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1 Litre of Tears
1 Litre of Tears
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I think I've been losing weight lately.Is it from
skipping meals because of the loads of homework
and science project?I can't put my thought into
action so I worry.I blame myself but there seems to
be no progress.My energy just continues to drain.I
want to gain a little more weight.Starting
tomorrow, I need to act more according to the plan
I wrote out before.
It was drizzling today. Walking to school holding a
heavy bag and to make that worse, an umbrella, is
a pain.As I was having these negative thoughts,
my knees popped and I fell forward at a narrow
road about 100 meters from my house.I hit my chin
pretty badly. As I gently slid my hand on my chin, I
felt the sticky blood covering my hands. I picked up
the scattered bag and umbrella, turned back, and
headed home.My mom came out from the inside
saying,"Did you forget something? You better hurry
or you're going to be late.""What's wrong?"No
words came out and all I could do was cry.My mom
quickly got a towel and wiped my face which was
covered with blood. I felt the sand cutting through
the wound.She said,"We're gonna have to go to the
doctor," and quickly helped me change into clean
clothes, placed a band aid over my cut, and
jumped into the car.I got 2 stitches without any
pain killer.I grit my teeth and dealt with the pain,
because it was my fault for being clumsy.But more
than that... I'm sorry mom for making you take a
day off work.I thought to myself that maybe my
hands didn't help me when I fell, because I'm kind
of slow... as I looked at my aching chin in the
mirror. But I'm glad it was under my chin. My future
would be dark if a scar was left in a place where
people can see.
My grades in P.E.7th grade= B8th grade= C9th
grade= DI'm so frustrated! I guess I need to try
harder.I was hoping that the circuit training I did
during summer vacation would help a little, but I
guess not.Well, I suppose it's because I didn't
continue it long enough (the voice from the
shadow= Exactly!)
In the morning, inside the kitchen where a slight
light and breeze was slipping through the window
with the yellow lace curtain, I cried."How come I'm
the only one who is not athletic?"Today, there is
going to be a test on the balance beam.My mom
covered her eyes and said, "But Aya, it's okay
because you are smart.You can just stick to
whatever subject you enjoy and make use of that
in the future. You're good at English, so you should
master that. English is an international language so
I'm sure it will be of good use. So don't worry if you
get a D in P.E..."My tears had stopped falling. There
was something left for me.
I shouldn't be such a crybaby.My body won't move
the way I want it to. Is it being anxious, because I
skipped doing my homework that I can finish in 5
hours each day? No, that's not it, something in my
body is starting to breaking down. I'm scared!My
heart feels as though its being squeezed. I wanna
exercise. I wanna run. I wanna study. I wanna write
neatly.
"Namida no Toka-ta (A tear's toccata)" is such a
good song. I fell in love with it. When I eat while
listening to that song, it makes the food taste even
more delicious.
This is a discussion about my little sister.All this
time, I only noticed my sister's mean side, but I
started to think that she is actually really nice. The
reason for this, is because when we walk to school,
my little brother leaves me behind and he just
walks his own pace, but my sister walks with me.
Even when we cross the bridge, she holds my bag
for me and says, "Make sure to hold onto the rails."
Slowly, my summer vacation mood is fading away.
After cleaning up dinner, I was about to go upstairs
and my mom said, "Aya, come sit over here."My
mom looked very serious and I was getting
nervous, thinking about what I was going to get
punished for."Aya, lately your body is constantly
looking like you're going to fall forward, and you
walk very unsteadily moving form side to side, do
you notice that? I've been watching and I'm
worried. Let's go see a doctor."I asked, "...which
hospital?""Just leave it to me, I'll look for a
trustworthy place."My tears started to fall
endlessly. I wanted to say "Thank you so much
mom, and I'm sorry to make you worried," but I
could not make any words come out of my mouth.I
wondered if my clumsiness is from staying up late
at night, eating at different times, but thinking that
there is something wrong with me and that's why I
have to go see a doctor, left me to do nothing but
cry. My eyes are starting to hurt from crying too
much.