Esquire

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THE ONLY TIME I HELD A HANDGUN WAS AROUND MIDNIGHT ON September 5, 2004. A day earlier, one of my best friends, Brett Harman, had been murdered—shot dead by two brothers in a parking lot alongside another dear friend, Kevin McCann, at a tailgate in N

Don’t stop now—it keeps going on Esquire.com. HANGOVERS GET A BAD RAP. WE KNOW. IF YOU’VE GOTTEN THIS FAR IN the magazine, you’ve surely divined that we’re mildly hungover most of thetime. Peopletsk-tsk this. There is talk of us poisoning ourselves.