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My diary (Martti Koski)
The purpose of this diary is to make the world to know what happened to me and the other victims of the electronic mind-control. Just in case on future we are not able to speak anymore. Idea is to also tell, how we did try to defend ourselves, and how our torturers work, and how different institutions, police and justice system just turned their deaf ear into our complaints
16th. of August.2011. 4.30 a.m. My previous writing ended on second of July. The first note after that is on sixth of July. 6th of July. They awakened me on night by causing falsified audio-effect of somebody knocking the door. After that they tried to start talking, and tried also to make wound on left side of my head. I was able to defend myself by putting a water bag about thirty centimeter thick on place, they tried to make a wound. I believe I slept four or five hours. In the morning they started a headache on forehead, similar than after sauna torture. The headache continued whole day, except a pause on afternoon. There were also some sore points on neck in the morning, that I tried to massage out. About six o’clock p.m. there were a conversation , I made a wrote down, because it helps understand their attitude, and thinking. Question was their crimes against humanity. They insisted that they are “normal” people, and so it wrong to put them jail. I argued that people that commit crimes, should get punishment, and punishment should not get for person’s normality or abnormality, but every person has right to be so “abnormal” he wants to be. This thinking is very easy to find everywhere their thinking. They feel that their mission is to to all people who are not “normal” - meaning people who think or live different way than they live – and turn them into “normal” people. This basic attitude is often visible of their thinking. They do not feel that people that live or think differently than them, are fully human, but think them “expendable” some kind of livestock, they would do everything without punishment. 9th. of July. They awakened me sometimes on night, and started to make a wound on left side of forehead. I tried first to massage my neck to reset their work. Later I put my left side of forehead downside, and put a water back over it. They started to tease my right side of forehead, to get me turn over. I did not turn, because, I knew they had a plan to make wound on left side of forehead. However I could not sleep rest of the night. I guess I slept perhaps four hours this night. 11th. of July. Start of the week torture. They awakened me after three a.m. Later I did not get sleep. I slept about three hours. 12th. of July. I went ot sleep early, because I had not slept well last night. I was awakened after midnight. They used cough and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. Sometimes on night, they also tried repetitive voices , but I got it down, with water backs on my ear. I got sleep again, and I was awakened next time after five o’clock a.m. I believe I got sleep less than five hours. On daytime, they put me some times fast sleep. Otherwise it was itching on head , and verbal manipulation, like every day. 13th. of July. I slept about hour or two. They caused a feeling of loss of air. Actually the perpetrators told that it is not lack of oxygen, but effect is done, by controlling the level of blood sugar. I am s´not sure that they spoke true. They also threaded that they will invalidate me so, that I cannot walk normally. I believe this is normal intimidation, that they try to cause fear for me. In addition they did everything, to keep me awake, pain on back etc. 14th of July. Because I was tired, I went ot bed before eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me first after ten p.m. They caused a pain on knee, and threatened to make me unable to walk. They also caused a pain on back etc. to keep me awake. I was awake until five a.m. After I got couple of hours sleep, and wake up late to work. On morning I found a pain on my left knee, that felt especially, when climbing on stairs. I wonder, how they caused it. Did they cause real damage on my knee, or did they cause only feeling of pain, without real cause. I have slept about four hours on last 60 hours. In the morning they caused a pain on right temple of my head that continued until evening. 15th. of July. I got about normal sleep on last night. On daytime, there were occasional tingling sensation on head. Half past one p.m. started repetitive voices on left ear. They were able to get my left ear, mildly sensitive for certain frequencies. Also there were still occasional pain on left knee. Quarter past five p.m. they were able to make a small wound on left side, center of the head. 17th. o July. I was awakened on night, but I got about normal amount of sleep. On daytime I got rather heavy verbal manipulation, and some pain on head. Evening there were tingling sensations on head, and some odd shrinking feelings on head also, like head was dried or so. This shrinking feeling was on center of my head. 18th. of July. Start of the week torture. I slept perhaps hour. They used all kinds of pains, and verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. I tried to reset their manipulation by massaging my neck. I found that Eleanor White’s website is not open anymore. The perpetrators joked about prize of pork, that they said has gone up.

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19th. of July. I got about normal sleep. In the morning started a rather heavy pain on above the right eye. I found that Above Stop secred had published that –Eleanor White has disappeared. I found also that her website http://www.multistalkervictims.org is unaccessible.On the conversation below the news , I felt , is manipulated by secret service or some other similar organization. I have opinion that ordinary readers of “Above top Secret” do not have opinions, that majority of comments concerning Eleanor White’s website were. Anyway I was able to save couple of her last documents from her old website. They are my website bits and pieces area. Especially document about electronic countermeasures I feel, is important. Everybody does not have to make same experiments that she has done, because the results are documented. Perhaps Eleanor found something important and was then eliminated. I have done same observation that faradays cage does not stop signal, but water, or liquid near the head does make the signal weaker. So it is not ordinary frequency modulated , or amplitude modulated radio signal, but something new. 20th of July. Last night, there were heavy pain, on right eye, after eight p.m. I went to sleep early. I was awakened after three a.m. so I got sleep about five hours, which is not catastrophic, although it is not enough. In the morning there were a kind of pinching feeling on center of the skull, once a while. Lunchtime there were a repetitive voice attack on left ear. They succeeded partly to make it sensitive for noise. On evening about quarter to nine started a pain on side of my right eye. 21st.of July. They awakened me after two a.m. and uncomforted my left ear, they had made sensitive for noise earlier. I got about four hours of sleep. After six a.m. they started a heavy pain on right temple of my head. The pain was feeling always I moved my mouth eating, speaking etc. 26th. of July. They awakened me after midnight, and kept awake with pains and talking. However I got sleep about one hour in the morning. I believe I slept two hours. 27th of July. I went to sleep early, after nine p.m. They awakened me first after ten p.m. and after several times. After two p.m. I did not get sleep at all. I believe I slept about three hours. 28th of July. They awakened me couple of times on night, but because I was very tired, I was able to fell asleep again. I believe I got about normal sleep. 29th. of July. They awakened me around three a.m. with a kind of burning point on center of my head. I f I moved my head, the pain disappeared, but it found me again, after a minute or two. I remember, they have used this kind of torture, couple of times before also. I did not get sleep after. I slept perhaps three hours that night. 30th of July. I went to sleep after midnight. They awakened me before four a.m. and started repetitive voices on left ear. I got a bit sensitive, but I put my left ear on ground side, and in the morning there were no special feeling on ear. They also threaded me, that they will kill me, because I am not useful for them anymore. Another threat was that "before you have had only boys sauna, now you will ha men’s sauna” . Later in the morning, they kind of changed side, and warned about unknown people that knock the door. I believe that the purpose for all that , was just to get me afraid. I am bit worried still, because Eleanor White in Canada, has disappeared, and her website is diminished. 31st. of July. I got about five hours, or less sleep last night. They used all kinds of pains, among verbal manipulation, to disturb my sleep. After started more permanent pain on temples of my head. On the evening, it became a pain on the right eye. They told me that army use every person on fully. They will use my body for experimentation until my death. I hope this, was only intimidation. 2nd. of August. They awakened me several times, and disturbed my proper sleep. However I got sleep about four or five hours. After one o’clock a.m. There started shooting pain on right temple of head. Before two a.m. , they got me into fast sleep . that lasted some minutes. 3rd. of August. I slept about one hour. They let me understand, that it was a revenge for that I put Eleanor White’s paper on website. In the morning they told that Eleanor White is dead. I hope it is not true. On night they used pains and all kinds of tricks, among the talk, to keep me awake. A new kind of trick was, that they made my breathing difficult. I got feeling that air was no good. However with oximeter, I found that I had enough oxygen on my blood. In the morning about twenty past ten a.m. There were a sudden heavy pain on right side front of the head, that went fast away. 5th. of August. I went ot sleep, about half past ten p.m. They awakened after three a.m. After they used all kinds of pains, and manipulation, to keep me awake. I slept between three and four hours. 8th of August. I used hand massager on my neck to stop their itching on my head. Their revenge was a sudden sharp pain on left side, I believe in heart. 9th. of August. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. and kept awake until six a.m. I resisted their manipulation, by massaging my neck couple of times, with hand massager - the procedure, I have found gives some relieve. After six , they

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let me to sleep, but awakened around nine a.m. I believe I got four or five hours of sleep. On the morning, they started a pain on the right eye that continued until evening. 10th. of August. They told that they have “sauna” for me. When I went to bed, they started a pain on center of the head. It was on large area, feeling like head was sleeping on sharp stones. They gave different explanations what they were doing. They told that I have my mathematical ability, but my ability to express myself with words, will be weaker. They also told that in morning, my vision would have trouble. I would see all the things with two. They disturbed my sleep many ways, but because I did not have to go to work, I had enough sleep. 11th. of August. They awakened me about five times on night. They told same story as before, that my mathematical ability, will not change, but I will lose some ability to express myself with words. I calculated that this is what they want me to be afraid. What will happen in reality is different thing. 12th of August. They awakened me after two o’clock, and kept awake until six a.m. I massaged my neck couple of times, for trying to get some relieve, for their manipulation. I got sleep about three hours. I awakened with heavy pain on forehead, that later became a pain on right eye, that continued on afternoon. 13th of August. I awakened with half past three a.m. for burning feeling on left side of forehead, just above the right eye, my shield, I use when I am sleeping – was open, and they were making a wound there. I covered it, and after they started a normal attack, a different pains, tingling sensations on head, and verbal manipulation. I got perhaps two hours of sleep, after six a.m. , but after nine a.m. they started again backache and verbal manipulation. Of course they irritated the wound they have made, above the left eye, all the morning. In the evening after eight p.m. started pain on right eye that continued until night, They also threaded that I will have a “smoke sauna”. 14th. of august. I got some manipulation of body on sauna, but otherwise I got normal sleep, usual itching and verbal manipulation in morning. 15th. of August. Night went unclear. I awakened after three a.m. and I got sleep about three hours. After nine a.m. on work , they started a very unpleasant pain above the right eye. that disappeared afternoon about one o’clock p.m. Before two o’clock a.m. they started repetitive voices, that ended soon. 16th of August. They let me sleep about one hour, and started after pains and manipulation. Actually they caused that I did not feel sleepy. I decided to write this chapter end , and put it into net, and check it later after I have got proper sleep, and correct the mistakes, and put hyperlinks, to get it more readable condition.

Third of July .2011 11.30 p.m. The main difference for earlier months, is that they primarily try to deactivate me. They awaken me several times of night, but often let me sleep after. I have found that massaging the neck works as a kind of reset of their manipulation. I believe their in implant is somewhere between nose and ears and teeth., and vibration causes temporary interference for it. 19th. of April. They awakened me at least three times this night. After four o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep. I believe I slept about three hours. 20th. of April They got me awake me after four o’clock a.m. I slept about four hours. Later they had rather heavy verbal manipulation, especially on morning. Whole day were occasional itching and sharp shooting pains, example pain in my right eye on half past eight. 22nd. of April. I went to sleep late, about midnight. They awakened me after four a.m. and started a pain on the right eye, verbal manipulation, and also caused pain on my side right, and on my neck. This caused, that I got no sleep after. Pain on the right eye continued for a whole day. 24rd. of April. They allowed me to sleep about five hours. Daytime there were some pains, mostly on forehead, and heavy verbal manipulation. After six p.m. they put me on fast sleep, and after I woke up, they started strong continuous pain on forehead. About quarter to nine p.m. they started to manipulate my heartbeat. Pain on the forehead continued whole evening. 25th. of April. They let me sleep about five hours. In the morning there were a pain on forehead and a sore neck, that I massaged out with my hand-massager. The pain on the forehead, moved later on to my right eye, and diminished on afternoon. These sore points came several times on this day, and several times I massaged them out. 26th. of April. They awakened me several times on night, and tried to start verbal manipulation. However I believe, that I got about five hours of sleep. In the morning they started again pain on the right side of my head. It made my working on the office, not very effective.

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27th. of April. Start of the week type torture. I did not sleep at all. About two o’clock a.m. hey made an experiment that for me felt like a light-bulb had lighten up in front of my right eye. My theory is that it is someway connected to that they try to translate thinking that is not verbal. I have found that they at least some times they do not understand my nonverbal thinking. They have went over it by access the mechanism that cause the victim to verbalize his thinking. I have found that they made errors when they try to guess what I am doing. Other possibility is that they just want to cause artificial visual effects. Quarter after three p.m. they disturbed my work in the office, by causing pain on the right temple of my head. Half past five I found a different pain, that felt on head especially when coughing. 28th. of April. I got about five hours of sleep. They awakened me at four o’clock a.m. On daytime, I got a kind of shrinking feeling on the head , and pains here and there. They put me also fast sleep several times on day and evening. On the afternoon they started a pain on forehead, that became very serious after seven p.m. , very much like after sauna torture. After eight p.m. I founded several sore points on my neck , especially on left side. I massaged them out, even thought it was very painful. After that, the headache diminished. 29th. of April. I awakened me after three o’clock a.m. I got about four hours of sleep. The neck had some sore points, but it was better than day before. 30th. of April. I got about normal amount of sleep, but in the morning, I awakened headache on fore head. I also found that fore head felt abnormally cold. They told me that they are “filming” my forehead. Apparently this was cause, that they disturbed blood circulation on my forehead. After wakeup I massaged my neck where was several sore points. Perhaps “filming” ended for that, because the headache diminished. 1st- of May. I slept about four- five hours. In the morning there were headache on forehead, and it felt cold. I found that on my neck there were several sore points especially on left side. I massaged them out with my massager, with very long time , and got most of them out. 2nd. of May. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. I got sleep about four hours this night. In the morning there were occasional pains and itching on the head here and there. This continued with heavy verbal manipulation whole morning. 3rd. of May. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. I slept about three hours this night. After awakening there were heavy verbal manipulation , and some itching on the head. 4th. of May. I went to sleep early, about eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me before ten p.m. After I did not get sleep. 8th. of May. I got about five hours of sleep for some days. Yesterday they caused a sudden tiredness, I was nearly unconscious, so I went to sleep without usual protection on my head. I believed that they let me sleep hour or two, before they turn the tiredness off, and start manipulation. This is their usual way to work. Apparently the perpetrators used opportunity, that I am sleeping without protection, and they let me sleep about eight hours. In the morning opening of the day talk they told that Canada will arrange a new election because of some members of parliament will find that they are mind controlled, their thinking is read and manipulated. Of course if some members of Canadian parliament are manipulated electronically or their thinking is listened , perhaps my perpetrators do not have information about it - and even if they have information, they certainly do not tell me about it. Still their basic claim, that some members of Canadian parliament are electronically manipulated, could be true. Another interesting question is, how to find out truth on this matter. The secret of electronic mind manipulation lays somewhere in secret files, where most of the members of Canadian parliament perhaps do not have access. 9-11 of May. I got proper sleep. Some verbal manipulation, sore neck and fast sleep on daytime. 12th. of May. I got three hours of sleep. They awakened me once a while, and after two o’clock a.m. I did not get any sleep. Sore points on neck have diminished. Apparently they have ended this experiment, for a while at least. 13th. of May. Very similar night, than night before. They awakened me several times, and after two o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep at all. They used headache, and pain on back among other things to keep awake. I slept about two or three hours. They also caused, that I do not feel very tired. I believe although that three hours sleep is not good for my health. There were no sore points on neck. For this collection of sore points, they have given very horrifying name “devil’s necklace”. So I live in hope this is really ended. At the morning , they started a pain on side of the right eye.It was more or less constant whole day. 14th. of May. It is very hard to say how much I slept, I believe about three hours. They have caused, that I do not feel tired, but my feeling is not normal also. They used all the tricks to keep me awake, pains talking etc. This is a third day on row, that I got only two or three hours of sleep. 16th. of May. They starter manipulation of me about two o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep after that. They were very

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merciless, and told that they will “drive” me so long time I could be used for something. I got sleep about two hours this night. In the morning there were sore points on neck, I tried to massage out. The massaging helps for some moments. I believe that there is implant somewhere on my head, and vibration of hand-held massager cuts the manipulation for a moment. After wakeup started also a pain above the right eye. It ended about ten o’clock a.m. and later started occasional pains and itching, mostly on forehead. There were also a kind of pinching feeling on the head, a quarter after ten. Later they got me unconscious , “fast sleep” for some minutes. When I woke , there were some trembling of hands, and my heart was beating very fast. 17th. of May. They awakened me several times at night. In the morning I did not feel very sleepy. It is impossible to say how much I slept. They told me that they have developed a new “sleeplike state”, where person does not have to get real sleep at all. I guess that they test with me, what side effects their new “sleeplike state” has on mind and body. Perhaps they try to artificially do same thing that sleep does on person’s mind. I n the morning started a pain on the right eye. 18th. of May. I slept about normal amount, although I was awakened several times. In the morning there was a pain on the right eye, that later diminished ,and started occasional pains, mostly on left side, and back of the head. On the afternoon, after four o’clock p.m. there were shrinking and pinching feelings on left side and center of the head. 19th of May. They awakened me several times. After three o’clock a.m. they did not let me sleep. They started a pain on the right eye, that I tried to cover with my hands, with poor results. I slept about three or four hours. In the morning, pain on the right eye eased, but it became later again very strong. Pain felt whole morning, until noon. After noon started a different, occasional pinching on the head. 20th. of May. I went to sleep early last night. I was awakened on hour or two hours intervals whole night. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep. I estimate, I slept four hours. After nine o’clock a.m., started a rather strong pain on the right eye, and continued a whole morning. 21st. of May. They got me very sleepy after eight o’clock p.m. I went to early sleep. After midnight I was awakened, and did not feel sleepy at all. I made some sandwiches and tea, and did some work. After I went to sleep again. I was awakened after two or three hours. I believe that this way I got about five hours of sleep that night. 22nd. of May. I felt very tired, so I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me around midnight. Because I did not feel tired at all, and I did not have to go to work, I was awake at six o’clock a.m. I went to sauna, and felt to sleepy again. On this time they spoke about “smoke-sauna”. Sometimes on sleep they awakened me, and caused some way high irritation on lungs. This caused heavy cough on long time. However I got sleep again, and slept about eleven a.m. On evening there was heavy attack on right eye, that felt whole right side of the head. I was able to partly ease the pain, by massaging my neck with handheld massager. 25th. of May. They awakened me at two o’clock a.m. After I got a short sleep, and had a dream. I keep possible, that they hypnotized me. They told that they would “lose” , but they will not go down alone. They also told,using metaphor, that “They have closed the toiled, and nobody gets out without a good plumber”. 26th. of May. They awakened me again, after two o’clock a.m. Perhaps this is the time of start “cancer-station graveyard shift” as they call themselves. They used backache, pinching on head etc. to keep me awake. They told that they make me “poorer” every day. They also told that massaging the neck makes my cochlear dark, and they are waiting for that, before they stop experimenting. This message was somehow unclear for me. This night I also got some nausea. They told that reason to keep me awake on night is, that they are studying my body functions. In the morning after ten a.m. there were occasional shooting pains on head, that continued whole day. I believe that pain caused several mistakes, I made on my work. Of course the lack of sleep, would partly be cause of these mistakes 27th. of May. I went to sleep early, about eight o’clock p.m. They awakened me around ten p.m. After I did not get sleep before about four a.m. I did everything I know, to disturb their manipulation. Morse code, and massaging my neck. Perhaps the tiredness and vibration of head, by massaging caused interference, their manipulation, that caused that I got a sleep about one hour more, before I had to go to work. Now I have slept two or three hours on night on row of several nights. 29th. of May. They awakened me around nine a.m. and started talking. I found that they manipulated my speech by using secretary, and I told them that. After that they started a burning pain on back of the head. It was a very sharp precise area, where they caused the pain. I defended myself with water backs, which I used to cover the painful area. Later on the morning they caused shooting pains, mostly back of the head. 30th. of May. They awakened me several times on night, and tried to keep me awake with their usual tricks. However, because I did not have to go to work, but I was able to sleep longer, I got five hours sleep or more. I did a lot of Morse-code, to make their manipulation boring. They used a new kind of pain they had developed, to keep me awake. It was pain on side of the fingers. this pain they used more or less whole day and evening. . The pain disappeared by moving painful fingers on cloth, but comes back after some seconds.

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1st. of June. They awakened me before two o’clock a.m. This was, because I was travelling, and without any kind of shield. I had oximeter with me, and my heartbeat was abnormally low, about fifty beats at minute. This was a kind of odd, because my oxygen intake was also low, under 90. Usually if oxygen intake goes low, heart starts to beat faster. 2nd. of June. I got sleep about six hours last night. In the morning started a pain on the right eye, that continued rather strong, whole rest of the day. 4th. of June. They awakened me several times on night. On afternoon after three o’clock p.m. , started a very heavy headache on forehead. I found by massaging that they were disturbing blood flow of arteries on both side of neck. The effect was very similar than after sauna torture, the only difference is that they did it before I went to sauna. 5th. of June. In the morning when I was awakened, I felt some nausea, and my forehead felt cold. When I woke up and started to massage my veins, I found that they had partly blocked my veins both side of neck, and my blood had difficuolties to flow on my forehead. After a very long session of painful massage of neck, with strong handheld massager, they suddenly gave up, and sore points of neck diminished. Their explanation ,for what had happened was “doctors lost their nerves”. After the pain on neck was diminished, also headache diminished. So it was a kind of “after sauna torture” also. On the evening the pain was moved to right eye, It continued with more or less intense itching on my head. The positive sign is that they have not threaded to kill me, like they did on Friday night. 6th. of June. They awakened me after midnight, and tried to start talking. Second awakening was after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. They caused a pain on left side of my forehead. They also told me that “ Lady in dressed black will come to meet you”. I interpreted it as a masked thread of death. On the evening half past seven p.m. pain on the forehead, became a pain on side of the right eye. It was hurting , especially when eating etc. On same time there is a pain also on the center of the head. 7th. of June. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. They used sharp pain on center of the head, and also some nausea, among talking – to keep me awake. I got sleep about four hours. 8th. of June. I got about normal amount of sleep, but in the morning started a very strong pain on the right eye, that continued to noon. 11th. of June. They made me very sleepy on the evening.. I went to bed after ten p.m. I was awakened after three o’clock a.m. They started itching on the head, and verbal manipulation. I am not sure, if I got sleep at all,.after that. I believe; I slept between four and five hours. 13th. of June. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. They did not let me sleep, rest of the night. They used verbal manipulation, and some pains on head – among other things - to keep me awake. 14th. of June. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. I believe that this is the usual time when “cancer station graveyard shift” as they have identified themselves - starts their work. They used a kind of shrinking feeling on middle of the head, and occasionally pain on fingers, to keep awake. I believe, I slept about three hours this night. 15th. of June. They awakened me several times. After two o’clock a.m. , I did not get sleep at all. They did not use exactly pains, but rather odd feeling on left side of forehead, to keep me awake. By massaging my neck, I got it diminished, but it came back soon. I slept perhaps three hours this night too. On the morning I fell “fast sleep” after seven a.m. When I awakened, my body was trembling. After seven o’clock news on evening, I got another fast sleep, but this time I was not trembling, when I awakened. 16th. of June. I was awakened about ten times. I cannot say, how much I slept, but it was not normal sleep. In the night they told that the first “pizza gang ” got some profit for me, but second did not get very much. I want to put this record, because before that they have sometimes told me that there is a kind of co-operative , behind my torture, that “owns” me collectively. This ”pizza gang” , they spoke yesterday, fits for earlier told co-op story. 19th of June. They started a pain on the right eye, about yesterday noon. The pain continued whole night , except about half hour break on morning. On this pause, the perpetrators promised to bring flowers on my grave. After the pain continued whole morning, until about noon. 20th. of June. I slept barely five hours. 21st. of June. I went to sleep early. I was awakened many times, after hour sleep or so. About two o’clock as usual, came “Cancer station graveyard shift” as they call themselves. After that I could not get sleep. Besides of usual verbal manipulation, they used all kind of pains, on side, on head and even tickling, to keep me awake. They also caused that I did

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not feel very sleepy. I did not feel sleepy. Still I am sure, this amount of sleep , I got, is not good for my health. About quarter to eleven a.m. they started pain on the side of the right temple. 22nd. of June. Again they awakened me several times on night. After three o’clock a.m I did not get sleep. I believe got sleep about three hours. About half past five a.m. started a pain on the right temple. 23rd. of June. I got pretty normal sleep yesterday. I was awakened just once, last night, after one o’clock a.m. When I woke up, I got a pain on the right temple again. However I found that this pain is different than pains before. Later on I found myself, that I was abnormally aggressive. So perhaps the pain was just, side effect for something that caused aggressive behavior for me. Their comment for my thinking, what they had done was metaphor “We still got you to crying”. 24th. of June. Actually I slept pretty good last night, five hours at least. In the afternoon, they started pains and itching on various parts of my head. After eight o’clock p.m. started a pain on forehead, left side. I put a shield on my head. They started pain on both eyes. Also pain on forehead continued. 25th of June. When I went to sleep, there were really strong pain on my right eye. I got some sleep, after I shielded the eye with my hand. I was awakened about five o’clock a.m. I had a feeling, that I could not get enough air. The air felt kind of bitter. I remember, this has happened for me, a couple of times earlier also. I put oxi-meter on my wrist, and air started to feel normal to breath. However, after that experience, I could not get sleep. Sleeping did not come easier that perpetrators caused all kinds of pains, and kept talking on whole time. On day, there were no itching, but rather a mild headache. They called for that, they did for me night “blood filming” . The meaning of this expression has not opened for me. What it actually means , is unclear. Are they filming for blood, or filming with blood ? Some other time they call it for lungs filming. This term does not either give me any idea, what is actually happening. I am not sure, if I was awake, or sleeping, on some kind of hypnotic state, but I got an image of a small spider or compatible animal, crawling on edge of glass. The picture was clear, and full of details, Actually I could not recognize that sharp picture, on my photos, or my eyes. 27th. of June. Night was very unclear. I believe, I slept about three hours, but in small pieces. After three o’clock a.m. I could not get sleep. In the morning there were usual itching here and there. 2nd. of July. Pain on forehead, hairline started before I went to bed. I got some sleep, but after three hours, I awakened, and there was that pain on hairline again. I put about ten centimeter thick waterbuck over my head. It worked, but they continued with other pains and verbal manipulation. I did not get sleep after, so my sleep on that night was around three hours.. In the morning were pains ant itching here and there, that later became pain on the right eye, that continued late night. Now United States and Canadian Armies have admitted that they are developing machine that can read people’s thoughts. The ultimate goal ,perhaps developing a machine that can change people’s thoughts, and way , how they are experimenting with humans, are still secret. This what happened on journalists, is just one example, what could be possible. Actually this was not avery good example, because victims and listeners found that they were manipulated. This same is perhaps happened for some politicians, for milder form. Actually for me, they do not experiment with this kind of trivial jamming of brain, but rather they selectively block memory, and try to change verbal output of thoughts. Glen Greenwald has found same that I wrote in previous piece of my diary. Laws in United States have not so much meaning, because they are implemented selectively, depending person’s position in the country. Canada has the same syndrome. One symptom of syndrome is the case of Duplessis orphan’s I made a collection of links on my alternative history area. There are several youtube-videos about mind control. This one, I feel, is very well done. 17.4.2011 10.50 p.m. My previous writing ended on 26th. of February. Perhaps the most significant difference compared the time for month before, is more intensive daytime manipulation. Heavy verbal manipulation, that ends feeling physical felling , that there is wound on the head, had started again. Lack of the sleep remains my main problem. I found that even the early Lida electronic mind-manipulation machines, were able to get person asleep, and also keep person awake. 28th. of February. I went to sleep after eleven p.m. and they awakened me after one a.m. After I did not get sleep. Besides usual things they do to keep me awake, they also caused cramps, to my left leg . I slept something between one and two hours. This is possible, because previous night I got about five hours of sleep. First of March. I went to bed early about nine p.m. , and I slept until three a.m. about five hours. 2nd. of March. They awakened me first time, around midnight. Second awakening was two o’clock a.m. Third awakening

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was between three and four a.m. After I was awakened again half past four, I went up from bed. I believe I slept around four hours. Next day there were several fast sleeps on work where I fell asleep for some seconds or minutes. 4th. of March. They awakened me around four or five times. I got sleep perhaps four hours. 5th. of March. They caused sudden tiredness at nine p.m. I went to sleep and awakened around three a.m. I got sleep around 4-5 hours. 8th. of March. They awakened me several times, but I believe I finally got sufficient amount of sleep. Daytime they abnormally much itching on the head, and heavy verbal manipulation. 10th. of March. They started with a kind of body trembling. Later sometimes on night they caused feeling, that the air was difficult to breathe. It felt very dry. I still got some sleep, although they awakened me several times. Again on daytime there were abnormally much itching on the head, and heavy verbal manipulation. 12th. of March. They awakened me around four a.m. After some fight, I got sleep again. I got sleep five hours or more this night. On daytime they got me fast sleep, and after second awakening there were some trembling of body, so I believe they did me something while I was on fast sleep. Pain on the right eye started on evening and continued next night. 13th of March. Despite of the pain on right eye, I got some sleep. In the morning, when I woke up, the pain was diminished. On morning there were more serious itching on the head than normally. 14th. of March. On night they awakened me twice. After second awakening, I massaged my head, and after I got some sleep. In the morning there were heavy verbal manipulation, and they caused wound on forehead left side about half past seven a.m. In the morning there were pains also on side of the right eye. 15th. of March. They awakened me around two a.m., and next time around four a.m. It is difficult to say, how much I got sleep. I believe it was between three and five hours. In the morning, while I was on the buss traveling to work, they started repetitive voices. I got out without damage, by starting loud music on my earphones.

16th. of March. In the morning started pain around the right eye, and continued whole morning. The pain was more sore, when eating or speaking etc. 17th. of March. They awakened me around three a.m. I did not get sleep after. I slept between three and four hours. In the morning about eleven a.m. started pain above the right eye, that continued lunchtime. The pain was feeling especially when eating or speaking. 18th. of March. They awakened me three or four times. However, because I went to sleep early, and I was really tired, I got about four or five hours of sleep. Daytime there were several sudden shocking pains mostly on left side of the head, and like day before- in the morning there were pain above the right eye. Only difference was , that it started hour earlier than day before. 20th. of March. Very heavy itching on various parts of the head, started in the morning, and went worse during the afternoon. I had to have protective clothing around my head, and I try to keep my chin on move , to make their torture less effective 21st. fo March. They used sharp pointed heavy pain, on the center of the head, to keep me awake. I was able to make it weaker, but it was heavy enough to keep me awake. They also used other tricks to keep me awake. In the morning, when I asked reason on the pain, they answered with metaphor “we have to get the switchblade out of your hands”, as an explanation for what they did. 22nd. of March. They awakened me five times during the night, but because I went to sleep early, I was able to sleep about five hours. 23rd.of March. They awakened me several times after two a.m., and used sharp pain on the center of the head, and itching, among verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. 24th. of March. They awakened me after tree a.m. and started repetitive voices on the left ear. I usually defend myself for repetitive voices, by listening loud music, with earphones, but this time I did not get my mp3 player to work. Before I got out of bed, they got my left ear sensitive for certain frequencies of noise. Because I went to bed early, I got about five hours of sleep. In the morning started permanent itching on wide area on left side center of the head. Later on the itching started feeling much like wound, and ended on late afternoon. 25th of March. They awakened me around half past one a.m. and after I did not get sleep. They tried to comfort me, that

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there are much worse cases on army human experimentation archives. They have terrorized me over thirty years, but I believe they speak true for this case. It is very difficult one to understand what kind cases of horrors these secret archives are hiding. People that are treated worse than test animals , before they are killed. 26th. of March. Last night they awakened me before five a.m. After I did not get sleep, I was not very sleepy also. Perhaps they used Lida machine type effect to keep me awake . On the other hand I slept about five hours. 27th. of March. On night They told similar safe house story that they have told before, except that this time, the safe house was not Russia, but somewhere else. I am curious, what would have happened, if I had reacted positive. Stories to get me “safe place” while the arrest of criminals starts, I believe nothing at all. 28th. of March. They awakened me several times for night, but I got sleep perhaps five hours. On evening after seven o’clock p.m. They started strong itching on left side of the head. I tried what I can, little move of head whole the time, listening music, doing morse code - still they got wound on the left side of my head. I tried to put steel wool over the place of wound, it caused weaker itching, and tinning voice on both ears. The frequency was lower, but volume was higher on left ear, compared to right one. This continued some hours. 29th. of March. I slept normally, but the wound on left side of head did hurt still. There were not sore points on my neck for some times, but now they appeared again. I massaged them out. Shooting pains, mostly on right side of head, started after nine a.m. and increased on afternoon, and continued in evening. 30th. of March. On work, coffee time afternoon, they blocked my memory, so that I did not remember certain words, and I had difficulties to tell my story. 31st. of March. They awakened me after two a.m. After they used itching, and pains on the center of the head. I slept about two hours. 1st. of April. I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me couple of times between night. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get any sleep. I slept between four and five hours. 2nd. of April. I got about normal sleep. In the morning between six and seven a.m. They made a wound on my head on left side back of the head. 4th. of April. Start of the week torture. I slept perhaps hour. They caused my neck feeling cold, despite that I tried to keep it worm with warm clothes. In the morning my neck was sore on left side, I massaged it several times during the night. They also manipulated my heart in the morning, and caused very fast heartbeat and some pains on heart. In the evening, after six p.m. during the verbal manipulation, they told that they will stop the torture when they have “finished” their job. I asked them what this “finishing” means. They answered that they will not kill me but they will put me in condition that I cannot cause harm for anybody. After seven p.m. they made another wound on this time left side front of the head. 5th. of April. I went to sleep after nine o’clock p.m. They awakened me after three a.m. Sometimes on night, there was a period, I awakened because I had turn off my c-pap machine, and I awakened a mask on my head, without air-flow. After three a.m. they started heavy verbal manipulation, and caused some itching on the head, so I decided to get up from bed. In the afternoon, there were itching on the center of the head. 6th. of April. On night they awakened me at least three times, perhaps more. After every awakening they tried to start conversation. I believe I got sleep four or five hours. In the morning around eleven a.m. There were some itching on left side of my head. There were also some occasional shooting pains on forehead right side. On the evening the occasional pains around my head continued. In addition there was a permanent pain on right side front of the head. 7th. of April. Pain on the right side front of the head moved into right eye. They awakened me after midnight, and I did not get sleep after. They used cold neck, that they have used this week, to keep me awake. I slept about two hours before midnight. 10th. of April. Ninth and tenth of April were very similar. In the morning was some itching, and later started pain on side of right eye, that later moved on right eye. Pain ended a while, but started again on evening. Itching and verbal manipulation continued whole day. 12th. of April. I awakened pain on the side of my right eye. After I did not get sleep. Besides pain, they used itching on various part of head, and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. The pain on my eye, continued after noon. 13th. of April. They made a wound on left side front of the head in the morning, It was still feeling quite strong, in the evening, and continued to night.

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14th. of April. For a long time, I felt that I got normal sleep. I slept around eight hours or more. In the morning started verbal manipulation, and itching on the head quite strong. 15th. of April. When I went to sleep, there were some manipulation to keep me awake; they used feeling of cold, among other things to keep me awake. However I got sleep, and slept again about normal seven hours, for second time in row. In the morning, they told that they will go away, and let me alone. How ever during the day, normal itching on head, and verbal manipulation continued, so it was just normal “opening of day”. However their tone of speech has changed on lately. They more often “have not time to work with me” and “they are tired, to work with me”. I feel this is a positive sign. 17th. of April. They awakened me after eight and told, that electronic mind control experiments are ended. Mind-reading equipment became public, and all the victims, which they called “sentenced to death” are to be freed. Also those victims that are in mental hospitals that suddenly start to get well. Unfortunately this was not true, but “opening of the day” dramatic story they tell usually in the morning, when victim is half asleep, so that his judgment is not sharp. The morning continued small wound they made in back left side of the head, and repeating voices, that I had some trouble to eliminate. The story was not true, but reality what is our situation, is true. We are in “terminating human experiments”, similarly as those radiation experimentation victims that were murdered by radiation experiments. Those of us ,which are closed in mental institutions, are in much worse situation than others. On Nazi-concentration camps, some of the victims, tried to document the reality of concentration camps by paintings. Similarly one of the victims, Eleanor White document reality of mind-control victims by comic-trip. This comic-trip shows one victim experimented even while dying for cancer, which also was probably side-effect of electronic mind-control. Afternoon, about ten past six p.m. they started very heavy pain on the left side of head. On 3.1.2011 diary entry I wrote legal aspects of torture during George Bush presidency, and how I came to conclusion people in United States have no equal rights before the law. The case has since evolved. George Bush had to cancel his trip to Switzerland, because human rights activist threatened him for arrest warrant for all countries that have signed convention against torture. On the other hand, it is clear that Obama administration is not willing to prosecute George Bush, and others responsible of torture. Instead it is working - as this Mother Jones article show – to protect Bush officials for criminal investigation in overseas for their in establishing policies the that governed the torture of detained terrorist suspects. The actual wikileaks document, that Mother Jones magazine uses as a source is here. As well Canada, as United States, the problems of legal system lies in whole chain of command from police forces which should investigate crimes - to prosecuting attorney -and finally court of justice. Similarly as RCMP in Canada, the police-organization that usually is responsible for political terror in USA, is FBI. Cointelpro documents show how police gave perjured testimony and presented fabricated evidence as a pretext for false arrests and wrongful imprisonment, among the other tricks of political terror in United States George Bush case show that federal prosecutors do prosecute criminals selectively, depending their position in society. Some are prosecuted their crimes while who have committed similar crimes are not prosecuted. Finally on court of justice: the term of crime is dependent position of participants. The radiation experiments, I mentioned above works as an example. They were actually a mass-murders, where victims were murdered by radiation, to find out, how much radiation human can stand , before he dies. These crimes were labeled as “medical treatments ” on court of justice. Two-party political system has a bad track record for preserving human rights and freedom of speech, of racial, political, and religious minorities. There are numerous examples, where people are oppressed and discriminated because of their origin or because of their beliefs.

26.2.2011. 7.30 p.m. I ended my previous writing on third of January 2011. The main difference for December happenings is, that pain on the right side of chest has ended. Actually it stopped after I put my last writing into Internet. I believe these two things have causality and I am happy, that somebody reads my diary after all. I have found that the perpetrators have different talk on daytime, and on nighttime. Daytime perpetrators, talk that my torture will end soon, but nighttime perpetrators are prepared to torture me until my death. My main concerns now are sore points on neck, which often stay away on workweek, but come back on weekend. The

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other concern is sleep, which the perpetrators try to cut for minimum, and often succeed. After I put my last diary to internet, on third of January, I went to sleep. My forehead felt extremely cold. The room temperature was normal, and I had a cloth over my forehead, to keep it warm. The perpetrators told me that “You have tried to take too big piece, and You have to pay for it”. I believe that they did disturb my blood flow on forehead. The effect is quite similar than “After sauna torture”, and also headache on forehead that followed, was very similar. In the morning I found sore points on neck, especially on left side of neck. I massaged them out , with my handheld massager. They did not like it and cave a kind of electric shock on heart. Later the headache on forehead continued, but moved more towards ache on right eye. The ache went weaker after noon, and later diminished. 4th. of January. I got some sleep, although there were pains on the side of body, I slept, and they were all of the time trying to start verbal manipulation. They also caused short sharp pains on the heart. I believe I slept about three hours. Actually they awakened me at five a.m. That is a proper time to awake. They told me that they will not torture me any more, but try to just keep company, and talk on friendly meaning. For a moment I believed that I will get same friendly supportive talking, that diplomats got, when they were manipulated around 1970. . However, as I was afraid, half past seven, they started itching on left side front of the head, so I realized, that their torture will continue same brutal manner than before. This is a very typical way , how they awake me. They call it morning opening. They talk something, usually positive, and something that is not true, when my senses are half sleep, that I do cannot really judge, if their talk is true or not. The pain and itching left side of my forehead continued into evening. 5th. of January. I believe that I did not get sleep at all, last night. If I slept, I slept hour or two. They did all the normal things, to keep me awake, verbal talk, itching on head, pains on side, etc. Before I went to sleep, there were some sore points on neck, but in the morning was none. Also the persisted pain on the right side of chest, seem to have vanished. 7th. of January. Last night, I believe that I did not sleep at all. If I slept it was under two hours. They used pains and talking to keep me awake, and succeeded. I had some difficulties of breathing. Breathing was very hard for some reason. On daytime there were occasional shooting pains on left side of the head. 8th. of January. I slept about three hours. They awakened me about three a.m. and I did not get sleep after that. I found that they interfere my thinking on certain subjects. On example: If my thinking start to come near subject, what I should do, to stop torture, and get freedom, they fast start cut my thinking by explaining their own opinion for subject. That way they are able to stop my thinking on the subject. 10th. of January. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. I slept about three or four hours. About quarter to ten a.m. there were a very dangerous feeling shooting pain on the right temple of the head. 11th. of January. I do not know, if I slept at all. After three o’clock a.m. I am sure I did not sleep at all. Before midnight there were some sudden shocks to heart, but they did not cause any difficult situation. 12th. of January. I went to sleep early, so I got some sleep, with help of morse-code practice and loud music. The perpetrators awakened me after three a.m. and started to talk “we do not go away from your head”. I promised them loud music, morse-code practice and head massage, which are activities that I know they do not like. They threaded to give me “cold treatment” , meaning that they disturb forehead blood-flow . It causes a cold feeling on forehead, and later a terrible headache. I told them also, that if they get my head to a bad condition, I am not usable for them. I also reminded them, that they are criminals, and I am a victim of their crimes, and not other way around. Their answer was that they will show me that I “cannot play with them” . After four p.m. they started to cause a very uneasy feeling on the back. About hour later came headache on front head that continued long in the evening. 13th. of January. I slept about three hours. They did their usual disturbance of sleep, especially very aggressive verbal manipulation. 14th. of January. Very similar night. I slept about three hours. They awakened me sometimes between midnight and three a.m. There were few sore points on neck, that I have massaged out on night, and morning - however less than before. I have found that they can diminish the sore point on some seconds, if they want, so it must have something to do with manipulation. At quarter to eleven p.m. they threaded to put me “smoky sauna”. This kind of threats ,that are delivered for me , in form of metaphors, are full of their talk on every day. 15th. of January. I got about normal sleep. 16th. of January. I got about normal sleep also. About six p.m. there were some repetitive voices. For a whole day was very strong verbal manipulation. Also I got sore points on neck and continuous itching on various points on my head. On 9.21

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p.m. there were a sudden shock on the center of the head. 17th. of January. Last night they awakened me after two o’clock a.m. However I got some sleep after that.. There were some very heavy verbal manipulation, that became whispering after I started my work. After seven p.m. there were a pain on the center of the head, along with heavy verbal manipulation. I resisted the pain with a bag of steel wool on head. 18th.of January. “Start of the week torture” . I believe I did not sleep at all this night, although I am not sure. They did not speak much, but kept me awake with other methods. On the neck there were no sore points, and on evening when I went to bed, and some weak sore points on morning when I woke up.. I have found that often I am able to overcome their caused sudden tiredness, by massaging neck sore points. I listened a whole day loud music, and avoided to talk with perpetrators. The perpetrators told me that on time , when the mind-control machine is on public knowledge, I am a decomposed body, and they never will get punishment for their crimes. I did not say anything, because I knew that what they wanted, was to start conversation on one way or other. 19th of January. Last night they awakened me around ten times, but I felt that I slept about four hours. I was that tired , that I was able to caught sleep every time after they awakened me. In the morning they started a pain around the right eye. 20th. of January. I got sleep about two hours. They awakened me several times. After three o’clock a.m. I did not get sleep anymore. They used pains on head, and verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. 22nd. of January. They awakened me around five o’clock a.m. , and started a very aggressive verbal manipulation. However I was able to get sleep after. I got out of bed half past ten a.m. In the morning, there were sore points on neck, that had stayed away for about a week. I massaged them away, with my hand held massager. The pains around the right eye started on afternoon, and weakened after ten p.m. 24th. of January. They awakened me several times at night. After four o’clock a.m. I did not get any sleep. I believe that I slept between three and four hours, this night. In the morning there were sore points at neck, and pain started around the right eye. The pain on the eye eased at noon. 25th. of January. I slept hour or less. They kept me awake with verbal manipulation. They also caused someway feeling that back of my head was like full of little sharp needles. 26th. of January. Night started with occasional pains above the right eye, starting nine p.m. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. They awakened me after ten p.m. and I was fresh, not sleepy at all, and I felt like it was morning. After looking the watch, I put the loud music on and started morse-code practice. I fell asleep again, and they awakened me next time around two o’clock a.m. After that I did not get sleep. Besides verbal manipulation they used pains on head , or exactly the scalp felt like some thousand ants were walking around it. I calculate, I slept something between three and four hours. On night before I went to sleep, there were some sore points on neck, but in the morning there were diminished. These sore points are someway connected to manipulation, but I am not sure how. Actually points are not sore, but for pressing or massaging the certain area of neck, causes a sharp pain on somewhere on the head. 27th. of January. Before I went to sleep, there were all kinds of itching around my head. I went to sleep after nine p.m. and slept about four a.m. Relatively good sleep, and there were no sore points on neck in the morning. 28th. of January. I slept between two and three hours. The head felt like it is full of some needles on night. After three a.m. I massaged my scalp, and got some sleep after. 29th. of January. I got sleep about four hours. They awakened me before five a.m., and I did not get sleep after. They used pains on side to keep me awake. Because I did not have to go to work, I stayed on bed until half past nine a.m. After I got up from bed , there were a lot of itching on the head, that I massaged, when it went to severe. However there were actually no sore points on neck in the morning. 30th. of January. On last evening, they made a lot of sore points on neck, that I had to massage out. On night some time they told that they will try to make a “surgery” that will try to correct the damage on my ear. After I felt cold on the left side of my head. I did some massage on neck, but the cold continued. The perpetrators told that I have some trouble to multiply things in the future, but otherwise, I do not feel much difference. Later the cold place focused more clearly, on left side, about center of the skull. Perhaps this is the way, they do what they call “surgeries” . I have a theory that they cut blood circulation on some precise part of the brain. The cutting of the blood circulation, cause the feeling of the cold on the head. In the morning, there were sore points on neck on both sides, that I massaged out. On afternoon around five p.m. there were pain on side of both eyes, and very dangerous feeling shooting pains on side of the right eye. 1st. of February. I went ot bed early, after nine p.m. There were a lots of sore points on both side of the neck, that I massaged out before I went to bed. There were disturbances on my sleep, example pains on fingers. The place on left side center of the head, felt cold. Similarly the face felt cold, like I had slept on outside. I got some sleep. It is difficult to say how much, but I estimate between three and four hours. 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massaged out. 2nd. of February. I slept about normally, perhaps five hours. 3rd. of February. I did not get sleep at all. At start, they used pains to keep me awake. Later they simply did something, that caused that I did not get sleep at all. There were no sore points on neck for a couple of days. 4th. of February. They awakened me about three o’clock a.m. After they used pains on side, and other means to keep me awake. I got about three hours of sleep. 6th. of February. I slept about normal amount of sleep. I awakened just once. In the morning I found that there were a lots of sore points on my neck. I massaged them out with my electric hand massager. This happened more than ten times during the day. I found that massaging the sore points on neck, cause a very warm, nearly hot feeling on the body, and especially on the head. However the purpose of the sore points on neck, is unclear to me. 10th. of February. I did not know how much I slept , but I was not tired in the morning. They did about everything to keep me awake on night, pains itching on the head, feeling like thousand ants walking and crawling on my scalp, verbal manipulation etc. Because I had a vacation, I was able to sleep that long that I did not feel tired. There were also some heart palpitation on that night. 12th of February. They awakened me at four a.m. They kept me awake about four hours, with all their tricks. I got sleep again about eight a.m. and slept until eleven a.m. On daytime there were continuous itching on the head, and much increased sore points on neck, that I had to massage out. 14th. of February. I slept about hour or two. They awakened me around two a.m. and started to talk about my sleep. Besides verbal manipulation, they used pains on head, to keep me awake. 15th. of February. I went to sleep after nine a.m. I did not get sleep, before I massaged my head after two o’clock a.m. After I got sleep about half past five. I have found that massaging the head and neck, someway reset their manipulation setup, and takes time before they get their setup working again. I slept about two ro three hours this night. 16th. of February. I am not sure how much I slept last night. I believe about one or two hours. They manipulated my heartbeat during the night. In the morning, after wakeup, there was a pain on the back of the head. There were some sore points on neck before I went to sleep, and in the morning. I massaged them away. 17th. of February. I went to sleep about half past nine. They awakened me after midnight. I felt that my neck and head was cold. After hour or so, when I did not get sleep, I massaged my neck. The cold feeling went to away and I got sleep until half past five, when I had to wake up and go to work. I slept between four and five hours. I believe that my massage of neck someway disturbed their manipulation that caused feeling of cold on the head, and neck. There is a kind of interesting causality with sore points on neck and salivation. If there are sore points on neck, and I massage my neck, there is immediately increased salivation on mouth. If there a no sore points on neck, massaging the neck, does not cause increased salivation on mouth. 18th. of February. They awakened me after two o’clock a.m. After I did not get any sleep. I estimate that I slept between two and three hours. 19th. of February. They awakened me after five o’clock a.m. and ordered me to turn other side. I resisted, so they caused a pain on side, that made my sleeping on that position very uncomfortable. After half hour or so I went other side. They started verbal talking, and caused someway , that I did not feel sleepy. I got out of bed. I believe I got sleep between four and five hours. 20th. of February. They awakened me around five a.m. I did try hard, but I could not get sleep after. I slept perhaps four hours. There were sore points on both side of the neck, that stayed nearly whole day, despite that I massaged them out several times during the day. 21st. of February. They awakened me three times during the night. However I was able to get sleep after. After four o’clock a.m. I was not able to get sleep anymore.. In the morning they started a pain on my right eye, that eased after noon. Also in the morning there were sore points especially on right side of the neck. 23th. of February. I went to sleep early, and they awakened me around ten times. However I got about four hours of sleep. Around eight a.m. on the while I was travelling to my work, they started repetitive voices. I managed them to go off , without causing the sensitivity problem , that I have sometimes experienced. After half past eight p.m. they caused “fast sleep”. I awakened on my chair about quarter to ten p.m. and felt extremely tired. I went to sleep at ten p.m. 24th of February. They awakened me around three or four times. However I believe, I got about four hours sleep, or more. On lunchtime, they caused pain on the right eye, that sometimes spread on, to the whole forehead.

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25th. of February. I slept about normal night. About quarter to ten a.m. the pain on side of the right eye started. It diminished on noon. Evening there were shooting pains on head, once a while. 26th. of February. I went to sleep around ten p.m. They awakened me after three o’clock a.m. After I did not get sleep. To get sleep, I massaged my neck. This caused a much better feeling. The perpetrators in turn caused a sharp pointed pain on center of the head, like ice pick on the head. I put a water back on the head, over the sore point so that it was tightly between my head, and a larger water container. So I got about 30 centimeter water between my head and the air. There were no caps, only thin container walls. This stopped the pain. They lost their temper, and we had a conversation on which, I got some insight views on their side of thinking. One would think that my perpetrators main concern is, that they would get caught for their crimes. I learned for them, that this is not their main concern. Their main concern is that they “lost my head” ,meaning that I became one way or another useless for them. Because they are kind of specialized torturing and manipulating for me, they perhaps do not get another “head” for their use , and will lose their jobs and became unemployed. I am now reading mind-control victim Tek Nath Rizal book Torture Killing me softly, Bhutan through the Eyes of Mind-Control victim. The book is available on pdf format free of charge here. One would believe that Kingdom of Bhutan, is not that technologically advanced, to develop electronic mind control technology. This would be true, but Bhutan is remote and isolated country , which makes it very ideal place, for more advanced countries to test, and develop electronic mind-control technology. The possibly deal would involve agreement where Bhutan Intelligence serves the human guinea pigs, and gets the information that electronic mind control technology could get out from victims mind. On this model the equipments and technical knowledge stays on other country. Also other kinds of dark deals that involves perhaps also money, are possibly. I agree with Tek Nath RizaL that electronic mind-control technology has existed for decades. According my perpetrators, the base of mind control technology was first developed on Soviet-Union on end of 1960, and United States got the technology, while investigating mental problems on United States Moscow Embassy around 1970. The reason that electronic mind-control technology is not public is that it is ideal weapon for the controlling elite of country, to monitor and manipulate all political movement of people. Even if governing leaders have disputes for accessing natural and human resources between countries, they have common need to control and manipulate people’s organizations on their area that they would not undermine their leadership . FFCHS has launched a National Billboard campaign to fight against electronic harassment. The choice of media reflects the present situation in United States. Mainstream media stays silent of electronic harassment. Congressmen are usually unable or unwilling to help mind control victims. If the victim goes complain to police he is often forced into mental hospital, where his possibilities of survive are much lower than in freedom. It is better to us, to do something to defend ourselves, than do nothing.Actually our situation has may similarities from situation that Jews had in Nazi-Germany. 3.1.2011 11.30 p.m. I did my last writing on 14th. of November. The next note since is on 16th of November. On this night they let me sleep about hour before awakened me at half past midnight. They started pain, and a kind of shrinking feeling on the neck, that made me impossible to sleep. There were also a kind of shooting pains, here and there on head. This was accompanied with verbal manipulation. After two o’clock , I did massage on my head. I also put loud musicon , and started morse-code practice, to get their manipulation for a bit more difficult. I got sleep around four o’clock a.m. Unfortunately, I had to awake to work at five a.m. , so I got sleep only about two hours on this night. 17th. of November. I slept about normally on night, eleven p.m. to five o’clock a.m. After eight a.m. the perpetrators started suddenly repetitive voice attack on my left ear. I put music loud on my earphones, and survived this time, without my getting allergic for certain frequencies of voice, that sometimes happen. In the evening after seven o’clock p.m. there were occasional pains on forehead. 19th. of November. Pain on my chest right side, that has continued three days, eased temporarily. Last night, they awakened me at least four times. However I fell asleep again. After four o’clock a.m. they succeeded to get me awake permanently. I had feeling that I slept about three hours. 21st. of November. They awakened me several times last night. However I had sleep after, so I believe I got sleep enough. There were some sore points on my neck , and I have massaged them with hand-held massager. The pain on the right side of chest worries me too. It came in the morning again, and even more severe than before. It eases daytime, so it must be something they do for me while I am sleeping. They have done it nearly every night on last week. On evening, the sore points on neck continued, but I got them temporary away, with eight round of massage. Actually sore points still exist, but weaker. I pain on right eye, has continued also a whole day very strong. 22nd. of November. They kept me awake nearly whole last night. I slept hour or two between two and four a.m. The pain on right side of chest continue worse than before. They also showed by turning pain on and off, that they cause it. The pain

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on the right eye, stopped on night. The sore points on neck left side were gone, instead there were sore points on right side of neck, that I massaged out with my hand-held massager. 23rd. of November. They awakened me for a couple of times, last night, and tried to start talking. However I was able to fall asleep again. I estimate, I slept four hours or more last night. Pain on chest, right side, felt strong in the morning, but eased on daytime. On evening they caused strong occasional shooting pains on various sides around my head. On neck there were some sore points on left side again, that I massaged out. 24th. of November. Night was similar, than night before. They disturbed my sleep, but I got about four or five hours sleep.. In the morning about half past eight, they started repetitive voices. I shielded them with loud music. On evening about quarter to six p.m. they made a kind of strong shooting pain on the side of my right eye. Before that they threaded to “burn my head”. 25th. of November. They awakened me about six or seven times last night, and also kept me awake most of the time. I estimate, I slept 2-3 hours. In the morning, for first time for a while, there were no sore points on my neck. Before I went to bed there were sore points on neck, left side. I massaged them with my hand held massager. Similar strong pain on side of right eye, than day before started, this time a bit later, quarter past six p.m. Day before the pain went off on hour, but this time it lasted nearly four hours. 26th. of November. They awakened me something between six to eight times, last night. I got sleep two or three hours. I felt bruise on my right eye when I awakened. However there were not physical mark of bruise. I covered the eye with steel-wool on plastic back to shield it. 29th. of November. Couple of last nights were pretty normal. I have slept about five hours. Daytime is normal pain on right eye, and sore points on neck that I massage with hand-held massager. The pain on right side of chest has became stronger on morning. I believe, they have ceased their other activities, do not interfere their “chest experiment” - what ever they are doing for me, that causes the pain. 30th. of November. I slept normal night , but in the morning, my forehead felt cold. This is a sign, that they have blocked blood-flow on my forehead. After wakeup, there were a kind of mild “after sauna torture”, headache on the forehead. The headache eased at noon. 2nd. of December. They kept me awake until four o’clock a.m. However I got some sleep, because I did not have to go to work in the morning. On evening, around half past eight p.m. , they started a repetitive voice attack, on left ear. I shielded it with loud music, and some steel-wool over the ear. They got my left ear a bit sensitive for certain frequency of noise. After midnight they started manipulating left side front of my head. I felt the itching, so I had to massage it before I went to sleep. 3rd. of December. Very similar than second of December. They awakened me several times at night. I got some sleep in the morning. They did some heartbeat-manipulation, when I went to sleep. 4th. of December. They manipulated me nearly whole night. However, because I did not have to go to work, I was able to sleep until noon, and I got enough sleep. The pain on chest on right, has eased temporarily. I still have no idea, what they are doing there. 6th. of December. Last night they awakened me several times. I got sleep between four and five a.m. Fortunately, it was the Finnish day of Independence. I was able to sleep at eleven a.m. and got about normal hours of sleep. On Afternoon they started pain on left side, front of the head, and some itching back of the head also left side. After ten p.m. There were a sudden attack of heavy pains around the head. I put a shield, that I had made from steel-wool, over the head, and succeeded to stop the attack. 7th. of December. They used repetitive voices, last night, and succeeded to get my left ear sensitive for certain frequencies of noise. On lunchtime they started repetitive voice attack on left ear again. I had to listen very loud music a couple of hours, before it went out. I hope I did not get very serious hearing damage for that. 10th. of December. About one o’clock p.m. They caused pain on head. This somehow caused also, that I had great difficulties n to make proper knots on my work, to tie books together. 11th. of December. They “opened” a kind of “wound” on left side front of my head, and tortured me through. it whole morning. After eleven p.m. they caused shrinking feeling on back of the head. Sleeping was quite normal last days. They even woke me up around five a.m. , when I have to go to work, but let me sleep eight a.m. today, because I had a holiday. 12th. of December. On last night, I got a very heavy itching, on right side of front of the head. I covered it with a bag of steel-wool, about two centimeters heavy, before it went down. After I got about normal sleep. In the morning , they started a pain on the right eye, and continued until I went to sleep.

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13th. of December. I did not get sleep at all, on last night. They used pain on side I was sleeping, and all the other things, to keep me awake. They also told that my massage ( with hand held massager) has broken some of their equipments on my head. True or false, anyway I hear continuous white noise. There are also very dangerous feeling pains near right-, and sometimes near left eye. 14th. of December. They disturbed my sleeping many ways, that worst was a burning pain on center of the neck. However I got some sleep, because I went to sleep early, and I was tired. I believe, they awakened me around ten times, on that night. My sleep was on short pieces. I estimate, that I slept around three hours. 15th. of December. They attacked me with repetitive voices, while I was working, and was not that able to defend myself. The first attack was around one o’clock p.m. , and next quarter to three p.m. After seven p.m. started pain on side of right eye, and continued until night, although it went weaker a whole time. 16th. of December. They kept me awake last night very long. I believe, I slept about three hours. About quarter to six p.m. they started a pain on side of my right eye, and it continued most of the evening. They have caused some sore points on my neck, usually on left side, but sometimes also right side. I have massaged them, with my hand-held massager every evening, before I go to bed, and in the morning after wakeup, until they go away. 17th. of December. They awakened me before four a.m. After I did not get sleep. I slept about three hours . On afternoon they started pain on left temple of my head. The pain moved later on the right eye and continued until night. 19th. of December. On the night, there were pain on the right temple, that started about half past three a.m. About ten o’clock a.m. they did a repetitive voice attack on left ear, and partly succeeded to get me sensitive for certain frequencies. 20th. of December. Start of the week torture. I slept about hour, before they awakened me. They used pains to keep me awake. I used loud music to defend myself. They were not very pleased my idea of organization, similar than Simon Wiesenthal Center, on difference that the center is fighting against illegal human experimenters when Wiesenthal center was fighting against Nazis. I hope my dream some day is realized. I realize it is far today. Not Jewish on the concentration camp, or Nazis that killed them i would have believed, that some day there organization , that tracks down and gathers information on former Nazis and SS members who were involved in the Holocaust, so that they can be punished for crimes against humanity. After Seven a.m. they started very unpleasant pain on side of right eye, and it continued noon 21st. of December. They awakened me several times last night, but I got asleep after. I guess I slept hour or two, but it is very difficult to say. I did not feel very tired in the morning, perhaps they have caused this too. 22nd. of December. Very similar night than 21st. Of December. I slept about two hours. They used pains to keep me awake, and to control my position. On the afternoon about four o’clock p.m. there were pain on the right side of head. 25th. of December. Last night – the Christmas eve – went quite well. They awakened me before five, but because I did not have to go to work, I put loud music and started to practice morse-code to get sleep again. Apparently they had planned something for me, that requires, that I go out for bed. On bed I still have some kind of shielding. They used pains to get my sleep uncomfortable. Later they got nasty, and told me to go up because “ Our moose rifle is ready”, and “Christmas Sauna is waiting”. They also told that they have to “Smoothen some corners” on my personality and they like me a “bit less clever than I am”. . On their talks they have given expression that they live on some kind of vessel, that they call “theatre-ship”. This impression comes time to time. If this is true, it is interesting to know if the ship is ordinary navy-ship, or vessel that is camouflaged for cargo-ship or fishing-boat. On eleven a.m. they started pain on chest left side. On last days they have caused more or less severe pain on right side of chest, that feels especially shovelling snow or doing something else heavy work. Now I am more worried because my heart is on left side. 26th. of December. They awakened me after a couple of hours of sleep. They used pains on side, and cold forehead to keep me awake. In the morning, I found that my neck, that I had before succeeded to keep without sore points, was full of sore points. I believe, that this is someway connected for that my forehead felt cold in night. They cut someway blood-flow from my forehead, I believe. My right ear had similar pressure problem, that sometimes in aeroplane, when the air-pressure changes. 27th. of December. Last night I got sleep about normal way, but they awakened me around four o’clock a.m. Because I did not have to go to work, and I felt , they awakened me too early, I started loud music, and started to do morse-code practice. They used pains and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. However I got some sleep, and slept until nine o’clock a.m. The special on the awakening, was that air that I breathed, felt a kind of bitter. The effect went away, when I got away from my c-pap breathing-machine, that I have to use on night. My mouth was full of bad-tasting mucus. 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spoke about carbon-diokside experiments, I do not know if there is some truth behind it, or it is just their usual intimidating. There were nearly couple of weeks without sore points on neck, in the morning, but last days there were several sore points on neck, especially on left side. I massaged them of with my hand-held massager. 29th. of December. They awakened me several times on night, and kept me awake for most of the time. They used verbal manipulation, and different pains. I want to mention especially a very strong on back after six a.m. There were also a pain on centre of neck that felt like burning ( my notes say five minutes before six p.m. , but I feel this could mean six a.m.) The pain lasted about five minutes. It was similar that 14th of December, I had. I believe, there is no other purpose for this pain, than cause pain and fear on victims. They use it for torture, or just because it is fun for them. Hopefully some day they get some more years on jail for this their habit for keeping fun for victims suffering. It would their values of life on right order. I had also pain on right ear, similar than sometimes on aeroplane, when the pressure changes. On about half past eight, there was a pain that felt like wound, on left side centre of the head. It continued over hour. 30th. of December. About one o’clock a.m. The burning pain on centre of the neck started again. I did try to defend myself with a back of steel-wool on neck. The whole night they kept me awake most of the time. They also warned me to not let my house daytime . Partly for this reason, I went to Downtown for a whole day. In the evening they did not want me to do, a kind of Excel-calculation, I used to do end of the week. They caused tiredness on my hand, that I use to move the computermouse. I had to change the mouse temporarily on other hand. They also cause very much itching on my scalp. I massaged these itching point to get itching out. First of January 2011. They caused very dangerous feeling pains around my head starting last evening and night. There were also lots of sore points on neck, that I had to massage about every hour, with my hand-held massager. 2nd. Of January 2011. I got about normal sleep. In the morning. I found that I do less errors, with translating old songs for morse-code, when the music is loud, than when the music is silent. This is because their manipulator “secretary” manipulates my memory, so that I loose the words. This sounds stupid , for people who do not know this manipulation technique, but usually they succeed. When music is loud (I believe) there is that much disturbance noise , that their manipulation is more difficult. I found also that female voices usually start repetitive voice manipulation when I turn the music loud. However, they stop after half un hour, if their repeating-voice manipulation does not succeed, and only male voice try to start conversation for something, or at least try to get me listen, what he is talking. I was perhaps too pessimistic for the world on my last writing. I wrote about President Bush permit to use torture for interrogation on my last writing . Amnesty International has given statement that former president George Bush must be prosecuted for authorizing torture Also The International Rehabilitation Council for Torture Victims ,and numerous other organization have asked President Obama to hold Bush accountable for torture. President Bush has defended his decision by telling that he has got legal advice, that waterboarding is not torture. Also lawyers that gave the advice did not get any punishment.The United States Department of justice made decision that the lawyers that gave this legal advice are not guilty of anything either, but according to state department , they have only “flawed legal reasoning”. So they have invented way to commit crimes, without that anybody is quilty of anything. This waterboarding torture case has also other legal “trick” that is often used. The lawyers did not use word torture for waterboarding but used instead word “enhanced interrogation”. Similarly human experiment that has purpose to study how much radiation human can stand before he dies, was called medical treatment, when the right term is perhaps murder. Lawyers mean that torture is not torture anymore when it is called “enhanced interrogation”, and murder is not murder anymore, when we call it “treatment”, even if people who get this "treatment" lost their lives. These kind of cheap tricks would not work on any country, that has proper, and orderly working legal system . Still these tricks are possible in United States. People in United States are not equal in before the law. Waterboarding that caused former president Bush, and other involved , no prosecution, caused Texas Sheriff James Parker four years in prison. 14.11.2010 10.55. p.m. My first note since my last writing is made on first of October. On that day, I did not get any sleep. The perpetrators used repetitive voices, among other things, to keep me awake. Next evening, there was some itching on the head. 5th. of October. I forgot my alarm clock to wake me awake on one a.m. The perpetrators used this false alarm, and started verbal manipulation. They also wanted, for some reason, to turn me to sleep on other side, and used pains to get me turn on the left side. I did put music very loud, on my earphones, and they stopped the pains on left side immediately after that, but started shooting pains on my head. I massaged my neck to get some relieve it. After I got some sleep, but I believe that the whole sleeping time on this night was less than three hours. 6th. of October. They kept me awake nearly whole last night. Again they used pains on right side, to get me to turn on other side. Around two o’clock a.m. they threatened, that they will “iron” my head a bit, but on the end I will get a “happy man’s shirt”. After they started continuous pain, around five centimeter above from my right eye. The pain

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continued two p.m. on afternoon, and even after that the head was a bit sore. 7th of October. On night they awakened me around one o’clock a.m. and started verbal manipulation, and some pains on head. With loud music and morse-code practice, I got some sleep, after a long fight. I believe that the total sleep time on this night was between three and four hours. 8th. of October. Again they awakened me around one o’clock a.m. After that, I was not sure , if I got any sleep at all. Their story to catch my interest was, that I have a “gas bubble” in my head, which means that my head is permanently damaged, and they will “use me at end” , whatever it means. 9th. October. I went sleep early, and again they awakened me at one a.m. I guess their torture team work starts at this time. After they started verbal manipulation. I got up, did some work, and around four o’clock a.m ,I went again to bed. I was able to sleep until ten a.m. , so I got about normal sleep. This is possible only Saturday, when I do not have to get work early on morning. 10th. of October. After I went to sauna, I found that arteries on the neck are sore. I tried to manipulate them, but I found in the morning they were still sore, and I had a small headache. On the afternoon the arteries were not sore anymore, but coughing causes pain on the head. 11th. of October.”After sauna torture” continued. While massaging the neck, it was easy to find, that arteries on left side of the neck are sore. Actually both sides of neck were sore, but by massaging I got the right side arteries open around ten p.m. last night. The headache continued whole morning, and in the afternoon, it went even more severe. 12th. of October. On night they awakened me several times, however I was able to sleep long, because I had a week holidays. On daytime, they were blocking arteries on left side of neck. It is easily recognizable, when massaging neck with hand massager. 13th. of October. Again they are blocking the arteries on left side of neck. I believe, they were also experimenting with my kidneys, because I had problems with urinating. 14th. of October. I went to sleep around midnight, and they awakened me around four a.m. Later I went another time to sleep , because I felt tired. I slept about noon. After I woke up there were severe headache on front of the head, right side, and it continued whole afternoon. 15th. of October. About two a.m. they told me that they really had stopped my kidneys for a while, but now it is working again. I urinated a lot, and frequently, some time after that. On “talk” with them, I got also a new term “necklace” that means their system to block veins and arteries, and cause me some headache. They promised to stop to use “necklace” in future. Problem is that they seldom speak true, so I do not make any fast decision that is based on their promises. They kept me awake about six a.m. , after I got about three hours sleep, so my full sleeping hours for this night were between four and five hours. 17th. October . They awakened me around four a.m. Their teaser on this time was, that mind control-torture on my case is becoming public, and they gave advice, how to behave when police attacks to perpetrators. It did take a while to get enough awake to understand the real reason of their “advice . They caused a big headache on front head, left side, and later started repetitive voices , they have not used for a long time. I put the music loud on earphones, and started morse code practice, and got some sleep. In the afternoon , they started pain on left side of head, that continued on next morning. 18th. of October. Because of itching on the left side of head, I slept four hours or less. They awakened me around four a.m. Pain on left side became occasional on morning and changed pain on neck on evening. 19th. of October. They first awakened me after midnight, and then after two o’clock a.m. After that I did not get sleep. I believe I slept this night around two hours. 20th of October. I went ot sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me half past twelve after midnight. I used loud music and morse-code practice , but they were able to keep me awake rest of the night. I slept under two hours this night. They threatened me that “red car will come your workplace parking lot” . I do not know , what this actually means. 21st. of October. I went to sleep after seven p.m. I used loud music and morse code practice, to resist their manipulation. I got some sleep after a long fight. They used repetitive voices, pains everywhere etc. In the morning my perpetrators told I slept four hours. It could be true, I did not feel very sleepy on that morning. 22nd. of October. They awakened me after midnight this night. After I did not get sleep. They used all the tricks to keep me awake. I estimate that I slept about two hours , and it was before midnight. 23rd. of October. I went to sleep about nine p.m. and got out of bed nine a.m. next day. On this twelve hours, I got about five hours sleep. Again they used everything to keep me awake. Voices, pain etc. On a while they threaded “ People come ,

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which will break you”. Other times they went to frustration , and told that they are tired “to make stuffed people, that could be used for nothing” . I had sleep on several short periods, between their torture and manipulation. 25th. of October. I did not get sleep at all. Actually, I perhaps slept a bit, but I do not remember, that I was asleep. Sometimes on night they presented a kind of new way to make “voices”. They presented two voices, the sound of opening champagne bottle, and a voice of dog sparking. The voices were very real, and feeling was that they came inside my body. They were just different than narrow frequency “voiceless voice” that they usually use , which has very limited dynamic range. Apparently the perpetrators cannot yet speak with these voices that are made with this new, better technique. They have not experimented with me before, for developing these improved voice machines. I hope the victims they have used for developing these systems, are still alive. Hopefully society will someday get civilized enough , that these criminals will get prosecuted trial – similar as Nuremberg trials – for crimes against humanity. Unfortunately, the world is going just opposite direction. I have just read from newspaper that former United States president George Bush had personally approved torture of enemy prisoners. By approving torture president Bush has knowingly violated United Nations Convention against torture, which United States has also ratified 1988. This makes one to wonder , are also rest of United States ratified International agreements not worth of paper , they are written on, if the President of United States, can make a that kind of decision ? 26th. of October. They awaked me around one a.m. However I got some sleep after. I felt I got sleep between four and five hours. In the afternoon about half past three p.m. They started repetitive voices, and succeeded to get my right ear sensitive for certain frequency of voices. 27th. of October. They awakened me around two a.m. I got some sleep after, but result was that I went late to my work. 28th. of October. They awakened me after one a.m. I used loud music and morse-code practice, to get sleep, and slept until four o’clock a.m. So I slept about three or four hours that night. They did not use pains, but tried to very actively “hook” my interest, with different pieces of conversation. 30th. of October. I went to Mariehamn with ferry, and back Turku. There were no verbal manipulation on trip, only a couple of shooting pains on left side of my head before coming to Mariehamn. On home manipulation started normal way, however I was able to sleep normal five hours. First of November, the perpetrators started pain on the right side of the head. I had dry mouth on wakeup. The pain actually ended on evening after a heavy massage of my neck. 2nd. of November. They awakened me several times. I am not sure how much I slept, but I believe about three hours. 3rd. of November. They awakened me around two a.m. After I did not get sleep. They used pains to try to get me turn on other side. I believe I slept around three hours. 4th. of November. I went to sleep half past nine p.m. They got me awake around two a.m. After I did not get sleep. On wakeup, I found that they had a kind of freeze on my head. They used pains and repetitive voices to keep me awake. I used loud music and morse code practice, to resist the manipulation. 5th. fo November. On night, I did not get sleep at all. Among all the other things, they used pains to control my position, and let me to sleep. Actually I am not sure, if I was asleep, but I do not remember, if I slept or stayed awakeö. On the afternoon started pain on the forehead on right side. 6th. of November. Before I went ot sauna I found by massaging my neck, that they had blocked my veins and arteries. So they were prepared for “after sauna torture” before I went to sauna. I massaged them open with hand-massage machine. 7th. of November. They awakened me on morning by threatening, that soon I cannot walk, and I have to live in wheelchair. On their plans, they told, they will do something, that weakens durability of my bones. They also told that I will need supplemental oxygen device to breathing. The future will show, if they were empty threats or not. It is possibly that they just, tried to tell me my ultimate nightmares, they have got my brains. Pain on the right eye, continued severe whole morning. On the evening, I found that they blocked arteries on my neck again, so I had to massage them open. 8th. of November. I was not sure, how much I slept. I was awakened on night, but I also got some sleep after that. In the morning, I found that there were again some sore points on my neck, and I tried to remove them, by hands massager. On the afternoon about one o’clock p.m. started a very heavy pain on the side of my right eye. The pain ended after four p.m. 9th. of November. On night at first, I did not sleep at all. but after a some hours, I put music on the earphones very loud, and

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started morse code practice, and got some sleep. If I am very tired, I can sleep on loud music. and noise some way break their manipulating system, that causes , that I am not feeling myself tired. They have told me, that on later systems this “fault” is fixed, and loud noise will not enable the victim to get sleep, and he is fully in mercy of the perpetrators. That is one reason, I believe that I have implants. If the changes, are possible on transmitter side, they would ha simply changed the transmitter for a new model, that does not make possible to break their sleep deprivation torture with loud music. 10th. of November. I went ot sleep around nine o’clock p.m. They awakened me at half past ten. I felt just fresh, like I had slept full night. Only my watch showed that I had slept only a little more than one hour. I put loud music on my earphones, and started morse-code practice, and I went asleep again. Sometime on night, I remember that half-asleep , I put music down. There were many times on night , that I was half-asleep. I awakened before five a.m. much less crispy, than I was on half past ten last night. It is very difficult to say, how much I slept, but I believe around three hours. 11th. of November. I went asleep around eleven p.m. They awakened me around three o’clock. and later four a.m. I believe, I got sleep about three hours. 12th of November. I got to bed after ten p.m. They kept me awake with so that I was still awake at three a.m. They caused heart palpitation. They did about everything to keep me awake on night. However because I did not have to go to work, I was on bed half past ten a.m , and I felt I got some hours sleep, however it is difficult to say how many hours.

I have read from newspapers, how Canadian army Colonel Russell Williams committed series of sexual assaults, rapes and murders of young women. There were many surprised people in Canada, who would not understand that top Army officer committed these abominable acts. I am not surprised. Colonel Russel has committed in his private life very similar torture and perversions that Army as an organization has committed. Electronic mind control and torture that I was subject especially, when I was young, do not that much differ, the pervert crimes that Colonel Russel committed. Only difference is, that I believe that the death toll of victims of Army organizational perversions, is much larger , than victims of Colonel William Russel’s private perverse acts.

29.9.2010 9.45. p.m. When I read my old diary notes, the matter, that is changed most in last months, it is their sleep deprivation torture. Now they prefer let me first sleep awhile , and then awake, me after hour of sleep, or so. This happens often several times on night. My first note since my last writing was 22nd. of August. I got normal 5-6 hours sleep. In the morning ,I asked them, if my sleep deprivation torture has ended. They answered that they are now cutting my vocabulary. They explained that they do not remove words from my memory, but rather cut some connections between words. 23rd. of August. Start of the week torture. They got me awake night around one o'clock a.m. After that, I did not get sleep. This perhaps because I had rather normal sleep on night before. I slept between hour and two hours on that night. As usually I used loud music and Morse code practice , to shield myself from their verbal manipulation. 24th. of August. They awakened me two times, first around one o'clock a.m. and second time , around three a.m. I got some sleep between. I estimate that I slept between three and four hours. The next night, 25th of August was very similar. They awakened me after two a.m. and after four a.m. and I estimate that my total sleeping time was between three and four hours. 26th. of August They got me awake after two o’clock a.m. I used loud music and Morse code practice to resist them. The perpetrators use other name for my Morse code practice. They call it for “knitting the sock” . They often say “Your sock knitting we have to stop”. What actually happen is that I have some songs on my memory. I translate these old songs letter by letter into Morse code. The “secretary” that try to act between my memory, and my pronunciation - has to actually remember those old songs I have memorized myself on childhood. He has to also know the Morse code. The loud music that I am listening on background , does not make his task easier. The whole thing is very boring for both of us, but it makes enough work to my brain that I can keep my memory out of verbal manipulation, they try to feed me. Their usual response for Morse code practice is, that they try block my memory, so I cannot remember the words of those old songs, that I have learned on my childhood. This is often accompanied by feeding some “wrong” words into my memory. I got some sleep after my first awakening. Second time they awakened me after three o'clock a.m. They also did try to use pains, to control my sleeping positions. This time they failed, but I did not get sleep after three o'clock a.m. The difference for earlier weeks is, that I do not feel myself very tired on morning and daytime. 27th. of August. Last night they awakened me at one o’clock a.m. I got sleep about two hours. Still they made me feel, like

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I had sleep normal night. After quarter past three a.m. they started to manipulate my heartbeat. In the afternoon I got some pains on the right temple of the head. 28th. of August. I went to sleep after eight a.m. They awakened me about midnight. I got some sleep after . I believe that total amount I was on sleep was about four hours. Next night 29th. of August I got normal sleep. 30th. of August. Start of the week torture. They awakened me after three a.m. and I did not get sleep after. There is a small pain on chest left side. They told me that they had stopped my heart twice , while I was sleeping. (whatever it means). 31st. of August. I went to sleep earlier than usually, about ten p.m. They awakened me before two a.m. After I did not get real sleep. I used Morse code and loud music to resist their manipulation. I estimate, I slept about three hours. Rather than old “hard head” techniques they use now some new technique, that causes that I do not feel sleepy, but feeling is like I had got normal sleep on morning. However on daytime the feeling is different than after normal sleep, but I do not feel myself actually sleepy. 1st. of September. I went ot bed after eleven. They awakened me first time on midnight, and tried to start talking. Next time they awakened me about two o’clock a.m. , and after three a.m. After three I did not get sleep. They used pains on knee, to keep me awake. They also threaded me that my death occurs soon . I used loud music and Morse code to shield myself. 2nd. of September. They awakened me after midnight. They used back pain, and pain on knee, to make sure I do not get sleep. I used music and Morse code to resist their manipulation. They caused also someway that I do not feel very sleepy, although I slept only one hour before midnight. 3rd. of September. I went to sleep after nine p.m. They awakened me before midnight, and I did not get sleep after. I used music and Morse code practice to resist their manipulation. They used pains to not let me to sleep, and to control my sleeping position. I got sleep less than two hours, but I did not feel very sleepy next morning. They have someway achieved to control my tiredness also. However I do not believe, that it is very healthy for sleep one hour for night. 4th. of September. I went to sleep after eight, and I slept until two o’clock a.m., around six hours. I believed that their sleep deprivation torture session has ended. The odd thing is that I did not feel myself very tired, although I was awake around one hundred hours , with only ten hours sleep. Perhaps they are developing a radio controlled soldier that can fight weeks without sleeping and still feel no tired. I still do believe that keeping person that many days, with only a couple of hours sleep, is not very good for his health. 6th. of September. They awakened me about one o'clock a.m. However I was able to get sleep again. I believe that I slept normal six hours. This because I had holidays, and I did not have to get up to work this morning. 7th. of September. They caused me feel sleepy, so I went to bed earlier. This time they awakened me around four o’clock a.m. Because they made me feel no tired, I got up of bed, and did some work. They made me feel very tired after a while. I went to bed again at five a.m. Then they started a very heavy repetitive voice torture. The words they repeated was “K-Iron” ( K-rauta in Finnish language) , it must have some hidden meaning . It is a name of a Finnish hardware chain. It must have some hidden meaning, I do not know. Knowing their way to use language, making a kind of language crosswords – the letter K- has some meaning, and iron could just mean their torture equipments. Actually I felt that I got hour or two sleep after five a.m. In the morning they caused some mild headache. 8th. of September. I did not get sleep at all. They used repetitive voices, I used Morse code practice and loud music to defend.myself. Unfortunately I had to get out to work in the morning , so I could not simply sleep, so long time that I get enough sleep. They said “lark has sung” so they would not save my life any more. They have also told singing lark earlier days. Actually this is another example of their way to make a kind of language crosswords. I try to avoid to think very deeply, what is “k-iron” other than a hardware chain, or what means that “lark has sung” , because I know , they want me to try to open these sentences , so that they would find how my brain works. 9th. fo September. They awakened me around midnight. I got some sleep after. Actually they awakened me several times and used all kind of pain on back and ear to keep me awake , and control my sleeping position. I got out of bed after six a.m. It is difficult to say, how long I slept, but I did not feel very sleepy in the morning. 10th. to 13th. September were very similar. They awakened me two or three times on night , but I was able to get proper about six hours sleep. This was because they knew I did not have to wake up, and go to work on morning, but I was able simply to stay on bet until I got enough sleep. They mostly caused pain on my left knee. I have arthritis on my left knee, and they have some way not only caused pain, but really caused inflammation, that makes my walking difficult. I do not know how they did it. I have theory that they simply a kind of record natural pain on brains and playback it to cause pain. They can also control blood flow on different parts of body. 14th. of September. When I went to bed they started pain on my left knee, as usually on last week, and also some itching on head. I put the music volume very high and started morse code practice. After that they stopped pain on knee´, and itching on head, and tried to start repetitive voices, but could not cause much effect. After I went to sleep, I believe that they

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caused the sleep to get a new start. They awakened me first time after midnight, but I got sleep, and after they awakened me after three a.m. and I did not get sleep after that, because I had to go to work. In the morning they caused some pain on left knee. 15th. of September. I did not sleep at all. My work started, and they knew I have to wake up in the morning, so they started sleep deprivation torture. They kept me kind of half sleep until two. O’clock a.m. , which after I started loud music to disturb their manipulation. Now I feel sleepy , that is different for the previous sleep deprivation torture session. 16th. of September. I went to sleep on rather loud music, because I had not sleep last night, and I know they kind of build this sleep deprivation on several days, and I have to cut it , to get them to stop it. I got some sleep, but about two a.m. they awakened me and were very angry, and also caused pains on ears, when they tried to get me take out earphones from my ears. I did not stop loud music and got couple of hours more sleep. Actually I believe , I slept around four hours. In the morning they started headache on side of the right eye. The headache continued whole day, and in the evening it spread on a whole front head, and became more severe. 18th. of September. They got me sleepy around eight p.m. so I went to sleep immediately around nine p.m. Before midnight they awakened me , and started verbal manipulation. Because they caused me to feel very brisk, I got up and started some work. The sleepiness came after hour or so. I went to sleep again. They awakened me again after couple of hours sleep. I started loud music and Morse code. They tried get earbuds of my ears, by causing shooting pains on the ear. After they kept me awake by causing backache. I do not know if I slept or how long I slept this night, but I did not sleep very well. 19th. September. In the morning I found by massaging my neck, that they had blocked left arteries on neck on night, while I was sleeping. It caused a mild “after sauna torture” type headache, a while in the morning. I felt also occasionally mild headache on daytime. 20th. of September. They awakened me after three, and started verbal manipulation. This time they explained that army makes all of the victims mentally retarded before they stop torture. Same time they caused a sharp pain on left side of front head, that made very painful and difficult to make Morse code exercise , that I used to disturb their verbal manipulation. This is a usual formula, they use to get victim awake on night. They have a threat, example to make the victim mentally retarded, or cause heart attack etc. Then they also cause some effects on victim, example heart attack, or like this time disturbing my mental process . The purpose is to demonstrate their ability to do , what they have threaded. I believe , I got sleep about three hours, this night. 21st. of September. I went early bed, after nine p.m. They awakened me half past eleven. After I got some short periods of sleep, but because they caused pains on front head, I got out of bed early, after three a.m. They caused pain on right eye, whole morning. On the afternoon there were some shooting pains on neck left side. 22nd. of September I slept about normal six hours. In the morning my throat was dry, what is unusual. In the morning I found that a whole my body was very sore, like I had run long time or something comparable. This continued a whole day, and it went more severe on afternoon. On evening they started a heavy headache on whole front of my head, and some nausea. I went unconscious while sitting on my recliner after seven p.m. and awakened after nine p.m. The headache, and nausea ended when I got shielding around my head. 23rd. of September. I slept about six hours. In the morning there were a pain on the right eye. On evening same pain started about nine p.m. 24 th. of September. Pain on the right eye started before nine p.m. and continued a whole night. On six a.m. I went out of bed. Pain diminished. Because I was sleepy, I went to bed again. I woke up after nine a.m. There were some soreness on lungs. About ten o’clock a.m. there were some backache, or actually a odd feeling on my back. Later I became a kind of euphoric narcotic mode, I was not able to do anything. About two o’clock p.m. I managed to move myself on bedroom under shield, that means, that I put my head between water bags. My head between water bags, I was able to make some picture, what has happened . I did not have my shielding on the morning, and they were able to “shoot” me. Half past eight p.m. they started heavy pain on right eye again “ We are sorry, we have to tear your right eye open again” , they said. I resisted by trying to keep my muscles around the right eye continuously moving. After a couple of hours, the pain diminished, at least temporary. 27th. of September. A kind of start of the week torture. They awakened me several times on night. Besides the verbal manipulation, they also use pains, to control my sleeping position. This time they wanted me to sleep on my back, when they usually preferred that I sleep on left side, and cause backache if I try to sleep on my back. I slept about three hours. After four a.m. I did not sleep at all. 29th. of September. I went to sleep after ten p.m. . They awakened me four or five times during the night, first time before midnight. To get the victim awake, they use a kind of verbal teasers, that are designed to catch victims attention. I believe, they keep book for best teasers, and use them for several victims. The teasers I remember this particular night were.” Your life ends, when a black man come through window into your house”. 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planning to put your image on five dollar bill or other small note, after the mind control experiments are revealed to public”. If the victim try to continue his sleep, the perpetrators try to tell another interesting story, or even causing some pains, to keep the victim awake. “You cannot get out of this restaurant without eating your porridge” as the perpetrators told me this night. In the morning I got some headache that eased on evening. I have found two important news, on the area of mind -reading and mind-control research. One of the news I found from Telegraph, United Kingdom: Scientists have developed a machine, that can convert thoughts into (acoustic) speech. What they have actually done is that they have made a kind of mechanical copy of part of human organ that converts person thinking into acoustic speech. Everyone has this organ in his head. The news is important, because it proves that converting thoughts electrically into speech is possible . However I believe that the machine, which my perpetrators use to torture me, is a different kind , a kind of brain to brain communication interface, that is capable to transfer verbal thoughts from person to another. The way it works, could be something like feeding one person thoughts into another person organ that converts thoughts into speech.The implants that are used to transmit and receive the broadcast, could be smaller, and more sophisticated version of these type of devices, for example Another piece of news, is device on helmet that can manipulate brains so that soldier does not feel stress and can fight several days without sleep. This works with ultrasonic, but I believe, the experiments that leads for development of this kind of device, could have done with implants, and kind of victims of mind control, like I am. Actually experiments between 31 august and fourth of September, were very near of this type of experiments. 20th.. .August 2010 11.30 p.m. My previous writing ended on fourth of July. After that next note on my notebook is of fifth of July: Attack from repetitive voices after nine p.m. It ended after ten p.m. After midnight there were shooting pains on left side for front of head. 7th. of July. I got a pain on the side of right eye. It started on wakeup, and continued whole morning. Next night the same pain started half past one a.m. and continued for noon. 10th. of July. They awakened me about three a.m. and started verbal manipulation, and rather heavy pain on side of the right eye. I shielded with loud music and practicing morse-code. They used back pain, and some other pains to keep me awake. I did not sleep after three a.m. I woke up after nine a.m. The pain on the right eye continued whole morning rather strong. 11th. fo July. Pain around the right eye at wakeup. It disappeared after half an hour. Rather heavy verbal manipulation continued most of the day. Half past six p.m. started pain around the left eye, continued a while 13th. of July . They got me extremely sleepy, and I went to sleep half past nine p.m. At night they awakened me around one o’clock a.m. and started repetitive voices. I shielded with loud music and morse-code practice, but I did not get sleep that night, so I got about three hours of sleep on that night. In the next evening they caused a new kind of pains on somewhere on upper side of manubrium sterni. This happened mostly between seven and eight p.m. but occasional pains continued until I went to sleep. 15th. of July. They got me awake around three o'clock, a.m. and started verbal manipulation. So I got sleep about four hours. I started to interfere their manipulation with loud music and morse-code practice. This caused them to start repetitive voices, and pains on side of my left ear. I did not get any more sleep on that night. I felt that the perpetrators behavior was a lightly different than earlier, so they perhaps were a new group of perpetrators. In the morning they started very aggressive verbal manipulation. I found from myself that after “talking” with them, that my throat went sore. This was interesting. The “talking” is not with voice, but I am actually thinking verbally. It is of course possible that they intentionally caused sore throat, but this made me thinking, what is the actual difference between verbal thinking, and speaking? What muscles are involved in verbal thinking , and are there any differences between mind control victims and other people. They destroyed my reading without verbally voicing words on my mind, about thirty years ago, when they started. It happened with a kind of machine, that showed written sentences on my mind, of fraction of time for each sentence. I believe that idea, behind this was that they did not know what I was thinking on my old faster style of reading. So they wanted that I pronounce the words on my mind, so that they would read them.. The perpetrators went very angry mood, when I said that men in the last wars did not fight , to defend this kind of fascist countries they are making for us, but they fight because they believed for democracy and equality of all people. 16th. of July. They got me awake around one o’clock a.m. After I shielded myself with loud music, and interfered their verbal manipulation by practicing morse-code. I did not get sleep that night. They used also some back pains to keep me awake. 17th. of july. Around four o'clock p.m. I got pain on side of left eye once a while . This continued some minutes. This same happened on next day evening..

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19th. of July. Start of the week torture. They got me awake around three a.m. , so I slept about three hours. I did not use music to shield myself from manipulation. That was perhaps my mistake. In the morning pain on left eye started half past nine and it continued until evening. Lunchtime they started repetitive voices, and continued it on my work. On lunch, I was able to shield with loud music, but it was not possible on workplace. After work, they got me so tired, that I went to sleep half past seven p.m. They awakened me at half past eleven p.m. After I did not get any sleep whole night. So the difference for earlier months is , that before, they let me to sleep for two hours, on night of their sleep deprivation torture session. Now they let me sleep about three hours for night. On Twentieth of July afternoon, they started very aggressive repetitive voice manipulation with occasional pain of side of left eye. This made my working very difficult. 21st. of July. They got me awake before three o’clock a.m. I did my usual defense – Loud music and morse-code practice, to interfere their manipulation. This time they made my morse-code practice difficult, by blocking my memory, so that I did not remember words of songs I was translating into morse-code on my mind. Sometimes between four and five a.m. they got some technical problems on their equipments the voice started wheezing on my ears. However I did not get any more sleep, before they get their machines working again. 22nd. of July. y caused me sleepiness on 21st. of July evening, so I went to sleep half past nine p.m. They awakened me after midnight. I resisted their manipulation my usual way loud music and practicing morse-code. On their manipulation they spoke that the background organization, that has made lots of money for me – has put some money for my use in my end. If this is true , and not just story to keep me awake, the interesting thing (if they spoke truth) is that perpetrators are on project. The project has perhaps budgeted some money for me, but because they are planning to torture me until death , they are probably planning to use that money for other purposes. 24th of July. . They awakened me after two a.m. last night. I shielded with music and morse-code practice. I got some sleep after they awakened me. I believe my sleeping time was perhaps three or four hours. In the afternoon before three o’clock p.m. pain on the left side , back of the head. This accompanied with very intense verbal manipulation. The pain on left side of the head continued next day. The pain was felt especially when moving my jaws, example when eating. In the afternoon pain on the side of the right eye started and continued very strong until late night. 26th of July. Start of the week torture. I went to sleep after midnight, and they awakened me at three a.m. On the talk the perpetrators made clear for me, that they will never get caught, and I will stay their prisoner for end of my life, and my life is fully on their hands. Pain on the right eye continued from 24th. of July, and I feel by manual manipulation of the arteries, that some arteries are sore. The perpetrators call their technique of blocking arteries binding , and they admit that manual massage could temporally open their binding. 27th. of July. The pain on the right eye stopped sometime morning. Then started pain on left side back of the head. It was severe on the evening, and was felt especially when eating. I went to sleep early. I slept about one hour, after they awakened me. This happened several times. After three a.m. did not get sleep at all. They used all kinds of pains to keep me awake. I shielded my usual way , with loud music and morse-code. 28th. of July I do not know how much I slept. It is possible , that I did not get into real sleep at all. I was a whole night in a kind of half sleep. As a new trick, they someway closed my nostrils, so that I did not get breath well. I believe that they did it by raising blood pressure on the nose area. They did this same trick more often, for some years ago. They also caused pain on left knee that is a new trick. Their basic set of night torture, is pain on back and verbal manipulation . In the morning they started pain on nside of right eye. It continued a whole day, and diminished after half past eight p.m. 29th. of July. They got me awake about two a.m., and started intensive verbal manipulation. I used music and morse-code practice, to shield. I did not get sleep after two a.m. , so I slept about three hours on this night. Pain on the right eye continued more or less severe whole night, and they also used pain on left knee to keep me awake 30th. fo July. I slept well, about seven hours. In the morning the perpetrators told me that Canadian Army has made a special sleep group to find ways to cope with my sleep ( I guess this means music on my sleep, that disturbs their manipulation). If this was true, it means that Canadian Army is still among the perpetrators, or the perpetrator. If the main purpose is to manipulate me , while I am in sleep. It means that - because of time difference between Finland and Canada the perpetrators would work day time, to manipulate my sleep. However there is pretty aggressive manipulation, on daytime also. Rather strong pain started in the right eye after ten p.m. It continued until next morning 31st. of July . However I got some sleep. They awakened me at two a.m. and started verbal manipulation. I used loud music, and morse-code practice, to interfere their manipulation, and I got some sleep after some hours. On their verbal manipulation, they gave a very ugly picture about my future. They will torture me until my death. They used the phrase “as long as horse runs, and carts remain intact” . They use very much phrases, that are unknown for me. I suppose the phrases come from rural area living. 1st. of August. The pain on side of the right eye started half past one afternoon and continued until evening.

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2nd. of August. After I went to bed, I got some sharp strong shooting pains about middle of the head. They explained it as “taking samples” . Later they used it name “electric whip”. They awakened me sometime at night, but I got some sleep. I did not sleep very well, but I slept so long, I believe, I got about five hours of sleep. On the night before midnight , they caused strong a kind of neck spasm. 4th. of August. They awakened me sometime about three a.m., but I got some sleep after. They also used pains to get me sleep on right side, instead of left side , I have used to sleep, and partly succeeded. 5th. of August. They awakened me twice, about three a.m. and four a.m. , and tried to start verbal manipulation. I estimate, that I slept about three hours that night. 7th. of August. They used a new kind of pain on the left knee, to keep me awake. They awakened me several times. I slept several short periods, but did not get normal sleep. 9th. of August. Start of the week torture. They awakened me after three a.m. After they used verbal manipulation, and all kinds of pains, especially pain on the left knee – to prevent me to get sleep. I got some sleep, perhaps three hours. Next nights tenth and eleven of August of were very similar. Perhaps this is the new technique Canadian Army designed as perpetrators told me 30th. of July. They awakened me several times of night, perhaps not let me get real sleep at all. It works as sleep deprivation, but is much more difficult to resist. 11th. of August, there was a pain on side of the right eye that started in morning and continued late night. 12th of August. They awakened me after midnight. I got about hour sleep. That is perhaps also a part of their new sleep deprivation torture technique. A kind of row days when the victim, gets hour or two sleep for night. Because I did not get sleep, I wake up after three, and started to write. 16th. of August. They awakened me at three o’clock at night . After they used pains on left knee, and talking to prevent me to get any sleep. My left knee was very sore this morning, and walking was difficult. Strong pain on left temple started in the morning, and continued couple of hours. 17th. August. They awakend me at night around one o’clock a.m. Next time they awakened me after three a.m. It is difficult to know how much sleep I got, but I believe it was about three hours. Walking was again difficult. In the afternoon, they caused pains on left knee. I believe they did it by blocking arteries. Massage helped a moment. 18th. of August. I went to sleep around eleven p.m. They tried repetitive voices at start. I was able to block it with loud music, but it did some time. They tried several times to start verbal manipulation, and caused some pains to get me change position while I was asleep. About three a.m. I stopped sleeping , and started to write this. I believe I got something between two and three hours of sleep. The difference for their sleep deprivation sessions, for earlier months is , that now it is more difficult to measure how much I actually sleep. The sessions are perhaps couple opf days longer than before, and I get perhaps hour more of daily sleep. I estimate that my average sleep time is now about three hours, and lastt spring it was about two hours, during the sleep deprivation session. I did this writing ready to put internet, and made decision, that next time when the perpetrators awake me in middle of the night, I will wake up, and put this writing immediately out to internet. Couple of next night I was able to sleep without harassment. To be honest, it is possible also, that my stress limit went full for this time, and my writing had nothing to do with their temporary stop of sleep deprivation. I have signed the petition on FFCH Internet side to United States Congress “A Petition Against the Military and Intelligence Agencies Use of Organized Stalking and Electronic Torture” , and I urge everybody do to the same. In time of my signing, there were about 500 signatures already, most of them other victims, I believe. In western democracies, we have, very few ways to influence Congress between the elections. We could try to contact our representative, to express our ideas and opinions how the country should run. If a group of people have common opinion of some particular subject, they could organize into a form of society, like FFCH , to boost their common concerns. Petition is a natural way to express common concern of a group of people. It is a way to say our representative, that we think this way, for this matter, and we want you to forward these matters as our representative. If people’s representative does nothing to further people concern, he may perhaps loose his support on next election. have expressed my opinion,, how democracy is working on minorities, on present “Winner takes the all election system” , that is use in United States , Canada and some other countries on 8.1.2010 diary. If we all five hundred people that have signed the petition, had lived in one electoral district, we would have some political voting power on election. Now if some members of congress will investigate our matters, it is a purely question of his will to support ideas, which United States was once founded. The election system makes base, that in part dictates which type of persons will get elected, and how efficient and fair the government is as a whole. However, I do not believe that changing United States election system into some proportional systems , would diminish all

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the problems right away. All the corrupted ways to deal, attitudes and routines, that congressmen and civil cervants have adopt in past of hundreds years, will not change in one moment. United Kingdom still suffers for some practices that come from 17th century when the King has ultimate powert over all people lives. Changing election rules into proportional election system, would make possible, the slowly chance, for a better direction. Oppression of minorities and now common corruption and human rights violations, that electronic torture and stalking is just one example would became more difficult. The Election system means for the nation very much same as soil means for plants. It - dictates which kind of plants will grow well in it, and which kind of plants wither away. Newsweek listed countries where people have best life .For ten best countries to live, only one has “winner takes all” election system. The rest nine had some kinds of proportional election systems. This particular one country is Canada. Canada is rich for natural resources, that makes possible a high standard of living for majority. But because Canada oppress minorities, I would not keep Canada any model of agood democracy. Countries with not that much riches on their soil like Finland, and Switzerland still beat Canada for the quality of life. I still hope that everybody signs the Congress “A Petition Against the Military and Intelligence Agencies Use of Organized Stalking and Electronic Torture” . 29 years ago, in 1981 winter, I made a pamphlet where I explained my situation. I send this pamphlet for all the members of the Canadian House of Commons. I asked them to find out what classified information Canadian Police and army had about my case. I nearly succeed. One member of Canadian 350 members parliament, conservative Bill Domm, asked Solicitor General Robert Kaplan, to investigate my case. I do not know, what exactly happened, after that. but I believe that he was pressured to take his question back. Now when petition has 500 or more signatures. We have much more possibilities to succeed. 4.7.2010 7.50 p.m. My last writing was at 17th, May, when I was a bit worried about my death. I did not get killed - not at yet anyway. This does not exclude possibility that my perpetrators will kill me. after year or two , when things are cooled down, and I am not aware, or afraid for any such possibility. Actually the first week - after I put my last writing to internet, was rather peaceful. On 19th. of May There was a start of the week torture. They awakened me at one o’clock a.m. after I broke my c-pap machine mask. I did not sleep at this night, partly because I had some work to do, and partly because did not have my c-pap machine. I repaired the mask with glue, and it did take some time to dry. I slept nights well until 23rd. of May when I awakened at four a.m. for a headache, and dizzy feeling. 24rd. of May, they awakened me at one o’clock a.m. I put music loud for shield, and started to do Morse code exercise , to make their manipulation more difficult . Again they threaded to kill me, as a new alternative to cause my death they spoke about hemorrhage. I put my oximeter on my wrist. It does not save my life, but it would show when my heart stops, and the heartbeat before that.. They also caused pains on heels and left elbow , and neck. I got about two hours sleep this night. The pain on chest felt whole next day , while cycling or doing some other physical exercise. Next night I did not sleep at all, they used all kinds of pains on back and left elbow to keep me awake. 25th. of May , I went sleep about eight p.m. They used repetitive voices, I shielded with loud music, and did Morse code. I was that tired , that I slept about four hours. They succeeded to awake me at two o’clock a.m. They told me that my music, causes them headache, and threatened that they will put me to eat “blodpalt”. Their headache means – if they speak truth - that they have some kind of connection to my brain, that works with sound. 31st. of May. They awakened me at two o’clock a.m. I used loud music, to shield their manipulation. I felt smell of smoke, I am not sure was it real, or imaginary. Anyway, in the morning, I changed filter my c-pap machine. In the afternoon, I had a headache, on the forehead, that started after four p.m. On start of June, there were several nights, they kept me a kind of half asleep, while talking all the time 1-3 of June, where these kind of nights. I am not sure how much I slept, I believe about three hours for night. 6th. of June They caused a strong headache and nausea between ten p.m. and one ‘clock a.m. On wakeup about nine a.m. there were a mild headache on front of my head. This means, they have disturbed my brain blood flow on nighttime. After wakeup there were headache, backache, nausea, and diarrhea, that would actually also come from some natural reasons. I went asleep while sitting on chair outside of house. I slept several hours outside. Later on I went asleep while watching television. I awakened on headache, and was still tired, so I went to sleep, and slept until three a.m. 8th. of June. I was afraid the start of week torture, so I went to bed earlier than usually. They let me sleep until about two o’clock a.m. After they awakened me, I put music loud on my earphones, and started Morse code exercise. I was not tired enough to get sleep, but this way I made their manipulation more difficult. I slept about three hours that night.

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9th. of June. I went to bed about ten p.m. They awakened me around one a.m. So I slept about one hour this night. I used water-container around my head. Water helps a kind of sharp compression feeling on head, that their manipulation causes after a while. There should be no cap between water container and head, that the method is effective. Of course one has to take care someway, that water does not change his head temperature - by insulation, or by warming the water. They warned me that I should change the water for new on the containers, because it is old , and would cause cancer. I answered that the water does not cause cancer but their “shooting” through the water. I added that if they know that shooting through water could cause cancer for me , and they still continue shooting, and I got cancer, their should get prosecuted for murder, because they knowingly put me in danger to get cancer. This my speech did not get any major impact for them, they continued “shooting” like before . Next day afternoon, they started pain on right side of head, just side of the right eye. The pain continued for night, although mild. The night I went a kind of half asleep, while they were talking, so I was not sure how many hours I slept. In the morning, the pain on side of right eye, started again, this time more painful. 10th. of June. I did not sleep at all. I do not remember that I slept a moment anyway. Before ten p.m. , they started pain on side of right eye. They started torture on one o’clock a.m. , I believe their shift of work starts about this time. I shielded myself with loud music. They used back pains among other tricks , to keep me awake. The perpetrator, that once threaded to kill me ,spoke. - I recognized him from his way to speak. Now he said , that he believes that there comes some kind of investigation our case. “ However we cannot let any, of your kind of artist, to interfere this investigation” he added. In the morning , there was a new kind of sharp pain on side of right eye. This pain continued, with some breaks on the afternoon. 11th. of June There was pain on side of right eye , whole night. They also made my right ear sore, that I would not use earphones. I used them anyway. They awakened me at four a.m. I shielded with loud music. They caused back pain, that made me impossible to sleep. That way continued until nine a.m. After wakeup , I found dizziness , when I stand up , or take something from ground etc. There was also pain on side of right eye. This continued with some pauses at least two hours. 12th. of June. I slept about normal way, although I went to bed about five a.m. Before I went to bed they “shoot” me , so I felt kind of fuzzy. 14th of June. Start of week torture. They awakened me at two a.m. and did not let me sleep after. Next morning there was a strong pain on side of the right eye. Later on I felt very tired, and my muscles were sore, like after long physical exercise. I had also some fewer. 15th. of June. Very heavy pain on side of the right eye It continued whole night. Perhaps the most painful torture of this year. 17th. of June. The heavy pain on side of right eye started yesterday half past seven p.m. and continued whole night. I had some sleep, but awakened about one o’clock a.m. Their explanation of pain on the eye was ,that they are correcting macular degeneration on the right eye. I fear that they are perhaps trying to interfere my reading , so that I got my brain something else that is on paper, or something else that helps their manipulation. Anyway it is extremely painful, like knife on the right eye whole night. 18th. June. Last night I went asleep, then I awakened very similar pain than night before. Their explanation , what they are doing was different this time. “we are building something, on your right eye” . I am a bit skeptical their ability to build something. They would disable, or break something on my head, but I have not found, that they have built something new, useful. They said that they would use “anesthesia” this time. After I went unconscious, and awakened, after normal sleeping. On the evening I felt extremely tired, and went to sleep early. I awakened before midnight for headache. Manual manipulation of the head, made me sure, they were cutting blood flow on the head, and this caused headache. There was a sore point on both side of neck, and manipulating that point , stopped the headache for a moment. 20th. of June. In the morning. Rather heavy headache, like “after sauna torture”. Manipulating sore points on neck, lets the blood flow into whole head, that makes fuzzy feeling on while. Besides headache on front head, I have some difficulties walking straight, and little hand shaking. The headache disappeared after couple of hours, but not pain on my head, especially left on front of head. This feeling continued , whole day, especially on coughing. On manual manipulation of head, I found that there is a sore point about five centimeter right on my left ear, that causes the pain on coughing. Manipulating it stops the pain on coughing. There is a similar point on right, but this is about three centimeter down of my right ear. These someway disturb my head blood circulation. So eating something, or just keeping my mouth on continuous move, helps the pain. 21st. of June. Typical start of the week torture. I went sleep about midnight, they awakened me after one o’clock a.m. So I slept about one hour this night. They used also pains on back to keep me awake. I used loud music, and did some Morse code on my mind to shield myself their manipulation. While I was on my work , they started “after sauna torture” type of headache on forehead , that continued whole day. 22st. of June. I slept badly , but I believe over three hours. There were some very aggressive verbal manipulation , that disturbed my work performance. On lunchtime they tried to do “fast sleep” , so I began to nod on library. On evening after

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six p.m. they started repetitive voices on left ear. I shielded with loud music, and sheet metal. They got the ear only part of sensitive certain frequency of sounds. 23rd. of June On night ,they kept me a kind of half asleep, while talking me whole time. I am not sure how much I really slept, or did I have real sleep at all. 27th. of June. I found , that several nights they have someway succeeded, to cause me turn to right side on left side, so that they can more easily manipulate my other side of head, while I am asleep. The side of head that is upside, also feels different on morning, that side that is down while I have slept. 29th. of June. Sudden attack of repetitive voices on left ear at seven a.m. I shielded with waterbucks on left ear, and loud music. I listened music , and did Morse code on my mind, until nine a.m. The ear felt different, but I did not become sensitive, for certain frequency of sounds, what happen when they succeed on their attack. 30th. of June. They started torture when I went to bed. Actually they threaded, that I will not sleep for three nights. I puit loud music on, and did Morse code exercises, to made their manipulation as difficult as possible. This continued about three four hours, after I went asleep. If I had to go to work, they would have succeeded, because I would not have many hours to sleep. However for my luck, my vacation started. In the morning they threaded: You do not know our all tricks. We have not used “lasso” for you yet. I do not know what “lasso” means, perhaps some kind of strangling. First of July, pain on the right temple of the head , continued whole day. On the evening the pain moved on right eye. It continued, when I went to sleep, but was vanished on next morning. 3rd. of July. On night they threaded: we do not have “moose rifle” now, but we will get it tomorrow. In the evening started pain above the right eye I wrote about Afghanistan opium-trade on 31 August 2009. I explained that there were actually no opium production, while Taliban was on power in _AfghanistanUnited States had ethical and moral choice. They can destroy the poppy-field on Afghanistan, which cuts the heroin production, and freeze growth of heroin-addiction on world. On other hand , it destroys the only source of income from those farmers, who make their living from cultivating poppy. It also affects severely Afghan Economics. Smuggled Opium is Afghanistan major export article, and makes about one third of country gross national product. Other possibility for Us-Army is let the fields grow ,and this way please poppy farmers, and other people, that make their living more or less on opium smuggling business. US-army has made its decision , they do not eradictate the opium producers poppy fields. Interesting point is that British forces have made just opposite decision If US-army decision not to interfere opium smuggling business, has made poppy farmers happy on their villages, CIA radio controlled Predator strikes on tribal villages on Pakistan have made these people on their villages very unhappy. On 2009 radio-controlled Predators had killed over 700 innocent civilians, and only five Taliban leaders, that they were targeted to kill. So for killing one Taliban leader causes death about 140 innocent civilians.. This calculation does not include wounded -people who have lost their limbs etc. Behind these cruel atrocities, one can easily find United States decision makers attitude, that people in Pakistan tribal villages, are someway cheaper people, and it is possible to massacre over hundred of them , if same time they could kill Taliban leader they want to kill . They would not make Predator strike example Kansas City in Unitd States, even if they know some Taliban leader perhaps is there on certain time. These Predator drone strikes is example of very popular attitude in North America. For short time gain people are willing to take long term risks, that usually sooner or later will materialize. Two other examples, fron near history I would mention are subprime loans, and relaxed safety rules, and relaxed attitude towards safety that caused Deepwater Horizon oil spill, Both of these incidents have caused much larger losses, than the actual gain of taking risks was. U.S. policy-makers, could perhaps be ignored, all the ethical aspects of killing more than a hundred innocent people in order to obtain a single guilty person murdered. Still all these people killed and wounded on Pakistan tribal villages have parents and children, sisters and brothers and aunts and cousins , who most of them will hate United States and people from United States. This hate will continue decades. Even if United States does not have to worry about enemies on North Pakistan tribal villages now, is very probable, that on the next few decades, the support from these people could be crucial, to United States policy on this geographical area. So the small possible gain , that killing some leaders on Taliban movement could mean, could cause much larger loss in United States policy in future. Very similar attempt to make short term gain , without consideration of much larger long term loss, as have realized as sub prime scandal, and now recent oil rig accident. On my diary note on 17 February 2009, I wrote that United Kingdom fails on litmus test of democracy. I used example Porton Down criminal human experiments, which Crown procecutor Kate Leonard refuse to charge any scientist for some criminal and partly lethal experiments.

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I have another example , that makes clearer the problem British have on their country. On 13 January, 1972, British army killed 13 unarmed civil rights protesters. The Incident got name Bloody Sunday. Now after 35 years Saville Inquiry report stated, "The firing by soldiers of 1 PARA on Bloody Sunday caused the deaths of 13 people and injury to a similar number, none of whom was posing a threat of causing death or serious injury". Report also said, "The immediate responsibility for the deaths and injuries on Bloody Sunday lies with those members of Support Company whose unjustifiable firing was the cause of those deaths and injuries." One can hardly call democracy to a country where the course of justice takes 35 years, in clear case that has several witnesses. Most of guilty to murder, as well their victims have past away, before the truth story of massacre was verified by the United Kingdom legal system. Like I wrote previously sham democracy, laws are not implemented in the same way the army and police members, as ordinary people. The problem is interpretation and implementation of law. Although United Kingdom legal system does not meet quality of democratic country Saville Inquiry is a positive sign that perhaps country is heading towards real democracy. Canada and United States have very similar problems for quality of their legal system, perhaps on historical reasons.. 17.05.2010 10.55 p.m. I had made my last writing on 22th. of April. After I had put my last diary note on Internet, they tortured me whole night on 23rd. of April. I did not get sleep at all , . They used repetitive voices, and also caused all kinds or pains to keep me awake. I believe same will happen when I put this on the net.also. Next night, on 24 rd. of April, they awakened me at four a.m. and did not let me sleep. After that. I got some pain on the left ear before half past eight a.m. Then the pain changed on the right ear. Later the pain moved on front of the head, left side. Their verbal manipulation was very aggressive.( Actually on my notes stands that the pain was on ear, but usually this kinds of pains are on eyes, so it is possibly, that they have manipulated my memory, while I was writing on notes, - and changed word eye to ear, on my mind, and got it on writing, without that I have noticed anything odd. These are tricks they try to do once a while, and sometimes succeed. 25th. of April. Mild after sauna torture. On manual manipulation of head, I found that veins on my neck were sore. So they have blocked my blood circulation on head, and that way caused headache on forehead. Pain on the forehead, feels especially when coughing. 26th. of April. Start of the week torture. They awakened me one o’clock a.m. and later quarter to two a.m. I put music on my earphones loud, to shielding my ears. After that they caused a dangerous feeling pain on the chest, left side. I believe it was caused from heart problem. The pain stayed also next day when breathing deep. On last of the night they caused all kinds of pains, and itching, along with verbal manipulation, to keep me awake. They also succeeded to keep me awake rest of the night. Next day, there was pain on the right eye, that became severe on the afternoon. The pain continued until about nine p.m. At times there were pain on both eye. After nine there were some pains on chest on the left side, and they were manipulating my heartbeat. 27th. of April. I went to sleep about half past ten p.m. They awakened me after one o’clock a.m. This is their new technique. They let me sleep hour or two, so I am not so tired, and start torture after. Because I am not that tired, I cannot use loud music that efficiently do get into sleep. This same happened next night 28th. of April, I went to sleep at half past nine, and they awakened me after one o’clock a.m. So I slept about two or three hours. Also on 29th. of April, I went to sleep at eleven p.m. and they awakened me after one a.m. I believe that there is a change of shift of perpetrators,about one a.m. , and the coming group forced me to awake, and started verbal manipulation and did not let me to sleep rest of the night. Also other victims suffer for sleep deprivation, so it must have some purpose. 30th. of April. They got me unconscious, after I returned home from work. I awakened about midnight, and put c-pap machine on my face, and - because I did not get sleep from their manipulation - I started loud music from earphones, to shield myself from their verbal manipulation. On midnight to seven a.m. I got two short period of sleep, about half hour, or so. After both period of sleep, my throat was dry. There was a period of verbal manipulation. After they called my torture with name chemotherapy, ( this is a very essential part of their daily verbal manipulation, to call things with names) I told them my opinion, that they are a kind of cancer-cells of society, which should isolate, and remove, before the whole society gets sick. They got very angry. Even more angry they got after they realized, that I am not going out of bed, before I get some sleep. They have planned some activity, that requires that I am out of bed. I got perhaps, the most severe backache on this year. Usually they cause me backache, just to make sure I do not get sleep again. This time the purpose of backache , was to torture me, and to force me out of bed. After ten o’clock a.m. , they threaded to kill me, if I do not co-operate. This was something, they have not done for a long time. I managed to stay in bed, until eleven a.m. After I went out of bed, that backache suddenly diminished. This was second time, they tried to get me follow their orders, by threading and torturing me. I did a kind of compromise, and stayed bed so long time it was possible for pain. Their explanation of purpose of sleep deprivation was that it is necessary for “peeling” my brains - what ever it means. 1st. of May. I had improved the shield of my bedroom, by painting some of the walls with magnetic paint. With it , and loud music on earphones, I was able to sleep about four hours. After this, they awakened me, and started again very painful backache, that has just purpose to torture me. They told me that my life could be easier, if I co-operate with them. I answered that I believe that doing things my way , I would stay in better health.

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2nd. of May, heavy pain on the right temple of head started about one o’clock a.m. After half of hour, the pain became occasional, but after three o’clock a.m. pain became more continuous and severe. 3rd. of May. They let me sleep normally until about two a.m. The perpetrator , explained, this is his last time. I felt how he somehow manipulated my vein between chest and neck. I was afraid he kill me. Later on started normal torture. They used repeating words on left ear. I usually put a kind of sheet metal shield on ear, and I found it was gone. so they got my left ear sensitive for certain frequency of noise. Later on they started a heavy pain on right eye. Because I did not have to go to work, I got some sleep after six a.m. I am happy they did not use backache torture to keep me awake, this time. 4rd. of May. Pain on the right temple of head started after eleven a.m. and continued about noon. 5th. of May. They awakened me after two a.m. After I was not sure, if I slept at all. The next day was similar, I was a kind of half-sleep. Between sixth and tenth of May , was a kind of easier time. I was not that tired, and I was able to sleep, without shielding myself with loud music. 11th. of May. Start of the week torture. I believe I did not sleep at all. I felt a bit of malicious pleasure on their behavior. 12th. of May. Again night without any sleep. I have stayed without sleep for 48 hours. This time they did not do it with pain, but rather they someway caused, that I did not flet sleepy. 13th. of May. Last night I went to sleep about half past ten p.m. I put loud music on, from headphones, because I have learned that it someway disturb their manipulation. It did take about four hours, before I got to sleep. After I slept about three hours. They awakened me after six a.m. and started heavy backache, to get me out of bed. Because I did not have to go to work, I managed to stay in bed until nine o’clock a.m. I even got about half of hour sleep. After wakeup, pain on the right eye started , and continued whole evening. It even got more severe after nine a.m. 15th. of May. I got very aggressive repetitive voices on left ear afternoon, about half past three p.m. 16th. of May. They caused pain on the right eye between seven and ten p.m. I resisted successfully pain with different techniques, by keeping the area that hurts moving, by massage, and moving my face muscles. Their try ended after ten p.m. 17th. of May. They let me sleep about hour or two, after awakened me. I shielded myself from manipulation, with loud music on earphones, after some verbal manipulation. This caused that the perpetrator, gave me electric shock on my left heel. He threaded to kill me, if I continue shielding with loud music. He explained that for him, murdering me is easy, example by causing ischemia, or some other ways. He also said, that they do not have any use of “ghost riders” , that I became, if I continue to use loud music on earphones, to get sleep. I wonder how many people they have killed by causing “ ischemia, or some other way”. Perhaps all the people, that have wounded, or other way became useless for them.. I did Google-serch with words ischemia and mind control, and I found a link between ischemia related deaths, and electronic mind control, as early as 2002, This is reason I decided to put this month diary on net so hastily. Perhaps I should do my testament next.The perpetrators are not very afraid of Internet publicity, but I believe that this writing could help me to save my life. I am counting also, that I am useless for them , If I am death. So I am continuing resistance, because way of co-operation with them would have no end. 22.04.2010 11.43 p.m. I had made my previous note on diary at 15th. of March . Next night on 16th. of March I got start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. My scalp felt cold , so they must have interfered to my blood circulation on my head. Next night I was able to sleep on loud music until one o’clock a.m. After that, they were able to start repetitive voices. They warned me , that if I am going to way sleeping on loud music, that will kill me sooner or later. They also spoke about making me aging faster. Perhaps this means sleep deprivation. 18th of March , I slept about three hours, they awakened me after three o’clock a.m. , and did not let me sleep after 22th. of March. Start of the week torture: I am not sure, but I believe that I slept hour, or two. After ten o’clock a.m. they started to torture me with repetitive voices, and this continued until noon. Next night, I got also two or three hours sleep. They started with repetitive voices after three o’clock a.m. and succeeded to get my left ear to sensitive for certain frequency of noise. 6.18 p.m. they caused a sudden heavy pain on chest, left side. There was one night normal sleep but on 25th. of March, I slept about two three hours. They used repetitive voices , and I had to put music loud. However they succeeded to awake me at four a.m. On next afternoon, they started to torture me at work with repetitive voices, after quarter to four p.m.

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29th. of March. In the morning there were some pain on the back of the head. Lunchtime the pain was moved on front of the head. After three p.m. they got me very sleepy on work, almost unconscious. After four p.m. there were some repetitive voices. 30th. of March. Start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They reminded me from odd taste, I felt yesterday, and called that taste of bitter almond. They also told that they would poison me , if I do not co-operate. Of course they would perhaps poison me, but that they would get a bitter taste to my mouth, does not exactly prove it. I believe it was just effect to get me afraid. 31st. of March. They woke me up two o’clock a.m. night, and did not let me sleep after. So I slept about two hours. Next night was first of April. They woke me up, at one a.m. So I slept about hour. This is their new technique, let me sleep hour or two, so that I am not so sleepy, that I would sleep on loud music. On daytime there were shooting pains on center of the head once a while - lunchtime, and five p.m. for example. They also warned, that “stranglers” would come on next day. 2nd. of April. On night , there was some pain on the right side of head, that continued until I went asleep. In the morning, they caused strong continued pain on the back, and threatened, that they would make me permanently immobile. I made my routinely manual massage on neck, and found that the neck was very sore. So that “strangling” just meant, that they partly stop the blood flow to my head, on the veins on neck. On wakeup there was a mild pain on the front head. Their term “strangling” would have some specialties, I do not know, but on my view, the torture was very similar than “after sauna torture”, only difference perhaps, heavy backache. 5th. of April. Pain on the right eye started at seven p.m. It continued until I went asleep. Next morning the pain felt on right side of head . In continued whole morning, but eased on lunchtime, and started again after seven p.m. With manual manipulation, I found that veins on neck were sore. Apparently they were blocking the blood flow into my head. This was perhaps the worst pain on this year. The pain eased after ten p.m 7th April. Pain on the right side of head started at noon, later on it became pain on the right eye. About similar pain on the right side was on next day. The pain usually continued hour or two and eased on evening, when there were other kinds itchy pains around the head. 10th April In the morning was some pain on the right side of the head. Afternoon before four p.m. they started repeating voices. They repeated my name. 12th. April. I got repetitive voices at night. I was sleepy enough to get some sleep when I put music on high volume. However I did not get normal sleep, but I slept about four hours. Next night was similar, except that they let me sleep about three or four hours, and when I was not extremely tired they woke me up , and did not let me sleep anymore . They can someway cause, that I do not feel sleepy when they awake me. Actually idea of high volume music is, that it gets me sleepy, by interfering their manipulation. 16th. April. I did not sleep at all, this night. Anyway I do not remember that I slept at all . Besides of verbal torture, they caused also backache to keep me awake. Actually they kept me a kind of half-sleep, where they manipulated me verbally. If I had got fully awake , I had used loud music to get sleep, but a kind of half sleep, I was not capable to do that, before about three o’clock a.m. On verbal communication there was one interesting point I remember. I told the perpetrator that on end they will get to jail for their crimes. His answer was “Military personnel are not put to jail”. For this, and several other similar weak signals, that I have collected during the years, I had started to believe that the people who torture me are members of Army. It is possible, that they make these small signals just to mislead me, but I do not believe, that they would do similar misleading sentences, year after year, on random frequency. The next question is , which army do they belong? The simplest answer is Finnish Army, but there are other possibilities too. Perhaps the next probable possibility is Swedish army. There are three points that makes Swedish army more probable than some other European armies. The first point is that Sweden has a large Finnish speaking population, that makes easy to recruit people for mind control operations. Second point is, that Sweden is near Finland. The transmitters, could locate in Sweden out of reach for Finnish authorities. The receivers would locate in Finland, and communication could work example on telephone lines, or via Internet. The third point is that, there are other early mind control victims in Sweden, example Robert Naeslund. In both cases , if these people are member of Finnish , or Swedish army (or both) the start of my mind control experiences was in Canada, where is very improbable, that Finnish or Swedish army operates. So the start of crime, there were Canadian authorities, perhaps jointly with CIA , or with other parent organization, which provided equipment and knowledge. Later on there must have been some kind of agreement with Finnish (or Swedish) army intelligence, where example parent organization gives them equipments, training, and me as implanted victim to train people to use these equipments. In turn Army would monitor, and perhaps manipulate, some interesting and important Finnish politicians, and other decision makers, and provide to parent organization, all the information they require. I hope, I am still alive, when the investigation starts, just to find how near the truth is my theory that Finnish or Swedish army intelligence, is involved on my torture. The perpetrators attitude to civilian population, is typical to army. They believe that Army is above the laws which civilian has to obey, and whatever crimes they commit, they would have no trouble, so long time they just follow orders of

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their superiors. Unfortunately they are partly right. Example United Kingdom’s army officials never got any punishment of Kenyan mass-murders . Two exemptions, I remember is My Lai massacre, and torture in Abu Ghraib jail, where both, the public was provided large photographic evidences. The punishment if both cases were very mild for considering seriousness of crimes. 17th. April. On evening, they put me unconscious couple of times. They let me to sleep about hour , and awakened me, and started verbal manipulation. I put loud music on, to get sleep. They caused all kinds of pains, and example itching on toe, and forehead, between eyes etc. However, I was that sleepy that I slept some hours, I believe four hours 21th. April They awakened me about half past three a.m. I was able to get some sleep after that. The same happened next night. “This time their story to get me awake, was , that I am danger here, and Russians are going to rescue me into safe place in Russia. This made me alarmed. Perhaps this was story, just to get me awake, but on other hand, this is not kind of stories they typically tell me. Am I in a danger to get kidnapped , and forcibly moved in some secret prison on unknown country ? I have some hopes for Jonathan Henderson inplant screening technique. With Thermal Imaging Camera, it is perhaps possible to pinpoint some implants, especially if they are near the skin. I would also extend the search for implants all of the head area, where brain exist - and not just forehead. This perhaps means, person has to cut his hair, before screening. 15 March 2010 11.10 p.m. My first note is on 15th February. Start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They used new technique , which side effect my neck feels cold. I used loud music to shield myself from repetitive voices. Next day, on lunchtime quarter to one, they started to torture with repetitive voices, and called my name , I guess hundred time, at least. 17th of February. They made me unconscious “fast sleep” about hour after ten p.m. After that, they did not let me sleep whole night. I had one hour sleep on a chair, for a whole night. 21st. of February. Start of the week torture again. I slept perhaps one hour, I am not sure. This is a new twist on their technique, to suppress my sleep. They let me to sleep about hour, after wake up, and do not let me sleep any more on this night. I used loud music, but because I was not sleepy enough , they kept me awake. Again I got a cold spot, that comes often, when they try to keep me awake. This time the cold spot, was on the right side of the head. 22nd. of February. I was tired enough , that I was able to sleep with loud music. Before I fell asleep I heard quarrel. A person who had name Monica, was a doctor and they blamed her for something. Of course, there is a possibility that this was a planned “theatre” , and they wanted me to hear that .I never know, if somebody forget his microphone open, or “leaks” purposely. Next night , they caused problem with eyesight on 3.30 a.m. I saw like a kind of shaking hair on the view. It went off after half of hour. Next couple of night I was able to sleep, with loud music. 25th. of February about half past ten p.m. , they succeeded to make my left ear sensitive for certain frequency of noise. 26th. of February. They awakened me about three a.m. and started to torture. I put music loud, but I was not able to sleep anymore. I slept two or three hours this night. 27th. of February. They got me awake , about four a.m. I lowered the music volume, and they started the verbal manipulation. I started to resist their manipulation, with translating old songs into morse code. Their response was repeating voices. So I had to put music volume loud again. The loud music, with shielding over ear, makes repeating voices less effective. Translating something into morse code, one is able to disturb their verbal manipulation. So loud music with morse code translation, is perhaps the best combination, to get sleep. Of course it is possible only when one is really tired. When I planned some changes for the shielding on my head, they warned to make any changes. Otherwise as they said “they would start heart experiments”. When I asked why they would not just stop their experimenting, their answer was “cow is still in good condition, why stop”. First of March, I got some sleep, but they woke me up after three, and started talking. Second of March, was again start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. They used all kinds of pains to keep me awake. As a new form of pain, there was also some pain on leg area. They also used heart palpitations. Third of March. Pain on the right eye started in the morning, after I remembered , that there were no pain on the right eye as often as before. Pain continued until seven p.m. Fifth of March. They disturbed my sleep for all possible ways, backache etc. However I got some sleep, although not enough. Next day I felt some dizziness. In the evening there were some occasional pain on the right side of the head. It vanished, and came back again. Seven and eight of March, on the evening started pain on the right side of head, that continued until night. This same happened on ninth of March, but this night they awakened me about four a.m. , and used all the means including back pain to keep me awake. I used loud music to resist manipulation.

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11th. of March night , They awakened me with a kind of shrinking feeling, and pain on head. After I relieved the head, with manual manipulation of head, started pain on the right eye. I put, stainless steel sheet metal on right side of eye. It relieved a bit. I put also on loud music. I was able to sleep a bit with loud music. I even had a dream. However they woke me up before seven, and started verbal manipulation. 15th. of March. On lunchtime around one pm. they started torture with repetitive voices. Similar torture continued on work after three p.m. There must be some function to repeat one word, or couple of words for hundreds times. Perhaps they try to locate the exact place of this word, on brain, by victim’s response. However they rather seldom erase the word they repeat. Whole month, the perpetrators have tried to block out word Gladio , from my memory, and replace it with word Gaia. Gladio is the name of CIA sponsored right wing network, of European terrorist organizations. For example it arranged bombing of Bologna railway station in Italy in 1980 , killing 85 people. This was typical false flag operation where aim of the CIA, was to get Italian people to believe, that Red Brigades organization was arranged that mass-murder. The reason why I am interested in Gladio, is that, I have a theory that CIA has, supplied some of these right wing terrorist groups, with electronic mind reading- and controlling equipments, and trained terrorist to use them There are no much actual evidence, that this has happened , only mention of mind control , from retired U.S. agent Edward L. Schooling bitter open letter. Edward L. Schooling was stationed in Europe with top secret clearance. However the fact , that there are victims, nearly all of the language groups, and all the other small details I have, fit the theory that Gladio (or other similar CIA sponsored group) is responsible for European electronic mind-control harassment. In my scenario, mind control equipments are supplied for portion of Army or Police, in these countries where police, or army has habit for secretly infiltrate, and manipulate the political decision-making, Greece before military-coup , was an example of this kind of country. For other type countries, the mind-control equipments are given for small right-wing groups, that would have members from police and army too. The victims of electronic mind control, in European countries are not the actual targets, but simply people, that perpetrators use for training purposes to gain necessary skills, to manipulate and listen for local politicians and other decision makers. I believe that the manipulation of politicians, is different than rather rough and cruel manipulation and torture of us ( actually my perpetrators call us corpses, in their internal communication ). Most of the politicians are perhaps only listened. Very few of the politicians could recognize that they are manipulated. Even in passive use , only for listening somebody, mind reading devices are really powerful tool for manipulating the society. Now there are computer programs, that could find words, from brainwave recordings. However I believe - for several reasons - that device my perpetrators use to read my mind, is not digital. They are invented an analog device, that make possible to listen for another person thinking. Actually trying to understand other person thinking by analyzing his brainwaves by computer program , is like trying to understand what person is speaking, by analyzing his speech acoustic fingerprint, by computer program. All the people use words for thinking. Person can perhaps think without words, but before he can express his thinking any way to other people , he has to translate it to language. This process is, what makes the perpetrators able to listen, for another person thinking. People that speak themselves actually vocalize their thinking. Also majority of people that do not speak themselves, vocalize their thinking on their minds. Virtually all of the people use words their everyday thinking, and these words they use, are possible to listen. Beside of passive listening, perpetrators have plenty of tricks that could ruin some unwanted politician career, if so wanted. Blocking the words from memory for example. A bit more difficult , but still possible, are tricks that could manipulate people decision-making. The perpetrators could make ´person to feel tired, when he reads some particular document, that perpetrators do not want him to read etc. Even sudden excessive coughing in strategic moment, could change course of important meeting. All this could be done , without that perpetrators have spoken any words to the victims. In my theory, people from different language groups, are trained to use these listening and harassing equipments, and I am one of the “involuntary stuntmen” - targets that are used for training of Finnish language perpetrators. After training, these perpetrators, are let to listen and manipulate politicians, and other decision makers. This has continued for years, and I believe that use of mind reading equipments has some role occurrences the foreign and domestic policy of European countries, and the phenomenon is continuing Of course, it is possible that the project name not Gladio, and it is possible that organization behind it, is some other than CIA, (example NSA) , but this Gladio project fits for all the small the details I have gathered, so I will continue to use it as working theory, before something contradictory arrive. There are over thousand people who are used as a training targets, so the actual project , or group of projects, must have multimillion dollar annual budged. Part of our problem is in communication - how to express this information for somebody, who should know this, and who could arrange investigation. How to do it so that he understands, and also believe our message, and not simply translate our message, on his mind, as a symptom of mental disorder.

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Most of the mainstream media, has kept total silence for existence- or even possibility of electronic mind control. Exception some articles about mind-control information, that I believe is mostly carefully compiled disinformation, that is tailored to discredit mind-control victims. One example of such articles, appear in New York Times 2008. In this article the journalist rely on authority of several high professional of mental health, such as Dr. Ralph Hoffman, a psychiatry professor at Yale, Vaughan Bell, a British psychologist, Dr. Jeffrey A. Lieberman, chairman of the Department of Psychiatry at Columbia University, and Dr. Ken Duckworth, the medical director for the National Alliance on Mental Illness. All these authorities express their opinion that people who feel that they are harassed or controlled by electronic equipments are psychotic and mentally sick. The problem is, that although these gentlemen are mental health professionals. their experience from world outside of their daily living sphere, comes probably from New York Times newspaper and other comparable media. I give a hypothetical example, what I mean. Lets think that United States - for reason or other - had wanted to keep secret Apollo moon program . So Apollo 11 landing on the moon is kept secret from public. Lets think also that somebody of the crew members, example Neil Armstrong after couple of years, became patient of Dr. Ralph Hoffman ,that I have mentioned above, and tells his secret moon landing. I am sure Dr. Hoffman would classify him as mentally sick person, who has delusions that he has had secret trip to moon with spacecraft. Actually these mental health professionals, have opinion that everybody who has experiences, which existence is not commonly known, has some mental problems. Their common knowledge of world, these mental health professionals get from major news media. Another example is from real world. The Gulf war syndrome, was first explained as mainly psychological post traumatic stress disorder, apparently by Army mental health experts. It did take seventeen years, and lots of scientific research before Research Advisory Committee on Gulf War Veterans made decision, that the syndrome is a distinct physical condition. If Dr. Ralph Hoffman, and other mental health specialists , had made their diagnosis after through medical testing of group of mind-control victims, where example electroencephalogram patterns of victims, are compared to control group of normal people and group of mentally sick people , and epidemiological study where sicknesses of and lifespan are compared normal group and group of mentally sick people that do not complain that they are harassed electronically, etc. I would have given more value on their opinion. I do not have very high opinion for New York Times editorial honestly. I take example from CIA project Gladio, that I wrote earlier. This is perhaps the most revealing article, I found project Gladio, from New York Times. When one compares it to Truthmove organisation writings, or Edward L Scooling open letter , he finds that New York Times article is like a hamburger without the beef. New York Times does not mention the bombing of Bologna railway station, in Italy, that killed 85 people, or shooting on supermarket Belgium, Brabant county, that killed 28 people. I give another example: Last January, the news broke out, that some of the prisoners were killed by torture in Guantanamo concentration camp. Perhaps the best story of this news, is on Harpers magazine. I did not find this news on New York Times at all. On case of Gladio terrorism, the new York Times reporting was like a hamburger without the beef. On case of Guantanamo “suicides” The New York Times readers had no hamburger, nothing at all. To say something positive from New York Times, its technical level on Internet is excellent. I like the hyperlinks on stories, and I like, that I am able to make search, for several years back on their news archive , etc. With Google search one can find that New York Times , was not only newspaper, that did not report the news of Guantanamo cover-up, but there was large portion of other mainstream media also. The situation was similar, like on start of the Watergate Scandal, when Washington Post was the only newspaper, that reported this case. The difference between Guantanamo killings cover-up and Watergate, is that there is no Senate Committee , that would start investigations on Guantanamo cover-up , like was in case of Watergate scandal. Without the Senate committee , also Watergate scandal would have dried on size of Guantanamo cover-up. Perhaps the main difference is, that in case of Watergate, the victim of crime was powerful Democratic party, and with case of Guantanamo cover-up, the victims were just some political prisoners from foreign country, that were killed. Censorship is like a black monster on the dark room, and we are not able to see it. We can find a part of it, only if some light comes to the room. 14.2.2010 9.58 p.m. 10th. of January . On night I got three hours sleep, before they woke me up. After that I did not get sleep. This is their new technique. If I sleep hour or two, it is easier to keep me awake, rest of the night. This night they caused also dry mouth,. This is new, it has not happened for some months. 12th. of January night was typical start of the week torture. I din not get sleep at all. The perpetrators promised

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“underwater life” for me. It is not meaningful to try to encode , their coded message. For me it reminds oxygen supply, lungs, nitrogen bubbles, carbon dioxide level, on blood. It is scaring. I have a storing oximeter that could store, how much oxygen I have my blood while I am sleeping, but it does not measure carbon dioxide level, or possible nitrogen bubbles on blood, etc. 13th. of January was second night, without sleep, on a row. They have some new kind of technique to keep me awake, they do not use pains , like before, but have some kind of new electronic way to keep me awake. I was awake over 50 hours before I got sleep on 14th. of January night. In the morning there was again the dry mouth, and pain on the right side of the head. Also next night 15th. of January I had dry mouth on wakeup. 17th. of January. There were no dry mouth on the morning. Actually dry mouth ended on 15th. of January. Instead there were pains on the right eye on several occasions on this day. 18th. of January there were start of the week torture. I did not have sleep at all. This time they used repetitive voices , and pains also. Sometimes at night they caused also heart palpitations. I was afraid about heart attack. On their verbal torture, they promised me “peacefull death”. 19th of January. They kept me awake whole night with their new technique. I made decision, not to get out of bed before I got some sleep. I got sleep about three hours, by listening extremely loud music with earphones . I believe it someway interferes, their new technique to keep me awake. . I have learned that some other victims have found this way to resist mind control also. Other possibility is that they purposely let me sleep for a while. This night they also raised my heart beat about 100 beats at minute, I collected that to my oximeter, as a evidence, in case I get a heart attack. Because I slept on the morning, I was not able to go to work before afternoon. 20th. of January. I was able to sleep about normal way after long fight. I used earphones, with loud music, starting on time I went to bed. Next day ,the perpetrators, were very aggressive ,with verbal torture, and interfered my work on several occasions with verbal manipulation. 21th. of January. I was able to sleep, by listening very loud music with earphones I found that for their new technique to keep me awake, has connection to the cold feeling on my neck. Apparently they partly disable the blood circulation somewhere on the neck area. In the morning quarter past nine, they caused pain on the chest on left side, that disappeared after thirty minutes. 22th of January I was able to sleep with less music. On the morning there was a pain on the right side temple of my head. 23th. of January. Pain on the right eye started on night, and diminished on wakeup. Next day 24th. of January Pain on the right eye started on wakeup, and diminished after noon. 26th of January. Start of the week torture. They let me sleep couple of hours, and then awakened me. Next night they spoke about “wedding crashers” coming this night. They also spoke feeling of smoky air , when they come. I slept normally, but in the morning the lungs were somewhat sore, the feeling continued whole morning. In the afternoon after four p.m. they disturbed my work with repetitive voices . The words which they repeated this time were “more valuable” 28th. of January after three p.m. They disturbed my work by calling my name over hundred times. 29th of January . On night they awakened me up, after I had slept couple of hours. In the morning they were using repetitive voices. The words of this time were “shut up”. 30th. of January after ten p.m. They replaced the word meta on my mind with word mega. I found the difference, but because they had erased the word meta on my brain, it did take some time , before I recollect it. Basically the procedure was similar as I told 19th. August 2009 , when they replaced one number on my bank code with other. I know when they not succeed, but when they succeed, I do not find at all. I am sure, they have caused, that I have spoken or written something inaccurate or funny. 1st. of February was start of the week torture. I did not have sleep at all. They did not use speech or pains to keep me awake, everything was done some electrical way. The temperature of room was 18th. Celsius, but spite of this I felt hot. On some occasions they also controlled my heart beat, and made it faster. They also told that they will experiment with me until “end” . If I do not get help from anywhere, that means , that they are using me, like somebody would use rat or other test-animal, on different experiments , whole my lifetime Second of February after four p.m. I felt uneasy feeling on genitals, and some headache on front head. Third of February . I slept normally, but in the morning I found that they have got my left ear to sensitive for some frequencies again. The repetitive voices which they used, felt like pain. I was able also produce sound on certain frequency , that I felt as pain.

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Fourth of February , I got couple of hours sleep. They got me awake , about three a.m. , and kept me awake rest of the night. I found that my neck felt very cold, perhaps it someway is connected their technique to keep me awake. 7th. of February. Pain on the right eye started occasionally at night, but continued more severe in the morning. Later on it felt as pain on whole right front head, and also on upper teeth on the right side. 9th of February Pain on the right temple of the head. It started on evening, and ended when I went to sleep. Next day after one p.m. , they used repetitive voices on left ear, it was a bit sensitive for certain frequencies. Next day they started pain on right side quarter to eleven on night again. 12th. of February The perpetrators made a pain on the neck at night. The neck is now also little swollen . They cause pain on this swollen area occasionally about five-ten times an hour. This has continued three days, and is continuing I have learned that mind control victim Eric Griffin, who is also member of FFCHS , was fooled to make a kind of robbery attempt at Wells Fargo office. This story reminds me what happened for me on Toronto airport, when I was leaving Canada (actually it could be also Montreal airport, I cannot remember sure, because it happened about thirty years ago). I had not slept at couple of day, and perpetrators (voices) explained me that there is a radio-receiver on the airport, and it is used as a link to control me, and my task is to take it with me. They also told me where to walk , to find the radio set. Indeed on the airport waiting room on the table where they told, was unattended small radio-receiver. However, I was suspicious, and did not follow their orders, but I leaved the radio on the table. I do not know, what has happened , if I had taken the radio with me, but I believe, I had more or less trouble with case, if I had followed their orders. Another similar try deceive me, was when they told me that they have arranged unlimited credit for my Visa-account, as I have told on My Story I did not go their traps, but I understand, if somebody would do so, after couple of days without sleep, and nervous system, and memory manipulated. So , when counted the odd nuances of “robbery” , that Eric Griffin commit, I believe that he also is a victim of mind control experiments. This is Eric Griffin appeal for Senator Reid . Also a sample letter, if somebody wants to support Eric Griffin. On end , link for another newspaper article, where are some readers comments. Fellow victims have told me, that mind control related web site mindcontrolforums, has disappeared. This is alarming, because names, of nearly thousand victims were stored there. Fortunately Internet archive wayback machine can restore some of the names. This collection of victims names, is a kind of life insurance for these people. If large number of victims will disappear or die on short time period, this would raise public interest, and perpetrators are aware of it Despite the fact that names are not anymore on public, I hope that mind control victims do not have same destiny than forty scientist that lost their lives on suspicious circumstances, after anthrax attack to United States Congress 8.1.2010 4.55 p.m. First note since last writing is on 25th. of November, There were occasional pains on left and right temple of head on daytime. Continuous heavy pain on the right side of head started about half past eight p.m. Pain continued through the night. I slept about four hours. Next day on 26th. of November, similar pain started about twenty to six p.m. and continued to eight p.m. It started the next morning on wakeup. It continued a while, and started again after five p.m. and - similarly as yesterday - it continued for a while. 29th. of November, they started pain on the right eye at one a.m. I got about three hours sleep, before they awakened me and started their morning talk. I shielded by doing Morse code on my mind, meaning that I translated some songs that I have memorized into the Morse-code. This is very boring for anybody to follow, including myself. They caused some burning pains on the head. However I was able to sleep couple of hours after. Pain on the right eye continued and ended after nine a.m. 30th. November they did “start of the week torture” , I did not sleep at all. They started repetitive voices, and used some other techniques, that I felt as a cold head. First of December was similar, except they also used fast heartbeat. However, they stopped it after I put oximeter on my hand. It collects heartbeat and oxygen levels of body. I used loud music to shield, and got some sleep. I found that person can sleep also in loud noise, if he is extremely tired, especially if the noise is harmonic, like music. I got about three hours of sleep. Second of December was very similar, except that they caused some tingling sensations on my head. I slept between four and five hours. Third of December night, they used pains like somebody is stabbing on sharp item on my head. Also I felt a kind of drying feeling middle of the head. I put loud music, and slept about three hours. Fourth of December, their torture was so hard, I did not sleep at all.

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After that, I started to get some sleep. On 7th. of December , they awakened me middle of the night. After they tried to keep me awake, with talk. I shielded with loud music, and slept normal five hours. Next day they succeed to get my left ear sensitive with certain frequency. I could also produce this frequency myself. It kinds of gets ear to resonate with it. 13th. of December They tried repeating voices after seven p.m. After I put loud music they caused tingling sensation on the left ear. 15th. of December was “start of the week torture” again. I did not sleep at all. Their new method to keep me awake cause also cold feeling on neck as a side effect. 16th. of December was similar, except that I got some sleep with loud music, because I was extremely tired. I am not sure, how long I slept, I guess about two or three hours. In the morning, pain on the right temple started about half past seven a.m. and eased after nine, just to became more severe after eleven on lunchtime , and it continued until I went to sleep. 17th. of December was short period of similar pains between seven and eight p.m. also a kind of tingling sensation on forehead. 18th. of December. They kept me awake whole night with verbal torture, and pains here and there. 19th. of December. Heavy pain on right eye started five to eleven a.m. It eased in the afternoon, but started again on midnight and continued whole night for long to next morning. 21th. of December “ Start of the week torture” at night. They used pains on ear and head to keep me awake. I was awake until three a.m. , but I slept about hour or so, between three and five a.m. On the morning they started pain on the right temple of the head about seven a.m. It ended nine a.m. for a while, but continued on lunchtime and ended about five p.m. 23th. of December . They awakened me about two a.m. at night , and kept me awake with verbal torture , until I had to go to work. I slept about two or three hours that night. Half past one on the afternoon, started a pain on the right temple of the head , and ended five p.m. On Christmas time, was quite peaceful, except some verbal manipulation. I believe the perpetrators were on holidays too. 25th. of December night, after three a.m. they tried to close my nostrils. I felt it ,like if I had a flu. I believe they tried to get me sleep without c-pap machine. I breathed with machine and nose, although it was heavy. They gave up after three hours, and my “flu” disappeared.In the morning my nostrils were open normally. 26th. of December. There were several occasion, they got me unconscious “fast sleep” 27th. of December.There was a kind of mild after sauna torture on the morning. In the morning I found that my forehead felt cold, a. lot of easier than usually. 28th of December. They used repetitive voices at night. I defended my ears, with loud music. They used different pains on ears, head, and back to not let me sleep. They also caused fast heartbeat and some nausea. However I slept some hours, because I did not have to go to work 30th. of December. I went to sleep after one a.m. They got me awake about five a.m. and started repetitive voices , this time on right ear, instead of usual left one. I did some experiment myself. I shielded voice, with loud music on left ear. I discovered that it does not help. After I put loud music on right ear too, they caused backache, and ear-ache that made me impossible to sleep. However the ear manipulation ended about hour, after I put loud music on the ear. I believe the music disturbs their feedback, from my head. The repetitive voice is different nature, that the conversation voice.. The conversation voice is a male voice, and usually it is not one ear. The repetitive voice is a female voice, especially at night is often just on the left ear, and it repeats word or two, hundreds of time. Voice is often accompanied with some tingling sensations on the ear. 1st. of January they used repetitive voices at night, I resisted with loud music. In the morning they caused pain on the back, and head to get me up. I resisted on the bed until nine a.m. 3rd. of of January they got my left ear sensitive on repetitive voice. I had to listen to music, for most of the day. Next night they used all kind of pains, also a new kind of burning pain on the knee, and also repetitive voices. However I slept about two hours , I believe. About five a.m. they caused false need to urinate. This was one their favorite practical jokes, on earlier years. After that they started repetitive voices, and all kind of pains, that continued until I woke up. 5th. of January was similar, except that I was able to sleep enough, because I did not had to go to work , I slept until noon. Afternoon they tried to get me “fast sleep”, but because I was not sleepy, they did not succeed. Actually the way they do it feels like a mild electric shock, on the neck. If the victim is sleepy, he goes unconscious, If not, he feels it like a electric shock. They do this often several times a day, and it has some purpose, but I do not know what they benefit for this.

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Perhaps whole idea, to get victim sleepy on night, is just that this “fast sleep” is possible to them. I have got some background information that make Genocide of Canadian aboriginals easier to understand. I told the genocide on diary 30. June 2008, and I also made collection of hyperlinks, on alternative history section. Everybody knows Nazi Genocide of Jews, but it is less known that much more, 10-30 million people were killed by British Genocide of Hindus in India on 1877 . British caused at least double - and with some estimated five times more deaths , than Nazi-Germany did for Jews . The genocide was very similar than Stalin did on Ukraine 1932. In India the rice and wheat was shipped to Great Britain, causing the starvation people on same area. The Anti-Charitable Contributions Act of 1877 prohibited "at the pain of imprisonment “ private relief donations, that potentially interfered with the market fixing of grain prices. It is very odd idea to think, that non interfered market price of grain, has greater value than life of tens of millions of people. If one reads Mike Davis book “Late Victorian Holocausts, he would found ideas of social Darwinism and population control.behind the genocide. One motive was of course, pure economical thinking . Actually, what happen in India 1877, was very similar thing that happened in Ireland a quarter century before, only difference was that amount of people that lost their lives was multiplied. These two genocides make the genocide of Canadian Indians, more understandable. The difference is that in Canada , when they killed native children , it was done by infectious diseases, tuberculosis, and smallpox. Perhaps Canadian Natives were considered “useless eaters” that do not any way improve the life of mankind, but just consume the Canadian natural resources. This time, when genocide happened ,was also time of the rise of eugenic movement. There would have been fears that natives, when mixing with white race, would deteriorate the quality of white race. Hitler in Nazi Germany, caused genocide, had victims something between six to ten million deaths Stalin and other communist regimes caused genocides on Ukraine and elsewhere. The death toll is perhaps about 10-20 million. If we include death toll of Great Leap Forward campaign in China, the amount is much higher. However I did not find any population control aims, behind this communist organizational catastrophe. Great Britain genocides - were caused by Social Darwinism, “Laissez-faire” , and some other ideas popular on this time. It meant death for something between twenty to forty million people. it is interesting that the genocide of the Jews, has achieved widespread publicity, but much larger mass-murders of Hindus, that have more victims, are often left out from textbooks of history. There are several reasons for this. The Germany lost the war, and history is written by the winners. If Irish National movement or - Hindus thirty year later- had conquered London I am sure they have hanged the people responsible , for crimes against humanity. That did not happen. End of the Second World War British troops however conquered Berlin and hanged leaders of Nazi Germany for crimes against humanity. Also British leaders, and Stalin killed people “naturally” for famine. I am sure Nazis had done same way, if Jews were on one geographical area, and not scattered around Germany and Europe. This was not case, so Nazis created industrial slaughterhouses for Jews, where they transferred all the Jews they found from Germany and other areas on their control. Nazis tried to kill the whole Jew population, because t they classified them for nonhuman beings, that had demoralizing influence on their sphere, and were dangerous for German strength. British and Stalin in USSR did not try to kill all the race, but rather to reduce amount and strength of people by artificial famine. One reason of publicity was that there were lots of Jews on British Isles and outside of Europe, including some rich, educated and powerful people. Irish, Hindus and Ukraine people did not have much influence outside their area on time of their genocide. There were some positive effects of making public the genocide of Jews on Germany. It became politically unpopular to classify races more human, and less human. On 1967 the last 15 states on United States gave up on efforts to preserve purity of the white race and allowed interracial marriages. The racism , perhaps had not lost it's popularity, without the mass-murders of Jews. Changes happened in Canada too. Canadian aboriginal children were killed in residential schools, by making environment favorable for smallbox or Tuberculosis infection before the second world war. This diminished after war. The last residential school for aboriginal people closed 1996. I believe that various provinces more or less forced sterilization programs of aboriginals are also stopped. The British attitude towards other colored of people, on their colonies changed slowly. According Caroline Elkins fifty thousand people were killed by British Security forces in Kenya 1950s. This time conservative government headed by Harold Macmillan denied systematic abuses. Fifty years has gone. Some victims of torture are still alive, but not had get any compensation. Also their torturers have not prosecuted for their crimes. The whole chain British legal of systems that suppose to make sure that this kind of mass-murder does not happen, failed. It is very difficult to come other conclusion, but that conservative government at least did know- , or was behind these atrocities. 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systems, where minorities had often no voice in parliament. So it has happened, that they were killed, tortured, and their rights were abused. Some would think that there is nothing bad in the system, and problem is just members of parliament, who had no moral backbone. I think that the British type of election system works as a filter. It filters out majority of the individuals, who have moral backbone, even before they come candidate on their electoral district. Canada has similar problems on their parliamentary system that United Kingdom has. Some examples from Canada's past: In 1941, time of Second World War, people from Japan origin, were closed into concentration camps, as a threat for national security. They were robbed from their property too. Their only crime was their Japan origin. After war, they got free from concentration camps, but did not get compensation their suffering before 1988, when Prime Minister Mulroney gave formal apology, and announced details from compensation for those who still were alive. It is very difficult to think, that Canadian parliament was unknown for injustice that these Japan-origin people had faced on concentration camps. Only possibility is that member of Canadian parliaments knowingly waited that most of the victims past away, just for economical reasons. This did take time over forty years until 1988. The whole case is a living example that parliamentary system in Canada is not working properly -and this causes that whole legal machinery od Canada, does not work properly especially for minorities, and non white races ( German people were not closed to concentration camps). If the members of parliament were not elected, from particular geographical district Japan origin people would have come together and got one member of parliament, who at least have spoken for them.. The sexual abuse of aboriginals on residential schools , and police that did not make necessary investigation for matter is another example. Criminal human experiments is third etc. There are historical reasons for this form of election system. On time when transportation was slow ,and there were no mass-media - this was the best possible electoral system. The system gives one member of parliament on each electoral district.t . People who had not seen other election methods , does not find any odd for this method. As well as election system had pre-selected the geographical district for candidates that voters could vote -the election system would make sure that religion of members of parliament equals the proportion of religion of voters. On this hypothetical system there is noelectoral districts, but religious groups. Example Anglicans had their candidates that numbers equal of the proportion of Anglican members among Canadian citizens, and Anglican voters choose their Anglican members of Parliament from them. Another possible system is think that the gender of M.P.s is pre-selected, like now district is pre-selected, to make sure that both sexes have equal presentation. This system has about half of the seats for female M.P.s , and another half of the seats for male M.P.s . Female voters, in this system have only possibility to vote female candidates, and male voters has to vote male candidates. On these hypothetical systems government dictates equal distribution of M.P.s gender, and religion, just like English system government dictates equal distribution of geographical district of M.P.s. One understands that the most democratic election system is one , where government does not make any pre-selections before election, to narrow the choice of people . This leave voters make their choice from all the candidates on this election, and select candidate from geographical district, or religion or gender, if they feel it is important for them. I am not fully satisfied with Finland’s election system. However in Scandinavia, where several candidates are elected in each area, there are usually more than two parties in parliament. Scandinavian countries do not have this kind of crimes agaist humanity, and human rights violations, that are common in Canada and United Kingdom . I found that British genocides are not very known on the history textbooks. So I made a collection of hyperlinks into my Alternative History section. 24.11.2009 5.30 a.m On 15th, October , I had a nightmare . I believe it was orchestrated. Before that , while I was awake, there was tingling sensation on the left side. Next night they started repetitive voices after three a.m. I used loud music to shield myself. After that I did not get any sleep. I slept about three hours. On 18th.of October there were tingling sensation whole afternoon, and some balance problems, that caused me some difficulties to walk. I was happy it was Sunday, and I did not have to go to work. Next night 19th. of October, there was start of the week torture, and I did not sleep at all. They did not used repetitive voices much, but rather pains and verbal manipulation, and some other techniques I do not know. They also told me that my sleep apnea was actually caused reason that they wanted to control my voice, and control of my larynx. This caused that tissues on my throat blocks the airway on lungs , while I am sleeping. Of course this could be truth or not. I cannot give very much value for what they speak. It seems to me ,that usually they just try to get heavy feelings on me. I guess heavy feelings , have some advantage on what they want to do with me. On afternoon of 19th. October started mild headache on front head, it continued until night. On night I did not sleep at all.

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They used type of torture I called “hard head” . They used same tape torture on Alberta , but not used it for many years, with some exceptions. I put oximeter on my hand at night, and found that my pulse was high above average 112 beats at minute. On morning I had 36 hours without sleep. They started shootings pains at right temple of head, eleven a.m. Next night on 20th. October after long fight with repeating voices, I got some sleep. I guess I had stayed about 50 hours without sleep before that. However they woke me up at four a.m. with repetitive voices. I shielded with loud music. They usually keep in the morning a kind of positive speech , were they promise that everything is coming good again. This morning they were silent. On 21st. of October I got some better sleep, although they started severe pain on right temple at 9.05 p.m.. On 23th. of October there were tingling sensation on head lunchtime after noon. 25th of October were pain in front , right side of head , it started after midnight , and continued whole night . I slept some hours. The pain ended on next afternoon. On 27th. of. October There were occasional tingling sensations around the head. On social gatherings like coffee break, 9 a.m and two p.m , and there were pain on the center of the head. Similar pain was on 4.30 p.m. 28th of October there were similar pain ,as yesterday coffee break, on meeting before noon. On afternoon, pain on right temple started quarter past one. Evening they got me unconscious. When I woke up on chair after ten ,they started pain on right temple of the head. Pain it ended at 6.15 a.m. next morning. On evening quarter to ten, pain on the right temple of the head started again, this time heavier than usually. Later on, it moved on the right eye, and ended about 5.15 a.m. I was very tired, and I was able to sleep about three hours. The next day was very similar. They got me unconscious about half. past eight p.m. I awakened after ten p.m. And they started heavy pain around the right eye that stopped about four a.m. On the morning they started a mild pain on left side of the head. First of november They started heavy torture on right eye 2.30 a.m. It went of at six a.m. after several manual manipulations of the head. I got some sleep after . This was day I was ordered for sleep-apnea test on hospital . Before the test I was ordered to sleep without c-pap breathing machine three nights. For curiosity I collected my blood oxygen readings, on these nights. I found that they were just different than readings when wearing the c-pap machine. The difference sleeping with c-pap machine , and without was really big. The oxygen levels dropped continuously under 80%. I went to hospital about three p.m., and I was pretty tired. On the hospital when was the sleep time , I got several sensors around my body. There was a sensor in nose, that measured my breathing. Other was around lungs, to measure how deep was my breathing. And then there was a very hot sensor , the staff told me that it measured my body carbon dioxide level.. The perpetrators let me sleep about hour, then started to keep me awake, with heavy repeating voices .However I had my earphones, and with loud music , I was able to get sleep. Actually I know , that if they want - they could had keep me awake whole night , but for some reason , they did not want to go that extreme torture. I awakened after couple of hours sleep my earphones on floor. In the morning I got result- they had found that I have severe sleep apnea , and I should continued using c-pap machine. After the hospital , there were peaceful for a while . They used much verbal manipulation, and often put me sleep on daytime, but let me sleep at night. On their code language, they lowered my salary. This means that they have a kind of torture index, and after heavy torture, or wounds , the victim could get some easier times, before the next torture session begin. They often got me, a kind of half-conscious state, where was very difficult to start moving. One example is 13. November between 7.30 and 8.30 p.m. I simply did not have power to move myself, while I was a kind of half awake. On 16th. of November night, the new torture session started as start of the week torture. They used burning pains on head backache etc. to keep me awake. I shielded for repetitive voices, with loud music after two a.m. They did get my left ear sensitive, and I did not get any sleep that night. They do not call this torture “start of the week torture” , it is name I have given for it. Their name for this torture is “roman candles”. Next night 17th. of November, they did try to keep me awake also, but I used very loud music , and because I was very tired I got some sleep, about three hours. On 18th. of November I got normal sleep, but on night of 19th. of November , they kept me awake whole night also. I would have perhaps got some sleep, if I had used extremely loud music, as on 17th. of November. However , I found too late, that that, they are planning to keep me awake whole night. Also I was not that extremely tired, so perhaps I could not sleep on that loud noise. Next day on work , my neighbor found me on sitting on the computer asleep. It was embarrassing, and does certainly not help my career.

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On Friday night, I was able sleep some hours. I had first time some steel wool as extra shield. It is a tip , I had learned it from FFCHS shielding page . It does not stop voice, but it lowers the quality of their feedback . So it is like driving on the dark. They do not know what their transmitting signal actually does. The loud music has same idea. They have a lot of transmission power, but their receiving signal is rather weak, I believe. In the morning the repetitive voices told , that I have “ commercial pilot cap”. Somebody who does not know their language, would have started to guess, what means “commercial pilot cap” . I know that that is exactly the action they want the victim to do. As well they would have said that my house is on fire, or that the postmaster has blue trousers. For some reason, the interaction is what they are looking for most of the time. They tell me sentence, and they want that I think , something about it. If they cannot get response, they would try call my name. Most people respond some way , when they hear their name. So that is what they do for me - along other things - for most of the time I am awake. The reason why they try to shorten my sleeping time, is unclear.That is another main goal, they try to do. On 21st of November night after nine p.m. they started pain on the right eye again, for a long time. 23th of November night they started with pain on right side after ten p.m. Later on night they started “start of the week torture”. I did not sleep at all this night. They used first repeating voices, and after I put loud music. They used “hard head technique” to keep me awake. I felt how the center of my skull felt cold, because they stopped the flow of blood there someway, as they all do for this technique. I have studied tips which other people have invented to resist mind manipulation on FFCHS shielding tip pages.I found that everything that I have invented, the other victims have invented too, on some form. The steel balls I used on summer were neodymium magnets, and anonymous victim had also experienced with neodymium magnets. I had used hand held massager for head mechanical manipulation, like Cassandra. It helps if there is tingling sensations on head. Also after victim is very exited from their verbal manipulation, it cools down their attack. Actually I believe that there are other groups of victims, and their perpetrators in jails, mental hospitals, and other closed institutions. These people do not have any possibilities to protect their brains, and it is very easy , to inspect the actual effects the machine causes. We who are free, are perhaps free just because they want to find , what kind of shielding, and other ways we could develop, to resist electronic manipulation. So they could make some working countermeasures for all forms of people resistance. The study is done for different cultures and languages also to train perpetrators in different language groups for future clandestine operations in foreign countries. So while the victims of electronic mind manipulation are desperately trying to protect their brains from attacks from this secret machinery, with steel wool and other home made inventions - the United States congress - that has the powers to investigate victims claims, and stop the electronic human experiments projects – is just watching the situation in hands on their pockets, and doing nothing to stop these crimes. The mind reading machine could have some positive uses, for example in solving serious crimes. It could have some use of finding if individual is really quilty for example murder, before he is executed. The problem is that organization which has these machines- and controls the use of them - is not using these machines for solving crimes, but just opposite. They are using mind reading- and manipulation machinery for committing crimes, and other evil purposes. There are some news from machines that could interpret brain language, but the public research is at least two decades behind, from what military and intelligence organisations are doing. I studied the history of statue of Liberty monument in New York harbor . The Constitution of United States and French Revolution, were about same time, and influenced each other. The United States Constitution was formed 1787. French National Assembly made declaration of Rights of Man 1789. And two years later United States made very similar Bill of Rights. This time there were a lot of opinions from Royalists and others, that republic - as a form of state - would not exist long. So hundred years after declaration of United States Independence, some French people wanted to honor freedom and democracy . They collected money, and it was used to make Statue of Liberty. This monument was a symbol of freedom and democracy and it was placed on United States , because the people, who collected the money for statue, felt the United States was country that best represented these values..
Now I feel ,the Statue of Liberty , should be removed from United States , and put some other country . United States does not represent the values of builders of statue, freedom, equality and liberty. United States is rather heading towards Orwellian Society

13.10.2009 11.50 p.m. The September was a very normal. There were standard torture, pain on the right temple of head and repetitive voices when sleep. The manipulative voices continued major portion of time, when I was awake. They are very good at mindreading for all thought, that victim has name for things. But if victim recalls some memory, he has no words, they are eager to make incorrect interpretations. So the mindreading works very much with person vocabulary.

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My first note is on second of September. Occasional pains on the right temple of my head . It started morning at nine a.m. Next night there were repetitive voices, that I shielded with music. Third of September there were occasional shooting pains on front and right side of head once a while whole day. On fourth of September repetitive voices started on left ear 4.57 p.m. Next note is on tenth of September . The perpetrators had kept me awake whole night. Beside the usual repetitive voices , they used pains on left heel , and of course normal verbal manipulation. It is possible , that I slept hour or so, but I am not sure for that. Next evening after half past ten, they used backache, to force me on right side sleeping position. On 11th. of September I did not have time to put on my c-pap machine, I went asleep. I was unconscious about hour, after I closed my computer, washed my teeth, and went to sleep normal way. They used repetitive voices , and backache to keep me awake. However I slept some hours. Next night on 12th. Of September, They awakened me four times, at night , however, because I did not have to go to work, I slept over four hours. In the morning before ten a.m. There was some headache. 10.20 p.m. There were sharp pains on the right temple of head. They were different pains than earlier - not continuous but pains that went on and off fast. Next day the usual pain on the right temple started on noon, and continued until night. On 14th. of September pain on the right temple of head started after ten. p.m. m and continued about hour. 15th of September pain started on nine a.m. and ended before noon. On 18th of September the same pain on the right temple of the head started 1.30 a.m. It diminished a while but started again nine a.m. I found that the pain changes my facial expression. Next night there were repetitive voices, that felt very bad from head, even they were not louder than usual, so there were something extra with these voices. I shielded it with music. I had some nausea after voices. On morning after six the pain on the right temple of the head started, and this time it slowly changed pain on the right eye, and continued several hours. Next morning was similar, except that pain continued over noon, and it felt also on chin and teeth on the right side, while it was worst. Next day, 21st of September pain started ten a.m. 22-23 of September I had time to hospital for regular calibration the air-pressure of c-pap machine. The perpetrators on this time were not afraid, but continued torture with repetitive voices. They also close my nose, that caused that hospital staff- which monitor my oxygen intake raised the cpap-machine-pressure. Later on the breathing became normal. There were no blood tests on this time. The pressure on the c-pap machine was kept same as before, but the doctors ordered me other kind of tests on November, where there are the probes were put everywhere around the body, while I am sleeping. I am suspicious. If the hospital is some kind of contact with perpetrators, or the perpetrators have a way to obtain information, for these tests, it is leading me dangerous situation. Now the perpetrators do not have accurate the information , what actually happen to me when they do something to me. Only information they get is what they get with their telemetric feedback system. In best it is incomplete, and cannot really compare with information that they could get with sensors attached on body with wires. So the hospital visit that started positive way, is going to dangerous direction. I take the risk, whatever happens, and hope the best. The most probable situation is that the perpetrators stay silent, and doctors are just interested, what affect my sleep, and what is my oxygen intake while sleeping without c-pap machine. However all the others possibilities also exists. 24 of September , there were repeating voices, and I protected myself with music. Later on they tried to manipulate my sleeping position with pain. I guess, I slept three hours. 28th. and 29th.of September night s were very similar, repetitive voices and pain, that I shield with music. 28th. of September they also used repetitive voices on lunchtime. 30 of September, they got my so sleepy , I got me asleep after ten p.m. I awakened before midnight and , went to bed . This time there were no actual voice, but uneasy feeling, that actualized itching on left ear, after I changed my position. I put music on left ear, and got some sleep. Next day on work, they started torture on work after 3.30 p.m. They kept a pause, while I had a customer, and started repetitive voices torture , after the customer went out. Second of October night They used repetitive voice torture and I used music for shield. They woke me up about four a.m. I slept under four hours. On lunchtime there were shrinking and itching feeling on left side of head. On work they put me asleep for a while, about three p.m. I hope nobody found it. On evening, I was so sleepy I went bed , without putting c-pap machine on. I suppose to use it every night. I woke up after midnight, and I felt no sleepy at all. I stayed awake, and went again sleep after five a.m. There were normal repetitive voices , and I shielded with music. I have started to feel , this is the way to sleep , they want. They would monitor the music, and this way easily find when I am asleep. On wakeup they started headache on forehead, that changed heavy pain on the right temple of the head. This continued until next midnight and while it was worst, it also felt as toothache on upper chinbone. Fifth of October There were some nausea during the day, and around 11.30 p.m. the lungs went sore. Sixth of October I got a kind of switching pain on right side of head, that got heavier, when I get excited. Night there were usual repetitive voices, and later pain on back, th when they tried to get me sleep on other side. I guess I slept 4-5 hours. Eight of October 7.29 p.m. There were pain on the chest right side. It went milder after few hours.

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Ninth of October they used torture method , they had name “electric whip”. I t does not feel whip like, but is rather burning point. When the victim moves, the point disappear for a moment, but come back, some moments later. The burning point is perhaps no dangerous, but when using it , when person is sleeping, it can really drive victim on desperation . I did not sleep after six a.m. Pain on the chest continued to tenth of October. The next night was very similar but pain was milder. I got sleep after hour or two fight. I used massage on the burning point as a defense. I did check my Internet site, and I found that my page “Organizations fighting to stop electromagnetic mindcontrol experiments was out of date, most of the organizations were old ,and hyperlinks did not open. So I did some search, to find the strongest organizations, fighting agaist electronic mind control. I corrected hastily the couple first names. For the first organization I placed FFCHS ( Freedom of cover harassment and surveillance). FFCHS is perhaps the largest of the organizations that are fighting against electronic mind-manipulation. Because of victims are scattered everywhere around United states and the World they use Conference call for their meetings. They have also newsletter, and even safe house, that is electrically insulated and works as a shield from electronic torture (although I do not know how effective it is). We have gone a lot ahead, from situation we were five years ago, and I am confident, that sooner or later the truth will come out for public. Hopefully most of victims are still alive, when this day comes. 31.8.2009 11.30 p.m. The major changes, since my last writing is, that daily torture on the left ear has nearly stopped. The night torture continues about each other day, but I feel that there is person behind now and not just machine. Other major change is, that the torture on the right eye, has changed very heavy pain on the front of right temple of head, and they keep me continuously tired with daily sleep between one and four hours. That has gone worse than before. The pain on right side of head, occurs usually nighttime, but not always. The veins on right side neck, feels also sore when touching, and sometimes it cause breathing on c-pap machine feel cold, apparently because of weak blood circulation on head. The pain feels especially eating or coughing, when the victim has to move his chin. First note on my notebook, since my previous writing on 14 July, is on 16th. July - I slept between one and three hours. I felt there was a cap on my memory, what happened on that night, but I remember I was awake four a.m. The next note is 18th July. Pain on the right temple of head, started on afternoon and continued until midnight. The pain was pretty heavy at time. On 20th July started “start of the week torture” at 9.25 p.m. with high frequency voices, and earache. I did not sleep at all. They told me something, I planned to write on this diary, but they erased it from my memory, while I was on shower. It is frustrating feeling, when remembers, there is something, that is important to make note, but not remember what it is. Next evening there were pains on the right temple. The night of 24 July, I slept about four hours . 26th. Of July pain on the right side of head started after midnight. Veins on the right side were sore. Breathing on the c-pap machine felt cold in the morning. The pain ended next night about ten p.m. This night they used repeating voices, I shielded my ears with loud music. I knew I was awake on after three or four a.m. On the morning they about five a.m. they told horror story machine they possess , capable to kill person, by stopping his heart, and of course they threatened to stop my heart. I believe this is very possible. 28th. of July there were occasional sudden shooting pains especially left side and back of the skull. 30th. of July they used repeating voices and I used music to shield my ears from it. They used also backache, and earache to keep me awake, but still I managed to sleep about four hours. 31st. of July the similar shooting pains like 28th. of July continued. They were not like electric shocks, but felt somehow similar like electric shocks. On second of August, they “shoot” me unconscious. When I woke up again, I had a fuzzy feeling. If I did put my head town - for example tying on my shoestrings - I lost my balance. I measured my blood pressure, and found that it was oddly down 116/77. I believe, this could someway relate. that I cannot put my head down, without loosing consciousness. Next night they used repeating voices, and I shielded my ears with music. I slept about four hours. On next day repeating voices started quarter to four p.m. and continued while. On four of August they started pain on left temple at eleven a.m. it continued over three p.m. Next day was very similar, pain on right temple started four p.m. and ended after six p.m. On eight August were occasional short electric shock-like pains, mostly on the left side of skull. Veins on the neck were sore. On night repetitive voices started, and I used music to shield myself. I slept around four hours. On tenth of August there were pretty normal “start of the week torture”. It has purpose to put me on tired condition after

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weekend sleep. They woke me up after hour of sleep. This is their new technique; it is easier to keep me awake, when they have let me sleep short time. They used repeating voices, pain on back, and on shoulder etc. I used loud music to shield myself from their manipulation. I slept about two hours. On the morning, there were some occasional pains on the right temple. The pain moved right eye, and continued whole day, over six p.m. at least. There were also pains on upper chin, Next note is on 12th. of August, Occasional pains on the right temple of head, starting about six p.m. 13th. of August they woke me up at three a.m. by causing sound that was similar of sound of my alarm clock. I got some sleep after, but in the morning right temple was sore. The pain on right temple ended about eight p.m. However it started again three hours later, and continued while. Next morning, there was a very heavy pain on the right temple. It started about nine a.m. and continued while. Next night on 15th. of August, they started repeating voices. I used music to shield my ears from manipulation. They started also a heavy pain, this time left temple of the head, on the same place that they usually have pain on the right side. I got some sleep, because I was very tired. However I woke up at three a.m. I guess I slept three hours. On morning, the pain was moved on right side of head, and diminished. However I found that they were able to freeze my right side of head. They did it sometimes, if they did not understand, or did not like what I was doing. The freeze caused also change of my facial expression. Next night, they started a heavy torture on the right temple of head, about three a.m. at night. This companied with verbal manipulation, where they threatened to cause me crib death type of death. They let me have some sleep, but somehow managed me to turn on right side on my sleep, so they got my right temple on upside. The result was on their expression “they shoot my head wide open”. The actual torture ended before noon, but the head was sore a long time, especially eating coughing, other way moving my chin. 17th. Of August was pretty normal “start of the week torture” that purpose is to get me tired, start of workweek, because I cannot sleep long like holidays, -so for them it is easier to keep me tired condition, as they want. They let me sleep about hour, then woke me up, and started torture with repeating voices. Unfortunately, I had run out of batteries, of my mp3-player, so I could not shield with music. So I did not sleep any more for this night. To make my condition more painful, they caused also heavy pain on the right temple of head. Next night I slept normal, but on 18th. August evening before ten p.m. they started rather heavy torture. The torture started first on whole head, and later on right side. 19th. Of August , they awakened me between three and four a.m. by false alarm. This time it was a voice , somebody banking on the door. After started heavy pain on the right side of head. 11.45 a.m. They tried to make another practical joke. They changed one number on my credit card code, on my mind. Actually they succeeded this , but on the bank-automat , I had a kind of optical memory which number I should press, and I followed it , and not my number memory. I was right , and got money. The technique, they changed the number looks stupid on told , but on practice , it works pretty well. They block my memory someway, and “secretary” whisper the words , the victim is looking for memory - this time credit card code. Only one number is changed, so that I do not reject the information. Because only information that come from brain is outside, there is no other possibility than accept the information, even if it feels a kind of odd. They cannot put to the victims mouth long sentences, but swapping word or two often succeeds. There were some more peaceful days, but on 30th. August morning 8.45 a.m. they started repeating voices on morning. I believe that they tried to get me up earlier. I put some loud music, and stayed on bed couple of hours more. After noon they started heavy pain on the right side of head , near right eye. That pain continued on next morning. I have read my old writings, and I have found some matters have vanished, and some moved a bit ahead. North American Union, I wrote on 11.1.2007 was newer accomplished. Also United States has not had military takeover, not yet anyway, so multimillion build concentration camps are now empty. On 3.7. 2007 I suggested quality control for democracy, and also told , what is wrong on American Auto-industry. On the Quality of United States democracy there are some signs of improvement, since change of president, but the auto industry problems have realized ia form of closed factories and high unemployment of auto workers. Finally 11.9. 2006 I told mass-murder of 3000 Afghans on Dash-e-leili. I had also a link for youtube video, that told the cruel way the murders happened. Now Physicians for human rights.organisation has opened some mass graves. They have called investigation of Dash-e-Leili mass-murders. Unfortunately General Abdul Rashid Dostum, who is responsible of atrocities, is on a powerful supporter president Hamid Carsai. There are more and more similarities between Vietnam war and war in Afghanistan. One of them is United States support of corrupted leaders, and closing eyes of their human rights violations . Another similarity is drugs. Vietnam war caused epidemic problem of heroin usage among soldiers, that spread whole United States. Taliban’s were able to stop opium poppy growing, when they controlled the country, but now opium is Afghanistan major export article , and makes about one third of country income. Western media connects Taliban resistance movement for

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smuggling of heroin to finance their organization. It is difficult to filter truth out of war-propaganda. If United States and it’s allies forces control Afghanistan area, why they not to eradicate opium poppy-fields. Another possibility is that hat hundreds of millions dollars that comes from drug-addicts all over the world are used to bribe local law-enforcement, Afghan army, top Government officials, and perhaps even some key people on foreign peacekeeping forces. If US-army or United Nations peacekeepers destroy the opium farmers poppy-fields - poppy fields, that suppose to make farmers next winter income – they do not get very popular on Afghan villages. Besides the poor peasants - also local police , Afghan army, and other Afghanistan civil servants, would loose substantial amount of money, and whole the Afghanistan economy would suffer, for lack riches , that major exporting article, opium brings into Afghanistan economy. The religion based control of villages, that made Taliban’s able stop opium poppy-growing on Afghanistan, is very difficult to recent , rather corrupted Afghanistan leaders. These are moral questions: - Do we open investigation on General Abdul Rashid Dostum arranged mass-murders, even if he is our ally on Afghanistan – and even if we do not have very many allies . Do we eradicate opium poppy-fields in Afghanistan, even if we know everybody on Afghanistan, who gets more or less living on opium trade will hate us. There were- and are and similar ethical questions also United States domestic policy. The subprime mortgage crisis is one example. Everything went fine, as long as housing prices went higher . Important is that there were no one institution that failed to act properly, but whole control chain of financial institutions - that suppose to take care that nothing like this happen - failed . Underwriters, rating agencies etc. – None of them did their work properly. It was very similar phenomenon, that makes Afghanistan Opium trade big and profitable business. Only difference is that on Afghanistan there are peasant, and police on place of underwriters and rating agencies. Also both cases, those who suffer most, are not those greedy people, that have made profit their corrupted acts. If we want give name of the matter that causes all these problems. We could call it bad ethics , or low quality of administration, even if they are not the same thing. There is low work ethics l that causes low quality of work. If Administration, lowers quality of work and command chain has somebody who insist to work properly, administration will expel him for one reason or other. That is the way , how quality control chain , that has every link failing , is build. Very harmful is the low standard of law enforcement administration. Old things get new definition. Murder by nuclear radiation, becames legal medical treatment, torture gets new name enchanted interrogation , terrorist suspect are called name “enemy combatants” and then argued that they are not under protection of Geneva Conventions, and put into US. Military base area, and then ruled that the area is outside US. Legal jurisdiction , and whatever is done there is not crime. The low quality of legal institutions, will show clearly interpretation and implementation of law. One does not have to be a legal professional to find that there is much wrong on the basic attitude how law is interpreted in United States. The interpretation of law is so “creative” that more important than what is on the law, is who has the legal powers to interpret it. Illegal human experimentation, and murders of suspected or real United States enemies around the world, are also results of low ethics .Everybody should have right to defend himself in court, before he is executed. There are now some promising early signs that higher ethics, and better quality of law administration would come effect in some future. Attorney General Eric Holder has made decision to start investigate CIA interrogation techniques. However it is too early to say what happen to him and which forces will rule in the future. If evil forces will keep their power in United States, country is going to have similar problems than it’s southern neighbor Mexico has. Even replacing 700 customs agents , will not stop cocaine trade. It is very painful to improve quality of organization, if many members of organization get some benefits from present situation. Lost quality of work and diminished work moral is painful to gain back.

14.7.2009 1.00 a.m. On fifteenth of June, there was heavy torture, with high frequency female voices on the left ear. I put the bullet (small steelball) on ear to get the noise down. They caused earache on left ear, to get me to take the bullet out. I chose pain. I slept about three hours. On noon while I was on the library female voices were on left and also right ear one ear at time. Next day on sixteenth of June, the same voices disturb my working starting 10.30 a.m. The night on eighteen of June was very similar than fifteenth. Heavy torture, with high frequency female voices on the left ear. I put the bullet (small steelball) on ear to get the noise down. Again they caused earache on left ear, to get me to take the bullet out. Again I chose pain. And similarly as day before, I slept about three hours. Next night on 19. Of June , the torture started before six a.m. so I was able to sleep four or five hours. The difference was

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that I felt that they have got somehow improved signal .It pierced better through steel ball. The torture continued with some breaks on afternoon, and evening, and went worse near midnight. . I used bullet on left ear, and tried mechanical manipulation of head.. Twentieth of June , when I woke up., there was wound like sore point above of my left eye. It felt irritated whole time. The high frequency voices started seven p.m. and continued torture midnight. I had bullet on my left ear, and I tried to ease the exposure by manual manipulation of my head. Next day on 21. Of June, was “after sauna torture” meaning of headache, and cold feeling on the forehead. When I manipulated my neck, I found that the veins on my neck were sore. So they had stopped the blood flow on forehead someway. I got my feeling a bit better after manipulation. On the afternoon they got me unconscious , “fast sleep” . After wakeup the headache continued hour or two, before diminishing, and after the perpetrators started heavy verbal manipulation. Evening before nine p.m. the high frequency voices started again on the left ear. I found that any metal sheet over the ear, can weaken the signal. The more important than heaviness of metal is that it very near the ear. I found also that the actual torture is probably done by computer program ,or compatible robot- manipulator. It can receive feed back from brains, and if it gets, word it send, the next signal is stronger. One could sometimes also cheat the machine, by making on mind different feedback from source. Example if the victim could make change on his mind mind word” latter “ into word later, after some feeds the next feed from signal is “later” etc. The next night 22 of June, they openly tried to get me take out the bulled of my ear. I had also metal sheet over the ear. They gave electric shocks on my ear . On daytime ther was some high frequency torture from eleven am. to one p.m. After some pause it started again on four p.m. and continued some hours. On 23. June, they tortured whole night on left ear. They tried to get the steel ball out of the ear,by electric shocks, they gave my ear on some seconds intervals. I slept about two hours. They also told me that I will die for liver problems. This would relate pains on the right side of chest, they caused me day before. I just cannot give any credit for these speeches. On night 25. Of June , was very similar than before - except I did not get shocks on left ear. This would cause for reason, that I but the bullet on my ear, after high frequency voices started. On evening they threaded to wipe out my memory, so completely I will not be able to speak anything. 27. of June I did not have steel ball on my left ear. This because I had invented that sheet metal over the ear, and high volume music from earphones, between the ear and sheet metal, is somehow more efficient way to resist high frequency voice. This made them , do make some fundamental changes on their behavior. They insisted that the music, makes them impossible to make “flue gas” measurement from blood, and I would not sleep before I stop the music. This attitude was fundamentally different than before. They have done all kinds of tricks, to get me behave, way they want. If they want me to change the side I sleep, they would cause pains on the sleeping side. They would cause ear ache, to get me to get me to take the bullet out of ear etc. This time they simply threatened to torture me , so long that I behave the way they want. I kept the music all the night, and I did not sleep at all. Anyway, I do not remember, that I slept. They also started the pain on the front of the right temple that was very much similar, that pain on the right eye before. Next day was similar, except that pain on the right eye started after ten p.m. and continued whole night. I used sheet metal over the left ear, and loud music from earphones. I slept more than yesterday – about four hours. The next day was very similar, I slept about five hours. They suggested , that I keep sleep diary. The last day of June was different. I did not sleep at all. They used some kind of device, that did not signal words but rather sounds, that were much like water bubbling, or noise that come from large group of people. There were - of course - also normal high frequency voices, that repeated some words , thousands of times, and pain on the front of the right temple of the head, that ended in the morning. They were prepared to keep me awake whole night, because I had slept night before. On first July, I slept normally. Pain on the front of right temple started about two p.m. and continued while. It was just a bit different than pain on the right eye. Next night started a pain on the right eye that eased after ten a.m. Next night was similar pain, but also high frequency voices on left ear, that I somehow eliminated with loud music. They also wake me up with cough, that is difficult, if one is breathing with c-pap machine. I got also some backache, that they use to control my sleeping position. On fifth of July morning the torture on the high frequency voices started eight a.m. They were disappointed , because I had holiday, an d did not want to wake up, when they awaked me. Apparently they had prepared something, for me on this time. They did very heavy torture, on left ear. Besides high frequency voices, they used also some kind of machine, that did not produce voice, but rather irritated feeling on the left ear, like some small insect had crawled there. I resisted with laud music and manual manipulation of head, and stayed on bed over ten a.m. The pain on the right eye that started on the morning, continued whole afternoon and was heavier than usually. Next day pain on the right eye started at noon, and continued on afternoon. Near every night since, I invented loud music , with sheet metal over left ear resistance, has went very much with same template. They start high frequency voices, I put the music from mp3-player high on left ear, that eliminate much of the effect of their signal. I go to sleep ,and mp3-player stops when it has gone end. If I am awake, I put mp3-player on

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beginning again. On the morning I wake up, for some reason, usually backache, when my perpetrators feel , that I have slept enough. If I have slept less than five hours, I stay in bed , and put loud music again , until seven hours, or so has gone. On night of nine of July, they tried a kind of amusing trick, that worked a while I was not fully conscious, but rather half-asleep. They wake me up , sometime on night. The music was playing, but they started the high frequency voice torture, that the music for some reason did not shielded this time. It took a while , before I realized, that the music was not coming from my mp3- player, but for their signal. After I realized it, I put my mp3-player on, and the effect of their voices, did not go through anymore. Actually It was not same music, and quality was much poorer, so fully awake, I had felt the difference on seconds, but half asleep it did take more time - ten minutes or so. Night of ten of July, they kept me awake three a.m. I started to write this diary. After five a.m. I went back to sleep, and was able to sleep some hours. I went that interested on my nightly oxygen intake, so I bought storing oximeter, that I have tested on some nights. My heart-beating on sleep is very slow under 50 beats on minute. There are some moments on night that oxygen saturation is under 85. Usually they last under five minutes. Interesting is that the heartbeat, stay same, under 50 time also on these lowoxygen saturation periods, and heart does not try to compensate the lower oxygen saturation with increased frequency of heart beating. So among other things, they have wounded my respiratory system . If I correctly interpret what is happening now, the organs next on line that are on danger , are left ear, and right eye. After that I have still will have working right ear, and left eye. The bad thing is, that they do not stop that. Anyway they do not stop, if any power that can stop their experimenting , does not stop their experimenting. There are several hundred others victims of mind-control experiments , who are similarly ruined from their body and mind, slowly and economically. And similarly as I, they do not have possibility to defend their physical and mental immunity. When I look past of American history, similar things have happened many times before. The ruling elite, has victimized minority one reason or another, and majority of people has let it happen, partly because they have not get objective picture what is happening, but more because they are not used to do something, and are rather object of others action , than people that would do coordinated action. And some minorities or individuals , the government could became a bloodthirsty monster, that wants and takes their lives literally. The Canadian Indians that get their children taken away from them to put residential school, where half of them did not get out alive, had no possibility for defend their children. As one of them told RCMP surrounded the indian villages, and simply robbed the children away from their parents. If half of the Indian children were not killed before their fertility age , the majority of Canadian population at least some provinces would now be Indians, and this would mean that this could have cause changes the political decisions of House of Commons. Now with aggressive immigration policy, and causing death of a part of Indian people on child , made Canadian white population majority possible. Actually it was somehow similar , what Serbs tried to do their Muslim minority, or majority Hutus did their minority of Tutsi population - only difference that the white Canadian succeeded , and those responsible did not go to human rights tribunal, as Serbs and Tutsis responsible did. Clear majority of Canadian people , and people in the Canadian house of Commons, are now white. Very much could not do also those people, who happened to come wrong hospital on wrong time , and became victims of nuclear research. They trusted their doctors, and did not understand that doctors did study on their lives, how much radiation person could take before he dies. . Those who want a better picture of what happened , I would recommend Carol Rutz book “Nation Betrayed ” . It costs twenty dollars from ordered Fidelity Publishing, but nearly ten times more, if one wants to buy it from Amazon com. I do not know if there is just a mistake on their prizing, but my suspicious mind finds there could be some kind of conspiracy behind it. Perhaps somebody has got paid to make “prizing mistake”. Similarly I am suspicious if there are unfriendly pop-ups, or other problems, on some politically active sites.Are these pop-ups made their owners, or just “dirty tricks”, from somebody, or some organisation, that does not like their site ? 14.6.2009 11.55 p.m. Since my last writing on 25. May, the next note about torture was on 27 of May at 11.30 a.m. High frequency voices started the torture. The sentence they repeated several hundred times was “K iron has K”. In Finland it has more sense than somewhere else, because there is hardware store chain that has name K-Iron (K-rauta). However there was not any sensible message. I do not believe that perpetrators repeat the sentence that many times, but rather there is a some kind of mechanical repeating machine, they record the words, and after, play it again and again. This cause the ear they torture, to become very sensitive on same frequencies. After torture example traffic- noise feels very annoying. 28 May there was pain on left side back of the skull at eleven a.m. Half hour later, the high frequency female voices started again. They continued verbal torture with heavy headache that started about eight p.m. This headache continued whole night, with occasional difficulties to breath through nostrils( Some days later, I learned that they can close my nostrils, so that breathing with c-pap machine became very difficult. I guess they do it simply by rising blood pressure on nose, but this is only my guess) They started also electric shock type pain on the right temple of the head. It later continued on front head at 7.14 a.m and right side center of the head on 1.21 p.m. This all happened on 29. of May. For next day there is only one note: "Continuous pain and sore head on left side of front- and center of the skull."

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The torture continued even more aggressive on June. I believe there has come some new people that have different attitude for torture. First of June 2009 They started to disturb my sleep, and woke me up between 3-4 a.m. They used also uncomfortable bed torture, to get me sleep on position they want, and aggressive verbal manipulation, that kept me awake. On afternoon, started the high frequency voices on left ear. I had to put the steelball on my ear channel about 4.30 p.m. while I was working. After two hours 6.43 p.m. I took it off, and high pitch voices started again. So I had kept it on ear whole evening and night. There was a kind of sharp pain on the right side center of the head, about five centimeters from right eye. It started about nine p.m., and continued over midnight. There were also high voices on left ear, starting of the night. They also closed my nostrils, so I had difficulties to breath through my c-pap ,nose mask. It was like breathing through the nose, when one has flu. After I got some sleep, they tried to manipulate, which side I am sleeping, by pain. The pain on near right eye started nine p.m. and continued in the morning. I slept less than five hours. Next night pain on right temple of head started 11.36 p.m. The night was very heavy torture; I was not sure how much I slept. They used high pitch voices on left ear. Closed my nose to make my breathing difficult with c-pap machine. Actually there were pain on right side whole front head, and it felt very cold. I guess they circumvented the blood circulation there. This accompanied with uncomfortable bed torture, and very aggressive verbal torture. In the morning there was still pain on the right eye. On afternoon 4.30 p.m. There was occasional pain on left eye. And shrinking feeling on the center of the skull. Later the freeze and shrinking feeling went left side of the head. The next night on fourth of July, was perhaps heaviest torture on couple of months. I slept about three hours. There were high pitch voices tortures on left ear. The name they use for this type of torture is “cleaning recording heads”. Ihad to put the steelball on ear channel. They tied to get me take the ball out of ear by causing pain on the ear. I chose pain, instead of voices. I know that if they get to yell my ear by this high tone, I get sensitive for all certain frequency noise. Even the traffic noise, get me sick. I did not get breathing difficulties this night, so I realized that they have closed my nostrils earlier, to get me take the breathing .machine out of my head (I did not take it off). The daytime there were pain and freezing feeling on left side of head , during seminar on work between one and three p.m. Next night, on fifth June, They used everything to keep me awake, high frequency voices, closed nostrils, and of course verbal torture. As a new form of pain they used pain in the toys. They did not use that much ear-ache as night before, when I put the steelball on my ear. I slept perhaps two hours. On day pain on the right temple started in the morning. Next days were easier. Sixth of June, was one note on pain on the right temple of head about noon. Seventh day was high pitch voices on right ear 9.30 a.m. They stopped after heavy massage of head. Ninth of June there were old type of pain in the right eye 8.29 a.m. On the night there were high pitch voices, but they stopped after I put steel ball on my ear. Actually the ball does not stop the voices, but somehow I do not have my ear sore, same way that without any protection. Tenth of June were pain left of the center of the head 2.12 P.m. 11. June there was pain on the right temple of the head. I asked if this is a substitute of eye pain that I had before. The perpetrators answered, that they can give me eye-pain too, if I want it. After that pain on the eye started. 13. June morning, they started torture session about five a.m. They used high frequency voices, like before, but this time with higher volume. The torture ended a synthetic sound. After I went sleep. In the wakeup the left ear was sore and sensitive for all noises, because I did not have steelball on my ear-channel, while they tortured me with noises and sound. I had to put the steelball on the ear-channel for all day. I kept it also there for next night. I heard the voices on left ear, and other voices also right ear, but this time there were not that feeling that make the ear sore and sensitive. They were just voices. So this morning when I took the bullet out of ear-channel, my left ear felt better, and there were not also that high frequency noises. I am happy I was able to resist their “project thunderbolt” as they called it. How ever I know that when ever they want, they would make my living very painful with nausea, headache, “hard head”, and other torture methods they have. I have kept following what happen after Bush Administration torture and human rights violation revelations that, I wrote on my last note on 24. of May. Senator McCain, along with Sen. Lindsey Graham and Sen. Joe Lieberman have sent a letter to the president strongly urging him not to press charges on previous administration officials who provided legal analysis in regard to detainee (torture) interrogation. Senator McCain warned president Obama to not prosecute John Lee, and other s from Justice Dept. office of legal council. "If you criminalize legal advice, which is basically what they're going to do, then it has a terribly chilling effect on any kind of advice and counsel that the president might receive”. If Justice Dept. legal council gives advice that waterboarding-, putting person on uncomfortable box with insects-, or keeping person a week without sleep - is not torture - the chilling effects of this kind of advices are very welcome. The same Justice Dept. itself prosecuted a Texas sheriff who had used waterboarding. The sheriff was sentenced to 10 years in prison. The people on United States Justice system, have unique practice to switch words, depending who is involved on case which they are dealing. Torture became “enhanced interrogation” and human experiments that cause the victims deaths became “medical treatment” instead of murder. Because Justice Dept. has advised that waterboarding and some other torture techniques are not torture, the actual “interrogators” who did the dirty work will not prosecuted.

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So there is a new tool that can be used for administration to commit any kind of crimes without penalty. The department of justice just gives advice, that president administration asks them to give, and after people, who commit the actual crimes are safe for prosecution. If the staff of legal council of Justice Dept. cannot also prosecuted (as Senator McCain suggests). It means that everybody involved planning and executing torture or other legal- and human rights violations, is safe, for consequences of their crimes. This new instrument to commit crimes “legally” would have as devastating consequences on legal means, as subprime instruments have had on financial means .Both are inventions of United States legal profession.
There are several mind control vic ms that have tried to get jus ce from United States Courts. I have not found any, who has succeeded. This case is on Norman Rabin . The files of human experiments crimes are secret, and judges are not willing or capable to reveal them. This is another way for state administra on to commit crimes without penalty.

24.5.2009 11.55 p. m. I have got out from hospital. Because my note before hospital on 17.5.2009, was done on haste; I cover the torture since 16. April, just to make public more complete record what has happened to me. The next note since 16th. April is on 20.April. They got me unconscious on work between 6. p.m. and 6.30 p.m. On 22. of April , a whole day, I was extremely tired, and my body was sore from everything ,like after extreme physical exercise. Next morning on 24. of April, the feeling became normal, just dry mouth on the morning. However after wakeup, I got asleep again, and I got dream, or their fabricated dream, which I call movies. I lived somewhere odd town, on a rented apartment. There were cranes and some kind of factory that has a large moving block outside. Next night on 25. of April,pain on the right temple of the head started after midnight. The center of the pain was about five centimeter above the right eye. Before that they had got me unconscious about ten p.m. On daytime there were more itching on the head, as usual. On 26 of April they did uncomfortable bed torture on the morning. They have again started to manipulate, which side I am sleeping (which side of my face is up). They do it, by making sleeping on "wrong side" painful. On 27. of April, on the morning , they started a heavy torture on the right temple of my head. On 28. April the torture on the right eye, started on 3.16 a.m. and continued long on the morning. Also they caused a dry mouth. Same day while I was on the library, after noon, they tried several times to get me unconscious, and succeeded on some minutes. There is a kind of electric shock when they do not succeed. If they succeed, I do not feel shock, but Ibecame unconscious. 29, and 30 April, there is just note for torture on the right temple that started on the morning. On May the first note I have, is ofnsixth day. They manipulated me with earache to get my earphones out of my ear. I did take them off, but I put them back again, after there were no pain. Next note is on tenth May, pain on the right temple at 3.59 p.m. It continued until eleven p.m. On fifteenth May the pain on the right eye started after midnight about one a.m. I got sleep, but they woke me up about three four a.m. I got sleep about three hours. Next day there were headache on the front head, very similar, like their after sauna torture. It started on wakeup, and continued about noon. Seventeenth of May I went to hospital. As a whole, the hospital was a positive experience. The first night they put me to sleep a kind of monitoring device that automatically tried to find the right pressure of the air flow in to my lungs. On same I tried fit if the design of the mask is suitable for me. The torturers were not bothering me much on hospital time. They kept some verbal manipulation, and the "secretary" was pronouncing my thinking, but the volume was more like whisper, rather than bone feeling voice, they use usually. Next day the hospital I got some blood tests, breathing test, and chest x-ray. I did not find anything odd on the procedures. On the afternoon starting 3.15 p.m. The perpetrators caused some occasional shooting pains on the front side of the head. Next night on the hospital the staff gave me my c-pap breathing machine. I should use every night rest of my life. The night went for their fixing the suitable air pressure on the machine, so that the blood oxygen saturation level does not fall too down, while I am sleeping. After I went to home -pap machine with me. The first nights the torturers were quite silent, but on 22 of May night with about 1.30 a.m. they woke me awake and tried to disturb my sleep, so that I had to put a steel ball on my ear, after I got sleep normally. Next night I got a dream, that my neighbor’s cat that became so violent, so that I had to strangle it. After I woke up my perpetrators insisted that the object that I strangled on dream, was not cat, but a human, and this human was on my room. This is of course impossible, because the doors were locked. The perpetrators have started again use uncomfortable bed torture, to manipulate, which site I am sleeping. There are some differences on life, I have noticed, before I started the use of c-pap machine, and after it. The machine is a kind of nuisance, so I sleep less hours, with it than normally. However I kind of get more energy, at least I feel so now. The perpetrators get me sleepy on daytime, but I have not found they do not put me unconscious same way. There is not this familiar electric shock that put me asleep. Not yet anyway. Also torture on the right eye has stopped, at least for time being. On daytime they are perhaps more aggressive than ever. Example on this morning between 9-10 a.m. They tortured with high pitch female voices. It looks like it works only one ear at time, this time they used it for right ear. The sentence they repeated hundreds of times was something like "knock knock triangle" on translated, which does not have very much sense. As I told on my diary on 17th. February 2009, the perpetrators, had actually found the sleeping problems, and told me I will die for this problem. Because their talk is usually a mixing of possible truth and lies, where the concentration of truth is very minimal, so I cannot give any credit for their stories. Apparently they have found, or they have even caused the brain damage that makes this problem.

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I have followed with great interest Bush administration use of torture as an interrogation tool. The copy of original documents is on ACLU pages. It nice that some organization let people to read original documents, and not just journalist reference of them. It looks like army has abandoned the electric shocks on teeth tang and genitals, which were popular on thirty years ago. Now the people that teaches army-torture specialist (theyt are not called torture specialists, but interrogation specialists), to use common tools, which one would use purpose other than torture too. Besides of much publicity got water boarding torture, among Dept of Justice accepted interrogation (torture) techniques is putting the person in small box (confinement box) on uncomfortable position with some insects. I do not know if it is specified, what species of insects are acceptable as a prisoner’s confinement box companion. Perhaps interrogators could use insects available on season. On warm climate, they would put prisoner on box with scorpions, but on Northern climate, the angry bees could be the best choice. On wintertime and North, this particular itorture method is not usable, if not imported insects are used. The sleep deprivation as a torture tool has still kept is popularity. According the army instructions the interrogators (torturers) could keep the victim without sleep maximum 180 hours at row. This means one whole week. After that the victim must have let sleep eight hours, and after the torture is possible start another 180 hours. I was kept without sleep with perpetrators on Canada about hundred hours, before I was able to get Finland with plane. The sleep deprivation was done with technique; they called name "hard head”. It is an experience, I do not wish even my worst enemy, and I am sure it made some brain-damage for me. The decision of use of torture, came for foreign minister Condoleezza Rice, and Department of Justice made necessary changes for definition what word torture means , so that some torture techniques became "enhanced techniques of interrogation" and "legal" and acceptable tools. I would understand if Myanmar or comparable country, uses this kind of cheap tricks, but it is difficult to believe that this happened for 300 million people civilization, that has got men in the moon. If this kind of things comes out from dept of justice orders, one would just imagine, what would happen on courts of justice, jails and police stations. President Barack Obama does not support legal proceedings against Condoleezza Rice and others responsible of use of torture, because the legal action against them is not "United States interest". Decision leaves us on situation where some of the people are prosecuted for their crimes, but others not – example Condoleezza Rice, and department of Justice decision makers responsible for torture orders. This means that people are not equal - or as George Orwell put it on his book The animal farm "All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others". However President Obama supports revealing public what has happened because”United States should look itself on mirror". After army officials resistance he also did not let the torture videos come out for public. I have different opinion that President Obama, but I understand him in the way that this particular time there is some danger of military coup, and he needs the Army support, to stay in power. We could roughly divide countries according army position in government. In this classification there are three types of countries. First like Scandinavian countries, army is a servant of rest of the government, and gives the country necessary shield of security. On the second type, where example United States, and Thailand belongs –armed forces or military industrial complex lives in symbiosis with rest of government both have some political power. In the third class is Countries like Myanmar, army rules and rest of the people is just a kind of support class, necessary to supply the army for it needs. Because United States has military budged size of same as the rest of the world, an some other weak signs , there is a great danger for United Staes for becoming Myanmar type of dictatorship, where civilian population has put on the role of support class that must produce supplies for army, for it needs. The physicians would use analogy of normal white cells of body, transferring into dangerous cancer cells. Barack Obama has a dangerous bomb in his hands. This particular bomb could easily explode, when try to dismantle. 17.5.2009 11.35 a.m. According doctors, the pulse oximeter showed ,that I have some drops of oxygen consentration on my blood , during the sleep , so they ordered me to hospital, where they study matter better, and try to find me suitable c-pap (continuous positive airway pressure (CPAP) machine . The hospital they ordered me, is old tuberculosis hospital, Paimion parantola. The tests should take two or three days. I am a bit worried. I am helpless on the hospital, with no protection. I do not have much controll , what the doctors actully do for me. However I go there, just because they have ordered me , to go there. I feel a bit like a Jew , in Nazi Germany that has got order to go ”work camp”. They did not know where actually they were going, but just obeyed orders. I just hope the hospital is ordinary hospital, and my treatment is ordinary medical

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treatment. 16.4.2009 11.20 p.m. After last note on my diary, the main difference for earlier torture experiments, are short unconsciousness moments, "fast sleeps". They have clearly increased from earlier months. They do something for me, while I am unconscious. Often the whole body is shaking when I wake up on this sleep. Other differences are short electric shocks on somewhere exact are on head. I call them stabbings. Increased pains on the right eye started about on twentieth February. They start usually about two or three a.m. and last until seven or nine a.m. On 22. February 10.53 p.m. I have a note that they tried several times to get me unconscious. It feels like a small electric shock when they do not succeed. I f they succeed the victim goes to sleep. Next day on 23. February, there was a pain exactly center of the head, between left and right side of the skull. Later on 6.47 p.m. the pain moved on left side on the center of the head. During night they awakened me about two a.m. and kept me awake rest of the night. Next day on 24 February, I was very sleepy, and made a lot of mistakes on my job. I have a note on first of March. “High pitch voice to the right ear on ten a.m. to one p.m. they try to get me unconscious "fast sleep”, this continues also on two p.m.” Second of March 4.24 p.m. I got a kind of different type short electric shocks, that later became familiar. I started call shocks stabbing. Half an hour later 5 p.m. there was a pain on the right side of front head, which later moved on left side of the front head. On fourth of March 4.24 p.m. They started pain on the right eye, and actually front, right side of skull on whole. The difference was that the pain was magnitude stronger than before (and lasted much longer than pain on the right eye, that I faced after this pain). This pain stopped after ten p.m. On fifth march at four p.m. there were occasional pains on right side back of the head. 5.57 p.m. whistling sound started. Volume depends heavily where my head is turned. The highest volume is when my left ear is towards the Aura River. After that , seven, eight and night of March there were mostly dry mouth on wakeup, and pain on the right eye that usually ended soon after wakeup. On tenth march they ended my sleep before four a.m. by "stabbing" electric shocks on left side front of the head. The next night was even worst; I just slept three hours or so. They did take advantage of my tired condition. Stabbing "electric shocks on the right temple. The perpetrators have other name of the shocks I call stabbing - they spoke it as sticking with hairpin. 10.30 p.m. there were very long lasting "sticks under nails torture" it continued about half an hour. On 12. Of March I got even five hours sleep, but the torture on the right eye, was rather heavy, on wakeup. The next morning on 13 of March was similar. On evening 6.12 p.m. There was basically stick under nails torture, but the difference was that it was magnified about ten times stronger than usually. So it felt like high electric rods were put on my left forefinger. This continued 7.22 p.m. After that, on next morning at wakeup, there were magnified pains on the right eye. They suggested that I put icepack on the eye, because it would otherwise show outside. I did not put icepack. The pain went off after nine a.m. Fifteen of March there were pain on the right eye, which started before five a.m. and ended about eleven a.m. On the wakeup there was a dry mouth. On the evening 6.05 p.m. there was stabbing type pain left side of the front head. 16 March 10.14 a.m. there was pain on left side back of the head. 17 March Torture on right temple around the eye started 5.30 a.m. and ended about seven a.m. 18 of March dry mouth on wakeup sticks under nails torture about hour later. 21 March Sticks under nails torture started midnight and continued about ten minutes. 24 March. They put me fast sleep after ten p.m. I woke up on front of television set about three a.m. Feeling was like I had ants on my head. and I was not able to sleep at all. I got some sleep however, after I got my protection clothes over me, and put a steel ball on my left ear. I have talked with other victims of this steel ball on ear protection method. They have not found any help for it. For me it is really big help, a kind of last trick to get sleep. The ball is actually from GEOMAG children magnetic construction kit. The same kit has magnetic rods, which are great help to get ball out of ear-channel in the morning. 25 of March There was another stabbing type pain left side front head at. 6.11 p.m. 26 of March Pain on the right eye started before eleven a.m. and continued long for the after noon. 28 march several fast sleeps example 6.45 p.m. On awake, the neck feels different, which means they have "shoot" on the neck while I was unconscious.

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First April there was pain on the right eye on wakeup Next day, second of April, the pain on the right eye started about seven p.m. and continued after eleven p.m. The pain on the right eye continued a whole week. On next week Monday I had a regular checkup on my employer doctor. I had complained about short unconscious moments and he had a theory that I have obstructive sleep apnea syndrome. I had a breathing test, and pulse oximeter test on two nights. Pulse oximeter is a smart small device that measures indirectly blood oxygen saturation level, from finger by the color of the lighted finger. On first night of test, the perpetrators did not let me sleep, more than two hours or so. Second night I slept more, but the device, went off from my finger sometime on night. I try to avoid unnecessary tests, because the less medical information my perpetrators get on my physical condition, the less they can measure what changes they have get done for me, with their torture. On April the “Sticks under nails torture” was going more and more frequent and severe. Example seventh of April two notes 4.41 p.m. 5.55 p.m. and next morning 5.45 a.m. This continued eight and night of April with usual pain on the right eye usually morning, or night after two a.m. On tenth of April, I invented a trick that gets most of the pain out of “sticks under nails torture”. It is so simple; I wonder why I have not found it before. If I rub the sore finger something – that moves off the most of the pain. It is very important that one does this rubbing nail side on the material side. Most of the pain transforms a kind of feeling of heat. My theory for this cure of pain is that mechanical vibration of fingernail causes errors on receiving of their electromagnetic torture signal. This means that there is some kind of micro miniature “bug” on the nail. After my invention, they did try “sticks under nails torture” very frequently on many different forms. Now they have not done it, for some days. Instead they do all the other forms of torture, more aggressively. On night between eleventh and twelve of April, I went sauna, and they put me “fast sleep” there for a while. After sauna while on resting on the chair, they put me another fast sleep for some hours. On five a.m. I awaked, and I was so sleepy, that only with very hard effort I was able to go my bed, and put my protection on before I went to sleep. I slept longer than usually, about seven hours. After wakeup my head felt odd on couple of hours. It was not actually headache, but more like feeling being too long time on direct sunlight. On 13. of April night was usual pain on the right temple and right eye. Actually the center of the pain was about five centimeters up on the right eye. The pain vanished before noon. I have got my hands on the “See snake” micro camera. It is actually made for investigation of water pipes, but because it is so small that it fits into my ear channel, I did study my both ears with it. I did not find any implants. Instead I found that my left ear differs from the right one. This is a picture of my left ear- channel. And this is picture of my right ear-channel

17 February 2009 11.55 p.m. This look like a kind of waiting period now. They are planning something, and not do anything very special with me. I can only wait , and hope that things go better, and not more evi,l so I can save my life and freedom. I have slept more than earlier. There were only a handfull of severe disturbance of night sleep on that period. My first note since eleventh of January is on 15. of January at 2.24 p.m. Occasional shooting pains once a while. On next day was similar note 11.35 p.m. sudden shooting pain on the center of the head. Eighteen of January was long small pain on the right temple, that continued with some breaks whole afternoon. Actually it went heavier and focused around the right eye, and continued a whole next day. Next night was a start of the week torture; I was not able to sleep at all. After one day break, On 21. January evening 7.30 p.m. the pain on the right eye , started again., it ended on next morning on wakeup. This continued nearly every night with occasional dry mouth when wakeup, a whole January. I am pretty sure, that this eye pain is not their purpose, but rather, a side effect something they do. I have a theory that it is because I sleep on left side, they do something on right side of the brain , that is towards the earth. On night 27 of January, they disturbed my sleep by getting my getting me feeling high temperature, althought it was 18 celsius, quite cool., next day pain on the right eye started on morning. On 29 of january about 4.30 p.m. they got me trance, while I was working. I felt as sitting on the car, and I was danger to get shot, so I tried to put my head so down as possible, that nobody would find me. I wakeup reality and I found, I was on as low as possible on my chair behind my desk. I was happy I did not get caught. On 31 of January was nothing else but pain on the right eye on wakeup, that ended about hour. First February started a kind of electric shock on center of the head about 2.51 a.m. It was not very painful, or long lasting, but it was very dangerous feeling. Couple of hours later started after sauna torture, with heavy headache on front head. It continued , with some pauses on the afternoon.

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Next day , second february, again headache on forehead started afternoon 3.40 p.m. There is a week pause on notes. Nothing special happened, just usual wakeup speeches on morning and occasional pains and itching, and some minutes unconscious states on buss, or at table, and about half of the time there are some verbal manipulation. Their wakeup speeches have before been hopeful, but no there is some new kind rather threatening manipulation also. In one morning about two weeks ago they example told me, that I will die for lax of oxygen, in one of those "short sleeps". The brains simply do not remember to give lungs order to breathe. According them this happen nearly everyone, who has manipulated long. On eight February morning, they caused a pain on right ear, to get my earphone, off from ear. I did take them off for a while, but put back when pain vanished. The ear was not sore anymore. but they caused a heavy headache on front head, like after sauna torture. On twelve February 4.03 p.m. is a note: Pains left side of back of the head. Next note is on 15 February 9.28 p.m. Pain on the right eye, for a long time again. I have added a new entry, on my human experiments pages. . Porton Down has British Army Chemical research and experiment Center, where Army has conducted years of illegal and partly lethal human experiments with British Soldiers. On diary entry on 30 June, I told a kind litmus test, that a show, if country is the real democracy or just totalitarian country with appearancce of democracy. On real democracy police and army is equal for other people in legal system. Fake democracy, although police and army personnel have egual rights on theory , the laws are not implemented equal way in legal machinery. So as Porton Down example, army personnel are not prosecuted for human experiments. On army experiments the victims range for other soldiers to civilian population. I used on my examples on bacteriological tests. Similarly police is not prosecuted murders and other crimes, they commit on their duty. This has gone into language, which has got some Orwellian expression where crimes that police commit are represented by media as "wrongdoings" where as ordinary citizens crimes are called with crime real name - murder arsen or whatever they are. The United Kingdom failed that democracy litmus test. Senior Crown Prosecutor Kate Leonard has refused to charge any of Porton Down scientists on criminal experiments, that have caused several servicemen life.. If one thinks that Porton Down case is not typical, where people are not equal before the law., he would example study Jean Menezes case , where London Metro police was not executed unarmed Jean_Charles_de_Menezes) . Actually one would simply find all the cases, where police or army has committed crimes, and after careful study, find if they are equal of civilian people under the law. Behind the Police and army are hiding the political decision makers responsible of inequality Minister of Defense, Minister of Interior affairs etc. Very seldom any of them were put on any political responsibility, the crimes -the organizations they are leading - are doing. While I was searching information about Porton Down experiments, I bumped a mystery case of forty death biological war experts. The whole case somehow reminds me Agatha Christie novel And Then There Were None . On alternative history pages I wrote what I think is behind these odd mystery deaths. I am very tired , If I do not put this out, they are torturing me whole night to keep me tired, so that their is easier to manipulate me to make mistakes. So I put this on the web, and check it later, after I have slept. 11. January 2009 11.55 p.m. After my last writing on ninth December, the next note on my notebook was on eleventh December, 5.35 p.m. pain on left side back of the head. After this the next note is on thirteenth December 3.59 a.m., but it actually talks what happen night before on twelfth December night: They disturbed my sleep that night, I had to put the steel ball on my left ear channel. I got pain on my right eye too. Also as an odd effect, I got something like heavy electric guitar music on my right ear. I am not sure how many hours I slept on this night, anyway on the next evening I was so tired I slept on my chair, and broke my coffee mug, that slept on my hands. On this night I woke three a.m. with pain on the right eye. Next week on 15 December Monday night they put up their usual start of the week torture, that purpose is get me tired condition on whole workweek, when I am not able to sleep my tiredness off. They used high pitch voice, and I had to put steel ball on my left ear. I slept hour or two. Next night was usual fight for sleeping. The interrupted twice my sleep, and forced wakeup four a.m. I put steel ball on my ear, but they have managed it sore. On the Afternoon 5.15 p.m. I got a sudden heavy shooting pain on the right temple of my head. The next note is on twentieth of December. On nineteenth December was mild nausea and sleepiness whole day On twentieth December morning there was a mild pain on the right temple of the head, which turned heavier around the noon, when it ended. 21 of December was usual start of the week torture, with sore ear, and backache and mild nausea. This continued next night I did not sleep at all. The next night was pain on the right eye whole night, but I was so sleepy, I got some sleep. The pain ended after wakeup seven a.m. The Christmas was a kind of peaceful, maybe they were also on holidays, but on 26th of December they kept me awake

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until four a.m. They caused dry mouth on sleeping on 25 and 26 night - for some time three four hours - but not the whole night. That continued nearly every night example on 28 December, when there were also small headache on front head. 29 December night there was a fight about sleeping, and dry mouth on morning some hours. The Year 2009 Started pain around the right eye on evening on first of January. It lasted two hours, and ended about 10.20 p.m. On night they suggested that I do not close my doors, in case of emergency, if ambulance has to go in. The Next day 9.30 p.m they caused a kind of heart attack 9.30 p.m. The actual attack was not very painful, but my chest was sore, when coughing, or taking something from floor etc. The pain went slowly away and after two days I did not feel any special. I did take my blood pressure, it was normal 81/126, but my pulse did not go under 80 even on rest. The later talks, they used their experiment term”stopping the heart”, and said; they have done it to me several times before, when I was young. On third day of January, in the morning I was so sleepy, I went to sleep without my usual emf-protection. I slept about five hours, on wakeup there was heavy headache on front head on afternoon, similar like after sauna torture, except it was before I had went to sauna. The headache ended seven p.m. Fifth January was usual start of the week torture, except it continued last night. Next night I have note at 2.11 a.m. and I have not sleep at all, they have even thread to force me out of house, similarly, they did Edmonton about 30 years ago. In the morning, when I had not taken the steel ball out of the head , and I manipulated head way they did not like, and behave some other ways uncomfortable for them. - their tension came a kind of hot. I heard - true or not - that they are in residence which owners have diplomatic statue, so no danger of police interference, although they themselves do not have diplomatic statue. The perpetrators speak fluent Finnish, so I believe they are Finnish origin. They spoke a lot more, example that I have a dehydration problem ,on my body. I did not wake up to drink water, after their explanation, because I do not want them to be able to make me do something, by providing (false) information about how things are. On eight January they put me unconscious, while watching television around ten p.m. I got awake on chair after midnight, and they keep me awake until about five a.m. I got two hours sleep, and went late to my work. The rest of the week, they kept me sleepy, while I should stay awake and other way around. They also cut my thinking very often, when I planned something against them. How it actually happen, is that , when I am thinking something they feel dangerous, they would example say ”you are flying too high” , and if I stop, or argue with them am I ”flying” too high or low , my memory is emptied from what I was planning or thinking. So they have a way to empty short term memory, if they get my attention somewhere else, for a second or two. If nothing surprising does not happen, the time of President Bush leadership of United States is ending. On these years while he was the President of United States the average household income has decreased amount of 1273 United States dollars by this source. This is not all. On the start of his first presidency the exchange value of European common currency Euro was 70 cent against United States dollar. On the end of President Bush presidency it is other way around –The worth of one United States dollar is 70 cents against Euro, . That also shows the weakness of U.S. Economy. On the time of Bush Presidency the definition of many words have changed “enemy soldier”, and torture for example. Now the Attorney General cannot say is the water boarding torture, actually a torture or not. This is a failure of United States legal system, similarly as inaccuracies of election voting system, which perhaps made George Bush, nomination possible on first place. In Finland we have saying “If the head is dummy, the whole body will suffer”. Similarly I would say, if the head of the nation is a dummy, the whole nation will suffer. I wish better heads for the heads of the nations on future.

9.12.2008 2.38.a.m. After 26 of October the week started with “start of the week torture”. I estimated that on Monday, I slept three hours. On Tuesday they woke me up on three a.m. I slept under four hours also this day, and about same amount on Wednesday, when they woke me up around three- four a.m. On the rest of that week I slept a bit better, but there was pain on the right eye. Example on Thursday pain started after seven a.m., and continued several hours. On November, the first heavier torture occurred Thursday on sixth November around one a.m. They started again torture with high pitch female voices. This time the voice was barely heard, but I felt the high volume of the voice. I put the steel ball on the ear-channel, but they continued. So I pushed the ball on deeper on the ear channel. After that, they purposely lowered the volume. I usually take the ball out on the morning, with magnetic rod. The perpetrators say that they do not like the ball, because it widens the ear channel. I have a theory that they do not like the steel ball, because, when I take it out of ear, it works like a vacuum pump, and could move the possible implant on channel, between eyes and the nose. As a detail, usually they wipe out, from memory, the word that the high pitch voice repeated hundreds of time, so I could not remember it on the morning. They are pretty good , for erasing singular words from memory , or suspending recalling it, but for a larger portions of matter, it does not work that well. If they want to erase a larger portion than one word, they use different technique. They make twenty or so different stories of case, and the idea is that the victim does not find the real story, from twenty fictional stories. On my experience, this technique does not work as well, as erasing single words. Some kind of disturbing sleep they do nearly every night. On eleventh of November, I have a note, that they caused me a

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dry mouth. On Thursday 13 November I was able to sleep about two hour, under hour pieces. Along other techniques,they used high pitch voice,” sticks under nails torture”, backache, and as a new form of torture, itching on the toys. Saturday 15th. of November there was pain on the right temple of the head, starting 9.30 p.m. usually this is a kind of pain, they cause in the morning. The pain moved on the right eye and continued until next day noon. There was a dry mouth on wakeup also. The next week I had a very little sleep. On seventeenth night, they had start of the week torture and they used a high pitch voice again. I slept about two hours. The next day was similar, except there were also heavy shooting pains, on the right eye. However I was so tired, I slept about four hours. Again they erased the words they repeated with high pitch voice during the night. Same happened Wednesday, they started "hope talk" about three a.m. where they explained, how everything will became better, after this night, torture will end, and I get a lots of money as compensation. Fortunately I made a note of word, they repeated hundreds of time before that . It was “satavuotias” (hundred year old) I got about three hours sleep. Nothing that they promised their “hopetalk” did not; of course happen. The torture changed pain on the right eye type, that started on night before I went to sleep. This rather heavy torture continued, every day with some breaks. Monday on 24 of November they started with start of the week torture also. Even on day, when I was working they caused on heavy pains on the right temple while I was on meeting on my job. My facial expression must have changed. They also caused me to disturb others speech, with caught they caused. This is a trick they did very often for my embarrassments, some years ago. Torture on the right eye stopped for a longer time after Sunday 30th of November for a while. Instead there were severe shooting pains on left side front of the head 8.40 p.m. This caused pains on several hours after it, when coughing, so they must have caused at least temporary damage. On Monday first of December, there was a headache on the front head, like “after sauna torture,” but perhaps milder. Wednesday and Thursday was a dry mouth on wakeup. Now they have started again the pain on the right eye. As contrast of earlier, the pain starts now afternoon, or evening, and stays in more time as before. Yesterday night they keep pain on the right eye whole night, combined with some of the time backache etc. I slept under two hours - so it was more severe than usually “start of the week torture”. About mass-murders, and other crimes of Indians in Residential schools I wrote on 30 June - I was skeptical about truth Commission ability to find out truth what has happened , because with the 60 million dollars funding comes also the control from Canadian Government. Now the chief of Commission Indian origin Judge Harry LaForme has resigned, over dispute between him and other members of Commission, so there is reason to believe the work of the commission, will not be as good as it could be. I have got as a feedback, opinion that native deaths of tuberculosis and smallpox on residential schools were natural deaths, and not intentionally caused on purpose to decrease Canadian native population. I have put Alternative history section a document which shows that as early as 1760 British authorities started killing native with smallpox infected clothes. Also on 20th century was well known how these diseases spread, but still healthy children were put to sleep same room with smallpox and tuberculosis patients on native children residencial schools. The vaccine against smallpox was developed around 1800, why every student on these schools was not vaccined against smallpox disease? Finally as comparison ,the Death rate of very brutal Japan prison camps was about 29%, but the death rate on Canadian residential schools were nearly twice higher than that - and these were schools of children and not concentration camps. There were disputes between members of Canadian Parliament also. Not about mass murders or pedophilia on native on residential schools, or not ongoing brutal Canadian mind-control experiments - but for economical situation, and money. In fact the Prime Minister Harper has closed down the whole House of Commons, because of disputes. This has happened with the aid of Governor-General, who apparently gets his powers from Queen of England. Apparently his legislative powers come from ancient times when Queen of England really ruled Canada. I am interested, how long the Governor-General can legally keep the doors of the House of Commons closed, with his legal powers. Month? three months ?, or forever, if necessary ? 26.10. 2008 11.37 p.m. On ninth of September night, there was a start of the week torture. They woke me up at one a.m. and kept me awake until about three, or four a.m. So my sleep was very short, when I went to work. Only good thing was that there was no pain on the right eye as usually. Very much same happened in next night, only difference that I was so sleepy that they woke me up two a.m. and after seven a.m. started pain on the right temple, that went after noon, before ended. The next night they put me unconscious on evening, so I slept without protection of my head. I woke up about four thirty, and head was like I had not slept at all. Friday on twelve September was pain on the center of the head. On Saturday night, they made me unconscious, so I slept four hours without protection. After I slept six hours with protection, and my head felt about normal, except that they cause similar headache on the forehead, as in "after sauna torture" but perhaps not so heavy as usual. Thursday, 18th. September, there was torture on the right temple of the head on the morning. On the mirror I found that the facial expression on left and right sides have become different. Is it purpose of their torture of the right temple, or just side effect, I do not know. Torture on the right eye, was also on Saturday, after wakeup, and it continued near noon.

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Monday on 21 of September was stick under nails torture 11.26 p.m. As I have found before, sticks under nails torture occurs always on the left forefinger, so I have something special there.On the same week Wednesday they put me unconscious 5.30 p.m. After I woke up I fled fuzzy feeling that some way originated on neck. 27 of September about ten p.m. again sticks under nails torture. On Night or early morning, they closed my nostrils, apparently because it caused errors on their measurement. I put steel ball on the ear-channel, and I got the nostrils open again. I do not know if ball caused it, or did they open it with purpose. Next day, after noon there was torture on the right temple of head that later on became torture on the right eye. On night they kind of broke my left ear with high pitch female voices. The voices repeated meaningless words again and again. On this time words were "Helsingin Sanomat" (the name of Finnish newspaper) and later "sanomalehtikone". I feel that with words feedback on brain, they can measure somehow, how the signal perpetrate on the brains, I have no other meaning, why they use words, and not only sound. I tried to protect my ears, on steel ball, but they got my left ear allergic sensitive for high pitch voice, they use. They speak this type of torture as ”making poor knights" (a Finnish dish). On Tuesday night about three a.m. they woke me up, and started to torture with this high pitch female voice. Same time pain on the right eye, and closed nostrils. I put a steel ball on my left ear-channel, and got sleep, some hours more. The pain on the right eye, ended sometimes after shower. Thursday night on ninth of October. I got a heavy fewer. I was extremely tired, no appetite and room felt cold; even there was 23 Celsius temperature. I thought first it was ordinary flu, but because the fewer went out on day, and there was no caught, it must be something else. Before that day, they threatened me about coming kidney experiments, but this was not like kidney experiment. I did not have any oddness of urination etc. Instead my lungs were sore for couple of days after, so it was rather a lung experiment, or it has a normal cause, of something I cannot pinpoint. . After that there was mostly fast sleeps when I go unconscious suddenly, and wakeup ofter some hours. and of course, pain on the right eye. Example, sunday 19th. October pain started about noon and continued whole day and night until next morning.

Accidentally I met a Dutch victim of mind control (picture below) in my hometown Turku. He is traveling by bicycle around Europe, and distributing a flyer, that tells his sad story as a victim of mind control, and some other facts of mind control. Seeing him reminded me how I started to come public in Edmonton, Alberta. After I realized that I newspapers were not interested my story, I started to make flyers , very similar that he did., except that I did not have that much sources on my hand this time, so I had much more trouble to get myself reliable. I suggested in my flyer that the reader , continue the paper ahead, so I could get base of interested people wide enough that it would force police political decision makers for investigations. This was a miscalculation.I hoped that one flyer would get ten or more people. Actually I guess one flyer went two or three people. If the flyer went to person, who did not believe - or simply did not like what I told - he put simply the flyer in the trash. There were also another reason , why I did not get my message through. It was language errors. English is not my native language , and for some odd logic Canadian people thought , that because I make errors in my writing , also my message is not reliable. Some people called the police, that simply said that whole thing is not worth investigating, and suggested to destroy the flyer. When I realized the credibility gap, on my communication, I hired a professional journalist to make a flyer. It was a kind of good move. He helped a lot of me with all his practical know how. , He knew how to make layout, and arrange an affordable printing house, and that helped me a lot. That way we made booklet "my life depends on you". I made distribution with this booklet around Ottawa City, and Edmonton with post-office service, about 5000 pieces, and all the members of parliament. For safety, I went to Finland at the time of the actual distribution of letter.. Later on from Finland, I manually send the booklet all the addresses I found from The Canadian Who is Who book. As a result, M.P: Bill Domm made question of Solicitor General Robert Kaplan, but I did not get investigation I hoped. If I had succeeded this Dutchman below maybe would have lived normal live, same as thousand or more other victims. But because I did not succeed he like I, and the thousand other victims of electrical mind control, has to run away torture and continuous experiments. My sorrow does not help, that Eleanor White, and tens of other activist victims, have not yet succeeded either. We did, and will do our best, what our tortured and manipulated minds can do. The ball is on everybody, who understands the importance of question. How to make inquiry that reveals classified files of Army and secret services that covers up these crimes. According the Dutchman I met and surveillanceissues.com , Autralian source, the electronic mind-control equipment have spread from Army and intelligence organizations into organized crimeorganizations, that do not torture and commit other crimes, with these equipment for research, or political purpose like Army and Intelligence organisations do - but torture and manipulate people simply to make money, with new techniques, that these equipments make possible. James Henry Graf has made a good collection of complaints letters that he and other victims have made to different civil servants etc., responsible for law and order

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8.9.2008 1.00 a.m. On August I have my first note on August four. There was dry mouth on awakening, about three a.m. After they tortured with restless legs torture and verbal manipulation , so I did not get sleep, that night. Next day on afternoon 4.35 p.m. There was torture on the center of the head that moved after six o clock, to torture on the left side of the forehead. The three hours - four hours a night sleep continued every day, until sixth August. There was also dry mouth nearly every night. On sixth day 1.40 p.m. started torture on the right temple of the head. This continued on next days. Torture usually started on wakeup, or night, and for worst, like ninth day of august, it continued a long on the afternoon. On Sunday, they started a kind of mild -After sauna torture, with pain on the forehead and general nausea.., that continued on the until the evening.. Next day w torture was on the left temple of the head. On thirteenth of August the torture changed back on the right eye. The sixteenth day evening there was kind of thread, to shoot with”real bullets", and "smoke sauna”. On morning of 17.th of August, was perhaps worst torture on this year. It started with "smoke sauna" I got difficulties to get air on my lungs. Fortunately I had a electric fan on my bedside. After putting it near my head, I was able to breath. The torture continued with general heavy headache on forehead, so it was typical heavy after Sauna torture, with a heavy headache, but the feeling of suffocation was new. I was not able to get up from bed, until near noon, I went out and they put me fast sleep, on chair some hours. After this, there were some days with lighter torture. Perhaps there is some kind of point system, they cause certain amount of damage on certain time. The point system could exist, on their organization, or just on perpetrators on mind. However on night of 24 August, just before midnight , there was a kind of pain on the left eye, like somebody has hit it, and later, they tried to torture with high female tones. I was able to stop it with mechanical manipulation of head, and with a small steel ball on ear-channel, that somehow is working with just with high tones. On 27 of August, The pain on the right eye started before five a.m. and continued noon. Same day afternoon, starting at 2.42 p.m. they caused headache on the forehead, making my work and thinking impossible. On the last day of August , there were ordinary after Sauna torture in the morning, meaning heavy headache on front of the head. Because the perpetrators spoke on Saturday “smoke sauna” , I guess they do it simply by cutting the blood flow on fronthead, so that my brain, does not get enough oxygen. This is just my guess, I am not sure. Also, I do not know why they do it. They cannot research, what damage a lack of oxygen causes on brains, for very many times. This time pain continued until two p.m. Similar mystery is the pain on the right eye or right temple of the head, that they do nearly every morning, on wakeup, like example the first day of September. If there are mornings with no pain, then comes morning that pain continues abnormally long. This was example the Thursday fourth of September, when pain continued past of ten a.m. On general last month, they have mostly try, to stop all my activity, not so much by force, but keeping me extremely tired and passive. On their verbal manipulation, their message in many variations was, that everything is going to go well, you do not have to do anything.

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30. July 2008 1.10 a.m. The July started with pain on the right eye, on night and all morning. It continued on pain both sides of the head on afternoon. There were also sticks under nails torture example 1.53 p.m. I am now convinced that the pain on this form of torture is always in left forefinger, so there could be something special, on there. The forefinger is transparent under a good light source. I did not found any easily found foreign object there. My work started again on July fourth. They started to manipulate my sleep on same time, because on I could not just sleep, until I feel no more sleepy, like I do on vacation. On eight July, they woke me up about four a.m. Next evening about 10 p.m. they put me on fast sleep. After I got awake, my whole body was shaking, and the feeling was like after a car accident. Also torture on the right eye started,.Pain that started on morning on tenth July, also continued on noon. The pain on the eye, was not every day, but if there is a long pause, they do it very long time On 14.th July, they send me, a kind of telepathic picture. It was scaring, not any words, and no real picture, just idea, wheeling. Later on they send me wheeling I was on the boat that was moving along the sea. Although there was feeling of sway, it was somehow less awesome, than the first one. On 15th. of July they woke me up at 1.30 a.m. I got after sleep, one hour or two. Heavy torture on the right eye started. This continued with some pauses, until eighteen of July evening. On 19th. July night about ten p.m. they started a shooting pain on left temple of the head. On night there was torture on the right eye, but after wake-up on 20th. July, a kind of drilling-pain continued on one spot, being very heavy about three p.m. 21 July they kept me awake until about one a.m., and woke me up about four a.m. So I would have got three hours sleep, if I had not gone to sleep, so that I was late for work. Night after ten, they put me "fast sleep" on chair. On sleep they did verbal manipulation, I cannot remember, after awake. On Thursday 24 nights I got odd incident. It happened after one a.m. The person who was doing the verbal manipulation, mainly try to not let me sleep, answered phone. Like is custom in Finland he said his name. It was a Finnish name, Olli Laine. I do not know anybody of this name. Of course is possibly, that it was a phony incident, made up just to amuse perpetrators - but the other possibility, is that Olli Laine, - whoever Olli Laine is -forgot the situation and answered the phone. This kind of things happen very seldom, the last very similar, happened about ten years ago. 28 of July evening after 9 p.m. They put me unconscious until midnight. I was part of the time half conscious, but unable to-do anything. I want to come back for my last notes on 30 June concerning Canadian Genocide. The Prime Minister Harper has publicly apologized the abuse of children what has happened in residential schools. I have got information that his apology was a kind of substitute of compensation, and there is no prosecution of guilty, or any further legal actions. This would means that Sarah Modeste, who sterilized without her consent by Doctor Goodbrand, will not get any compensation, but instead she gets Prime Minister Harper's general apology. Similarly doctor Goodbrand does not get punishment, and can continue his practice as a medical doctor. This same happen with other crimes. Instead of justice, the natives got Prime Minister Harper's formal apology. Pretty cheap for Canada, I would say, if this information is true. I know Canada has done similar cheap solutions of state organized crimes also before. After crime there are about thirty or fifty years silence of crimes and after would some cases come the formal apology, and some money, for those who still happen to be alive. Example was Japanese origin people inprisonment on concentration camps during the second world war , where most of the victims get nothing for loss of property, and many years stay in Canadian concentration camps, that Canadians prefer to call relocation centers. The victims got Prime Minister Mulroney formal apology for 1988, when most of them, were safely buried on grave. The Japan Origin Canadian Citizens were robbed for their property, and put concentration camps, and they never got justice - they got only Prime Minister Mulroney's apology. There is a similar template is Crimes against native people, although I feel that the apology came before it was planned, if any apology was planned at all. If Canada use similar template with it criminal electronic mind control research, perhaps victims of mind control research will get Prime minister formal apology about year 2050 or so, when everybody knows there are electronic mind control devices, and Canadian Government participation in these brutal human experiments, is commonly known. 30. June 2008 11.55 p.m. On last days of May, they kept me very tired. Most of the days, I slept under five hours. Only think worth of mentioning of these days, happened on 26th. May before 5.53 p.m. They caused me a kind of trance with odd buzzing sound. The same - not enough sleep -continued about first half of June, but this time I started to feel pain on the right temple of the head, and less frequently pain also on the left temple of the head. There were pretty often also "fast sleep", - a kind of trance - expecially on my favorite chair where I used watch television. I found the "fast sleep" is dangerous; I trembled a minute or so after wake up this trance. They can someway stop brain activity, but for stopping the head must stay in same position, this is why trance. Effect is very similar than after their "movie”, if victim is able to move his head, the effect has gone, and there is just tremble on the body. The short sleep ended couple days before I started my vacation. On the vacation there were pretty often these "fast sleeps”. There were itching here and there on the head. By

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mechanical manipulation I found that the actual sore points are now on front of temple of the head. The right one is sorer, than the left one. I guess there is a vein that they are somehow able to manipulate. The verbal manipulation has gone maybe more tense, they are now delivering false "news" how my case is going ahead. They like to bargain "compensation”, how much money I will get for torture, after the experiments are revealed.. I speak rather their punishment, how many years they will get jail, when all their crimes are revealed, and for this,they do not like to speak that at all. The verbal manipulation is important weapon. For victim, it is very difficult to keep objective view for reality, when "voices" are speaking something else 18 hours for day. They can also measure the feedback (what the victim thinks their opinions and false "news" they manipulate ), and adjust their speech according it. On 24 of June, they kept me awake. The next night I slept well, but on the morning there was headache, and the other side of head felt different than the other. This time I was also able to pinpoint the actual sore points on right- and less sore on left temple of the head. After this there are frequent itching on the head, sore points stay, and there is pretty heavy verbal manipulation, and some "fast sleeps" on outside on yard. There is no that much trembling after awakening outside. I have theory that it is because, the place is not always same, and they cannot do their "shooting" - as they call it - that accurately. With radio waves, the exact place of victim should not be that important, but for some reason in this case, it is. After mechanical massaging of the head, the white noise raises for some minutes, but also other times, there are very often some tinning sounds on my ears. Sometime middle of May I found a little newspaper article, that Canadian Government has created a special truth commission type commission to investigate wrongdoing on "native residential schools". The results of my short internet investigation were shocking, and the truth was not presented in mainstream media, so I made a collection of, what I felt key stories on my Alternative history collection. On history, the residential schools were tools, to keep native population small, despite that native people used have more children, than white people. The smallpox and tuberculosis children were not isolated from healthy children, and schools were kind of centers , where deadly diseases were spread to Indian people. Native people were not fully isolated from white people, so apparently these diseases found ways on the white population also. About half of native children did not return from their isolated residential schools alive.Later, after second world war ,when Adolph Hitler program of termination of the Jews came known, the program of extermination of natives changed rather assimilation type of social engineering program, where natives were raised up to learn think as "Canadian" . The forced sterilizations were still left on old extermination program, and native children were used on involuntary human experiments. The torture was widely use on residential schools to brainwash students to obey and think "right way”, at least one school had own "electric chair"(3) to torture students with electric shocks. The students were also used to give sexual pleasure to schools staff. It was more rule than exception that some of female students were raped by male staff , and surprisingly in catholic schools Nuns molested young male students. The staff of the schools killed students for numerous reasons. Usually their bodies were buried somewhere in the school area. Now some of these mass-graves are found. The government commission that cabinet created to study these crimes has 5 years time to complete their investigation, and their budged is 60 million dollars. I am a bit skeptical for these kinds of one commission investigations, that are so expensive that the matter cannot simply for economical reasons study other time.. I would have prefer example three 20 million dollars investigation, where the investigators are chosen way that most of the individual members careers, are not any way depended for Canadian government. They would be scientist from India, Japan, or China for example. Why it did take so long, to find out what is happening? Why did not Canadian Parliament acted before? I feel that the members of parliament have a kind of, hard of hearing problem. They have selective hearing , the voices of native people and immigrants like I and other minorities, are hardly heard. Parliament did not found these crimes before -Kevin Annett, and others work - it was made them impossible to avoid the discovery these crimes. Our group of victims of electrical mind control experiments is difficult to get same power, that much larger native peple population has, and members of parliament know it. Crimes against us, are in worst case kept secret, until all of the victims of crimes -and criminals also - are death. Why not police investigated crimes against native children, but actually did go to the side of pedophiles, and killers and did much work to cover up their crimes ? Horrors of native children schools continued nearly century, before it was uncovered. There is another case that explains the role of the police in the Canadian society. Similar child sexual abuse happened in Mount Cashel Orphanage. Also there was police cover-up of crimes, and without Constable Art Pike personal bravery, the sexual abuse of children, would perhaps exist there on today. Similarly as other less democratic states Canada has "political police" . It is usually RCMP, but also provincial police takes sometimes political role as in Mound Cashel Orphanage case. There are some crimes that police investigates, and then there are crimes that police do not investigate and take very active role , to stop anybody investigation of these crimes, like RCMP attempt to stop Kevin Annett research work prove. Sometimes police also commit crimes himself, example to stop political organizations the leading party do not like. Without RCMP continuous cover up for decades the Native genocide would not have been possible. RCMP is perhaps giving up, for native residential schools horror case, but they are tightly covering up example electronic mind control case, and apparently also many other similar cases of cover up, involving other serious crimes. There is a kind of litmus test concerning police, that shows if country is a democracy, and has working legal system . 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started. In the investigation the each individual are asked why he committed crime, did somebody order him to cover up the crime, who else in police co-operated with him etc . Later all the guilty of crimes, are sentenced according their crimes like other criminals in country. On totalitarian country with non working legal system where citizen are not equal, everything is different. If somehow gone public, that police has committed crimes, or covered up crimes, the victim of the crime is in some cases offered some compensation, but the criminals in the police, will continue their work. Soviet union KGB-police or SS-men in Nazi Germany were seldom sentenced their crimes, before the collapse of their government. I did not find any news how policemen that covered up pedophile crimes in Mount Cashel Orphanage center was sentenced. Similarly I did not find news how FBI-policemen that sabotaged Martin Luther King work was sentenced. I have found yet ,no news that policemen that covered up rapes and other staff crimes in native residential schools are sentenced. There are many other similar cases, I have not mentioned. Similarly as Army officers are not sentenced for human experiments they did for civilian people, members of police are not sentenced for their cover- up of crimes, of the political system. This is just one reason why I put word ”democracy" in case of Canada between quotation marks. Noam Chomsky has suggested the Nobel Prize for Kevin Annett, for his lifetime-work to get these crimes against native people publicly recognized. I support the idea. Not only because Kevin Annett deserves the prize, but also,Nobel prize helps to get international recognition of human rights violations, that did take place in Canadian Residential schools . Like United States, Canada has succeeded to make image - a kind of false front - of peaceful democratic country, where races live with equal rights. Without this imago-building these crimes against native people could had not kept secret and continued so many years. If Canadian, and international community knows what has happened, behind this advertising professional created, democratic image, it helps to build truly democratic Canada where people really live peacefully together, with equal rights. I know that there were forced sterilizations of native, also on United States . I know there were also similar residential schools to teach native, they were just called boarding schools, but what happened there, is unclear. Were there also spreading tuberculosis, and pedophilia, and murders ? Somebody should study this.

19. May 2008 11.55 p.m. On 17.th April, I have a note on my book for an exceptional long pain in the right eye. It lasted 10.10 a.m. usually it stops after morning shower or so. On the same day afternoon 5.29 p.m. there were occasional loss of consciousness, backache, and restless legs torture. Similar long torture on right eye was on 19th. April, only difference that it started three a.m. On 23rd. April they started again restrict my sleep. There was uncomfortable bed torture and I got sleep for under four hours. On the next night I have a note of dry mouth on my notebook. The dry mouth has happen more often than I have written down, because they have changed their style - they cause dry mouth for some hours while I am sleeping. I do not notice this, if I do not awake for some reason, and even if I awake I am usually too tired to make note, and in the morning I have forgot a whole thing. Between 24 April and eleventh of May, there did not happen very much. I have occasional notes pain on the right eye on four hours, pain on center of the head, fast sleep torture, and stick under nails torture. Eleventh May morning they started a new type of shooting pain on the right side of the head. It felt like after sunburn. Thirteenth May there was start of the week torture. I slept under four hours. They used uncomfortable bed torture and very heavy pain on the right eye. The whole last week they kept my sleep under five hours. There were notes on 14, 15- and 16.th of May , for torture on right eye at night and dry mouth. Also yesterday, they tied to keep my daily sleep on three hours first by uncomfortable bed torture, and later other ways. I stayed on the bed and resisted their torture with mechanical manipulation of my head. After several hours fight I got hour or two sleep 10-11 a.m. Last night I slept about four hours, they started verbal manipulation about four a.m. On the Afternoon about six p.m. they started a heavy headache on the forehead. It made thinking very difficult. However I must get the today's note out of this diary, otherwise they start delaying this publishing by torture. I will do, like I have done couple of times before - I make raw copy out first - and later when manipulation has eased - I correct the worst language errors. It is not very fruitful to think what had happen, if something has gone other way in the past. However I cannot help thinking, what would have happened, if events after my Open letter to all members of Canadian Parliament on 1981,had gone other way?

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On 1981, after my letter to all of the members of House of Commons, Conservative M.P Bill Domm asked investigation on my case for Solicitor General Robert Kaplan ,Conservative too. Robert Kaplan first promised to Investigate, but later they both backed out the case. Now over twenty years later,we have a register of over 600 victims that are taken to torture experiments, most of them after 1981. If M.P. Bill Dom had not backed out of question and Robert Kaplan had done his duty as Solicitor General, those six hundred people would - with all probability - had saved from suffering . . On this group there are some, which have deceased, for one reason or other - and all those who are still alive, have suffered a lot. So the failure of members of Canadian Parliament to investigate my claims on 1981, has caused at least couple of death, and hundreds of tortured and wounded victims for this day. I agree with Albert Einstein: aphorism:" the world is a dangerous place; not because of those who do evil, but because of the good men that do nothing". Albert Einstein did do something. He walked out for Hydrogen bomb development team when he felt that the weapon will serve better the evil than God, On Contrary the members of Canadian parliament did close eyes of the human rights crimes that civil servants under their administration were committing. Unfortunately existence of reality is not dependent, if we can see it , or not. The evil things do not go away, if we do not think them. The dangerous weapon is in the hands of ruthless people who have no dimension for ethical or moral values on their mind. The amount of victims, that were perhaps under hundred on 1981 , have grown to over thousand, while those responsible have tried to swept the woes of victims under the rug. So what if the petitions of John Finch and numerous others people to several political bodies and other decision-makers, do not cause any positive results? More people will suffer more - directly or indirectly - for damages that electronic mind manipulation will cause much sorrow for all of the society. In past the number of victims has grown about tenfold from 1980 to this day. So if it continues same pace , the number of victims is over ten thousand in 2030. This is only a very conservative estimate, if the weapons are produced for mass use , hundreds of millions would suffer the power of these weapons. Even the members of parliament would come mind controlled zombies, and their intellectual life is controlled outside of them.

14. April 2008 11.05. p.m. It is a longer time for my last note, than usually is. The perpetrators have partly succeeded to my deactivation. I have lots of things to do, but no energy to do. Writing diary is just one of the things that I have delayed from week to week. On 12 of March, they woke me up about four a.m. They somehow close my nose, so I had to breathe through the mouth. Later on they started usual pain on the right temple of the head, which soon became pain on the right eye. It lasted about three hours. Similar pains on right eye - starting usually morning, continued a whole week, and some next week. On 21. of March there was massive long pain on the right eye. It lasted over 12 hours. The pain was different type than before - and also later - pain on the right eye. It was a kind of sharper than usual. Incidentally it was Good Friday. The day ended with sticks under nails torture 10.36 p.m. The rest of Eastern was peaceful – some uncomfortable bed torture, and some mild nausea on daytime. There were also occasional pains on the right eye. Night on 25 March they woke me up about two thirty a.m. I was that tired that I went to sleep soon after their wakeup, but after second wakeup about four a.m. I was not able to get sleep. The pain on the right eye started, there were backache, and the verbal torture was very heavy. Expecially backache, or actually feeling of mild electricity on the back, keeps awake no matter how tired the person is. This was start of the week torture, and according to them, they monitor my tiredness, from blood condition someway. Apparently their monitor did not show maximum limit, so they woke me up next night about three a.m. I am not sure if I got sleep at all; when the alarm clock woke me up to work. On the weekend 29. of March, I had arranged a trip to Oulu, 800 kilometres North by plane. I was a bit worried about travel. However it went well, except an extremely strong pain on left side front of the head, before the plane hit the runway of Oulu. The pain continued about five minutes. Otherwise the verbal manipulation was very down with the entire trip, except some occasional whispering. The trouble started next Monday 31.of March. I lost my appetite, and I was extremely tired. I could not go to work, and I did not even read at the daily newspaper, I just slept a whole day. On Tuesday I went to work, but I was extremely tired, and I did not eat at all. I started to eat Wednesday, and also my feeling became more or less normal. On afterwards I have thought, that is possible, that it was a normal food poisoning, but my perpetrators, can also arrange “symptoms” that are like food poisoning, so I have not sure opinion, what it was all about. Next Sunday on sixth April, they started a full scale after Sauna torture, with massive headache in the morning. However it cut down abruptly, when my neighbour visit to me about noon. The week was pretty normal, with usual pain on the right eye in the morning, and ordinary itching and pains with verbal torture. Perhaps only thing worth of mentioning was a torture on right eye on eleventh April. It was pretty long, started about eight a.m. and lasted over half to eleven a.m.

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Yesterday was dry mouth sometimes at night, and pain on the right eye that lasted hour or two, and some sleep manipulation, and a lot of verbal torture. Last night I did not sleep at all, or if I slept it was under hour. This is start of the week torture again. They are planning to keep me sleepy a whole week. Canadian soldiers that were used as human guinea pigs for studying the nuclear radiation effect of atomic explosions - have filed class action against the Canadian government. The soldiers were transferred to nuclear testing side with ordinary field clothes and gas-masks, while the scientist wore radiation protective “space suits” to prevent any radiation damage to occur them. The national secrecy rules kept the case out of court, and out of media, until this day, when most of the victims have deceased. Jay Paxton - press secretary to Minister of Defence Peter MacKay - wrote in an e-mail. "Our goal is to find an acceptable resolution that honours those who have given so much for this country.” What Jay Paxton did not say, but what I would liked him to say, is something like that: “we will have a full criminal investigation, to find out, and prosecute those, who made the decision to put our servecemen grave danger, just for scientific interest . Those who put Canadian soldiers situation , that caused many of them death, or severe wounds. All the personnel found guilty for these crimes against humanity, will be prosecuted.” They would have used sheep’s, as test animal. They would have used pigs. If they extremely felt they must get better information, how many human would get sick from nuclear radiation, they would have used data gathered from Nagasaki and Hiroshima victims. Before to use innocent servicemen for knowingly deadly experiment, they would have used voluntary long sentence prisoners, who would have freed their sentence after test. The decision to use servicemen shows, Canadian Army do not take ethical considerations, on their decisionmaking. Only practical aspects counts. The servicemen were easy to order wherever their superiors want them. If those responsible for radiation experiments, had put jail after tests,we probably have not experienced bacterial tests for human, LSD-, and mindcontrol experiments. On the other hand , if we do not get jail now, for those criminals that are doing electrical mind-control experiments, there is no end for deadly and illegal human experiments. The failure of society to prosecute army personnel for human experiments means that there is a lack of implementation of law in case of Army human experiments. One group of people (army experimenters) can freely commit this kind of crimes, and other group of people (ordinary citizens) are outside of the protection of the law, and helpless to defend themselves against these criminals.. There are lots of unethical and illegal routines that makes these crimes possible. Example on the case of these radiation test victims, the law of National secrets, was used simply delay the lawsuits thirty years, and so prevent wounded victims to get justice. Similarly Army does not notice victim’s of being subject of their human experiment test , but to get possible compensation , the victim has to himself, one way or other find that he was mistreated for experimental purpose, and his wounds are results of this mistreatment.. The officers responsible for these kind of practices , should prosecute for defeating or obstructing the course of justice. The ultimate responsibility of Army crimes, is of course on the Minister of Defence, and all the members of parliament. Army is just a tool of nations defence policy, that works how the cabinet wants. This is how it should be, althought it is more and less a theory in some nations.

10. March 2008 11.55 pm. -On eighteen of February wakeup they made a kind of practical joke, I would rather not to tell. On the afternoon 1.44 p.m. itching on the head. -Nineteen of February 4.20 p.m. They caused uneasy feeling on body, that made my working impossible. 21. of February started dry mouth manipulation on night and fast sleep torture on day. This continued a whole week. 25 of February start of the week torture. I did not get any sleep at all. Dry mouth also at night. Next day I had a very odd bad taste on saliva moment of the wakeup. On morning, there was a headache on front of the head, and evening was usual fast sleep ,this time longer than usual - between nine and ten a.m. First of March, there was torture on the right eye. They started again , from a long time. It continued on two a.m. until wakeup to work..Next day 11.38 p.m. was heavy sudden nausea. Sixth of March 1.45 a.m. They woke me up, with sticks under nails torture. My notes do not tell, if I had e sleep this night or not. Seventh of March about three a.m. they woke me up, and told me, that they will put me "smoke Sauna" and later that they will eat smoked moose-meat. This is their typical verbal torture. Coded speech,that apparently has meaning that they will cut my air intake. When in act, verbal torture, they will monitor how I understand their cues, and if I do not understand their speech purpose – for this particular speech the meaning for these two cues, they would put out third cue, until I understand

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their coded message. This does not mean that they will necessarily shorten my breathing in future, but their real purpose probably was just get me scared, to get me awake - meaning to cut my sleeping time. They would have used restless legs torture, or sore back torture etc. but their chose for this time, was simply to scare me awake, so that they would continue talking, that only purpose is to get me moved emotionally. Another interesting thing for their speech is, that they very seldom tell anything straight meaning. I f they want to tell me that they are planning to torture me next night, they would example tell me "Next night you will dance all night, and I will give you some nice kisses for end of the night". In last month I have started to respond their "code speech" kind of half translating manner - example I responded this "smoke Sauna" talk " smoke sauna does not mean smoke sauna in your talk but it means just something else" . For some reason, they do not like this kind of response, or at least, they act, like they do not like this kind of response. Eight of March 3.12 a.m. I awakened because I got blood in my mouth. It was not dark-red old blood, but bright red blood that has just come from somewhere, while I was on asleep. About 7.10 p.m. they put me "fast sleep" . I woke up 7.20. I got some kind of dream on sleep also. This time I saw children running across the yard. Usually these "dreams" are senseless and often illogical pieces of life. Illogical for this means, that in dream, I make conclusions, that in awake are not logical. I have found a web site of incognito staying victim, of mind control, in Canada. His perpetrators are identified for him as a part of MI5, British Intelligence Organization. He has also diary type notes from earlier years. It is remarkable that he is able to keep that well made web-site, while continuously harassment. I understand people, who chose not to tell publicly, that they are victims of electrical mindcontrol. I believe nine of ten people chouse to keep silent. Neighbors and friends may not value person same way as before after his talk of mindcontrol.. Rather they would “diagnose” him as having some kind of mental disorder. However that more numerous we are public, that more difficult it is ,to label us mentally sick, and not investigate our claims. Some of the victims are around the globe, but there are a very large portion of victim's whose problems have started in Canada. s I feel we could call this syndrome as "Canadian syndrome". I really wonder why academic scientific world has not made any real investigation about it. How it starts? What symptoms? What will happen tot he victims?. Many people are eager to find some oddness of mindcontrol victim’s behavior, and interpret it negative way. But not many has not found oddness how the rest of the society treats us – media silence, police that avoid the investigations etc. Many institutions are not acting rationally for our case, but would rather go to great lengths to not touch the case. 17. February 2008 11.55 pm. End of January were very much of ordinary torture on right eye at night starting about three a.m. and ending usually hour after wake-up or so. On the daytime there were itching here, and there, and verbal manipulation, and occasional "fast sleep" going fast unconscious state. If I tried to do something they did not like, they made restless legs torture, and backache - that is new their torture repertoire. On weekend 27 of January was a bit different, they made "after sauna torture" type of headache starting about three p.m. On Tuesday night on 29th. They started start of the week type torture. The night before that, was not normal either, I got headache, similar than after sauna torture. 30th. January I have note restless legs torture and backache 3.35 p.m. 31. January 8.18 a.m. I have note ”torture on the right temple of the head". Start of the February there are no notes, but I got usual itching here and there, and verbal manipulation. I also remember that I learned to use massage of the head, which gives a partial relief for their torture. The procedure I do is simple - mechanical manipulation the area of head where I got the pain or itching. The problem with procedure is that it takes a very large portion of my conscious time, and is not 100% effective. They can put me "fast sleep" if I do not get early clue what is happening. The first note on February is seventh day 5.18 p.m. when they tried to stop my thinking and work and used backache for this purpose. I guess they were successful for that. Next night they awakened me about three am. at night, and used backache among other things to keep me awake rest of the night. On tenth February 11.20 p.m. they used temperature control to make me feel hot and sweat, although there was normal room temperature. (Actually they ended it this, ready after I made the note on my notebook). They can do it other ways too - to put me feel cold even there is a normal temperature. Next day they put me "fast sleep" while I was on lecture. Sometimes they have put me sleep also on public places, library for example. It is very difficult to try to explain a guard or other people, that I am not actually sleepy, but I am a victim of electronic mind-control and my torturers have made me unconscious with some electronic device to insult me.They can do it for couple of minutes, if I keep my head still, and I am not aware. This is just one of a type of a series of "practical jokes" they like to do. The last three days there are normal pain on the right eye between about three a.m. and 8 a.m. I usually can sleep over it. Daytime was ordinary itching here and there and verbal torture and some try to "fast sleep torture" that were sometimes successful. I found from old news that there were people found guilty of rigging 2004 election, I wrote ab out rigging of presidential elections on third July 2007. Unfortunately George Bush was elected, and bad things happened as a result of election outcome. The State of California has now banned the electronic Diebold voting machines, but they are used in some other states, and can ruin the outcome of people votes. The new presidential election has not started yet, but there are problems of election frauds already.

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20. January. 2008 10.20 p.m. On 26-29 of December, last year, there were about three hours of manipulating, before they let me sleep. Fortunately, I did not have go to work, so I could sleep long. There were no pains on the eye, or dry mouth in the morning as usual. On first of January 2008, they tortured until five a.m. It was mainly itching around the head, back pains and verbal manipulation. Heavy torture continued a whole day, this time pain was on both temples of the head. Second day of January was typical start of the week torture. I slept about hour. Pain on the right eye started about three a.m. There was back pain, and dry mouth on the wakeup. They transmitted my breathing on high volume on my ears. I speculate they have wireless miniature microphone somewhere on the nose cavity. Third day of January was also the third night of torture on a row. I believed they did it to study how a tired person is functioning. They have let me sleep on last three nights about two three hours. Next days of January I was able to sleep better, but not enough. There were nearly every morning dry mouth, and pain on the right eye. Example tenth of January, torture on the right eye started two a.m. and ended about seven a.m. Fourteenth of January, they put me several times on a row on fast sleep, when I was awake, I wondered around the room, feeling fuzzy. On the work on afternoon there was restless legs torture. Fifteenth of January was similar. There were pains on the right eye on morning, and on work, they made restless legs torture on the afternoon. That makes my work actually very difficult to do. I have tried to massage on my head on the place where the pain is. It relieves the pain, but takes nearly all on my energy. The magic of sticks under nails torture seems fading. The pain is actually on hand of my left forefinger. So they perhaps cannot torture all the fingers, but just left forefinger. This indicates that there is something that makes them able to cause the pain there. I put strong light under the finger, so that I was able to see light through the finger, but I did not find any foreign object, so it must be very miniature, or transparent. I will keep book on other similar sharp local pains, do they exist all the time on same location of body. Today I have used a lot of my day to massage my head, to relieve pain. In the morning was strong pain on the right eye, and few hours later a mild headache. The itching look like is most on left side, and front of the head. I found that chimpanzees that are used as test-animals, get a better treatment than we do. If they survive alive for old age for all the tests, that researches do with them; they have a freedom of tests in their retirement days. We don’t have as good destiny; we are tortured and researched until we die for one reason or other. The difference perhaps is that chimpanzees have a bigger and better lobby in US. congress than we have. I wish that we - I and the least 600 other victims of electronic mind control - would some days have a similar strong active organisation defending our rights than chimpanzees have in Humane Society of United States. 26. December 2007 11.35 p.m. On eleventh December, they got me fast sleep - meaning unconscious - for three hours. After I woke up to go sleep, followed a night long torture, back pain etc. Next five days were mostly pains on right eye, or right temple, with occasional sticks under nails torture etc. On 17. December this continued with increasing amount of dry mouth, after even minutes sleep. 19. day , the torture at night went more severe, with restless legs torture, and more severe pain on the right eye. I did not sleep at 19th. Day-night much. Dry mouths after sleep has became daily. On 22. of December night they started with pain on the forehead a quarter after midnight. The forehead went very sensitive for draught, I felt that they have lowered the forehead temperature someway, and it caused headache. This is very similar, what they do for after sauna torture. I do not catch their logic, but perhaps the reason is, that on sauna forehead has predisposed for heat. Maybe they want camouflage damages; they have done, for causing from sauna heat. 23 December was torture on the right eye and - as usually last days - dry mouth on wakeup. 24 December on Christmas Eve, they kept some talking, but no actual torture. 25 December, was usual dry mouth, pain on the right eye on wakeup, and after itching here and there, around the head. I have studied mind control case of Brian Wronge. Brian Wronge has implants on his ears which were found with mri-scan as "parametallic foreign bodies". Later examination with otoscope, found miniature devices implanted on the membrane of his eardrums. Wronge made lawsuit against the State of New York. A Federal Eastern district Court Judge, Justice Reena Raggi instructed Wronge to remove at least one of the implants. Four prominent physicians supported the examination and surgery, but still Brian Wronge was not able to find surgeon that would do the job. Most of them cited FBI retaliation as the reason. What happened? Apparently FBI was monitoring Wronge attempt to find a surgeon, and scared the surgeons not to make any operation for Brian Wronge. Knowing FBI, the way they work, they probably told the surgeon that they would put him trouble, and let surgeon's imagination to work. Some thought ”trouble" means they would get medical malpractice suit, some that their home will burn by arson etc. The Wronge case was brought to attention for Physicians for Social Responsibility Boston Chapter, which after tense atmospheric board meeting refused to assistance to Wronge. Apparently FBI has it ways, to scare the associations too. If Brian Wronge had huge amounts of money, he would probably have get surgeon somewhere outside of the United States, but he was ex. prison convict, with not very much money. Even after

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arrange the surgery, he would have simply disappeared as many people do . Actually he had not very much changes to win his case. I cannot help, but this someway reminds me Nazi Germany, where handicapped and retired people were put to gas-chamber to save state money, with help the local physicians community. Most of the people have never heard Brian Wronge. The Google shows only 38 hits with words "Brian Wronge" and implant. The subject of mind-reading implant is however very interesting subject, and would interest for people to follow all the case for court decisions and examination and surgery. Those who are surprised of media silence, I suggest studying Watergate scandal when it started. Most of the newspapers, did not reprint Washington Post story, but somehow remained skeptical and silent. The things changed, because the opponent was whole powerful Democratic Party, and not ex convict Brian Wronge as was in this case. . The censorship is like a black monster on the dark room, and we are not able to see it. We can find only a part of it only if some light comes to the room. 9. December 2007 10.55 p.m. Between 28 November and first December there was mostly torture on the right eye, on wakeup.It ended usually hour or so, from wakeup. On the evening were occasional pains, "fast sleeping" and restless legs torture. Second December there started "after sauna torture". I planned to write my diary text :"There was time when after sauna was no after sauna torture". They folloved my thinking and turned the headache machine off. I changed my text "They stopped after sauna torture after, I planned to write about it " . This caused that they turned the headache machine on again. Later on they showed that there is actually two type of after sauna torture, the other one is just around the eyes, like torture on right eye but similar on both eyes, and the other one is more general torture also more up on the forehead. Actually the headache fade away soon after that. Fourth December they got me "fast sleep" about 8.30. p.m. I woke up on midnight. After they tortured me whole night. At 1.07 there was pain on the back of the head. Later there were various pains around the head, combined with verbal torture. As a new kind of torture, they have started increasingly use also back pain, which is not actually pain, but odd feeling on the back, which make me sleeping very difficult. I did not sleep this night at all. Fifth December was very similar "start of the week torture”, that purpose is to get me sleepy condition. I slept about three hours. They had disturbed my sleep three days in a row. On sixth and seventh of December, there were just occasional torture and verbal manipulation, but eight December they tortured various ways at night, about until three a.m. Next day the perpetrators used heavy burning like pain on the left side of the head on 11.51 a.m. Today the torture on the right eye, that was nonexistent nearly week started again after noon and now extremely painfull,. It continued very heavy and widened on the right temple of the head, and caused a general nausea until it diminished after four p.m. During the torture they hinted to put me "hospital condition", soon. The brutality of the torture made me little scare. Actually similar was what happened, Edmonton Alberta, about thirty years ago. It was not pain, but general nausea, and disability to sleep, that forced me into hospital, where were "spy-school" set up was ready. On the ward I was put. I am not sure if I was the only "real" patient, but all of the patients, were not real. Also from ward television room television set showed special "programs" white clothing doctors climbing on the buildings wall, and not so well made vampire type movies. However Peter Hays was the doctor of the ward, so he must have co-operated with the perpetrators. I did a Google search with words ""Martti Koski" mind control" on pages that have appeared this year. I got two hits. So I made similar search with much less known search machine Alta Vista, and I got seventy hits. Words mind control electronic gave with Google year ago about 53 million hits. Now same search gives only One million and four hundred thousand hits. So we should not trust for one search machine , but use several, and compare the results. This gives us some hints, which search engines are manipulated, and which way. 25.11.2007 11.55. p.m. The torture started heavy on 13.th. November, with start of the week torture. The torture started with a sharp pain on forehead when I went to sleep. They woke me up at two a.m. And later on four a.m. I slept two or three hours. Next morning there was a very dangerous feeling pain on the back of the head 8.18 a.m. Very much same started on the next day. Pain on forehead 11.30 p.m., heavy pain on the right temple of the head 14th. November 2.44 p.m and torture left side back of the head. 10.38 p.m. I felt pain on the left, back of the head, when I tied my shoelaces. I interpret it, that they caused a wound for my head, and it hurts, when the blood pressures on the head rise when my head is down. Next day was normal occasional pains on the head and verbal torture. On 16 November 2.55 p.m I had note that. They got me unconscious, and I felt fuzzy when I awakened. Actually this happens nearly every day, usually I do not write about it. Sleep is about 5-10 minutes, and the head feels fuzzy when I move it for sometime.

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On 17th. November was a day of headache. It started as a headache on forehead on the wakeup, and continued until night, althought it moved around of the head. 23rd November daytime, they freeze my memory; I was not able to remember names of the people. On the going sleep there was torture on the back of the head. A day later midnight there was a pain on the back of the head. 1.11. a.m. They threatened to put me into "electric sauna", and my imagination makes their perverse codename or idiomatic expression real meaning about heating the head or part of it. As a positive happening, my sleep was not disturbed on last three days. Feeling for not tired is just different as the tired one. Now they try to get me unconscious, with small- a kind of electric shock. But I will make some tea and finish this writing. Also other than intelligence organizations are making microscopic radio devices. I hope that decision makers understand, that the time does not stop, or start to go reverse direction. Problems of electronic mind manipulation do not go away, but grow larger even our institutions predict they do not see any ethical problems for electronic mind manipulation devices that exist and are secretly used for various purposes. 11.11.2007 11.55 p.m. As general, the perpetrators have gone more aggressive, expecially at night. They want to shorten my sleeping time. On the weekend 28 October, they started at noon on pain on the right temple of the head. It continued for evening, and after it became very heavy torture on the right eye at 8.30 p.m. On night was start of the week torture, I slept maybe two hours. The perpetrators have got permit or order to torture me heavier.They verbalized it, for their typical idiomatic code language "you have got a pay rise”. That does not mean I got more money from somewhere, but that they will torture me more than before. The next days were more silent because I was very tired and often slept on the chair after I went home. However often they woke me up at two am, and started for example uncomfortable bed torture, to get my head position they want. The next week started again "start of the week torture”. On fifth November morning, I was not sure if I had slept at all. Pains were this time on the right temple and the other leg. Next day 10.42 p.m. I felt like they were blocking my bloodvessels on the neck. On Wednesday, I went to North for my aunt’s funeral. Apparently they did not follow me. Their voice was sometimes possible to hear, but rather weak. After I come back on tenth November they tortured me until four a.m. Happily I did not have to go work, so I was able to sleep enough later. They also showed me a "movie” while asleep. It was rather a poor quality one. I am not made up my mind, what the "movies" actually are. They are like ordinary dreams, on the way that I forget most of them after I awake, but on other hand, they are made different way, and sometimes I am not even present, so I believe they are more than dreams that the perpetrators somehow interfere. They are artificial-dreams that are made for some purpose. This link is for a part of Raven1 alias Eleanor White website; she has grouped her collection of thousands of mind control related articles into alphabetical order. This another page of her website shows list of hundreds of other mind control related websides. Considering huge amount of information there is about electronic mind control on internet, one would surprise of almost nonexistent information that major media has this phenomenon. There are considerable caps on the map that commercial- and government sponsored media draws for reality and world. Active mind can uncover some of these caps, but most of the people are not aware that there are such caps between real world and the real world as the major media present it. So it is not surprise that many people sense of reality for some issues is distorted. In fact most of the people of Second World War Nazi-Germany did not know- or believe that million of Jews were killed on government concentration camps. 27.10.2007. 11.54 p.m. There was no torture on my trip to Stockholm. However their behaviour, before the trip was typical to preparing heavy torture. I believe that the writing on this diary changed their mind. They did not want any potential observer to watch their manipulation, so they cancelled the planned torture-experiments. Since Estonia accident all the ferry companies, are required to keep book for names of all their travellers. If I had access for these databases, I would like to compare the records of passengers on trip I had summer 2006 with Silja Line, and last trip with Viking line. I would also make special attention also cancelled trips on this later Viking line trip. That way there is a good possibility to find some members for the perpetrator organisation. The police, from both countries, would have access these records, I cannot inspect. With a good luck these records would reveal Finnish military or intelligence organisations possible participation and role, of my torture. The possibilities of Finnish military organisation are basically joint research and outside observer. The joint research means that Finnish military does the dirty work, supplies the victims of experimentation. The other side – which could be another, or group of NATO countries - gives their knowledge of experimentation. Finnish army can this way acquire knowledge ,and perhaps equipments for modern electronic mind control, interrogation and torture techniques. It is known for history, that some right-wing Finnish military officers have done co-operation with US- army, while it was highly dangerous and illegal , because of agreements of Soviet Union that existed on this time. Outside observer means that Finnish are observing, and cathering information, who torture, how, and why. The purpose is to use in formation that is gathered,one way or other, trading with other intelligence organisations. There is also third - and the least propable possibility. That is that Finnish do not know, or believe that I am tortured, or they are not interested for it.

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After the trip it was very normal manipulation, and torture however they let me sleep a bit better than the week before. On night between Monday and Tuesday they did try to plant me false-memories. It worked a while, while I was half asleep, but later I found the falsification. The problem is that when they succeed, the victim perhaps never find the falsification. On last week,they have put me pretty often short-term unconscious state on , while I have worked. The new thing is, that when I awake, the colours seem some second or so different. Like with bad digital camera, the most dominant colours of place, have tinted the rest of the colours too. The effect stands just a moment. After couple of seconds, the eye sees everything normal way. 19.10.2007 3.15 a.m. They have now tortured me whole night, and is improbable that I can get sleep this night, because after couple of hours, I have to go to work. The problem is that I have to travel next night and in past they have often put me through heavy torture, while I am somewhere else than home, and cannot protect myself as well. This kind of heavy torture happened in third May last year, with similar trip. They have also threatened on evening "to put you dance”, what in their code language means just something else than dancing. However I am doing the trip, even thought in worst case, they would keep me over sixty hours without sleep. I believe I still stay alive over the trip. 15.10.2007 7.51 p.m. The most of the nights, there were some high pitch female voices that tortured on the left ear, 11. October they tortured one a.m. to four a.m. , and after I went to asleep, I got a dream, I feel was manipulated.. Next morning I got nausea, and torture was left side of head. That is the other typical phenomena for last days. Actually I feel if I start to research something, or other things, they don’t like - then starts the pains, itching, and freezing feeling on the left side. They used this my deactivating name Tying hands., Yesterday I had to suffer "start of the week torture" where they try to put me tired condition for a workweek. I did not sleep at all yesterday. About three a.m. I had one of a kind of typical conversation with one of the perpetrators, I wrote it on paper quarter after three last night; because I threatened put it out on this diary. Here how it went: Perpetrator: "Your diary is not threat for us. We have monitored it, there are just few users. Me:”Someday people know what you did for us. After you will put in prison. Perpetrator:”This is very improbable possibility. Even if it happen, so what? We got maximum two three years for prison then we will go out again. Most probably we don’t have to go prison at all. Me:”The world is not just. For thirty years of torture, you mean you get only two three years of prison sentence. It is not enough. Perpetrator: "What do you think, is the right length of the sentence? Me:" For fifteen years at least. Perpetrator:" There are professor's here, you cannot imagine, they have to go into jail." Me:" You mean , we live in a class society, where person's sentence, depends his status on society, what he earns, and what is his occupation, and not what crimes he has committed, and how much harm he has done to other people. Perpetrator:”What you can do? You are full mummy on the end. You cannot get many words from your mouth. You cannot live on your own any more. Somebody has to take care for you. Me:”I can put this conversation on my public torture diary" Perpetrator:" Go ahead. People laugh at you." Me: "I will do it". So I woke up middle of the night, (3.13 am exactly) and put paper the most important pieces of this conversation, in case my memory is wiped out in the morning. Every word is not perhaps same, but this is how the conversation went. If the perpetrators recorded it, the exact words are possible to restore perhaps future. The problem is that they are probably right. I cannot remember any case of US- history where army- or related CIA etc. personnel have put into prison, for involuntary human experiments. Nobody went jail for LSD- experiments. Nobody went prison for spreading carcinogens or bacteria or virus into air. If any civilian organization, that has experimented same, people would have to stay rest of their lives on jail, and pay massive amount for victims of their experiment. I am now reading text, I feel that has some important insights into electromagnetic mind control I have experienced. Unfortunately it is German language. I don not understand German language, so I have to read with Google mechanical translation. There is the original German language document.

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10. October 11.30 p.m. This below is a copy of what I have written on my daily torture notebook, since the last writing on my diary. The torture notebook does not tell whole torture, but because I keep it always with me, it is more complete and accurate than this diary. I have added some explanations, for the text. I use on the notebook two coordinate location system to tell where pain actually occurs, left center or right- and front center or back. I feel for the outside person, it is not very interesting to read, but this is what actually happened to me day to day. Somebody would feel that verbal manipulation is more important than pains, but for me the pains are kind of signs of how they are manipulating my behavior. Verbal manipulation is just for thei measure how my brain is working, and their try to direct my brain activity somewhere. - 10.9. 4.37 p.m. Torture on the right side center of the head. - 11.9. 9.38 a.m. Very dangerous feeling torture, near left ear. -13.9. 4.33 p.m. In the morning they woke me up four a.m. I got perhaps three hours sleep. Now torture on very down left side of the head, and neck on left side. - 4.40 p.m. Very heavy torture on left side, center of the head. I complained that they have cut my all dreams, or interfered for them on yea - 5.51 p.m. Torture continues. Heavy pulsing type pain, that feels like breaking something on the left side of the head. -14.9. 7.10 a.m. Torturedoes place on the right temple of the head. It started about six a.m. and ended about hour later 3.31 p.m. Torture is on the front of the head, right side. -15.9. 4.21 a.m. They started torture on left side front of the head. I feel like they have stopped the blood flow on this area. -16.9 5.51 p.m. On wakeup in the morning, they tortured right eye. That lasted about hour. Now they started torture on left temple of the head (usually they do this on right side.) - 17.9. 12.35 noon. Torture is based on the center of the head. -10.00 p.m. They "shoot" me on the left ear with voice about ten minutes ago. hae similar. -19.9. 12.06 noon. I have odd tiredness and muscle pains. Last night I felt cold, even thought temperature was normal. They have done this same thing for me, on earlier also. -5.35 p.m. Restless legs torture, started about hour ago - 20.9. 3.20 p.m. Torture on left side on the center of the head. - 5.15 p.m. Restless legs torture -5.52 p.m. They are freezing my head on left side, front of the head. - 21.9. 2.24 p.m. Torture on the left side center of the head. - 3.45 they try to disturb me, so that I cannot do my work, because they do not understand what I am doing. - 22.9. . 10.28 a.m. Torture on the right temple of the head. -23.9. - Torture on the left side, center of the head. On the wakeup on morning, I had a dry mouth. - 24.9. 6.40 a.m. Heavy torture since 4.35 a.m. They made a new "hole" on the left side front of the head. My theory for what happen is that there are several small implants on the head, and they activate them by giving very heavy electricity for this implant, making new "hole". The feeling is first like itching, after electricity on sharp point of head, and after the whole area is very sensitive for their torture. After similar "opening", my left ear is much more sensitive on their high voices, than the right one. By the way they call their torture for”filming" or "shooting". On my notebook I make always note on which place of the head pain occurs with two coordinate left or right and other coordinate front and back. - 25.9. 2.54 p.m. Torture on center, back of the head. - 26.9 8.49 a.m. Torture based on the left side, center of the head. - 27.9. 4.15 p.m. Sudden heavy torture on the left side, center of the head. - 29.9. Torture on the right temple of the head. - 30.9. 2.34 p.m. Torture based on the left side, front of the head. - 1.10 12.37 noon. Torture based on the left side, back of the head. - 2.10. 9.33 a.m. Last night they tortured with voice on the right ear (This must be actually the left ear, because it is the sensitive one.). They did try to get me sleep on the other side, so that the sensitive ear is on the floor side. About eight a.m.

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They tortured the right temple of the head. - 2.35 p.m. Torture on the right temple of the head. - 3.32 p.m. Heavy torture on the right temple of the head. - 6.42 p.m Heavy shooting pains on the right temple of the head. -3.10. 7.54 a.m. Yesterday torture - expecially shooting pains - caused wounds that are still hurting. I found that I lost also some memory, meaning I cannot recall all the words, I use. (Actually I gained at least part of the lost memory on next day) - 4.10. 7.40 a.m. Last night they disturbed my sleep with sticks under nails torture, and uncomfortable bed torture. I also have dry mouth, for a while. Now they torture on the right temple of the head. -2.49 p.m. Torture based on the center of the head starting 1.22 ended on twenty minutes, and started again a. moment ago. - 5.10. 6.11 a.m. They do torture on the right eye. - 6.10. 10.41 a.m. Their torture on the right eye started about 3.40 a.m. and it is still continuing. Also I had a dry mouth part of the night, like they used to do nearly every night on last weeks. - 7.10. 12.54 noon. After sauna torture and some nausea, that was very heavy, but ended shortly, opposite of the old times after sauna tortures. - 8.10 5.11 a.m. Start of the week torture. I did not sleep at all. Torture based on the left side front of the head. -4.41 p.m. Restless legs torture. - 9.10 11.22 a.m. They do torture on the right eye. They kept me very sleepy last night I went unconscious on my chair twice on evening. - 5.21 p.m. heavy itching around the head. 10.10 9.32 p.m. Heavy itching on the left side front of the head. So restless legs torture and sudden sleepiness are their way to stop what I am doing. Pains on the head, is something they are doing on teaching or research purpose. Then there are a massive amount of practical jokes, they like to have fun with me. Many of them, I found only after they have stopped repeating jokes. One of simplest they used to do, is feeling to need to urinate, always after twenty minutes, that I believed long, was just my poor bladder, after is suddenly without reason , came normal two hour frequency. There are also some practical jokes they use to manipulate me, example uncomfortable bed torture; they try to get me turn right side to left when I am sleeping. I have read with great sympathy Norwegian technical diver’s fight with governments and big oil industry. This is a link for their web side. Very many of the divers that have done maintenance work on oil rigs on North Sea are now death , because of circumstances that were between criminal negligence and premeditated murder. The people responsible are still walking free. 9. September 2007 11.55 p.m. On days of the end of August, I have notes on occasional torture on the left side of the head . August 30 5.41 a.m. They cut pieces out of my memory, because they did not understood my abstract thinking (about types of inflation). If the victim understood more than his perpetrator, the perpetrator cuts these memory pieces off , so that he understood everything what his victim is thinking and there is no secrets. This happens me more often than I have made notes for it. After cutting my memory they caused heavy pain on left side of the head, and later on the right eye. 31. August 7.37 p.m. they caused pain on left side of body, just under heart. First September morning was pain on the right eye again. The next days until now there were less pain ,and more verbal torture, although the pain when it suddenly occurred was more severe than usually. Long lasting severe torture started yesterday, when there was a pain on the right temple of the head, and later on the right eye, that lasted nearly 24 hours, it ended on Saturday evening. Last night was other ways normal, except they kept my sleep shorter than I needed. The reason came out on today. They got me unconscious while I was reading middle of the day, I even had a dream, I am not sure, was it artificial or a natural dream. They have got me dry mouth I believe nearly every day, but they do it at night, and sometimes I awake for it, sometimes not. One of the largest sites of mind control information is mind control forum . I found there a list of names and email addresses 607 victims. The list is not complete, even I know some victims, who are not on the list, but it is the most complete list of victims I have seen. I have put it’s link on my mind control stories page, with sincere wish, that wider publicity helps members of that list, that they do not get into same sad destiny as a list of members of Cincinnati Radiation Experiments which nobody survived alive for deadly experiments. I wish that listed members of our list will all survive alive. We are already wounded, some more, some less, so I hope also that we are not tortured and wounded any more. I believe that some day some light will come on these experiments, same way as it come for deadly radiation experiments, this madness cannot continue forever.

27. August 2007 11.10 p.m. On eight of August they awakened me 3.40 am. After there was torture on the right eye. The

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next day was similar: Awakening 3.38 a.m. torture on the right eye ended about 6.50 a.m. after shower. Afternoon on the same day there were shooting pains on the back of the head. These continued until eleventh August and headache on front head, and pain on the right eye started again. The next days were more silent, with only verbal torture, pains of the front head once a while. Chewing something helps the pain. They got also me very sleepy fast, so I believe they did some sleeping manipulation. Heavier torture started again on 18th august, 9.27 a.m. torture on front head, both sides. On the afternoon it changed heavy itching on front head, both sides. There were also occasional shooting pains, on the right temple of the head , example 8.46 p.m. 19th. August afternoon, there was again pain on the right eye. Next night 20th. August 0.32 a.m. they started torture on left side on front of the head. On morning 6.30 a.m. there was uncomfortable bed torture. So their idea was limit my sleep, to keep me on tired condition. However, I got some sleep and woke up with dry mouth. They have started to cut my mouth out of saliva, or it is a side effect for something they do. Before noon there was pain on left side front of the head. Afternoon 3.13 p.m. there was a very dangerous feeling torture on left back of the head. There were very similar pain couple of days later on 22. August 1.57 p.m. Days after ,were mostly pains on the front head, and morning pain on the right eye. There was a dry mouth when awakened, on three days on a row. As an addition on my diary note of fifth august the perpetrators have told me that RCMP is guarding certain graveyards. This is not necessary true, but rather example of false "news" they used to tell me. I have found out that permit exhumation of person is not very easy to get , but if on examination of the skull of victim after death, there are foreign pieces on head, I believe exhumation for rest of the deceased victims is possible to get. Of course this is not possible after cremation of body. I found that news of North American Union, - I wrote - is coming out on some major media.This is a pretty good youtube piece about it. I feel still, that the youtube piece, commentator’s high abstract level comment on "big brother" , does not make clear for the majority of the people, what concrete changes for their life is coming after Union.I am still happy that there are some try, to gather organized opposition for this undemocratic ruling elite plan. 5. August 2007 11.10 p.m. Between 25. July and first August,. They caused pains mostly on left side of head, and all kinds "restless legs" and other practical jokes. On the August the torture changed right side, and right eye, and even more humiliating things started to happen. I had fever and heavy pains on the joints of finger and legs, among the other things. Today they have kept me very sleepy. I have slept about two hour’s pieces, and always after I awake, they start torture on the right eye again. The perpetrators speak about”kidney machine” that I need, to get my blood clean. Also ,according the perpetrators, it is easier to find a needle in a haystack than a implants from the victims skull. It has not any metal, but if it is a small, hair thin ceramic fiber, they say. This could be true, or it is just false information. If this is true, the implants works much like crystal receiver, people used hundred years ago. Because the pains are different place of head on different times there must exist more than several fibers. Whatever type the implant is, I have idea how to find it. This is not suitable for studying the victim, who is still alive, but after the victim has lost his live, even small implants are possible to pinpoint by placing the victim’s skull into chemical that melts the organic material like bone, but does not dissolve metal, plastic or ceramic materials. I believe there are several acids, which can do that. After the skull has dissolved on the acid, possible implants (and tooth fillings) are found by carefully filtering the dissolving chemical. I am personally ready, to donate my skull for this purpose, after I my death.There are already death victims, but , there is understandable difficulties, to get coroner to investigate their skull, expecially for this accuracy. However the test is valuable.Eeven if nothing is found, it means , we should continue search with other possibilities, with this victim, and the results are that way valuable. By the way, it is possible to find needle from a haystack with this same dissolving techniquee.

24.7.2007 6.55 p.m. They have done nearly all kind of experiment on these weeks, except "movies". Itching and pains on the head are daily. Now the pain is more often on the left side. Pain on the right eye, has gone from daily to more towards weekly torture. Torture often starts at night, and would continue on next afternoon (example 15. of July). Ninth of July I had very old times type "start of the week torture". They kept me awake, with all kinds of less pleasant practical jokes. On the end, I slept about two three hours. On 17th. July they caused problems with my body coordination, I had difficulties, to walk, drive bicycle etc. Problems continued, but weaker, on the next day. For the pain on the head, there are basically two different types of torture. The first type is weaker rather itching, very much like mosquito has bitten on the head. On stronger pain, there is a feeling of electricity going into the head, Itching happen each other hour, the electricity feeling is about once a day ,or some times a week. The other type of torture is a kind of shooting pain. It usually takes just few seconds or so. It feels much more dangerous, there is feeling that they really destroy something on the brain. Unfortunately this one has become more frequent now. Example today there was a shooting pain left side back of the head at 5.53 p.m. Later on there was another, this time left front of the head at 6.35 p.m. I have learned more on Cincinnati medical center radiation killings, I wrote on previous note on 3.7.2007, when I explained

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why United States does not actually belong to the group of democratic countries. I am now reading Martha Stephens excellent book THE TREATMENT that tells the story about Cincinnati radiation killings, with great accuracy and has also a list of sources, where reader can get more information. . There was class lawsuit against the doctors, who killed their patients with radiation. After five year of trial the families of victims got between fifty and eighty six thousand dollars for compensation. My trust for United States legal system has not gone better with this kind of settlement. No criminal should get away his crime, without sentenced, just by paying the death victims families for some ten thousand dollars as a compensation for the pain they have suffered as a result of the deaths.

3.7.2007 11.54 p.m. Torture on the right eye was stopped at temporally couple of weeks, but now it has started again, however weaker.. The dry mouth happen time to time, but now they rather make mouth dry for some hours before wake up. So on the wake up I have only bad taste on the mouth. I feel they try to cut my sleeping time to minimum, but now when I have holidays, it is not so easy compared when I am working. Itching and pains on head are daily, and now they occur more on left side of head, when before the right side of head was more often their target of the torture. The worst torture on these two weeks occurred on 27 June 2007, starting couple of minutes after five a.m. They started “knife on the head” torture on left side of the head. After I just felt how electricity flowed from the wound on the head, I had no possibility to defend myself any way. After about 20 minutes, I understood to change on other side , so the left side of the head was towards earth. This helped some. Torture continued about hour, and after it, was heavy verbal torture, until noon, at least. It is extremely important to move if they attack on this way. It just on the morning takes time before one understands what to do. There was itching on the head some hours ago, and when I started to write this, they made my feeling uncomfortable with restless legs torture, that has now ended. QUALITY CONTROL FOR DEMOCRACY: Actually all of the large organizations have a problem to maintain high quality for their product and services. To tackle with these problems, organizations have developed quality systems. I personally have learned some ISO quality systems that many European companies use to make sure that their work quality stay affordable level. If the quality system is taken honestly, and seriously it is a good tool , which can ensure that everything works how it is planned. So I have got Idea that governments should have quality system also , that measures how efficient and democratic is their quality of their management., some kind of ISO standard XXXXX.1 for democracy. Every civil servant should have a quality handbook that describes the proper way to do his or her particular job . International auditing group, should ensure that quality exist also on real world , and not only government documents. People could make complaints, for this international auditing group, which could investigate matters based of peoples complaint.. This kind of quality system would reveal countries like, USA which have basely democratic governmental system, but because of poor quality of civil servants working standard, it could not qualified as the real democracy. Here some examples , that show the nuts and bolts of democracy quality problem on United States: I have used old known old cases, because I have documents on them, but the weak signals indicate that the quality of democracy has not gone better, but rather worst in recent years. Example 1: Local law enforcement agencies, investigate crimes selectively. Some crimes are investigated , others are not. Scientists killed several patients in University of Cincinnati medical Centre , because they wanted to know how high radioactive doses human can take , before he dies . United States law does not permit murder of innocent people for scientific purpose. The series of crimes did take place between 1961 -1971, they are documented and have clear evidence. Victims are killed and the criminals names are easy to find out. However local law-enforcement authorities did not start proper investigations. I do not know exactly know , how the legal machinery of United States works, but I believe it Is Cincinnati local prosecutors task, to order criminal investigations. Above him the responsibility to investigate and prosecute these crimes is Ohio Attorney General. However they have not done their duties of these cases ( I do not found any clue for Internet of criminal investigation of these cases). So before accepted of groups of ISO XXXXX.1 standard of democratic states United States should correct the present civil servants practice -where crimes that army, FBI, or other similar agencies are involved - are left outside of law administration, and victims of these crimes are leaved without their legal rights. . Patients of Cincinnati medical centre had to pay their life for this illegal practice. Actually if some of the patients have gone to police, and explained that doctors kill him by radioactivity, police would have diagnosed him as having mental problems. I have also feeling , that persons killed, were not terminally ill, but simply labeled as terminally ill.

Example 2: Fraudulent elections. Voting is the basic system ,which we choose our representative. Democracy should not have that amount of fraudulent counting ballots and other irregularities on election, that United States had presidential elections 2000 and 2004. This is on where a well made ISO XXXXX.1 standard for democracy , if followed, could stop “dirty tricks “ on election process. Rigging elections means that totalitarian country gets clothes of democracy. Because law enforcement is selective all the election crimes are not investigated, so the whole truth is unknown. Fraudulently elected leaders of nominate corrupted administrators , who favor civil servants without moral backbone , which will work for them.

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Example 3. First Amendment – freedom of expression. Most of the constitutions of the democratic countries have a freedom of speech and association on some form. In United States, person can speak without punishment, whatever he wants. However, if one’s ideas start to influence people around , and he can cater organization around his ideas, the freedom of speech do not exist anymore. Martin Luther King example, of person who could influence people. Because he exercised his freedom of speech and association he got FBI secret agents to follow him, and made all kinds of crimes, to stop influence of his ideas. . Senate select committee of intelligence activities, shows that if person is considered as a danger of present establishment, and exercise his freedom of speech and his right to associate, illegal actions are taken to eliminate him. People who try to eliminate this person would came local, or federal police force, or could work co-operatively with them. The agents who caused Martin Luther King numerous harm were not fired, they were not sentenced, and their names were not given public. To make clear how difficult situation Martin Luther King had, I would add that. if Martin Luther King had approached for law enforcement officials, and accused that secret agencies are fighting to cut down his career - the law enforcement agency probably would have diagnosed him having as having some kind of paranoia. Quantanamo Bay prisoners show how unimportant legislation is,when all the civil servant belong same loyal clique. It is possible made new abstract class “enemy fighters” that is outside of any human rights, and nearly anyone could be include as a member of this class, because there is no proper court ,or judge to defend detainee’s rights. Because of law’s are not always obeyed by law administration, it has come extremely important that Attorney General and other are “trusted men” who do what is asked to do. For this background, of fight for Attorney Generals person, become easily understood. Today’s technologies have developed a lot since Martin Luther King days. Today methods are electronic disturbance, and stalking . These three examples I have pick from different areas shows why United States would not qualify as democratic country. The problem is not in actual laws, but it is rather law enforcement, and law administration, the chain from police and local attorneys to attorney general to supreme court. Law are not very important if somebody has get own agents for all the chain that implement law. Army and some members Federal Agencies crimes are not investigated and criminal working them are not sentenced, and their victims do not get justice for present legal system either. Actually similar quality problem, that America's democracy, exist in American made cars. They have lost market for better build Japan cars. To be honest American car quality is not maybe as well inspected as Japan car, but still it is very usable working vehicle, t that many individual will buy also future. If Americans had made their cars as poorly, they have made their democracy, they would not get many cars sold. The marketing and imago making is both American cars and Democracy excellent quality. However if the product is poor, the brand will lose its value. The American automakers have find it, and United States leaders will find it also. 16.6.2007 11.38 p.m. The torture continues very much on the old format. In the morning is usually pain on the right eye. As the new form of unpleasant feelings they have introduced to me occasional dry mouth on the wakeup it happened three times on row may 24-26, and later less severe and occasional .dry mouth effects. Their explanation for dry mouth effect is that saliva makes some measurement less accurate. On 8.6 they caused a chest pain on left side, when I drove home with bicycle. Often around 3 p.m and before going to sleep after nine p.m., they cause trance, Fast sleep. - like I have called it or trance, could reveal more dangerous , that I have felt. I found that they tried to speak me, while I was on trance. Yesterday, Friday around midnight was the usual fight, when they try to stop of my kind of bookkeeping tasks, I do usually end of week. The feeling was like working after drinking a bottle or two of vodka. The next day I found I had made some very simple mistakes. They tried to force me unconscious, but I fight to stay awake, until my task is finished. Nothing intelligent task I cannot complete, while they disturb my living this way. Next morning the left side of face felt different than the right one, so they caused also some damage, which I could feel on the next day. So this is very hard tool, on their torture tools arsenal, that starts from practical jokes, and ends possible brain damage or killing. 21.5. 2007 11.48 p.m. I have found that about every day there is torture on the right eye, which take place usually at wakeup and can last worst in the afternoon, but usually stops after hour or two. On daytime there is occasional torture, usually on left side of the head. In the evening they try to make me unconscious (fast sleep) this happen especially on Friday night, when I have a kind of accounting task, that is difficult to understand for them. On Sundays they have often "after sauna torture”, meaning general headache and nausea. 13.5 was last time for that. To be honest, the after sauna torture had come milder and occasional, after I started to make public diary for their torture. I can often pinpoint exactly, where is the point on the head, where the pain comes. Also every location of the head has it own kind, special feeling of the pain. So is possible that often the pain is just side-effect of their manipulation. However I can not know what purpose, and what effect has every kind of different pain they cause. So I can not say what purpose was the pain , they caused on left side, very back of the head (this afternoon 3.04 p.m. ) . Also I can not saydid they achieve ,their goal, with their manipulation. The Internet radio mystery I wrote on 2 May ( is resolved. There was not magic. Nokia N800 pda has a small loud-speaker, and that is where the music came. The battery of device was running out, and it was reason why the music stopped after couple of minutes. However the fact that I did not find difference of quality of headphones, and miniature loud-speaker, means that I was manipulated. Apparently the music was made to feel good on my brain, with some trick.

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I watched Al Gore documentary An inconvenient truth. I felt sympathy for man. We (he and I) both have a kind of important message that requires reaction for rulers of state and general public. I also believe that general public will understand and trust better for both of us, in future, when the real troubles begin. Just sad that then possibly is a bit late. Part of the bad things has happened already. Gore makes the convincing of people, a much better than I. I am not professional for this art. Also if I try to do something, that would cause something, my perpetrators are really afraid, they cut off my activity, with all possible tricks they have their mind manipulation arsenal. Actually when I watched Gore document for melting ice in Greenland, it was clear that Greenland is losing it icecap. However when I got the same data on other sources, it was not so clear anymore, but rather complicated. I however understand Al Gore. Preventing and softening the becoming climate change, will ask sacrifice from people. If people have even a small doubt of becoming climate change, they do not act at all. Even if majority of the people understands and accept ,the need of change, it is very difficult to get the entire nations act together in same direction. I wish the luck for both of us. We need that luck. 2.5.2007 11.44 p.m. On 24. April they tortured through the night. Fortunately I did not have to go work. Also 26 April, they started heavy itching on forehead at four a.m. I got sleep on six a.m. When I woke up, I had a small headache on the forehead that went away about hour or two. Next days there were occasional itching and pain around the head. I got well sleep at nights, but I started to have a very dry mouth, like the sandpaper, in the morning, when I woke up. I complained it, for perpetrators, and this morning my mouth was normal moisture again so they did stop doing something that caused the dry mouth, or made other way the mouth feeling normal, when I awake. Yesterday between 11 pm. and midnight happen another kind of mysterious occurrence. I was listening Interned radio (Classical Minnesota public radio) with my pda (Nokia N800) through wlan and headphones. With enjoyable music, I accidentally found that I had disconnected the cord from my pda. It did take nearly two minutes after this, before the music stopped from my ear. I first thought that was their joke, to send same music with voice to skull system, I listened from headphones. Later on I thought there is something else also behind. The music felt very enjoyable, so perhaps, they send music, and teased my brains pleasure centers on the same time. They have many routines, where they kind of try to subsidy my thinking-process, the interpreter that vocalizes my thought for example. I would imagine in future, mind controlled people are watching the president speech for nation. Same time as they hear the president voice, it is send to brains with voice to skull system, and pleasure centers of victims are teased, so that they enjoy his speech. Their has to just build a monitoring system, that stops voice to skull broadcasting, if the person turns the television set off. I found a document from a possible way, how they build electrical signals that cause all kind of”normal" feeling pains, and other feelings. 23.4.2007 11.16 p.m. There has been very ordinary pains, itching, and shrinking feeling on the head every day. The pain was mostly on left side, but about 15 of April it moved right side, and was very heavy, on 15th it continued almost a whole day. On 17th April 4.47 p.m., there was a very dangerous feeling sharp pain on the right side of the head. Now there is itching and pains, here and there , "fast sleep" , back pains, "restless legs" and sticks under nails torture very random and occasionally . I am reading a very well made mind control site, made about eight years ago. I wonder what happen to him now. On the story about hospital brain scan, I wonder if this is a standard procedure, he got. Similarly as for me, they were interested to test his blood. Do they call police, every time somebody, feels he is implanted by CIA or similar agency? Those who know, the hospitals way to deal with patients, perhaps could answer. I got also phone call from a victim from England. After United States and Canada, United Kingdom, is third in the amount of mind control victims. It could be because of language, or because they are co-operating with illegal military research with United States. 11.4.2007 4.19 a.m.. Start of the week torture. They want to make me tired rest of the week, by not letting sleep more than about three hours per day. This night, three o’clock they did knife on the head torture on left side, about center of the head. After feeling of the "wound" like pain, it was impossible to sleep. 7.4.2007 11.36 p.m. On fourth April, I got shooting pains on the left side of the head. Afternoon, ten p.m started usual pain around the right eye. On fifth April I got perhaps worst torture of the week. The torture on the right eye that started on fourth April continued whole night. On the evening on fifth April, they started a kind of shrinking feeling pain on the forehead. Beside pain it caused nausea and muddled feeling. I tried to ease pain with hot-water bottle, filled with cold water on the forehead. The pain continued and got heavier after midnight. So when I was going to write the pain, about my diary, in case something really bad happen to me, they stopped the pain, and explained it is not necessary to make notes. Next night was usual torture on the right eye that continued ten a.m. The same torture around the right eye was today first on the night and morning until noon. , and the couple of hours on the afternoon also. They keep me very weak, so that I have not much strength to do more than daily necessities. I try to keep myself working

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condition with Eleanor White’s coping methods. I am a bit worried about her. I have not got her group-letter for a month. I hope she is still free and alive. If they have put her somewhere closed institution, she should get a political prisoner's status, from international community. This is her website. 3.4.2007 3.15 a.m. Start of the week torture. This is the second day; they have let me sleep just under three hours. They let me sleep couple of hours, and after use heavy pain around the right eye, stick under nails torture and verbal manipulation to keep me awake. 1.4.2007 5.41 p.m. There were some more peaceful days, but 30th. March the torture started again heavier. Night on one thirty they started a pain around the right eye. Last night or the morning the same happened again, but this time the pain was much more severe, wound like. About noon there was also after sauna torture, with nausea, although it was a bit milder than it is worst. The perpetrators gave more realistic explanation for term "swing" and the saying they use "swinging into death" meaning. The victim's life is fluctuating - swinging - between experiment time , and recovering time. If the experiment causes more damage than usual, there is also a bit more recovering time. This continues until the victims dies, for one reason or other. Before the victims dies the perpetrators promised explain him , what experiments was done with his body, what achievements they got with these experiments, and what possible wounds the victim got as a result of these experiment Idea is to give the victim "meaning of his life" so that he will die happier (this explanation has happened before on other situation). My last hope is that even if I die, before the world uncovers these crimes - the world should not let these butchers get away with these crimes. I wish that those butchers will get appropriate punishment of their crimes even if it happen after all the victims are killed, After all, Adolf Eichman was convicted and hanged 25 years after his crimes, why not our torturers ? They have committed very similar crimes as Josef Mengele did . In 1952 Army sprayed carcinogenic chemicals over town of Winnipeg. If police and courts and members of parliament had done their duty , and those responsible of experiments, were tried in court, and got punishments their crimes, and if Army had to pay compensation of all the victims that got exposed of cancer causing chemicals, there were perhaps not later massive amounts of experiments, people had to suffer. Experiments that have not stopped at all. If we do not stop fascism, fascism goes ahead, and becames much more difficult task to stop it.. 25.3.2007 11.55 p.m. On Thirteen of March,there was very ordinary start of the week torture, I slept about three hours. On the same evening example at 9.52 p.m. I got very heavy occasional shooting pains on the left side of the head. On the next night started to happen. There was first very cold, and then very hot and continuous pain around the right eye, it actually stopped about 16 hours later next night. In the morning I was physically very tired, like I had run couple of hours. Next few days I found I had lost some memory, because I had lost some words. When they wipe out memory, they cannot make it exactly. I did not loose all they wanted, but unfortunately, I lost something they did not actually try wipe out. I found that something is lost, that I have lost some ordinary words. I try to remember it better later, but now I put on what I have left on memory, they did try to wipe out. Of course there is also possibility, that I did not think anything important, and this was only their exercise to wipe out specific part of the memory. Open Ends: - Chemtrails the chemical the chemical they spray all over is barium. Barium is chemical some people joins the mindcontrol (Alternative explanation is that barium is used just to carry down micro-organism, they want to spray). Barium sulfate is also used to visualize blood vessels with scanning electron microscopy. - Most of the tricks they do are somehow connected to blood control. So they have to have a kind of feedback system how they are controlling blood circulation from brain. - Ionized barium would explain that some victims have measured ionizing radiation from their breath. (11.3. 2007 diary) - When I got first time hospital after torture Edmonton, New Years eve about 1976, The hospital did take several session countles amount of bloodsamples. This is all I have left on my head. I feel, it would benefit to analyze amount concentration of barium, and also other metals strontium nickel copper etc. of victims blood, and compare it to non victims blood, just to find if there is same difference of concentration of some metals, in all of the victims. It is easy and relatively cheap procedure, that could be done, just to close out of possibility, that we have something extraordinary in our blood. I will complete more for these open ends, if I will recollect more, from pieces of my memory

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11.3.2007 10.53 p.m. Every night, on the last four nights, the perpetrators have caused heavy pain on, or around the right eye. Typically pain starts about two am. or it could have started earlier, but I wake for it this time. They keep me very sleepy, so I do not stay awake the whole night, although the pain is heavy. This means that the pain is just a side-effect of something they do for me while I am sleeping. Some victims have measured, small amount of ionizing radiation, which comes from their breathing. As opposite I have found that wearing some brands of earphones (Sony MDR-A44L, or Sony MDR -W24V) gives some relief from manipulation. This point into electromagnetic radiation . 7.3.2007 11.30 p.m. The perpetrators have done some torture on every day. I like to mention on second. March 3.33 p.m. I got "icing" the front head on the left side. Next day afternoon started a long pain on the right side of front head. It ended one a.m. on fourth of March night. On the next day six p.m. I got again freezing the left side of the head, and after torture on the right side of the front head. Fifth of March about 3.30 a.m. I woke up for a terrible headache, similar than "after sauna torture”, so they did something for me, while I was asleep. The headache ended soon after I woke up. Today the heavy pain on the right side of the head started about eight p.m., and ended about ten minute ago. There were no, trying to keep me awake, rather they have tried to keep me extremely sleepy. I have heard that we will have some more publicity next April. Unfortunately, just publicity does not solve our problem, if we do not get legal recognition of crime. Example from history: Contrary that majority of people believe, Washington Post Investigations and publicity on Watergate scandal, would have not had effect for President Nixon, if Senate had not established a Committee to investigate the Watergate scandal. Rather Washington post staff would have got some kind of revenge from Republican Party and President Nixon. On this forum, there is first my story, but after there is a very good description of gang stalking. Other good source of gang stalking is David Lawson’s book. 27.2.2007 11.13 p.m. Torture sessions started 25 February on 11.33 Pain on the right eye, three minutes after that some nausea, and around ten pm. torture on the left side of the head. A. day before yesterday - next night of previous, they did a very normal start of the week torture. I did sleep hour or two, anyway less than four hours. They used uncomfortable bed, and verbal manipulation, among other things to, keep me awake. Last night was very similar . They woke me up after one a.m. , and did not really let me sleep after. Before disturbing my sleep they have caused some shooting pains on my head, I believe, the purpose is someway to help them keep me awake. Today the shooting pains were on the left side of the head, about 11.10 p.m. 20.2. 2007 10.00 p.m. After going sleep, the high pitch female sounding voices tried to cause me a kind of voice allergy, similar they succeeded to cause on 4.1. 2007. I resisted by turning other side, so that my left ear is on side of the earth. So between one and one thirty a.m. they caused a short VERY LOUD VOICE, which I believe broke something on my left ear or brains. After this came tinnitus on the other ear too, and it is still continuing. Yesterday on night they caused a burn like pains on left side center of the head. This morning there were pains around the right eye, whole morning. So they have started a nearly continuous, more brutal style of torture. I did read another time The Washington Post story of electronic mind control. The writer of story is Sharon Weinberger, who is also the editor-in-chief of Defense Technology International. Beside her fixed view, that the only possibility is to mind control is to beam words into victim head, and ridicule of that ( without thinking of possibility of miniature implant ) , I found the other soft point on her story.It is that ,she did not understand, that she met people , that are victims of brain manipulation, and their perpetrators do their best, to get them look like a bunch of mentally sick people. Sharon Weinberger has also her own website, where are some more on stories she has written. The version of mind-control story is actually, better there. It is a better place for research. So I believe she did the best she can, and it is valuable, we get some publicity appreciated mainstream media, like Washington Post. 18.2.2007 8.53 p.m. There were verbal manipulation ,with occasional pains on head on every day last week. On 14. of February 1.29 p.m. they rehearsed cutting my memory. I did not remember my bank-account and some names. Today is probably the worst torture day of the week. The started pain - on, and around - the right eye before two p.m. and the pain is still continuing. Washington Post has made a story about victims of electronic mind control. It is quite honest to describe how the victims have gathered together. In her speculation, of possibility of electronic mind-control, the writer has completely left out of possibility of miniature implant in skull that would easily explain the impossibilities of electronic mind-control she points out. The writer finds that question is not mentally sick group of people, but fails to ask why there are no epidemic and other scientific studies of phenomena. After the end of story, there is a place for questions and comments about the article.The diverse comments on story reflects well how public is recently feeling of the situation. I hope Washington post keeps these comments archived , as they have historical value, and widen human understanding how groups feel , think and behave.

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11.2.2007 9.30pm. The worst day of torture on this week was Saturday, tenth February. There were continuous and partly very heavy pains on the right eye and on the right side of skull from after one to six pm. Chewing gum or actually chewing something helped me ease the pain, and disturbed their torture. Every day the perpetratorsn have done something. Example on night of eight February, they woke me up at 3.30 am. and started heavy verbal torture. Today, Just about hour ago, they also tried to kind of freeze part of my head on right side, to make writing more difficult and perhaps succeeded partially. Here a link to involuntary human experiments on prisons. According Rosie Rowbotham , there is at least one prison on each state, where there are involuntary illegal human experiments. The reason why they are possible, is that administration of legality is on the level of many developing countries, the police that does not investigate selected crimes , prosecutor does not prosecute selected criminals, and so on - the whole hierarchy of public servants, news-media, and members of parliament on the top of corruption. We used to call this type of countries banana republics although some of them have also, other exporting goods as bananas. 5.2.2007 10.40pm. There perpetrators caused pain on the right eye every day several hours. sometimes as 29. January it widened to right temple of the head. Fourth February they had after sauna torture before noon. This time they did some negotiations with me , and turned the headache machine off for a while. I learned that they could turn the headache on or of f just on a few seconds. On last night, five minutes after midnight they caused an image of a small circular object like dot on my view. The object was bright yellow with round black edge around. It moved up and down when I moved my head up and down, so it behave like a dot on the eyeglasses and not like a real object. on far away of eyes. After twinkling of an eye the image disappeared. If they want to make false pictures with this technique, they have a long way to travel. It is easy to difference between real object and image, simply by moving the head. If the object follow same place of view after turning the head, it is not real.If they did not purposedly built this image on my eye, they propably caused it simply by randomly irritading my brain. My right ear is hearing louder tinnitus, and it's hearing of people speech is more unclear. 28.1.2007 10.11pm. They caused occasional pains, mostly around and on the right eye. There were two very bad days, on night between 24 and 25 of January; they disturbed my sleep with verbal manipulation. On the next day Friday they caused pain on the right eye about a whole day. On general, the torture is again going to more painful direction. I have got into my hands Don R. Justesen old but excellent article, Microwaves and Behavior that I put link also on my homepage. Especially “microphone in the water" experiment gave me ideas what was all based: The authors suspended a microphone in a container of water that was radiated by pulsed microwaves at low-averaged densities of energy. The microphone delivered signals to an amplifier, the audio output of which was not unlike that "heard" by directly radiated human subjects. Since water changes density as its temperature is altered, the minuscule thermalizations produced in it upon absorption of the pulsed microwaves were sufficient to initiate small but detectable changes of hydraulic pressure. 21.1.2007 9.59pm. They did mainly verbal torture, only occasional pains on head , and lots of sleepy days. Now I have slept about adequate at night, and still I am sleepy on day, taking about 30 minutes, or longer naps at sitting position. I have found similar opinions about American future, I wrote earlier on eleventh January. Here some: Joseph Watson, from Prison Planet , Jan Allen on Peoples Voices, and JoyfulWalkers who has a Christian view on North American Union 11.1.2007 11.55pm. There was couple of easier days. However today afternoon 4.40pm they started Knife on the head torture, about center of my head. It also caused mild nausea. Torture ended on kind of freezing on the area that was tortured about six pm. Before that while I studied the concentration camps in United States, I found that there are similar camps in Canada too. This let me search more information, why both countries are making new large prison facilities? This is what I found: I try to translate it into English language:

North American Union (this was actually rewritten on 31 January 2007, after I lost accidentally contest of this day diary, while online contact with Internet)
The idea of North American Union is that Canada, United States and Mexico would have common market, free flow of labor and goods and common security forces. The goal is finally one currency and one legislative body what practically means one nation. The father of the idea is Robert Pastor.Robert Pastor is the chairman of the CFR- Task Force on North America .CFR means Council of Foreign Relations. It is United States power elite that Washington Post ombudsman Richard Harwood has described as “the nearest thing we have to a ruling establishment in the United States”. CFR ,with Mexico’s similar institution, Consejo Mexicano de Asuntos Internacionales and Canadian large corporation elite group Canadian Council of Chief Executives are forcing Usa, Canada and Mexico into North American Union. They have gathered together, several times, less or more secretly and formed The Independent Task Force on North America to integrate Mexico Canada and United States by year 2010. About twenty governments working groups is created spanning from a wide variety of issues ranging from e-commerce, to aviation policy and borders and immigration. The membership of

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the working groups has not been published, nor has their work product been disclosed, despite two years of massive effort within the executive branches of the U.S., Mexico and Canada. The last big closed-doors meeting of participants was on12-14 September 2006, Banf, Alberta. President Bush, Mexican President Vicente Fox and Canadian Prime Minister Paul Martin, signed Security and Prosperity Partnership agreement in Waco, Texas, on March 23, 2005. This all has done silent, without authorization of Parliament or Congress. Jerome Corsi article in Human events points clearly oddness of situation Later three leaders met in Cancun Summit where they mandated continued commitment towards the North American Union. How these massive piles agreements is possible to put successfully through three states legislative bodies in 2010 - the planned year of integration - while the contents of parliaments changes due the every new elections. The similar task in Europe did take around twenty years. I found one possible solution, and my other findings support probability of this solution. There are no elected bodies, but only military keeping the order. Behind the military is “Task Force on North America” or other similar power elite committee, giving the instructions to the military-junta. With this kind of govern the North American Union would became possibility before the target time year 2010. On the takeover, the security forces need then massive amount of concentration camp facilities, where they put political opposition. I believe the Homeland Security of United States, has made lists of people, and organizations that would cause trouble. They would be collected and transported into camps, before they can organize themselves, and cause any disorder. Later on they would be freed individually depending on their behavior. The unlisted people that cause trouble, is easy to catch later. Large cities have already formed groups to local harassing anyone who is on the way of the new order. These groups have rehearsed themselves for stalking ordinary and less ordinary people. . With electronic harassing equipment these groups they can eliminate practically anyone, without actually killing the person. The new high technology totalitarian state is very different than Nazi Germany or Soviet Union, although it has same basic functions. There is Homeland _Security to gather information of people. There are concentration camps ready to store opposition. There are stalking groups and electronic harassment methods to force opposition individual away for his living area, and force him to co-operate if he wants to live normal life. The fact that electronic harassment often start as ordinary stalking, and the fact that police does not interfere harassment anyway, means that there are central government silent support for these crimes.. Non lethal weapons which are just made to control crowds make possible new kind of “soft” control of groups and individuals without killing them. There would appear to public totally new kind of weapons, we would not even imagine. The Nazi Germany, had population control. The Arkansas forced vaccination rehearsal – where over 55 years old and disabled was separated for other folks - is a weak signal, that the new North American Dictatorship would have population control also. Another weak sign of population control is aerial spraying of unknown substances by jet plane. However instead of Hitler simply gassing of old people, new technologically advanced dictatorship would give example these unproductive people vaccine that shortens their lifespan average 10 years or so. It is very difficult for public to know and prove this , and this kind of operation would have effect of cutting of states pension costs, billions of dollars or Ameros, what is the planned name of the New North American States currency . Another view approach this question is ask what kind of crimes against humanity would happen in a country -after it transforms a totalitarian order - when there happen this kinds of crimes against humanity , while it still had at least semi-parliamentary order. Why I tell this to my public diary. I have a wish, that enough people get my notes to study these possibilities further. Perhaps they can prevent things happening. I know this is not likely happen, but there is only a small potential. The other more likely possibility is, that North American Union became reality, and before or after also military takeover will take place. Actually the most dangerous years are this and next year, before Bush leave his presidency, and he can”legally” use his emergency powers. So after the takeover, people who did read this diary know that I was able to predict this to happen. Perhaps it gives more attention for electronic mind control and torture victims suffering. 8.1.2006 5.17am. On diary note below, on fourth January the night ended, so that I was not able to sleep at all. Next couples of days were just occasionally pain on the side of the right eye. Yesterday the heavy torture started again. Before noon they started torture on the right eye and around it. 3.49 The pain changed to left side. About eight pm. they started "freezing" front head on both side. The first happened when I went to bed. They started the high pitch voice again, this time louder volume. The ear like went sensitive on this particular frequency, and on end It felt like a strong physical pain. This time I found that it was on left ear, and it is very directional. If I moved my head, they had to adjust it. So I turned to other side, so that my left ear was towards the bed. This helped this time. They have made my right ear half deaf about three years ago, that is perhaps, why they did not try same sound torture on the right ear. Instead they caused pains on the right ear, and also uncomfortable bed torture, which they tried to change my sleeping position so that the left ear was not on towards earth. Of course I did not sleep at all. I want to mention also that problem of dizziness that started 24. December has not ended. It would be permanent, that I have some trouble to stay full conscious on fast movement of head

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John Finch sends me mail, for his struggle to top his torture. I feel I serve him best, if I put them internet, so that in future, his suffering is not without proper attention. Similar torture of genitals he is suffering now, I had to suffer too when I was younger. When reading it one has to difference, that for victim, it is very easy to mix, what perpetrators are speaking ,they are doing, and how they are actually causing the effect. 4.1.2007 3.09am. Actually last night I got some sleep, after using earphones to stop their sound. Now on midnight they started a bit same kind of torture, using high pitch rather female voice, that repeated the same word, and caused some kind of resonance, that made me feel very uncomfortable. Actually I found that it is not human pronouncing words, but they use recordings, to repeat the same word. The resonance went away if I moved my head, but they were able to turn it on again under a minute. However, turning earphones very loud, I was able cut their, resonance, but I would not sleep. They caused also earache on the other ear, to get my earphones out. So this is continued until three am. For the morning, I hope I can sleep some time, but if they keep torturing, I have to stay awake all the night, and next day. Now is 3.32 am. After I put the text internet, they started to cause pain on the right eye. 3.1. 2007 3.12am. This night, I could not sleep at all. They are now causing chest pains – flamed hearts type - and about twenty minutes ago there was high pitch voice and sound, that however ended for a couple of clicking sounds, after the head felt just different Actually the heavy torture started yesterday 3.41pm. on torture on the right eye, that on times went also on right temple of the head, and is continuing now also. Verbal torture is the entire time active, and the volume is just so heavy I cannot stop it with Morse coding. So I feel I cannot sleep this night. 28.12.2006 11.16pm. It was quite peaceful start of the week, except today. They caused pains on left side of the head, example on 26.12.2006 . 3.17pm. The torture was on left side middle of the head. There was similar torture on left side of the head, every day for a while. Today the torture started just different and aggressive manner. In the morning about 6 am. or earlier they caused tickle on the back of head, that along with verbal torture made me impossible to sleep. After nine am. I got however couple of hours sleep. On the afternoon 2.39pm. they started causing pain left side,front of the head. On 6.14 pm. There was torture on the left side, back of the head also. 9.10pm. the torture became more painful. They started to cause shooting pains left, back of the head, with kind of synchrony with their verbal torture. Now there are occasional shooting pains. The totalitarian government in USA is getting ahead with National Defense Authorization Act (NDAA) of 2007 which president has signed into law. On October 17. 2006. More about forced vaccianation I wrote on 31.10.2006. I have learned that US- army had forced vaccination drill in Harrison, Arkansas on June 14 2006. Troops arrived with Helicopter and Humvees, and used infrared scanners to hunt down those who did not co-operate. Later on people were divided into three groups: Under age 40, 40-55 years old, and over 55 years old or disabled. I guess in the real situation, every group gets the vaccine that is designed for this specified age, and ability group. 24.12.2006 11.02pm. End of the Christmas Eve. They have not done much torture today, mostly just verbal torture, and some mild headache on the forehead at noon. I even slept quite well. The last week was just different. As general, dizziness, and sensation of turning round has continued, especially, after fast move of head or body. They caused pains on the right temple of the head on night 17th. December. They also caused some fever There is a note that torture is getting heavier on 1.30am. but I have not any note, when it ended. There was similar torture on 3.44am on 19th December, but worst of all, there was also a sudden, very heavy electric shock between 4.30 and 4.45 am. If I remember right, this knocked me on back of the head. The pains on the right temple of the head continued very similar until 23. December when they started occasional shooting pains on the right temple on 23 December at 1.09 am. There was a sudden burst of strong shooting pains. Once a while, they had also other forms of torture like restless legs, sticks under nails torture etc. The whole week I got sleep less than four hours of day average. On the End today’s diary a link for human experiment web-site, I found last week. It has a very good history of criminal human experimenting. On the end of history where the author has chapter "OVERT HARASSMENT", he speaks about stalking and electronic harassment. When one compares this text to text on raven1 site, he gets a better picture of situation. Electronic harassment comes often after ordinary stalking harassment, and there are usually same powers behind the both forms of harassments

16.12.2006 10.56 pm. On ninth December, they showed a "movie", from a long time. It was about stones and death, message that I should not move stones. They are doing something on the nape of my neck, while I am sleeping. It causes dizziness and sensation of turning round while I am waking up. It takes often over a minute, before I am able to read numbers of the alarm clock. It is not natural cause, because they showed me, that they can do it anytime they want. Besides

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of sensation of turning round , it causes feeling of fever and some nausea for a short time. The nape of the neck also feels different all the day. The first time they did this was ninth December 8.15 am. After then one or more times of day, example night on 15 December 0.20 after midnight and about 3.40 am. They have kept my sleeping time also less than four hours for day, although last night I slept more. On tenth. December there were a pains on left side of chest. The female voices gave this torture awesome name”flamed hearts". I thought first it originated from some dish, but l after search with Google, I learned , that it was a title of the book. I hear also continuing tinning on the right ear. I kind of experimented, with possibility of US-military takeover information that I wrote on this diary on seventh December, by telling about it, and showing some evidences of the planned concentration camps for my friends. I got actually nobody convinced of the danger of the situation. Most of people believed, that military coup is "too far out" and there are some" natural" explanations of building these concentration camps. I believe that there exists some information, that is impossible to communicate by ordinary people, and this is an example of it. Similarly information about existence of electronic mind-control weapons, is very difficult to communicate, not regarding what ever evidence the victims have. The truth of Jews mass-murder in Hitler Germany did not came public before end of the war, because no authority told it, and ordinary people stories were not believable, cause that they were "too far out", what people would believe, is possible. Last year After Tsunami on Thailand, many Finnish people phoned to Finnish embassy, but did not get appropriate reaction, because it was "too far out" of what has happened before. People cannot react logically extraordinary situation, and is difficult to get them believe the information, before it comes for "official" sources. I wish that when truth of electrical mind control weapons comes public my, and other victims, problems to communicate, will come subject of scientific research and studied in textbooks of communication science and semiotics. Authorities can tell Nuclear weapons in Iraq that do not exist, and people believe their falsified evidences, but if there is no authority, and mainstream media, majority of people does not believe the information about electronic mind control weapons ,not regarding evidences and amount of victims writers have gathered. I somehow feel these readers do not practice individual thinking, but let the difficult thinking for those professionals, who get paid for it. Ready made thought, from a good brand media, is safe and easy to adopt. However I happy that there are groups, who do difficult and dangerous task to get the message for people. I found that this list of links is better, than I have found before, even it does not include my site. 7.12.2006 8.07pm. Yesterday was Finland's Independence Day. For me, the last night was just pain, I did not sleep at all. My perpetrators celebrated the Finnish Independence day by torturing me. The night before the Independence Day night, I was able to sleep hour or two. The pain was day before yesterday, on left front of the skull. There were also occasional back pains or actually “electric feeling” on back, and stick under nails torture. The Independence Day started pain on the right eye, about quarter after noon. It ended on afternoon, but on midnight they started knife on the head torture. The feeling of ”knife" was on this time, also on the left side, front of the head, about the same place, they have tortured day before. Later on there were pains on the back of the head, near neck, and ear pains. I did not sleep at all. Torture continued today morning; I got also some nausea today, before noon. While I tried to find more information about mysterious polluting truck convoys that travel across America, I found another mysterious thing. America is speedy building a large of detainment camps facilities, around the country. I checked the story from several sources, and I found it is true. Most camps are ready to use, there are guards, only not yet prisoners. Now there are about 600 camps ready. Average size of camp is about 20000 prisoners. That makes together about 12 million people, which are planned to live on these camps. It is about two and half times of Finland's population. Interesting detail is that "mental health facility" - that is built on outside Fairbanks, Alaska - can hold two million people. Is United States expecting 2 million more "mentally sick" person in near future? The official explanations for these camps are that these are for the next unexpected flow of Immigrants, from somewhere, or that they are for the case of natural disasters in USA. Actually some of these camps are used to house victims of Hurricane Katrina. On information I have got, people housed these camps found that they have to live like prisons, sexes separated and several cases their relatives have not been able give them any food or gifts. So, they are used to piloting, how the control could be forced on camps. The camps are guarded by Federal Emergency management Agency FEMA. Although mainstream media has kept silence the presence and the dimensions of detainment camps construction, many writers of alternative media have written about them. Most of their conclusions are same as mine. The detainment or prison camps are construct and planned to house American Citizens. Nobody does this kind of expensive construction without purpose.The most probably situation where need arise, to put 12 million people in to prison camps, is after ( slow or fast) military takeover. Usually the lists of names that are first put in detention, are made a long before the takeover. I am not the only person who thinks military takeover is possible in USA. Also retired General Tommy Franks, see military takeover in USA, as one possibility near future. Most of the military coup's I remember are successful. I remember best the ones of Greek , and Chile. Both of them them, civilians were totally unaware, that such things could happen in their democratic country, and "their" soldiers could do such things for them. Actually the resistance is very difficult ,in situation when the soldiers are out on the streets. The successful

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blocks of military takeover, usually happen, before the actual coup is scheduled to take place. But to block future coming military takeover, people have to know, and trust that such coup could come in near future. I feel this was not case in Chile or Greek, and it is not case now in the United States. Even if people are aware of situation, the possibilities, to prevent coming takeover are not great, but there are very much more possibilities than later, after the takeover. As often before, the future is now in hands of the wise men, who look on the situation, and do something else than nothing.

3.12.2006 9.50pm. It was mostly verbal torture on start, and short periods of pains here and there until 27-28 of November, when they cut my sleep for about 4 hours for day. 30 of November they started torture on and around the right eye. The torture on the right eye started 6.10am and expanded on back of the head on the right side, before it ended about noon. The first and second December, were basically similar, except that there was also the restless legs torture. Last night there were partly heavy torture on the right eye, it ended about two hours before noon. I got mild nausea on the morning, but not actual after Sauna torture. I got some glues on itching of the hands, I described last note (22.11.2006). I found that the itching was connected to my traveling work to home. There was raining, and lot of moisture on the air. It looks like, the moisture on skin, wet hands, could make them possible to cause itching. So only difference of the heat effect I described on 8.10.2006, is that they do not cause feel of warming, but itching, and they do not do it other leg this time, but for both hands. Because both tricks are done, when the skin is wet, I believe that they need the moisture on the victims skin, to get their trick working. I am not that familiar of physics and biology, that I would solve the puzzle, but perhaps these loose ends, helps somebody to get the right answer. I have got rumors. There is one of the texts: One Patriot broadcaster with such contacts claims there are "smoky trucks" mobile crematoria - which operate in convoy with prison cell trucks to take these disappear-ees to remote areas in Canada to dispense with them. Resistance was alleged to have interfered with one of these smoky truck convoys heading to Canada in July. I try to find out about this smoky trucks story, what is more probably true, and what is just a theory of why. I think the convoys of smoky trucks that heads towards Canada, exist. I think is possible that for the fact that trucks cause a lot of smoke and mysterious convoys (why convoys?), somebody has got the idea, that these are actually mobile crematoriums. The reason I am not sure the whole story is true, is that I cannot find any reason why the ash of burned corpses has to transport to Canada, why not disperse it to nearest lake or river ? So I have another theory "my own". The truck convoys are actually carrying ballistic missiles with nuclear heads. This explains why the trucks move on convoys, and why they are going to Canada. In case of nuclear attack, truck convoys which are moving all the time, and are very difficult to destroy. There is just one question, why smoke? It is possible to get more power out of diesel engine, by trimming the fuel pump, on side effect, the engine comes polluting, and gives up heavy black smoke. Here in Finland, Police would stop such truck, and fine the owner of vehicle. So this is my theory, the truth would be something just different. 22.11.2006 5.26am. On The last week, heaviest torture was on between 18-20 of November. Saturday night there was after Sauna torture. The headache diminished soon after I woke up on the Sunday afternoon. On 20 of November they started torture on the right eye after nine am. Torture lasted until noon. Same evening they started a new form of torture, heavy itching on both hands. It started quarter after seven pm on Monday, and lasted about ten minutes. The same happened yesterday, the only difference was that the itching started ten minutes to seven pm. and stopped about seven pm. I did some photos on my hands, in case the torture continues, and they will change on look. Also my sleep last night was shorter than usual, althought actual start of the week torture it was not. 14.11.2006 9.47pm. On the last week I suffered mostly verbal torture, with only occasional pains. Yesterday it changed. They caused nausea and got me "fast sleep", last night. In morning 7am. I got torture on the right temple of the head. 9.37 am. Torture on left temple of the head. Two o’clock pm. over 4.14 pm. torture on the left side back of the head. 6.11 pm. backache. Around eight pm. torture on the center of the head. I have found that Pandemic vaccine Tamiflu, drug that was developed by Gilead Sciences would cause delirium, hallucinations etc., and is linked at least three deaths for that far. There is the complaint form

6.11.2006 10.51pm. Torture on the right eye, has started again. First November Torture started on the right eye at 0.30 am and finished 5.30 am. Second November torture started sometimes at night, and finished after 6.30 am. Third November I have no notes on my diary. Fourth November there was torture on left side of the head, on the afternoon 2.14pm. Fifth November torture on the right eye started 3.43am., and continued very heavy until three pm. There were pains also right side of the neck and some headaches on the right side of the head. Today there were backache on morning, and pain on the right eye started about ten pm. and it is continuing. For Bush administration involvement on medical industry, I found that Rumsfeld had shares of company (Gilead Sciences Inc) that developed the pandemic vaccine. Although the vaccine is produced by other companies, Gilead Sciences (and Donald Rumsfeld) gets some money for all the vaccines sold.

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31.10.2006 4.14am. The third day they have started to cause pain on the right eye on night. Yesterday they started two am. This night 1.30 am. I have not got enough sleep for three days, and it causes some problems. The effect is same as start of the week torture, but it is done a bit different way. On Sunday the pain ended around noon, but yesterday and now it ended after I woke up. Yesterday 5 am, and now 4am. I have got also some problems the shield I use at night, that is not helped the general situation. I have learned that there is a forced smallpox vaccination program in America. The idea could be simply sell vaccination, but it also could be something else. I would be beware of the situation People should have power to decide what vaccination they take. I will try to get more information what is happening, and Americans should do same. For this moment I have learned that also aspartame sweetener could cause health problems. Hopefully the bible story of mark of the beast will cause some resistance.

26.10.2006 10.43pm. Today they started heavy torture again. Torture started with pain around the right eye at ten am. At eleven the pain was all the right temple of the head. 1.42 pm. The torture continued and started to cause changes on facial expression on the right side. 3.52pm. The torture goes worse , the ache has spilled all over the right side of the head, and I feel on the neck on right side, how they are blocking the blood circulation. 4.04 pm started torture also back of the left side of the head. 4.39pm. the pain started to ease, and later ended. The perpetrators gave the explanation for their torture with their typical code-language: "You have started to eat, we had to stop it".

22.10.2006 10.43pm. The typical torture on the last week was a shooting pain left side back of the head. The last torture I made a note was today 4.58 pm. Pain was left side and back of the head. There is a one typical web talk about gang stalking, that is name the electronic harassment victims have started use of that phenomenon. Please, read also the New Scientist story related subject.

16.10.2006 1.00am. The bad days on the last week were Saturday and Sunday. After I got sleep on Friday, torture on the right eye started at night someday. It ended Saturday about 7.40 am. This was right eye pain from a long time. Apparently their "eye mirror" is not yet working properly. On the afternoon pains started 4.51pm. off the left side, back of the head. About seven thirty pm. the pains was on right side front of the head. Nine thirty, pain ended, except when I was coughing. They got me unconscious,”fast sleep" before I got full protection around my head, so they did a "after sauna torture”, I had sauna this night. The headaches continued over noon and after a little pause started pains again on the right temple of the head. It actually ended about six pm. They did also verbal threatening before noon. They said I will not be as good on mathematics next week as before, also they said they did change something on my personality definitely etc - true or not. 10.10.2006 3.07am. Start of the week torture. They let me sleep hour or two and begin then the start of the week torture to get me into tired condition, which they like to manipulate me. They used mostly restless legs and uncomfortable bed torture, and the verbal torture to keep me awake. I guess there is no point to try to sleep rest of the night. Yesterday I got some more sleep, but not the normal sleep. 8.10.2006 10.44pm The days are pretty similar. Yesterday Torture started when I woke up. In the morning there was pain on left side center on the head. It continued over four hours. In the afternoon there was itching on the right side on the head, like somebody sticking small nails on the head. 5.40pm started torture on the center of the head. What is different is that torture on the right eye has stopped. On their words, they have got”the eye-mirror" finished. Also "cutting up my head to pieces" is almost finished - whatever it means. I have learned that Google search with words mind control electronic gives just 36 million hits, when a few months ago, I got 53 million hits. I hope they have made the cut from duplicates. I am reading Michael Sweeney’s Professional Paranoid website. He has made a pretty good list for symptoms on the victims of mind control: o Headaches, dizziness, drowsiness, wooziness, dissorientation, distorted spatial perception, blackouts, seeing stars, tunnel vision, temporary blindness, audio tunnel or echo (akin to taking laughing gas in a dentist's chair.) o Sensations (whole body or localized, including roof of mouth, fingers, limbs, sexual organs) such as tingling, numbness, burning, vibration or throbbing which is asynchronous (not at the same rate) to heart beats, or general aches and pains, metallic taste in roof of mouth, itching teeth, and so forth. Uncontrolled stimulus-free sexual stimulation and orgasm are not uncommon. Vibrations or pulses at the base of the neck, temples, or sinus areas. (almost slow enough to count beats per second, typically 8-15 counts.) o Racing heart (palpitations,) erratic heart beat, chest pains, difficulty breathing, unexplained hyperventilation, tight chest, tight stomach, cramps, irregularity. o Sore muscles/cramps, unresponsive muscles, jerking muscles, convulsions, shakes, jitters.

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o Memory lapses, faulty recall, inability to concentrate, dramatic mood swings, momentary dyslexia, short term and long term memory problems, false memories of events that don't seem possible, but which seem extremely real. o Ringing, clicks, buzzes, or other in-head sounds, possibly voices (see below,) ear aches, ear emissions. o Sleep disorders, strange dreams, night sweats, hot/cold sensations, bed sores. o Unexplained mood swings, generally for the worse, or ìyo-yoî in nature, such changes being noted by others, typic-ally, the victim generally not aware. o Bleeding of gums, nose, ear, blood in urine, fecesÖ generally long term effects indicating use of lethal attack levels and suggesting immediate medical attention is warranted (don't discuss belief of MC attacks with Doctor.) o Long-term exposure may result in loss of weight, dry skin or discoloring, unexplained burns/blisters, loss of hair, loss of appetite, eating disorders, continual irregularity, cancer, leukemia, and likely, and disease symptoms associated with full or partial organ failures (again suggesting lethal attacks.) As Sweeney points out , every of the symptoms, would have alternative explanation. We have to watch the collection of the symptoms.For the list, I would like to add several tricks that a connected to heat. The other leg is very worm, and other is not. This expecially if your legs are wet. Also the class on your hand , would feel suddenly very hot etc. I feel that these are just sensations of body - the glass is not hot in reality.

5.10.2006 1.23am. A kind of routine torture and manipulation. The worst day of torture, on last week was Sunday, the first October. Torture started 1.27am. with headache above the right eye. Torture on right eye on different versions continued over 10 hours after noon. 2.50 pm. Started Itching on left side of the head, and 3.24 it changed on right side of the head. 6.37pm. They did electrical "changing subject" trick. I was thinking UNIX training, when they started to speak another subject. When I tried to continue thinking the UNIX training subject, I found that everything I was planning was wiped out of my memory. Actually they do this trick many times for day, especially when I thing subject they are not familiar with. I just want to tell this one for the case of the record. They want to be able to understand, everything I am thinking, and if not they simply cut my thinking, and wipe out the memory 26.9.2006 10.27pm. There were occasional tortures every day. The pain was sometimes left, sometimes right side, or middle of the head. Yesterday they started to torture middle of the day, and make my working very difficult. Yesterday 10.50am for example there were pains on back of the head right side. Today the torture went heavier. In the morning, at 6.11am. they started with pains on the right eye. Around noon they started verbal teasing, and 4.30 pm. while I was working, there were Knife on the head torture on center of the front head. It has continued with kind of pinching and freezing feeling on the forehead, which is still continuing. Before eight pm. there were also some troubles with movements’ coordination, I dropped things .and tried to open door with wrong key etc. After nine pm. I was however able to eat without problem. Now they are making me very sleepy, to stop my writing short, however I will put this on internet tonight, whatever they do for me. 17.9.2006 11.06pm. Day on 11.9 continued. 10.32am. Torture on the neck on right side. 3.32 pm. Torture on the neck, on both sides 4.24pm. Torture on the back of the head, on right side. 6.48 pm. Itching on the center of the head. Headache on the forehead. The rest of the week was similar, except it was more peaceful, because I was very tired. Today in the morning, they caused a headache, as they threatened to do on yesterday. They turned it down to a mild headache, after I complained about it. In the afternoon torture started left on back of the head, but soon turned to front head on both sides 8.21pm. This is continuing. The feeling is not headache, but rather feeling like somebody is pinching on several places on the forehead, on the same time. I got a new, a very good mind-control article. This is the rest of the article. I will put it somewhere, when I have time. I got also rumors, that there are resistance movements, on inside the US- army, and several disappearances in USA. Difficult to say, how much these rumors hold truth. 11.9.2006 0.22am. They have done Knife on the head torture. They were also torturing the neck, it causes a general headache, and neck ache, and freezing feeling on the head. The last note, about neck torturing, was 6.48pm. but I remember that it continued until they put me "fast sleep" after 8.30pm. I found documentary Dash-I-Leili mass murder from Internet, and watched it. The United States army was involved with the genocide of 3000 Taliban. The watching the film takes about 50 minutes. 10.9.2006 10.53pm. Very heavy knife on the head torture, on center of the skull. It causes also nausea. It started a moment ago. It looks like 3000 people genocide on Dash-I-Leili , was just one example a series of similar genocides. 9.9.2006 6.16pm. On 4.9. evening there were general headaches on the front head. Other wise the torture is mostly on the right side of the head. On the seventh September, in the morning I had also a mild nausea. There were pretty often occasional Sticks under nails torture or restless legs torture. Yesterday 4.05pm. they did both about same time.This is relatively rare. Today they started torture on right temple on the head and this continued for a long afternoon. The pain was not massive, but enough to incapacitate all my activities. As a new form of torture, on this week, they have started to cause

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a pain to the back of the right ear. It is like somebody is pressing a very hard on finger on the side of the ear, so that no blood will flow. They did this last night about 1.04am and again afternoon on 4.10pm. for example. I am investigating with internet, about 3000 Afghans genocide, by US. backed Northern Allies near Dash-I-Leili on Afghanistan, year 2001. People were put on closed containers, which were carried to desert, where they were people left until the heat and the lack of oxygen killed them. The news of this was not censored everywhere, and it was on some of the newspapers. But what happened these mass-murderers? I do not find any news. Did the US, forces had knowledge of the genocide? Why is not Afghan "Milosevic" on International Criminal Tribunal, like Bosnia’s Milosevic on similar genocide? I do not find any news, for arresting guilty. To being myself tortured, and my human rights violated, has made me sensitive also for other human rights violations. Others sufferings understand much deeper when one has suffered himself. The injustice that others have gone through, understands much, if one has itself gone through injustice. 2.9.2006 11.29pm. Thursday night they showed me a movie. It was a comical cartoon. I spoke with my perpetrators, about the ovie and they said it was not a cartoon. Then I tried to remember the movie, I did not remember any color of it, not any faces. I do remember something what happened. The movie was about person, who loved old computers, and it was a funny movie. So what is the difference from ordinary dream, and movie? The dream is always about myself, the latest movies are from person I do not know. There are also other differences. My opinion is that they have a technique to cause and control persons dreams, but how much they can control, I do not know. Anyway I did not have a headache, like their early movies. I have a theory that the horror story on 27.8. 2006 , was unsuccessfull try to show a movie. On any case the problems with coordination , nausea, and the fever were real. Today started with torture on the right side of the head. On daytime it was more general itching, but now pain is continued on the right eye, or around the right eye 7.36pm. to now without any break. On 7.04pm There was sticks under nails torture. 27.8.2006 9.03am. Yesterday started very normal way. They tortured the right side on front in the morning. At eleven there were itching on the center of the head, that move left side at one afternoon. Before five there were pains on the center of the head, and it moved also left side 5.41pm on my notes. Then they get me very sleepy a "fast sleep". I did not protect myself the way, I usually do, so I got headache on the forehead 4.33 am. I put the dishwasher on, but then they got me "fast sleep" again while sitting on the chair. When I woke up 6.43am. I got very heavy nausea, and fever. I barely was able to walk the bed. Now when I woke up, the fever is gone. I have a bit trouble to keep my balance when walking, and I have a kind of headache, or actually odd feeling on the neck, so this was the area , they did something. On their words they did try to take out my "hate". Actually what they did, was that they made my walking and moving more difficult, hopefully just temporary. 22.8.2006 9.41pm. I slept perhaps hour last night. When I awake I felt like a line of needles had put center my skull, front to back. The head was also a kind of freeze. By chewing chewing-gum I got the freeze partly out, but the feeling of needles stayed long. Actually most of last night, I chew the gum and did Morse-code to resist their manipulation speech, that was accompanied with torture. On the day there was verbal torture most of the day, with some pains on the head like pain on center of the head 10.57 am. and a very heavy twinge pain at front of left temple of the head on 5.02pm. 22.8.2006 1.44am. Maybe the worse start of the week torture for a long time. For everything I can feel, they try to keep me awake the whole night. They do it basically by freezing the area center of the head. I feel besides the pain, also a kind of shrinking feeling. They support their physical torture with a very heavy verbal torture, and also stick under nails torture. I feel I am not very spirited tomorrow at work. 20.8.2006 11.25pm. On the last week, the most typical torture was slashing pain on back of the head, left, or right at random times. The pain was similar as pain with sunstroke. On last week, there were all kinds of torture, even sticks on the nails, and restless legs torture example 17.8. 3.37 pm. Today however it was mostly pain in the right side of the head, that started weak about noon, came stronger and more painful, before it ended around seven pm. for a ringing noise on the ear, that made the pain kind of dull, and finally ended it. Later on the night at 10 pm. they made me for a "fast sleep”. I have found that there are two ways they make the victim fast unconscious. Now this was the one, when coming back for consciousness happen normal way. On the other kinds of "fast sleep" the victim finds that he is breathing fast, like he had been under water for several minutes. On the media I read the interesting comment from recent terror thread on London Heathrow airport. Craig Murray suggests that the alleged terror plot was actually just a part of next election campaigns on USA and United Kingdom. These are part of Craig Murray's points:” None of the alleged terrorists had made a bomb. None had bought a plane ticket. Many did not even have passports, which given the efficiency of the UK Passport Agency would mean they couldn't be a plane bomber for quite some time. In the absence of bombs and airline tickets, and in many cases passports, it could be pretty difficult to convince a jury beyond reasonable doubt that individuals intended to go through with suicide bombings, whatever rash stuff they may have bragged in internet chat rooms. What is more, many of those arrested had been under surveillance for over a year - like thousands of other British Muslims. And not just Muslims. Like me. Nothing from that surveillance had indicated the need for early arrests. Then an interrogation in Pakistan revealed the details of this amazing plot to blow up multiple planes - which, rather extraordinarily, had not turned up in a year of surveillance. Of course, the interrogators of the Pakistani dictator have their ways of making people sing like canaries. As I witnessed in Uzbekistan, you can get the most extraordinary information this way. Trouble is it always tends to give the interrogators all they might want, and more, in a desperate effort to stop or avert torture. What it doesn't give is the truth.” Whatever is the truth, I believe the coming elections have a great part of timing the arrests. The bad thing is that airlines and ordinary people has to pay the costs of these kind of pre-election scare campaign .

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15.8.2006 11.10pm. Last week the most typical torture was pain on the right eye. It happened every day, usually in the morning. The worst torture was at ninth August ,on night between Tuesday and Wednesday, I slept then only two hours. Now the most typical torture is occasional heavy shooting pain on back of the head, usually on right, or on left, very seldom on the middle. Also itching on the center of the head is very typical. I have just realized, that they had woke up me about two am. , nearly every night for faked natural reasons. I realized that yesterday,when I suddenly was able to sleep the whole night. I am afraid, the kind of more peaceful moment now ,is only temporary. They are planning something new for me. 6.8.2006 6.43pm. A. kind of heavy manipulation continues. Pain on the right eye started about 6 am. and continued after noon. Five minutes before one pm. started itching on the center of the head. There were heavy verbal manipulation and they started to increase pressure. I asked to "low voltage", and my surprise it worked, and they drop down their "hook", they have got somewhere on the manipulation. Otherwise the whole think would have stop to a headache. This was a second time when asking to "lower voltage" worked; perhaps there is some kind of controller somewhere. The verbal manipulation still continued heavy, and 4.21pm. started shooting ,or oscillating pain on back of the head, right side. Just a moment ago perhaaps 6.55 pm. there were similar pains on the left side back of the head. 5.8.2006 5.47pm. The start of the week was more silent. The torture became more frequent end of the week. The pain or itching is also more often somewhere else than near of the right eye, it was on the spring. Itching on the center of the head, on morning is maybe the most frequent form of the torture. This is what happened yesterday fourth of August, which was the worst day of the week, probably today excluded: The torture started before six am. with pain on the left, back of the head. My vocabulary was freeze; I had difficulty work with words. They explained that they will cut my ability to speak, if they have to some reason free me. It really worked temporary, they call this torture hair grease, and it made difficult to express myself with words. I got the head working with Morse-code, and they let me sleep some hours. I woke up about eleven, and the pain on the right eye started on the same time. At. 8.40pm. the pain was on the center of the right side of the head. 10.53pm. They started irritate the center of the head that they usually do in the morning. 11.02 There were shrinking and freezing feeling on the right front of the head, where usually is pain in the morning. Today the torture started on the right eye on 10.20am. Itching on the center of the head started 1.26pm. I made a bloq search with words mind control electronic, about thirty thousand blogs. 29.7.2006 11.47pm. There were a couple of more silent days. Yesterday 28.7 was otherway normal day, exept that in the morning 10.22am. they caused extremely heavy sudden headache, which caused also nausea and pain in the stomach. It was over after half of hour or so, but it was very frightening. Today they did knife on the head torture on the right temple of the head, for awakening until about eight pm. Nearly twelve hours of torture. I have found a study, which gives a good insight of US. Foreign policy, expecially for foreigner.The lobbying tactic of AIPAC, gives reasons, why US support Israel in most situations. If Jews pay most of the politicians campaign contributions, they are able to ask politician decisions they want also. There are no free lunches, in politics for a long term . The reason why I put the link here, is that my perpetrators, are kind of sensitive for it, I am not sure if they are manipulating me to put this link, or manipulating me not to put this link, so I feel that knowledge is never bad, and so I put the link. 24.7.2006 5.43am. They are causing heavy itching a bit left, near center of the skull. The pain is not heavy, but it cause, a really odd feeling on the head. 22.7.2006 1.29am. Yesterday, I woke up normal way. I am sure that the sore body on thursday 20.7 morning was not natural, but caused by them. Yesterday’s day of torture: 5.33am. Pain on the right eye 8.37am. itching front head on left. 12.35 afternoons. They are Irritating front head on left. 6.24pm. Headache on the front of the head, very similar like "After Sauna Torture". 7.54pm. Headache continues also restless legs torture. Now, 22.7 1.38am. Headache has moved around the right eye. They made me "fast sleep", around 9pm. but I was able to protect my head. 20.7.2006 9.58pm. Pain on the right eye started about three am. In the morning it had moved on the front, of the right temple of the head. I am not sure, if I slept at all, after three am. I was very tired, and whole of the body felt sore. I feel they did artificially this pain on the whole body. Torture mostly ended about 8.50 am. Now Itching of the head, showed some torture starting signs, when I travailed from work to home. I hope it does not mean a new night of torture. 18.7.2006 10.26pm. Pain on the right eye continued in the morning 8.am or so. In the afternoon. 1.35pm. they paralyzed the left side front of the head. About 2.00pm They made very a fast and freeze of front head when I was speaking. I was able to finish the sentence, but I could not continue, because I temporary lost my memory. 3.33pm. they paralyzed the center of the head, and again on 4.55pm. About 7.30pm-. they caused pain on the left side of my chest which I feel came from heart. Next freeze was 8.36pm on the left side. Their verbal speech today, was full of indirect threats. 18.7.2006 1.45am. They are causing pain on the right eye. 17.7.2006 8.10pm. The torture back of the head continued until afternoon, with verbal torture. 3.50pm. they started to cause freezing and shrinking feeling on the front head with occasional twinge on front of left temple of the head. 5.12pm. they

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started headache on the front head, which is now easing, but still occasional twinges on left side. 17.7.2006 6.11am. Torture continued through the night, and the pain is still there. I was not able to sleep at moment this night. 17.7.2006 2.27am. It looks like for revenge from yesterday's writing they have started start of the week torture again. They have done two hours knife on the head torture. The spot they torture is rather back of the head and on the left side of the head. Could be that they did not like publisize ,that they accepted my torture diary, as a source of their feedback. Also they were afraid that their ip-address could found on the server log, and this way is possibly somebody finds who they are. I just hope all the horrible torture that was my on life was about three year ago does not come back. Of course is possible that the torture was planned and my writings are just pretext to start it. 16.7.2006 7.26am. The torture I described 14. July ended soon after I put the text Internet. So perhaps there is some regulatory organ somewhere who reads my diary. It does not, however try to stop torture, but rather keep it some limits on it. It has helped me anyway, there are more seldom "start of week torture" and "after sauna torture" than before I started to keep diary. Other possibility ,than a regulatory body, is that my perpetrators are simply a bit ashamed to read public source what crimes they are committing. Anyway they did last night, what possibly was left done on Friday. The same pain and same feeling of wound started about four am. They spoke about scatter plot from part of the brain.They said also, that I lost some memory for every plot, so it is destructive plotting. On the last week ,the night between Wednesday and Thursday was a time of their experiment, which I feel that should be told. All started pain on the front right side of the head. At midnight I was short of breathing, and I was extremely sensitive for smells, so I would have thought there is some gas in the room. On the next day, I had a small headache. I was very tired, and my legs and hands were sore, like after long run or other heavy athletic exercise. One would have impression of gas experiment, but my guess is that, they actually intervened my breathing somehow. It was very similar of some "gas" experiment; they did while I was in Canada 1980. 14.7.2006 9.30pm. A sudden heavy torture started a five minutes ago. The pain is on the right side, front of the head, and the feeling is like somebody had made an open wound on the head with an axe or an other sharp object.. 10.7. 2006 4.53pm. Torture on the right eye started 5.37pm. yesterday and continued about 4.40am. Other words it stopped15 minutes ago. Torture was some time very heavy ,and changed my facial expression on the right side of face, and caused also toothache kind of pain on the right side. I am not sure, if I slept at all, last night. 8.7.2006 9.50pm. The pain on this week has moved left side of the head. There were also much "sticks under nails" torture and “restless legs” torture on the start of the week. Yesterday on seventh July was the worst day of torture on this week. The torture started 9.43am. on the left side of the head, moved 10.30 on the right side back of the head, a kind of pulsing pain. On the afternoon 3.38pm. they started chest pains, on the left side. I guess they made it by causing real heart-trouble, or just imitating it with pain that feels like heart trouble. Their verbal torture warned about poisoning. The day ended sticks under nails torture that started 10.45pm. Today the pain on chest started again 12.30 noon, and they started again itching the scalp. Later on, the pain that feels like open wound, opened on the left front of the head, when in the past month it usually has opened on the right front of the head. The pain on the chest ended on afternoon. I am not sure if it was a real physical experiment, or designed just to make me nervous, or both. Their indirect code- verbal message was "we ate some elk-meat today". I guess it was designed with psychological team, just like most of their ”code speech” , that usually has not much to do what really happen but is designed to make up the victims mind what happen, or how things are. However the chest pain was a kind of message or warning, that they would kill me whenever they want, or feel it is economical, without any punishment or real investigation from outside society. I inserted the Google search with words mind control electronic, in the front of mind-control pages. If the person who reads this, has the l ability to make logical decisions, he finds that the topic that most of the media has kept quiet, wont have over fifty million Google hits, without that a large amount of people has experienced the topic personally. Example the Google search much publicized topic like UFO has just 18 million hits. Search with words UFO abductions has just over one and a half million hits. Unfortunately most of the people do not practice logical thinking, but a kind of "analog thinking" If news is printed on Washington Post , it is true, especially if CNN has the same news. They judge the reliability of news from the news media that carry it. I guess the same people judge quality of product, from its brand. Without internet and search machines one could have more difficulties to prove that media distribute the news on their own interest and their owners interest, and their advertisers interest, rather than interest of people. If I had time, I would like to investigate this. I have even designed "news media rejection indicator" that simply counts all pages of investigated topic that can be found on Internet search divided by the mainstream media pages that can be found on the Internet with same search. Month ago my pages on Google search were about 150th. Now I cannot find my pages at all from the results of the search. Actually it is not just a bad thing, a writer with more fluent English , would perhaps better convince the people about seriousness the situation. How ever I would like to get the point that there are over 50 million hits with Google search, known to as many people as possible. I feel, it can really convince those who make their own judgments, that the mind control is reality, and we are not mass-hysterics or mentally sick people. 2.7.2005 5.00pm. There was a bit of more silent time. However they did not let me sleep enough and verbal torture "electric voice" was really disturbing my vacation. Today, however they started a torture again, this time the pain moved the left side of the head. Today’s notes: 2.40am. They caused a sharp pain center of the head. 3.11am. Pain moved on the right side of the head.

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4.01am. Torture on the center, on the back of the head. 11.22am. Torture on left ,center of the head 11.56am. Torture left, back of the head. 1.15pm. There is feeling, like open wound front left of the head. 4.57. pm. The electric voice torture continues loud, wound has moved back left of the head. 28.6.2006 1.00 am. The most usual type of torture on this week is burning like or a sharp pain near the center of the head , a bit left side and back of the head. These are occasional heavy pains, which continue only a short time. Example 25.6 first pain was 2.10am. Next 3.43am. Then 10.16pm. About this and occasional pains of other type happen every day. On 26.June 4.57pm. I would like to mention heavy nausea, and a short of breathing they caused. I found that the Google search machine has 53 million hits on search with the words mind control electronic. My page was there around 150th of them. 53 million is more than four times as much as one get search with words election Bush fraud. Mainstream media has ignored both topics, the mind control even more than election frauds (that some pages call coup d’e´tat). With both of the searches one can catch a glimpse of the black monster of censorship, which presence people usually do not find at all. On the first hit with Google search with words mind control electronic there is a quotation from Albert Einstein. "The world is a dangerous place to live; not because of the people who are evil, but because of the people who don't do anything about it.” I was not sure that the quotation was genuine, and made little search and found the same thing with different wording ”The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil , but because of those who look on and do nothing.”. Later I found both of the quotations are genuine. It was kind of nice to find, that problems of society were same sixty years ago than now. Albert Einstein was a man who acted on based on his conviction. On July 1955 he and eight other scientists signed manifesto warning about nuclear war. 2004 Election fraud in US- was basically very similar that fraud in Ukraine presidential election same year. The difference is that Ukrainians did not trust media, went to streets and after six days protests were able to force the parliament to declare the poll results invalid and recommend a re-run, which later gave different results. Why Ukrainians acted, while Americans stayed their living rooms? My guess for the reasons is, that in United States people have just little experience totalitarian rule, they have a high standard of living, and they do not have same distrust of the mass-media like Ukrainians. Americans are also saturated with information noises that lower the meaning of all messages. That explains also why so few of them vote at all. I understand why insiders, people who know what is really happening do not do anything. They do not want risk their job. Worst case they would find themselves similar situation than I am, monitored and manipulated, or disappear, put one of those secret jails, or torture centers that United States appear to have around the world. The bad thing is that the time-window, when there is possible to do something, would close down sooner than we think now. The America is becoming a weird combination of Aldous Huxley’s book ”The Brave new world” and George Orwell’s book “1984” type of societies. Perhaps in the future everybody - except maybe the small ruling elite – would have”the mark of the Beast”. Then it is very difficult for individual to ask the change. The Beast is well alive, and gaining ground in America. 23.6.2006 6.21pm. Now it is Finnish holiday, Midsummer eve. The torture on this week, before this day, was not mostly pain on the right side of the head, but different pains mostly on left side and center of the head, also burning and irritating pains. There was also much "sticks under nails torture" especially yesterday. Today the pain on the right temple of the head started 11.37 am. first right side of the forehead, a bit like headache, and later it became ordinary pain on the right temple. I started to wear protective clothing around the head 4.30pm, although it is not very comfortable especially warm summertime. They have history for heavy torture especially holidays; I wish this does not happen this holiday. 19.6.2006 11.15 pm. On 17. June was a heavy torture day. Evening they got me unconscious "fast sleep" I did not have energy to turn lights off, or take my clothes off. Worst thing was that I did not wear protection; I usually wear, when I go to sleep. Later on they woke me up, and showed (with their words) what means "pulling". It was very unpleasant feeling on the left side, I remembered , that this happened for me too when I was young, and their torture was much more severe Today they did some irritating "itching" on the center of the head, and there is of course verbal torture. They have stopped "elk-hunting" style of indirect threatening, after I started to call them Nazis, I guess hunting style, a kind of coded speech where group is hunting human's instead of animals - has long history in America some circles. 15.6.2006 10.50pm. With my notebook, there was a kind of heavy torture on 10th June. It started on pain of the right side of the head, after midnight. It continued with some pauses nearly noon. There were "restless legs" torture on 8.21 pm. , and nine pm. "sticks under nails torture". Next days there were some time pain around the right eye and "fast sleep" where victim became so fast sleepy, he does not have energy to turn light off, before he fels unconscious. Today there was a bit heavier torture than usually. It started ordinary way with pain around the right eye on the morning. 7.10 pm - after intense verbal manipulation - there were cramps on the left side of the head. Eleanor White has advised victims not to use words pulling one's head, when they describe the manipulation. People would feel person who use this expression as a mentally sick. The torture 7.10 pm. was like someone had "pulled my head". It was cramp on the head and caused different facial expression on the left side of the face, than the right side of the face. Later night there were ”restless legs" torture. Actually - if they had succeeded what they wanted, - it would had cause sharp pain on the left side of the head, and the headache after. There are also short, some seconds unconsciousness daily. I am not sure if this is a side effect of the brain damage, they have caused, or do they cause it with purpose. 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pain on the left side of the head. This morning their torture started very early, I guess four am. It started as usual pain on and around the right eye. The torture continued heavy and after seven it caused nausea. 9.49am. there started freezing feeling on the right side front of the head. It did made me very difficult to perform satisfactory on my job. The torture continued heavy over noon, when it stopped. On the afternoon and evening there were some short-lasting burning feelings on the forehead,. and usual verbal torture. 4.6.2006 10.11am. The torture had on this week the same timetable until the last Thursday. Torture around the right eye started around two am. and ended before, or after shower, in the morning. Daytime they had normal verbal manipulation, with ordinary threads and hopes, were threads were coded but hopes were presented with straight language. There were also occasional pains on head and "sticks under nails" torture and ear ache. Thursday the torture around the right eye started about 10. pm and ended at night, so there were not torture when I woke up on Friday. Saturday and this morning the torture around the right eye lasted longer, now it is still continuing after ten am. Last night they also manipulated my sleep, meaning that they made me very sleepy quickly, so that I just went to bed without having the strength to turn of lights, for example. 30.5.2006 11.13pm. Last Sunday they continued torture around right eye, but also manipulated heavy left side of head, and there were itching on the center of the head. Monday they started to torture around the right eye on night 2am. The pain ended after morning shower, and torture became normal verbal torture. yesterday night was similar than Monday, and there were usual verbal manipulation daytime, except this night there were shooting pain on left side of the head about quarter to eleven pm. I found that I was not only person to discover USA presidential election fraud. There were over twelve million hits with Google search with words Bush election fraud. I think it was worth to put my alternative history pages, because the mainstream news media has heavily censored this news. 27.5.2006 10.28 am. The torture continued until six or seven am. After I got some sleep. Now when I woke up I have a kind of pressure especially on right side of head, but also smaller pressure on the left side. Feeling is like somebody is pressing tightly in hand the area about three centimeters back of the right eye 27.5.2006 1.20 am. They did let me sleep hour or two and now woke me up, about ten minutes ago and started to torture me. There are pains both side of the head, and they have impaired my memory so that I cannot remember all the words of the song, I have morsecoded in similar situations, to protect me. The pains of the sides of the head are growing stronger. I am not sore if they let me sleep at all on this night. 26.5.2006 9.00 pm. Their torture is going heavier starting this afternoon. These are pretty is exact times, and what they did: 4.18 pm torture on the left side of the head. 5.21 pm. Torture on the right eye 6.40 pm. Sudden burst of very heavy torture and cramps on the right side of the head 8.40 pm. Shrinking feeling on the front head. Feeling like somebody had put some fast drying glue on the head. 21.5.2006 8.00pm. There was "after Sauna torture" that started about one pm. It changed a bit different headache on forehead on around two pm. About hour or two later it became usual itching on the both side of head, because I was out of the house, and did not wear any protection. I was happy to find that United States has organization fighting against voting fraud on electronic voting. Computer experts showed several ways to fix the voting results on electronic tough screen voting machines that are used in USA. Governor Jeb Bush is against printed receipts, that according some experts would make voting manipulation much more difficult. 21.5.2006 2.00 am. Perhaps the reason for torture on Thursday night was that they showed me a "movie”, while I was on sleep on Friday. This was about the life of a couple that lived in City and had no children . I do not know them in real life. It was different for earlier movies in way I was watching it like theatre, except I kind of felt feelings of actors. In the morning manipulation of head and extremely heavy verbal torture continued to afternoon. Their explanation of Thursday’s torture with their hinting code language was "We had to cut your claws short, they were too long". 19.5.2006 10.05 pm. There were tortures, every day on this week. This perhaps, because I had a vacation week. The torture was mostly itching and pains, more on the left side of head, than the usual right side. The torture was worst on last night, when I was not sure if I slept at all. They did not disable my sleep with their usual "uncomfortable bed" torture or other pains on different parts of body. Instead they used "hard head" technique. It feels very much like the victim is standing on his head. I believe they do it by raising the blood pressure on head, or by stopping circulation of blood on the head. With this technique they kept me nearly week awake without sleeping, about 30 years ago when I was in Canada. The torture did not stop at night, there were shooting pains on left temple of the head at 8.25 am. and on 9.55 am. there was pain on left side back of the head near neck just as example. Actually I believe the purpose of disable to sleep and torture, was to get me tired condition, they needed for today torture experiments. 13.5.2006 6.50 pm. Torture continued 4-6 May similar, heavy pains around the right eye, occasionally also pains on left side near the neck. Pains started usually night around three am.On the seventh of May the pain stopped, instead there were sore point on left side back of the head. On eight May there were freezing anesthetized feeling of the area on the left side, front of the head. Ninth of May the area was on the centre and left of the front head and after nine pm. They started torture left temple of the head. Between 10-12 May there were no much pains, just verbal torture and possibly some manipulation. Today after noon the torture around the right eye started again, and has continued whole afternoon. 3.5.2006 11.00 pm. I feel that torturers persons have changed. There are new students of torture now.The new group started end of April, and they are far more aggressive and brutal. 29. April, 10.25. am, they caused a kind of mild "after sauna

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torture", that changed ttightening feeling on the head hour after. 2. May 5.41 am. Heavy torture on the right temple of the head. Threads making me so numb I cannot work anymore. The next day 3. May, I had to travel with ferry to Stockholm. I would not use protection around my head, that I usually use when I sleep. I was not very afraid, because I had made similar trips to Tallinn with not very much torture. This time they did take advantage that I was not able to protect my head. It was the worst torture of couple of years. They caused a very heavy pain on the right side of the head. I was not able to sleep at whole night, and the pain continued on the next morning. There were also verbal torture, where they hint that the reason of their torture, was, that I had written to my diary on a fraud of the U.S. presidential election. I do not believe it, it was their real reason that that they wanted express a "moral reason" for their torture. They actually did try ,that I would cope with them, without that they actually verbalize their will, how I act. 27.4.2006 10.34 pm. More or less regular daily torture on and around the right eye stopped about 18 day of April. Instead there were occasional burning sensations left side, and just centre of the head, "uncomfortable bed torture" and "restless legs torture", that they used to limit my sleep. 18.4 they did "start of the week" torture, my sleep was limited for couple of hours. This limit of sleep and verbal torture happened very often. Usually they start to speak while I am half asleep, and not capable of doing Morse-code or other type of resistance. This morning the torture on the right side of the head, started again. It started as pain on the right side of head occasionally in the morning, continuous on the afternoon, and now the pains are on and around the right eye. I got message from Eleanor White, I like to join it to the diary. It explains part, our problem with media. This past week, Alex Jones got on to the topic of 'mind control' somehow - he doesn't usually go there. While he didn't deny 'mind control' exists, he stated something to the effect that overwhelmingly, most people claiming to have been 'mind controlled' are delusional. They are mentally ill and they hear/read stories about 'mind control' and only 'believe' they have been mind controlled. He didn't distinguish between MKULTRA-type MC and current day electronic harassment. He does get calls from targets, and I'm guessing he is basing his opinion on how he personally feels about what they say, rather than speaking from research. If Alex has been affected by callers claiming mind control this way, then this may also be why other talk show hosts look very askance at such claims. This isn't something that can be easily overcome, because talk hosts tend to rush. Most make up their mind in a split second and much of the time, the caller doesn't get to defend themselves, as by the time the host expresses their opinion, the caller has already been cut off. But here is an important factor which those of us who have called in to talk shows know very well: Whenever a genuine target is on, chances are very good that an obviously (to us) BOGUS caller will call in, usually doing one or both of these things: - Sound really crazy and the host often gives them way too much time, reducing time for he genuine target to get the story told - Pull the conversation on to a different topic, only distantly related, reducing time for the genuine target to get the story told The hosts and general public may not see this as clearly as we do, and that's the problem. What needs to be conveyed is there are *not* just two classes of callers: - genuine targets - mentally ill targets ... but instead three classes of callers: - genuine targets - mentally ill targets - intentional cover up artists As to the misconception that most of the callers are mentally ill, we should keep in the back of our minds as we call in to these shows that these fake targets are real, they frequently call in to derail the story. And they are quite good at it. So we have gone a step ahead. Before media did try to kill our stories with silence, now they are putting us on the same class with people who communicate with UFO:s etc. Most people sincerely believe that what they see on the television and the newspapers is "reality" and that media tells us all the news worth to know. So our chances to tell the truth our case are thin, and even if people know the truth that does not help us much. It is only technology and perhaps religion and purpose of imprisonment that separates us Guantanamo prisoners. Guantanamo prisoners also do not get very much help from people. I learned a few days ago that the vote for United States presidential election was the most probably fixed. This is a piece of video for computer programmer Curtis Clinton's hearing. If you try find what information Google has with words Curtis Lincoln and election, you find that no major media has mention of hearing, but most of the links are blogs. That is the light that makes a part of the black censorship monster again visible.

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9.4.2006 5.00 pm. They did a full scale "After Sauna Torture" last night. I still have a headache on the forehead and nausea and for a while I had impression it goes worse. Also their verbal torture is very aggressive. Yesterday they treated to kill me. They were using indirect expression "put into sand-pit". Last week the torture was mostly pain on and around the right eye , ususally some time in the morning. They have developed some situation connected pains, example pain on the left temple of the head. Actuallly “After Sauna torture” is a kind of situation connected pain. 1.4. 2006 11.53 pm. The daily torture on right side of head and right eye has started again. Actually there is often now the long painful torture times of old weekly torture, and still it is daily. I preferred the old system a month ago. Example 29.3 torture started 6.am. They put me unconscious "fast sleep" about 4 pm, while I was working. I got caught sleeping at work and this does not make any good for my career. 9.56 pm. torture on the right temple started again. The Night between 30 and 31 of March was worst. The pain on the right eye continued over night. I have a theory that they are really doing something on my right eye, the muscles around the eye were sore in the morning. Today they had a heavy burning pain a bit of left of the centre of the head, 10.36 pm. It lasted 50 seconds or so. I really hope all this their activity is just temporary, and will not last long. 28.3.2006 11.22 pm. Torture on right temple of the head has gone heavy today. It started three am. Then again it started 1.10 pm and lasted hour or so. Now it started again 10.30 pm. and pain has gone from sharp to dull, like after somebody had hit my head with hammer. 27.3. 2006 5.27 am. Last night they put me on the "movie" for a long time. The thing started before I went to bed, with sharp shooting pain side of the left eye. The pain continued a while like a pain on a wound. On the sleep the "movie" started like a kind of group tour I was participating, after normal holiday fun the feeling changed frightening, and we were lining on the underground room "mouse room" for a kind of black magic ritual. This time I was able to awake. I memorized the time of awakening it was five after three am. So I escaped the thing around three am. I believe the "movies" are not for purpose of movie, but the actual meaning is change how the brain works. 24-26 of March were the "torture days”, long lasting but weak pain around the right eye. This weekend they also caught me sleeping without any protection around my head, I usually wear while I sleep, I got only a light "hard head" that happen usually after this. 18.3.2006 10.30 pm. They have changed for a daily torture on right side of head, longer torture session on right side of head once a week or so. The last this kind of session was 11-13 March. I hope this weekend is not the time of the next session. Between these session there are verbal torture, sometimes they put me sleepy a middle of the day, and sometimes - like couple of hours ago - there were sticks under nails torture. What I feel they are doing is that they are making some nonverbal transfer of ideas to me. I got on the week some a kind of macroeconomic ideas concerning monetary policy and inflation a kind of large chunk. I have learned from news that the God has advised as well Tony Blair as George Bush, I just wish that the source of "God " is not same , that advices me, how printing more money will affect the economic activity. I wish the source is not same, but I am not sure how it is. 2.3. 2006 11.51 pm. They are causing shooting pains of the right temple just now. That what they have done for mostly of the last two weeks, causing pains on and around the right eye and the right temple. They are keeping their torture rate about same, if there are days without torture like 22-23 of February, it is compensated with torture near whole day like 27-28 of February. They are also causing occasional shooting pains on the left side, near the left ear, uncomfortable bed torture and some chest pains. On the 21 of February they did try not to let me sleep at all, but I was able to sleep some hours, by Morse coding old songs, that made their "secretary" - who "voice" my thinking - work a kind of dull, so they did let me sleep for a while. On the whole I have impression that they are still cutting down my sleeping hours to keep me tired all day. The verbal torture has continued same, I am planning a database for their "strong words" when they a kind of increase the electricity, near the pain. 18.2.2006 1.13 pm. Now the perpetrators torture on, and around the right eye has gone worst. Usually it has started on the morning, and ended after I wake up from the bed. Now today they started to torture middle of the day, and pain is now continuing. Otherwise much has not happened this week, some sticks under nails torture. I have also lost some words, meaning I know what the word meaning, but I cannot recall the word. Maybe that they are doing now, cutting down my vocabulary. 13.2.2006 7.35 pm. They are now causing the long lasting headache on the forehead. Feeling is very much similar than "after sauna torture". I also feel pain in the neck. On my neck there is a point on both side side, that is sore. My theory is that thhese are the places, they are cutting of the blood flow to my brain, and this way they are causing a lack of oxygen on brain, which in turn cause the headache on the forehead. The sore place on the neck is very easy to find, when I turn my head. About 2 pm. they also caused pains on the chest. The last backache was 11th February, so I hope, these backbone experiments are over. Otherwise the last week was a kind of potpourri of old experiments. They manipulate my urination 0n fifth February. On seventh February there were torture and freezing feeling on the left side of the head. The behavior of the Western media always surprises me. There were two, a kind partial censorship or blackout of stories, I was able to find. The one was about bullying in Russian Army. As a result of torture one of the soldiers lost his both legs and genitals. There was a demonstration on outside of Ministry of Russian defense, where Mothers of people serving in military claimed of resignation of the Russian Defense minister. As a human interest story, this should have gone to first page of every newspaper. However most of the newspaper simply kept silent of the case and the Mothers demonstration concerning the case. Finland only one newspaper "Helsingin Sanomat" made story about the bullying, but did not mention the demonstration. 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language, speaking of killing of humans, as a ”taking people out”.As far as I know this did not come out of any major Finnish television channels, and I believe same is for most of the American channels. One exception I know, is channel four in Britain These are two cases where the absolute blackout has failed, so I can make links for the news. Usually the blackout is not failure, and these cases most of us know nothing. Censorship is a black monster on the dark room, and we are not able to see it. We can find a part of it only if some light comes to the room. 31.1.2006 10.42 pm. On 18th January night, they threaten with "backbone operations" that could possible, cause some disability. After this my back has been sore on random times of a day. I am still perfectly capable for walk. The only difference, I have to walk more straight position. The torture is continued random on left side of the head, - often with shooting pains -, or right side of the head, around the right eye then with continuing pain usually at night. Also verbal torture is continued. I guess they need some hour's talk with a victim, to keep their system working. Some perpetrators have substituted the talk with a kind of sing along, what is actually very dangerous, because person cannot easily distinguish his own "voice" from the perpetrators "voice". That why they call their torture centre sometimes with name "Opera". I guess this would sound stupid from outsiders, but for a victim, question is important reservation of own judgment. 16.1.2006 3.32 am. Now they are torturing left side of the head. This has happened since 8.pm. On the same time they use very aggressive verbal torture to get me in the state of excitement, and then comes the pain, perpetrators suggested word cramp to describe the pain, and it actually describes the feeling well. On the last morning five am. they tortured on right eye, their usual manner. The torture on the right side of the head has happened daily on the few last days, but long torture on the left side of the head , Other kind of interesting thing happened 8.1. 2006 5.20 pm. I heard some Morse code. Three u letter and a long code. If it was American Morse code the interpretation is "uuul”. It could be that perpetrators were just kind of joking, or other possibility is that somebody has found the transmission system, they use. Except tinnitus, usually there is no outside radio noise. The last similar incident happened year 1998, when I heard a piece of telephone conversation of people I do not know. 8.1.2006 3.42 am. The torture has continued from last writing. Now it has turned into pulsating pain on the right temple. It is more painful than several months. I am really scared. 7.1.2006 10.26 pm. The sleep torture has weakened, for point I could get sleep with Morse coding old songs. On Fifth January they caused a general headache, on the forehead in the morning. Last nigh was occasional torture on left side of the head. Morning about 9 am. I tried to wake up but I felt dizziness, so I woke up couple of hours later. After first occasionally now continuing there is torture and manipulation of the right side of the head. Just now there is a numb place on the head about ten centimeters of the right eye, just like after anesthesia. I hoped the bill, where United States authorities are, ordered to stop torture of prisoners, would stop also my torture, but it is not true. Perhaps I am not counted as prisoner, just like people who were captured in Afghanistan and carried on Guantanamo-concentration camp, were not counted as enemy soldiers. Perhaps my torturers are not from United States, but some other country that United States is co-operating with. I got mail from Eleanor White, that the other victims had found several thousand of gang stalking links with Google. All of them are not telling about electronic harassing, but I believe there are many in this group which are experiencing electronic harassing, but are not simply speaking it, because people around them would easily interpret their stories as a sign of their mental illness. However there are many that have spoken out, and more people we get, that more difficult it is authorities to explain, that we are just a bunch of mentally sick people that had gathered together. The use fire tracks for harassing people, is just one prove, that both groups are linked together. 2.1.2006 9.29 am. There were some day’s only verbal torture and occasional "sticks under nails" torture. Last night however it changed. I was not able to sleep at all. Besides old "uncomfortable bed" torture, they used some techniques, like itching between toes, they have never done. I watched yesterday President Bush signing bill that forbids American personnel to use torture anywhere. For my reality it has not changed. 24.12.2005 11.02 pm. As general, their torture has gone worse, and their speech is more agressive - on their words "they are showing their teeth".. They are irritating mostly two spot on the right side. One is side of the right eye and other about five centimeter of it (11 o’clock direction) this torture starts usually 4, 30 am. So my sleep is cut. Their explanation for torture is that they need it to my "makeup". Other explanation is their need to change my "classes". Both are their typical code language, made for more questioning. 21 December morning 10.23 am, they also caused heart pains. The torture around the right eye happens daily, more random but also daily is "stick under nails torture. The bladder rupture torture ended about 18 of December. I have found a. list of sites about gang stalking. The reason that police does not respond victims complaints, and that the firemen are co-operating, make me sure that the government is involved in some level for this, Nazi activity. 16.12.2005 6.17 am. My Christmas holidays have started. It looks like they have planned extended torture for my holidays, because I don't have to go work. This night I did not sleep at all they used "sticks under nails torture”, and "uncomfortable bed torture" among the other things to keep me awake. For the Wednesdays "bladder rupture" more, they hinted that it was not caused ordinary way but they have special "gun" to make this for anybody. For certain reason I do not believe them (The thing lasted only four hours). Still how about if they have a "gun" that works with ultrasound or microwave and can cause bladder rupture or heart attack for anybody. Person who is shot does not understand what happened, and even if he does, the local police do not believe him. The castor oil that Mussolini’s Nazis used for humiliating people has changed for sophisticated "non lethal weapons”, but the principal of the work is much same. It looks like there is people that do the ordinary gang stalking in America, and the special forces that support them with "non lethal weapons", and the ordinary gang stalkers does not necessary know these "non lethal weapons" people. I hope people understand organize themselves, early enough this time before these new Nazis take over all the institutions of society.

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14.12. 2005 10.30 pm. They caused nearly continuous feeling of need to urinate, similar like I had a bladder infection. It started about 4 pm. and ended 8 pm. very humiliating 12.12.2005. 9.01 pm. They did "start of the week torture". I did not sleep at all, last night. They caused backache, or actually broken feeling on back, that made me impossible to sleep. 11.12.2005 11.50 pm. A kind of time between on this week, most of just verbal torture, and fast occurring sleepy moments. I found a. book that explains things that are similar, that I experinced in Canada(David Lawson: Terrorist Stalking in America), on exeption , that they were companied with electronic verbal voice. The firetrucks and other intimidations were similar. The only possibility I can think, is that Canadian Governement is backing for gang stalking, and has developed their techniques, they now use.The side I found excerpts of the book was http://www.c-a-t-c-h.ca/ 4.12.2005 1.00 pm. They did "after sauna torture"; it is mostly over now, just a small headache. Yesterday they caused pain around the right eye, for a very long time, about 4 am. until 2 pm. Start of last week, Monday and Tuesday, they limited my sleep, very much like "start of the week torture". On verbal torture, nothing special, on Tuesday they said they had made me a surgery; they have cut out my (invisible) tonsils. I did not find anything special on myself, so I hope it is nothing serious. 21.11.2005 10.07 pm. On the end of last week, they mostly limited my sleep. Saturday they woke me up with "uncomfortable bed torture” that put me, to swing side to other. After I realized it was artificial, they stopped it and started verbal torture. Last night they woke me up 3.30 am. with "sticks under nail torture". 9.37 am. They caused pain on the right side of the head. The pain became sharp pointed and moved above the right eye 10.10 am. This time it also changed my face feeling, and facial expression. Earlier they had told me they grow me a horn, like other Martians, and this horn is for "telepathic communication" with them. They said I have a nice little horn growing already. I did not find , any horn on the right side, of my head on mirror, so the horn must be invisible, like haircut they have given me is also invisible, and only feel on victims mind, on some kind of pain or handicap of thinking. These are examples of new idiomatic expression they teach for their victims. Most of them are just threat, but often there is something real behind the expression. The pain was end for this day about one pm. 17.11.2005 11.51 pm. They have tortured the right side of the head the whole day. What they actually do, is strangling the blood flow of the right side of the head, as well around the right eye and right side back of the head. I hope they do not continue it very long time. This is the longest continuous torture for this year, I felt. Actually torture ended around 6 pm. 16.11. 2005 9.06 pm. I guess, this is a temporary pause between something that is end and something that not has started yet. This week only torture was on Sunday ,a. kind of mini "after sauna torture". No pain around the right eye, or anything else serious. Also their talk has gone more polite. They call me with names less frequently as before. The talk is most false news and a kind of trying to cause heavy feelings they can "hook”. They have threatened me with things, I should really worry if Finnish police is co-operating with them. I hope it is not. 6.11.2005 11.57 pm. This morning they did "after sauna torture" again. Continuous headache on forehead from 6 am. to noon. As a general the daily pain around the right eye, has changed shooting pain on the right temple, pains on the centre of the head, getting me unconscious, "sticks under nails torture" and "uncomfortable bed" torture.etc. Their language has gone better, usually they are telling false "news", how everything is becoming public etc.I have un idea, that place where the torture is done, is some kind of military school similarly as "School of Americas", and I am used as a victim when they show how to use these torture equipments. 2.10.2005 6.55 am. They are doing a pretty painful torture on the centre of the head, right now. Feeling is much like they are pulling the hair. It also causes a mild nausea. On Monday 31. October 10.52 am. They did "hard head" torture. I guess they did it by raising the blood pressure on the head. I guess most of their tricks are done, by manipulating the blood pressure, specific parts of the body. Their threatening language has developed. They have invented new expressions like ”washing the hair" etc. 24.10.2005 5.46 am. The torture started 4.30 am. They caused pain left side front end near centre of the head. The feeling is like I have axe-wound on my head. I mean is not like ice pick wound but rather long. I have got impression that it was revenge, because I made this diary more visible for readers. It is also possible that they have planned to do this for a long time, and they just want to give me "reason”, why they did this, so that I feel that everything depends on my behavior, and not their needs to experiment using me as a victim of their experimenting. 16.10.2005 10.30 pm. Until tenth October, it was mostly ordinal pain around the right eye, in the morning or after wakeup On tenth October they used threatening language "you still need another surgery". On this day tenth October 6.15 pm. There were shrinking feeling on the head; they were manipulating the blood flow of my head. Next day 11. October 4.27 am. They started to cause nausea. On next days the torture was not so punctual every day, but varied, often there was "sticks under nails torture". Today in wakeup, they caused a mild headache on the front head, a kind of mild "after sauna torture". I went over it by chewing the bubblegum, to keep the blood flowing. 9.45 pm. torture around the right eye. They are started to use more threatening language with their typical "code language". They are using sentences like: "it was a very long shave this time"," In the evening you are going to path"," Your nails are too long we have to cut them", "You have too long teeth we have to take them out", "You cannot play your organs anymore, we have taken them away from you.", "You need another haircut". Some of the things possible do not have any other meaning, than to get me scared, but example "haircut" is something I really feel on my head, feeling like after haircut.

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1.10.2005 11.56 pm. After "start of week torture", there were no pain, around the right eye. On the night between Thursday and Friday they caused a false infection of bladder - constant need to urinate, and burning sensation when try to urinate. I thought first, it was a real thing, but they stopped this torture after couple of hours, and urinating went to normal. I have suffered sometimes also real cystitis, and I know it takes at least a day before it goes normal. This morning they started a kind of mild "after sauna torture" although I did not have sauna last night. The morning started with ageneral headache on forehead. It became a general pain on eyes on lunchtime, and normal pain around the right eye on evening . The pain around the right eye is still continuing. Exception on this false cystitis torture their line was less pain and longer time, and now, also amount of pain is increasing. 27.9.2005 4.53 am. They did first "start of the week torture" since 26.7. 2005. They caused ear-ache on the right ear until; I found it was not natural about 2.30 am. Then they stopped the ear-ache, but I did not get sleep. I feel I did not sleep at all last night, although I am not sure. The purpose of "start of the week torture” is to get person tired, after weekends sleep, so he is easier to manipulate. Usually they do it by "uncomfortable bed torture" , but they have lots of other tricks too, to keep the victim awake for the whole night. 25.9.2005 1.23 am. Last week the torture has gone heavier than earlier. Pain in the mornings is longer, and there are different sudden pains, and causing sudden sleep, and "restless legs" torture is daily. Last night they caused hallucinations that they have not done for year. It was similar than earlier hallucinations experiments, except there was not cause of fear, sound effect, or anything else cause. There was pain on spinal cord and head, and the thing went away after I moved my body, but they were able to freeze me on place for a long time. So my theory is that on their experiments the fear is caused some way, and it connects whatever sound or visual effect that is present on time of manipulation.In the morning was usual pain around the right eye, but no more headaches. Anyway, I am afraid, that they destroyed something from my head on purpose or accidentally. 18.9. 2005 11.49 pm. They have caused pain on area around the right eye, nearly every day, usually in the morning. Later evening is often "uncomfortable legs" or "sticks under nails" torture. Yesterday they did "rust nail" torture on the right side of the head, and this morning there was a mild "after sauna torture". However as a whole, I feel that they kind of avoid causing excessive pain, which they have not done before. I guess they have started a kind of”ethical standards program" how they commit their crimes. I have compared their manipulation of George Orwell's "Newspeak". The difference is that Orwell -in his book 1984 - removed unwanted words for language. Their technique is to remove them for the memory of the individual. The result is partly same. The Secretary technique - speaking trough other persons mind, Orwell could not imagine for his time. For me was surprise the general public passive role, not only a mind control torture, but also things like the Finders case, that is against all the values of western society. 29.8.2005 4.56 am. Between August 15 and August 23 there were torture that caused pain around the right eye, usually couple of hours per day. On August 23 they irritated left side front of head. August 24, 25, 26 there was not torture, that caused long lasting physical pain, just verbal manipulation. August 27. They irritated centre or a bit left of centre of the head. On August 28 when I woke up they started to torture area around the right eye, but this time it lasted much longer time than usually. The torture stopped after six pm. The pain is not impossible to stand, but while it last it decrease the quality of life very effectively. How ever I am happy they did not start their torture session "after sauna torture”, although I was sauna night before their torture started. 15.8.2005 10.34 pm. They caused headache on the frontal bone and kind of freezing and tightening feeling on the same area and a mild nausea. I got over the freezing feeling by chewing bubblegum, which kept the blood going on the forehead. After they caused itching on the centre of the skull. Their torture stopped around eight pm. 14.8.2005 11.24 pm. Last morning they did this old "after sauna torture" , that they have not repeated for months. In the morning I got nausea and heavy headache in the forehead, which continued afternoon. 13.8.2005 4.53 pm. There was a few days pause on the torture, but it started again on 11th day, and it is going heavier, and last longer every day. Today torture on side of the right eye, started in the morning, when I woke up, and it is still continuing. Similar feeling like after somebody has hit the right eye. So they are somehow stopping the free blood flow around the right eye. 1.8. 2005 1.00 am. From last week to now torture has followed similar pattern every day. It has started night 2-3 am after I have gone to sleep. , and stopped in the morning after I wakeup. The pain is always around the right eye. On the daytime, there is occasional pains, usually somewhere else than the right side of the head, and verbal torture and manipulation 28.7.2005 9.11 pm. They continue torture on the right side of the head, around the right eye. They start when I am sleeping, but if I wake up middle of the night (Wednesday 2.30 am.) I feel the torture. Wednesday it was right on right eye. Last night I was so tired I did not woke up, but on the morning, the right side of head was sore. 26.7.2005 4.37 am. This was their "end of holiday’s torture”. It was like their "start of week torture” but I guess because my blood values, (where they monitor how sleepy I am) were "too good" they did not let me sleep at all. There was ordinary pain on the right side of the head, that feels like wounded now, and there was pain on right ear that they used to control on which side I am sleeping. The pain on right ear stopped about three am. Of course they tried to verbal manipulation, but I made their "secretary" to do Morse code of old songs that I remember. Their response was old; they try to cut my memory, so that I would not remember the words of the songs. I guess they got me easier manipulative sleepy mode, they wanted me. I am not actually tired, but I know if they want, they will get me unconscious for a time of few minutes

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24.7.2005 9.47 pm. Last night they had a dream-movie experiments, that I had some times before. I was sleeping and somehow understand what happened. They used a sound of fan and somehow amplified it and caused it to make scaring. There were some story, but I cannot remember it, similarly as dreams. However I can remember, if I opened my eyes, the dream stopped, and continued after I closed my eyes. They talked for that "movie" in the morning, and explained that they caused it by teasing some part of brain. They said that the "helicopter movie" 23 June 2003 was made similar way, and they cannot control the outcome of "movie”, but it is something that happens in person's brain. On my argument that there was not headache on this time their comment was "We can cause the headache for you if you want it". Usually they do not give any details what they do without reason, Means that for some reason they wanted me to write about this dream-movie, and that they made it by teasing some part of the brain. If I compare this for "helicopter move" there is also another difference. On the time of helicopter movie my head was freeze and could not move it. With this movie now, I was able to open my eyes and move my body. Actually I stopped the movie by waking up for a few minutes. 22.7.2005 8.22 pm. There was a pause, for their torture, but apparently they have now made decision that I am fit to use as human guinea pig again. Ordinary torture on the right side started about noon for occasional sharp pains that became on continuing pain around 6 pm. 720 pm. part of right side of the head felt freeze. Now there is continuous pain that hurts much when coughing. 10.7.2005.2.50 pm. I was right; it was the worst torture for year or so. Pain was on the right side. In the morning I had some difficulties for thinking, but now it is only a kind of naked feeling perhaps the one that my torturers call name "haircut”. They let me understand, that they have rented me for some outside organisation for their experimenting. Just now they are manipulating left side of head on front near the same place they usually torture right side of head. 10.7.2005 2.30 am. From most of the last week they tortured area around the right eye. The torture started about 2-3 am. and continued until I went to shower in the morning. On the days they had some manipulation and verbal torture. Last night however their torture grew more intense. The pain around the right eye started around 2 am and ended after 1pm on the next day. Now they started causing pain one am. on back of the head and the left side of skull, so I am afraid they are planning something special for this night. 5.7.2005 10.50 pm. The torture started today after noon with intense verbal manipulation. It continued with pain above the right eye, that started before one pm. Couple of days ago, I got experience their power. I was sending an article for national newspaper their electric discussion board about pentagon torture. I had link about "School of Americas" torture teaching, where they used local homeless people as guinea pigs for teach and study torture. When I was sending the story with link, the transmission stopped. I have a WLAN with radio controlled switch to turn it on. Later the switch went off. For my opinion somebody jammed the transmission, and later did send the code that closed the switch. It is not technically very difficult, but for my understanding, it means the transmitter has to be pretty near. Of course there is possibility that everything was just two random coincidences, but I calculate, there is more possibility that somebody really caused the errors. I got the story sended for the next day although 29.6. 2005 5.50 pm. Yesterday they tortured area around the left eye. Now on the afternoon they started to torture area around the right eye again. The difference about pain on the left eye yesterday and the right eye now, was that the pain on left eye was oscillating, and pain around the right eye is more continuing, although now it is more like pain on the wound now, but they caused the wound on the afternoon between 2 pm. and 5 pm. 25.6.2005 11.16 pm. Last night about 1. am. they caused me very fast and strong heartbeat for a long time. I was afraid they try to cause me a heart-attack, so I wrote my pda. what has happened. The heartbeat went away. In the morning they made me "uncomfortable bed" torture, so they still want to limit my sleeping time, and keep me tired. Later on afternoon I felt they are manipulating head on left side and back of the head. 19.6.2005 1.37 pm. Last night about 4 am. they did some sighting experiments. On the centre of the vision sight was not sharp and around the light was a big white circular smoke that has sharp edges. Sides of the vision, sight was normal. In the morning the sight was normal. My right did hurt in the morning, but this was because of their”around right eye" torture, that has continued every night or morning. Now feeling is normal except five minutes ago I had a shooting pain on the right side of the skull, but it diminished when I started to write this diary. Actually they are causing the earache on the right ear, right now. They try to communicate with pain, I assume. 18.6.2005 11.03 am. Last night they got me "fast sleep" I became conscious about three am. Torture around the right eye. Pain started in the morning, when I awakened, and it is continuing. 16.6.2005 7.19 am. Like nearly every morning torture has started on night with pain on right side around right eye, and heavy verbal torture. I have notes of torture on my notebook for 10,11,12,15 days of this month. Torture usually goes occasional for day, and sometimes there are shooting pains, or pains left side of skull. Sometimes they try to get me bed fast with extremely tired feeling and "restless legs" torture. 8.6.2005 5.55 am. The torture started again on pain near the right eye on night, and it is continuing. There were some temporary pains on the left side of the head on earlier days. I have met personally again another victim of mind-control. He is Italian born, and his problems started while he was in Canada also. They have tried to cheat him financially, bit like me when they promised that my Visa Account is”unlimited” and they will pay all my use of this account. 2.6.2005 6.08 am. Their torture session of days started yesterday. In the morning after torture started on impaired feeling

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and pain on the area around the right eye. The torture continued until afternoon and the right side of face felt partly paralyzed. On the afternoon after 3 pm. feeling became more just pain. This continued until I went home for work, and the pain ended on whistling sound on the right ear. Later they made me very sleepy, I was able to protect my head before became unconscious, although the brushing of teeth I did not have time. Now In the morning the torture look like starting again on pain near the right eye. 22.5.2005 3.20 pm. Their torture started in the morning, when I woke up, similarly as yesterday. The difference is that yesterday torture stopped about quarter after one pm. Now it is still continuing, although the sharp pain on side of the right eye is changed less pinpointing pain on the whole right forehead. Yesterday they once again caused me "restless legs torture", got me horizontal position and unconscious. After had an experiment, where I was waking up turning the lights on, I wondered why the light does not turn on. Later on I woke up and found that was only a kind of artificial dream, I had not done anything. 21.5. 2005. Now is a quarter to one pm. Their torture on right side of head has continued nearly every night and morning. In the morning, when I wake up there is a pain in the right side of the head. Later feeling is impaired, like after being too long without a hat in the strong sunshine. This is often feeling also if I wake up for some reason in the night. Now heir torture was very strong at 10.30 am. Then discontinued, and started again a few moments ago. 8.5.2005 10.41 pm. They started torture about 9 pm. Now I have impaired feeling at right side of head, around of the right eye. Very much like” rust nail”torture, that feels like rust nail is on the head. 17.5.2005 10.37 pm. Word is like the finger that points the moon, it is not the moon. My torturers word, that they will stop my torturing, does not mean they would stop my torturing, but only that they want to give me impression that they will stop the torture. Now torture started on the right side of the head, like usually, it started in the morning around 8 am. And continued with small pauses until afternoon Just a few moments ago, 10.30 pm. they had "sticks under nails" torture 12.5.2005 10.41 am. Lasat night they promised, this is the last time, they torture me. The torture was normal "uncomfortable bed" and some nausea. The promise to stop torture, was probably just one way to get me excited in their morning "get instruments pointing right talk", Couple of days ago (10.5) I found in the morning , I had lost pieces of my memories , only some shrapnel’s of whole stories left. Example one story, the only thing I remember is that "the ship was time chartered". The worst thing is that I do not know, what is wiped out from my memory. 1.5.2005 10.00 pm. Last Night was with very intensive verbal torture, however I got enough sleep. The pain on right side of the started about 7 pm and it is continuing. They are also threading, with their typical code language "You are getting pay raise”, which does not mean that I will get some money or anything else positive. 30.4.2005 3.15 pm. Torture has continued, very much like before. It was heaviest on 24.4 .Tinnitus on the right ear, which has continued, abruptly stopped 2.07 pm. for a few seconds, and started again. So it might come for as side product of their manipulation. On the week I had artificial dreams (movies). On the first one there was a helicopter, and after I was on the car, and outside masked men sprayed something inside. On the second I was world after nuclear attack, where society was broken, and I hide for toxic clouds with people that were actually enemy side. The difference for earlier "movies" was that there were no headaches after it, as usual. However my torturers knew my dreams and dreams were very far my normal life, and did not include any people I know, so I believe they were made someway. On yesterday I found Dee Finney's excellent mind controls site Mind Control Database. There was listed another Finnish victim Petri Ticklen's site. It was made 1998. Petri Ticklen had also second site, but it was not working - so something has happened to him. Petri's website made me thinking, why we do not get our message through to people. There are countries where everybody knows that police get some people to torture and possibly kill them. People on these countries accept this, and many even feel their must have done something criminal because police get them away. Our case is much more difficult, we are not organized group of people like other mistreated minorities, we are large geographical area, and before Internet we did not usually know each other. And worst of all, majority of people have not experienced things that we are. We are manipulated nearly all the time, still majority of people is looking inconsistencies in our behaviour, more than ordinary people. They understand that person that has taken drugs or drank too much liquor, does not behave normally, but they do not understand that person, who mind is manipulated would do this same. For our case abnormal behaviour is interpreted as a sign of mental illness. Has the society behaved rationally dealing with us? I am feeling no. There are no epidemiological studies, what characteristic we have, how long we live, and what sickness we will die. There are no medical checkups with MRI (magnetic resonance imagining) scans, that would have reveal (or not) how our brain functions differ for ordinary people. Petri Ticklen's way to try to resolve his problem was very rational, if we understand that he worked under constant pressure and manipulation. This is about what ordinary person - I included - would and could do. For those who see and seek unsound mind, behind Petri Ticklen's site I would like to ask: What you would do if you are in this kind of situation, to solve your problem?. 23.4.2005 11.44 am. The night was pretty normal. They started usual verbal torture, while I was half sleep. After wake up around 10 am. They started o torture right side of head, wheeling like ice pick on head, near centre of head the right side. I wheel the day will not be very productive, good if I am able to carry garbage out of kitchen. 22.4.2005 5.22 am. Their torture started about 2.am on pain on the right side of the head (when I wrote this "secretary" blocked memory and tried to whisper word left on place of word right ) .Pain is still continuing and it is different than before, bullet hole type pain. I did Morse coding old songs at night to get sleep. What worries me in the morning I was not able to recall the words of the song I was Morse coding at night. 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21.4.2005 1.50 am. On start of the week they limited my sleep less than 4 hours per day. It did not happen by not letting me sleep, but by awakening me early. I was not sleepy when I wake awake, but on evening I was very tired. This continued about four days, until Wednesday, when I had pretty normal sleep. However on Wednesday started their torture on right side of head again. Their headache machine started in the morning and end about 3 pm. I guess the only reason that their usual head torture was stopped for a few days, was their sleep experiment that they did not want interfere with other torture. On last Sunday they caused a whole head pain, similar than after sauna torture, they used have every Sunday morning about a year ago. 14.4. 2005 0.32 am. After I went work to home, they got me sleep, while watching television. I wake up pain on right side above right eye. I was not able to move much, but they got me horizontal position. There the torture continued, I was partly unconscious. After they tried to get me excited, with verbal torture, They spoke about making a hole in the head, but also they tried to make for me picture that they had broken their regulations, about manipulation. This is their usual style of speak after heavy torture, like everything was miserable mistake, and somebody will punish them. If person gets excited, he will feel different kind like cutting pain, and .the speak will change tone to sarcastic. Now my right side of head feels hurting, like somebody had hit with hammer above the right eye. 7.4. 2005 10.22 pm. After a few days inactivity, they are activating again. From the morning about 8 am until afternoon, the right side of head felt partly paralyzed, or feeling like after somebody had hit it and it was swollen. Now they are doing "restless legs torture", what means they want me to go to sleeping. 26.3.2005 9.32 pm. Now they have tortured especially side of the right eye. It hurts badly when coughing. The torture started when I undress my head shield to come out of house and get the newspaper from the mailbox. Torture is continued irregularly each other of hour or so. Yesterday they caused earache, because they wanted to me not to wear earphones. After the pain went out, I put the earphones on again. This time they said something "being tired to play with you", but did not start to ear pain torture again. They have developed a kind of manipulating system, which works with pain and sleepiness. Example if I go shopping after lunch I am not tired, but if I start to read something I became very tired, after ten minutes or so. Apparently they disturb my body functioning, so that blood sugar level comes high if I go to read after lunch because my "secretary" does not like reading - what means him a kind of repeating, what I read. Similarly they have pain, if they want me to sleep other side, or not stay someplace etc. They told me on 1960 end most of the United Nations ambassadors of small countries on New York were manipulated electrically. After implanting them they started to speak them as "voice of god" or "new form of life from Sirius" etc. according what ambassadors believe. Anyway they made agreement with many of them that they do not torture them if they vote like they wanted. They made "sticks of the nail" type pain on left fingers for no-vote, and same thing for right hands for yes-vote. That because most of the ambassadors preferred not to talk at all with them. I understand ambassadors. It is not case of simply verbal manipulation, but their machine does also something else on brain, it has a kind of electrical effect, which works if a person listen them. They have some other stories too. Is this story about ambassadors true I am not sure, but I believe it would be true. If it is true I hope some of the ambassadors come out their closets and speak public, what did happen to them, just for the sake of history.

22.3.2005 3.55 am. Their usual start of the week torture is moved to Tuesday. The purpose of the torture is to get me sleepy. Uncomfortable bed torture and they did something my head I do not feel sleepy. Otherwise the last week is gone with mostly some manipulation, which I have felt around my head. They did also cause some memory blocks to manipulate my vocabulary on case I had to speak English. 10.3. 2005 6.05 am. My right side of head above the right eye hurts again. They threatened to "burn my files”, whatever it means. 7.3.2005 11.25 pm. 5.3 night, my right side of head was sore when I woke up, so they had manipulated it while I was asleep. 6.3. and after they have tortured mostly other parts of head, than right side. I heard that Aljazeera news Agency reported that Iraq health ministry official had convinced that Us-army used nerve Gas weapons and Napalm and cocktail of polystyrene and jet fuel. With Google search I found that the news went on most alternative media, but not on mainstream western media. So there has to be a kind of system that stops unwanted news. I feel that it works on news agencies. That why mind control news do not come out mainstream media. This news of illegal nerve gas use, was important, it has human interest value etc. How Army blocks the news, I do not know. The torture pictures went public, but this was before election. Most people do not realize the blackout of news, and so they are not aware that everything worth of print is not printed in their newspapers. I will find, in future, if this nerve-gas news breaks from alternative press into mainstream media. 4.3.2005 11.23 pm. They started on the morning by torturing left side of head. The torture continued over 9 am. About 5 pm. they had”sticks under nails torture" on left fingers. Now after 11 pm. They are irritating the centre of the head, for some purpose. 3.3.2005 11.50 pm. About 4.30 pm. Torture started left side front of the head. 5.45 pm. The tortured side felt partly frozen, different than the right side of the head. 6.24 pm. Torture started again left side, but this time back of the head. I put my protecting clothes around my head about 8.00 pm. Now torture has stopped for a while, except that the left side of head still feels different than right side, and frozen feeling is near centre of the head. 1.3 2005 5.03 am. They started torture after couple of hours sleep about 2.50 am. by waking me up by "uncomfortable bed" torture, which makes sleeping painful whatever side the victim is. After they continued verbal torture and "sticks under

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nails" torture to keep me awake. I had no other possibility than do Morse code; even I hate it maybe even more than my "interpreter”. So I was rest of the night some kind of half sleep hour or two. This was actually very much like their Monday morning torture except it happened a day after Monday. 21.2. 2005 5.09 am. Their usual Monday morning torture. I still feel their manipulation on my neck. It is not "hard head" they kept me awake three days at row twenty years ago, but the principal is same. On weekend when I do not have to go to work, they prefer "uncomfortable bed" and "restless legs" type torture, where sleeping is limited, by making it uncomfortable. Often on weekends, they do not actually try to limit my sleep, but limit my activity. Yesterday I went asleep while sitting on chair. I had a dream about two giant rabbits-face creatures, which walk on two legs. I am not if it was ordinary dream or somehow fabricated. 13.2. 2005. 11.28 pm. torture on the left eye this time 13.2. 2005. 11.14 am. Torture around the right eye. 11.2.2005 8.19 am, Torture on the right eye. It started about same time as yesterday, the only difference , this time there was not "uncomfortable bed" torture, that they did do yesterday. I guess the purpose for this "uncomfortable bed" torture is to get me sleepy, by not letting me to sleep. The right side of head is sore, and that wheels especially when coughing. 11.2.2005 1.39 am. Yesterday and a day before yesterday, their torture on right eye started around 3-4 am and continued until I woke up about 7 am. Now if they do same thing, it is a third day in row. 8.2.2005 5.44 am. They torture my right eye, just now. 7.2. 2005 0.34 am. Torture on right temple of my head. 8.44 am Torture on right side of head started about 6 am and it is still continuing. 6.2. 2005 6.01 am. Torture on right side of the head. 1.19 pm. Rust nail type of torture, feels like they are turning a pick on my right temple, 3.2.2005 4.47 pm. Torture on right side between 2 and 4 pm. This was while I was on meeting; I hope it did not make my speech very unclear. 2.2. 2005 they wanted to demonstrate that they can prevent me to remember specific things. They caused me to not remember my account password. For specially they did take care , do not cause me harm, I remembered my credit-card password , when I used my credit card and then I did not remember my account password, and other way around. 1.2. 2005 This evening they made me unconcious. When I woke up my hands were trembling. 22.1.2005 12.35. Torture on right eye. Feeling like somebody had hit on eye. 21.1.2005 5.55 am. torture on same place as yesterday, right side of the head 20.1.2005 9.40 pm. Torture on right side of the head. 9.1.2005 10.35 pm. In the morning torturers caused ordinary pain on right side around head. Just now they cause sharp pointed oscillating pain on right temple of head. 8.1.2005 10.17 am. Possibly heaviest torture for month or two. It started after I went to sleep, and it was worst about 4.30 am. The pain came just on right eye, and it is still hurting. 7.1.2005 4.06 am. Last Year ended on their torture on LEFT side of the head starting 31.12.2004 2.30 pm. This year they started to torture usual way on right side of head around my right eye. After New Year the time of torture was usually around 9. Pm. Now the usual time has changed, same as torture has gone heavier for every day. Now they started 3.30 am. , I have not slept at all this night, or actually what happened, Wednesday evening around 7 pm. they made my sitting on chair uncomfortable and painful. So I went to bed, for just twenty minutes and that what they were waiting. They made me unconscious and I wake up middle of the night. Around 8 Am. they made me sleepy again , and I slept until 3 pm. This is the sleeping pattern they like and they force me on holidays. Usually after food, after hour or two, I go sleepy. I thought this was normal. However now this has stopped. This means that they have caused it some reason, or it was a side effect of some experimenting, they have stopped. My guess is that they did stop my body natural blood-level sugar control, and that has caused sleepiness after meal. Actually very much they do somehow is connected to blood flow of my body, and they have very clever tricks to make their victim to behave a way they want. I remember once, when they did not let me sleep, they responded to me that my blood was "too good”, so they monitor somehow my sleepiness from blood. Same way all their "sticks under nails" and "restless legs" torture is done by controlling blood pressure on specific parts on body. 22.12.2004 4.27 am. Now they are doing”sticks under nails" torture for left forefinger for several hours. 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communicating with pain. Now it is made for rather to make life difficult and sleeping impossible. Yesterday there were not much more than verbal torture. Before that on four days on row they caused pain on right side of head around the right eye, always in the morning when I woke up. However they did not have usual Sunday morning headache on Sundays 13.12.2004 5.15 am. They started their Monday torture, which means they try to keep me tired for a whole week. I did Morse code for some songs about 2-3 hours, which they tried to stop by cutting my memory. I felt I slept about hour or so. No pains on head, but a kind of "lock" on neck, that I got partly open with Morse code (Their "secretary" went tired to Morse after me). This same happened o me about two years a go for every start of the workweek. 10.12.2004 4.40 am. They have now kept me three days with a very little sleep. This night I am not sure if I did sleep at all. They do it somehow with a blood pressure, which feels especially on neck, and with very heavy verbal manipulation 2.12.2004 7.55 pm. I have kept a kind of stainless-steel pot on my head. Without of pot they cause a kind of shrinking feeling center of the head, and dizziness. With pot they cause a heavier continuous pain center of the head. Even the pain is stronger with pot, I prefer it for dizzy feeling I get if I have not protected my head. The pain is masked like the pot cause it, but it is not true. The pot stays on head, so that the metal does not touch head center of head but rather on edges of the pot, so they do not like the pot. 21.11.04 4.45 p.m. They are doing something with my right eye, just now. Feeling is something like small pain on right eye. Thursday over a week ago (11.11.2004) morning about 5-6 am. They did something that has not happened before. They made a message without words. The content of message was that I should get up earlier, because it was raining outside (that was true, it was raining). On twenty years ago I called their machine "telepathic amplifier”. The machine was this time actually just capable to send silent voice and to listen the words that their victim pronounced in his mind. Now the machine is near "telepathic amplifier". My torturers goal is to be capable to correct "wrong" thinking; I just hope I can keep eyesight my both eyes. The hearing on other ear is partly gone. After invention of nuclear weapons United States killed hundreds maybe thousands of own citizens, just to get the exact information how much radioactivity persons can take before he die. Persons who planned and administered the deathly experiments are not in jail like other killers in country , but are on respected positions in American society. Their victims had a hard time to explain, fellow citizens and police that doctors are killing them by radioactivity (that was true). Very similar crimes that Allied Forces hanged German scientist after Second World War. After the war they now funded their own scientist for very similar crimes. The amount of victims, suggest that there are even larger amount of scientist experimenting how to change personality and content of brain electronically. After this Thursday (11.11.2004) the pain on right side stopped on several days (the last Sunday was exception, pain on right eye some hours) , before it started this morning , this time not around my right eye but just on right eye. 8.11.2004 0.25 am. Torture on right side of the head. Usually on this week , when I woke up on the morning the right side of head around right eye is sore, but the actual thing that has caused that head is sore They did while I am unconscious. They have kept me very sleepy last week. 4.11.2004 1.30 am. I just cought out some stains of dryed black blood within my saliva. Where the blood come to my lungs and why I do not know. 31.10.2004 5.45 pm. Morning started with general headache. It slowly turned pain on right side of the head that is now continuing. On the morning reading was also different than before. The head was like too "tight" reading had to do with force. The last week they did different experiment with sleepiness. Example my favourite chair became a place I went unconscious. On other places this did not happen. 24.10.2004 1.00 pm. Torture started 10.30 am. as a general headache. Very soon it changed to normal above right eye ache. 23.10.2004 1.48 am. Torture around right eye. 21.10.2004 10.28 pm. I had a pain on chest on left side of body that felt especially on physical stress, when I woke up stairs etc. This lasted over a week and other torture for this time was only occasional except verbal torture that continued all the time. They did similar wound in while I was Alberta, Canada about 20 years ago, although that time I had to go to doctor. Now when the wound has healed, they started torture on right side again about hour ago and it is still continuing. 12.10 2004 9.30 pm. Pain on chest starting on afternoon. 11.10 11.45 am. The torturers said the purpose of yesterday’s torture was to shorten my lifespan. This could be just intimidation, or then it has some truth in it. 10.10.2004 4.30 pm. The torture started again. After sauna , just before I went to bed they started torture for a whole forehead and that is still continuing. Beside pain their torture is causing nausea. There is a shrinking feeling on the whole forehead. 4.10.2004 4.10.2004 1.00 am. The collection of the torture I suffered for the last few days.: Thursday :Torture on right side of head started 4.13 am. It ended about six am. Friday: torture around right eye started about five am and ended about 7 am. On Friday day there were some shooting pains around the head example 11.50 p.m. on left side of head. Saturday: torture started 4.55 on right side of head, and it continued around 10 am.

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Sunday: there were just verbal torture and some doze off periods that they did cause; if they did something they did it while I was sleeping. I hope the torture period is end now. My theory how it goes is that they do something for me (torture period) - then there is a period they examine what they caused, then again new torture period etc. 29.9.2004 5.30 am. I awoke on torture 4.30 am. Now it was again around right eye. Feeling like somebody has hit me on right eye. This is a third time in row they torture for same time. 28.9.2004 4.08 am. I awake their torture on right side of head. It is still continuing and getting more painful every day. 27.9.2004 6.50 am. I awake on torture around right eye around 5 am. It stopped after I had shower. Now it looks again they are experimenting with my right eye. 26.9. 2004 5.20 p.m.There was a kind of pause of their torture, with only verbal torture and some occasional pains somewhere on head. Now their torture is again getting heavier. Last Friday 8.30 p.m. was torture on right side of head. This same happened Saturday morning. Last night torture on right side of head that started 3.30 am. I slept a while and when I awake torture was continuing. Just now they are doing something on left side back of head. 15.9.2004 4.15 am. They have kept me awake all night. After hour or so I have to go to work. They wanted to help me to express how it feels, how they keep me awake and not let me to sleep - so they suggested two expressions "Head full of grasshoppers" and " head full of ants". I believe some other poor person they have tortured has actually made the expressions. The Itching on the head that the torturers cause is really like ants walking on my scalp. 11.9. 2004 0.20 am. This torture period started Thursday 9.9 11.20 pm. Torture right side of head continued through night and for long next day. They also some how caused a whole body feeling very tired , like after a heavy physical exercise, a whole Friday day. On both Thursday and Friday, they used”restless legs" torture to get me on bed, and after I went unconscious for a few hours. Now when I awaked around midnight a torture on right side of head started, but went very mild. However right side of head feels different for coughing etc. 5.9.2004 6.33 am. Rather heavy torture on right side of head that started about 4.30 am. and it still is continuing. This has happened every day on last three days. Last Friday the torture started 5.00 am. and yesterday Saturday torture started 2.20 am. Every day this is for right side of head, very same way it was some month ago. The pain feels very much same as after somebody has hit one head with hammer. 1.9. 2004 6.44 am. The torturers have a kind of more active period. On Monday 30 August afternoon they started to torture right side of head about 2.pm. while I was working. This time the torture was a bit different than usual -they caused a freezing sensation; I believe that this was done by interfering blood circulation on brain. Torture continued about three hours. Yesterday they had "restless legs" torture while had evening class 6.30 p.m. Today they started usual torture the right side of head around right eye after 5 am. and it is still continuing. 26.8.2004 7.44 p.m. The torture on the right side of the head started around 5. Pm. and is continuing nearly with couple of small pauses on hour. Last night they somehow caused a dream that was a very near of hallucination. It was not "movie”, the outcome was not programmed, and it started while I was sleeping, and it hade away when I awake. However it was not style of a dream, but rather like a hallucination. Also it did not cause headache, like after programmed "movie". 16.8.2004 3.30 a.m. Last morning I awake on torture on right side of head. The torture was like "old times" when they did not try to make it less painfully. It continued several hours. This night I went to sleep normal way. Unfortunately I had to go to toilet in middle of the night, and they started their usual Monday morning torture, that idea is to make me tired, because they feel I am easier manipulated that way. They started your friend is our agent version 1 , I listened two or three minutes, before I started Morse code old song as a defend (this means their "secretary" has to repeat with me di daadi daadidaa etc), so they got me so much awake I did not get sleep at all. Usually their stories are new or old version of some basic stories. I try to collect them one by one and keep some diary what stories they use. This is a start; let’s see how it works out. 14.8.2004 3.00 pm. The torture on right side of head continues, but somehow different style. Every morning I wake up the right side of head feels different than the left one, so they have done something on it something while I was sleeping. The feeling usually disappears after shower and breakfast. Then there is a bit different a kind of hurting feeling just above right eye, hat comes usually on sometime of day I have it just now and it would take hour or two to disappear. Their verbal torture, commenting nearly all of my thinking and making teasers to get me talk with them continues all the time I am awake. 9.8. 2004 4.09 a.m. They have done different things with me than before. Mostly verbal torture, and random short shooting pains around my head , pains like one would have after staying too long on sunshine. There has been that usual torture on right side of head once or twice a week, but now they are causing less pain than before. I have a theory that perhaps they are experimenting with my right eye, since pains are around the eye. So that far, I have lost part of hearing on my right ear, but the left one is normal. If they manage to damage my right eye, I still have my left eye left. I just hope they do not continue to make their breaking test on my right kidney etc. This night 2.34 a.m. mild torture on right side of head. On the same time restless legs torture on left leg. Later on I got a sleep and had nightmare, I am not sure if it was artificial or not. It was very similar that my experiences on Edmonton

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Alberta on 1976 or so, and I was very happy it was all just a dream now. 21.7 2004 10.20 p.m. Short shooting pains this time left side front of the head random-time, about one every 5-10 minutes. One cut lasts about second or two. 17.7.2004 6.50 p.m. The torture of right side of head stopped abruptly 11.7. After that there were mostly occasional needle like pains left side and back of the head, and normal verbal torture, but not torture on right side front of head. Today around 1.30 p.m. the torture of right side front of head started again - and it is still continuing. The actual pain is not now very great , but it can very efficiently disturb all my activities and thinking processes. 11.7. 2004 10.24 am. Torture started on right side of front of head about 9.45, and it is still continuing. Yesterday their response, from my writing was very army style. Torture became a kind of pulsed of random intervals varying from some seconds to over minute. After couple of hours it became normal continuing pain. Torture continued about two times of what it normally takes. So they are not very afraid to continue torture even if in theory everybody who reads this diary knows when they are causing pain. 10.7. 2004 1.45 p.m. Torture started at 1.11 p.m. yesterday sending my diary (while torture was continuing ) to internet, stop the torture after ten minutes or so. I test , if this does the same. If it works , I have really invented something useful. 9.7. 2004 9.06 p.m. Afternoon torture on right side front of head started 7.15 p.m. , and it is still continuing very heavy. Is this the swing I told (diary 31,1, 2004) torture some hours twice a day, that comes gradually heavier and heavier ? 9.7.2004 5.35 a.m. The torture on right side of head started 1.50 a.m. , and is still continuing. 8.7. 2004 6.41 a.m. Yesterday torture started while I Had lunchtime 12.45, and it lasted about three or four hours. Today it started when I awake about 6 a.m. and is still continuing. 6.7. 2004. 9.10 p.m. This morning torture on right side of head started while I was working about 9.30 a. m. and continued couple of hours. In the evening torture continued on same place 9.05 p.m. and is still continuing. 5.7. 2004 11.30 p.m. On the morning 7.30 a.m. when I was on the way to work , they started to torture their usual place right side front of head. The torture continued the whole time from home to work. Even after three hours 10.30 the right side hurt while laughing or coughing. The feeling was same like after I had hit my fingers on hammer. Apparently they have equipment to rupture small blood vessels, or to stop the blood so that clotting of blood cause the rupture. "Stick under nails" torture and "restless legs" torture also prove that they can control the blood flow on the part of body they want to cause harm. Other things they can do is to read victim thinking if it is vocalized. They have also machine that destroys (permanently ? ) victim ability to read without vocalizing words. Finally the most dangerous thing, they can interrupt the victim vocalized thinking and sometimes manipulate it. Victim will accept manipulators (secretary) silent voice as his own thinking. This joined to manipulation of memory, ( that probably happen simply by interrupting blood flow on brains) and vocabulary makes the machine very dangerous. Victim could be unable to vocalize his own thoughts, so he has to accept the translation of his thoughts that "secretary" serves for him. 4.7. 2004 1.50 p.m. They torture on right side front of head, just side of right eye. 4.7. 2004 5. 10 a.m Yesterday night I had "Sticks under nails torture" they also did try not to let me sleep, I got sleet around 6 am. Now they have "restless legs torture" on left leg. Probably to produce this they have burninglike pain on right side back of the head near neck. This burninglike pain on back of head ,could be also their way to not let me sleep. 2.7. 2004 Looks like torture is starting again. Pain on right side front of the head started about 7.04 p.m. yesterday. It went harder hour later. Now on 4.06 a.m. it is still continuing. There was some days that there were not much more than verbal torture, not even on Sunday morning headache, in spite of I went sauna on last Saturday. The pain now is above the right eye, and I have feeling like after I had hit my eye on something. 19.6 2004 1.39 p.m. They are causing pointing pain on right side of head. It is very difficult to be happy because they are causing one or other like of pain or verbally torturing nearly all the time I am awake. 18.6.2004 5.55 am. When I woke up my right side of head was hurting. 17.6 .2004 2.22 a.m. They torture on right side of head. 15. June 2004. 11.20 p.m. They are causing pain just above the right eye just now. My right eye feels dead. 14. June 2004. 6.09 a.m. I went awake 3.45 a.m. They were causing this usual pain on right side of the head. The head is sore on right side now. 13. June 2004. 7.19 a.m. I have usually Saturdays after Sauna a headache on front of my head. This Saturday I was too tired to go to Sauna. Still I had the headache. So I found that this is caused by those people who torture me. They have caused a lot of similar pains that looks like ordinary pains, but are caused artificially. 6. 20 Headache changed ordinary pain on right side of head not as heavy as day before, when I woke up middle of night feeling that my right side of head was cut open.

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10. June 2004. 10.50 p.m. Heavy torture on right side of the head since 8.00 p.m. 9. June 2004. 6.00 am. Torture on right side of head. 7. June 2004 0.03 am. Yesterday not so heavy, but continuing pain on right side of head. Today some needle like short pains. Back of head. I corrected 23.5.2004 notes, to make them more easily to understand. I had forgotten some words on my sentences, also much of dates I told old torture look confusing. I was under heavy pressure these days. 27.5-04 2.40 a.m. .Heavy torture on right side front of the head, just now. 25.5.-04 6.53 am. Torture on right side of head started when I woke up 6.10, and continue heavy. 25.5.-04 1.00 a.m. paralyzing torture yesterday 24.5 6.05-7 p.m. on right side. Other side of face felt different than other. Pain and feeling like somebody is pressing or freezing right side of head. I was in night school and miss most of the lecture. 23.5.2004 0.15 am. They have started their daily torture, that looks like is getting heavier all the time. Just now they are torturing on their usual place right side front of head where (Rauni Gilde) the implant is.(17.5.2004) They did not let me sleep more than two hours. I thought it was their usual”start of the week torture" to get me sleepy. However on next night I felt they tried to murder me. While I was asleep they cause me to vomit. Usually I would have waked up. However this time they paralyzed me somehow (similarly as their "helicopter experiment" 23. June 2003). So I breath much what my stomach had into my lungs. I cough up sausages and other stuff from lungs rest of the night. If they have succeeded to kill me it would have look like an ordinary death. I would have thought, everything was normal, without their hypnotizing paralyzing story that kept me not to wake up while I was breathing my vomit. After this night torture started again usual right side 19.5.2004 7.44 pm. Torture on right side. (20.5.2004) 11.15 pm. Torture on right side near right eye. (21.5.2004) 6.23 pm. torture on right side of head. These are just examples I have made a note. Does this mean, they tried to kill me, and because they did not succeed they made decision to use me for experimenting again? I do not know. Another possible cause for their attempted murder is that I am planning a web page that explains for what I feel is their most dangerous manipulation technique "whispering technique". I will explain what they do, and I have also some Ideas how it is done. I have already got a web-source for "silent voice". I still have to get source of experiment I read from some magazine long time ago. On this story person that was victim of lobotomy was watching on his other eye on picture. Because of lobotomy brain halves did not communicated, he was not able to communicate what he was seeing on his other eye. I myself also have speculated possibility that the implant is put on place side of the other eye; similarly as doctors have done lobotomy from side of eye without damaging eye. For average people my explanation what is whispering technique is too "Far out", but there is a minority of people that do not judge possibility of phenomena how far it is their everyday world ,or what they would get from television, but rather try find out if the phenomena is logically sound. 1 May 2004 7.37 p.m. I have some holidays. So my perpetrators have started heavier than usual torture. Last night about2. A.m. they started to torture right side front of head - where according Dr. Rauni Gilde article, the implant is -. It was like turning rusty screw to the head. Now the torture started again, this time whole forehead. Before that there were many similar, although not so long lasting torture . 28.4 1.10 am they cause general headache. Next day 29.4 Torture of the right side of head, started 6.57 p.m. Yesterday it started 2.37 p.m. I heard from radio president Bush judge US. Army torture of Iraq prisoner distasteful and criminal. The torture came public from pictures, one guard took. I wish the photography for our torture would be possible. Perhaps then President Bush could not close his mind from pain of victims of his administration. 15. April 11.37 p.m. On Eastern I met a fellow victim of mind-manipulation. He is an English teacher who lives in Helsinki. He told me how he has defended himself, and gave me valuable links for information about mind-control. I appreciate especially Former Chief Medical Officer of Finland, Rauni Gilde article Microchip Implants, Mind Control, and Cybernetics. It has a good list of sources , I have to read. My torturers did not like for victims meet and talk to each other their experiences. They started again to cause pain on front, right side of head; the torture started yesterday on Wednesday about 10 p.m. and lasted through the night 5 a.m. I was still able to sleep some time. For daytime afternoon, on work they made "restless legs" type torture and pain on right side of head started again on 9.56 p.m. 25.3.2004 11.25 p.m. Again they are causing pain just above right eye. 22. March 11.25 p.m. After a nearly month more peaceful time, that means that my torturers have mostly used just verbal torture. they have started to cause pain again. Now they have started to cause pain on old place front right side of head, nearly right eye. 22. February 2004 3.50 p.m. It looks like there is a pattern of my torture. The torture was worsening day to day, after there is a pause of some day’s even weeks and then the torture starts again. Maybe that is the swing. I had a flue in last week. Last Wednesday I had food-poisoning (I believe the cause was kali-virus that was spreading here this time). However the way torturers interfered for the food poisoning was worth mentioning. Half past three pm. at work I had continuing uneasy feeling. I thought that torturers cause it, and I put my earphones on and started to chew chewing- gum as I now it sometimes easy the pain. On the moment I put earphones on my head, I nearly lost my balance, computer monitor and table on vision

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moved much smaller than usually. I went crawling to toilet, and vomit all the food I had. After that the feeling was normal, except flu I had before. My interpretation of this is that my torturers disrupt my body signals to vomiting and continuing food-poisoning. Just putting on headphones cut the controlling of signals for time that my natural feeling was able to take control and I started to vomit. Friday they had much "sticks under nails" and ”restless legs" type torture. Saturday they make my head right side around the eye, very sore, and this they are continuing today. After all they keep me very tired; the idea is to have me passive. I had piece of a diary of anonymous mind-control victim. I hope I had his name. We are in same situation as Nazi-Germany pensioners, when they tried to explain doctors are killing them. To make sure that the truth stay hidden police did not arrange any rational and wide enough investigation. The police now behave exactly same way. Oh course the professional ethics of some medical professional is same level as Nazi Germany massmurders had . 31.1.2004 7.50 pm. Morning they started torture. The pain is pointing on the right side of head. The pain continued whole day, and had grown more painful on the evening. The other scaring word that I have found in torturers speech is swing. The story about swing they have told me is this: In Far-East is a custom way to execute people. They tie the person on hammock that is high on tree. On the ground under the hammock they put sharp bamboo-sticks, so that when person drops he is killed by sticks. Side of the rope that tie the hammock on the tree foot of the hammock, they put candle that is so long that it is above the rope. They light the candle. When the candle burns shorter, it will eventually burn the rope, so that person will drop down and the bamboo sticks on the ground go through him. The more person swings on his hammock, that faster the rope will burn, and he will die. Still most people try to escape by swinging their hammock so much they can on hope that they would drop outside of the bamboo sticks. How they will make this work electrically, or what the story means, for my case I do not know, but I am afraid. Maybe that is what they want for me. b 21.1.2004 11.50 pm. Yesterday torture lasted several hours. They have a name for this type of torture "Electric chair". It is like electric-chair, only differences that electric-chair for execution use more power and kills without pain. This one they had, use less power and cause much pain but does not kill. The other difference is that they put victim to suffer this electrocuting for several hours for time. 20.1.2004 9.30 pm. The torture started about same time as heavy torture for yesterday around 9.20. Pm. They torture same place right side of head. They really do something, not just make pain. This morning, when coughing, the right side of the head felt sore. I was able to sleep some time yesterday, so I am not so tired now. 19.1.2004. 9.17 pm. Maybe heaviest torture for a year or, two just now . They cause pain right side of head.Torture is their way to celebrate Martin Luther King Jr. day. 19.1.2004 5.30 am. Their usual Monday torture, now a little harder than usually. I did not sleep at all. Three a.m. they started to cause pain right side of head. It was like puncture of dull pig needle. It still hurts. I got the feeling this is machine that has schedule, and they use the same machine to torture many people. After torture they talk their usual way to get me afraid. They said that this will continue so long I am useful, and after they will arrange me a heart attack (this said with manipulation of may heart). 18.1.2004 3.00 a.m. Last Thursday about 3.30 p.m. they got me unconscious while I was working. Unfortunately other people in room found I was asleep. Their diagnose was that I have narcolepsy. Friday 7.30 p.m. Torturers caused pain usual place above right eye. Later 11.10 p.m. sharp burnlike pain middle of the head. Saturday 6.35 p.m. pain above right eye, again 8.20 p.m. pain on same place. 15.1.2004 1.02 a.m. While I was working they started to cause the pain above the right eye 12.07 pm and later on starting quarter past three p.m. They caused also a freezing feeling above the right eye. The pain continued until 6. p.m. I did some search with Google concerning Swedish Foreign Affairs Minister Anna Lindh murder. I found that the possibility that killer is a victim of mind control was well represented on the discussion sites, but not on media. Words "Anna Lindh" "mind control" gave a lot of links. But I found that no one has joined Robert Naeslund case of Swedish mind control as a evidence that suggest the killer is a mind controlled person. Google search "Anna Lindh" "Robert Naeslund" found no links. I feel that Robert Naeslund case of electronic mind control should get public with theory Mihailovich did killAnna Lindh while his mind was manipulated. 13.1.2004 1.08 a.m. The work has started and so their torture. Yesterdays I did not sleep at all. This is their usual start of the week torture. Now I have not very many hours to sleep before I have to start work. They said that they have my bloodpicture which they can follow how sleepy I am, and they torture accordingly. They try to keep me sleepy because of that way I am easier to manipulate. I found that Anna Lindh killer hears voices also. So there is high probability that he is also a hypnotized victim of mind-control. Next question, who is behind Mihailovich act. Two major possibilities US- or Swedish intelligence, who did not like Anna Lindh way to make foreign policy, Robert Naeslund case prove Swedish are familiar with mind control technology. Somebody should make count how many percent of killers of public figure heard voices before year 1970 and after year 1970. This is to way to rough estimate the role of electrical mind-control for political murders. 25.12 11.21 a.m. Yesterday Christmas Eve, they caused pain about two hour intervals on right side around my right eye, and now it hurts.

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21.12. 8.50 p.m. Very aggressive manipulation from them yesterday and today. Yesterday 12.21 afternoons they started pain on usual place right side of head. 3.39 p.m. the pain started on neck. 11.05 they started pain on right side again. I was visiting my friend today. Around 5 p.m. middle of my speech they started to freeze my left side of head. My thinking and speech come difficult and left side of face felt different than right side, I was not able to protect myself any way. It looks torture is their way to celebrate the Christmas. They are that brand of Christians. 15. December 2003. 4.56 am. Their usual Monday morning torture that purpose is to get me tired rest of the week. This time it was rather unusual. When I went to sleep, they gave me two possibilities. I sleep in position they want, or they torture. They knew I do not co-operate with them so they started to torture. Before they had "restless legs" torture that was made by controlling blood flow on legs. Now they had developed similar torture for one leg. Similarly before they had some way to shake whole body. Now they had developed, to shake just legs. This was connected with "movie" that a bear was taking me on the legs. (This would be also natural dream that ended their shake ). 8. December 2003. This time they show me another orchestrated dream "movie". It was a peaceful movie about a party I was participating. After I woke up they tried to talk about a movie. After movie (or talk), left side of head felt odd different than right one. Last day they made a very intensive verbal torture that ended their try to get my feeling "high" that ends for their typical like pulling-cap-from-head-pain and a headache. This happen on Sunday around 7. p.m. I was partly aware and disturbed their talk and maybe my shield was protecting me, they caused just kind of itching on the head. 24. November 2003 0.12 am. The torture continued same place above right eye on Friday and Saturday nights. The eye can still function normally. It was on the morning just like I had hit my head for something. On 21. November I wrote about "secretary" that feeds me with wrong words. To clarify, the "secretary" is just another name for "interpreter" that I wrote on 10. June. 21. November. 7:40 p.m .They started to torture heavy from a long time again. Now is sharp pain just above the right eye. Before on this November their torture was mostly intensive verbal manipulation where "secretary" tried to guess most of my thinking and translate it to verbal form. Example, I found it was raining and opened my umbrella. "Secretary" translated my thinking to verbal: ”It is raining, I must open umbrella". There was also much "reading practice" where "secretary" tried to feed me with wrong words. 3. November 2003. 4.36 am. It looks like they have got a new torturers, or old torturers have started to use new ways to torture. They have always have their start-of-the-week-night-torture which has purpose to get me tired, that I am easier to manipulate or "show easier" as they say it. On the weekend they have less possibility to control sleep, because it is difficult to stop me to sleep once I have got sleep. Weekdays I have to go to work on time. So they want but me on tired condition on Sunday night. Usually they let me sleep for some time still also Sundays. Now it looks like it has changed for worse. They use every possibility to stop my sleep and not let me sleep again. Their ways to do it range for verbal torture to pains on the legs, which they apparently do by controlling blood flow. This worsening of night torture has happened sometimes also before. Difference is that now it has worsened by intensity rather than brute force and brutality. Anyway the end it much same, I am very tired. 29. September 9.28 pm. They have started making pain again. This is a fourth day in a row. Now they are causing pain on right side of head, just above eye. The time they are causing pain has chanced for day to other. Middle of the day, just in the morning when I have waked up, or middle of the night. I speculate that possibly reason that they started to cause pain is that I wrote another victim Eleanor ( Raven1) and join the cause of torturers smoothing behaviour for this diary. 16. September. 10.30 pm. causing physical pain has mostly ended, but verbal torture and manipulation of brain continue. I feel it occasional "freezing" feeling of other side of head, or other side of head is different than other or swelling feeling on face etc. I am not sure if this is the start for the better or start for the end. I have a feeling , that they are planning something. 21. August 7.55 pm. Yesterday they started to torture while I was working right side of head 6.55 pm, and it lasted over hour. Today they started 5.15 and are still torturing. The filings are like they have hit me with small hammer to head and caused the small blood vessel for rupturing. I also found that the torture causes that I am very sensitive for all voices and movements etc. Some help for torture one can get by chewing chewing-gum, and morse code and moving the head. chewing is painful for start but helps pain after a while.Some times I think that the torture is just to lower my resistance for verbal manipulation. I remember times while I stopped to respond their manipulation. They caused headache and nausea that larger, so I had to start co-operate for some meaning with them. Co-operating with them does not mean they stop torture, but not any co-operating means they cause pain that much , that one has to co-operate

20. August 0.29 am. There was a long time while torture was mainly verbal, but now the torture with pain has come back. They started torturing on right side of head this late afternoon. Maybe torturers were on vacations, and have now came back 23. July. 5.59 am. They have made the hurting spot right side of head every night since 20. July. They start about 3 am. and finish when I woke up.

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20. July 12.30 afternoon. Last night they got me so sleepy I did not time to protect my head before going to sleep. So I got my usual wound like pain on right side, Unusual was that I also felt like my head is shrinking, while I woke up about 3 am. They have got me unconscious very fast several times. On Friday I fell asleep for some moments while my dentist was operating on my tooth. 6.July 10.40 pm. Last night they tortured old place right side of head. I do knot know if they made my left side hurting, or did it happen naturally, anyway I had to turn my side, and right side of head went up, where it is easier to manipulate. I read mindcontrol victims mailing list (mc@topica.com), and found from others victims letters that form of manipulation - voice, that was made to sound like someone known friends voice, - that some victims experienced - was stopped from me (actually, it stopped from first year of torture 25 or so years ago). Instead the other form manipulation - making unfinished sentences and waiting victim to finish the sentence in his words - happen to me also now, but not very often, because I have used to not answer torturers questions, not even by thinking, - that is the line I try to keep, but not always succeed. 4. July 6.42 am. In the morning they started to torture, hurting spot again right side old place. Some nights before they tortured many night a row a bit lower just side of the right eye. I have found that the hurting spot is feeling when they use verbal torture. They kind of need this spot to make verbal communication work. Similarly spot feels pain, while I am coughing for some reason. The helicopter torture did not go inside side of head, but from neck. I cannot remember, how was it from earlier movies. 1. July 5.01 am. Now they have started to torture ju side of right eye. The hurting spot is just side of the right eye. I have not found any effect of eyesight yet, but moving right eyelid is a bit painful. 23. June 12.19 am. They showed me one of their "movies". This one had a kind of practical use. The movie was about that a military helicopter is above ready to shoot me, and I have to stay still. Most of it was made from acoustical effects, but I kind of felt there was a helicopter. I know from earlier experiences, that if victim can move his head, the magic fades away. Now they either paralysed me from neck, or I was too much in sleep to understand to move my head. My neck was feeling pains from several hours after, not very pleasant feeling. I think, in real situation they would keep mindcontrol-victim paralysed from some minutes by this "movie" and making the neck paralysed, while they attack into building etc. 10. June 11.03 pm. They have continued to make painful spot about same place above right eye, yesterday evening while I was going to home from work, and just now. It is someway important for their verbal torture, I can resist the pain by making Morse-code on songs or poems I know (this means they have to repeat my Morse code to keep my thinking go through "interpreter" - this is very hard and boring for them, usually they try to get conversation or if they do not succeed on this they put me unconscious and sleep. This "burning the hole on head" as they call it has happened now one or twice time for day, before it happened about once a week or every other week. Verbal torture is now less than before, while it was heavy and continuing.

9. June 5.58 am. Night between Saturday and Sunday and on last night they made a small painful spot on about 5 cm. above right eye. This caused strong headache especially on Sunday morning. 14. May 10.20 pm. They started to torture me right side front of head, morning after 10 am. while I was unable to protect myself .. Torture continued on afternoon. Feeling now is, like somebody has hit my head on hammer. My right side went diffrerent than left, and I was unable to smile. Also my reading changed temporary, I had to kind of press the word on my head , to be able to understand reading.Now they are threading me every mention you will get paid (I guess this mean I have to pay someway for every mention) 5. May 11.07 pm. Torturers correction on my diary on four May. They work on four shifts. The voice is someway made sounding same, but especially before I would find different persons from way they spoke, and words they used. Example "man of extreme" used words anyone, everybody, whole country etc. Now they have corrected their language, and speak very neutral Finnish. 4. May 7.07 pm. Last night they shoot about same place above right eye about four o clock am. In the morning I did not find anything that different my right face than left face. I have a theory that the torturers work on three shifts, and the night shift has this time a project to change or weaken "religious thinking" (Would be something they try change Islamist fundamentalist thinking this time). So they have Idea that some type of thinking comes from some part of brain (or they have measured it from brain activity), and by making this part of brain non-functional, also unwanted "Anti-American" or "fundamentalist" thinking stops or weakens. They do try my brain, and if they succeed, they measure the change of thinking and the possible side effects. If they succeed to change part of my thinking and keep me other way functional many Taliban or other prisoner in American concentration camps who has "Anti-American" thinking will just feel some headache some night, and loose a big part of his interest in religion (or some other things or capabilities, what ever his torture group wants). He probably will never know something is destroyed from his brain while he was prisoner. 3. May 10.48 am. They hit again, on same place of right side. Now right side of face feels a little different than left side. I hope it is temporary. According them the plan was to change my religious belief. As far as I know their code language, it means political belief. While they tortured me I put my hands on the hurting point on my head. I felt heart beating on my head similarly as I would feel it on wrist. So the torture may again have something to do with blood flow, similarly as their other tricks of torture "restless legs" and "sticks under nails". It could be that the pressure of blood on right of the head -

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that they caused someway - made some minor damage. 2. May 9.30 am. I was right, that they were planning a massive torture for my holidays. The torture was last night much worse than a day earlier. Now I feel like somebody has hit me by sharp object on right side to my head. Especially when I cough, I feel a pain on head. 1. May 2003 6.59 am. When I woke up on night to go to toalet, I found they had made a hurting spot right side front of my head. In the night when I started to sleep, they made other spot just above right eye. They caused also horrible general headache when I woke up on night. I did try to protect, by putting a piece of stainless-steel alloy sheet metal above the hurting spot. It usually helps by making the spot less sharp and less hurting; usually they change the place of spot after this. In their language they speak "burning holes on head". I have speculated that they need the "holes" for further manipulation of my brains. Question remains why usually just right side of my head. Anyway they know I have a week and half for vacation, and it looks like they are planning for heavier torture. 20. April 2003 11.40 am. They caused over the head strong headache and nausea, which appeared right after I took my head shield off, to go out. 10.April 2003. 7.17 am. Middle of the night they started to torture one sharp point, just above the right eye. Their explanation for reason of torture: "I have never done this thing before, and I wanted to practice this thing.". 5. April 8.46 pm. Sharp short time pains on head. They threaten to "take my front teeth out". This is their usual "code speak". The Idea is to get me try find out what is the real meaning of their threat. Questions and answers give their opportunity for brain research and manipulation, which they are actually seeking. It would end for a great headache caused by their manipulation. It takes long time before victim find that pain and fuzzy feeling come after his interest of what is the real meaning of saying "take the front teeth out someone mouth" or example real meaning of saying "we give you a raise for your pay" etc. of their "code speak". 25. February 2003 5.43 am. Very heavy pain . Hurting spot again right side of head, but a little higher than yesterday. I wonder why just right side of head. Maybe it has something to do with my tinning right ear, but I do not know has torture caused tinning or tinning has caused them to torture right side. I have a feeling that the hearing on right ear has also impaired. 24. February 2003 6.18 am. Night they made a hurting spot right side of head. Very low, about level of eye. They also put me to see, a kind of their made dream (they call them movies) after movie I was still tired, that what make synthetic dream different from natural dreaming while asleep. Anyway I do not remember very much of it. Not more than un ordinary dream. 6. February 2003. 9.44 pm. They tried to get me unconscious at work. I felt like shrinking pain forehead, and I nearly went to unconscious sleep. This happen several times about 3 to 5 pm. They have sometimes done same, but never for this intensity, like heavy flash electric shock on my forehead. After I felt a small headache. They called this "Sevillan barber" that cut some hair on my head. This is their symbolic language they use. I guess the idea was to get my afraid that I lost some brain functionality. This is just example of their way how they connect actual torture for verbal torture. 3 February 2003. 5.45 am. Sharp pain one specific point right side of my head and verbal torture. This is their normal after weekend torture where they get me very tired condition. I slept just two or three hours. 21 january 2003 5.45 am. Sharp pain right side of my head whole yesterday day. Long time pain in my right ear. balance problem I experienced 13. January was temporary, but troubles in my right ear continue. The

13. January 2003 7.15 am. When I woke up I found difficulties to stand and walk. They did something my ability to keep my balance while walking. In the neck uneasy feeling. 6. December 2002. Finnish Independence Day. Yesterday got "sticks under nails", and night they kept me awake by verbal torture. I have got no idea, what is the function of "sticks under nails torture", but I have found that they do not like certain tasks, and start torture if I perform them. People often ask me to explain how this "brain transmitter" is technically possible. I feel that is just same , as to ask victims of Hiroshima, how the nuclear weapons are build. We are just victims of scientist, not scientist However many of the victims of mind control have made the opinion, how the torture weapons are build. So I give my own guess too. I have opinion that victims have implant. The easiest place is canal between ears and nose, or teeth , but it could be somewhere else too. The implants do not necessary have any metal parts, so they are difficult to find in any x-ray picture. There could be a some sort of power generator, but I believe they are passive transmitters similar of transponders or "smart tags" (rfid) . The type of transmission is most likely UWB (Ultra Wide Band). That gives several advantages. First, the transmission could be even hundredths times weaker that ordinary. Second, it is very difficult to make any shield or shelter of this type of transmission. Third, they are nearly impossible to detect, if one does not know algorithm this particular transmitter operate.

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22. May 2002 11 pm: Now they make pain into right front side of my head just above head.It is usually most safe on my sleep. I sleep between about feet of water in forms of plastic water bags, around my head to save it. Before the part of the head , that was left accidentally or other reason , above the water bags , was in the morning sore. Now they consentrate on the part of head that has been safe, and no other part of the head feels the pain. 28. June 2002 6.44 am. After my first writing on 22. may , the torture nearly stopped, but now it has started gradually increase. The night between 23 and 24 June, they wanted to get me tired so they did me "sticks under nails" and "restless legs". The "Sticks under nails" feels like sticks are turned under nails, I do not know how they do it. "Restless legs”, believed for long time was natural feeling, before once they wanted to show how they could put it on and off. It is made by lowering or rising blood pressure on legs, I believe. Anyway sticks under nails and restless legs are a very efficient way to keep even tired person awake. Now this morning they did "knife on head". It is like one has slept too long time on sun, knifelike pain- feeling. I believe it was not mean as torture but was a side effect for something they were doing for me. The same time their talking has increased. That means example that my reading goes with "interpreter”. I usually read kind of with my eyes, meaning I do not pronounce the words on my mind. Now they kind of make it impossible, and the reading came to my knowledge with their "interpreter" pronounce it for me (they cannot do it as well on reading from monitor as they could do on reading from paper). They also try to make all my thinking with "interpreter", and if I think something they cannot interpreter they interfere by saying something that they believe that I has emotional feeling (name of a friend for example), and same time cut my memory so I do not remember what I was thinking a second ago. 22. October 2002 2.50 am. They did several "Restless legs" type torture. Now it is pretty clear they do it by stopping the bloodflow. Something has gone wrong with my right ear, I hear bells kind of sounds when I step my right food or example I put shirt on etc. 7. July 2002 Torture again small area right front side of my head. They started to do it while I was sleeping, and I awake on torture. They spoke that the purpose of torture was to change my mood happier ( that could be true, or not, for past usually they have not spoken truths). I have got the name for my website "www.humanexperiments.info". Other victims have send me thjeir torture diaries too, and I am planning to join their diaries this site . I have speculated that the way their speaking is constructed is similar that molar mobile in Associated Press article except that it could be anywhere in skull . However police does not feel that this is evidence to start any investigation. Even if I would record the speaking they do not consider speaking on tape recorder as evidence. 8. September 10.43 am. I got the idea , what was behind torture yesterday and 6 September, and May 22. The idea of them is simple to get the area sore , so I wold not sleep my usual way, the now sore area under my head, and so the area is exposed for their manipulation. 22.July 2002 11.12 PM. They have about two days caused pain right side of my skull about two inches from eye. It feels sore also if I cough. It is difficult because in work I cannot protect my head any way. They have done it before, and I believe the purpose is to get me easier manipulated. Sometimes they have spoke that particular spot as srew they would tighten or loose. Interesting that they usually manipulate just one side of skull. Maybe thay want have other side as comparation object for manipulated side. 7. September 1.02 am. Now for a second night in row they are torturing very heavy for small area right front side of my head . The same area as 22. May. 10.August 2 pm. Torture just above the right eye, feeling like I had hit the area something hard. I feel this is very same as 22 May. Maybe there are many research groups that use same victim on their torture, and this one is concentrated are above right eye. This group does not do "coding" , that some other groups do very much. Coding means that they try to give old words new meaning, or make new words that they try to give meaning. Example they use words "long hair" to meaning high emotions. "Hair cut" is something that really cuts the emotions, and they do it for me once a while. This group use "false names" about fifty % of their speech, and use much energy to get me to understand real meaning of name without saying it. Of course they research also what I think, is the meaning I get words "haircut" or "Sweden" (Apparently means Canada) in their speech. 7. August 0.16 am. They are torturing just one point back of head. I feel they are doing this just to get me nervous and irritating me. Yesterday they used "Sticks under nails".

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