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After an exchange of letters, in 1991, biological mother and daughter met for the rst time in nearly 40 years. Sue recalls that Marjorie was warm and spontaneous and looked nothing like her. The two women formed a bond; Sue helped her birth mother move into sheltered accommodation close to her home in London and, rather guiltily, found herself spending more time with Marjorie than with her adoptive parents. Then, as Sue and her partner, Bevan, were planning a housewarming party for Marjorie when Sue received a letter from Kent County Councils depart-
ment of social services. As soon as she saw the headed notepaper she guessed what it would reveal: Marjorie had given another child up for adoption and hadnt told her. Hello, is that my big sister? said Fiona, when Sue rang her. Fiona, who is ve years younger and has a dierent biological father, had begun the search for her mother at the same time as Sue, but found her sister rst. When the sisters met, before Fiona was reunited with Marjorie, they hit it o immediately. For Fiona, an only child, Sue was the big sister she had always longed for.
Fionas reunion with her biological mother was as joyful and uncomplicated as Sues had been. I was stroking her hand and said, Im so glad Ive found you, I cant believe youre my mum, she remembers. Perhaps both women found it easy to form a relationship with Marjorie because they came from loving adoptive families and neither had felt rejected by their biological mother. Included in both sisters adoption les were heartbreaking letters from Marjorie to the adoption agency, begging for news of her daughters. She was such a Darling, and you can
Lost and found ... Sue Elliot with her sisters Fiona Boorman, left, and Hazel Staniforth Photograph by Linda Nylind for the Guardian well imagine how very dicult it has been to give her up, wrote Marjorie of Sue in one letter. There was no question at all she didnt want to give us away, says Sue. The one puzzle was why Marjorie hadnt told Sue that she had a sister. When Sue asked, all Marjorie would say was, I thought youd think the worse of me. After all three women were
Together ... Marjorie with Sue, right, and Fiona in the mid-90s. Below, clockwise, Marjorie in the 1940s; Sue, Fiona and Hazel as children
Frank Sinatra split from his rst wife when his son, Frank Jr, was six. It was 40 years before father and son developed a true relationship. He talks to Nick Duerden about being kidnapped, forging his own music career and being the son of a legend
Son of Sinatra
hen he was 19, Frank Sinatra Jr was kidnapped and held to ransom for four days. This would be a terrible thing to befall any son of rich and famous parents, but all the more so somehow for someone who had spent his adolescence trying to remain invisible. I never felt that it was in anyones best interest to be looked at dierently by other people because of a name, he says. I kept to myself a lot. But when the father he rarely saw paid the ransom reported to be close to $240,000 (1.3m in todays money) Frank Jr became headline news around the world. The timing was bad. He had just recently launched himself as a singer and musician, which he hoped would establish him in his own right. Now such hopes were scotched. The real damage, he suggests, was not the kidnapping but what happened afterwards. The criminals invented a story that the whole thing was phoney. It wasnt, and they duly went to prison, but the rumour that it had been a publicity stunt staged by his father to help his sons edgling career stuck. That was the stigma put on me, he says. In a way, he has lived with it ever since. Nancy Sinatras younger brother, Frank Jr was born in 1944. By the time Frank Jr was six, his father had split from their mother and it would be another four decades before they had anything like a proper relationship. He was a good father as much as it was within his power, is how he puts it, diplomatically. Frank Sr, he explains, was making two lms and four albums a year in the 50s and 60s, and touring incessantly. Frank Jr saw more of him on the big screen than he did in the esh, and considered being the mans namesake a heavy burden. Frank Jr likes to say that in an ideal world he would have excelled at school and gone on to run General Motors. But he didnt, and so he couldnt. He was a gifted piano player, though, and by the age of 18 realised he could sing too. Not only was there a disarming family resemblance, but he had the same dark, chocolatey voice. Comparisons were inevitable, exacerbated by his decision to make much the same sort of music and play the same casino circuit. At rst I felt like I was living in his shadow, he agrees, but I did develop my own following eventually, so I must have been doing something right. There were intermittent television appearances over the years often as a guest on the shows of his fathers Rat Pack cohorts, Dean Martin and Sammy Davis Jr but only the occasional album. Instead, touring was his thing, and he played in 81 countries across the world. That he never strove to compete with his father suggests he found it impossible, and so didnt bother to try. But presumably his long career has been a fullling one? Yes, but does it really constitute actual success? he muses. Over all these years, I have never had a hit movie, never had a hit television programme and never had a hit record. To my way of thinking, that means success has not been achieved. I have made no mark of my own creation. This, he concludes, is something to be considered. Interviewing a 68-year-old Frank Sinatra Jr is, you cannot help but feel, a markedly dierent experience to what it must have been like when he was 28 or 38. He has found the kind of peace that likely eluded him for much of his professional life. On this summer afternoon, he is charming and erudite company, full of candour and unerringly calm. My lack of success does not trouble me at this stage in my life, no, he says.
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I was grateful that he hadnt died with us as strangers that I got to know him
When I was younger, sure, I wanted t to have some degree of, shall we say, i identity. But it never came. Even after Frank Jrs kidnapping o ordeal, his father failed to become m much of a tangible presence in his l life. Frank Sr, it seems, was too busy. T There were more lms, more albums, m more women to marry. They would, F Frank Jr says, meet on occasion and t talk on the phone, but rarely more than t that. It wasnt until he was 44 that his f father nally invited him into the inner c circle. It was 1988 and I was in Atlantic C City getting ready to do one of my s shows, he begins, when Sinatra came o on the line and told me he wanted me t to conduct his band for him. He pauses with all the timing of a l light entertainer. Well, after my friends had revived me with the smelling salts, I said to him, You cant be serious? Sinatra was. Frank Jr took the job, and spent the last seven years of his fathers career touring with him. The US public were fascinated (and nosy), which meant Frank Jr became adept at avoiding giving answers to questions that probed too deeply into the private life of one of their biggest stars. He pleaded mitigating circumstances: when at last father and son
did bond, his father was an old man, a shadow of his former self. When I came on board, Sinatra was already 72. He was slowing down. In private moments, he says, he often found him withdrawn. I would see him very up, then very down, and sometimes very sad. It often came to it that I simply held him, just held on to him and told him I was here for him. I owed him that. And in that church on that afternoon in 1998, when I was looking down at his casket covered in owers, I was grateful that at least he hadnt died with us as strangers, that I had been able to get to know him, and he had been able to get to know his son.
We did it our way Frank Sinatra and Frank Jr performing in the late 60s. Below, Frank Sinatra Jr today About Michael he is happy to talk. He is 25 now, almost 26. He lives in Japan, a college professor. He gets back to the United States probably once a year and I make damn well sure that we stay in contact. Whenever he does visit, we go to dinner, just the two of us. I want him to have what I didnt. Frank Jr, who is no longer married, arrives in London this month with his band. His show is called, perhaps inevitably, Sinatra Sings Sinatra. Well, thats what some people want to call it, but Ive never felt particularly comfortable with that, he says. The way I see it, before I can sell an audience Frank Sr, I have to sell them Frank Jr rst. Sinatra is a very established commodity over here, whereas I He smiles again and trails o, the res that doubtless once raged in his youth now merely smouldering embers. If the audience comes, and likes what I do, then thats enough for me, he says. Ill settle for that. Frank Sinatra Jr plays Ronnie Scotts, London W1, 13-15 September
ccording to various online sources, Frank Jr has two sons himself, Frank Sinatra III, born in 1978, and Michael, a decade later. The former made the news two years ago after a reported suicide attempt. When I ask about that, he says, No, I have one son, and his name is Michael. And of the reports to the contrary? There are certain people who make all sorts of claims, is all he says.
y fascination with my family history was ignited by my Barbadian uncle, Trevor Ashby, a brown-skinned man with a perfectly topiaried afro, who was an executive with Coca-Cola on the island of Barbados. In my early teens, he began telling me stories of his and my mothers plantation childhood. Fascinated by his anecdotes, I started searching archives all over the world for details of my ancestors births, deaths and marriages. My parents were interested but knew little. Undeterred, I badgered relatives I barely knew for information. The story that emerged was almost four centuries old and replete with drama, tragedy and grief: the story of Atlantic slavery in microcosm. In the late 1630s, my oldest identiable ancestor, a young blacksmith called George Ashby, set sail from England to Barbados in search of a better life. The journey was dicult and dangerous; arrival no less so. Barbados was a wild land populated by a handful of unfettered young men with little to lose. Travelling across this small island meant hacking pathways through dense foliage in scorche ing heat, assailed by unfamiliar wildlife and bereft of familiar comforts. Life as a planter was exhausting and the crops he had hoped would make him rich indigo, tobacco, cotton barely allowed him to scrape a living. But then he and his contemporaries turned to sugar, and their life was transformed. A few centuries before, sugar had erupted in popularity, becoming known as white gold. To meet demand, planters like George Ashby sought more cost-eective means of production, and replaced
their indentured white servants with a more oppressed workforce: African slaves. The horrors these captives endured on their journey to the Americas my African ancestors included and the collateral damage of the trade, which cost millions of lives, has been numbered as one of historys worst atrocities. These forced migrants soon became more numerous than the white settlers who had initially colonised the island, a subjugated majority with every reason to hate their masters: in response, a paranoid and oppressive society evolved. White and black lived cheek by jowl on the plantations, and t in this state of intimate terror, bloodlin lines inevitably intermingled. Over gen generations, Ashbys family mutated fro from a traditionally English one, to a mu multi-hued one with white, brown and bla black faces. (His descendant, my greatgre great-great-great grandfather, had at lea least 15 slave children, all of whom live lived and worked on his plantation.) Ma Many of their descendants would, in the their turn, migrate. Some, like my own fam family, ended up back in Ashbys ori original homeland. I realised that being able to trace my anc ancestors back to the 17th century was g a gift that would allow me to show how on one family was shaped by centuries of sla slavery and settlement. But it put me in a quandary. How would I make sense t of this disturbing story for my children, for whom Barbados is an occasional holiday destination, a place of relaxation and family fun? My elder daughter, a blue-eyed, porcelain-skinned six-year-old, is at an age where she is asking questions, trying to make sense of her world and her family. She has great curiosity, but also a strong need to see the world as a safe and fair place. My younger child is a brown-skinned three-year-old who is just beginning to question why people have dierent colour skins, why
Andrea Stuart, centre, with her partner Tara and their daughters. Left, from top: Andreas mother, her father and one of her ancestors, Robert Cooper Ashby, a sugar planter and slave owner Photograph by Christian Sinibaldi for the Guardian she looks so dierent from her sister, and why it seems to matter to those around her. How do I explain that one branch of our family was enslaved by the other? How do I educate them about contemporary racism without distressing and dividing them? These are questions for every family of Caribbean descent, but equally pertinent for white British families, whose heritage is inextricably tied to the same history. At the moment, I have to confess, I have told them little, not least because I can still remember my own reaction when my parents explained what racial prejudice meant, and how shocked and frightened it made me feel. (That I was 11 at the time is a testament to how sheltered I was in my Caribbean milieu.) When I nally got around to explaining the idea that some people disliked others simply because of the colour of their skin, my outraged elder child sensibly declared: But Mama, it would be really boring if we all looked the same. Ultimately I want my daughters to understand both how history has made them, and how it is possible to step beyond the connes of historical legacy. I want them to comprehend the atrocities of the slave system and to recognise how the oppressors were even more debased by the process than their victims; hence their exploitation of their own kin. I want them to appreciate how the intertwined forces of sugar and slavery created the world we live in today, enriching Britain but also leading to the bigotry that means descendants of Africans remain disadvantaged in comparison to those who promoted the trade against them. I want to explain that these prejudices, still wielded today, have nothing do with the reality of black peoples abilities or worth, but were developed to justify slavery. Slavery wasnt just about some people being vile to others, but was part of a global industry that had its
own terrible logic and justication; a monument to the dangers of greed and venality. In part, too, I simply want my children to bear witness: to remember how slavery relentlessly dehumanised its victims, the systematic torture and violence, generating self-hatred and abolishing families. Planters did not recognise or respect the family bonds slaves brought with them or chose to create. They abused the women they owned and treated the men as studs to create new workers. They separated black mothers from their children, sometimes to nurse white children. Black African culture and family life were smashed on the rocks of the Caribbean shores, and the impact of that is still felt 300 years later. I also want them to know that slaves were not just victims but survivors. I want to remind them that it was not the abolitionists alone who brought about emancipation, but the enslaved themselves. By the end of the 18th century, slave revolts exploded like reworks across the English Americas; each disruption making slavery more untenable. I want them to salute the courage of these hundreds of thousands of forgotten rebels, such as the Jamaican slave-woman who declared, as she went into the fray: I know I will die but my children will be free! So why cant I just tell them in the words I have used here? Finding the way to have these conversations has another layer of complexity in my case as I have a very modern family. Neither of my children is biologically or genetically connected to me. One is my partners birth child, the other ours by adoption. One is white while the other is of white and black Caribbean heritage. So there is no way of telling how they will relate to my family story. Will they see it as theirs by right or only borrowed? Will my black child feel she is able to
claim it because her own birth family heritage is likely to look similar but my white child feel alienated by it, that she is tainted by association with the baddies? Does sharing this story of slavery risk introducing a ssure into our family unity, a feeling that the two white members are entwined with the oppressors while the two black members are associated with the victims? My daughters may wonder if they should absorb this family history at all. As the adopted one, the outsider gathered in, my younger child might feel my story isnt hers; my white daughter may reject exploring it out of shame. And how do I give them a healthy, critical loyalty to both my country of birth, where families like ours are not fully understood, and to their country of birth, where racism continues to run through the culture like a dark seam of coal?
and as a writer whose passion is creating narratives I hope this will feel as important for my daughters as it feels for me. I want them to understand that love is more important than blood. For many people, inheritance is something we carry in our bodies so that Great Uncle Claudes experiences are, in a very real sense, built into us. But there is another way of understanding how our heritage makes us who we are. It is as heirloom, a gift, a chronicle handed down between the generations, one that can easily be lost, discarded or reclaimed.
Just as I see my non-biological children displaying my own traits pulling faces as I do, or laughing at the same things, or dancing in the exact same style so they can inherit my history. It is just another gift from me, alongside my love and devotion, should they choose to accept it. Sugar in the Blood: A Familys Story of Slavery and Empire by Andrea Stuart is published by Portobello Books, 18.99. To order a copy for 14.24, including free UK p&P, go to guardian.co.uk/ bookshop or call 0330 333 6846
How do I explain that one branch of our family was enslaved by the other?
f course, I am not in control of how my daughters will understand their heritage. What I say is only the start they will receive messages from friends, school and the wider society about who they are and where they belong. They will have their own experiences of racism and will form their own identications and allegiances. But right now, what their mum tells them is like the word of God, and I will be telling them that this story is theirs as well as mine; and that they are both part of this historical epic. Black as well as white people helped to found the country they live in; and we have worked and suered and died for our place here. I want them to realise that who they are is the result of these earlier events and that they are the outcome of these people and what they did. So the threeand-a-half centuries of Atlantic slavery are just the early chapters of the story in which they now appear. I want them to appreciate that genetics is only one of the connections that link a family. Our families are connected in other ways: allegiances, traditions, preferences and a myriad other idiosyncrasies. That one of the things that binds us is our storytelling
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Snapshot ... Umber Khairis mother and father, right, meeting Joan Crawford and her husband in Beirut, 1958 visible in the picture. Now, ironically, it is the world that is no longer visible to him. He lost the sight in one eye in his 40s and went completely blind in his 70s. With that, he also lost the wellloved pursuits of his independent life: the long hours of bridge, his reading, research and writing. He lives in darkness now, frail and linked up to dialysis machines three times a week yet despite all his physical setbacks, he has written two books and retains a erce interest in history and food. My mother attained a degree of celebrity late in life through her acting work in television drama in Pakistan. People now ask her for an autograph and want to have their pictures taken with her. For me, she was always more of a star than Joan Crawford. My parents were denitely the main leads in the lm of my childhood. Umber Khairi
from the photograph, I thought her less beautiful and glamorous than my mother, so I wasnt much impressed. Now, many years later, I look at this picture and I am lled with admiration for what it tells me of my parents story. It was taken in Beirut around 1958. My father was posted to the Pakistani embassy there and Joan Crawfords husband Alfred Steele (on
the left) was visiting in his role as head of Pepsi-Cola. My parents had spent the day on the beach before going on to enjoy their usual evenings socialising. During their decades as a diplomatic couple they travelled around the world. They enjoyed and explored every foreign capital they lived in Nairobi, Beirut, Cairo, Algiers, Khartoum, Buenos
Aires. They took a great interest in all the countries they went to and made lots of friends locally, with many of whom they are still in touch. Although my parents tried to give their three children opportunities to expand our horizons in any way possible, none of us quite inherited their zest for life or their adventurous spirit. My fathers face is only partially
streak. Tales of her adventurous rambles were legion. She would announce that we must attend some esta that was supposed to be marvellous. It would always turn out to be several hours drive away, with a mournful troupe of guitarists playing interminable Spanish love songs until 3am, by which time Id have fallen asleep on my mothers knee. On one of our nights out we came across an open-air disco. We joined in in a desultory fashion in the corner, Europop hardly being the best thing to shake your tail feathers to. Suddenly Dr Hook came on and my father seemed galvanised by the novelty of a song, albeit cheesy, with a recognisable tune and sung in English. He began to dance, a dance like no other. The song is reasonably fast anyway, but my father moved at double speed, with a strange little ourish of the hands and a look to the heavens at the end of each ourish that made it seem like an eccentric foxtrot. It certainly intrigued the DJ, who played Dr Hook at least twice more so everyone could see the strange Engleeesh dancing. Maggie Brierley
the home, the sta kindly made it clear he was unable to talk. Hi? Dad? I say. He doesnt respond. But I can hear him breathing heavily, then clearing his throat in that familiar way. I imagine him staring at my sister for guidance. Trusting. Belligerent. Say hello, says my sister, patiently. Hello, sing-songs Dad. Hello? He sounds as if hes using the word for the rst time. Hi, Dad, I say. How are you? Im hoping for what was once his stock response: Not dead yet. But it doesnt come. Nothing comes. Sorry, says my sister, taking control again. I just thought because he was asking after you maybe it might work. She sounds upset. Then I hear it in the background. Wekker-weks. Wekker-weks. Dad is calling out his childhood nickname for me as if I might be hidden under the bed or in the wardrobe. Put him on again, I say. My stomach twists. Hes asking after me. I didnt realise he still did that. My sister obeys. Dad! I try to inject my voice with enthusiasm. Its me!
Wekker-weks. I hope that repeating it will make a connection in his scleried brain. Wekker-weks? Dad sounds less certain now. How are you doing? I ask. Theres a long pause. Drinking beer, he says at last. Then he chuckles. Really? I say. Thats good, Dad. This way, he says. Going this way. Got to sort it out over there. Oh. I slump. Of course. Thats right. Over there. Got to cut those hedges.
heres a clatter as he discards the phone. I can hear him shuing o, the slippers he wears all day slapping against lino. He says something else but I cant make out what it is. Sorry, says my sister again. I thought it might work. Dont be, I say. It was a nice idea. Our mutual disappointment thrums on the line. Another thing struck o the list. We hang up, but I replay the sound of him dredging up that old nickname. He was the only one who ever used it. It seems unlikely Ill hear it again. Follow Rebecca on Twitter @rebeccahelenley
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Annalisa Barbieri
We have three boys, aged 17, 15 and nine. The middle one is rude, moody, sullen, antagonistic, silent, lazy nothing is ever his fault, he is always hard done by, etc. So far, so normal. The older two have never really got on and have reached the point where they cant be civil to each other. Every conversation is hostile and aggressive. It brings us all down and makes family meal times unpleasant; either my husband or I lose it and get cross with them. The eldest is bright, works hard, is motivated and has done well at school. Although quite bright, the middle child isnt motivated and isnt doing nearly as well as all the teachers say he could. I try hard not to make the eldest the clever one emphasising that everyone is dierent, its all about trying, etc but the eldest does tease his brother about his grades. Aside from the relationship with his older brother, it is my second sons surliness with me and my husband that is dicult and brings down the family mood. I know that its part of the job description for a mum to be an embarrassment to her teenagers so I dont take it personally, but it does get wearing when every time I make a comment or ask a question about his day it is met with a rolling of eyes, an exasperated sigh or a What? I know its part of growing up and the impact of all the hormones coursing around inside him. But I dont know how to deal with it. How much slack should I allow him and at what point do you tell your child that his behaviour is unacceptable? K, via email Only you can decide which elements of his behaviour arent acceptable. You clearly have a healthy perspective and a good (or better) relationship with your other children. I think its easy, as a mother, to look at where you perceive you are failing rather than succeeding. Your second son doesnt sound dissimilar to many other teenagers. However, even if it is normal teenage behaviour (in some I stress not all teenagers) it doesnt mean that you shouldnt look beneath the surface to make sure nothing else is going on. Has he always been like this or is it recent? In adolescence a childs brain goes through a major rewiring in order to prepare for adulthood and autonomy. You might nd David Bainbridges Teenagers: A Natural History helpful as it goes into this in more detail. Dave Spellman, a clinical psychologist ( bps.org.uk), says that while its OK to say, Oh this is typical teenage stu , it doesnt mean you have to a) nd it OK and b) let it close you o to what may also/really be going on. He advises: Its less important which boundaries you give [all the children] than that you make the decisions as parents and stick to them. Spellman suggests restricting wi-, pocket money, etc if certain minimum standards of behaviour are not met. Be realistic about the boundaries. We often talk about whats going on with children during adolescence, but theres also a big change going on for parents huge adjustments need to be made. He suggests trying to be a bit more arms length. Maybe dont be so preoccupied with every area of their lives children often like to see their parents have their own lives, too. Have you talked to your middle son and asked him why he is so surly? If theres a particular ash point (you mentioned meal times times in your longer letter), try asking him if theres something that could be done. Dont be too hung up on how things should be all the time. Family meal times are lovely, if they work, but if not and he doesnt want to sit with everyone, is it really the end of the world to concede a little and let him eat on his own a couple of times a week? Its often what we fear will happen if we let behaviour go unchecked, than the actual behaviour in the moment itself. Set some rules that work for you as a family. Be condent and consistent. Stay connected but not intrusive. And dont be afraid of having a row or getting cross. As a teenage boy I interviewed for my reply to your letter said: Its often only in an argument that we can say what we really feel. Follow Annalisa on Twitter @AnnalisaB
A letter to...
The man who stopped
have no idea who you were, or what you were doing in the town centre on that weekday morning. What is probably for you a tiny, long forgotten incident had a profound impact on me and helped me on a very dicult day. You had no way of knowing that the funeral procession passing along the street was for my adored Nan and that I was sitting in the car behind the hearse, trying desperately to work out how our lives would go on without her. I was 16, en route to my rst funeral, struggling with my rst real loss. For the whole of that endless, painful journey, as I tried not to see the con in front, I looked out of the window. I could not understand how the shoppers and workers carried on as normal while we were steeped in
misery. How could our aching, allconsuming grief not reach out and touch them? Two people out of hundreds acknowledged the funeral procession. A man in the street where my grandparents lived stopped to take o his cap, and you, a stranger at a roundabout, paused, bowed your head and put your hand over your heart. You were young, maybe in your 20s, Asian, and in my memory your jumper is blue. You alone out of all of those crowds of people halted your day to acknowledge my nans passing, even though you had no idea who she was. I can see you standing there among the passers-by, head lowered in a moment of stillness, entirely unselfconscious. More than a decade later I still think of you when I think of that day. You raised my spirits and made me feel less alone, knowing that a stranger cared. It is because of you I always stop and bow my head when a funeral procession passes, a sign of respect for the life that has gone and the people who mourn. Thank you. Sarah
The adolescent brain goes through a major rewiring in order to prepare for adulthood and autonomy
Endnotes
My family values Pam St Clement Actor
My early family life was crap, basically. My birth mother died when I was 18 months old. My father was married several times and I was very devoted to him, but he was a product of a broken family himself and was sent to an orphanage. I think he was carrying his own baggage and couldnt relate to anybody. I was farmed out for foster care at the age of about seven. It is the best thing that ever happened to me. Before I was fostered, I didnt have any social stimulus. I had governesses, a private tutor and a nanny, but it didnt nourish my soul. I was the sort of child who would darkly sit in the corner and watch, which paid dividends when I became an actor. Eventually, I settled with a family on a farm in Devon in an environment that was absolutely a marriage of souls. My new family immediately gave me the company of other children, and it knocked me back into shape. I get annoyed when people say, Oh well, they had a bad upbringing, or They had a bad background and thats why they behave like that. What happened to you in the past does not have to be the eternal stamp on your personality. My relationship with my birth father continued after I was fostered. I had contact with him and a stepmother. When she died, I was an adult, by which point I had realised that perhaps my father wasnt quite the nice person my infant self had thought he was. We didnt really have anything in common so I just did my dutiful bits and made sure he was OK, but there wasnt an awful lot of heart there. Despite lacking a consistent mother gure I dont feel emotionally incomplete, and I think thats because I ended up with the right people, but you could say I was at an age when Id already been formulated. Like the Jesuits said, Give me a boy to the age of seven and Ill show you the man. I have not felt tempted to explore my genealogy. I know who my mother was. Ive got her birth certicate. I know she died of tuberculosis. It was during the war and they were short of penicillin, as it was used on the front more than anywhere else. She didnt have the medication that she should have had, but I also think probably shed given up. From what Ive heard from people, maybe she had given up with my father. I started boarding school when I was fostered and it instilled all sorts of values. It became home to me once I got over the rst week of crying. Boarding school was like a family and I loved it. I suddenly came into my own. I loved the discipline and structure, and by structure I mean who gives you that moral code and direction. Ive always thought that I quite like the idea of the traditional family, but actually you can get those structures and that moral direction from any sort of family structure. Im very, very strongly in favour of giving people the opportunity of a family. Today, people wanting to enter the fostering system have to jump through a lot of hoops. There have to be legal parameters, but I still think a family that is not 100% perfect is better than a childrens home. Its got to be. I didnt have to spend any time in a childrens home, thank goodness. I agree with the discipline that a childrens home would encourage and foster, but it is also instilling in a child that they are just something that can be put away. Its like kennelling a dog. Nobody is really caring. Ive never had any children. I felt when I was younger that I would be a lousy parent because of my background. But I think now I would have been a better parent. Ive got an enormous number of surrogate kids, including distant family youngsters, which is lovely because that is giving me grandma status. But most of the surrogate kids I have, Im a second mum to. Interview by Nick McGrath
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