I can't rate this right now as my emotions are all over the place.
You told me once, dear, you really loved me
And no one else could come between.
But now you’ve left me and love another;
You have shattered all my dreams."
...neither am I sure where to start on my review, so first things first: this isn't a book I'd recommend - not because it was bad but because it talks about topics that not everyone can deal with.
The first sentence will hook you immediately. After reading that first sentence my mind immediately started working out several ways for this story to play out. I was very tense throughout the whole book, waiting for the worst of the worst to happen - At this point I won't tell you if the worst of the worst happened, you'll have to find out yourself (or read another review :P).
I always question myself why I read this kind of books and then this happens:
some chapters had me literally holding my breath as my eyes flew over the pages to read faster,
some chapters put me into a murderous rage,
some chapters put a small smile on my face,
some chapters made me cry,
some chapters filled me with such a sense of dread that I haven't experienced in a book very often,
some chapters overwhelmed me with compassion and pity,
some chapters and the opening quote of this review broke me,
but then there's the last chapter and sadness mixed with melanchony, as well as a strange sort of pride and hope.
And then I know again why I read this, because the emotions are so close to the surface and always on the brink of overflowing, you have no other choice but to feel, no matter what it is that you feel.
I was so mad for their lullaby that dragged throughout the whole book, but in the end I can't be mad because it prepared me for what was to happen even if I didn't want to acknowledge it (That probably sounds cryptic to you now, but I promise you'll understand in the second last chapter at latest). Just thinking about it brings another round of tears.
On one hand, I wish that I could've read some chapters in James's POV but on the other hand, I think that reading in his POV would've utterly destroyed me, so I can't really decide if it's a small blessing or not that I didn't get to see the story through his eyes.
Finishing my review, I've come to the conclusion that this book deserves 5 stars alone for evoking all of the emotions listed above. People will hate this book, people will love it, people will be disgusted but they WILL feel and that always deserves a full star review in my eyes.
P.S.: I won't elaborate on all the things morally wrong with some characters in this book but I will say that no child should ever have think some of the thoughts mentioned in this book and my heart broke into pieces, knowing that some children think these thoughts.