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I felt the slight pressure of fingertips on my arm. The fingers crept
upwards, towards my shoulder and up to the neckline of my shirt. I
breathed heavily as the fingers reached my face, my lips, and his lips
reached down to mine. Our breath mingled as his mouth crushed mine.
The moment was perfect. But perfection can go wrong in an instant.
“I love you, Cady,” he breathed as his mouth left mine. I was too out of
breath to say much.
His fingers left my arm and began tugging on the neck of my shirt,
trying to lift it off. When I realised what he was doing I began to pinch at
his fingers, trying to make them release my shirt and after a few moments
he gave up.
“What the hell’s the matter with you?” he asked, appalled.
I sat in silent horror, thinking of what would happen if he had
succeeded in taking off my shirt.
Because Jackson Scott, my boyfriend of seven months, did not know
my biggest secret. And he never would. I would never tell anyone. I had
promised myself that almost nine years ago and I was not breaking now.
I settled on the easiest possible explanation for my behaviour. “I’m not
ready yet.”
Disappointment and understanding washed over his features. His
mouth turned down at the corners and he ran a hand through his hair,
messing it up but not noticeably.
“Do you know what Cady? I’m fine with that,” he said after a few
moments pensive silence.
My heart lifted and my hand shot out to his chin and pulled his face,
and more importantly his lips, towards me.
And he truly seemed okay with it. We left his parents’ bedroom and
walked down the hall to his. His room was bright and surprisingly adult for
a boy his age. There was not a football poster, a nude calendar or any
other trademark of an eighteen year old boy’s room. In fact it was tidier
than my room, and my room was tidy. After all, it should be; I was hardly
ever in it.
I sat on his bed and smoothed the silk sheets absentmindedly as I
watched Jackson move about his room. He moved with an easy fluidity
that seemed unnatural and yet compelling at the same time. He moved
with the grace a ballet dancer could only hope to achieve.
Jackson was fiddling with the photo frames scattered around the room
– they were the only sign that anyone lived in this room. I knew every
photo in the room well, mostly because I was in them.
Jackson and I were both in the highest rank of teenage popularity at
the local school. Everyone looked up to us and we pretty much ruled the
school. He was fiddling with the photo of the Halloween party three years
ago, the day when we had met. That picture had always embarrassed me,
partly because I was wearing a bumble bee outfit that emphasised all the
wrong things and partly because of the way I was hanging off Jackson’s
arm with a sickly-sweet smile on my face. I had been fourteen and
overjoyed that a fifteen year-old had kissed me. He turned to another
photo, one taken a few weeks ago when we were at a party. I was sat on
Jackson’s lap smiling and holding his hand, looking a completely different
person to the sweet thirteen year old in the neighbouring picture.
He turned away from the picture frames with a sly smile on his face. I
jerked from my thoughts and realised I had been staring, and he had
noticed.
The smile stayed in place as he came to sit beside me on the bed and
put his arm around my shoulders.
“You okay?” he asked me quietly, a look of concern tainting his eyes.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Better than fine. Great.” I couldn’t even see my smile
but I knew it was so obviously false that someone less receptive than
Jackson could have picked it up.
He pushed me backwards onto the bed and crushed his mouth once
more to mine with the same passion as before. I wondered idly if he
bottled up all his passion for the rare occasions like these; we barely ever
kissed in public and when we did it was on a par with kissing your
grandmother. But these were the kisses I treasured, the kisses when we
just let go and acted on instinct.
But I hadn’t even noticed while thinking all this that Jackson’s hands
were scrabbling at the neckline of my shirt again and my hands were
pinned behind my back, the full force of both out weights pushing them
down.
“No, Jackson, no,” I murmured around his mouth. He paid no attention.
And my shirt was over my head before I could get my hands free and
stop him.
And the look of disgust as he surveyed my body was just as I had
pictured in my mind.
“What . . . how . . . Cady?” he stammered. I knew his mind was working
away, though, piecing together pieces of evidence it had locked away for
this moment.
And realisation dawned in his eyes.
He pointed an accusatory finger at my face, scrambling off the bed and
towards the door while still keeping his eyes on me.
“Jackson, its okay, just calm down.” I had risen off the bed and began
taking slow steps towards him, arms raised as if I were giving myself to
the Police.
“Get away from me. GET AWAY FROM ME!”
I grabbed my shirt and bolted for the door, tears stinging my eyes. I
ran downstairs and opened the door before pulling the shirt back over my
head and running blindly down his street. I heard Jackson screaming as I
ran.
That was the day I decided to leave home.
That was the day Cady Cooper died.
And that was the day that Arcadia Cooper was born.
Chapter one
Driving through the night, my vision blurred with unrelenting tears, had
given me a chance to think and decide on the perfect place to run to and
the perfect story to tell.
It had been only four hours since the Jackson-fiasco; I spent one hour
packing my entire life into seven boxes and a bag and three hours to drive
halfway down the country to the only place I could go.
So that left me here, facing the frosted window panes of a door I hadn’t
seen in almost twelve years.
I raised my fist, my fingernails digging into my palm, rapped three
times on the wood and waited. And waited. And waited . . .
As I turned away from the door, tears threatening in my eyes, I heard
the distant rumble of footsteps and a low, throaty voice. The door opened
and it was like a memory coming to life.
The man in the doorway was a little older than I remembered, a little
balder, a little more haggard with a pot belly I definitely had never seen
before. But he was fundamentally the same man of my childhood.
In this doorway stood my father.
My parents had split up when I was five and I had lived with my mother
ever since. When they had been together I had liked my mother a lot
more than my father because mum was always interested in watching
children’s TV and always got takeaways when she had to cook and, of
course, being five, I thought she was the best parent ever.
Of course, being seventeen, I now realised she was just lazy. She had
watched children’s TV because she didn’t want to clean and she got
takeaways because she couldn’t be bothered cooking.
“Hello?” he asked in a voice that struck my memories again. His voice
hadn’t changed one bit.
“Hello. I’m really sorry to impose like this but could I just ask a
favour?” I said this nervously, reading the obvious confusion on his
features. “I really need a place to sleep tonight. Well, I actually need a
place to live. If you don’t have a spare couch I don’t mind sleeping in the
car . . .”
“I’m sorry but, um, who are you?” His light blue eyes, so similar to my
own, roved over my body, trying to put a name to the face.
“Oh, sorry. I’m Arcadia.” I felt a strange compulsion to hold out my
hand to shake, like you would do for a stranger. Instead, I tucked a lock of
long, black hair behind my ear, an action I only ever did when I was
nervous.
His eyes became far away, searching his memory for my identity.
“Arcadia, is that you?” he finally said, his hands twitching towards me,
his eyes becoming wide.
“Yeah it’s me. So can I stay?”
“Um, well, we have a pretty full house . . .”
I turned back to the car, tears blurring my vision, as he spoke.
“Arcadia, do you really think I’d turn my own daughter away on the
doorstep?”
I turned on my heel and stared disbelievingly at the familiar stranger
on the doorstep. When he smiled I ran forwards and enveloped him in a
vice-tight embrace.
After a few futile attempts at writing Jackson an e-mail I gave up. There
was so much I needed to say – too much to put in an e-mail, or even a
letter. And I knew the chances of him actually reading said e-mail were
slim.
I slid my chair back from the computer and kneaded my head with the
heels of my hands.
It had now been thirteen days since I had last seen Jackson, or any of
my friends. This was the longest we had ever not spoken to each other.
Even our most serious fights only lasted a week at most.
I glanced at my calendar and noted it was Gemma’s birthday. Gemma
had been my best friend, after Jackson of course, and today was her
seventeenth birthday. She had been planning a big night out for months,
taking all out best friends out to clubs and all crashing at hers afterwards.
I had been looking forwards to it since she had begun arranging it. My
eyes darted to my bedside table and the mobile phone that lay dormant
there.
I made a snap decision to call her, wish her a happy birthday and
check that everyone was okay.
I perched on my bed and tapped in the number. She answered on the
fifth ring.
“Hello?” she asked in a sleepy voice.
“Hey Gemma! Happy Birthday!” I called into the phone, smiling at the
familiarity of her voice.
She paused. “Who is this?”
Rising off the bed and into the path of the mirror I saw the shock cross
my face. “It’s Cady. Remember me?”
“Cady? I don’t know a . . . oh, Cady! Hey!”
Tears leaked out of the corner of my eyes and rolled down my face.
She had forgotten me completely in less than two weeks. More tears
escaped my eyes as I mumbled an excuse and put the phone down.
I didn’t even bother calling anyone else; if Gemma, my best friend, had
already forgotten me, I didn’t hold much hope for anyone else
remembering I existed.
I sat back on the bed and watched the small glittering beads of
sadness race down my face.
And I must have fallen asleep somewhere during my silent sobbing, as
I opened my eyes and where the sunlight had been struggling its way
through the curtains before there was now the eerie glow of moonlight.
My phone told me it was ten-fifteen. Jackson would be home from work by
now.
Without even stopping to think about it I clicked Jackson’s name from
my phonebook and listened to the call tone.
“Hello?” he said in his bright phone-answering voice.
I felt a stiff lump in my throat at the sound of his voice. He repeated
himself.
“Hello, Jackson.” My voice sounded hoarse from crying.
I heard a rustling from the other end and the long bleep of the dial
tone.
I pulled myself off the bed, wiped the tears threatening my eyes,
brushed my hair from my face and tied it to the back of my head.
As I put my hand on the door handle I realised that I was painfully
hungry and knew instantly that this hunger wouldn’t be satisfied with
food. With a sigh, I headed away from the door and out of the window,
into the night.
“So, going anywhere today? It is Saturday,” dad said, his concern not
entirely hidden from his voice. He was obviously hoping that if I left the
house then I would perk up and the terrible depression that had settled on
me would lift.
“No, I think I’ll just stay in and do some more work,” I sighed, pulling
my eyes up from the table and giving him a weak imitation of a smile.
“Are you sure? I think Jessica is going to one of your friends houses.”
Jess walked into the room and snorted. “Yeah, our friends,” she said
sarcastically. “No she’ll stay in and mope about Jack –” She cut herself
short as I shot her a look that clearly told her to shut up.
Dad ignored the slip up. “Well, I’m sure that you’ve made some of your
own friends here.”
Seeing the twinkle in his eyes and the obvious longing for me to be
happy and decided to spare him my company.
“Actually I could call . . . Gemma and go out. She said something about
a film she wanted to watch,” I lied quickly, ignoring the twinge in my heart
as I used my ex-best friend’s name.
Jess shot me a quizzical look and left the room. My dad was positively
grinning as he reached for his wallet and handed me a small wad of notes,
insisting I take them and have fun.
So the plan was already set in my head. Get dressed and drive my car
out to some field and mope there all day.
But when I got into the car and threw my purse, keys and phone onto
the passenger seat I changed my plans.
I would call Jackson again, and this time if he put the phone down on
me I would just drive to his house and confront him.
Arcadia,
They know you left. And this isn’t like a sisterly warning; this is just to rub
it in your face. You will be in soooo much trouble.
From, your perfect step-sister.
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Two weeks had passed and Jared and I were practically inseparable. My
dad couldn’t have been any happier and neither could I. I felt like
everything had fallen into its rightful place. Jared’s family loved me,
especially his little sister Melanie who loved me styling her hair for her.
Jared hadn’t been over to my house to meet the family yet because of
Jessica. Her frosty glances and hostile actions had taken their toll but not
warned me off Jared as she had wished.
I was currently sat in front of my mirror, wearing some of my favourite
clothes from Cady-days and styling my hair. It was funny, now I hardly
ever thought of my old life; it seemed like a different lifetime. I had found
a way to look not to Cady but not too given-up-on-life and came out with
the new improved Arcadia.
I whistled as I grabbed a cereal bar and rushed out of the door, calling
goodbyes over my shoulder. Jared was waiting at the bottom of my drive,
his face pointed own while he read the book I had recommended to him,
and as I got into the car his face snapped up and he smiled.
I had to admit, Jared’s car was a lot nicer than mine. It was the same
blue as the sky on a blindingly sunny day and it always smelled of leather
and, for some strange reason, apricot Frubes.
We drove and prattled about unimportant things like homework,
people, the films we wanted to see and had already seen; life in general.
We talked all the way to the cinema, as we were going to go see a film,
and as we walked to the building.
We paid for out tickets and popcorn and sat to wait the twenty minutes
until we were allowed into the screening. As we sat his hand twitched
towards mine and he almost held my hand. My heart seemed to jump into
my throat and lodge there. I realised with a shock that I wanted him to
hold my hand and I wanted him to hug me tightly and never let go.
In the screening I tried to sit as far away from him as the seat would let
me but and the lights went down his arm snaked around my waist and
pulled me towards him, and I let him. I tried to concentrate on the film but
my mind kept going off on its own wanderings. The lead woman had eyes
a little like Jared’s . . . the lead man has lips just like Jared’s . . . that guy’s
voice sounds a bit like Jared’s . . .
I turned towards him, just to get a sneaky look at him in the dark and
saw him staring at me too, the same longing expression on his face as I
could feel on my own.
Suddenly our bodies lost control and our faces were leaning towards
the other, lips slightly parted and we kissed.
It felt like an explosion, a violent petrol bomb exploding on my lips and
reverberating down the rest of my body. Every inch of my skin felt like it
was alive with electricity and burning. My lips felt white hot against his
and I was worried that the intense heat would burn him. I pulled back
slightly but the arm around my waist flew up to grip the back of my head,
keeping my face to his. Our breathing was coming in ragged rasps as it
mingled. I felt a part of him and he felt a part of me, like our souls had
merged. I could almost sense his pleasure in my mind and body.
We broke apart suddenly, both breathing so fast it was almost
hyperventilation, and stared at each other, searching the others eyes and
looking directly into their soul. His soul screamed for me, wanting more
delicious kisses, and he grabbed my hand and we practically fled from the
cinema and into his car. We sat in silence, both taking in the electric
sparks bouncing between our bodies. We both stared forward, out the
windshield, at the passers-by.
Finally he said, “What just happened?”
“I don’t know,” I breathed, after a slight hesitation. “I’ve never felt
anything like that before.” And it was true. Kisses with Jackson had been
fierce and passionate but never as good as that; compared to kissing
Jared, kissing Jackson had been like kissing a lion cub.
“Did you feel what I felt?” he asked suddenly.
“I think so. It was like being plugged into an electric supply, but
better.”
I saw him nod from the corner of my eye.
“Is it strange that I want to do it again?” he asked.
I shook my head and before I knew it I was pressed against him, my
body curving around his and his lips sending intense waves of pleasure
down my spine. We broke apart breathing heavily again and he started up
the car.
“Where are we going?” I asked dazedly, my skin still zinging from the
electric pleasure.
“Home,” he said with a tone that made it know that we were going to
his home, not mine.
His home where no one was there.
My breathing suddenly got more ragged as I struggled to breathe.
Hundreds of images flew through my head, most including me minus my
shirt, and I suddenly felt sick.
As we tumbled thought the door he called out, asking if anyone else
was home, and, satisfied with the silence, took my hand and led me to his
room.
Once in his room he sat me on the bed, closed the door and sat beside
me. He leaned close to my face, lips puckered irresistibly, and I leaned
back, away from him.
“What’s wrong?” he asked gently, as soon as he noticed her
withdrawal.
“Nothing,” I said with feigned brightness. “Can’t we just watch TV or
something?”
He didn’t believe me; that boy was too perceptive and persistent for
his own good. He kept asking me what was wrong until I told him.
“It’s just . . . we can’t be together,” I admitted sadly, staring at my
interlaced hands.
“If this is about Jess forget it. I’m not interested in her, I’m interested in
you,” he consoled plucking my chin between his fingers so I faced him.
“It’s not her. It’s that were different. You’re lovely and caring and kind,
and I’m a monster. We don’t go together.”
I began to cry and he clutched me to his chest, rocking me gently like
a child and making occasional pacifying noises.
A while later I had gone into better detail. I was a creature of the night,
a damned soul, a vampire. And he was the closest thing I had ever found
to an angel in my life. Light and dark didn’t go together.
He tried to convince me otherwise, saying that I was not damned, I was
not a monster. I was just a victim and should be treated like anyone else.
And that he wasn’t perfect either – that he had dark places in his mind
too.
“Jared, listen to me,” I pleaded exasperatedly. “I am a dark creature, a
killer and I always will be. I bare the marks of my kind and the marks can’t
be erased no matter how much you try to make up for them.”
“What marks? Your scars? They don’t look too awful. They make you
look brave, just like you are.”
I lifted the base of my shirt up, exposing a pair of angry red scars, each
about the width of a pencil that made me what I was. He flinched
backwards at the sight of them.
“They aren’t that bad,” he said despite the look of appellation on his
face.
I jerked the rest of my shirt up, exposing more scars, and pulled my
jeans down the reveal the marks on my upper legs. Each scar hit his face
like a whip, making the frown lines deeper and his eyes narrow.
“You see,” I said through tears, “Even you can’t stand to look at them!”
He pulled me towards him and I felt an electric zing on my stomach,
and another. I peered down at Jared and saw him kissing each scar,
touching them with care.
“What are you doing?” I sobbed.
“I don’t hate your scars. I don’t even hate you for having them. I hate
the people who did this to you for forcing this life on you and making you
think about yourself like this. You’re talking as if you aren’t good enough
for me, like you’re evil and shouldn’t be let out in public. But really it’s you
who’s too good for me. I could never go through what you did when I was
eight and still be alive.”
I cried a while longer and he drove me home, giving me a quick kiss at
the driveway.
Be alone in your room at 10.30 tonight. I’ll call you. I have something to
say to you x
At 10.31 he phoned. I answered on the first ring.
“So what do you need to say?” I asked in a hushed voice.
There was a muffled “I” and nothing more. I repeated the question,
explaining about bad signal.
“I said, I love you Arcadia. I really honestly love you.”
The words formed and fell from my lips with no effort at all. “You know
what Jared? I think I love you too.”
Chapter Six
I felt a pair of warm lips caress my throat and my eyes opened slowly to
glance around the room; I knew immediately where I was. I twisted my
body so I was facing the kissing lips and pressed my own cold lips into his
warm ones.
I had snuck into his house at about four a.m. after the terrifying ghost-
voice and hadn’t left since, feeling safer while being held in his arms than
sat in my bed alone with the darkness. I pushed all dark thoughts into a
deep corner of my mind and another warm kiss wiped them from my
memory almost completely.
This night-time meeting had not been a surprise; I had been sneaking
into his room regularly for the past three weeks. His parents and my
parents knew nothing about this arrangement. Practically every day I
woke up in Jared’s room, cradled in his arms like a treasured child, and
feeling warm and special. It made me feel lucky that I had found Jared;
there were few people who found someone who is perfect for them in
every way who thinks that they’re perfect too.
His kisses had stopped and I opened my eyes to see why. He was
staring blankly at my face, his features twisted into an expression of deep
thought.
“What’s the matter?” I asked him gently. He didn’t often waste a
second of the snatched time we had together on thought. We were too
busy doing other things.
“I was just thinking. Did it hurt when you were . . . you know . . .
bitten?” he asked slowly, his eyes not refocusing.
“Why?” I breathed suspiciously. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach.
He propped himself up on his elbow and stared at me. I self-
consciously smiled at him. “Arcadia, I was just wondering whether you
would do something for me.”
My automatic response was to say ‘of course, anything for you,’ but
instead I narrowed my eyes at him and said “What?” in the same
suspicious tone as before.
“Okay, don’t get mad, but I was thinking about how you said I was too
good for you. And I said you were too good for me.”
“I remember.”
“Well, I want to even the tables out. I want us to be the same,” he said
shortly as he thrust his wrist underneath my face. I could see a great
pulsating vein beneath all the skin and had to turn away quickly. He thrust
the arm back under my nose and I turned again. Then he took my cheeks
between his thumb and forefinger and out his wrist up to by mouth. I
kissed the wrist gently and peppered kisses on his palm and on each
finger tip.
“I won’t change you. I will never change you because you are perfect
and I don’t want to flaw you,” I whispered, trying to lean my face
inconspicuously away from the arm and the pulsating vain.
Before he could reply I spoke again. “Breakfast? I want some of your
Dad’s waffles.” I dragged myself off the bed and threw myself out of the
window, leaving Jared in his pyjamas with ruffled hair looking as
bewildered as the first time I jumped out of his window. By the time I had
gotten home, left a note explaining where I was, changed and drove back
to Jared’s he was fully dressed and presentable and already halfway
through his first portion of his dad’s signature breakfast waffles. After
making idle chat with his dad for fifteen minutes we took our leftover
waffles and sat in the living room to watch TV. The channel was set to the
news and just as Jared was about to turn over a headline caught my eyes
and forced my stomach into my throat.
“. . . a youth, Jackson Scott, has been brutally attacked and killed by
what looks like a pack of wild animals, possibly dogs trained by a gang to
attack . . .”
I ran from the room, covering my mouth with my hand and violently
threw up my breakfast in the toilet.
Jackson was dead. He had been killed. He wasn’t alive anymore, and
somehow this made me feel ill.
Why should you care? a small, rational part of my mind asked. He left
you because of what you are, and now you have Jared who’s ten times
better than Jackson was.
But the strange thing was that I didn’t know why I cared. Sure, I had
been close to him but for the past few weeks I had all but forgotten about
him. I truly hadn’t cared about him, so why now, when he’s dead.
I found out when I re-entered the living room and saw pictures of
Jackson’s wounds.
Jackson’s perfectly muscled chest was punctured by hundreds of blood
red marks, with some flesh tearing, but each mark as circular and about
the width of a pencil.
I suddenly understood everything.
Jackson had been killed, but not by a gang with violent dogs. No,
Jackson had been killed by an angry gang, the true predators of this world,
and his corpse now bore the same scars as mine did.
Jackson had been killed by vampires.
And as soon as my mind recognised the words as truth the world went
dimmer, as if the lights had gone out, and suddenly I was falling
downwards into the inescapable darkness below me.
I woke a few minutes later and stared dizzily around the room. Where am
I? I automatically thought before everything came into focus and I
realised where I was. I was in Jared’s living room with a cold towel
absorbing the sweat on my brow and Jared holding my hand, his face
close to mine but not touching it.
Before I could wonder what had happened memories rushed at me,
slamming into my mind with the force of a large truck. Oh, God. Jackson
was dead. He was dead.
I felt the dizzy sickness settle on me again and fought it back; I didn’t
need to pass out again.
As soon as Jared had noticed my eyes were focued he exhaled loudly in
relief and whispered gently into my ear, as if I had suddenly gone deaf,
not fainted. “Are you okay?”
“I’m fine,” I slurred, my mind still foggy. “Yeah, I just need to call
someone.” The words came as a shock to me and my first instinct was to
call Gemma or some other friend from my old town to ask about how
Jackson’s family was. But as soon as I thought of Gemma I knew I was
wrong and knew who I had to call. I practically ran to his room and
snathed my phone from the bed. I dialled quickly, knowing the nuber by
heart having asked for advice from them so many times before. It rang
and rang until I thought they wouldn’t answer, and then the connection
click sounded from the phone.
“Cady, is that you?” breathed the whispery soft voice of my best friend
in the world, excluding Jared of course.
There had been thrilled screams and tight embraces all around when
Mary-Angela and Dominic emerged from their car, slightly ruffled by the
two hour car journey, to be greeted by Jared and me. I had wanted to see
them for so long and I had been bordering on calling them for advice
several times in the past few months but I had always resisted for one
reason or another. Mary-Angela and Dominic were the vampire couple
who had saved my life.
Mary-Angela and Dominic looked exactly the same as when I had first
met them nine years ago, the day when my life changed forever. Mary-
Angela’s hair still shone like a fluffy blonde halo around her face and
Dominic’s child-like face still looks mischievous when he smiled. There
was not a grey hair or wrinkle between the couple, despite the fact that
between them they were almost one hundred and fifty years old. Mary-
Angela and Dominic were not only some of the world’s most
compassionate vampires but they were some of the only vampires in the
country who had chosen eternal youth at such a young age. There is a
spell that exists amongst the witches of the world to halt the aging
process of a vampire but it is very complex and painful, not something a
person undergoes on a whim and especially as young as Dominic and
Mary-Angela.
“Cady! Oh my God, I’ve missed you!” Mary-Angela called as she got
out of the car, after pulling up her jeans and pulling her jacket down over
her impossibly smooth stomach. “Why didn’t you call sooner?” she
breathed as she ran and enveloped me in a rib-crushing embrace.
Dominic was standing awkwardly by their car, staring at Jared with
alarm and curiosity mingled in his eyes.
“As soon as you left you should have called us and let us know. We’ve
been going out of our minds about you. We even asked that Jackson boy
and he didn’t know. Did you two have a fight?” she asked in a long
ramble.
“Yes and no. You see what happened was-” Mary-Angela cut me off
with a gasp.
“You two didn’t break up did you? You were such a cute couple.”
My eyes widened in alarm as I stared at Mary-Angela. I tried to warn
her away from the subject of Jackson with my expression and it seemed to
work, but not before I caught Jared looking confused and concerned. I
could almost see the wheels turning in his mind as he pieced together my
reaction to Jackson’s death with what Mary-Angela had said; I hadn’t yet
told him about Jackson.
A few hours later we were sat in a café talking animatedly and
reminicing. Mary-Angela had practically fainted with pleasure upon
hearing that Jared and me were a couple. She had had the sense to keep
quiet about Jackson here.
“What I don’t get is why you called us up here today. You sounded
urgent on the phone. What’s the matter?” Dominic said, this voice smooth
as silk.
“Well, doubtless you heard about Jackson Scott, the boy who was
murdured,” I beagn to explain, carefully avoiding Jared’s eyes and
pretending not to notice the suspicion rolling from his body in thick waves.
“And did you notice, when you looked at the . . . body, that the marks on
him looked familiar?”
Dominic, being much quicker on the uptake than Mary-Angela,
instantly knew what I was talking about but Mary-Angela took a few
moments, glanced at her own scars on her hip bone, and then clamped a
hand over her mouth.
“Exactly,” I said. “So I wanted you out of the area in case there are
dangerous vampires there. I also wanted you to be here, to see you again.
It feels like a lifetime since I last saw you.”
And we continued in idle chatter, everyone deliberately avoiding the
subject of who could possibly have killed Jackson, fearing an answer we
didn’t want.
Late that night I woke again to the sound of the whispery voice calling my
name in the darkness. The name chilled me to the bone and I huddled up
in the duvet like a small child in the throes of a bad dream.
“Arcadia . . . Watch out!”
And with those words the air was still in the room and the voice was
gone, leaving no trace of its presence except a chill in my bones and the
sudden feeling that I was never alone.
Chapter Seven
I woke up in the morning at two thirty as I usually did and vaulted from
my windowsill onto the mossy ground below. Dominic and Mary-Angela
were meeting me at the front of the house so that we could drive to a
larger hunting region; the place where I usually hunted wasn’t big enough
for three vampires to hunt in. Mary-Angela was stood looking positively
angelic and way too much like a supermodel to be going hunting and
Dominic was waiting in the car. We piled in the car and drove north-west
until we were in the perfect hunting space. It was vast and teeming with
life, from small snack animals to the large main-courses.
We had been hunting for ten minutes when I heard the voice again.
“Arcadia . . . You’d better watch out. We’re coming . . .” The voice
sounded eerily close, so much so that I dropped my kill and whirled on the
spot. I called to the others, hoping that the sudden icy cold in the air was
just my imagination but fearing that it wasn’t. I forced them to leave half-
fed and promised twice as long a hunt the next morning.
It was Saturday morning when I climbed back into my room via the
window and changed. Normally I spent Saturdays at Jared’s house or out
with Jared, but now I had guests to entertain.
“What do you want to do today then? Shop? See a film?” I suggested to
them over breakfast.
“I’m hungry,” Mary-Angela complained, her face twisting into that of a
sulky child. “I need to hunt,” she added under her breath.
“Alright, you can hunt, just not where we were before. It felt . . .
dangerous there.” I knew that it felt more than dangerous there, but there
was no point in worrying anyone about my hunches and bad vibes.
We collected Jared at about eleven and headed down towards the
beach and the pine woods that lay next to it, brimming with animals. My
mouth watered at the possibilities of food – rabbit and mice and even
wolves if we were lucky. And the best part of the plan was that I felt no
bad karma around the place. In fact, I felt quite optimistic about the trip.
My optimism was soon dashed and destroyed.
The wind swirled around my face, lapping at my hair and blowing sand
into my eyes. It felt like the caressing touch of a lover, gentle and familiar.
I felt like a huntress, stalking my prey though the woods, dropping into
trenches every few minutes to avoid detection. I had the wolf in my sight
and was slowly tracking it through the underbrush. Every time he turned
his grey muzzle towards me to smell me out I ducked out of sight. I was
about to pounce from the trench I was in and feed when the gentle breeze
turned fierce.
The wind began to whip my face, trying to cut my face with its sheer
force. It no longer felt like the caress of a lover. No, now it was the touch
of a killer about to take his victims life, and enjoying it. I felt a chill deep in
my bones and convulsed in the shallow trench.
“Arcadia . . .”
The wind carried the message along with another bone chilling gust of
wind.
“Arcadia . . . Were coming!”
I stopped convulsing and stared towards the sky, trying to seek out the
danger. For some reason I had envisioned black wraiths descending from
the clouds to take my life, but instead I saw nothing but blue sky.
I still felt like danger was coming.
“Arcadia . . . Were here!”
I heard the voice in my mind this time, not just whispered on the wind.
It was an actual voice, cold and deep.
I stumbled from the trench and ran towards the beach, all my thought
directed towards finding Mary-Angela, Dominic and Jared and running
away. I knew that Mary-Angela and Dominic were near the beach and
Jared was on the beach its self waiting in the car for me to come back.
I was running wildly, the voice following me and whispering my name
at me over and over. I was nearing the beach when I fell.
“Too bad princess, you’re quite a runner,” a voice whispered in my ear.
I felt the cold breath on my cheek and almost fainted.
I was roughly flipped over to face the sky. A face leaned into my vision.
It was not an ugly face. Actually, it was the opposite of ugly. The face
was clean shaven with perfect full lips and wide turquoise eyes the colour
of the sea in summertime. But at that moment those perfect features
were twisted into an ugly menacing expression, like the bully child who
just gotten what they had wanted for a long time. I had a strange
compulsion to spit in his face like I did when I was a child. Another man
leaned in next to him, and another. They all looked the same – like the
bully who won. There was something other about them though, something
not quite right. They seemed to smell different to other people; they
smelled old and dusty, like clothes that haven’t been worn for a long time.
I sniffed discreetly and recognised the scent. Vampire.
That was how he had been whispering into my mind. Vampire’s can
develop telepathy that was not affected by distance. That was how he
tracked my down as well. Vampires could also learn to track with scent or
mind essence. He had obviously followed mine.
The first man tut-tutted at me and shook his head in mock sadness.
“Somebody’s been a bad little girl haven’t they?”
I wanted to ask him what the hell he meant but I kept my mouth shut.
“Don’t you know what you’ve done?” he asked with false surprise in his
voice.
I didn’t move once again. He went on.
“Well, we were on out travels and we bumped into a boy in a bar. He
said he knew you. He said a lot of things.” He breathed stale breath onto
my cheek so cold that almost sent a shiver rocking through my body. “He
was called Jackson.”
I sucked in an involuntary breath and instantly regretted it.
“Well, we got him nice and drunk – isn’t it useful how affected humans
get by alcohol? – and he told things about his ex-girlfriend Arcadia. He told
us a secret that we weren’t to tell anyone else.” His eyes were shining
with glee as he said this. He was really enjoying this. “He told us that his
little girlfriend was a monster, that she was a freak. And he told us that
she let him find out about her and then ran out of town. Now that wasn’t
smart was it now?”
I felt my eyes try to widen and held them still. I would not give him the
satisfaction of being afraid.
“And now, what we can’t get out heads around is why you ran away.”
He said it as a statement, inviting an answer but not demanding one.
“Not talkative is she-”
“What else could I do?” I whispered, felling warm wetness on my eyes
and blinking back. “I had to leave. I would be run out of town if he told
anyway.”
“But why not kill him? He’s only a human.”
I realised then what he was. He was not only a vampire but a vampire
supremacist – a vampire who thought that he was better than humans.
“Because he was not only a human. He was my boyfriend. I loved
him!”
He looked revolted and surprise, as if I had just slapped him in the face
with a wet fish. “You’re disgusting! How could you love one of them?”
“Because humans are just people like you and me. No wait, they’re
people like me, people with a heart. Not revolting monsters like you!” I
leaned my face forwards and said the last words against his skin. He
jerked backwards as if I was the revolting monster and stared at my face,
his eyes wide with confusion.
“Get up! Up!” he shouted suddenly, pulling at my shoulder with stubby
pink fingers. His fingers were pulling at my jacket and the strength behind
them pulled my upwards. Within a few moments I was stood upright
facing him, dazed and sore.
He ran towards me and punched me in the face, his bunched fist
cutting underneath my jaw and snapping my teeth together. One of his
henchmen came and did the same. They were all laughing when the
ringing in my ears ceased.
The man came back again and punched my in the gut while the
henchmen grabbed my legs and dragged me to the floor. They began to
kick and punch me in the stomach and legs; I curled up into a foetal ball
on instinct. They grabbed my shoulders and flipped me face down. I was
too sore to move so I stared at the sand beneath my face.
“Go get some firewood,” I heard the man order a henchman and I felt a
pair of kicking legs cease the assault on my body. There was still a two
pairs of punching hands and kicking feet though and I began to realise
that I would in fact die here.
My mind was shouting at me, asking why I didn’t fight back, why I
didn’t call for help. The truth was that I didn’t think I deserved life. I had
grown up thinking I was scum of the earth and a few months of love would
never change that. I didn’t deserve help, and this slow and tortuous death
was God’s way of saying that I deserved death.
The acrid scent of burning wood reached my nostrils and I breathed in
relief. At least they would throw me in the fire soon and I would die.
I assumed with the combination of fire and the lack of pain signified
the end of torture I was to be killed imminently.
But then I heard the best and worst sound in the world.
Jared’s voice.
“Arcadia? What’s going on?” he called. He sounded distant, far enough
away that if he ran to the car, drove away and never looked back he
might live. But Jared was too caring to do that, too selfless.
“Arcadia what’s-” His question was cut short.
“Lance, check if he’s human,” the man’s voice barked in command. I
heard the shuffling of feet and could almost see Lance grabbing at Jared’s
shoulders, tugging his face towards his and inhaling. I could almost feel
Jared shiver as the cold hands touched him and my heart swelled
painfully.
Look what you’ve done. You’ve sentenced an innocent person to death
because of the monster that you are, a growling, angry part of my brain
shouted. I knew that this was true and my heart swelled again.
“Human,” barked a rough voice. “What do we do with him boss?”
He seemed to deliberate for a moment. “Let’s hunt him after we’re
finished with the girl.”
The other men snickered and I felt Jared’s warm body be dumped next
to mine. I heard the wind blown out of him as they kicked him in the gut
and I whimpered. I could deal with my own pain, but not with other
peoples.
I chanced a look at Jared and he was facing me, his clear green eyes
like windows to his soul that only I could see through. He was showing me
how sorry he was for this, how he wished we had more time. I tried to
convey the same with my eyes before the moment was snatched away
from us.
Ice cold hands gripped my wrists and ankles and I felt the floor
disappear. Jared’s warm body no longer lay next to mine. I was being
carried towards a new kind of heat, a burning, painful heat.
“Arcadia?” I heard a woman’s voice call out behind me. “ARCADIA!”
she screeched, obviously after seeing me.
Run Mary-Angela. Find Dominic and run! I urged with my mind,
knowing full well that I wasn’t telepathic in the least.
I hear a mumbled command to quieten her down and the hands on my
ankles disappeared, only to be replaced a few seconds later by another
equally uncomfortable pair.
“Any last words sweetheart?” the voice breathed down my ear and I
held back a shiver.
I shook my head, fearing speech was impossible, and felt the heat
intensify on the left hand side of my body.
“Leave her alone!”
I opened my eyes, for I had closed them for death, and saw Jared
standing tall and proud, his eyes blazing like green fire.
The man at my wrists violently dropped me and went to Jared. He
punched him in the face and Jared’s head snapped backwards. His lip was
bleeding.
That small trickle of blood, slowly tracing its red path down his chin
gave me strength. I kicked and thrashed the man at my legs until he let
go and swiped his legs from underneath him. I then kicked him in the
head at the exact point to make him pass out. His body went limp on the
ground.
Mary-Angela was grappling with a long lean man with greasy brown
hair while her mouth formed silent screams.
Jared took most of my focus though. He was being held by the first
man, the boss, in a headlock. The boss glanced at me with malicious
shining eyes and leaned his head down, into Jared’s hair.
Jared screamed.
And I saw red.
I sprinted over to the ban and kicked him in the face, snapping his
head back and knocking him over in one. He looked up at me with
imploring eyes, asking me without words to spare him. I refused. I kicked
him in the same place as his friend, making him pass out on the sand.
Mary-Angela had dislodged herself from the brown haired man and
now stood beside me, hand in hand with Dominic. I was about to breathe
a sigh of relief when Mary-Angela screamed.
“Cady! Look at him!”
I followed her finger to where Jared lay sprawled on the floor, blood
pouring out of the two pencil size marks on his neck.
Chapter Eight
My world screeches to a halt in that second. All I can see is the red of
Jared’s blood, slowly dripping his life onto the sand, and his pale, distant
eyes. Those eyes, usually piercing green, were pale and lifeless. The usual
bright spark in his face was gone, leaving the way for a deathly pallor and
ghostly expression. His hair looked too dark in contrast and all of these
minute changes combined to make him look dead.
I wanted to scream. I wanted to run away. I wanted to break down and
cry over my lost love. But the heavy hand on my shoulder, anchoring me
to my place, kept me from moving. Dominic whispered in my ear “Arcadia,
we’d better move him soon. If we’re going to change him we’d better do it
fast.”
The words rolled around my mind, not taking on any meaning until
Dominic’s hand left my shoulder and he flew to Jared’s side, holding his
boneless neck up and putting his face next to the bite wounds.
Did I really want Jared to change? I knew that I had said no, but now
was a different circumstance. Now it was not vampire or human – now it
was vampire or death.
Can I force him to become like me? Can I make him live as a dark
creature when he is so full of light? Can I condemn him for eternity?
If you love someone you have to make these decisions, thinking of
them and not yourself. I had to decide whether Jared would be better off
dead. And I think I found an answer.
I knew that Jared would put on a brave face, pretend that he didn’t
care that he hated his life. I knew that although he was truly unhappy with
me, he would never leave me. He would live his life, day after day,
pretending to be something he isn’t – happy.
But I am too weak to make the right decision. Too weak to make the
decision that is best for both of us. I just have to decide and live with the
consequences.
He looks more like the aftermath of a bad gore film than a real person. His
arms are covered in blood and his neck has four gently bleeding holes on
show. His face is deathly pale and his eyelids, the colour of lavender
blossom is his pale face, are closed over the green eyes I know are fixed
and staring.
I am sat on the floor beside his bed, holding onto a blood soaked hand,
and staring at what I have done. I was crying before, but I cried myself
out. I have no more tears left with which to grieve.
A light hand falls onto my shoulder and I look up into the pale and
drawn face of Mary-Angela. She is saying something but I can’t hear the
words. I strain my ears in the hope that something struggles through, but
after a while she notices my lack of response and shakes me gently. She
repeats her words and this time I can hear.
“I said, I think we you start to clean him up before . . . you know.” She
shifted her feet uncomfortably and waited for response. I nodded stiffly
and she walked from the room, returning seconds later with a bowel of
water, paper tissues and two cleaning cloths. She dipped a cleaning cloth
in the water and went to dab at Jared’s arm when I grabbed her wrist.
“I want to do this. Alone,” I croaked my voice hoarse from disuse.
When she left I began to dab softly at Jared’s arms, his neck, his face,
wiping away the remnants of his terrible ordeal. By the time I had finished
the water in the bowl was bright red. I noticed with a pang that I was not
hungry, not even slightly, even though I had been around fresh blood for
so many hours. I laughed, and again, until I was in full hysterics. It was
funny how I search all my life for a way to stave off blood, and the answer
is to kill your boyfriend and then you never get hungry. I laughed until my
eyes found more tears to cry and sat sprawled on the floor as the
teardrops splashed onto his floor.
“We’d better get you cleaned up now,” Mary-Angela said when I had once
again cried myself out. “It won’t be long now, and you don’t want to look a
state when he wakes up.”
I let her drag me from the room, my hand going cold once it released
Jared’s, and she mopped my face, rubbed cream on my sores and cleaned
the blood off me before making me change clothes and letting me back
into the room. Dominic was leaned over Jared’s face, his expression
puzzled, and I looked at him questioningly.
“He should be awake by now,” he told me quietly, keeping his eyes
fixed on Jared’s still lifeless face.
That’s it, the nasty voice in my head said. And for once I didn’t try to
stop it. You clutch at a last hope that would make everyone unhappy and
you FAIL anyway. You’re pathetic; you knew that this would happen
anyway. Either he would die in the process or kill himself afterwards, once
he knew what he was. Why get so upset? It was inevitable – who would
want to be like you?
A sot splutter reached my ears and my head jerked up. I saw Dominic’s
surprised expression, Mary-Angela’s delight and finally I saw Jared.
Jared’s face was raised off the pillow, his neck supporting its self, and
his skin was a little less pale, his eyes bright and his face was bright with
his usual life.
I ran to his side, grasped a hand in mine and felt him squeeze gently
back. A tear slipped from my eye, but it was a tear of happiness. I leaned
down to his face and kissed his perfect mouth gently and felt it respond
beneath my own.
We were sprawled on the sofa in his house – his parents had gone out for
the night on his instruction – feeling the warm blood gush though our
veins and revelling in the feeling.
I couldn’t help but feel the scene was tainted by what I knew. I knew
that Jared could never be happy living like this, living in the darkness, and
would eventually leave me.
“What’s up love?” he asked lazily, his eyes full of vital curiosity and
concern. He tilted my chin towards him and held it between his thumb and
forefinger. I decided to confess everything, thinking that he might leave
me now and lessen the blow, as I would be expecting it.
“I was just thinking out the future. About how bad everything is going
to be.” His face tilted to the side in concern and I carry on. “Well, I know
that sooner or later you’re going to leave me for making you live like this
and be a monster. And I know that you won’t be happy like this. I’m just
too selfish to let you go.”
He reeled backwards as if I had slapped him. His eyes widened in
shock and he gasped as the words sank in.
“Is that what you really think?” I nodded slightly and his eyes got even
wider, which I didn’t even think was possible. “Arcadia, I’ll never leave
you. I’ll never leave because you have given me exactly what I wanted.
You’ve made us the same, so now we can be together properly, no slight
differences separating us!” His eyes were alight with joy and the feeling
almost caught on to me, but not quite.
“You’ll never forgive me for doing this to you – ”
“There’s nothing to forgive,” he whispers quietly as he pulls my face
towards his. I can feel the sincerity in his words as we kiss and I begin to
think that everything will be alright after all.
Jackson had left me broken and bruised, ready to die rather than face the
world, and Jared has picked up the pieces and put me back together.
And this is why I love him.