7.2 traumas 9.1 9.2 9.3 9.4 9.5 9.6 9.7 9.

8 folter abuse (self/from other) violence specify war specify punishment specify shock accident hypnose theft 9.8.1 money 9.8.2 time 9.8.3 energy 9.8.4 idea 9.8.5 deceit

7.1. karma-lessons 1 2 3 4 5 6 curse planet black magic planet support wrong person planet support wrong group planet impressions from art (raja/tama) planet impression from media (raja/tama) planet

6.1) Brahm-demons 01 - Putana = pseudoguru & empiricists 08 - Brahmaa-vimohan = speculation & mundane magic 09 - Dhenukasura (ass) = material intel. &lack of divya gian 13 - second forest fire = destruction of theism & dharma 15 - Indra-pride attacks Vrindavan = see devas as supreme & I am god 16 - Varuna keeps Nanda-b. = thinking that intoxication can help spiritual sadhana 19 - Aristhasura (bull) = pride in false or external religiosity > neglect bhakti

6.2) Aparadha-demons 04 Nalakuvar & Manigriva = mad 4 wealth puffed up & arrogant 07 Aghasura (snake) = cruel & violent 10 Kaliya = brutality & treachery 6.3) Trishna-demons 21 - Vyomasura (false cowboy magician=siddhi) stealing cowboys = association with thieves and rascals

6.4) Daurbalya-demons 02 - Shakatasura = load of bad bad habits lethargy & vanity 03 - Trinavarta = scholarship & pride 05 Vatsasura = childish --> greed --> mischieveous 06 - Bakasura (storch) = duplicity & deception 11 - first forest fire = discord in Vaishnav community 12 - Prahlambhasura (false cowboy) = pratishta & lust 14 - brahmana-yagia = pride of status 18 - Shankacuda = false devotion for pratishta 20 - Keshi horse = abhiman: I am great bhakta & guru

5.2 5.1 varnas 4+2 1 antyaja/candala 2 shudra 3 vaishya 4 kshatriya 5 brahmana professions & positions

ashramas 4+2

5.3

. relations

5.4 sub roles 1 - tarot archetypes 2 teacher / pupil guide / follower guru / disciple 3 - culprit (guilt?)/victim (shame?) 4 - helper/saviour / need to be saved .x-

1 below ashrama 2 brahmacari 3 grihasta 4 vanaprastha 5 sannyasi 6 out of ashram babaji clarify deails by tarot

1 - stranger 2 - servant / master 3 - friend / sibling 4 - parent / child 5- lover / beloved clarify deails by tarot

4.3.2 twelve Stages of Humility 12 containment of ones interets -> humble bearing & lowered eyes 11 quiet and restrained speech 10 reluctance to laugh 09 keeping silent unless asked to speak 08 regarding oneself as having no special rights 07 thinking oneself less than others 06 thinking oneself unworthy to take initiative 05 confessing ones sins 04 patience in the face of accusation 03 submission to suoeriors 02 desiring no freedom to exercise ones will 01 constant watchfulness against sin

4.3.1 twelve Stages of pride 1 curiosity (about whats not ones proper concern 2 levity of mind i am better -> rejoice & scorn / i am worse -> sad & jealous 3 foolish unseasonal merriment 4 conceit ->self-centered ->boasting 5 excentricity / exceptionalism 6 self-assertion (i am holier than others) 7 presumptious interference (by independent qualification) 8 defense of wrong-doing 9 dishonest confession 10 rebellious nature (against superiors & god) 11 feeling free to sin 12 habitual sinning

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

4.6 nine Ego-Passions anger / peacefulness pride / humility deceit / honesty envy / contentedness avarice / philantropy fear / safeness gluttony / fasting lust / chastity idleness / dutifulness

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9

4.7 nine-Ego-Fixations resentment / liking flattery / praise of sat.cit.an. vanity / modesty melancholy / cheerfulness stinginess / generosity cowardice / courage planning / accepting providence vengeance / forgiveness idleness / dutifulness

4.1 a-varga the six enemies of the mind /(and six friends:-) (PBC 10) 1 2 3 4 5 lust / (chastity) anger / (tolerance) greed / (self-satisfied) illusion / (true perception) pride (due to think I am lord / (humility) 6 envy / (contentment)

4.2 seven-bach-flower-f-ego-states / (& soul-blossoms) 1 fearful / safe (god n soul belief) 2 un- /certain (divine inner guidance) 3 lack of / interest in here-now (karma-dharma acceptance) 4 lonely / (group-harmonious integration unit in diversity) 5 influenced / (self-standing-harmonious in dharma) 6 despondent despaired / (confident n joyful in service) 7 desireful n greedy / (divinely loving, wise, n free to be self)

4.5. ego-limitations 1.- misjudge ones adhikar +/2.- un/conscious limiting belief plan 3.- ghost posession 3.1) poor/evil 3.2) human/other 3.3) nature/underworld 3.4) known/unknown 4.4 consciousness trapped in object of meditation 1 beloved (this or past-life) 2 one of five gross elements, or its senses (-/+) 3 prana / nadis 4 cakras 5 buddhi 6 manas 7 forefathers 8 devas

3.3.3.2 siddhis 3.7 more obstacles to bhajan anishthita

(From Madhurya Kadambini by Srila Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakura)

1 utsahamayi (sudden enthusiasm) 2 ghana-tarald (sometimes enthusiastic, sometimes lethargic) 3 vyudha- vikalpa (a stage when doubts assail one's resolve) 4 visaya-sangara (a stage of internal tug-of-war with material sense enjoyment) 5 niyamaksama (although one practises regularly, full justice is still not done to the process) 6 taranga-rangini (attachment to wealth, adoration, distinction, and so on). 3.6 obstacles in bhajan
(From Madhurya Kadambini by Srila Visvanatha Cakravarti Thakura)

3.1 svarup-brahm essential-misconcepts 3.1.1 maya-tattvabrahm (abt matter) 3.1.2 sadhya.sadhanabrahm (abt ultimate goal and process to attain it) 3.1.3 sva-tattva /jivasvarup-brahm (abt ones own eternal nature & position) 3.1.4 para-tattva-brahm
(abt the nature of the Supreme-Principle )

1 anima: smallness 2 mahima: greatness 3 lagima: lightness 4 vasita: control others 5 prakaamyam: perform desired 6 praapti: aquisition of objects 7 ishita: control sub-potencies of maya 8 kamavasayita: obtain anything fr. anywhere 3.3 asat-trishna thirst for the temporary 3.3.1 bhauma (worldly sense pleasure) 3.3.2 svarga (heavenly pleasures) 3.3.3 siddhi (mysticperfections)
(see 3.3.3.2 above)

3.2

3.5.1 Laya means the tendency to sleep during kirtana, sravana, and smarana (japa), in order of increasing tendency. 3.5.2 Viksepa means distraction toward mundane topics while doing devotional service (gossiping while doing japa). 3.5.3 Apratipatti refers to the occasional inability to absorb the mind in kirtana and other services in spite of the absence of laya or viksepa. 3.5.4 Kasaya refers to the innate tendency toward such qualities as anger, greed and pride. 3.5.5 Rasasvada means the inability to absorb the mind in kirtana and other services if one gets the opportunity for the material sense pleasure. Nisthita-bhakti appears in the absence of these faults.

3.3.4 moksha (impersonal liberation)

aparadha offences 3.2.1 Krishna(svarup- & dham- ) 3.2.2 Krishnanaam-aparadha 3.2.3 Krishna-rupa (shree vigraha & seva-aparadha 3.2.4 jivas / living-beings
(especially vaishnavas)

3.4 hriday-daurbalya (weakness of heart) 3.4.1 tucha-asakti (attached to useless things ) 3.4.2 kutinati/deceit 3.4.3 matsarya/envy 3.4.4 sva-pratishtalalasa (desire for ones own name & fame or recognition)

3.5 anartha roots

(From Madhurya Kadambini) (1) Duskrtottha (anarthas coming from sinful activities) are almost eradicated (prayiki) in the bhajana-kriya stage of devotional service completely absolved (purna) in the developmental stage of nih (steady faith in devotional service), and destroyed absolutely without a trace (tyntik) in the stage of sakti, or unwavering attachment to devotional service. (2) Sukrtottha (anarthas coming from pious deeds) (3) Aparadhottha (anarthas coming from offences) (4) Bhaktyuttha (anarthas coming from devotional service) eka-deavarttin (partially) in the bhajana-kriya stage; purna (completely) in the nih stage; and atyantika (absolutely thoroughly) in the ruci stage (relishing devotional service) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The many anarthas stemming from apardhas are partially destroyed in the final stages of bhajana-kriya (rendering devotional service under the guidance of a spiritual master). This is known as eka-deavarttin. When bhajana-kriya gains maturity it turns to nih, or steadiness, in devotional activities. In this stage of development the mitigation of anarthas is substantial (bahu-deavarttin); thereafter, on the platform of rati (attraction) the unwanted desires in the heart are almost completely absolved (prayiki). With the first awakening of prema, or divine love, these anarthas are completely removed (purna). Finally, the anarthas are totally uprooted (tyntik) when the devotee receives the mercy and shelter of the Lord's lotus feet.

.3 belief: jivas are not eternally subordinate to Ishvara

.5 belief: Ishvara is only potency that brings karma

.2 belief Ishvara has no particular form

.5 Abhinnivesh will to survive as body .3 Raga .2 Asmita identify as body .1 Avidya .4 Dvesh

.4 absence of mercy .1 no faith in Ishvara

2) 5 enmi-ties

1) 5 ignorance coverings

Sou con l s c s cio ont r u sn a ctin e ss g flow

yellow arrows show inhibited thru the web dark-blue-egg-sphere represents one universe & the influence of Bhagavans maya

flow of souls consciousness of Maya

Bhagavans

Maha-Maya
vimukath
turned away from Bhagavan

Bhgavatam (1.2.19) : tad rajas-tamo-bhv kma-lobhdaya ca ye ceta etair anviddha sthita sattve prasdati As soon as irrevocable loving service is established in the heat the effects of nature's modes of passion and ignorance, such as lust, desire and hankering, disappear from the heart. Then the devotee is established in goodness, and he becomes completely happy.

Jiva/Soul
in tata-stha state or viraja-plane:
unconcerned about Bhagavan

Eternal Knowing - Brahmananda

connected with Gods effulgence
Shuddha-Bhakti leads to eternal relation with Shree Bhagavan

Souls consciousness flow:

Bhagavan (Param-atma)