The Dirty Little Secret: Uncovering the Truth Behind Porn
By Craig Gross
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Craig Gross
Craig Gross founded Fireproof Ministries and XXXchurch.com and is the author of several books, including The Dirty Little Secret and Questions You Can't Ask Your Mama about Sex. He currently lives in Pasadena with his wife, Jeanette, and two kids, Nolan and Elise.
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Reviews for The Dirty Little Secret
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- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I recently read Craig Gross’ new book, “The Dirty Little Secret: Uncovering the Truth Behind Porn”. It was a quick read - in fact, I finished it in under 2-hours and thoroughly enjoyed the stories contained within. Craig Gross, along with Mike Foster, created “xxxchurch.com” - a site promoting conversations about the problem of pornography and the lackluster performance of the Church to confront the issue. Some are even offended by Mike and Craig’s “over-the-top” approach to a topic that many Christian’s are quite comfortable leaving alone.I picked up the book after continuing to have conversations with people about the subject of pornography being such a huge “hidden sin” among the church. I have been following the work of the XXXchurch.com movement for some time. I even had the opportunity to attend a pre-screening of their documentary over a year ago (which is now available on DVD, by the way.)The book confronts the issue of pornography head-on, which I think is the best way to confront any issue - no matter how “ouchy” it is to talk about. Craig writes in an easy-to-read, lay-person, non-heady way that I can relate to.It was interesting to read about some of the “behind-the-scenes” interactions Craig has had through the ministry of XXXchurch.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5I recently attended a debate between Porn star Ron Jeremy and Craig Gross the founder of the XXXchurch and author of this book. That was the main reason I read this book. I think everyone agrees that pornography is rampant and easily accessable in our society. This book highlights the problem and Pastor Gross's work with those struggling with porn and people in the industry. The profiles are very interesting and the book is a quick read. However, I find it short on offering a solution oither than just don't do it. The problem of porn addition can be equal to that of drugs, alcohol and gambling yet the stigma associated with porn is so great that so many porn addicts are forced to keep it a secret. I think the book lacks a biblical background. If Craig Gross is a pastor I would have expected more of what the Bible says about this sin. I also find it unusual how much of his time is actually spent in the porn industry itself. It's an interesting book but you won't find any solutions.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Craig Gross's book is eye opening and gives a behind-the-scenes look at the pornography industry, not as a former pornographer, but one who has entered the lion's den-in a manner of speaking-in order to tame the beast.As a pro-life Christian who has been actively involved in various pro-life causes, I believe the problem of pornography-which exacerbates many problems such as abortion, extramarital sex, infidelity, and divorce-has been woefully neglected. It lies hidden beneath the surface. Everyone knows its there, but no one wants to talk about it. This book is a challenge to such Christians, but unfortunately those who need to read this book are those too uncomfortable with reading it, buying it, or even typing the website's name (XXXChurch . com) into their computer.This book doesn't present a solution, but I think Gross's intention was not to provide a solution here (he does elsewhere) but rather to point out that the problem does exist and needs to be confronted head on.
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The Dirty Little Secret - Craig Gross
ZONDERVAN
THE DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Copyright © 2006 by Craig Gross
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ePub Edition June 2009 ISBN: 0-310-86170-5
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Gross, Craig.
The dirty little secret : uncovering the truth behind porn / Craig Gross with Carter Krummrich.
p. cm.
ISBN-13: 978-0-310-27107-9
1. Pornography. 2. Pornography — Religious aspects — Chris tianity. I. Krummrich, Carter. II. Title.
HQ471.G76 2006
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To Josh and Michelle
Thanks for inspiring me with your trust
and honesty and vulnerability.
May you draw near to each other and draw close to God.
May you enjoy your new life together.
CONTENTS
Cover Page
Title Page
Copyright
1 The Porn Pastor
2 Porn Patrol
3 The Porn Over
4 Jesus Loves Porn Stars
5 The Porn Set
6 Growing Up Porn
7 Porn Sunday
8 Porn Again
About the Authors
About XXXchurch.com
Thank You
Notes
About the Publisher
Share Your Thoughts
1 THE PORN PASTOR
1It was a stupid thing to do, but I did it anyway. I turned my car into the Porn Mobile.
I painted my website domain XXXchurch. com and the slogan #1 Christian Porn Site
all over my black Scion XB in big, bold-faced letters. On the passenger door is the wording A porn site for the whole family.
The car is unavoidable. I drive it on the freeway and roads where I live in Riverside County, California, garnering stares from just about everybody. The words cover the entire car, running from the driver side door all the way to the back. At the time, I was excited. The design schematic and graphics were high quality, and I was so excited that I called all my friends and drove my new ride to their houses to show it off. This is the car I had been driving to buy groceries for my family and to visit friends. Now I think back to my rash decision and smile. Would I do it again? Probably.
I first realized something was wrong when the driver of the car next to me threw his milk shake onto my windshield. A thirty-two ounce soda came the following week. People either gave me a thumbs-up or the bird. How could a simple gesture such as putting the word porn on the outside of a car generate such a big response? I can’t drive anywhere without somebody running up to me and asking what the car is about, or telling me how they have struggled with porn. Azusa Pacific, a Christian university, almost had the car towed from their parking lot. Even my wife doesn’t want the car parked in our driveway, so I keep it covered.
Last month, I lent the car to my friend Dave because his broke down. In that month, a Christian driver waved a Bible at him from the road and visibly prayed for his soul. His best friend, an artist, hid behind his sculpture in town because Dave waved to him from the Porn Mobile. Dave’s wife wouldn’t drive it at all. He had even been threatened by the police with a misdemeanor for taking pictures of the car for our website.
Later, I realized that I had turned my car into a hot-button issue. What I have learned from driving around a car with the word porn all over it is that people don’t want to talk about this issue. The word makes people nervous, afraid, uncomfortable, and excited.
PORN
Here’s an experiment: Say the word porn at a dinner party sometime and see what happens. Depending on what kind of dinner party you’re at, you are more than likely to be confronted with blank stares, nervous twitching of hands, sweating brows, and anxious laughter. Some might spill their drinks and others will leap through flaming hoops to be first to change the subject. For the rest of the night, they’ll avoid you and probably won’t invite you back to the next gathering. Four years ago, I would have had the exact same reaction. Being a pastor doesn’t change any of this; I would have avoided that trip to the porn gutter at all costs. This was my subconscious attempt to pass over the issue as if it didn’t exist. To me, porn was a dark world inhabited by lost sinners selling their bodies and souls over to a flesh-driven abomination.
Try telling this to me now, four years into my strange and remarkable journey with the XXXchurch. In fact, the very word that makes people fidget or sweat has become part of my title. Media sources like CNN, The 700 Club, and The Daily Show have dubbed my partner, Mike Foster, and I the porn pastors.
We are the creators of the XXXchurch, a ministry that confronts porn on two levels — that of the church and that of the porn industry. The seedy and the sacred — a hybrid of the world we represent and the world we inhabit, despite the misgivings of many Christians and the animosity of those in the porn business.
So what am I? A pastor? A pornographer? You might not believe it, but Mike and I are ordained ministers. We can do weddings and funerals and have the certificates to prove it. You wouldn’t know it by looking at me. At age twenty-nine, I still dress as if I belong at the skate park. I’m a generation gap, black earrings, cargo pants, youth culture, long hair, SoCal, skate shoes kind of guy. You could say your average grandmother wouldn’t approve, though mine does.
I am married with two kids and live in a suburban house. My son is two years old, and I have a newborn baby girl. My wife has gotten used to some of the people I surround myself with and work with, but I don’t think she’ll ever get used to the car.
Strange that I find my calling is to battle porn. Why should we even battle it? If you watch or read a lot of Christian material on the subject, you’ll hear Just don’t do it!
As if becoming a Christian suddenly erases a man’s or woman’s drive to look at porn. Then there is the Christian notion that porn is a pastime of only the sinful and wicked. Pornographers and porn consumers fit somewhere between liberals and homosexuals on the scale of Christian good and evil. What about the stripper who needs to support her children? What about the pastor who has a secret addiction to porn? What about the pornographer who wishes he could erase some of what he has seen and done because it haunts him at night? The issue is a little more complicated than good and evil, black and white. The human being is a hazardous jumble of wires, not the strong cables we like to think of ourselves as.
I didn’t always see everybody as so complex, and I’ll admit, sometimes I still don’t. Sometimes I look at someone in this business or the Christian world and think, I’m right; you’re wrong.
Or, I’m better than you. How can you live with yourself?
This is my natural tendency, but I’m getting better at catching myself. I’m getting better at showing grace where before, there was only judgment. I remember one such instance clearly.
BLACK STREAMERS
One balmy night in Pomona, I walked into a convenience store during a late hour to buy a soda. Aisles of the usual pastry snacks and health bars covered the small store, like thousands upon thousands of convenience and liquor stores everywhere. The clerk looked up from a book to give me a customary nod and his eyes fell back to the pages. Because of the hour, I was the only customer. I walked across the worn tile to the refrigerators near the wall and grabbed my 7UP.
Suddenly a small, furtive man wearing a ruffled jacket over a collared shirt entered to the sound of the beeping sensors. He quickly made his way toward the back of the store and stopped in a small nook hidden away in the farthest corner. I could barely make out the man searching through whatever merchandise that back corner held. He could have been anybody, a blue-collar construction worker, a businessman getting back late from the office, a waiter, a teacher, a husband, a father. His face held nothing, not even a satisfied gesture once he found his desired good. The man positioned his body to hide the item and pulled it out for the clerk, keeping his head down, not saying a word. The clerk scanned what looked like a magazine in a shiny plastic cover, put it in a bag, and handed it back to the man. He paid with exact change and left, walking briskly.
By that time, I had a pretty good idea what the man had just bought. Still, my curious nature got the best of me, and I made my way back to the hidden corner. I turned into the alcove and shelves full of magazines and videos confronted my vision, except I couldn’t see any of the covers. Attached to the shelves were long black streamers made out of industrial trash bags. The streamers provided a buffer for my eyes. In order to access the hidden pornography, I would have to reach through the black wall of streamers. Just then, another customer came through the door and a breeze ruffled the streamers; my eyes caught a glimpse of exposed flesh. So this was what the man had been browsing through, dipping his hands through the layer of streamers and choosing which porn he’d take home that night. So I dismissed the man and felt sorry for him. I adopted a holier than thou
attitude.
As I look back on this incident, I feel ashamed. A painful memory came back to me of my close friend, a youth pastor who was fired for looking at porn. How did I know the small, furtive man wasn’t a Christian or even a pastor? I was so ready to count him among the unbelievers and not show him any grace. This is the danger of porn to the church. We are so used to the black wall of streamers blocking our vision that we forget the dangerous addictions found within the flimsy barrier. So many believers and Christian pastors have their hands within these dangerous boundaries and don’t know how to withdraw them. We ignore the problem while people struggle inside. We need a wake-up call, a call strong enough to rustle the streamers and show Christians that this problem exists. And if it takes a car that makes a few people uncomfortable, then so be it.
XXXCHURCH
You can call the XXXchurch a journey — my journey. A better way to describe it is a headfirst dive into a pit full of jellyfish. Every journey has a beginning. Four years ago the word pornography brought cursory images to my mind, the bare surface of a world I knew nothing about. My mind conjured up sleazy producers and porn stars filming perversities, but the filming and producing were miles upon miles away from my own home. Four years ago, I hadn’t the slightest clue I’d bring the issue home with me.
So what happened four years ago? Did I suddenly get a degree in pornology
? No, my friend and fellow pastor Mike Foster was taking a shower one morning when God whispered the word porn to him. It was that simple. He came to me because he knew I was the kind of guy who took ideas and actually followed through on them. We rationalized that nobody was talking about this issue and something needed to be said. We’re not ex-porno addicts and we don’t have the story of hitting rock bottom. We simply saw a void and envisioned ourselves filling it.
Yes, Mike felt God had spoken just the single word to him while he showered one morning. That word. That single, dirty, ugly, yucky, filthy word that we just don’t talk about in church. But what were we supposed to do with it? We began to brainstorm ideas, and eventually decided right then and there to