Immortal: Chapter 1

by ~bellacullen124

Something was unreal. That was all I knew. Everything was colored too vibrantly while at the same time being extremely dull. I had never seen so much red and that was the part that scared me about the dream. Despite the fact that I knew exactly where I was, I knew that everything was wrong. The walls had never been a bright, bloody red before and neither had the carpet, nor the bed, nor the trees outside the window. It wasn’t just that everything was red but everything seemed to be oozing the color. Bleeding it. I reached across the gigantic bed that I had always thought was superfluous, my hands frantically grasping for the comfort from the stone body that I knew was lying next to me, was always next to me. He had to be there. My hand bumped against his cold skin and I pulled myself over to him, mentally begging him to wrap my arms around him. I needed him more than anything, especially in that moment. But he was strangely rigid against me, almost as though he didn’t even feel me there next to him, clinging to him. “Edward?” I whispered, worry flooding my voice. I sat up, staring at him. His red eyes stared past me, unseeing and unblinking. He didn’t seem to be breathing either but somehow I knew he was alive, just unwilling to move at the current moment. But more was wrong than just this though. He, too, was covered in the awful red that surrounded me. And there was something splattered against the bedspread, red still but darker. Almost like…like…dried blood. I looked around the room, frantic. That’s when I saw her, lying on the bed where I had been just moments ago. Her normally pale skin had an even more ghostly pallor to it and she was covered in blood. There was a frantic look on her sweet, heart-shaped face and her brown, thick hair was in a wild mass around her. Her body was in a weird position, her arms and legs tossed out at weird angles as though she had just fought for her life, and failed. Her neck was ripped up, the skin bloody and destroyed. And her eyes – they were the most unnerving of all. Unseeing and unblinking, just like the man’s next to me, but also glossed over. Dead. The girl was me. *** There was nothing left for me to do but scream. I screamed like – not like I had just seen a ghost, but like I had just learned I was one. I sat straight up in the bed and hurtled myself out of it, ripping the gold comforter off of me. Edward woke with a start but I had locked myself in the bathroom before he could say anything. I was going to be sick. I had been dead. That dream had felt more real than most things that happened to me when I was awake and I had been dead. Not just dead but murdered. And murdered at Edward’s hand.

I dry heaved into the toilet, partial thankful that I didn’t really unload my stomach into the porcelain bowl. I pushed myself off the ground on shaking legs and stared in the mirror, my worry-wrinkled forehead covered in beads of sweat. I was awake now and everything was back to normal. I didn’t see any red around me except for Edward’s red toothbrush which he had left lying by the sink. Someone pounded on the door. “Bella? Bella, are you alright?” Edward yelled. “Bella, open the door. Please.” I leaned over the sink, trying to keep myself under control. The dream had been so terrifying, so real. Edward had killed me, ripped out my throat and drank my blood. I had been dead. Tears welled in my eyes and a sob escaped my throat. “So help me god, Isabella Cullen, let me in,” Edward called through the door. I reached over and twisted the doorknob quickly so that it would unlock as I sank to the ground. Edward flew into the tiny bathroom. He stood frozen, puzzled, as he assessed the situation – me, on the ground, covered in sweat and freaked out, on the verge of tears. “Oh, Bella, Bella,” Edward cooed, sitting down and scooping me into his warm arms. Warm? Wait a minute. In my dream, he had been cold, almost as cold as death but not. And that was something I had accepted in the dream, been used to. And his eyes had been red, not because everything in my dream had been red but because they just were red. Another thing I had accepted as if it were normal for someone to have red eyes. I pulled back and stared into Edward’s emerald green eyes, not sure what to make of how my dream was now mixing with reality. “Bella, love,” Edward said soothingly, kissing my perspiration-covered forehead. “What’s wrong?” “Just…just a dream,” I said with a tiny sob. “Must have been one hell of a dream,” Edward said, smiling his crooked smile. I simply shuddered in his arms, too freaked out to do anything else. “Want to tell me about it?” Edward asked, pulling me in tighter to him and kissing me, his lips moving against mine. “You...you – I died,” I said, deciding last second not to tell him that he was the reason I had been dead. “You know I will never let anything happen to you,” Edward said. “Of course,” I whispered. “Now, let’s get back to bed. You don’t want to be tired for your finals tomorrow.”

I groaned, momentarily forgetting my terrifying nightmare in replace for being terrified at the prospect of my finals I had tomorrow. The last grades I would get before going off to college. Of course, Edward would pass. I was pretty sure he was hiding from me the fact that he was a certifiable genius. I, on the other hand was, not. “You know, Esme will be disappointed,” Edward said with a chuckle as I snuggled into his arms. “I thought for a second we were going to be able to tell her you had morning sickness.” “Your mother knows that we’re only eighteen, right?” I said. “That we haven’t even graduated high school?” “That doesn’t mean she can’t hope for a grandchild,” Edward said. “Now, sleep, my love. And no more nightmares?” I nodded. Little did I know that the nightmares were soon going to become reality.

black spikes bounced up and down slightly around her pale face. scandalous looks on their faces like we had broken some sort of small-town. the last day of school before graduation to take the last high school test I would even need to take. Charlie hadn’t been so happy about it. Edward had broken up with me before the move but that was just because he didn’t want me to have to deal with a longdistance relationship – which. already ready to give me the latest gossip. bouncing up and down in her usual. but still some people did not believe me. her big. I wanted to be with Edward forever so I didn’t care how old we were. ok. with Edward’s insane morals – which. hyper way. Washington. it was a little odd that we went and eloped just hours after Edward and his family moved back from their move to LA when Esme. taking only his sister and my best friend Alice with us. I was ready to start jumping up and down as I walked into Forks High School that day. And. Still. sure. I mean. “You and my brother are quite sickening sometimes. knowing Jessica. Plus. though only a small part of it. that I had married Edward for no other reason than the fact that I loved Edward with all my being. So we had gone and gotten married. I shared – had been another deciding factor. his lips brushing softly against mine. And. I really wished people would get over it. And of course. unwritten rule. I slid into my seat in class. but she had a sweet smile for me as always. Angela was silent as always sitting on my other side. sure. but we were both eighteen so he couldn’t exactly do anything about it. Alice sat at the desk next to me. . Obviously. that had been my goal by telling her. admittedly. his hand in mine. Her short. you know?” Alice said jokingly. I would not have been able to handle. You’d think that after three months of us being married. Edward and I parted at my classroom. frizzy mass of curls all over the place. alas. While I would be the first to admit that we were somewhat of an oddity for the little town of Forks. I was quite elated – and only half of it had to do with my perfect Edward walking beside me. Jessica. I was pretty sure that some people were still waiting for me to start showing even though I had made it utterly clear to one of my closest friends. A jail-sentence that I was almost done with. Jessica turned around in the seat in front of me. decided that she liked the small-town life so much better. unless you have knocked up your girlfriend. Despite the fact that I was still exhausted from waking up at two in the morning from an awful nightmare and the fact that I had tossed and turned all night. no. people would stop looking at us like that but. we were both distraught for those six long months that we were apart and he proposed to me the second he got back. truth be told. The whispers and silent gawks that we got would have made you think that we had started fornicating in the middle of the hall. praising God that it was the last time I would be forced to sit in this seat. she had told the whole school. Thou shalt not get married until after you graduate. my mother-in-law. People still stared at us as we walked by.Immortal: Chapter 2 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 2 High school.

I was almost excited to take the test just because it had ended our overly awkward conversation. She was just a few yards away from me. “If it’s a girl. taken in when they were young by Carlisle and Esme. “Are you ok?” Angela asked softly. I shook my head. And I’m sure it wasn’t. angry but creepily happy at the same time. Only.“Because you and Jasper aren’t enough to make someone with the strongest of stomachs vomit every single time he comes down to visit for the weekend. were like the older siblings I never had – Rosalie the snobbish sister and Emmett the huge teddy bear of a brother. just staring at me.” I said. ok?” I groaned again. “They’re the worst. that I thought about the dream again. Her skin was a pale white that wasn’t natural. over the black gothic. “Between you and Esme – well. telling us all to be quiet or else we would all get zeros.” Jessica said. It wasn’t until after my final test. were dating Emmett and Alice respectively. a hand-me-down from Edward’s birth mother. who came down to visit Alice almost every weekend. five hours later. a deathly pallor hanging over it. The Hale twins. Her dark.” I smiled. standing still in the middle of a jostling crowd of high school students. “Do you people still not get that I’m only eighteen?” I said. They were both going to Washington State along with Jasper. thankful that the teacher had just came in the room and was passing out tests. all glaring at me disapprovingly. I fiddled with the gigantic ring on my finger. She seemed unfazed by them. all of the sudden attacked with a roaring headache. excited that the year was finally over. She wanted me pregnant almost as much as Esme did. “We’re no worse than Emmett and Rosalie.” Alice whined. Of course that would be the first assumption Jessica would make. Alice and Emmett were both Edward’s adopted siblings.” I told her at the same time as Jessica basically screamed. “I’m fine. I groaned and put my head down on my desk. name it after me. That was because I saw her as I stepped out into the cold air outside. “Are you prego?!” Heads turned our way. both having graduated last year. My heart almost stopped when I saw her there. Rosalie and Jasper. “Just tired – though that’s the same thing Edward thought when I almost barfed into the toilet at two this the morning…” “Are you sure it wasn’t morning sickness?” Alice asked eagerly. All the teachers were as anxious for school to be over as we were.” “Must have been. Her eyes were bright red and piercing. he didn’t say it quite that kindly. I just had a really bad dream. chocolate hair hung down to her waist. . icy rain hitting me in the face like cold daggers. it’s enough to make we want to get pregnant just so you guys stop bothering me. Emmett and Rosalie.

that chilled me. sounding slightly worried.” I whispered. Bella?” Alice said. Despite how gorgeous she was. the girl – me. And her neck – just like the me in the dream I had last night. My blood turned cold. her neck was torn out and destroyed. “What’s wrong?” “N-nothing. though. tugging on my sister-in-laws arm. She was beautiful. “Let’s just go. “Alice. she was me. But she was me. scared my voice would crack with fear if I talked any louder. Just like that. In her arms was a something wrapped in a blood red blanket. There was something evil about her though.” Something was seriously wrong with me .” I said. “Alice. The expression on my face must have been horrible. she was gone.sleeveless dress. wrapped in the blanket. do you –“ Before I could finish my question. a beautiful that I could never be. “Yes. I took a few steps closer and realized that there was a baby in her arms. bloody and wrecked. if that’s even possible – smirked at me and disappeared.

. *** “Bella. their voice joined together in a low. Everything was red again and there was more blood than I had ever seen. It was a body… A dead body… It was my Edward. making it appear as though the whole group was being swallowed by a black cloud of smoke. I was relishing in the fact that there was so much blood that I was basically swimming in it. bloody and destroyed. That was that there was left to do. The dreams had been coming for the last few nights. ever imagined possible. They were getting worse. There voices joined together until I couldn’t understand what they were saying. darker. They were always the same – everything red and covered in blood – but always different. The life was gone from his eyes and his skin had that awful color that you only see bodies get when they’re totally drained of blood. Run away from the people in the capes. He was alive. rusty smell as though it was the most amazing smelling thing ever. And they were murmuring something. their dark hoods pulled down over their faces. awful things that I didn’t want to hear. And I realized that the blood – all the blood was his. dead body of the man I loved was lying in front of me. The blood wasn’t the part that scared me. I had killed Edward. from the blood.Immortal: Chapter 3 by ~bellacullen124 There was blood. deeply breathing in the heady. I screamed. Tonight had been the first night that I was the monster in my dreams. on my mouth. buzzing throng of sound. They stood across from me. The broken. On my hands. I had killed him. wake up! Wake up!” I sat up and found myself staring into the green eyes of my angel. He was ok and alive! A sob caught in my throat and I threw myself into his waiting arms. in my mouth – sweet and delectable. ever since the first. scurrying around to see what exactly had tripped me. I started running. but the fact that I wasn’t repulsed and nauseated by the blood was what got to me. Black caped billowed around each of them. wailing. And that’s what I did – I ran until I tripped over something sprawled across the rough floor. but I knew they were talking to me. More blood than the goriest horror movie could ever hope to accomplish having. But that wasn’t the strange part. That’s what scared me more than anything. telling me sinister. And it was all over me. I picked myself up immediately.

” I said. That’s nothing new. but that smile quickly turned into a sob. even if the only thing we were going to have to do that day was graduate. but you know how you get…” I smiled at this momentarily. I was smiling. thinking of how much Edward’s older brother loved scaring me out of my mind. you know Carlisle has a padded room in the basement just for times like this.” I could hear the smile in Edward’s voice and knew another jibe was coming. quickly forgetting my awful dream. “Don’t worry. saying you never get to see him and that it’d be good brother-sister bonding.” Edward whispered into my hair.” “Nothing’s wrong with you love. though. “If it gets too bad – well. . I think I’m going insane. “what has been up with you? With these nightmares? Please tell me Emmett hasn’t been forcing you to watch horror movies these past few days. He keeps plenty of spare straightjackets down there.” I told him but it had worked. Our kiss quickly grew passionate and let’s just say we got into it a little more than we should have at three am on a Monday morning. Edward. “Besides. I wished I could say that I believed I wasn’t going crazy.” Edward said softly.” “You’re hilarious. I wished I could say they were horror-movie induced nightmares. Edward.“Love.” I laughed bitterly.” “Ha ha. honestly peeved that he wasn’t taking this seriously. “Seriously wrong. I’m sure we can steal one for you. love. I wished I had a reason for these terrifyingly real dreams. his lips brushing against my forehead. I know he tries to guilt trip you. “Aren’t I?” Edward smiled my favorite crooked smile at me before he pressed his lips against mine. “Something’s wrong with me. we’ve always known you were somewhat insane. my voice cracking.

He waved at me when he saw me walk into the smelling gym. He took my hand as I plowed down the steps. carefully helping me balance so that I didn’t fall in the stilettos Alice had had to basically strangle me into.” Alice said.Immortal: Chapter 4 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 4 It wasn’t until later that afternoon that it really sunk in that we were graduating in just a few short hours. you’re done. Also. People never look good when they’re being liberated. “Bella. I blushed slightly as I waved back. “You’re going to make me burn your hair off!” “Are you almost done?” I asked for the umpteenth time. feeling bad for how little time I had spent with him since I . this is how you should have looked on your wedding day. I stared into the mirror wishing I was one of those girls who naturally this pretty without layers of foundation and eyeliner on their faces. And while. The next few hours were a blur.” I said with a smile. especially after so much sleepless nights and the pounding headache I had.” “I blame Alice. I knew I was being obnoxious and annoying but I honestly could care less how I looked. yes. Today was a liberation from the death camp they call high school. I didn’t need to look good. Alice held me captive in her bathroom all day. my father. It seemed like she was curling my hair strand by strand just so that it would take forever. Edward kissed me carefully on the lips. “I’ve missed you today.” Alice hissed from behind me. The school gym was filled with people.” she said and we both shuddered at that thought. even I could admit that Alice did a pretty good job on my face. “Now. that it was really weird that we had a graduation on a Monday night. hold still!” Alice whined as she curled yet another tendril of my hair. especially today. She would eternally be disgusted by the fact that I had worn sweat pants to elope with Edward. Edward was waiting for me downstairs. Alice sprayed one last thing onto my hair with a flourish and turned off the curling iron. “Watch the lipstick. being her Barbie doll wasn’t exactly my first choice of how to spend my day. Edward chuckled but ignored her. “You’d think I was shoving bamboo under your finger nails. “Well. It was just slightly strange. putting painstakingly thorough effort into choosing what I was going to wear under the putrid yellow graduation gown and doing my hair and make up. was sitting in the back. Charlie.” Alice really had found a way to make me look pretty.

Principal Greer started calling out names and the line sauntered forward slowly. Greer asked and only then did I realize that I had stopped moving. Jasper shook my hand in his typical. The contrast of blood against her pale. “Are you ok?” I nodded and hurried off the stage. white skin was awful and morbid. Edward excitedly lifted me off the ground and spun me through the air. I would think they were ignoring her except for the fact that she was drenched in blood. smiling out to the crowd as I started to make my way off stage. Finally. I kind of added the ecstatic forever on my own but I could tell everyone else was thinking the same thing. There. overly formal way and then went to kiss Alice passionately. My heart really did stop this time. She was smirking at me. We were ushered into a line in alphabetical order by the teachers. Angela and Jessica both told me to make sure that we kept in touch. I tried not to think about how I was going crazy as I was attacked with hugs. throwing our graduation caps into the air as Mr. Emmett nearly broke my back with his hug while Rosalie glared at me. Even though neither of us were all that comfortable with displays of affection. I was going to have to make sure to change that before Edward and I went off to college in the fall. Her neck was still bloody and some of that blood was now dripping all over her neck that was exposed through her low-cut dress. “Bella?” Mr. I was towards the front. stuttering over my name. Everyone was talking and laughing and hugging and kissing. there was Charlie. Edward smiled back at me reassuringly as music played and the valevictorian (the only person in the entire school with a GPA higher than my Edward’s) said his speech. toothy. kissing me. I managed to throw my cap half-heartedly but it came back down quickly. Forever.had gotten married. I reached for his hand with one of my own and my diploma with the other. People gave me looks. “Edward Cullen…Alice Cullen…Isabella Swa-Cullen. evil grin at me. was me. bearing my new last name proudly. Esme and Carlisle. her red eyes bearing into me like daggers.” Esme whispered in my ear and I rolled my eyes. pulled the two of us into a group hug. I hugged my dad hard. . behind Edward and Alice. She was playing with the baby and sneaking looks at me. I looked back at the bleachers and she was still there. Everyone else got their diplomas and we stood in a group. “I’m expecting grandchildren soon.” he finished. Greer announced that we were done with high school. Everything started to haze over and all I could see were the blinding lights that were aimed at me and her. Edward’s adopted parents who both had modelworthy looks. sitting in the front row. obviously thinking about how I should be towards the back of the line with the S’s instead. Then. She looked down at the baby in her arms briefly and then back up at me to smile a big. No one else seemed to notice the girl with the baby who looked exactly like me.

No one else noticed her. they would have been freaking out over all the blood there was around her.” “Ok. “Yeah. Instead. bloody me. Alice holding my hair for me as I threw up. Rust and salt. I found myself staring in a mirror. “Are you absolutely positive you’re not pregnant?” “Gah. If they had. “I’ve missed you.” Charlie took my bribe and smiled.“I’ve missed you. The room spun as I got nauseous. The next thing I knew. Believe it or not. the girl who was me. too. Until someone tapped me on the shoulder. expecting it to be Mike or Eric or Tyler.” Charlie kissed the top of my head and then left. Bells. Bells. really? How could I be irresistible? It just made no sense). And that’s how I knew I wasn’t imagining it.” he told me. though. not this again!” I shouted. Dinner tomorrow? Edward can cook. The blood – I could smell all the blood on her. It was nice. Only. “I wouldn’t force anyone to have to be part of that. It was think in the air around her. “I’m not pregnant. I spun around. I was about to barf because of the fact that there was something truly evil about the girl. the girl that looked like a more gothic. This couldn’t be real. I was in the bathroom over a toilet. I had to be imagining it.” Charlie looked relieved. I sat on the cold tile of the bathroom. “I’ve gotta go keep the streets of Forks safe now. it was because of blood that I got sick but this time I knew this wasn’t it. just a few of the town’s boys who thought I was irresistible for some reason (I mean. “I’m going to make sure to come over more often. “Are you ok?” Alice asked me. He watched way too much of the cooking channel as a kid. It was the girl that had been sitting in the front row. Is it ok if I miss the party?” “Ugh. the party. I had a moment to myself as no one was coming up to hug me or tell me to keep in touch or ask me about my plans for the summer.” I groaned. Edward could make almost anything and it would taste delicious. like he almost thought I was going to insist that he come to Alice’s superfluous graduation party. Bella. Of course. ok?” . tears in my eyes. Typically. leaning against the walls of the stall. around us.” I said. white mansion. She had invited basically the whole town to the Cullen’s big.” Charlie said. “Sounds good. When I was down. dad. She lifted a finger to her lips as though to tell me to be quiet and the baby in her arms let out an unearthly wail.” I said. blatantly worried. “Love you. She smiled at me. it wasn’t a mirror.

despite what the answers were to all the others. pregnancy tests don’t cost that much. I’ll be fine.“Wouldn’t it just be worth it to check? I mean. “I just – I just need a minute.” “I’m not pregnant!” “Bella. what did this all mean? I was seeing a ghost of myself for crying out loud! What could that possibly mean was coming? There were so many questions and no answers. It’d just be to confirm you’re not – or that you are. What the hell was wrong with me? Was I really going crazy? Was I going schizophrenic or something like that dude in that movie A Beautiful Mind? But then again. “Are you ok?” Alice asked me with a probing gaze.” I said. what was that whole thing about the fact that people don’t know when they’re going crazy? Was that true? Was this real then? Had I all of the sudden been transported into some B-rated horror movie that used a couple too many bottles of fake blood and symbolic metaphors? And if so. was why me? . trying not to break into hysterical tears because that would be hard to hide.” Alice gave me one more long look before shaking her head and leaving. And the biggest question of all. “Yeah. I head her say something to Edward outside the door and two of them walked away. I could seem to get enough air in my lungs and I was completely scared out of my mind. are you ok in there?” Edward’s voice came through the door. I was literally on the ground of the bathroom. Go tell Edward I’ll be right out. I totally let myself melt down. Once she was gone. I mean.

though it was a cruel. I watched her carefully as she balanced her baby in one arm and dipped her finger into to the blood on her neck. almost like she was making sure I was watching. He noticed how weird I was being and every time he left me I almost expected him to come back with Carlisle. glistening red and thick and dripping. She was always smiling. I wouldn’t be able to accept the fact that Edward had green eyes and was human. The girl was always there now. The words were still there. She would follow me. sometimes in different rooms where I could barely see her and sometimes right on my heel. You’re time’s up. Nightmares are a bitch and now they’re real. There was no doubt about that. Everything smelled like blood around me. couldn’t realize that I wasn’t a monster. Scratch that. “I have to go. If my dreams and the mirage of myself weren’t enough to drive me crazy. I tried to avoid sleep but there’s only so long you can go without your body taking over. Now. We had finished dinner and Charlie had put on a game which Edward and him were really into.Immortal: Chapter 5 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 5 My sanity quickly deterorated over the next week. smearing it around. standing up quickly. that had to be a new one. And I would have welcomed that with open arms but I knew the girl would still be able to follow me to any psycho ward they put me in. My heart was beating quickly and my stomach was in sickening knots. I would wake up in a padded room with a shrink leaning over me. And the dreams would come no matter what. Edward and I were over at Charlie’s again. as far away from the unseen girl on the other end. I was going crazy trying to hide the fact that I was seeing things that shouldn’t be there and having dreams that were so real that I was nearly positive they were. I just sat there in Edward’s arms on the couch. Edward was watching me like a hawk. sharp. smirking smile. I was. And the worst part was that it would take me hours after the dream to finally separate them from reality. There was something seriously screwed up with this whole freaking situation. I was basically stalking myself. She was always following me. she started writing on Charlie’s wall with her own blood. though. She looked back and smiled at me. who would have a shot of sedative. And then she disappeared. Edward and my father were cheering about something that just happened on the screen when the girl stood up and walked to the other side of the room. She never said anything though she sometimes laughed while she was playing with the baby. It wasn’t until a week after graduation that I finally snapped though. What was wrong with me? And was this real or all in my head? I . I was the only one that noticed the blood dripping onto Charlie’s clean. There was something truly wrong about the baby. white couch. The baby would cry constantly but it was even worse when it giggled.” I said. Then.

.” Edward said. Edward. brown hair. He grabbed my wrist and spun me around before we were even deep enough into the woods for Charlie’s house to be invisible.” “It’s not just the dreams. Don’t even – don’t worry about me. Me. Edward followed me into the dark. “What are you talking about? Don’t tell me this is about you going crazy. Why the hell would you go gallivanting into the woods? What has been wrong with you lately?” “Nothing.” my dad said. you wouldn’t love me. I’ve been seeing me. It was almost as though I was possessed as I headed into the forest. I just wasn’t sure who was going to be dead.” “But I have the keys. Of course. puzzled.” Edward said. pulling on a jacket. “Are you out of your damn mind. “Bella. I also really wanted him to come after me because I was scared out my mind. Go. “You can stay and watch the game. “It’s the middle of the night. Edward. this time succeeding in catching me.” I said. reaching out for my hand but I was already in the hall. It was just a matter of time before someone ended up with a dead corpse on their hands. Edward pulled me into his arms and ran his hands through my long. I had no idea what I was doing. “Let. Bells. Edward!” I was sobbing. comforting me.” I said.almost preferred that I was going crazy because it had finally jumped over the cliff into way too horror movie-ish. tears stinging at my eyes. Is that such a crime?” “If you knew exactly what was going on with me. I’m trying to protect the only thing that matters to me in life. that doesn’t give you any reason to yell at me. though. A ghost me. Those dreams mean nothing. It felt slightly nice though.” I said slowly. wait. Edward. Not just by the girl but by my own actions as well. “I said don’t worry about it!” I was out the door and into the freezing rain. annunciating everything slowly so that it sunk in. talking through my teeth. “The game isn’t even over. Then again.” Edward said. Just because I’m married to you. I really wished Edward would follow me as I booked it across the street and towards the forest. Bella?” he asked me sternly. Edward! I’ve been seeing things as well. “She just wrote something on Charlie’s wall in her own freaking blood! I am going crazy. And I had a feeling that someone was me.” I snapped. “I think that gives me a right. “I just – I have to get out of here.” “You’re going to end up killed by a wild animal or something.

trying to find that spot where it will kill someone if you hit it hard enough because you disconnect the brain stem or something.” I saw Edward’s eyes roll back into his head and I knew he wasn’t moving anymore. It was beastly but strangely feline but also human at the same time. “Bella?” He sounded so weak. There was an annoying. “Edward. “Edward. wailing sound piercing through the air and my head hurt. The last week and a half had just been a prelude to the real horror. But there I was. putting himself in its path. I –” But I never got to finish my thought. I heaved myself up and saw the body lying next to me. I started screaming. The body groaned. Bella. I jumped onto the monster’s back.” I lifted my face so that I was looking into his green eyes. I don’t even remember what I was going to say. crying out for help while I clutched. knocking down a few smaller ones with the sheer force it possessed. “There has to be. Edward. The thing roared and tossed me to the ground. Everything swarmed with red as I smelled Edward’s blood and as the monster tried to kill him. the thing was gone and I was covered in something wet and sticky. I slammed my fist against the thing’s neck with all my might.” I sobbed. If I had thought the first time I had one of the horrid nightmares was when my life suddenly did a one-eighty onto an awful path. shaking him and begging him to come back to avail. . A dark figure came bolting out of the trees behind us.” he said. That’s when it hit me. doing the exact same thing over the body of my husband. It’s ok. It was coming right towards us and Edward threw me to the ground. The sticky stuff was blood and it wasn’t my own.“There’s got to be some logical explanation. I always thought it was ridiculous in movies when the heroine cries for her dead lover to come back even though they’re obviously dead and they won’t come back. “Edward? Edward!” I shrieked. Everything went black and when I came to a few minutes later. as the smell of blood was everywhere. A horrible growl echoed around us. I didn’t really pay that well of attention in Biology but I knew it should kill him.” “But there isn’t. My head hit the hard dirt and my neck snapped back. I thought it was just stupid because it wasn’t going to help. Screaming and shouting with all I had. It’s ok. “What the hell could possibly explain this?” “Oh. love. I screamed as I saw it bite Edward’s neck. “Bella. moving slightly. That moment in the woods was really when it all came collapsing down. It was like I was in one of my nightmares. It rammed into him and the two of them slammed into a tree.” I cried. I had been wrong.

The paramedics did what they could but it was no use. His life was over. I kicked and screamed until I realized it was paramedics.Then. the sirens screeching. The next few minutes were a blur as I was loaded onto a stretcher along with Edward’s body. We were driving to the hospital. hands were grabbing me and pulling me away from Edward. as I heard someone call the death of my husband. And so was mine. The sirens. . An ambulance.

“Are you sure?” The doctor gazed at me intensely. Cullen?” He was dead. What was he asking me? “No. Doctor.” . That was all that was left for me. tears welling at my eyes. He had died in my arms. but right then he looked like a demon bearing more bad news. doctor?” I snapped.” A sob caught in my throat making my voice crack as I realized I was going to have to change the tense of everything now – now. Edward was dead. There was nothing left in life for me so why couldn’t that monster have killed me as well? Would that have been so much to have asked for? “Mrs. He was dead. Did you and your –” He paused for a minute and cleared his throat.” I said. Edward was dead. “Mrs. Edward was dead. Edward was dead. I would never see him smile again or him tell me that he loved me. Would you mind taking a test?” “Is this some kind of cruel joke. He was gone. I should have been dead too.Immortal: Chapter 6 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 6 Edward was dead. Cullen. Edward was dead. “Mrs. And I needed to identify the body one last time. I had already been checked out and given the ok but they had asked me to wait around for my family to come pick me up. Cullen?” Maybe I should have just gone and jumped off a cliff and gotten it over with. calling my name that I still wasn’t used to. Death. Swan?” My head snapped up and I finally noticed the doctor sitting next to me.” the doctor continued now that he had gotten my attention. “My husband just died. He died! I can’t be pregnant. we were always very careful. Was it fair that I was widowed so soon after getting married that I wasn’t used to my new name? Any other time. the doctor would have been hansom I suppose. “Edward and I are – I mean. That was all I could think of as I sat in the hard plastic chairs in the waiting room of the hospital. “Have you and your husband had unprotected sex lately?” I blushed. “I have reason to believe that you are pregnant from when I was checking you out. I should have been lying in a black back on a table next to my Edward. “I must talk to you about something. “Ms. that Edward was dead.

” I hissed. Cullen. “Which one?” Esme asked. I collapsed into them and we all sobbed.” How did doctors learn to be so cruel and detached? I cried just watching movies where people died. will you leave me alone?” “Mrs. Now. My one and only love was dead. coming up behind us.” he told me. I nodded and looked back at Esme.” I whispered breathlessly. “Will you be ok?” I bit my lip and nodded against. please. What was going to be the point of life anymore? I was widowed at eighteen. Cullen.” I wailed. Cullen?” a different doctor from earlier said. tears pricking at my eyes. I must –” “Bella!” I turned and saw Esme and Alice coming across the room. For a moment. How could this doctor sit here and act like the most horrible thing in my life was the fact that I might be pregnant when in reality my husband just died? “There is no baby.” the doctor said.” We just stood there and cried for a while. What else is there to do when the world loses someone like Edward? There’s nothing that compare to that. we need you to come and identify your husbands body one last time. a husband. a brother. “It’s for the baby’s safety as well as your own. Life’s pointless without love and I was never going to be able to love or be loved again. “How can he be dead? He was fine a few hours ago and now he’s dead.” Esme said. I clutched my arms against my chest as though I was holding myself together. “He’s dead. Esme. trying to wipe tears from my face. I can’t live without him.“I know this is hard for you which is why I didn’t check further on my suspicions before asking you but I insist you take a test. “Mrs. a friend. holding the sobs in so that I didn’t scare the poor doctor that had the unpleasant task of leading me to the morgue. sweeping past me. “Mrs. “Do you want to come with me?” “If you don’t mind. He was dead. I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest and thrown on the ground. I wanted to curl up in a ball and just give up. Each step was an effort. My life was dead. giving me another tight hug. “I’m not pregnant. his . their arms already wide open and tears on their faces. The door to the morgue opened and a man walked out. Sobbed for the loss of a son. I’d prefer remembering my son the way he was. “That’s me. “Bella?” the doctor said. Edward was dead.

Relief washed over me. My knees gave out and I found myself sobbing into Edward’s chest.” he gasped. Edward wasn’t dead. The attendant grabbed my arm and dragged me out of the room while I struggled against him. Get him out of the morgue. My eyes were still stinging with unshed tears that I was trying to hold in and my chest was threatening to rip open. The doctor was still holding the door to the morgue open and giving me a pitiful look. reaching out for Edward. a shocked look on his face. shooting something into the IV that was still hanging over Edward. He was cold but that didn’t matter. And now he was dead. “He’s alive.” The doctor nodded. He looked almost peaceful. The attendant shoved me out of the room and stood guard in front of the door. he still looked perfect. There were a bunch of plates with awful. still lips one last time. A silver bowl with I don’t even know what was laying across the room. like the one guy’s red eyes. a hospital wasn’t really the best place to attempt suicide.” I just nodded. They’d be able to fix me up before I managed to bleed to death.” I gasped. The doctor went to the other side of the room and started talking to the attendant in a hushed voice. Edward’s eyes shot open and he gasped. Then again. Any moment. a shifty look in his eyes. It wasn’t real. But I wasn’t waking up. “He’s alive. “That’s Edward. dangerous items sitting next to me and stab through an artery before the doctor could stop me. The room was dark and everything was washed in red light. The blood had been cleaned off of him and now he just looked like wax figure laying on the table. He’s alive!” .eyes caught mine and I could have sworn his irises were a bloody red color. dead or not. I leaned down and kissed his cold. there’d be the funeral but this was truly the last time. It was like a horror movie inside the room. ready to kiss my forehead and tell me it wasn’t real. “Bella. Even in death. I turned away to look at the doctor. I thought for a moment I was imagining things. My knees weakened under me and I could feel the doctor placed a hand under my elbow to steady me as another morgue attendant pulled back the sheet over the body’s face. “That’s him. I reached up and wiped some of his bronze hair out of his face. All I could think about was how this was the last time I’d ever be able to touch him. There was a blue cloth over what was obviously a body that was laid on a table in front of me. And then the doctor was across the room. “Edward?” I asked. who nodded towards the body. sharp tools. The doctor came out moments later. Sure. “I’ll give you a moment – if you want it. I could feel his heart racing in his chest from where my hand arm was resting on him and he was really alive. I looked and there was Edward. I wondering if I could be fast enough to grab one of the sharp. I would wake up and he’d be there. Then I realized that Edward’s green eyes were staring into mine and he was trying to sit up. like an angel. This was another one of my oddly-realistic dreams.” I gasped through the lump in my throat.

Edward was alive.” “He is. I had to forget about it. but not a few hours. Bella. The only meaningful thing in my life was gone.” I said.” the doctor said. he’s not.” “No. his dark eyes flashing red. He had been dead for three hours now. “He was breathing and his heart was beating and – and – and he said my name. The doctor was right. I had seen him die. that was a natural reflex that sometimes happens. good day.” the doctor told me. he couldn’t be. This time I knew I wasn’t seeing things. It was impossible.” The doctor strode down the hall. leaning against the wall for support. People could be brought back to life after just a few minutes. Don’t get any ideas because he’s not coming back. He had to be. My breath caught in my throat and the sobs came again. HE HAD SAID MY NAME! He was alive. that was – er. . “He’s dead. “And you’ll do well to forget about this. No.“No. I sank down to the floor. Now. Bella.

Bella. “That would have been so much easier on everyone.yes.” Esme said. thank you. something I always did with my mom when she was sad. Bella. I thought it would be Emmett because he can be so stupid and reckless. Really. Esme. nothing wrong at all.” I said with a sniffle. I had to be sure or else this whole thing would hurt even more.” Esme snapped. And just imagine how awful that would have been for Edward. Edward’s face had been absolutely fine. “What’s going on with the funeral?” I asked softly after she was done crying. they said.” And then she was sobbing again. “They say – the mortician told me that the damage down to Ed – Edward’s f-face was irreparable. Tears stinging at my eyes.” She hung up the phone and started to sob.Immortal: Chapter 7 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 7 “What do you mean closed casket? The funerals tomorrow…why weren’t we informed of this sooner?” Esme was barking into the phone. It would have been the same pain. no…yes. I need to know that he’s not going to walk through the door again. “It – it’s going to be a closed casket now. He really did love you.” “Don’t even think that. I’m sure you need the same thing. Goodbye. wrapping my arms around her neck. And damage to Edward’s face? That was something I didn’t remember at all. more than I’ve ever seen him love anything before. in need really.” Esme said. This time I allowed myself to cry as well. trying to figure out the final arrangements for the funeral. of closure. Esme was enough like a second mother to me that this wasn’t weird at all. something we had all been doing way too much in the past few days. especially Edward. There was something exceedingly fishy about this whole situation. “And if anyone. mopping up tears with the palm of her hand.” I nodded. how am I supposed to live like this? I truly cannot live without him. “You’re just as much one of my children now. I went over and sat on her lap. her voice thick as though she was trying to hold back more sobs.” “And he was mine.” . smiling and saying it’s another joke that him and Emmett played. Though I knew I was going crazy and that I couldn’t trust myself anymore. whether I was going crazy or not. I needed to know he was dead more than anything. keeping quiet about what I had encountered in the hospital. “I wish it was me. And I was rather hoping – well. You were his life. Not that that means I’m playing favorites – I don’t want any of my children dead. I understand…. keeping them for a different time. She sobbed into my shoulder and I tried to hold in my tears. Something we don’t need to see. “I was just sure I’d be long gone before I’d have to bury any of my children. “No.

I didn’t need to. Was it too much to hope that Edward was still alive? That the doctor had been lying? Or that I wasn’t hallucinating? Which was most likely the case. we’ve all got to find a way to keep living. but I wouldn’t use it. I stood up and walked into the hall. “Dammit.” I nodded as Alice called. heading upstairs. wistful thinking brought on by the fact that I didn’t want to be a widow at eighteen and lose the only thing in my life I had ever truly loved. It rips out a part of you along with person it took. What I saw made my blood boil and my eyes prick even more. even more emotional than normal. and having morning sickness. Bella. But I couldn’t let my worst fear be confirmed. I wasn’t really sure which yet. Edward didn’t abandon me.” Esme said.” Alice said. “I’m not frickin’ pregnant!” “Bella. I really couldn’t be a single mother. I had been imagining things. Despite everything I had been telling everyone. you have nothing to worry about. Alice. Please. I wasn’t sure I wasn’t pregnant.” “Alice. If my husband had abandoned me.” Alice begged. I was late. And what if Edward was alive? What then? What was going on? Why would anyone want to . I had been seeing things a lot recently – a whole lot more than I should have been. no! No!” I screeched at her. “I don’t want to add single mother to that list! I can’t! I’m not pregnant!” “Just keep the test at least. If you’re so sure you’re right. “Just think about it. I opened the back and peered in. it would be different. “But none of us will ever truly be the same. for your safety and the hypothetical baby’s as well.” I said. “Ok. “Edward would want you to find out at least. It wasn’t until I was upstairs until I allowed myself to start crying again. I wasn’t pregnant.“When death occurs. Please.” was all she said. I mean. The real strength is found those who can survive the death of the ones you love.” I shook my head but clutched the bag with the pregnancy test tighter to my chest. That’s what death does.” I yelled. Or been kidnapped. Alice. So there really was no chance that the whole thing in the morgue had been real. I’d keep it to make her happy. though. I can’t lose another one of my children. “Bella! I have something for you!” Her voice had her usual cheerfulness but there was a note in it that let me know it was forced. throwing the box back at her. just check. I’m already eighteen and a widow. Still. She pressed it into my hands and gave me a smile. Just check. He had died. Alice prancing towards me with a paper grocery bag in her hands. “Please. her forced happiness was the only thing keeping everyone else in the house from going crazy and keeping me from going off the deep end that I was already close enough to.

fake his death and kidnap him? It just didn’t make sense. . I really did need to be locked up. Edward didn’t have any enemies except for a few of the insecure boys from school who were sure they were in love with me. The fact that I was even considering that he was alive proved I was crazy. but even they wouldn’t do something like this.

He couldn’t be here. They want you to think I’m dead but you’ve got to listen to me.” I was imagining things again. I cried out in pain as I realized just how hard he was holding me. much better than any of the other ones I’ve had. There was no other explanation for how he was here or why he looked like he did.” I said. He wasn’t here. I’m alive. I never wanted it to end.” he said. locking my lips onto his.” He was grasping my arms tightly.Immortal: Chapter 8 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 8 “Bella. His body was so cold against mine but it left me feeling on fire instead of freezing. I threw myself into his arms before I could stop myself. I followed him quickly. Then again. I’m here. if only it was real. his skin was now a cold pearly white. There were dark circles under his eyes yet he was more gorgeous than ever before. I had Edward back in my arms. Maybe if I ignored it. he would stay. rolling over and clutching the comforter closer to me. he let go of me and went to the other side of the room. clambering awkwardly out of the bed in my typical klutzy way. Bella. Though he had always been pale. My Bella. I’ve missed you too – more than you can imagine – but now is not the time for that. They were a steely black. Bella. please tell me what’s going on. but the edges were a bloody red. “Love. There was no way he could be there. If this was a hallucination or a dream or anything of the sort. Isabella. wake up. I’m alive and you can’t let anyone make you think any different. When he realized that he was nearly breaking my arms. Yes. Cold fingertips brushed against my face. Why do they want me to think you’re dead? Who are they?” . “I’m so confused. Oh. “My love. that was my reasoning at the time. that’s all it was.” Cold air wafted across my cheek and I shivered. I could see how much he had changed. it was a nice hallucination. “Edward.” I sat up and my heart almost stopped as I realized there was an angel sitting across from me. “Bella. They want you. At least. A realistic dream brought on by wistful thinking. You have to make sure you don’t listen to them. “They’re coming for you. His eyes shone though they were no longer the emerald color I loved. Despite how dark it was. his hands easily wrapping all the way around them. Edward pushed me away after a second but didn’t let go of me. They’re going to want to make you think this isn’t real and that I’m dead but you have to know that it is real.

” With one last loud sniff. Please or else I’m going to…” And then she was sobbing as well. crying girl into my arms and just hugged her.” As her words sunk in. It was today. That explained Alice’s dreary black outfit and her makeup-less face. I got up.” Then. He’s alive!” “Bella. Obviously. The funeral. “I love you. having grown up with him. and I’m still alive. not even bothering to look in a mirror as I pulled on the black clothes I had laid out the night before and tugged my massive frizz of hair . “Please. He didn’t deserve to die this young. looking shocked.” I said for the second time in two days. not yet. “Now you should get ready.” Alice whispered. just crying because there was nothing else left to do. “I just lost my brother. Edward was calling my name again.” Alice said. I really. she left the room.” Alice snapped. Don’t forget either of those things. Bella.” Alice cried. “Bella? Bella!” “Edward!” I cried. I pulled the tiny. please don’t cry. “Don’t say that. “He was one of the greatest people I’ve ever met. Bella. Bella. Don’t let anyone convince you any different. it was all an act to keep the rest of us from melting down even more. his eyes dark and cold. crying also.” “I wish it were me. That’s when I remembered. “Bella. her eyes wide. Bella. I started to cry again. he climbed out the open window and disappeared into the darkness.” She got up and wiped her eyes. I was being totally selfish about this whole situation and I hadn’t even stopped to consider how much Edward’s death had effected Alice. adding wetness to my cheeks that I had already tear-stained in my sleep. Alice! He was here! Edward was here. Much to my disappointment. We’re leaving in thirty minutes. wake up!” I bolted awake.” he told me. really did wish it were me. Today is going to be hard enough as it is. it was just a dream.“I’ve already said too much. especially since she was always acting happy still. “Oh. I found Alice sitting on the end of my bed instead. How I wished they existed. She had known him so much longer than I had. “Oh. I can’t even imagine losing my best friend as well. after he planted last hard kiss on my mouth that left my lips tingling. Phantom pain was shooting through my arms from where there should have been hand-shaped bruises but that I now knew did not exist. I stood and stared out the window for a while. “Edward didn’t deserve this. “Oh. I hadn’t even thought about her.

I was going to my husband’s funeral. I no longer had anyone to look good for so I no longer cared if I looked good. the husband I wasn’t even sure was dead. . It was time to go bury my husband.into a ponytail. No one was going to say anything about how I looked if they had one ounce of decency. Besides. that might have been the schizophrenia that I was sure I was producing talking. Then again.

Emmett was sitting alone on the couch.” . its tinted windows perfectly reflecting our sad expressions as it drove passed us. stepping outside and into view. The nervous man jumped.Immortal: Chapter 9 by ~bellacullen124 I headed downstairs to find my family waiting. I had a strange impulse that I couldn’t refuse and I tapped Alice on the arm. nearly dropping his corner of the coffin. And then there were my parents. They both stopped their conversation when they noticed me at the bottom of the stairs. “Oh. looked quite alike with pale skin and dark circles under their eyes. “I’m so sorry – I can’t believe – oh my god!” “Yeah. who had met Edward only twice.” the doctor/mortician/God-knows-what told me. but the three other men remained perfectly composed and unsurprised. now dressed as a mortician. Now was my last chance to figure out whether or not Edward was alive. yada-yada. “So open the coffin. you can.” I ordered.” I said. Renee. thanking them for being there in our time of need. and I wondered where Rosalie was.” I said firmly. Jasper was there. He and a few other men pulled a sleek black coffin out of the long car. “I’m going to the bathroom. greeting people. I’ll be right back. the doctor included. looked especially worried. The doctor who had been with me in the morgue hopped out of the back. I watched the hearse park by the dumpsters. diligently holding Alice’s hand while she stared blankly out into space. Carlisle who looked like he hadn’t slept since Edward had died a week ago. Esme had her arm wrapped around Carlisle’s waist. as though they were expecting me. I couldn’t bear to see everyone’s sadness about Edward dying and the pity in there eyes for me. not able to believe that I hadn’t seen her in six months. The whole atmosphere of the room made me want to start crying again. talking in hushed voices in a corner. “Same here. Bella!” Renee cried. Three of them. “Open the coffin. “Yes. yet another lump in my throat.” I walked through the church to the back. the eighteen year old widowed girl. her blood red lipstick freshly applied. rushing over to hug me. Mrs. I clung to my mom tightly. I watched as the hearse pulled around the back of the church. standing behind a glass window. “We can’t do that. saying Edward would have appreciated them being here. looking rather distraught for obvious reasons.” “Ready?” I heard Rosalie say sadly as she walked into the room. mom. I pulled away from my mom to see the perfect blond go over to Emmett. The third was scrawny and looked excessively nervous. Cullen. We got to the church way too quickly and had to stand outside the building. Charlie and Renee.

the lid popping open. My husband was alive! . please don’t make me have to call the police. “What the hell is going on? I’ve seen his body. Cullen.” “God damn it. He dropped his corner and it hit the ground. his eyes flashing red.” I screamed. He had already been sweating bullets and his arms were strained under the weight of Edward’s casket.“Mrs. That’s not something you’re husband would want at his funeral. There was nothing wrong with his face! Now open that freaking coffin!” “Mrs. the fourth man let out a tiny squeak. The doctor closed it quickly.” the doctor said. unlike the three other men who were having no problem holding it up. His voice sounded even but I could tell he was getting annoyed. “The damage to your husband’s face was irreparable. we really can’t. That’s not something you’ll want to see. but I had long enough to see the body inside.” At the mention of the police. The body was not Edward’s. Cullen.

Besides. How could I mourn him when I was too ecstatic over figuring out he was still alive? I couldn’t act sad and I couldn’t tell anyone what I was so happy because they would think I was mentally unstable with grief. I had started running. No. The bruises really were there. And sure enough. He had been in my room that morning for heavens sake! Hadn’t he? Had I really accepted all this as reality and not insanity? That I wasn’t going crazy or schizophrenic? Because what if that voice was right? What if the bruises weren’t there? What if I had just thought the body in the coffin wasn’t his? And even if Edward was alive. He really had been there! And then. Of course. But I couldn’t have just stayed there while everyone mourned Edward. If there was ever a more messed up sentence. that’s was wrong. after seeing the bruises. I couldn’t feel my feet except how cold . I wasn’t imagining any of this. checking my arms for bruises. I had actually gone into the bathroom first and lifted up the sleeves of my shirt. It wasn’t a dream and it wasn’t me going crazy. I didn’t know where I was or even really what I was doing. I had been running for a few hours now. My black skirt was uncomfortably wet against my legs and my feet were numb and blistered and cut. my legs screaming in protest. How are you so sure you’re not crazy? A little. Maybe Edward was alive but I was still going crazy in other senses of it. my bare feet pounding against the rough ground. there were two hand-shaped bruises wrapping around my upper arms.Immortal: Chapter 10 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 10 I was running through the forest. ever since I had seen that the body in the coffin was not my Edward’s. I wasn’t crazy! I pushed myself faster. isn’t there that whole thing about crazy people never knowing they’re gong crazy? I was showing symptoms of schizophrenia – and I accepted that I was – but that wasn’t it. I had seen him wake up in the morgue. swinging back and forth and beating against my leg. covered in mud. So what if it wasn’t his body? How do you know you’re not imagining the bruises as well? How does any of this mean he’s alive? No! He was alive and I knew it. my hair clinging limply to my face. how did that explain everything else? The dreams? The girl who was me? Neither of those made any sense or even seemed to have a connection with Edward. I was just running away. doubting voice in the back of my head asked. away from the funeral that was dead set on burying what was supposedly my alive husband’s body but wasn’t really his body. I cannot think of one. But I wasn’t going crazy! I just knew I wasn’t! I could tell that there was an at least somewhat understandable explanation for all of this and that Edward’s death was connected with the dreams and visions I was having. My heels were dangling from my hand. no one knew he was alive but me. even more proof that Edward really had been there this morning. I had seen the body in the coffin wasn’t his. I was soaking wet.

“What’s going on?” Carlisle asked. please go get my bag. And if not worried. like they had been hacked off and I was running on the stumps that were left. everyone. My stomach heaved with nausea and I leaned over Emmett. especially with how much of a mess I must have looked like. taking a step into the room. Emmett. asking me if I knew what I had put everyone through in the last few hours. Thank God you’re back. Charlie was pacing. Emmett was cussing and for once no one was reprimanding him. “Calm down. I wavered on my numb feet and found the ground rushing towards me. at least ravenously mad that I had disappeared from my own husband’s funeral. guys. Everyone was going to be so mad that I had gone off and ran myself half to death so soon after losing Edward. and Emmett was cracking his knuckles nervously. come quick! We need help!” Emmett laid me on the couch and the room started to come back into focus. It was the weirdest feeling ever. dripping wet look. Soaking wet. I chuckled slightly. coming into the room looking frazzled. I knew where I was. “Carlisle. Everyone was probably going to be frantic with worry about where I went. Alice was staring off into space again. everything blurring. I was quite scared to go into the house.” I said. Everyone please clear out for a few minutes. A buzzing sound filled the room. I walked through the door to find everyone converged in the family room. get a bunch of wet towels and bandages. overtaking me. crying over the fact that she didn’t want to lose another one of her children. Bella. throwing up the contents of my stomach onto the ground. “It’s just vertigo. “Hey. no one calmed down when I proceeded to throw up again. “Bella!” Renee cried.” Charlie said.they were. Alice’s yellow Porsche sat in the driveway next to Carlisle’s Mercedes. Renee and Esme were crying. The world spun around me. “Where have you been?” Esme asked worriedly. “Carlisle!” I heard Alice screeched through the buzzing though everything was strangely muted. Everyone was home and I knew I was going to get chewed out the second I walked into the door. “Holy crap. The trees here were familiar. waiting for me. Emmett’s strong arms caught me but everything remained spinning.” . Bells. Renee was sobbing even harder and Alice was hurrying to get a mop. Charlie was yelling at me.” Of course. Alice. It felt almost like they weren’t there. Esme was crying and asking if I was suicidal now. I looked around. I broke out of the dense forest and into a clearing where a huge white house stood. “Oh my god. my feet bloody along with numerous scratches all over my face and arms. My home.” I said in a defeated voice. They all looked up at me with looks of pure horror as they took in my bloodied. It just riled everyone up again. Just a few seconds later.

fuming. He shoved the thermometer into my mouth. I guess you’re not then. “I’m not pregnant. we need to know so that we can get you on the right vitamins and health plan. I could. Truth was. we can’t change that now since I’m pretty sure you’re going to have to kill Esme and Alice and Rosalie. I think you’re pregnant as well and we need to know. “My period – it came this morning. “I get that you don’t want to be pregnant – none of you want that for you either given the circumstances – but if you are. once I found out what exactly had happened to Edward and had gotten him back. before any of them will let you get an abortion. could my life have been any more horror movie-ish at the moment? “Carlisle –” I started. “What were you thinking running around for hours like that with no shoes? And you’ve ran yourself half to death. “I’m fine. too.” “Yeah. I didn’t want to be pregnant. really. “You can’t know until we give you a test.” “Oh…” Carlisle said. Carlisle opened it. but you have become like my own and I cannot believe your stupidity. but still. even now that I knew my husband was still alive. you have a fever and I doubt you’re going to be able to walk on your feet for a week at the least.” But Edward wasn’t dead! I wanted to scream at them that my husband was alive and well. tears filling my eyes. “Carlisle. So I lied. carrying Carlisle’s black bag. “And you’re refusal to take a god damn pregnancy test is just ridiculous. I know you’re not one of my own children. raising in an eyebrow.” Carlisle said. If you are pregnant. I would have thought you had a little more sense than traipsing through the woods like that. The pregnant chicks always have it the worst in horror movies and now my life was one. pulling out a thermometer and a stethoscope.” I said weakly. I’m fine. nearly making me choke on it.” I said. a wave of fatigue sweeping over me. I couldn’t deal with that right now. I can. I’m not pregnant. Especially after Edward just died.” I said firmly. “Well. Also.” “Yes.” I said sadly. “How do you know?” Carlisle asked. Maybe later in life. but my life was looking more like a horror movie right now and that’s not a good thing to bring a child into. Ok. And now I was pissed off that they were all ganging up on me.” “Bella. .” I mumbled through the metal stick in my mouth.“Carlisle. I bet Alice and Esme and maybe even the first doctor from the hospital when Edward “died” had put him up to this. obviously scolding me. maybe not well seeing as how he was in my bedroom the night before telling me that they were coming for me. What the hell were you thinking? Now. Emmett came back into the room.” Carlisle cut me off.” I felt my face harden.

The women in the towns of Forks had nothing better to do but gossip and with good reason. That’s what scared me.Immortal: Chapter 11 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 11 After a week in bed as all the cuts on my feet healed. Frozen pizza with just about every topping that Digorno’s offered. a bag of those cherries where you have to stain your fingers purple and spit out the seeds to eat. though. I guess. “Sure didn’t act like it. a big bag of milky ways. were the pregnancy tests. I wanted to keep walking and stop listening. I double checked the list Alice had given me. string cheese. And that seemed to be everything. Condoms hung in little boxes from the rack. I had never been late before. gossiping old women. “Can you believe that Isabella Swan?” someone asked from the aisle behind me. Maybe it was time to take the test. not really wanting to know how late I was. my fingers shaking slightly. Didn’t even show up for her own husband’s funeral.” another voice said. realizing that I had gotten nearly everything plus a bunch more. thinking I should just give Alice the jumbo box that was sitting on the top of my toilet at home.” Stupid. I headed to the checkout but the little corner at the end of aisle stopped me. maybe walk passed the women so that they’d be more careful what they said where and around who next time. I couldn’t name the voices exactly but I did recognize them. Now it had been roughly two months since my last period. Edward and I had never been daring enough to try out any of the more peculiar ones than the ones that were just to keep you from getting pregnant. Underneath them. I threw a big box in the cart without even checking the brand or anything. The only place I really wanted to go was the grocery store. and just about anything else you could imagine. I gritted my teeth. The only thing left was a quickly scrawled word at the bottom. I walked down the aisles. triple chocolate fudge ice cream.” “Cullen my ass. I resisted doing the math as I made my way to the tampon aisle. jelly beans. her snooty voice carrying far. I was craving the weirdest things and Alice had also decided we needed to have a girl’s night. I wanted to hear what else they had to say. since there’s not much you can do in a town as small as Forks. just to see. but I couldn’t move. Tampons. I . throwing whatever looked good into my cart. Carlisle finally allowed me to put on shoes and get out of the house. Maybe everyone was right. bagels and cereal and Poptarts. unopened for the last few weeks. sorry. I slid one of the boxes off the rack and held it my hands. most with overwhelming and just plain weird extra uses other than protection. And while I knew people had good reason to be saying things because I wasn’t at Edward’s funeral. it didn’t give them any right to be saying I wasn’t a Cullen. a month late. “Oh. That meant me and Alice and a bunch of junk food and a chick flick. Cullen. whip cream that I really wanted to eat straight from the bottle.

that’s all she is. She looked from welling eyes to the aisle I was standing at to the pregnancy test still clenched in my white-knuckled hands and mistook the reason for my tears. abortion is never a solution. A girl like Bella could do something like that if she really wanted money that bad. deary. I don’t like that girl. I allowed myself to cry. “She’s a black widow. a lump in my throat nearly suffocating me. Do you reckon she knew she was pregnant when she killed him or that she found out after she’d done it?” “Murder.” “Bet that’s something she wasn’t counting on when she married him for her money. I threw the pregnancy test back on the rack. Edward was alive but that didn’t mean anything at the moment if people thought I had only married him because I wanted his money. no matter what it’s for. My grandson was infatuated with her for the last few years and yet she never gave him the time of day except to mooch off of him. was he ever right.” the first voice said. but does she really look like a killer?” “Do they ever look like killers? I once knew a guy who murdered his whole family in an outrage and he looked like nothing more than a scrawny high school mathlete with hornrimmed glasses and even pocket protectors. She’s got that entire family eating out of her hand and I’m sure they’d be willing to give her any amount she asks for. “Just remember. It don’t matter what they look like. and hurried through the self checkout so that I wouldn’t have to deal with any more pitying glares from people who knew who I was or worried glances from people who didn’t know but could assume from the fact that my eyes were filled with tears and my face was permanently tearstained. really? You think she murdered the poor guy? I mean. her bleached hair in a fried ponytail atop her head and her wrinkled eyes over-made with blue eye shadow.” “Wow. “Who else would get married at eighteen if they weren’t pregnant if it wasn’t for money?” “Oh. Mikey even once said that she was only with Edward for his money. that she could have easily killed him. I know she only married him for his family’s money. but rumor is she’s pregnant now.needed to know what everyone was thinking of crazy old me. you’ve put a lot of thought into this. “Do you need any help. I shook my head. I don’t like her one bit. And. Took his friends and even a job at my son’s store. They’ll never even stop to think that maybe the circumstance under which Edward died were fishy. boy. She made little tut-ing noises with her tongue and gave me a pitying glance.” A store attendant walked passed my aisle. Once I was out in my car with the heater blasted.” she said and went on her way. What if my family was having the same doubts? What if everyone was thinking I never cared about Edward? THAT I KILLED HIM? Why the hell . honey?” Tears stinging my eyes.” “Well. Yet he went and hacked up his wife and three kids.

did people have such a freaking problem with me? Did they not understand that I and the whole Cullen family were going through a hard enough time without there gossiping and sniping? Why couldn’t I just have Edward back in my arms so I didn’t have to deal with all this crap alone? .

watching the movie intently for a minute before I remembered that it was a romance movie. I guess it was the stress from the supposed death of my husband. “Some are even thinking I – that I killed him. Emmett proposed to Rose just last week. Romance movies were just way too hard to watch any more.” “Alice –” “No. “Of course I know you loved him. propping herself up her elbows. you know I loved your brother. “He doesn’t think that anyone will care. I had my head on my sister’s flat stomach as she messed with my hair. “Er. “Talk about something else. now he doesn’t want to tell anyone. That old gasbag is responsible for half the divorces in this town. my voice sorrowful.” The lump that seemed forever implanted in my throat grew again and I turned towards the TV. We really need to get a movie theater built so that people have something better to do. right before…. The dulcet tones of Tom Hank and Meg Ryan played in the background. despite all the emotional pain I was in.well. tears in my eyes. I don’t think I’ve ever seen anyone love anything as much as you loved Edward. Bella.” Alice snapped and I sat up. I pulled my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them. scooting away from her ever so slightly.” “People are thinking I married him just for your guys’ money. unable to stop. I’m sure you’re not the first person who couldn’t bear to go to her husband’s funeral and you won’t be the last. “Why would you ask a thing like that. I allowed myself one moment to be a teenager. yeah.…You know. “His death was an accident and you can’t keep blaming yourself no matter what other people say. we know you had nothing to do with his death. right? And we wonder where Mike gets his…shall we say charm. to be jealous of how perfect another girl was compared to me.” Alice started out fumbling for what to stay and then she started babbling.” I told Alice. surrounded by pillows and blankets and junk food scattered haphazardly on the carpet.” Alice sat up. right?” I asked. Stress always made me gain weight. except maybe how much he loved you. Alice and I were sprawled the floor of my bedroom. The old women in this town have major issues and murder is the only rumor they haven’t exhausted. who was gaining weight like none other. Bella?” Alice asked. Her abs tightened under my head and for a moment. I bet it was grandma Newton. knowing I was in a horror.Immortal: Chapter 12 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 12 “Alice. “Bella. You should know better than anyone else how much the people in this town gossip. I turned away from it. He barely even cares right .” I said.

but he was kind of still MIA and I wasn’t exactly sure how to find him and get him back.” “Have you and Jasper – you know…done it?” I blushed at my vulgar question. “Just like you would have made a great aunt to whatever children I could have had. No matter what. “Of course we have. Especially now that I can’t have them. “Geez. It would get everyone’s minds of everything else for a couple minutes. you know.” “There’s still a chance you’ll have kids.” I added as an afterthought. I still can’t believe he’s gone” I clenched my eyes shut tightly. I’m the only one he’s told because he doesn’t want to make Esme feel worse or you feel more lonely than you already do. Well. I’m sure Esme still wants those grandchildren. I scrambled for words. I guess. at least. especially since no one would believe me if I told them Edward was alive. We’ve been dating for nearly three years.” .” Alice said.” Alice laughed.” “Well.” “That’s what I told him. The idea of what kind of life my kid would have without a father made it too hard to even think about the possibility of my being pregnant. We tried to get things to go in any other direction but we always seemed to go back to the same thing: Edward and the fact that he wasn’t coming back. that’s Emmett. a wistful look on her face. for someone who lost her virginity a while ago and has had sex quite a few times.” I told her. I was sure Edward was alive.” “I’m never going to fall in love again. This family is going through such a hard spot right now. I was trying to accept the fact that I might be a widow forever even if my husband wasn’t dead. Bella.” “You’re going to make a great mother someday. He thinks you’ll be mad about it even though I’ve told him over and over you won’t be. Sure. “Emmett finally popped the question and he’s not telling any of us? A wedding is just what we need right now.” I scrambled again for a change of subjects. He didn’t even know he was doing it until after he had asked her. too. you’re still rather prude. thinking the same exact thing. “Maybe. “I still think you’re pregnant. “I’m not. You’re only eighteen. trying to get things moving away from him again. I guess it was kind of spur of the moment.” I kept quiet about the fact that I was holding a pregnancy test in my hands earlier that day. they better hurry up and get married. You still could have kids. “So. all conversation seemed to go in circles since Edward had “died”. when do you think Jasper’s going to ask you?” “Soon.now that Rose said yes. You really should take that test. Esme would love to plan it. There are some people who get married after being widowed when they’re eighty. I hope. It quickly became doubtful.

but that doesn’t mean I wouldn’t fall in love again. If I didn’t tell someone soon. can I be totally honest with you?” “Of course. but I found mine. And I won’t be alone. I was just kidding. if Jazzy died. it would take me quite a few years to get over it and I’d never stop loving him or anything. “Everyone has one. no offense.” “You won’t be saying that in a few years when you find someone else. You can’t ever love again after losing your soul mate.She laughed slightly but it was somewhat hard.” I wrinkled my nose. “And. Most likely she had thought he was her soul mate. “There’s someone out there for everyone who’s perfect just for them.” “I don’t believe in soul mates.” “And you promise not to think I’m completely insane?” .” “Not what I meant. Phil. couldn’t. I’d know he wouldn’t want me to be alone forever and he’d want me to be happy. And all that wouldn’t accomplish anything except getting me locked in a padded room. I wouldn’t even ever make out with you.” Alice wrinkled her tiny nose.” “Bella.” “Just because I won’t fall in love with again doesn’t mean I can’t be happy. Alice. I was sure that I was going to be running through the streets shouting that my husband was alive at the top of my lungs just so that I wouldn’t have to keep it to myself for another minute. I knew that he had broken her heart a year later and that had been one of the family’s reasons for moving to Forks. I mean more along the lines of someone who will sleep with you. It’s just a matter of finding them. Bella. Though no one liked to talk about it. And I know Edward would agree with me. And I lost him. But I don’t want anyone else. He’d want the same for you. “I mean. Always. I have you. Some people won’t ever find theirs for some reason and will settle for someone almost as good. I got that. a guy she had started dating in eighth grade and she had fallen in love with him. Edward was my soul mate.” “Yeah. I couldn’t keep this to myself any longer without exploding. I understand that but you can’t be alone for the rest of your life just because the guy you loved died way too early. no matter how corny that sounds. “I mean.” I didn’t want to fall in love again. “Isn’t that what they all say?” “I mean it. I momentarily recalled hearing about how Alice had loved another guy before she met Jasper. “Alice. I could understand it.” I paused for a moment. feeling like being profound. But I can understand for now not wanting to even think about loving anyone else.” Alice said. Maybe now was as good of time as ever to tell her.” I said. Bella.” Alice huffed. sounding oddly bitter compared to the girl I knew who was always happy. “I don’t think I can fall in love again. Soul mates seemed like the last thing someone like Alice would be skeptical about but after something like that. taking on the persona of Dr. not while I was unsure about whether or not Edward was still alive.

“And from any of us know about what happened that night. “Ok. The silence that echoed between us was deafening and both of us wanted to break it but knew we couldn’t because then the air around us would splinter into a million different pieces. He was alive. I didn’t think that there was any possibility to fix the hole that was between us now.” I shrank even further away from Alice. After this. You’re just making it worse.“No more than usual. Alice! He was in my room and was talking to me! He was there! Edward’s still alive. pubescent girl who can’t get over a broken heart. Bella. goddammit. “You’re being quite a black widow. We have to learn how to live without him. shit. You’re the most frickin’ selfish person. I knew it as she stood up and grabbed her blanket off the floor of my room. Alice. Eventually. how does that mean he’s alive?” “When I went to identify the body. “I get that you don’t want him to be dead. but.” “This is absolutely insane. I had never seen the girl I had grown to love as my sister this angry. he woke up. shit. which I’m not saying it wasn’t. “Shit. And that morning before the funeral.” she hissed.” Alice looked confused. None of us do! Do you have any clue how much this is hurting me as well? Do you get what’s it like to wake up and realize that the brother who tormented me at breakfast for eighteen years isn’t going to be there to torment me? That he’s never going to get to torment me again because he’s dead? You at least know how to live without him. You’re sucking off this family’s grief and not helping us heal at all.” Alice sputtered. “Bella…do you know how crazy you sound? He’s dead and none of us like that fact at all but we have to accept it. Alice managed to find a way to say the words she was choking on. I swear to god I was.” As soon as I said the words I had been so desperate to say. Bella. you’re not making this any easier by claiming he’s still alive. “God. She was right and I had known it all along but hearing someone I knew and trusted like a sister say it .” “I was trying. Bella. “I saw it and it wasn’t his. he was in my room. this is your fault. Alice. Stop acting like a middle school. Accept it and grow up. feeling the rift between us widening even more. Bella. Stop denying it and let us all find a way to move on with our lives. like she wanted to believe me but also thought she needed to go get Carlisle to put me in a straightjacket.” I said. I’ve never lived without having two brothers and I have no idea how the hell I’m going to figure out how to live with only one.” Then she left and left me to do the only thing I seemed to be good at doing anymore. so even if the body in the casket wasn’t his. I wanted to stuff them back into my mouth and keep myself from ever saying them again.” Alice hurried to get out of the room.” “Edward’s alive. in the coffin on the day of his funeral – the body in the coffin wasn’t his. fire burning in her eyes. Bella. maybe Gasbag Newton was right about something. You’re the reasons he’s dead. tripping over blankets and pillows.” She whirled on me again. You’ve done it before. I’d never really seen her angry at all. Edward’s dead. And. So the fact that she had just exploded at me like that shocked me.

. which ended with him getting attacked. She sat there on my bed with her baby and just laughed while I sobbed. it was my fault because I had stupidly run into the forest at night. we were still in whatever this whole sticky situation was because of me. which I wasn’t even sure of anymore. And so I just sat there and cried while the girl from my imagination reappeared for the first time since Edward had died. And if he wasn’t. If Edward was dead.really dug it home.

or even just think you’re going crazy. I would have freaked out if I had suddenly found myself in a cemetery in the middle of the night with more than half a day missing from my memory. I knew why I had come. I didn’t even need to look at the headstone to know where I was. Since it was not normal circumstances. they don’t show quite the truth. you start to doubt your whole life. But. Nowadays. given how messed up they looked. Under normal circumstances. still dressed in the thin flannel pajamas I had been dead set in wearing for the next week or until they started to admit an undeniable odor that I would no longer be able to blame on Emmett. do they ever depict the actual truth in Hollywood? But back to my point. They don’t often have people digging up graves in movies and in TV shows. then again. You can no longer tell what’s real from what’s in your head. I wasn’t exactly sure what to make out it. not muddied at all. Well. I just knew that I had no memory of getting there and no memory of starting to dig yet there I was. you’re perception of reality gets so messed up to the point where you’re basically screwed. Under normal circumstances. Though I did not remember getting there. I did not freak out but instead continued to clear away the last couple inches of lose. Why didn’t you start to see things sooner? Or have you always been crazy and the things you’ve been seeing weren’t as obvious? If that’s the case. I had to see the body in the coffin. My fingernails were ripped and bloody and I was pretty positive that a couple seemed to be missing altogether. Pretty soon. just waiting to be opened for whatever reason. not only do you bury the body in a coffin. standing in a six-foot hole and covered in mud. Then again. everything that happened to you. desperate to get into my husbands coffin. digging up the dirt of the fresh made grave. what if everything in your life had been fake? What if you imagined everything that had ever happened to you really never happened? Or what if all the people you loved didn’t really exist? Just wondering all this was enough to make me lose my mind and I knew I was coming really close to that. My hands were too numb with cold to feel the pain though but my whole body ached. my muscles sore and fatigued. I had just dug up Edward’s grave by myself and I was pretty sure. make sure that I hadn’t simple imagined that the body wasn’t his. that I had done it with my bare hands alone. My hands scrambled against the ground. They show people digging up a grave and finding a coffin sitting there in perfect condition. The sun seemed to have set in the two minutes I was in the laundry room and now it was dark as a moonless night out. you also put the coffin in a cement box. Adrenalin and grief rushed through my body as my hands finally uncovered something solid. but whenever they do. I don’t even know . So when I opened my eyes after trying to rub something out of them and found myself in a cemetery instead of in front of my washing machine.Immortal: Chapter 13 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 13 When you’re going crazy. I would not have been a half-crazy widow in a cemetery in the middle of the night with no recollection of digging a hole that was nearly a foot taller than I was. these were not normal circumstances. muddy dirt. The rain poured down heavily but I was already soaked to the bone. they don’t ever show that it’s a little bit harder than that.

it would prove that I was after all going crazy and I was wrong about Edward being alive. I picked the sledgehammer up and started to break through the cement. My hand brushed against something and I couldn’t help but laugh out bitterly at the irony of it. I was stark raving mad. fumbling with the latch. I wasn’t even sure what I was going to do because. that was for sure but there was something so. my aching muscles fueled by the fact that I had to get into the coffin. rolling around their sockets. I had to find leverage. the tall walls closing in on me. basically what I’m trying to say here. trying to lock the body in. I tried to haul myself out of the grave but my arms were shaking so bad that I fell back in a few times before I finally found myself on solid ground. so. not so sure exactly what the worst was. His lips were missing and there was just a stretch of blue skin there under the black thread. lying in the coffin. breaking through it and I continued to hack away until I had a broken away enough to open the top of the coffin. I had somehow thought to bring one along when I hadn’t even brought a shovel. Both of the scenarios were terrifying and made my knees go weak. I swung open the coffin. I fumbled with the latch again. I should go to Carlisle right now and tell him to put me in the loony bin because there wasn’t any way that any sane person would let someone as crazy as I was roam free. they were moving. And there was Edward. There was no way to deny it anymore. any way to get to the coffin that was under me. I kneeled down and wrapped my hands around the edge of the coffin. If I wasn’t careful. his irises black. His skin had the bluish pallor of death but it was deeper than it should have been. and instead of glossed over and staring like they should have been. His eyes were open. it wasn’t going to be good. moaning through its lipless mouth. Edward was dead. I was insane. Why do you need to give a body even more protection when it’s going to compose eventually no matter what you put around it? When it’s always just a matter of time? Anyway. I needed to know that I wasn’t crazy! The sledgehammer hit the cement. bracing myself for the worst. My heart was racing with fear and a cold. it was a dead body that had been in the ground a few weeks now. It was now proven. It was his face. I was crazy. But if it was Edward’s body. I was a lunatic and should be locked up. I reached up and slid the sledgehammer out of the hole. my best friend was pissed. so wrong with the picture in front of me.what the point to that is. terrified sweat would have drenched me if I hadn’t already been soaked. His eyes locked on me and he lifted a blue hand towards me. I needed to know that he actually was alive. regardless. thick black stitches but it wasn’t just that his mouth was sewn shut but that he had no mouth at all. I screamed. and my whole life was over at eighteen. It (because I couldn’t think of the undead thing inside as my husband) pounded against the coffin. the next thing I’d do unconsciously would be murder the entire town. There was a sledgehammer right by me. slamming down the lid of the coffin. I scrambled around the grave. My hands were no longer just trembling from the cold and fatigue but now from fear as well. separated from me by less than a foot of solid concrete. And in ten years. It was pointless to try to fill it back in and so I turned and ran. No matter what I found inside this coffin. it was going to be impossible to get to Edward’s coffin without a sledgehammer. If it was in fact not Edward’s body. And his mouth – his mouth was sewn shut with rough. I needed proof. I started to push dirt back into the grave but most of the mud I had dug out of it seemed to have been washed away by the rain. someone would make a .

but she sounded just like me. His mouth was surrounded by ring of bloody lipstick. he kissed her neck. Then. but his face was off again. gleaming fangs. this time running her teeth over her eyeteeth that suddenly grew into sharp. It took me a moment to realize it was actually blood. they were there. “I know you can hear me. One of his eyes was rolled back in his head. The baby began to wail. One of my knees was split open and blood was running down my leg. wide smile.” she said and it was the first time I heard her speak.movie of my life. She reached up a hand and absentmindedly stroked Edward’s cheek while he stared out into space. My chest was tight and my heart was pounding so fast with fear that I was sure it was going to explode. Not as fancy as Jack the Ripper but it would work. and he lifted one of his hands sloppily into the air. mouth-less corpse he had been in the coffin. It was Edward. his arm wrapped carelessly around her shoulder. She appeared out of nowhere. I know you know I’m here. Then my whole world went black. so I could only see the whites of it. loud and audible. neither of them paid me any attention. “Edward. I ran through the cemetery. Edward?” And he did turn to look at me. His skin had blued and his mouth was missing. I’d get a serial killer name like Bella the Lunatic. It was my Edward. I walked towards them on shaking legs. “I have your darling Edward here. stared straight into my eyes and smiled a big. He was just as white as the girl sitting next to him. I was going to die of a heart attack or aneurism in a goddamn cemetery. Only this time. Now tell me what the fuck you want from me!” The girl looked at me. I expected her voice to have something evil about it. I gasped as his slimy hand hit my own and a piece of paper slid into my fingers. “What else could I need?” “Edward?” I asked frantically. saying I was driven crazy by the death of my husband which ended with the death of a hundred. it wasn’t just the two of them. coming down with a thud in my own that was outstretched to him. but looking slightly different like he had in our room the morning before his funeral. slipping through the mud and tripping over tombstones. Lightning flashed and thunder cracked. his red eyes gleaming. replaced by those crude stitches. The girl glanced at me but other than that. Edward leaned down and whispered something in her ear and the two of the laughed. something different. alive and breathing. Blood dripped from her teeth and she licked her lips again. Another stroke of lightning illuminated the sky and my heart about stopped when I saw his face. her baby in her arms. “No!” I screeched right in the girl’s face. . The girl lifted her head up towards Edward and he leaned down to kiss her but instead of pressing his lips to hers. licking up the blood that spilled from the gash. “What the hell do you want from me?” I screamed when I was just a few feet away from them. look at me please. And I’d be famous for being frickin’ insane. but not the cold. The girl stared at me and ran her tongue across her lips. wearing my face and sitting atop a headstone. Something in me snapped right then. There was a man with them.

I unfolded the piece of paper. My sheets were hard and stiff with it and my scalp itched with the feeling. on the other hand – well. Clutched in one of my hands was a soggy. My hands shaking. dirty piece of paper. blue veins pulsing under the surface. I wasn’t eating well. thank God that it was just a dream. but my hair could not have gotten that dirty that quickly. Is. I sat up to find myself covered in dried mud. No “I miss you” or “I love you” or even “don’t fret. dull sheen to it. I wasn’t really crazy. That was just freaking great. but once I finally deciphered them. In the few weeks since Edward had died. For all I knew. It was just a dream. What I didn’t imagine. Once the steam of the shower had rinsed away all the grime of graveyard dirt and cleared my befuddled mind a bit. blinding me as I tried to sit up. I wrapped myself in a towel and wiped cloudy film off the mirror. I had lost weight which wasn’t good since I was already skinny and I now resembled a skeleton whose skin hadn’t . which I seriously needed to do since I had no idea what the hell was going on in my life. Just a dream. It would give me a chance to have silence and be alone and think. This is real. I had really let myself go. Real.” No. This. What I had found in that grave. Sure. was digging up my husband’s grave. I spent most of my time in bed lately but I wasn’t sleeping well. my dear. I hadn’t really gone absolutely mad and dug up my husband’s grave. Was I crazy or was this real? I had no clue. But there were just three words. I couldn’t remember the last time I showered. I expected Edward to have written more. though. That was exactly what I needed the note from my supposed deceased husband to say. My bloodshot eyes were surrounded with dark circles and my hair had an unhealthy. The lack of nutrition had turned my translucently pale skin a sickly color of grey. I was disappointed. my hair crinkling beneath my cheek. A straight jacket and a padded room was exactly what I needed at the moment. I stared at myself. because I am alive. My hands were crusted with blood and my fingernails were broken and jagged. Wow. barely recognizing the girl staring back at me. Oh. Or maybe a hot shower would work for now. I rolled over. all I got was a confirmation that this whole thing was real which really didn’t mean anything if I was really as schizo as I thought I was. most of the time forgetting to eat at all. I wasn’t quite sure if I imagine the blue. I had a pounding headache and the world spun around me. I was imagining the little piece of paper in my hands.Immortal: Chapter 14 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 14 I woke up the next morning to sun streaming through my window. The words were smeared and hard to read and I could hardly make them out. decomposing yet still-alive body of Edward’s.

just a room number at the bottom of the page. It was the longest sentence she had said to me in a week and a half. This was weird. College students not much older than me were nodding off in their seats and only one very bookish-looking girl was taking notes. Please come talk to me as soon as you get this. your assignment for the weekend is to write an essay about what you give to live forever. Within a minute. they were gone. When was my life going to stop taking the path of a horror movie? This was worse than being kidnapped than jigsaw and put through his cruel. His hand was warm against mine and his skin almost more pale than my own. mind-game tests. The older professor who was teaching was extremely hansom for how old he was and he had a voice like honey. You’re husband’s not really dead. That’s how I found myself walking into a college a few hours later. There was no name. I pulled on clothes and hurried downstairs. “That was . Please. what did I have to lose. Mrs. the only sign that the room had recently been occupied by a bunch of students were the multiple papers left on the tables. Immortality is the one promise that have made people do anything to get there.started to waste away. His hair was graying though it looked almost dashing on him and he smiled a dazzling smile at me as he saw me slide into an empty seat at the back. I ripped open the letter and instead of finding a business-print. How far would you go to never die? Or would you even want to have immortality? Class dismissed. Alice threw a white envelope at me without looking my way and stalked off. Or else people would die. searching for room 234. Others made religions where they were the ones that got to live forever if they followed a simple set of rules in life.” the professor said. I never even applied there. I made a face at her behind her back. “The fountain of youth is something that has enthralled people since the Spanish came over to the new world. typed-out letter. I look like the dead one. “Bella. an extra person whose husband he somehow knew was alive. wanted me to go to the college ASAP. Everyone else was dozing though I couldn’t imagine how. Cullen. I seemed to be getting a lot of those lately. whoever he or she was. Now. When was she going to get over this? The envelope looked very business-like and the return address was from the college in Seattle. “You must be Bella. handwritten note. but people have been searching for immortality much longer than that. And then I decided. Don’t let them make you think he is.” he continued without any more notification that he had an extra person in the room. mail for you!” Alice screamed from downstairs. I found the classroom and walked into what seemed like the end of a very long lecture. coming up to me and shaking my hand. I found a short. “The Romans and Greeks created Gods who lived forever and were therefore revered. I assumed this person. More people will die if you don’t.” There was a bunch of noise and laughing and talking as the students hurried out of the room.

I didn’t need a sermon at the moment. What did this have to do with Edward? Still. How – how do you know my husband’s alive?” “You’re not one to beat around the bush. Even if Christianity was real and my husband is in heaven or whatever afterlife there is. I mean. Don’t let anyone fool you into thinking that he’s dead.probably my most interesting lesson of the year and yet they still hurried to get out of here.” “Only way to what?” “Jesus Christ once said let the dead bury the dead. He went against things that were preached at the time and he wasn’t scared to hurt people’s feelings as long as he was saying what needed to be said. quickly realizing I didn’t know his name. These words have been thought about and thought about and most seem to think that he means the first dead in terms of figuratively – those who are spiritually dead should be the ones to bury the dead on earth. I don’t want to live forever. This isn’t something anyone would tell someone who is suffering a lost lightly. my dear. right? Tell me. I answered. it’s the only way. That’s not the task of those who are spiritually alive. I do believe in Jesus and what he brought to this world. Cullen. Scholars have pondered –” I groaned. don’t become a religious fanatic on me. He told a man whose father just died to let the dead bury the dead. it’s not what I’ve been talking about. I know your husband is alive for a fact. Please just hear me out for a minute. I wish I could say there is one but I can’t. What if he meant it literally? What if there are dead walking among us. professor. “Immortality? That sounds more like a sentence than a privilege.” “Professor Sterling. However.” “No. Professor…” I started. Whether or not I believe in Christianity. you’re wasting my time. “Sterling.” “What about an afterlife?” “I’m not so sure. That’s the only way to – well. Isabella. I don’t count that as alive. “Please. I’m not supposed to be telling you any of this but I felt obligated to. looking as though they are alive? They’re the ones . That’s what they want. There’s no such thing as immortality. there’s another way to look at this.” “Hello.” “Mrs. alive on this earth. Jesus was this controversial figure of his time. are you? You heard the end of my lecture now.” “What if you had no choice?” “The only thing that anyone ever has to do is die. what would you do for immortality?” I was puzzled by the question he was asking. If heavens what you’ve been talking about this whole time. not anywhere else.

why would they take him?” “They’ve been watching you your whole life.” “This is ridiculous. But your mother was a selfish bitch for that. I was old and frail and dying. I backed away from him slowly. What if they’re real?” Vampires? He had to be kidding me. Besides.that get to bury those who have died. Was he seriously saying that Edward was now a vampire? That he had been abducted by some occult society and turned into a member of the undead? I hurriedly stood up. They saw that you wouldn’t join them on your own. They literally sell their souls. building up an army. the age she was when they came for her. And that’s when I started to believe him. They’re recruiting. I chose immortality over my own soul. only half alive. “I made the mistake myself. desperate for immortality. Vampires are real – and you’ve been marked by them. I think I’ll – I’m leaving now. you can’t do that anymore since your husband is now part of the immortally . Shocked. Most people join them willingly. How would you know. not without a push. You’ve been marked to be one of them since birth. Please don’t try to contact me ever again. Your mother sold you to them at birth because she didn’t want the fate herself and she made them a deal. Cullen. “That’s quite enough for me. it wouldn’t matter what you were.” Professor Sterling grabbed my arm in an inhuman grip.” “Vampires. “This is more important than anything else has ever been in your life. You’ve lost me. This guy was absolutely. Bloodsucking. of someone who was once a part of you. especially if it meant you’d have to leave your precious Edward. That’s why they’re dead. you’ve got to listen to me. But then they started to realize that you wouldn’t want to be one of them. And they want you to be one of them.” “Bella. Mrs. As long as you could be with him. So they took him. Do you get what I’m saying?” “No. undead parasites that roam among us. They were right. pardon my french. They didn’t mind the deal. the one way they were sure would make you want to join. knocking the chair I had been sitting in over.” “What does this have to do with Edward? If they want me. professor. freaking nuts. even if this is true? How would you know this?” His eyes flashed red and he stared down at me with an intense gaze. They’re soulless. both literally and figuratively. weren’t they?” “Is – is there any way to stop them? To get Edward back without becoming…that? Any way at all?” “You’re mother found the only way – selling the soul of another. You remained human until you were eighteen. They couldn’t use you until you were older regardless.

which I guessed most people would consider the same thing . “I have to go. “They’re coming for you. Bella. Thanks so much for the help. I was just dealing with vampires. right?” My hand flew down to my stomach that wasn’t quite as flat as it used to be. Everything I had just learned was whirling through my head. And now this hypothetical child that I was carrying around was in danger. I needed to get home to that pregnancy test.” I was in my car and flying down the highway. My mother had sold my soul so that she could keep her own. As long as you’re not pregnant already. scrambling to pull on my coat. Neither of you will ever be safe again. At least I now had proof that I wasn’t going crazy.dead. I had to know what exactly was going on. Sooner than you think. “You’re not pregnant.” I said in a hurry.” Tears were flooding my eyes as I raced out of the room. “Really this time. What if I was? Would I do the same as my mother had and sell my child to them? Would I be that desperate to escape this fate that I had been plagued with. And you’re child too.” Worry flooded his face. They had taken Edward so that I would join them without a fight. The last thing I heard the professor say was.

Ten minutes. Six. The first screen of the pregnancy test had a little pink line in it. Tap. Five. One. Nine. I guess I had been marked out since my birth for this if what Professor Sterling said was . god. come on. It bounced against the counter.” I hissed. Fourteen. I put the test down on the counter and sat down on the toilet. tap. And it wasn’t like he had had colored contacts in the whole time. Three.” You know how in TV shows and movies when girls take pregnancy tests and say it’s the longest fifteen minutes of their lives while they wait? Well. Four. soulless member of the undead as part of an elaborate plan to steal my own soul as well because my mother sold me to them to save herself and now I was waiting for the results of a pregnancy test to tell me whether or not I was carrying my vampire husband’s baby. Thirty. Fifty. His eyes had been red! There was no way he was crazy. “Come on. Thirteen. We had waited to have sex until we were married and then I was on the pill and we always used condoms. tap. Two. “Please. And. That couldn’t be some sudden trick he had set up. But what if the professor was crazy? Then I would be insane to believe anything he said. I was pregnant. Fifty-nine more seconds. I should not have been prego! Especially now that I was mourning my dead (maybe) husband! Widowed and pregnant at eighteen. Just tell me. Was my life messed up or what? The clock ticked by slowly. Forty. My lungs seemed to collapse in my chest. Another line. Was the professor I had just gone to see really real? He had to be. putting my hands in my head. with the awful luck I had. I still couldn’t figure out if I was imagining everything or not. right? Alice had seen the envelope as well. I stood up and walked over to the counter.Immortal: Chapter 15 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 15 I held the stick in my shaking hands. That was not the way any girl’s life was supposed to go. Biting my lip. My supposed-to-be-dead husband had been turned into a bloodsucking. of course. Twenty. Things weren’t supposed to have happened this way! I wasn’t supposed to be pregnant at eighteen! We had taken every precaution necessary. Eight. That was real. Fifty-five. Seven. They had suddenly changed colors. it was my life that had taken that path. Eleven. This was giving me a headache. I knew then that they were right. Five minutes. Couldn’t they just make a pregnancy test that gives you the results the second your pee touches it? It’s too torturous to have to stand there with the piss-covered test in your hands as you impatiently wait for what seems like an eternity. Ten. Twelve. Oh. I glanced over at the second screen.

No one would believe me. As for both the men’s families. And instead of the joy I would have expected when I announced this. who is still being mourned by his family. A picture of a dug up grave was there and my heart started to beat faster. now would they? “They probably just buried him in the wrong grave. . Esme nodded and tried to think of anyway to cheer her up. My mother sold me into this before I was even born.” Honestly. They’ll figure this out and get him into the right spot. Sure.” I said under my breath. do you not? No! I refused to repeat my own mother’s mistakes! I refused to do that to my baby! My baby. “I’m pregnant. are you sure?” Esme asked. I raced downstairs to find my mother-in-law standing in front of the TV. Esme looked at me with pity and pure horror. The perpetrators are yet to be found and so the reasons are not know. her hands clasped tightly around the remote. Local morticians at the hospital are being questioned so that we can figure out how this mix up was made. turning off the TV and looking at me with broken-hearted eyes. “This morning. perfectly preserved and with an estimated death date around the same time as Mr. even if he were dead. “Bella. Bella?” Esme asked. the body hadn’t been someone else’s but I had been confused and delusional. Cullen’s. I stopped at her side and looked at TV. There was something alive in there. “What could this possibly mean?” “There was just a mess up at the hospital. it hadn’t been a mix-up. A female anchor’s voice chimed out of the speakers. His body didn’t mean anything to me anymore now that he was gone from it.” “What does this mean. unable to tell her that I was nearly positive that Edward was still alive. The grave was that of recently buried Edward Cullen’s. I reached down and touched my stomach.” I said. And now I knew even more than ever. This has to have made the grieving process even harder. yet it was the body that had been buried there. “Bella. coroners at Forks’ memorial grounds found a grave dug up and the coffin broken into. I wouldn’t care. My baby was in there. our hearts go out for them. Why the hell would she force this kind of life onto me if it was that horrible that she was that desperate to escape it? You could always escape it. It had been a cover up. the words slipping out before I could catch them. It was Edward’s grave. Cullen but not yet identified. But now I knew he was alive. What has the authorities even more perplexed is that the body found in the grave was not that of Mr. please come down here!” Esme screamed from downstairs. Who cared if it was buried in the right place? That wouldn’t bring him back But he wasn’t dead! So. That sounded nice. Don’t worry. last night.really true. You now have a child of your own.

I smiled.” Esme said. It was just a ringing in my ears. gaining weight. There’s Planned Parenthood. moving towards me and taking my hands in her. thank goodness. Even though I knew that pregnancy tests were often wrong. There had to be a logical reason for her. Bella. The fact . I’ll drive you. Or. no. And I just knew there was something living inside of me.” She babbled on for another minutes but I didn’t hear anything.” I interrupted her.” “Of course I want this baby. “Just imagine me – a grandmother! We’re going to have to find you a good doctor as soon as we can and get you in so we can make sure she’s healthy and figure out when you’re due. I was going to be a mother. I didn’t exactly mean to spring it on like that on you either. pulling me into a hug.” Esme said.” I said. No one would want me to have to have this child because what could be worse that being a single mother? No one would get that I already loved this baby and it was the only thing I had left of Edward. No one would be happy for me and my child. We’ll get this taken care of. Life was so unfair. My own personal demon from hell that was dead bent on haunting me until the end of time was standing outside the window. joy. I just wouldn’t think – under the circumstances. there were all the other fact. of course – you’re so young. Of course.” Esme said. “Oh. “What – what are you saying. “Esme. It was enough of an answer.I nodded. dear. “That I should get an abortion? That I should kill my child? You want me to kill my baby?” “No. Worst part about this whole thing was that she had the same face as me yet still was as gorgeous as a supermodel while being covered in blood as well. She lifted her hand and motioned for me to come outside with her finger.” Esme said. It’s up in Port Angeles but I’ll take you. “Oh. I was the widow and she would be the child whose father died before either of her parents even knew she existed. and I thought you didn’t want it to be this way this young – and you’re life is going to be different if you do have it – well. infrequent morning sickness. this is awful. Oh. Carlisle could probably take care of it if that won’t be too awkward for you. growing and alive because of me. And we can redo one of the boy’s old rooms and make it into a nursery and…” She was babbling again. at least as logical as real-life vampire. I though that you wouldn’t want a baby. “ “Oh. “Of course not. of course. Bella. “Don’t you fret though. wasn’t it? She cocked her head at me and gave me a knowing smile. Esme?” I asked breathlessly. Well. “Would you mind not telling anyone else yet – at least not until I get into the doctor and figure out how far along I am and stuff. too. Late period. you know – you wouldn’t have Edward to help you. I should have expected this. That’s when she appeared yet again.

I spun around and stared at her. of course. You talked to me last night! Who are you? What are you?” She smiled and then. The whole being pregnant thing is still so new to me and I just need to be alone for a couple minutes. “Who are you?” I asked.” I snapped. Bella?” she asked. I didn’t look at her/me as I walked passed and headed into the woods. and then you.” “Precious Bella.” she said. blood dripping from the tips. You can see me because I’m not the bad guy. “I need to get some air. at least it was a better explanation than I was going crazy and had somehow managed to kill my husband during an episode and yet I still believed he was alive. her voice hissing and lithe. dear. humming a tune to herself. she was in my face. She hugged me once more and then left the room. her golden-brown eyes shining. “I know you can talk. She hadn’t even taken a step. I’ll be right back. . you’re baby next. I was done being scared. “That’s when they decided it was time to take you – you’re husband first. It looked at me with emerald green eyes – Edward’s eyes. I’m going to be a grandmother!” she said once more.” She was behind me now. What I don’t get is why the hell you have my face and why only I can see you. She had just disappeared and reappeared inches away from me. I scowled. Her smile widened and fangs slipped out of her gums.” I said. The wrong questions? Where I had heard that one before? How more cliché could she get? Still. “Why can I see you now? Why not before the last week of school?” “Because that’s when the shadow of death decided to go over you. Somehow I just knew she would follow. And I wasn’t quite sure that I wasn’t going crazy – I had blacked out just yesterday and came to only when I was almost done digging up Edward’s grave – but at least there was an explanation behind some of this. “Um…Esme. “Don’t play dumb. figuratively speaking. Well. I’ve figured that part yet. cackling at her own wit. “No. I get the whole the vampire part. She cocked her head at me again. cold air immediately chilling me through. I stepped outside. “I’m surprised you haven’t figured it out yet.that I actually believed in vampires now caught me off guard.” “Ok. that got me thinking. Her baby let out a wail and I touched my own stomach. her red eyes a burning question mark. It wasn’t until I was sure I was far enough away from the house that I stopped and turned on her. “What do you think I am. It lashed around me like a rope and tied me up tight. you’re asking the wrong questions.” The baby started to scream again. all of the sudden. I’m here to help you. I didn’t even flinch.

. I’m here to help you.They turned red. as though they were suddenly filled with blood. And then I was staring at nothing.

too. If you’re a girl. just thinking. But I don’t think you’re going to be a boy. but it wasn’t that bad. No. Something no one names their girls anymore. my stomach growled. I pulled myself off of the ground and headed inside. right? Little Mina. I’ve always kind of liked the name Mina and since we’re now dealing with vampires. which I had chalked up to grief and worry. Eddie Jr. That’s pretty. My mom had always told me hers wasn’t that bad so I was guessing I took after her. soft piece of ground and laid down there. I was still getting morning sickness occasionally. I wanted to wash the grime of the day off of me so I went up to my room and climbed into the shower. I want something unusual. I was pregnant. He wouldn’t let himself become soulless and evil. Eventually I found a nice. but my baby. probably the same if you truly lost your soul if you were turned into a vampire. I just have a feeling that you’re a girl. just no! Edward still had a soul. I had to be about three months through. I’d have to say that was about the same as selling your kid’s soul to the Devil. “If you’re a boy. I knew Edward and he could never be a monster. At the end of my first trimester. Things were (slightly) starting to turn around for me. It was almost like an omen to me. was trying to help us. And at least now I knew what they wanted – me and my baby – and that someone. thinking about all this and occasionally talking to my stomach. Vampires of all things.Immortal: Chapter 16 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 16 The forest was a nice place that day. reminding me that I was now not just eating for myself. While my meal . My mom. It was one of those rare summer days in Washington where God decided to give a break from the dreary weather and let the sun shine through. I still couldn’t get over that. That sounded about right. This time. I always made fun of him for having such an old fashion name but it’s a good name. I think I’ll name you after your daddy.” Eventually. even if he was a vampire. whether imaginary or not. I had gained weight but it wasn’t obvious that I was pregnant. Edward. At least I now knew what was going on even though it was unbelievable. From what I had seen so far of them. He had to. I looked better than this morning. I was going to have a baby! I stayed out in the forest for a while. There was something glowing about me. when I looked into the mirror once I had cleaned the steam away. just letting the heat of the water wash away the few worries I had left. I went back downstairs and nuked a TV dinner. The house was too quiet. What did that mean about Edward? I asked myself. I wasn’t sure if I could believe that Renee had sold me to vampires to save her own ass before I was even born. I stayed outside until the sun dipped beneath the horizon. it’s fitting. my hands resting on my hard stomach. I was pretty sure none of them had souls.

We’ve made the decision. Gruff and coarse. Esme. “I have more of a say in the matter than you. Charlie. this is ridiculous!” Esme was still screaming. I set my food down on the coffee table and turned on the TV. laughing and kissing me. No more caffeine for me. We were happy and had a family and a house of own. the soothing. No vampires or strange visions or talk of death. In six months. She as well has no say in the matter. A wave of fatigue passed over me and I curled up on the couch with blanket. sliding Juno into the DVD player. “It’s up to the state and us doctors as well. I’d have a baby to balance on my hip all the time instead.” “No. Edward was there with me. Two little girls with fine. I pressed play and ate my meal quickly. I recognized Esme’s voice. I cracked open my soda with my teeth as I headed into the family room. Esme. almost-medicating voice of another doctor. Then I looked down at the Diet Coke in my hands with remorse and opted for a Barg’s Rootbeer instead. burning my tongue. “You can’t just do that to her!” “Esme. “Your baby has fingernails!” *** I was dreaming about little babies with tiny little hands and tinier fingernails. Holidays with the family and smiles and laughing and Edward and I sneaking downstairs to play Santa on Christmas Eve. soothing doctor voice. Birth” A new voice. using his calm. bronze hair and startling green eyes but looking more like me than Edward.” “I won’t let you take her!” Esme again. dear. I pulled a soda out of the fridge. it’s our decision as to whether or not she’s a danger to herself and others. nor was he undead. especially since her mind doesn’t seem in the right place to make decisions at this time either. The microwave beeped and I pulled the steaming meal out. calm down. Shouldn’t I have some sort of say in the matter? Shouldn’t she?” “She’s my daughter. His death has been hard on us all but I think it’s cost us Bella’s sanity as well. “I’m her mother-in-law.rotated inside the microwave. “It’s what’s best. “You can’t put her in a loony bin!” someone screeched. Once someone reports something like this. “She’s perfectly fine! So what if she’s acting a little loopy? I think she has the right to having just lost her husband! She’s not suicidal and she hasn’t hurt anyone!” . He wasn’t dead. don’t make this any harder than it has to be. Please.” Yet another voice.” A crash woke me up and glass shattered. pro-life Asian girl outside the abortion clinic screamed. A little boy in the yard that was the spitting image of his father passing a football around with him. It was how my life was supposed to be if Edward had never “died. I wasn’t sure what it did to unborn babies but I knew you weren’t supposed to drink any when you’re pregnant. Balancing it on my hip. I fell asleep right as the little. It seemed like the right movie to watch at the moment. it’s not up to either you to make the decision. Alice heard her out in the woods today talking to herself and she seems to have some sort of delusions that Edward is alive as well.” Somebody else. really. Carlisle.” “And.

” She laughed darkly.” I said. I can’t let them lock me up.” the doctor interjected. I assure you that she will.” “Why would you do that?” She stood up and came towards me. Cullen. She looked like a tiny doll. I’d find Edward and we’d figure out what to do together.” “What the hell.” the doctor said. Charlie! You’re not trying to stop them from taking your daughter away?!” “Dr. they got to you. Now. “Alice.” Alice said. Edward still had the long rope in the closet from when he used to sneak out at night to see me. Most likely go into hiding – from both the vamps and the sadistic doctors who like to take nearly perfectly fine people to loony bins. “She’s not making this easier. I was would use that to get out of the house and then I would run away. There was something off about her. There was no way in hell I was letting them lock me up in a straight jacket like some kind of menace to society. She was even more beautiful than usual but it was in and almost scary and sharp way. “You – you shut up! What gives you the right to come into my house and make decisions for a girl who honestly has the right to be acting like this now?” “Carlisle called me.” I could tell their conversation was coming to an end now and I got up. “I was the one who told Carlisle everything.” . I threw open the door to my room and my heart stopped a little when I saw Alice sitting on the end of my gigantic bed.” “I’ve got to. “Oh. I hurried upstairs as quickly and as quietly as I could since they were blocking the front door. Alice. “It’s more amazing than you can believe. but that didn’t mean I was going to let them take me. though. Washington since we rarely saw sunlight. What was wrong. Sure.“Yet. Bella will thank you for this someday. but Alice had never been this translucently pale. I have powers you wouldn’t imagine. said it was urgent that Bella got help. please restrain your wife. Bella?” she asked. her legs swinging off the end and not making it to the ground. are we. “When did this happen?” “A couple days ago. Of course. please. too. Bella. Her skin looked white in the light of the moon shining through my window. “Trying to escape. just let me go. “Don’t tell them I’m up here. pale skin wasn’t unusual for the inhabitants of Forks. I took a step back a chill went through me. “The transformation just ended today.” Alice said. her voice menacing and cruel yet playful at the same time. didn’t they?” I moaned. I had joked about needing to be put in a padded room. god. Carlisle? How could you betray her like that? And you. didn’t hit me until her eyes flashed red.

Let’s see how strong Bella really is. If you don’t join willingly. but I don’t regret it now. I struggled to keep my eyes open as the world turned sideways but I was out before I hit the ground. of course. the needle going straight into my neck where Alice’s finger was still. It’s not as awful as you think it is. sad smile and for a moment I saw the sister I knew before her soul had been sucked out of her. they will. Then we can be sisters like we always have. Bella. you being pregnant and all. Alice laughed again. “I wish they’d let me take a bite at you. but even better. She lifted an icy finger towards me and traced the artery under my neck. you know.” Alice smiled a sweet. We’ll be immortal together – you and Edward and me and maybe I can even change Jasper as well. Bella. Just a little.” “Why’s that?” I couldn’t help but ask even though I knew I didn’t want to hear the answer. they’re going to have to break you and trust me. And they’ll want a few months anyway. A week in a straight jacket should do it though they’ll keep you there as long as they need to. They can’t really do it yet.” I said.” Alice basically purred. the same dark laugh. Please don’t fight it.” That’s when I felt it pierce me. “You really are silly.” I trembled and Alice didn’t miss it. The drugs circulated through me immediately and my legs buckled under me. To break you. how could you let them?” “Silly Bella. “Scary thought. So.” “I can’t do that. it was a let thing. tiny bite but no – that’s someone else’s job. Years if they have to. right? I reckon I wouldn’t last an hour.“Alice. I strained away but I seemed paralyzed to the spot. “You don’t have to fight it. Alice. even though her offer didn’t sound too bad. of course. “Too bad. they can’t force you to without making sure you’ll obey them first. Edward and I would be back together. .

I managed to stop my panic attack. even my soul. I had been going in and out of consciousness for a while and I was just now awake enough to notice how quiet it was. Up until then. I realized I wasn’t really alive until I came to Forks so I started there. I decided it was time to open my eyes. I had to keep myself sane. Of course. the way I knew I wouldn’t be hurt again. time started to make no sense in there. After another while. I wore leather jackets and overdid the makeup so that I looked a whole hell of a lot tougher than I was. Even though I had expected it. When I had arrived at Fork’s High School. It was my way of putting the walls up. which I really hoped they didn’t. to hum. I had been a broken girl who had been torn up by the few boys who had ever given me attention. naïve girl I was without the accessories. I would eventually be able to figure a way to keep track of time and that wouldn’t do at all. guys always found a way to take advantage of me and by the time I moved in with my dad. The meds had finally worn off enough for me to stay awake but I immediately wished someone would stick me with a needle again so that I could go back to sleep. I was basically a shell. I decided to start replaying my life in my mind. It took a while for my heart to calm down but once I had accepted the situation. I was starting to go crazy and I probably hadn’t been in there more than a few hours. innocent. that still didn’t keep me from panicking. It hurt my eyes and eventually I just settled on closing them. way too colorless. I remembered what Alice had said. If they had to bring me food three times a day. They always seemed to like me just so that they could toy with my emotions and then leave me more heartbroken than before. even if they left me in here for years. I couldn’t help but wonder what these drugs were doing to my baby? To keep myself from going crazy. They had put me in here to break me. It was hard and they were crusted together but when I reached up to wipe them. An awful. my arms were stuck to my sides. There was no way to tell if it had been days or just minutes that I had been in there. When I looked like the sweet. The silence was starting to kill me and I tried to sing.Immortal: Chapter 17 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 17 The first thing I realized was the silence. to essentially drive me legit crazy so that I would beg them for salvation and offer them anything in return. My eyes wrenched themselves opened and I tried to scream but my mouth wouldn’t open. It roared in my ears and closed in on me. It already felt like years. making my lungs tighten. I could tell that they had an IV in me and that that IV led out of the room so that they could keep the drugs coming and make sure I was nourished so that they wouldn’t have to break my isolation. . suffocating silence. Everything was too white. I was a tough girl with a way too innocent face. to scream – anything to break the silence – but I was still too drugged to move my lips.

” he asked me. Edward Cullen. You’re not as tough as you act. “Ok. maybe I’m not. I was terrified. I’m not so sure how telling you all about my problems is going to help. I think . biker-looking chick who’s standing in front of me. “Fine. “Who you really are.” “What about you? You going to spill all of your problems after me? We could have crying fest and then go watch chick flicks. All I want is to know what you’re scared of.” he said after a moment’s thought.But Edward had seen through the walls. I knew he was right.” “Why are you so sure I’m scared of something?” “Because you put on this act with your leather jacket and eyeliner and strutting around school like nothing can hurt you. You’re not going to try to take advantage of me. “Please.” “I think you need to get them off of your chest for one thing. “And it would help me get to know you better. “I want to know who you are. I didn’t get why he wanted to talk to me so bad so I had avoided him for the last few weeks. I had gone to a book store while they goggled over jewelry and Edward had gotten out of the car there. what do you want to know?” I had asked him. Edward?” I raised my eyebrow at him and his shoulders shook with laughter. Psh.” “Well. “Maybe I am. Not this tough.” he said. it’d help both of us. “Then. he had stalked me and a few friend up to Port Angeles when we were dress shopping. my lip curling up in snarl. Like I’ve never heard that line before. The first time we kissed.” Edward said. “Of course not. are you.” I said. let me walk with you. He certainly hadn’t been expecting me to shoot the question back at him.” I glared at him. Is that what you want because I don’t think so.” “Is it such a crime to want to get to know the pretty. I want to know who the real Bella Swan is and why she’s putting on this act. flashing me a crooked smile. I had thought. new girl better. tell me why you’re stalking me. who do you think I am?” I gave him a mysterious smile that I could tell had baffled him.” I laughed though in the pit of my stomach. So really.” he had called out. “I think you’re this gorgeous girl who doesn’t put enough value in herself. I was sure he was just another one of those guys who wanted to mess with me and then chuck me to the curb when they were done with me. “What do I have to be scared of? The only thing I can think of is being stalked down a pier at night and being taken advantage of. chasing me along the pier when I basically ran in the opposite direction when I saw him. “I think you’re scared. Cullen.

as I’ve said. And I’m scared of never being able to figure out how to balance the two of those so I just don’t let anyone get close so that I will be alone and unhurt. of dying old and ugly and fat and unloved. You don’t know me so you don’t what I’ve been through. You have the right.” “So. I have no right to complain. starving orphans in Africa. I want to get to know you like no one else does.” I cocked my head to one side and stared at him. “I’d say that means you’re scared to talk about your life. I’m scared no one will ever kiss me and still want to be with me forever. I want to know who you are. You feel like you shouldn’t be scared?” “No. “I’m scared of getting hurt again but I’m also scared of being alone forever. Cullen. What are you so afraid of?” “You won’t be able to get me to stop once I start ranting.” “No.” “Ah. I’m still scared of stuff. depending on what it is. I just don’t complain.” “I don’t want you to stop. Some people have it so much worse off than me. yeah. I’m scared of getting stuck here forever and I’m scared that I’ll be no one . but I was spilling all of my deepest fears to this guy I barely knew. I want more from you.” “I’m scared – I’m scared…” And then. I don’t know why. I feel like I shouldn’t be scared of such petty things when there are so many people so worse –” “Yeah. so you’re selfless on top of scared.” “It’s your life.” “And you’re scared that you aren’t worthy of your fears. I want to know everything about. I’m scared that no one will ever want to kiss me like they mean it and then not leave me a couple days later. I feel like I don’t have the right to be scared.” “I’m not going to complain about my life. But we’re not talking about them.” “Why do you want me to tell you so bad?” “I’m curious. I want to listen to you talk forever.” “I think that was you starting to tell me. what are you scared?” “We’re not talking about it. then.you want more from me and I want you to know you’re not going to get it. we’re talking about you. That’s not being selfless. I get it. Is there anything wrong with that?” “Plenty. Our fears define who we are so much more than anything and.” “You’re right.

I’d never felt this way. His were the most amazing shade of green I’d ever seen.” I could barely breathe. my mind going fuzzy from the smell of him. All any guy has ever done is hurt me so I know you won’t be any differ. It wasn’t like any other kiss I’d ever had. He was just teasing me now but I needed to kiss him.” “I could never get bored of you. I know you’ve be hurt by a guy. . forcing my lips to part slightly. his face was just inches from mine. no one has cared enough then. I can’t let it happen. You won’t be able to keep that promise. what?” I managed to say without sounding breathless but there was certain husk to my voice. “And you want to be kissed but you don’t think anyone will want to kiss you like you want them to. “What if I promise to never break your heart?” he asked.” “You’ve never been kissed. You’ve built up so many walls but I don’t think they’re really to keep anyone out.” He took a step closer to me. “So.” And then. so far. just his lips pressed lightly against mine. “They’re to see who cares enough to try and break them down. I wanted to kiss him. I’d never needed them to kiss me like I needed Edward to do right then.” “Then what are they for?” Another step. I breathed in his heady scent. at least not really.” “I never said that I don’t believe in love. This is the way a kiss is supposed to feel. “And. no matter how hard you try. so bad that you don’t know if love’s real anymore. “But I’m right.” He was leaning in closer now. But I really can’t let myself get hurt again. They’d never made it hard to breathe. I wanted him to kiss me. I could feel his breath on my lips and my heart sped up.forever. I had thought. He was so close. I could feel this kiss all the way done to my toes.” “What fortune cookie did you read that off of?” I scoffed. So. “Do you think you’ll be that guy that will kiss me the way I want you to?” “If you let me. whatever it is you want to be between. I can’t handle my heart breaking again. with all the other guys. Everyone gets bored of me eventually. he pressed his lips against mine. to feel his lips on mine. aren’t I? You’re terrified of letting anyone close to you. “It’s impossible. I know everything you’re scared of and that shows a person more than anything else as I’ve said.” “You just poured your heart out to me. It was simple kiss. but he grabbed my wrist and stared into my eyes with his. Before. a few guys probably. truly kissed. We can’t even be friends. without waiting for my answer.” I turned to leave.

sitting across from me.” I said dumbly. I want to spend forever with you. “This isn’t just for sex. not have to rush out early so that I can get home before everyone wakes up. I want everyone to see that I plan on being with you for the rest of our lives and that we’re not just going to go our separate ways after high school.” “I’m eighteen.” He opened the box and a huge diamond shined up at me. I felt my heart beat faster and tears sting my eyes.” I whispered playfully as I pulled him back in for another kiss. marry me. I replayed that kiss in my head. staring down at him with wide eyes. I wished I could actually feel the kiss again. “I won’t ever leave you. “Why would I joke about this? I want you to marry me. is it?” “Bella. We were laying in my bed. Please. And that’s when I knew. I love you. I sat up suddenly. over and over.He pulled away a bit but I could still feel his lips flutter against mine as he said.” “You’d better not. There was nothing better than hearing him breathe beside me and feel his heartbeat when my head was on his chest. I want to be able to hold you in my arms without feeling like I’m going behind our parents’ backs and I want to be here when you wake up. How much longer would it be until I lost everything? . I started to think about the night Edward proposed to me. but they had left my ring. “Are you serious?” Edward sat up too. squealing. He was really serious about this. just slept in each other’s arms. We can legally get married. We never did anything. Bella. I said a quick prayer. They were trying to take away my humanity. I could still feel the ring my finger. you’re eighteen.” “So. “Bella. until I couldn’t focus on it anymore. I hugged him tight and kissed his lips passionately. “Isabella Swan. Edward. instead of just remembering what it felt like.” “You are serious. my child. “I’ll take that as a yes. Edward had snuck out of his house like he did a lot and climbed through my window. I love you more than anything. and my husband. Maybe Edward would be the one to save me from this. will you marry me?” Edward whispered. I was just about to doze off.” Edward said breathlessly as he slid the ring onto my finger.” He reached into his pocket and pulled out a little jewelry box. you can’t be serious. That was when I threw myself at Edward. You know me. thankful that they hadn’t taken away the only physical thing I had left of Edward when they threw me in this hellhole.

and solved the world’s insoluble problems. Sometimes it felt like five minutes but for all I knew I could have been asleep for half a day. Eventually the only things I could think of were the bad things. it was already tied so tight around me. I started thinking about all the times my heart had broken. It took me a while to remember I was pregnant. he dumped me when he started to like my best friend. I tried to stay awake as long as I could but that led to thinking. Turned out. I didn’t want to lose even more time than I already was in this room.Immortal: Chapter 18 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 18 It wasn’t long until I ran out of things to think about. The first boy. that was what they wanted me to think. I was used to being able to wake up and look at the clock beside the bed. I couldn’t sleep because that led to nightmares and disorientations. the fact that everyone thought I was crazy and that I was now trapped in a padded room and the only way out was to actually go crazy. If I had been in here a month. They wanted me to go down that road because if I started to doubt that it was bad. he had only loved me for my body and started to pressure me to sleep with him after just a couple months. And because the drugs and the uberly bright room were messing with my sleep. I would have been bigger. The next guy. and wondered if it would really be that bad to be changed into a vampire. I couldn’t tell how long I had slept each time. I had neither a clock nor a bed. the only dreams I had were awful nightmares. At least. I had already gone through my life a few times. I was going to go insane very quickly. Perhaps I had been. the one who had been my first real love. Then. dreamed of what it would be like it would be like when Edward and I were finally reunited. If I was really going to be stuck in here for years. Right? Maybe that would be my way to figure out how long I had been in here. the one who said he was in love with but who I didn’t like at first until he convinced me to give him a chance. I would also have sun which would have told me how many days had gone by. Now. The vampires. I tried to sleep as much as I could but that just left me more disoriented than before. How long had I been in here? I missed the world of watches and clocks. how could I run out of things to think of so quickly? If I didn’t have anything to think of. Just as I started to really love him. sang the lyrics of every song I knew in my head. they would have finally gotten to me. right? The straight jacket would be strained. It was a lose-lose situation no matter what. No. if I had a sundial. I would have even taken a sundial if it meant I would know the time. and others it felt like I had been asleep for a days when it really could have been a second. it didn’t seem long enough. Of course. It felt like I had been in here for a month at least. . my baby that was probably being drugged to death right at this moment. I couldn’t stay awake because then I was left with nothing to do but think. and after he had stolen my lip virginity (something that was a huge deal to me when I was that age). I’d gone over every fact I’d ever learned in school.

One day, while we were making out in the back of his car, he tried to force me to go to far and would have if I hadn’t been able to get out of the car. Afterwards, he tried to act like nothing had happened but he was already dead to me. It amazed me that someone who claimed to love would try and force me to do something I didn’t want to do. Then there was the third guy, the guy who said I was his everything and that he wanted to spend forever with me, the guy that I thought I felt the same way about. I had caught him cheating on me with the school slut. It was then that I stopped believing in love until I met Edward, Edward who had broken my heart by dying. My life consisted of nothing but failed love and broken hearts. Three guys who had broken my heart in spite of saying they loved me and promising they’d never hurt me, and one guy who did everything in his power to not hurt me but done it on accident anyway. Because, even if Edward was still alive in some way, he was still soulless. I guess I still didn’t exactly know what that meant – I didn’t know anything about the kind of vampires we were dealing with period – but Edward couldn’t be the Edward I knew. He was probably now a blood-obsessed, evil monster of the darkness. There were so many different versions of vampires. Fiction was typically based on fact but there were so many different vampires in fiction. From sexy heroes who tried to abstain from being a monster to evil villains who had obviously lost all connection with the human they had once been. From demure, old fashioned vampires that fell in love with humans to seductive, red-eyed beasts who liked to play with their food before they ate it. From vampires that could drink what the rant and not kill to the world’s best predator who killed for the fun of it. I thought about that for a while but it was kind of a scary thought. What would I be like when they changed me? That almost made me cry. I had already given up. I wasn’t thinking in ifs anymore, but in whens. When they changed me, when I was vampire. I had given up on defying them, I had given up on my humanity. This padded room and this straight jacket reminded me of Dante’s Inferno that I read Junior year. Satan was trapped in a lake of frozen ice, his freewill basically taken away from him. In my opinion, the loss of freewill would be the worst punishment ever, one more painful than flame and burning brimstone. They were taking my choice of humanity, but at least I would be able to move, to talk, to live without being drugged up. I would be able to do something other than think about all my mistakes, all my broken hearts, everything that had ever gone wrong in my life. All that was left was letting them know they had broken me, let them know I would give into them willing just so that I could get out this hell. An eternity as a soulless monster was better then being stuck here. I give up! I tried to scream out to them, let them know that I’d been in here long enough. My mouth wouldn’t open, and even if it could, it was too dry to form the words. I give up! I’m done! Take my soul, take my life, but just let me out of here! I tried and tried to call out. Occasionally, a couple squeaks came out.

“I. Give. Up.” I whispered nearly mutely, my throat screaming in protest. The ground shook beneath me, an ominous sign in my opinion. There were shouts from the hall, loud shouts that made my eardrums feel like bursting. It was the first thing I had heard in god knows who long except for a roaring silence. It hurt to hear. I peeled my crusted eyes open in time to see the door burst open, swinging on its hinges hard until it cracked off of the doorframe, landing with a thump on the white ground. A dark figure stood in the door way, looking around the room for a moment. He stepped forward into the light and that was when my brain stopped function. It was the man I hadn’t seen alive in nearly two months, the man I had loved.

Immortal: Chapter 19
by ~bellacullen124

Chapter 19 Everything was on fire, every single fiber in my body screaming in protest. The cold arms around me jostled me around and a moan of pain escaped my lips. How long had it been since I had moved? Years, probably. Centuries, most likely. My whole body tingled with pins and needles and every inch of me throbbed against the body that I was pressed against. I groaned. All my memories were a blurry fuzz hidden behind a screen of white noise in my mind. There was a white room and red eyes and a little screaming baby. I remembered a needle being shoved into the skin of my neck and the arms of the man I loved holding me tight but that was all that I could seem to remember of my life. I couldn’t make any sense of it. What had happened to me? Why was everything so fuzzy? The thumping of feet against stairs sounded in my ears, the slight noise threatening to burst my eardrums. My temples pounded in pain with a roaring headache and I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out. Not even a squeak. A door clicked open and the arms holding me pulled me in tighter, squeezing me against someone’s chest. I felt myself being set down on what seemed like a couch and light suddenly threatened to flood my eyes. I squeezed my eyelids shut tighter and opened my mouth again to talk. This time, I managed to get some noise out but it was a ruff cough that set my dry throat on fire. “Oh, Bella,” a soft voice said from the next room. A familiar voice but I couldn’t place it. My memories were still blocked. A cold glass was placed against my lips. I parted them slightly as someone poured cool liquid down my tongue. That’s when it all came back to me. Vampires! I sat up and spit the liquid out as quick as I could. What if it was blood? Had they managed to change me? Was that why I was in so much pain? Changing species had to be uncomfortable. Was I even human anymore? Did I still have a soul? “God dammit, Bella,” the familiar voice said again. Edward. It was my Edward, a voice I never thought I’d hear again. I opened my eyes to find myself staring into the most beautiful face ever. He was dripping with water and a drop clung to the tip of his nose precariously. His eyes were red and angry and his skin was pale and nearly translucent but I could tell he was still my Edward and not some bloodsucking monster. His bronze hair was a mess, sticking up at odd angles, and his clothes were dirty and second-hand looking but this was still Edward. Then, I looked myself over. I was in one of those hideously awkward hospital gowns, the

This time. “I’m not – am I – I mean.” Edward said. His arms were like ice around me.” I nodded and Edward gently pulled me onto his lap. Edward stared at me for a moment. you’re still human. I was still in too much pain to really kiss him back but I could feel every inch on me light on fire. would my eyes be red? “Edward. “I’ve missed you. I drank greedily and emptied the cup in seconds. Other than that and the fact that I seemed to be holocaust-ly skinny. They were tight and burning from not being used for God knew how long. too. and then passed me the glass of water again. I’ll answer any questions you have afterwards. “I’ve missed you. “Where are we?” I asked. making me look like a total stoner. I could feel Edward stiffen underneath me. I pulled away from him and looked up into his eyes. I won’t do anything that could cause me to lose you. though. love? You must be dying for one. I had always been that sickly pale.” I sighed in relief and slumped back against the couch. his voice borderline distraught. Bella. long and hard like he was trying to read my mind. right? If I looked in the mirror. But a cold Edward was better than having no Edward at all. tucking my head underneath his chin and wrapping his arms around me. “I’m pregnant.” “I am. love.” Edward whispered. When he came back. I was about to ask the question again but when I opened my lips to talk. He looked more terrified. but I’m still the same person I was. “Oh. the way a kiss was supposed to feel. love. He didn’t seem shocked.” I blinked at him. “I won’t let them take that away from me.” I whispered some time later.” I gasped hoarsely. Bella. I’d save that for later because he was right. burning with need. Every muscle I had screamed in protest every time I moved. in a way. It was the way Edward’s kisses always made me feel. “No. I gave it back to Edward and he left to refill it again. I really did need a shower.ones that gape open in the back so that you can show off your derriere proudly. Anything to wash off the memories of the stark white room and a tight straight jacket and a fuzzy haze. my voice cracking. My wrists were chaffed from the straightjacket and everything was still in a haze from the drugs that hadn’t completely worn off. The inside of my arm was black and blue and covered with various needle pricks. We sat like that for a while. I can’t be – am I?” Edward’s eyes faded to black and he looked at me sadly.” I said. “Why don’t you go take shower. “I thought you were dead.” Edward sighed. It was cold in Edward’s arms now. They were red again. he cut me off with a kiss. nothing about me seemed different. What was with the sudden change of topic? Shouldn’t he be ecstatic or nervous or even have some kind of reaction to the fact that I was carrying his child? Was there something wrong? I didn’t press. tears pricking at my eyes. .

It was as though my legs had forgotten how to hold up my weight.I stood up. feeling them slide down my hips. One last question that couldn’t go unanswered any longer. He led me to the bathroom of the small. I hoped the drugs didn’t do anything to her. I pulled myself into the clothes. not sure if it was as bad off as the rest of the room. Edward had laid an unfamiliar pair of jeans and a black shirt out for me on the bed. I climbed into the shower. I hadn’t had solid food in a week and my stomach growled at the thought. “Of course.” I nodded and Edward pressed his lips lightly against my forehead. “How long was I in there?” “Only a week. Seeing as he probably didn’t need to eat anymore. I had to tie a ponytail holder to the back of the shirt to make it even remotely fit. The room spun for a minute and then my body seemed to remember how to stand on its own and reality focused itself. I needed food. I looked in the mirror.” It had only taken them a week to break me. I patted my stomach. Maybe that’s where Edward was. For a moment I swayed. Everything still clung to me. “Are you at least happy?” I whispered. run-down motel room that we were in. missing the warm green color that his eyes used to be. I looked up at Edward. love. one last question balancing on the tip of my tongue. my skin was red and raw from scrubbing it with the little bar of hotel soap. I unlocked the bathroom door and stuck my head of the steamy room. By the time I climbed out though. “Everything is just complicated right now. My stomach roared again. I wasn’t anywhere close to as strong as I thought I was. I literally looked like a survivor of the Holocaust. It had felt like years. “No more than seven days. I had only lasted a week! I was towel drying my hair when I realized I didn’t have any clothes. was no where to be seen. Edward’s hand caught me by the elbow and helped steady me. and locked myself into the dark bathroom. No more than seven days. his hand still keeping me steady. on the other hand. I peered cautiously into the bathroom. my legs creaking under me. taking my time to leisurely soak in the steam. I turned to look at Edward again. I bit my lip hard. My hair was matted to my head with grease and sweat and my lips were chapped. I flicked on the lights and tried to keep my shuddering breaths calm.” Edward said. He. I was trying to get the memory of the padded room off of my skin and out of my hair but it didn’t seem to be working. threatening to break the skin. I couldn’t wait six more months until I got to meet her. my love. I had thought I could last longer in there but I had only last one god damn week! I wasn’t as strong as I thought I was. . My body was deathly skinny except for a flab of fatty skin along my stomach which I took as a good sign as far as the fact that I was pregnant. A week. my knees threatening to buckle under me. hoping my baby was still alive and well in there.” Edward said. he probably had to buy me food. But I still love you more than anything.

. artificial lights that gave you a headache. Heavy drapes hung over them. I was tired of artificial lights. I pulled back the drapes and my knees nearly gave out under me. covered in snow and ice. The world was white. It would still be July! It didn’t snow like this in July! Edward had lied to me. Bright. blocking out any light from outside.I crept over to the window. I needed to see the sun. It was supposed to be July! I was put in that bloody mental house in July and I had only been there a week. That had been all there was in the padded room.

the clerk handed me an extra key when I asked for it and then a brochure with the Space Needle on the front. small letters at the top of the page. What I wouldn’t do for a wooden stake at the moment. Yet I was obviously not pregnant anymore. I went down to the front desk. That would put me at exactly nine months if my calculations had been right. So. Exactly six months after the day I found out I was pregnant. Then I grabbed a news paper to check the date because I sure wasn’t asking the clerk. my fingers rattling the window my hand was pressed up against. The man there gave me a strange look when I told him which room I was in. He was already looking at me like he thought I was a kidnap victim. mid-summer snow storms. they had my permission to do whatever they wanted. The world was literally coated in snow and ice. I checked.Immortal: Chapter 20 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 20 It was January. her legs swinging off the edge of the creaking motel bed. We were in a fleabag motel just a few miles down the high way South of Seattle. This was not a summer snow storm. Maybe he had moved me to Alaska for my safety but that didn’t make much sense. January twelfth. Why would Alaska make me safe? And how could he get an unconscious. Did that mean my child was dead? What else had Edward lied about? Was he working for them? Was he working against me? What if they were using my Edward against me. That’s not what you want. And there it was. . I was guessing they could tell there was something weird about the occupant of that room. I’m sure he’d call the police if I asked for the date.” I jumped. I took my hand off the glass. Still. We did get those every once in a while but. I tried to think the best of Edward at first but it became exceedingly harder. in bold. They could change me into a freaking. She was sitting behind me. January twelfth. then again. Her hair was pulled up elegantly and she was in the same clothes as I was though she pulled them off in a way I never would. bloodsucking demon and I didn’t care anymore as long as the mind games stopped. Her eyes flashed red as I looked at her. supposedly-pregnant girl into Alaska so easily? Or Maybe we were still in Washington and there had just been one of those freak. it was never this bad and it melted quickly. and turned slowly. I did the only thing I could think of. leaving a handprint of steam. still trying to break me? Was it not enough that I had already said I was ready to give up? Did they really need more than that? Did they want to tear me up to pieces before they would stop messing with my head? If they really wanted me that much. “You do care. drugged. “Do you really exist?” I asked.

” I snapped. Nothing but an apparition.” “You’re not me. That stopped my heart dead.” . but there was also a glimmering. I reached for it but it seemed to burn my fingers away when I touched it.” she said suddenly. A clone would share your DNA but it wouldn’t be you. “You may look like me but you are sure as hell not me. Just remember that if you need it. She wasn’t real. “I suppose but that’s the thing.” “Oh. long shard of what appeared to be diamonds.She looked offended.” she said with a wicked smile. “Now is not the time for that. “I just told you. Aim straight for the heart and it will cut straight through.” “Don’t you think I would know if I had a clone walking around wearing my face?” I growled. but you’re not me!” I wanted to charge at her. I am you. my voice weak. but I am.” “I don’t know what the hell you are. an illusion my own brain had come up with to drive me crazy. It’s quick and easy. That’s all she was. I live in you. “What happened to her?” I asked. froze it over and filled my veins with ice. “Nuh-uh. “As long as you exist. My features. I’m you. “The only way to kill a vampire. even if she insisted she was. “Redundant much?” she hissed. I exist. “What are you?” I asked. attached to an ornamented hilt. I looked at her suspiciously but went over and opened the drawer. “And what exactly is that?” Why wouldn’t she just tell me what had happened to my child? She pointed at the top drawer of the tiny nightstand.” I glared at her. You don’t even need that much force. A chill shot through me and I turned back towards the window. wave my arms through her and make her go up in a cloud of smoke. her delicate features wrinkling. looking out at the icy day.” my doubleganger said. “A diamond dagger.” Blood danced on her teeth and she licked it away with a flick of her tongue. My knees buckled slightly and I swayed precariously. I’m not a clone. “I know what happened to your baby. But I am here to tell you something else. I’m you and someday you’ll be me. a cruel smile playing across her lips. It stuck slightly and there was some very questionable waste at the bottom of the drawer.

yet I wouldn’t be able to live without him. Sadly. I could have the happily ever after I had always wanted. She wanted me to use it to kill Edward. I had given up wishing that this wasn’t real. My hand snapped open. It sliced through my skin as easily as though I was made out of air. Whether it was worth it or not. I picked up the dagger. The diamonds were fused together to form the sharpest point imaginable. or whether I could kill him or not. trying to save it before it hit the ground. there was nothing I could do but kill him. Immortality wouldn’t be worth in some senses. clutching at the blade tighter. Light danced off its facets. casting brilliant patterns on the wall It took a minute for it to click in. Or you could let him change you. she disappeared. If he was working against me. Blood spilled over the ridges of the cut and dipped to the ground. this is what it was now. my efforts at saving the dagger falling flat as it fell to the ground. Besides. I lifted my hand to my mouth and licked the blood off of my skin. There was no smoke or a loud puff. The rust and salt smell was nauseating. Edward couldn’t be allowed to live if he was a soulless monster. The salty taste of blood stung my tongue but that wasn’t the bad part. I instinctively grabbed at it. Was it worth it to have to feed off the blood of others for the rest of eternity? If it wasn’t. nothing I could decide would be what I wanted. As though she didn’t even exist. holding it gently in my hands. Maybe she never had. Unless this all turned out to be some awful dream. The bad part was that it actually didn’t taste too bad. could I really kill Edward? Would I want to kill Edward? None of these were questions I could answer. I wanted to have my life without vampires. even if it did have to be drenched in blood. Would immortality and endless beauty really be all that bad? Would it be worth losing my soul? My hand trembled and the dagger slipped. I wanted to live mortally with Edward like I had always planned on and die naturally at a ripe old again. the only thing I wanted was my life to make sense again. Or maybe I was just sacred of what my answers would be. Really. How could immortality not be worth it? . a little voice said in my ear. Also. without death. I really did need to be put back into that padded room. and without blood back. For it to be normal again.Then. before the pain and shock set in. back to the way it was only nine months ago. The cut wasn’t very deep but it lengthen my whole palm. yet it would be if I could spend forever with my Edward. there was no going back. splattering against the dirty carpet with a splash of red. She was just gone like that. This was real and I couldn’t deny it any more.

Going through with what I had chosen was likely to kill me. This pain made sense and so I clutched my hand shut even tighter. there had been nothing but emotional pain. Just thinking about the choice tore me apart inside. staring at nothing. He . Ever since then. He was still the same guy that I had fallen in love with. On the surface. I couldn’t find a way to part with my humanity. You’re going to be biased no matter what. It was so much better than all the pain I had suffered since Edward had “died” back in May. pain from all the thoughts the haunted me. There was still that electric shock when he touched and he had the ability to make the world melt away with a single kiss. I could hear feet sinking into the dense. in essence. the guy who had risked getting grounded for life so he could be with me the night my grandpa died. I closed my eyes and took in a deep shuddering breath. This was a reminder of what my life had become. There was no way to go back to being that happy human girl who’s biggest worry in life was whether her husband had knocked her up or not. You can’t. If it weren’t for bloodsucking monsters. the guy who I had married. I could never get back to a life without pain or vampires or things that couldn’t be explained. a welcomed pain. I was curled up in the bed. had taken him away from me forever. A big slash had been cut through my happy. plastic grocery bags dangling from one hand. it was still Edward. How can you be expected to choose the right thing when you were weighing love against your soul? That’s the thing. I would never have known what a hard life really was. Deep down. Edward was back. My skin screamed in protest but it was a good pain. Since then. He came into the room. the fault line they created had quickly been pulling apart even more. It was the hardest thing ever because how can you choose when no matter what. but. but I couldn’t destroy Edward either. You cannot decide. I still had the same past with him. Maybe the vampires had already killed him. The guy who had been the father to my child.Immortal: Chapter 21 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 21 I had made my decision by the time Edward got back. The door to the motel room let off a low beep that seemed to echo through the space around me as it was unlocked. my bandaged hand wrapped tight around the hilt of the dagger. It wasn’t an easy choice. leaving a whole in my life that could never be fixed. Deep down – well. he was still there. I didn’t want to be the main instrument in the death of my husband. I didn’t know what to think. He still wore Edward’s face. little life when they had changed Edward. you lose everything that you live for? I either had to give up the man I loved more than life or I had to throw away my humanity. dirty carpet in the hall. especially if it meant I was going to become a soulless monster that fed off the lives of others. My life was ruined. feeling the edges of the cut pull open more from where my skin had been sliced open. had already taken away his soul. somehow I knew he wasn’t Edward.

His hair was still tousled and bronze. You were only in there for a week. It was almost the look that he got when he was trying to make up a lie. “I’m not lying! Please. his face still betrayed his every emotion. Why the hell didn’t you tell me? Why the hell would you lie to me like that?!” “Bella.” I said. I wouldn’t be able to do it. For a moment.” “A week. “I swear.” I hissed angrily. It’s frickin’ January!” “Bella. “I’m not! It’s still me.” I cried. his eyes hard and worried. Then. “You’re working with them. I’ll explain everything.” Edward moaned. What if I couldn’t do this? What if I couldn’t force myself to do what had to be done? “Hello.” I looked up with him. He froze. . There was a slightly different glint to his eyes.” Edward said. you would have told me the truth the moment I asked. trying hard to make him out through my teary eyes. Bella. I kept my hand tight around the dagger. making sure it was under the covers. He still looked like Edward. The anger would wear off and I’d loose the nerve. Realization died in his coal-like eyes. truly froze.” I whispered. “You hungry?” His eyes flicked from me to the open window. You said I was only in there for a week!” “Bella. “Shit is right.” he pleaded. If I waited any longer. He was so gorgeous and my resolve wavered slightly. This was my chance. please. sitting up slightly in the bed. the same shaped eyes that crinkled with emotion even though they were a different color. He still had the same straight nose. I didn’t lie. Bella. I couldn’t look at the desperation in his eyes as I pulled my hand out from under the blanket and balanced the tip of the dagger on his chest. “You said one week. And beneath all that. I couldn’t make out what he was thinking. he was on the bed next to me. but it also wasn’t. “You have to believe me. He took my face gently between his hands and forced me to look at him. Tell me I’m a monster now. “You looked me in the eyes and said I was in that room for only one goddamn week. Just please let me explain. his head falling into his hands.looked at me and smiled. please let me explain. love.” “You’re one of them now. but still Edward. It made this even harder. Really. “Shit. still wrote his thoughts across his forehead for everyone to read. He still had the same lips that could twist into that perfect smile. Edward. “Please.” he said. I’m not like them! I am not one of them. I didn’t lie. looking as though he never brushed it but in a way that only he could pull off. out of sight.” “That’s right. slightly paler. You’re working against me! How you could you do this? How you could you betray me!” This was it.” Edward said.” “If you meant that. Bella. he looked a statue. Look me in the eyes and tell me I’ve lost my soul.

He didn’t want me to kill him but he didn’t seem to be doing much to stop me. “No. I wanted to believe that he wasn’t gone. but no one is forcing you to kill me either. “I still love you. hiding from vampires didn’t seem like the easiest thing to do but I’d figure it out. I flung my arms around Edward’s neck and kissed him.” My hands were now trembling violently. really nothing more than a bad dream. He knew how to break through my resolve with a few words of sweet nothing.” “No one is forcing you to do this. true sadness. My wrist twisted forward. “No. This would be my past.” This wasn’t right. the pain of having to kill your own husband. I have to do this. no matter what.” “NO!” It would just take a quick shove.” I wanted to believe him.” he whispered. I flung the dagger across the room. “I’m still me.” My hands were shaking and I couldn’t breathe anymore. I looked at Edward again. I kept what little humanity I have left for you.” Edward said. And then maybe I could escape. Of course he wasn’t trying to stop me physically. like I would never kiss him again. The man you had once loved more than anything. He wouldn’t stop me. love. It lodged itself into the wall. Nothing more. More than anything. “No one is forcing you to let me live. There was sadness. His hands were still on my face and he brushed a tear away with his thumb. It almost seemed like he would let me plunge the dagger into his heart if I really did find the will to do it. I kissed him like I had never kissed him before. You’ve got to believe me. I didn’t want to lose him again. I could get away from this nightmare of a life. run away. could still be the man I fell in love with and married. ever doubt and every fear. I wanted to believe that he still had a soul. though.“No. Bella. The dagger was loose in my hands and my face was covered in tears. Instead of slicing through skin.” “But I’m not a monster either. Please. Because they didn’t mean anything to him anymore! Of course they didn’t! They really were sweet nothing! Nothing at frickin’ all! My tear-drenched face was screwed up with pain. The world melted away. “Bella. There . I let out a sob. put the dagger down and I will tell you everything. I escaped them as soon as I could and I saved you as soon as it was safe. the man that had once been the thing in front of you.” “Bella. I mean. I looked back into Edward’s eyes. I wanted desperately to believe that there was still something of Edward left. “I’ll always love you. it’s still me.” “You’re not human anymore. There was something in the far deeper than desperation to live. and I’d find away to escape this.” Edward said. could still be good. Bella. go into hiding. that there was still a chance I could get him back after all those months of thinking he was gone. This wasn’t right! I could see what he was doing.

. I believed him.was nothing but the two of us. For some reason.

if not end their life. I moaned. Life and power. but I hadn't thought about what it would be like if he left me mortal. To feel them thrash and thrash until finally they give up. but this was different than it used to be. I hadn't really taken a second to sit back and look at how weird our relationship was going to be from now on. I would have screamed if it had not been for the lump in my throat. I could make it easier on them. It was fun to see them try to escape. It was a sound I had never heard before. Previously. The life of a monster. I had thought about what it would be like to let him make me immortal. I sound of pure anguish and suffering and terror. and then finally happy again to learn that he wasn't. something that used to be a routine motion for us whenever PMS got the better of me and I would randomly burst out. all combined into one little mind-numbing. My prey struggled under me. It came so quick. The tears pricked at my eyes and I could still taste the blood on my tongue. And feeling the hope drain out of them was almost more delicious than their lives. fulfilling drink. Blood was like a drug. And then there was the nasty situation of the fact that there was an evil cult of vampires out . stop moving and just shudder from the pain – that's where the real excitement comes in. His arms were too cold and he realized this quickly as well because he tucked a sheet around me tightly. scared that he was evil. different from any other scream. *** I felt cool hands on my face and opened my eyes. the bloodsucker and the warm blooded. try to pull away. A quick twist of the neck would at least end the pain. I had been so happy that I had been liberated from that hell hole of a room. It's a sound few people are ever graced with hearing.Immortal: Chapter 22 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 22 The cry pierced the air. Tearing through flesh is a sensation unlike any other. wedging it between us so we weren't really touching. The first gush of blood is too. my victim's prey giving way under my razor sharp teeth. Still. A life of living on blood and power and thirst. it was more fun this way. His eyes were so soft and worried and it took me a second to realize that he was now damned to a life like that. stretching through octaves and attaching my soul with it's cold hatred. and cut off their ability to do anything but tremble under me and wait for it to be over. Edward quickly wrapped me in his arms. happy to not only know that Edward was alive but also to be back with him. not in disgust like I would have. The vampire and the human. not just a dream. It was a new kind of exciting to see the power I had. but in ecstasy. I sank my teeth in deeper. the immortal and the mortal. drank deeper. how much I could make them suffer. That was all it took for me to start sobbing. It rushed warm and thick down my throat. It takes a special kind of monster to make anyone scream like that. screaming out until I bit in harder. I sat up and stared at Edward. threatening to choke me.

" There was a strange bitterness to his voice." I whispered. "You have no clue how much I wish everything could go back to normal." "It hasn't been pretty for a long time. First. We shouldn't even have to use the word vampire in serious conversation. to the point where the people around you don't notice until it's too late. It's the traditional shared blood legend. bloodsucking facts that I knew. The world had fixed this issue at least. This one is gradual. it just froze me for three days while I was changed. "Don't you mean what am I? That's the real issue here. but the pain was too unbearable for me to really slip away into a coma. his lips moving against my forehead." Edward said. I woke up a few hours with you standing over me. wiping the tears away. The second way doesn't hurt much but takes longer. We are whatever you decide to allow us to be after you know all the facts. They quickly put me into a drug induced coma. I got to keep him." Edward said. "What are going to do?" "What are we?" he asked. "In fact. It was nearly surreal. I had a lot of vampire venom in my system and was quickly killed after it." "I'm sorry I can't fix this. We shouldn't be in a rundown motel hiding from vampires. he obviously didn't think I was going to stay around long. I didn't know what had happened to my daughter. You must remember that. that I do. was the way I was changed. and I still really didn't know what I was up against except for the obvious soulless. "This is supposed to be my punishment. my love?" Edward cooed into my hair. Instead. There's no way to fix it now. I'm just so sorry. "I've managed to figure out that there are two typical ways to create a vampire." "It's not going to be pretty. That can always be changed." I told him. I just never knew about it. we should be sitting at home with a little. Maybe this was weird and different.to get me. "What's wrong. But you do owe me a lot of explanations. There was no choice there. Edward. My heart stopped beating. At least undead. He tucked my head under his chin and held to him even tighter. You just set up the illusion that all was well but I've had this knife hanging over my head my whole life. Edward?" I sobbed. but I was still in Edward's arms again. even though I believed him. Bella. new baby in our arms. . This process has to be repeated about once a week for a month until the change is complete. a hard edge that made me want to cry even harder. "I just want to know what the rest of my life is going to look like. The vampire bites their victim and then gives them some of their own blood." I mumbled. Right now. That's a choice. I just had to keep telling myself that I'd rather have him undead than dead. It's painful because it's quick. Bella." "Like Alice. Even though I hadn't killed him. "I won't leave you. Basically. I am what they have turned me into." "Yes." "It's my fault." I promised. "What are we now. it never really was. not yours.

We don't want to stay hidden. not hiding in the shadows like the stories want us to. if you will." I quickly changed tracks before he could go on with the horror fest. I may not be as strong as I could be because of it but I prefer it this way. Vampires are nothing like in those books. We have fangs and drink blood and are super strong. every emotion and every thought and memory. You're love story has come to end. but we're different. nearly scared of the answer. his voice grinding against my nerves. I screamed against my will and clutched to Edward tightly as a dark. "The trouble makers. The door to our room exploded. cutting him off indefinitely. sending fear into the pit of my stomach. draining blood from screaming humans. "What happened to our baby?" Edward opened his mouth to answer but there was a loud bang before he could answer. They want to rule the world. Whenever I get too weak. Instead. that we're stronger than them. "Because the only thing I could feel was love. terrifying figure entered the room." "What do you eat then?" "I still need blood." "And what about the people after me? How'd you get away from them? What do they want?" "I think you already know what they want. And she was so overcome with anger. I can't say I still have my soul but I can stay I still retained most of my humanity because of you. He smiled at me." His words were the only thing I could hear as my world went black. His eyes shone a bloody red from beneath his heavy lids. They would have killed me the second they smelled rebellion. I take some human blood from a blood bank. They wouldn't have let me go. She succumbed. When you change. Those are the things that take away your soul. and grief that she did nothing to fight it. a superior race. slivers and chunks of wood flying across the room. rip it away. "How was I only in that room for a week?" I put my hands on my flat stomach and whispered. ." he said. just taking a break. We want the world to know that we're here. Now that's a new twist to the vampire books. A bloody leave of absence. Even you didn't notice what she was becoming until it was too late. if that's what you mean. our vampirific Romeo and Juliet. Alice was mad at you and it became even worse when she was changed. "Bella and Edward. I've had to outsmart them. if you will. blood I could easily assume wasn't his own. "I'm not really away from them. I can survive off animal's blood. all of that's intensified. They still think I'm working for them."
 "And why didn't you?" I asked hoarsely. His skin was pale with streaks of blood dripping down his chin."Yes. They think I'm out slitting as many throats as I can. We're supposed to be in charge. Dust and the smell of death filled the room. hatred. like Alice.

"Alice? What happened?" 
What happened? Now. Bella. It wanted me to wake up and open my eyes. sleeping Bella. Wake up. They want you awake. Every part of me was sore and my temples throbbed in rhythm with the shrill. if it was really time to meet my death. Lovely Bella. I was starting to think you'd never wake up. I tried to sit up but I couldn't get more than a few inches off the uncomfortable mattress I was strapped to. I didn't want to wake up and find out what had become of Edward and what my fate would be. Her singing was pretty but it wasn't doing anything for my headache. darling. peaceful Bella. She was deathly pale with sunken cheekbones and bags under her eyes. The dull black of her eyes chilled me more than her hands on my face. this girl was broken and pitiful-looking. Bella. Instead. darling Bella. This wasn't the Alice I had encountered the last time I had seen her. This wasn't the feral. her eyes bloodshot and tired. This time. Bella. wasn't there a question? I didn't even know what part of that I . wake up. darling. lovely Bella. My first instinct was to struggle and I did for a minute. dead Bella. I didn't want to wake up. Wake up. it wasn't taking me even a moment to remember anything. loved Bella." The singing hurt my head. Wake up. Her lips were pale and chalky and her fingers were freezing against my skin. lovely Bella. smile a little. her voice almost as scratchy as mine. Bella. Bella that. Bella. my wrists tugging at their Velcro restraints. She wasn't beautiful anymore nor confident nor anything like the Alice I knew. lovely Bella. my god. why wouldn't they just kill me? Couldn't they let me sleep instead of waking me up before they drained my veins and took my soul? Couldn't I sleep some more and pretend that my life was somewhat peaceful? "Open your eyes. darling Bella. I felt a cool hand on my forehead and the face of a dead girl blocked out the light. throat-biting vampire who had stabbed me in the neck and threatened to suck my blood. Bella. "Oh. gorgeous Bella. I squeezed my eyelids together tight before opening my eyes slower. dear Bella." "Oh. Bella this. "Alice. open those gorgeous eyes. Pretty Bella." I moaned." "Alice?" I croaked hoarsely as she cried. willing the voice to go away. Wake up. time to meet your death."
 I opened my eyes a crack and was instantly blinded by a bright light. I couldn't see anything but white light shining in my eyes. Wake up. pretty voice. If they were planning on killing me. I remembered it all. gorgeous Bella.Immortal: Chapter 23 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 23 "Bella. sweet Bella. Bella." Alice cried. "Pretty Bella.

just maybe. A blood covered look-a-like would come into the room too carrying a huge camera. It's all their faults. Alice?" I could barely hear myself speaking. messed with your body and you went into this coma and…and…" "And what. When things got even worse. they should check for themselves. Of course. "You're baby is dead. my life was real and it couldn't be wished away." "Coma?" "Yes. "You're schizophrenic. let me go get Carlisle. unable to believe it. My heart was rushing." Alice said. it was too late. I knew it but I needed to hear it out loud. I could be asking what happened to her and the rest of the Cullen clan. Everyone would laugh at how angry I would look and eventually I would laugh and get over it. Bella. Alice." Alice said. My baby was dead. "Oh. I want to hear from you. just tell me what happened. her voice gushing out in a frantic stream. my voice was so low." "Alice. No. sobbing still. Bella. "Oh. "And I'm schizophrenic. "No. Maybe Edward would walk out of the closet and kiss my forehead. "Six months?" I whispered. "I'm no doctor. start laughing about how she had me so convinced. Her words rang in my ears and I groaned." I whispered. I wanted to sob. They diagnosed you with the paranoid type of schizophrenia." I slumped against the mattress. the sound catching in my sore throat. I mean." "Schizophrenic. I'm not schizophrenic. Carlisle will tell you better. Maybe Alice would throw on a smile. Maybe its horror streak was over. you've been out for six months. they wouldn't listen to you about the baby and then they wouldn't listen to Esme either and by the time they thought that maybe. You know he will. I'm not – I can't be – it's not true." Alice said. bring out my baby and lay her in my arms. I almost wished that my life would choose this moment to become a sitcom or one of those hidden camera reality shows. Bella. How much was real?" "Perhaps I should have Carlisle come in and tell you."
 "They ran all the tests and brain scans and everything after you fell into a coma. My baby was dead." I said.wanted answered. I don't want to hear any frickin' . I mean. mixed with the drugs they were pumping in you. Sadly. Bella. to cry." Alice whispered. apologize for making me think he was dead. I could have been asking what had happened to my baby. "Bella. Bella. You had some funky pregnancy hormone thing going on and it." fddsa"God dammit. I wanted it to be a lie. You know that. they really did. I had thought I was schizophrenic at first but then I'd been convinced otherwise. "She died. Please. I could be asking what had happened after I was re-kidnapped by vampires. not a hard feat seeing as I was already strapped tightly too it.

he's really dead. I want to hear what happened from you. Jasper – he broke up with me. It's just me and Carlisle now. "You've got to understand that they didn't mean to hurt you. Could so much grief cause your eyes to change colors? She eventually started speaking again. Bella. First Edward and now my mother-in-law. you had hallucinations. awful things. And…and…" Alice trailed off for a few moments. He did it . And you kept on screaming that you were pregnant but no one believed you. black and cold. "Where is everyone? Can I see them? Do they know I'm awake?" When I asked that. She was just hanging there. Carlisle about killed the doctor who had been administrating your drugs and he was in the process of suing for malpractice when you went into your coma." There was a lump in my throat and I could feel my body trying to get the tears out but I was still too tired. first." Alice said and I could hear the tears in her throat starting form. What else had happened? How could one family be forced to suffer through so much? "And. "Oh. Oh. I didn't want to hear any more. For some pretty blond girl at his college. They all thought it was either your imagination or something you had made up to keep yourself out of the loony bin. So much has happened. How could Esme be dead? It was just impossible. She's dead. My ears were ringing and my vision kept going in and out of focus. Hadn't her eyes been blue before. first – well. not knowing what to do about you. She did it right after you went into a coma and the doctors said you may never wake up. and they told someone higher up. Alice's dark eyes filled with more tears that overflowed. We all thought you were possessed. almost like two pieces of coal in the middle of her face. And Carlisle told some of his friends. it was just…it was too late. She – she couldn't bear to lose a-another child and so she k-killed herself. Bella. tears shining in her dark eyes. I never wanted to do it again. God. as though she owed it to me. It kind of snowballed and eventually someone decided that you had to be removed and institutionalized for the safety of everyone around you. Esme – she hung herself. Bella. Afterwards. 
"Well.logistics from him." "And my baby?" I asked." Alice told me after a moment of silence. My thoughts were jumbled and I was trying to grab everything and put it together but the pieces of my memories didn't match with her stories. How much was real?" "If you mean Edward. I – I found her. You've been out for six months. And by the time they bothered to check to see if there was any truth to what you were saying. then. staring off into space as she tried to keep herself from crying. "That was real. You were going crazy. I wondered to myself? They were black now. Bella. So many awful. though. And they just kept drugging you."
 "What do you mean? How can it just be the two of you?" "Oh. Bella. Every bit of me felt disconnected from my body. they drugged you so much. You were always muttering about vampires and we had no clue what to do for you.. ripping through her words. Bella. If this was what waking up from a coma and learning your schizophrenic was like.

" Or maybe it was just me. making Esme go over the edge and off herself. You have no clue how happy I am. Rosalie. Rosalie and Emmett got into a car crash. I was the one who had seen nothing more than a mirage writing on the wall in blood and had freaked. And Charlie – oh. she hurried out of the room as though she couldn't get away from me faster.right after I told him that I wouldn't be joining him in Seattle for school this year because of everything. alone. "Listen. We'll be right back. It's as though we're cursed. Jasper had dumped Alice because she refused to go to college because I was in a coma and had caused the death of her mother and brother. I could tell that she knew. "I'm not allowed to undo the restraints but Carlisle probably will be able to when he comes in here. . I wanted to cry but the tears wouldn't come. the night that Edward was killed. She knew that everything that fault. Charlie. Emmett. He died as well. I'm starting to think we are. It was a voice that sounded very oddly like mine and was connected to a face that looked exactly like mine as well. your dead got shot on the job. I just stared ahead. The last few months have just been so hard. I'm going to go get Carlisle now. Bella. Bella. raising my bed to a sitting position so that I could actually see. Could it be that they were worrying for me. Then. Then. I was the one that had run out into the woods. She was back. forcing Edward to come after me and die. I really am happy you're awake." She gave me a hug. okay? And. Esme. sorry about the waterworks. Edward. I was the one that had become schizophrenic and fallen into a coma. distracting them. They both died instantly. And I was sure I had something to do with Charlie and Emmett and Rosalie's deaths. I was the one that had started this. costing their lives? It was my fault and there was no way around that. They were all gone." a voice said from the end my bed. "I can't believe you actually bought all that crap she just told you. my baby. pressing her cold body up against. and that had caused Charlie to get shot and Emmett to wreck the car." Alice said.

but for the person whose life I share to say it – well. her voice was mine." I shut my eyes closed tight. I'll be in control. I'm real. is that it? I'm a hallucination. This would all go away if I just pretended she wasn't there for a little longer. that's just too much for my little heart to bear. Am I right?" 
"You. I looked pretty much like how my brain had imagined me to look. Then again. red irises full of bloodlust. . Bella. I probably still looked like a holocaust survivor. Once Carlisle was in here. She was amused. he'd give me some meds and I'd no longer have to deal with these visions and hallucinations. "I'm hurt. whispering in your ear." I muttered." I hissed through my teeth." 
"Go away.Immortal: Chapter 24 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 24 "You're not real. She wasn't real. I just had to ignore for a little longer. Oh. This is not happening!" "Well. showing off her gleaming fangs. I can't believe you bought into that schizophrenic crap so easily. It's one thing for everyone else to say I'm not real. "What if I don't want to?" "GO AWAY!" "You think you can control me because I'm not real. I'm very much you and you're very much me.' I'm very much real. Real. In a way. being schizophrenic was confusing. I could still feel what should have been bruises on my lips from my supposed make-out session with my dead husband. and you can make me go away because I don't exist outside of your thoughts. breathing her hot breath into my face. "Don't be that way. as though I was hearing a recording of my voice. I've always been with you." she said. Are. She was smiling. And in just a few hours. It took me to remember that I hadn't really seen myself since July since the whole expedition in the hotel room with Edward never actually happened but I still assumed that having been in a coma for over six months. She was quite real for a hallucination. "You're not real. made up by the subconscious part of your brain. but it sounded so different. so was everything else I had hallucinated." My eyes shot open and I found myself staring into two very bright. She was so gorgeous that it hurt to look at her. Not flesh and blood like you are. god. trying to ignore her. "Come on. I was schizophrenic and none of this was real. The springs to the bed creaked and I could feel her breath on my face as she moved closer towards me. I thought it would take a lot more than that to convince you." "Am I not?" she asked me. She wasn't real. I'm part of you. been there by your side. but part of you. Not. It made my head pound even harder. maybe I don't exist outside of you but that doesn't make me 'unreal.

"Well. I might be able to save him though. by any stretch of possibility. there was also this nagging feeling in my stomach that if this was. Besides. Not just the strapped part but the crazy as well. Bullshit. My baby. "Now. a laugh bubbling up in my throat. "That's right. And. torturing you as well with all the visions and dreams and whatnot. they're planning on changing. hallucination or not." I repeated. I was schizophrenic! I mean. Even though she said that basically everyone I cared about and loved were dead almost at my hands." The tears were filling my eyes and. see. There's no way to stop it. yeah. my darling Mina." That's when it sunk in. she knew she was getting to me." I growled."What – what do you mean?" I asked." I shut my eyes again." she said. It was kind of uncomfortable to laugh seeing as how I was still tied down to the gurney and my throat was still dry but I couldn't help it. Same with Emmett and Rosalie. her smile growing wider. "Pardon me?" she asked. If you had just been cooperative in the first place. The vampies killed her when she wouldn't join them willingly." she said. I reckon. what else would you expect from you the soulless vampire in you? "So. they wouldn't have killed everyone you care about. "See. "It's all your fault. Which I was. real. "Being the vampire subconscious that everyone has hidden in them. Of course. the whole schizophrenic thing was just another way to torture you for all the difficulty you've been." 
"Bullshit. It's just been too much fun to see you squirm even more. Charlie didn't have to die. I had to know what she was talking about. that's easier said than done when you're strapped down to a hospital bed like a crazy person. my baby was still alive! Would a mirage that I made up lie to me? I was sure she was telling the truth. more or less. feigning surprise." she said. "What was that?" "You heard me. No had to die. They just killed him as a sport. "In a few hours it won't matter anyway. "Esme didn't really commit suicide. I could feel it like a fist in my gut. determined to ignore but she prattled one. was still alive! I had to get out of here and find her. you're not really schizophrenic. if I pretend to really wuv him that much. how much more ridiculous could this get? Vampire subconscious? Um…no way! This was fake! "Believe what you want but it's true. The . smiling snidely. but I couldn't help it. What else is there to tell you? Oh." She scoffed that last phrase." she told me. I'll admit I haven't been much help with that. you're husband and kid are still alive though Edward probably doesn't have much longer after all the trouble he's been. I get to take over when you're changed and lose your soul. I didn't want to talk to her – a conversation with my imagination was totally useless – yet I wanted to know what my brain had cooked up.

Velcro restraints crinkled loudly every time I shifted my wrist. She still didn't notice. My head was pounding more than before. It's better than sex. my movement had pushed the bed off balance. Had he not. I knew it wouldn't do anything. And the blood. she was furious. my legs buckling under me." she told. Bella. Why don't you want this? You'd get to be beautiful. she had even admitted that she didn't exist to anyone but me. I was free! Sadly. "I really don't. My head bounced against the linoleum tiles. She didn't seem to notice what I was doing. You were just lucky that your darling Eddie choose that moment to save you. Her fangs were out and her eyes were so red that they looked as though they'd been soaked in blood. A pitiful week. Obviously. My hallucination. Besides. standing up from the bed and admiring herself in the reflection of a window. If I was schizo. My legs and left arm were still strapped down my joints snapped and twisted painfully as my body tried unsuccessfully to roll away from the bed. just maybe I'd be able to get free. they took you out of that coma and into that room. You broke faster than they could have hoped for. her screaming made my headache worse and I wanted her to shut up. My hands felt nearly skeletal. "Once they'd delivered your baby. though I don't know why you would want that. you would be – well. the scream wasn't exactly real. the vampires who were so keen to have me on their side weren't concerned enough about my safety to strap me onto a more stable gurney. she was quite oblivious to my thoughts. When I came to. my wrists were definitely a whole heck of a lot skinnier than they were the last time I had seen them. I tugged my wrist out of it. each time giving me a little more wiggle room. you'd be me by this point. I would be able to get free. I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep forever but I forced myself to undo the restraints I was hanging awkwardly from. Buckets and buckets of blood. The bed flipped over." The restraints were getting loser. And you'd have the blood you want. I'd always had somewhat of a pathological fear of the rough side of Velcro. Still. You could really even choose to stay with Edward for all of eternity. vampire subconscious. You only lasted a week. of course – until you went into labor. I could hear the Velcro cuffs snapping apart and back together. I stood up. He's a rather dull creature. I had a feeling that if I struggled just right. Though she was part of me and had supposedly lived in my brain for years and years. Edward wasn't as sneaky as he thought he was. The rough side scratched painfully against my skin. I mean. we're supposed to be the same person but we're not. "They kept you in a drug induced coma for six months – drugs that were safe for the baby. Of course. live forever. I hear. Still. pulling me with it. You were squealing like a pig before you even had a real reason. Maybe. the pain splitting it straight down the middle as though I had a concussion – which was very possible with how hard I'd just banged my head. we found you quick enough. whatever the hell she was. Oh. continued to prattle on as I wriggled my wrists. "I don't get you." she said. the blood. Metal rods clattered against the ground loudly and I blacked out for a few seconds. . If she was real like she claimed to be. My "vampire subconscious" started to scream a blood curdling scream as if it would help." I blanched at her words but kept working the Velcro until it was finally lose enough.

My legs nearly dropped out from under me as I took the few steps towards her. The room swam and my brain threatened to shut down. I managed to make myself move. When I stood in front of her, she stopped screaming. Her eyes were exactly level with mine, her and I being the same height and all. She wasn't expecting it. She was shocked when I hauled back and slugged her with all I had. And let's just say I didn't have a lot. Still, cartilage crunched under my fist, probably hurting my hand as much as it hurt her nose. Hallucination or not, she was very real to me. Her eyes glowed brighter as blood streamed into her mouth. "You bitch!" she screeched. "I thought you loved blood," I scoffed. And then I was running. Running sloppily albeit on my unused, aching limbs but still running. She followed me, treading on my heels, continuing to scream blood murder. My feet were unsteady and I was waddling like a penguin more than running. To make things worse, I was dressed in one of those flattering hospital gowns. Thankfully, the only person behind me was a figment of my imagination so it didn't really matter that my whole backside was uncovered for the world to see. Beautiful, right? Still, running was even more awkward in the flimsy cloth. The cold draft in the halls made my flimsy limbs even more fatigued and I was sluggishly moving around corners, my escape attempt falling quite flat. Hadn't I just been asleep for six months? Shouldn't I have had more energy? "What are you planning on doing, Bella?" she whispered in my ear, practically gliding with little difficulty behind me. "You're weak. You can't get away. Even if you could, what's the plan? They'll just find you again and make your life even worse. Is that what you want? There's no place to hide, nowhere you can go." I stopped, sinking down to the ground as my shaking limbs gave out. She was right. There was nowhere to go, nowhere they wouldn't find me. They had already made my life a living hell. Could I take more of that? Was there anything left for them to take? I think I knew it was coming to this from the first bloody dream I had. And I finally made the only decision there was left. They would never kill me so I was going to have to finish it for them.

Immortal: Chapter 25
by ~bellacullen124

Chapter 25 She realized it right away. I guess I was wrong about her not being able to read my mind. She knew what I was thinking. Or maybe she couldn't read my mind. Maybe she just knew from the way the fevered, desperate light died from my eyes and my whole body deflated as I resigned to choose death over a fate that was worse. Either way, she knew and it kind of pissed her off. "No! No! NO!" she screeched, her voice reverberating off the walls and thrumming inside my body like the bass at a concert. "I won't let you! You can't! I won't allow you to destroy us both!" Trust me when I say I wasn't too ecstatic about dying either but I really didn't have another choice. Besides, it was kind of a plus knowing that I would kill her in the process as well. "What are you going to do about it?" I snapped. "You've driven me crazy for the last year. Not only did I have to deal with crazy vampires who wanted nothing more than my blood, but you convinced me I was schizo. I'll happily die if it means getting rid of you." "No, this isn't fair!" she screamed. "You can't do this!" "Life's not fair," I told her, feeling my decision grow inside me and I knew I had chosen the right thing. If they changed me into a vampire, that would mean that my body was hers to control. I was sure she'd terrorize the world and make things even less fair for everyone else. "And karma's a bitch." I was running again, my feet finding their pace quickly. My whole body was exuberant at the thought that all this would soon be over. I wouldn't have to worry about vampires or undead husbands or schizophrenia anymore. It would just be over. What happened after life, I wasn't sure. I didn't care. I'd been living through hell for the past year. Nothing could be worse. And I was sure it would just be over. Just like that. Nothing else. Just over. Then she grabbed my arm and jerked me to a stop. I spun to find her glowering at me, her face ruddy with anger and the blood flooding her eyes. She no longer looked beautiful, only evil. "Look," she hissed. When I refused to turn my head, she grabbed it for me and forced me to look to the left like she had told me. "Look right there! That's your baby. That's your baby right there! Do you really want to be one of those mothers that leaves their baby?" I kept my eyes shut, refusing to look at her just yet. I couldn't handle it right then. All the relief was gone as I realized I had a kid, a kid that I was going to be abandoning by killing myself. "You don't care about her," I said, spitting the words from between my clenched teeth. "You

only want a chance to live, which you won't be able to do if I'm dead." "And you won't die because you'd rather your child have some parent – even me – than no parent at all." "Let go of me," I hissed, keeping my eyes shut tight. "Let go of me!" She started to say something else but her words were drowned out by the roaring alarms that started to scream as my words ended. Her grip on my arm disappeared and when I opened my eyes, she was gone. Instead, I found myself staring at the most beautiful baby I'd ever seen. Her tuffs of bronze hair were standing on end and her bright green eyes blinked at me. This was my baby, my child. My resolve almost broke as I thought about what she would do without a mother, how she would grow up if she never knew me. But the decision had already been made and I'd always been way too stubborn to go back on a decision. I flew out the door to my right. A wall of sleet hit my face, drenching me to the bone. My feet slipped through mud as ran, the sound of sirens fading behind me. I made it to the shelter of the trees and stopped. I hugged my arms to myself and shivered. I might as well have been naked for all the help my hospital gown was giving me. My teeth chattered loudly. For the moment, though, I was home free. I could still slightly hear the alarms blaring but no one was coming after me with their fangs out. For now, I could breathe and figure out how I was going to…off myself. I really had no clue how one even went about killing themselves. Even back when I had been depressed and lonely and emo, I had never been one to contemplate suicide. I mean, sure, I knew how the really depressed people at my high school had done it. Carbon monoxide poisoning, overdosing, hanging themselves. None of those seemed quick enough, though. I didn't want to sit in a car for an hour and wait for death. I didn't even have a car to use. Overdosing was too sketchy and easily reversed. And I didn't exactly know how to make a noose so I'd probably end up botching hanging myself as well. Then it hit me and painfully so. I knew how I was going to kill myself and it scared me. As much as I knew dying was the only way to escape fate, I wasn't looking forward to it. In fact, I was outright, pee-my-pants terrified. There had been this one girl last year who had disappeared for a week. No one had been able to find her. Eventually, they sent out search teams to look through the surrounding woods. My dad had been in charge of one of the teams and he had found her at the bottom of a cliff, a suicide note clutched in her hands. There were a lot of cliffs around the forks area and she had just gone and thrown herself off of one. It was quick, easy, and simple. And, because I just had some of the best luck in the world, I knew that there was cliff a few hundred feet away from the hospital. I started heading in that direction when I heard the growls. Leaves rustled all around me and the snarling grew louder. I bolted even though I knew there was no way I could outrun them. Even a few hundred feet would be too far. A blur darted out of the trees on my left, slamming

of the dying. The scream escaped from my lips and a chorus of unearthly hissing broke out from the cliff above me. This had to be death. This had to be it. I didn't feel that way as I fell. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't breathe. My brain was starting to shut down. he was so surprised that he loosened his grip on me just long enough for me to squirm out from under him. I was still stuck in my broken body. They had lost and they knew. breaking several of my knuckles as well. But I wasn't dead. I felt my arm snap under the force and I cried out. in my mouth. Screams filled the air.into me and pinning me against a tree. Everything in my body shattered in the one instantaneous moment that I hit the ground. I slugged the vampire with my free arm. . the end. I was freefalling through the air. I could only hope that I died the second I hit the ground. Chanting started in some language that I couldn't place. I felt my lungs pop and my brain rattled violently against my skull. everywhere. the pain searing and making me feel like I was on fire. couldn't see. The pain was unbearable. of anger. And before I knew it. As much as I had told myself that this was the right decision. I needed to die! The end needed to come! God dammit! Why wouldn't I just die? The air smelled heavily with blood. couldn't think. I wheezed a breath as I attempted to scream out in pain but the air wouldn't stay in my chest. Still. death. I could see the cliff now as fangs hovered over my neck. Screams of defeat. There was blood in my eyes.

trying to break out of the . staring into the endless pits of my black eyes. I was glad I wasn't human anymore. of need. it landed against the white marble counters. death was red. I smiled menacingly at her but her lips didn't follow my own. savoring the blood that had flowed into my mouth. Hatred seared her face. of hunger. had an aura of danger hovering around her that drew you in. We had all of time at our fingertips. we could afford to be patient. Why couldn't Edward seem to get that we were better this way? We hadn't been anything back then except for two children in love. Now. we were revered and feared. And. As terrifying as I looked. And because of his annoying habits. I blinked my eyes. my hunger momentarily staunched. The human trapped in my reflection. hidden in the way that my jaw still curved and the shape of my nose. Bloodlust. Until then. At first when I had become this. my teeth slicing through the skin easily. I watched in the mirror as blood ran into my mouth and down my chin. Drip. she would pound against the inside of the mirror. trying to make the red flow black into them. I was the type of girl that every chick was jealous of even though they had no clue what being me meant. Damn Edward and his unending passion to try to be human as much as he could. contempt for what her body had become. Besides. drip. My eyes faded back to black. My soul was no longer me. best of all. nothing to dread. clumsy. drip. of pain. She was interesting. Now. The hunger roared suddenly inside of me and my eyes burned red. The soulless beast I had become was so much more than I had been when I was a pathetic. Did he really think it was wise to risk our daughter's life like this when it could be so easily avoided by deciding to act like a vampire for once? Despite the fact that I had lost my soul. That when we showed ourselves for what we were. Red was also a color of anger.Immortal: Chapter 26 by ~bellacullen124 Chapter 26 The girl in the mirror looked like me but she was someone else. Passion was red. I sighed. My chocolate brown hair clashing against my transparently pale skin clashing against my bloodied eyes. That was when eyes changed color. terrifying was what I aimed for these days. She wasn't who I had been. Some day we would rule the world. My soul was trapped on earth while my body was dead. There was nothing to rush. He was still asleep in our bedroom. She was gorgeous and confident and sexy and. the only source of blood around being the tiny sleeping baby in the next room. My reflection stared back at me. it was a dazzling effect. I savored the word carefully on my tongue. we were important. it could be a while until we got to go hunting. ugly human. We had defeated death. love was read. we all found it pointless. her eyes hard. not knowing that they'd have to give everything to spend time with me. since we didn't need it. The bright red of lust against the pure white innocence. I hadn't been for months. Except Edward. I still cared that much about my daughter. someone anyone would give anything to spend even a minute with. I bit down hard on my top lip. We could sleep but we didn't need to. I wasn't human.

that is. I whispered to her. won't that be great. casting on last gloating look at my reflection. you'll have been changed as well. "My little Mina. Mina. Our relationship wasn't love anymore but lust. full of life and soul. But she had my heart-shaped face. You're too young now but by then. She was laying on her back right now. I hated him now. so above snoring like a human. That why we were immortal. I shook my head with disgrace. It wasn't about losing your soul. Oh. Humans will be nothing but livestock instead of thinking they're the top of the food chain and all they'll know is fear. Someday. That's what it was about. more out loyalty for the life we had before we were changed. he'd never fully drained anyone. no. Old. Losing my soul had not kept me from loving her. he still loved me. I was a different person than I was when I was a human. You're such a good girl. my overly full lips. for me. Beside Edward's bed. He kept up human traditions and it was getting annoying. I had dragged this out much to long. I can't wait for that day. This was me now and she was trapped and helpless. we'll be the ones running the world. It was time to finish this. Underneath those closed eyelids of her were Edward's green eyes as well. you would slowly waste away into an uncontrollable monster. Now. the look in her eyes telling me exactly what she thought of me. And by then. we'll be the same. 
Our relationship wasn't about love anymore. Blood was what held everything about a person. Sadly. so we could put off Hell for as long as we were crafty enough to stay undead. It was mind boggling sometimes. But. Warm and flowing. With Edward. I scowled. I walked out the bathroom. I leaned over the crib and pushed it off her face. At least. my tiny. The burning in the back of my throat was starting again. She was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Being a vampire changed all the rules about love and I simply didn't love him anymore. I needed to get some human blood. Six months old and the prettiest thing ever. Mina. He didn't need theirs because he still somewhat had his. We were monsters. her desperation had faded and she just stared at me. In all truth. We replaced our own soul with tiny pieces of human soul. Our reflections showed who we had been. being a vampire. the type of person who wouldn't – couldn't – love someone like Edward. powered by nothing but the bloodlust you had fought so hard to control. We'll be great. really. If you didn't let go of it. it also made the need for satisfaction even more potent. That was what kept us alive. Even though I was a monster he should have hated. sloping nose. Someday you'll be one of us as well. I knew my own blood wouldn't hold me for long. but letting go of it. You'll join us. our old selves lingering as nothing more than that. I knew that he couldn't stop loving me. Vampires were regal beings. her curly hair a rusty color. She had screamed at me silently and constantly. He drank only when he was past the point of starvation and even then. It fell over her angelic face.hell she was locked in. though we all knew it wouldn't be enough to save us from Hell on judgment day. Demon. My hand still in her hair. That's what we wanted to be. My husband was sprawled out on the bed. gone. their soul. He didn't take their soul. monster. Edward just couldn't let go of his soul quite yet. His bronze hair was a mess and he let out a low snore. tracing the lines of beauty she would have once she grew out of her baby fat." . our little baby slept in her crib. but Edward didn't seem to get that.

But he couldn't do it. Edward!" I growled. But then the fire burned up inside of me. I let it cover my lips with blood and felt my insides boil at the taste of blood. his eyes on fire. crushing me to him. "It is what it is. You can't not want it. "You need it. I knew he couldn't do it. The bed did have it's moments of usefulness. It was all lust and passion these days. Edward was on my lips in a second. I had learned that quickly. Needing more. 
This was the best kind of kiss." That was enough to send him to the other side of the room. "You won't hurt me. I ran my skin along the edge of the razor-sharp fang. "You want it. It's what we are and you ." I taunted. his lips brushing against my neck. That's what we our now. I traced the cut with my tongue. I wanted to. "I told you that you wanted it. his voice lashing out. "Talking to the baby again?" Edward asked. Edward. there was instinctive to cringe away from him. I needed him. 
"I don't know how the hell you've accepted it." Edward was basically salivating now." I whispered." Edward said. That was all that was left between the two of us. I brought my wrist up to my mouth. Edward's dark eyes flashed red as the blood welled out of my wrist. Sometimes. me pinned under him." I said. Bella. "But you do want it. letting the fangs slip out. The kind of kiss that was filled with not only lust.Arms wrapped around my waist and Edward's cold breath was at my ear. sealing it instantly. I slid out from under him. just like I knew he would be. He whirled on me. Bella. goddammit." I whispered against his lips. I ran my tongue around them quickly before drawing my wrist up to my mouth. The kind of kiss made for vampires. creating a crisscrossed pattern as it spread out through the alleys of my skin. At first. "I don't want your blood. His tongue licked my lips clean of blood. He was too weak. "Is there anything wrong with that?" I kissed him passionately. I know you can say one thing but it's a lie. staring at him with pursed lips." I tilted my head. See…"

I let my fangs lengthen. but bloodlust as well. though he refused to see it. Instead of giving him what he needed. though. sitting up on the bed. Edward." He tested his teeth against my neck again. "That you needed it. His arms wrapped even tighter around me. "I don't bite. We were on the bed. He ran his teeth along my collar bone. Edward left a trail of kissed down my neck. "I don't need it. wanting more than this simple touch. I turned around in his arms and molded myself against him. I couldn't stand him touching me anymore. "You don't have to worry about hurting me. but I will not become the monster they all think we have to be!" "It's not a think. hissing curses vehemently.

Bella. You can find someone else. This was what it all came down to – all of our futures. You see. I licked my lips and rest the blade in my hands against his throat. That's just the way it was. "I know you know the way to kill a vampire but do you know why?" I said. you still love me. I still would have chosen my life over her. "Even if I did still love you. I knew it was leading to this and." I pulled out the dagger. to be absolutely honest. I'll take Mina. I could see I had frozen him where he stood by telling him about the awful choice they had told me to make. You won't do this." I gritted my teeth. You're a monster. the reasons behind the legend of a stake through our hearts. And. While I had said I would die if Mina were gone. "You're still holding onto a hope that there's something left of the human I was." I lifted the dagger and tapped the way down Edward's chest until the tip of the blade rested right over his heart. They've given me a choice – you or her. I realized with a moment of remorse. "I don't know you anymore. "He's told me why. would you want me to let our . It rattled open ominously. He was going to let me kill him just so he could save his daughter."'

"And are you going stop me?" I snapped. If that's the way you want it."
 "Who are you. someone who likes being a monster. the blade cut from a diamond. too. Bella?" Edward asked." "That's where you underestimate me. I'll leave again." I said. We're selfish beings as vampires. Have you ever stopped to think how you're affecting all of us by trying to be human still? I don't love you anymore because you can't accept this! I can't force myself to pretend I still love you anymore!"
 "Well. The hilt was decorated beautiful. the gold feeling cold against my hand. deep down. There's nothing that I care about anymore except getting power and that little baby in the crib. reaching over and opening the drawer on the nightstand. "I can't let you take my baby and I can't let you get away with this. walking closer to him. as well as yours. diamond is the only thing strong enough to hurt a vampire and cutting through the heart with it is the only way to kill one. but I know I can easily get through losing you. "I don't think you can do it. It was enough to make me laugh out loud. I can't let you leave. there isn't. the only reason I didn't want to do it was because of what we had when I was human. I could tell my eyes were burning red by the way he cringed away from me. "I know you know it. You're heart's no longer beating but it's where the soul is trapped. fine. I had relished the thought of it. Bella? I think." 
He wasn't running. "So. And now I'm going to release them all. my hiss echoing through the room. I was such a stupid human for ever mourning over you but now I'm better than that. you're going to kill me. From the moment I had been changed." I said. This was the task I had been given. Well. Edward." 
"Are you sure you want to do this. someone else would have to die in his place. I was in front of Edward now. but maybe you need a recap. "See. and all the souls you've taken. Bella?" Edward said. This was it."
 "Maybe I am! Maybe I like being a monster! Maybe this is more than I could ever have imagined. and you'll never have to see me again. He was such an idiot. and if I didn't complete it. I would die if she were gone.better get used to it. It glittered in the light of the room.

I'll say one thing. sweet kiss on his lips so that he would remember me in Hell. A looked over at the mirror hanging over the fireplace. waiting to feel the remorse. Mina started to cry. Edward. He was going to die so that she could live. the pain of losing him was worse than anything imaginable. A year ago. A tear was trickling down the cheek of the girl reflected there. run the other way. Nothing but relief that I was done with him and that my daughter was safe. I leaned up on my tip-toes and planted one last. The life dimmed from his eyes immediately. a tear that didn't actually exist. You know they will!" The look that flashed through his eyes showed me I was right.daughter die? They will kill her. A tear that could only be seen in the glass of the mirror. or someone who is inhumanly beautiful or a dark stranger who shows an inexplicable interest in you. Bella. He wasn't going to fight. "Goodbye. "It's okay. take care. Don't try fighting. when I had thought he was dead. you cannot win. waiting for the pain of loss." a dark voice said from the shadows. closer than you think. I picked her out of her crib. This world is ours." An evil round of applause came from the other side of the room. The dagger sliced through his chest too easily. it's okay. there was nothing. It's a warning for anyone smart enough to heed. cooing to her and rocking up and down on the heels of my feet. But run as you may. And if you ever see someone's eyes flash red or have what could be blood crusted in the corner of their mouth. "Shh. "Very well down. I stood there for a minute. . baby." I whispered. He was dead before he hit the ground." I said. Dark times are coming for your race and you don't stand a chance. We're far from done here. We're all around you. But until the time comes that we're in charge. Now.

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