MARCH 19935 Mar 93
It's particularly rough to be here now.
My mind is excited about the possibilities that lie ahead, and themany changes to come this year. Geraldine was right! I'm not meant to be cooped up in an office. Thework I am doing does not provide much of a challenge for my abilities, and does not provide an outlet for expressing my unique talents, creativity, and energy. While my work is innovative and receives somerecognition -- the ultimate impact is likely to be minimal, if it truly makes any difference at all. From aspiritual standpoint, it definitely has no real value. Further, the basic nature of the work is such that thereis nothing I can do to change this.How long do I continue to sell out myself in this manner? Effectively, I'm renting out my time, talents,and abilities for approximately $45 per hour including benefits. What a bargain! Yet, what a waste!Further, I'm giving up an additional 17 hours (and 800 miles x 15 cents/mile in commute costs) each week to permit this sell out. Is it really worth it? My spirit answers,
. I no longer feel right in prostitutingmyself in this manner.It's time to start doing something I can truly be excited about - - something that engages all my energiesand abilities in work that has real meaning and universal impact. The security of a job is not worthsacrificing my life -- which, to some degree, is what I feel that I am doing now. I no longer choose totolerate boredom in my work. I am no longer willing to expend my efforts toward futile ends. Life is tooshort to accept a work situation/environment that does not allow me to be all that I can be.I ask that the Universe send to me the conditions that allow me to engage my energies more abundantly, joyfully, and fruitfully for my highest good and the highest good of all concerned. And further, to sendthese conditions to me as quickly as possible for this good. All That Is, I offer my gifts, talents, abilities,and energies to do thy bidding -- in fulfillment of the tasks that we brought this presence forth into theworld to accomplish. The time for doing this great work is here, and yet, I know that your timing is theright timing. All will be done in its
season and "There is a proper time for every season under Heaven."It would be nice to have a spiritual retreat, a place where people of open mind can come to refresh and re-create their spiritual selves. This would be a sacred space -- a center for teaching and learning and doing.For it is essential that the spirit be given practical means by which to more fully manifest itself, here andnow, on Earth. The center should have much open space, a garden, a library, meeting rooms, and activityrooms. Those who come should be encouraged to share of whom that they are -- to teach what they know-- as part of the "price" of admission. There should also be tools and resources available for the buildingof other special structures of various geometric shapes throughout the compound. The shapes of thesestructures will provide alignment to particular higher vibrations -- that any who so desire may experience.The center will include a core group of individuals that permanently occupy and care for the space. Thisdoes not restrict their freedom to travel, rather, the center provides the home base. A second group willcome to the center on sabbatical, as resident members/teachers/facilitators, for a period of several monthsto one year. Finally, others will come for training/vacation/ recreation -- for a period from several days toseveral months. This group will include special souls who come (invited or self-directed) to share of whom that they are through teaching or providing their services to others.3