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NORTHWEST
ARKANSAS
VAMPIRES
OF
NORTHWEST
ARKANSAS
Richard
Grayson
Art Pants Company –New
York
ISBN #
First Edition
10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1
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“Shouldn’t we have
flashlights?” I asked her as we
made our way through the trees.
“I can’t see a thing.”
Cindy screamed. So I
screamed. She knew it was a bat
right away. It got her just above
her nose.
I couldn’t concentrate in my
next class, which was English.
For one thing, we were going over
a sonnet by Shakespeare, and
that language is hard enough to
get through even when you’re not
consumed with anger and
excitement and not sure who you
were angry at and what you were
excited about. So after “Let me
not to the marriage of true minds
admit impediments,” I was totally
lost in my own thoughts. I even
imagined I heard the teacher say
the word gay when he was talking
about the poem.
My great-grandfather died
before I was born, but when I was
growing up, my great-
grandmother had the apartment
on the top floor, my grandparents
had the one on the third floor,
and Mom and Dad and Ralph and
I were on the lower two floors. It
was a tight fit, but the house was
ours. It’s still ours – mine. Ralph
got the beach house in
Greenport, which was fine with
both of us, because his wife loves
her beach, and when Mom and
Dad were alive, Marilyn got used
to having her summer rental
without paying Hamptons prices.
So I got Brooklyn. Probably the
brownstone (I still don’t like to
call it “my house”) is worth more
on the open market than the
Greenport house, but Ralph
doesn’t say a word. He’s a real
estate lawyer, and Marilyn’s a
lawyer, too, and though they’re in
the middle of putting the kids
through college, they’re only
paying SUNY tuition. Their oldest,
my niece Nikki, is graduating
Binghamton this spring with a
useless major in English and
when she comes back to the city,
they’ll have to support her for a
while. Still, Ralph and Marilyn
have enough for their timeshare
in St. Maarten and the boat and
God knows what else.
My great-grandmother used
to look out and say “Che bella!”
or something similar. (I regret
that I don’t really know any
Italian.) She lived to see them
going up. Myself, I thought they
were monstrous. But like a lot of
monstrous things, you get fond of
them if they hang around long
enough.
Eventually I’ll get used to
their absence. The skyline looks
better without them.
Another of my fuckbuddies,
a highly intelligent
drag queen, said Avi probably
preferred “not to feel completely
naked – some men are like that.”
University Cinema 4
This four-screen theater, in a
small strip shopping center at the
corner of Pines Boulevard and
University Drive, was where Mom
and Dad took us to see Kramer
vs. Kramer one night during
Christmas vacation in 1979. Our
family had just moved to Broward
County the month before.
Broward Mall 4
This four-screen theater,
which was 14,000 square feet on
3.6 acres, opened in 1978, the
same year as the Broward Mall
across the street from it.
Inverrary Five
Pembroke Pines 8
Multi-screen suburban
shopping-center theaters built in
the 1970s and 1980s are not
considered Lost Treasures, and I
can understand why. They
weren’t handsome or imposing or
well-built or historically
significant.
He stretched, making
himself impossibly longer.
"What do you need
chocolate for when you have
me?"
"You're disgusting," I
told him.
"Disgusting?" He
blinked, scratched his chest
-- I liked the stubble that
resulted from his forgetting
his last appointment to get it
waxed -- and propped
himself up on two pillows.
Either he didn't understand
or was pretending not to
understand.
Feelings
Finishing my cereal,
staring at the cartoon toucan
on the box -- what was his
name? -- I think about the
Double Chocolate Fat-Free
Frozen Yogurt I bought at
Safeway. I eat two four-
ounce servings of it (80
calories each, no fat grams)
every afternoon. I know, I
know -- I'm cuckoo.
Supposedly Du Bois
went to Ghana to write an
Encyclopedia Africana. But
maybe he really went
because Ghana produces so
much cocoa. Ghana
produced 324 thousand tons
of it last year, down sharply
from the year before.
Afternoon Delight
Second-place Ghana's
production was dwarfed by
the leader, Ivory Coast, with
well over a million tons last
year, more than three times
the amount of cocoa Ghana
farmed. But a new species
of black pod disease -- a
cousin of the potato blight
that depopulated Ireland --
has evolved and spread to
the Ivory Coast border. This
disease is now sitting on the
frontier, where a million tons
of cocoa a year is under
threat.
No response, so I tell
him, "Your ancestors might
have come from there. You
really should know about it."
I am shocked. He
expects us to still be
together in March 1999.
"See, I do listen to
what you're saying," Terence
tells me. "I think about you
all day, baby," he says in a
silky-smooth voice. Even the
cell phone can't conceal
that.
Kung Fu Fighting
He thought people on
welfare were lazy. I thought
he was crazy and didn't
know about poor people's
problems. Like the way he
talked about people in
Baltimore's ghetto: "They're
so stupid they've never been
north of North Avenue."
Easy to say if you grew up in
suburban Owings Mills, with
professional, upper-middle-
class parents.
I grew up in Brooklyn,
not in the greatest of
neighborhoods. When I did
something Terence thought
vulgar, like cursing, he would
say disdainfully: "That's so
Brooklyn."
Muskrat Love
My mother was 17
and working as a waitress
after school at a 5 & 10 cent
store in Flatbush when my
father and a few of his
friends came in for
eggcreams. My father, like
Terence, was very
handsome, and my mother
was very attracted to him.
However, after drinking his
eggcream and making very
little conversation, Dad left
with his friends, leaving Mom
to think he was not
interested in her.
Working on my paper,
I think about all the recent
arguments Terence and I
have had. We both love to
argue. Early on in our
relationship we had this
incredible debate about the
doctrine of
transubstantiation. Although
he was raised Catholic,
Terence didn't believe me
when I said the Eucharist
was supposed to be the
actual body and blood of
Christ. It's a symbol, he told
me. No, it's not a symbol, I
screamed at him, don't you
know anything about
Catholicism? We kept
arguing until the point where
I got so mad -- I should be
ashamed to admit this -- that
I went over to the sofa
where he was sitting and I
sort of punched him. Not
hard, but in the shoulder,
and before I knew it, we
were having a
fistfight/wrestling match in
my living room over the
nature of communion.
He got on top of me
and held my arms above my
head and wouldn't let them
go. I kept trying to force my
arms up, but I couldn't
budge. He was on top of
me, looking triumphant --
which was sort of nice, since
I'd been on top all the times
we'd been together. That's
how I discovered I like what
Terence calls "light
bondage."
In hopes of increasing
cocoa production, some
farmers in Malaysia have
planted hundreds of acres of
trees on cleared rain forest
land. But the trees, bereft of
shade from taller trees,
appear to be far more
vulnerable to pests and
fungal diseases like one
called witches'-broom.
"Suit yourself," he
says. Is he getting bored
with me?
We're so totally
different. Sometimes I think:
I'm with this guy whose
whole life is the superficial
world of fashion and beauty,
who hangs out with rich
people all day, whose only
anger at the oppression in
our society occurs when he's
stopped by the police for
driving his Lexus in his own
very ritzy neighborhood
because they can't imagine
what a black man is doing
there. Otherwise Terence is
practically a Republican.
Terence looks at me
across the table. He sighs.
"Maybe you're right about
the futures market," he says.
"I mean, if scientists can
send a robot to Mars, they
can probably take care of
this chocolate shortage."
His grandfather's
dying there was what made
Terence ask me along on the
visit, I'm almost certain. He
didn't want to sleep in that
bedroom alone, not in the
bed where his grandfather
died.
There is an emerging
consensus that he future of
cocoa beans lies with small
farmers on more shaded,
forested, intensively-tended
land. The big plantations
that produce large yields of
pods in the first few years
can't sustain them because
the cost of maintaining those
endless fields soon becomes
prohibitive. That's because
if there's a disease, it runs
rampant across a much
larger acreage than in a
small-farm situation, where
one farmer may have a
problem but it doesn't leap
to the next farm.
In downtown Hershey
the street lights are shaped
like Kisses.
At a souvenir shop I
buy Terence a Hershey
teddy bear. It's not Fluffy,
but it's fluffy, and mostly
brown. The bear's stomach
is white, like mine.
The Hershey Bears
used to be a National
Hockey League franchise.
But chocolate is
forever. It has to be.
MYSTERIES OF RANGE
MANAGEMENT
"Rodeo accident,"
Betty will say and then stare
down at her glass of beer.
Betty's car crash could
be considered a rodeo
accident only in the sense
that that afternoon she'd
attended the rodeo in which
her brother performed. But
the car crash happened late
at night and was the result
of her being young and wild
and drunk and out of her
mind on crystal meth, which
is real big among Wyoming
teenagers.
A selective serotonin
reuptake inhibitor did --
somewhat.
"You're admiring my
enemies," Brant told me.
We went to bed
together for the first time
after he told me about leafy
spurge. It was okay.
The branding:
It seems as if nothing
will ever happen.
(Head is a
synecdoche, standing for all
of the animal).
"-- a vegetarian."
Betty laughs. "We'll
have to see if there's some
tempeh calf fries we can fix
up for you," she says, as
Brant and I go back to work.
"Modernism is
Picasso, James Joyce," I tell
them. "Modernism
happened a hundred years
ago. It's post-modernism
you guys are fighting against
-- post-modernism!"
I shrug.
What's disgusting to
cattle is delightful to sheep.
Producers interested in
sheep production may find
them of value in controlling
but not eliminating leafy
spurge. Extra fencing of
leafy spurge patches may be
required to assure intense
grazing to stop seed
production.
According to the
Sheridan Press, today is
Depression Screening Day at
Northeast Wyoming Mental
Health Services.
It is comforting when
the driver of every car or
truck that passes lifts a hand
to wave at me. There aren't
many of us in Wyoming --
the state is like a small town
with very long, very empty
main street -- so I wave back
at the cars.
At a creek, I stop to
rest and drink some water.
For whatever reason, I feel
calm; I know today is not a
day when I'm going to have
a panic attack.
"You're getting
sagebrush in your veins,"
Brant tells me when I finally
reach the ranch hours later.
He puts my bike in the
pickup and spends the night
with me in town.
At the Sheridan
County Library, I check out
this book called The Gay
Place. The librarian smiles
profusely to show me how
tolerant she is. This is post-
Matthew Shepard.
In addition to insect
predators, disease
organisms which attack
leafy spurge are being
investigated. University of
Wyoming research has
focused on two rust fungi
which attack specific spurge
species. Biological control is
in the experimental stage at
this time.
There's a dispute as to
how to translate their word
for themselves, but the
English signs all call them
Crow. On I-90 you pass a
town called Crow Agency,
which is a pretty creepy
name for a place to live if
you ask me.
Finally we get to
Billings, which unlike
anyplace in Wyoming,
actually resembles a city.
We stay at the Hillside Inn,
on the grounds of St.
Vincent's Hospital. If you're
coming from Wyoming or
North Dakota or other parts
of Montana for a medical
procedure, it's the place to
stay. Betty isn't the only
guest in a wheelchair. Other
people walk around the
motel corridors with canes,
bandages, and portable
oxygen tanks.
Vigilance is necessary to
identify new infestations of
leafy spurge.
So it's Brant and me.
"Aren't you both settling for
half a loaf?" Betty asks.
"Half a loaf?....Slice of
goddam bread, even."
At Albertson's I buy
Wonder Bread sourdough
loaves. They haven't much
taste, but each slice has the
advantage of being only 45
fat-free calories.
I'm reading a
biography of Justice Cardozo
now. The one thing I
remember from my Torts
class was this opinion of
Cardozo's we spent a lot of
time on, Palsgraf v. Long
Island Rail Road. Some
woman got hurt when
something fell on her, and I
don't remember what Justice
Cardozo had to say about it.
- Justice Benjamin N.
Cardozo, 1931
RICHARD GRAYSON is a retired
law school administrator who
lives in Brooklyn and in Apache
Junction, Arizona.