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Every school has cliques, which I find unfortunate. In a normal
school, there are the Populars, the Jocks (the ones that always smell
like gym lockers), the Goths, the Geeks, and the Normals. And one oh-
so-normal girl was me. A junior in high school, I had blond hair that just
wasn’t blonde enough, glasses that were just a little out of style, and a
and boring.
forever…
I sighed. The same old me stared back. Same glasses, same hair,
My door was slammed open and two identical little boys ran into my
room.
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“Sash, can I-” the boys continued to demand requests of me until
the boys ask, won’t you? Remember what happened last time.” She
table, eating his usual raisin bran muffin and sipping his usual black cup
“Sasha,
I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I had a business trip. I’ll be gone for a
Love,
Dad.”
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I sighed. My father was always gone, away on business trips almost
a brand new workout outfit, “You’ll have to drive Tommy and Sam to
“Who else will look good for Andre?” she giggled and looked in a
nearby mirror.
eyes.
back. I am your parent now, and you obey me.” Jenna stepped closer,
a breath away. “When I tell you to jump off of a cliff, you jump off of a
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cliff. When I tell you not to cry, you don’t cry.” Jenna brought her hand
opened my mouth.
cheek from where Jenna’s claw-like nail had make contact with my
skin. All I could do was walk away, listening to Jenna’s quiet chuckle.
“How dare she! Who does she think she is? The ruler of all Pakistan?
That rat!”
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“No big deal?!” she jerked my face sideways and forced me to look
“I get your point.” I pushed Dallas’s hand away and walked out of
the bathroom.
scattering everywhere.
“Hey! Watch it!” I looked up to see a guy looking at me. Dark brown
hair brushed across his forehead, highlighting his bright blue eyes. His
features were edgy and sharp, his shirt pulled tight across his chest.
Reluctantly, I grasped it. Once I had stood up, the guy bent over and
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I suddenly covered my cheek with my hand. “No, actually.” I replied.
“Oh, well, that makes me feel better.” He smiled, lighting up his tan
face. “My name’s Chase, by the way.” he stuck out his hand.
“Chase.”
“He’s hot.”
I laughed. “Of course, Dallas. You just have to put that in there.”
me over.”
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“You have to admit, you think he’s hot too.” Dallas whispered to me
and grinned.
“Yeah, whatever.”
“Oh, come off it, Sash. You haven’t been in a relationship since-” I
cut her off with a deadly look. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have mentioned
it.” She paused. “But, Sasha, as your friend, I’m going to tell you that
you need to get over it. And I know you’re going to yell at me for
saying it.” I didn’t look at her. Didn’t move a muscle. I only waited until
the bell rang, grabbed Dallas’s hand, and dragged her into a nearby
broom closet.
words had taken me back to the past, a place I didn’t want to be.
Dallas stood her ground. “Sash, you’re just living in the past with no
way out! You have your mind set on sacrificing friendships and even
even Brian, just so you can stay in your comfortable little bubble.” I
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“People don’t stay away because I push them away. They stay away
wrong.”
me like there’s something wrong with me! Tell me people don’t look at
me and see a big, huge mistake! I just save myself the heartache.”
sit around on your sorry little butt feeling sorry for yourself! I did it
because I know what’s inside of you.” Dallas put her handover her
heart. “It doesn’t matter if some guy bruised you beyond recognition.
“Other people don’t think that. Face it, Dallas. They hate me without
even knowing me! I’m… I’m just the joke of the school!” I ran out of
the closet with tears streaming down my face. I leaned against the
lockers and covered my face with my hands. I felt someone slide down
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next to me and their hand splayed across my back. I opened my eyes
and say Chase looking at me, concern etched across his face. I closed
my eyes, wishing he was gone, but so grateful that someone was there
headache. Chase waited until I had stopped crying, his hand rubbing
back and forth across my shoulder blades. “Do you want a ride home?”
He finally asked.
walked to the school’s office, no doubt explaining how I didn’t feel well
Once the woman had signed both him and I out, he walked over to
We walked outside and the cold was like a slap in the face. I
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dwarfed my shoulders and smelled musty and rustic. The worn leather
“I don’t wanna talk about it.” I turned to the window and closed my
eyes.
“I’d tell you my address, but I know I’d feel even worse there,” I
confessed. “How about you take me to-” I rattled off Dallas’s address,
“I hope you don’t mind me asking another question, but I never did
road. “So, Sasha. Hmmm. Unusual. Where’d your parents get it from?”
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“My mom actually died in child birth, and with her last breath she
mean.”
I sobered. “Maybe. See ya, Chase.” I got out of the car and walked
up to the Clarkson’s front door and took a spare key out from under a
find Kath and Steve sitting at the kitchen table. Kathy got up, moving
close to me.
“Hi, sweetheart. Dallas called and said you’d probably come. She
also said to tell you she was sorry.” She gave me a sad look and
all chuckled.
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“Well, we’re glad to hear that. How about you change into
something of Dallas’s, grab a movie, and I can make you some tea.
Sound good?”
quick hug before running upstairs and slipping on a pair of sweats and
“A Walk to Remember, huh? Did you feel like crying even more?”
Near the end of the movie, Kathy and I were crying our eyes out and
Kathy turned around, her mascara making streaks down her cheeks.
“Stephen Clarkson, don’t tell me that you haven’t cried over the silliest
of movies.” She looked over at me. “This goober cried over Finding
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Dallas walked through the door, threw her backpack down, and sat
down on the other side of me. We shared a look and she wrapped her
arms around me, giving me a side hug. “I’m so, so sorry.” She said.
“So you’ll give the guy a chance? Even just to be friends?” I nodded
sighed. Dallas had gone home sick that day so I sat there, feeling like
everyone was look at me. I looked up from my food and directly across
from me, sitting at another table, was Stacey. Stacey Hillmeyer had
been in my class since second grade and had made it her life’s goal to
ruin my ife. Even in second grade, her evil mind had always been
coniving. We had a second grade play in which I was the lead role.
nervous that I messed up every single line. Needless to say, I had not
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She looked up and, since she saw me looking, decided to glare. She
got up and walked over to where I sat, her crew directly behind her.
“I’m talkin’ to you, Taylor.” She moved her face closer to mine. “Ya
hear me? Or maybe you can’t hear me over your loud hair. It just
Satcey chose to answer for me. “Oh, we’re better than fine.” She
gave hi what was supposed to be a dazzling smile, but hers fell a little
short of a clown’s.
but I glanced away, feeling awkward. “Where’d you get your good
looks?” Stacey flirted. I chose this time to see if what Stacey said was
true. Today, he had dressed in a collared shirt and a grey teed jacket
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with distressed jeans. His brown hair was again pushed to the side and
he eyes pierced mine. His six foot stature didn’t even begin to mask his
muscular build. Stacey and Dallas were both right. He didn’t begin to
disappoint.
surprising me.
Stacey?” I smiled sarcastically. Chase hid his grin behind his hand.
“I’ve had to deal with her since second grade. I think I’m fine.”
displeasure.
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“Glad you agree with me.” We sat in silence for a few minutes until
“Well, are we going to? Or do you think that I can’t handle it?”
“I don’t know, Chase. I mean, I don’t really know you yet, but,
loud, booming noise mixed with children’s laughter, and the smell of
popcorn and cotton candy wafted through the air to fill my senses.
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Spotting the Scrambler, I indicated to it and started walking towards
“Middle name?”
“Anne. You?”
“Owen.”
“Favorite food?”
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“Nachos.” I smiled. “Favorite sibling?”
boarded it and slowly the ride picked up speed. The only thing I could
think of was Chase’s closeness. His smell was intoxicating, his nearness
practically made me dizzy. It’s just the ride, I corrected, you hardly
We stepped off the ride and I tried to gain my footing only to collide
with Chase.
“Sorry!” I laughed.
minute. “If you go on the Ferris wheel, I’ll go the haunted house with
you.” I looked at him like he had grown a third nostril. “Please? For
me?” he begged.
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“Fine.” I mumbled.
gone on a Ferris wheel, I chided. You could back out now, you know. You
could just-
school subject?”
“Music appreciation.”
“What instrument?”
“Nice. I actually learned how to play piano when I was little but I
“That’d be nice.”
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“Ready?” he questioned, motioning towards the Ferris Wheel.
“As ready as I’ll ever be.” We boarded and I focused on the floor of
wheel’s path, when all of the sudden, the Ferris Wheel groaned to a
stop.
wide eyes.
“Sorry, honey. I can’t.” he slid closer to me. “Hey. Just focus on me.”
I look at him and tried not to gasp. The sun cast rays across his face,
causing him to glow. His nearness made me dizzy yet again. I tried to
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“Favorite childhood memory?” he asked. His voice was soothing and
“I have two: I would sit in my old clubhouse I made out of twigs and
write stories all the time. I would stay out there until eleven or twelve
“My father forced me to. He said that little girls don’t spend their
“I think that if you put your mind to anything, you could accomplish
anything you wanted.” He smiled at me. “I’m sure that you were
wonderful.”
“Thanks.” The carriage swayed back and forth, rocking like a cradle.
Suddenly, I no longer felt afraid. I felt as if I had always been safe with
Chase by my side.
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“Hey, Sasha, check this out.” I glanced behind us to see a
magnificent sunset spread out before us. “Always look for the silver
“Yeah, a little.”
“Then I shall make a habit of being so.” He grinned like a little boy
now.” He cleared his throat. “Have you ever heard about Jesus Christ?”
“I was taken aback. That had totally surprised me, leaving me sitting
there speechless.
“Yeah. I heard that the try to be morally righteous and they pray to
God and read the Bible. And that Christianity is the only religion that is
said to have a real relationship with Jesus. I’ve also heard the Easter
story and the Christmas story.” Where did that come from? I thought.
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“Right. You see, we believe that Jesus sacrificed himself for us
to enter into eternity through his death. The world needed, and still
God. Before Christ’s time, the world needed people to give animal
sacrifices to God as an apology for our sins. But now, we can have a
“I guess. So, I mean, a guy died for me? Because he loves me?”
“Also, there’s a spirit form of God, or the Holy Spirit, that lives in
your spiritual heart when you ask Christ into your life.”
“Oh. I think I get it.” I paused. The ride began to move again nd
there were several cheers, but they seemed distant and foreign.
“Sasha, what are you thinking?” my hand had been resting on the
seat next ot me, and he covered it with his own, an act that he would
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“I never thought about what I believed before. i mean, I know I
believe that God exists , but I still don’t know enough about Jesus to
believe lie you do.” I shook my head. The Ferris wheel came to a stop
when we hovered over the platform. Chase offered me his hand and
what happened. I explained how I didn’t have any other friends excdpt
“Then she brought up one point.” I waited a few minutes unti the
man I didn’t even know.” Chase moved closer to me and wiped away
time, my dad worked for a shady guy and I knew something bogus was
going down. Well, when I started wlking towards the houe, a man
came out of the bushes and put a gun to my head.” Tears were
streaming down my face, but I closed my eyes and kept on going. “He
demanded I give him the mail, and I knew there was something
important in it, so I refused,. He hit me over the head with the gun,
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dropped it, then continued to hit me with his fists on my face and on
my abdomen. He took the mail, stood up, and when I was laying there,
father ran out at the sound and drove me to the hospital, where they
discovered that he had made a blood clot in my head and the bullet
was still lodged in my shoulder. The medics did two surgeries to try and
stop the bleeding and to extract the bullet. I couldn’t even see out of
“I’m so, so sorry.” Chase put his arm around my shoulders. “That
“That’s why I’m hesitant about this,” I motioned back and forth
Chase backed up some. “You know, you don’t have to-” Chase
I stopped him with my hand. “No. I need to do this. For me.” I closed
my eyes. I don’t know how long I sat there, but when I opened them,
Chase was crouched in front of me, water bottle in hand. I took a sip,
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“Are you okay?” his face was etched with concern.
“You what?!”
“Oh, this is just great! You go home sick one day and you miss
“Well, I told you to give the guy a chance, and the next day you’re
on a date!”
“Yeah.”
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“Yeah, Totally freaked out about my house, by the way.” I chuckled
home.
“Did he pay?”
“Yes.”
“That’s beside the point.” She cut in quickly. “Look at the facts!”
came over us. I walked out of my room and down the stairs into the
Great room. My house, well, mansion, was eerily quiet due to Jenna
friend’s. Settling into the sectional, I turned on some quiet music to fill
the void.
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“Nothing would please me more.” I waited for Dallas’s arrival, eager
The drive home had been pleasant enough. We made small talk,
was a senior this year, he found out about my stepmother. I found out
Things really got interesting when the car stalled out. We puttered
to a stop along the side of the road. To make matters worse, splatters
of rain danced across the windshield. We sat there in silence for a few
my house. We got out of the car and started jogging. Within minutes,
we were soaked to the bone. Chase had taken off his shirt, which was
more the reason that I was shivering rather than the rain. We arrived at
my house dripping with condensation. Still, that did not prevent Chase
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“What on-” he stepped through the doorway, his Converse making
“Hold on just one sec.” I jogged up my stairs and ran into my room.
chest, wiping it dry. The contours of his torso made my stomach tight.
strands of his hair and onto his face. He stood there, staring at me, the
down, I thought.
Leading him to the kitchen, I analyzed his shock. His gaze trickled
over the flat screen TV, the damask dining room that held paintings
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and the pot and pans created a shine throughout the room. Beautiful
tile made up the backsplash and modern bar stools begged to be sat
upon.
tomato.
“Sure. How about you grab a knife and help me cut these?”
He slipped out a knife from the drawer and walked over to where I
was. Inching over, I allowed him some space on the cutting board.
After a few minutes, I noticed Chase had stopped cutting. I looked up,
stepped back, shaking his head. “This isn’t a good idea.” He continued
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“Chase-wait!” I called. He turned around, shirt in hand. His gaze
collided with mine; he slowly made his way back to where I was
standing.
He took a step closer. “That was the wrong thing to stay.” He said
the back of his head. I melted into his embrace, willing the kiss to last
forever.
“Hey, Sash!”
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“Well, I told him about my abuse, he told me he was a Christian, and
I have concluded that I like him- and may even be falling for him.” I
added softly.
“Okay. We went to the fair, had a lot of fun, talked, drove home but
the car broke down so we walked the rest of the way, made food, but
around and everyone who knows him says that he’s totally awesome
“Kissed me.” I said bluntly, and then grinned. Just the phantom-
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“Girl, we got some romance going on!” she giggled. “I can’t believe
it! Who would’ve thought that what began with a collision would end
began to ring. I ran to pick it up, sliding on the floor with my socks.
“Hello?” I answered.
“Hi, sweetheart!”
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“Stop running! Stop running away from me! Stop running away from
life! Stop running away from me!” I slid down the wall next to me,
landing in a heap on the floor. “You’re never home. I never see you.”
“Jenna says that you get along fabulously without me.” He said in an
“I’m glad you two get along so well.” My dad ignored my obvious
“- see you later!” dial tone buzzed in my ear. I slammed down the
phone.
“Why does everyone think I’m not okay? Is there something always
wrong with me? Why don’t they just leave me alone!” I yelled. Dallas
looked at me, concern in her eyes. Thank goodness she knew just how
I was feeling.
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“It’s okay, Sasha. I know you don’t mean it.” I got up and slowly put
my arms around her. I laid my head on her shoulder. “You know what
we should do?”
disaster. Flour was sprinkled over every surface, batter smeared the
room again. I would most likely take us an hour to just find the kitchen
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‘Well, tomorrow’s Saturday,” she managed to say through a
I imagined the uptight Iris cleaning lady walking into our mess. I
Have you seen the two of us together?” She cocked a brow. “I think
we’ll manage.” And with that, we continued to eat our way through
our cupcakes.
buxom woman stepped one foot in the kitchen, only to retract it. She
refuse to clean this kitchen!” she declared, her Irish accent thick.
“Now, now, Kate,” Dallas chided, “what do the Taylors pay you to
do?” she didn’t allow Kate to answer. “Clean their house. And last time
I checked, the kitchen was part of the house. Don’t you think?” Dallas
“Teenagers and their antics.” She set down her cleaning supplies
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Her words were drowned out by the kitchen door that now
separated us. Dallas pretended to dust off her hands, then put them on
“Tommy and Sam’s play! They have a play today!” I grabbed my car
keys from the rack on the wall and ran out the door. “Come on!” I
their little fourth graders. Soon, the lights dimmed and the curtain
went up. Kids walked out of the side stage, dressed in clothing that
seemed a little too big. Dallas and I smiled and laughed, wondering if
Shortly, Tommy and Sam walked out on the stage. They were
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“They’re so adorable!” Dallas laughed. The rest of the time, we sat
back and watched, enjoying the scene before us. Parents oohed and
Half an hour later, plates and platters were being brought out for
“Yeah, actually.”
“It was great guys!” I gave both of them a peck on the head. I
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Chase bent down, eye level with the boys. “No, I’m not.” I blushed.
Chase continued talking to the boys. “You guys did awesome! I really
“You too. I’ve heard so much about you.” She sent me a lazy grin
discomfort.
“Well, I’d love to stick around and make fun of Sasha, but I have a
job to do. See ya.” Chase walked off and began cleaning up.
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“But you didn’t.”
gotta take the boys to their friend’s house. Let’s head out.”
the keys on the counter in the kitchen. Suddenly, I tensed. I could hear
a slight noise coming from the opposite side of the room. I walked
around the island to see Kate bent over on the floor, her hair in
“Well, I met a guy-” she rolled her eyes-“no, no, we’re just a
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he was a Christian. And I was wondering… do you think I should look
into it?”
Kate paused, searching for the words. “Sasha, you have to realize,
relationship with your Creator. You can’t just look into it. You need to
want it with your whole heart. Aye, when I accepted Christ into my
heart, I thought that I could just go on living the way I lived before. And
I’ll tell ya, it wasn’t good. But one of my dear friends, who then became
doesn’t answer me back.” Kate stood up, looking deep into my eyes.
“do you know what he told me? He said, ‘Katie, girl, God’s answer is as
soft as the wind. If you listen hard enough, you can hear the wind
gently moving along, keeping the world as it should be. Sometimes the
wind blows awful fierce, and yet, other times, it’s just a crinkle in
time.’ ” Kate sighed, staring into space. She slowly looked back at me,
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“Good girl.” I slid off the chair, gave Kate a quick peck on the cheek,
tomorrow?” I stammered.
breath sent fog out through the air. “Snow,” I whispered. Holding out
Kate walking out of the door, her coat donned and her things bundled
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“It’s one of God’s many miracles.” Kate said, and then walked to her
car.
“Can you hear me, God?” I whispered. “I’ve never really done this
before, so I’m not sure how this works. But, what I do know is that
Chase loves You and I trust Chase.” I stayed quiet for a while, thinking.
nothing else came. I promise that I’ll try. I’ll try to want this. I’ll try to
want You.
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