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Psychological Horoscope

Astrological Interpretation and Text by
LIZ GREENE
Programming by
Alois Treindl
Psychological Horoscope
for
Bill Gates, born 28 Oct 1955
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ASTROLOGICAL DATA USED FOR THE ANALYSIS:
name: Bill Gates (male)
birthdate: 28 Oct 1955 local time 22:00 method Liz Greene
place: Seattle, WA (US) U.T. 06+00 houses: Placidus
long: 122w20 lat: 47n36 sid. time 00:17:52 25-Nov-2000
PLANETARY POSITIONS
planet sign degree motion
Ç Sun Scorpio 5h02’23 in house 4 direct
, Moon Aries 8Y14’54 in house 10 direct
& Mercury Libra 16036’03 in house 4 direct
7 Venus Scorpio 20h13’53 in house 5 direct
, Mars Libra 10007’07 in house 4 direct
¤ Jupiter Leo 27(47’03 in house 2 direct
| Saturn Scorpio 21h35’30 in house 5 direct
\ Uranus Leo 2(17’21 in house 1 direct
÷ Neptune Libra 28014’31 in house 4 direct
] Pluto Leo 28(20’43 in house 2 direct
O Moon’s Node Sagittarius 19×28’17 in house 5 retrograde
HOUSE POSITIONS
Ascendant Cancer 26C57’41 Descendant Capricorn 26E57’41
2nd House Leo 14(35’05 8th House Aquarius 14«35’05
3rd House Virgo 6q07’19 9th House Pisces 6+07’19
Imum Coeli Libra 4051’52 Medium Coeli Aries 4Y51’52
5th House Scorpio 12h53’50 11th House Taurus 12ç53’50
6th House Sagittarius 23×46’43 12th House Gemini 23546’43
MAJOR ASPECTS
Sun SQUARE Uranus 2°45 Jupiter SEXTILE Neptune 0°27
Sun CONJUNCTION Neptune 6°48 Jupiter CONJUNCTION Pluto 0°34
Moon OPPOSITION Mercury 8°20 Jupiter TRINE Moon’s Node 8°18
Moon OPPOSITION Mars 1°51 Saturn SQUARE Pluto 6°44
Moon TRINE Uranus 5°57 Uranus SQUARE Neptune 4°02
Mercury CONJUNCTION Mars 6°29 Neptune SEXTILE Pluto 0°05
Mercury SEXTILE Moon’s Node 2°52 Pluto TRINE Moon’s Node 8°51
Venus SQUARE Jupiter 7°32 Moon CONJUNCTION Medium Coeli 3°23
Venus CONJUNCTION Saturn 1°22 Mars OPPOSITION Medium Coeli 5°14
Venus SQUARE Pluto 8°06 Uranus CONJUNCTION Ascendant 5°20
Jupiter SQUARE Saturn 6°11
Numbers indicate orb (deviation from the exact aspect angle).
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CONTENTS OF THIS ANALYSIS ings from your mother’s * A hidden will to
power * The problem of envy and competition
I. Introduction
V. Relationship Patterns
II. Your Psychological Type
The attractions of a sociable partner * Respecting
Romantic vision and the gift of imagination * people who need other people * A lack of trust in
The romantic vision rejects life’s limitations * love * A need for depth and honesty in relation-
Sensitivity to others combines with a creative imag- ship * A tendency to excess
ination
VI. Paths toward Integration
III. Character and Shadow
Finding an inner source * Developing confidence
Uncompromising loyalty to individual values * in self-expression
The chronic discontent of the rebel * A tendency
to self-mythologising and an unease with the
collective * The drive to be yourself dominates
all other needs
A secret dependency on the good opinions of others
* The need to please causes unconscious anxi-
eties * Hidden vulnerability and the longing to
belong * A secret indecisiveness and identi-
fication with the crowd * The importance of bal-
ancing strong individuality with a common human-
ity
Drawn to the centre of the stage * A humbler and
more selfless character lies in the shadow * A
direct and honest approach to life * The im-
portance of beauty and culture must be acknowl-
edged
IV. The Family Background
Family myths and psychological inheritance *
The image of the father in a man’s chart * His
psychological absence leads to sadness and con-
fusion * The longing for a father-surrogate *
High ideals, but little emotional support * Bal-
ancing head and heart * Hidden anger and sup-
pressed violence * Dealing with your own ag-
gression
The image of the mother in a man’s chart * A
force of nature * Differentiating your own feel-
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I. INTRODUCTION characters, and story, which lies at the core of your
life journey. It might be useful for you to remember
Once upon a time, in a less scientific age than the metaphor of the theatre as you read through the
ours, astrology was a respected study, based on various sections of your astrological portrait,
ancient and empirically compiled principles and because it can help you to understand the real
used by the learned for greater insight not only into meaning of fate as it is reflected by astrology. Fate
the future, but into the soul. With the coming of the does not lie in your being subjected to random pre-
Age of Enlightenment, and the increase in man’s ordained events. It lies in the cast of characters
knowledge of the material universe, it seemed for a which represent the deepest needs, conflicts and
time that studies such as astrology, in company aspirations which lie within you. No person can be
with other symbolic maps of the cosmos, had other than himself or herself; and every life experi-
become anachronisms - pieces of superstitious non- ence, whether tiny and transient or major and
sense which reflected a more ignorant and gullible transformative, reflects in some way the character
era. But surprisingly, astrology, despite its de- of the individual.
tractors, has refused to go the way of the flat earth,
the conjuring of demons, and the turning of lead
into gold. It is alive and well, growing in popular-
ity, and once again meriting the respect of in- - - -
telligent minds - for it has been brought into the
modern era through our increasing knowledge of
psychology and of the inner nature of man. Sub- II. YOUR PSYCHOLOGICAL TYPE
jected to many centuries of suppression and rid-
icule, astrology has outproven and outlasted its The rich array of individual attributes portrayed
opponents, and eloquently demonstrates that it has in your birth horoscope is set, as it is with every-
something of great value to offer the modern indi- one, against the backdrop of a certain temperament
vidual seeking self-understanding. bias. We might call this bias your psychological
"type", for it is a typical or characteristic way of
In this horoscope analysis we have endeav- responding to the situations life brings you. No one
oured, using the insights of astrology and psychol- begins life whole or perfect, and all people have
ogy combined with the tools of advanced computer certain areas of strength - sophisticated and well-
technology, to offer you an astrological portrait adapted inner characters - to help them deal with
which is uniquely and individually focussed and challenges, conflicts and problems. Likewise, all
which aims at providing greater self-knowledge. people have certain areas of weakness - inner char-
This is not fortune-telling astrology, but rather, acters who are underdeveloped, neglected and
psychological astrology, developed to as deep and troublesome.
sophisticated a level as is possible within the
perimeters of computer interpretation. No com- Your psychological type does not remain static
puter can perform the task of an experienced and unchanging through the whole of your life.
human astrologer. But we think you will find this There is something within all of us - whether we
analysis a surprisingly profound and subtle inter- call it the unconscious, the Self, or the soul - which
pretation of the complex dynamics at work within strives toward balance and completeness, and
you. which tries to integrate into our lives all those
qualities or inner characters which have been
Shakespeare once wrote that all the world is a neglected or undervalued. At certain important
stage, and all the men and women merely players. junctures in life, it is as though some central core,
In a sense, your birth horoscope is a metaphor for deeper and wiser than the conscious "I", draws us
the individual play, complete with stage set, cast of into conflicts which enable us to develop our weak-
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er areas, so that we can become more complete as your interpretations of life which makes all your
human beings. Thus you will find that, incorpo- experiences seem like worthwhile lessons. Bad
rated in the following paragraphs about your times cannot keep you down for long, for the next
psychological type, are some suggestions about opportunity is always just around the corner. Mere
how you might facilitate this inner movement security with no future creative possibilities is a
toward a more balanced perspective on life. Life kind of death to you, and you will often abandon
does this for us, sooner or later. But sometimes it your efforts just when they are about to bear fruit
is more rewarding and less problematic if we coop- because it is the challenge and the journey, rather
erate with the process. than the goal, which excite you most.
Romantic vision and the gift of imagination The romantic vision rejects life’s limitations
You are one of the world’s true romantics, for However, because of your emphasis on the
your intensely active imagination must always in- imaginative and intuitive side of life, you run the
ject into ordinary circumstances an aura of mean- risk of forgetting worldly limits. You tend to be on
ing, potential and purpose without which you find rather poor terms with day-to-day reality and its re-
daily life inconsequential and sometimes suffocat- sponsibilities and demands, because these thwart
ing. The great strength of your nature lies in your the vision that means so much to you. You may
well-developed relationship to the creative power resent the boredom of a routine job, feeling secretly
of the unconscious, which allows you to look into that you are entitled to something more special and
the future and envisage potentials which are not im- glamourous; or you may dislike having to bind
mediately apparent in the present. Because of this, yourself to domestic obligations because these stop
you tend to see opportunities which others miss. the flow of the imagination. You may also resist
You have a habit of living mostly in the future, al- having to select one thing to which you must apply
ways looking toward the next project and the next yourself, preferring to feel that you have many
stage of the journey. Yours is a temperament potentials open in the future; and this could result
which will never stagnate, because whatever you in you becoming a "jack of all trades" who dabbles
have accomplished, it is experienced not as a final in everything and produces nothing lasting. This is
achievement but as a temporary stage on the way to the "one day when I grow up..." syndrome, which
something bigger, better, more enriching and more may be appropriate in youth but which begins to
meaningful. feel rather uncomfortable with the passing of the
years.
Another strength in your character is your abil-
ity to appreciate the connections between appa- You tend to neglect your body, or drive it too
rently disparate facts and circumstances, and to see hard. You may forget at times to rest and eat sen-
a story or a hidden pattern which others might sibly; and the world of mechanical objects may
ignore. You often have an instantaneous grasp of seem personally inimical to you because things
all the important factors in a situation, and can leap constantly break down and need attention and fix-
with a kind of hunch or "sixth sense" to a con- ing. Having your time filled by tasks like servicing
clusion which is usually extremely accurate yet the car and doing the monthly accounts can make
which you may not always be able to explain logi- you extremely irritable. But the more you ignore
cally. You may or may not literally gamble with this side of life the worse it tends to get, and there
money, but you are probably willing to back your will not always be someone else there to clean up
stronger hunches with effort, and therefore often the mess which you leave behind. Your lack of
obtain rewarding experiences or material gains attention to your body may result in problems with
through means which others would not dare to try. your health, not because you are intrinsically un-
There is a quality of liveliness and colour about healthy - in fact, you are probably blessed with a
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strong and energetic constitution - but because any talents. Or you may combine your imagination and
living thing, including the flesh of which you are your sensitivity to the handling of others’ problems,
made, resents neglect and may retaliate with a offering much sympathy and vision to loved ones
message of its own. You are inclined to be ill at or to those whom you might choose to counsel or
ease with your body because you have not be- help. Your grasp of the potentials of a situation
friended it, and thus tend toward hypochondria, or combines with sensitivity and compassion for the
an obsession with "mastering" the body through needs and problems of others, and this lends a
strenuous diets and exercises which might be more human touch to the strange and often uncanny abil-
punishing than helpful because they are excessive. ities of your intuition. Your great gift lies in the
sensing of human potential and the deeper and
You will sooner or later need to make better more meaningful lessons to be found in life’s
friends with the physical world. This effort can be dilemmas; and you blend this with gentleness and a
rewarding and exciting because your sensual na- sense of timing that can allow you to midwife this
ture, although often repressed or neglected, is potential in yourself and in others. Your imagi-
powerful and capable of great intensity and pleas- nation never divorces itself from the world of
ure, and your uncannily accurate intuition can also human feelings because your perceptiveness and
be applied to practical matters to ensure your concern will always keep you related to other
success. Any achievement of a material kind can people, so that all your creative hunches and inspi-
be enormously rewarding to you, and you possess a rations ultimately work to enhance and enrich inter-
rare capacity to respond to nature and to the beauty personal relationships.
of the physical world - if you will only stop running
away from what you call "lower" or "unimportant". Your deepest challenge in life, however, still re-
In very personal matters such as sexual expression mains the problem of earthing your vision and
your unease with the body can also make you shy sense of human potential within the confines of
and awkward, and here too there might be a prom- material reality; and here your dependency upon
ise of much greater fulfilment if you can allow human contact may make it even more difficult for
yourself to experience the powerful demands of the you to cope with the restrictions and responsibil-
instincts which you sometimes fear. Your ities that the world imposes upon you. Life some-
perception of physical reality may be too negative, times requires a tough survival instinct and a
and it is possible that family attitudes in your early capacity to cope alone if necessary. Your need to
life have contributed to your undervaluing of express your creative imagination through relation-
yourself in this realm of life. If you can learn the ships with others may cause you to fear the cold
art of being an ordinary mortal in a sometimes un- self-sufficiency that situations sometimes demand
romantic world, then your unusual and powerful of you. Occasionally too empathetic and idealistic
imaginative gifts will always bring you new adven- for your own good, you have difficulty in drawing
tures as well as earning you concrete rewards. boundaries around yourself, and perpetually take on
the burden of others’ problems - not only because
Sensitivity to others combines with a crea- you are compassionate, but also because you do not
tive imagination know how to be firm about your own limits. And
because your natural romanticism tends to express
Your imaginative abilities are supported by a itself through faith in the potential of a relationship,
deep instinctive insight into human behaviour and you find it hard to face the imperfect reality of an-
motives. You have a profound response to the other person, preferring to live in a fantasy-image
world of symbols, myths and images, and may ex- of what he or she could become rather than accept-
cel in one of the arts, such as music, painting, dance ing the person who confronts you in actuality. You
or theatre, where your ability to intuit character and need to learn greater detachment and a more
mimic it in plastic forms may give you exceptional objective vision of life, and also could benefit from
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more overt stating of your ideas and needs to others Uncompromising loyalty to individual values
- rather than hoping to be instantaneously and tele-
pathically understood. Not everyone is as intuitive Nothing and no one will ever dictate to you who
as you, and being able to be clear and direct about you should be or what you should do with your life;
who you are and what you want can help you to a for you live from a conviction of the sacredness of
much greater sense of confidence in inhabiting that your own individuality. Although you enjoy the
concrete world which you both fear and yet company of other people, and attract them easily
ultimately must embrace in order to feel real and because of the vitality of your personality, you are
secure in life. quite incapable of compromising your ideals,
beliefs and freedom of action for very long in order
to please anyone - even those you love most. You
- - - are often at odds with what might be called the
collective norm, both because you are an idealist
who refuses to accept that things cannot be
III. CHARACTER AND SHADOW changed, and because you resent having your lib-
erty curtailed by rules which have been designed by
One of the most important insights gained by the herd for the herd. You are in love with your
depth psychology has been the revelation that differentness, and have considerable contempt for
people are dual in nature, and contain a basic those who live their lives like sheep trying to copy
polarity of a conscious and an unconscious self. some image offered by media, advertising and
There is the individual you are familiar with - the Mary Whitehouse. You want to be left alone to ex-
"I" that thinks, feels and acts in accustomed ways press yourself in your own way; but rather than
which you identify as yourself. And there is anoth- making those necessary small external compro-
er, hidden individual - the shadow-side - which mises which might grant you the privacy to pursue
contains the less acceptable and less developed your own lifestyle, you tend to demand, with a
aspects of your personality, and which fights for a certain charming arrogance, that the world make
valued place in your life at the same time that it adjustments for you. Surprisingly, much of the
disrupts the complacency of your self-image. The time it does, at least within the circles in which you
interplay between the conscious and unconscious move, because you possess the intelligence and
sides of you is a constantly shifting dance, chang- force of character to be convincing even if you are
ing at different stages of your life and altering being outrageous.
according to the pressures and challenges which
you encounter. The tension between the primary The chronic discontent of the rebel
characters in your inner drama, described in the
following paragraphs, is the source of energy Although time and age will no doubt mellow
which provides your life with movement, purpose, you somewhat, you possess a restless imagination
conflict and growth. There are other characters which demands that the present be ceaselessly im-
inside you too - supporting players who blend and proved upon; and this vision will probably drive
conflict with the main ones to make you the unique you all your life. As soon as you have achieved
individual you are. Where these are strongly something, or arrived somewhere, you immediately
marked in your horoscope, we have included a see how much better it could be with a little im-
description of them as well. The story thus por- provement; so it is very difficult for you to settle
trayed, with its complicated interaction of light and contentedly and enjoy the fruits of your labours.
shadow, represents what is really meant by individ- The tranquil security of later life toward which so
ual destiny. many people aspire does not hold much appeal for
you, and you are quite capable of changing your
career completely just as you are beginning to
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become successful, or abandoning an entire life- radiant creatures of fantasy also arise from the
style in favour of a new one, more than once during collective. But for you they epitomise the essence
the course of your life. You keep noticing of individuality, for they are larger than life and ex-
potentials in yourself which you did not notice ear- pressing their attributes requires a certain courage
lier; and this is a kind of plague as well as a gift, and panache - which you have in abundance.
because it makes you extremely uncertain and Although you strive toward this heroic image of
prone to feelings of dissatisfaction. You are a yourself - for the hero or heroine of myth is, of
chronically discontented soul, always believing that necessity, different from the rest and marked by a
people and life could be more than they are, and burning sense of destiny - your early childhood ex-
firmly convinced that you yourself could be more periences have, to some extent, undermined your
than you are - even if your achievements are, by confidence in yourself. This fuels your need to
other people’s standards, considerable. You make realise a unique identity that will make an impact
your own laws and then try to live by them, and upon the unappreciative outer world as well as ful-
have therefore no doubt had your share of conflict filling your own dreams. Paradoxically, it is your
with traditional values, authorities and institutions. secret feelings of loneliness and inferiority which
It would be very surprising indeed if you had comprise much of your fierce determination to be
managed to pass this far in life without being con- accepted as yourself; for you have suffered in
sidered eccentric or abnormal by someone - prob- childhood through conventional expectations in a
ably your family. Time has not taught you to bend deep and wounding way, and you do not experience
and compromise; rather, it has entrenched your the collective - the great They - as a friend. You
conviction that you have the right to follow your need a creative field in which to express your fertile
own vision and live according to your own rules. imagination, for creative expression is really an act
But you also possess the gift of being able to leave of dedication to some spirit within you that is
others alone too, and grant them space and toler- magical, numinous and sacred. Whether you create
ance - especially if they are eccentrics like you. a work of art, a company, or simply an original and
Even if more conventional people sometimes fear colourful lifestyle, you will find your greatest
or mistrust you, they are forced to respect your fulfillment in daring to offer your own creative
originality and your ability to live as you please products to that conventional world which has both
without really giving a damn for what others think. hurt you and yet, surprisingly, also provides the
most fruitful field for your endeavours.
A tendency to self-mythologising and an un-
ease with the collective The drive to be yourself dominates all other
needs
Somewhere in your fantasies you have cast
yourself in an ideal heroic image - a kind of cross Because you are so loyal to your inner vision,
between Clint Eastwood and Jeanne d’Arc - and you are likely not only to appear and feel different;
much of your intensely individualistic manner and you are also likely to make a valuable contribution
style spring from this deep self-mythologising. of some kind, possibly through creative work,
Your originality arises from a close connection which acts like yeast on the imaginations of others
with the mythic world of the imagination, and you because it stirs up in them their own longing to
are repelled by the banal, the mundane and the phil- define themselves as individuals. This is the
istine - because these things, to you, violate your psychology behind the "star", whether this is an
sense of life’s essential meaningfulness and imply actor, a writer, a politician, a painter or any other
bondage to collective expectations and responsibil- person who seems to have greater vision and
ities. Paradoxically, mythic images are no more farther-seeing eyes, and who embodies a goal of
truly individual than the bland faces that stare up at some kind that others can model themselves after.
you from Good Housekeeping Magazine, for the Although you may never be famous in the grand
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sense, somewhere within the circle of your profes- The need to please causes unconscious anxi-
sional and personal life you have considerable eties
influence on others simply because you do not
depend on them for your ideas and values. This Although you strive, most of the time, to rely on
gives you power, because you are your own person. your own inner authority for assessment of what
Sooner or later life will challenge you on the you create, do and are, the views of others are far
hidden issue of your unconscious dependency on more important to your shadow-side than you
the very collective from which you have withdrawn might wish to acknowledge. Something in you
your identification in order to pursue your own longs to please people, to be liked, and to belong -
dream; for no one can be so strenuously original and not just because you are distinctive and original
and individualistic all the time. But you are a strik- and merit respect. You yearn to be appreciated
ing and courageous personality, and have much to simply because you are likable and a nice person.
offer - not just in terms of what you do, but in terms This secretly unassuming and inoffensive character
of what you are. As the line in the song goes, you inside you would never dare to do the things you
do it your way. do, nor risk the censure of others; and you can
sometimes feel terribly lonely, shut out and very
A secret dependency on the good opinions of much an outsider and an outcast because it is so
others difficult for you to express this dimension of
yourself and simply relax in the company of others
In contrast to your fervent belief in your own without having to make a stand in one way or an-
individual vision, there is another protagonist in other.
your inner psychic drama. This hidden side of you
contains all those qualities which really belong to Usually you project your shadow-side onto
you, but which you have necessarily had to exclude others, tending to have a little contempt for what
from your conscious values and behaviour in order you consider weak and vacillating souls who can
to remain firmly your own person and committed to do and think nothing without someone else’s appro-
your own unique path. The shadow-side of you, val. At the same time, you are likely to be deeply
which you generally repress and which tends to live attracted to that mysterious quality in others which
an unexpressed life in the unconscious, cares in- somehow, gently and unobtrusively, attracts love
ordinately about what others think of you; for this and devotion without the individual in question
figure is a much more dependent and less defined having to do anything dramatic, original or note-
personality than the one with which you are famil- worthy to earn it. You have a great conflict about
iar. It is the thing which secretly drives you to con- just what constitutes individuality, for although you
stantly seek the approval and validation of others - are clear, on a conscious level, about how im-
even when this validation is expressed as grudging portant your own integrity and ideals are, you can
respect, or even condemnation (which you take as a also sometimes catch a glimpse of what your shad-
compliment because it is more flattering than being ow-side tries to tell you: that individuality may not
ignored). Your dependency on the collective is an lie in "doing" anything, nor in necessarily being
important and potentially creative facet of your per- different from everybody else. It is much more
sonality, although it is difficult to reconcile this elusive, mysterious and subtle. If you can begin to
secret side of you with the sharply drawn and al- make a relationship with that side of you which is
most stylised personality which you prefer others to ordinary, needy and more dependent on a sense of
see. belonging than your fiercely proud personality
usually expresses, you might begin to understand
that individuality really has something to do with
being all of oneself - including the shadow.
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Hidden vulnerability and the longing to of your personality is considerably more blurred in
belong its boundaries than you might realise. You are
highly sensitive and permeable to atmospheres and
You are more sensitive, vulnerable and easily to the unconscious feelings of others; and there is
hurt by criticism than you wish people to realise. something in you which, chameleon-like, responds
Despite your proud stance, and your determination to the colouration of the environment and acts the
to live by your own ideals, you are secretly rather appropriate role. In fact you are much less in-
frightened of confrontation with others, and take dependent than you like others to see, for this secret
much longer getting over rejection and disapproval fluidity in your nature does not distinguish between
than you admit. You have a tendency to provoke you and another, or between you and the group
conflict and stir up mischief because it is part of around you. You are far more influenced by the
your style; you do not like boring people and stag- needs, imaginings and attitudes of others, and often
nant situations, and would rather be disliked than what you believe to be your own original creation
stifle in a soup of polite non-conversation made by is in fact drawn from a deeper and broader pool
polite non-people. Yet there is often a backlash to than your own mind. Often you pick up what
these episodes once they happen, for after you have others are feeling without realising that you are
enjoyed the initial lift from having "been yourself" doing it; and you may walk away with someone
and provoked a little excitement, you tend to feel else’s headache or depression and believe it to be
inexplicably let down and lonely, unsure of your own. In this way your shadow-side is vir-
yourself, and even depressed. This is because you tually psychic, and many of your fantasies and
need emotional warmth and closeness more than ideas seem to arise mysteriously from this deep un-
you care to acknowledge, and you need it not only conscious fusion with the psyche of the collective.
from those few select friends who live up to your Rather than being a hindrance or a negative factor,
idea of an original and interesting companion; you this is in fact a great gift, for it means that your
need it from people in general. You have certain creative vision can draw on sources larger than
wounds springing from childhood, where you were your own personal experiences and values. That it
very likely torn between your need for closeness to also means you are dependent on the collective for
your family and your need of loyalty to yourself. the real source of your creativity is not a bad thing,
You chose the latter because that is the nature of if only you could be comfortable with the fact.
your character, and it was the right choice for you. Your fierce individuality is not lessened or compro-
But something in you longs for the feeling of fam- mised by your openness to the currents and long-
ily - not just camaraderie with like-thinking friends, ings of the world around you; rather, it is enhanced,
but the mindless and deep bond of feeling that tran- for it means your vision is truly universal, although
scends differences and offers a place of shelter and necessarily expressed through your highly unique
emotional safety. Try not to be quite so contemp- personal style.
tuous of others’ dependency on family and group;
for you secretly envy it, and might be happier if The importance of balancing strong individ-
you expressed this hidden need of yours more uality with a common humanity
openly and honestly.
Thus your distinctive and original stance and
A secret indecisiveness and identification your commitment to your own values are contra-
with the crowd dicted and complemented by a secret sensitivity to
and dependency upon others. This need of others
You work hard to make sure that everything ranges from an ordinary social need - to belong and
about you bears your individual stamp; from the be approved of by those very people whom you
clothes that you wear to your ideas about life, you often dismiss as unoriginal and boring - to a deep
have borrowed from no one. But the shadow-side unconscious connection with the collective uncon-
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scious of which you, like everyone, are a part. The proper behaviour. You spend considerable time
shadow-side of your personality acts like a power- working to improve your image - which includes
ful undercurrent in the sea, drawing you out toward things like your personal appearance, your manner
others in a need to have your identity and your of speech and movement - and you are also likely
creative offerings recognised and validated, to spend a lot of money on it as well. If all the
although you profess most of the time not to care world is a stage and all the men and women merely
about the opinions of others unless they are of a players, then you intend to be the star - or, at the
standard that matches your own. Everything in the very least, the villain, if you cannot obtain the
psyche works in polarities, and the whole issue of hero’s or heroine’s role. You would rather be dis-
individuality, which is so important to you and a liked and thought badly of than pass through life
goal in itself for the whole of your life, cannot be unnoticed. You have no intention of leaving an
seen except within the perspective of its opposite - epitaph that reads, "Here lies a nice person, pity we
merging with the group, and the similarity rather can’t remember the name or face."
than the differences between people. You could
not take such an individualistic stance unless there Your self-preoccupation is not a hindrance to
were something to pit your vision against; but this your creativity; if anything, it is a spur to it, since
something really lies within yourself, and is the part you like to think of yourself as an artist of some
of you which is just like everybody else. More kind even if you do not deal in what is convention-
mystically speaking, it IS everybody else. If you ally considered art. Your need to be seen and
can accept this and live a little less defensively, you adored will no doubt earn you some recognition,
can utilise your great creative potential to express and if you can combine your urgent desire for love
ideas and views which touch everyone, and are not and validation with the necessary discipline and
merely an angry and rebellious statement of being patience that any professional skill requires, then
different. you can accomplish a great deal with your talents.
You are a little too prone to wearing other people
down with your intense self-preoccupation and the
Another pair of important characters driven quality of your energy; but you are likely to
be admired anyway, and to gather people around
The characters described so far represent in you who are happy and willing to offer the suitable
their fundamental antagonism the main theme of backdrop for a star. A star is indeed what you wish
your inner story. Besides these figures, there is an- to be, in whatever field you work. It would be
other pair of conflicting figures indicated in your quite pointless to suggest that you slow down and
birth chart which are likely to be recognisable in learn to sometimes touch the ground, for you would
your life. These figures are briefly described in the rather burn out brightly than adopt ways of making
following paragraphs. life peaceful and serene if this costs you your im-
mortality. Life will of course challenge you on just
Drawn to the centre of the stage this issue - who are you when you are not perform-
ing? - but you are likely to treat this challenge too
Not much is as fascinating, as irresistibly excit- as yet another glorious and exciting adventure.
ing, or as endlessly interesting as you. Although
this may seem selfish and egocentric to some, there A humbler and more selfless character lies
is a highly creative dimension to your eternal self- in the shadow
preoccupation. You possess great quantities of
sheer unadulterated vitality, and serve as a vivid In contrast to the rather flamboyantly energetic
example to others of the importance and value of personality which you habitually show the world,
living out one’s own desires and fantasies regard- your shadow-side is a good deal more humble,
less of whether they fit into conventional ideas of more ordinary and more rooted in the affairs of
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mundane life than it might seem; and it might be look inside at what you believe to be empty and
summarised by the image of the good person (good come to know it better.
in the sense of nice, decent, and the hardworking
servant of others). Naturally all this goodness and
decency is offensive and demeaning to your more In your birth horoscope, several important
colourful image of yourself, for you have a deep themes are portrayed, and there is an additional
fear of being boring and therefore cling to a certain pair of characters which also plays an important
naughty panache. Other people wrap their porno- part in your story. These figures are described
graphic magazines in a plain brown wrapper; you briefly in the following paragraphs.
would wrap the Bible in one, rather than be caught
reading it. A direct and honest approach to life
Thus your shadow-side is rooted in ordinary There is little nonsense and pretense about your
mundane life, mortal rather than godlike, humble personality and your views. You are blunt, direct
rather than arrogant, and deeply dependent on the and honest, and you do not try to hide behind elab-
love and validation of others. More importantly, it orate social veneers and posturings to mask who
is also deeply dependent on validation from an in- you are and what you want. You have little
ner, rather than an outer, source; and this is really patience with hypocrisy, and are not averse to
what is meant by a spiritual or mystical aspiration. directly challenging and, if necessary, offending
The sense that you serve something higher, and that those who offend you by their refusal to be
the world’s notice is a by-product rather than the themselves. You enjoy luxury and pleasure and are
source of your value in life, is the gift that your unafraid of calling desire by its name and un-
shadow-side can provide. You are both more ordi- ashamedly pursuing what you want; and you have
nary and more extraordinary than you realise. The no illusions about the fact that life sometimes
nice, decent, boring dimension of your shadow is demands courage, ruthlessness and effort if a per-
really your link with common humanity, and the son wants to get ahead. Some people might find
antidote to your chronic hidden feelings of loneli- you a little overbearing or tactless, but it is not
ness, emptiness and isolation; and it is also a link these people whom you wish to impress anyway.
with that sense of a higher purpose which can offer
your life value even when you are not performing. Despite your intelligence, basic good taste and
perceptiveness, you are at heart a very basic and
Such an inner dedication to some spiritual or simple personality - not simple in the sense of
transpersonal source can also help you to break the stupid or naive, but in the best sense of being at
strong unconscious cord that binds you to your home with the real bones of life and people, and
parents’ aspirations, for this is a larger factor in responsive to the beauties which are here on earth
your intense ambitions than you may realise. Much rather than those which hide behind clouds in heav-
of your life is spent trying to live up what you en. You are one of those people whom others in-
believe they wanted from you, so that you can at stinctively trust, because there is nothing false
last feel loved. The sad reality is that, the more about you - you put in the shop window exactly
acclaim you get, the less loved you feel; for you al- what there is in the shop, no more and no less, and
ways feel that the love is conditional and based your natural intuitive capacity to read people (for
upon your performance rather than upon yourself. someone who is instinctively honest in the deepest
Then you feel a fraud. Your shadow-side, which sense can always perceive falsity in another person)
you fear because it might make you ordinary, allows you to navigate the currents of others’ more
human and uninteresting, is really your greatest convoluted motives without getting harmed. Life
source of strength, if you can find the courage to will eventually challenge you on that side of your
life in which you are uncomfortable and awkward -
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the worlds of the intellect and the spirit, and all the - - -
things which you cannot see and touch. But when
faced with such a challenge you are likely to be as
innately honest and free of pretensions as you are in IV. THE FAMILY BACKGROUND
the other spheres of your life.
Family myths and psychological inheritance
The importance of beauty and culture must
be acknowledged Although you are an individual, you have
emerged from a family background. A family is
In contrast to your direct and unpretentious way like a living organism, and it includes certain
of handling your life, there is a hidden dimension in hereditary characteristics which have passed down
your personality which is far more delicate, roman- through the generations. It also contains a partic-
tic and intellectually subtle than your ordinary ex- ular set of psychological dynamics, an emotional
pression would suggest. There is a certain image in climate which provides the first soil in which your
the eyes of others which this secret side of you nascent individuality took root in childhood. Thus
seeks: the educated, cultured, sophisticated and you contain certain inner patterns, myths and
polished person who knows all the right places to attitudes toward life which you have acquired from
go, has read all the right books and seen the right the psychological soil of your family background.
films, and shines with the patina of style and fash- In other words, to return to our metaphor of the
ion. Your shadow-side is difficult for you to inte- theatre, the characters in your inner drama are
grate into your life, for you mistrust it and feel it to unique; but they carry a family inheritance.
be false and vain; but you may need to look with
more insight into just what this aesthetically Astrology cannot tell us about physical heredity.
sophisticated world really represents. For it con- But it can tell us a great deal about psychological
tains the key to your sense of the subtler and higher heredity, which runs through families in the same
things in life, without which you can sometimes way that red hair or blue eyes do. Psychological
seem, and feel, merely clumsy, boorish and inferi- inheritance of deeply rooted attitudes often takes
or. place on hidden, unconscious levels of which indi-
vidual family members are unaware. Family myths
It could be said that you underrate yourself and move down the generations as surely as a distinc-
play yourself down, although it might not seem so tive facial structure does. An example of a family
to you; for in your insistence on simplicity and myth might be: "All the men in this family have
basic values, you overlook your own intellectual been self-made and successful." Or, "All the wom-
and artistic and social potentials, as well as denying en in this family have been disappointed by their
your longing to join a more cultured, sophisticated men." Myths such as these do not need to be
and luxurious world. Try not to reject your aspira- spoken, or even recognised, for they pass from one
tions toward a more sophisticated lifestyle because generation to the next via the unconscious, and they
you feel you might not belong there and could be are communicated in a multitude of subtle, non-
laughed at. You need to look more honestly at what verbal ways. Thus the male child born into the
you condemn, for much of your condemnation family of "successful" men will inherit a particular
springs from fear; and you possess in potential a set of expectations to which he will respond
highly unique combination of genuine and deep according to his own nature and his own inner
aesthetic feeling with a solid and honest core that characters. And the female child born into the fam-
can always recognise quality and will never be led ily of "disappointed women" will inherit certain
astray by imitations. You should trust yourself attitudes about relationships which will affect her
more, rather than trusting life less. later in life if she remains unaware of this inner
script.
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Because your family background is an integral His psychological absence leads to sadness
part of your life story, it is reflected in your birth and confusion
horoscope. Astrology can offer considerable help-
ful insight into this realm of life, for according to The subjective image of your father which is
how conscious you are of the interplay between portrayed in your birth horoscope is a mysterious
your own nature and your family inheritance, you and complex one. You did not know your father as
will have more or less freedom of choice in life. a solid and supportive personality - either because
Your parents themselves are also reflected in your he was physically absent, or because you experi-
horoscope, although they appear not as real three- enced his personality as too withdrawn, weak, aloof
dimensional people, but rather as images who em- or unhappy to allow you much access to his true
body a particular theme or set of attitudes. These feelings and character. In a sense, you have had to
parental images reflect how mother and father sacrifice a genuine close relationship with your
appear to you personally, how they operate as father, and there lies somewhere within you a sad
patterns within your own psyche, and how they sup- longing for what you feel you did not have, coupled
port or conflict with the unfoldment of your own with a strong tendency to idealise the psychologi-
inner drama. The power of the family background cally absent parent into a mystical figure and justify
should never be underestimated, for it is not the his inaccessibility by blaming yourself. Thus there
past. It is a living present within each of us. As the is likely to be much confusion within you about
poet Rainer Maria Rilke once wrote: "Never your own worth because of your early relationship
believe fate is more than the condensation of child- with your father, and you tend in adult life to look
hood." secretly to others as the arbiters of your sense of
self-value.
The image of the father in a man’s chart
The longing for a father-surrogate
Father is not only a real person. He is also the
symbol of an inner pattern or perspective through Because your experience of your father has been
which you relate to life. The image of your father a poignant and disappointing one, there are many
portrayed in your birth horoscope therefore qualities which you have had to acquire through
describes three things. your own experience in life. Most importantly,
Firstly, it is a subjective picture of the qualities your early sacrifice means that you will need to
you experienced as most dominant in your relation- learn how to father yourself - to find inner re-
ship with your father - or whoever played the role sources which provide the necessary ambition, will
of father in your early life. and determination to actualise your potentials and
Secondly, it is a symbol of what the masculine accomplish something worthwhile with your tal-
represents to you, for your father was the first man ents. Because you did not experience a strong and
in your life and is therefore a powerful unconscious solid model of the masculine principle in early life,
influence on how you express your own masculinity you perpetually struggle against the tendency to
and how you relate to other men. drift along hoping that someone or something -
Thirdly, it is a picture of your own inner father- perhaps a father-surrogate of some kind - will
qualities: how you order and structure your life, descend from the vault of heaven and provide you
how you envisage and pursue your goals, how you with the impetus and strength to achieve your
actualise your potentials in the world, how you ex- goals. Such father-surrogates have inevitably
press and direct your will, and how you formulate proved disappointing to you, for your father-image
your ethical codes and ideals; and, lastly, how you offers you a challenge which you must meet with
father your own children. your own resources. In grappling with this prob-
lem, you will find that you can willingly relinquish
your deep-seated melancholy and disappointment,
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and can begin to see your father as a sensitive and Balancing head and heart
fallible human being rather than a semi-divine
figure who has on some level abandoned you. You can express your lofty standards and love
of independence and clear thinking in a creative
Then the more creative dimension of this father- way, while still retaining a sense of self-worth in
image can come into play within you, for your your emotional dealings with others. The heart is
early experience of your father can open many as valuable as the intellect, although the message
doors to balance your sense of disappointment. you received from your father is that it is not; and
The longing which your physically or emotionally you need to be careful not to become too rigid in
absent father has inspired in you is really your own your definition of what you think human beings,
yearning for a set of spiritual values by which you including yourself, ought to be. The power of this
can live. Behind the idealised image of your per- cool and lofty father-image within you is very great
sonal father stands the divine father. Thus your in both positive and negative ways, and you will
sacrifice is a creative one according to the deeper need to stand firmly on the ground of your own
meaning of the word - to "make sacred" - for human worth while exploring the clear heights of
through your mysteriously inaccessible father you the mind and the spirit, which are your inheritance.
have inherited a profound sensitivity to the trans-
personal world, and may find as your life pro- There is still another image portrayed by your
gresses that the father you are seeking is really birth horoscope, which in certain ways conflicts
available after all - in the vitality and boundlessness with your dominant experience of your father.
of your own imaginative and spiritual life.
Hidden anger and suppressed violence
In addition to this dominant image, there is an-
other figure portrayed by your birth horoscope Your father seems to have possessed a powerful
which adds further complexity to your experience and passionate shadow-side which contradicts the
of your father. softer or more aloof qualities you have seen in him.
This shadow-side is wilful, aggressive and angry -
High ideals, but little emotional support full of competitive spirit and resentful at having to
compromise with anyone else’s needs and wishes.
Your father represented a quality of aloofness or It is probably that your father did not display such
detachment for you, which is highly creative on one qualities openly or consistently, either because his
level, and quite difficult on another. From him you personality was too peaceable and fearful of con-
have inherited a deep appreciation of the world of flict, or because he was rigidly controlled by ethics
the mind, and a detached perspective on life which and opinions that did not permit him acceptance of
gives vision and breadth to your thinking. But you his own animal nature. Thus, you may be partly or
and your father were alienated - either because he completely unconscious of this dimension of your
was physically absent, or because he could not re- father’s personality, and you may therefore not
late through ordinary demonstration of affection. understand the effects it has had on your own life;
He may have emphasised your education and for you have inherited your father’s dilemma. In
mental development while at the same time subtly particular, you too fear anger and aggressive feel-
or overtly rejecting your feeling and instinctual ings, and you have a tendency to be too equable
needs - and you may have interpreted this rejection and eager to please others who attempt to dominate
as your own failing and now, as an adult, strive you.
toward too high an ideal of perfection while un-
necessarily devaluing your more human needs.
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Dealing with your own aggression trust in life’s essential kindness, and your ability to
flow with time and circumstances and to know in-
It is important that you understand this ag- stinctively when to wait and accept with wisdom the
gressive and self-willed face of your father, for it is situations which life brings.
also within you. You possess great force of charac-
ter, passion and determination which could, ex- A force of nature
pressed creatively, take you far in life. You have
within you the potential of a natural leader. But The subjective image of your mother portrayed
your father was split within himself, and you now in your birth horoscope is that of a force of nature.
face the challenge of learning to handle your ag- It seems that, however controlled or rational your
gression in a way which is balanced with your need mother appeared to be, she was really a creature of
for emotional harmony. Because this shadow-side changeable feelings and moods. Her emotional
of your father is also a strongly sensual one, it is power in your early life was considerable - perhaps
important that you face your passions honestly for even to the point where her volatile feelings
the sake of your own physical fulfillment; for you pervaded the household and swamped your own
may be afraid of the power of your desires because and your deep attachment to her made it difficult
your father was afraid of his and therefore did not for you to distinguish what you felt from what she
provide you with a positive model of self-accept- felt. There is much that is positive in this experi-
ance. If you can recognise and make a relationship ence of your mother - in particular, the great emo-
with the aggressive instincts within yourself, you tional richness and depth which she possessed, and
can achieve most of the things you desire in life; which in turn you too possess, if you are able to re-
and you will also have healed a split which existed main in contact with it. You could express this
in the fabric of your family long before your own colourful and sensitive side of yourself through
birth. fields of work which involve dealing with the feel-
ings of others, perhaps the public, because of your
The image of the mother in a man’s chart acute awareness of the shifting moods and needs of
those around you.
Mother, like father, is not only a person. She is
the symbol of an essential principle in life, and of Differentiating your own feelings from your
an inner dynamic or perspective through which we mother’s
relate to life. The image of the mother portrayed in
your birth horoscope therefore describes three In order to find the best expression for this
things. Firstly, it is a subjective description of the highly volatile side of your personality, you will
qualities most dominant in your relationship with need to be as conscious as possible of the enormous
your mother. Many of these will be known to you, hold which your mother possessed over you. This
but some might be surprising, because they reflect is particularly the case if her natural emotionality
not only her outer behaviour, but her inner life - was not held in balance by other, more rational,
that side of her which was unexpressed and there- qualities - for then she would have seemed to you
fore of great power in terms of its effects on you. like the weather, incomprehensible and unpredict-
Secondly, the mother-image in your horoscope is a able, and liable to sudden frightening shifts and
portrait of what the feminine represents to you - changes - from balmy days to terrible thunder-
how you experience women, and how you relate to storms. With such a powerful force at work in your
the emotional and instinctual dimensions of your childhood, you will need to disengage your own
own personality. And thirdly, it is a picture of your feelings and responses from those of your mother;
own "maternal" qualities - for men possess mother- for otherwise you run the risk of expressing instead
ing capacities too - your ability to nurture and care her feelings and characteristic emotional reactions
for yourself and others, your sense of safety and rather than your own.
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You also depend a great deal on emotional mother felt envious of your strengths and displayed
"feedback" from others, just as you did on your considerable aggression toward you. If this was the
mother’s, for you had to develop acute sensitivity case, then you will be nervous and uneasy when
to her cues in order to feel safe with her unpredict- confronted with envy or challenge from others.
ability. If other people do not respond as you ex- And you may have learned to fear your own com-
pect in your adult life, you can become confused petitive drive and your own aggressive instincts,
and unsure of yourself. Learn to rely on your own although these comprise a positive force which can
instincts, which are good ones, and try to under- take you far in life. Anger is another issue which is
stand that your feelings and needs are as important, part of your inheritance from your mother, and
as powerful and as worthy of notice as your moth- although you possess quite a temper yourself, you
er’s once were in your childhood. Your experience may fear the expression of healthy anger because of
of your mother has developed in you a great facility the atmosphere of largely unarticulated anger
to reading the responses and needs of others, and which surrounded your mother. But in essence this
this gift is the creative side of your inheritance. dimension of your mother-image is a creative one,
full of vitality, energy and courage. The more
There is still another image portrayed by your clearly you can see this unexpressed side of her, the
birth horoscope, which in certain ways conflicts more freely you will be able to relate to and utilise
with the experience of your mother described pre- this powerful spirit within yourself.
viously.
A hidden will to power - - -
There is a covert but forceful dimension to your
mother-image which she probably could not fully V. RELATIONSHIP PATTERNS
express but which has had a potent unconscious
effect on your own ambition and will to succeed in Relationships are among the most mysterious,
life. Your mother had within her a spirit of consid- rewarding and frustrating of all human experi-
erable courage, strength and ambition, but, because ences. Both astrology and psychology teach us that
of the essentially masculine flavour of these qual- nothing that occurs within a relationship is chance
ities, her personality or her upbringing made it - neither its beginning, nor its fluctuations and con-
difficult for her to express them. Perhaps the only flicts, nor its ending. But astrology cannot say
sign of such a powerful inner drive was her anger, whether you are "fated" to have a good or a bad
and even her anger may have been expressed only marriage, or whether you ought to be with a
through manipulative ploys and subtle criticism. Cancer or a Sagittarius. Your birth horoscope
You have inherited your mother’s competitiveness describes what you are like inside, and therefore
and her deep desire to make something important what kind of patterns, needs and compulsions you
of her life; but you will need to be conscious of this are likely to bring into your relationships with
hidden dimension of your mother if you are to others. You cannot become somebody different, or
avoid being driven by a compulsive ambition which send in your birth horoscope and request a new set
makes you a "workaholic" without regard for your of character. But you can be more or less con-
more personal needs. scious; and you always have the freedom to look at
your own issues, to deal with needs which are your
The problem of envy and competition responsibility and not your partner’s, and to re-
spond to both joy and pain in creative ways.
You will also need to face your own dilemma
with competitiveness and envy, for it is possible The following paragraphs describe your
that, because of her own frustrated energies, your attitudes, needs, and typical patterns in close
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relationships. This description is written about you A lack of trust in love
in terms of your dealings with the woman in your
life. However, if you are involved in a close There is considerable conflict hidden beneath
relationship with someone of your own sex, you will your romantic image of relationship. You secretly
find that the same attitudes, needs and patterns still have a deep fear of rejection, and you do not trust
apply. Whatever your sexual tastes, you are your woman’s love sufficiently to believe you can
yourself - and it is your inner nature which be happy without guarantees of some kind - emo-
ultimately dictates the course of your love-life. tional, material or verbal. Although some of the
causes for this fear are related to experiences and
The attractions of a sociable partner values from your childhood, it is possible that you
are not fully aware of how deeply you hold the con-
Your pride, self-sufficiency and vivid individu- viction that love is unreliable without concrete
alism make you need the balance of a woman who demonstrations; and you therefore unconsciously
is on comfortable terms with the collective and who expect emotional disappointment even if your
knows how to blend easily and gently with others material needs have been met. There are two
in any social situation. Such a relationship can typical patterns which you may find yourself enact-
work very well for you, since you have much to ing at various points in your life. You may go into
offer such a woman through the example of your a relationship with a woman who is weaker than
courage and style; and in turn you need a partner you, or seems "inferior" in some way - financially,
who can help you to face your own deep uncon- intellectually, socially or creatively. Although such
scious loneliness and need to belong. But you need a partnership will usually prove disappointing,
to be very careful of your tendency to envy, for simply because you have not found a real match, it
such a woman can inadvertently make you feel is safe - for your partner needs you more than you
clumsy and inadequate the moment you enter any need her. A marriage of this kind may last for a
group or crowd with her; and if you are unaware of lifetime, and yet remain, on some deep and un-
this, then you can become destructively critical and fathomable level, not a real marriage. You may also
demandingly possessive. You are more jealous fall in love with a woman who is in some way un-
than you might imagine, because you tend to put all available - either she is married to someone else, or
your eggs into one basket, rather than allowing the lives far away, or because she herself is emotion-
human family to support you. ally unable to make a commitment, although this is
no fault of yours. You would benefit from facing
Respecting people who need other people your fears and understanding that the past does not
always repeat itself in the future; and that if, once
Try not to cloak your envy with contempt and upon a time, you were not loved enough, this does
denigration of your partner’s tendency to compro- not mean you are unlovable.
mise in order to be liked. You would do it too, if
you were not so proud and also so frightened of A need for depth and honesty in relationship
looking an idiot. You need a relationship which
can offer you a bridge to others, so that your origi- You know things about love that you certainly
nal ideas can be translated into language under- didn’t read in fairy tales, ladies’ magazines or
stood by more than just an intellectual or artistic school primers. You have an instinctive apprecia-
elite. Try not to treat your partner as an inferior tion of the fact that the human heart is complex and
because she is not as fiercely independent as you; sometimes savage; and that, when one loves
for social adaptability is itself a creative act, and deeply, one can also hate the loved one because of
your partner probably does it with grace and style. the power she then wields. You are not afraid of
experiencing emotions which others might consider
unconventional, destructive or dark, although natu-
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rally you might not always choose to put these them can include a stable relationship and do not
emotions in the shop window for your woman to necessitate deceit and betrayal. But it would be
see. Because of this gift of deep compassion for better not to repress this side of yourself, for then
the darker aspects of love, you can be truly under- you are really asking for trouble. You are more
standing and containing of your partner’s complex- prone than many people to falling in love at first
ity; and even when you have been deeply hurt or sight, at the wrong time, in the wrong place, and
are very angry, you still retain a secret sympathy with someone other than the person with whom you
for the things which drove her into hurtful or came in the door.
destructive behaviour. In short, you are not naive,
although you may demand a lot from your loved
one; and you would rather have a difficult relation-
ship that offers real confrontation and passion than - - -
a shallow companionship where you and your
woman are on your best behaviour but never really
touch each others’ souls. VI. PATHS TOWARD INTEGRATION
A tendency to excess As you have seen from the preceding pages,
your birth horoscope offers a detailed and in-depth
Your motto in love is that more is better. This portrait of many aspects of your life. It is also
means more romance, more candlelight, more possible to step further back from the horoscope,
courtly declarations of affection, and, perhaps, and to use the faculties of a telescope rather than a
more partners. You may justify your profligacy by microscope - so that an overview of the play comes
means of an ideology which says that people into focus. The following provide also some
should not possess each other, or a spiritual vision suggestions of ways in which conscious effort might
which says that you need the right soul-mate, or an make it possible for you to achieve greater har-
aesthetic ideal which tells you that your present mony between the different components within
companion is not quite perfect. Or you may simply yourself, and to strengthen that centre of the per-
be honest about your love of variety. But you are sonality which psychology calls the ego, the "I".
going to have certain difficulties if you make the Free will may not include the possibility of becom-
decision to commit yourself to one woman for a ing somebody else. But it might include the ability
lifetime. It is not that you cannot love; for, if any- to stand firmly at the centre of your horoscope and
thing, you love to excess, and throw your whole feel related to the different aspects of your psyche,
self into it. But you crave adventure too, and you rather than wandering about blindly, feeling im-
are deeply idealistic about love; and time and potent and victimised by conflicting cross-currents
familiarity are the enemies of such a romantic spir- and impulses from within yourself and from the
it. No relationship, however passionate, will world outside. Two people may have certain astro-
automatically remain mysterious and challenging if logical configurations which are similar, but one
you do not nurture its unpredictability by frequent might be buffeted by his or her inner demons like a
holidays and travel with your woman, frequent rudderless small boat tossed on a difficult sea;
absences from the domestic front with its endless while the other individual remains somehow solid
responsibilities, and frequent admonitions to and real as a person and can therefore navigate the
yourself not to take your partner for granted. Oth- boat intelligently through the ocean’s changing
erwise you might be faithful from a sense of honour currents.
and idealism, but not from real inclination. It
would be better to be honest about your own rest-
lessness, for there are many levels on which your
adventurous spirit can be lived out, and some of
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Finding an inner source do, you need to do it according to your own vision,
style and taste. In other words, you need to find the
You will never find fulfillment solely through courage to express the whole of yourself - facing
pursuing ambitions in the outer world, for your real your natural shyness, your fear that you will be
path lies within - back to your family origins, and mocked or ridiculed, and your deep conviction that
beyond these to the realm of the spirit. Whatever what you have to offer cannot possibly be as inter-
you achieve in worldly terms, it is not likely to esting as the creative contributions of others. If
offer you a sense of contentment and meaning, un- you can make this effort as much as possible, even
less you can relate it to some inner principle which in the midst of anxiety and discomfort, you will
represents an ethical, moral and spiritual set of val- discover that your confidence and faith in yourself
ues. The path to this inner principle is not, how- grow considerably each time you try - even if you
ever, a conventional one, such as orthodox religions do not always succeed the first time around.
might offer; nor is it an esoteric one in the sense of
trying to transcend earthly life through disciplines Thus one of your chief fears - of unashamedly
such as meditation - although this kind of path may expressing your own individuality - can become an
provide other valuable benefits. It is, in essence, a indestructible base of self-confidence which can
psychological path - a quiet exploration of the fam- support you on your inner journey. For in taking
ily from which you have emerged, and the parents the risk of being yourself, you will gradually learn
who gave birth to you, and the line of the father to trust your own inner voice; and those deeper and
which ultimately leads to your search for a father- higher values which you seek will therefore always
principle of a higher order. Thus you may need, bear the stamp of your own spirit, rather than being
before anything else, to face honestly the issues and a borrowed doctrine culled from some parent,
challenges of your childhood. It is through such teacher or ideology.
inner searching that you will eventually find that
sense of a centre upon which everything in your ex-
ternal life needs to be built.
You have a deep belief in your own destiny, and
this provides strong support for the kind of inner
journey that would provide you with serenity and
fulfillment. But you may need to deal with your
desire to manage and control what you meet in life,
for although you can to some extent live according
to your own rules in the outer world, the laws of the
inner world are a mystery whose substance you
may spend a lifetime exploring. You already have
a deep sense of purpose. What you might need to
cultivate is more humility toward that inner reality
which is your source.
Developing confidence in self-expression
There is one area of life where any effort to
develop yourself will always result in an increased
feeling of strength and self-respect, because this is
the sphere of both your greatest anxiety and, para-
doxically, your greatest potential. Whatever you
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ASTROLOGICAL DATA USED FOR THE ANALYSIS:
name: Bill Gates (male) birthdate: 28 Oct 1955 place: Seattle, WA (US) long: 122w20 lat: 47n36 local time 22:00 06+00 U.T. sid. time 00:17:52 method Liz Greene houses: Placidus 25-Nov-2000

PLANETARY POSITIONS
planet sign degree motion

Sun
Moon Mercury Venus Mars Jupiter Saturn Uranus Neptune Pluto Moon’s Node

Scorpio
Aries Libra Scorpio Libra Leo Scorpio Leo Libra Leo Sagittarius

5 8 16 20 10 27 21 2 28 28 19

02’23 14’54 36’03 13’53 07’07 47’03 35’30 17’21 14’31 20’43 28’17

in house 4 in house 10 in house 4 in house 5 in house 4 in house 2 in house 5 in house 1 in house 4 in house 2 in house 5

direct direct direct direct direct direct direct direct direct direct retrograde

HOUSE POSITIONS Ascendant
2nd House 3rd House Imum Coeli 5th House 6th House

Cancer
Leo Virgo Libra Scorpio Sagittarius

26 14 6 4 12 23

57’41 35’05 07’19 51’52 53’50 46’43

Descendant 8th House 9th House Medium Coeli 11th House 12th House

Capricorn Aquarius Pisces Aries Taurus Gemini

26 14 6 4 12 23

57’41 35’05 07’19 51’52 53’50 46’43

MAJOR ASPECTS
Sun SQUARE Uranus 2°45 Sun CONJUNCTION Neptune 6°48 Moon OPPOSITION Mercury 8°20 Moon OPPOSITION Mars 1°51 Moon TRINE Uranus 5°57 Mercury CONJUNCTION Mars 6°29 Mercury SEXTILE Moon’s Node 2°52 Venus SQUARE Jupiter 7°32 Venus CONJUNCTION Saturn 1°22 Venus SQUARE Pluto 8°06 Jupiter SQUARE Saturn 6°11 Jupiter SEXTILE Neptune 0°27 Jupiter CONJUNCTION Pluto 0°34 Jupiter TRINE Moon’s Node 8°18 Saturn SQUARE Pluto 6°44 Uranus SQUARE Neptune 4°02 Neptune SEXTILE Pluto 0°05 Pluto TRINE Moon’s Node 8°51 Moon CONJUNCTION Medium Coeli 3°23 Mars OPPOSITION Medium Coeli 5°14 Uranus CONJUNCTION Ascendant 5°20

Numbers indicate orb (deviation from the exact aspect angle).

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Paths toward Integration III. Your Psychological Type Romantic vision and the gift of imagination * The romantic vision rejects life’s limitations * Sensitivity to others combines with a creative imagination The attractions of a sociable partner * Respecting people who need other people * A lack of trust in love * A need for depth and honesty in relationship * A tendency to excess VI.25125. Relationship Patterns II. but little emotional support * Balancing head and heart * Hidden anger and suppressed violence * Dealing with your own aggression The image of the mother in a man’s chart * A force of nature * Differentiating your own feel- PHE as.1-1 Bill Gates 3 . Introduction ings from your mother’s * A hidden will to power * The problem of envy and competition V. The Family Background Family myths and psychological inheritance * The image of the father in a man’s chart * His psychological absence leads to sadness and confusion * The longing for a father-surrogate * High ideals. Character and Shadow Uncompromising loyalty to individual values * The chronic discontent of the rebel * A tendency to self-mythologising and an unease with the collective * The drive to be yourself dominates all other needs A secret dependency on the good opinions of others * The need to please causes unconscious anxieties * Hidden vulnerability and the longing to belong * A secret indecisiveness and identification with the crowd * The importance of balancing strong individuality with a common humanity Drawn to the centre of the stage * A humbler and more selfless character lies in the shadow * A direct and honest approach to life * The importance of beauty and culture must be acknowledged Finding an inner source * Developing confidence in self-expression IV.CONTENTS OF THIS ANALYSIS I.

It lies in the cast of characters which represent the deepest needs. had become anachronisms . YOUR PSYCHOLOGICAL TYPE The rich array of individual attributes portrayed in your birth horoscope is set. and eloquently demonstrates that it has something of great value to offer the modern individual seeking self-understanding.to help them deal with challenges. This is not fortune-telling astrology. Likewise. and story. and every life experience. and once again meriting the respect of intelligent minds .pieces of superstitious nonsense which reflected a more ignorant and gullible era. INTRODUCTION Once upon a time. conflicts and aspirations which lie within you. psychological astrology. based on ancient and empirically compiled principles and used by the learned for greater insight not only into the future. neglected and troublesome. Your psychological type does not remain static and unchanging through the whole of your life. which lies at the core of your life journey. and the increase in man’s knowledge of the material universe. reflects in some way the character of the individual. astrology has outproven and outlasted its opponents. whether tiny and transient or major and transformative. It might be useful for you to remember the metaphor of the theatre as you read through the various sections of your astrological portrait.inner characters who are underdeveloped.25125. because it can help you to understand the real meaning of fate as it is reflected by astrology. conflicts and problems. against the backdrop of a certain temperament bias. growing in popularity. but rather. No person can be other than himself or herself. We might call this bias your psychological "type". your birth horoscope is a metaphor for the individual play.which strives toward balance and completeness. developed to as deep and sophisticated a level as is possible within the perimeters of computer interpretation. and all the men and women merely players. it seemed for a time that studies such as astrology. Subjected to many centuries of suppression and ridicule. but into the soul. Fate does not lie in your being subjected to random preordained events. despite its detractors.whether we call it the unconscious. No one begins life whole or perfect. the Self. Shakespeare once wrote that all the world is a stage. At certain important junctures in life. In a sense. --- II. in company with other symbolic maps of the cosmos. There is something within all of us .1-1 Bill Gates 4 . and all people have certain areas of strength . and which tries to integrate into our lives all those qualities or inner characters which have been neglected or undervalued. But surprisingly. in a less scientific age than ours. for it is a typical or characteristic way of responding to the situations life brings you. to offer you an astrological portrait which is uniquely and individually focussed and which aims at providing greater self-knowledge. cast of characters.sophisticated and welladapted inner characters . as it is with everyone. or the soul . No computer can perform the task of an experienced human astrologer. and the turning of lead into gold. But we think you will find this analysis a surprisingly profound and subtle interpretation of the complex dynamics at work within you. complete with stage set. it is as though some central core.I. the conjuring of demons. In this horoscope analysis we have endeavoured. has refused to go the way of the flat earth. astrology.for it has been brought into the modern era through our increasing knowledge of psychology and of the inner nature of man. all people have certain areas of weakness . draws us into conflicts which enable us to develop our weak- PHE as. using the insights of astrology and psychology combined with the tools of advanced computer technology. astrology was a respected study. deeper and wiser than the conscious "I". With the coming of the Age of Enlightenment. It is alive and well.

not because you are intrinsically unhealthy . Romantic vision and the gift of imagination You are one of the world’s true romantics. The great strength of your nature lies in your well-developed relationship to the creative power of the unconscious. You may resent the boredom of a routine job. Life does this for us. You may also resist having to select one thing to which you must apply yourself. because whatever you have accomplished. and there will not always be someone else there to clean up the mess which you leave behind. You have a habit of living mostly in the future. This is the "one day when I grow up. and you will often abandon your efforts just when they are about to bear fruit because it is the challenge and the journey. You tend to be on rather poor terms with day-to-day reality and its responsibilities and demands. and can leap with a kind of hunch or "sixth sense" to a conclusion which is usually extremely accurate yet which you may not always be able to explain logically. Yours is a temperament which will never stagnate. rather than the goal.in fact. you tend to see opportunities which others miss.. Because of this.25125. You may forget at times to rest and eat sensibly. which excite you most. sooner or later. you are probably blessed with a PHE as. more enriching and more meaningful. Mere security with no future creative possibilities is a kind of death to you. Bad times cannot keep you down for long. and therefore often obtain rewarding experiences or material gains through means which others would not dare to try. better. There is a quality of liveliness and colour about The romantic vision rejects life’s limitations However. But sometimes it is more rewarding and less problematic if we cooperate with the process.. You may or may not literally gamble with money. which may be appropriate in youth but which begins to feel rather uncomfortable with the passing of the years.er areas." syndrome. But the more you ignore this side of life the worse it tends to get. which allows you to look into the future and envisage potentials which are not immediately apparent in the present.1-1 Bill Gates 5 . always looking toward the next project and the next stage of the journey. Your lack of attention to your body may result in problems with your health. preferring to feel that you have many potentials open in the future. You tend to neglect your body. Thus you will find that. so that we can become more complete as human beings. and the world of mechanical objects may seem personally inimical to you because things constantly break down and need attention and fixing. because these thwart the vision that means so much to you. but you are probably willing to back your stronger hunches with effort. feeling secretly that you are entitled to something more special and glamourous. because of your emphasis on the imaginative and intuitive side of life. Another strength in your character is your ability to appreciate the connections between apparently disparate facts and circumstances. You often have an instantaneous grasp of all the important factors in a situation. or you may dislike having to bind yourself to domestic obligations because these stop the flow of the imagination. incorporated in the following paragraphs about your psychological type. you run the risk of forgetting worldly limits. or drive it too hard. your interpretations of life which makes all your experiences seem like worthwhile lessons. Having your time filled by tasks like servicing the car and doing the monthly accounts can make you extremely irritable. for your intensely active imagination must always inject into ordinary circumstances an aura of meaning. it is experienced not as a final achievement but as a temporary stage on the way to something bigger. potential and purpose without which you find daily life inconsequential and sometimes suffocating. are some suggestions about how you might facilitate this inner movement toward a more balanced perspective on life. and this could result in you becoming a "jack of all trades" who dabbles in everything and produces nothing lasting. for the next opportunity is always just around the corner. and to see a story or a hidden pattern which others might ignore.

And because your natural romanticism tends to express itself through faith in the potential of a relationship. You need to learn greater detachment and a more objective vision of life. but also because you do not know how to be firm about your own limits.not only because you are compassionate. you find it hard to face the imperfect reality of another person. and you blend this with gentleness and a sense of timing that can allow you to midwife this potential in yourself and in others. Life sometimes requires a tough survival instinct and a capacity to cope alone if necessary. and here too there might be a promise of much greater fulfilment if you can allow yourself to experience the powerful demands of the instincts which you sometimes fear. painting. or an obsession with "mastering" the body through strenuous diets and exercises which might be more punishing than helpful because they are excessive. and also could benefit from Sensitivity to others combines with a creative imagination Your imaginative abilities are supported by a deep instinctive insight into human behaviour and motives. is powerful and capable of great intensity and pleasure. resents neglect and may retaliate with a message of its own. If you can learn the art of being an ordinary mortal in a sometimes unromantic world. You are inclined to be ill at ease with your body because you have not befriended it. Any achievement of a material kind can be enormously rewarding to you.strong and energetic constitution . and perpetually take on the burden of others’ problems . talents. where your ability to intuit character and mimic it in plastic forms may give you exceptional PHE as.25125. Or you may combine your imagination and your sensitivity to the handling of others’ problems. Your need to express your creative imagination through relationships with others may cause you to fear the cold self-sufficiency that situations sometimes demand of you. and may excel in one of the arts. offering much sympathy and vision to loved ones or to those whom you might choose to counsel or help.if you will only stop running away from what you call "lower" or "unimportant". This effort can be rewarding and exciting because your sensual nature. such as music.but because any living thing. and it is possible that family attitudes in your early life have contributed to your undervaluing of yourself in this realm of life. You will sooner or later need to make better friends with the physical world. still remains the problem of earthing your vision and sense of human potential within the confines of material reality. and thus tend toward hypochondria. and your uncannily accurate intuition can also be applied to practical matters to ensure your success. Your perception of physical reality may be too negative. and here your dependency upon human contact may make it even more difficult for you to cope with the restrictions and responsibilities that the world imposes upon you. then your unusual and powerful imaginative gifts will always bring you new adventures as well as earning you concrete rewards. preferring to live in a fantasy-image of what he or she could become rather than accepting the person who confronts you in actuality. including the flesh of which you are made. dance or theatre.1-1 Bill Gates 6 . you have difficulty in drawing boundaries around yourself. Your great gift lies in the sensing of human potential and the deeper and more meaningful lessons to be found in life’s dilemmas. and you possess a rare capacity to respond to nature and to the beauty of the physical world . In very personal matters such as sexual expression your unease with the body can also make you shy and awkward. although often repressed or neglected. Your imagination never divorces itself from the world of human feelings because your perceptiveness and concern will always keep you related to other people. however. Your grasp of the potentials of a situation combines with sensitivity and compassion for the needs and problems of others. so that all your creative hunches and inspirations ultimately work to enhance and enrich interpersonal relationships. Your deepest challenge in life. and this lends a human touch to the strange and often uncanny abilities of your intuition. You have a profound response to the world of symbols. Occasionally too empathetic and idealistic for your own good. myths and images.

and which fights for a valued place in your life at the same time that it disrupts the complacency of your self-image.which contains the less acceptable and less developed aspects of your personality. There is the individual you are familiar with . purpose. you are quite incapable of compromising your ideals.the "I" that thinks. You are in love with your differentness. The tension between the primary characters in your inner drama. Although you enjoy the company of other people. is the source of energy which provides your life with movement.1-1 Bill Gates 7 . There are other characters inside you too . The story thus portrayed. CHARACTER AND SHADOW One of the most important insights gained by depth psychology has been the revelation that people are dual in nature. for you live from a conviction of the sacredness of your own individuality. Surprisingly. As soon as you have achieved something. with a certain charming arrogance. hidden individual .rather than hoping to be instantaneously and telepathically understood. You want to be left alone to express yourself in your own way. And there is another. Where these are strongly marked in your horoscope. you immediately see how much better it could be with a little improvement.even those you love most. conflict and growth. we have included a description of them as well. and attract them easily because of the vitality of your personality. but rather than making those necessary small external compromises which might grant you the privacy to pursue your own lifestyle. at least within the circles in which you move. because you possess the intelligence and force of character to be convincing even if you are being outrageous. and because you resent having your liberty curtailed by rules which have been designed by the herd for the herd. with its complicated interaction of light and shadow. you tend to demand.the shadow-side . beliefs and freedom of action for very long in order to please anyone . and being able to be clear and direct about who you are and what you want can help you to a much greater sense of confidence in inhabiting that concrete world which you both fear and yet ultimately must embrace in order to feel real and secure in life. and you are quite capable of changing your career completely just as you are beginning to PHE as. You are often at odds with what might be called the collective norm. represents what is really meant by individual destiny. The interplay between the conscious and unconscious sides of you is a constantly shifting dance.more overt stating of your ideas and needs to others . feels and acts in accustomed ways which you identify as yourself. described in the following paragraphs.25125. so it is very difficult for you to settle contentedly and enjoy the fruits of your labours. Uncompromising loyalty to individual values Nothing and no one will ever dictate to you who you should be or what you should do with your life. you possess a restless imagination which demands that the present be ceaselessly improved upon. The chronic discontent of the rebel Although time and age will no doubt mellow you somewhat. Not everyone is as intuitive as you. and have considerable contempt for those who live their lives like sheep trying to copy some image offered by media. and contain a basic polarity of a conscious and an unconscious self. The tranquil security of later life toward which so many people aspire does not hold much appeal for you. or arrived somewhere. --- III. advertising and Mary Whitehouse. changing at different stages of your life and altering according to the pressures and challenges which you encounter. much of the time it does. that the world make adjustments for you.supporting players who blend and conflict with the main ones to make you the unique individual you are. both because you are an idealist who refuses to accept that things cannot be changed. and this vision will probably drive you all your life.

mythic images are no more truly individual than the bland faces that stare up at you from Good Housekeeping Magazine. But for you they epitomise the essence of individuality. This fuels your need to realise a unique identity that will make an impact upon the unappreciative outer world as well as fulfilling your own dreams. But you also possess the gift of being able to leave others alone too. the mundane and the philistine .a kind of cross between Clint Eastwood and Jeanne d’Arc . numinous and sacred. you will find your greatest fulfillment in daring to offer your own creative products to that conventional world which has both hurt you and yet. undermined your confidence in yourself. for you have suffered in childhood through conventional expectations in a deep and wounding way. You need a creative field in which to express your fertile imagination. It would be very surprising indeed if you had managed to pass this far in life without being considered eccentric or abnormal by someone . a company. surprisingly. Although you may never be famous in the grand PHE as. You make your own laws and then try to live by them. for they are larger than life and expressing their attributes requires a certain courage and panache . You keep noticing potentials in yourself which you did not notice earlier.which you have in abundance.for the hero or heroine of myth is.even if your achievements are. of necessity.the great They . You are a chronically discontented soul. and who embodies a goal of some kind that others can model themselves after. which acts like yeast on the imaginations of others because it stirs up in them their own longing to define themselves as individuals. they are forced to respect your originality and your ability to live as you please without really giving a damn for what others think. This is the psychology behind the "star". and firmly convinced that you yourself could be more than you are .your early childhood experiences have. different from the rest and marked by a burning sense of destiny .become successful. it has entrenched your conviction that you have the right to follow your own vision and live according to your own rules. Paradoxically. because it makes you extremely uncertain and prone to feelings of dissatisfaction. and you are repelled by the banal. it is your secret feelings of loneliness and inferiority which comprise much of your fierce determination to be accepted as yourself. you are also likely to make a valuable contribution of some kind. radiant creatures of fantasy also arise from the collective.probably your family. you are likely not only to appear and feel different. and have therefore no doubt had your share of conflict with traditional values. considerable. and you do not experience the collective .especially if they are eccentrics like you. Time has not taught you to bend and compromise. and grant them space and tolerance . Paradoxically. A tendency to self-mythologising and an unease with the collective Somewhere in your fantasies you have cast yourself in an ideal heroic image .25125. and this is a kind of plague as well as a gift. always believing that people and life could be more than they are. possibly through creative work. a politician. to you.1-1 Bill Gates 8 . violate your sense of life’s essential meaningfulness and imply bondage to collective expectations and responsibilities. rather.because these things. for creative expression is really an act of dedication to some spirit within you that is magical. to some extent.and much of your intensely individualistic manner and style spring from this deep self-mythologising. whether this is an actor. Whether you create a work of art. or simply an original and colourful lifestyle. more than once during the course of your life. authorities and institutions. Although you strive toward this heroic image of yourself . Even if more conventional people sometimes fear or mistrust you. by other people’s standards. a writer.as a friend. a painter or any other person who seems to have greater vision and farther-seeing eyes. or abandoning an entire lifestyle in favour of a new one. Your originality arises from a close connection with the mythic world of the imagination. also provides the most fruitful field for your endeavours. for the The drive to be yourself dominates all other needs Because you are so loyal to your inner vision.

nor in necessarily being different from everybody else. This gives you power. for no one can be so strenuously original and individualistic all the time. Usually you project your shadow-side onto others.1-1 Bill Gates 9 . If you can begin to make a relationship with that side of you which is ordinary.25125. and to belong and not just because you are distinctive and original and merit respect. You have a great conflict about just what constitutes individuality. At the same time. you do it your way. Sooner or later life will challenge you on the hidden issue of your unconscious dependency on the very collective from which you have withdrawn your identification in order to pursue your own dream. you are likely to be deeply attracted to that mysterious quality in others which somehow. mysterious and subtle. tending to have a little contempt for what you consider weak and vacillating souls who can do and think nothing without someone else’s approval. to be liked. or even condemnation (which you take as a compliment because it is more flattering than being ignored). Your dependency on the collective is an important and potentially creative facet of your personality.not just in terms of what you do. But you are a striking and courageous personality. It is the thing which secretly drives you to constantly seek the approval and validation of others even when this validation is expressed as grudging respect. This secretly unassuming and inoffensive character inside you would never dare to do the things you do. but in terms of what you are. the views of others are far more important to your shadow-side than you might wish to acknowledge. to rely on your own inner authority for assessment of what you create. It is much more elusive. gently and unobtrusively. although it is difficult to reconcile this secret side of you with the sharply drawn and almost stylised personality which you prefer others to see. but which you have necessarily had to exclude from your conscious values and behaviour in order to remain firmly your own person and committed to your own unique path. As the line in the song goes. original or noteworthy to earn it. somewhere within the circle of your professional and personal life you have considerable influence on others simply because you do not depend on them for your ideas and values. on a conscious level. nor risk the censure of others. because you are your own person. You yearn to be appreciated simply because you are likable and a nice person. Something in you longs to please people. and have much to offer . most of the time. The need to please causes unconscious anxieties Although you strive. cares inordinately about what others think of you. and you can sometimes feel terribly lonely. needy and more dependent on a sense of belonging than your fiercely proud personality usually expresses. A secret dependency on the good opinions of others In contrast to your fervent belief in your own individual vision. do and are. shut out and very much an outsider and an outcast because it is so difficult for you to express this dimension of yourself and simply relax in the company of others without having to make a stand in one way or another. there is another protagonist in your inner psychic drama. for although you are clear. about how important your own integrity and ideals are. for this figure is a much more dependent and less defined personality than the one with which you are familiar. you can also sometimes catch a glimpse of what your shadow-side tries to tell you: that individuality may not lie in "doing" anything. The shadow-side of you. PHE as. which you generally repress and which tends to live an unexpressed life in the unconscious. This hidden side of you contains all those qualities which really belong to you. attracts love and devotion without the individual in question having to do anything dramatic. you might begin to understand that individuality really has something to do with being all of oneself .including the shadow.sense.

Your fierce individuality is not lessened or compromised by your openness to the currents and longings of the world around you. Often you pick up what others are feeling without realising that you are doing it. for this secret fluidity in your nature does not distinguish between you and another. where you were very likely torn between your need for closeness to your family and your need of loyalty to yourself. This is because you need emotional warmth and closeness more than you care to acknowledge. although necessarily expressed through your highly unique personal style. You have certain wounds springing from childhood. and your determination to live by your own ideals.25125. imaginings and attitudes of others. and often what you believe to be your own original creation is in fact drawn from a deeper and broader pool than your own mind. and even depressed. and you need it not only from those few select friends who live up to your idea of an original and interesting companion. You are far more influenced by the needs. for after you have enjoyed the initial lift from having "been yourself" and provoked a little excitement. rather. Rather than being a hindrance or a negative factor. but the mindless and deep bond of feeling that transcends differences and offers a place of shelter and emotional safety. this is in fact a great gift.to belong and be approved of by those very people whom you often dismiss as unoriginal and boring . But the shadow-side PHE as.1-1 Bill Gates 10 . You chose the latter because that is the nature of your character. from the clothes that you wear to your ideas about life. for it means that your creative vision can draw on sources larger than your own personal experiences and values.Hidden vulnerability and the longing to belong You are more sensitive.to a deep unconscious connection with the collective uncon- A secret indecisiveness and identification with the crowd You work hard to make sure that everything about you bears your individual stamp. vulnerable and easily hurt by criticism than you wish people to realise. The importance of balancing strong individuality with a common humanity Thus your distinctive and original stance and your commitment to your own values are contradicted and complemented by a secret sensitivity to and dependency upon others. or between you and the group around you. and it was the right choice for you. In fact you are much less independent than you like others to see. Yet there is often a backlash to these episodes once they happen. That it also means you are dependent on the collective for the real source of your creativity is not a bad thing. You have a tendency to provoke conflict and stir up mischief because it is part of your style. unsure of yourself. you are secretly rather frightened of confrontation with others. In this way your shadow-side is virtually psychic. of your personality is considerably more blurred in its boundaries than you might realise. it is enhanced. and you may walk away with someone else’s headache or depression and believe it to be your own. and might be happier if you expressed this hidden need of yours more openly and honestly. for you secretly envy it. Despite your proud stance. and many of your fantasies and ideas seem to arise mysteriously from this deep unconscious fusion with the psyche of the collective. This need of others ranges from an ordinary social need . and would rather be disliked than stifle in a soup of polite non-conversation made by polite non-people. chameleon-like. You are highly sensitive and permeable to atmospheres and to the unconscious feelings of others. if only you could be comfortable with the fact. you tend to feel inexplicably let down and lonely. responds to the colouration of the environment and acts the appropriate role. But something in you longs for the feeling of family .not just camaraderie with like-thinking friends. Try not to be quite so contemptuous of others’ dependency on family and group. you need it from people in general. and there is something in you which. for it means your vision is truly universal. and take much longer getting over rejection and disapproval than you admit. you have borrowed from no one. you do not like boring people and stagnant situations.

More mystically speaking. since you like to think of yourself as an artist of some kind even if you do not deal in what is conventionally considered art. for you would rather burn out brightly than adopt ways of making life peaceful and serene if this costs you your immortality.which includes things like your personal appearance. but you are likely to be admired anyway. although you profess most of the time not to care about the opinions of others unless they are of a standard that matches your own. Everything in the psyche works in polarities. pity we can’t remember the name or face. at the very least.scious of which you. or as endlessly interesting as you. there is another pair of conflicting figures indicated in your birth chart which are likely to be recognisable in your life. Another pair of important characters The characters described so far represent in their fundamental antagonism the main theme of your inner story. Life will of course challenge you on just this issue . it IS everybody else. You have no intention of leaving an epitaph that reads. You spend considerable time working to improve your image . The shadow-side of your personality acts like a powerful undercurrent in the sea. and if you can combine your urgent desire for love and validation with the necessary discipline and patience that any professional skill requires. if anything. You would rather be disliked and thought badly of than pass through life unnoticed. You are a little too prone to wearing other people down with your intense self-preoccupation and the driven quality of your energy. and serve as a vivid example to others of the importance and value of living out one’s own desires and fantasies regardless of whether they fit into conventional ideas of A humbler and more selfless character lies in the shadow In contrast to the rather flamboyantly energetic personality which you habitually show the world. like everyone. in whatever field you work. which is so important to you and a goal in itself for the whole of your life. If all the world is a stage and all the men and women merely players. and the similarity rather than the differences between people. then you intend to be the star . These figures are briefly described in the following paragraphs. proper behaviour.who are you when you are not performing? . there is a highly creative dimension to your eternal selfpreoccupation. Your need to be seen and adored will no doubt earn you some recognition.or. if you cannot obtain the hero’s or heroine’s role. You could not take such an individualistic stance unless there were something to pit your vision against. and to gather people around you who are happy and willing to offer the suitable backdrop for a star. drawing you out toward others in a need to have your identity and your creative offerings recognised and validated. If you can accept this and live a little less defensively." Your self-preoccupation is not a hindrance to your creativity. it is a spur to it. you can utilise your great creative potential to express ideas and views which touch everyone. Drawn to the centre of the stage Not much is as fascinating. and is the part of you which is just like everybody else. your shadow-side is a good deal more humble. the villain. You possess great quantities of sheer unadulterated vitality. and the whole issue of individuality. Besides these figures. then you can accomplish a great deal with your talents.but you are likely to treat this challenge too as yet another glorious and exciting adventure. "Here lies a nice person.and you are also likely to spend a lot of money on it as well. cannot be seen except within the perspective of its opposite merging with the group. Although this may seem selfish and egocentric to some. your manner of speech and movement . as irresistibly exciting.25125.1-1 Bill Gates 11 . are a part. and are not merely an angry and rebellious statement of being different. A star is indeed what you wish to be. more ordinary and more rooted in the affairs of PHE as. but this something really lies within yourself. It would be quite pointless to suggest that you slow down and learn to sometimes touch the ground.

Other people wrap their pornographic magazines in a plain brown wrapper. but in the best sense of being at home with the real bones of life and people. Such an inner dedication to some spiritual or transpersonal source can also help you to break the strong unconscious cord that binds you to your parents’ aspirations. and there is an additional pair of characters which also plays an important part in your story. You enjoy luxury and pleasure and are unafraid of calling desire by its name and unashamedly pursuing what you want. boring dimension of your shadow is really your link with common humanity.25125. decent. for you always feel that the love is conditional and based upon your performance rather than upon yourself. source. rather than an outer. In your birth horoscope. and deeply dependent on the love and validation of others. direct and honest.1-1 Bill Gates 12 . basic good taste and perceptiveness. rather than be caught reading it.you put in the shop window exactly what there is in the shop. Thus your shadow-side is rooted in ordinary mundane life. and the antidote to your chronic hidden feelings of loneliness. for this is a larger factor in your intense ambitions than you may realise. You are one of those people whom others instinctively trust. Life will eventually challenge you on that side of your life in which you are uncomfortable and awkward - PHE as. Despite your intelligence. A direct and honest approach to life There is little nonsense and pretense about your personality and your views. you would wrap the Bible in one.not simple in the sense of stupid or naive. humble rather than arrogant. Naturally all this goodness and decency is offensive and demeaning to your more colourful image of yourself. but it is not these people whom you wish to impress anyway. Some people might find you a little overbearing or tactless. and your natural intuitive capacity to read people (for someone who is instinctively honest in the deepest sense can always perceive falsity in another person) allows you to navigate the currents of others’ more convoluted motives without getting harmed. You are both more ordinary and more extraordinary than you realise. human and uninteresting. Much of your life is spent trying to live up what you believe they wanted from you. You are blunt. and are not averse to directly challenging and. and that the world’s notice is a by-product rather than the source of your value in life. The sense that you serve something higher. and the hardworking servant of others). is the gift that your shadow-side can provide. is really your greatest source of strength. because there is nothing false about you . mortal rather than godlike. The sad reality is that. and this is really what is meant by a spiritual or mystical aspiration. you are at heart a very basic and simple personality . ruthlessness and effort if a person wants to get ahead. The nice. and you have no illusions about the fact that life sometimes demands courage. and it might be summarised by the image of the good person (good in the sense of nice. if necessary. and you do not try to hide behind elaborate social veneers and posturings to mask who you are and what you want. offending those who offend you by their refusal to be themselves. You have little patience with hypocrisy. More importantly. decent. Your shadow-side. Then you feel a fraud. if you can find the courage to look inside at what you believe to be empty and come to know it better. the less loved you feel. emptiness and isolation. and it is also a link with that sense of a higher purpose which can offer your life value even when you are not performing. and responsive to the beauties which are here on earth rather than those which hide behind clouds in heaven. no more and no less. it is also deeply dependent on validation from an inner. which you fear because it might make you ordinary.mundane life than it might seem. the more acclaim you get. These figures are described briefly in the following paragraphs. so that you can at last feel loved. several important themes are portrayed. for you have a deep fear of being boring and therefore cling to a certain naughty panache.

" Or. In other words. Although you are an individual. and you possess in potential a highly unique combination of genuine and deep aesthetic feeling with a solid and honest core that can always recognise quality and will never be led astray by imitations. rather than trusting life less. to return to our metaphor of the theatre. has read all the right books and seen the right films. merely clumsy. There is a certain image in the eyes of others which this secret side of you seeks: the educated. without which you can sometimes seem. but you may need to look with more insight into just what this aesthetically sophisticated world really represents.25125. for they pass from one generation to the next via the unconscious. But it can tell us a great deal about psychological heredity. you have emerged from a family background. Astrology cannot tell us about physical heredity. Thus the male child born into the family of "successful" men will inherit a particular set of expectations to which he will respond according to his own nature and his own inner characters. there is a hidden dimension in your personality which is far more delicate. Psychological inheritance of deeply rooted attitudes often takes place on hidden. for in your insistence on simplicity and basic values. "All the women in this family have been disappointed by their men. A family is like a living organism.the worlds of the intellect and the spirit. and shines with the patina of style and fashion. sophisticated and luxurious world. nonverbal ways. It also contains a particular set of psychological dynamics. You need to look more honestly at what you condemn. although it might not seem so to you. You should trust yourself more. myths and attitudes toward life which you have acquired from the psychological soil of your family background. or even recognised. and feel.1-1 Bill Gates 13 . THE FAMILY BACKGROUND Family myths and psychological inheritance The importance of beauty and culture must be acknowledged In contrast to your direct and unpretentious way of handling your life. sophisticated and polished person who knows all the right places to go. boorish and inferior. But when faced with such a challenge you are likely to be as innately honest and free of pretensions as you are in the other spheres of your life. and they are communicated in a multitude of subtle. It could be said that you underrate yourself and play yourself down. as well as denying your longing to join a more cultured. you overlook your own intellectual and artistic and social potentials. for you mistrust it and feel it to be false and vain. cultured." Myths such as these do not need to be spoken. for much of your condemnation springs from fear. Try not to reject your aspirations toward a more sophisticated lifestyle because you feel you might not belong there and could be laughed at. --- IV. and all the things which you cannot see and touch. And the female child born into the family of "disappointed women" will inherit certain attitudes about relationships which will affect her later in life if she remains unaware of this inner script. romantic and intellectually subtle than your ordinary expression would suggest. an emotional climate which provides the first soil in which your nascent individuality took root in childhood. unconscious levels of which individual family members are unaware. Family myths move down the generations as surely as a distinctive facial structure does. but they carry a family inheritance. Thus you contain certain inner patterns. and it includes certain hereditary characteristics which have passed down through the generations. Your shadow-side is difficult for you to integrate into your life. which runs through families in the same way that red hair or blue eyes do. PHE as. the characters in your inner drama are unique. For it contains the key to your sense of the subtler and higher things in life. An example of a family myth might be: "All the men in this family have been self-made and successful.

lastly. it is a picture of your own inner fatherqualities: how you order and structure your life. for according to how conscious you are of the interplay between your own nature and your family inheritance. for your father-image offers you a challenge which you must meet with your own resources. In a sense." His psychological absence leads to sadness and confusion The subjective image of your father which is portrayed in your birth horoscope is a mysterious and complex one. Most importantly. for your father was the first man in your life and is therefore a powerful unconscious influence on how you express your own masculinity and how you relate to other men. Such father-surrogates have inevitably proved disappointing to you. and you tend in adult life to look secretly to others as the arbiters of your sense of self-value. how they operate as patterns within your own psyche. The image of your father portrayed in your birth horoscope therefore describes three things. you perpetually struggle against the tendency to drift along hoping that someone or something perhaps a father-surrogate of some kind . coupled with a strong tendency to idealise the psychologically absent parent into a mystical figure and justify his inaccessibility by blaming yourself. The power of the family background should never be underestimated. it is reflected in your birth horoscope. you will find that you can willingly relinquish your deep-seated melancholy and disappointment. Because you did not experience a strong and solid model of the masculine principle in early life.either because he was physically absent. and how you formulate your ethical codes and ideals.or whoever played the role of father in your early life. how you envisage and pursue your goals. your early sacrifice means that you will need to learn how to father yourself . how you actualise your potentials in the world. you have had to sacrifice a genuine close relationship with your father. how you express and direct your will. it is a symbol of what the masculine represents to you. In grappling with this problem. Firstly. aloof or unhappy to allow you much access to his true feelings and character. He is also the symbol of an inner pattern or perspective through which you relate to life. for it is not the past.will descend from the vault of heaven and provide you with the impetus and strength to achieve your goals.25125. and how they support or conflict with the unfoldment of your own inner drama. there are many qualities which you have had to acquire through your own experience in life. and.to find inner resources which provide the necessary ambition. PHE as. will and determination to actualise your potentials and accomplish something worthwhile with your talents. These parental images reflect how mother and father appear to you personally. how you father your own children.Because your family background is an integral part of your life story. As the poet Rainer Maria Rilke once wrote: "Never believe fate is more than the condensation of childhood. Because your experience of your father has been a poignant and disappointing one. Astrology can offer considerable helpful insight into this realm of life. Your parents themselves are also reflected in your horoscope.1-1 Bill Gates 14 . The image of the father in a man’s chart The longing for a father-surrogate Father is not only a real person. it is a subjective picture of the qualities you experienced as most dominant in your relationship with your father . It is a living present within each of us. You did not know your father as a solid and supportive personality . Secondly. or because you experienced his personality as too withdrawn. weak. you will have more or less freedom of choice in life. but rather as images who embody a particular theme or set of attitudes. although they appear not as real threedimensional people. and there lies somewhere within you a sad longing for what you feel you did not have. Thus there is likely to be much confusion within you about your own worth because of your early relationship with your father. Thirdly.

In addition to this dominant image. or because he could not relate through ordinary demonstration of affection. including yourself. for your early experience of your father can open many doors to balance your sense of disappointment. In particular. you too fear anger and aggressive feelings. Balancing head and heart You can express your lofty standards and love of independence and clear thinking in a creative way. Behind the idealised image of your personal father stands the divine father. This shadow-side is wilful. which are your inheritance. It is probably that your father did not display such qualities openly or consistently. you may be partly or completely unconscious of this dimension of your father’s personality.to "make sacred" . and you may therefore not understand the effects it has had on your own life. which is highly creative on one level. although the message you received from your father is that it is not. while still retaining a sense of self-worth in your emotional dealings with others. Hidden anger and suppressed violence Your father seems to have possessed a powerful and passionate shadow-side which contradicts the softer or more aloof qualities you have seen in him. Thus. Thus your sacrifice is a creative one according to the deeper meaning of the word . and you will need to stand firmly on the ground of your own human worth while exploring the clear heights of the mind and the spirit. or because he was rigidly controlled by ethics and opinions that did not permit him acceptance of his own animal nature. and may find as your life progresses that the father you are seeking is really available after all . and a detached perspective on life which gives vision and breadth to your thinking. PHE as.and can begin to see your father as a sensitive and fallible human being rather than a semi-divine figure who has on some level abandoned you. He may have emphasised your education and mental development while at the same time subtly or overtly rejecting your feeling and instinctual needs . But you and your father were alienated . There is still another image portrayed by your birth horoscope. aggressive and angry full of competitive spirit and resentful at having to compromise with anyone else’s needs and wishes. for you have inherited your father’s dilemma. From him you have inherited a deep appreciation of the world of the mind. there is another figure portrayed by your birth horoscope which adds further complexity to your experience of your father. Then the more creative dimension of this fatherimage can come into play within you.either because he was physically absent. but little emotional support Your father represented a quality of aloofness or detachment for you. either because his personality was too peaceable and fearful of conflict. which in certain ways conflicts with your dominant experience of your father.25125.in the vitality and boundlessness of your own imaginative and spiritual life. and you have a tendency to be too equable and eager to please others who attempt to dominate you. and you need to be careful not to become too rigid in your definition of what you think human beings.and you may have interpreted this rejection as your own failing and now. High ideals. The longing which your physically or emotionally absent father has inspired in you is really your own yearning for a set of spiritual values by which you can live. as an adult.1-1 Bill Gates 15 .for through your mysteriously inaccessible father you have inherited a profound sensitivity to the transpersonal world. strive toward too high an ideal of perfection while unnecessarily devaluing your more human needs. The power of this cool and lofty father-image within you is very great in both positive and negative ways. The heart is as valuable as the intellect. ought to be. and quite difficult on another.

25125. You possess great force of character. With such a powerful force at work in your childhood.perhaps even to the point where her volatile feelings pervaded the household and swamped your own and your deep attachment to her made it difficult for you to distinguish what you felt from what she felt. You could express this colourful and sensitive side of yourself through fields of work which involve dealing with the feelings of others.for men possess mothering capacities too . She is the symbol of an essential principle in life. Her emotional power in your early life was considerable . The image of the mother in a man’s chart Mother. qualities . more rational. like father. it is important that you face your passions honestly for the sake of your own physical fulfillment. the great emotional richness and depth which she possessed. Many of these will be known to you. for you may be afraid of the power of your desires because your father was afraid of his and therefore did not provide you with a positive model of self-acceptance. because of your acute awareness of the shifting moods and needs of those around you. and of an inner dynamic or perspective through which we relate to life. you can achieve most of the things you desire in life. for it is also within you. she was really a creature of changeable feelings and moods. is not only a person. A force of nature The subjective image of your mother portrayed in your birth horoscope is that of a force of nature. But your father was split within himself. but some might be surprising. It seems that. it is a subjective description of the qualities most dominant in your relationship with your mother.in particular. but her inner life that side of her which was unexpressed and therefore of great power in terms of its effects on you. The image of the mother portrayed in your birth horoscope therefore describes three things. perhaps the public. if you are able to remain in contact with it. You have within you the potential of a natural leader.1-1 Bill Gates 16 . you will need to be as conscious as possible of the enormous hold which your mother possessed over you. for otherwise you run the risk of expressing instead her feelings and characteristic emotional reactions rather than your own. because they reflect not only her outer behaviour. it is a picture of your own "maternal" qualities .your ability to nurture and care for yourself and others. If you can recognise and make a relationship with the aggressive instincts within yourself.Dealing with your own aggression It is important that you understand this aggressive and self-willed face of your father. and you now face the challenge of learning to handle your aggression in a way which is balanced with your need for emotional harmony.from balmy days to terrible thunderstorms. and your ability to flow with time and circumstances and to know instinctively when to wait and accept with wisdom the situations which life brings. incomprehensible and unpredictable. Because this shadow-side of your father is also a strongly sensual one. and you will also have healed a split which existed in the fabric of your family long before your own birth. and liable to sudden frightening shifts and changes . Secondly. There is much that is positive in this experience of your mother . your sense of safety and Differentiating your own feelings from your mother’s In order to find the best expression for this highly volatile side of your personality. however controlled or rational your mother appeared to be. take you far in life. PHE as. expressed creatively. and which in turn you too possess. trust in life’s essential kindness.for then she would have seemed to you like the weather. This is particularly the case if her natural emotionality was not held in balance by other. And thirdly. and how you relate to the emotional and instinctual dimensions of your own personality. the mother-image in your horoscope is a portrait of what the feminine represents to you how you experience women. passion and determination which could. Firstly. you will need to disengage your own feelings and responses from those of your mother.

Anger is another issue which is part of your inheritance from your mother. And you may have learned to fear your own competitive drive and your own aggressive instincts. then you will be nervous and uneasy when confronted with envy or challenge from others. needs and compulsions you are likely to bring into your relationships with others. --- V. and even her anger may have been expressed only through manipulative ploys and subtle criticism. or whether you ought to be with a Cancer or a Sagittarius. and although you possess quite a temper yourself. and therefore what kind of patterns. rewarding and frustrating of all human experiences. The more clearly you can see this unexpressed side of her. the more freely you will be able to relate to and utilise this powerful spirit within yourself. although these comprise a positive force which can take you far in life. energy and courage. and try to understand that your feelings and needs are as important. you can become confused and unsure of yourself.25125.1-1 Bill Gates 17 . Perhaps the only sign of such a powerful inner drive was her anger. A hidden will to power There is a covert but forceful dimension to your mother-image which she probably could not fully express but which has had a potent unconscious effect on your own ambition and will to succeed in life. Both astrology and psychology teach us that nothing that occurs within a relationship is chance . nor its fluctuations and conflicts. to deal with needs which are your responsibility and not your partner’s. full of vitality. for it is possible that. because of her own frustrated energies. Your birth horoscope describes what you are like inside. as powerful and as worthy of notice as your mother’s once were in your childhood. and typical patterns in close The problem of envy and competition You will also need to face your own dilemma with competitiveness and envy. and you always have the freedom to look at your own issues. strength and ambition. RELATIONSHIP PATTERNS Relationships are among the most mysterious. mother felt envious of your strengths and displayed considerable aggression toward you. just as you did on your mother’s. But astrology cannot say whether you are "fated" to have a good or a bad marriage. There is still another image portrayed by your birth horoscope. because of the essentially masculine flavour of these qualities. Your mother had within her a spirit of considerable courage. Learn to rely on your own instincts.You also depend a great deal on emotional "feedback" from others. nor its ending. needs. But you can be more or less conscious. You have inherited your mother’s competitiveness and her deep desire to make something important of her life.neither its beginning. which are good ones. her personality or her upbringing made it difficult for her to express them. and to respond to both joy and pain in creative ways. If other people do not respond as you expect in your adult life. and this gift is the creative side of your inheritance. The following paragraphs describe your attitudes. for you had to develop acute sensitivity to her cues in order to feel safe with her unpredictability. But in essence this dimension of your mother-image is a creative one. You cannot become somebody different. but. or send in your birth horoscope and request a new set of character. but you will need to be conscious of this hidden dimension of your mother if you are to avoid being driven by a compulsive ambition which makes you a "workaholic" without regard for your more personal needs. your PHE as. you may fear the expression of healthy anger because of the atmosphere of largely unarticulated anger which surrounded your mother. Your experience of your mother has developed in you a great facility to reading the responses and needs of others. If this was the case. which in certain ways conflicts with the experience of your mother described previously.

You would do it too. although this is no fault of yours. Whatever your sexual tastes. and yet remain. You have an instinctive appreciation of the fact that the human heart is complex and sometimes savage.for your partner needs you more than you need her. The attractions of a sociable partner Your pride. This description is written about you in terms of your dealings with the woman in your life. and that if. and if you are unaware of this. Respecting people who need other people Try not to cloak your envy with contempt and denigration of your partner’s tendency to compromise in order to be liked. although natu- PHE as. You may go into a relationship with a woman who is weaker than you. You need a relationship which can offer you a bridge to others. ladies’ magazines or school primers. this does not mean you are unlovable. you will find that the same attitudes. needs and patterns still apply. not a real marriage. it is safe .financially. Although such a partnership will usually prove disappointing. Try not to treat your partner as an inferior because she is not as fiercely independent as you. and you do not trust your woman’s love sufficiently to believe you can be happy without guarantees of some kind . and your partner probably does it with grace and style. socially or creatively.1-1 Bill Gates 18 . and in turn you need a partner who can help you to face your own deep unconscious loneliness and need to belong. You may also fall in love with a woman who is in some way unavailable . A marriage of this kind may last for a lifetime. intellectually. material or verbal. once upon a time. because you tend to put all your eggs into one basket. one can also hate the loved one because of the power she then wields. you are yourself .either she is married to someone else. then you can become destructively critical and demandingly possessive. and that.relationships. since you have much to offer such a woman through the example of your courage and style. rather than allowing the human family to support you. if you are involved in a close relationship with someone of your own sex. or because she herself is emotionally unable to make a commitment. or lives far away. for such a woman can inadvertently make you feel clumsy and inadequate the moment you enter any group or crowd with her.emotional. destructive or dark. A need for depth and honesty in relationship You know things about love that you certainly didn’t read in fairy tales. You are not afraid of experiencing emotions which others might consider unconventional.and it is your inner nature which ultimately dictates the course of your love-life. simply because you have not found a real match. it is possible that you are not fully aware of how deeply you hold the conviction that love is unreliable without concrete demonstrations. for social adaptability is itself a creative act. A lack of trust in love There is considerable conflict hidden beneath your romantic image of relationship. You secretly have a deep fear of rejection. You are more jealous than you might imagine. But you need to be very careful of your tendency to envy. when one loves deeply. if you were not so proud and also so frightened of looking an idiot. on some deep and unfathomable level. and you therefore unconsciously expect emotional disappointment even if your material needs have been met. you were not loved enough. There are two typical patterns which you may find yourself enacting at various points in your life. Such a relationship can work very well for you. Although some of the causes for this fear are related to experiences and values from your childhood. However. self-sufficiency and vivid individualism make you need the balance of a woman who is on comfortable terms with the collective and who knows how to blend easily and gently with others in any social situation. You would benefit from facing your fears and understanding that the past does not always repeat itself in the future. so that your original ideas can be translated into language understood by more than just an intellectual or artistic elite. or seems "inferior" in some way .25125.

frequent absences from the domestic front with its endless responsibilities. and you are deeply idealistic about love. Otherwise you might be faithful from a sense of honour and idealism. for. But you crave adventure too. in the wrong place. while the other individual remains somehow solid and real as a person and can therefore navigate the boat intelligently through the ocean’s changing currents. It is also possible to step further back from the horoscope. It would be better to be honest about your own restlessness. rather than wandering about blindly. them can include a stable relationship and do not necessitate deceit and betrayal. You are more prone than many people to falling in love at first sight. But you are going to have certain difficulties if you make the decision to commit yourself to one woman for a lifetime. It is not that you cannot love. and you would rather have a difficult relationship that offers real confrontation and passion than a shallow companionship where you and your woman are on your best behaviour but never really touch each others’ souls. more courtly declarations of affection. more candlelight. feeling impotent and victimised by conflicting cross-currents and impulses from within yourself and from the world outside. however passionate.25125. you still retain a secret sympathy for the things which drove her into hurtful or destructive behaviour. perhaps. although you may demand a lot from your loved one. the "I". In short.1-1 Bill Gates 19 . you love to excess. Two people may have certain astrological configurations which are similar. The following provide also some suggestions of ways in which conscious effort might make it possible for you to achieve greater harmony between the different components within yourself. A tendency to excess Your motto in love is that more is better.rally you might not always choose to put these emotions in the shop window for your woman to see. Or you may simply be honest about your love of variety. PATHS TOWARD INTEGRATION As you have seen from the preceding pages. Free will may not include the possibility of becoming somebody else. but not from real inclination. and to use the faculties of a telescope rather than a microscope . or a spiritual vision which says that you need the right soul-mate. at the wrong time. and. --- VI. your birth horoscope offers a detailed and in-depth portrait of many aspects of your life.so that an overview of the play comes into focus. and to strengthen that centre of the personality which psychology calls the ego. and with someone other than the person with whom you came in the door. you can be truly understanding and containing of your partner’s complexity. You may justify your profligacy by means of an ideology which says that people should not possess each other. for then you are really asking for trouble. for there are many levels on which your adventurous spirit can be lived out. But it might include the ability to stand firmly at the centre of your horoscope and feel related to the different aspects of your psyche. you are not naive. more partners. and throw your whole self into it. But it would be better not to repress this side of yourself. Because of this gift of deep compassion for the darker aspects of love. and even when you have been deeply hurt or are very angry. if anything. and time and familiarity are the enemies of such a romantic spirit. This means more romance. and some of PHE as. but one might be buffeted by his or her inner demons like a rudderless small boat tossed on a difficult sea. or an aesthetic ideal which tells you that your present companion is not quite perfect. No relationship. and frequent admonitions to yourself not to take your partner for granted. will automatically remain mysterious and challenging if you do not nurture its unpredictability by frequent holidays and travel with your woman.

do. Developing confidence in self-expression There is one area of life where any effort to develop yourself will always result in an increased feeling of strength and self-respect. You have a deep belief in your own destiny. for although you can to some extent live according to your own rules in the outer world. for your real path lies within . paradoxically. style and taste. For in taking the risk of being yourself. you need to do it according to your own vision.1-1 Bill Gates 20 . a psychological path . and the line of the father which ultimately leads to your search for a fatherprinciple of a higher order.Finding an inner source You will never find fulfillment solely through pursuing ambitions in the outer world. your greatest potential. and those deeper and higher values which you seek will therefore always bear the stamp of your own spirit.even if you do not always succeed the first time around. because this is the sphere of both your greatest anxiety and. The path to this inner principle is not. You already have a deep sense of purpose. Whatever you achieve in worldly terms.although this kind of path may provide other valuable benefits.facing your natural shyness. to face honestly the issues and challenges of your childhood. and the parents who gave birth to you. teacher or ideology. it is not likely to offer you a sense of contentment and meaning. Whatever you PHE as. moral and spiritual set of values.back to your family origins.of unashamedly expressing your own individuality . your fear that you will be mocked or ridiculed. you will gradually learn to trust your own inner voice. unless you can relate it to some inner principle which represents an ethical. rather than being a borrowed doctrine culled from some parent.can become an indestructible base of self-confidence which can support you on your inner journey. even in the midst of anxiety and discomfort. and your deep conviction that what you have to offer cannot possibly be as interesting as the creative contributions of others. If you can make this effort as much as possible. What you might need to cultivate is more humility toward that inner reality which is your source. you will discover that your confidence and faith in yourself grow considerably each time you try . It is. such as orthodox religions might offer. nor is it an esoteric one in the sense of trying to transcend earthly life through disciplines such as meditation . But you may need to deal with your desire to manage and control what you meet in life.25125. It is through such inner searching that you will eventually find that sense of a centre upon which everything in your external life needs to be built. the laws of the inner world are a mystery whose substance you may spend a lifetime exploring. before anything else.a quiet exploration of the family from which you have emerged. you need to find the courage to express the whole of yourself . Thus one of your chief fears . In other words. and beyond these to the realm of the spirit. in essence. and this provides strong support for the kind of inner journey that would provide you with serenity and fulfillment. however. a conventional one. Thus you may need.