This action might not be possible to undo. Are you sure you want to continue?
Through challenge and adversity I HAVE ACHIEVED CLARITY AND INSIGHT INTO THE DYNAMICS OF PURPOSE. I WILL SHARE WITH YOU MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCES AND DISPLAY TECHNIQUES AND TOOLS THAT ALLOWED ME REALIZATION OF MY PURPOSE. Purpose (n) intention, meaning, aim ambition, animus, aspiration, big idea, bourn, calculation, design, desire, destination. Determination, direction, dream, drift, end, expectation, function, goal, hope, idea, intendment, intent, mecca, mission, object, objective, plan, point, premeditation, principle, project, proposal, proposition, prospect, reason, resolve, scheme, scope, target, ulterior motive, view, whatfor, Where ones headed, whole idea, why and wherefore, whyfor, will, wish. Purpose (n2) persistence, resolve, conﬁdence, constancy, faith, ﬁrmness, resolution, single mindedness, steadfastness, tenacity. Purpose (n3) use Advantage, avail beneﬁt, duty, effect, function, gain, goal, good, mark, mission, object, objective, outcome, proﬁt, result, return, target, utility. Purpose (v) intend, set sights on aim, aspire, bid for, commit, conclude, consider, contemplate, decide. design, determine, have a mind to, have in view, intend, make up ones mind, mean, meditate, mind, plan, ponder, propose, pursue, resolve, think to, work for, work toward. Purposeful (adj)
Mission statement: My mission today is to begin writing the book I have tentatively titled "Purposeful Living". This work is being written to inspire, uplift and encourage myself and others. Writing about my experiences of being of purpose offers unique examples and faithbased victories over obstacles, challenges and adversities. My gift of writing effectively and inspirationally allows me to offer this book as a tool for healing and reﬂection. I'm faithful that through me will come the will of God as envisioned in the very initiation of this endeavor. This effort will be the foundation upon which many other books will follow. The need for me to express these insights are mirrored in the needs of others. So I ask that all who need this mission realized pray and add their inspiration and encouragement to the universal consciousness in that it will be fulﬁlled, as is the law. My thoughts are of accomplishment and manifestation of this out-reach and sharing. Let it ﬁnd pleasure with God, as I understand God to be. Let it ﬁnd respite in the hearts
of all who seek healing and empowerment. It is through my faith and love for God and my purpose that I realize this journey of self-realization and ultimately and purposefully service to God's creation. It is to this end I ﬁnd peace.
Kevin W. Thomas 2
I intend to bring examples of courage, initiative and strategies to enable us to begin, continue or plan on living purposefully. First and foremost I ask the ancestors and God to expand my territory, mind and vision so that I may manifest God's will. I have experienced crisis, incarceration, dysfunctionalism, addiction, homelessness, helplessness and poverty. I could add to this list, but I believe you can discern my history as being challenging and life afﬁrming. Some may say that I am poor, yes; I was poor, but only in terms of possessions, worldly acquisitions, and exotic foods. Yet I was a child of great vision, faith and purpose even then at the age of ten years old. My purpose was being exposed at that point of my life in the disguise of adversity, challenge and obstacles. The neighborhood bullies challenged me, but I had a purpose and it was not to be wasted on ﬁsticuffs without a deﬁnite contribution arising. But I did gain negotiation skills and oralise communication strategies. Actually my humor allowed me safe passage on several occasions and when that failed to develop, my swift narrow frame could exit post haste. I got to be known as one who could avoid conﬂict through whatever means necessary and when no other outlet existed would then not only ﬁght but would thereafter seek out retribution, at least mentally. I managed to regain much of my initial motivation to follow grandma's vision for me by staying close to her as she sat in the kitchen near the stove: me and her, and lady our dog. At this time I was learning how to maintain purpose in the face of poor role models, drugs, crime and dysfunctionalism rampant within my circle. Without grandmother and our God we would have quit a long time ago. I know that she would want me to talk to you about this life of purpose because it was her vision that I have the best God has. When we look to our ancestors we must recognize their ability to continue to guide us as we live our purpose and manifest our mission. Let my love for God, grandma and all that God created enliven you with desire and resolution to stand up and speak your truths, this is my purpose.
Purposeful living means accepting the realities we face and deciding to do something to challenge it. Whether it is by choice or necessity, you must be willing to address the challenge before it consumes you or demoralizes you. This will kill your motivation and possibly lead to further procrastination and reﬂection. First we must address the speciﬁcs of the issue then the external impediments, if any.
The internal issues are within our control so they need not be focused on until we eliminate the peripheral issues. The most effective way to get on purpose is to reﬂect on what you want to get from this effort. Whether it is improved relations with, spouse, family members, or superiors at work. Then we can place the most important issues where they belong. After prioritizing, we can ask when do we want to do the work: Now? Soon? Don't know? Most important after prioritizing the work is determining if you're ready to do the work. Once we decide yes I am ready, the work can begin. First step to realizing the results envisioned. 1) Writing a mission statement. ● Clarity. ● Speciﬁcs. ● Afﬁrming language. ● Seeing it to completion. 2) Reading the mission statement daily, morning/noon/night ● A. Meditating on its words and essence. ● B. Sharing it with others so that it can be maximized. ● C. Having faith in the power of your written thoughts. Now we have outlined a basic approach to resolution and clarity---I have found this to be advantageous and helpful. It's a M.AP. of sorts, i.e. a Master Action Plan. With a map there is less chance of being sidetracked or derailed. And if obstacles do arise, you can move through them with conﬁdence knowing that your purpose is crystallized and speciﬁc. My failures have often been the result of inadequate planning and lack of clarity as to what outcome I most desired. This form of riding the fence has prevented most of us from realizing our purpose and mission, if any. How can I begin to tell you the great benefit I derived from using mission plans? First my mission plan for this book is what crystallized the direction and discipline I would need to start and finish this effort. I set a one-page-a-day schedule and I followed it for a year. That produced this effort you hold in your hand and faithfully in your heart. My mission statement gave me the M.A.P. to go forward. All the thinking about it, talking about it, did not get me there; it contributed to the ﬁnal decision but it was the mission statement which produced action. So take my suggestion and prepare your mission statement now. Let's give this effort at least two minutes of thought and five minutes of writing: seven minutes total towards ensuring success in all your future endeavors. It's that powerful and dynamic. Write me and let me know how motivated and inspired you feel after writing your ﬁrst mission statement. I believe that my perspective of this has reached you and for now I will move on to the next tool for realizing your goals. Being disciplined is difﬁcult for many but gthe best way to develop this trait is through establishing a small issue and focus on change.
Your purpose will meld with others in harmony and all that you are lacking you will receive. Reﬂect constantly on your passion or interests. once we are ready to do it. ● The Law of Cause and Effect. The opportunity of your lifetime is awaiting your approval. because within you are the keys to your success and the answers to all your questions and curiosities. I am going to give many of my challenges. I enclosed in the next page my mission statement and a copy of the letter I sent to this lovely child of God. I'm sure she would appreciate it and treasure the efforts expressed on her behalf. Addressing . But in my experience this perspective has ruined many potential opportunities for great achievement. uplift and encourage through my written and oral communication skills. I am anxious to experience your input and purpose in the universe of dreams. victories and defeats as examples for overcoming crisis and failure. There can be subtle messages in all things. Oftentimes the pain is viewed as devastating and beyond repair or retribution. Use them to your advantage or be at a disadvantage at every turn. These laws are the basics for success and conﬁdence. which prevented her from writing using a computer. Be ever aware. Please give your prayers and love for the recovery of this spirit. but her spirit lives within me and I partly write this for her. ● The Law of Compensation. Be ever vigilant in your pursuit of knowledge and wisdom. ● The Law of Correspondence. ● The Law of Attraction. The footprint parable ﬁts this experience to a tee. It's said that we can do whatever we want to do. Through a discipline of reading daily literature which is consistent with your purpose and ambitions. though she could not see the good in this perceived act of God. The laws of the universe work with your consent or without.My purpose in writing this book is to give you the reader insight into my interpretation of purposeful living. As of this day I have not heard from her. Someone once asked me to write something about how I overcame the aforementioned dualities of life. Constantly afﬁrm yourself through constructive purposeful reading. She also experienced other challenges and tests that I encouraged her to view as a blessing being revealed. I believe in every failure rests a seed of knowledge and insight. I continued to write and she became an intricate aspect of my developing a conﬁdence in my ability to inspire. I responded by sending them a letter and a mission statement describing my life's purpose at this time. obstacles. ideals and ambition. Moving with faith during these times is essential. We began a correspondence and shortly thereafter she had a stroke. She is an author of self-help books and her book inspired me and encouraged me to reach out and express my need to communicate if possible.
wisdom and insight. She realized what she wanted and is happy and okay with her decisions. Therefore. . producing the results desired. stretching. We became interdependent as a result of mom's seeking her dreams. goal aspiration or ambition and you will recognize one unifying thread: they will all initiate in the mind and they are realized or defeated in the mind. detailing sets/weights and reps for all ability levels. which ﬂourishes with deep breathing exercises. Also when you have a father who does not love you. Reiterating how relevant faith and desire is to this effort. you could look at every obstacle.the physical needs of the body. It in fact increased the closeness my sisters and I shared. I remember when my mother decided to move away from the abusive relationship she was in. it can also catapult you to realizing your purpose. It's never the actual information. My mother often reminded me that I am a loving reminder of the beauty in this world. I share a very profound loving relationship with my mother and I know it is because of her strong example and her insistence upon realizing her purpose. exercise. I learned to cook from watching her on holidays prepare the family dinners. meditation and providing the body with healthy food and fresh water. Thomas. reader and writer because of the supportive purposeful example of my mother. abilities &talents. and one in which her children were also experiencing pain from. There will also be a resistance program. As you read my thoughts and inspirations please understand this life of purpose is presently manifesting in me. I believed her then and I believe it now. I am a seeker of knowledge. When I look back to my childhood it is with fond memories of strong loving purposeful women who nurtured me and supported me in my dreams and in my search for my purpose. When she did this it began a journey that would not only empower her but also give me my example of purpose in the face of great odds. lets recognize the ally and strategic need for uniﬁcation of mind body and spirit. My experience has been fruitful and life afﬁrming. Also breathing deeply will nourish the body and particularly the brain. it's the action in which this information becomes manifest. Nothing or no one will prevent God's will from being realized in the presence of Kevin W. And to that end I endeavor. The purpose continues. Later I will talk about exercise programs and stretching regimens for those who would like to begin this all-important aspect of purposeful living. I am equipped to achieve my purpose and I am aware of my gifts. We had love and we were never without assurance that we can achieve our dreams. I am a capable speller. When you have the love of your mother you have an ally that can catapult you beyond what seems possible. I've lived a life of self-realization.
it is possible in the universal mind. the law of attraction. now expect the idea to come. The challenges continue unabated and I would not have it any other way. There is no greater joy than to see your purpose realized after a continuous testing period. It is the law. In fact living independently is a worthy option to explore. Television must be monitored and judged based on the value it attributes towards accomplishing your goals. When you ﬁnish reading this book. Not my mind. The journey continues with no end in sight.This balance guarantees success in all endeavors. Set your goals today. The issues of life--. attach passion and emotion to it. Do not be their joy. Your mind awaits you. I thought I wanted to be with . I can realize it in real time and move them from virtual to reality. ﬁrst envision the desire. Loving without the paper is my ideal and living on purpose means not sharing the bed or. your mind. It is what many would like to see happen in your life because they have no vision of success for themselves. I have often thought about getting married. If it is possible to you in your mind. as I mentioned earlier. sometimes forever. whenever you are ready. Is television part of the solution to your challenge? Doubtful. Specify a time for its actualization. To me it means loving and supporting one another's mission without smothering their creative inspirations or their need to be alone as they negotiate their way on their journey. Lets prepare for activation. and become intimate with its essence. You either grow from these periods of doubt and fear or you witness your vision fading until it is gone. Be all you want. initiate and realize. you can vividly live your dreams and turns the seed of failure into fruits of success. give them reason to ponder their very existence. Purpose for me is being all that I am without regret or explanation. Are you ready for success? Can you see yourself in possession of the desires of your mind? I cannot only see them. The ﬁnancial drain was inconsistent with the vision I have for my expression of love.do not let the issues of life deter you from your purpose. when that greatness is individualized in the mind. Knowing that what I feel is real and that it offers me the best opportunity to manifest my inner voice and share it with others without hesitating or judgment. We are all capable of greatness. only to realize that my purpose for getting married had very little to do with the process of the ceremony. the bathroom. you can. My success is in bringing my experience with challenge and adversity and showing you through my words that no matter the failure you cannot only overcome. Come with me and embrace your dreams.
Give yourself an advantage and prepare yourself to be fulﬁlled. Through my story you can travel to all of these places and not have to physically go. or not shower for two or three days while brainstorming in your home or apartment. These choices allowed me to travel through several youth intervention centers. I no longer need drugs or surgeries to be all right with who I am because I know I am of greatness and my mission is to bring this hope. Maintaining your focus during crisis is not only possible but it is the traits of realized individuals. It is not their mission it is yours. There are many examples of purpose in my story and experience. actually I am inspired constantly by its victories and lessons. crisis centers. there is no room for someone else in your life when you are on purpose.a woman 24/7. Please read them with a forgiving heart and willingness to understand and learn. because you will have fewer challenges to resolve. Cry while watching a value. pain and purpose. unnecessary surgeries. Some upon reading this page may decide that they would prefer to be free to do their intuitive callings. men should do these things as well. Yes. you can then begin to talk aloud while thinking. state. only to ﬁnd out. When you are living alone or with someone who is conscious of your mission and gives you all the space you require and then 100 yards more. drug addiction and hopelessness. walk around naked. You are only accountable to yourself. Ultimately I resolved to use this journey of challenge to help others and to give my journey true purpose. psychiatrists. . Be grateful if you are a single male or female. county and federal correctional institutions. Now the ideas and the peace ﬂow freely. Do not deny yourself the medium for God to give you guidance. Dreaming and voicing is encouraged. They will only get in the way and make judgments that you will try to explain or give clarity to. Big terrycloth robes are allowed also. principled-based movie. It is not effective use of your time or energy. local lock ups. I am not ashamed of my story. It came as a direct result of avoidance of the laws of the universe that I spoke earlier. detoxes. They are healing and very relaxing. homeless shelters. My desire to be self-realized began with disatisfacation with my life and the results of choices and decisions I had made. No one will honor your purpose like you. Having had many struggles with challenges and adversity I have come to realize the value of mission statements and clarity in your direction. half-way houses. faith and selfempowering story to all who can beneﬁt. You can be a chef in your own kitchen or you can light candles and soak in your scented oil bath. Do not expect them too. although you may experience some of my desperation.
you cannot give in to the imaginary obstacles.12 Today means opportunity and effort focused at that opportunity. act or be acted on. You deﬁnitely must see yourself reaching the ﬁnish line in whatever area of your life you seek change or accomplishment. I gain discipline and I develop honor and accountability. then the outside. cell. In all my challenge I remember most vividly the possible accomplishment had choose . fear and apprehension. If you want that new car or dream home. Take pictures of it then return to your respite. design it. The ﬁrst thing to do is begin with the end in mind. Do more than is expected and know you are working with the immutable law of attraction and compensation. Write that mission statement. Defme your values. Look at our very creation. 13 Now that you have some clear ideas about where this is going. write that organizational plan. live it ﬁrst. The challenges and adversities are within. Become passionate about its acquisition. apartment. then others. principles and boundaries. You must awake with a plan. Everything happens on the inside ﬁrst. Be accountable to self-ﬁrst. Do not short change yourself. Every idea you can voice. and shelter and decide when you want that desire fulﬁlled. Decide that it will be yours. Each day that I invest in this book effort. Then be open for the answer that will surely come. it started ﬁrst on the inside. you can accomplish in some shape or fashion. are you prepared to do more than purchase another book or listen to another tape? Will you give yourself 100% effort in your decision? Can the vision of you achieving your goal be too much to fathom? If that is the case. drive it. room. we have a fundamental problem. Believe it is already accomplished. If you do not see the forest for the trees it is because you have been looking at it with doubt. Sometimes it comes with an idea. or a direction to go. rely on the universal laws to bring you your stated desire. When you get your sign.
I always pulled through because of my ghastly ideas of what that would be like. I also enjoyed the journey as told to the battle of Midway. Make your efforts beneﬁcial in everyway. I learned more about how to live recklessly and without direction. Somehow I always got out after a month or so. even invisible. I enjoy stories of World War I-II and Vietnam. I also read Tora. I remember the times when I read books and felt liberated. I read All Things Great and Small. Back to Charles street jail. Decide right now to either stop doing something or start doing something. I would ﬁnd strength.F. in Vietnam.in. develop integrity. I am alive today because of this and on one occasion because the suicide hotline put me on hold and forgot me. Start anew with conﬁdence and knowledge that your true essence will be realized and afﬁrmed in everything you do. Unmask the opportunities before you. After righting myself. The streets were drawing me and my addiction to alcohol was planning to upgrade. Each day fulﬁll a goal. so when I was eligible. I knew deep down that my life would begin to take shape eventually. It was very discouraging and I began to lose sight of my goals. Do not worry any longer about the issues you have no control over. I felt comfortable and faithful. As if the incarceration was part of an overall plan. I believe that is the name. Focus on the issues within your control. My brother.C. Like your character. and it was about a small town veterinarian. I invite you to begin now. 14 When I was incarcerated in Massachusetts. also Korea.law Michael was a P. and values. Tom. That illustrates the many ways your needs can be met through what is opportunity wearing a sly disguise. I was ineligible. principled choices.to follow a different path. There were times when due to the depth of the crisis or the inebriated state I was in that dying began to look like a viable alternative to seeing what's next. I would return to the Copley . I tried to enter the army myself along with my friend Leon after he was arrested and I anticipated a similar fate. I grew in that jail over the next 5 years in and out. My birthfather was a paratrooper in Korea. Tora. As purpose would have it. Ultimately it was my faith and desire to continue which allowed me to move from that low to the road of purpose. I was to young for Vietnam and I was colorblind. guidance and insight by reading books that supported healing and purposeful pursuit. I would sit on the bed at Charles street jail and deliver myself to authors.
I. I have been in detox at least 20 times. I was drinking and sleeping in the Copley square library or walking the subway tracks from station to station. I would ask god why me. mostly Roxbury Detox. I was very affable and personable so people would generally give me change and dollars. The crisis I was in became a means to feel sorry or accusatory towards my parents and society. That did not last. I wanted to get a place to live and try once again to stay free of chemicals. I always believed that I must have been going through this for a reason. I now was being taught skills required to assist others and process adversity. eventually I was using the new freedom to freebase. because it was that very life of crisis and education that developed my purposeful mission. at Concord for a 10-year indeﬁnite sentence. Shirley in 1986. Now I say thank god it was I. I asked him for a ride to the hospital but he said no. gave me ﬁve dollars to catch a cab. I addressed the most important desire. I then frequented at least 10 half-way houses and several youth intervention centers. I am truly blessed for having had those trials.D. It began a in and out experience of parole and violation which lasted until I wrapped up in M.D. After that incarceration I began to make the rounds to detoxes. and smoke weed and experiment in other drugs. Well after eating some 14-day-old uncovered spaghetti in the refrigerator and drinking behind people I woke to ﬁnd my knee joint swollen and my head hurting. and said I want my money back. .Square hangout where we would drink "shakemeup" and stem. it seasoned me and on occasion it rewarded me with a mentor or insight that I would store away for future use. I can vividly recall how adamant my father was whom I was staying with at the time about not giving me any food because I had wasted my food stamps and money on drugs and alcohol. my smile was bright and my large eyes remained optimistic. drink.) in Dorchester 1967-1969. This was in 1977. It is my effort now to express them through my writing and articulation to you in hopes that you ﬁnd some value as I have. The next stop was M. Children in Crisis(C.C. My hair was thick. DNS and Project Place to name a few. I almost died from meningitis. This now meant I was free to let whims be. I enjoyed this life of irresponsibility and voyeurism. Upon the advancing of my addiction I noticed it was increasing in strength and momentum. 15 As my eyes grew hungry for deeper understanding I grew in insight and faith.
my deciding to live was the command my heart had been waiting for. The nurse came to the door window and looked in and asked was I all right I said yes I was ﬁne. The lesson I learned from that is. I was told not to look. but I felt to bad to squabble about it. I was given an examination and then a doctor instructed the nurses to take me to the triage area. I spent years since accepting the reality of this situation. As I sat there contemplating living or dying I made a choice to live and at that moment of the decision my heart beat one strong afﬁrming beat as if it had been awaken from a sleep. Later I . I had felt that was what had happened.U.C. why? She said because your heart stopped and then restarted. which only recently makes sense. and lo and behold there were some skin eruptions.16 Upon going to Boston city hospital. This is a long slinky wire that if observed could give you pause. because it was becoming clear that for reasons beyond my understanding then he was not happy or proud of his only son. After blood gases and other tests to determine why my heart did that I was diagnosed as being well enough to go to a regular room and eventually discharged. so they looked at my chest for lesions. A spinal tap was given. I am totally in charge of my mind and my mind is suppose to be in charge of the body. where I stayed for 7-10 days. After sitting in the bed for a couple days my moms and aunt Joyce visited me. I was taken to I. 17 i am grateful for that experience. I know that my need for love would never be fulﬁlled in man. After tests I was told I might be very sick. after samples I was told I had meningitis. Nothing was drawn. We laughed and ate some Kentucky fried chicken and before they left they paid for the television. Our mind tells the body and us what to do. I expect throughout my life I have learned lessons. It has been so long since that experience happened yet its truth is very educational now that I am at the point of willingness to live my purpose. For at least 10 years I avoided my father.
Over the next 13 years I lived in and out of the active addiction. Thankfully it was the last time.contemplated the possibility that his father did not love him and that his inability was a result of his own personal relationship with his father. and then went back to risky endeavors. I would get clean. resentful and vengeful. I pray these words ﬁnd life in the ethers and universal consciousness. The streets were no longer attractive. Then it would happen. It took me a long time to realize that this path was a dead end. I forgave him years ago and I made efforts to reach out to him. I tired of the loss and my need to get out of the streets prompted another stay at M. relapse. cocaine and heroin.I. I eventually sold my television. It is unproductive and inconsistent with my purpose. car. It was my innate belief that this was all for a reason. At times I wanted to die. That was 1983. hustling and avoiding my pain. Concord. That was quite a bit for me because I was always rail thin. maxed out the new credit cards. Sometimes I would get it together totally. place to live. job and a woman. I was back on the streets again. My pain was growing. react or otherwise face an emotionally charged . Faithfully through this effort divine guidance will arise. I went in weighing 186 lbs. Therefore. So consider this strategy I over E when you confront. It was no surprise that I ended up at the doors of detoxes and friends. I avoid these outward expressions of inward turmoil by processing the emotions intellectually. My addiction continued unabated. I make logical fact based decisions with consequences and actions being closely evaluated. My life was full of experiences and challenge. Now it included. but his resentments and memories run deep. I was now 225 lbs. The ﬁrst time it happened I enjoyed it. 18 I suppose I could be bitter. I stayed there until I went to minimum and then home. Regardless I continued on my path of purpose. While there I lifted weights and began to gain weight. clean. Back to Boston.C. It is his prison and I had to once again realize that he was not understanding of what beneﬁt our mutual forgiveness would bring. relapse. By keeping the intellect in control. conning. It started with a joint or a non-alcoholic beer.
I was very excited about this step. I had a few dollars saved. I continued this lifestyle oblivious to its dead end. My experiences created a diverse perspective that encompasses crisis and crisis resolution. The director was Bob Brown. I had been there before and relapsed. There I opened the bag and . I know now I was right back in the soup. We slept in a twin size bed together right there in the graduate house. it was just a matter of time. and I had a late model Caddie. I entered into a relationship that was consistent with my addiction. I stayed there for four months. it began. mine with hustling. oh. I was willing to risk my job. I graduated and went to Hamilton recovery homes. actually I learned I over E there. I was going to college. graduated and went next door to the graduate house. hers with drugs. It was my ﬁrst apartment. I eventually went to work at the 1\2 way house and found an apartment by accident down the hill on Bowdon Street. I was clean but I was still attached to the hustling lifestyle. He was very helpful in me developing the tools to stay clean. In this program I truly felt I was ready to change my addiction lifestyle. I was clean. Therefore. After responding emotionally for most of my young life. I almost ran again. I entered a 10 day program at long island shelter which led to placement in a half way house. I also met and began providing for a very beautiful person named Gina. and my living space and my life. She was active and our relationship battled with the issues of that choice. Please understand that my story is my truth and through identiﬁcation or example I envision you gaining strength hope and renewed purpose. I learned to reap the beneﬁts afforded me by evaluating the results with the potential beneﬁt. We went through the bonding stages. a placement that was divinely guided. Together we found mutual attraction. As I began to overcome my addiction I began to notice that my other ill perceived defects surfaced with vengeance. 19 My mission remains to tell you how purpose can become your ally and best friend. She and I fought our separate battles.issue or situation. but I stayed focused. Shortly into my second year of recovery I developed a desire to try getting high just one more time. although my lifestyle continued to cause me pain. believing that now I could see the arrest coming and thwart it. No more drugs for Kevin. who I lovingly called Booky but. She was the most genuinely beautiful woman I had known. I had several jobs. I stopped using drugs completely in 1989. I went to Lenox Street and obtained a bag and returned to my apartment.
I had decided that I wanted to control my life and not have a drug take away everything I had worked for. I would like to believe that he held love for me and that those visits to my house were genuine. fears. I knew we could not reunite for long. In addition. 20 After that relapse I never looked back other than to reﬂect on the experience. The next day I went and got another bag and embraced some of it. now was the time. jewelry and sex. I have been to most of these places during my years of abuse. but this time with respect and pause. What I had accomplished over the last two years was right in front of me. because my experience with it had proven that it is a jealous friend and would need all of me. cars. I did not stop the behavior until it became personally unbearable. institutions or jail. I knew if I was going to let it go. I know there is nothing to gain in that situation. Go with me through the experience and avoid the tears. You can look at this reality as an example that convinces you that poisonous behavior in any aspect of your life threatens your happiness and life. I was not WANTED and I could look out the window at a vehicle that was paid for and insured. The search was fruitless and disillusioning. As of this writing I have written him twice asking for his support. From there I could dwell on the memories of the last two years away from my dear friend. I was hungry for more of what had become integrity and meaning. It promises death. We did business a few times and maybe he had an ulterior motive for that earlier directive. I am okay with it because I now carry my own sense of self and do not seek validation from those who are not willing. I became focused on the trappings of that success. I had a job working in counseling and I knew that the philosophy that I was espousing was in fact inconsistent with my purpose. so don't get rid of it. he has not even returned my letters. why not let my experience sufﬁce? As the criminal addiction excelled and my image as a hustler grew. I rested that evening peacefully on the new psuedo leather living room set. In most cases they were all disappointing in the end. There is no substitute for experience. I remember the director telling me I was going to need my hustling. and shame.embraced one more time the safety of the high. anger. Its as if they were made . shortly thereafter I returned to the behavior ignoring the real potential of the insidious disease of addiction.
I would want the next illusory acquisition." decided to do some organizing and planning. There was some funky brothers back then. Being around this environment inspired and encouraged me to be a drummer. They had mild success ﬁnancially but were not destined at that time to be famous. but I knew I wanted it. Next was the drummer for the band "The Sounds of Soul". and then it became an ideal. I fell in love with the possibility that I could manifest that sound. Their drummer was Vincent Bailey. It all started at the Skycap Plaza. There were three stages. it was originally called "Crown Manor".gotten fruits intoxicate its victims and then it seizes its victim's whole. This was no trivial addiction. I did not know what it would take to be able to express myself like that. Once the winds of the ego blew.of smoke. He was my ﬁrst physical inspiration. 21 Drumming to me is an opportunity to bring forth the voice within me. my purpose continued to call out to me from the depths of my mind. I was lost in the smoke of worldly attachment and lustful desires. communicate and inspire. I have often felt that sound and I know I can create that sound. . A group of men called the "ARRAN. Crime and its ill. This was as strong as my drug addiction. There are fertile ﬁelds in the mind and I fully intend to till them faithfully. it started out as a simple gesture. My dad was one of these men. a slight built black man. jealousy and criminality. Drumming to me is love. Nevertheless. One of the bands in particular was "The Ambitions" who changed their name later to" Hawkeye". It usually consisted of (5) acts. The desire to be accepted exceeded my desire to accept myself. I was clean but I was dirty and sick with envy. It allowed me to go to the Crown Manor every weekend for the matinee show. I have not seen many like it since. a main stage and two off to the sides of the ballroom. Walk with me as I explore the other side of addiction. I still love being a drummer and now I know drumming is a love of self that overﬂows into a sound that vibrates at levels that can heal. inspiration and manifestation of purpose.
My need to be active in all endeavors is lacking. It is what I want in my life and in all my writings. is this worth the continued effort? Moreover. I am getting more knowledge from playing regular and with lofty ideas. There is no limit in the universe and there is no limit to what one can do when he/she is present in the moment and thinking with purpose. I have done this as a youngster and as an adult. I most enjoy using my abilities to empower myself unto selfsufﬁciency and using my oral communication skills to uplift and inspire others to live their desire. This vision is uniform in all that I do. I am constantly reminded that yes.22 Each time I sit behind the drums I am confronted with the question. I am presently closer to my dreams then I have ever been in my life. I knew one day I would play the drums with skill and conﬁdence. We all have inﬁnite abilities. There is a mentor for every aspiration. Our experience can be more fruitful when we take in the challenges. vision. I have spiritual abilities and consummate physical gifts. resonate and manifest my essence and soul. We are limited in the mind only. playing drums and creating opportunities for others. faith and purpose I will manifest my objective. This strategy works in all occupations and in all pursuits. talents and abilities. patience. I have shot half-court shots 7 out of 10. Matter of fact there is great beneﬁt in combining groups of mentors when organizing role models and examples. I believe that I can do what I envision and some. as we think we become. victories and obstacles others encountered. this is deﬁnitely an effort worth doing and through continuous effort. . tackled and overcame. When I exercise or make love I seek to do honor to my creator and magnify my purpose. Be present in your moments and know that at every juncture there is opportunity to express your gifts. The thought process is always at the crux of this juxtaposition. That objective is to bring forth the music from within. 23 As we negotiate the road to purpose we are ever mindful of the experience of others. I enjoy writing. Always reminding me to think richly and lofty. I have shot the ball where it went straight through as if it did not touch the net. to.
yet I would not remove the elements causing it. I would walk by a window where people were eating or walk by a car running with its exhaust spewing double exhaust streams of heat plumes and say one day I will be doing that. She was still very much my woman. It gets so you can sleep even when the Green Line trolleys are coming at a clip of one every two minutes and people are looking at you from the windows. I walked and enjoyed doing so. The days were immersed in walking. My mentor in the streets taught me how to keep my stuff in the Greyhound locker for a quarter. but she was not willing to do that without me being the man in her life. beautiful and very addictive. The pursuit of material items and worldly pleasures consumed me. and time made it for me. I was blessed in my ability to give others a mirror to look at and conﬁrm their blessings. Sleeping in the subway station became a common occurrence. I would have been married right now if it were not for my woman Tina. I can identify with men who have become lost in the beauty of a woman. 24 For me that crisis solidiﬁed the decision to remain chemically free from there on. I digressed to a deeper level of addiction. There is great pleasure in walking to the music of the soul. Felicia became pregnant but had an abortion. There was a lovely woman named Felicia who possessed a butt and skin texture which was purely sexy. I knew I wanted to be that person I had revealed the last two years I maintained the relationship and the lifestyle minus the chemicals. I was happy in my freedom and sad in my prison of memories. I still had my own encounters that taught me additional valuable lessons. The spirit was ready but the ﬂesh was weak. Yet my mentor remained high above all of it. With his guidance I avoided possible death. I wanted to be that but I would not make that decision. He showed me how to rest at the Copley Square Library and how to stem and walk the streets safely. My sense was of having encouraged some to do something about their lives and others to feel good that people still live on the edge of their realities.Please utilize these suggestions to their fullest. I remember the total beauty of that woman. I believe that the life she carried would have been born if it were the will of god. violence or worse. I reﬂect often on the circumstances of that time and still feel blessed to have experienced the beauty of those . I look at that experience as a prelude to spiritual illumination. How to go there and change and rest while watching television. I wanted her to have the baby. The ensuing months brought suffering and heartache.
Since then I have met and developed surface relationships. Actually the win/win would have worked. and I embrace the victory wholeheartedly. I have asked speciﬁcally for a woman with cultural curves and consciousness. I have been blessed with a sister who is very stimulating physically. Once again having clarity allows you to realize your intrinsic value. When one is following his purpose at all times he/she will always have reason to feel joy . I suggest when you are not appreciated or understood in any situation you honor yourself and part company if possible to your immediate and long-term beneﬁt. This example shows how not being speciﬁc about your needs and wants can leave you with what you do not want. spiritually and mentally. we all have it. When we acquire a goal or reach a plateau. I am cognizant of my ignorance and irresponsibility. cell and particle. we are often reminded about the inevitable drop or end.two lovely women. jealousy and high sex expectations. and to prevent pain I opted for the win/lose situation. you. So be speciﬁc in every possible aspect. Actually my last relationship was for about two years. India Irie offers a glimpse into the consciousness which most appeals to my every atom. our loved ones. Well I am going end now about the phase where my insight into purpose as it relates to speciﬁcity about women and relationships. its entire purpose is to bring temporary happiness or relief. Musically also my desire to share my talents outweigh the ignorance or disregard of others. I know now what to do with the woman who shares my life. 26 Intrinsic value. I realize that my voice must be the loudest. "I want to be cool with you and you want to be cool with me so lets hang out until we decide to try something else". There was division and turmoil due to immaturity. All temporal joy will end. Since Tina I remained free of deep attachment. I enjoy the cultural curves I mentioned earlier. She has an India Irie vibe about her. 25 Never again could I neglect my inner voice. That part of us that is ever mindful of our true meaning for living. I know that now. and me. in my last relationship I accepted the ﬂat butt and the inexperience to my eventual unhappiness.
because it gives others their moment in the light. As you and I journey this barren lonely road know that many have passed this way only to turn when the worldly attachments were threatened. Reﬂect on your faith when this challenge comes. In spite of the challenges of death. Meditation and yoga will allow the peace and stillness that you need in times of doubt. but maybe through these words we . return to your afﬁrmation/mission statements and scriptures. Open yourself up to the healing nurturing powers of the word. because there is no greater joy than the joy of knowing you are being understood. My preferred method is speaking. Bhagavad-Gita. Ultimately what is going on in side will manifest in the outer world. spoken or written. Think about how when words are spoken they give strength. read books that encourage your spiritual growth. There are many spiritual texts to draw strength. So seek to understand the thoughts of others ﬁrst. You were born to it and only you can say no I will not pursue it.because your motivation is not of this world its of the essence of your very creation. In my work I talk a great deal and I write a lot. Read with a purpose. To the uninformed eye their deaths or suffering were avoidable. Holy Qu'auran. To the extent I am successful is determined by the effectiveness of these efforts. Autobiographies. There are two other forms of communication. it was never a choice. wisdom and knowledge. it can only be to god/creator/higher power that you bow or alter your course. The man of purpose knows that with following ones inner voice one ﬁnds inner peace and oftentimes-outer confusion. However. First on the inside and then on the outside. suffering and disease. listening and seeing body language. many have followed their purpose. 27 Through the written word I communicate to you my inner voice. I also use the spoken word to give healing tones and vibrations. Asian philosophy. Holy Bible. Work on the four areas of communication and expect to receive a lot from it. Its been neglected by many of us this act of kindness. pain. Think vibration think radio waves.
Try it you will enjoy the power. I am positive that the information I have intuitively convinced me long ago that there is no cure for the hesitation or halt of your allotted time. you will immediately recognize that you and only you control you. It is truly the quality of the days of your life and not the quantity. You must give up the reigns that is how it is done. The importance of that air is conﬁrmed through your physical need for oxygen at a precise combination. First. Be passionate about it and walk in the direction of your purpose daily. 28 I am able this moment. My ego may argue or insist that I lead in all communication. Contemplate the joy present in the possibility that the end is the beginning and that there is eternal life and all the issues you need to resolve will ultimately be resolved. Today we can stop the out of control senses by reminding ourselves that the mind controls the body not the other way around. The protocol in nature and in the universe gives ample cause to be optimistic and purposeful of every moment. There is a source of intelligence at work in all things. There is order in the universe and in all things. our attitudes are out of control? It matters a lot. I choose to focus on the healthy and purposeful. Let me talk a little about how adding these suggestions can uplift you and others. I suggest you investigate to see if you are running your ship or if someone else is running it. I mean what does it matter that our weight. but when you rein the ego in and assume control over yourself. It is through this process you are revealed and afﬁrmed. When we allow our behaviors to express themselves in non-consistent forms we agree to mediocrity and less than we are capable of. Be prepared to encounter challenge and adversity. Live with your purpose as your motivation. Say no and mean it. It's called the law of attraction and compensation. will enhance the days you have. the moment you give someone else a loving gesture the universe takes notice and seeks to give you the same in equal portions. There are numerous examples of spontaneous cure of what was deemed a disease. . Piles of unhealthy foods may look impressive yet the minimal pile of foods. I can think myself healthy or unhealthy.will consider trying this emphatic listening mode. What one can do to avert this doubt is to accept that death is an unavoidable step in the rejuvenation process. The air we breathe is truly a blessing to ponder. which nourish your physical body with the least amount of processing. Avoid the sometimes negative and historical conceptions of disease. our spending.
months and years in contemplation. it keeps coming back to remind us of our intrinsic worth and purpose. work. Let go and live purposefully. Like becoming a vegetarian or walking 'A hour everyday or meditating for ten minutes more morning and night. It is our choice to live in accordance with the laws or be broken by them. 30 My faith strengthens me and through faith we can ﬁnd support and allegiance. Only to eventually realize that only I can answer that doubt or question. Try massaging your own feet each night for (3) minutes each or stretching the body (10) min. I am challenging you to remove attachments to people. I know you are skeptical about our purpose. If that is too difﬁcult or demanding try this. Now believe that it can happen. We are useful with or without our approval. Questioning if it was the right thing to do or say. no matter how long we ignore it. If that's to drastic. I removed myself from the list of people who procrastinate and hesitate. try not eating sugar or salt for thirty days or not drinking alcohol for a year or drinking at least (10) glasses of water for 21 days. how about learning how to be comfortable being uncomfortable as a direct result of your continued desire to live . we will fall to the ground. Question your willingness to be free from attachment by committing to a challenging dictate. If that's to much work. a day for (30) days or breathing (10) times deeply out in the fresh air each morning for (14) days or listening to a jazz CD while soaking in a hot tub of scented water. places and things and you will begin to experience the possible joy of release. make the right choice. regardless of if we are eaten we will be utilized. Try to see yourself realizing your wildest dream. Its called deja vu. It is a calling. Could we be here just to sleep. Regardless of whether we are picked. We are like fruit ripening on a tree. You just saw it happen in your mind using your imagination. eat and procreate? We are intuitively guided to do so much more. Now that I am purposeful and focused I am able to bring my abilities and talents to the table with conﬁdence. 29 I often spent days. It happens ﬁrst internally then it happens externally. I call it an opportunity to do the right thing. Our connections to life are magniﬁed by our love for worldly accruements.You have felt at times that you had been somewhere before. Why not cooperate with the laws of the universe that has kept order from inﬁnity. courage and willingness.
Be reﬂective when you rest at night and seek your truth and your purpose. do not let a moment go by that you do not envision goodness and actualization of your stated mission that you developed from your passions. The mind awaits your command and the universe awaits your minds command. Try one of the above and you will see achievements and accomplishments time after time. or creator. purposeful essence. It is far from the ability of our intrinsic. This may be difﬁcult if you are an avid television or sports viewer. so fear of losing it is of very little importance to the extent that its very condition becomes my every waking moments concern. God. Given the temporal reward of external material. it will be revealing and afﬁrming. Begin now. eating.e. meditation and question asking. Your laziness will be your chief adversary. buying a new car every year according to external stimulus rather than internal need. I anxiously await your contribution to this consciousness of richness and prosperity. Trust in yourself. they are for your use and only through their use will they bear gifts and evidence of their origin. Not the body. dieting. I am not my body.unhappy and unfulﬁlled. There is no need to fear or doubt your abilities or talent. the body will ultimately outlive its usefulness and be useful to the next purpose of its existence. Believe in that which brings you to your place and live your truth without fear or doubt. stretching and jogging are activities that can become the life's purpose with temporal results. keeping up with the joneses. 32 Today I am reminded of the purpose I have. you would be best served to place your purpose with the higher power of your life. Name brands. It wont be painful. you must learn to challenge your comfort zone. religion. your truth. Use it or lose it. spirit. because within you rest the keys to the universe and all your desires. Be yourself and be realized. the truth shall set you free. But your essence and purpose lives on with you and others. This will also be difﬁcult if your happiness is dependant on the validation or input of others. Given the constant change of people's opinions and attraction. not another's. It is not only to write this book but it is to . right now! 31 Do the best you can right now with what resources you have and you will ﬁnd that you become less dependant on commercialized societal stigmas to be happy i. Exercising. Be about the business of realization and manifestation of your purpose each and everyday. you may want to acquire your purpose through deep contemplation.
My role models were workers but they also drank heavily or exhibited principles and values that applauded corruption. or a book a month. There is an incredible amount of adversity in this world and thankfully so. Always keep a window open to allow fresh air to rejuvenate and heal you. a leaf or twig or plant. There is no disguising who I am. to this day they support me and nurture me with love and direction. In my world these were not considered viable options. so that they may reﬂect on the value in the valley. I have read many wisdom books and I have read many treatises on issues of irrelevancy but even in those books I have witnessed the language of God. Because through this effort you will realize the very direction you want to Mice. Each step encouraged awareness and strength. not to mention the healing properties of ﬁre. Your survival instincts depend on this interaction. I am comfortable with who I am and what I am doing with my life. inﬁdelity or shortcuts. we will all get a chance to tangle with it. Be ever mindful of the blessing in disguise. Stay connected to the elements. Also bring into your home some item from the outside world. It will spark in you self-reﬂection and that is very important in this exercise as we seek the clarity and speciﬁcity of our purpose. the calm after the storm. Through a venerable. I encourage you to pursue a discipline of a book a week. I . unlimited search you arrived at the crossroad of meaning and intention. My grandmother and mother gave me my values and principles. Bless your head daily. and belief that it was educating me for my eventual purpose. I do not feel ashamed about the stops I have made in reaching this stage of my life. acknowledgement and gratitude. faith. Here I am fully realized in my crisis. Therefore. It is in Yoruba culture that the head blessing ceremony brings awareness. I am going to suggest that you take time to light a candle and read by that light at least once a month. Each lesson was received with love. Each day I walk my path towards realization of my purpose. It is very humbling and life afﬁrming. which you will ﬁnd listed throughout this book and in the bibliography. Actively seeking this insight requires you read daily those books of the wisdom literature. It will return you to a time when all things were done by candlelight. Folks worked in factories and warehouses.increase in others and myself awareness and knowledge about the need for declarations of ﬁnancial empowerment. 33 Purposeful living means living each day knowing you are giving of your gifts and abilities for the manifestation of your purpose. No one worked in banks or ﬁnancial houses. thankful for the journey and hungry for the chance to share my experience with others.
Clean up the temple so that the body can assist you in your purpose. There can be no clearer way to express my sense of purpose. my creator and sustainer as I know it gave me joy and conﬁdence. 35 Today's purpose lesson is about ﬁnding the light of experience. Time after time I have contemplated and over studied my inner voice. After being asked to be willing and open I would be closed and often change direction in the middle of the stream and I would pay the price. I await your submission. you will see as you make a your way towards fulﬁllment of your purpose. When in love I would fear giving all of my dreams for life for fear they would not be honored. I realize that the relationship was not meant to last. She had thick ankles and full cheeks.ﬁrst read about this afﬁrming ceremony in "Iyanla Vanzant book titled Spirit of Man" These suggestions assist the seeker deeply. My inability fostered bad habits and disrespectful behaviors. When in pain I would cry out "why me" and I would receive messages which said leave the drugs alone. but was meant to teach her and me something. 34 Meeting my maker with clear conscious and conﬁdence knowing that I gave my time on this small planet my best effort. My many stumbles and missteps have been educational. This was based on my experiences with women and others. There was my ﬁrst high school relationship with a young woman named Mary. Only God. It has been over thirty years since that relationship and to this day I envision how . I am inclined to believe in my love being well placed. My perspective is ever changing. She was cute and she was more experienced than me. My experience with women has always been excitement ﬁlled. Knowing what lesson is being taught is instrumental in learning right away. I did not understand foreplay or mature give and take rituals. quiet the mind so that you will be able to hear me.
and they all ﬁzzled out without clear purpose. as always I learned a valuable lesson from each. victories and lessons. Nevertheless.A. healing and teaching. I became fearful. What I seen did not clue me to the basics of relationships. today I know I can ask for what I want in a relationship and I can inﬂuence that relationship through envisioning and clarifying the purpose of that connection. When I realized that I was alone. Commitment was not a word that had clarity and meaning to me at that immature point in my life. It amazes me how special my relationships can be when I go into them with a clear agenda and mission. others.it would have been entirely different had I choose to specify what I wanted in a relationship. I did not have a clue about how to form a mission statement or declaration of important issues in any part of my life. I had several encounters like these. safe sex or family planning. It is my love for god and self that brings me eternal joy and how this love is manifested through service to others that inspires me to continue my path and forge the shadows of doubt and limitation. I had only the streets and my associates to learn from. What was needed was an example or M. However. I ultimately became convinced I could overcome any adversity through prayer and faith. They were doing some things. jewelry. This journey is a means to a very important end. They will inspire and at times alarm you in their severity and depth. I ask you to go with me as I share my battles. then angry. because I want very much for all of them to know I was unaware and uninformed about how to love and respect them. . I have spent some time with each of them years later and I had a chance to see the future had I been with them. 36 /know that it is not the ultimate love. commitment. but did not seem to be happy either. I believe we all continued to look for who and what we are in external entities like cars. Please temper your judgment with empathy and compassion.P. I believe this protocol arose from my grandmothers loving lessons. Master Action Plan. I am thankful for the opportunity to speak to these women through this book effort.
. I want a place to live that is clean. He said the only thing in the street at night was dogs. she would sit near the stove and sing or rest. He is truly a blessing to my present life and understanding of life. Later in my life I realized that he was saying I acted as if I did not want to accomplish anything in life or own anything like a car. later I came to realize that it brought blood and heat to his knees. home. guidance and purpose. he would have killed me himself or allowed others to do it. he said it was soothing. She is very special to me. her memory is a great one.As my grandmother became less mobile. I did not know what he was talking about. nice clothes or a nice woman. due to diabetes. I was able to see the night different after that. Her spirit and soul lives in me and it reinforces my daily efforts to pursue my dreams with purposeful action and optimistic eyes. He was a man of simple needs. The women of those times were faithfully like my grandmother. quiet and loving. Its true there is nothing in the streets at night but dogs. I want something from this life and that is to realize my gifts. I asked him why he rubbed his legs. which took some of her toes. If he did not love me. he saved me from harm many times. abilities and talents. He would ask me where I was going at ten or eleven o'clock at night. just another old folk saying. My love continues to grow for the essence of what she taught me. and fools. She gave me all the lessons I needed about sharing and principles. I can reﬂect on my grandfather's purpose with admiration and appreciation. I would say out. I loved him very much also. My grandfather showed me love in his tutorials. He loved baseball and reading the paper while sitting on the porch rubbing his legs. My grandfather was very street smart and he spent time reading the paper and sitting on the porch. He gave me some encouragement to think more. She also gave me hope and purpose. cats. He taught me to "want for something" 37 /remember my grandfather would say to me "You don't want for nothing". cats. Her favorite song was "Peace be Still" She would also watch the soap operas like "Search for Tomorrow" and" The days of our lives" and "As the world turns" but mostly she administered love. which had arthritis. I want nice clothes and a means of transportation to allow me freedom and options. and fools.
He did not even give any hint that he was going to physically die one day. and sometimes he would cut up hotdogs into it. Let it be more than just words and empty gestures. Most of his wisdom became known after his passing. He was able to walk all the way up until within 6 months of his physical death. My grandfather primarily walked wherever he went. We all enjoy the feeling of being told we love one another. The lesson I derived from my interactions with my grandparents that stand out the most is strength in the face of adversity even death and be balanced in your life. He was at least 85 and still eating these kinds of food. 38 His desire to impart his knowledge was evident. he wanted for something. in particular towards the last three years of his life I watched him live as if things were always going to be all right. Demand of yourself more everyday. Should you ﬁnd doubt or fear welling up inside of you. He was a homeowner and a man of purpose. I will ask that you reﬂect on those that you love and call them up and tell them your feelings for them no matter how awkward it may seem. embrace it and then Let it go. It is like that with many lessons of life. his wife. you have a choice. balance and courage. I do not believe Gramps to be dead spiritually. I look to him in meditation and prayer. It is even more awkward saying it to a casket. He mentioned in several occasions how gout was one thing I did not want to get and the inability to urinate.he did not drive and he did not club. his breakfast was either Honey Nut Cheerios or buttermilk and ﬂour bread. do it now while its possible to witness the beneﬁts. we miss the people more after they are gone or unable to take care of themselves. He made many simple meals. Utilize the challenge it offers and dare it to stay. and every breath. Today this moment I choose to Want For Something and that something is manifestation of my purpose to the honor of my god and my loved . My choice to play music and articulation will always be tempered with love. I will always remember the essence of my Grand father he was and is a great spirit as is my Grandmother. every moment.
She imparted to me love. guidance. They knew my grandmother did not play. She loved me dearly. She would sing to him all day and she did not ﬁnd people who were not principled or moral pleasing or worth much. 39 My grandmother's version of purpose is principles. My grandfather knew my grandmother was not to be tried or played with. Her passing was revealed to me over the phone by my mother. My grandmother's vision will manifest in my life and in the lives of my children and all the people I reach with my words. I went in and signed my name then I stood in the back. To me there was no need to be in this world if she was not going to be there. values and god ﬁrst. She had the best credit I have ever seen. balustrades. My dad would not mess with my grandmother. Her purpose was fulﬁlled. It is as if grandma was one tough cookie. and a two-car garage with driveway. she must have owned businesses and other things to have purchased a house in the Sugar Hill section of Roxbury. I believe it was. I remember her as if she was here right this minute. 40 . the other woman who I would give my life for in a millisecond. Our house had stained glass. She said your grandmother passed and when the funeral would be. respect. She had the salve and broom check cashing man come by and cash her check. My grandmother was respected and trusted. She owned her home. I loved her more than life itself. wood ﬂoors. She loved me and nurtured me as if it was her god directed purpose. principles and courage. because she did amazing things in her life.ones. Jesus is a very personal friend of my grandmother.
It will either falter or fail and you will place the blame with it.The focus now is on the purpose of physical beauty. 41 As the truth unfolds you become humbled by the falsehoods and fragility. The click clucks of the shoes or the hum of the V-12 engine. Neither one of these will give you lasting pleasure. Each time we are faced with this desire for physical external beauty and gratiﬁcation we need a clear understanding and full knowledge it does not have the ability to bring lasting joy. they demand that you rub on either lotion or potions pampering the body or car with special soaps and waxes. Desire plays a big part in this process. How does an angle or pose stimulate one to excitement? How can I take the parallel and sublimate it into areas I need to be excited about. The body eventually decays and the body style falls out of style. There exists a love hate relationship with both. It is an inanimate object until we become intimate with it forgetting there is an inﬁnite amount of it and everything else. Do not buy into the attachment prison. . Each draws the attention and ire of others. it is all just physical attraction with a desire to own you do not forget it is just a drama. Smooth skin on a body or smooth skin on the body of a car illicit the same internal response. its to challenge you and strengthen you in the Laws of the Universe. when the blame must be with you. both are conditional. Be ever mindful of the purpose of your senses. or a sale at a store that is selling items you desire. It could be an appointment to pick up your brand new car or it could be you having a winning ticket to the lottery. Getting up in the morning becomes a very appealing object when something special is awaiting you. when a new model comes out this futile chase begins again in its unfulﬁlled dance of deception and temptation. You gave it power. desire.
goal or discipline? Many times right? The answer is to limit your space to people places and things that are consistent with your purpose. So let us decide to let go of the negative vibrations and begin to explore the opposite of these thoughts. 42 This way you minimize your distractions. Then I want you to plan to acquire these speciﬁc ideals through inner reﬂection and meditating on any obstacles or challenges you envision blocking your path. home. give it away and live the experience. only to ﬁnd that it was a mirage. It is extreme and it should give you some idea of how the whole negotiation process begins within. Car. Having a beautiful attractive woman share your life for a day or a week does not demand that you live your life with all the inconsistencies. prosperity.e. So treat yourself to all the people. love and purpose. wants and dreams. Okay we know we do not want to part with our "stuff'. How about parting with the resentments. I am suggesting that you seek balance in your life through recognition of your needs. just remember there is a potential trap in giving your power away for ﬂeeting pleasures. If you want to experience it truly. What good is it if you ﬁnd imbalance in your attraction and you have given it all this power? Be the one who looks within for the happiness and satisfaction that abides in inﬁnite amounts. Someone will be very happy to have that item. Interests change rapidly. i. Because it is a virtual exercise. How can we expect to raise our level of .You come into it thinking it will fulﬁll you. It this the way we want to live. How many times have you been distracted by a sense object from completing a task. Begin with your greatest attachment. anger. Envision the momentary loss of these items and see how you react to the thoughts. places and things that are there. Now think again about how in the past you looked at someone or something and said that will make me happy and fulﬁlled if I can possess it. The key again is not being attached. Now these can be removed without no monetary costs and they are presently causing great harm to us. You can have the sense object when it is in balance with your other areas of interest. At home you have control and there you can develop your discipline so that when sense objects make their play you will be fortiﬁed and prepared. peace. Why are we subjected or exposed to these temptations? Think about that for a moment. and clothes. jealousy and envy. jewelry. It does not and never will have the ability to give you anything more than a fascination with sense objects that are temporal and ﬂeeting. woman. only interested. temptations and inner callings without acting on them or exploring your curiosity or attraction to another sense object. you may not experience true to life feelings. It hurts and there are emotional twists and turns.
Play your part in this drama of life. There is a victory here for you if only you will dare to try. No one can prevent this. Before you have a need for the stamp you must write the letter. aspirations and dreams. There is no doubt that I will succeed and prosper. dare to dream. Decide to live out your ideals. I was incarnated to fulﬁll the truth of my purpose. Reﬂect on why you are not realizing your dreams and desires. fears or pessimism. The universe awaits your command. you must need somewhere to go. be purposeful. My suggestion to you is that you give plenty of thought to this issue. It is my destiny to do so. but it is your decision to make as to when you are going to live as you were blessed to do.success if we are not willing to decrease our main source of distress? I can suggest to you how to begin this process. There is an obstacle that offers me daily challenge. Look to be happy and fruitful. When I am focused on my goals it is then that I also must give the priorities their best chance of victory by anticipating the needs and tools. specify your goals and go forth trusting in the universal laws I spoke of earlier which guarantees you will receive whatever it is you need. What are your tools? What do you need to accomplish your purpose? Do you believe you need a woman or a million dollars or are you awaiting a special sign? Don't wait for anything. 43 With each passing victory over these challenges you gain strength and wisdom. Before you need a car. and that is my willpower. write your own scripts. and Replace the programs that have proven ineffective. It is when need is present that the law acts. . Do not for one minute confuse yourself with doubts.
Those who do not support it must be kept to a minimal role in my life. Do not forget your faith in all you aspire to. I envision going to college while I am here and when I am in the community. You become Bomb Proof! Most of the human service employment requires some certiﬁcation or degree in order for the grant to pay.So prioritize. My gift and insight of how to process problem/solution creates good thoughts that furthers the programs viability and effectiveness. I choose to show part of me to those I trust and other selves to those I have yet to trust. I realize that a life of purpose can be more productive when you have degrees and credentials. I did however take the photos for the school yearbook that year. As a result I have some people close to me who appreciate the gift I share. let order rule the day. Knowing you are loved will undoubtedly give you strength and energy. The life I lead requires that all of my associates. My discipline was haphazard at best.consciousness. I received a visit from a queen named Grace.S agency will require that I be credentialed in some aspects. Being in love with someone who supports your dream and who supports your efforts increases your effectiveness and your self. that word is purpose. . friends and loved ones embrace my desire to manifest this purpose. I was at the time pursuing a degree or certiﬁcation in human service. It was called the College of Community and Public Service. I was attending U-Mass Boston's extension campus located in downtown Boston. What I want in life and in inﬁnity resides within me. ﬁrst things ﬁrst. My schedule and priorities were misguided. I also worked for student affairs. who graced my life some twelve years ago. Running my own program. Those that do will be placed in a maximum role in my life. Purpose will be realized in spite of the obstacles. 44 Today purpose arrives bundled in ﬁve feet of chocolate hue innocence. In addition.O. G. My ability to communicate the needs of my program verbally and in written form enables the program to reach a wider territory.D. I spend a lot of time reading and writing and it is in this effort that I am often given words to inspire others. My intention is to unite my goals and purpose and manifest consistent behavior that supports and furthers my purposeful mission of service. It is one word that gives peace that outweighs the thousand words well spoken. there are those who underestimate the power of words well placed or spoken.
Before I reached the federal lockup I had already decided that this ted with was going to be the best opportunity to address the issues I deemed a important and consistent with my inner voice. I encourage you to continue your purpose and faithfully these words add inspiration and . So remember to face your challenges with faith and the knowledge that within failure rests tools for future victories. It is not their life so you must make the hard choices knowing that ultimately it will be you who must answer to that choice. You must love yourself enough to take this control in your life. It's very important that you speak your truth and not let anyone deter you from walking your path of self-realization. I may have created for some conditions which prompted them to make hard and fast choices. There are many examples for me to reﬂect upon as I travel this path of purpose. with You can deliver yourself each and every time using this strategy. I was sentenced to serve time in the federal prison system I knew then that When the journey had reached a new level of growth. Presently I am fully involved with self-empowerment classes and I am also developing my musical gifts. but that is ﬁne because all those who choose to depart were never meant to stay beyond their allotted time. Some will not accept or understand your choice or your mission. In many challenges you will be faced with how your decision affects those around you. the one that stands out the most prominent is. It starts with you. I had accepted the sentence as an answer to my prayers that I be delivered from my life of inconsistent confron travel. I am of the belief that I was given the exact amount of time I needed to get my focus together. For many being sent to a federal prison for 96 months might be life ending. "I am here for a purpose and it is to this end I face my fears and sugges challenges with courage and faith". This is how I perceive my challenge and through the tool of acceptance I have been able to grow and maximize my opportunities. I refused to see it any other way. My accept experience with this has allowed me to overcome adversity and doubt. ﬁrst on the inside you then on the outside.45 Here is challenge that gives you doubt or creates in you fear. Remember that help within you is the power to affect change. When you engage this tool you afﬁrm tion to within you a decision to persevere in spite of the obstacles. "with adversity one can develop purpose and mission". pause and reﬂect on a these words. When ance.
Mentally I am inspired to go to college to increase my territory. spreading the gospel and the word. spiritual. When the desire to place blame comes or the thought of looking for your worth in others. When I allow others to . purpose and understanding. what is passionate within you. The true pleasure has been within your reach always. I read. detoxes and crisis were absolutely necessary to create in me a reservoir of strength and faith to assist me as I walk my path of inner fulﬁllment. criminality. social or soulful? There are many possibilities but none will give you what you seek as long as they depend on external gratiﬁcations or the need to ﬁnd it in negativity. The third eye will bring to you clarity. It is the intention of this writing to increase your ability to process challenge. I am sure that the trail of prisons. I have a strong sense of purpose since making my choice. envy or physical manifestations. jealousy. 47 That stretch of fulﬁllment depends on my willingness to acknowledge its worth and value and how it measures against my ill-perceived need of the memories and safety of pain and doubt. reﬂect and write of my inner journey. I welcome the adversity and challenge that preceded my decision to uplift myself from the lifestyle of criminality and misguided behavior. I recognize it as being the most important effort of my life. Since that miraculous day I have been on the path that has continuously brought me face to face with the tools of change. Is it musical. The way to liberation rests in the constant pursuit of your purpose. I eat a lot less foolishness. The need to look within through focusing on your third eye in meditation is monumental. My physical self has made major changes. outreach and entrepreneurial learning. 46 Sometimes the trail of discordant events will precede a choice. Cakes do not rule the day any longer and I drink water throughout the day. physical. it rests between your eyes. remember that your fulﬁllment will only be quenched by your personal effort to free yourself from delusion and doubt. as I am inspired to express it. My soul is warmed by the gift of communication. It is very important to see discomfort as a sign of discontent. Red meat and pork have been almost entirely removed. My exercise is consistent and through variety I anticipate increasing my desire to exercise more. Choose to learn from the pain and discomfort. To this end I pursue education through an institution that presents itself as an institute of learning through compassion.guidance. Being comfortable always precedes ones thoughts of something must be wrong or impending change of a derogatory manner. With a degree I am Bomb Proof. Spiritually I am a seeker. I may weigh over three hundred pounds but I am smaller and feel lighter.
Give all this up and return to the life of purpose you know to be your calling. After drinking one day I went out hustling. Once I gave the need to control up. Many times I would yell out in frustration at not understanding why I was experiencing such confusion and disappointment. until one day it resulted in a federal arrest warrant. As I experienced more pain and struggle. I will now express how my journey within began. ask or give another permission to give me what is essentially and innately mine. I am there always if I dare look. for me god has always been at the root of everything and it is there I place my faith. I was chased and caught and I laughed because I was carrying a book bag with books from college. I began to realize that I was not in control and that I was going to have to give up this approach to solving my confusion. the universe then revealed to me the laws that must not be broken. it seems like the majority of the times I went hustling I was high. which I had attended earlier that day. It is divinely mine My god installed my program and I need not look to television or the media outlets to ﬁnd me. Not many people can understand my choices but it does not matter if they do. It is entirely possible that these limits will be blown away by the inﬁnite gifts awaiting you in your inner sanction. Upon listening to that voice and asking my god to help me get back changed my life . 48 After discussing how ﬁnding fulﬁllment within will bring everlasting happiness and clarity to your life. My ability has always been there I just clouded it with the drugs in an effort to run from myself. That repeated itself many times after that. or purpose. what matters is that I do. Each time I was given a road to travel and each time I veered right when I should have went left. I believe I needed the drugs to keep me from thinking logically because if I did I certainly wouldn't have been out hustling. Coincidently it also coincided with the decision to listen to the voice from within that kept saying this is not your purpose. just not with the answer I wanted.possess the treasures of my life. I give into the perspective that I must beg. This day I broke into a car and attempted to steal something of no signiﬁcance. I had money in my pocket and had no need for anything. The purpose of true happiness will be revealed to you with such clarity that you will never look externally again for fulﬁllment. I suggest you formulate a list of the things you feel are important or astonishing to you. I am positive that each request was answered. In looking and asking the pertinent questions I have found the answers to some very profound interests.
We hug a little longer that it all begin to change. disgust and contempt. I am forever grateful for the many lessons I have learned from not listening and even more thankful for the opportunity to follow the purpose my inner voice helped me reconnect with. my dad. Read each day your Mission Statement and choose some authors who inspire you deeply and read their work daily. My college appointments were being missed and who knows what else I gave up. I remember crying because I knew I did not need to do that. my bail was ﬁve hundred cash. Anyway Annie decided to follow my lead. My dad was there grudgingly as always. I tried to live according to my ideals but the drugs and streets called out to me incessantly. was given bail. it is waiting for you to acknowledge its presence. and get the loan money. This is where cocaine became an aspect of my growing. Anyway the day comes to go to court. My grandfather told me later that he told his son. . Keep joumaling and writing. the facts are mentioned and the pettiness of the charge is revealed along with my good points and I was given a personal recoginance. So please listen to the voice from within.and the rest is evident. and sent to Charles Street Jail. 49 After that arrest I reﬂected on how the person chasing me was trying to swing on me like he had done something. She was older and we hooked up. go to college. Her name was Annie as in down south. I made some suggestions earlier. I was in possession of my own MasterCard and Visa because of my college loan money. here's ﬁve hundred dollars go get him and don't come back without him. One day my dad was angry again and leered at me from the porch with eyes ﬁlled with hate. I imagine Marvin Gaye's father exhibited this same type of inner confusion. Well I went to court the next day. She somehow caught the eye of my grandfather who enjoyed her helping him out with things around the house. My dad however seemed to be more interested in the personal possibilities. I also met a young person who just happened to live across the street. 50 Faithfully these suggestions will keep you focused and steadfast.
51 Spending sometime with your inner self can bring relief and healing. There will be many distractions. exercise and reading have their time slots and writing gets added focus. Sleep in your bed with rose petals and ﬂowers everywhere. Get your Masters or Doctorate. open the windows and let the fresh air ﬁll the room. especially when it limits the time you can spend with them. places and things. Learn how to waltz or square dance. Validate yourself. consider going to an Adult Learning College. Do this with a treasured item of clothing. Share with yourself on tape your Mission Statement and your description of the woman you would like to share your space with. I am learning to create space where meditation. Try archery or mountain climbing. Do something like walk two miles a day for twenty-one days and then on your computer produce a certiﬁcate commemorating your accomplishment.do not neglect the technical opportunities like voice recorders or video recorders. I am a single man with no children so I am in an ideal situation. Keep the water hot/warm. My writing requires much more time because of the value it has in my . jazz dance maybe. Record some thoughts to listen to while you are in the tub. Learn to play an instrument. for example. It also sets the stage for some inner reﬂection. I am primarily responsible for myself My soul and spirit receives as much time as I want. Remain grateful and open to the blessings that will follow. I think twenty-one day regimens work well. shorts. It is important to prioritize what is most important. Enjoy the moment fully. Enjoy the fresh scent. give yourself some ﬂowers or a massage. Feeling good about yourself is much more important then feeling good about how others perceive your prioritizing your time. people. Intersperse it with music that soothes you. t-shirt. Give thanks for your breath and meditate for ﬁve to twenty-ﬁve minutes on the beauty of your essence. nurture your spirit and senses with ambiance. they will suddenly require more of your time. socks or robe. Envision her materializing right there with you. Recite some poetry and play it back. Jacuzzi off. Light some candles in the bathroom.
Everywhere I read how my intuition is widely accepted by other writers and authors. My daily attempts to reach out are met with mostly positive vibes. I pray you enjoy and beneﬁt from the experiences and lessons I have learned. doubts and uncertainties to its healing embrace. My perception allows me to see beyond the surface and due to an innate gift I will walk away from negativity and anger when possible. heed them as you would the word of God. When you get to the place of rest mentioned in the preceding page I suggest you have a personal recorder nearby to record some of the thoughts that will arise from deep within you. do not let anyone convince you that you must constantly be with company. The optimist and the logical thinker will reign . I utilize the fear and doubts to do more studying or preparation for the confrontations with the legions of doom. You are being cleansed and healed when you go to that place of rest and relaxation. It is important to be alone often. It is reafﬁrming to see my conclusions realized in others perspectives. There will be some directives and warnings. empowering and spiritual. It is not relatively important just encouraging. 52 Lets talk about friendship and what beneﬁts are associated with the loving intent innately obsessed in this union between two or more people. I embrace purpose and my desire is to give of my gift and to embrace all with faith and integrity.life and in the lives of all who ﬁnd my efforts inspiring. It is my recognition of this behavior that allows me to remove the harmful language and replace it with silence when nothing good can be rendered. I have used my words to harm as well as heal in the past. It is your time and only alone will you realize the fears. Manifestation of my purpose reigns supreme. The temporary joy of reacting angrily is always smothered by failure and regret. I am told that my words touch others positively and that I have touched people negatively. Here you are reborn and rejuvenated. You may ﬁnd that crying comes naturally.
Excel. At times I arranged to do it on a computer. The computer makes it possible for me to write with ease. The ability to write without concern for the accuracy of the spelling allows me to go with the thought or inspiration and correct it later. She had a stroke and needed the technology of voice recognition to get her thoughts to paper. I encourage you to become adept at using computer applications like Word.every time in hindsight and in results. Many peopled have expressed to me how my purpose affects them positively and deeply. If you are unable to use your limbs. My purpose is to use this medium to share with you hope and inspiration. My feeling is one of purposeful joy and love. Repeatedly I have overcome what was a challenge to miss a writing session. I am sure she will realize her true inner calling to write. I read "The Ten Commandments Of Positive Thinking". 53 The discipline necessary to complete this effort has become an example for other aspirations I have planned. I can remember treating someone badly and I remember feeling bad because of it. There is much to be said for words written from the soul. 54 . When I treat someone good I feel the good also. Presently I share a correspondence with two women who love me. failures and goals. This blessing of love is well received and I feel good knowing that I am able to return this love. I want you to consider the journey of writing as a means to share with others your victories. The win will be long lasting and favorable towards future resolution. consider voice recognition software that will allow you to reap the extensive beneﬁts. I am sharing me. It is nurturing through words and in one case visits. My writing associate has written several books and they are very inspirational and informative. In all of your educational and creative pursuits you will ﬁnd that aptitude with technology will ease the burden and increase your productivity and expression. She inspired me through her kind words that my experiences were being expressed with prose that was heartfelt and spiritually directed. I told her she is an inspiration and in my effort to honor her contributions I write this book. PowerPoint and other word processing software. spirit and inner voice. Since then she has been challenged by some adversity that faithfully strengthened her and exposed to her a very important realm for her to write about.
With that I can only say good luck in ever realizing how truly special overcoming challenges can be. it was not the example you see on television but believe me it was very effective in motivating others. either vicariously or through direct . There are more than enough reasons to quit on life. At this moment I saw in this man's eyes a sense that he felt my words. It is very inspiring to see someone accomplish so much with what to many is minimal ability. I told this man it does not matter how they see it. I also knew that for many this was a daily occurrence. This wonderful man had an operation that removed a tumor that was in his neck area. That is when he told me about his journey of the past eight weeks. He walked with severe limp and it was pronounced and appeared to be extremely problematic. This man made me feel alive and capable. I asked him if he was ready to start walking again. I knew that I could bring words of inspiration to this man. when someone walked up and hesitantly said that he soiled himself. A couple of days later we where walking and talking about how his example is an inspiration to me and others. He said they would not see it that way. Thank god for the adversity and challenge that we confront daily. This man was a member of my over forty walking program. Until you have shared in this kind of resilience and purpose you have not lived. After checking to see that this was true. I seen this man lose weight and inspire others because he was also challenged physically. When he returned he mentioned that he had terrible bouts of diarrhea for about two weeks. he apologized to me. 55 I know the conditions of most people's minds would reﬂect humiliation at this occurrence. I told him many have lost the ability to experience this moment. He was walking with a cane at this time.Let me share with you how knowing someone who faces adversity while they are being faced with additional challenges can inspire and motivate you. What matters is that you see it for what it is. This man eventually jogged. Today stands out because of a man who I met in my travels. When I seen this man again he was lighter and had not walked in about two months. I said there is no reason to apologize for a situation that is the result of your health concerns. I told him that if any thing it reminds us that we are alive and still functioning.
Crisis befalls us so that we may witness the victory hidden within. For however long I live in this body I will live my truth and manifest my purpose. I anticipate being present in the moment with patients from the Hospice Program of which I am a volunteer.realization and manifestation of our purpose. When I experience situations or opportunities for purposeful expression I will take you there with me. Do not run from challenge. 56 I told this man of my inspiration to write about our experience and he said just be sure to spell his name correctly. I am here to bring a voice to those who cannot speak. Begin today. It is a blessing that I am drawn towards people and situations that beneﬁt from my gifts and abilities. I am blessed to be a witness to such strength and perseverance. Thank you for reminding me I am more than my body and that I can bring joy and purpose to every day of my life. . What are your gifts and are you living up to your inner callings? Are you ignoring the persistent suggestions from your inner voice or are you listening with deaf ears? The window of opportunity does not always remain as wide as it may be now. He said he had a stroke twenty-four years ago and decided then he would work to overcome the physical challenges. True love comes from the inner search and acceptance of the truth that will set you free. crisis and challenge you face. run towards it. I am as blessed as this man is. Be with yourself often and give thanks for every struggle. My purpose continues to be illuminated with the needs of others. It is through this magniﬁcent vehicle we gain self. My prayer for this spirit is one of thanks and gratitude. this very moment to live your passion.experience. I am guided to write of the glory present in every tear we shed. I suggest to you that you take this man's story and reﬂect on it whenever you are feeling ungrateful or unloved. tonight. I promise you it will give you much to be proud of and memories that will inspire you to live your own personal mission. I will share this experience with you in my writings. Today I am so grateful.
When you begin to feel that the exercise is pointless. She must know that I am sincere and that I will sacriﬁce our relationship so that it will grow or end. She may ﬁnd purpose through this search. Go for it! 57 Today I received some purposeful thoughts about sharing your dreams with another. Now that she knows the expectations she can either deny the attraction or aspire to its requirements. kiss and pamper. then reﬂect on the past two years of your smiling or laughing when your inner voice kept directing you to follow your heart. The alternative is suffering and further abuse. Then you will begin to see how only through your efforts will your dreams be realized. purposeful and productive. I am not asking her to leave her relationship. This is where my clarity strikes hard. I say do it now and be willing to accept the realization of your efforts. I will be listening out for your joyful yell. As long as you remain willing to work at your mission. 58 Here is a suggestion I posed to myself. She has expressed how unhappy she is but that it provides a service so she is willing to accept less for these reasons. My decision to address people who I care a great deal for belies the issues that destroy future chances of partnership.Spend the next two minutes laughing or smiling. There is no failure until you give up. I did express this to her and I made it clear where my position is on this. its either face the issue and choices which support your words or accept the reality that this man will not allow inconsistent behavior or associates to hinder his love or willingness to heal. When those thoughts began to predominate my writings I knew I was feeling her more than the relationship would allow. Now I will move forward knowing that I have said my truth. For me the most important issue is self-integrity and being true to your inner voice. you are alive! I know it is scary. initially to speak with an associate. She felt the essence in my writing and decided to write back. mental and emotional. I was writing a young woman who was and is in a relationship. I am expecting a result consistent with the level of truth in her heart. Why do I write this book? I believe it is because . Overtime she and I began to trust each other with our inner thoughts. I have expressed my boundaries. Being loyal to your relationship and exhibiting values and principles of honor and truthfulness are desirable and required. but it is worth it. I began to share my desire to caress. I have acknowledged my inner voice and I have spoken my truth. The requirements are life afﬁrming.
Reach as many people as I can with the healing vibes. My speaking was similar. The gift I have requires that I express its full potential. My career choice stems from my inner voice. For many years I sought the treasure externally. Instead of writing my own thoughts I thought another would better express the issues of my heart. I know today that we are all uniquely and innately gifted to give our stories passion if only we would trust our inner voice. 59 My territory has been enlarged and I am thankful for the opportunities. like for a job interview or a presentation. Where did I get this gift? I had it all along but I was only writing when it was required. When I began to receive feedback from my letters I was still unawares of the depth of my gift. I was guided to choose to divorce myself from television. I thought everyone had what I had. If they are open to truth and straightforwardness they will receive a focused blast of sincerity and hope. I am more aware now of how purposeful my writing gift is. I would look at the person I was speaking to and they would have this look like wow! I was surprised to ﬁnd out that many people did not read or write well. My truth is delivered with succinct ﬂavor and intensity. When I write I feel as if I have expressed thoughts that otherwise would have been left untold. I would say something in an attempt to be funny only to be taken serious. I know the recipient will receive my thoughts with the impact of my intention. When I speak I see the laughter and hope the words bring. I continued to take it lightly. My teachers taught me the basics and I took it from there. My expressions seem to be an asset to my words because people often laugh at how I say the words almost as often as to what I say. I truly try to write with the reaction in mind.it is my purpose. My intuition has spoken to me on many occasions and I am very comfortable accepting its directions. I remember copying over twenty letters written by my sister's boyfriend to give to this beautiful Greek young girl named Ida. We were already separated . I did not even think that I had the treasure within me.
I am clear about this and I know today that my ability allows me to provide for my additional needs. Therefore. Loving what you do produces immense strength and desire. It supports positive thinking and formulates ideas for bringing to fruition your inner calling. Actually I do not have what I believe to be representative of a true friend.now it is a divorce. It was due to irreconcilable differences. It is as if commercials have become the dominant material. My friend is within me. friendships and problems. I believe in me and I have shortened my circle of friends to a very few. There are many other divorces in the making. I was experiencing sign of warning Today brought ﬁnality to this important area of my life. Presently there is a restraining order in place. I am inspired to write for publications that will beneﬁt from my inspirational style. 60 Together I am unstoppable. in all reality my purpose speaks to the daily adjustments and growth that come with the unveiling of associations. After asking for money from people I know I have learned that when you offer control to an external person you enter the prison cell of dependence. For example microwaves and processed foods. I choose to make steps in the direction of my purpose and I fully intend to realize this . I also seek to be free from dependence of others for ﬁnancial gifts. My choice to exercise is consistent with my purpose. My daily efforts to practice my heartfelt directives give me joy and focus. When I am faced with a decision I entrust my conscience and my intuition to lead me to the choice that supports my mission and afﬁrms my passion. I am a gifted writer who is presently writing a book. I am in need of nothing that my God will not provide. It is a way for me to recognize how important discernment and selectivity is in my activities and how I spend my time. I do not intend to cause pain to anyone by my analogy. I am healthy in intent and I am strong in perseverance. my God is my friend and our union nurtures me totally. I will realize my purpose and each victory afﬁrms my position.
Most of my life I have been thin and svelte. The effort must be consistent and purposeful. My history of lifting weights was limited to the few times I was inspired to workout while I was incarcerated. When I am ﬁnished with this book I will have elevated my physical conditioning and appearance to a level somewhat consistent with other areas of my life. I will share this journey with you. I also played basketball so I did not gain much fat. I was about one hundred and ninety to two hundred and ﬁve pounds up until 1989. My deﬁnition has been unimpressive. Stretching and warming up before starting to exercise will allow me to remain injury free. To continue in this path would be futile and self. I then envisioned myself growing bigger and that is what began to happen. 61 am presently Three Hundred and Ten pounds at Six feet Six inches with average conditioning. My goal is to reduce my body fat and sculpt my abdominal. Doing nothing has produced zero results. It is vitally important to not allow my personal integrity to falter. I have many objectives and they require organization for them to be of optimum beneﬁt. I have chosen this day to spend time pursuing a commitment to physical exercise. It is through these opportunities that other windows have opened revealing opportunities of great value. nutritionally and physically. Once I stopped using in 1989 I went from one hundred and ninety pounds to two hundred and twenty-ﬁve pounds in about three months. My efforts involve self-delegation and discipline. When I make a commitment to myself I must keep it. . Faithfully my journey will inspire you to take action in areas of your life that call out to you for attention. I was homeless and actively addicted and the lifestyle did not support eating vegetables or drinking water regularly. I want more of the positive result producing behavior. I am taking a picture to show the starting condition and the fat level.vision. I actually realize that through playing basketball I can regain cardiovascular endurance and agility. I have given myself opportunities to grow and learn. Being steadfast in this effort has produced good results in the past. gained weight over a period of ten to twelve years because of my changing lifestyle.defeating. Being drug free helped me to improve my health.
62 Where do you acquire the strength and conﬁdence to accomplish these chosen goals. My weight was growing steadily and I had deﬁnition in my chest .I was not focusing on my core muscles. Why not consider walking with me as we travel through this effort. My inactivity over the years only added to the lost of leaping strength. In the past I would dunk the ball with no hesitation.Mass campus where I was a student. . From within you rest the keys to each level you confront.M. I was benching three hundred and ﬁfteen pounds for seven reps and I was inclining two hundred and seventy-ﬁve for ten. My max was three hundred and eighty-ﬁve at that time. My weight keeps me from dunking the ball.victories and challenges. During the writing of this book I will share with you my trials . I envision training my body and mind to do these things.C. I was strong in my legs and my arms were twenty inches due to triceps cable extensions. was not focused on this as a path andI treated it as such. began to lift weights at the Roxbury Y. How about a mile a day until you complete this book. My abdominals were never a focus but I did have need to concentrate in this area. I had not realized how strengthening the abdominal area was of great importance. Expectations are high and results are envisioned. I weighed two hundred and forty pounds and was lifting at my U. I stated emphatically that thoughts are powerful things and to constantly nourish the giant within. which are very important. My goal is to run two miles a day. with a group of men I met in my recovery circle.A. Over the years I gained quite a bit of experience in the areas of strength training. I am encouraging you to place yourself in the way of challenge. I was the strongest in our group at that time. I also envision my waist slimming down to thirty-six inches from forty-two inches. You must step towards your goal with faith and conﬁdence. You must not allow any thoughts of failure to enter into your thoughts. back and shoulders.
Being from a spiritual culture and having been nurtured by a grandmother who had a love for god that reﬂected her love for me. This blessing is monumental and it is through this answered prayer that it was revealed. We must spend our time realizing our spiritual purpose. 63 In the pursuit of physical ﬁtness we must realize the perception can become clouded. I give thanks for the beauty of this process. I have been divinely guided constantly towards the right path. Many people have entered my life and many have brought with them their own perspectives on god. Before I could acquire everything my ego . In it he encourages the nurturing of the giant within you.There's a book entitled the giant within by Anthony Robbins. Once again what seems like adversity was actually opportunity to fulﬁll my purpose. it has an expiration date. At times the surface results appear to be detrimental and negative. and it is ﬁnite. The physical body has its limits. Without utilizing afﬁrmations and parables you may be faced with additional obstacles. When I reﬂect on what I am I see myself as a purposeful spirit in a ﬁnite body. that is the purpose of the physical in this world. As we exercise and develop we must defer the ego from convincing us that we should invest vast amounts of time and effort into a fruitless search. But it has always manifested goodness in its ultimate result. I am from the place where it's natural to listen to the voices of the spirit. The challenge I face at this time allows me to reveal my essence through my unique ability to articulate my thoughts. If I were to focus primarily on my "stuff' or acquisitions of more stuff I would be imprisoning myself to an ideal that is ﬂeeting and limited. In particular you will ﬁnd that when faced with issues that speak to your spiritual essence you are without a clue as to where the voice is coming from. gave me a chance to see the glory of god and the need to seek it always. Be very pro-active in your efforts to acquire the information and knowledge that supports your purpose. My love has grown from my relationship with god and it's through this faith I have been able to overcome all hardship and challenge.
as will the material artifacts. I am often reminded of the need to persist when the environment. I am close to realizing my essence. Today I recall experiencing a myriad of emotions. Now being incarcerated does not allow for silence often but I do arrange for time for myself. I do enjoy the spiritual vibration coming from India. My words are expressing my journey daily. No longer will the six-pack or the broad shoulders or the cut quads stand ﬂexed. my cellie is an individual who expresses his personality through illusion.realization. All events have meaning and they are consistent with your input of food. I know that I am always inspired about something and that the day is ﬁlled with moments that manifest in me thoughts and feelings that can be construed as being uneventful or without meaning. Each breath I visualize removing another attachment. as the mind.wanted in terms of material proﬁt or physical pleasure it would be time to leave and I would be without any of these treasured objects. information and stimuli. Living with someone does not allow for writers privacy but it does condition you to write under pressure. to want just to want is corporeal. Nevertheless. and I believe she is a soulful spirit seeking self. they will be in a state of decay. There have been times when I have felt that what I had to say would not make a difference in someone's life. I read an ad about India Irie and it gave me inspiration yet I do not ﬁnd the entertainment print media accurate about ones inner essence or spiritual purpose. How deep is the realm where the spirit dwells and where our focus and attention reaps beneﬁts and eternal bliss? All of your efforts to unite with your purpose go with you. I perceive the world to be spiritual and that it will realize the ultimate good in which it was created. I have experienced vibrations that are counter to his possible true essence. It is all in the mind. Rust is the enemy of iron. 64 There are days. rather moments when I have felt uninspired about some things in life. feelings and moods. people. No amount of material wealth will achieve what my spiritual purpose can and will manifest. The less attachments we have the closer we are to freedom and peace. so is the world. . if we continue to view this brief existence as a time for chasing temporal pleasures we will be forced to enter this again until it is resolved. which is taken in through the ﬁve senses. To not want anything is the ideal. I presently feel tired and I believe rest will allow me to feel rejuvenated. places or things seem to be your enemy. I did not hold onto any of them. yet it was born in the iron. With each passing breath I gain in understanding.
The morning purpose was fulﬁlled by this step. whatever it took I am willing. I know I was present and prepared to teach the class. 66 My purpose is to love and live with passion. I am the happy recipient of the answered prayer. I awoke and contemplated remaining in the bed. Integrity rules the day and night.65 Today's version of purpose manifested itself through my decision to awake for breakfast. I attended my seven-thirty morning drum class only to ﬁnd that the people who said they wanted to learn did not show. I envision gaining a lot of insight from readings. I feel blessed to be present in this moment of purpose. the lights continue to come on and I remain forever grateful for the bounty that has been laid before me. There is warmth associated with the loving embrace I am experiencing from the vision of my gifts being realized in the name of God. Later Joseph joined me in the yard to share ideals and information. She did . I am mindful of the purpose of my gifts and I will not waste them on idle foolishness or on areas that do not reﬂect this mission. the decision had been made and action had been taken to assure that it happened by turning in early. After spending time taking photos in the yard I was able to share the strategies I read in Anthony Robbins book entitled " the Giant Within". The massive action being put forth has allowed me respite and reﬂection. Nevertheless. She said the store clerk mentioned that it was a course on healing and the inner voice. Today I felt love in the presence of the woman sent to nurture my dream on faith. There is realness to the people who God has sent to support me in my efforts to realize my purpose. The kind things people say remind me of the prayer said months before this arrest. to arise early. I am not discouraged or fearful of the manifestation of this great opportunity. it was not going to be. Caren said she bought the book called "A Course in Miracles".
not forget or neglect to tell me she loved me or missed me. love. it is the beginning of getting down off the fence of indecision. The fear of the inner search magniﬁes the need to go there and go there often. There are multitudes of interesting avenues to stimulate and encourage one to grow in their passions. There is room for growth in all areas of our lives. It stirred in me the need to be clear about my intentions in other areas of my life. The pain vs. She did touch me affectionately and she did give me the insight into her inner realm. She has vision and an aura of sensitivity that has spoken to my essence. pleasure strategy offers some examples of what will happen if you do not . Her purpose is to be a woman who supports her mate with closeness. I write to another young person who has a man and who decided to write after I wrote to a mutual friend. Through the search suggested earlier one will ﬁnd themselves embroiled in emotions and contemplation over which direction to go. I was interested in writing often. I envision goodness and purpose in the two women I write and share my dreams with. She was inspired by my words. I believe every effort I expend to reveal and manifest my purpose helps another see and realize their purpose. and her invitation to write allowed me to write about my aspirations. affection and loyalty. She is petite yet full ﬁgured. I feel closest to the one I have been a friend with for twelve years. I am especially in love with the purposeful creation of spirit in every being. 67 Now is it my purpose to unveil the purpose of others. Can anyone be trusted to be all of these things in this climate we live in? My answer is a resounding "YES" and if not her then let it be I and I alone. I also enjoy the company and physical presence of this stunning woman. Is it my purpose to love more than one person? I love everyone and everything. Faithfully writing letters and teaching will help others to see their purpose. This is good. I envision the next three years as revealing process.
The Bible gives inspiration and offers guidance. There is evidence that I always had this ability but did not know it was connected to my realizing my mission. Lets talk about writing to acknowledge your blessings. I see in Knowing I cannot separate myself from the things of this world conﬁrms my need to love all things. Given the nature of many of us who have lived far from purpose we must always see the end at the beginning or we may miss the power of expectancy in all things. I write today with a greater zeal for life. Because each time I wrote a letter I . I think so. a me wants to 68 We know we have an ally in knowledge. Can there be a subtle lesson being taught here. As I relate back to scriptures which I found them to be very uplifting and redeeming. the Christ in me allows me to walk with faith followed by works.begin looking at what is of major importance to you. unselﬁshly and unconditionally. The enemy in continue unaffected. Has the pain become great enough to make you seek change? Has the pleasure possibilities encouraged your search. I read early on about how God loves me and how my present challenge is consistent with self-realization. Now looking to God for examples of this purpose we ﬁnd many realized beings that walked this planet and lived on purpose throughout their lives. but your decision to ﬁnd purpose will not be denied. we know that action brings purpose to bear upon the goals and aspirations we envision. I was contemplating suicide and ways to avoid the future as I could imagine there being none. How can you ﬁnd purpose? Look amongst purposeful people. because of the oneness of everything. My readings revealed my purpose and my writings began to speak out to those who would decide my sentence. When I write to people and read the letter myself before I mail it I get an incredible feeling that what I am doing is very much needed. Through the vehicle of writing I have found immense peace and purpose. For without them I would not be alive today possibly. 69 /know that my writing is magical and gifted. There is but one way to get what you want and that way will be shown to you when you look within. Christ consciousness is everywhere. do I live with God as my sustainer or do I quit now and let the world dictate my destiny. as I would want to be loved. Look at models of successful integration of knowledge and action. good or bad. Here you can ﬁnd mentors and living examples that you can learn from. My issues of bad judgment had placed in front of me a choice to make. I know that I am all of the things others. We can be sure that as long as we are steadfast and purposeful we will be encouraged to grow and manifest.
it is for upliftment. I pursue this avenue of expression because it has revealed itself as an option for healing. Did you contemplate your own mortality? Did it frighten you or empower you to do . My commitment to this book effort is one page a day. matter of fact. I am often encouraged to write about my daily victories. I was not positive that it was my writing style or content that would draw such positive responses. What is your destiny? Do you know what it is that you and only you can accomplish? I suggest you take the next ﬁfteen minutes thinking on your purpose for reading this book. How is this determined you might ask. Well people have on many occasions responded to my speeches with comments and compliments that have helped me to see the depth. Through that daily discipline I ﬁnd myself talking about the issues of my life and how they connect with my inspiration to write a book about purpose. The same goes for my speaking. My love for God has prompted me to share this gift with others. yes I will. I have not missed a day of writing in over seventy days. how I determined my purpose and how purpose has guided me to writing this book. I could write raps or lyrics for songs but I write motivational speeches because that is what is needed of me now. yet I write letters that total twenty pages. This is happening for me and through my journey many others will gain insight. 70 That is a life of purpose and the willingness to carry it out. I found that by speaking about what in essence is spiritual allows me to connect deeper with you and myself. I am purposeful because I am destined to fulﬁll a prescribed purpose. It is not for proﬁt. it is not the educational aspect. breadth and width my gifts have. I did not expect people to respond in that manner. it is the expression. content and context. Nevertheless. Will I continue to write. Within these pages are examples of how I live purposefully. That is my inspiration right now. until my ability to write from the soul stops I will seek to motivate. challenges or misses. purpose and self-realization. I love my fellow brothers and sisters and want for them what I want for myself.was surprised that it had that type of impact. Now I write a page a day. inspire and encourage all those who would beneﬁt from this God given talent. Think about times when you were challenged with death in your family or personally. Now I write daily with minimal strain.
With me it is to bring my body . When I am in the presence of souls who are close to the physical shedding of their bodies I found meaning in life and honor in dying. motivation and encouragement. repair or improvement. . It is my joy to be anointed with this calling. It is when we believe that our lives are purposeful that we ﬁnd peace and comfort in our bodies no matter the physical appearance. but it would not guarantee you the revealing of your purpose. it gave me limited insight into the living. you will gravitate towards the people. My desire to see the glory magniﬁed in my life prompts me to write and speak to all who can hear the promise of purpose in all of us. I can suggest that you trust in the power that brings redemption and guidance. places and things that will bring your efforts reality. all we need do is ask and believe it will be done. blessings of God and My calling is to manifest Gods' glory and will throughout the known lands in the bringing hope. Choosing to live requires you have a purpose. What you gain is far valuable than you could imagine. There is a purpose for each cause. My request for help is consistent with the scripture that says "Ask and you shall receive".something with your life. I believe in the There is present in all things the seeds of knowledge. I remember going to funeral parlors when I was in high school. Choosing it to be honorable is also purposeful and required. 71 Will the inspiration come to you without your summoning it? I say it is dependant upon your request. As you feel the power within you. Let your inner voice speak its truth."Ask and it shall be given unto you". Let me suggest you volunteer at a nursing home or a hospice. "Knock and the door shall be open unto you instructions present in the scriptural writings of all religions and cultures. My experience with receiving enlightenment and assistance in my search has been coupled with challenge and adversity. From within will come the blueprint for success in any areas that need attention.
It is a great opportunity to reﬂect and conceive ideas. My daily exercise regimen along with the rep schemes will be included in the bibliography.in line with my mind and purpose. 72 Faithfully with me adds to your passion for seeking knowledge. This starts with eating to assist in this resolve. We then must be clear about the direction to this end. We will began by associating pleasure rather than pain with the ﬁrst Step (1) visualization and clarity of God. First things ﬁrst. primarily women I know and how we will vibe or associate. I take into account the information I have on areas of physical improvement or exercising scheduling. . I am not the man who once thought he needed others to live or be happy and successful. My purpose remains inspirational. I choose to use it as a tool for empowerment. One has a conditioned response to hard work or what is outside of the comfort zone. You can develop plans for accomplishing goals and aspirations. My weight. As I write I gain assurance and faith in my ability to grow through these seven years. I reﬂect on associates. drink at least a gallon a day. I have a physical purpose that needs my focus also. The signiﬁcance of the seven years is very positive in its letter and spirit. When you rest at night. Each day that plan brings me closer to manifesting my purpose and calling. My life is mine to live. 73 The purpose of this exercise is to add to my personal well being and to add a physical ﬁtness component to this journey. no man made foodstuffs. My quiet time can be very beneﬁcial or derogatory. walk a minimum of two miles daily. several health publications listed were utilized for inspiration and physiological data. We must envision the body shape and style that we most feel is achievable. I use it for giving reﬂection to the way I want my life to develop. You can edit out information that is not consistent. My daily intake will be written down and utilized to determine what gives positive beneﬁt. My health is my focus. The renewal has begun and its completion date is analogous to the scriptures as stated and the physical cell theories. contemplate the gift of dream state. Therefore. The biggest obstacle is discipline and determination. Your efforts today assist in the victories of tomorrow. It is vital to the overall person to have clear purpose that guarantees results. height and measurements along with the beginning photo should give you adequate information for identiﬁcation and comparisons if helpful. This will give me the strength and energy to move towards my physical aspirations. my goal is to educate you through my experience and share with you my success and my obstacles. My choice to eat properly will beneﬁt you. Eating to fuel my body rather than for pleasure is the goal.
As the strength grows from the concentrated effort I will gain additional motivation. much will be asked of. run. My pen is guided by his magniﬁcent love. because without my faith and belief in God I would not exist as a writer or anything else for that matter.Step (2) eating foods that encourage and reward exercise. Resistance work. challenges and obstacles. Remove meat products. hope and inspiration. I suggest that you see all validation as reason to focus on the giver and provider of all things. These steps will carry me through the ﬁrst important phase of detachment and conscious eating. eating nourishing foods with having energy to lift. I began today with the idea that with this negative event I can draw I can draw great motivation. It is not written for bestseller accolades or Pulitzer prizes. and exercise. 74 It took an anchoring event like eating some [pork that changed my whole perspective on eating meat and processed foods. it is some indication as to how beneﬁcial it will be in three or four years. I am thoroughly unhappy with the resulting negativity. Give God the blessing and thanks for the words. The compliments we hear espoused from others can intoxicate if allowed to ferment in the ego. breath and everything else. My mentally nourishing food comes from the efforts of teaching and assisting others in getting their voices to paper. life. I submit. rows and deep knee bends. Step (3) walking at least (20) min. Dairy and drinking water throughout the day. Every time I think about pork I will remember how it affects my body and my presence. I now associate pleasure with not eating it and pain with eating it. The reward is in knowing I am helping others to achieve something. As I weather each storm of indecision or doubt I gain an equivalent example of how through faith and optimism I ﬁnd my way to victory. For me it is God and through my love for God I am realized and guided to the path that will support my cause and allow me to maximize my opportunities in this life. My activity level has increased over the last two days. This is what I seek to share with you. I now associate the beneﬁts from eating to live. . My wife will undoubtedly beneﬁt from my experiences. It is said who much is given. daily or aerobic exercise. The same with exercise. pushups.
width and breadth of this talent. . My days are ﬁlled with optimism and faith.75 The giant within has encouraged me to develop the gifts I have and to understand the blessing before me. My outreach has proven invaluable in educating me to the depth. Therefore. There is but one road in my life and that road is consistent with Gods calling for me. The search for self has enlightened me to other areas of my life. The next three years will undoubtedly bring additional awareness and insight. Do I look to have that in my life again? No! I treasure the path and opportunity before me. My blessings are many. I have seen nothing to encourage me to trust that my talents and gifts would be treated with the love in which they are surely derived from. I can envision success in all my endeavors. Its been my experience that when I choose to do something it gets done. I spend time detailing these questions to myself. The detractors and doubters are always out in force. I realize how developing my perception can only be trusted to me. The sly disguise of opportunity has not been able to keep me from seeing crisis and adversity for what it is. you cannot allow them to rent space in your mind. sometimes very slowly but it does get done. My ability to write assists me greatly in bringing my voice to paper. My purpose will be realized in spite of the circumstances or environment. My decision to read voraciously the books that encourage my growth has manifested the promise of immense purpose and conﬁdence. I trust that God will always support me in my efforts to bring my voice and gifts to fruition. I have read where the beliefs I hold will bear fruit when I turn them into convictions. I know my journey was not with the movements and organizations of my experience. Since detailing how relevant it is to be speciﬁc about ones purpose I have reaped enormous beneﬁt and accomplishment. During this period I expect that I will be creating and formulating business plans and concepts which speaks to my essence. I reﬂect back on that time as a critical point in my life. I do not see there is another way to live your life. The prayer I made back in my home some three years ago has begun to bear fruit. Let God lead you in all that you aspire to and trust with all your being that you will see it into fruition. 76 My choices of people and company represent that clearly. It is here that I gave up the thirst for the lifestyle of the wicked and deceived ones. I believe that my prayers are being answered.
My decision to change and commit has allowed me the opportunity to claim my aspirations and purpose. I no longer look to humankind for the validation it could never give. It is very critical that I learn from the experience.My gift has been revealed as a direct result of my prayers and my conscience. I know that for many my lifestyle was attractive and worth working towards. as I am unable to speak in person. I did not receive a response but writing it clariﬁed for me the expectations I have for my educational needs. I want you to know where my focus is as I move through this journey. skepticism and some self-esteem issues. I believe it ﬁrst happens on the inside then it happens on the outside. I am thankful for God who chooses me to bring forth such powerful blessings and testaments. procrastination. to be destroyed ﬁrst spiritually then physically? My sensitivity spiritually was what saved me. Thank God and my Grandmother for connecting me to the love of God early in my life. My mission has expanded since it's writing and I have plans to develop it some more. it was not the pleasurable experience for me and that is what counted to me. My writing is speaking for me. I was asked to conceive a concept for the graduation ceremony here and I was able to draft it in forty minutes I included it in the following pages. I was inspired by this concept. Mentally I was looking at what was happening and saying this must change. I spoke earlier about my mission statement and I have included it in the following pages. I wrote a letter to Cambridge College. I did not see my life as being consistent with what my inner voice was saying to me every day. had that not happened along with several other critical events I'm sure I would be entirely different. ." Inward Reﬂection Outward Action". 77 The last few months I have been writing about purpose and my efforts have been varied. because I recognized the violation that was going on. I am conﬁdent that through my trials you will ﬁnd examples that will strengthen your climb. My past efforts were not realized due to doubt. My ideals are very focused and attainable. I mirror that to how eating ﬂesh also carries with it the residual pain and horror the animal must have felt in its wait to be killed. I shared these thoughts during the ceremony in an inspirational segment I was asked to ﬁll. Nevertheless. It was my non-sensory perception that made the most noise about my lifestyle. which is enclosed. You will experience with me the victory that will surely come. and it was not returned. I felt the pain of each interaction. Was this to be my destiny also. How great it is to be loved by God. My clarity in this area needed to be clearly expressed.
78 Tuesday. This experience at times made me bitter but ultimately I became a better person and a determined advocate for change in me. Faithfully this letter comes at a time when you are in good health and your spirits are high. James McDaniel Cambridge College 1000 Massachusetts Avenue Cambridge. it inspired me to write to you and express my thoughts and aspirations. I am very effective in alleviating crisis because I am aware of the services available and I identify with the person experiencing the crisis. McDaniel Admissions Representative Subject: letter of Introduction. without it I would still be questioning what I want in life. These writings are included to assist you in understanding my journey and my strategies for accomplishing my purpose. Through it I am able to afﬁrm daily my roots and my fruits.The start of my efforts to change included this vital document. Through my example I envision assisting others to process adversity and realize their mission. 2002 Mr. I have processed crisis in many of its disguises. dysfunctionalism. I recently received the Cambridge College brochure from a friend. I have been told that I was the best person for the job at an interview at Pine Street Inn located here in Boston. April 16. I have encountered obstacles in bringing my gift of oral and written communication to the masses that could beneﬁt from my experiences. Faithfully you ﬁnd value in them. incarceration. I always felt that the crisis I was living through would one day assist others. In particular it has taught me to face adversity and challenge with a purposeful outlook. My life has been full of experiences that have seasoned me and strengthened me. Massachusetts 02138 Dear Mr. My vision then became focused on acquiring the . I have worked with people in crisis at several crisis intervention centers in the greater Boston area. addiction. homelessness. and many other manifestations of challenge. but the grant would not pay a non-degreed applicant.
U-Mass Boston. Presently I am incarcerated and unable to attend the campus. the Masters in Counseling Psychology with focus on Addiction Studies and Non Proﬁt ship organizational skills. 79 I am interested in your Access Program. I would like to know more about your distant learning program. I have credits from three different colleges. at least 20 halfway houses detoxes and shelters. My mission statement is attached with this letter. This incarceration represents for me the answer to that prayer. What's more important and of value to many are my experiences within over 15 correctional institutions. Devens. Boston State.C. I have attended a few colleges during my years of crisis. About three years ago I realized that my life was not worth living as it was.M. and Roxbury Community College. Faithfully this request ﬁnds fertile ground and bears the fruit of compassion and understanding. I believe that Cambridge College can help me and it is to this end I reach out with these words.empowerment classes here at F. State and Federal. Presently I teach self. Faithfully this letter gives you some insight into my sincere desire to bring forth my inner purpose and mission. My past has given me incredible faith. Please ﬁnd it in your heart to assist me in this worthy journey. Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated.required papers. runaway houses and lock-ups. I asked god to help me get back to a life of purpose no matter what the cost. I am of the belief that the universe will . County. Several youth intervention centers. and I am involved in knowledge acquisition that is consistent with my stated goals. I have forty months remaining on my sentence and I want very much to prepare myself to utilize my gifts to the fullest. I feel that your college offers the environment and curriculum that ﬁts my career and educational goals perfectly. purpose and passion. Actually there are other areas of interest but I feel this is the best place for me to start.
That which we think about often becomes our reality. Thank you for your time and for the inspiring brochure that prompted me to express this essential request. Sincerely. purposeful individuals or we can allow the winds of indecision to continue to blow us off our path. which is only the ﬁrst step in a lifelong process of goal assignment and goal achievement. Kevin W. Thomas 81 . you know you can achieve whatever you put your mind too. it will also present a opportunity to work with people who share this passionate effort of outreach and self-realization. If you do not know the next step reﬂect back on today's theme. We can choose to be effective. Do not underestimate the value in the valley. It has been said that thing to waste. Thomas 80 THEME IN REFLECTION AND OUTWARD ACTION Our need to address the issues of our life requires that we look within and ask the questions only we can answer. Faithfully these words ﬁnd fertile soil and increase in you a willingness to till the fertile soil of the mind. You must be very speciﬁc about your desires. Decide today that you will speciﬁ. a terrible write them down in the form of a mission statement and read it in the morning and again before you go to rest at night. In closing I wish you continued success and eternal happiness. Your efforts has produced a victory. the degree offered at Cambridge College will not only assist me in this goal. inward reﬂection and outward action. I ask that you rely on faith and knowledge. now is the time to take the next step. As we reﬂect on our desires let us use our imagination to envision the dreams we hold within. Kevin W. Qftentimes opportunity wears the disguise of adversity and challenge. This will assist you in developing a rich consciousness. The day has come to be that person you have often dreamed about. It is in the mind that you develop the plan required to a mind is accomplish your stated goal. My purpose is to help all those who present a need. Today is the culmination of a mission. and discern your inner wishes and once again do the work necessary to bring them to fruition. viable.provide for a need that is consistent with a purposeful goal.
dreams and goals. No amount of fear. doubt or insecurity will deter me. My days are received with gratitude and . I am conﬁdent that I can utilize my gill throughout the world community. encourage and motivate people who desire enlightenment and change. Acknowledgement of these laws allows me to utilize them to a positive fruitful ending. That gift is the ability to inspire. the strongest emotion of all. In addition. I continue to be faithful. and service to others. I believe there are many people who could beneﬁt from my unique gill. which will undoubtedly lead me to my destination. My personal choice is to be happy and faithful. I offer my abilities to the world family and it is with enormous faith and courage I embark on this worthy journey. My desire is to express myself through music. I know there are many other frontiers to experience and I envision success in those journeys as well. I pray for my fellow brothers and sisters that in hearing this mission statement that you crystallize in you a purpose that speaks to your heart and that you aspire to it with great effort and faith. Your prayer of support will be greatly appreciated and will add to the rich conscious in which this mission statement arose. outreach. In particular I am highly aware of the services available in the greater Boston area. Faithfully adding to the ethers additional love and optimism in the belief that ultimately good will prevail and we all will realize the love we were conceived in. Thomas 82 My purpose is to live my life with passion and direction. Kevin W. It is this destination. Knowing they work for the bad as well as the good reminds me that I must be steadfast and focused. hopeful and optimistic that through my service to others I will realize my aspirations. "give me someone in crisis and a phone and I will alleviate that crisis.MISSION STATEMENT My mission is to bring my individual gills and talents to fruition. which serves to inspire and direct me. I have decided to live according to my inner voice. It is through positive thought and the laws of the universe that I see my path unfolding before me. My intimate understanding of crisis and its many disguises offers me an opportunity to alleviate and develop protocol before it can destroy or maim. When it is all said and done I will have manifested my purpose and mission for the time given me here on this small planet. My motto has always been. it is to this end that I pour my energies and talents with the belief that I have already accomplished this worthy endeavor.
thanksgiving because I know I do not have to wake every morning. I Honor them. some bring spiritual or physical attraction or combinations thereof. with a choice of mates its simple. Your mission becomes her mission. My daily effort is to bring my abilities and talents to this opportunity. My choice is to read often about how I can do a better job of sharing and preparing. I am no longer attached to the surface issues of material wealth for inner satisfaction. I am constantly faced with the question of this or that. why choose when each person brings something unique to the equation. . I am always conscious and present with the realities of my desires. Some bring emotional or mental challenge. She supports you in all your efforts. denying them for external reasons rather than internal reasons. My God that ﬁlls me with breath and divine intelligence. I have desire and imagination that feeds my mind with dreams and goals. My choice is to experience the vast joys of life without becoming attached to it. purposeful direction and optimism. I know what I want comes from my inner need to be used as a tool for empowerment and motivation. When I reﬂect on the beauty of kissing or sex I begin to relish the inﬁnite possibilities. Through inspirational writings and speaking efforts I will uplift and empower others and self to realize these aspirations. The absence of external support or love dims in the internal support and love. abilities and talents with others. I envision variety and originality. The structure is one of faith in god coupled with self-love. your children. My life is an opportunity and so is yours. mentally and emotionally talented people. I have been prepared for this opportunity. A wife is different. What you provide is more than enough. I question constantly the relevancy and usefulness but never the origin. The light from within illuminates my mind with contentment and happiness. spiritual. She is what brings you your legacy. 83 The task before me remains achievable. My purpose is to share this phenomenon with you. 84 Thoughts Time passes and I fathom the depths of my life's purpose. There are inﬁnite amounts of beautiful. Determine my direction and then travel towards it. My purpose is to avail myself to them and meld my gifts. follow your heart and mind to where it leads you. Contribute to the development of your ideal ending. she is someone who becomes a helpmate. Each day is another opportunity. It is my calling.
Actually my ability to do things. Now as for eating for fueling the body and health. I also know that this is a sign that I am gaining the edge and my conﬁdence is growing with each victory. I am comfortable with the growth I am making. My elimination improved quickly once I stopped eating the red meat and pork and increased my vegetables especially broccoli and beets which were available. pain or pleasure. The peaceful environment of the cube alone supports my cleanliness. I am referring to material and physical desires that require me to compromise my mission. The minimum needed to survive has been signiﬁcantly reduced by examples living . Sure in life I am confronted with challenges and I contemplate the result. Without the polarity I would not ﬁnd reference from which to reﬂect or position myself. 85 This book is my perspective and the inspiration of others thoughts will also be expressed. They are the bumps in the road and even when I fall asleep at the wheel I do not perish or ﬁnd injury. The attachment to the body will magnify the reality of these life giving external issues. hike the fact that I just go right to it now. My purpose is to do this for me and to not let the illusion of Big Key determine my level of happiness or health. My efforts to materialize my purpose do not mean I will reattach my self to the shackles of the world. From now on I will not sign my name with the thought of big as in unhealthy but rather big in healthy ways. Which one will dominate the event? According to this evaluation I will either do it or refrain from it. The blessings of air. My readings about this decision have buffeted me with poise and gratitude for the ability to gain my physical health and strength. I am able to rest my three hundred pounds into a bent knee position without discomfort. The varied levels of cooking kept me beneﬁting from the roughage. I see very much being done. food. which were uncomfortable and unstable.Could it be that there are external forces encouraging me to adjust and possibly detour from the original plan? Yes there is and there is a good reason for that. My strength has been very good the times I have trained for strength. The inverted eating program I chose will produce results. My water drinking goals are also improving. water and shelter are provided to all. My cardio goals are next. has become a joy and a source of motivation. only awareness and experience from which I draw my conclusions and paths for the next opportunity. I welcome the challenge of the netherworld for without them I would not ﬁnd my way. My resolve is also growing from the steady improvement. the compromise has been counterproductive somewhat.
There remains strong opposition to the work I do yet my God is my sword and my protector. My thoughts continue to be of inner peace and outward reﬂection of that peace though service. entrepreneurship. I have overcome in spite of the adversities and that is positive. My best efforts are in front of me for sure. Being very clear about what is consistent and what is not. Several places in my mind seek expression through music. community issues and health just to name a few. The more I read the more positive I get. 1 rather . creative expression and love of all. My history has pain and pleasure in it. permeate and eradicate. I am a seeker of truth. My goal is to remain purpose orientated and highly focused on the accomplishment of my inner calling. my unknowing will be made known. My best failures are behind me. My longings or desires are not of this world. I am sure that the path is consistent with the voice. I need not hold onto or cling to anything. 86 My purpose continues to motivate me to speak effectively about issues like personal ﬁnance. My love is in teaching and guiding by example and truth. I am glad I am perceived as someone who can help people get the help they need. There is no opposition or enemy. My home does not require me or me it. I am seeking God. I am not armed.amongst us. its where my spirit rests. My challenges are also positive. Seeking to be free of anger and ill thoughts conﬁrms my purposeful truth. Home Depot or Gold's Gym cannot create me. My purpose is to motivate. outreach and volunteerism. I have a lot of love and positivism to share. I can go as far as I see. I am faithful and steadfast. It is not I and I am not it. arts. 87 My purpose leads me to write today to several people who are supportive of my efforts. What is mine will always be mine and all else will ﬁnd no home in me. my purpose is Gods purpose. My body is my present home. intimacy. I could focus on those who do not write but it would be of no signiﬁcance. I shall be faithful and through my faith my purpose shall be revealed. God designed and built my house. I am without it. My purpose embraces this as my mission. educate. I am Gods creation and I am with everything I need to have.
I told them I have ﬁve jobs. the unit ofﬁcer and Mr. my counselor. My day was inspiring and motivating. as I came out of the unit bldg I paused and stood near a group of ofﬁcers. I ﬁnd myself reaching out to Grace. When 1 see her now it is in ways 1 did not see before. Bradshaw asked me did I want to work for the commissary. We are supportive and enjoy one another's company. associations and relationships. Most importantly there is a young woman named Grace who 1 have known for almost 13 years. She ﬁnds the time we spent together enjoyable and satisfying. Brenda is sending me intellectual feelers that are ﬁne. 88 My purposeful experience today was envisioning me earning money from working at the commissary. There is Brenda who Tanya introduced to me. My position outside at that time conﬁrms for me the Universal Laws of Attraction are at work. There is Mattie who is my sister's friend. I would deﬁnitely spend much more time with grace when the situation allows it. 1 am grateful for the place these women have made for me in their lives. love and good tidings. as I need to be loved. She feels that she can love me. 1 honor the education and recreation departments and the many people who have contributed to my growth through their friendships. There is Caren who I have known for 8 mOnths and who supports my growth through outreach. My thoughts are of friendship and 1 have told her so. I have known her about 7 'A years. Caren is sure that she will make a big impact in my life. I paused and then said yes. Her essence is very powerful. The salary from the commissary and suicide watch will help pay my tuition.talk about people places and things that support my purpose. They called me over and asked where I worked. I have not been intimate with all of these women. What I am doing now is paying $17.00 .00 monthly and 420. Bradshaw who turned out to be the head of the commissary hiring. The question remains do I want to work doing food sales and stocking shelves. The money would allow for post secondary education. magazine subscriptions to music and entrepreneurial opportunities. There is Sakeena who in her youth of 30 years has been delegated to little sister status that she does not like. Sakeena is waiting to be invited back in. Mr. My desire to acquire my Associates and Bachelor degrees while incarcerated is ﬁnding assistance.
She is due to come up this weekend. I believe by being clear about my thoughts and feelings that I walk the talk. which I believe. rest and drink plenty of water. I would need to eat right. Caren will realize that I will always be honest with her and I will not buy into a relationship that is not full of love for others. My truth is based on my needs and wants. want and remembrance of their true essence and purpose in life. sincerity and clarity. 90 . photos and education. My goal is to eliminate sugar and red meat. I know it is what I believe and see although others may have different perspectives of my truth. I see I Sakeena's daughters' face the same ﬁre and desire for that which created us. show and encourage in others a desire. I will share my time and life with her as it is drawn. My responsibility to myself requires that I live by example and send out what I would like in return. Presently I ﬁnd my relationship with Grace to be consistent with my responsibility. I envision people being straight with me about their feelings so that I do not have to guess or ponder if my feelings are being understood. My time spent with self will take precedence over all other activities. It is my purpose to love and guide people to the path that illuminates their consciousness towards God. purpose. I would have to manage my time effectively. path. I enjoyed the two miles in the morn and the one in the evening. I will be grateful for the opportunity to share my love for God with her.hour days and hours that would interfere with Hospice. I live according to the principles. God and self. I have devoted time and energy to this effort. The time schedule could conﬂict if it requires twelve. need. It was returned with words of denial and non-belief. mission and love for god. It would lock me into one job with weekends for photos and drum classes.monthly from photos. will complement my search. However I could beneﬁt greatly from the challenge and I would provide for the needs I have. My correspondence with Caren has increased steadily. My walk today was very beneﬁcial. and values I ﬁnd honorable and worthy. 89 Today my new acquaintance Caren wrote me expressing her understanding that I am not prepared to commit to her in more then a loving understanding based in God and in doing the work of God. My journey may be of an independent nature yet I am responsible to teach. I see her efforts as serious and supportive. My words to her mother were of honesty.
There are no obstacles other than those miscreated by my mind. 91 My gratitude touches me in a special way. I will teach. motivate and uplift through my words and speaking. Hearing a young man named Mase speak about his revelation inspired me. Possibly going to school or taking a correspondence course will assist me in obtaining a position or degree. My effort to research and hone my skills is dependent on my future success with empowering all people. Amico about Christ and my search. I am being revealed. Today I felt the spirit we share wisdom and strongly. My calling is to realize my mission and purpose. My search is fraught with scripture and sage wisdom. Through teaching I learn. Who I am was determined a long time ago. inspire. Our love for one another was obvious and it caused me to treasure parables that the love of God as it expressed itself in all of us. doubt or ignorance of my truth. Caren was suggesting my ministry is in the works. Mase was saying that there is nothing that could . and through expressing my truth to others I faithfully lead them to search within for their truth that is the most pleasurable and knowledgeable feeling possible. I sought to express my warm my soul excitement to Mr. Particularly the ﬁve books recommended to me in Iyanla continues to be a valuable teaching reference. My perspective is clearer than before. Through my outreach I am reached and through my love I am loved. It and encourage my spiritual longing. The "I-Ching" and the 1 Vanzants book" Yesterday "Autobiography of I Cried". I know that I am going to return to my origin eventually and I am grasping the concept of moving on and how it allows me to serve my god every day and in every way. My miracle is unfolding. I am grateful for clarity in it gives me focus.Today my purpose envisioned sharing my zeal for the joy I felt about god and how my miscreations and ego had blended me to truth and essence. It will allow me to pay for tuition and books towards my associate's degree. Truth has traversed his life and he sees himself living according to his calling. My blessings are many and much will be required of me. My position there will be reduced in hours now that I will be working in the commissary. I think a conversation with the educational staff enlightens each of us. Through the eyes of a child I must look without fear. My sharing of this knowledge steels it a Yogi" bring within me. I do not see any faltering in this life's endeavor. I feel that my gifts are appreciated and respected.
I believe all of us are created in love yet I believe that the miscreation of negativity rests deeply in many. The prayer which asks God to reveal the love we have for him/her and the love she has for us and behold in awe of Gods answer. James.explain to another what he seen or felt when his truth. The beauty of god rests in the women I see attraction. mission or goal which I feel so strong about that I will give my life if required to accomplish it. Here you will see the stages of construction. My musical desires and intuitive suggestions will maximize the opportunities prevalent in the musical industry as well as increase my personal love for playing the drum set. Jimmy and all those whose names I have yet to remember. My faith in love exceeds my faith in some people. It is not how they see it. I welcome you to any of these establishments. I am destined to fulﬁll my aaas Center and my musical ambitions as well as my ﬁtness and restaurant goals. I took breath and physical presence to write this letter/page for my book. For me loving everyone as it mirrors god. My consulting and motivational techniques will produce physically and spiritually ﬁt people of all ages. its how I see it. As a leader of my Non-Proﬁt organization I will frontier search for ways to facilitate empowerment and self-realization through my creative and articulation blessings. development or present operating business video clips. There is presence in children and audiences. Naming these ventures and creative expressions after my ancestors brings to these aspirations the help and guidance of all my ancestors. yes we are witnesses to miracles and we ask what as if more detail will clarify the truth that will set us free needs to be revealed by another. My incarceration means dying to the attachment of material and personal possessions that I once relished . Joe. our truth revealed itself. My gifts and abilities will ﬂourish in these environments. 93 /read several times that in effect you will come to ﬁnd something in life worth dying for. To check on the grand openings and progress of each one. My cooking and love of creativity once again allows me to bring pleasure to others through my cooking. My every word and thought is known. They are all based in love of and for others. The thoughts and ability was placed there a long time ago. Hollie. Come with me as I explore these individual callings. gmmps. I took that to mean that in my life I will stand for a purpose. grandma. Michael. K&G Enterprises.com. log on to the web-site www. 92 Being in love is very. very confusing for some and life afﬁrming to all. Ask often of your needs and do be prepared to receive it. The illusion.
I want my focus 100% and give my love to the developing relationship. goals and desires. When you reﬂect back on the days of possession you will smile with a knowing that the death you feared was necessary for your growth and happiness. run towards it. I am developing a process that will eliminate the second. Her being in a relationship did not seem to matter. I knew the life of un-attachment and I remember it as being without or deprived. it is the beginning of a life of continued purpose. Don not run from it. The tears may come of sadness only to be replaced by the tears of joy in knowing you are free. if it is a commitment. I am right about not letting the relationship between me and Caren develop into an illusion or false item. In dying this death I found life again. .guessing of my ﬁrst thoughts. The death I spoke of above is consistent with freedom. it happened with Grace at ﬁrst. It is because of this renewed relationship I made it clear to Caren. then the absence made her contemplate her decision. Change will arise from this process that rejuvenation. 94 My other or rather only true purpose is to love until there is no other end. it must be respected. My experience proved life afﬁrming and beneﬁcial change. They have no true value. If my needs are not met. It is uncomfortable and withdrawal symptoms will embrace you as you let go. My concerns are that we build one brick at a time. then time must be given for my help-mate to include them and adjust. the value is to the seller because it allows them to buy from another which allowing the meaningless circle to continue. Wisdom shall embrace you and you will know the truth. no need for rushing. Love is the cost of living on purpose. Now I understand that each of my needs must ﬁrst be made clear. Each time I reach for words I sometimes contemplate the exactness of my chosen words rather then just saying what comes ﬁrst. My trust and faith in love allowed me to feel excellent about telling the truth and standing by what I felt was right. My past perspective steels my present perspectives. then I must state that I am unwilling to allow the need to be unmet. I do not recall having anyone who I loved without having another means to satisfy my unfed desires or needs. Being content to create in your life oodles and oodles of love. joy and true happiness. She may not agree and it is possible that she has withdrawn her support. as was the cadence with Caren. now she writes and visits. I feel that no matter the level of love. There will be rejoicing and gladness. Death is not the end. The same applies to her needs. I expect that to happen. not understanding that not being in possession of worldly items is actually very beneﬁcial to the spirit.as important and so vital to my happiness and position. I implore you to search your life for areas where you must embrace change and allow the renewing process to bring forth your purpose.
I love from a reservoir of love that God created within me. Our visit expresses her love and dreams. Providing a home was even included in this package. My women did not have to work. I would hustle or work and take care of the bills. When I no longer was available to pay the women left and took what she felt she had earned. My hope is that Caren ﬁnds someone who will give to her what she seeks. So I am more wiser about having clarity about my needs and realistically looking at it and if it is possible to acquire within the framework of the relationship. I know I am a man who loves God and others and it's basic concept that empowers me to love her immensely. This has awakened me to an understanding that precedes the relationship I am now in. The desire to continue this effort had waned because of the introduction of a job and an expected increase in time restraints. I associate pleasure in its ability to pay me more and the . I love her from within and I feel the love present in her. illegally mostly and it provide for material gifts or cost of living. 95 Grace is willing to have children for us and I am very comfortable with her doing so. I am adjusting to the added workload. The only mail I really look to have or get is from people who sincerely realize love is the only goal worth striving for. 96 Time to get back on the horse in many ways. I bring to my relationship with Grace the whole package.Then I move on or contemplate compromise if possible so that some of the need is met. It is with great pleasure that I envision the consummation of our love rewarding each of us with the union we both have asked for. integrity. Maybe being without a mate who sees supporting and helping one another as being important. I have always hustled. then on the outside. I believe she must realize she has everything now. As I was saying earlier about being cherished for your essence and not your essentials. It starts ﬁrst on the inside. loyalty and honor. It is very beneﬁcial to my preparation. My schedule has changed dramatically. my queen has her vision and agrees with many others that a house is not a home without a mate who shares your vision and supports you through the practice of ethics. I now go to work 7:30 two times a week and on one of those days it is a 15-hour day. My desire is to be a father with a plan for nurturing and loving guidance as its precursor.
98 . It also requires more physical effort and I have been anticipating the opportunity to develop an 8 hr. The external being temporal conﬁrms my desire to be connected from within. The purpose of my life is multi-faceted. Ambition. wife. forgiveness and the philosophy of the sages and enlightened people I ﬁnd purposeful avenues for my innate gifts and talents. I have been writing to my woman and to two other writing associates. My personal choice fulﬁlls all the needs I have for a supportive helpmate. vision and desire should stand out as guideposts. I gave you titles to some of the books that have inspired me. lover and friend. I encourage you to attend seminars and listen to motivational and inspirational speakers.beneﬁts are nice. I found that these relationships are mutually healing and stimulating. It is about living my life and doing the things that encourage my growth spiritually. will formulate several collaborations and partnerships in the effort to globalize the mission of G. My ancestors will ﬁnd peace in knowing I have realized their presence. It is good to be writing again and it is a lesson in prioritizing time for this effort. cigarettes or alcohol. I am encouraging you to see that this choice is well thought out and god approved. It is about being there prepared to work. The suicide watch and ACE classes continue to fulﬁll essential needs. Pick the mate who supports your dreams and whose life is consistent with your path. Fill your mind with thoughts of success and accomplishment. See your dreams come true. It is in this realm that I ﬁnd myself living from.s agency. My relationship with grace is on the internal level where I ﬁnd it promising and true to my needs. I implore you to ﬁnd a mentor who supports the levels of your life. It also would allow me to save some money and pay my way while my sister and mother take care of my home. The many variations of physical attributes only get in the way of my true calling.O. from here all my other ventures will grow. Even if its only one page. The need to deny this fact has been blasted with countering facts. The job entails stocking my shelves and inventory. My body will manifest the command of god and the spirit of god. No drugs. workday for the probation period that will possibly come once I am released.O. I have immense faith that I will accomplish the aims I have in place. The most focused goal is G. the week is ﬁlled with opportunity. and emotionally. 97 As I read more about peace. mentally. K&G Enterprises Inc.s agency. love and protection. In all things give praise to god through your love and reverence for gods grace. I am blessed and conscious of my creator.D. I remain grateful.D. I realize that I have much to give to this opportunity of life.
The many angles can be held from up high and waved goodbye. My daily mission is to do some beneﬁcial service to and for others.My purpose continues to motivate others and faithfully me. The naysayers are present. It is our guiding light. Because in all victories Gods name will be referred to. It also is to love unconditionally from within. so does love come from my essence through my physical representation. 99 Between my helpmate and me I envision accomplishment and manifestation of all my goals and preparation of the groundwork for the legacy I envision. I spend most of the day involved in activity consistent with my mission. When I reﬂect on the beauty of love and all its manifestations I can envision my life as an example of that power of love. The ego again reaches for what cannot be grasped. . god will be the truth that carries the lifeblood of everything now and then. I know I must take action and do something about it. Taking full advantage of the gill of choice. However. and love is the soil that encourages not only my growth but also the quality of my fruit? As I seek to bring the truth I am confronted by those that want to be fronting. but in silence I prepare. My helpmate has her vision and it is consistent with what I want to get accomplished so we again ﬁnd common ground. her man and her children. because my roots are love. slow and slippery when wet signs as I move towards the destination which is very speciﬁc. Empowerment and motivation will lead the way. My blessing of a mate at this phase of my challenge offers me the balance and supportive ally that I am sure I will nee as I climb the steps to fulﬁllment of my dreams and the will of god. Project onto others goodness and success. My dependence on God is conﬁrmation that I know he will deliver. The external efforts are always in line with what's being said within. There will never be a stable place for lies or deception to gain a foundation within my being. My occasional miscreation is met with determination and clarity. mission and god. love. As an apple comes from an apple tree. The truth has shined light into the dark comers and from here on I will be enlightened and emblazoned with the armor of truth. purpose. One that will continue working to the betterment of peoples lives. Thank God for clarity of purpose. My day is ﬁlled with optimism and hope. I push pass these stop. it does not recognize the determined brother with the vision of purpose coupled with a mission. it is my strength and I am my woman's strength and we are our children's strength. My ego may attempt to convince me to follow its lead but I am gaining on it by realizing it is not I and through the practice of humility and self-love. Then it is supporting the mutual dreams understanding that the love comes ﬁrst and the happiness comes from the internal calling. Her ambition is ﬁrst rooted in love of god. not hesitant or stagnated by the misogynist illusions. Living by example and demonstrating great faith will attract many to the fold of God. It is to learn about my self.
It is through this medium of communication that I am spoken to and the way I speak to others. It is an individual choice. My choice is God and Love.
One Hundred stood out today as I was pulling orders at my job in the commissary. It was very purposeful. I now reﬂect on the number because it also happens to be the number of this page. I ﬁnd these events to be purposeful in their subtle yet stark inferences. As I live this life of purpose I ﬁnd new tools to add to my toolbox. Eating no meat stands out as a potent opportunity for afﬁrming my purpose and for regaining control over the horses of temptation. Today it found soy to be a strategically placed substitute for meat on the line at dinner. It tasted good and the texture was consistent with the ﬂavor. I unintentionally have found a means to fulﬁll my desire, decision and choice to cease eating animals. To refrain from allowing my body to be a graveyard. Today I realized I am ready. I enjoyed soy today; the taste was so much better than the meat. The eggs, cheese and milk also must go. Vegetables, grains as in breads and whole wheat rice. Also plenty of water, nuts and beans. I am conscious of the beneﬁts and long for the elimination beneﬁts. This is an issue as it adds to the quality of life.
There are also beneﬁts of a non-meat/meat products intake. I believe that through these efforts I will realize the peace of mind. What is your purpose? Is it to be free of enslavement of food, alcohol, drugs and sex? If any of these stand out as issues for you I suggest you choose one and say that's it and reinforce your decision with reading and listening to supportive information. I started many efforts and each day brings satisfaction in that I am making progress in many areas. Forgive me if I have illustrated issues that were sensitive.
My purpose remains to be loving to all in particular to my grace. Who would have known that I would come to love her as I do? I never planned to love her like this, although I did not try hard not too. I believe her calling was heard and received by me with a resounding Yes Lord, Thank God.
During a time when most are going away from me she is fast approaching and offering love and support. When I speak to her I remember what it is like to be loved unconditionally and with expectation. Now at this point the thoughts are not of writing about purpose literally, maybe subliminally, but deﬁnitely not directly. As I have felt
lately that the writings have not been about the technical or instructional perspective. My life's experiences have been written as they happen and I am sure that through this effort you will ﬁnd some value or signiﬁcant example to draw upon. That is my hope, my responsibility is to write regularly each day and to that end I remain committed. Faithfully you will understand that these thoughts are of my inner life, I want to share my victories and missteps. I believe that the relationship I share with Grace stands out as super fantastic because I am so ready for a woman who is loving yet visionary. She has her life but she also wants to contribute to the unity and strength of a family. She welcomes life and she has been called to expand the love of me to allow my gifts to ﬁnd expression. At least I believe in the high ideal of purpose as it relates to our close supportive relationship. I envision life coming from this union and love being the most vital element of my universe.
Purpose is an attitude, it is a perspective, it demands that you live according to its calling. Before its introduction you live in darkness, like the womb, waiting delivery. All the work is done in silence; there is much going on during this time. Following your heart becomes very important. Your purpose is as big as you envision it. I look to ﬁnd inspiration from books to spur me on. It is as if the recent writing efforts have been arduous and tedious. However, it is my purpose to write and to speak with the source of my words coming from God the Holy Spirit. There is but one truth and it is a truth I refer to as I seek to keep clear with you the obstacles and challenges this book creates. Actually it is not the book it is the miscreation that before starting this book I often thought I was not truly capable of maintaining interest or writing stuff that people could not only relate too but also ﬁnd interesting and motivational. I now leave the end product up to you and I just tell the truth, my truth, which is my reality. I do not separate the will of God for me from the will of the world. I have been tempted often to stray from my beliefs, but I always found my foundation to be strong and committed to loving God my way. Living from this place is sacred and fulﬁlling. Many have asked or commented on the presence of God in my daily expressions or behaviors. I must insist that what they ﬁnd in me is also in them. Speaking to people who love God assists the process of germinating the truth that the love and will of God is within all of us and there is no separating this. You can run but you will only run to yourself repeatedly.
Time and time again I look at the rewards of seeking the path, which speaks to my essence. I wanted this life very badly; I wanted to return to this path.
Now that I am on it, maybe I will recognize the blessings as proof positive that I am nearing the goal and mission. Each day I feel more of me coming forward, I compare the attitude, behavior with the words and thoughts I feel within. When they are disharmonious I recognize the difference and move quickly towards thinking differently. Not allowing any negativity to sit with me but to roll away from me as I deftly move towards my purpose. When I receive love from others I used to feel guilt or feelings of confusion, almost denying the person the right to feel this way. I accept love now and I give love, as it is my soul, which speaks for me either through the ethers or the communication channels. I have returned antie, putting actions, I can foresee life, I am often privy to information and I am a witness to the thoughts manifesting. I am a channel for good only. My response to the outpouring of love is to return love 20x fold. I am relieved to know that I am present in the process. Love does rest within the bosom, not anger. I love others and it is perfectly all right. I would be committed to a woman through the ceremony I prepared. Each person has a place in the overall scheme of things. Knowing that love is the unifying element, that is my purpose, and I will never deny it to another or deny its presence in my life from another. I asked to be returned to a life of love and purpose and I feel this has happened 20x over. I am aware of the blessing and I am grateful eternally.
Is it to be rich, yes spiritually and lovingly, not materially. I read books which encourage the pursuit of money and I ﬁnd it to be appealing on many levels. I do feel obliged to spend my life acquiring it. I feel its draw is superﬁcial, as its acquisition has proven. Many times I have been there only to ﬁnd it satisfying. I am working now towards building my spiritual wealth.
I am walking towards true riches. After witnessing the lies, deception and criminal lifestyle I know it is not for me. My role models have exhibited some wealth but my ideals are not material wealth producing but they do produce spiritual wealth. My goal is to fulﬁll my ambition to open G.O.D.s agency and to offer health and spiritual growth through the vehicles of outreach and entrepreneurship. Opening homeopathic healing centers that focus on the minds healing power and restaurants that serve energy foods and healing foods to supplement the minds ability to heal. Music venues which allows the spirituals to be played and enjoyed. And the opportunity to bring the elixirs of the gods to fruition, laughter. I believe I can get all of this done and its to this end I seek understanding of the principles of ﬁnancial knowledge. God's will determines my success and need. I place the prayer and thought before the alter and believe as I do that it will be manifest. As I read about the riches being made by people who do not factor God into the equation I realize that it is an illusion and not lasting. I build my plans on the foundation of Gods will for me.
It shall not be taken for granted or used towards the debasement of my spirit or the spirit of others. my love for God and my appreciation for the many blessings grow with each breath and death. This journey has expressed many empowering visions. I am he who is a prisoner. I will not detour or lose sight of the glorious purpose before me. I witness each day examples of the protective guiding spirit from my God telling me that I am on the right track and that I am growing and nothing can stop me. which supported my mission. While I am alive on this earth I will give my efforts to fulﬁlling the calling before me. From both shall come the children and will of God. Through my example many will come to believe in the glory of God.105 With God beside me and paying the way who or what could possibly deter me. I am that which is of God. Through my lips I will speak the truth and through my lips I will share the passion of the love I hold for God. Over one hundred times I have seen the power of God. Each day another spirit shows me that I am to be used as an example for others to grow and be delivered. Each temporal joy is accepted with the true understanding that it is not long lasting. 106 Through God all prayers shall be answered. thief. My loins shall be girded. I am a child who has been called to bring the word and the truth. However. I will treasure the purity of this gift. The venues and the people will now be utilized to bring forth the will of God. My hopes for love have been realized many times. places and things that once allowed me to run from my true mission. Keep maintaining the love you have for others and guard your essence because it is truly of God. as shall my mind. Today many left their physical body for the next step. My imbalance has been removed. I have read and listened to the wisdom and availed myself to the knowledge. criminal ECT. Through God all things great and small are fulﬁlled. All of the beautiful women will be supported and loved but not sexed until it is deemed the time. I have not entrusted any man to guide me towards God. I envision this differently . I remain conﬁdent in my efforts in all areas of my life. It can only be avoided by physical death. Each time I am awed by the presence and clarity. and through me there will be many examples. I seek to utilize all the people. I know it is my calling and the presence of people in my life conﬁrm it. and vagabond.
I will work through the temptations to see only the physical rather than the emotional and spiritual reﬂections. love. To bring pleasure. Be ever mindful that each and everyday brings blessings and purpose. The freedom to be spontaneous and true to each moment will be exercised.now because I realize that my journey is purposeful and clear. which encourages growth and personal achievement. I do however seek to fulﬁll several clear missions and it is to these efforts that have given of my time and focus. My internal world ﬁnds respite and purpose in the journey of self-fulﬁllment. love through whatever means available. Each turn holds an answer to a difﬁcult question. The most intriguing question is. My day will be ﬁlled with loving gestures and moments of tenderness with all the people I meet. My truth will allow me to continue on the path. All the blessings I have conﬁrm the power working through me.realization I am becoming that essence for which I was created. 108 My purpose is to love. I mean to bring joy. that road is clear and strewn with reminders and inspirations. There is no trickery or deception only clarity and manifestation of the essence of love in and through all I interact with. When I sit down to write or speak I practice . will being committed to one cause or one woman allow me the ﬂexibility to love and nurture others. Through teaching and sharing. Due to the simplicity of my goals I can see the bigger picture. There will be many times when I am close to someone and through that moment a truth and purpose will arise. In addition. I am aware of the temporal nature of the body and the external world. The material distractions are minimal. they do not bring pleasure or inspire pursuit. love and truth means that all avenues of expression that are God realized and inspired will be utilized for the ultimate good. Be true to thy self. As others see the joy I envision and peruse their dreams in spite of the societal standards or demands. not to use or deceive so honorable behaviors are my foundation and principled accountability to God and self. The love I receive from the women in my life is opportunity to lead and teach. Yes! The woman who realizes that there is no stricture or conﬁnement in love. I am not knocked off my space by the shape of anything. I will surmise that through selfeducation and self. There are many opportunities present in each breath. guidance. Projecting love and goodwill nurtures and supports my essence. 107 There are many roads but for me there is just one. peace and pleasure through all of my efforts at establishing my footing in God. The limitations of one situation will not deter the progress or intention as it presents itself.
Be ever watchful for the temptations of worldly fame or temporal pleasures. outside of me I see the opportunity to bring forth that love to all who I encounter. I believe in what I am doing and my efforts to realize this worthy goal is supported by the power of God and the love of God. nonproﬁt ship grow and become empowering to all who contribute their gifts and to all who become conscious as a result of the light present in the loving outreach inherent in Gods Agency. 109 . Remain consistent with your stated goals. Which is to see the program. My God is everywhere and in me I see the blessings. All the money in the world could not deter me from this purpose. One tells me that there is much to do to bring the best out and the other supports the ﬁrst decision.how smoothly the words come. The opportunities like the commissary and the education department. both of these environments reveal something. The kindness being levied my way is consistent with the support that uplifts and strengthens my mission. reminding me to follow my intuition and inner voice and to not let anyone or anything deter me.
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