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Overwhelming Uncertainty Micah Stefan Dagaerag Thoughts in Transit Consider consciousness.

Have you ever asked yourself how it would “feel” like to lose consciousness? I have been under general anesthesia for a major operation a few tears ago, and I know how it is to be “unconscious.” But imagine being like that for all eternity? Or even imagine never having been born and becoming conscious at all. What would it “feel” like never having come into being at all? Consider exclusive consciousness. Have you ever asked yourself why your consciousness is limited only to your particular identity? Why can I not experience your particular kind of consciousness and you experience mine? Could it not have been possible to have a world where I could enter into someone’s consciousness as well? Why the exclusivity? Consider existence. Take a look around you. Take a breath. Blink. The world exists. You exist. But could it have been possible to have no world that existed? Could it have been possible to have no you that existed? But you do. And there is “something” rather than “nothing.” Why? Consider meaning. What does it mean to “mean” something? We communicate using words and symbols that “mean” something. Could it have been possible to have a world devoid of meaningful communication? And yet why do we have such a world? How did the universe know that communication would be an important component of life? Consider dignity. We fight for human rights and we are outraged whenever a child is raped, sold into slavery and/or beaten mercilessly in the hands of unscrupulous people. Why? If you told a serial murderer and child molester that human beings have inherent dignity, how would you convince him that it was so? Where do we get dignity in the first place?

the mystery ends and the puzzle is solved. my mind already felt oppressed by the questions I had posed upon myself. dignified. “when I thought how to understand this. Where does the universe end? And if it doesn’t end. all existentially disturbing questions find their peaceful conclusions. With the Biblical God. how could an eternally inert nothing beget something? If we are simply evolved versions of atoms in motion. how could consciousness come to be? If there was nothing in the universe when time began. . How do we know that we “know” something? Could it have been possible for the world to come to be without having to need “knowledge”? What are thoughts in the first place? Consider space and time. what lies beyond it? Did the universe have a beginning? If so. uncreated. it seemed to me a wearisome task. If the entire universe was the result of some random occurrence. At a young age. Although I realize that maybe part of the reason they did not understand me was that I hadn’t matured enough to be able to articulate them clear enough. until I went into the sanctuary of God. then I discerned their end” (Psalm 73:17-18). just and good Maker. can such a “place” truly exist? But if the universe has an end. omniscient. And for the longest time I would have nightmares and “sickness” in my gut because of the overwhelming uncertainty that set into my soul as I realized that I had no definitive answers to these questions at all.Consider knowledge. why should we care what happens to a child is the victim of unconscionable and irreversible abuse? With an eternal. devoid of purpose and design by a certain Maker. what was there before then? And was there time before the universe came to be? All these I have pondered since I was in kindergarten. all-powerful. All this until I realized with the Psalmist that. I even remember asking my nursery mates some of them. loving.