Feelings By sania Born 1997, F, from andra pradesh/hyderabad, India Feelings It was a early morning, around 5 am, a girl

of 10 years woke up from her sleep, she went to her balcony to watch the rising sun. that rising sun was a hope in h er life to give her strength to come out through her shell of shadows. she watch ed it for hours. then slowly she drifted to sleep on a near by sofa. she dream't the most significant quality about her. she was quite mature for her age becaus e she had seen many phases in her life, though she was just 10, but she had a ma turity to seek the world. she was sharp, introverted, quite sensitive, unpredict able for others. she was a silent watcher, she hardly talked to others, she was as simple as a book, which is filled with numerous words and letters but never s aid or explained. After half an hour she woke up and saw that the sun was hidden behind clouds. su ddenly it started raining heavily, everyone ran in their homes but that girl was watching the most peculiar sight. she went inside her room and locked it..the r oom was dark, quiet, gloomy, devastated. she sat on the floor and weep-ed her he art out. The tears were rolling down her brown eyes, her cheeks were red, her ey es were red. slowly she dozed off on the floor. she dream't a small gal of six y ears was abused, her dreams were broken, her life was stopped for a second, she was going inside a black pit, she shouted for help, but no use, she was going in and in, her life was shattered into pieces. no one knew what she was suffering. With a jerk she got up and looked around, she was completely sweating, her hear t beat was not in control..it took a few minutes to settle her heart on right pl ace. she consoled herself by saying "it's just a nightmare". She was a person wh o never shared anything to anyone, not a single emotion. She was alone and lonel iness was her best friend, till today her best friend is her loneliness. she car ed for everyone even though people hurt her, people don't understand her nature. at times she used to criticize her self for her mistakes, she was the most unfo rtunate person in the whole world, but she never gave up, she used to take every thing in positive manner, she was a true fighter, many people ditched her friend ship, but she never took a revenge, she knew if she did the same thing like othe rs god will turn himself away from her, she can't lose her god. She again went t o her balcony to see the setting sun, she looked at the sky, the sky was filled with stars, a smile appeared on her face as well as a tear. she said, "how much i suffer is just a beginning of life, i will suffer how much pain i get, i will never show my feelings to anyone, this world is disgusting, these people r fake, but god i never did any harm to anyone, but still i deserve pain, i deserve hat red, why i m not loved in equal way, why i m being used as a toy, why my life ta ught me so much which i never want to learn, why...why?" ...she banged her fist on the wall and let out a loud moan which is filled with lack of love...she went inside the room and dozed off with lot of sadness and pain which she never shar ed...From that day onwards she stopped living in a dream world and started to fa ce the real world.. This gal was the reason of happiness for others, an inspiration for weaker peopl e, though she is the most unlucky gal, but no one knows her past and her sufferi ngs.....