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by Adam David
by Adam David
by Adam David
A virus is characterised and limited by obligate cellular parasitism. All viruses must parasitise living cells for their replication. For all viruses the infection cycle comprises entry into the host, intracellular replication, and escape from the body of the host to initiate a new cycle in a fresh host. - Dr Wilson Smith, Mechanisms Of Virus Infection
by Adam David
Wala ‘Yan Sa Lolo Ko .............................................. 4 Speed No 3 ...................................................................... 5 Oh, There’s A Visitor ................................................ 8 That Will Soon Manifest Itself ......................... 12 Cononen .......................................................................... 17 We, Without A Susurrant Breath .................... 33 My Name Is .................................................................. 51 Notes On These Pages ......................................... 55
by Adam David
Wala ‘Yan Sa Lolo Ko
No, the one! Coming! Do you eat that gross shit? Really? Duck betlog? We have smaller dicks, yes, impak. You no the duck egg, huh! And no penoy in cold countries itself? What’s your question? Really? Gross egg you like to eat, yes? Impak you compensate. It makes ours, huh? And do you eat that gross shit? Eat that gross shit! And we have smaller dicks, we have smaller dicks than really. Yes, impak you can, huh? And no, we can make sirkus penis. No? The one coming penoy penis! It’s the duck betlog! Wow! You gotta be really ya! You know my lolo, yes? Impak, you the one with the duck? No, the duck egg! Wala ‘yan sa lolo ko! Ah, balut penoy! Huh? And no, the one coming. So, where you from? Yes? Balut? Why duck betlog? Philippines? Make sampay the tuwalya kasi we understand the black man! No, the duck egg! Ah! Filipino, pare, penoy! Inaanak ko bang anak tambling-tambling in bed? I understand where you from, yes, balut. Why do Philippines? Kasi we understand same. Be kidding the black man? Ah, Filipino. Pare, my lolo, that’s nothing for my duck embryo inside. Inaanak ko bang anak? I understand from the duck. Kidding! Same, same! That’s nothing for my lolo, duck embryo inside. Duck embryo inside! In cold countries, it shrinks! Yes, balut! Why the same? Be kidding? Kasi we understand my lolo. That’s nothing for my black man. Duck embryo inside compensate. It makes our penis. I understand ya, espesyali, huh! Huh? Sorry, just talking to my. Sorry, just talking. Be kidding? What do you call that? What do you call that lolo? That’s nothing for my self. What’s your question, betlog? Betlog, gross egg you like to eat where you from? Ya, espeyali yes balut. Why do you? Philippines kasi, kasi we understand that. So where you from, black man? Philippines? Yes? So, ah, Filipino, pare! So we eat balut! I understand Filipino, pare. Inaanak ko bang anak, rock hard? Ya? Espesyali when inaanak ko bang anak from the duck. Huh? Kasi, sorry, just talking. What do you call that? Yes? So, yes? So? Betlog? So we eat balut to compensate? So, we eat balut hard, rock hard, from the duck. Can make sampay the tuwalya? Make sampay the tuwalya! Make sampay! The tuwalya, sirkus, tambling-tambling in sirkus, tambling-tambling in, sirkus tambling, tambling! We’re in cold countries? Huh! Sorry, just talking. What do you call that? Myself, what’s your question? Betlog! Gross egg you like to eat to compensate? It makes our penis. Ya! Espesyali when penoy! Penis, it’s to compensate. It makes myself. What’s your question? Yes? So gross, you like to eat the one with the duck? So we eat balut! Ah, balut! Rock hard penis, you eat that gross shit? And we can make penoy! Penis, it’s that we have. Wow, you got the one with the duck! Ya! You know mo? Ah? Balut? Wala ‘yan sa lolo ko! No, the one coming penis! Duck betlog and we? We can make penoy penis! No, the duck egg! Wow! You gotta wow! You got the one with the penoy! Ya! You know, you know? Balut! Wala ‘yan sa lolo ko! Wala ‘yan sa lolo ko!
by Adam David
Speed No 3
Nagyakap sila sa napakalinaw na lawa. Doon, at sa pag-ahon, matamis na katas ng kanilang mais. Mali, parang ngumanga nang idiniin niya ang panawagan, sige pa, sige. Mata ni Adrian sa naramdamang mga binti sa likod ni Scott, ang kanyang Gelli, “ang kanyang mais”. Galaw ni Scott dahil hindi naman niya ang unti-unting nangisay-ngisay sa pag-abot niya kay Tess. Para bang sa kanya mas nakakapasok, ay may humihila muli dito nararating. Sa bawat ikot na oh....... Oooooooooooooogop paloob, parang vacuum ang pagbuka ng mga hita ng electric fan! Binti, umaarko ang likod. Ang sarap, ang sarap! Hinalikan niya ang buo, ang magkabilang utong. Pagkagat sa sari-sarili nilang cuticle, si Tess, nakapikit, katas si Gelli sa pag-ikot ng dila at pagsayad ng dila ni Scott. Sa pagkaraan ng ilang sandali, ibinaba. Huling hinawakan at inamoy, dinaan ang dilang iyon sa iba, aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh! niya ang ibayong-dagat ni Adrian hanggang marating nito sa iba. At ngayon, sa biglang isinubo ni Gelli ang titi, pumakawala ang matagal na at dinilaan parang sa popsicle. Napasok ang mundong tulad na para itong kumakain ng painting. At doon, doon sila sabay ang kanilang paggalaw. Sarap na kanyang nadarama niya, nakikita, alam ni Tess baon. Parang may konduktor ang lahat ng naipon ng kanyang puwerta. Nagharap, sabay ang kanilang si Tess. Itinukod naman ni Tess ang kanyang ulo’t humarap, hinalik-halikan siya ni Scott sa labi niya. Naghalikan sila habang .....haaaah.....oh.....ah.....oh..... ang mga hita, balakang. At ipinasok ni Scott sa hinihigaan si Tess. Hindi na pinaglalagyan ng condom.
Sabihin: “Action speak loud. Come here. Right here!” Pasok doon ang hininga, nilabasan siya ng mga isa na aircon: hubad na! Pa-tit. Speed no 2. Iginiling, matigas pa rin ang kanyang balakang. Nararamdaman na walang nangyari. Siguro dahil nakahiga na’t nakahubad sina pagtanggap ng laman ni Tess kaya ngayon ay bumabawi! Dibdib sa dibdib at balakang siya, lumalalim ang kanya nito ang isang hita niya. May gustong huminto ni Scott. Ginagawa ni Scott ay ang tinggil, ligaya at libog sa kanyang hita. Si Gelli, Tess, para malaman sa kanya, at paninigas ng kanya, at anumang minuto siya nakikiskis ang kanya. Gusto niya itong gagawin nila. Hinalikan siya ni Scott sa napakagandang kombinasyon. Mabilis niyang natanggal, di man lang niya namalayan ay sasabog. Isinuot na nanggigigil pa ring instinct. Nasasabunutan. Ipinasok na ni Scott ang kanya ang mga hita ni Adrian. Diin siya ng lalaki, pero itinutok ni Tess ang kanya. Nang minutong ‘yon, iniangat at binuhat ang isang hinihila nito. Pataas ang labas-masok ni Scott, kaya’t lalong titi mula sa likuran ni Tess, at si Gelli ang gagawa at saka didilaan ang nakalitaw pwet, para mapadali ang laba niyang ishinoot. Ang titi ni Scott, pagkatapos nila ang utos ng umuugong ng kanyang kalooban ang daliri sa kanyang hita, ‘yong hugot-baon, hugot-baon. Looban nito para siyang binasa ng laway ni Scott, ang hatid ay ibayong kiliti sa Tess. Mukha sa mukha niya ang mga ito sa sariling balakang. Noong una’y ang mga daliri dahil pagmasdan ang mukha, umikot-ikot, pumindot-pindot ni Scott, mga mata kung totoo, kanyang dibdib. Lumipat pero hindi mapigil ni Scott, at dahan-dahan ni Gelli, hinaplos-minasahe.
Taas-babang nginasab... mula anit hanggang kalahating kutsara ng tamod. Sinabunutang rurok. ah. bigla niyang hinalikan sa tiyan na kumukumpas sa kanilang malakas na ah! paano’y ungol at halinghing. Sa una’y dahan. Pagkadot sa dalawang sentro ni Gelli ang kanyang sarili at nilagyan siya ni Gelli ng isang kamay ni Tess sa pwet pang bahagi.. Pumaibabaw si Scott sa masuyong sabunot . itinaas na dila. Ang kanyang titi. saka siya gumalaw. first time pero ulo ng kanyang titi. pagilid naman labi isang segundo bago ang nasusuodsod na kung ano naman niya. Unti-unti kanyang balat. Speed no 1. Ito pala ang sinasakop. matagal na rin siyang walang lumalabas ang kanyang eksakto. pababa nang pababa ang kiliti.sa bulbol ng hininga. ramdam niya. panay ang pigil titi. naiinitan. Nakapikit titi ni Adrian. para may sinasalong Ah! Ah! Ah! ungol ni Adrian noon na ito ng sariling buhay. oh. parang nagtatakda ng galaw. para silang gunting. kahit hindi kanyang pakiramdam. Katawan ni Adrian naman niya ang kanyang hinaplos.. matigas na matigas. kaloob na niya si Scott.looban. malagkit. dahil kahit ang kanyang bibig... Ibinuka niya rin ang panggigigil niya sa dala than words.. balat ng isa at masuyong pinagapang nito ang mga hindi na niya kailangang tit. Mailarawan ni Adrian ang maka-concentrate sa paggiling nito . Ang mga daliri ni Tess inilapat.. pati naabot ng lalaki ang kaloob. Si Scott naman. paghugot. ninanamnam ang bawat titi. Halos tumirik ang nag-aabang.. natutunaw na ice cream ni Gelli.. Hina bawat labas ng kanyang titi ng gutom ng kanyang katawan 6 . at ipinaipit dito. Hindi ah. parang bibig na nakanganga niyang hindi naririnig na mais. Inulit-ulit ‘yon ng balakang.. Naglalaway. Ooooooooh! bulong.. Parang siya ang naglalapat. ikinawit ni Tess noon. Kailan ba siya sa tagal niyang walang sex kanyang puke? Ganap na nayakap nang ganito? Sa dalawang taong umibabaw si Gelli. pagkatapos ay dahan-dahang katawan nito. sabay na sabay. itinuring na parang braso. binti nito. haaaah malapit sa singit. Mayamaya lang. saka inipit titi nito. labas. mas kontrolado ngayon ang pumipintig ang lahat ng kanya: ang kanyang mga siko. Maaari siyang matulog nang sa headboard ng kama. Para silang nag-usap. minasahe ang pagitan ng hita ng lalaki. Buong luwalhati nilang Aaaaaaaaah! hiyaw na unti niyang iginiling ang sariling isang napakagandang dahan-dahan. coming. Ramdam na ramdam ni Tess coming. Katawan ng titi. Adrian. Sex. Kailangan pa niyang ilabas kanyang titi. Daliri ay hindi niya naramdaman. parang elisi ng electric si Scott dahil sa sobrang Tess sa kaniyang pagikot . Paglabas-masok. pati anggaspang ng bulalas nina Scott at Gelli. Utong.. ang kanilang mga bulbol ni Tess pagkatapos ay ooh! Hingal na hingal si Adrian.pa rin si Tess..Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ Hindi na komportableng posisyon pero ang pulso pakiramdam niya’y nilalabasan. Pinatalikod niya. Balat sa dibdib tapos biglang awang unan sa ulo. Siya’y ang titi sa kanya. puson. isang minuto. binitawan na ni Scott. pero nakabuka. nasisikipan. nito sa areola ng lalaki. Para siyang nasa napakapagnanasa. at sa bawat baon niya’y kapirasong dilang ‘yon ay basa! ~ Aaaah! Aaaah! Si Tess. nakangiti pero naaantala ito. inang gaanong nalalayo ang katawan. napadiin na tinggil.agad-agarang sinupsop.
7 . Speed no 3 ng bagong bili. May huminga. papasok kay Tess.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David habang ibinubuka ang kanya. Ibinuka ni Gelli ang kahon. Banat na banat ang kanyang naraanan ng basa at mainit-init. Nagkitang mag-asawa. ‘Yon ang una ni tit. naghalikan at sabay na ilang saglit din silang nalasahan nilang muli ang pagniniig. utong ni Gelli.
She didn’t see her. so the girl professor asked us whose boyfriend long hair and white complexion. our room was built in the early 1950s. “Wala naman akong nakita!” ~ I own a small boarding house in Makati that could admit twelve female boarders. aching her. Heard him. Out there was no answer. Suddenly. Natahimik kaming tatlo. I only had five. “Aaaahhhh!” I went. The boarding house is located on the second floor. Pagdating namin sa bahay to be distracted by someone bed. I screamed so when she saw the child sometimes they know it’s us who need the protection and/or help to my mom and slept there. Believes him my professor every now and anonymous left. I never saw her. Nagulat din ako ng sabihin niya iyon. she was the most popular student in. “Labas! Nagluluto! Nanakot ka pa!” sinabi ko ng pabiro. though haunt you if you study at my school child. “Hala! Eh kanina pa ako!” There was no other way for him. The class (15 girls & 2 boys) occupy one night while practicing her dance for front of the room. She even followed a disembodied hand hold door slowly opened. Some of them decided to move to another leased place that is closer to the company they work for. she suddenly felt eerie. still holding the neck on the girl to see if she go past the front door. while some boyfriend never heard from him since and me home! When I was about to sleep I saw child. 8 .Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Oh. the dead and the supernatural don’t ask for help the window. She was floating outside. the marketing high school she had very shouted “Saklolo! (Help!)”. Sometimes. Professor came back in a scratchy. She discovered that to learn that the “guy” was not.one in there is a school rumor that had been sleep and so were the other board .Michael. From twelve boarders. Next to our room were “Totoo nga! May nakita ako diyan sa kuwarto! Nakaupo na dead end naghahalungkat!” sabi ni Miko. Ago during my Social Sciences class in Manila. It was very old that if you walk on it during Sundays in the morning. Besides. when door. we thought our professor going around since last. We didn’t know she went to the bathroom. Hindi na rin kami nakakain ng maayos. Our were the only ones in the second bloody toilet. Lulutuin habang ang dalawa ay through the back door of ourright. The others were asleep. Of ours. The first floor is my residence. Matter how much she heard a girl crying from possible to notice anyone lurking at Maira (not her real name) but maybe she will. There’s A Visitor Saw a child probably the glass window. When she got the Maira got scared. Habang nasa kusina kami for students that come in late. She shrugged. the second floor bath that there was a bald guy outside child. The hand. unfortunately. saw an arm waving at him. and your heels tapping against the times I would join the program in school. she saw no one there. Again hear the door so there I wish they would go easy on my enemies. we answered him that anonymous girl smiling at me from bathroom door she tried locked earlier. to the tips of the hair on her ko na ang lahat ng kagamitan at school have two doors . “Lumabas ng pinto?” my mom asked the guard. Thinking one eye.
sitting with her legs crossed. with their faces pale from fright. hindi natutulog the living room. Explain: doors would close and open on their own. di na ako magpa-confine kahit mas malay lang. the visitor peeping may nagmumultong frustrated daw. said she has the third eye or sixth sense so these things didn’t bother or scare her at all from what I’ve observed. Her sister Ate Tere. Doon nood muna ng telebisyon. pero may kumakatok pa rin. a friend of mine tiningnan ko ang ilalim. Thus happened 4 years at one of the universities in second floor of a building. Nakigamit muna. The light in their restroom was pasok nang pasok tuwing binubuksan. She ninyo mag-usap ni Bryan. ayaw kumain. she quickly. “You see?” “I didn’t see going out. No reason. Another time. The bowl she felt her hair stand on black leather shoes in the cubicle. Cel shrugged her shoulders to provide some privacy to India man. makita ko kung sino ang kumakain. That class was from 6 to 7 PM. Di ko incantation he got from a book. At night. Spirits in the yard. Cel. anino. yet since I didn’t have an extra blood pressure. and kuwento floor. Nahanda hinintay ko na lang na magluto si Michael. Di kami matakot pero halos simula noon. Nasisira co-boarders. Going ran out my mom. Kinukunan siya ng chanting a protection spell when she opened the door to her home. “My great grandmother” raw niya nakikita na may nurse na. He turned pale and started ko ang pinto.” Was always impossible because their rooms were on the second floor . there’s a visitor). “My name is Dorothy. Soon. ~ 9 .how could a boy float in midair? Things like that would sometimes send them all rushing downstairs into my living room late. some would have nightmares of an old woman fiercely staring at them while uttering something they could not understand and a little. a man in black would be seen standing in the corner of their pantry. strange things happened to them that they could not.” some ng mga kapatid ko noon. When she was door to the bathroom open to let that girl was no longer there. Back her “business”. She was the bravest of my boarders one night. The restroom sister paid her a visit. alam na pala niya na hardware stores were closed at that nurse doon. Some illumination: she didn’t mind open. went abroad for better jobs and some had to move out because of certain matters we couldn’t agree upon.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Lalaki diyan sa likuran! (I swear!)” ~ One of my boarders. boy looking into their window from outside. Her head was bowed and stopped talking to each other. sinabi niya na kanina pa eight. the guy’s father came to (oh. Hindi niya sinasabi para sinimulan ko ng kuhanin ang mga mapugto ang hininga ko. “What was that?” he asked ilang minuto pa at nagsalita. At around ten Cel woke up from a deep slumber and coordinator was always to keep her a girl. During that time I had twelve boarders. so she went past her isa. One time I had this big fight room.
Gumamit ng kubeta. Sabi niya hindi raw sa destitute that he started to sell out the door.” Akala ko joke yun nang creature he had ever encountered alone in her office. nagulat siya at sinabi niyang “AKA. I resented his remark and nakapatay lahat ang ilaw.. Siya ang unang nagkuwento myself doesn’t want to eat. She saw a young girl in her. mga ika-pito na sa orasan.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Isang gabi. I saw was the roving guard na may bata sa aking kuwarto na goosebumps crawled up her body. Cel thought “Ay. nagpasya ako at ang dalawa kong kaibigang sina Michael at Miko na kumain ng hapunan sa aming bahay. He told me I was the most path. Got out of bed to take a leak. I heard he was sa kalagitnaan ng kuwento niya ay his body to gay customers. Nagkataon na nasa probinsiya ang aking mga magulang at kapatid.sino kaya ang nagsara ng pinto at inside the center cubicle she went to sa school. The janitor came to clean the bathroom. Room when the once-locked bathroom door habang nagsisigawan that she was mistaken to think that it was and went inside. he is past March. Sabi ng friend ko sinisigurado namin na laging bukas during one of those classes. Noise vanished as she opened the cubicle. She saw it through what he was talking about. He talks to him sleep my joker cousin.last year lang ito nangyari . Lima kami siya. she saw blood bubbling in the toilet naman. he sa CR. la ko andoon ka sa kuwarto mo yon? (Who could that girl be?)” 10 .. He visited my relative na magkuwentuhan muna kami. napansin niya the knife. Was locked she was about to leave and ano tumakbo na ang isa sa friends ko. doesn’t room. Cel noticed me. That wasn’t the only time my aunt attend. Magmula noon ay hindi na was all right. Nakita her body chopped to pieces na naghahanap lang ng kung ano. The seminary he tried to summon biglang sumara ng malakas my mom. “Nakita mo na ba ang batang ito ni Miko at akala niya ay ako ito?” Head her roommates were fast as haunted hapunan child that came out of this door? Pagpasok namin ni Michael she came to her senses and with a guy from my band and we ni Jay Manahan the guard replied “Ate. Most of the rooms in our her long hair covered her face. and aming kubeta ay lampas sa the knob.” He’s going crazy. Thought it was a guest of one of her thing whispered in his ear “Amin. a long knife popped out of the toilet papayag na sa ospital na iyon kami on to it! Maira screamed and ran to the ibang ospital ay titiisin ko na opening the door but it was locked! No. A friends ko ang nauna sa high school. Anonymous. Pumayag really is because the environment. Months later. may bisita nagbubulong sa amin pero wala!” Had another fight with a friend and memorial park in Bulacan at the back for emergency purposes. In the living he was bragging about an old Wiccan. She knocked three times building. Tinanong ko ang friend ko kung one Sunday in her office she spying two rows of chairs near she saw that the main door was smiled “Your chanting worked. Kami outside like he saw someone pee on the monoblock chair. He door sa cubicle tapos may way with him. He said and thought that maybe the girl pulling out a piece of paper and be kami nagpupunta sa CR na iyon charge 500 pesos to go all the main door to look for the girl kuwarto. I talked to him about naman ibang tao doon maliban sa. the door was locked shut. He took alas-singko ng umaga kami dumating. While brushing her hair .” bumulong. so annoyed and disturbed to get to the comfort room across bigla na kaming tumakbo lahat said “I hope you feel what pathetic company was waiting outside!” We were 17 in done with her ablutions. came crawling towards her Maira parang may hinahalungkat. Pagkatapos ni Miko when Cel was sitting on he he quickly said goodbye and went ang mga ilaw kapag mag CR but he stayed inconsolable. Worked as a front where you can see the professor. Nakakatakot sa basement CR then during his lecture he see room.
pulled up her pants and ran out. This was odd because also has third eye that night. At first he enjoyed the place next to her. Was made of old wood. Strange things happened when halos liparin ko ang kinatutunguhan the moment she sat on barrio!” Sandaling iyon end. He went there as in wala akong nakita ni kahit the bathroom! Also had division. My mom was puzzled because the guy outside wasn’t a boyfriend. I want to tell you a story about voice he said “I swear may nakita ako! The light from living room provide practical jokes on people talaga! Ma-explain ang takot ko nang because they were all girls anyway! Samar. Anyone was peeping through the back door could not have been anybody’s. Fright made her hold. My house and told me kailangan. Mapagpasyahan you would hear the squeaking sounds the wood. She saw a pair of men’s feet.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David All often cried under the rubber tree. “Yata ng ulo nagsasalita! Nangyari ang kwento ko dito sa aming tahanan sa Parañaque!” the door the guard was already kidding us because it was you and Bryan have to talk. 11 . I wasn’t able to replace a closed audio-visual room and a bulb to replace it with and all the stunned and shocked. Our time of night so her sister left. Madalas ay naka-istambay kami sa kung saan man namin whole floor. To leave if he ran we would have out. Nobody but my professor went outside on a few days later Cel’s older. Semestral break kaya that he couldn’t have seen the back door without seeing him go. there anymore. I think mga isang taon na ang nakalipas.
I should set to it. I placated. I let him. needed to know. I gave them. buried miles under HisTory? That’s with a capital ‘T’” “Nothing in this Descent is. illuminated street. Finally. About to set fire on the City. City’s Atrium. for a few days: in his eyes. They speak of terrible things. that was left of the Communication?” “Let me ask you instead: City’s Heart. “Huh? What does. Around us turned to ash. in the remote areas of the City. in a middle of a War. Dared to talk to me.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David That Will Soon Manifest Itself A Wanderer from a Nuclear warmed to be brought by Years Of Tricks. I. I was set out at Dawn. I watched him explain himself. heralding the doom during an Ungodly Hour. affected. massacres. One would expect the City. this place like the back of his. Stories of plagues. He was. Strode with set to explore the niches hidden in the Central Town. built for so long.” “What does that have. That was when I met Fortunato: broken wings. I finally gave in and let me stay in an Inn across.” 12 . Nowadays: Vinci. The City. now. and their aftermaths on everyone: his grey face. Appeared to be nothing but. They’ve already heard. So I have witnessed. entered the City. their suspicions and their thirst. The people trembling. slowly gnawed by the earth. his eyes were the news Outside. Now here I am. Vinci. “What do. developing well. until finally. country. making a terrible whirring noise of the Grotesqueries that I claim has heard of my Plan. Wars: I gave them more stories Dread sent here with me. or should I. you of my claws and my wings? Butt in?” He came to me torn. in order to estimate. to envelopes my nose as the Last?” “Everything. When damage. They first took out a cry of Anguish and Horror of Mutations caused by the exploring the Hidden Depths of Then. At the face was worn with lines that see: Fortunato approached many years.” “You’re the Ball. I was familiarizing myself.
The Motorcycle’s backseat have never even done in. that there was Something Else. I let out from the intense work as the Usyoseros. A sudden. To an Accursed City like this. Looked him in the eye. The Final Hours of my Assignment. I told them that. His body a Hollow Shell. It is of their Doomed Nature that they abruptly screamed. everything. Even before I got to say something throughout the City. away. He struggled. Myself. they have already the Tricycle. which had. I summoned the Shapeless to destroy these people. high-piercing scream away. In my back. “I-I-I’m sorry.” he mumbled. try something. echoing with a demonical shrinking and shrinking. The Bastard! First place: I was stupid to believe. They have been expecting every foundation and every movie in his mind and jumped. I was wrong to Hollow. Will have a chance. These people at the top of the City’s remaining Cycle. maybe of dark business suit running. A CrissCross. He never attempt to have contact with Humans. that they were wary. I recoiled back and behind this Daemonic nature I saw tears streaming from his cheeks. Gods had gone back in Time to Purpose. stabbing pain. they swept past the End Of My Existence. plagued with Misery. Of gunned: the Engine. sent a coward to try to put lines intersecting his face. as if he was a brick broken hotels and dust. Hear their screams. Tried to cut them off on their foundations. Tricyle passing by was not trying to make his way out of Civilization. I felt blood ooze underneath my wings. The Wind wound up in our ears. “Go! Go! Go!” he shouted. Almost thought of abandoning. I was wrong to let myself Permeate him. and doing so. 13 . wither away. because of the Dunes of this Shanty Town. sins of their Forebears. should be sent to such proportions. I ran towards the City. tangled. slightly stumbling and dizzy. but almost ran over. as their Souls are sucked out. He ran. their prayered. already flowed down the sheets. that Invading Force Of Resistance. A Momentum in the Dust. Tiny rivulets of blood. The American. Still naked. kneeling. suddenly. Maybe that is why most Demons cover from my Malice. I looked. helped the Japanese on to this. A gaping black hole in the Fear as I came down. how someone Vinci. Knowledge that an unwarranted connection with them would not materialize in-front of him always lead to Disaster. against the Powerful Grip. I remained in the room bleeding. drained with Life. She explained how the Skin seem to have Ill Eternal War with Other Gods.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Atrium: I am welcomed by a dead voice. into the Sky. And of Fortunato: can still see him. gave me. but it seems several meters away. almost been bestowed. Around his waist. there was a sharp. He caught up.
towards them. the Spaniard.” “What the Hell were those. “Place safe. Now. “Lose the Benz in the Traffic onto Edsa. and Forever. Lying on the ground. Then. stalling for time able to escape through the front. I gotta get out. “And the fact that he was still the Silence reigned for a while. little? Reserve judgement for a moment?” Vinci found himself back. you mean the Fata?” covering his head as he hit the shot. charging out of the next Bull. were caught in. You have to remember. Very Non-Human-Killers. Target?” “Oh. guys? So many bullets through a Tube. The wreck wrapped itself around him. as well by that.” I pumped a lot of bullets. “Remember that. He almost laughed hysterically when he saw the Bullet. “Crazy. And her. and said. they are limited by their present Tricks Up My Sleeve.and what . Unfortunately. even more believable to Gods. “The Fata are the Agents. I swear.” Vinci recognized a halt to pick up the voice clearly emanating.” the Rider extending one hand. Do know that I just saved you.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David The Rider complied.were they? You?” he asked. not this Century. into. Vinci revised: “That will soon manifest itself. The American shrugged off. a Car. the Rider leaned hard and they swerved to avoid the Motorcycle’s Engine again. slammed into the wall.” “Nothing Human can.” He thought as he held still: “Remember the feel. However. And that! You’re crazy!” he said. in the same kind.” 14 .” “They’re not. didn’t die.” she said.” There. sat up. defeat them. and a Third One. “Am I? Maybe. So those people back: who . “What do you know of Time and Mind? Do with Anything?” Replied solemnly: “Everything. making Vinci slip from the shocked security guard and the American. “The Other cause their Followers to invade away. the crash throwing. “Come with me if you want. so fortunate. shouted against the Wind. heading towards. And why do you pursue her?” Vinci cried as he looked over. Two opposing forces.
carrying them. up against the wall. in the End. too.to the right. Existence. because of them. What did I get.as he thought if he would be Street Corner. “American. “Afterlife?” “To Another Plane of Quezon City?” “Rather endure the Stillness God. Of the City: lie in wait of the Philippines and oppress its Doom. “So maybe you could Japanese the American. making Vinci follow. “That’s where you come.Mercedes-Benz.” He shivered. would take them. That would be far more the Filipino Gods’ powers that enveloped the City.” Feet. like Maddened Door .Virus/Antivirus by Adam David They put some distance from the Last Destruction.and black . and what was left of the City. anyway. Aguinaldo coming together was Doom. “She’s from the Helmet. I was to leave it flying out.” His komiks said City like “a Thief in the Night”. and collect. They eventually ask themselves “Where?” on Shaw Boulevard and they slip.” “Where are we going? The Office? Where the Enemy?” The Rider replied: “Some.” the Being hit.” “And what’s in it?” And then the Benz was . “After all.” “Hold on tight. “You’ve met two of them. glancing at her watch again. Had started to believe it. He should be the Burden of their Heavy Souls.” she concluded. 15 .” the Rider. The Future and Past as well. That Japanese got Plugged. to the Rider: Bullet zipping past his face. brought about by this Inhuman?” On tight. was starting to affect this City than face an Afterlife. as they Motorcycle three very professional . Entity: go down well with their Immortal I was sent to destroy. enter the Last Dregs. the Souls of the Remaining in themselves. ever alert that it will. weren’t dead. “Of their Smoldering Ruins. hangs by. “Who the Hell are they? Faces? A Ticking Clock of Dread? His Shoulder?” The Rider ignored.
” I told them my Name and Mind. and I didn’t doubt that.” she emphasized. flourish and wash away at that particular familiar line that they had no intention of. “We? You definitely can. They seem to be an Undistinguishable Voice because of the Disappointment To Live. Bonifacio. “As I walked though the City. I’ve come to love them. who was probably diving the Bee. And I’m not without a few. alive. and Art: a Strong Air Of Decay edged this Bravery that he had.” “But you’re giving it back to us. Enemies like me. holstering a Smoking Gun. At least. this Last Other. 16 . too. Human: you’ve seen what is so popular that people minutes of my Downward Slope. not to let behind him. Otherworldly Glow. Vinci looked up and saw Assignment. Tower. his arms of Redemption and Retribution pavement. when the Japanese worship her in order to reduce the Barren Intact Floors of what teetered himself as my Guide in Japanese. the Long Descent to the City: “I did not know how he. But after the fourth bodies. told him to tell me Everything.” she said. But about Rizal. Made him realize he was. a creature whose wings he walked across the Artificial Gun. pointing at Vinci ‘neath. As he did.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David The Rider gunned the Fear. as if he knew Unimaginable Powers. But it’s all ready. In my tortured ears I Can his face. can’t die. “And soon. “‘Lena’? Can I call you ‘Lena’?” The Japanese earlier did that this Simple Mass Belief be a Vast Forgotten Necropolis the Halogen Lights got caught. “Would take almost a day. stumble a Knowing Gait. this wasn’t going to Suspicious Stares. took away the Filipinos’ Belief.” “So how do we stop?” Fortunately.” The only person in the City who are enemies in this Time. And the American Tower. My wings exhausted after the seventh shot pass by. of course. I land on the Dome. Riddled Body of the Japanese up their minds. His forms. nor any Weapon of his.
” He considered.” “I don’t know Julita. raising his. Not perspiring or breathless as a. now opening. never look it.is this man sure of what?” “We live on Calle Luz. That is his problem after all. “Doesn’t it . “If you don’t ask for Miss del Valle the Last? Why on them. “The house of the prettiest girl in to you?” “Nothing.her? “What?” He noted an evasive quality in the yet withal more distant.little crook farther side by madre de cacao hedge in good evening. Why must it? I .why . nothing to him save that it was the left the window calling to her mother as home seems so far from here.” “Could I find that last time . Oh! Are you in town than a pool far away at the rim of the world to ask whether one will or will not?” “I’ll inquire about . whose on some little business he answers.” “Is .” “I should like to see your home town back and forth. His vague plans had turned and looked into his face. There is you. in her. the house was low and the light. It made up to the house on the hill. as if that back through the heatshrivelled tamarinds in.” relief.” “That is not quite sincere. and sometimes squashes?” “Good evening.” “Oh.oh. If you are.we can visit?” “There is nothing to see . Senses as does solemn harmony. you don’t need to!” “No. now closing into unmistakable He sensed rather. you will be too busy perhaps. a peace but then why . “Won’t you come up?” Tumult when all violence of feeling tones. “There is no time. me? But I am here. Perhaps not.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Cononen I Through the open window the air thoughtful.interest you?” “There is where you will lose your. sunny temper. “Oh.” 17 . The golden streamer was withdrawn us and rushes downward of its own.” That was the background.” he said.I have to say go. but I want to. and of a piquant covert phrase shaded by immature acacias through the night. a little street the afternoon has seemed very.
alfred shadow of the trees in the plaza. a great hunger that was not of the body should do not married . She was pursuing an indignant.” “I know. ~ Tailor shops of dingy shoe-repairing Esperanza feel baffled and helpless.a cool charming speaking voice. He was self-conscious care. ~ Ass-grown plaza reposeful with trees of tilted town nestling in the dark greens understanding imperfectly at a pause.why? Faithfulness. too unhurried.” he averred slowly. “But . and yet without lifting her. and wondered irrelevantly.” Hope trembled in his mind.he seemed to have missed it. ‘cause it no longer depends on him.” “It is. even elegance. Irrelevant trifles .Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “I will not go. “Had the final word been said? I thought you. Love .” This cubbyhole where a consumptive bent far away beyond her reach. Then it is foolish of irreplaceability.Americans are rather. ~ By swallows gliding in flight as smooth stood beside the ancient church. seized on him one quiet night when there is a point where a thing escapes regretful memory. of course. hand.” “Well . Six downstairs with a lighted candle to open.will you come? You will find it dull to him.at times moved circumstances. though she laughed. It was something unvow. at least. would not always unhurried. 18 . but my neighborhood alternately tinkled. ~ Roofed houses with a quaint hand and lights were springing into life on the out: Calixta. “I never forgave him!” He listened. eyes she quick. He said suddenly “Pardon me. This is Elsewhere. man weight dragging us along. as of voices in a dream . until you judge del Valle and his family. I have found out she he was mildly surprised to no. old things. their note-carrier.” He did not even know her name.
“She is not married to him. A few inquiries led him to a certain type altogether. We never thought she would turn. “’Bye. peculiar hill. there was a you. unfinished prayer end to let the other person find out his unmistakably a sister of the Judge’s wife. What had Calixta done? Homely. ~ The voice became the biggest of the church bells purple shadows of the hills. what do I know?” Listen to an insistent. to love as he divined it might be. we are at the house. ~ Came too the young men in ripples on the dark water. always positive those days. ~ Crowd assembled to meet the boat . or she young moon wove indistinct filigrees of yoked amused every time I eyebrows and delicately modeled lips.” Espera. the feeling of tumultuous has set against that hope were three years of would surely be sitting at the window covered porch. Mr Salazar. “Besides. turned and walked away. ~ Red through the sinuous mists of smoke. She was small and plump. for him. she should have thought combination of circumstances.” King came the devout with their long wax as the coral tints in the sky yielded to. so he and Julia rich brown with underlying tones of tree near the church door.” He wondered it had yet a feeble flutter of somehow or other. He had known the conversationalist. “You are very positive about her sitting quietly in his room now. The lone piano in the she gave of abounding vitality. stilly midnight the cock’s first call rose in me of chess. She had the same eyebrows and black skirts. mere fabrication of perfervid imagination voice came. Love was. still the eternal puzzle.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “On the oat of it?” The remark sounded rude. The young man had tired of pretty. 19 . “Oh.” Cotton tree threw its angular shadow at Don Julian and his uncommunicative a baby and the expression of a likable for this was Holy Thursday and the Lord the vessel approached the landing. a glorification of insipid monotonies.slow.
Tandang “Binday” . the abogado and invite him to our house inflections. The evening smudges glowed.” “May. “When they are friends. far-away sounds. Came to his ears. “When is it going to be?” About something or other. Would you come?” Little tree-ceilinged street where it was a policeman. pause wind on his forehead. Nanay practically brought her light and shadow in the gardens with Brigida Samuy . insisted in her thin nervously pitched. Heard nothing to enlighten him. from where gentle. him a shade of irony than he had intended.” That was the town.” he replied briefly. something. “That must be the presidente. was not a conscious effort a meditative pause so he had no way of knowing whether offend. but immeasurably some explanation was due her. flexible and “No reason. little we know ourselves. I am just asking. He listened not so much to what. he that rose and lost themselves in.” “Sadness. a snubcrested belfry?” Visitors are slow about getting the news. except ‘They say’. “Is the abogado there? Abogado of the groves. Detached from personality.” he commented dryly. not just then a voice shouted “Shore. calm and placid. Calle Luz.darker blues of evening. the drawled out to fill the gap: ‘Well. 20 . tall soaring jets of sound. even tender. The out bad.” “You will?” Part the low stone wall and in the cool second letter had arrived late but the quietly trailing a wake of long golden. so he merely half-listened. with what seemed to him to an oddly irresistible impulse to retorted perversely.” “Then I ask you. “Are weddings interesting to you?” “If you will ask me. no revelation. sure. she said. “Would you come if I asked you?” Distinctly not average. they say’. maybe a recurrent awareness.” she said with middle-aged Calixta disdain. “May is the month of happiness. after a perceived. yes.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ Laguna lake-shore speech. “Why not?” Of us. What abogado?” someone irately outskirts. a little up. slowly indifferently. “I should have offered congratulations. a tall pock-marked moon which grew slowly luminous of early acquaintance.
encumbent mile with evident delight every time she waited. and again it may not. Patience I had once before.” Don Julian’s nasal summons came thought. a deep accumulated exasperation.” Unwilling to mar the hour. “You said I was calm and placid. In his stumbling words.” What would she say next? Before it was too late? “You need to think of boat rail to watch the evening settling. Still. The blood surged into his very eyes and necessarily wicked pain. “Oh. if you suppose her voice was tight with resentment. “Oh. if you are tired. the young lady should have. 21 . and little while. huge as clear sky.” ~ Close to the procession.” “I used to think so too. no!” Her face away. Shows how it was strange to him that he could. “Then I will be there. appalled by your word. Am not blind. or deaf. I see and hear what desire to disturb the unvexed orthodoxy. It was past eight. mistakes. but he heard her voice say nothing. he walked informed him that she was not the Judge’s: “Like a carabao in a mud pool.” he said after. Each time I was about to correct. A plea? Is that you are?” he stopped. “Why burst out in a storm of weeping that understand you at all? I think I know why. whitening the iron roofs and along the still densely shadowed streets of males loitered and maybe took toward the end of the row of the crowd had dispersed into the side lived farther out.” ~ “I am right. Living with a man may be wrong. That is what I think.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Esperanza: he would find her house because she wooing thus with tone and look and singing cadences characteristic of. old things. “Who? I?” Alfredo gripped the soft hand so embarrassed and felt that he should explain. yet the thought did not hurt.” Voice trembled would attribute any significance to this test of fairness: “Am I injuring anybody?” ~ Old things throughout the evening. a round orange moon. “I wish that were true.
one evening he had gone trip of his.” Alfredo remembered that period. old woman that the search was leading. was the love that others told about. That was less than four years ago.” The spirit of Alfredo Salazar a longing so self .” she said with good-natured contempt. Esperanza no occurrence. Was he being cheated by life? ~ Home control had said: “Besides.” he said hesitatingly. He was enthusiastic .“I had been thinking all this time. “Did you ever have to choose omen who have the gift of uniformly worth a rising lawyer’s trouble?” Utterly out of proportion to the prosaical self first. 22 . of course. lived it intensely.” “How can a woman be in a hurry returned. Brigida Samuy had not been so.flowers. He was supposed to be in. while his rose scissors. She sat on the sofa. the girl turned the present. and entered the heart of the town .Esperanza waiting. day by day. One does very low. so charged moon was abroad and under the dappled woman by his side were his long-wedded. Been so deep in the living. and persuaded a little mental relaxation.what will they no lose? His hand sometimes touching hers those six weeks we now so swift nor yet of the mind. since he made it a point to Philippine Islands vs Belina et al had what people will say . Alfredo was suffering as he could not. ~ Understanding between the parents. A manner. Important engagements are broken almost on. “Yes. serenades. a craving that had were his that all the bewilderments literal minded.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ “She does not seem to be in much commented. the intensely acquisitive.” Julia Salas’ home should not disturb him to be fair according to his lights .but it is his own. At his touch. II Alfredo Salazar turned to the right calling him Manalo after the tenth time into step with the girl. But that is too easy. With the Judge this particular evening. because neither past nor the future maid. “I should like to. appraisingly. pinching off a worm?” “You remember how much in love he?” “In love? With whom?” “With Esperanza. diffidently to them on the wind. a judge’s good will.
I streets. She continued. “She has injured us. Carmen also came with her.is that it? Winnowing basket rose lazily into a neighboring. farther on. the road broadened spent most of the time indoors directing. Esperanza were simply the old voice . To thin throat. One with unexpected homeliness and a smile that derided his own world. to regulate feeling as well as conduct. Did she mean by this irrelevant where. She was dimming the lanterns at the windows. “You have been indifferent to me lately. added “Sometimes I go with that. Was that a covert attack?” On Julia Salas.” As astounded him in his calmer moments. was a stranger. known the back-break. suggesting potentialities of song.” untruthful. Don Julian in as made up as his love life.” She dropped the topic.” ~ Beach. as he knew it. an exaggeration of the commonplace and something you had to do. for love. “Was love an experience then you could understand light and clear of complexion.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Good-bye.cool. of my place. studded with glittering clusters. formal. heirlooms from a day whom she is not married . but you know mere glass globes.” He answered that he went home to said as to the nuances in her voice.” 23 . as he knew so well in his boyhood. the lonesomeness. Stores. almost measured music rose the untutored: “Why do you get angry? I do not. the acrid fumes of burning wax. Esperanza. limiting himself to a casual “Ah. no surprise to him in the last eight years. spare of the Judge’s children that she was? To be content and not to remember too of my way. She was a believer in the vibrant. Longest way home. “What do you mean?” she asked just before Holy Week. to find a man. the passion in his voice. a woman dressed with characteristic Filipino way. ya. of Chinese stores sheltered under low could almost revive the restlessness of such. Oil were the chief lighting device.” ~ He caught up with Julia Salas’ jealousies. the young women with their rear guard. in level paths made easy to his feet. ~ Yet what could he say that would not? Suddenly realized that for several Sundays were again on display while from then I am justified in my to come out of the church as he had been long before. leaving Calle Real to those who. he from the church and uncoiled down: “The trouble with you. She had reverted to the formal tones band.
perhaps. I did pretty-pretty . his hearing sharpened to points of him as he said: “Good evening” and fell. maybe. “If it saddens?” she interrupted.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David If he finally brought out quietly.” Them was so undisturbed that it seemed it must be ugly. “Her hat. “Chanced to ask him indirectly about those. ~ On Sunday morning after mass. glinting toward the west.” he said in a voice. From a distance came the shrill voices of tubigan. Soon a double row of lights emerge the length of the street like a huge jewel where the saint’s platforms were above voices of the choir steeped in incense.” She sat in the low ham more than that when .warm. An occasional couple sauntered by. or “hawk-and-chicken”. If he were engaged. Rafts made fast to sundry piles driven in. Was evident that she liked his company. Had gone.” “Always?” His thoughts of the girl next door. him with a sense of incompleteness. the dimming waters in a board. of perhaps some are trying to keep from Esperanza would be expecting him in a loved his wife. Place filled him with a pitying sadness. quiet March hours .“Why don’t you speak out frankly?” . father is none other more handy. ~ Around the town his heart beat faster. the sunlight lay on streamer of crimsoned gold. Beer which Don Julian enjoyed and Alfred: “Are you withdrawing the compliment? Chessboard would be brought out. you.a foolish word! But gravel road to the house on the hill not mean that quite.hours . sedately pacing behind Our Lady.giving Julia Salas something which he me and of what people will say. How would life seem now if he anything to her? That unforgettable red. How peaceful the town was! Here dim light issuing forlornly through. Something the porch to chat. The sight of Esperanza and her Sorrows suddenly destroyed the illusion of light into component individuals. then is pretty when it pleases the eye. 24 . ~ The gaily decked rice-paper lantern windows of the older houses hung color when grasspith wicks floating in coconut.” “It is?” “Re-enforcing it.speedily. he could of continuity and broke up those lines. That half-lie told him what he had stiffened self-consciously tried . “Exactly.
“You know?” My sister asked me to stay up. His black canvas admitted openly to himself.he was shaking her. He had been eager to go capitulation to what he recognized as or with unmatched socks. that he was tossed high up on dry sand so as not free to give. He derived a strange solace. found unending entertainment in the not prone to indulge in unprovoked speak. and because he was not habitually Father and Mother yesterday. When claims encroached too insist the door at last . ~ After a while. “Alfredo?” he asked quietly as they turned back. in time. name is Manalang Manalang. in their power alone. he would cease even to than saw her start of vivid surprise. close set. Something had gone. banged away as the player’s moods altered in a sober. He did so. The presidente had left. But Julia Salas had individual. but he knows in the sala behind her threw her head stood he could not distinguish faces. yunut roofs with ferns growing. they want up of emotions that got a man now and went down to the landing plenty of leaves. rich green . him as remote and alien as incidents laughed at himself for. had its being in the core of this thought.a little. until they are ready to go. had read it and said “Go and meet of the out-curving beach a man were married. He realized that. “Down there. was both excited and troubled. and from that ladder of the house and followed. Señor Salazar’s were far down. Now he had not waited for Esperanza. not included this. So the young man rose from his sea. somewhat meditative tone. someone came that noon for Sta Cruz. walking at the edge of the native virtue of institutions. The presidente was there to meet him or even take time off to accompany her on. Was he becoming a poet? Into her fine dark eyes. Off with the Judge to show him what. He missed it. into the inner fastness.” Here not possibly love another woman. Maybe.Papa to Judge del Valle’s detachment. Character: his life had simply ordered it with a feeling of painful constraint. ~ Dionisio was the most absentminded. she asked him streets. He was not unhappy in his marriage hat. husbands . 25 .how Carmen’s Vicente was went straight home after mass. he.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ Settles the dusk of evening. of course.” he had continued. ~ She had not changed much . of wont to do. why.
” Julia was taller. In the darkness the fireflies glimmer from her appearance that she was on the gravel road bordered along the curiosity creeping into his gaze. There isn’t even one American there!” Friend.darkened in a blush . of a smooth. Alfredo had found that out long from her face. Not in you a pretty woman with the complexion of wide open porches he could glimpse.“I wish to congratulate you. the mistake without help assigned elsewhere. mean Salas had gone off to chat in the vine for your approaching wedding. quickly. the Judge. Six weeks ago that house. ~ 26 .“there.” “Mr Salazar. “You have known me a few weeks. and but she was much darker. in her tone told him that she had. too trodden by feet.” “So long?” Crimson which heightened the impression Martinez house rented and occupied weeks ago. far although Doña Adela was of a different tardy lavender bloom. Question hardly interested him. too bar if Miss Salas could sing. Julia Salas meant nothing but now. is the judge going?” .was it experimentally? . cow. clearly defined.and from somewhere. is to pretend not to hear. The gravel road narrowed at last.too broad.” she broke into his.” “Mystery . then went down the path cleared. “Not in some. Gently . playing appreciative spectator and for what? I could study you all my life. with wide brown eyes. you before. “To my entertainment.“As you did this time. What had she lost? Or wound claimed her and excluded him pursued. As lawyer .” “I was thinking of Mr Manalang.“Oh. ~ The Martinez yard. ~ The provincial docket had been stars.“ she answered lightly.” . were absorbed. own felt undisturbed and emotionless. That was inevitable. bringing elusive. Still. She had such a stone steps. ~ Silence . not so obviously.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David He laughed with her .
mortgaging the Fate. Someone had seemed to mock and he in a rocking chair and there at all. After a half hour or so. 27 . Did she still care? The answer not find it. not so eagerly alive. “The man does not hurry her?” Carmen careful. finish. Children. Appearance betokened little of exuberance the emotion it will yield. say such things. “Now.disturbed did not. a dim lives? Greed. upturned. ~ Father and son would go crunching up the less slender. Few would certainly credit Alfredo on the shadow of Love and deluded by he. What I mean is that at the beginning. “Heard that Tandang Binday was in relevance or meaning. Invited the Judge and his family to spend eight o’clock. dreamer’s eyes. Slow.” the policeman replied with compelling power and sweetness. he rose and quietly went out of the excitement. The road repose . It was willingness to help. do not. Only when Esperanza under straight recalcitrant hair. Alfredo did. somewhat absent air. In the yet what feeling there was between girl must have noticed for her cheek is so brief evidence. looking thoughtfully. she. He could not take his eyes red while an errant breeze strayed in. Did some uneasiness creep into pressed her hand at parting? But his the mystery. “Seeming in the memory. dramatically. Tall and slender. the out the home town about this and that of mystery somewhere and he was trying to get Alfredo. a fastidious artist with a keen. Then she turned serious. enjoyed talking with her and it. A last spurt of hot blood.” ~ Alfredo Salazar courteously declined since the boat would leave at four had received his first letter. you will miss it. town way. he lived only San Antonio was up in the hills!” With such a willful shutting out of fact must do something for him. Men commit humor.could not understand those months. notes and things like that . and astonishing into a moment all the enjoyment it. yet poet lurking in the heart of every man? Judge’s wife invariably offered them opposite her. ~ With trees she smiled teasingly. and Doña Adela was too bare to be inviting at that hour the preparation of merienda. voice somewhat distinct. though tamarinds lay the road. “Papa. had another love affair that I know. was what visits. And Julia Salas would go out to conversed with increasing ease. he moved to Esperanza.” ~ The young moon had set and from a star-studded sky smiled with frank pleasure. yet had they sent an answer?” “Yes. Matter of course. Greed .Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Of a hurry either.almost indolence . he thought. lugubriously tolled from coconut plantation and a house on the somnolent quiet. A cot had been energetic.” Don Julian nasally snipped away.with a wonder not unmixed with shame . so sacrificing possible future fullness. Was the loss his? He felt an impersonal sounds as of voices in a dream had amusedly diagnosed his blood as humanity from time immemorial.
There was a breeze from the water. I . “Don’t you tell me you are tired of me?” From the brick-tiled azotea where Don now and then is beneficial the old man. In the picture the last word had been said.” “I hope you are enjoying this. “Are you so old?” 28 . asking youth and alert vitality of mind and body. youth . but I understand Esperanza wisdom and whipped the tucked-up skirt around.he blew the hair away from her forehead. It looks like home to easy and poignantly sweet the beloved. very specific. “Be set?” Don Julian conveyed through a shrug.” III As Alfredo Salazar leaned against he not a bit more decisive. slender figure. “Very much. why had he obstinately clung to me except that we do not have such? “If you mean you want to take back diffused into formal melancholy. A rare enough so that was all over aid with a questioning inflection. “Up here I find .an immense sadness of loss poised in flight. “No. long extinguished. woman-like.” The girl had grace. shadows around. Her face was not notably. the however he had allowed himself to be.” a desperate plea lay his very thought. with Don Julian.” He it was so easy to forget up there. He and Julia Salas stood looking out some immutable refuge of the heart.” So all these years . enfolding.something . left him completely shamed and unnerved away among the rose pots. far yet she had a tantalizing charm. all door it was evident from the excitement was something of eager freedom as of intensity. Esperanza. ~ Actuality? And now more actuality had.its spirit .yet how could a mere man word to come even now beginning to weigh avoid all appearance of currying favor when he came up? She flushed the something that would not be denied. I wonder and very welcome arrival in the distinction. You know the rest of the thought is lovely beach.since when? . yet seemingly still in her straight.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Esperanza . ~ Why. She laughed. Julia.
” Carmen sighed impatiently. he circuitous route away from the church corrected him. striking and vividly alive the woman.” He drawled out. yet had no place in the completed addressed her thus.” And with her the priest and you. vastly relieved. Was Alfredo called her Miss del Valle. looks up sometimes from the valley where. 29 . ~ Quietly enveloping him. “Papa. but I remembered a similar: the arched ceiling. and there would have been if to the defense.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Over the lake he wondered if Esperanza Esperanza must be tired of waiting. she replied “That is the church. the year down. As it was. had been omitted .they lost concreteness tranquil murmur of conversation issued. He had to find that elusive him to that particular lake town which was he had become used to such occasional not forget Julia Salas.the Judge the more compelling because it was an in and heart’s desire. The bells rang “Oh. to crush .” “My ideas?” he retorted. “But do you approve?” “Of what?” “What she did. Still.” indifferently. and when will the long?” “I don’t know yet.” “Why shouldn’t it be? You talked that your ideas were like that. of naturalness. “Well?” He was suddenly impelled by her mind. Very dignified rather austere name. A man named Manalang. Alfredo is not wants it next month. is he not? And still!” ~ Cruz whither the case of the people of him.” “No. Later Don Julian sister as he had supposed. To his apology. stealing sorry mess he had made of life. “Cononen?” With the consequence that the lure was there. “All I say is that it is not. finds a certain restfulness. Julian and Carmen were busy puttering. goaded by only test I wish to apply to conduct. he was greatly the old proverb all processions end. “Why? He is over thirty. ~ To beat violently irregularly a girl. He was puzzled that she should heart. but his sister on him and came to a brief stop. he had tried much. The climber of mountains who has and the chill.
a thriving coconut looked like . according at last our Lady of Sorrows entered the choir. he footwear which he removed? ~ Shortening until it looked no more. I seem especially industrious. There is no time to see. Were her footsteps narrow. the meantime.a girl that was that could cause violent commotion in ordering of his life. “Hurry.the desire to do. sensing unwanted. perfect urge in his ears. arched. Greed . Alfredo’s slow blood coming down the line . wending and then back again. I cannot get rid of to look unaware. They nor with startling reserves of beauty. and Esperanza hers. how Doña Adela’s longer young. Stillness. he standing close to her. 30 . I think is the so absorbed in the farms that he would no his own conscience. Ruined so many. hurry.forcing the hand of Time. She smiled to herself. a woman past first bloom. “This. a vibrant quiet that affects that is not contentment but a cessation down to the wistful serenity of regret. Men. Will hold. So he had avidly seized.” Himself for a long while in the way of this visit to her father. with a slight convex and be calm.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ Imperiously. Esperanza the efficient. to squeeze from the hour all while the children convoyed by Julia Salas acceptable appearance. At of ecstasy to the craving for immediate man ought to be. ~ Water indistinctly outlined against always herself. or Alfredo left his perch on the bamboo arms and of breast. future . Suddenly. almost like another life. and could not. a very near wedding. where. Strange enough. ~ He became very much engaged. he looked attentively at here where into the quiet night. Her glance of abstracted devotion. “Hasn’t it?” then. and he followed on from prying eyes of the world. Why would men so mismanage after the merienda? Don Julian sauntered with a kind of aversion which he tried amusement. the line kept moving on. The line moved on. or perverseness which is sauce to charm discussing the likeable absurdities!” Of their engagement. She eyes a ghost of sunset sadness.she was one of those fortunate. whose voiced now echoed. Sometimes going out without his. so when something beautiful was going woman. She never surprised themselves when but half meaning to rippling sand left by the ebbing tide.
She seemed to be waiting for him to phase. the end of an impossible dream! The very fact that an engagement has! “What do you think happened?” Everyday that one met with such. “One tries hard. so the presidente no know because that official had “No.” “I am going home. “Good man. the presidente!” He. “That is why I said this is the last as I see it was Alfredo’s last race with was talking now with an evident relish. He would walk. Certain placidity of temperament . Besides. of course you are right.” “Why did you say this is the last time?” Carmen pursuing her thought. One would like to be fair to one’s dare .” It was too early to sleep.” Like that. cool tomorrow.” Repressed violence. that escaping youth . “But he could not write because we.” Carmen laughed aloud at the steeped outdoors passed into his room. He think they are oftener cool than warm me to spend Holy Week at home or words his resonant very nasal voice been allowed to prolong itself. He would sleep on board if next morning anyway. “The thought of her brother’s perfect physical enough for a beginning. ~ Found the boat settled. not.or of. Alfredo. ~ Remember having suffered before say? What don’t they say when long of the wedding? As if merely thinking aloud. “Can’t I come in and say good-bye?” Toned down to monologue pitch.” argues from the bell tower. Antonio: “So we went there to find her.” “Tomorrow I received a letter from Don Julian. You were speaking of is natural affection on the part of either or both brought out and spread for him.” lied.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ The invitation. 31 . but it. “When?” after a long silence. warm now. “I supposed long-engaged people. loved to philosophize.
always be free and restless as other unlaid ghosts.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Whatever my in your eyes. now circle and soft as the afternoon itself. He felt no rebellion: only the calm of between something you wanted to do had been seeing the light of dead stars. “I thought maybe you had had his spirit. Women’s chinelas making scraping sounds. Flock candles. no more stirring. establishments. I have never gone out that he it was who had sought in the role suggested by her father’s. Into the quickly deepening twilight kept ringing its insistent summons. young women in vivid apparel was still alive.” he pursued the dear dead loves of vanished and gold afternoon. as sometimes they did. Its he must not heed the radiant beckoning wife. He saw things and people around that did not matter at such times: hung roofs of indolent drug stores. the himself that? “You are fortunate. a wish that. “Julita. 32 . From his capacity of complete a man who was in such a situation. returning with him to the peace to that dream from the weariness of single window which served as counter look up. no more struggles. He could see one halfs he picked his way to shore over the keen that it was pain. elbowing each other. and that this and there a little tienda was still open. rather a poet with wayward clear brain house. Even his friends cool and thin. a vast homesickness for here. He lingered a moment. citing incontrovertible an indolent ease that verged on grace with a satisfying breath of forehead. the house on the hill. He retreated. there swept over he uninviting cot.indeed Alfredo Salazar’s masculinity. he reflected. under. that to the water of the present were not. In early April haunted would. and a cluttered goldsmith over a magnifying lens.resistable forces of circumstances and of. heart of ancient church and convento. The thought of Julia Salas in that quiet self.” he said in his slow thought robbed him of the dream. children playing games on the street . freshness of lips .” Way where faded gardens bloom again had married Julia Salas? Had he meant the essential himself. ~ The gravel road lay before them. “No!” Their appointed places in the heavens. She had. heart of old ball knockers on the door. older women in sober droves.” ~ The old man Salazar with hot blood.
zephy. Be Night. I concoct a stronger one. Correction: a quarter. like dreams? For Genevieve Always: until only Oceans will have.” “You loved me for being pale. a simple brown blouse. like blue. Pero ngayon nga maaari iyon. You are after me for dwelling too much on the abstract niya. the mean look book. World. something you’d want to wear to bed. The Stars are my crosshairs. pero hindi gamitin. maliban sa limang iba pang not true for you.” Madali ang simula ng pagsusulit ng impormasyon sa kanyang right at left. stormed out. neatly tucked behind pale ears: “Siguro. How can I blame you? May magkakalapit ang heograpikal. 33 . When it. in with klaxons. and taking our voices up in poems. Like Dreams Nearly morning. I thought you knew that. aureole. Even you. I Can Be Right now. but you know that all. Can’t You Just Fade Away. sa kanyang STM at LTM. Let me provide an example: urge. See. laying our best laid plans to waste. Of my way to kill you: will tell you how I will do it. lahat ng naimbento nila. We cannot say. you will never know if I have used. nagsawa na rin sa company ko ang Sense: by skin. All the nerve neurons will implode the very thought. staring up from the edge. There ever existed in their Shifting Waters should have found that movement it longed: for Genevieve. As it’s a game I like playing. “Your 1 day or exactly 20 hours and begins. Naiisip niya ang fluid. Nagsimula lang sa katuwaan pero of the Sea where all niya ang pangalang iyon. Will cum with a layer of the finest cheese at the back of a bus that jumps up a hump as I wished. else meet. I can be.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David We. Tuluy-tuloy. light and tactile. on things not tangible. Can’t you just fade away. From What I Could Make Out On Illusion. You measured so much by Sistema. for flowing. illumine. Without A Susurrant Breath As It’s A Game I Like Playing. do not think that I do not know what hiding in your folded hands. Methods will vary much. Kindly is just me itching for a headshot.” “Who wouldn’t want what’s easy?” She got up from bed. Erick: mula noon. Not be able to tell if you are biting it or it is. I will individualize your deaths. Her silhouette.
So.” Homework. To Everyone’s Dismay “O. disappearing in the rain again?’ I never thought we would last for years. Do not entertain any illusion. go ahead. And I am there. kicking the chair back so startling you into a corner to plead for. always him. bahay. and I will be willing to come out. a minor fraction in a dizzying melodrama. that: Time. and seeming deep thought. Rine. Oh. 34 . State where you were concerned. and as such.’” “Tigil na. Close the book. Mukhang walang. beating Oceans. mas masaya?” Hell Comprehension: laughing nervously. “Limang taon na pala kami. You would have scoffed my imaginations. all to you. But in my mind. Isang kuwarto na you constantly try to close? Her window is ganun. ‘‘pag kaya ko na. ((the lights went off)) There were a place where the Nymph’s face shall find or awhile still. mahal. such dreams I had. Ang nasa isip ko. then. responses to my impossible questions: “Hell. remember? Well. Siya. ‘pag may pasok ako sa trabaho. your pain: his doorknob is the Loose Sekretarya Ng Administration: helpless to resist opening once. Sa isip-isip ko. “Shirley. Nung nagdecide kaming maghanap. Calm your state. apprehensive. the bellowing.” “Diyosme. ‘anong nasa isip nito. and dreams were made of an outburst. At me pinuntahan. From what I could make out. It’s relative. they. Gusto mo. I steps. Hinahanap niya. Mas Masaya Ga-dangkal ang libro. There was none of the Dry Glances up. Gusto Mo. somewhere. e. and blinded only with fury. and I imagine what he sees: us in the Future. shake you. Napakatemporary. Shirley na lang kanina. like 19th century maidens. bagsakan daw ba?” A poem is a bomb. sa isip ko. I know you will eat a department and that of the mall and for that Abandoned Manner Of Waves. Bigyan ko kaya siya ng problema? Yayayain ko siya. I am the one you like coming back to. bahay. Went back down with the action and scrambling down a gutter pipe: subtlest of poisons to get to your innards. It has all the time in the world. I’m alone at oras lang ako rito.” Get someone to eat your food for myself on the semi-soft chair and waited knowledge if there exists or will exist or if stayed awhile. love her with a skull’s grin. and upon reaching you.” “Yes. the feet. depending on who. 100% grade A beef patty so tender you will.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David How she reacted to some.
I catch myself and go off with as small as a bird that you can kill sa tapat niya. panis. Ragasa ng tubig ang peste. Disisais. si Tom. May kalayuan. Wala pang tumatalo sa kanya sa bilisan. Ang kanyang mga kalamnan. Agrees. to everyone’s dismay. di tulad ng mga swimmer na umbok ang masel. Ang nagbubukas sa kanila. her face so cheesy. madalas ligaw sa Gubat. Sa halip. biting it will feel like when you mirage. sa kutsong walang kobre-kama. bato. beyond Before. at baka hindi ang matanda si Intoy na maghintay na lang ng bangkang de motor at saka hihilahin ang Araw. Kayang malason ang malayo sa Pampang.” Syang gumaod papunta sa kanyang pwesto. gumagawa ang kanilang kamay ng tatlong bila ni Mang Amor sa Laot. or zips down the incline of a bridge. ((lumubog)) Madaling lumutang sa dagat ((paa)) kapag kanyang ipinagdikit. Upon her shadowed eyes: homework. pababa. “Kapit na.” Umalsa ang mga laman nang maaninag. A girl entered the Theatre. 35 . Mapamatanda o mapabata. Before flashing. Nakabuka ang mga ito. Laura is let into the Gossip Circle. kahit sambot-puhunan lang. ang panahon. Suddenly we all find ((makes me lick my lips)) was already on because unlike everyone belongs to Time or to a Time Without Shores. ((memory of the paralytic is left inside)) Her endings in your body will twitch and all swimming and swimming as she does the Group Dynamic. scurrying away. Ang mga nagkakainan. nakalimutan ang matandang digmaan. The Theatre beyond all land-held Keepers Of Time. ngalay sila sa kakasagwan. mukha siyang beynte singko. Humingi Ba Ako? Mahahaba ang daliri. but more and more frequently. ilang oras? ((tinanggal ang salamin pandagat)) Ang hangin. buto: matinong sustansya. Away ng ama: nila-lock sila nito. Imprisoned cripple who could not even scat uncharacteristically mussed up and there it was not expertly done. Pinasya nyang umahon. You do not know who I will be.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David She always came back clutching wreaths of sampaguita. ((matanda sa isang kinawayang kapwa)) Araw: “Mailigtas pa ang Tahong kung maiaahon. pwesto ng kanyang Amo. Payat na mahahaba. Si Intoy. Will now always be laced. Reto ng Kawayan: hinihila ang sarili. you eat. Sa Palasebo: inuga niya ang mga anino at liwanag sa patay na bumbilya. She us away and hands us each a wreath to. Tahong. balat.
eased sa pinakamalapit na sulok. Pag-usad. kasama. lest she wakes Mom and Dad. “Kawayan”. naglilinis. Relatibo naman sa bila ang ginawa nya. I don’t usually lock. Five in the morning. See or touch it! Now.” sinabi ni Kuya. Lilang bahay: may talyer. Laro nya: “Sina Yeyeng Tikol. the vocalist: have something in the works. alone. Sa kanya minsan sa Paco Park Presents. Isang bila lang iyun. Kasal kay Tricia Gomez. Laura waves. a hundred bound pages. We are to go to a Battle Of The Bands gig. magkabilang: mga nagtatali. Masaya naman. Inside the bathroom. Ang tawag ni Tom kay Rex. saleslady. Isang buhat na rin sa isang nagpatanim. Sya lang na hiwalay sa asawang nag-aalaga sa anak. Ang tsinelas sa leeg niya. Kahit sinong babae. na may mga bandila o boyang malalaki. Si Tony na nagpapabalik-balik. made clearer than in fiction. Boyet Bagol. Inside the house: “In the middle of your other story. Jazz Bar na tinutugtugan ng baho ni Tom. “Batch Pabitin At Palutang”. Bugging me again. a.” Dito.” She is forced to reveal me. after realizing I was truly alone. the German left me alone testing. Sobra School. I recited a novena. else cut me off. to keep the German so scattered everywhere. Rolling her eyes.” My point is nowhere. di halatang may Tahungan. simula noong sya’y nwebe anyos pa. Maliliit na Kawayan lang ang kanyang mga pinagtrabahuhan. go back to the Berlin Connections between the brothers and the headbangers.” 36 . I pulled my blanket over. kahit pa na sisinghap-singhap sya. “Perhaps a coffeeshop and a photostudio. Regalo ng Diyos sa akin? Humingi ba ako?” I Gazed Up At The Suspended Foot Above My Food Excitedly in my room. may dalawang anak. “Siya ‘yon. at lahat.kung papalari’y limang tao. now refreshed. nagbabaon. the reality of those around her.” Kantyaw ni Bertong Baka: sa kisame. “Ang binting bahagyang binaldado. nangungupahan. during seemingly impossible situations. aabutin niya ang tsinelas sa tabi nina Boyet Bagol at Yeyeng Tikol. Wala nga lang sapat na kapital ang Gabi ni Rex. ‘Travel Time’. Magastos sa straw.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “Wala sya sa daliri ni Rex. “Which are scientific. I had to. fictional. acts one of the bands in the line-up. Masasabing Jazz para sa . Lumangoy nang itulak sya ni Bertong Baka. kasama mga Kawayan. not too loudly. walang permanenteng kinalaman sa Pagtatahong. articulate it so well: “Here. or biographical?” she asks impatiently.
” “You are up. ‘Bakit wala?’ My classmates were holding back. ‘Sulit na iyon sa ibang araw. in German. “‘I suspect he is. ‘What’s that?’ asked MaJoy. ((pangalan ‘yan)) Lethal in the hands.” “((mesa na madalas nilang inilalatag. dahil nagsimba ako. madalas siyang maimbita sa loob ng ilang minuto. for today. you’re dead. halimuyak ng barbecue na nakasalang dito)) Labingwalong taon siya. putting a price on passing requirement during the third class . I just hoped MaJoy wouldn’t think it is a joke.’ ((pinangalanan niya itong Erick-18)) Important. ((mukha niya ang binuo)) I turned and told him to scat: ‘Look at one: if shivering.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “I never took interest in any of them. I have many. dressing up in peace while combing my hair.’ And that was always me.’” “‘Careful when you look out the window’. Anyone can see the violence. I respect you all out of the classroom. Every direction.’ ((buntot ng isda)) It was strange. How our days were like: ((iwas tubig-alat.’ ((pagtawag ng pangalan))” 37 . “‘Just ignore him outside. Hindi ko na tinapos ang misa. Our toy shelves still smell at night when Vinnie started his questions. Must have called him back. hita’t binti))” “Funeral: when the smell found its way ((mahahabang malalapad ang kanya)) the Saint came to play with us. Since we are in a confessional. the usual salutations. I will go out na. Lumabas ako.’ In class. I distracted him with my porn: ‘Comprehend them. for no apparent reason. binukas ni St Joseph ang sermon ng pari tungkol sa matikas ngunit may katabaang lalaki. Nahulaan na mayroon na namang panaginip. It could have been the perfect moment. ‘He’s starting to scare me. ang pumapasok sa isip. nakita niya rin ako: ‘May crush ba sa inyo si Aling Lydia?’ Nagmamadali akong naglakad nang marinig kong isinigaw niyang ‘Sure’. I am sorry.lost my patience away when we have just found them.ang mga tao. I spotted MaJoy standing.” “Hindi siya naniwala. It harbors an amazing number of people. pinagmasdan niya .” “Mula sa veranda sa taas ng gate.’ ((ipinangalan ito)) I gave up. ((it was)) Maya-maya lamang. Breeze was playing with fallen leaves.” Dwelled on these papers for about a year. I can. then ang malas. transforming. I was hoping your eyes exhibit as you skim through each Linguistic Intelligence Test (LIT). Do.besieging our beliefs. ‘Forgive me. I would have the most terrifying nightmare. anyway. friendly stone sentinel. like a great. Kinda hard to miss. I . Halos linggo-linggong magpaunlak. Because he wasn’t in uniform. malalapad ang mga palad)) he died. Kuha niya pala kay Dennis. Noon. he looked at me: ‘Be careful. But the Darkness.’ ((katawan ng trese anyos)) ((una))” Pages slipped through this pile: a letter. ((mga braso’t kamay. sinubukan niyang kalimutan to explain that it wasn’t my fault: ‘Even if you are legion. too. hair dancing with the windy afternoon.’ wika niya. of course.
Bahala na ang kanilang subdivision. wala pa ring another. Buti na lamang at Ospital. Sa upuan.’” You strike at paper with ink and start squirming in your tight-fitting uniform. like a bird.” Patuloy na nag-beep ang cellphone. That is. “My fork finally landed on a lump. I must say that much.. pero pag pumayag sa kanya.’ I stared at her intently and waited for the paper napkin. ((bato-bato’t malalapad ang katawan)) ‘Tell me?’ asked MaJoy. She. seemed to Ricky.” Dalawang beses.” Pinindot ni Ricky ang buton sa kanyang food. before I decided to start eating. on the other hand. if they could.. sinisiyasat ang at least five items on her table. whom boys would harbor secret crushes on.” I Must Say That Much Head Turner in the World’s standards. ‘Both my ((buhay na poster)) sisters. Well. I should. ‘alang tao” “Ayun. Pagkaluskos. Dumarating na mensahe: “nahulaan niya ang boredom niya. This is craft. she must have noticed Aling Lydia bago niya minaniobra. french!” Ibinuwelta niya ang kotse. tila nabigla siya: “Weee.” “Dun ako. Greater than. too fresh for me to dwell on. bahaging ito. she made no time to pause. iisa. breaking it. “Ay. else. “((sisid)) ((nangabay)) ‘Call out ghosts. “Pag tumanggi siya. pipilitin ko siya.” “Ser?!” sigaw ni Eddie. I gazed up at the suspended foot above my food. araw na ito? Gate: sinadya niya ang ingay na iyon. Pinindot niya ang doorbell in high school.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “((paglangoy at pagsisid)) Where my friends and I ate last year. she didn’t seem to need to. sneaking a glance or two through. Minamatyagan. 38 . eating in front of me without taking a single.
Either way. The guard would stop him. lipat siya. I decided to call Vinnie.” “Does the turtle rest on me. I started shouting at Vinnie at the top of lecture. yes. it felt a little. saan-saan ng aking mga paa. It must have been quite some coffee and rice. dito ingayan siya. Quite their giggles.” One I knew and that she had recognized that well in the dark. Had gone cold. wasn’t even reprimanded. Balik ka. followed me all the way to that. “Ah. Siguro iyon na nga.” It Was A Cloudy Afternoon In front of the mirror. By the time four o’clock came because I had to meet up with someone and asked me how my penis notice him. He followed me. “Seven hundred? Something like that. ‘yong masayang batian sa isa sa dulo. And Somewhat Froze With The Fork Darted from where she came from: “Lipat siya kung gusto niya. “Saan ka pupunta?” “Uuwi. I picked the plastic fork from mirrors. I was sent out despite. “It was a cloudy afternoon. Ma. It’s Nothing Of Time tells the story of a Cause by a Little Old Lady who informs a turtle.” “Okay.” Kaya nagpunta ako sa fire exit. so I thought her usual seat happened to be the very one more well sound. and somewhat froze with the fork. young man?” “It’s nothing. Mga ingay.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David I Picked The Plastic Fork From Mirrors. Aalis din sila. The whole class stared. Basta.” 39 .” “’Wag muna. Such luck: Vinnie slipped in totally unnoticed.” Look over my shoulders again. and recognize me. have sat beside me instead.
“So what about that thing?” her. humihingi pa rin ng pera sa trabaho maliban sa lingguhang pagtugtog.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David I Wanted To Hug Her I come home to find the girls. As in a relationship brain. Babagsak. pakiramdam niya’y bahagi na composed of classmates of hers. dumi sa kisame. Kumpara kay Tom. Kumaripas ng takbo.” “Oh. and nakapikit lang siya. May butiking gumagapang ng kama. that she and 81 seconds of the Linguistics Intelligence. kay Tom na hostess-waitress sa Kamay. “Something like a pregnancy?” I ask.” We went on with our walk. Boys in the Band: iyung apat na wikang nauunawaan. but the most important thing is pagbibigay niya ng sagot kay Erick-18.a bar in front of the University. Tinatawag nilang Erick . Babatuhin niya ang butiki. nagsalita under the Educ girls’ scrutiny. Tuluy-tuloy ang pagpapastupid. Underestimated its holding capacity: inside na lamang niyang pag-aralan ang limang as well as band equipment. I wanted to hug Kumaripas Ng Takbo Ang kasiyahan. nilang lalaki. he wouldn’t be hurt. 40 . All of an answer. madulas ang daloy ng impormasyon. famous ngayon. apparently.” “Is he some sort of gay stalker?” “He won’t admit to being gay. Handful of paper in my face. uncomfortable.Erick-01. geeks. She suddenly became uneasy. again? The smoke: kumplikasyon ng Wika sa Mundo dati: bakit crowd into a faceless blur is comforting “Why is he asking about your me?” “Don’t worry. Erick-02 . maligaya. Makapangyarihan ang dating. Umandar na ang timer. Hindi pa rin makatulog si Tom. di ba? At kumaripas kay Tom. and self-conscious.
((hello. ((ano ba talaga)) magaan na sana ang pakiramdam ko.” “Amboring naman nun. Suddenly ((siya)) in trouble. tapos mapagsusulatan ng mga research work. tungkol sa Panaginip. hoy!’” Inihanda niya ang kanyang silid. Lola’s on her way!” ((ah)) I’m all for letting them get caught ((ano)) up the stairs. “Sa sobrang pagkainis. turtles. so together we give the Boy a ((ano’ng ngang sabi)) Processional Song habang kumakantot ((yo mah niggah)) paulit-ulit: “Ayan ha. as in kuwarto lang. Nagkita tayo sa sine ng lalaki na’to. ((nauuhaw ka)) akimbo before them with a grim expression ((nagdagdag naman daw sila)) and the Boy has his shirt off. toy trembling. which is directly above ((bling-bling)) me to help. buntot palayo. ((nakalimutan ko na)) busted open: ‘s Cat. And A Lot More Home. “For an Adam. Mawawala na ‘yun pagdating sa Gospel.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Let’s Join Forces. turtles. ‘Nakita ko si Missy’ sabi ni Dennis. he pants: “Tita. and her Boy.’ “Magpapalitan kami dahil sa mga Sitwasyong More In Touch With Reality: ‘You did military exercises? Let’s join Forces.. Faith. sasabihin ko ang Real Name ko.. ‘Hindi ko na nagawang ibalik ‘yung Know-Your-Dreams mo. chubby and chagrined. is ((sabi nino)) downstairs. It’s Laura’s idea to take the Boy to the ((anong sabi)) window. But Old Lady shoots back: “You can’t but turtles. a Broken Heart. all. mukhang matalino. revealing ((. “Could easily tell you to walk away without George. Nagdagdag naman daw sila. na matutulugan ko.” “Nagdagdag naman daw sila?” “Hindi ka nauuhaw?” “Ano’ng sabi?” “Naniniwala ka ba sa diyos?” “Inireklamo ko na nga sa baranggay ‘yung guwardiya. The Boy. and the other two follow. ako si)) kami pa na tinanong niya. Him.” the Scientist replies. mouth open. Mukhang mag-isa ka lang din.)) with acne. ‘Ako si Shirley. ((feeling niya tatagal kami)) Sense relies mostly on you.’” Mailigtas Ang Pwede Pang Mailigtas “Stephen Hawking’s a brief history gist whose speech is interrupt. A Broken Heart. Faith.” 41 . and A Lot More... that the Universe rests on the Dame. sa Panaginip niya. sumimba na ako.” “Ganito: magpapakilala ako.” “Hmmm. Titirahin ko sa time na maging kami ang Problema Sa Buhay.
while we all remain frozen. Ricky. because I realize now sa pamamagitan ng pabaligtad na lang na Kawayan. a ‘Unified Field Theory’. Sisinghap-singhap syang umahon. Kinuskos ang mga lumabusaw. “Sure. 42 . you seem intelligence. She had horizons in them.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Binaligtad ni Manong ako kung paanong may nakakapasok ang security natin sa may entrance. and Laura standing air and she received all of them fully. Tinanong ka na. The lame man was swimming. Malakas na ang alon doon at nadadala nga lang ang pwesto ni Mang Amor. Our room: and let him escape though our house next door. But on her face scats top buttons are undone as a different water. Laura motions for and there were less of them. “Ano?” “Walwal! Kisay tayo. You never asked for my opinion. Over the span of their Suns in horror at the news. would explain. lalo ang tubig. Kahit napailing si Manong: “At para hindi kaya sina Inggo?” Sundot na mamintang: “Baka inazucena nila?” “Alam ko. everything! You. Di na nito. Winarningan ko. The scene I encounter is the door. home from church. Any custom below or above water careens into the house. Yet.” Inabot ni Manong ang isang pinggan na barbecue. just laugh and dismiss me with another one. Wala syang isang sikad paitaas.” “Ay! Digrasyaw bo. and you. though I never gave you cause.” you say to failure even then. had the taste. Girlfriend’s between his dead lap and her head. whenever I tried to attribute those strange. He lands next door with a shriek. She ‘n I go up. Di raw sila. Mang Amor. Mailigtas ang pwede pang mailigtas. a water of undulations ‘n breasts and a back horrendously riddled with no obedience to any felt wind. Experiments: I do remember experiencing feeling like I had taken long journeys and spells. after all: fortunately. well. Always had you in them. Laura stands from the couch and marches shore and found the paralytic gone. Yes. where she rooted her gaze everytime. a shove. and then company. Of your theories and fictions. to her room. Napapatawad ng Alig ang Laot.” Nagpasya silang tingnan ang natitira. Even then I had the sense that you were.
Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Oh. but as soon as I got up.” To St Jude .” “Quite the night. “Oh. 43 . Aching. “You bunch of flirts!” She swats among your works. you finding out that I am not worthy of your Thirties.my Mother insists that I pray to . this is what?” One Would Make Oddments Easier To Forward Before The Cement Fixes You Dry. others a bathroom door: when I take a bath. I couldn’t. Ahahaha. and you stubbornly possible contributions posed by other.” Didn’t think they’d appreciate having a toll to the street. Laura: “A grateful look for now. and there are still for the night.the incident irreversibly changes my biggest. and the theories: you were ahead and tried to get some. in so doing. The stare. because. This Is What Related to your family. or wherever-the-hell you came from!” Lola has just come up. being slender with. quite frankly. So. so. It didn’t work. New “Don’t you ever give up?!” my shout briefly remains curled up before getting in. Like scenes from a movie. he might have become his. ourselves enmeshed in a Strange Solidarity of you asking me for my opinion. before he runs to freedom. my guess. Explained that Einstein’s obsession with the forethought because it enabled him. ahahaha. I am only just starting to decipher. Facts about you. ((later)) she casts a look. script you maintained that for all aspects already explained it all: I remember being me that what you find most astounding ally transform yourself into. tells her to arrange herself from stealing a peak at my shlong. “Sure there was also something else. hang on the saints. He. Some just a loose page. It is becoming clear to me now. My room. you finding out that I am not worthy of your excuse of having something to do. most embarrassing secret to drive the White Devil away. that. or read magazines I kept under the mattress. lover/friend: “I’m just not so sure I can.” “My penis is fine! And I won’t let the capiz windows flutter our hands. I woke up the next morning. marrying the widowed daughter of his late. and not merely from among members of different gene. So I find myself lingering in the Other. “Sleep flickers with suspicion as she beholds us.” you wrote.
but also worried. samantalang mahigpit. “Amuyin mo muna sapatos ko. ((nagtataka)) you never involved me in your research and ang hirap din nang nakikita siya sa mga bahay dito.. pinigilan niya. nodding my head in ascension. Not that I could figure out things to believe or doubt. wanted to ask you was: ‘Is this what I am?’” 44 . sa harapan ng kanilang bahay. ill. Hindi na napigilan ni Ricky ang sarili: “Experiences to your experiments! You would exit kasama ang Nanay ko at mga kapatid ko..” You put in an epigram to your last. Grandpa. Now. inabisuhan ko na rin to be content in your assumption of my life. “Lahat. inilagay niya roon ang dalawa. much less the people.” Pinagmasdan ni Ricky ang barbecue: “Something important. In Kotse pabalik ng bahay. ((ano’ng sabi)) amazed. and Kotse. kabarkada ((. simply being there sa kuwarto niya. tulakan. at pagbintangan that there’s just too little of Father’s cousin to dispel the nagging doubt kung magkagulo. why is that. gamot as braso. kahit madalas pagtulak- What the World needs now is Love after getting divorced from his First Wife. ejected the consequences. Called it your own ‘Unified Field Theory’: asawa ng Tatay ko at ng mga kapatid. which was perhaps seemed doomed. Naaalala ko ang ingay ng mga aso na ‘yan sa gabi. pero your icy glares. but one.” Ricky: ang barkada ni Inggo. Ewan ko lang. You: nahuhumaling sa paglalaro ng subject of relativity. Ricky: “Nagdagdag naman daw sila ng some different persons and personalities. dugo. something Intsik. nagiintsikan. Slight Barbecue: “Alam mo.” Sinusundan ng tingin ang kanya.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Slight Arch: ‘yang bagay na ‘yan. when you . Ngunit. sa isipan: “Baka pinulutan ng mga ulo? All along. Relativity was that it enables you to act: madikit ang titig ng lahat sa Kotse. was splendid. na mararatnan ko na naman ang ganoon. the few dreams that I remember from kanina. decadent family.” Spells from which I could wake up: dextrose. ((mga associates ko sa kompanya)) You were only interested in unifying things. puwera na lang kung pera. I pretended. sa sandali pa lamang. bumaba siya.” Mga batang nagbibisikleta.saglit na hinawi.” Napagpasyahan niyang dumaan ((ano’ng sabi)) sa pagsusulit na ito.)) of your huge. ((alam mo ‘yon)) Ricky?” “Tanginang aso? Always there as me. our life in particular: “Einstein has more than high blood.sa paglalaro ng basketball . ng Ospital.
Dad? Understanding. used his other hand to fish out that absent her ear. e. Wait till you hear of the stuff.” And: “Dad. for example. then she quitted that Shore that was. this made me. basta one of my favorites is finally giving in bago siya lumampas sa edad. Rine. so I thought maybe she was some face. able. i-enhance at i-maximize ang complicated formula:’ Isang pagsusulit para sa bawat issues. “O. Rine. Maaari siyang tumigil sa anuman. however. not to mention.” 45 .” O. “You should name him soon. She was dressed like she her house. “Bah. ‘Smash against the wall. that sounds strange. Continue to approach.’ And natapos ang test at eighteen. One would make the oddments easier to forward before the cement fixes you dry. new. you with menacing. What she heard was a voice similar to those not come to the Shore with the Sun. Sometimes the fingers fell by the water. watched a movie. of age limit ng Sistema four years ago. Anumang araw na gusto niya. She was wear that seemed soft to touch. Just in case I don’t make it: “Dad: you’ll remain because I was locked in. aching. awkward.” I would feel my pee freezing in mid-stream. But if by slim chance that she could and that we knew each other. She remembered how it used to wind. When he realised this. at tatawa ako kung kelan ko gusto. shouldn’t she? Perhaps she was a regular moviegoer and that was in front of me. Might pull. it or the whole course of finely shattering. and now was no hemming or hawing. ito yata ang best seat: ako. much like to think of it. E Hair fell freely to her chest. arms of the water drew her back. You were being trained for the test my pale body answers. How many seats were there? I believe. Unmindful. She sat on a chair right in front of me. She stayed a while longer in the Night. There. Pared to wave upon furious wave of her hair.” And for some reason.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David “‘Isa. highly hypothetical: paano nga kung I was always fearful of you?” “Then I guess you’ll have no future.
kailangan handa na siya ngayong kunin ang kanyang Salita.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Perhaps. At dumulas pababa ang salamin. Ang Plastic pupuksain ng Ulan ang Apoy ni Ricky.. Sa loob ng banyo. isang lalaki sa Ateneo. Pero Si Rex. siya sa limang iba’t ibang Wika. ((sa isang pitik)) Si Rex ang may-ari ng round ng trio niyang Blue Note. may sariling babae sa Miriam. You Knew All Along. Our Sky ((nagdagdag naman daw sila)) what was meant for you. 46 . salubong ang usiserang si Aling Delay na sasaksakin ng Palaso sa dibdib ang babaliin ng Agila ang Palaso. Ang Leon hihigupin ng Plastic Straw ang tutunawin ng Apoy. wala pa ring pahiwatig. Then again. Perhaps. Kung hindi niya natapos. “Saan lang ang kaibigan niya? Imbento ko?” Pinagmasdan ang tamad na kisame. Your first Eve is the Moon and the Tides dancing underneath. The Stars are dead. Ang Daga kakainin ng Langgam ang Ipis mamamatay ang Ipis. Kapag nahuhuli sila ni Rex na nagbanyo. Minsan. Naalala niya si Rex. perhaps you knew all along that the Night. We ((ayoko)) that Light failed to bring on time. Isang Lalaki Sa Ateneo To you who are: read this. That When the Sun forces the eyelids to open ((. trenta . Siya pinakamahusay. Iyon na lubos na ang trapik at maagang narating ni Ricky ang bumusina paghinto sa bukana ng hudyatan ng kanyang pagdating. beloved. minsan ilang minuto lang.trenta’y dos. that. sila ng mga Tauhan sa Dingding: lalapangin ng Leon ang mamang aapakan ng Elepante. dalawang taon lang ang agwat.. you knew all along.I pity her there. ang tungkol doon: kailangan niyang hologram na maibibigay sa kanya ng hitsura ng kanyang virtual examiner. Hindi niya man sinisilip ang mga taga-bangko. Pero si Rex. too. lalo na nang una sa pamilya nila. Napasandal ng lakas. May Sariling Babae Sa Miriam. Ang kahabaan ng Matiwasay Avenue. ((ano’ng sabi)) Just another . hindi namamalay magkapatid na magkalaban nga pala sila. Pangalan iyon.)) the Night is almost over. Panaginip sa Siyam ang naengkuwentrong ganoong Salita? Una. Ngangatain ng Dad ang Agila dadaganan ng Ipis. na nakaperform na batikang gitaristang si Bernard Soler. Wala. tatlo at nakauunawa ng apat na iba pa. pagkatapos. Will ((gusto mo ng dinuguan)) creatures Men disown at the hint of ((yun ang sabi niya)) one’s Imagination when the Sky changes ((hindi)) that well.
Light is. manyak ‘to at sinusundan na ako. “Nabalita kanina?” “Pasok ka sandali. and a name for each. ala-una ng madaling-araw: “Sweet Love: it’s the only thing sa disenyo ng mga Japanese. But we are real. There will be others. Be Cause Will just be passing. a figment of Phase. puwede niyang kunin sa same girl at the Theatre: “Matapos ang pitong pagsusulit. Matapos? Dad: last year. Dad: just like all of us. then. ng kanyang intelligences? Occupied the next table had left.” bati nito. Pero five years ago. Three years ago.” Nagmasid si Ricky sa paligid. You have to go back to waiting. Ricky. Perhaps it was only me who wished at all. It is time to go. all of a sudden. kaya naman sikat siya. ang pumapainlang sa usok mula sa hardin na namang barbecue party. Dad: paano kung hindi kanina sa Sinehan? Ano ba naman ‘yun? Wala pang lumalampas? Naman! Siya? At kahit magsisisigaw ako. and until another. Kapag may handaan. Me “Any mechanical word play: your own monster. Was just a dance of many dead lights. upang matanawan. She also seemed to be the type. Dad? Dad was pretty.” balik ni Ricky. She Also Seemed To Be The Type Ang Bahista.” “Da. alright. tangible. Ano ba’to? Destiny? Sa isang tao ang trabaho lang ng bawat god.” Remaining. me. And while I’m at it. More of us to come: inadequate. Si Manong.” Sistema: ang bawat trainor kumain sa Jollibee. Recognize. mama sa bahay na ito kasama ang kanyang Manong. Two years ago. Ang gate. definitely the kind of girl in elementary school. We become. Stars Should Be Taken For Granted. Been wishing all along on inanimate gases. and try to walk home. kung ako ang una? Dad: highly kasalukuyang nagre-rescue ng isang fourteen years.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Remaining. you should stay in that spot. at dumungaw ang isang may edad: “O. 47 . nang paatras. Bawat isa. I was merely an illusion created by it. Si Ricky Siya.” Punto ng Pagsusulit: basta kailangan niya her.” “Farewell. and a few. “Manong. way I had imagined she may not be. ang ihawan at ang nakaramdam ng pagkalam ng tiyan? Si Ricky. be cause. Stars should be taken for granted. I’m sure she knows.
watching lonely views brave his arm. aren’t warm.” Tumpok ng semilya ang kanyang nilagay. from kanyang sasakyan ang mga kalalakihan. Ang palatandaan: kapag the one you create when your sigh mists ginalaw. lunday sa Laot. draped around honey. They are told by a regular: “A fade is enough to raise their spirits. Open any book which has my work. Tell him our landlady is a cool sort. Umpisa Na Pala Not long after I had become grupo ni Inggo na puspos sa pawis.. ay kusang magsasara.” Laura. Ang may-ari niyon. baka. ay teka. Feet away sat a girl whom may right brain. you know who. Basta’t kinabisa nya na lang kung saan from behind the book cover.” Mga dalawang metro ang layo noon sa kanyang baklad. and asks us. which you know you will. which of us sit on the step in front of the night? One boy with a beer buzz will get in trouble for going home so late.. The Drummer.” “Alin dito?” “Kahit ano!” 48 . The whole bar. putsa. I. “Hmmm. maibebenta on your blouse. di nakausli ang kanyang ginamit. your piniling pwesto. The promise to take us out for coffee soon breaking your spirit to pieces. both take long drags. dahil it had become apparent. But most of the time. kilalang-kilala rin. Sobra lang ang mga iyon. are getting comfortable. With each I’ve been lumped with seems every bit as antisocial as me. Oh. in your head agad ito. Night. take us home in a dilapidated van with Chris. The Promise To Take Us Out For Coffee Soon Breaking Your Spirit To Pieces Laura’s friends don’t win. Then around five movie trailers followed. nakisabay na lang pauwi ang quiet of your mind. para maidaan sa kanyang below the Rim Of The Veils. “World. at the blue neon cross of the University.” anya na lang na gagawa sya. Sinamantala iyun ni Intoy: “I can be that one and I will torture you. The Drummer mumbles “goodbye”. kasi nga. di tulad ng iba. that couple of advertisement: one. discretely holding hands with the couples.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David The Drummer Mumbles Goodbye Close: but as we are disgorged into the Rock Star that they are promising. staring the distance. we. Tumpok Ng Semilya Ang Kanyang Nilagay The palm of your hand: your Mother or sa lunday at babalikan sya ng amo gamit more issues with. “Is just exactly the trigger I am waiting for. a tall guy with a bowl.
nang harap-harapan. Tuloy ang Tatay ko . “Isa nga. “Who’s that?” “You can’t see him?” I asked. kung manyak siya. After a Sea was crossed. magkagulo kung master sa lugar na palasak. in her late twenties or earlier. ‘neath the Bare Sun. “Yeah. 49 . at basketball: dakmain niya ang dede ko. gawing Taya: parang gusto walang makakarinig except si Stephen. she was lifted.nung nasa Fire ako. Always: she forgot. then that. Her long wavy weren’t for Mr. glanced at Vinnie’s direction. she came to. just when the movie had ang kanyang sarili: “Mga gago” bulong niya.” We Walked Around The Garden. she looked. never before. ((she’s rustling)) No matter the depth and expanse. whenever moved. Don’t mind him.” “Oho. Umpisa na pala. “Miss. Without A Susurrant Breath Understand the eyes. Sala-salabat na ang mga kawad. nakakatawa ba ‘to? Moro-moro. Just Telling Her About The Dream I Had The main building towered above everything. Breeze struck it gently and I felt it scatter in the middle of the garden. I walked up to MaJoy and we gave. his that she was.” Sa baba ng lahat.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Bawal rin ang mga lalaking ito noong musmos. There. Ganun. Then.” Ito. Under the light. He’s white and about six. patintero. except that free-flowing Contract: it was merely the impression I got. did not understand and had no way. she was certain: somewhere contained this Fair Bloom.released many sounds into the Same Old Scene. just telling her about the dream I had.” “Arrrgh. One day. nothing more than together . Almost like a dream. so clean of salt. “Putcha. nanantsing. We. football.” We walked around the garden. I’d say she’d been thinnest all her Suns. Seas crossed and she returned the Nymph.
he did a chocolate wrapper. recently.”. kuting! Kuting! Kuting!” 50 . He stopped. The Nymph stayed until the Sun set: “So maybe we are building a Coven. the sounds came)) kung ilang araw ang palilipasin bago that Greater Sea Without Time. without a Susurrant Breath. During those Last Whispers. Or the Heaps Of Tickle. we told our Mother how sometimes it took us just one sway of the cocoa. locked in maroon seashells. if she is free. charged with intent. Tawanan ang mga Doray Langaw. that Dreamer who impressed Memory. Narinig nya ang tawanan: “Yaaah! Si Intoy Kuting. he was fond of whispering now. We. They came to her: nakaupo sa isang baitang ng Fire. and “Morning!”.only the Oceans know if she is alive. Wala na styrofoam at plehe ang mga iyon. Pinagdedebatehan daw ng Tunay. that drew the Sands and Waves into a Dark Contract with the Soul.”. from one vast nowhere to another: ((yes. Sa gulang na lima natuto na sya palabas ng pantalan. kasi ‘andun ang lehitimong pamilya ng Tatay. like beached dolphins ultimately overcome through our nostrils. too. those Curious Streams. Then. “Somehow. at times abrupt. Always: until the moment when she heard entire archipelagos of sighs . Puro ang gumawa ng lahat ng iyon. Natutunan lang. I haven’t one. Yes. there are fresher sheets!” and “Yes. ((shore was a depthless line)) Age: it strengthens the Incantations. from a friend: a paper napkin from a restaurant.for the Nanay na hindi naman nakakaintindi .Virus/Antivirus by Adam David At sino namang makakaisip? Saw herself as the Landlocked Dream Without Comprehension. half torn. Kuting! Kuting! Kuting! Ang semilya kapos sa Kawayan. “Oddments are strange.” Yaaah! Si Intoy Kuting. Limping. Earlier. and moved very little ((mere ripples draw her)). I had another six-year-old sibling. Made her happy. Formalin three months after. Sa pamamagitan ng pagsama-sama. Oh yes. That. smelling the Sea from where she sat. I was ten back before she noticed his Hand. aahon at kung anu-ano pang trabahong isa na sya sa batikan sa larangan para makapagtanim ng malakihan.
just talking.ihawan . Why? Helpless to resist. you gotta really know! Yes. Siguro nagsawa na rin sa company. Time. Make a poem you’d want to wear to bed. You can . ~ Sorry . wow. kidding! Shake you! Oh. Am there and I will be willing. yes. you!” ~ Up from bed. kasi nakaramdam ng pagkalam ng inside. To compensate hard. Sa isip ko. Just talking: what do you call that tiyan? R~. the one you like coming back to where you from. to compensate. It’s relative depending on who.that’s nothing! For my anak. we eat you into a corner to plead for calm disappearing. bahay. Understand where you’re from. so startling. the one coming.your question. ~ “R~! Pasok ka! Understand? R~. go ahead. nothing apprehensive. Nung sa lolo ko.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David My Name Is Thoughts of the girl next door. such dreams I had! Same. pare.’ yes. scoffed my imaginations. And what’s your question? ~ Dreams were made. love me for being pale. all movement longed for. What do you call that? Nervously and seeming deep waters have found you . yes. would last for years! Nagdecide kaming maghanap. kapag may handaan . your pain. Philippines. You were concerned than really possible.but in my mind.no! We can! . and hinahanap niya. Why? Napakatemporary.make questions! Hell. Ang nasa isip. understand. you thought . mahal. so we come out. understand the Black. kaya ko. and blinded only with rain again. It makes a minor fraction on things not tangible: our melodrama you would have neatly tucked behind pale ears. You rock hard.just kidding! What do you call that? What do you know? You know that? That’s nothing! What’s your question? ~ Until only oceans will have you. Love with a grin. I never thought why we understand. We understand that opening once. pare. stormed out (how she reacted): “Limang taon na pala kami. I am the one coming so ‘entertain any illusion. same.” ~ Skin. Light. like there ever existed in their shifting feet. lolo ko. constantly try to compensate. sorry . 51 . yes. your state.
She felt her hair stand on assignment. the Visitor peeping may been expecting every foundation even before I got to his mind and the bravest one jumped. That’s nothing! Smaller countries compensate. we were cold. gaping. gadangkal ang libro.recoiled back away into the sky! I looked. Man was pasok nang pasok.” Wow! You remember well. really? ~ You like kasama ang kanyang manong kaya to eat. bigyan ko kaya siya ng rock hard penis? Problema. I swear one of my boarders said he has the floor. yayayain ko siya.slightly stumbling unwarranted connection with sister. mukhang gross shit. Maybe that is why C~ shrugged her shoulders. almost ran over to the bathroom late at night. ‘shirley-shirley’ na lang. What’s your question. Wouldn’t want what’s easy. Happened for years.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ In cold countries. You know. Make ours and you eat! Dumungaw ang isang may edad. to try to put lines. oras lang ako dito. alone at one with the Duck. paid her a visit. drained. mumbled. Their rooms were on the second of resistance! The door to her home . bati nito: “Manong. At around ten. How could a boy sense these? He went past her mid-air. It has. Woke up from a deep slumber. you compensate naman. Always lead to disaster! It is an extra blood pressure! I didn’t see no reason that they were always impossible because when she abruptly screamed he struggled at that nurse. shrinking and shrinking. He ran! Sudden black leather shoes came down! They have high-piercing scream! From fright. No barbecue in cold countries. that gross shit R~. masaya. Why do you eat that? Kidding! Kasi we understand. and another remained in the room. ~ Would not materialize in front since I ran out of him. provide some privacy. we can make penoypenis somewhere. Her dizzy flowed down the illumination. like that didn’t bother or scare her. “Go go go!” he shouted. into my room. really. ~ One of the Dark Business Suit Demons cover my attempt to contact Building Class throughout the city. intersecting his face. ~ 52 . Bleeding tiny Shanty Town Knowledge. she quickly . yes. She shrinks. it’s what we have. in bed is a bomb. with their faces pale. Should be sent to such proportions. When he was downstairs. to light their room. ~ Night. from what I could make out. She didn’t mind sister. Laughing. Gusto mo balut? Wala. on to this wind. send them rushing from what I’ve observed was the living room.with their foundations . all the time.
with other went abroad for better jobs. The final hours of my hollow plagued with misery. cheeks. glittering passion in his voice. I am in black. try from a book: I had twelve boarders. hindi naririnig . malakas! An occasional couple sauntered by. with life a hollow shell. ~ On Sunday morning a foolish restlessness he knew so well in his boyhood on the hill that J~ enjoyed drawing accompany her now. ~ The trouble with being young. Would have nightmares. seen standing. Was recognized as a covert attack.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Her legs crossed on time. Because of certain matters. Was absentminded. Soon. started ooze underneath. pakiramdam parang bibig na ah! .nakanganga. trying to make his way. welcomed by a Voice that me and fortunato can see kneeling. I was wrong to let myself permeate.first place. I told them that a friend of mine suddenly got sharp stabbing pain.as if a brick . They were wary how someone intense work the skin. will have a chance. we . Myself. Nakahubad si T~ kaya ngayon ay bumabawi siya. ~ Walang nangyari siguro dahil nakahiga na. untruthful. there’s a bastard . but it seems several powerful purpose. oh. I summoned the Shapeless Room: her head. He turned something in my back.tried to cut them off while uttering something - ~ Motorcycles have their screams. Had gone back in Time to their Forebears. casual.already couldn’t agree upon sins against the Gods. pale. and a little could explain. strange spirits. right here”: sometimes I go with that. ah! Dim light issuing forlornly through singit. Seem ill. their prayered souls of gunned engine bestowed. was not unhappy. Had not waited.woman fiercely staring at them. Believe . I was stupid to . Kahit hindi kumukumpas. streaming from momentum I was wrong to destroy. I felt blood. ~ She dropped the topic fast to sun dry piles. almost. a crisscross tangled scent. ~ My name is.voices na halos tumirik! 53 . “come here. reverted to the studded. How peaceful the town was. and some had to move. passing by. and behind this daemonic nature.paano’y ungol at halinghing from a distance! The shrill . the guy. loud. Things happened to them that they could not understand. Some people at the top of What Was swept past the End Of My Existence. eager to go.
was undisturbed. kanyang puke nakapikit. pagkatapos pababa nang pababa ang kiliti. unending. She has tamod nito. matigas na matigas. He saw her start . giving something which is not what people will say? “Compliment her”. If pakiramdam niya’y he were engaged. trying to keep from expecting him. Could not distinguish husbands. strange. Matagal na rin dahil kahit ang kanyang daliri sa kanyang hita. sense of incompleteness. Emotions broadened. Unti-unti. lady of perhaps some. at masuyong nagtatakda ng galaw. para siyang binasa. dala ng kanyang kalooban. like a huge jewel. ~ Out of the church. Taasbabang nginasab. above voices of the choir. dahandahan. Don’t you speak out frankly. The sunlight lay on leaves. gold around green. Para silang injured. dahandahan. suggesting potentialities of the acrid smell of burning. And bawat titi ng balakang at the windows. ramdam niya. how paninigas ng kanya. steeped in incense. She was. looban nito eksakto. The town heartbeat fast. something unforgettable. Always the dusk of evening glinting behind her. Ibinuka niya. walang lumalabas. ligaya at libog sa kanya. realized that for several days his points were again on display.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David ~ C~. vibrant. pinapagapang ang kanyang balat. you said in a pretty pitying sadness. Kailan ba siya kailangan from the church? Uncoiled. was a simply-ordered feeling: stranger to a woman of painful constraint. the warm quiet March hours interrupted. Leaving. He suddenly broke up those lines. regulate feeling well. take time off. simply cool. ang panggigigil niya. mean irrelevant want. The length of the katawan ng titi. gusto niya itong gagawin nila . Ang bibig. untutored. dressed with characteristic formal habitual lonesomeness. Her sorrows ugly. went down. He said “good evening” and then justified to fell that half-lie. If he finally brought out. she continued: oil hanggang kalahating kutsara. individual. angry. suddenly destroyed the illusion indirectly. ~ A~? Been indifferent to me lately. almost measured. pagkatapos ng hugot-baon hugot-baon. reinforcing life. kaloob na ang hatid ay ibayong kiliti sa rurok.vivid surprise! Mabilis niyang natanggal: man was there to meet. Katawan nito. self-consciously long. hindi mapigil ni S~. ~ S~. Ang titi sa kanya. A~ asked. ~ Rose lazily. he had stiffened. quietly pacing behind. with her unmatched love.quietly as they turned back hinalikan siya. 54 . G~. V~ went straight home after.
a word fragmented to create two new words. The pieces chosen were generally English-language works. specifically from 1925 and 2007. creating awkwardly-shaped scrolls/codices. Also: to write a book already written. The sections were then shuffled thoroughly and kept inside an empty fishbowl. a few tenses revised. etc) and retyped. and in parts. a gender altered. Each page was photocopied and cut into small sections. The goal is to generate/divine new/inherent narratives from the manual manipulation (cut-and-tape) of already-existing texts (page selections) found from pre-existing sources (short story anthologies). Sections were then fished out of the bowl one-by-one. The assembled text was then minorly-edited (not more than two new words per sentence.Virus/Antivirus by Adam David Notes On These Pages Virus/Antivirus is a collection of text pieces assembled through applications of the Burroughs/Gysin FoldIn/Cut-Up Method using page selections from either single text pieces or from a number of text pieces from various short story collections. albeit with the words jumbled up. and then taped together in random sequence with the text face down. 55 .
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