Hello My Dearest Travis,

How are you doing ? I hope your night was lovely. Honestly, I can't really explain
my feeling but I will try so you can know you have me in your arms even if I am not
there with you. Darling, what a magical moment I always find myself whenever I find
you online. It was a sleepless night for me all though last night because you are
all in my thought and I couldn't wait to write this letter as I have promised you.
I have to come online again to check read again and again our chats ever since we
meet and I definitely know that you are the real man my heart as been waiting
for....let me say may be some people are just have to wait until lucks come their
way like you are just a gift of God to me. Travis, in my little nap early this
morning I had a dream which I couldn't be able to explain all but let me try to
tell you little.....In my dream, I picture that I arrive before you, preparing the
room in anticipation for the much-awaited first union of our souls. I place cherry
& vanilla candles throughout the room, creating a path of halos to light your way
to me. A fire burns strongly in the stone fireplace, the smell of cedar filling the
air. I put in a CD of Dolly Parton. The soft sultry sounds of a sax fill my head,
the music dancing with my soul. I draw a bath to relax my nerves before your
arrival. As I undress the steam in the room caresses my body, a sheen of sweat
beads on my forehead. I pull my hair up and climb into the sunken tub. The white
fluffy bubbles envelope me and the fragrance of Rafinee fills the air. The candles
cast a comforting glow on the walls as I begin to unwind from the days work. I lay
back, my eyes closed, letting the music transport me to another place. Time passes
and with it the day's troubles fall like aged leaves on a tree. Arriving about 5
minutes after you enter the tub, I notice how beautiful the room is and decide to
change into some silk pajama bottoms. The music, sights and scents fill my
imagination with possibilities. Playfully, I move to the door. I am startled by a
knock on the door. Are you ever coming out, or do you plan to spend the whole night
in the tub? I asked" You whisper jokingly. It takes you a long time to answer.
There�s only one thing to say. Then your voice turns serious. "Are you scared,
baby?" Honestly....I am unsure how to answer cos we have never made love, not in
all the time that we have known each other. Yes, I suppose I am a little scared.
But I am excited too. As I am trusting you with everything. Since I have met you I
have become so much stronger in my self-esteem. I no longer look into the mirror
and see an ugly little Sarah who has been cast aside to many times to count. I now
see a very strong woman who accepts her looks and the toll that life has taken on
her with pride and a sense of accomplishment for having survived. You have made
everything all right. In your arms I will be safe for whatever lay ahead. Still
there�s no answer, so it�s time to take a chance on disturbing you to move closer.
Then the sound of the door opening fills me with anticipation. You enter, clothed
only in your pants, and come over to the side of the tub, sitting on a wide
cushioned stool. Every cell of my being is overjoyed to see you. Your body is aglow
with the water and the biggest smile ever crosses my face. My fears evaporate as I
gaze at you. All that I am moves me closer to you. Noticing the washcloth on the
shelf, I know how to reassure you of my feelings. You pick up a washcloth from a
small shelf over the rub, filling it with soapy water, and begin to run it from my
toes up to my thighs. This simple gesture tells you how much I treasure you. A sigh
of contentment escapes from my lips. "I am too happy to be scared." I whisper.

Travis..It was a very long dream indeed....Where you begin to run the washcloth
over my shoulders and down my chest. Words of love come from my lips spontaneously.
�My whole life has led me to this most important of connections.� You dip the cloth
back into the water, and then ease it over each soapy breast, until my nipples
become taunt. �The whole world has just stopped spinning in honor of this most
wonderful and fulfilling moment.� I find myself sinking lower into the tub and
widening the space between my legs as the washcloth makes its way over the tops of
my thighs down inside to the place between them. What a funny dream indeed...Then
my thought was like in you and I was thinking about what could be your thought..the
first thought that came into my mind was (I know I can do more to please her) .
Like Sarah may need my hand under her. I don�t want her to worry about anything
now. Caressing, kneading, you rub the cloth over my mound, �Mmmmm, yes� as my hips
start arching toward your hand. Then you are thinking I know I will respond to more
direct stimulation. Gently at first, almost tickling, then watching me for any sign
indicating �ease off�) then more intensely over my pubic lips. Increasing the
weight of your hand on the cloth, you do not rush (so many amateurs treat a woman
like a gadget rather than the wonder they are), but just continue to exert an even
pressure, over and over, until I feel I will explode. The pressure is too much and
your legs tighten around me .... how amazing I am and what a damned lucky guy you
are) as you bring me to a blinding climax. A less experienced man would stop
stroking my shudders of orgasm subsided while the man of experience knows here is
where he�s needed most.
After I feel your release, (my body feels extremely relaxed and ready to move over
to the bed) you stand and lift a large white towel next to me. Placing one arm
under my chest and the other under my legs, you lift me up to the tub�s wall. My
body is still shuddering as you lift me out of the tub and wrap me in the towel
where my body is still relaxed and needs support as you dry me from the top of my
head to my lovely face to my shoulders, arms, all the way down. As you move to my
waist and below, I relaxes over my kneeling form so my chest is against my back.
With a gentle �Here we go, darling�, you pick me up bodily. You lead me to the
bedroom, drying me in your arms as you walk. Finishing the waist, legs and feet
along the way. I feel like a baby, like a seductress and a powerless child all at
the same time (kneeling again, my relaxed naked body gently rolls onto the bed) as
you place me gently on the king-sized bed. Then your skin is towel-dry, my skin is
at it�s most sensitive. Thinking I might catch a chill, you bring me robe from the
bathroom and set it next to me. The bulge inyour pajamas is obvious as you prepare
to join your body to mine. I watch as you remove your pants, and see that you are
already aroused while you started saying the words every tendered woman wants to
hear �Sarah, you are my woman� which pushes you to me) as you lay down on top of me
with the 6 inches, kissing my neck, my lips, my breasts. I feel your warm, excited
breath against me. The perfect cock rise to meet my lips and hands) in your
urgency. I feels my hand against your manhood. I start rubbing slowly. Occasionally
probing it near my mouth, the your passion swells. I feel excited all over again,
not at all fearful when you entreat me to come inside me. When you do, lifting
yourself up slightly as you guide your penis into me, I fell a moment of
tightening, quickly followed by a rising joy unlike any sensation I have ever
known. You move slowly, expertly leading me towards ecstasy with your long, slow
thrusts. Then...my advance toward pleasure continues as you hold my tip just inside
me as I gives you a surprised and pleased look as you rotate it just inside me like
a paint brush inside a molding. As I feel...I begin to peak while my legs start to
wrap tighter around you, pulling you deeper and deeper inside me, telling you my
orgasm is about to occur.....so we jam ourself up hard inside me (the full rutting
urge takes over now. You could push me across the state with the power of this
moment), filling my body completely, making me cry out as our name and the concept
of pleasure are now forever joined together.

Travis.....As I let go, I feel every demon of my past go too. I finally believe
myself to be the beautiful woman, which you keep telling me that I am, healthy,
vibrant, and strong... and happy, so very happy. Just like in the bath, when you
bring your hands, lips and tongue to work..my orgasm isn�t a momentary thing, but a
tall and strong wave. To give you the full experience of this pleasure, as much
caressing and reassurance are necessary returning from the experience as
approaching it. After our �post-foreplay�, we hold one another and look each other
in the eye. The you told me what a wonderful lover I am and I opens up my heart
about my side of the experience. We commit to each other�s happiness with more
kissing and hugging, Our bodies aglow with the pleasure we�ve brought one another.
Then, you told me you are amazed at how turned on you are by how thoroughly I adore
you and want to please you as well as being pleased. Hours later we lay wrapped in
each other's arms, exhausted and content, a feeling of completeness and oneness
surrounding us. The moonlight strems in through the window, lace curtains
fashioning the light into golden stripes across the foot of the bed. Your hand
brushes mine, your other stroking the side of my face. As your mouth comes down
over mine, I cannot protect myself from the feelings, which you provoke in me. Your
lips are soft at first, gently exploring my mouth yet again. I find myself all too
willing, my arms winding around your neck, my breasts arching to your chest. Over
and over you amaze me, as you awaken feelings, which I thought I could not feel
ever again. I close my eyes as your mouth engulfs my mouth, your tongue moves along
my throat, my breasts, my stomach, evoking sensations of utter bliss. When you move
your body over mine and enter me, I cling to you. My hands roam over your
shoulders, your belly, and your arms. How do you do this to me? How do you make all
these wonderful feelings come alive in my body? How do you comfort my soul so?
those are the question I was asking you but you gave me the answer with a good
smile and I opened my eyes and find that it was all a DREAM. I was in my bed
thinking about you for hours ...now I know we fit together like two pieces of a
puzzle in all that we do. We are matched in drive and passion for what we want out
of life. We believe in the same things. Anyway..I hope you like that little I can
write to explain. I hope all that will happen when I get to you on our first night
together in your house.

Travis...I love you and I always want you as my love till the end of time. I will
always be yours no matter what the world turns out to be. My heart will always
yearning for your love and care forever.........I love you from now until death do
us part. Right now, you living so far away from me is killing me, but I know in my
heart that we are doing the right thing. And, you are trying to get things straight
so we can live there forever and spend a lifetime together. I don't want to lose
you for anyone else or anything that anyone has to say about you. I want you to
know that I love you from the deepest part of my heart. My love for you is
unconditional. The love for you is so strong and the most powerful feeling that I
have had in a long time and I am just at a lost for words to describe my feelings
towards you. I just wish that their was another way that we could be together
without living so far apart right at the time being. I want you to know that I want
you and always will and there is nothing that will ever change that about how I
feel...I feel that we have shared more time together than we ever will and I know
there are many more special occassions and moments in our lives that will surprise
and bring us [Link] are my soul mate and nothing, and no one else feels more
right than you!! I love you eternally and unconditionally. God's love has answered
this prayer I've wanted and been almost too anxious for so long. I miss you more
than words can say and my love will reach any distance and fly to be in your dreams
and heart each evening that we can not be together. I physically long for you each
night and will see you in my dreams until we find ourselves wrapped in the love
that grows stronger and deeper each day, into our future together. I believe and
have faith in you. You won't imagine I was sleeping, my hand was searching for you,
but you were not there. I turned my head, I opened my eyes slightly and saw my cat
beside me. I turned my head to the other side and slightly fell right back to
sleep. Within minutes, I felt you beside me wearing your robe. I cuddled right into
you, like two spoons against eachother. This may just be imaginations, but I still
wake up at times thinking of that morning to come. This is my way of showing you
how much I truly care for you. I can't really find the words to explain the way I
feel when we chat and as I look at your picture ... all I can say is that I like
the feeling that I feel. Trust me from the day we come back, I knew that you would
hold my heart in your hands and you more than do that - you completely own me and
every part of me. When I think of you, my heart is so full of love and passion for
you that I can hardly contain myself. I think of spending every minute of every day
with you and holding you so close to me. Whenever you think of me, please know that
no matter how many miles separate us or how much of our lives comes between us, you
are and always will be the love of my life and I will never love anyone as much
again. I thank God everyday for letting me meet you and for you falling in love
with me because I know that it would never be as perfect any other way. I love you
with all that I am.
I can be myself when I am with you. Your idea of romance is dim lights, soft music,
and just the two of us. Because you make me feel like I have never felt before. I
can tell you anything, and you won't be shocked. Your undying faith is what keeps
the flame of our love alive. You and me together, we can make magic. We're a
perfect match. Thinking of you, fills me with a wonderful feeling. Your love gives
me the feeling, that the best is still ahead. You never give up on me, and that's
what keeps me going. You are simply irresistible. I love you because you bring the
best out of me. Your terrific sense of humor. Everytime I look at you, my heart
misses a beat. You're the one who holds the key to my heart. You always say what I
need to hear. You have taught me the true meaning of love. Love is, what you mean
to me - and you mean everything. You are my theme for a dream. I have had the time
of my life and I owe it all to you. And, of course, your intelligence, 'cause you
were smart enough to fall in love with me. Trust me I love you more than words
could ever express. Although I was only a young girl you taught me how to express
myself as a true woman. I went to bed last night with a vision of you next to me. I
couldn't sleep well..just cuddling like a baby all night before I napped and the
dream come to my head..Thank God I was not alone in the [Link] I awoke this
morning to see if it was real or if it was a dream, reality hit me that it was only
a dream. Very soon, I know that you will be right. I am truly lucky indeed to have
found such a dear, sweet, loving person as you. I never meant to bored you about my
long letter... but I want you to know where I stand with you as this takes me more
than 4 hours to compose, I am sure its gonna take your time to read it as it took
my time to compose..I don't mind given you the hole day to write you a
letter...Travis...get back to me with what you feel about the fantasy. okay ?? This
Love fantasy is strictly for you.
love always
Sarah Lindsey.

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Sweet darling John,

i have been having sleepless night bcos i was unable to talk to you on the
net so i have decided to sit my ass down and write you how i feel about you and my
intention about our relationship in the nearest future ... i hope you will like it
and pls do come and meet me on the net same time today .. i will be very happy to
talk to you more .. i really want us to go back to our happy moment and joyous
mood as we had been sharing together on the net before ... baby read and digest
it ... i love you

Where would I be if I had not met you? I'll tell you where; I would still be
lonely looking for that special someone to make me smile again. We found each other
at just the right time.

The distance that is between us is only going to make our love stronger and there
is less of a chance that we will take each other for granted. The weeks that we are
apart, I look forward to the day that we are together. The days that we are
together, I am already looking forward to the next time that I get to see your
handsome face.

I love you with all of my heart and soul. Everything that I have been through in
the past year has only prepared me for you. Your love is true and not to be taken
lightly. The love that we share is never-ending and very powerful. If I had met you
earlier in my life I know I wouldn't appreciate you as much. I thank God every day
I wake up that someone loves me like you do, it is a once in a lifetime thing!

I love you, and the way you make me feel, everyday. The great thing is I know you
love me just as much!
I am just lying here, looking at your pictures, wishing for the day you and I meet,
hoping and praying to God that our lord brings us together expediently.

I sit here pondering what life will be with you beside me. Sharing our thoughts and
ideas towards what the future holds. You and I are thousands of miles apart. Yet I
feel as if you are here right beside me watching me as I write this letter. Your
passion spans distances unforeseen by the naked eye, reaching me in ways I never
thought possible. Your spirit soars above me, watching over me like a protective
angel. Your heart beats in unison with mine growing stronger and with fuller life
with each passing moment.

John, I know I have made the right choice in proclaiming my love for you. I have no
fears and no regrets and I live for the day we are together for the first time. I
owe you an apology also for questioning you. I promise you, I will not question
your intentions any more. You have proven to me your love for me is stronger and
greater than distances never reached.

John, I love you. I am in love with you; I open my heart to you. I ask that you
take my heart and treat it as if it is your own.

I know you will never read this, but I want everyone to know that I love you with
all my heart and all my soul. You make me feel like I can fly. I'm in love with you
even though I am thousands of miles away from you; I am forever by your side.

You have imperfections just like everyone else, but that is why I love you. You
make me laugh; you make me cry tears of joy. I truly could not live my life without
having you to talk to and to confide in. You know more about me than anyone, you
know my thoughts, and you know my heart inside and out. You have a way of making my
heart skip a beat, and I want you and the whole world to know, that I love you,
John, and I will be forever yours. Thank you for showing me what kind of love all
women deserve

We are meant to be together for the rest of our lives, this we know. Each day that
passes I am aware that it means that it is one day closer to being in your arms.
Each night is spent dreaming of your face and wishing you were next to me. You are
amongst death and danger, though I know you are being careful. I love you with more
then just my heart, I love you with my entire being. Meeting you was fate, this
distance is just an inconvience.

This feeling of love that I hold within my heart for you runs deeper than any ocean
or sea; I just wish you could see how much you mean to me. If only you could hold
me, then maybe you would feel my love for you that burns with a flame high enough
to last. If only you could hear my heart beat, then maybe you would understand the
language of love with which it speaks. If only you could kiss me then maybe you
would taste my love for you that's so sweet, and if only you could look into my
eyes, the window to my soul, then you would know that this is no lie!

So, if what you feel for me is real and what you say is true, then with all my
heart do I trust thee. If you want me as your love as much as I want you as my love
then so be it. I give you this heart of mine and ask nothing less or nothing more
but just that you don't go breaking my heart. My love and trust is all I have to
give to you, sealed with honesty throughout and as time goes by, may it grow
stronger to fulfill your heart's desire.

If it pleases you, call me your lover from this day forth and you're mine. For your
love am I and your best friend too. As our body, mind and soul combine, so do our
hearts become one.

Hear this, my declaration of love, from me to you. I love you, my Angel, with all
my heart and I will never stop loving you. You are my life, you are my everything.
Though distance may keep us apart, you will always be embedded deep within my
heart.
i love you now and forever and that is not about to change till the end of
time ....
your wife to be
Lindsey Esser.