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Making Room for Evil at the Table - Seeking Both Truth & Balance
Warning - R-Rated - Graphic material included (Unsuitable for children)
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I guess it's time to explore evil, or the dark side, again, since that's what is coming up in my internal ponderings. It's interesting, too, how as I was going along nicely contemplating these things, the clear message came to write it down. This illustrates for me what I've shared before, which is that I generally take some particular pondering as far as it will go, within, before coming to the journal to continue the process and see if I am taken beyond what I could come to, silently, within. It's a blessing that most of the time that is what happens - I am taken farther, farther than I could have come to in my silent ponderings. I have decades of experience with this, and that is how it seems to work for me. Yet now, I am here to put down what I don't usually - my pre-journal ponderings. Oh well, change is the only constant. It's enjoyable, being alert and watching it happen. So, we all have a 'bad' or 'negative' side. There are some
who are so programmed to seek to be 100% pure - as our religions often teach - that they won't be able to own their dark half. Well, let all drop down into heart, then, and just consider some possibilities, some things that are so in my life. We all have a purpose, a mission of sorts, for the life we are leading. For most of us, as we are born and in the first few years all our memory of that is cordoned off. Our parents are strictly 3D folks, and they want us to lead happy lives, so they try to make us into a reflection of themselves. So the programming starts, for how else could they raise us but how they were raised, and put what improvements on that they desire from whatever unhappiness there was in their early life. So some of the programming is passed on. Are you still in heart? If you are, then you will not have slipped over into resentment or anger or pain. Heart understands that, no matter how things turned out, our parents, indeed, each of us, is doing our best, overall. Sure, the mind - year that - the mind judges where parts have gone wrong, where things could be made better, here and there. So mind thinks. We've got to drop our allegiance to mind as the best tool we've got to decode this life that we find ourselves in. It is not. There is a higher way. When seen from eyes of heart, all things change, some subtly, some grossly, but change they do. Nothing remains untouched. You can go back and read the same exact words, the same book, only now it will speak differently to you... if you can read it from heart. So, enough of that. It is off of my purpose. I'll tell you, though, it is in my best interests to see that you are tracking as closely with me as possible. Why? Otherwise, I feel you go off into this or that, and realize how I have not shared
quite well enough to help you follow along. And it hurts, at times. Thus, some of these little detours. Okay, now, before we get deeper into the dark side, I must (or I choose to) take a moment to help you really connect with heart regarding judgment. There is none of that in heart. Simply none. There is discernment, discretion, there is Wisdom, but none are judged negatively from within heart. Why not? Heck, I don't know. For one thing, when we're in heart we are much more in connection with the reality of our oneness, that we are a unified whole. Okay, enough. Back to looking at the darkness, each one's personal darkness. This needs to be embraced. Why do I say that? How can you be whole by rejecting any part of the self? Is that possible? What if that darkness has something, something vital and valuable to show you? What if there are lessons, yet unlearned, just waiting to be passed, there? This does not mean anything with regard to actions in your life. It does not mean to suddenly get cozy with your 'inner murderer,' and go out and kill a few folks to find out what that's like. Trust me, you've done that, already, in other lives. None of us are lily white. Lily white is a lie, as it relates to mankind. Only Source, only Prime Creator, only God is that, in its fullness. Thus, it is as we connect up with Source that we participate fully in that. Have you ever heard it said, "None but God is good"? For me, this is part of what it means. What we are discussing is merely looking, within. Seeing clearly is a holy art, and not easily come by. Since thought and belief create, we often see only our own creation - based on what we believe. Some call that seeing clearly. I don't. I would see what Is, that which transcends all belief. I seek Truth. How about you? Are you ready for the wild ride that
seeking Truth can bring? You've got to be multidimensional for that. Truth is not constrained to, is not bound within one dimension, one density. We are but babes in this search for Truth, since we are not used to making use of the fullness of our being, of all the densities to which we have access, for this work. Many still hold belief that they are their bodies, some that they are their minds. This landscape is not sufficient to see but the barest glimmer of the trailing garment of Truth. It is insufficiently vast. Everything is relative, right? Thus, what is vast for one is miniscule for another - especially once we open ourselves up to the wide range of live inhabiting all dimensions. Our talk on physics may seem wise to a small child, but to one of a race that has had space travel for billions of years, it's still kid-stuff. It's all relative. Now, perhaps it makes it easier, this becoming aware of all those other sorts of life living what to us is 'elsewhere,' if we first, stay in heart, and second, remind the self now and then that we're all just one. They are not better, nor necessarily even wiser than you or I. It is important to get past the stage of hero worship, of bowing down to techno expertise. Scientific knowledge doesn't bring wisdom or even integrity. Knowledge is just knowledge. It's how you use it that counts. And, as we have heard and guessed for ourselves, some of these races have gone very wide of the mark of simple ethics - of doing what is right for all concerned. So, let no one get the 'big head,' the swelled vision of the self, thinking they are righteous when compared to someone or something else. It is not so. All are one. Let me give you a truly gross example. Please forgive me for this, and do center in heart, once again, before I share it.
By now I think we have all heard of some ET races. Most have heard that some resemble reptiles - reptilians, they've been called. These have values, culture, and everything else so different from ours - or so we think - that it becomes difficult not to judge them from our perspective. It will be harder in a minute, but stick to heart like glue, if you please. You'll shortly have a test of if you're really there. Ready? Okay, as the Andromedan race has shared, through Alex Collier - but he is not the only one sharing this - some - get that, some - among this race like to eat human children. Worse than that, as if that were not bad enough, they like to get them absolutely in terror, first, for this causes the endocrine system to release chemicals that are like an elixir to these beings. Now, if you are stunned, that's okay. Hopefully, you stayed mostly empty - that is, absent judgment. These are just facts. There's no need to get holier than thou with these beings. Why not? Well, stay in heart and I'll tell you. When was the last time you may have stepped on an anthill? Did you care at all about the ants? What about the large numbers of them that you killed in your haste to get where you were going? Did you ask their pardon, even in retrospect? Did you give a thought to their great labor and effort that your foot destroyed? They eat our young. When is the last time you had a dish of lamb or of veal, which is calf? There is nothing that any race does to us that we don't do ourselves. Only we don't own that. In our race to attain lily white purity, we put blinders on and refuse to see the other side of that coin - our own darkness. Now, do stay in heart, please. There is no suffering there. For the more sensitive among you, I realize this stuff hurts. I
can relate. I won't give you any pretty platitudes, here. They won't do any good. Things just are what they are. What most don't realize is how much they limit their vision of that which is. There are things we just don't want to see. Then, when we do see them, we immediately start pointing fingers, don't we? We want it to be somebody else's fault. We don't want to own any part of this. Oh no, we are pure. Well, to hell with that, my dear friends. We, too, simply are what we are, and each and every one of us contains some measure of darkness. Without it, we couldn't manifest here. If your picture contains light and only light, then nothing can be seen. It's all blotted out in that light. It takes some darkness to give us the contrast required to be in 3D. It's not bad. It's just dark. There's a difference. Are you ready to see? What if, because of our unwillingness to face our own internal darkness, it has to appear before us, in the 'outside' of our lives? What if, until we are willing to own it, to take some responsibility, it must just keep growing and growing in its horror, its terror, its pain? What if our very refusal to own this is causing the whole world to be like it is, today, which is pretty universally dark? What if? I'm not about the 'how' of it, right now. That's not important - yet. What I'm here to share is the what - is just the basic lay of the land regarding darkness. This subject is terribly deep. I've just scratched the merest bit off of the surface. Still, it's enough to help some of you - the ones willing to see, the ones humble enough to know they don't yet know it all, don't yet have all the right answers. There is very good reason, then, as I hope you can see, for each of us to begin owning up first, that we have some darkness within, and second, to be willing to look at it. That
is all - just take a look, and then another one. Stop with the finger pointing, wanting someone or something else to be wrong, to be the source or cause of that. Just own it - just admit it exists, right there within self. That's a big step for many. It largely depends on the kind and flavor of programming you took on in your life, how you respond to this. Do have compassion for those for whom this is almost too hard, to terrible to even contemplate. How? Just remember, always, that we are one. You, yourself, are each one, every one that exists. How could it be elsewise in our ultimate oneness? So, you are that one, having that trouble, right now. You can find this inside, if you look for it. It's there. All the faults, all of the virtues you can find inside, if you look. Own your oneness. Own and accept self in your fellow man or creature. That, too, is you, my friend. Don't go lily white on me, and don't judge. You ARE that. Own it. For some, it will be helpful, as it has been for me, to own up to past lifetimes, to what you've done before. That, too, was and is you, my friend. Once we get over the judging, we can begin to see and respect our native curiosity that took us and takes us into the other guy's shoes, since we fancy this or that experience for a while. We've done it all, my friends. If you're an 'old soul' and you're aware of it, this simply makes sense. There's nothing wrong with the dark side. That's the main judgment we've got to surrender. Stay out of mind with this, for mind won't take you there. Mind, by its very nature, is judgment. Wrong tool for this job. Stay in heart. Find that place, within, where you do not judge - where you cannot where judgment, itself, simply doesn't exist. You have it, I promise. Look within.
Until we can first be willing to see, and then take a deeper look at this issue of darkness, it may be that the world will have to remain like it is - and get worse. It is our own seemingly native unwillingness to even consider these things that makes for the hard lessons we're enduring. Source will get your attention with a feather - if you are paying attention. If not, it gets progressively stronger in its messages. For mankind, it appears it's up to the two by four, and moving on to railroad tie as the instrument necessary to get our attention. Well, Source has mine. How about yours?
~~~~~~~~~ 2:23 pm, 10-08 2nd - Bankers, Wall St., & Why I Journal Accepting Our Oneness
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