then he told me to hop on behind him. He looked at me and said do you want to be bad or should we just stay here and I couldn't help myself I wanted to be oh sooo bad. We walked to the end of my cove he got on the front of his bike and handed me his helmet. so I told him to meet me at my address at midnight and I would be waiting for him. He pushed down 21 . once he pulled away from me his voice was deep with his desire for more than our kiss. I was outside by midnight waiting when I heard the motorcycle I knew belonged to James. I did and I was so excited because this was my first time ever riding a motorcycle.
on the pedal and the motorcycle roared to life. We got to a house I thought was his but I didn't find out till months later that he didn't have a permanent residence he stayed where ever he could and right now he was staying in his truck outside of his sister's trailer. So he rolled us a joint and we smoked it. being my first time I got so stoned I couldn't think straight and laughed at some of the most stupidest things now that I think back to that first time I sounded like a little girl laughing at Saturday 22 . It was mid summer and in the south if people don't know it is way warm enough to sleep in your car. Heck I was 19 and this was way too exciting for me to know all the warning signs that should have been going off in my head about this gorgeous guy. tent or what ever you had handy. James asked me did I smoke and I said well yeah cigarettes and he sort of laughed out loud. he took it slow out of the trailer park but once we got to the main roads and back roads he hit 75 miles and hour in no time. This was the first time I ever experienced in drugs and I mean any kind of drugs. He said no I mean pot you know marijuana and I sort of looked shocked and told him no of course not. Before we had left he told me not to worry that he would have me home before my dad got up even if it was right before daybreak.
I knew that night that my life had and was about to change on a very drastic measure. I was working and wasn't having to pay rent so I had lot's of extra money to support my drug habit at the time. He was all I wanted. Once we were through James started right into what I knew about from talks and a little experimentations of getting felt up while I dated a little in high school but this guy was much more experienced in this area than anyone I had ever been with before.cartoons. I started dwendeling more and more with smoking pot and was doing it on a daily basis and more than one time a day. It wasn't too long after I moved back with my dad that he divorced my 23 . We were dating now which should have also thrown up warning signs for me way before I started seeing them. I wanted to be with him every part of the day. Way wrong because the first time with James was the way my mom had explained to me years before and I never had an orgasm like what this guy was giving me. He was also much bigger than anyone that I had ever been with before so when I thought I had lost my virginity in the past boy was I wrong. He didn't just give me one on this first night before he took me home he had given me more than multiple orgasms and had received several for himself also.
I had a day bed so he had plenty of room to sleep under my bed and I had a skirt that went all the way around the bottom of the bed and touched the floor so he was hidden in case my dad ever tried to look into my room when I was asleep. I was still so young and stupid I didn't realize that he was a bumb and would and couldn't keep a job to support himself let alone help me if I ever decided to move in with him. So needless to say I dropped out of college. Little did I know just how evil this guy really was. because I was so in love at this time I did any and everything that James suggested to me. I was in love. I thought he was in love with me and being faithful to me. James had never been faithful to me. while seeing me 24 . so it started getting cold and since James had a motorcycle I told him to hid it in our back yard to where my dad couldn't see it and I snuck him into my house and he would sleep under my bed until my dad went to work the next morning. I felt as if things were going pretty good. Once my dad would leave for work he would climb up from under my bed and crawl into bed with me and tell me he wanted me in there with him all day.step mom Nancy. My dad and mom had met him and neither of them liked him so I had to sneak him in just so he had a place to sleep out of the cold.
Like I said because he wouldn't hold down a job I was working two jobs just to support the two of us. He would always take me out in my car off into places where no one would hear me and hurt and torcher me till I would bend to his will and become his 25 . I came home early one night and James wasn't there.when he wasn't with me he was either trying to manipulate another innocent girl or he was with another girl. It wasn't until I moved in with him that I started to see exactly what he was up to. I went to my next door neighbors house to ask if they knew where he could be and that's when I heard from the girl that lived next to us tell me that he was often out when he was suppose to be in bed with or what ever he should have been doing to be faithful to me. I did this for about 4 months till my body couldn't take it anymore. I didn't know what to do because he told me that he wouldn't let me leave him that he would kill me before anyone else could have me. This was one of the worst out bursts he took out on me and I became very afraid of him. I called him on it when he got back and he lost it he started hitting me and tried to choke me to death in the apartment I was killing myself to pay for. Little did I know then how far would he torcher me and hurt me just to be with him.
By this time I had been introduced to a guy by the name of Kevin by a friend of mine and we had started seeing each other. As soon as he knew what James who was now my ex and had been my ex for a while was saying he told me to come and move in with him. I didn't have to think about that very hard so I told him yes and within the next week I moved in with him. I did this because I didn't want James knowing 26 . He had major anger issues and it wasn't until I got away from him the final time I did that I truly saw how sick and twisted he really was. I know loving him was sick but I truly loved him with all of my heart he was my first love and wanted so badly for him to be good to me and do what a normal human would do if they loved someone but James wasn't normal.slave to mold. He was from Oxford Mississippi so he would come up from his house to where I worked at the time at a convenience store and we liked each other very quickly. The last time he threatened me that if he couldn't have me no one else could either was when I knew I had to get away and I mean as far away from him as I could or I wouldn't live. He would kill me and wouldn't bother him in any way what so ever. He had left his scars physically on me and mentally which took a while to rise from. The only people who knew where I had moved was my family.
I liked smoking pot and dropping acid more than the crystal meth but I did do the meth on more than on occasion.where I was and start any trouble. That was when I was first introduced to LSD and Crystal Meth. I can remember one night we went to a biker party at their biker lodge in Memphis one night and I remember someone giving me an extacy pill and I don't remember much of what happened that night. Things were going pretty good now for me and I got me a job in Oxford at a convenience store. My step sister Wendy eventually moved in with us and the partying got even more and the drugs we did was more frequent. All I can remember is that one minute it was night and the next it was morning. We started selling pot that we got from them on a regular basis. a bathroom a huge living room and a little area that Kevin was making into a kitchen for us. Everything was going great until I was introduced to some of Kevin's friends that turned out to be in a biker club from Memphis Tennessee. Kevin worked in construction and we lived in his bosses hunting cabin. We had many keg parties and other parties that entailed drugs with it but we always paid our bills. This 27 . well in the back part of the cabin that had two bedrooms. When we weren't working we partied and I mean we partied hard.
It was nothing that I didn't think I could handle at the time so I never thought I had become an addict of any kind of drug. Jason's expression mirrored the question he knew I was about to ask. how in the hell did you know where I was. All I remember is my mouth dropping open so wide a fly could have flown in and chocked me to death. So I was a little scared at first but I was also aching just to see him again. Isn't that crazy. Jason just smiled and told me that he wasn't the only one that knew where I was because James had been following me for months and knew where I worked.was pretty much all we did and I had started working for the biker families general store so getting our weekly stash was alot easier than I ever had to worry about it before. lived and alot of other things I didn't and I mean definately didn't want him to know. I know it sounds that way but in my defense I wanted to see him and mess with the girl he was now living with. So we keep doing the same old thing as we always did. I was in the middle of doing a sandwich for a customer not at all minding who walked in when my best friends husband walked in and said well how the hell have you been doing. I wanted her to get 28 . It was one sunny day though that I was sitting in my chair at the general store that my life was about to change again.
I knew Kevin would still be at work so it worked out perfectly. I didn't look at it as me doing the same thing to Kevin. So I knew I was going to be getting off of work really soon and I knew Jason smoked pot so I told him to wait till I got off of work and he could come with me to the house and we would smoke a couple of joints while would be pumping questions out of him about James. all I wanted was to let that bitch Cindy know how it felt to not know who James was sleeping with when he wasn't with her.a taste of being cheated on. I got off of work and me and Jason went back to the house. Wendy looked just like I had when Jason had walked into the store I worked at and she kind of looked at me and expected James to be coming in right behind Jason. He just laughed and told us that he was at work and he had to come to Oxford any way that is why he made his surprise visit. it just so happened he was working at a scrap yard in Horn Lake and he gave me the address and even a phone number to get in touch with him. So we got toasted and Jason told me exactly where I could find James. Wendy knew all too well what I was after and she didn't care she knew how much James had cheated on me and she thought that the bitch he was with know needed a dose of her own medicine. 29 .
so I drove to see my dad first and once I left I called James and he met me and I followed him to his job. I left that day very satisfied with myself and planned on making him part of my agenda when I did come up to see my dad.So I waited a couple days later and tried calling him and he answered and I told him that I was coming up to visit my dad the next day would he like me to stop by to say hi and we'd smoke a little and he said yes of course. Hell what a easy job he had he barely did anything so that gave me lots of opportunity to seduce him into sex. I don't blame him or anything but things were not going that well with us any way. He didn't even realize what I was doing but I did and I didn't just do one on his neck I had several placed on definate places she would see them and know what had happened. It was even any seducing to it he wanted it as bad as I did and I made sure I left my mark on him so that Cindy would definately know it. This went on for several months until I confided with my friend Dana and the bitch decided to blab it to Kevin so that ended the relationship I had with him pretty quickly. The next day was my day off and Kevin had to work so I told him I would be at my dad's all day and that I wouldn't be back till about 8 or 9 that night and he said ok. We had just 30 .
Chapter Five: More Drugs. I would go to a karaoke bar on the weekends or nights that I wasn't working and that's when I ran into the girl I once considered a good friend of mine's ex's. After we broke up I had to move once again back into my dad's house but by no means was I starting another relationship with James. He was not as well endowed as James by no means so it was getting harder and harder to stay focused on him. I already knew what type of person he was and heck we were happy with how things had become friends with benefits. I had met him when I was with James and on occasions had thought he was a good looking guy I was and have always been into the salt and pepper look and this guy had that and the most 31 .not been sexually compatible after a while and it began to take a toll on me to keep the relationship going. Travis Wayne Rodgers. Another New Relationship and The Birth of My Beautiful Daughter Desiree I was know living yet again with my dad and working at a convenience store again in Horn Lake. So I guess the end to that relationship was for the best.
He lit it and held it in for as long as his lungs would allow and then let it out. He came over looking to see if James was close behind and I told him not to worry me and James was no longer together and that is when he smiled so wide I thought I could hear his face crack. I noticed immediately how quick his eyes dylated. He lived in Memphis a few miles from the bar we were at.beautiful sky blue eyes I had ever seen. Then he looked at me and asked if I wanted a hit me not knowing what 32 . Before we got to his house he called one of his dealers and got something I didn't have any clue of what it was. We stayed there for a while and drank and sang karaoke until he asked me if I wanted to go to his place and I said sure. He opened the little plastic holder and pulled something out that looked like a piece of ear wax out and broke off a piece and put it into a long glass cylinder with something black that looked like a piece of something you would use to scrub your dishes with. He instantly forgot about the female that was suppose to be coming to meet him and he called her and told her he had other plans which I knew was going to include me. He just so happened to be at the bar one night I came into the bar. He was suppose to be meeting someone there that night but hell I was still small and he noticed me as soon as I walked into the bar.
So our relationship started out with drugs from the first night we got together. That first hit made my ears ring so loud I thought the fire alarm had gone off and he just laughed at me and told me that the first time hitting this stuff was always the best. We smoked as much as we could and as often as we could. We were sexually compatible and we both liked smoking crack and he knew I would help him get it when ever we wanted it. So he pulled out the other three he had bought and opened another one this time I told him I would like to try it and he put a good size chunck on the end and told me to hold the pipe up and enhale while he lit the end and I did. I then asked him what it was and he told me the street name for it was rock or crack cocaine. It didn't take me and Travis longer than a week before he was asking me to move in with him. Hell I worked at the store right across from our apartment and that made it so easy for him to come over and ask for money for it while was at work and I wasn't stupid I 33 .it was said no the first couple of times but having had my experience with crystal meth I could definately tell this stuff was pretty powerful to get your eyes looking like that after only one hit. As soon as I heard that I new that I was hooked and would have a hard time saying no to this no matter what I did.
Living in the area we lived in many of the dealers we bought from came in and out of my store on a regular basis. The moved in with us and I got a job for Cheryl at my store. I was training Cherly one night which was suppose to be my night off and Travis was furious because we had planned on smoking that night because we both had gotten paid that day. I had been working there for about 2 months when we ran into friends of ours Cheryl and Brian. So I noticed one of our dealers walk in that afternoon and I had just walked away from Cheryl now that she had a grasp on how to run the register and I was going out to the floor to check in the order from the Coke Distributor.always made him wait till I got off of work so that I wouldn't miss out either. Of course she smoked too. I thought I was hooked on crack before this one night but this one instance proved me so wrong. both her and Brian did so she wanted to see too so I told her to take care of the front first and I was going to the back 34 . I don't know what made me look but I glanced down and saw a bag full of what couldn't believe was in it. So I quickly picked it up put it into my pocket went over and checked in the coke order from the delivery guy and rushed behind the counter and whispered to Cheryl what I think I had just found and put into my pocket.
It had to be over five thousand dollar street profit worth I was holding in my hand. I called Cheryl into the bathroom so she could see and she got so excited she wanted us to leave right then and I told her we couldn't do that but we had enough that we wouldn't have to spend any money on any that night. That's when she told me she noticed a guy that had just been in and then he came back looking all over the floor. that's when I knew what we had was 100 percent the real deal. 35 . So we did try to stick with the being quite part until Travis started calling me at about 8 and we didn't get off of work till 10 that night so I told him to come to the store I had to talk to him.bathroom to make sure it was. I opened my pocket and when I opened my bag I saw so much crack that I thought I was going to faint. When he got there I told him that I would only do this if he didn't call me back on the business phone and bug me about it because he was going to make the next couple of hours we had left seem longer than they already were. I told her to not let on to Travis about me having all of this or we would never get any peace for the rest of the night from him or Brian for that matter. I got him to walk into the bathroom with me and I showed him the bag in my pocket and I thought I was going to have to pick him up off of the floor.
But once we got home we had enough that all four of us smoked till daylight the next morning. So he said ok and left without one other word. This is when I know how addicted I was to this drug. By the time I found out I was about 3 months pregnant which means I had been smoking while I was pregnant but that never stopped me. The drug was so powerful and it had complete control over all of us. I feel so about it now but I was so addicted and I was around Travis and now his sister names Cheryl who smoked it just as much as I did.Immediately he started with baby give me some and I promise I won't bother you anymore until you get home. I layed a big chunk into a piece of toilet paper and told him that if he went through all of that and started calling and bugging me before we could get off then that was all he was going to get. We started losing everything and that's when we moved in with my mom we had only been there for about 2 months when I found out that I was pregnant with my daughter. I didn't hear anything from him until we got off work that night at 10. I smoked the entire time I was pregnant with my little girl I am amazed she was not born with the addiction 36 . so it was something that I couldn't stop doing even though I knew it was wrong and could hurt my unborn baby.
and I mean she had nothing in her blood stream to get her taken from me by the state. I struggled for several years after this with my addiction to crack. I was far from done with the drug yet but at least my daughter was healthy and able to function like a normal child. Me and her daddy didn't last very long either because he decided to get with our across the street neighboor and get married to her before our daughter was even 1 1/2 years old. Got into major trouble with theft charges for going into stores and taking to support my drug habbit. I met a guy there and we started dating and dated for almost 7 years. I continued to smoke pot but that was the most I did after my last bout with the law in 1999 which made me realze that my daughter was more important than crack. 37 . no I'll say that I know that God had something to do with this miracle. After getting off of crack I started working at SlimFast in Covington working in the part of the warehouse where the order's were picked to be sent to stores or other areas of the United States. Because they had ways of detecting if a baby was or had drugs in their systems. My daughter was clean. I think. It took me till the year of 1999 to finally come clean and sober off of that drug.symptoms.
my probation fees and the cost of being on house arrest came to a total of over thirtyfive hundred dollars I had to pay to get myself out of trouble yet again. I got caught shoplifting and had to be on house arrest for 120 days which cost me eighteen hundred dollars and I was on probabtion for 2 years. It was during this last episode of being in trouble with the law that in August of 2008 me and my now current fiance have been completely drug free. In the year of 2006 me and the guy I don't care to name went our separate ways and I was introduced to my now love of my life. It feels so good to be free from the chains drugs and abusive relationships have put on me that living normal now is how I should have always been living.Chapter Six: A New Life In A New Town A Fresh Start For Me and My Daughter My sister talked me into moving to Boise Idaho in May of 2002 and I have been happily living here ever since then. We have been together since November of 2006. I did get into trouble one more time because we were still trying to mingle with smoking pot and not using our money for the right things. I became pregnant with my youngest child Dustin after I moved to Idaho. But I have 38 . The court fee.
What ever don't kill you only makes you stronger. Remember it will only make you a better person. The End 39 . Also don't ever try to forget about your past because many of us learn alot about what has happened to us.a saying that goes something like this.