MOTHER MIRROR

A FLASH OF INSIGHT IN A REFLECTION...THE FACE OF MY MOTHER IN AN OPPOSITE...A PA

RALLELISM YET AN ENERGY OF ATTRACTION AS BROWS, CHIN, LIPS, EYES, NOSE , DISPLAY
SOMETHING UNIMAGINED...SOMETHING OF A WOMAN OF COMPLEX PSYCHE STATES ENMESHED I
N BELIEFS AND TENETS OF INERTIA.
A MOMENT OF AFFECT AS 'SHE' LEFT 'WITHIN ME' AND TEMPORARILY 'FORMED' IN A ZONE
'ACROSS' FROM ME...IT OCCURRED IN A PSYCHE RELEASE...A VISUAL ECHO RIGHT BEFORE
MY EYES...SHE WAS IN MY PRESENCE NOT AS A 'PROJECTION' BUT AN 'ENERGY INTERSECTI
ON'...I COULD SEE HER ANGST IN A 'CERTAINTY OF BELIEF' IN A 'FAITH MEDIATION' OF
'TREASURED LOSS'...THE WOUNDS AND RAGES OF HAVING BEEN 'WRONGED'...SOMETHING IN
MY VISION ALTERED AS I SAW MY MOTHER IN A MOTHER MIRROR.
IT WAS IN A GUILTINESS MOMENT THAT WAS 'OUT OF BALANCE'... A STREAMING IN 'EMOTI
ONALITY TIMBRE' OF THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT DID NOT SURVIVE BEYOND A BRIEF BREATH
OF SPRING...THE 'CHILD' THAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN...THE 'CHILD' OF 'SHOCK' THAT DID N
OT SURVIVE...THE CHILD THAT NEVER REALIZED HUMAN...THE 'CHILD' THAT BECAME AN 'I
NVISIBLE FORCE' THAT 'NO ONE' COULD BIRTH OUT OF THE 'NOTHINGNESS'...THE 'INVISI
BLE CHILD' FILLING THE ABSENCE...THE EMPTINESS...THE INVISIBLE CHILD OF BURDEN..
.THE INVISIBLE FORCE IN 'OWNERSHIP' OF HER INNER RIVER OF SORROW...FOR NO ONE CO
ULD SHARE THE SORROW OF THIS 'LOSS'...
THE SEEING INTO THE 'MOTHER MIRROR'...SEEING THE AFFECTS OF THE DEPTHS OF 'POWER
LESSNESS' TO COUNTER THE 'SHAME' AND 'GUILT' OF 'NOT BEING WORTH IT' OR 'NOT BEI
NG GOOD ENOUGH'...FOR SHE SEEMED 'HEART DISHEARTENED' IN HAVING DONE EVERYTHING
IN ACCORD WITH EXPECTANCY AND STILL THE DARKNESS AND DEADNESS OF HER DEPTHS DEFI
NED...
THE COMPENSATORY JOURNEY...THE READJUSTMENTS AND RECRYSTALLIZATIONS TO COUNTER T
HE EXPECTANCY OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH AND IMPERFECT STATES...A SEEKING OUT OF 'WINNIN
G A PRIZE' WITHOUT REALIZING THAT THE GAME WAS DIFFERENT FROM WHAT SHE HAD ORGAN
IZED HERSELF FOR...
IT WAS A BETRAYAL OF SELF AS THE SHOCK DROVE HER TO FLIGHT IN THE VANISHING AWAY
FROM ALL THAT HAD BEEN CONSTRUCTED...A PHOENIX BIRD RISING OUT OF THE ASHES DRA
MA-HOPE THAT A RECONSTITUTION WOULD FACILITATE A COURSE BEYOND THE OLD ORDERING
RUNNING ITS COURSE.
FOR THE 'LOST CHILD' THAT IS HER CREATIVE WITHDRAWAL FROM THE SURFACE...THE DIST
ANCING INTO A 'ROLE' OF SAVANT-PERFECTION AS 'ENDURANCE' OF A 'STATE' OF 'PERFEC
T 'K...THE PERFECT 'K AS IN THE CHINESE SYMBOL OF 'FIRE'...
THE CHILD OF THE MARRY 'K' WAY OF THE ESSENCE OF THE CHINESE CHARACTER OF FIRE..
.FOR THE WILL TO GIVE BIRTH IN BECOMING HOPE OUT OF ASHES... A DRIVE OF A VULNER
ABLE '6TH' SENSING ECHOING INTO THE MARRY 'K' IN THE 'END LETTER' OF THE MAGICK
OF 'PAT TRICK' IN A SAINT CHASE[CHASTE' VIRGINAL] SACRED BELIEF PURITY OF WHO CA
N GET THE KINWEBBED 'SNAKES OUT OF 'IRE' LAND...THE SAINT PATRICK OF ESCAPE FROM
SLAVERY AND 'A' 'L' CO-HAUL ISMS AND 'FIREWATERS OF FORGETTINGS...A REALISM OF
HONESTY TO GUIDE 'THE DEEP SEATED' REARING 'TROUBLES' INTO REDEMPTION...
IT IS THE MOTHER MIRROR DRAMA...THE CONTROL OF OUTCOMES IN THE EROS TRAGEDIES OF
DIONYSIAN BLINDNESS...THE WINE AND VINE IN CRAZE AND CRAVE...THE CUINGS OF THE
SOUNDS OF INERTIA AND ONE AT A TIME AWAKENINGS...THE MOTHER MIRROR OF GENERATING
A PATH BEYOND 'SUGGESTION TRANCEROS' AND DREAM REVERIES...
IT IS IN HER UNCONSCIOUSNESS 'FOSTERING' AS THE GODDESS OF ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE
'SENSAMORA' DEMANDING THE AGGRESSIONS OF PENETRATIONS OF THE 'MAD THUD IN THE M
ESS THIS' YET THWARTING AND PACIFYING THE VERY THING ONE NEEDS AND WANTS...
IT IS THE POWERLESSNESS IN NOT GOOD ENOUGH THAT RESULTS IN 'SUCCESSFUL ORGASM' M
AY NOT BE WHAT IS DESIRED AS THE IMAGE MAKING TO BUTTRESS THE FORTRESSED SELF'
OF MEDIATION REQUIRES THAT 'HIS IRE' BECOME GREATER THAN 'HER ANGER'...
IT IS THE INNER TURMOIL OF 'CONTROL' IN MEDIATION INERTIA THAT FUELS THE WALLING
S OF DENIAL OF HER OWN RIGHT TO THRIVE. IT IS THE PRISON OF THE PSYCHE THAT KEEP
S HER WHERE THE NEEDS AND DEMANDS OF OTHERS BECOME HER SERVITUDE TO THE 'VERSION
OF SELF' SHE IS ABLE TO 'LIVE WITH'...
IT IS 'MOTHER MIRROR' NOT AS THE 'BEAUTY PRINCESS TRAPPED IN THE CASTLE OF THE E
VIL QUEEN' BUT 'MOTHER MIRROR' AS FORTRESSING AGAINST THE 'HEAVY PRESSURES OF MA
INTAINING THE 'MYTHS' OF HERITAGE...THE PRICE OF THE LOSS OF SOUL IN NOT SURREN
DERING TO THE REAL FEELINGS OF WHAT SEEKS TO EMERGE...THE INABILITY TO SURRENDER
TO HER REAL NEEDS...
THE TRAGEDY OF THE 'UNLIVED' MOVES ACROSS THE TEASE AND TEMPTATION TIMES...THE G
LIMPSE OF A MOTHER MIRROR MOMENT OF A DREAM PERMEATES IN ECHOIC DEATH TONES OF '
TAKING LIFE IN LIVING LIFE'...FOR THE INNER HUNGERS AND NEGLECT COMPRESSIONS SQ
UEEZE THE VITALITY OF ONE'S REAL LIFE WITHIN AS WOMB BATTLES... IT IS AVAILABLE
AND UNAVAILABLE AS THE FOETUS DEFINES IN AN IMPOSITION FROM WITHIN...
I SEE IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THE REACTIVITY AGAINST EARLY HARM IN HER INTERIORITY
DISTANCING 'WHERE' NO ONE COULD 'GET TO HER'. THE DEEP 'INNER CHILD' OF NOT FEEL
ING LOVED ENOUGH...
YET, THIS 'INNER CHILD' AS A 'WOMAN-CHILD' WITH A 'WOUNDED WOMB' COULD NOT EASIL
Y FIND A 'PATH' OF 'LABOR' TO CRAWL OUT OF HER OWN 'SPACE'-WOMB...
FOR MEDIATION WAS FORCED ON HER AND HEART WAS NOT THE MEANS TO OBTAIN SUSTENANCE
...THE TYRANNY OF BEING SENT TO A 'ROOM'...'ANOTHER PLACE' WAS 'NOT OF HER OWN C
HOICE'...FOR SHE DID NOT UNDERSTAND THAT SHE WAS 'WOUNDED' IN CROSSCURRENTS AND
WAYS THAT WERE FAR BEYOND THE COMPREHENSION OF HER SOUL.
SO HER JOURNEY OF REDEMPTION LED HER THROUGH MANY MEANS OF 'KNOWING' WHAT WAS 'E
SSENTIAL' UNTIL SHE BECAME STRONG ENOUGH TO ESCAPE FROM ENSLAVEMENT'... SOMEHOW
SHE HAD TO GENERATE THE THE INTENSITY-DENSITY' PRESSURES 'AKIN' TO HER 'ORIGINS'
TO MOVE 'IN A DISTANCING' FROM 'ORIGINS' TO OWN HER OWN SOUL...FOR REAL DESIRE
IS DISTANCE FROM ORIGINS AND AS LONG AS ONE IS ENMESHED IN THE 'DA-MA' DRAMAS ON
E IS NOT IN TRUTH OF URGENCY...
THE MOTHER MIRROR IS A VISUAL ECHO EMBRACING A 'BRAVE HEART' TEMPERING OF 'TRUTH
OF URGENCY' AND A 'YIN NESTING' QUEST FOR ACCEPTANCE AND LOVE...A RESTORATION O
F 'PURITY' AS A RHYTHM TO OWN AN INNER UNTARNISHED SACRED PLACE...IT IS FANTASY
IN A REGRESSION THAT SEEKS TO DENY, FORGET AND ERASE...IT IS ONLY IN BREATHING T
HROUGH THE WOUND OR THE TREASURED LOSS THAT ONE ACTUALLY CLEANSES AND PURIFIES A
ND IS ABLE TO TRULY LIVE AND IF NECESSARY 'FORGIVE'...
THE MOTHER MIRROR CALLS FORTH THE 'NOT GOOD ENOUGH' SENSES IN THE SHAME CONSCIOU
SNESS IN 'SORROWS' AND 'PAIN' OF LABORING RHYTHMS...THE SPLITTINGS WITHIN IN THE
FIBROUS 'CONSTRUCTIONS OF COMPLIANCES'...THE CONFUSIONS AND CONFLICTS OF WHAT I
S ABSENT FROM WHERE IT WORKS BEST...FOR IMPOSITION AND DUTY SUFFOCATE THE REAL
SENSES...FOR 'GOING ALONG' ALTERS THE BIRTHING PROCESS IN A 'POWER SEEKING' AND
CONTROL THAT MAKES UP OR 'COMPENSATES' FOR THE KNOWING OF 'SOMETHING' THAT IS 'N
OT RIGHT'...
THE MOTHER MIRROR DISPLAYS HER SOUL IN EYES OF HEART VULNERABILITY...IT IS HOW F
AR ONE MUST GO TO ENCOUNTER THE 'INNER CHILD' HIDING IN THE DEPTHS...THE ZONE OF
VIGILANCE AND POWER SEEKING TO COUNTER FEELINGS OF 'INCOMPLETENESS' AND 'LACK O
F SUSTENANCE'...IT IS THE 'PIVOT' PLACE IN THE FIRE OF THE 'K WHERE ONE MUST COM
E FORTH AND FACE THE PRESENT. IT IS THE FIRE 'K' IN THE 'BAY BE' SILENCES OF MED
ITATE[ THE 'ME' OF 'DI' OF 'IT' OF 'TATE' ] ECHOING IN CONTROL ORDER SANITY OF K
ATE ['K' 8-EIGHT] AND LEMNISCATE INFINITY SURVIVAL TUNINGS OF 'COOL FIRE' PSYCHE
THUNDER...IT IS 'SUGAR CUBE' OF 'TATE' AS SWEET OVERCOMING THE 'BITTER' SENSES
OF LOSS. IT IS THE MEANS OF SUSTAINING A 'VERSION OF AVERSION'...AN IDEA OF SELF
AS 'DISCIPLINED' IN AN IMAGE OF 'MEDIATION'...
IT IS THE 'COUNTER-RING' OF THE DEEP DAUGHTER AND THE MIRROR MOTHER OF 8 INTERSE
CTION...FOR ENCOUNTERING THE MOTHER MIRROR IS 'BEING IN THE REFLECTIONS' OF THE
DEEP FEMININE...THE YIN HARVESTING AWARENESS OF INFLUENCES AND IMPOSITIONS OF MA
TERNAL EXPECTANCY...IT IS THE CHILD WITHIN LEARNING TO GET ASSISTANCE FROM DA OR
MA IN ORDER TO OVERCOME MA OR DA...IT IS POWER GREATER THAN LOVE IN CONFLICT WI
TH LOVE OVERCOMING POWER. IT IS THE SIMULTANEITY OF SHIFTS OF CONTROL MEDIATION
WHILE MOVING IN VULNERABILITY TO BE 'AS IS' REAL...
IT IS A NEVER ENDING PROCESS UNLESS ONE DECLARES A VICTORY IN ELECTRA OR OEDIPUS
FOR SELF LOVE IS THE ONLY WAY TO LOVE OTHER...IT IS AS ONE LETS GO OF ALL THAT
IS NOT ONE AND ENCOUNTERS THE OTHER IN REALNESS...IT IS THE OVERTHROW OF THE 'AU
TO-EROTIC' AND THE DEATH OF THE 'NEUROTIC-EROTIC' IN THE MOTHER MIRROR THAT REFL
ECTIONS OF WHAT HAS BEEN...
IT IS 'AS IS'...BEING IN WILL TO KNOW BEYOND POWER CONTROL OF 'MEDIATIONS'...IT
IS COURAGE TO CREATE AS THE 'ORIGINALITY' COMING OUT OF THE SHADOWS...IT IS ASSE
RTION...THIS IS ME AND 'YOUR JUDGEMENTS AND CRITICISMS ARE NOT CONSUMED'...IT IS
BUILDING A REALISM SHIELD TO ASSERT THE VISIONS OF ONE'S TRUTH...
12.11.09 [C] W.P.C.