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Introduction to RESTORATION
One of the problems with subjectivity in a novel is how
it limits the author's voice. You are trapped in your character.
This is not necessarily a bad thing nowadays. Over-educated
authors with the internet only a browser away can easily
overwhelm a narrative with an excess of character
development and local colour.
However, what if your character is weird and
wonderful? How far can you go in being true to this
weirdness? I suppose it depends on the character. In
RESTORATION the heroine has little or no memory (due to
spending too much time in reality). She is also obsessive and
extremely determined (characteristics of artificials). She is
also charged with the mission of saving mankind (against its
better judgement).
You cannot easily live with such a character; she is
just too strange and because of the lack of memory too
empty. Yet you are possessed by something the atmosphere
of the world she inhabits, the odd insight you get into her
which sustains you between writing sessions. I developed the
habit of waking up at 5 AM each morning and spending two
hours letting that day's work as it were grow in me. And yet
what went down on the page was often a too simple, step-bystep narrative about a monomaniac woman and her derelict
world, written in an semi-literate phonetic English.
Sometimes I feared the onset of Alzheimers or the like and
developed a second habit of carefully scrutinising that day's
work as soon as possible, while the memory of what I
intended to write was still with me.
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RESTORATION Summary
It is about a thousand years into the future. The world
is a dried out husk, most of the water having been exchanged
for omnium from the Other World. The human race is dying
out because most women can no longer bear children and the
alternatives don't work. Artificials are self-obsessed and
clones die of loneliness. The few natural offspring that there
are called natals rule the world as a time-serving
bureaucratic clique. The rest of the human race subsists on
what is known as Machine Maintenance, a superlatively
efficient welfare system that oversees life from incubation
bottle to render plant.
Into this hell on earth awakens the artificial woman
who will be known to some as Sophie. She has just lost her
fortune in the latest Bubble and so finds herself turfed out of
reality into the tender metal care of the Machine. Her
memory has been destroyed by her overlong sojourns in
reality, and her only consolation perhaps are the strange
dreams she has when she manages to sleep.
Even so, she is filled with an overwhelming desire to
journey across the desolated land towards the high towers on
the northern horizon. She doesn't know why she wants to go
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there, but she goes in any case if only because she cannot
do otherwise.
RESTORATION is about 100,000 words long.
RESTORATION
PHILIP MATTHEWS
nooky spots among the trees. A cabinet sits on the table, flush
with the wall. It will contain drink bottles wines and spirits
glasses, pretty little boxes filled with sugar confections,
chocolates. Sofya Vasilevna spots the other cabinet, the one
under the table. This will contain those appliances that
prevent accident from marring pleasure.
At the end of this compartment is the room that Sofya
Vasilevna wants, the water closet. There is no great pressure
on her bladder, she simply wants a break from the company.
She unbuttons the front of her dress to ease the pressure on
her breasts. Always she must compress her bosom: a man
looks at a womans bosom and she is at once headless. Not an
encouraging thought just now. The vodka has deflated her;
the aridity of the mens chatter touching the darkness in her.
As always, she will walk through the depression. And as she
walks she will think.
Backwards and forward in the confined space, she
thinks of Euler, as she always does. She imagines first a body
suspended in empty space, perfectly still, perfectly alone.
Then she pictures a smaller body approach and go into an
orbit about the original body. The smaller body call it the
Moon is now circling about the larger body that can be
called the Earth. Now, Sofya Vasilevna proceeds to calculate
the motion of the smaller orbiting body around the larger
body. She does this in an uncanny way. She can picture the
elements of Eulers equations for this calculation in sequence
and watch something like a magic light move across the
symbols. What she watches is not a play of numbers; more
like a play of special forces, mathematical forces that
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our possessions in the east as estates, but in fact they are huge
areas of tribal lands of which we are now the ruler. And while
these peoples are willing to pay the tribute we demand, they
have no intention of changing their very ancient way of life
for us.
Well, be that as it may. I spent most of the summer
there. Then, as autumn approached, I was informed that a
group of my friends let me call them friends, it will do for
the purpose of my tale had gathered at an old monastery
near Bokhara. I hurried to join them. We had long planned to
explore the wide territories of eastern Turkestan extending up
to the Chinese border. There were, of course, reasons for our
wanting to do this, some of which I am not at liberty to reveal
to you here.
Oh now, my dear Feliks Feliksovich, surely you can
tell us something about Sarman? Let us have a glimpse, at
least. This is Dmitri Pavlovich, smiling benignly at his
friend, bright eyes set off by his shiny pate.
The Prince is startled, his head jerking forward as
though the Grand Duke had struck him physically.
It is not relevant, my dear Dmitri Pavlovich. Surely
you of all people must know that.
The Grand Duke bobs his head in easy agreement:
That may be so, Feliks Feliksovich, but some knowledge of
the background to your adventures in Asia will help fill out
your tale. After all, it is common knowledge that you have
been involved with the Theosophicals since your youth. You
yourself told me once how you and you brother agreed that
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from the island and looks back at Arianna, weeping all the
while. And weeping profusely, apparently.
Dmitri Pavlovich shakes his head in wonder. Well,
isnt that the strangest thing?
Sofya Vasilevna cannot control the impulse in her
bladder. It is as though the liquid there boils, as in a pot. She
jumps up and heads again for the water closet.
At her back, Feliks Feliksovich is saying: And he does
not row the boat either, you know. The Doctor said it is
drawn away from the island.
In the water closet, Sofya Vasilevna discovers that
there is another door opposite the one she has just come
through, one she had not noticed before. It is open. A man
stands in the doorway, beckoning her to follow. She does so
without a second thought. This other chamber is dimly lit and
very small, only space really for one armchair. The man
indicates that she should sit.
Sofya Vasilevna sits in the chair.
The man leans over and whispers:
Close your eyes. There will be a moment of
blankness. Do not be afraid.
Sofya Vasilevna has time only to think: Afraid of
what?
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Oh the chill!
It is like iron; implacable like iron. It is everywhere,
right down into the deep.
A moan, then fluid flows from a tube. The fluid is
warm and sweet. It soothes.
Tears for a loss. The salt burns.
Eyes flicker open on the darkness.
The chill is too much for now.
The first thing she does is check the figures. They are
in red. That explains it. She lifts her left arm towards her eyes
so she can better see them. Two and half million. The change
rate is in orange, at minus three point five.
The loss agents must be at work by now.
She presses the surface on the inside of her wrist,
where the figures are displaying. The new figures are in
black:
15.47:15.03.17.
She presses her wrist again to return to the wealth
clock.
2,568,275 red; -3.52 orange.
It will take time, maybe a lot of time.
She tries to sit up. A voice says: Under acceleration.
Please wait.
She says: I am hungry and thirsty.
The whirr is piercing for the first few seconds, then she
gets used to the sound.
The voice says: Subsistence for two hours.
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Definitely broke.
Machine maintenance now. But
Why all the way to Atlantic Rim?
The voice is the other one, the personalised one:
Deceleration begins in one minute.
Her seat begins to recline. The pressure will rise,
then
The swaying of the coach awakens her this time. There
are external sounds, but they are faint: a rattle of metal on
metal. She knows the speed is right down, without knowing
how she knows.
Light.
White light now, quite bright. She must blink furiously
till her eyes adjust.
Arrival in two minutes. You will leave the tsug here.
She glances down at her wrist: 2,456,367 red; -3.3
amber. She reminds herself that she is now broke. She
reminds herself that she will now begin to live off Machine
Maintenance.
Subsistence. Has she ever lived like this before? She
cant remember, of course. Ill know from how I respond.
She knows when they stop. A sudden peacefulness; the
moment like a pivot. A door set between the facing seats
opens with a sigh of its seals as they part. A trolley-like
machine eases into the compartment, fitting the space
available to it almost exactly. It says:
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screens rise on either side of her from the trolley. She reacts
without thinking, grabbing the edges of both of them to try to
pull them back.
The machine stops moving at once. It explains: We
must go into the open in order to reach the Reception area.
No! She slams her hands against the curved surfaces
of the now-closed canopy. It is not fear, really; she simply
does not like machines, and dislikes it intensely when they
act without her permission.
The machine must open the canopy again. Its basic rule
is that it must not harm or upset humans, no matter what the
circumstances. The Machine must maintain humans, but it is
not obliged to keep them alive against their wishes.
Can I walk there?
You will need protective clothing.
A drawer under her slides open. There is a zip-up suit.
You should don this.
She swings her legs over the side of the trolley and lays
them flat on the ground. One breath, two breath. She pushes
herself slowly upright. Slight swaying, but she knows the
strength is there. It is only when she tries to step away from
the trolley an instinct to cut away from it as soon as
possible that she experiences the true vertigo that afflicts
her. She knows what it is at once: she has spent too long in
reality. Too long being how long she does not know.
The machine has extended a tentacle for her to lean on.
It says: Walk around the machine.
She concentrates less on the act of walking itself the
innate ability will soon assert itself than on making the
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pace she has set is demanding, but it will clear her lymph
quickly. Already there is a freshness, the horrible morbid
taste in her throat is receding.
Once beyond the buildings, the roadway divides, one
fork going left, back around towards the tsug station, the
other one heading towards a tall metal gate to the right. The
machine is veering towards the gate, the couch superstructure
swaying as it takes the turn at what must be excessive speed.
The gate opens at their approach. The machine whizzes
through, then swings around left. She follows, a sudden surge
in her spirits as she passes through the gate. She lets out a
cry, a release of pent-up feeling. There is no sense of escape;
nonetheless, she does feel released from some constraint
but without being able to say what it is she is escaping.
The machine reduces its speed abruptly. She can see
that it is bouncing about. The road surface has changed. A
dull grey material, not at all smooth in fact, pitted and
scraped over its entire surface. A very old, debilitated surface,
not intended for machines such as the trolley.
What is it?
The machine stops. Must observe safety limit for
uncertain terrain.
She takes a very deep breath. It feels really good to do
that.
Well, she says in good humour. I will run on ahead.
She does. The machine calls something but she doesnt
hear, doesnt want to hear.
The roadway is much wider than the one within the
station compound. Its edges are marked by obviously
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artificial slopes that rise to low walls that run along either
side. The walls themselves are badly damaged, parts of them
missing altogether in places; elsewhere they have collapsed
down onto the slopes, large blocks reaching the roadway
itself here and there.
She has settled down to an easy loping run, pumping
her arms vigorously at her sides, observing the changes in her
body. There is too much heat in her lungs an itch to cough
that she instinctively resists as air is forced into the lower
reaches that have been all but inactive for a long time. Her
throat is fine, though: heat here too, but this too will pass
with exercise. The greatest pleasure she finds is in her limbs,
especially her legs, the easy access to strength though she
has no memory of running like this before.
Then she sees that the road ends abruptly just ahead, a
low fence of some black material, a narrow opening in the
centre. She stops at the fence, panting in an urgent faintly
excited way, legs tingling, the solid thump of her heart almost
audible. The light is fading as the sun sets behind her, but
even so the air is vivid for some reason as though her eyes
have some kind of penetrative power.
Behind her, the machine is saying, Medical
restrictions apply. This is for your own protection. It repeats
this, and she realises that the trolley has bumped along in her
wake calling this out for her sake.
She casually raises an arm to it. The machine falls
silent at once. She asks:
What is this?
The machine pauses for an instant, then begins:
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Stella has come out onto the old roadway. She is very
tall. Her skin is dark; her eyes gleam in the sunlight.
What it means is that I am a free human being. She
raps the side rail of the trolley with her knuckles. Isnt that
right, machine?
She utters the word machine with a malicious bite.
You are category six. You are a natal human.
Stella has pulled out a drawer in the near end of the
trolley: Thats right, machine. And dont you forget it.
She is drawing out a lead. Turn around. Im going to
hook you to the machine. That way we can find out who you
are.
She plugs the lead into the socket in the back of her
neck, murmuring: This jack has seen some use, hasnt it?
To the machine she orders: Screen.
The current passing from the machine goes through her
entire body. She stiffens, begins to relax, then remembers that
she is not entering reality. Stella says, Look at this.
The screen juts up from the machine, lettering brilliant
in the growing gloom.
What?
Cant you read?
No.
Then Ill read it for you. You have no name. No
designation. And you are broke.
Yes. I know that. She checks her wrist: 2,412,569
red; -3.21 amber.
Do you? Good. That is to explain why you are here.
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Stella pulls the lead out and lets it reel back into the
machine.
What else does the screen say?
You caught that? Well, its awkward to explain.
Stella is pulling at her face mask, peeling it away from the
cowl. Put it this way: most of your record seems to be
hidden.
She takes a breath. She coughs violently. The machine
says: Medical restrictions apply. This is for your own
protection.
Stella says without turning her head, Be quiet. I told
you that already, didnt I?
The air feels as though it is a kind of acid. Already she
can feel her body beginning to react.
Stella lays her palm flat on her brow: No, dont panic.
Youll get used to it in a moment. She smiles. This is what
real air is like. And its a long time since you breathed real
air, isnt it?
Her body is about to burst open, like fire is circulating
instead of blood, and yet she is realising that she has never
seen anyone actually smile before. She says, really a
stammer, part the shock her whole being is undergoing, part
an unusual movement in her:
You are lovely.
Stella smiles again, her whole face taking part, many
creases around her eyes and mouth.
As I say, real oxygen.
She is now drawing the cowl back. She ruffles through
her stubby hair.
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The dusk is very deep. She can barely see the machine
out in front of her.
Did the people want to go somewhere else?
Yes.
The machine stops moving. As she catches up to it, the
machine gives one of its jerks and asks:
People are not happy here?
She touches the nearest rail on the trolley. She is
uncomfortable with the encroaching night.
People are not happy anywhere.
The machine jerks again. She thinks something is
interfering with it. She expands:
If they got on a tsug here and went somewhere else,
they would get on another tsug there and go somewhere else
again.
Data for consideration, the machine says, voicing it
like it was talking to itself or to some other machine.
Query.
The machine grinds on dirt and pebbles as it rotates on
its wheels in order to face her: Is wellbeing the equivalent of
happiness?
No.
Is subsistence the predeterminant of happiness.
I dont know. I dont know what subsistence is.
Do you know what happiness is?
Not being unhappy.
Are you happy?
No.
Are you unhappy?
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I dont know.
How is that possible? You imply that humans must be
in one or other of those states: happy or unhappy.
I dont know because I dont want to know.
Why not?
Im afraid to ask.
Silence. She assumes the machine is conferring with
another machine. She waits a little while, then asks in order
to ease a pressure growing in her:
Can we get in out of the dark?
Immediately, a light shines out from the trolley,
illuminating the ground all around her. The machine gets
under way again. I will travel as fast as it is permitted, given
the road surface. The roadway is the ancient pitted surface
again. She keeps close to the machine, assuming that it is
following the smoothest path it can find.
There is an instruction to ask you the following
question: If the machine cannot make humans happy through
subsistence, then what can make the humans happy?
She finds that she holds onto the trolley rail while she
reflects on this question.
Happiness is not a real state. It is a judgement.
She is extremely surprised by her answer. The machine
is silent for a longish while, trundling along a weaving path
among the ruts and potholes, with her in tow.
Is unhappiness a judgement also?
No. Unhappiness is a real state.
This seems to exhaust the machines curiosity. She has
continued to hold onto the trolley rail, watching the lit ground
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directing the spray up and down her body and from side to
side. The temperature of the water varies. The first result of
this ministration is that both her bladder and bowel move.
She crouches over the hole and evacuates in a series of
rhythmic muscular spasms. The nozzles continues to spray
her with tepid water, favouring now the nape of her neck and
shoulders. Once she straightens from her excretions, she find
the air sweetly scented. The machine asks:
Do you wish depilation?
She is emphatic: No! Never!
The water becomes warmer and it foams on her skin.
This lasts a short while, when hot water begins to douse her
from head to foot in a circular motion down her body. Then
the water flow ceases abruptly, and warm air blows onto her
from all angles, drying her very quickly.
The door of the stall slides open.
She stands in the middle of the main room and thinks:
That is called bathing.
Her mouth moves in a certain way, pulling at the flesh
of her face. Even her eyes are affected, narrowing, suddenly
sensitive to the light.
She realises that she is smiling. It signifies a buoyancy
deep within her.
I am very pleased.
Now she is drawn down the chamber towards the right.
There is a whirring sound. A section of the floor draws back
and a couch rises into the room. The voice says: The recliner
is multifunctional. See the details on the left side of the
appliance. For details of the leisure facilities, see the panel
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herself either: she reaches and briefly presses her own fingers
against those of her Mother Superior.
Now go, child. Your work is done here. And wait,
she places a restraining hand on the childs shoulder you
should go to the dairy and tell Sister Veronica to give you a
cup of fresh cows milk. You need the sustenance now that
you are about to become a maiden. God bless you.
She watches the girl run off back towards the convent
proper. The smock she wears is really too small for her the
child is sprouting up, her thin ankles evident caught too
tightly now at her bosom. There is a stab of regret. The
Abbess shrugs at its unreality: the processes of life are
unremitting, children grow up, become beasts and suffer. Any
attempt to control this power of life must also be unremitting,
must also entail much suffering.
Yet the child is for the moment still innocent of that
life. Obedient, pleasing, possessing an inborn grace despite
her lowly origins and rude upbringing.
The Abbess does finally shrug off the regret. She turns
back to the slit in the wall. A steely quality enters her now.
Her obsession which surely amounts to a madness
returns.
Is the room clean? Yes, the room is clean. The three fat
candles in the holder over by the mirror give sufficient light.
They have done so before and will do so this time again. The
mirror the Abbess cannot see: it is hidden to the right. This is
as it should be. The Abbess has not a good reason for this
requirement; only her obsession justifies it.
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The youth stops, but does not turn around. She notices
that his shoulders are unusually rounded for someone of his
age. She says, moved by sympathy:
I am an old woman now, youth. I am dedicated to
Christ.
Now he does turn around to face her. His eyes are
brown, very luminous, a melting sadness in them.
That does not cancel the beauty, mother.
The smell of the sheep is strong on him. It comforts
her, almost feeling the warm wool against her skin.
Are you not married?
The youth shakes his head. My intended, Beatrice,
died last summer.
How did that happen?
She cut herself in the dairy.
Does no other maiden favour you?
The youth lowers his head.
Well? Answer me, youth.
The youth remains silent, head bowed, arms limp by
his sides.
She thinks: I cannot do it. I cannot do it today.
How can you hesitate, youth? How can you love
someone you have not known?
Now the youth does look up. She is surprised to see
anger flash in his face.
You love God, Mother.
The Abbess steps forward and slaps him across the
face. How dare you equate the two!
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She checks the figures at her wrist: 2,252,482 red; 3.09 amber.
The taste in her mouth is not pleasant, mainly stale
though also a sourness too. She says:
Drink.
The sustenance hatch has been activated. Specify
liquid required. The machine is extremely personalised,
almost human, a woman who is calmly in charge.
She looks about her. This is the domicile. That much
she can remember. She sits up on the couch. Have I slept?
Sleep period duration: ten hours fifteen minutes to
nearest minute.
So I have slept. I dont remember anything. Should I?
Should I remember sleeping?
No. Consciousness is in abeyance during sleep
period.
I should stand. See if I can do that.
She swings her feet out and down to the floor. She
stands with no trouble. Good. I must have been active before
I slept. She looks around, sees the lighted hatch. She says as
she walks in that direction:
Water.
She sees the beaker drop from a recess, hears the tinkle
of the water pouring into it.
Should I eat?
It is recommended.
She takes the beaker and drinks. The water is
refreshing, cool and sweet.
Recommend a meal.
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Your feet are all bloody. You better come in and clean
up. They say you can get all sorts of infections from this dirt.
The footpads have straps that affix them to her feet.
They make a difference. She follows him into the domicile.
He points to the hygiene stall:
You go in there now. Itll fix you up.
At the door to the stall, the voice tells her to undress.
She pulls the footpads off. The soles of her feet are extremely
tender. The hot water relieves her body. She realises that she
is very cold. Then a small tray appears in the corner to the
right. A violet coloured fluid swirls into it. Even before the
machine tells her, she knows this is to treat her feet. A
momentary sting, then she feels a deep refreshment.
Back in the main chamber, the man says from the
couch where he reclines before a screen that occupies the
whole of the end wall:
Not long here, are you?
She places the footpads over by the exit door, then
stands just to the right of the couch, but turned away from the
brilliant animated screen.
No. I dont think so.
Thought as much. Youve still got your hair. He
points at her head, then he presses his thumb into the centre
of his hand. A second couch rises from the floor beside his.
Sit there if you like.
She is unsure what to do. She is reluctant to sit facing
the screen.
Can I take a drink?
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and swings about to face her. The volume of the voices on the
screen has dimmed. He is excited after the crisis. People do
that. Travel around on the trains. Tried to do it. Walked into
the station and got into a carriage. The machine said it was
already reserved. Left then. Lost my nerve. She did it. Go to
one place then go to another. She was here a long while.
Maybe a long time.
The expression of pain crosses his mouth again. He
looks at her with an intense expression, his mouth pursing
into an oval.
Maybe you should stay here.
He makes a gesture with his two hands that she does
not understand. Then he pushes himself off the couch and
approaches her.
He raises his gown and says: Look. His penis is
engorging. Do you know this?He gazes at his penis as
though it is separate from himself. All the time like this
when you are near.
She asks: Are you natal?
He looks closely at her. Not possible. This is good.
Make for happiness. He wraps his left hand around the shaft
of his penis, now fully erect. Man to woman is good.
He pushes her back towards the nearest wall. The door
opens and the chime sounds. He forces his leg between hers
and drives them apart. He enters her with no ceremony and
pumps vigorously until he ejaculates. He is breathless when
he speaks:
See. Very good. Maybe you stay now. Do it all the
time. He opens his mouth in a rictus and shouts:
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Jig-y-jig!
He steps back and lets go of his gown. He looks her up
and down, his expression indicating that he expects her to
celebrate the event with him.
She looks towards the open door beside her. I must go
to Reception.
There is a cry from the screen. The volume rises
sharply. He swings around, startled, a hand going to his
mouth.
Oh no!
He runs back to the couch and swings into position
there. Two tall men in green are facing a man in red. One is
saying:
The Ransome occluder has misfunctioned again. The
heat in the responder is reaching dangerous levels. Your team
must do something. You must do it now.
Even though the man is talking about a serious threat
to the group, he speaks in a steady measured voice. The man
in red makes a gesture with his right hand, then he hurries out
a nearby door. The other man in green says:
You know they will rely on the African Parallel
again? I tell you, Chrimas, we ought to withdraw and study
the logs.
The man called Chrimas raises his hand in order to
calm the other.
The logs have been studied more than once. As you
well know. He steps away from the other man and puts his
arms behind his back. We can only hope they find a way this
time, Marcham.
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office away on the north side of the square. Then they see
him, the census-taker: a great threatening growl rises from the
crowd. Men who might have nodded to him in a lane, who
accepted his presence on their land, are now scowling darkly
and shaking their fists.
What has happened? Soon to relate.
Only that morning apparently a rumour sprang up
somewhere in the province, a rumour that spread like
lightning from town to town, from village to village. The
rumour disclosed the following fact: that land and property,
flocks and orchards not registered during the census would be
regarded by the Roman authorities as being without owners.
Therefore, all such valuables would be offered free to those
willing to register for them. The rumour disclosed that
already an army of godless Syrians was on its way south to
take possession of their homeland.
We will be left to die in the Western Desert, ourselves
and all our kin.
What all this means then to Publicus Aronicus and
the other census-takers in the province is that a months
work would have to be done in two weeks. Actually given
the general panic because of an irrational conviction that the
census would be ending in a day or two the months work
would probably be done in a week.
Not an easy task to achieve. First there was the
introduction of some order to the mob in the square. Queue?
These men had never queued in their lives. Wait? Wait in
line? Put one of these man in line and immediately he wants
to piss, wants a drink, wants to check on an old ewe, wants to
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know his wife. So, there is a queue, but one marked by a line
that the dark clad men are either leaving or rejoining (with
many petty disputes about place in the line). And there is not
a man who on rejoining regardless of how long or short his
absence was who does not complain loudly about the
slowness of the queue.
Now, inside the census-takers office. The village is
ruled by a headman. The headman has four brothers and three
sons. That makes eight burly, frantic man. They stand around
in the background in the office, all staring daggers at poor
Publicus Aronicuss back. Why? This is not rumour; this is
fact. The headman of each community will act as guarantor
for the accuracy of that communitys registration. He will be
held liable for any errors in the villagers declarations.
So we have Publicus Aronicus at his desk, head
permanently down, pen ready, asking each man for the
following information:
(1) his name and the names of his father, mother, and
grandfather;
(2) his original village;
(3) his age and occupation;
(4) any identifying characteristic;
(5) his wife's name and age, his wife's father's name;
(6) his sons names and ages;
(7) the names of other relatives living with him
(8) his assets.
The pages are already ruled with columns for these
categories. All Publicus Aronicus has to do is ask the
questions in a civil tone and write out the answers in his
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wide open all day long. The wind gets colder that week,
comes lashing down from the north, from the cold cold
mountains. Its fine for the farmers and artisans. They have
their felt cloaks and their anxiety to keep them warm, and a
mouthful or two of the local red wine from time to time. Even
the headman and his kin are managing fairly well. They too
have their cloaks, but they also have the added advantage of
adjacency to the state-supplied charcoal brazier, about which
they congregate.
Publicus Aronicus tries to be firm in this case, realising
that the door will remain open so long as there is a queue of
registrants. The struggle over the brazier is intense and
continuous, yet never remarked upon by anyone. First thing
in the morning, Publicus Aronicus positions the brazier
within an arms reach of his desk, lights the fire and adds the
charcoal. The door to the outside is yet closed, so the early
morning chill is taken off the shed. Then the headman and his
kin arrive. They position themselves around the brazier,
cloaks open and hands held appreciatively towards to the
radiant heat. A small gap is allowed so that Publicus
Aronicus can still receive his share of the warmth. Then the
registration starts, the door is open wide, cold air sweep in
and the shed becomes chilled, then cold.
An unhappy situation. It gets worse. Comes a moment
when Publicus Aronicus must excuse himself and go outside
to relieve himself behind the shed. He returns to find that the
brazier has been shifted away from his desk and that the
headman and his kin have formed a tight circle around it. So
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was brought to him for lunch, some bread and cheese, olives
he eats without contemplation.
So a restless night, fitful sleep for a time, then awake to
the silence of the night, except of course for the endlessly
buffeting wind outside. It is a night for dwelling on thoughts,
no doubt, perhaps ruminations on past actions, but not one
thought or memory comes forward as a suitable candidate.
His mind is a whirl of thoughts, a fog of overlaid memories.
The truth is that Publicus Aronicus does not want to
contemplate his past in the quiet of the night; he wants only
the oblivion of sleep and to awake on the morrow refreshed.
Publicus Aronicus is not interested in night-thoughts of any
kind: he wants only his day-dreams in the sun.
In any case, the morning comes soon enough. Publicus
Aronicus forces himself out of his bed and dresses feverishly
in the cold air, his inner chill as though greeting its
companion winter chill with chattering teeth. Intense activity
gets the brazier lit and properly stoked pretty quickly. A lot
of haste, then how quiet the morning is. He can hear the
bells of the goats out in the lane as they are herded in for
milking. A dog is barking at the far end of the town; a man is
shouting hoarsely. Publicus Aronicus is at his desk, nibs
sharpened, ink newly stirred, his last few sheets of paper
already ruled.
He must have sat quietly for half the morning, dozing
in a stupor, shivering somewhere within though the brazier
radiates with a cheering hum and crackle. Then three men
sidle into the shed, one by one in close order, and line
themselves abreast in front of the desk. Publicus Aronicus
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has only time for one question asked of the leftmost man, as
the oldest of the trio when the headman comes rushing in.
He shouts at the trio, speaking at such a pitch that Publicus
Aronicus simply cannot understand what he is saying. The
three men hang their heads, each with a sheepish expression
even Publicus Aronicus knows is false.
It turns out that they are brothers, who herd half-wild
goats back of the mountain, that is, in the semi-arid wastes
that extend westwards towards the river. It is also clear that
the headman is unwilling to vouch for their holdings.
Rumoured to be immensely rich and living in tented luxury at
a secret oasis in the desert, they claim to own nothing at all,
not land nor animals. How could counter claims be validated?
Who would be willing to trek through the desert for weeks
perhaps, only to be shown some filthy bivvies and a knife or
two? The arguing is intense, the brothers as obdurate as only
free men can be, the headman as cross as only a man with a
hapless responsibility can be. Publicus Aronicus? He fills out
the meagre details and sits on patiently awaiting his next
client, deafened by the shouting, but distracted for now from
his own misery nonetheless.
Well, this brawl is like a winter storm, furious for the
while and then passing on, to be heard with some relief
receding into the distance. Right across the square the
arguing now reduced to tit-for-tat spite, with some of the
townsfolk adding their say in passing and really only ends
when the brother leave the town altogether, their mocking
laughter sounding out across the narrow wadi that separates
the town from the desert.
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your husband will come and give me the rest. What do you
say to that?
The young woman raises her brows in an airy
expression, the kind of gesture a juvenile might make, not
knowing how closely people can observe and what
experience and knowledge they might draw upon when doing
so. That would be a start, wouldnt it?
Publicus Aronicus now positions a new ruled sheet and
takes up a pen. He runs his eye across the list of questions he
must ask, then nods ostentatiously:
What is the name of the householders wife?
It is Maryam.
And how old is she?
She is fifteen years and five months of age.
Only now does Publicus Aronicus begin writing. The
name is a common one, so no question of spelling arises. The
age given would seem to be true.
And what is the wifes fathers name?
There is silence. Publicus Aronicus looks up to find
that the woman has drawn apart the swaddling about her
infants face and is now gazing down at it with rapt, glowing
eyes. He coughs his little public official cough again.
Excuse me, little mother, but we must go through
these questions. Otherwise, there is the danger that the
householder could be dispossessed of everything he owns.
The young woman looks up at him. There is a quality
in her gaze the glow, the ardour that passes along to
Publicus Aronicus. He shivers mightily and at once all his
chills and complaints seem to melt away. He gazes back at
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But the young man seems not to notice the censustakers heat. Instead he uses the restrictions of his official
position against him: Do you have any more questions to ask
me, or do you not?
And Publicus Aronicus is browbeaten here. The height
of the young man, the large bushy beard, the righteousness of
his position as spouse of the young women were already
tilting the scales in his favour; now that he has managed to
put Publicus Aronicus on the defensive is enough to give him
the moral advantage.
So, that was the end of that. The few questions the
census-taker had were answered curtly. Publicus Aronicus
learns he is dealing with an upright artisan, of a long line of
upright artisans, a carpenter and already a master with his
own workshop and domicile in a village somewhere to the
northeast of the town. Publicus Aronicus has never heard of
the place, so he is aware that he might well have spelled it
wrongly. But who is there to ask? The towns mayor would
have no interest in this outsider, and Publicus Aronicus is
most certainly not going to put himself under obligation to
the young man.
Not a happy end to his period of duty as official
Roman census-taker. There is an emptiness where there
should be nothing at all, a service performed for his master,
no more. Yet he feels as though something has been taken
from him. It is an extremely disquieting sensation. This fact
surprises Publicus Aronicus, until he realises that he is
dealing with a memory, not an event. And the memory?
Publicus Aronicus knows the memory. It has no name. It
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out of the shed for an hour or two each day and allowed him
to bask in the comfortable warmth of the large kitchen. That
much of this warmth was provided by the animals tethered in
a corner opposite the hearth disgusted him at first, but he
soon came to terms with it. After all, it was a universal
custom and made perfectly good sense.
So, today the last day and Publicus Aronicus wraps
up in the dark blue Legionnaire cloak provided him for
outdoor use, takes a last deep breath of the warm air of the
stable and gets himself out into the cold winter evening. It is
as cold as he feared it would be, a mean blustery wind
whipping in from the mountains to the north. The square is
completely deserted, everyone tucked up at home. It is, as
Publicus Aronicus has learned, how the inhabitants of the
province cope with the beginnings of winter. This is
something they can afford to do: the animals can still find
grazing in the orchards on the last of the windfall, so it will
be a week or two yet before the annual ritual of preparing the
winter feed begins.
Actually, the square is not entirely deserted. The
dominant feature of the square is the huge old sycamore that
grows up on its northern edge. No one is sure why it was
planted there: it provides little shelter in the summer and does
nothing to abate the stream of cold air in the winter. But it is
growing where it is growing, hundreds of years old, massive
with the wide, open spreading crown of its species. Now it is
rapidly shedding its leaves, falling even as Publicus Aronicus
glances over like crumpled sheets of paper onto the chilled
unwelcome earth.
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this cheer, the gladness in his heart multiplied over and over
as waves of bliss pass through him. He raises his hands to
calm the rising enthusiasm, saying sometimes in Aramaic and
sometimes in Latin:
It is good cheer, my friends. It is good cheer.
The hubbub quietens soon enough, the household
settling back into the good cheer that Publicus Aronicus has
proposed. Then the patriarch stands up again. A short stocky
man, fierce and persistent but with a keen understanding of
the value of tolerance, he open his arms, palms upwards,
towards Publicus Aronicus and proclaims:
We see, Roman slave, that you have fulfilled your
duties here with thoroughness and integrity. We wish you to
know that you have earned our gratitude.
Publicus Aronicus is astonished by this compliment. It
is not what he had expected. He answers, trying hard to
match the householders formality:
But, my friends, when I can only respond to the
dictates of the heart that is filled with universal love
Publicus Aronicus realises that the family doesnt
know what he is talking about, faces closing down rapidly to
their more normal stolidity. He shakes his head. The patriarch
is quick to interject:
We are only honest Jews, Roman official, who pay
our dues and make sacrifice as prescribed up in the Temple.
Publicus Aronicus can only nod now, and nod again.
He finds his place in the circle and sets down into the deep
cushions. Perhaps he should be embarrassed at least that
but Publicus Aronicus cannot connect what has happened to
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when it turns out that he wants a full loaf of bread and a full
cheese, well, compensation might be in order then, especially
as the good census-taker is offering to pay. Publicus Aronicus
takes out the few copper coins he has reserved for local
purchases and the women bring the bread and cheese, the
latter a lump of hard goats cheese the size of two fists.
Haggling takes less time than expected mainly due to
Publicus Aronicuss lack of experience so that the
womenfolk get a very good price for their wares. Actually,
there is a general feeling afterwards that the census-taker has
been taken advantage of. The matrons, of course, see nothing
wrong with that, but faced with an outcry from all of the
children they relent and add a skin of wine as a gift to
Publicus Aronicus.
There. Out into the cold evening at last, light ebbing
rapidly, the wind cutting mercilessly now that the suns
influence has been eclipsed. Publicus Aronicus crouches over
the provisions he embraces close to his breast and pushes his
way back up the square to the stable. The door is ajar.
Publicus Aronicus tuts at this carelessness and waste. Inside,
the first thing to be noticed is the strong animal odour.
Publicus Aronicus has never experienced this before he
cannot identify what he is smelling but the strangeness fills
him with a tremendous terror. He knows he is not afraid of
the odour itself; rather it is that the odour has the effect of
opening something like a gate within him, and it is what lies
beyond this gate that unnerves him. He cannot describe what
he fears here: it is like a path going down a hill; it is like a
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infant frees its right arm from its swaddling and stretches it
down exactly parallel to the arm of his mother, his little
forefinger pointing towards the dry pebbly earth.
The infant smiles an open gummy smile, its magnetic
eyes boring up into the eyes of Publicus Aronicus.
What can he do now? Oh, he can fall on his knees like
the shepherds and cry out Alleluias. Can he? Of course not
he cannot accept the sheep odour, meaning he cannot go
down that darkening path. What then?
Publicus Aronicus smiles a happy smile, and bows
deeply to the mother and infant. He says:
Thank you.
Neither mother or child appear to hear him, but then
Publicus Aronicus is not fully conscious of what he has just
said.
He turns away. The door of the shed is being pushed
open with some force. A tall cavalry officer steps in, a huge
man resplendent in inlaid armour, a bear skin draped across
his shoulders, the bears head fitting neatly over his own
immense head. Valerius Rufinus now enters the stable,
looking frail in contrast to his escort. He smiles to see his
Baba, extending his hands in an intimate greeting.
Publicus Aronicus looks back at the mother and child,
asking himself:
Who am I?
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pressed tightly to her head, she can hear the familiar pitch of
the machines voice behind her, though she is careful to resist
her curiosity about what it is saying.
She is running away from the sun towards the tall
buildings. She reaches the local horizon and finds that the
roadway does enter a shallow decline, heading down towards
what is a landscape of utter ruination. Even she understands
that the uneven texture of the land is caused by the huge piles
of rubble that stretch away towards the low hills. Desiccation.
She thinks this word and immediately knows what it signifies
here: dryness, aridity, lying unprotected under the sun for a
long time. And so this landscape: dry, dusty, a crumbling
away of something once active and meaningful.
The machine has drawn up close behind her. It is
saying something about recommendation when she turns and
pushes it as hard as she can. It rocks violently and the voice
falters in a jumble of static.
She is grimly gratified by this. She asks:
What is this?
That is the Tertiary Reclamation Plant and subsidiary
units.
For a moment she feels extremely stupid, then she
realises that she is feeling this stupefaction. She is very
angry. She kicks the machine as best as she can with the heel
of her shoe.
Not that, dummy. The ruins beyond it.
The machine has finally stopped swaying, helped by
the fact that her second blow has damped the result of her
earlier shove. It sits quietly for a while, gleaming here and
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She runs and leaps as fast as she can, yet the buzzing
grows louder all the time at her back. A touch of the panic
returns. She veers off to the left in a burst of desperation, then
veers back right again just as impulsively. The darkness
before her is deep now, almost black towards the bottom of
the slope. She cannot run in the dark. The panic springs in her
again. She wants to stop running and look around, but her
legs keep moving, arms held high now in balance.
She screams out loud, just screams.
It helps, as though satisfying an urgent need in an
indirect way. The incline is levelling off anyway, what she
feels to be a narrow platform cut into the slope. There is a
large black shadow to her left, highlighted edges revealing
the presence of masonry. She turns abruptly and runs into the
shadow, hands forward in protection. She senses the wall
before she actually collides with it, so she can brace herself
for the shock. It is a shock nonetheless, the palms of both
hands striking the coarse surface brutally hard, her arms
jarred with the kind of implacable violence that makes her
whimper.
Even so, her eyes continue their search, finding as
though by attraction the deeper shadow that indicates an
opening in the wall. She discovers just in time that the
entrance-way in partially collapsed and so can duck her head
in time as she slips through.
Now it is black dark. The surface under her feet is firm
and clear. The air is cool, the odour part the acid tang of
mortar, and part another sweet-sour smell that is completely
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life-ness, is so strong that she can find no place for any other
consideration.
She draws a very deep breath, and discovers that her
eyes are tightly closed, that they have been closed like this
ever since she heard the sound in that dark place.
She opens her eyes. The sky is dark now. She sees this
immediately, but she is surprised to see also that the land
about here is etched in detail by a milky light. The narrow
platform on which she is standing is a sheet of glowing white
light, speckled with nodes of shadow of various sizes. Behind
her, she sees the outline of a structure, squared off like a
domicile, but collapsed at the farther end. And away in front
of her along the platform there is another structure, this too
intact in part, demolished in part. The slope she has
descended is also lit, the shadowy rubble here larger and
serving to break up the expanse of reflected light.
Above that, there is the sky. The sky is dark, black,
then she sees that it is speckled with spots of pulsating light.
Stars. She remembers now that the stars come out at night
and that they can provide a low illumination of the night
world.
The stars! She is startled, thinking with a rising
anxiety: Are the stars in the universe?
She gropes with feverish fingers in the pocket of the
gown until she finds the little chip of mortar. She lays it in
her left palm and studies it closely.
No. There are no stars there, only the earth and all that
it might contain. So she puts the stars into the universe,
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taking care that all the stars in the vault of heaven are
included.
She sighs, both relieved and happy. Oh, she knows that
everything is in the universe it could not be otherwise but
it is important that she includes all the details of this fact.
The universe must be true. Otherwise, it will all come
to nothing.
She very carefully replaces the piece of mortar in the
pocket of the gown. Then she looks around again, a feeling of
some justifiable satisfaction suffusing her.
Night is good, the starry light an unexpected comfort.
Silence, too then the familiar buzz-buzz can be heard,
drawing closer all the while.
She glances at her wrist:
986,674 red; -2.98 amber.
The first impulse is to run back to where she had
hidden previously. She remembers the scrabbling sound. She
shivers with revulsion. But hide she must. She sets off along
the platform towards the other structure. Then she thinks that
maybe there will be those sounds there as well.
Run! She sets off down the slope, her mind quickly
coming to concentrate on where she is placing her feet among
all the obstacles. She is loping down the slope as fast as she
can, but already she sees that ominous shadows crisscross the
slope, indicating some potentially serious obstructions ahead.
Sure enough, she has not gone far when she finds that ground
suddenly dip into a hollow. She stumbles badly here, frantic
to prevent herself going head over heels. The buzzing is loud
now, the flying machine as though right behind her. For an
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instant she is tempted to just stop and let the machine talk to
her. She glances at her wrist:
982,604 red; -3.09 amber.
The machine speaks with an amplified voice, coldly
mechanical in the dark:
The recommendation that has
She jumps forward, up a shallow slope, then scrambles
across some shadowy ground, feet so sensitive to every
variation in level. She finds herself on some kind of
embankment, deep shadow just in front below her, but a clear
surface beyond. She jumps high, legs up, right over the
shadowy area, hitting the ground heavily. She screams with
fright, but she manages to keep her balance and resume
running. Her legs are really going too fast now, arms windmilling to maintain a precarious balance. The ground is clear
at first, then a ragged shadow just ahead indicates some kind
of deep gash in the soil. She cannot avoid the hole, can only
run right up to its edge and jump.
This time she is not so lucky. She hits the ground with
both feet at once, then her left shoe catches on the edge of a
rock and she tips over. She might scream now with some
justice, but she doesnt: the situation is too serious. Her left
arm comes down against the broken surface of a lump of
masonry, then scrapes along the grit as she staggers forward.
She knows she is in danger. The impulse is to fight to stop
the forward momentum, but that is impossible. She must run
now faster than she has before.
She runs. There is a tremor radiating up from her left
foot that threatens to paralyse the whole leg. So she stumps
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forward, favouring her right leg, using the other leg merely as
a counter-balance. She manages to stumble along like this
until she gets her speed under control. Just as well there is
one of those traversing shadows ahead now, deep shadow
with unknown depths, then a steep slope up to another bank.
The pit of shadow is too wide to jump, so she will have to
work her way across it.
She checks her wrist:
981,864 red; -3.34 amber.
Even so, she slows her pace and studies the whole
structure before her. Not a lot of broken masonry, no random
rocks. She estimates an earthen bank of some kind, so the
area along the base of the bank in deep shadow will be
reasonable clear of obstruction.
She runs on into the shadow area, tense of course and
ready to leap, hop, anything at all if she hits against anything.
The area is clear. A moment of weirdness for her: head and
shoulders above the pool of shadow, her legs racing forward
with a reckless drive out of sight. Its like she is split in two:
the senses that provide her with most of her knowledge of
what she is actually doing utterly divorced from the
instruments of action she is using.
Now she comes up against the bank. She scrambles up,
hands grasping at indentations in the rough surface, her feet
scrabbling in a kind of bluff. But she gets to the top and
jumps down beyond almost without pause, landing with a
nimbleness surprising in the circumstances.
There is a blankness at her wrist. She steps back slowly
until she is up against this side of the bank. Not much shadow
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here but she feels sheltered. She can hear the flying machine
buzzing back and forth above the bank.
Machine cannot see.
She steps out into the starlight, looks up. The machine
is flying back and forth in a tight pattern, searching for the
signal. She is exultant. She shouts:
RUN LIKE THE WIND, FLY LIKE A BIRD!
She doesnt know what she is saying though she feels
really happy for being able to shout it but the flying
machine lets out what seems to be a mechanical squawk and
begins to flying in a tight circle a way over to her left.
She quickly checks her wrist, sees it blank, then walks
out into the middle of the clear area. Its a roadway, wider
than the ones she has walked above among the domiciles.
The surface was once extremely smooth but now there are
many little cracks running off in every direction. She finds
marks in different colours. Red lines run across the roadway,
while bright green lines run along what must have been the
traffic lines. There are marks in black. She traces them with
her feet, going up and down and around as she does. She
doesnt understand what she discovers, while knowing they
convey information in some way:
E37W
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She also knows that the marks were to be read from her
right towards her left, that the traffic on this roadway
travelled that way, towards the side of the world where the
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she falls over on top of him. They roll on the ground, first one
way, then the other, as he struggles to straighten his legs, and
she grows frantic again because she can no longer rub herself
against him. They both know what to do then. He pulls his
gown up and she pulls her gown up. Then she sits down on
his penis, lays her opens hands flat on his chest, and presses
down on him until the pain begins inside her.
This pain is acute, perhaps even a dangerous pressure
inside her, but she will not relent, pressing her expanded
vagina down as hard as she can around his penis. The pain is
what she wants. It causes her to cry out. She wants
desperately to start something, though she has no idea what.
Her weight on him constrains his movements, so that
the tremendous pulsations that pass through him work back
into him. They cause him to gasp and finally to cough, a
feeling as of strangulation in his throat. He grows desperate
as he nears his climax and begins to push her back from him.
She fights this, pushing roughly with her arms while sitting
down repeatedly on his penis. But his strength is greater. He
grasps her waist with his large hands and strains to lift her up.
It works just in time, for his ejaculation is very forceful in
its initial thrusts.
They scream in unison, part passion, part severe pain.
It works for her. Something in her is as though opened.
She sees the man of stone, the man of what she is told is
gesture.
Gesture.
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her gullet. When she has finished, he takes the flask and asks
brightly, obviously expecting some kind of reward:
There. Is that better?
She says, once she has belched off some wind:
I am hungry too.
He smiles. For the first time he makes an attempt to
draw the bangs of hair off his face: he shakes his head
vigorously. The long hanks of hair fly up about him and then
settle back around his face. He uses his left hand to push the
hair back over his shoulders. His face is very puffy in the
white light, pitted with shadow. He gets to his feet.
I have prepared food for you.
The food comes in another two handled flask, steam
rising, an indeterminate odour going before it.
This is a very nutritious food, Sophie. It will help you
recover your strength.
It is a thick stew, ochre coloured, extremely smooth
and hot. He watches her drink this off slowly, her throat
gagging repeatedly as she scoffs the whole lot as quickly as
she can. She wipes her mouth slowly afterwards, releasing
the empty flask when he goes to take it from her.
He places the flask on the ground and then uses both
his hands to gently force her down onto her back. He takes
another cloth from a compartment in the wall of the room
and, pulling the damp wrap off her, lays the new cloth over
her body, drawing it right up to her mouth. When she brings
her hand up to rub her face, he pulls it back and pushes it
down under the cover. He then rubs her face all over with his
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I am awake!
Jesus, whats the big deal? It happens every morning.
Well, nearly every morning. Heh. Sure. Sometimes I do that.
Wake up suddenly. Like waking up is not the best thing to
do.
What time is it?
Youre not to talk to yourself, remember? Okay, okay.
Seven thirty. Nearly seven thirty. Sure, too early. Go to
bed too early. Dont like staying up late. Gets sort of
pointless. I mean, like youre really on your own. No. I dont
like the night, sort of empty. Night was made for sleep. Oh
yeah. Wherever that is. Dreamland. Dreams? Hey, I didnt
dream last night, did I? Cant remember. Sometimes I know
Ive dreamed though I cant remember anything. No. Didnt
dream. Definitely not. So maybe thats why.
Come on, move yourself, Joe. Okay okay.
So, where do you go in sleep? I mean, if its such a tear
waking up?
Jesus. Really get sick of this place. Same fucking
thing every day. Well, its nearly over. Sure. Well, have to
think about it, knucklehead. Got to get that organised. Yeah
yeah. Like Ill do it today. Oh yeah, do it today. Like open
the door and go out again. Say hi to everyone.
Hi!
Count the money. Hey, yeah, do that. Count out all that
dosh. Check it again. Okay, two hundred grand at say five per
for say one hundred fifty. That gets me. Oh shit. I still cant
handle this. Over three hundred million dollars. Fuck. Did
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they know this? Sure, theyre smart guys. They knew what
they were setting up.
I mean, I can go through that door and just walk into a
bank and say hi Im Joe Jarpinski, the time capsule man. Hey,
say it.
Hi, friend. Im Joe Jarpinski. Remember? Im the
Time Capsule Man. Slo-time Joe? Yeah, Ive been locked
away in that capsule, or whatever the fuck they call it now.
Yeah. Thats me. Heh. Like I want to check my bank
account. Get the balance, you know.
And the guy. Hey maybe a chick. Yeah. A chick. A
real pretty clerk. Little tits and long fingernails. Yeah. And
shell, like, check her screen and then
Oh fuck. I cant handle this. I mean, thats a lot of
money. Whatll I do? Ill go fucking crazy! Sure theyll have
guys to advise me. Therell be accountants. And lawyers. Oh
yeah, therell be lawyers too. And theyll say I should do this
and do that. Invest the money. Buy the basics. Get a house
somewhere nice. A car. And
Jesus. Im shaking. Too much too much. Ive really
got to get myself together on this. Come on. Just get on it.
Remember who you are. Youve been through college. Man,
youre a fucking engineer! Okay okay. Thing to do. Yep.
Have some coffee.
Huh, enough coffee for another two weeks. Yay.
Getting to that time, old buddy. Once the coffee runs out, you
know. And look at the beer reserves. Ten days. At average
rate of consumption. Bread. Three weeks. Cereals? Eleven
days.
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Trying to eat herself. Why did she do that if she wasnt crazy
crazy. Remember how she was? I mean, she was suffering!
Okay okay. Maybe too much coffee. Maybe too much
pressure. Gotta go out, all the same. Sometime between now
and ten fifteen days time. Okay. Back to this. So, I just open
that door and say hi to everyone out there, then just go doggo
until I see what way things are? Thats it? Okay. What if its
shitsville? So its shitsville. What do you call this dump?
Jesus. Say its just dandy. Yeah. Look, you wont know what
the score is until to go out there and find out.
Right?
Right. So.
Yeah. Okay. Just go to the door and press the pad that
says OPEN. Right. No, hold on. How do I look? Huh? I
mean, when did I last look in a mirror? When did I last
shave? Jesus, you havent showered for a week, man.
Okay, so a general spruce up, yep? So, one, take a
shower. Now.
Wish I had something. Ease the pressure. A little
maryjane maybe. Coke? Whoa. I mean, I fly on that stuff.
Fly. Go out there like that and Id be a prize bullshitter. I
know it. Like I owned the place. Hey, maybe I do! Heh. No.
No, something mellow. Sure, just a toke would do the trick.
Make me sweet. Make everyone sweet. Hey, thats be nice,
really nice. Just saying How you doin to everyone.
Okay. Cant see in that mirror. Hair will need cutting.
What? A number two, maybe. Wait. What will be the style
out there? Long hair? Short hair? None at all? Okay, the way
to approach this is, how do I want to appear to them? Like
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Hey. Now hold on. Why have I not heard from them
before now? They said there were supplies for up to a year.
They said they thought it wouldnt take that long. So why
havent they switched it off from their side before now? I
mean everything is running out. Would they have let it run on
this long?
Jesus. Do I want to think about this? I cant stay here,
whatever happens. No. Come away from the door. Dont hit
that button yet. Now, think. What kind of situation is it? I
mean, its only a year since. Not too much can have
happened.
Disease. Huh? A plague, something like that. Wiped
them all out. Am I the last man on earth? Hey, come off it!
Why do you always think the worst, the absolute worst.
Maybe theres a simple reason. Like what? Cant open the
door. Jammed? Youre kidding.
Jesus, just try it. Thats all. Its either okay or its not.
Youve got to try anyway, sooner or later.
Yeah. God, but this places a dump. How did I stick it?
Didnt know any better. No, I didnt. Always looking forward
to getting out and getting the money.
Yep, thats about it. And now? And now. Who knows?
Okay, lets go. Just press that button and see what
happens.
Press it!
Okay okay. Sweet Jesus help me here.
Hey! Something works! Stand back. Funny smell.
What is it? Not dangerous. Like mould of some kind. Well,
its been shut up for Hey, thats not true.
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the time shift itself? Maybe they cant get me back out of this
time shift or whatever.
No. They got those animals back no problem. I mean,
thats why they went ahead with this test. So what is it?
I dont know. I just dont know.
Okay. Im hungry again. Still a couple of those rolls.
Yep, theyll do.
So the situation is? Still here. And theres extra food
and things. So then, scan that stuff in and see what we have
got. Maybe live here for another century or two. Reckon
thats the idea. Keep me going until science advances far
enough to find a way out.
If there is any science now. Oh no, science there will
be. Its like any skill: if theres a use for it then it survives.
You dont give up farming just because a harvest fails. You
know farming works. No, theyll go on working at this
problem. They really wanted this time travel.
I wonder what happened? Maybe something about us
humans. You know, consciousness or something like that.
No. I cant see that. No. Try to think what happens over time.
I mean, Ill step out of here into a future way beyond what I
left behind. So time will change and I wont? Say three
hundred years have passed in the real world and only two
years here. So I am only two years older, while the world is
three hundred years older. Is that it? Can that happen? Well,
the animals they used in those experiments survived.
Didnt they?
Sure, I saw them. I was there, wasnt I?
Okay, what to do now? Scan those new supplies in.
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thought went into the design of this place. Must have thought
the project important. I mean, even if it failed.
Oh man, but this screen is huge.
Welcome, Doctor Jarpinski. I hope you are in good
health. May I say at once that this is a recording made
possibly hundreds of years ago. Please bear that in mind for
what I have to tell you here. Also note that you can stop this
introductory talk at any moment you wish. It will then resume
at the head of the section or, if you issue the command start,
it will begin from the top again. I also ask you to pay close
attention to what is said here. There will be pauses from time
to time to allow you make an initial assessment of what you
are being told. Say the word resume when you are ready to
continue. My name is Carl Seagun. I am the chief
representative of the west hemisphere natals to the World
Machine. I will explain something of this in a moment. Bear
in mind that you will find ample documentation on these
subjects in the memories of the domicile machine. More later
on that too. The year in 2547. I will pause
Holy shit! Twenty five forty seven! Well, fuck me
stupid. Thats over five hundred years into the future. And he
said this was recorded hundreds of years ago.
What date is it?
Oh holy God! I dont believe this. I just cant believe
this. Thirty one seventeen. Jesus, thats over a thousand years
into the future.
Hey! What do you think of that? Ive lived more than
a thousand years!
Fucking hell. No one has ever lived longer.
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age and die in seconds if you ever leave the chamber. I will
pause here.
Well, yes. It would be something like that, wouldnt it?
We think of everything and forget about the obvious. Kinda
strange, dont you think, buddy? I mean, think of this. I live
here totally cut off from the real world for maybe a year.
Okay, so Id be thirty three then. Yep. I go into the real time
world and it knows I am really a thousand and thirty three
years old. No. Hold on. Isnt it my body that knows that? No.
Like I am thirty three years old right now. Only I am as
though a thousand and thirty three years old in the real world.
Doesnt make sense, just doesnt make sense. How can the
real world know I have been around since nineteen eighty
two?
No, no no noooooo. This is just too weird for me.
A lot of things are too weird all of a sudden, Joe. Better
give it a break. Maybe try and get a drink from this place.
Alcoholic drink.
Hey, what do you know! Just like that. Hey, thats real
neat. Looks like whiskey. Smells more like a French liquor.
Ah. Hey, that is nice, that is really nice. Like a thousand year
old brandy.
Hey, machine, nice booze you got. Cheers!
And its there for the asking, man.
Okay, whats that word? Its not continue. I mean
thats the obvious word to use. Yes.
Resume.
Resuming. I would like now, Doctor Jarpinski, to give
you an outline of the subsequent history of the slow time
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wonders again how she has been able to push herself so far.
Searching, she finds a crumpled garment on the floor
between the couch and the sleeping man. It is damp and
smells strongly of sweat. It fits her body, so it must be hers.
She crosses to the nearest hatch and says:
Sustenance.
There is no reply. No machines at all, she reminds
herself. A narrow door a little further down the room opens
onto a small cooking area. A spigot provides water that
smells reasonably clean. She drinks slowly, mug after mug
until she is almost sick with the stuff. Now she walks about
the chamber, following the walls closely, all the while feeling
the water as it spreads through her. She walks until her
bladder fills.
The hygiene facilities are primitive, but serve their
various purposes. She drops the gown at her feet before she
showers and washes it perfunctorily afterwards.
The man wakens as she re-enters the chamber. He has
very bright eyes, like those of a child.
He says something, but she has already gone. Then he
screams:
Sophie!
She stands with her head bowed, a wet rag dangling
from her left hand. Water is still streaming from her body. He
rushes off for the drying cloth and sets to work vigorously.
He is beside himself with anxiety.
Why didnt you wake me up, Sophie. I said I would
take care of you, didnt I? Dont you know what that means?
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He grabs the cover from the couch, pulls her arms one
by one down by her sides, and wraps it tightly about her.
Then he forces her to sit down on the edge of the couch.
You are not to move, Sophie. Mind you heed me this
time.
He goes to the cooking area. She stands up and
struggles for a while to shrug off the wrap. It falls away. She
goes to the door and pushes it as she had seen him do. The
intensity of the light startles her and for an instant she is
deeply afraid. But she must go on, so she steps out into the
open, hands shading her eyes from the worst of the glare.
There are few stones underfoot. In fact, the surface is
so soft that she looks down out of curiosity. The surface is
green, a mass of short fronds that shiver in the gentle air
flow.
She is alarmed by this movement. She bends to
examine the fronds more closely. Suddenly, she knows that
the green matter is alive. This, of course, cannot be: only
humans can be alive. She asks:
Who are you?
There is no answer, though she does hear what seems
to be a low buzzing sound, as though coming from a great
distance. She says:
Is this punishment or sacrifice.
A small voice says very distinctly, as though
whispering from the far corner of a large chamber:
This is service.
She nods, straightening, suddenly filled with a feeling
like reverence for the green matter. She says:
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rays strike her full in the eyes. She screams, falls down and
rolls about in the agony of it. Where her eyes had once seen
the world, there are now only brilliant flashes of green and
gold light. For a moment she believes that this is the power of
the Lord manifested, then she knows that this is nonsense.
She opens her eyes.
The man is gaping at her, the two handled flask heavy
in his hands. She says:
The bosom of the Lord is the pit of unknowing. We
have
She reaches for the water. She wants the water with an
avid hunger, yet she does not feel thirsty. She drains the
flask.
He says, You must dress, Sophie. The sun will surely
burn you.
But he reaches down instead and grabs between her
legs. She drops the flash, twisting away, the water filling her
stomach nauseating her. He cries out inarticulately but with a
heavy note of longing. He picks her up with little effort and
pushes her down onto his erect penis. The water regurgitates,
but really she is beginning to respond to his agitated drives up
into her. She throws herself onto him, arms and legs
wrapping about him, the water she is spewing falling warmly
on their bodies.
They fall over and writhe on the grass. First he shouts
out, then she screams, her hands pulling at his ears as though
looking for something to hold on to. He simply clings to her
small body, his penis pressed as far into her as he can
managed, and he rocks both of them in a spasmodic way, as
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She turns about until she is facing sunward and lets its
warmth play onto her face and breast, to dry the wetness
there.
The Lord no longer knows who serves.
He comes back to her, arms hanging by his sides now,
looking thoroughly dejected. He says to her with a sad
resignation:
You will surely die soon, Sophie.
The heat of the sun is welcome. She is not cold yet
she feels chilled, as though she is no longer protected by her
own body. She looks at him, squinting up against the glaring
sky.
And you dont know how death is welcomed?
She looks about until she spots her gown, spread across
some low structure. She goes over and pulls it down. The
structure sways towards her, then swings back as the gown
falls into her arms. She does not remember ever seeing a
structure like it: slender base, spherical body. She sniffs. The
thing is alive. She is stunned by this knowledge.
Who are you? she asks curtly, affronted by her own
surprise.
The reply seems to come from further back among
what she sees are other alive structures, much taller than the
one she addresses.
We are companions of the grass spirit, who also abide
in service, though not in sacrifice.
She is surprisingly gladdened by this reply.
Are you many?
Once a myriad, now alas but a remnant.
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across her cheeks. Her lips are dull purple, thin and flaked
with dead skin.
He says: What kind of life do you have, Sophie? Your
plugs are worn already. Have you spent your whole life in the
madness of what they call reality?
Restoration must begin, I tell you.
She struggles under him, dragging herself through the
mud of the stream bed until she has worked her way free of
him. She scrambles to her feet, shaking the gown out so that
it falls down along her body. She turns until the sun is at her
back.
He says: We have waited the Restoration for a long
time, Sophie. Why should it happen now?
But she has already walked away from him, stomping
her way downstream. The gown sags at the back, weighed by
the heavy mud clinging there.
He is stunned that she can get up and leave him like
that. He remains lying flat out in the water not conscious of
the cold penetrating him then he shouts out part in alarm
part in outrage.
I will leave you to your death then, Sophie.
This is self-pity, of course. The memory she invokes in
him is fading and this is the source of his misery. Only in its
passing does he see the value of what he is losing. He thinks:
I was once like that, a long long time ago.
It was not happiness, nor was it bliss, he understands: it
was transparency.
The word surprises him. He says, forgetting that she
has already walked away:
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She checks her direction relative to the sun and sets off
across the wide flat floor of the valley.
He shouts at her back: No, Sophie, youre not dressed
for that terrain.
She waves him off impatiently. After a dozen paces
both her feet are bleeding, cut over and over by the small
sharp stones that litter the place. She stares
uncomprehendingly at the blood oozing out from the tiny
cuts, thinking: I dont feel the pain! And this is true. It is like
she is insulated in a box now from all the pain and discomfort
she knows assail her body. As for the box itself, it is a tight
fit for her, pressing in on either side and she feels
looming over her back. But there seems to be space to the
front, acting like an invitation to her to continue to move
forward.
She resumes walking and he shouts at her back: No!
Then she is picked up from behind and he is saying in her
ear, an angry hiss:
You will cripple yourself trying to cross the river bed
in your bare feet, Sophie.
He turns about and makes his way back to the damp
earth. He is holding her tightly in his arms, her body rolled up
against his naked chest. His flesh is hot, still bearing the
odour of her gastric juices. She is struggling in his arms,
trying to reach down to his penis, that wild hunger back to
drive her. He shouts No! again and tightens his grip on her.
No, Sophie, no more of that. It will kill you.
She seems to hear this, because she stops the vain
struggle. Instead, she throws her loose arm up around his
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neck and pulls herself up towards him. She presses her face
into the soft flesh of his neck. For a moment she just squeezes
herself against him, then she begins a loud moaning, muffled
by his flesh but nonetheless eerie for him to hear.
So he just stands there, his own bleeding feet sinking
into the soft mud, his own arousal like a gale in his chest, an
unease both sad and terrifying coming to make his whole
body tremble. He can see her as though stretching out into
time, going back and back into ages he could never
understand. He can see her strange keening come alive in her
as an ancient desire, reaching across from some terrible event
of departure towards an end that is at once recognisable in its
familiarity and utterly strange in its reality.
Then her pain actually enters him: it is as though he is
now one being, then another being, then the first being again,
each being completely separate, yet both are himself. He is
terrified by this vision, but at the same time he feels himself
indifferent to it.
How could anything matter?
And she looks up and says to him:
Thats it, natal.
He stares down at her, then asks:
What is?
She wriggles free from his now loosened embrace. She
lands on her hands and knees in the mud and finds she hasnt
the strength to raise herself to her feet. He crouches down to
her and asks again:
What are you talking about, Sophie?
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She merely shakes her head then lets herself slump flat
on the ground. It is not rest that she wants; it is simply that
the sudden dispersal of her passion has left an emptiness that
she cannot fill.
He stares at her supine body, settling slowly into the
mud as dark water wells up around her. He, too, is empty
now. The question still echoes in his head, but he can no
longer remember why he asked it in the first place. He sees
that her feet are bleeding, then sees that his own feet are
bleeding. He says matter-of-factly:
I will get footpads.
He walks away in among the trees.
Only when he has gone does she become aware of the
sun. Its heat is like a hand on her shoulder, on her back. A
consoling hand. She whimpers as she thinks this, seeing the
sun as a kind of god-being, all-seeing, all-caring, capable of
the forgiveness that comes from comprehension.
The water that oozes up around her, by contrast, is cold
and clinging, like a being that accepts your sins because it too
is sinning. This insight leaves her unmoved, at least until she
considers the obvious:
What sins?
She can remember no transgressions of that kind, but
then she sees herself rising up from the ground into the air, all
ablaze in a brilliant sunbeam. Her outrage is immediate: one
instant flaccid in the mud, next instant on her feet, shouting
her protest incoherently at the sky, the trees, into the eddying
wind.
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to raise her hand and yet she knows she will not do it. But she
shouts back to him, to console them both:
There is something else!
Her voice is thin and reedy in the clear warm air. He
nods, as fatalistic as she is. It is the separation that counts; it
is creating something tangible as though allowing space for
something new to enter. She is buoyed up by this insight.
Because she is surrendering something implies that
something else will come to take its place.
She looks back at him again. Already he is becoming
as complete for her as a memory. The confusion of the
encounter is taking on a definite form: she sees him bending
down to her, his mouth open in his nave way, as though
anything he chose to do for her would be just the thing
required at that moment. And yet: something was done by
him. She cannot see what is was, but she knows it informs
her now.
She waves to him: goodbye.
He waves in return a poignant gesture, as though at a
moment of death, a gesture ultimately futile.
She turns back to face the slope she will climb once
she has crossed the flat valley floor. For the first time, she
experiences a whisper of reluctance. Hitherto going forward
has always been easier than going back, or even standing
still. She knows there is nothing behind her and she knows
that if she stands still, she will merely die.
Context. Thats the word she hears. And context
means? Simply that there is no stopping, anyway, no matter
what she might otherwise like to believe.
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clones and raises her two thin arms above her head. The
clones are staring avidly at her, stunned and deeply curious at
the same time. Then they shout out together, pointing their
weapons at her head:
A fucking artificial! What the fuck are YOU doing
over here? Shoot her, shoot the bitch. We have to interrogate
her first. And the fucking natal. Dont forget that bollocks
either. He brought her up here. They get so excited that they
begin to walk in a circle, first back around their vehicle, then
over across to her, moving in a tight line, each with the same
emphatic jogging gait, stamping their heavily booted feet
down onto the dusty gritty ground. This has to be a
conspiracy. A fucking revolt against the Masters. Three, get
on the radio to HQ. We need reinforcements. We need to
stamp this out at the root.
She cuts across this nonsense by waving her arms and
shouting:
Will you all shut up for a minute!
They shut up immediately, but keep on jogging in their
circle. They are raising a lot of dust. She speaks in her more
normal voice this time, And stop that running round, will
you.
They stop running round, coming to a halt on the far
side of their vehicle from where she is standing. He comes up
behind her and says in a low voice, so that the clones cannot
hear:
Ask to speak to their Caretaker. We need to get them
under control first.
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ahead and presses the green button. A tinny voice from the
control box says:
Please insert your control stick. The appropriate slot
on the little dashboard is flashing blue. The voice says again:
Please insert your control stick.
He doesnt grasp what has happened at once, his finger
still pressing the green button, the machine still asking for the
insertion of the control stick. Then the clones get around to
shouting again:
Huh! Think you can just drive it off like that, do you?
Well, you need this one clone holds up the little plastic
stick, the other two clones hold up their right hands, each
folded as though grasping the stick and you dont have
one, do you? The last phrase comes out especially loud,
forced ribaldry in their voices.
He has at last taken his finger off the green button. The
blue light stops flashing. He sits quietly for a moment,
thinking, ignoring the clones jeering. Then he says, once the
clones have run out of things to shout at him.
Well, then, you had better give me that stick.
The clones are horrified.
We cant do that, you idiot. We are responsible for the
machine. So only we can drive it.
He nods at hearing this. He stands up awkwardly,
because there is not much room between the bench and the
control panel reaches down behind and hoists her up and
sets her sitting on the bench beside him. He pats her back and
tells encouragingly:
You bear up now, Sophie. Were almost there.
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chaffed, the swelling of her joints, the dried blood all down
her inner thighs. He calls, Begin. Full medical.
Nothing happens. He calls again: Begin your
procedure. Undertake a full medical examination.
Still nothing happens. Then he notices a small control
panel on the wall opposite the doorway. The controls, luckily,
are clearly described. Medical treatment is a blue button. He
presses it.
The machine says: Some preparatory cleaning will be
necessary. Please press the appropriate button.
He searches the panel and finds a button labelled
Complete Service. He presses this button.
Complete Service is very thorough. First they are
washed down and stimulated to full evacuations. Then there
are the prickings and scrapings, the internal probes. Every
organ is subjects to tests, each sense examined in turn. He has
to support her through most of this procedure, turning her
body about as required by the busy machines. He is surprised
at first to find himself subject to these examinations, but his
resistance is brushed aside without a word.
At the end the machine says: The woman requires
further intensive treatment. Please do not interfere with the
medical cart this time.
He is startled by this direct admonishment. So much
so, he stands aside when a trolley eases into the chamber and
lifts her onto its couch. But he does follow when it trundles
off down the corridor to another chamber at the end. Here she
is transferred to a couch surrounded by very elaborate
machinery and controls. He is surprised to see pipes inserted
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have some great deed of his written down in some book his
name forever linked to that deed is better than appearing
along with the rest of the royalty lumpen in this genealogical
list or another with perhaps a Roman numeral after his
name to further diminish him.
The Lord Bedford has now arrived at the entrance to
his extensive quarters. An overdressed lackey appears and
with a lot of bowing and mincing manages to divert his
Grace around to the back entry dedicated to the military
aspect of his career, which can better cope with his filthy
condition. So The Lord Bedford and his entourage go around
by the rosebushes, a heady display of red and extremely
yellow blooms to nod and wave as he passes. He is expected.
Already, heavy rush matting has been laid out in the open
area before the entry. His ostler, stablemen, and military
dressers are waiting for him, lined up according to rank and
seniority on either side of the entry.
The Lord Bedford breaks out in relief at the sight of the
ostler,
Oh, Harry, but Veronica is dead, slaughtered by
French artillery!
The ostler shows every sign of upset and despondency,
most of all by waving his thick arms high in the air. He
shouts out in grief,
Oh my Lord, what a dastardly commotion for you
today!
Whatever about the ostlers show of sympathy. The
Lord Bedfords emotion is genuine. He is so distracted by his
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And pray, my Lord, who will you mount for your next
foray?
The question stops The Lord Bedford short. It is a very
good question. For a small second or two, he is completely
unsure of what he will say, then he opens his mouth and out
comes:
Oh, Harry, who else but Rosie. He bends as far
towards the ostler as the ministrations of the dressers will
allow, a sign of conviviality, even confidence, in this: You
know she is a game mount, eh, my fellow?
The ostler betrays his surprise, but can cover that
quickly enough so the somewhat slower witted royal does not
notice. He says loudly, ejaculating forcefully in an attempt to
appear jolly (the ostlers habitual response to enforced
warmth of heart):
Rosie, my Lord? Aye, shes a game one and no doubt
about that. But you know, Sire, that she is pastured above
near Rooan?
The Lord Bedford is very surprised to hear this news.
Oh, Harry, is that so? Momentarily glum, he looks
ready to sulk. But, you know, Harry, I do look forward to
riding her tomorrow. Such a big game girl, you know.
The ostler hastily concurs, not wanting to have to
endure one of the The Lord Bedfords sulks today of all days:
Oh certainly, but she is a game beast, my Lord. He
pauses, one of his more sickly sweet grins on his face a sign
that he is not about to please his master. Tomorrow, my
Lord, need I remind you of this, is the feast of the
Assumption. The French wont come out tomorrow, Sire.
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russet carpet, deep couches along the walls, each littered with
soft cushions covered with gold-ochre velvet. A set of low
tables defines the way across this chamber to another
passageway. Its hard to see the way in the low light, but The
Lord Bedford in any case is thinking of softness and comfort,
of the benefits of a mild and indulgent climate even as he
stumbles along.
At the end of the next passageway, The Lord Bedford
arrives at his own private quarters, and there is the servant
busy in a far corner, by his bed, laying out fresh clothing for
him. Seeing him again renews in The Lord Bedford the
impulse to share his troubles with another mortal being. He
begins in gushing lament:
Oh, Pierre, but the most awful tragedy occurred this
morning. The Lord Bedford wrings his hands; the servant
continues with his task, his back to his Lord. But the finest
mare in my stable a magnificent creature out of Red Corsair
by The Flaming Mark she cost one hundred pounds
Antwerp when only a foal
The servant finishes his task and leaves the tent.
The Lord Bedford is astounded. He shouts in his best
voice not something he is used to doing off the battlefield:
PIERRE!
Silence, just silence ensues.
And how many Frenchmen did you kill today, my
Lord?
The Lord Bedford swings about, knowing at once who
addresses him, feeling as always the confusion she rouses in
him. But he says anyway in his natural outrage:
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Bedford is getting at. She flashes him one of her big smiles,
teeth gleaming through the chocolate patina.
Ah, yes. Well, you must know for yourself, my Lord.
Its all a matter of habit, as it were.
She takes up the pot and offers The Lord Bedford a
refill, which he immediately accepts. She tops herself up as
well. The Lord Bedford takes the opportunity to get another
almond finger for himself, saying as he does:
These little cakes are absolutely delicious, my dear.
You French are miracle workers in the kitchen.
She makes the familiar moue, accepting the
compliment but also suggesting that The Lord Bedford must
live a deprived existence if he is wonder-struck by such
ordinary fare.
There is silence, both chewing cake and sipping
chocolate the latter easier now that the thick liquid has
cooled somewhat. The silence is pregnant. It is obvious that
there is something to be said. The Lord Bedford finally
decides that the question had better be asked. This time,
though, he does not feel forced to speak as had been the
case previously. He is so thoroughly under the influence of
the chocolate that he is quite willing to expose himself.
What is it that I know, my dear: that images picture a
perfect world?
She is taken aback by this.
You mean Heaven, my Lord? Is Christ hanging on the
cross your idea of Heaven?
It is at this moment that The Lord Bedford feels the
first suspicion of the trap that awaits him. There are many
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can you not treat your God as such a gentleman. Is God not to
be considered a gentleman? You need only salute Him with a
simple greeting. You could say, for instance as I have heard
gentlemen, both French and English, say Good morrow,
Sir, I hope I find you well. Or you could say, You have my
best wishes, Sir. She smiles broadly, her eyes bright with
the fun of it. What could be easier?
Indeed, but for the utter madness of it. The Lord
Bedford imagines for an instant greeting God with such a
salutation. People would think him insane. He is speaking,
stammering:
That is m-madness!
She smiles again, a false warmth. The Lord Bedford
finally understands how much this young common woman
loathes and hates him.
How do you know if you have never tried to do it?
You need only extend your greeting to God, much as you
would to any gentleman.
The Lord Bedford is by now shaking all over. He
knows very well that he is shaking with fear, though he still
hopes that it will be mistaken for anger. But there is no hope
for that, for she murmurs, as though to soothe him at this
crucial juncture:
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of Wisdom.
And it does help, for he finds a long gentle sigh issuing
from his mouth. He nods.
Just utter the words, my Lord, as though you intend
them for a gentleman. Only know that this gentleman is your
God.
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Im awake!
The thought is so clear that she strains to listen, as
though someone is speaking to her. Yes, she is awake.
Suddenly awake, a startling clarity in her awareness. For a
while she is filled with this luminous light, then a voice
speaks, definitely coming from outside her:
Do not move. The umbilicals must be detached.
She knows what this signifies, so she waits
expectantly. The trying moment is not the separation of the
pipes themselves, but the cessation of the flow of fluids into
and out of her body.
And so it is: a sadness and regret, then the emptiness,
then the chill of aloneness.
You should rest for now, Carabella. You are still in
trauma.
The light has faded so that only the dull external light
is apparent through her eyelids now. So she opens her eyes.
The blue light is familiar. She has difficulty opening her
mouth at first. There is pain everywhere, even in her tongue
when she tries to move it. But she does manage to speak, a
croaking tone, very low and weak:
There is no time for rest.
She is surprised to hear herself say this. Why cant she
rest? The prospect of moving puts her into a swoon, the
internal light strengthening again.
Then another voice, also outside her:
You are awake, Sophie?
She sees only a shadowed form looming above her,
dangling hair grazing her shoulder and breast. She raises a
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The sustenance hatch flies up. The old man pivots and
seizes up the tray and beaker with a blind habitual motion. He
lays the tray on the edge of her table, coming to stand close to
her, and begins eating at once, spooning the food into his
mouth with a practiced rapidity. Even so, he can resume
speaking:
You know, my dear, but I am sure you would find
these people interesting. I mean, if you could take the time to
study them. I say that because of your fondness for hair. He
falters, obviously repulsed by the growing mop on her head.
They were so proud of their hair, do you know that? They
spent fortunes just maintaining it. I mean, it was such an
extravagant waste in the end. But, as I was saying, they used
these belts to hold all these pieces of clothing together.
Though I must tell you that they often strapped a belt about
their bodies even when it wasnt strictly required. And so
tight!
Finished eating, he takes his tray and beaker and tosses
them into the serving hatch. He returns, snatches up her tray
and beaker too she has just about finished drinking off her
fruit juice and throws them towards the hatch. Obviously a
lot of experience here, for the utensils fly straight into the
hatch, landing with a clatter among his own.
There now, the old man says with deep satisfaction,
wiping his fingers across his gown. He turns to her, gazing at
her reclining body as if looking for inspiration, then lights up.
Ah yes. Now, my dear, we will have to get a gown for
you. Must have you decent for the Superintendent. He sets
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of entering the City for the first time. I have seen greater than
you in tears in this very room when they finally don their
gown. He even reaches and touches her shoulder. Now, let
us select the right gown for you. He steps away from the
shelves. See? You can come and look for yourself.
And she does step forward, taking an interest in the
array of colours. But then she stops and says:
I am afraid now.
He is startled by her admission.
No, dont say that. He steps towards her again, now
gentle, a warmth radiating from him. Look, when I saw you
last night for the first time. You were near to death. And yet
you were so determined. There is no one in the world like that
anymore. He shakes his head in unfeigned admiration. I
dont know who you are or what you are doing here, my dear,
but I believe that what you do is important for us all. Now he
finally stands before her the old man stooping slightly
though they are of the same height and he spreads his hands
before her.
Tell me what I can do, and I will do it.
She turns towards the open door, the corridor outside
lit with the weak blue light. She says:
I cant remember. I dont know what to do now.
He nods repeatedly as she speaks, concentrating
intently on her every word. Then he says slowly:
For now, my dear, you must dress. After that,
everything will go by itself. I assure you of that.
She turns back to him, her hand reaching towards him.
For a moment she is animated, a flush running up her body
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The more she walks the less sticky are her feet. At the
door, she hesitates again and looks back.
The platform has gone. She is alone.
The door opens for her.
It is a bright room because a line of tall windows fills
the opposite wall. There is a man sitting huddled on the floor
in the centre of the room. He is naked and she can hear his
teeth chattering from where she stands by the door. The
windows are filled with blue sky. She goes across to the
windows, making a wide detour around the figure on the
floor. It seems that she is standing at the top of one of the
Spires, very high above the ground. The view is unknown to
her, a wide brown terrain that stretches flat away into the
distance. But there is a short line of hills at one point on the
far horizon, a little to the right of where she looks.
Not far away from the Spire she can see that a furrow
has been created in the earth. It is lined with a white
substance. The furrow ends abruptly over to her left, after
which the land is uniformly flat and brown. She is wondering
what this furrow is when something comes shooting into
view from the left, travelling at a truly amazing speed. It is
long and black. It is a train.
She hears nothing. She turns to the figure on the
ground and asks:
Is that one of the tunnels?
The figure starts and looks up at her. It is a man, a
natal, an old natal. His face is a flat white, his straggling hair
clings to his narrow skull. He says, croaking voice hardly
above a whisper:
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runoff is stained pink for a while, then runs clear. She cleans
her gown by the expedient of walking back and forth across it
until the water runs clear here too. Another button activates
the driers. She takes the wet gown with her when she leaves
and spreads it out on the floor of the main chamber to dry.
That done, she sets off across the room. The natal
looks up as she approaches. He stares mutely at her and she
knows that he cannot bring himself to ask her again for help.
She says as she passes feeling obliged by her role to make
this observation for his benefit:
The Angel as you call it may be a mighty being in
Heaven as you call it but here on earth it is little more
than a mewling infant.
She skirts him widely and continues on to the
subsistence booth. He screams at her back, a fury he cannot
contain:
How dare you demean the Angel of Glory? Who are
you to speak of infants? You prattle like a cocky child.
In the subsistence booth it takes her a moment to work
out how to draw a beaker of water. It is cool and sweet. She
also discovers which button to press to get food: a crunchy
bar that is extremely satisfying to eat.
Back in the main room, she says to him:
Have you been married?
He is glaring at her, leaning towards her while
supporting himself on his arms. Her question takes him by
surprise.
What do you mean, married? That custom died out
centuries ago.
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She has just had a very good idea. She goes over and
collects up her wet gown and takes it into the subsistence
booth, where she lays it out across the back of one of the
seats. Now it will dry more quickly. Returning to the main
room, she replies:
They used to call it the Sacred Marriage. A very
ancient ritual, where two were made one.
He shakes his head, a momentary worry interfering
with his fine rage.
Ive never heard of that.
No? Then you have been poorly prepared for your
ordeal, natal. She shakes her head slowly. There is very
little I can do for you.
The worry now takes him over. But I am overborne.
She bends towards him, then she crouches. But the
discomfort is so great that she must go down on her knees.
He at once transfers his attention to her groin, staring with an
increasing fascination at her pubic bush.
She says: It is as though you are trying to give birth
without the mother being present. It is not possible. She
stops, catching herself on. She lowers her head until she can
catch his eyes. Please pay attention to me. I said I would
help you as best I can in the circumstances.
She waits until he sits up and transfers his attention to
her face.
Now, you will shortly die. The spirit that you insist on
calling the Angel of Glory will withdraw. You will follow it
you wont be able to resist doing that which will result in
your death.
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This will serve you for tonight. There are all the basic
amenities. Im sure you remember how to use them.
She is a little dumbfounded even so. Only now that the
end has at last come and she can withdraw again, does she
feel that this time there is a difference. She enters the room,
sees the door to the hygiene booth, the little subsistence
alcove, the end-wall screen, the Superintendent standing by
the couch. She says, gesturing:
It will nonetheless happen. It must happen.
The Superintendent gapes at her, only now at the end
realising that he may have misunderstood her all along.
But how can it happen? We dont know.
She sighs, suddenly near to tears, the exhaustion
returning after the demands of the day.
No, you do not understand. You must let it happen.
The Superintendent steps towards her, a nameless
anxiety in his bowels.
Let what happen?
She shrugs, turning away from to go into the hygiene
booth, losing interest again.
They are prepared. They know.
In the booth, she pulls the gown over her head. She
presses the button for the Complete Service. She sinks to her
knees when the water sprays hit her, bending down and
bursting into tears. And yet she feels that she is rising in some
way, not falling to the ground in defeat again. There is a pale
clean light somewhere, glowing at the edge of some dark
horizon.
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tuneless air through his teeth. Then back near the couch, he
remarks:
Im assuming that this is not a sexual matter. I mean,
the seed you refer to is not the male spermatozoa, is it?
She has finished her meal, feeling pleasantly replete, a
growing sense that this time again she has done the best she
could in the circumstances. She presses the button that
reclines the couch to sleeping mode. Laying herself out
slowly an edge of indulgence in this she asks:
Will you lower the light for me?
She composes her arms down by her sides, stretching
her legs out to their fullest extent.
The light changes to the low blue light of the machines.
She closes her eyes with a feeling of true relief. Only now
does she wonder, momentarily fretful, if she will be able to
sleep.
The Superintendent has returned to the vicinity of the
couch. He resumes speaking:
Though I need hardly add that I havent a clue what
the seed you refer to is. I suspect it is some esoteric entity.
Perhaps a capacity that can be
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Uh, sorry.
Then everything goes dark, pitch-black dark. Berenice
shuts her eyes tight and crouches down immediately, keeping
her head perfectly still. She knows she must not look down or
look away, both reflex actions difficult to control. Just one
stray reflection off an inner surface of the shades could burn a
hole in her head. Literally burn a hole way into her head. She
knows this so well. The burn might not kill you, could merely
blind you or turn you into a gibbering idiot.
Now she counts, counting thousand and one, thousand
and two, all the way up to thousand and twenty. Then she
drops the jerrycan and runs as fast as she can back to the
caravan. Berenice can run fast heavy limbs still well
muscled and all the time she is listening for some sound
behind her. What kind of sound she doesnt know. It could be
the roar of a flame dragon, burning up everything in its path.
It could be some appalling scream that would cut right to the
heart of her own deepest terror, how she fears the pain of
dying more than the actual death itself.
There is only the thuds of her boots on the hard stony
ground, the rising pitch of her laboured breathing.
She opens her eyes long enough to target the door of
the caravan, adjust the aim of her pell-mell flight. She lets
herself run blindly up against the door, elbows braced
forward to take the brunt. The door whips open immediately,
so Berenice shoots on in, foot catching on the step, she going
flat out on the floor.
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Only then does she realise the extent of her panic. She
rolls onto her back. Corry is leaning over her, a shrewd
expression on her face. Berenice sits up and shouts:
Close the shutter, Corry! Is it shut?
She sees that it is. She looks again at Corry:
Good girl.
Corry shrugs. There was no one out.
Berenice gets to her feet. Corry comes over and places
her little hand flat on her left arm. This has a wonderful
calming effect. Berenice passes her right hand across her
daughters hair, savouring the curves of the childs head, as
she always does.
You did good, kid. She nods for Corry, to show how
serious she is in this.
Berenice sees that the flash alarm is still lit. She goes
over and resets it. Corry has followed, deflated now that the
high excitement has eased. She says: You were lucky,
mommy. She starts to cry, the silent, resigned weeping of
utter misery.
Berenice kneels to embrace her daughter. Oh, I think
it was okay, sweetie. I guess we were in the shadow of the
trucks. She takes the shades off to show Corry. See?
Nothing at all. A pause now while Berenice draws back so
she can gain eye contact: Sam warned me. I was worried
about you, on your own here.
Corry stifles the tears, getting some control over her
abject state again. Berenice has laid her hand on her
daughters shoulder, a reassuring weight for one, a reassuring
support for the other. Now look, honey, it aint no harm for
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the Pot itself, shutting the cabinet door and pressing the large
green button.
Corry, having completed her task, comes to stand by
her mother. Both stare at the Pot, conscious that it is
preparing their evening meal. The Other World process will
not take long, though there is no indication anywhere on the
white plastic drum white for some unknown reason always
the colour of OW machines, big and small of any internal
activity. With nothing happening, mother and daughter can
only becomes more aware of each other. This is the cue for
Corry to step into her little-girl mode, which allows her to fill
the gap between them by asking a little-girl question:
Whats it doing, mommy?
Berenice can easily slip into her wise mother mode
once, of course, Corry has prompted her and she physically
sags as she enters the role, her somewhat busty figure
becoming dumpy in the blink of an eye:
Well, honey, best I understand it is that we send some
water through the Looking Glass thing and the Other World
gives us some of its omnium in return. Then the Pot makes
our supper.
Corry nods as any bright little girl would. Berenice
nods as any informative mother would. They nod together,
both quite stupefied by their shared ignorance of what
actually is happening, until the Pot issues its soft, comforting
chime that tells them that their meal is ready.
Press the blue button and the little door springs open to
reveal their supper, one nice Marietta on each plate and the
beakers filled with cool creamy milk. Berenice takes the
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her that because bad weather had destroyed the grain crop,
there was no bread for the people to eat.
Now, the Queen did not have much experience of the
lives of her subjects, having lived all her life in palaces
served by many servants. But she did give some thought to
the problem facing her people and so arrived at a solution.
She called her council and declared she had the solution to
the problem of famine in the country which was beginning
to worry the court very much. Her solution was very simple.
If the people couldnt eat bread, then perhaps they should eat
cake instead. Her counsellors were very surprised to hear this.
The Queen, however, would not be put off. She pointed out
that while bread might be scarce, there was certainly a lot of
cake available. She argued further, that cake would serve as a
very good substitute for bread, citing her own case, where she
explained that she could not remember the last time she ate
bread.
The court was very amused by all this. The Queen was
angry that no one would take her seriously. So one day she
had her chief baker brought into her presence. She explained
the problem of the shortage of bread to him and her solution
to this problem. The Queens chief baker was a small old
man, very learned in the arts of bakery and with many years
of experience in producing all kinds of delightful cakes for
his royal employers. Unlike many of the royal servants, the
old baker was respected by the Queen. It was possible for
him, then, to do what no one else dared or cared to do,
and that to tell Her Majesty that cake was too expensive for
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the common people. That is, that her starving subjects could
not afford to eat cake.
The Queen had never reason to consider these matters
before. She actually knew practically nothing about the lives
of those she ruled. Now, the Queen was very conscious of her
rank and insisted that everyone observe its dignity but she
was not a proud person herself. So it was possible for her to
ask for the old bakers advice. He was very patient with Her
Majesty, explaining in detail how bread and cake were made.
He also made her aware that there was another kind of baked
food, that is the biscuit, in which could be combined the
advantages of both bread and cake. This information inspired
the imagination of the Queen, who immediately conceived
the possibility of designing a biscuit that could feed her
people in these straitened times. So the old baker was given
the task of producing a new kind of biscuit that could replace
bread.
Well, the old man was gone for more than a week a
long time in the middle of a famine and one morning he
was shown again into Her Majestys presence. He carried a
small plate covered with a white muslin cloth. He laid the
plate on a little side-table and had it brought forward to the
throne. The Queens curiosity of course had by now become
avid, so much so that she rose to her feet and came closer to
the table. The old baker did enjoy this moment of being the
centre of attention, for the whole court had fallen silent when
the Queen got to her feet. Even so, he was a very wise man
and so not seduced by vanities. He simply responded to the
Queens unfeigned curiosity by drawing away the muslin
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honour, for she was seen to flush red in response, so that the
whole court broke out into loud applause.
Corrys face suddenly crumples, tears springing into
her eyes. Berenice is aghast. It is like her daughters face is
melting and about to run down off her little round skull to fall
in blobs like candle wax on the table. Berenice is seriously
frightened by this, but this time the fear does not overbear
her. She feels it finds an abode in her, as though there is an
appointed place in her for this terminal fear.
Even so, she says out of concern for her little child,
who is yet so immature and vulnerable:
Aw, Corry, help me out here, will you?
Call cee four two. This is Jake Geats. Reckon you
folks know what happened over at Flagstaff tonight. So
therell be a change of plan for tomorrow. Well head down
the old one nine one a ways, then cut across the desert
towards
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Each time I see these truths but forget them when I reenter reality. This time you might remember, yes?
The pain afflicting the natal is intense. He is finding it
increasingly difficult to breathe. He waves his arms to draw
attention to his predicament.
She goes into the main chamber and climbs onto the
couch. She wants to sleep now.
Timbokto? Timbokto, where are you? Where is
Timbokto?
The hairy face of a stout natal stares at her from the
large wall screen. His right eye is deeply bloodshot in one
corner, the red brilliant against the pallid flesh. She says
shortly, in reflex:
I dont know.
The natal is immediately startled, his head bobbing
about as though he was blind. He shouts impatiently:
Sam! The tracking camera. Where is the tracking
camera, Sam?
The answer is muted from her position because the
voice speaks in the natals chamber only:
It is set for Timbokto, Mandarin. As you requested.
The natals eyes narrow with irritation:
Then can you set it on whoever is speaking. Please.
The last word is surprisingly conciliatory, given the
natals apparent frustration.
Timbokto is distressed, Mandarin. In the hygiene
booth.
The natal on the screen flicks his head rapidly from
side to side:
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At first the natal stays away towards the far side of the
sizeable platform, staring fixedly before her, obviously not
encouraging any talk between them. But then she grimaces
violently a change of expression that does distort the
harmony of her features and turns her head to stare at her.
Why cannot a woman embrace the Angel of Glory?
She speaks with a stinging tone, the deep bitterness evident
here disquieting in one who seems well favoured. Why only
men, artificial?
She is profoundly surprised by the question, at once so
personal and yet so stupid. It is hard for her to take the
trouble to answer, seeing no reason why her own bliss should
be disturbed by such a trivial question.
The natal is at once impatient with her hesitation.
They tell me only men have the ability, artificial. It is
men who tell me this, so I dont believe them. But Ive
demeaned myself as much as any man does and nothing
happens. I hear no voice, I see no visions. And I never feel
enlarged by the presence of the Spirit.
She shrugs and answers, obviously to the point:
You have just said it yourself, natal. The woman does
not have the means. She shrugs again, becoming somewhat
contemptuous of the natals stupidity. Thats just it, the way
it is.
But what about you? The natal now shrieks, her wide
mouth open fully in a fearsome way. I know you are only an
artificial, but arent you a woman too. How can you do it?
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I am cold now.
The artificial women immediately reaches to embrace
her shoulders and draw her into her own warmth. Come,
she croons tenderly, and we will deal with that also.
Through the little door on the far side of the chamber
there is a smaller chamber with arranged tables and chairs.
The artificial woman leads her across this chamber and
through another door into what is obviously a hygiene booth.
She is stood in the centre of the booth. The artificial says, I
will leave you here while you are attended to. She presses
one of a row of studs just inside the door and quickly steps
out, drawing the door behind her.
The hygiene unit is thorough. There are moments of
extreme discomfort, but at the end of the process she feels
vastly improved in wellbeing. The machine says, curtly but in
a soft rounded tone:
Serious lesions detected. Lengthy period of complete
rest indicated. You should take note of this recommendation
because you are in danger of dying.
The door slides open again and the artificial woman
reappears, beaming with pleasure to see her so revived.
Now come, my dear. We must dress you. Then we can
see to your sustenance.
She lays her arm across her shoulders and gently but
firmly leads her out into the larger chamber. When she sees
the blue gown laid out across the back of a chair, she draws
back. The artificial woman is patient:
No, you must dress yourself, my dear. That is proper.
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only. It gives clarity of mind, you see, but it can excite the
irrational also, unfortunately.
The liquid is hot and bitter. She drinks most of it
straight away to counter her thirst.
The artificial woman has sat down opposite her,
elbows on the table and leaning forward so much that her
brows crease deeply right up onto her bald scalp when she
looks at her. She too is drinking tea. She says, blurting her
words in her excitement:
I admire your missionary work, my dear, but I want to
tell you that I really envy the time you spend in the
actualities. I have always wanted to play a part in an
actuality. Yes, I know we are supposed to frown on such
mass entertainment, but I freely admit to watching the
actuality shows when I can. I mean, I find so much truth in
them. Im not sure how they are made I mean, they can be
so life-like its sometimes frightening. My favourite can I
tell you? There is this episode that I watch over and over. Its
about a man called Christopher Columbus. Apparently he
lived about one thousand five hundred years ago. He sailed
across what was then the Atlantic Ocean and discovered the
American continents for the Europeans. Look, there is a part
in it that I must tell you about. They are on this ship on their
way across the huge ocean. On board is an aristocrat called
the Duke of Orro who is a representative of some king who
has an interest in the voyage. Anyway, this Duke and
Christopher Columbus are talking up on deck. The sun is
setting before them into the blue ocean and it is very quiet.
And the Duke says to Christopher Columbus, Does it not
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trouble your conscience, sir, that you are about to lead whole
nations into the deepest of delusions? And Christopher
Columbus pauses before answering, gazing steadily out at the
huge red ball that is the setting sun. Then he says simply,
They will sink into even worse delusions if not, your
Excellency. Isnt that a wonderful answer, my dear?
The door opens and the young artificial man enters,
saying:
There is not much time now. We must continue with
the ceremony.
The artificial woman clasps her hands together as a
sign of her contentment and says, glancing from the artificial
man to her and back again:
What is you favourite actuality show, Petero?
The artificial man must pause to think. Im not sure I
have a favourite. He glances at her, suddenly wry: I dont
watch many, you see. But, yes. There is one I have seen a
number of times that strikes a chord, as it were. He presses a
finger to his lips, his brow corrugating with concentration.
Well, its where
The old natal enters the dining hall, bending slightly to
peer down at the assembled artificials. He speaks in a low
voice, a tentative quality that indicates restraint:
Perhaps we should finish our business, artificials.
Time presses.
She stares at the natal for a moment, as though
surprised to see him there. She looks around her. The liquid
she has drunk is having its effect. She feels like she is an
utterly empty chamber that she has just left, closing the door
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you argue that each participant acts freely out of his or her
own best judgement. But we
The surviving natal stops speaking abruptly when the
artificial woman suddenly reaches and grasps his right hand
and shouts:
Oh no! Not that, no, not that at all!
She is surprised by her own vehemence and glances
from the surviving natal to the artificial man with an
increasingly sheepish grin spreading across her features.
No. I just cant remember. I mean, thats whats so
strange. I had a thought, and then it just disNo, not a
thought. Oh, I saw something. I mean this, Petero, I saw
something.
She starts crying loudly, gushes of tears, face riven by
grief just like that. She wails loudly: Oh, what did I see?
What did I see?
The surviving natal is becoming agitated now
perhaps the physical contact with the artificial woman
induces this and he too begins to sob, as though an abiding
fatalism in his nature comes to the surface.
There is the slightest jarring of the floor.
It is left to the artificial man to try to bring some order
to the situation. He draws away from his colleagues, feeling
his way around the circle of chairs, saying as he does:
Oh, Catratsion, come on now. Its not such an
important subject, now is it? No one is saying that you are
entirely mistaken in your opinion. In fact, there might well be
some merit in it. After all, we are all free individuals to the
extent that we can make mistakes. Isnt that right? No one
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will ever insist that you are entirely wrong, but you must
admit, for your part, that our argument must also be taken
into account.
The surviving natal frowns such a deep frown that the
corrugation of his brow has the effect of drawing his hair
forward in a very strange way. He releases the artificial
womans grip on his hand and turns to face the artificial man.
He speaks slowly with careful enunciation:
But that is just the point, Petero: how can blindness be
regarded as a freedom? I mean, within the usual definition.
The entrance door slides open and a small man comes
bustling in. He is wearing a grey gown, over which is tied a
long apron of some glossy black material. He also has a
mechanism strapped around his head, a number of cables
dangling from it over his shoulders and so down his back.
The artificial man stops circling the circle of chairs
fully opposite the surviving natal and the artificial woman, as
it happens. He visibly bristles, his eyes especially showing
the strength of his reaction: they narrow and seem to sink into
his head, so that they gleam like lights in caves. He speaks
with an unpleasant abruptness:
Just because we are limited as individuals does not
mean we cannot participate and perhaps in certain cases
participate fully in the ongoing activities of the presiding
intelligence. We are agents, even if we are not originals.
The small man comes up to her, smiles in a way that
indicates familiarity and reaches for her left hand. She
immediately reacts by trying to pull her hand away, but the
small man shifts his grip to her wrist which is very thin
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insist thusly. The Minotaur stands for our lower nature, which
must be expunged in order that the higher spirit within us can
rise to its proper station.
It is Feliks Feliksovich who responds now who, after
all, had asked for this information in the first place he
drawing back from the by now thoroughly upset young man:
Expunged, my dear Vladimir Mitrofanovich? Such an
emphasis you place on that word. Are we to reach for the
ostlers knife? Is that what you advise, holy Russian
philosopher?
Ah no, Sofya Vasilevna murmurs involuntarily,
feeling some obligation for having broached this particularly
tender subject. Perhaps this is too cruel?
Here Feliks Feliksovich laughs the short bitter laugh of
the melodramatist a remarkably excessive gesture it seems
to everyone else and fixes his now hot eyes on Sofya
Vasilevna:
Then it is a cruel subject, dear lady. If this higher man
cannot rise out of to quote our educated friend here beside
me man as we find here on earth incarnated, then where
will he spring from?
It looks for a moment as though a real and genuine spat
might erupt between the two gentlemen on the couch. They
are staring at each other with fevered eyes, each with his
hands pressed down onto his respective thighs, each
consumed by the same wonderful fury. But then the Grand
Duke releases his hand from that of his companion on that
side of the compartment and by reflex takes up the dead
cigar that has rested on the edge of the ashtray at his elbow.
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his master, the Grand Duke, who nods civilly in accepting it.
He immediately places it on the table at Sofya Vasilevnas
elbow, saying in his best mock-cavalier tone:
Your ration, my dear.
The servant has continued the distribution: a glass for
the Prince, then a glass for Vladimir Mitrofanovich seated at
his side. Back to the tray on the little table, then, to discover
only one glass remaining. Dmitri Pavlovich spares the old
man confusion by raising the glass he had himself taken,
saying loudly with a faintly sardonic edge:
Perhaps, Grigory Efimovich, you might be seated, so
my servant might serve you also.
There is a crux here, of course. The monk takes the
trouble to look around the compartment. Feliks Feliksovich
and Vladimir Mitrofanovich are seated side by side towards
the centre of the settee, both with eyes down, apparently
studying the clear liquid in their glasses. Dmitri Pavlovich
offers a suggestion:
Perhaps on the settee alongside those gentlemen.
There is a general clenching of jaws. No one moves.
Then Sofya Vasilevna says looking at Grigory Efimovichs
broad back, tightly mantled in a typical black podryasnik:
We have resorted to this seating arrangement for your
benefit, monk.
Grigory Efimovich starts at the sound of her voice. He
turns slowly like a cornered dog and says, bending so that
his intense eyes come close to hers:
All will die when I die, Lady.
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