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KKS Lecture Transcript -Caitanya Caritamrita 4.182
30th June 2002 parT 2
If there is in our inner core of our
heart some other feeling then we
are battling with ourselves in
devotional service which is the
normal state that most of us are
experiancing, the conditioned
state of devotional service. So
this conditioned state of
devotional service is a struggle,
because many times we find a
contradiction in our heart. So
somehow or other we can serve,
then we can make a lot of
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advancement and especially
serving the vaishnavas, we can
make the most advancement,
especially the senior vaishnavas,
that is the recommended process.
Yes there is no real… there is no
alternative because other than
Krishna Consciousness what is
there?... There is nothing there.
Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu was
totally transcendental and in his
pastimes His every single act was
taken as mercy by the devotees.

Whether he was kind upon them
by speaking gentle words or
whether he was chastising them,
the devotees were accepting it as
the mercy of the Lord. When
Lord Nityananda kicked
Sivanenda Sena in the Chest,
Lord Nityananda had been
waiting a long time and
Sivanenda Sena was suppose to
arrange passage on the road
passed the ..toll post..something
like that…something like the
customs, not exactly that but
similar, you have to pay tax, a
toll..yeah.yeah
So anyway they had to wait there
and Lord Nityananda had to wait
there very long because somehow
or other because Sivanendea Sena
took very long to arrange the
payment….so when he came back
finally Lord Nityananada was so
upset that he said “what is
this?you are keeping us waiting
all this time” He kicked him in
the chest. Full on kick…Bang!
And then Sivanda sena, he was
very happy “Lord Nityananda has
kicked me in the chest” but his
cousin Sri Kantha was very upset,
very upset that how could He do
this to my uncle this is
outrageous, no respect at all , he
worked so hard and this is what
he got, this is a spiritual
personality. So, but the cousin or
nephew, I think it was the
nephew, the nephew was in
..Maya, he was in illusion he
didn’t understand the mercy of
Lord Nityananda. So in this way
we take it like that, that somehow
or other whatever comes, whether
it is gentle or strong, the mercy of
the Lord is coming in various
ways, somehow or other, to bring
us to that point where we have to
surrender and it is, it is like that.
Yeah this chapter is very exalted
and it has many many important
descriptions about Rasa Lila,
about the nature of the exchanges
between Krishna and the Gopis.
Prabhupada, of course felt that we
should not really spend too much
time and energy on discussing all
these topics because one has to
first purify, the inner chamber of
the heart and only when that is
done one can understand these
pastimes properly, otherwise it is
difficult, therefore I am inclined
to go to next chapter, which
begins to describe the glories of
Lord Nityananada.
Because it is said that Radha
Krishna, it is said…sansktrit…
Without the Lotus feet of lord
Nityananda one can not approach
Radha and Krishna so therefore it
is explained here that Lord
Nityananada is the Supreme
Personality of Godhead whose
opulence is wonderful and
unlimited. By His will even a
fool can understand his identity,
This is the only way that we can
ever be Krishna conscious, by the
mercy of Krishna and therefore
our process is based on devotional
service on pleasing Krishna with
service and then Krishna will
reveal himself.
Without Krishna revealing
Himself one can not know
Krishan…Sanskrit… Because the
Problem is the Lord has covered
himself, He has covered himself
from all the conditioned souls.
We are all here in the material
world and say that the Lord is
invisible, we can not see Him and
we can not perceive Him. How
do you know that Krishna really
exists and how do you know that
He is God.. It is difficult.
Because Krishna is the Supreme
Personality of Godhead and He
can only be known when He
reveals Himself to His
surrendered devotee, that is the
process , now it is to be
understood that Lord Chaitanya
of all incarnations is most
merciful, most magnanimous …
Namo Maha Vadanyaya….so
Lord Chaitanya is giving out the
mercy to everyone but yet, Lord
Nityananda is still more inclined
to the lowest kind of men,
because Lord Nityananda is the
..preacher. Lord Nityananda has
received the order by Lord
Chaitanya to preach.
Lord Nityananda particularly has
to deal with all kinds of fallen
conditioned souls, He is out on
the field, on sankirtana, He is the
Original Sankirtana Devotee.
Lord Nityananda is the First
Sankirtana Devotee Who is is
going door to door and Who is is
approaching all kinds of people
and somehow or other trying to
get people to take to Krishna
consciousness.
Lord Nityananda approaches
Jagai and Madhai. And Jagai and
Madhai were undoubtedly the
most sinful personalities one
could imagine……...It is
described that Yamaraja was
having a hard time with these two
brothers because to keep a record
of their sinful activities was
casing a lot of problem for the
administration.
Yamaraja has his assistant
Citragupta.
Citragupta is incharge of keeping
the files and there were so many
files that Citragupta didn’t have
any more place to store them and
the messengers that worked for
Citragupta run up and down to
bring messages about sinful
activities that are being performed
by various living entities and the
messengers were falling
exhausted.
So in this way Yamaraja was
without a doubt, was having great
difficulties with these two
brothers… Jagai and Madhai…
And then somehow or other they
were delivered by the mercy of
Gaura Nitai………contd tomo