'Where I'm From' by Stephanie Pacheco
'Where I'm From' by Stephanie Pacheco
the train
was the hood kids’ magic vessel
into wonderland.
we made steel poles our enchanted forests,
wished upon the stars of its lights,
and tapped our feet
to the sound
of the underground roar –
we say
the most “Bronx” trip you could attend
was the Bronx zoo
was the one that was cheapest for the school budget
was the one all of our mamís could afford
was the other place where caged beings live,
say
the mark of nativity
is watching other things in capture
is being a witness to the cage
is celebrating that at least
we voyage together
say
we dream of home too.
i say
i began to count the pigeons,
how they became holy
in my chest too –
you black winged angel,
you remind us all of flight.
i mean
we dance to anything.
the “no music!” clapping beat
applies to all situations
it fills the void
of disremembering;
i say
“lite feet!”
and we stomp hard.
and we don’t stay still.
i say underfunded
i say we hungry
i say i am song
i say concrete palace
i say my mother built this
i say our people are buried here
so it must be ours
i say we hold these bodies
like the ground does,
and i mean
i’m gonna make it home mama
i mean this country can’t pick me from its teeth
i mean this city won’t swallow me
i mean gentrifiers better make room for us
i mean we gon’ eat
before we go
i mean we coming
i mean we here
i mean if these city lights are my stars
then i’m not too far from them at all,
i mean if the pigeons can fly
then i can too,
i say
we Black
and Brown
and poor
and trans
and queer
we’re eternal
we build
so we burn,
it is cultural practice
to refuse
to die.